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Title: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: shazam on April 06, 2009, 01:00:00 PM
Hi All,
DAY 1 - I have had a day one before and even a day two (I think), but never have I had the support of a group like this one. With any luck (or just damn determination) and lots of help from this group, I can make it to day 100 and even day 1000!
Now, besides the fake chew and gum, anyone have any ideas on distraction from this mind numbing, hating life, pissy f@#$, god awful feeling?

Nice to meet everyone and hope to share in the 100 day celebration!
Keith
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: vfrpilot0 on April 06, 2009, 01:07:00 PM
It's only day 7 for me, but I can attest that after the first 3 days the craving really does die down. Not saying it's easy, but you'll feel the difference in the craving and it becomes easier to deal with. I ate like a pig for several days...and I'm still eating heavy, but even that's subsided a little bit. Keep your mind occupied...that's the best I can offer. I read through a bunch of the different groups on this site....it helped pass the time and you find out there's a lot of people just like you and that helps.
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: wildcat99 on April 06, 2009, 01:08:00 PM
Quote from: shazam
Hi All,
DAY 1 - I have had a day one before and even a day two (I think), but never have I had the support of a group like this one. With any luck (or just damn determination) and lots of help from this group, I can make it to day 100 and even day 1000!
Now, besides the fake chew and gum, anyone have any ideas on distraction from this mind numbing, hating life, pissy f@#$, god awful feeling?

Nice to meet everyone and hope to share in the 100 day celebration!
Keith
Hey bro, welcome!! in answer to your question... altoids and jolly ranchers help me. also the jaw breakers that are hot help me out too. you know, the ones that feel like your head is on fire when you pop em in ur grill? yea, those.

Also, try to score some new activities/hobbies. I've been going to the gym a lot. And, I have been playing racquetball w/my old man. Don't know if you have ever played r-ball before but it's a damn good cardio workout!! Anything to get your mind off the dip.

If all else fails you could always 'jerk' ... i've heard it takes the stress away. Stay close to this site dude!! You got this thing, you can do it!!

:ph43r:
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: redtrain14 on April 06, 2009, 01:19:00 PM
Welcome shazam!

Read absolutely everything you can on this site. All the links, stories, HOF speeches. Pick out an old quit group and read from page 1. It will give you some incite on what you will be going through and give you a chance to know some of the people on the boards.....pretty damn entertaining too.

Most of all, post roll each and everyday in your quit group, bitch, moan, cry, whine, and complain. Post up your success stories too :) ! The point is, get involved. Get to know your quit brothers, the more people you know the more accountable you will be.

Above all, shout out if you need something, there is more help here than you can imagine.
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: Ready on April 06, 2009, 01:27:00 PM
Quote from: redtrain14
Welcome shazam!

Read absolutely everything you can on this site. All the links, stories, HOF speeches. Pick out an old quit group and read from page 1. It will give you some incite on what you will be going through and give you a chance to know some of the people on the boards.....pretty damn entertaining too.

Most of all, post roll each and everyday in your quit group, bitch, moan, cry, whine, and complain. Post up your success stories too :) ! The point is, get involved. Get to know your quit brothers, the more people you know the more accountable you will be.

Above all, shout out if you need something, there is more help here than you can imagine.
Welcome Shazam. Can't add too much that old Red hasn't covered. Listen to him. He has given the advice that will help you win this war.
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: GlennFtheKodiak on April 06, 2009, 01:29:00 PM
Quote from: redtrain14
Welcome shazam! 

Read absolutely everything you can on this site.  All the links, stories, HOF speeches.  Pick out an old quit group and read from page 1.  It will give you some incite on what you will be going through and give you a chance to know some of the people on the boards.....pretty damn entertaining too.

Most of all, post roll each and everyday in your quit group, bitch, moan, cry, whine, and complain.  Post up your success stories too  :) !  The point is, get involved.  Get to know your quit brothers, the more people you know the more accountable you will be.

Above all, shout out if you need something, there is more help here than you can imagine.
Shazam (i love it)!

I can't say too much more, except just echo what has been said here.

Get to know us.

Lean on some of the vets.

Align with some of the newbs like me in your July group.

When you're feelin' jumpy, head into the chat room for some support or to listen to some crazy talk.

I wasn't sure it was clear. Are you using Nic gum?
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: harmwag1 on April 06, 2009, 01:42:00 PM
You can do this. We all can do this. Good luck and I will see you are roll call. This is day one for me too. I am learning my way around this site. It is really helping me. I now realize that my or your story is not new. Everyones story is the same.
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: O.D. on April 06, 2009, 02:01:00 PM
Quote from: shazam

Now, besides the fake chew and gum, anyone have any ideas on distraction from this mind numbing, hating life, pissy f@#$, god awful feeling?
The old standby is sunflower seeds. I prefer dill pickle flavor. I'm also finding good black licorice to be helpful.

Really though, nothing helped the first two or three days for me. By the end of the third day, I was getting some breaks in the haze, though. And yeah, the craves are still there, but getting exponentially easier to deal with. I'm into my second week of quit...
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: Diabase on April 06, 2009, 02:13:00 PM
Hey shazam, good to here you made the leap of faith, stick with it.

i have been avioding my triggers or being prepared when they come put in some fake when i know i got a softball game. little craves i come to the site and that seems to make my craves or pains go away becasue i know others are going through the same, and they are fighting through, and that means so can WE.

Stay Quit!

- Diabase
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: shazam on April 06, 2009, 05:33:00 PM
Thank you everyone - so far, so good for day one. Very Very Very irritable! at times I feel like I am floating through the day and everything is surreal, then BAM! a damn craving and Jolly Rangers (hopefully) to the rescue. This really sucks, why did I ever start! What an F'ing idiot I am!

ONCE AGAIN EVERYONE THANK YOU !! I will see you all at roll call tomorrow!
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: husky243 on April 06, 2009, 09:29:00 PM
Shazam, good to have you here. Great decision to quit! YOU CAN DO THIS! See you at roll call in the morning.
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: harmwag1 on April 18, 2009, 06:59:00 AM
Quote from: shazam
Thank you everyone - so far, so good for day one. Very Very Very irritable! at times I feel like I am floating through the day and everything is surreal, then BAM! a damn craving and Jolly Rangers (hopefully) to the rescue. This really sucks, why did I ever start! What an F'ing idiot I am!

ONCE AGAIN EVERYONE THANK YOU !! I will see you all at roll call tomorrow!
We started about the same time. We are doing this can you believe it! Good job. We can and will do this together Shazam!
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: Aug on March 19, 2010, 04:36:00 PM
Welcome back to the suck. How is it the second time around?
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: Aug on April 07, 2010, 04:29:00 PM
3rd time around??? Don't make me come back and ask how it is the 4th time around.
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: DeanTheCoot on April 07, 2010, 05:27:00 PM
Quote from: harmwag1
We started about the same time. We are doing this can you believe it! Good job. We can and will do this together Shazam!
To any new quitter reading this thread:

Harmwag and Shazam - both July 2009 members originally - are models for how NOT to succeed in a quit. Read through anything they have written (including much of the banter in the April 7, 2010, July 2010 thread) and look for trends in their language and attitude. Then, AVOID THAT.
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: GlennFtheKodiak on April 07, 2010, 05:29:00 PM
Quote from: DeanTheCoot
Quote from: harmwag1
We started about the same time.  We are doing this can you believe it!  Good job.  We can and will do this together Shazam!
To any new quitter reading this thread:

Harmwag and Shazam - both July 2009 members originally - are models for how NOT to succeed in a quit. Read through anything they have written (including much of the banter in the April 7, 2010, July 2010 thread) and look for trends in their language and attitude. Then, AVOID THAT.
examples?
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: DeanTheCoot on April 08, 2010, 09:08:00 AM
Quote from: GlennFtheKodiak
Quote from: DeanTheCoot
Quote from: harmwag1
We started about the same time.  We are doing this can you believe it!  Good job.  We can and will do this together Shazam!
To any new quitter reading this thread:

Harmwag and Shazam - both July 2009 members originally - are models for how NOT to succeed in a quit. Read through anything they have written (including much of the banter in the April 7, 2010, July 2010 thread) and look for trends in their language and attitude. Then, AVOID THAT.
examples?
Here's an example...he wrote this yesterday.

"Yes, I know that dip would never make things better. I got caught up in the "only one won't hurt" philosophy - what a load of shit that is. I will air out my cravings here and with other friends. I have learned a lesson, hopefully The Lesson."

Can you find the word that serves as a hedge/excuse?

(I know you can, Glenn...I'm just pretending I'm a kindergarten teacher. It's fun.)
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: Lochi21 on April 08, 2010, 09:17:00 AM
Quote from: DeanTheCoot
Quote from: GlennFtheKodiak
Quote from: DeanTheCoot
Quote from: harmwag1
We started about the same time.  We are doing this can you believe it!  Good job.  We can and will do this together Shazam!
To any new quitter reading this thread:

Harmwag and Shazam - both July 2009 members originally - are models for how NOT to succeed in a quit. Read through anything they have written (including much of the banter in the April 7, 2010, July 2010 thread) and look for trends in their language and attitude. Then, AVOID THAT.
examples?
Here's an example...he wrote this yesterday.

"Yes, I know that dip would never make things better. I got caught up in the "only one won't hurt" philosophy - what a load of shit that is. I will air out my cravings here and with other friends. I have learned a lesson, hopefully The Lesson."

Can you find the word that serves as a hedge/excuse?

(I know you can, Glenn...I'm just pretending I'm a kindergarten teacher. It's fun.)
HOPEFULLY
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: MikeA on April 08, 2010, 09:22:00 AM
Quote from: Lochi21
Quote from: DeanTheCoot
Quote from: GlennFtheKodiak
Quote from: DeanTheCoot
Quote from: harmwag1
We started about the same time.  We are doing this can you believe it!  Good job.  We can and will do this together Shazam!
To any new quitter reading this thread:

Harmwag and Shazam - both July 2009 members originally - are models for how NOT to succeed in a quit. Read through anything they have written (including much of the banter in the April 7, 2010, July 2010 thread) and look for trends in their language and attitude. Then, AVOID THAT.
examples?
Here's an example...he wrote this yesterday.

"Yes, I know that dip would never make things better. I got caught up in the "only one won't hurt" philosophy - what a load of shit that is. I will air out my cravings here and with other friends. I have learned a lesson, hopefully The Lesson."

Can you find the word that serves as a hedge/excuse?

(I know you can, Glenn...I'm just pretending I'm a kindergarten teacher. It's fun.)
HOPEFULLY
and "with other friends"...gives him a reason to leave this site
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: shazam on April 11, 2010, 01:20:00 AM
Here I am on day 5, Again. Exactly one year ago I was on day 5. I feel like shit. I felt like shit 1 yr ago. Why? Why did I cave? I let my guard down and fell off the cliff back into NIC Bitch's grip, that's why.

Day 5. One thing I have learned from this experience, its never too late to quit. You just need to stay quit! Always keep your guard up, even on day 156. Wow, I had made it to 156, now I am back to day 5. Here's to making it my last day 5.

Shazam
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: Greg5280 on April 11, 2010, 09:02:00 AM
There is no magic number that makes it all go away and makes it better. We will forever be addicts and need to watch out for the NIC bitch. As your days stack up you add tools to your toolbox and it does get easier, but it will never go away.

Wake up each morning, decide you will not put that shit in your face. Post your promise and quit for today. Thats it. Simple. Wake up the next day and do the same thing.

Keep fighting.. the NIC is gone from your body. Now it is just a mind game.
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: shazam on April 11, 2010, 07:44:00 PM
Thank you - I will choose to be NIC Free today.

I appreciate this site more and more each minute I am on it. The ability to finally hear others that are going through the same thing has made all the difference. I guess last time I just didn't listen to them enough to get it, this time I definitely am listenning.
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: shazam on April 11, 2010, 10:10:00 PM
Quote from: MikeA
Quote from: Lochi21
Quote from: DeanTheCoot
Quote from: GlennFtheKodiak
Quote from: DeanTheCoot
Quote from: harmwag1
We started about the same time.  We are doing this can you believe it!  Good job.  We can and will do this together Shazam!
To any new quitter reading this thread:

Harmwag and Shazam - both July 2009 members originally - are models for how NOT to succeed in a quit. Read through anything they have written (including much of the banter in the April 7, 2010, July 2010 thread) and look for trends in their language and attitude. Then, AVOID THAT.
examples?
Here's an example...he wrote this yesterday.

"Yes, I know that dip would never make things better. I got caught up in the "only one won't hurt" philosophy - what a load of shit that is. I will air out my cravings here and with other friends. I have learned a lesson, hopefully The Lesson."

Can you find the word that serves as a hedge/excuse?

(I know you can, Glenn...I'm just pretending I'm a kindergarten teacher. It's fun.)
HOPEFULLY
and "with other friends"...gives him a reason to leave this site
Yes, Thank you for the Kindergarten lesson. I appreciate the vote of confidence. I'm not a fortune teller or a psychic, so I don't know what will happen tomorrow and can only say "I hopefully" learned my lesson. I'm not here looking for someone to hold me and coddle me. I fucking hate quitting but want to be quit so I come to this site for support. If that support is a beating then so be it, I have a sack and can take it. Its still support so I do thank you for it. I used dip, 2+ tins/day, for 15 yrs and last year was able to quit for 150+ days and felt great. I FUCKED UP AND CAVED. I tell my story for others to learn from and "I hope" no one else falls to a cave and has to start over - IT SUCKS. (So do the beatings - please keep em coming)
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: shazam on April 11, 2010, 10:39:00 PM
Quote from: Aug
3rd time around??? Don't make me come back and ask how it is the 4th time around.
Don't plan on making it a 4th.
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: Skoal Monster on April 12, 2010, 12:39:00 AM
Quote
I'm not a fortune teller or a psychic, so I don't know what will happen tomorrow .....


I know with no fucking doubt that whatever happens tomorrow I will not use tobacco. Nothing to do with being psychic or being a fortune teller. It's a choice.

Unless of course you slip on a tube of KY do a triple lindy off the top of the stairs and accidentally land face first in a tub of Copenhagen. Then while gasping for air you inadvertently manage to stuff a ear to ear wedge in your cake hole. I mean that kind of shit would most definitely need a psychic.

How bout this.... I predict you will remember that you're a nicotine addict and that there is no just one dip, cigar, cigarette, gum , snus, patch, or horse cock sized nicotine suppository , AND you will continue to pledge and honor your daily commitment to keep clean. Now, gimme a dollar or do you want your palm red too?



sm
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: shazam on April 12, 2010, 01:02:00 AM
Quote from: Skoal
Quote
I'm not a fortune teller or a psychic, so I don't know what will happen tomorrow .....
I know with no fucking doubt that whatever happens tomorrow I will not use tobacco. Nothing to do with being psychic or being a fortune teller. It's a choice.

Unless of course you slip on a tube of KY do a triple lindy off the top of the stairs and accidentally land face first in a tub of Copenhagen. Then while gasping for air you inadvertently manage to stuff a ear to ear wedge in your cake hole. I mean that kind of shit would most definitely need a psychic.

How bout this.... I predict you will remember that you're a nicotine addict and that there is no just one dip, cigar, cigarette, gum , snus, patch, or horse cock sized nicotine suppository , AND you will continue to pledge and honor your daily commitment to keep clean. Now, gimme a dollar or do you want your palm red too?



sm
Thank you - I am an addict and I do pledge to not use today or tomorrow. I only have pennies and may be shy by 1 or 2, is that okay?
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: Smokeyg on April 12, 2010, 01:09:00 AM
Quote from: shazam
Quote from: MikeA
Quote from: Lochi21
Quote from: DeanTheCoot
Quote from: GlennFtheKodiak
Quote from: DeanTheCoot
Quote from: harmwag1
We started about the same time.  We are doing this can you believe it!  Good job.  We can and will do this together Shazam!
To any new quitter reading this thread:

Harmwag and Shazam - both July 2009 members originally - are models for how NOT to succeed in a quit. Read through anything they have written (including much of the banter in the April 7, 2010, July 2010 thread) and look for trends in their language and attitude. Then, AVOID THAT.
examples?
Here's an example...he wrote this yesterday.

"Yes, I know that dip would never make things better. I got caught up in the "only one won't hurt" philosophy - what a load of shit that is. I will air out my cravings here and with other friends. I have learned a lesson, hopefully The Lesson."

Can you find the word that serves as a hedge/excuse?

(I know you can, Glenn...I'm just pretending I'm a kindergarten teacher. It's fun.)
HOPEFULLY
and "with other friends"...gives him a reason to leave this site
Yes, Thank you for the Kindergarten lesson. I appreciate the vote of confidence. I'm not a fortune teller or a psychic, so I don't know what will happen tomorrow and can only say "I hopefully" learned my lesson. I'm not here looking for someone to hold me and coddle me. I fucking hate quitting but want to be quit so I come to this site for support. If that support is a beating then so be it, I have a sack and can take it. Its still support so I do thank you for it. I used dip, 2+ tins/day, for 15 yrs and last year was able to quit for 150+ days and felt great. I FUCKED UP AND CAVED. I tell my story for others to learn from and "I hope" no one else falls to a cave and has to start over - IT SUCKS. (So do the beatings - please keep em coming)
I too "hope" that no one else falls to a cave and has to start over. "I hope" you stay quit. Unfortunately, I can't control the actions of others. "I know" I will stay quit tomorrow. Regardless of what life throws my way, "I know" I will make the right choices because caving is not an option. I have the tools to fight back any urges. "I hope" you will continue working to acquire those tools. Many a quitter has reached my level of quit awesomeness, but none has surpassed it. Today, I am the epitome of quit. I know I am an addict and I know I am stronger than my addiction. My large testicles define my fate. I am addicted to kicking ass and spreading seed.

Bitches.
Title: Re: Hello All; True Newbie
Post by: shazam on April 12, 2010, 02:00:00 AM
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: shazam
Quote from: MikeA
Quote from: Lochi21
Quote from: DeanTheCoot
Quote from: GlennFtheKodiak
Quote from: DeanTheCoot
Quote from: harmwag1
We started about the same time.  We are doing this can you believe it!  Good job.  We can and will do this together Shazam!
To any new quitter reading this thread:

Harmwag and Shazam - both July 2009 members originally - are models for how NOT to succeed in a quit. Read through anything they have written (including much of the banter in the April 7, 2010, July 2010 thread) and look for trends in their language and attitude. Then, AVOID THAT.
examples?
Here's an example...he wrote this yesterday.

"Yes, I know that dip would never make things better. I got caught up in the "only one won't hurt" philosophy - what a load of shit that is. I will air out my cravings here and with other friends. I have learned a lesson, hopefully The Lesson."

Can you find the word that serves as a hedge/excuse?

(I know you can, Glenn...I'm just pretending I'm a kindergarten teacher. It's fun.)
HOPEFULLY
and "with other friends"...gives him a reason to leave this site
Yes, Thank you for the Kindergarten lesson. I appreciate the vote of confidence. I'm not a fortune teller or a psychic, so I don't know what will happen tomorrow and can only say "I hopefully" learned my lesson. I'm not here looking for someone to hold me and coddle me. I fucking hate quitting but want to be quit so I come to this site for support. If that support is a beating then so be it, I have a sack and can take it. Its still support so I do thank you for it. I used dip, 2+ tins/day, for 15 yrs and last year was able to quit for 150+ days and felt great. I FUCKED UP AND CAVED. I tell my story for others to learn from and "I hope" no one else falls to a cave and has to start over - IT SUCKS. (So do the beatings - please keep em coming)
I too "hope" that no one else falls to a cave and has to start over. "I hope" you stay quit. Unfortunately, I can't control the actions of others. "I know" I will stay quit tomorrow. Regardless of what life throws my way, "I know" I will make the right choices because caving is not an option. I have the tools to fight back any urges. "I hope" you will continue working to acquire those tools. Many a quitter has reached my level of quit awesomeness, but none has surpassed it. Today, I am the epitome of quit. I know I am an addict and I know I am stronger than my addiction. My large testicles define my fate. I am addicted to kicking ass and spreading seed.

Bitches.
Thank you for the support. I do need to sharpen my tools to help me stay quit. Everyday I work at it. Today I stay quit.