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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Diesel2112 on June 04, 2012, 10:10:00 PM
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Just found this site, looks great. Not only been dipping for 15 yrs but have hidden it from wife and family, which was like a 2nd job!! Recently had a panic attack that landed me in the hospital for 4 days when I had a sore in my mouth that I thought was cancer. They tested my heart and body and luckily I was fine. Told family about everything and promised to quit. So here I sit...
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It sounds to me you are ready. Be strong and remember why you are quitting. Quit for yourself. Ive been a dipper for over 30 years. I quit once for three years. Ive quit again over 80 days. Point being is never let your guard down after getting over the hump. Just do it and dont look back.
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It sounds to me you are ready. Be strong and remember why you are quitting. Quit for yourself. Ive been a dipper for over 30 years. I quit once for three years. Ive quit again over 80 days. Point being is never let your guard down after getting over the hump. Just do it and dont look back.
Thanks man!!!
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I'm behind doug: May the line start here. I also dipped for over 38 yrs. hid it from my family also. Not just a 2nd job HELL IT WAS A 2ND LIFE!!!! I quit also for about 3 yrs when I first got married 32 yrs ago but went back to the ex as soon as I got settled into married life and our daughter came along. We've all had the sores, the fear of the big C, fear of being caught, fear of acknowledgeing were addicts and all the other shit. 65 days ago I sat where you are now. I went and sat by the toilet and said good bye to my ex again (FLUSHED 3 FULL CANS OF COPE DOWN THE SHITTER WHERE IT BELONGED) This time for good. I remind her and myself every morning that we are through. If I can do it so can you. WHO'S NEXT?? I see a damn long line forming.
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Spit that shit out.
Flush your stash.
Strike that match and flick it at that gas can.
Burn that bridge.
Quit.
Then. Check out the WELCOME CENTER up and to the left.
Read up on how and why we Post Roll.
Make your promise to not use nicotine today by posting roll.
Maintain that promise by keeping your word.
Free yourself.
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We don't kiss the nicBitch good bye!
We give her the boot and the finger!
You can do this and, yes, your life is worth the fight!!
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Only on day 3 of quitting and am up with a killer headache. Wondered if nicorette gum was acceptable to use and if it works? Having a hell of a time right now.
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no, your addicted to nicotine. So giving yourself nicotine is like telling a alchoholic to drink light beer.
The headache is normal, it caused by your brain getting more oxygen than it is used to. Nicotine is a vaso constrictor. It reduced the flow of oxygen to your noggin. among other things.
Take some asprin, get your blood sugar up, sip on juice like pineapple or cranberry. Take a walk around the earth but DONT USE NICOTINE TO QUIT NICOTINE, you just prolong the process and make it less likely that you'll quit.
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Only on day 3 of quitting and am up with a killer headache. Wondered if nicorette gum was acceptable to use and if it works? Having a hell of a time right now.
No to any type of nicotine. Does nicorettes work ? Dunno, because the site doesn't allow it. Cold turkey baby.
Hang in there. The first 3-4 days are the worse because you in in withdrawl.
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http://www.killthecan.org/robs/effects.asp (http://www.killthecan.org/robs/effects.asp)
Read this
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Thanks guys. Just gonna have to grind this shit out. I can do it!!!
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Thanks guys. Just gonna have to grind this shit out. I can do it!!!
Yes you can do this. Remember these first days of suck. Know that you never have to repeat them. Better days are right around the corner
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Before you know it the days will be flying by.
Life without nicotine is a whole new HIGH as your mind begins to clear you will experience this also! Stay strong!
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We don't kiss the nicBitch good bye!
We give her the boot and the finger!
You can do this and, yes, your life is worth the fight!!
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We don't kiss the nicBitch good bye!Â
We give her the boot and the finger!
You can do this and, yes, your life is worth the fight!!
x2
X 3
We slay the damn bear on a daily basis over here Amigo.
Get to livin' or keep on dyin', your choice
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After I got out of the hospital for having a panic attack when I thought the sore in my mouth was cancer (luckily it wasn't) I promised to be dip free. I also decided to drop soda. I was drinking a lot of coke zero and regular coke when I thought I needed a jolt. The other night I was blind sided by a major nic crave. I did push ups, drank water, fruit juice, etc...but nothing seemed to work. Then for some reason I chugged some coke right out of my wife's 2 lifer. It seemed to help almost immediately. Can a little caffeine help with a crave?
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It's mental, I gave up soda, never felt better. But spicy food, makes me crave like a mother fucker. It just triggers something mentally
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I didn't slow down on caffeine at all when I first quit so I can't really say if it helped or not. I'm not much of a soda drinker, just 5-10 cups of coffee every day. You can pry that stuff from my cold dead hands.
I think someone told me to lay off the caffeiene when I first quit, well, I didn't listen to that advice B)
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I didn't slow down on caffeine at all when I first quit so I can't really say if it helped or not. I'm not much of a soda drinker, just 5-10 cups of coffee every day. You can pry that stuff from my cold dead hands.
I think someone told me to lay off the caffeiene when I first quit, well, I didn't listen to that advice B)
Seems like I read that nicotine slowed the uptake of caffeine so when we used nic the caffeine was less effective. So now the caffeine is possibly more stimulating. I still use the same amount.
I have never missed it when
I went without it for any amount of time.
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I didn't slow down on caffeine at all when I first quit so I can't really say if it helped or not. I'm not much of a soda drinker, just 5-10 cups of coffee every day. You can pry that stuff from my cold dead hands.
I think someone told me to lay off the caffeiene when I first quit, well, I didn't listen to that advice B)
Seems like I read that nicotine slowed the uptake of caffeine so when we used nic the caffeine was less effective. So now the caffeine is possibly more stimulating. I still use the same amount.
Interesting. I wonder if that is true. I didn't start drinking coffee until 3 years ago. I do know that now, after having a coffee, I can get very hyped up with the caffeine. More so than I ever remember.
Maybe there is something to that theory.
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I didn't slow down on caffeine at all when I first quit so I can't really say if it helped or not. I'm not much of a soda drinker, just 5-10 cups of coffee every day. You can pry that stuff from my cold dead hands.
I think someone told me to lay off the caffeiene when I first quit, well, I didn't listen to that advice B)
Seems like I read that nicotine slowed the uptake of caffeine so when we used nic the caffeine was less effective. So now the caffeine is possibly more stimulating. I still use the same amount.
Interesting. I wonder if that is true. I didn't start drinking coffee until 3 years ago. I do know that now, after having a coffee, I can get very hyped up with the caffeine. More so than I ever remember.
Maybe there is something to that theory.
I gave up caffeine initially because I had insomnia due to quitting. The last thing I wanted was another stimulant to make it even worse.
The reason that we suggest giving up caffeine initially is that the first 3-7 days (when the drug is leaving your body) is hell. You're all screwed up. Caffeine can and will fuck with a lot of quitters.
If you are want to stop using caffeine, then by all means quit the stuff. This shit is all about you man, just like your nicotine quit. If you want to stop, then don't blame anything or anyone but yourself in your quest.
Just fucking do it.
We're not here to condone your actions. We're here to help. We're a tool in your arsenal of quit.
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I didn't slow down on caffeine at all when I first quit so I can't really say if it helped or not. I'm not much of a soda drinker, just 5-10 cups of coffee every day. You can pry that stuff from my cold dead hands.
I think someone told me to lay off the caffeiene when I first quit, well, I didn't listen to that advice B)
Seems like I read that nicotine slowed the uptake of caffeine so when we used nic the caffeine was less effective. So now the caffeine is possibly more stimulating. I still use the same amount.
Interesting. I wonder if that is true. I didn't start drinking coffee until 3 years ago. I do know that now, after having a coffee, I can get very hyped up with the caffeine. More so than I ever remember.
Maybe there is something to that theory.
I gave up caffeine initially because I had insomnia due to quitting. The last thing I wanted was another stimulant to make it even worse.
The reason that we suggest giving up caffeine initially is that the first 3-7 days (when the drug is leaving your body) is hell. You're all screwed up. Caffeine can and will fuck with a lot of quitters.
If you are want to stop using caffeine, then by all means quit the stuff. This shit is all about you man, just like your nicotine quit. If you want to stop, then don't blame anything or anyone but yourself in your quest.
Just fucking do it.
We're not here to condone your actions. We're here to help. We're a tool in your arsenal of quit.
Check this out about caffiene and nic: CafNic (http://www.killthecan.org/robs/cafnic.asp)
I chew coffee grounds to help with my cravings, and switched to decaf. I didn't recognize the caffiene effects until I got in bed and my legs would twitch. It was a little weird.
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
Yes. Go to the doctor and have it checked out.
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
There is no real 'normal,' but what you are talking about is not uncommon.
Yes, it's just something you have to grind through. It may last a few days, it may last a few weeks. But this is just a side effect of poison leaving your body. It means you're healing.
If you're concerned about it, by all means, go see the doc. I was an absolute wreck when I quit, and going to the doctor was very good for my mental well being. Remember this feeling, and hold on to your anger. It will serve you well, and may make the difference at some point in your quit.
You're winning.
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
Yes. Go to the doctor and have it checked out.
I'd go get that one checked out. I had what felt like the flu that I fully believe to be nic related but never had dull pain. I'm not an expert but that sounds like one of the symptoms to heart related stuff.
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
Yes. Go to the doctor and have it checked out.
I'd go get that one checked out. I had what felt like the flu that I fully believe to be nic related but never had dull pain. I'm not an expert but that sounds like one of the symptoms to heart related stuff.
Thanks guys. The bitch of all this is I was in the hospital for panic attacks which mask the symptoms of a heart troubles. They tested my heart every possible way and it was fine. Problem was when I got out of the hospital I kept thinking I was going to have more panic attacks and went back in. Again they tested my heart every which way til Sunday and it was fine. I think I'm still a bit nervous from the panic attack thing, plus quitting...it's just fucking my shit up. What a pain in the dick this all is. As if quitting wasn't enough I gotta deal with this panic attack bullshit. FML.
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
Yes. Go to the doctor and have it checked out.
I'd go get that one checked out. I had what felt like the flu that I fully believe to be nic related but never had dull pain. I'm not an expert but that sounds like one of the symptoms to heart related stuff.
Thanks guys. The bitch of all this is I was in the hospital for panic attacks which mask the symptoms of a heart troubles. They tested my heart every possible way and it was fine. Problem was when I got out of the hospital I kept thinking I was going to have more panic attacks and went back in. Again they tested my heart every which way til Sunday and it was fine. I think I'm still a bit nervous from the panic attack thing, plus quitting...it's just fucking my shit up. What a pain in the dick this all is. As if quitting wasn't enough I gotta deal with this panic attack bullshit. FML.
My cousin had panic attacks a while back. I can't fully understand them because I've never been there, but I do firmly believe that nicotine will NOT help them in any way. Don't give in, you got this man.
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
Yes. Go to the doctor and have it checked out.
I'd go get that one checked out. I had what felt like the flu that I fully believe to be nic related but never had dull pain. I'm not an expert but that sounds like one of the symptoms to heart related stuff.
Thanks guys. The bitch of all this is I was in the hospital for panic attacks which mask the symptoms of a heart troubles. They tested my heart every possible way and it was fine. Problem was when I got out of the hospital I kept thinking I was going to have more panic attacks and went back in. Again they tested my heart every which way til Sunday and it was fine. I think I'm still a bit nervous from the panic attack thing, plus quitting...it's just fucking my shit up. What a pain in the dick this all is. As if quitting wasn't enough I gotta deal with this panic attack bullshit. FML.
My cousin had panic attacks a while back. I can't fully understand them because I've never been there, but I do firmly believe that nicotine will NOT help them in any way. Don't give in, you got this man.
Fuck no Im not giving in. Chew is the reason I fucking started with the attacks to begin with. Thought I had cancer when I had a sore on my lip. Luckily it was nothing, but I do believe it was a sign to quit. But still that episode freaked me the fuck out!!!! I think I just have to man up. I feel fine now. I took a big dump, washed my face with cold water, drank a half a coke, got a fruit smoothie a whole grain muffi and an apple and am feeling good now. I have to dwell in how GOOD I feel now, instead of whallowing in how BAD I feel. I gotta get my mental game sharpe to fight both these fucking demons off. Aint easy but I can do it. Sorry for venting...
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
Yes. Go to the doctor and have it checked out.
I'd go get that one checked out. I had what felt like the flu that I fully believe to be nic related but never had dull pain. I'm not an expert but that sounds like one of the symptoms to heart related stuff.
Thanks guys. The bitch of all this is I was in the hospital for panic attacks which mask the symptoms of a heart troubles. They tested my heart every possible way and it was fine. Problem was when I got out of the hospital I kept thinking I was going to have more panic attacks and went back in. Again they tested my heart every which way til Sunday and it was fine. I think I'm still a bit nervous from the panic attack thing, plus quitting...it's just fucking my shit up. What a pain in the dick this all is. As if quitting wasn't enough I gotta deal with this panic attack bullshit. FML.
My cousin had panic attacks a while back. I can't fully understand them because I've never been there, but I do firmly believe that nicotine will NOT help them in any way. Don't give in, you got this man.
Fuck no Im not giving in. Chew is the reason I fucking started with the attacks to begin with. Thought I had cancer when I had a sore on my lip. Luckily it was nothing, but I do believe it was a sign to quit. But still that episode freaked me the fuck out!!!! I think I just have to man up. I feel fine now. I took a big dump, washed my face with cold water, drank a half a coke, got a fruit smoothie a whole grain muffi and an apple and am feeling good now. I have to dwell in how GOOD I feel now, instead of whallowing in how BAD I feel. I gotta get my mental game sharpe to fight both these fucking demons off. Aint easy but I can do it. Sorry for venting...
Sorry for venting?!?!? HELL NO!!!
This is the place to vent. This is where you come to let it all go and get it off your shoulders. This thread is yours to look back on in the future to see how far you have come and to remember how bad it was. It will remind you why you quit, why you won't dip again, and how damned shitty your life was with nicotine.
Use this site, it's chat, and the members that will become your friends. We are still here because we remember what it was like. We know what you're going through. You can vent, bitch, and call us dirty names and we won't hate you for it.
Life will seem like it can't get any worse sometimes, but it does. You just have to take a step back and look at the big picture. Like you said, focus on the good that surrounds this stage in life, not the bad that might be in the moment.
You sir, are a fine quitter. You keep it up, and keep your ass in here bitching whenever you need to.
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Good for you for seeing the doctor. I am glad you know what it is.
Every potential medical problem you have isn't covered by the cliche " that's the poison leaving your body"
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
Yes. Go to the doctor and have it checked out.
I'd go get that one checked out. I had what felt like the flu that I fully believe to be nic related but never had dull pain. I'm not an expert but that sounds like one of the symptoms to heart related stuff.
Thanks guys. The bitch of all this is I was in the hospital for panic attacks which mask the symptoms of a heart troubles. They tested my heart every possible way and it was fine. Problem was when I got out of the hospital I kept thinking I was going to have more panic attacks and went back in. Again they tested my heart every which way til Sunday and it was fine. I think I'm still a bit nervous from the panic attack thing, plus quitting...it's just fucking my shit up. What a pain in the dick this all is. As if quitting wasn't enough I gotta deal with this panic attack bullshit. FML.
I have had panic attacks before.. well let me rephrase. I had a panic attack about 4 years ago. I was driving home from work late at night in the rain on a road in the middle of nowhere. Of course I had a chew in and all these stupid thoughts were running into my head about what would happen if i were to crash. I felt like I needed to take a deep breath and I couldn't quite get it. sooooo I pulled over and flipped the fuck out in my car. PUnching the windows and it felt like someone had a pillow over my face while sitting on my chest. I couldn't even leave my house for 3 days. Only reason I did was to go to doc. He said I was fine. I finally made it back to work and on the way home I was shaking and sweating and feeling like I was about to flip again. I stopped at e.r . got tested all good. they gave me ativan ( which I still have a script for) . It helps but I still always have that thought in the back of my head. What if it happens again... what if I can't get to a hospital... WHAT IF. Most days I am good and others I am not. I have been quit for 15 days and have noticed that I am having a lot more better days.
Not sure if this story helps any but it is my true story. I hope to continue to get better and you sir are in my thoughts and prayers as we both continue to fight the nic bitch and anxiety. Take it a day at a time brother! See you in the HOF
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
Yes. Go to the doctor and have it checked out.
I'd go get that one checked out. I had what felt like the flu that I fully believe to be nic related but never had dull pain. I'm not an expert but that sounds like one of the symptoms to heart related stuff.
Thanks guys. The bitch of all this is I was in the hospital for panic attacks which mask the symptoms of a heart troubles. They tested my heart every possible way and it was fine. Problem was when I got out of the hospital I kept thinking I was going to have more panic attacks and went back in. Again they tested my heart every which way til Sunday and it was fine. I think I'm still a bit nervous from the panic attack thing, plus quitting...it's just fucking my shit up. What a pain in the dick this all is. As if quitting wasn't enough I gotta deal with this panic attack bullshit. FML.
I have had panic attacks before.. well let me rephrase. I had a panic attack about 4 years ago. I was driving home from work late at night in the rain on a road in the middle of nowhere. Of course I had a chew in and all these stupid thoughts were running into my head about what would happen if i were to crash. I felt like I needed to take a deep breath and I couldn't quite get it. sooooo I pulled over and flipped the fuck out in my car. PUnching the windows and it felt like someone had a pillow over my face while sitting on my chest. I couldn't even leave my house for 3 days. Only reason I did was to go to doc. He said I was fine. I finally made it back to work and on the way home I was shaking and sweating and feeling like I was about to flip again. I stopped at e.r . got tested all good. they gave me ativan ( which I still have a script for) . It helps but I still always have that thought in the back of my head. What if it happens again... what if I can't get to a hospital... WHAT IF. Most days I am good and others I am not. I have been quit for 15 days and have noticed that I am having a lot more better days.
Not sure if this story helps any but it is my true story. I hope to continue to get better and you sir are in my thoughts and prayers as we both continue to fight the nic bitch and anxiety. Take it a day at a time brother! See you in the HOF
I had panic attacks quite often early in my quit. I had convinced myself I had every major disease there is and I would surely die at any moment. I like you had a tough time catching my breath, and all the other symptoms of anxiety. I went to the doctor so many times in my first 45 days or so that she finally told me to stop coming in. I had heart tests, lung tests, physicals, cancer screenings, you name it and I got tested for it.
I am now well into my quit and things are better. I still get the onset of a panic attack every now and then but I have learned to diffuse them. Some things I did to help early on: Work up a good sweat,walk, workout, whatever kills craves and anxiety. Meditate, it relaxes you and helps clear your mind. Instead of all the negative mind chatter replace it with positive thoughts.
Panic attacks can only happen when you create fear and doubt in your mind. Instead of wondering if or when the next attack may happen replace that thought with. I am done with panic attacks, my body is fine and I no longer fear them and I am free to enjoy life.
Keep fighting! It is worth it!!
STAY QUIT
Greg
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
Yes. Go to the doctor and have it checked out.
I'd go get that one checked out. I had what felt like the flu that I fully believe to be nic related but never had dull pain. I'm not an expert but that sounds like one of the symptoms to heart related stuff.
Thanks guys. The bitch of all this is I was in the hospital for panic attacks which mask the symptoms of a heart troubles. They tested my heart every possible way and it was fine. Problem was when I got out of the hospital I kept thinking I was going to have more panic attacks and went back in. Again they tested my heart every which way til Sunday and it was fine. I think I'm still a bit nervous from the panic attack thing, plus quitting...it's just fucking my shit up. What a pain in the dick this all is. As if quitting wasn't enough I gotta deal with this panic attack bullshit. FML.
I have had panic attacks before.. well let me rephrase. I had a panic attack about 4 years ago. I was driving home from work late at night in the rain on a road in the middle of nowhere. Of course I had a chew in and all these stupid thoughts were running into my head about what would happen if i were to crash. I felt like I needed to take a deep breath and I couldn't quite get it. sooooo I pulled over and flipped the fuck out in my car. PUnching the windows and it felt like someone had a pillow over my face while sitting on my chest. I couldn't even leave my house for 3 days. Only reason I did was to go to doc. He said I was fine. I finally made it back to work and on the way home I was shaking and sweating and feeling like I was about to flip again. I stopped at e.r . got tested all good. they gave me ativan ( which I still have a script for) . It helps but I still always have that thought in the back of my head. What if it happens again... what if I can't get to a hospital... WHAT IF. Most days I am good and others I am not. I have been quit for 15 days and have noticed that I am having a lot more better days.
Not sure if this story helps any but it is my true story. I hope to continue to get better and you sir are in my thoughts and prayers as we both continue to fight the nic bitch and anxiety. Take it a day at a time brother! See you in the HOF
I had panic attacks quite often early in my quit. I had convinced myself I had every major disease there is and I would surely die at any moment. I like you had a tough time catching my breath, and all the other symptoms of anxiety. I went to the doctor so many times in my first 45 days or so that she finally told me to stop coming in. I had heart tests, lung tests, physicals, cancer screenings, you name it and I got tested for it.
I am now well into my quit and things are better. I still get the onset of a panic attack every now and then but I have learned to diffuse them. Some things I did to help early on: Work up a good sweat,walk, workout, whatever kills craves and anxiety. Meditate, it relaxes you and helps clear your mind. Instead of all the negative mind chatter replace it with positive thoughts.
Panic attacks can only happen when you create fear and doubt in your mind. Instead of wondering if or when the next attack may happen replace that thought with. I am done with panic attacks, my body is fine and I no longer fear them and I am free to enjoy life.
Keep fighting! It is worth it!!
STAY QUIT
Greg
Thanks guys. On day 10, what a motherfucker this is. Hope it gets better soon. I miss "me".
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For the past 15 years every time my eye itched I could not scratch/rub it with my right thumb or pointer finger, even though that was my bodies natural reaction to deal with this minor problem. Why? Because they were always kodiak stained and would burn the hell out if my eye. Today as I drove down the road my right eye itched, so I rubbed it. With my right pointer finger. And it did not burn.
I'm struggling here on day 10 of quit, and looking for every little bit of progress. I am considering this a minor victory! LOL.
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Hang in there bro...
Better days are right around the corner.
Proud to be quit with you,
Dale
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Thanks man. These last few days have really been beating my ass. Felt nauseous most of today. Posting on here makes me feel better. Even if its about itching my eye. Lol.
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hang in there diesel! it does get better. post about anything you damn well please! that's what this site is for. whatever makes you feel better! proud to be quit with you today!
rez
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I feel you diesel...every victory helps-don't discount it. Its funny I was trying to think of small victories today-I had to drive a lot today. Some small funny ones were: my socks and shorts/pants pockets and under my driver side seat will be clean and not stained due to wiping off dip from my fingers when I'm driving. I can turn faster in my truck w/out worrying about my spitter tipping over in the cup holder. no more rinsing in my truck! All made my laugh a little.
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Yeah. I wore a white shirt today. Something I always tried to avoid. Thanks for the positive words. Just a couple days ago I felt amazing, just shocked how quickly I got bitch slapped. I'll be fine. Dip is not an option.
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Also, Cubsball13... please tell your cubs to stop beating up on my tigers!!! I had high hopes for them this season.
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That shit is fucked we are just now realizing it. I was the same way the first 3-4 days it sucked but the past 2 days have blown! My head is all wacked out. You got this diesel! Only option is quit brother! Haha dude I'll take any W right now...it's already taken a toll on me-still have to go through another 3.5 months! Go cubs
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Diesel2112 doesn't it feel great to be able to rub your eye with whatever finger you have available.....or to sneeze with out blowing black bits of shit everywhere or have a car that is not coated in a fine brown dust .....Freedom has it's rewards.....stay quit.
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Yes it does, captain. Cant wait for the body/brain to feel great. 15 yrs of pollution cant be cleaned up in 10 days...something I am finally starting to realize.
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Hang in there diesel! You have made it through the toughest part my man! Always remember that first week and be glad you don't have to go through it again. Continue to make that promise each morning. You are in the Sept. group and I am in the Aug. group, but we are gonna cross the same finish line. I am quit with you today brother!
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Thanks man. I really appreciate it!!!! I just got up and felt light headed and dizzy like a Moro. Is that normal on day 10? This is normally the time of night I would sneak out for my "goodnight dip". Shaking like a leaf too. Damn. I
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I am using mint chew and it is really helping
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Thanks guys. On day 10, what a motherfucker this is. Hope it gets better soon. I miss "me".
I had the same thoughts. I got so damned depressed I felt like I would never come back.
It gets BETTER
The old you is gone. Dip really makes you forget who you are. You will be a different, better person on the other side of this. Trust me.
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Thanks guys. On day 10, what a motherfucker this is. Hope it gets better soon. I miss "me".
I had the same thoughts. I got so damned depressed I felt like I would never come back.
It gets BETTER
The old you is gone. Dip really makes you forget who you are. You will be a different, better person on the other side of this. Trust me.
You like the rest of us have probably been dipping so long you are not sure what the real you is. I started dipping when I was 14 so I grew up with a nicotine poisioned mind and body.
Gettig clean is hard to do. That is the price we all must pay for the choices we made. It does get better, better than you can imagine. You will be a different person.
YOU CAN DO THIS ! Just follow the plan....
STAY QUIT
Greg
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The Real You
Try to remember if you can, what it was like being you? Not the chemically dependant you, the REAL you. What was it like to function every morning without nicotine? To finish a meal, travel, talk on the phone, have a disagreement, start a project or take a break without putting nicotine into your body? What was it like before nicotine took control? What was it like residing inside a mind that did not crave for nicotine? Can you remember? For most of us our addiction has controlled us so long we cannot remember the “real” us.
One of the most terrifying aspects of drug addiction is just how quickly nearly all remaining memory of life without the external chemical are buried by high definition dopamine induced memories generated by using it. It's a common thread among all drug addicts. And make no mistakes, you too are an addict.
Slaves to the world of "nicotine normal," we were each provided a new identity. The nicotine dependant, addict. Captive brain dopamine pathways did their designed job and did it well. They left us convinced that our next nicotine fix was central to survival, as important as drinking water or eating food. How many of you passed up food to buy a can? How many times did you skip time with family to feed your addiction ?
Why do we fear quitting? Although the word "quitting" has to be a part of the fabric of successful nicotine cessation, such thinking can unconsciously tease and play upon old nicotine use memories, making us feel as though we've left something of tremendous value behind. If allowed, it can tease and inflame false fears, fears born of nicotine urge and replenishment memories, strong vivid memories whose purpose were to convince us that nicotine is vital to survival, memories that should never have been present in the first place, memories only made possible because a poison substance entered the brain and was able to disrupt your normal thought processes.
When you think about "quitting" I hope you stop and realize when the real "quitting" took place. You quit being you the first moment nicotine entered your bloodstream. Quitting nicotine is about recognizing and embracing the truth but be prepared; learning that for years we were fooled ourselves and lived a lie can invoke a host of emotions including depression, apathy, confusion and anger. Start your journey with baby steps, patience, honesty and you too will soon be entirely comfortable again engaging all aspects of life without nicotine. Contrary to deeply held beliefs that were pounded into your brain by an endless cycle of urges and rewards, and lies pumped into you by Big Tobacco, you are leaving absolutely nothing of value behind.
Is there really anything to fear? Why be afraid of returning to a calm and quiet place where you no longer crave a chemical that today, every day for as long as you can remember you cannot seem to get off your mind, a chemical that is a mandatory part of every day's plan? Is freedom of thought and action a good thing or bad? If good, then why fear life without a chemical that is controlling you? A chemical that is killing you.
How wonderful would it be to again live inside an undisturbed, non-poisoned mind where addiction chatter gradually becomes infrequent, then rare? Again, I ask you, "What was it like being you?"
Why fear coming home?
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Thanks so much. That was very well written and truthfuil. I'm just having a really tough time with all this as I approach day 12. The anxiety/tight chest feeling is almost debilatating at times. I honestly don't remember what I used to feel like before chew. I was not married, did not have a beautiful daughter or an amazing son. All those things came along with my horrible habit that I hid from all of them. I guess I fear that if I rid myself of the habbit I may lose a part of them. What a dumb fuck.
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Your mind will play tricks on you for a long time. All the chatter is just your body asking for its fix. Fight it off!! Whatever you are experiencing will not be made better by re-introducing poison into your body.
Remember how badly this sucks and how you feel. You only have to go through it once if you stick to the plan.
STAY QUIT
Greg
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Thanks man. Looking forward to better days. Getting my ass/chest kicked here lately. I will not cave though. I will stay strong and grind this out.
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Thanks so much. That was very well written and truthfuil. I'm just having a really tough time with all this as I approach day 12. The anxiety/tight chest feeling is almost debilatating at times. I honestly don't remember what I used to feel like before chew. I was not married, did not have a beautiful daughter or an amazing son. All those things came along with my horrible habit that I hid from all of them. I guess I fear that if I rid myself of the habbit I may lose a part of them. What a dumb fuck.
They will appreciate the new you much more than you know!
If you need to rage, bitch, complain, hell even whine do it here we can take it but dont force that on your family!
Stay Strong, focused, QUIT brother!
Remember you are doing this for you nobody else!
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days? Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.
So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.
Regards,
Diesel2112 Craig M.
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days? Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.Â
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.
So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.Â
Regards,Â
Diesel2112 Craig M.
As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days?  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.Â
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.
So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.Â
Regards,Â
Diesel2112 Craig M.
As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch
I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.
I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).
By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?� Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.
So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�
Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.
As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch
I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.
I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).
By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.
Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.
You got lucky this time and caught yourself.
Be careful.
EDIT: Go post roll now please.
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?� Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.
So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�
Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.
As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch
I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.
I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).
By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.
Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.
You got lucky this time and caught yourself.
Be careful.
EDIT: Go post roll now please.
go post roll in september. if you've been clean while you've been gone, you're still with september.
this curse we've given to ourselves will not go away. this is the penance we've been forced to serve for our mistakes. you see caves and craves at many different days. that's because we're all addicts and all in danger of failing. what you don't want to do is think about forever. think about today. once you start looking at someone elses day 1,000 crave, you'll start to worry about being fucked for life.
but that doesn't matter. tomorrow never comes. focus on today. who cares about day 1,000? care about today. when tomorrow comes, it will be today again.
your quit isn't forever. it's for today.
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?� Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.
So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�
Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.
As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch
I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.
I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).
By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.
Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.
You got lucky this time and caught yourself.
Be careful.
EDIT: Go post roll now please.
Go post roll now! P.m. me I'll tell you some anxiety stories and depression stories I understand completely. just remember post every day early make that promise and keep it that's all you have to do it's as simple as that
Good job Wedgie keep listening to him he's the man
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?� Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.
So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�
Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.
As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch
I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.
I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).
By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.
Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.
You got lucky this time and caught yourself.
Be careful.
EDIT: Go post roll now please.
Go post roll now! P.m. me I'll tell you some anxiety stories and depression stories I understand completely. just remember post every day early make that promise and keep it that's all you have to do it's as simple as that
Good job Wedgie keep listening to him he's the man
I kept track of him, kept nudging him back around. :D
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?� Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.
So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�
Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.
As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch
I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.
I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).
By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.
Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.
You got lucky this time and caught yourself.
Be careful.
EDIT: Go post roll now please.
Go post roll now! P.m. me I'll tell you some anxiety stories and depression stories I understand completely. just remember post every day early make that promise and keep it that's all you have to do it's as simple as that
Good job Wedgie keep listening to him he's the man
Post up! You have nothing to apologies for if you're still quit.
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?� Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.
So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�
Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.
As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch
I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.
I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).
By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.
Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.
You got lucky this time and caught yourself.
Be careful.
EDIT: Go post roll now please.
Go post roll now! P.m. me I'll tell you some anxiety stories and depression stories I understand completely. just remember post every day early make that promise and keep it that's all you have to do it's as simple as that
Good job Wedgie keep listening to him he's the man
Post up! You have nothing to apologies for if you're still quit.
Sweet Jesus the drama on this site.......hey Craig - start posting roll again. You can quit for one day right? Thats all it is bro. Nothing to get anxious or panicky about. It's quitting for one day. Own the quit, don't let it own you. You're a bad mfer, not some guy who needs a therapist to quit dipping. I will PM you my number - you need it, you use it. I'm here to help bro. I'm not trying to insult you, but all the drama needs to go. Own this. You have the power and you have support. There are guys here that I will NEVER meet that I trust and value more than some people I see everyday. Embrace the site. Embrace Sept. Leave all that other bs behind. Welcome back.
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Thanks all. Ive posted roll...and will continue to do so.
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days? Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.
So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.
Regards,
Diesel2112 Craig M.
D,
You didn't cave and that's the important thing.
Get back into September and stay close to all of us.
-
A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days? Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.Â
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.
So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.Â
Regards,Â
Diesel2112 Craig M.
D,
You didn't cave and that's the important thing.
Get back into September and stay close to all of us.
Its rather simple. If you want support, post roll every day.
If you want to be held accountable, post roll every day, then miss posting a few days.
But for God's sake, do not put nicotine in your body.
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days?  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.Â
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.
So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.Â
Regards,Â
Diesel2112 Craig M.
D,
You didn't cave and that's the important thing.
Get back into September and stay close to all of us.
Roll on Diesel.
You are not the only one who has taken that road, take a deep breath and keep walking in our footsteps, we've been there.and we know the way out.
I also had to take anti-anxiety drugs after I quit. I had a panic attack that landed me in the hospital. I thought I was having a heart attack. Nicotine addiction has had a stranglehold on your body and mind. You CAN unravel it, it'll just take some time. The key to the castle of quit is simply " one day at a time" It's like the old poem where the girl eats a whale. You can't do it all at once, but you CAN do it one bite at a time.
I wasn't a special case. The same thing happened to Chewie with the panic attacks, and I can name 20 quitters off the top of my head that used anti-anxiety meds. (NOT CHANTIX. Stay away from that shit. ).
Your in the right place. I don't know you, but I know what your feeling. I know the head games your playing with yourself, I even know the ones your going to play. We all do, we've been there. Some quitters choose to fail, many don't. Some have craves some don't. You will have good days and bad. Over time there are many more good days than bad. I am almost 1300 days quit and will tell you the following truths;
I rarely if ever crave a dip. If I do the craving is purely mental, there is no physical componet to it anymore. It's no more bothersome than a mosquito bite.
I am an addict. A nicotine junkie, no different than a recovering crack head. I can never have just one. I can never use nicotine in any form. If I do I will instantly re-ignite all the power that my addiction had over me. I will be back at my old use levels within weeks. Google " The law of Addiction"
The day I forget I'm an addict , my quit will be in danger. Guys fail because they forget. A long term quitter once said " I come here every day to remind myself I am an addict" Thats a hard pill to swallow but its true. Your an addict.
This site is a tool box, and your an apprentice builder. If you learn how to use the tools, you'll craft a magnificent tower of quit. If you fail to learn how to use the tools? or simply refuse or ignore them? Then your quit will be a Jenga tower ready to collapse on the slightest whim. Its up to you to read, reach out, research, go to chat, post roll. Invest in your quit.
Lastly, you only fail if you choose it. There is no magic bullet and day 100 or day 1,000. It simply becomes easier as time progresses. I dipped for 23 years. I know that 1300 days of quit isn't going to undue a lifetime of addiction, but I sure feel a hell of alot better today than I did on day three or day thirty-three. You can't imagine how much better it gets. I can't remember why I thought it was so hard. I often think how stupid I was that I didn't do it sooner.
Go all in. Were right beside you. Not because we are are brotherhood of strangers on some weird group love site, but because we understand what your feeling and we share a mutual hatred of what this drug has done to all of us. I would gladly help my worst enemy unhook himself from this shit. I hate the drug and the death dealers at UST for what they took from me. If I can help you free yourself from paying them to commit suicide on the installment plan, well then I'm in. I think we all share this sentiment to varying degrees. Thats how I view it anyhow.
Welcome back, now get your ass to roll call
sM
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days?  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.Â
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.
So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.Â
Regards,Â
Diesel2112 Craig M.
D,
You didn't cave and that's the important thing.
Get back into September and stay close to all of us.
Roll on Diesel.
You are not the only one who has taken that road, take a deep breath and keep walking in our footsteps, we've been there.and we know the way out.
I also had to take anti-anxiety drugs after I quit. I had a panic attack that landed me in the hospital. I thought I was having a heart attack. Nicotine addiction has had a stranglehold on your body and mind. You CAN unravel it, it'll just take some time. The key to the castle of quit is simply " one day at a time" It's like the old poem where the girl eats a whale. You can't do it all at once, but you CAN do it one bite at a time.
I wasn't a special case. The same thing happened to Chewie with the panic attacks, and I can name 20 quitters off the top of my head that used anti-anxiety meds. (NOT CHANTIX. Stay away from that shit. ).
Your in the right place. I don't know you, but I know what your feeling. I know the head games your playing with yourself, I even know the ones your going to play. We all do, we've been there. Some quitters choose to fail, many don't. Some have craves some don't. You will have good days and bad. Over time there are many more good days than bad. I am almost 1300 days quit and will tell you the following truths;
I rarely if ever crave a dip. If I do the craving is purely mental, there is no physical componet to it anymore. It's no more bothersome than a mosquito bite.
I am an addict. A nicotine junkie, no different than a recovering crack head. I can never have just one. I can never use nicotine in any form. If I do I will instantly re-ignite all the power that my addiction had over me. I will be back at my old use levels within weeks. Google " The law of Addiction"
The day I forget I'm an addict , my quit will be in danger. Guys fail because they forget. A long term quitter once said " I come here every day to remind myself I am an addict" Thats a hard pill to swallow but its true. Your an addict.
This site is a tool box, and your an apprentice builder. If you learn how to use the tools, you'll craft a magnificent tower of quit. If you fail to learn how to use the tools? or simply refuse or ignore them? Then your quit will be a Jenga tower ready to collapse on the slightest whim. Its up to you to read, reach out, research, go to chat, post roll. Invest in your quit.
Lastly, you only fail if you choose it. There is no magic bullet and day 100 or day 1,000. It simply becomes easier as time progresses. I dipped for 23 years. I know that 1300 days of quit isn't going to undue a lifetime of addiction, but I sure feel a hell of alot better today than I did on day three or day thirty-three. You can't imagine how much better it gets. I can't remember why I thought it was so hard. I often think how stupid I was that I didn't do it sooner.
Go all in. Were right beside you. Not because we are are brotherhood of strangers on some weird group love site, but because we understand what your feeling and we share a mutual hatred of what this drug has done to all of us. I would gladly help my worst enemy unhook himself from this shit. I hate the drug and the death dealers at UST for what they took from me. If I can help you free yourself from paying them to commit suicide on the installment plan, well then I'm in. I think we all share this sentiment to varying degrees. Thats how I view it anyhow.
Welcome back, now get your ass to roll call
sM
If you did not cave and have not introduced Nicotine into your system the only mistake you made was gambling with your quit. You are still a member of your group and are free to post away. Make sure you do it daily !!
I will add that I also had terrible axiety early in my quit. Ended up in the ER two times, went to the doctor every other week, as SM says your mind will play with you, but it does get better.
I rarely if ever think about dipping anymore and the freedom you gain is worth the fight! Get your ass back in your group and post up. Quit for today and work the rest out as you go. What better group to lean on and learn from than a bunch of people who have been there?
STAY QUIT
Greg
-
A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days?  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.Â
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.
So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.Â
Regards,Â
Diesel2112 Craig M.
D,
You didn't cave and that's the important thing.
Get back into September and stay close to all of us.
Roll on Diesel.
You are not the only one who has taken that road, take a deep breath and keep walking in our footsteps, we've been there.and we know the way out.
I also had to take anti-anxiety drugs after I quit. I had a panic attack that landed me in the hospital. I thought I was having a heart attack. Nicotine addiction has had a stranglehold on your body and mind. You CAN unravel it, it'll just take some time. The key to the castle of quit is simply " one day at a time" It's like the old poem where the girl eats a whale. You can't do it all at once, but you CAN do it one bite at a time.
I wasn't a special case. The same thing happened to Chewie with the panic attacks, and I can name 20 quitters off the top of my head that used anti-anxiety meds. (NOT CHANTIX. Stay away from that shit. ).
Your in the right place. I don't know you, but I know what your feeling. I know the head games your playing with yourself, I even know the ones your going to play. We all do, we've been there. Some quitters choose to fail, many don't. Some have craves some don't. You will have good days and bad. Over time there are many more good days than bad. I am almost 1300 days quit and will tell you the following truths;
I rarely if ever crave a dip. If I do the craving is purely mental, there is no physical componet to it anymore. It's no more bothersome than a mosquito bite.
I am an addict. A nicotine junkie, no different than a recovering crack head. I can never have just one. I can never use nicotine in any form. If I do I will instantly re-ignite all the power that my addiction had over me. I will be back at my old use levels within weeks. Google " The law of Addiction"
The day I forget I'm an addict , my quit will be in danger. Guys fail because they forget. A long term quitter once said " I come here every day to remind myself I am an addict" Thats a hard pill to swallow but its true. Your an addict.
This site is a tool box, and your an apprentice builder. If you learn how to use the tools, you'll craft a magnificent tower of quit. If you fail to learn how to use the tools? or simply refuse or ignore them? Then your quit will be a Jenga tower ready to collapse on the slightest whim. Its up to you to read, reach out, research, go to chat, post roll. Invest in your quit.
Lastly, you only fail if you choose it. There is no magic bullet and day 100 or day 1,000. It simply becomes easier as time progresses. I dipped for 23 years. I know that 1300 days of quit isn't going to undue a lifetime of addiction, but I sure feel a hell of alot better today than I did on day three or day thirty-three. You can't imagine how much better it gets. I can't remember why I thought it was so hard. I often think how stupid I was that I didn't do it sooner.
Go all in. Were right beside you. Not because we are are brotherhood of strangers on some weird group love site, but because we understand what your feeling and we share a mutual hatred of what this drug has done to all of us. I would gladly help my worst enemy unhook himself from this shit. I hate the drug and the death dealers at UST for what they took from me. If I can help you free yourself from paying them to commit suicide on the installment plan, well then I'm in. I think we all share this sentiment to varying degrees. Thats how I view it anyhow.
Welcome back, now get your ass to roll call
sM
If you did not cave and have not introduced Nicotine into your system the only mistake you made was gambling with your quit. You are still a member of your group and are free to post away. Make sure you do it daily !!
I will add that I also had terrible axiety early in my quit. Ended up in the ER two times, went to the doctor every other week, as SM says your mind will play with you, but it does get better.
I rarely if ever think about dipping anymore and the freedom you gain is worth the fight! Get your ass back in your group and post up. Quit for today and work the rest out as you go. What better group to lean on and learn from than a bunch of people who have been there?
STAY QUIT
Greg
Diesel2112 I to have been having anxiety attacks lately but staying close to this site and the brothers who belong to this site have been helping me a lot! Get your ass back in the Sept group and post roll! Keep your lip clean and post roll everyday! If you have anxiety attacks... get on live chat or text/call your quit brothers... Don't threaten your quit...
-
A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days?  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.Â
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.
So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.Â
Regards,Â
Diesel2112 Craig M.
D,
You didn't cave and that's the important thing.
Get back into September and stay close to all of us.
Roll on Diesel.
You are not the only one who has taken that road, take a deep breath and keep walking in our footsteps, we've been there.and we know the way out.
I also had to take anti-anxiety drugs after I quit. I had a panic attack that landed me in the hospital. I thought I was having a heart attack. Nicotine addiction has had a stranglehold on your body and mind. You CAN unravel it, it'll just take some time. The key to the castle of quit is simply " one day at a time" It's like the old poem where the girl eats a whale. You can't do it all at once, but you CAN do it one bite at a time.
I wasn't a special case. The same thing happened to Chewie with the panic attacks, and I can name 20 quitters off the top of my head that used anti-anxiety meds. (NOT CHANTIX. Stay away from that shit. ).
Your in the right place. I don't know you, but I know what your feeling. I know the head games your playing with yourself, I even know the ones your going to play. We all do, we've been there. Some quitters choose to fail, many don't. Some have craves some don't. You will have good days and bad. Over time there are many more good days than bad. I am almost 1300 days quit and will tell you the following truths;
I rarely if ever crave a dip. If I do the craving is purely mental, there is no physical componet to it anymore. It's no more bothersome than a mosquito bite.
I am an addict. A nicotine junkie, no different than a recovering crack head. I can never have just one. I can never use nicotine in any form. If I do I will instantly re-ignite all the power that my addiction had over me. I will be back at my old use levels within weeks. Google " The law of Addiction"
The day I forget I'm an addict , my quit will be in danger. Guys fail because they forget. A long term quitter once said " I come here every day to remind myself I am an addict" Thats a hard pill to swallow but its true. Your an addict.
This site is a tool box, and your an apprentice builder. If you learn how to use the tools, you'll craft a magnificent tower of quit. If you fail to learn how to use the tools? or simply refuse or ignore them? Then your quit will be a Jenga tower ready to collapse on the slightest whim. Its up to you to read, reach out, research, go to chat, post roll. Invest in your quit.
Lastly, you only fail if you choose it. There is no magic bullet and day 100 or day 1,000. It simply becomes easier as time progresses. I dipped for 23 years. I know that 1300 days of quit isn't going to undue a lifetime of addiction, but I sure feel a hell of alot better today than I did on day three or day thirty-three. You can't imagine how much better it gets. I can't remember why I thought it was so hard. I often think how stupid I was that I didn't do it sooner.
Go all in. Were right beside you. Not because we are are brotherhood of strangers on some weird group love site, but because we understand what your feeling and we share a mutual hatred of what this drug has done to all of us. I would gladly help my worst enemy unhook himself from this shit. I hate the drug and the death dealers at UST for what they took from me. If I can help you free yourself from paying them to commit suicide on the installment plan, well then I'm in. I think we all share this sentiment to varying degrees. Thats how I view it anyhow.
Welcome back, now get your ass to roll call
sM
If you did not cave and have not introduced Nicotine into your system the only mistake you made was gambling with your quit. You are still a member of your group and are free to post away. Make sure you do it daily !!
I will add that I also had terrible axiety early in my quit. Ended up in the ER two times, went to the doctor every other week, as SM says your mind will play with you, but it does get better.
I rarely if ever think about dipping anymore and the freedom you gain is worth the fight! Get your ass back in your group and post up. Quit for today and work the rest out as you go. What better group to lean on and learn from than a bunch of people who have been there?
STAY QUIT
Greg
Diesel2112 I to have been having anxiety attacks lately but staying close to this site and the brothers who belong to this site have been helping me a lot! Get your ass back in the Sept group and post roll! Keep your lip clean and post roll everyday! If you have anxiety attacks... get on live chat or text/call your quit brothers... Don't threaten your quit...
Thats a lot of guts craig. I respect that!!
-
A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days?  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.Â
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.
So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.Â
Regards,Â
Diesel2112 Craig M.
D,
You didn't cave and that's the important thing.
Get back into September and stay close to all of us.
Roll on Diesel.
You are not the only one who has taken that road, take a deep breath and keep walking in our footsteps, we've been there.and we know the way out.
I also had to take anti-anxiety drugs after I quit. I had a panic attack that landed me in the hospital. I thought I was having a heart attack. Nicotine addiction has had a stranglehold on your body and mind. You CAN unravel it, it'll just take some time. The key to the castle of quit is simply " one day at a time" It's like the old poem where the girl eats a whale. You can't do it all at once, but you CAN do it one bite at a time.
I wasn't a special case. The same thing happened to Chewie with the panic attacks, and I can name 20 quitters off the top of my head that used anti-anxiety meds. (NOT CHANTIX. Stay away from that shit. ).
Your in the right place. I don't know you, but I know what your feeling. I know the head games your playing with yourself, I even know the ones your going to play. We all do, we've been there. Some quitters choose to fail, many don't. Some have craves some don't. You will have good days and bad. Over time there are many more good days than bad. I am almost 1300 days quit and will tell you the following truths;
I rarely if ever crave a dip. If I do the craving is purely mental, there is no physical componet to it anymore. It's no more bothersome than a mosquito bite.
I am an addict. A nicotine junkie, no different than a recovering crack head. I can never have just one. I can never use nicotine in any form. If I do I will instantly re-ignite all the power that my addiction had over me. I will be back at my old use levels within weeks. Google " The law of Addiction"
The day I forget I'm an addict , my quit will be in danger. Guys fail because they forget. A long term quitter once said " I come here every day to remind myself I am an addict" Thats a hard pill to swallow but its true. Your an addict.
This site is a tool box, and your an apprentice builder. If you learn how to use the tools, you'll craft a magnificent tower of quit. If you fail to learn how to use the tools? or simply refuse or ignore them? Then your quit will be a Jenga tower ready to collapse on the slightest whim. Its up to you to read, reach out, research, go to chat, post roll. Invest in your quit.
Lastly, you only fail if you choose it. There is no magic bullet and day 100 or day 1,000. It simply becomes easier as time progresses. I dipped for 23 years. I know that 1300 days of quit isn't going to undue a lifetime of addiction, but I sure feel a hell of alot better today than I did on day three or day thirty-three. You can't imagine how much better it gets. I can't remember why I thought it was so hard. I often think how stupid I was that I didn't do it sooner.
Go all in. Were right beside you. Not because we are are brotherhood of strangers on some weird group love site, but because we understand what your feeling and we share a mutual hatred of what this drug has done to all of us. I would gladly help my worst enemy unhook himself from this shit. I hate the drug and the death dealers at UST for what they took from me. If I can help you free yourself from paying them to commit suicide on the installment plan, well then I'm in. I think we all share this sentiment to varying degrees. Thats how I view it anyhow.
Welcome back, now get your ass to roll call
sM
If you did not cave and have not introduced Nicotine into your system the only mistake you made was gambling with your quit. You are still a member of your group and are free to post away. Make sure you do it daily !!
I will add that I also had terrible axiety early in my quit. Ended up in the ER two times, went to the doctor every other week, as SM says your mind will play with you, but it does get better.
I rarely if ever think about dipping anymore and the freedom you gain is worth the fight! Get your ass back in your group and post up. Quit for today and work the rest out as you go. What better group to lean on and learn from than a bunch of people who have been there?
STAY QUIT
Greg
Diesel2112 I to have been having anxiety attacks lately but staying close to this site and the brothers who belong to this site have been helping me a lot! Get your ass back in the Sept group and post roll! Keep your lip clean and post roll everyday! If you have anxiety attacks... get on live chat or text/call your quit brothers... Don't threaten your quit...
Thats a lot of guts craig. I respect that!!
Welcome back quitter
Post roll every day
Keep your promise to September.
Support the October newbies too
Your experience might help someone there
-
A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc. I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me". I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie, who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid". Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon, especially this one because there really is no finish line, and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either. I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes? You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine? Guys are caving after only a few days?  Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves? This shit scared me even more and I freaked. I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie. Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped. I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.Â
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here. He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back, which I totally understand.
So, as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left, and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group. It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time. Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest. If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.Â
Regards,Â
Diesel2112 Craig M.
D,
You didn't cave and that's the important thing.
Get back into September and stay close to all of us.
Roll on Diesel.
You are not the only one who has taken that road, take a deep breath and keep walking in our footsteps, we've been there.and we know the way out.
I also had to take anti-anxiety drugs after I quit. I had a panic attack that landed me in the hospital. I thought I was having a heart attack. Nicotine addiction has had a stranglehold on your body and mind. You CAN unravel it, it'll just take some time. The key to the castle of quit is simply " one day at a time" It's like the old poem where the girl eats a whale. You can't do it all at once, but you CAN do it one bite at a time.
I wasn't a special case. The same thing happened to Chewie with the panic attacks, and I can name 20 quitters off the top of my head that used anti-anxiety meds. (NOT CHANTIX. Stay away from that shit. ).
Your in the right place. I don't know you, but I know what your feeling. I know the head games your playing with yourself, I even know the ones your going to play. We all do, we've been there. Some quitters choose to fail, many don't. Some have craves some don't. You will have good days and bad. Over time there are many more good days than bad. I am almost 1300 days quit and will tell you the following truths;
I rarely if ever crave a dip. If I do the craving is purely mental, there is no physical componet to it anymore. It's no more bothersome than a mosquito bite.
I am an addict. A nicotine junkie, no different than a recovering crack head. I can never have just one. I can never use nicotine in any form. If I do I will instantly re-ignite all the power that my addiction had over me. I will be back at my old use levels within weeks. Google " The law of Addiction"
The day I forget I'm an addict , my quit will be in danger. Guys fail because they forget. A long term quitter once said " I come here every day to remind myself I am an addict" Thats a hard pill to swallow but its true. Your an addict.
This site is a tool box, and your an apprentice builder. If you learn how to use the tools, you'll craft a magnificent tower of quit. If you fail to learn how to use the tools? or simply refuse or ignore them? Then your quit will be a Jenga tower ready to collapse on the slightest whim. Its up to you to read, reach out, research, go to chat, post roll. Invest in your quit.
Lastly, you only fail if you choose it. There is no magic bullet and day 100 or day 1,000. It simply becomes easier as time progresses. I dipped for 23 years. I know that 1300 days of quit isn't going to undue a lifetime of addiction, but I sure feel a hell of alot better today than I did on day three or day thirty-three. You can't imagine how much better it gets. I can't remember why I thought it was so hard. I often think how stupid I was that I didn't do it sooner.
Go all in. Were right beside you. Not because we are are brotherhood of strangers on some weird group love site, but because we understand what your feeling and we share a mutual hatred of what this drug has done to all of us. I would gladly help my worst enemy unhook himself from this shit. I hate the drug and the death dealers at UST for what they took from me. If I can help you free yourself from paying them to commit suicide on the installment plan, well then I'm in. I think we all share this sentiment to varying degrees. Thats how I view it anyhow.
Welcome back, now get your ass to roll call
sM
If you did not cave and have not introduced Nicotine into your system the only mistake you made was gambling with your quit. You are still a member of your group and are free to post away. Make sure you do it daily !!
I will add that I also had terrible axiety early in my quit. Ended up in the ER two times, went to the doctor every other week, as SM says your mind will play with you, but it does get better.
I rarely if ever think about dipping anymore and the freedom you gain is worth the fight! Get your ass back in your group and post up. Quit for today and work the rest out as you go. What better group to lean on and learn from than a bunch of people who have been there?
STAY QUIT
Greg
Diesel2112 I to have been having anxiety attacks lately but staying close to this site and the brothers who belong to this site have been helping me a lot! Get your ass back in the Sept group and post roll! Keep your lip clean and post roll everyday! If you have anxiety attacks... get on live chat or text/call your quit brothers... Don't threaten your quit...
Thats a lot of guts craig. I respect that!!
Welcome back quitter
Post roll every day
Keep your promise to September.
Support the October newbies too
Your experience might help someone there
You are back because you were meant to be here. I for one am glad you are here. Bring the quit. Someone is going to swing through this place like you. You are here to help then when they come.
All smiles friend. :)
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An honest and upfront post.
See you in Sept. Roll.
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Thumbs Up for Diesel today! I quit with you on this 4th of July! Have a good one! Gooch
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Thumbs Up for Diesel today! I quit with you on this 4th of July! Have a good one! Gooch
I'm in diesels camp today too. That guy has balls
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Thumbs Up for Diesel today! I quit with you on this 4th of July! Have a good one! Gooch
I'm in diesels camp today too. That guy has balls
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Thumbs Up for Diesel today! I quit with you on this 4th of July! Have a good one! Gooch
I'm in diesels camp today too. That guy has balls
X2
X3-proud to be quit with diesel today!!
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Thumbs Up for Diesel today! I quit with you on this 4th of July! Have a good one! Gooch
I'm in diesels camp today too. That guy has balls
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X3-proud to be quit with diesel today!!
I'm proud to be quit with diesel and everyone else who has replied in here.
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Welcome back Diesel, good to have you.
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Thanks for the kind words, fellas. Means a lot.
Had a goofy 4th.
Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming, throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.
As a ninja I never dipped at these events. I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept. However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.
Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me. I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun. I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!
So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself. I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon. Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell. Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post).
I did not play the "you're an addict" card though. I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body, then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit.
Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole. Fuck you nicotine, off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.
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Thanks for the kind words, fellas. Means a lot.
Had a goofy 4th.
Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming, throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.
As a ninja I never dipped at these events. I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept. However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.
Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me. I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun. I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!
So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself. I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon. Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell. Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post).
I did not play the "you're an addict" card though. I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body, then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit.
Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole. Fuck you nicotine, off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.
I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!
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Thanks for the kind words, fellas. Means a lot.
Had a goofy 4th.Â
Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming, throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.
As a ninja I never dipped at these events. I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept. However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.
Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me. I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun. I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!
So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself. I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon. Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell. Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post).Â
I did not play the "you're an addict" card though. I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body, then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit.Â
Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole. Fuck you nicotine, off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.
I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!
Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.
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Thanks for the kind words, fellas. Means a lot.
Had a goofy 4th.Â
Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming, throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.
As a ninja I never dipped at these events. I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept. However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.
Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me. I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun. I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!
So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself. I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.  Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell. Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post).Â
I did not play the "you're an addict" card though. I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body, then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit. Â
Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole. Fuck you nicotine, off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.
I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!
Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.
Way to stay strong and focused brother!
Remember you have a goal and your goal does not include nicotene!
Good to hear you had a great 4th
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Thanks for the kind words, fellas. Means a lot.
Had a goofy 4th.Â
Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming, throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.
As a ninja I never dipped at these events. I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept. However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.
Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me. I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun. I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!
So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself. I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.  Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell. Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post).Â
I did not play the "you're an addict" card though. I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body, then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit. Â
Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole. Fuck you nicotine, off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.
I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!
Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.
Way to stay strong and focused brother!
Remember you have a goal and your goal does not include nicotene!
Good to hear you had a great 4th
That validation dip! Been there done that! The freedom and self gratification knowing that we can survive without that dip or any dip is a very good feeling. I'm quit with you!
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Thanks for the kind words, fellas. Means a lot.
Had a goofy 4th.Â
Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming, throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.
As a ninja I never dipped at these events. I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept. However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.
Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me. I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun. I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!
So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself. I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.  Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell. Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post).Â
I did not play the "you're an addict" card though. I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body, then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit. Â
Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole. Fuck you nicotine, off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.
I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!
Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.
Way to stay strong and focused brother!
Remember you have a goal and your goal does not include nicotene!
Good to hear you had a great 4th
That validation dip! Been there done that! The freedom and self gratification knowing that we can survive without that dip or any dip is a very good feeling. I'm quit with you!
Freedom is an amazing thing! Fight for it every day...
It is worth it !!
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Thanks for the kind words, fellas. Means a lot.
Had a goofy 4th.Â
Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming, throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.
As a ninja I never dipped at these events. I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept. However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.
Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me. I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun. I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!
So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself. I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.  Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell. Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post).Â
I did not play the "you're an addict" card though. I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body, then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit. Â
Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole. Fuck you nicotine, off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.
I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!
Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.
Way to stay strong and focused brother!
Remember you have a goal and your goal does not include nicotene!
Good to hear you had a great 4th
That validation dip! Been there done that! The freedom and self gratification knowing that we can survive without that dip or any dip is a very good feeling. I'm quit with you!
Freedom is an amazing thing! Fight for it every day...
It is worth it !!
'40'
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Thanks for the kind words, fellas. Means a lot.
Had a goofy 4th.Â
Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming, throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.
As a ninja I never dipped at these events. I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept. However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.
Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me. I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun. I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!
So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself. I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.  Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell. Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post).Â
I did not play the "you're an addict" card though. I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body, then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit. Â
Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole. Fuck you nicotine, off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.
I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!
Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.
Way to stay strong and focused brother!
Remember you have a goal and your goal does not include nicotene!
Good to hear you had a great 4th
That validation dip! Been there done that! The freedom and self gratification knowing that we can survive without that dip or any dip is a very good feeling. I'm quit with you!
Freedom is an amazing thing! Fight for it every day...
It is worth it !!
'40'
Diesel - way to stay strong! Keep up the strong quit!!
And you are right... That F'n Nic Bitch F's with your head... you just have to show her who's boss!
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Thanks for the kind words,� fellas.� Means a lot.
Had a goofy 4th.�
Annual bbq at my moms and was having a good time swimming,� throwing the pigskin around, watching my kids have a ball with their cousins, etc...it was good for my anxiety as it kept me busy and my mind out of the gutter of negativity.
As a ninja I never dipped at these events.� I could hold off for 12 hrs knowing my "valadation dip" was coming that night as I would find some bs excuse to run out and celebrate /validate such a great day...what a pathetic concept.� However for the past 32 dayd I indulged in no "validation dips" and slowly I was learning to accept that and deal with it.
Problem was some of my relatives are "social smokers" and seeing them smoke and whoop it looked "cool" to me.� I knew they didn't smoke all the time and that got my brain thinking I could be "that guy", only dip when having fun.� I knew it was dumb concept but I kept rationalizing it and it was pissing me off!!!!!!
So when I got home instead of going out for my validation dip I sat down to talk some sense into myself.� I concluded I was a fucking jack wagon.�� Me dipping for fun is what started this runaway train of hell.� Look at yourself dude...you're a freaking mess (see previous post).�
I did not play the "you're an addict" card though.� I played the "if you cant enjoy a great day with your family without validating it by posioning your body,� then you're a fucking BUM" card. God Damn nicotine can make you think some fucked up shit.��
Just validated my fun day by shoving 3 cookies down my pie hole.� Fuck you nicotine,� off to bed for the 32nd straight night without you.
I smell some strong quit right here! Diesel... glad to hear you rationalize out your ideas here, b/c I know this will help someone in their thinking. Glad to be quit with you!
Diesel you definitely need to stick around and continue sharing your thoughts. Some really good stuff there that will help a bunch of quitters like me. Thanks.
Way to stay strong and focused brother!
Remember you have a goal and your goal does not include nicotene!
Good to hear you had a great 4th
That validation dip! Been there done that! The freedom and self gratification knowing that we can survive without that dip or any dip is a very good feeling. I'm quit with you!
Freedom is an amazing thing! Fight for it every day...
It is worth it !!
'40'
Diesel - way to stay strong! Keep up the strong quit!!
And you are right... That F'n Nic Bitch F's with your head... you just have to show her who's boss!
Good Strong Quit right there Diesel. Congrats man... Thanks for the post, makes my quit stronger to see people are going through same bs as me
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Since I quit 34 days ago my sex drive has been for shit. Wife used to get sick of me always trying to get some. Now she's like, what the hell. Is this normal? Maybe a by product of my anxiety? If so I hope its temporary. I used to be a horn dog. AND my kids are up north for a week!!!
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Since I quit 34 days ago my sex drive has been for shit. Wife used to get sick of me always trying to get some. Now she's like, what the hell. Is this normal? Maybe a by product of my anxiety? If so I hope its temporary. I used to be a horn dog. AND my kids are up north for a week!!!
Sorry dude my drive has gone through the roof for 55 yr. old not bad averaging 2 times per day. Sorry to brag but I'm loving it! If quitting did it for me I wish I'd done it yrs. ago. We are empty nesters so we've got lots of freedom.
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Since I quit 34 days ago my sex drive has been for shit. Wife used to get sick of me always trying to get some. Now she's like, what the hell. Is this normal? Maybe a by product of my anxiety? If so I hope its temporary. I used to be a horn dog. AND my kids are up north for a week!!!
Sorry dude my drive has gone through the roof for 55 yr. old not bad averaging 2 times per day. Sorry to brag but I'm loving it! If quitting did it for me I wish I'd done it yrs. ago. We are empty nesters so we've got lots of freedom.
Sorry Gaiden...just crossed over day into day 29...Hope your problem goes away, mines been the opposite!!
'boob'
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Since I quit 34 days ago my sex drive has been for shit. Wife used to get sick of me always trying to get some. Now she's like, what the hell. Is this normal? Maybe a by product of my anxiety? If so I hope its temporary. I used to be a horn dog. AND my kids are up north for a week!!!
Sorry dude my drive has gone through the roof for 55 yr. old not bad averaging 2 times per day. Sorry to brag but I'm loving it! If quitting did it for me I wish I'd done it yrs. ago. We are empty nesters so we've got lots of freedom.
Sorry Gaiden...just crossed over day into day 29...Hope your problem goes away, mines been the opposite!!
'boob'
Sorry Mean Diesel.....u get the idea...
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Its this fucking Anxiety, I know it is!!!!! Cant even sit still for more than a few minutes without my chest catching fire. Fucking asshole doctor keeps upping my dosage of anti anxiety mess everytime I go tell him I'm not improving as I think I should. I'm doing good mentally too as the craves and fogs and funk's seem to be lessening. But this cock sucker mother tucker anxiety seems to have a mind of its own. Its stolen my "mojo", it really has.
I guess its really the nicotene that's stolen all of this from me, eh? I have no confidence I can perform the simplest tasks sometimes. Wife wants to go out to eat and I'm scared shiftless?????? Why???????? Fuck. Bad enough I have to deal with this quit but this anxiety shit is like another layer of shit. Hopefully with time it fades.
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Its this fucking Anxiety, I know it is!!!!! Cant even sit still for more than a few minutes without my chest catching fire. Fucking asshole doctor keeps upping my dosage of anti anxiety mess everytime I go tell him I'm not improving as I think I should. I'm doing good mentally too as the craves and fogs and funk's seem to be lessening. But this cock sucker mother tucker anxiety seems to have a mind of its own. Its stolen my "mojo", it really has.Â
I guess its really the nicotene that's stolen all of this from me, eh? I have no confidence I can perform the simplest tasks sometimes. Wife wants to go out to eat and I'm scared shiftless?????? Why???????? Fuck. Bad enough I have to deal with this quit but this anxiety shit is like another layer of shit. Hopefully with time it fades.
Why don't you go ask a caver if it was worth it? I've never heard of a "good" excuse to cave. You remind me of Hipster. Yeah it's rough, yeah there's mind games but fuck dude you gotta fight through it. Your alternative is slow cancer death. What's it gonna be?
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It could be your anti-anxiety medication.
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Its this fucking Anxiety, I know it is!!!!!  Cant even sit still for more than a few minutes without my chest catching fire. Fucking asshole doctor keeps upping my dosage of anti anxiety mess everytime I go tell him I'm not improving as I think I should. I'm doing good mentally too as the craves and fogs and funk's seem to be lessening. But this cock sucker mother tucker anxiety seems to have a mind of its own. Its stolen my "mojo", it really has. Â
I guess its really the nicotene that's stolen all of this from me, eh? I have no confidence I can perform the simplest tasks sometimes. Wife wants to go out to eat and I'm scared shiftless?????? Why???????? Fuck.  Bad enough I have to deal with this quit but this anxiety shit is like another layer of shit. Hopefully with time it fades.
Why don't you go ask a caver if it was worth it? I've never heard of a "good" excuse to cave. You remind me of Hipster. Yeah it's rough, yeah there's mind games but fuck dude you gotta fight through it. Your alternative is slow cancer death. What's it gonna be?
Never considered caving for a second. Just pissed my libido is in the tank and simple tasks have me scared like a little baby.
I don't have the illusion that if I packed my lip full of shit all my mojo would rush back to me like popeye eating some spinach.
Ive done a lot of shit to commit to this quit. I'm not gonna fuck it up. My mental game was in the shifter, which is why I left ktc a few weeks ago. But now Ive come to grips mentally with some stuff but this anxiety thing is lingering and pissing me off. That's all. I ain't gonna cave.
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Its this fucking Anxiety, I know it is!!!!!  Cant even sit still for more than a few minutes without my chest catching fire. Fucking asshole doctor keeps upping my dosage of anti anxiety mess everytime I go tell him I'm not improving as I think I should. I'm doing good mentally too as the craves and fogs and funk's seem to be lessening. But this cock sucker mother tucker anxiety seems to have a mind of its own. Its stolen my "mojo", it really has. Â
I guess its really the nicotene that's stolen all of this from me, eh? I have no confidence I can perform the simplest tasks sometimes. Wife wants to go out to eat and I'm scared shiftless?????? Why???????? Fuck.  Bad enough I have to deal with this quit but this anxiety shit is like another layer of shit. Hopefully with time it fades.
Why don't you go ask a caver if it was worth it? I've never heard of a "good" excuse to cave. You remind me of Hipster. Yeah it's rough, yeah there's mind games but fuck dude you gotta fight through it. Your alternative is slow cancer death. What's it gonna be?
Never considered caving for a second. Just pissed my libido is in the tank and simple tasks have me scared like a little baby.
I don't have the illusion that if I packed my lip full of shit all my mojo would rush back to me like popeye eating some spinach.
Ive done a lot of shit to commit to this quit. I'm not gonna fuck it up. My mental game was in the shifter, which is why I left ktc a few weeks ago. But now Ive come to grips mentally with some stuff but this anxiety thing is lingering and pissing me off. That's all. I ain't gonna cave.
Great job Diesel. These are the snares the deceitful bitch lays. They are simply snares to trap the gullible. Way to give her the 'Finger'
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Merged topics by LOOT. Did it backwards tho. Need to edit title, the other one was better.
One intro please. And keep in mind, anyone can see these intro. Even if you aren't registered on the site.
Diesel, can you come up with a better name for your intro thread? Not saying you gotta. You. An always tell LOOT to GFY. May not be smart, but you could.
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Since I quit 34 days ago my sex drive has been for shit. Wife used to get sick of me always trying to get some. Now she's like, what the hell. Is this normal? Maybe a by product of my anxiety? If so I hope its temporary. I used to be a horn dog. AND my kids are up north for a week!!!
Sorry dude my drive has gone through the roof for 55 yr. old not bad averaging 2 times per day. Sorry to brag but I'm loving it! If quitting did it for me I wish I'd done it yrs. ago. We are empty nesters so we've got lots of freedom.
WT is the man!!! - Stallion! Diesel honestly a side effect of antidepressants is loss of sex drive.. anxiety is a bitch.. has been for me too.. this is my experience only.. not for anyone else including you under dr's orders.. my entire life I have tried to fix myself with pills..potions.. liquids.. nothing worked.. I went to the dr's.. went to the shrink's.. and they tried to give me more aand different shit.. nothing worked... once a Dr prescribed chantix.. holy shit!! bad idea for a alcoholic..half baked..one balled cowboy! I seriously wanted to kill myself! I react differently than others do to the effects of most drugs...1) i have a very high tolerance 2) i have an addictive personality - if i like it, I'll take the whole damn bottle can't help it.. I totally believe that most dr's over prescribe shit I really don't need.. some folks do need it! and if they do it's OK.. for me anxiety is a part of giving up any drug.. i was seriously anxious today.. I had an appt with a husband wife.. getting divorced.. during the appt.. she went off on his ass. ( I sell real estate at auction). seeing a 60's something call her X a fucking idiots 10 times.. talk about his whore.. and God knows what else.. made me anxious and highly uncomfortable.. well I immediately wanted a dip! keep in mind I am no stranger to this.. this aint my first rodeo.. this shit happens! just today under my current situation.. my body reacted completely different.. I was stressed.. whats my first reaction to stress? - DIP!DIP!DIP! when that don't happen it's going to want another outlet somewhere? If i dont find one quickly it will manifest into anxiety! I just tried to go to a happy place in my head! Check my thread for that happy place.. I had a dream last night and thats where I went... any way it works for me.. I have not had one single antidepressant in over 9 years.. and let me tell you .. I am bi polar/adhd/hyperactive/alcoholic - in recovery! a drug addict! - shit thats a winning pedigree! - Gooch
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Merged topics by LOOT. Did it backwards tho. Need to edit title, the other one was better.
One intro please. And keep in mind, anyone can see these intro. Even if you aren't registered on the site.
Diesel, can you come up with a better name for your intro thread? Not saying you gotta. You. An always tell LOOT to GFY. May not be smart, but you could.
Dang. Sorry about that Loot. Poor choice by me. Perhaps simply "Anxiety problems" could be the new title? I believe "Apology to my Sept quit group" was the original name. Keeping that would be fine too. Can I change that or does a moderator have to?
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Since I quit 34 days ago my sex drive has been for shit. Wife used to get sick of me always trying to get some. Now she's like, what the hell. Is this normal? Maybe a by product of my anxiety? If so I hope its temporary. I used to be a horn dog. AND my kids are up north for a week!!!
Sorry dude my drive has gone through the roof for 55 yr. old not bad averaging 2 times per day. Sorry to brag but I'm loving it! If quitting did it for me I wish I'd done it yrs. ago. We are empty nesters so we've got lots of freedom.
WT is the man!!! - Stallion! Diesel honestly a side effect of antidepressants is loss of sex drive.. anxiety is a bitch.. has been for me too.. this is my experience only.. not for anyone else including you under dr's orders.. my entire life I have tried to fix myself with pills..potions.. liquids.. nothing worked.. I went to the dr's.. went to the shrink's.. and they tried to give me more aand different shit.. nothing worked... once a Dr prescribed chantix.. holy shit!! bad idea for a alcoholic..half baked..one balled cowboy! I seriously wanted to kill myself! I react differently than others do to the effects of most drugs...1) i have a very high tolerance 2) i have an addictive personality - if i like it, I'll take the whole damn bottle can't help it.. I totally believe that most dr's over prescribe shit I really don't need.. some folks do need it! and if they do it's OK.. for me anxiety is a part of giving up any drug.. i was seriously anxious today.. I had an appt with a husband wife.. getting divorced.. during the appt.. she went off on his ass. ( I sell real estate at auction). seeing a 60's something call her X a fucking idiots 10 times.. talk about his whore.. and God knows what else.. made me anxious and highly uncomfortable.. well I immediately wanted a dip! keep in mind I am no stranger to this.. this aint my first rodeo.. this shit happens! just today under my current situation.. my body reacted completely different.. I was stressed.. whats my first reaction to stress? - DIP!DIP!DIP! when that don't happen it's going to want another outlet somewhere? If i dont find one quickly it will manifest into anxiety! I just tried to go to a happy place in my head! Check my thread for that happy place.. I had a dream last night and thats where I went... any way it works for me.. I have not had one single antidepressant in over 9 years.. and let me tell you .. I am bi polar/adhd/hyperactive/alcoholic - in recovery! a drug addict! - shit thats a winning pedigree! - Gooch
Good honest stuff Gooch and much appreciated. I'm not on any antidepressants, just some anti anxiety stuff (that I don't think is working or at least not working "enough"). There are no anti depressant qualities to it, perhaps why he keeps uping the dossage everytime I complain it isn't working. Says he started me on a baby dose...
Funny thing was when I asked my doc about antidepressants he said "you aren't depressed, your ego has been hit hard and you haven't figured out how to deal with it yet". Thought that was some cold blooded shit at the time, couldn't believe he would say that to a mess like myself. The further along I get though I think maybe he was right.
Still think this med should be cutting the anxiety pain a bit more though. AND I WANT MY MOJO BACK!!!! Guess Ill have to get it back myself, not look for it in a pill.
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Since I quit 34 days ago my sex drive has been for shit. Wife used to get sick of me always trying to get some. Now she's like, what the hell. Is this normal? Maybe a by product of my anxiety? If so I hope its temporary. I used to be a horn dog. AND my kids are up north for a week!!!
Sorry dude my drive has gone through the roof for 55 yr. old not bad averaging 2 times per day. Sorry to brag but I'm loving it! If quitting did it for me I wish I'd done it yrs. ago. We are empty nesters so we've got lots of freedom.
WT is the man!!! - Stallion! Diesel honestly a side effect of antidepressants is loss of sex drive.. anxiety is a bitch.. has been for me too.. this is my experience only.. not for anyone else including you under dr's orders.. my entire life I have tried to fix myself with pills..potions.. liquids.. nothing worked.. I went to the dr's.. went to the shrink's.. and they tried to give me more aand different shit.. nothing worked... once a Dr prescribed chantix.. holy shit!! bad idea for a alcoholic..half baked..one balled cowboy! I seriously wanted to kill myself! I react differently than others do to the effects of most drugs...1) i have a very high tolerance 2) i have an addictive personality - if i like it, I'll take the whole damn bottle can't help it.. I totally believe that most dr's over prescribe shit I really don't need.. some folks do need it! and if they do it's OK.. for me anxiety is a part of giving up any drug.. i was seriously anxious today.. I had an appt with a husband wife.. getting divorced.. during the appt.. she went off on his ass. ( I sell real estate at auction). seeing a 60's something call her X a fucking idiots 10 times.. talk about his whore.. and God knows what else.. made me anxious and highly uncomfortable.. well I immediately wanted a dip! keep in mind I am no stranger to this.. this aint my first rodeo.. this shit happens! just today under my current situation.. my body reacted completely different.. I was stressed.. whats my first reaction to stress? - DIP!DIP!DIP! when that don't happen it's going to want another outlet somewhere? If i dont find one quickly it will manifest into anxiety! I just tried to go to a happy place in my head! Check my thread for that happy place.. I had a dream last night and thats where I went... any way it works for me.. I have not had one single antidepressant in over 9 years.. and let me tell you .. I am bi polar/adhd/hyperactive/alcoholic - in recovery! a drug addict! - shit thats a winning pedigree! - Gooch
Good honest stuff Gooch and much appreciated. I'm not on any antidepressants, just some anti anxiety stuff (that I don't think is working or at least not working "enough"). There are no anti depressant qualities to it, perhaps why he keeps uping the dossage everytime I complain it isn't working. Says he started me on a baby dose...
Funny thing was when I asked my doc about antidepressants he said "you aren't depressed, your ego has been hit hard and you haven't figured out how to deal with it yet". Thought that was some cold blooded shit at the time, couldn't believe he would say that to a mess like myself. The further along I get though I think maybe he was right.
Still think this med should be cutting the anxiety pain a bit more though. AND I WANT MY MOJO BACK!!!! Guess Ill have to get it back myself, not look for it in a pill.
OK I'll come clean! I'm on 2 antidepressants Wellbutrin and celexa and just before I quit I was so damn tired and down that's when I switched AD's after a time and still before I quit I could hardly drag my ass out of bed. Blood work showed low testoterone level and I started androgel T treatment I think that is where the sex drive got its boost. That shit is awesome. I never had a sexual problem before but now I'm ready to go at it everytime I see my wife! There have been a lot of other side effects also pm me for more info
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Don't know for sure what you have been doing Diesel, but I would suggest you up your physical exercise unless you are maxed out already. It helps me when I start feeling a little anxiety coming on. Stay quit my friend.
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Don't know for sure what you have been doing Diesel, but I would suggest you up your physical exercise unless you are maxed out already. It helps me when I start feeling a little anxiety coming on. Stay quit my friend.
100% right on this one. I gotta get my ass to the gym!!! I have a membership. Everything I read about anxiety says exercise is a key ingredient in combating it. Good advice. Thanks.
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Don't know for sure what you have been doing Diesel, but I would suggest you up your physical exercise unless you are maxed out already. It helps me when I start feeling a little anxiety coming on. Stay quit my friend.
100% right on this one. I gotta get my ass to the gym!!! I have a membership. Everything I read about anxiety says exercise is a key ingredient in combating it. Good advice. Thanks.
I will let you know from a guy that had pretty wild anxiety early on that exercise will kill it. Work up a good sweat every day and you will be fine.
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Don't know for sure what you have been doing Diesel, but I would suggest you up your physical exercise unless you are maxed out already. It helps me when I start feeling a little anxiety coming on. Stay quit my friend.
100% right on this one. I gotta get my ass to the gym!!! I have a membership. Everything I read about anxiety says exercise is a key ingredient in combating it. Good advice. Thanks.
I will let you know from a guy that had pretty wild anxiety early on that exercise will kill it. Work up a good sweat every day and you will be fine.
Thanks Greg. Did you do your exercise in the AM or the PM. Im sooo not a morning person but maybe I need to be? When I was going to gym it was at night. Probably doesn't matter WHEN as long as I knock it out but since you "killed it" just wondered when you went. Thanks again!
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I will let you know from a guy that had pretty wild anxiety early on that exercise will kill it. Work up a good sweat every day and you will be fine.
Thanks Greg.
Did you do your exercise in the AM or the PM. Im sooo not a morning person but maybe I need to be? When I was going to gym it was at night. Probably doesn't matter WHEN as long as I knock it out but since you "killed it" just wondered when you went. Thanks again!
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Don't know for sure what you have been doing Diesel, but I would suggest you up your physical exercise unless you are maxed out already. It helps me when I start feeling a little anxiety coming on. Stay quit my friend.
100% right on this one. I gotta get my ass to the gym!!! I have a membership. Everything I read about anxiety says exercise is a key ingredient in combating it. Good advice. Thanks.
I will let you know from a guy that had pretty wild anxiety early on that exercise will kill it. Work up a good sweat every day and you will be fine.
Thanks Greg. Did you do your exercise in the AM or the PM. Im sooo not a morning person but maybe I need to be? When I was going to gym it was at night. Probably doesn't matter WHEN as long as I knock it out but since you "killed it" just wondered when you went. Thanks again!
I will let you know from a guy that had pretty wild anxiety early on that exercise will kill it. Work up a good sweat every day and you will be fine.
Thanks Greg.
Did you do your exercise in the AM or the PM. Im sooo not a morning person but maybe I need to be? When I was going to gym it was at night. Probably doesn't matter WHEN as long as I knock it out but since you "killed it" just wondered when you went. Thanks again! [/QUOTE]
I worked out in the evening after work. I get to work very early in the morning and the gym did not seem like a good place for me at 0400.
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Well, made it to day 40. Sometimes I think, "WOW!!! 40 Days, that's awesome!" and sometimes I think "40 days??? That's it???"
I still am struggling a bit with this process. Dip still comsumes most of my thoughts. Not so much that I want to start back up again, but that I still struggle to feel "normal" and sometimes wonder if I will ever get there or what the hell normal even is now. I even still glamourize chew, especially at night when I used to sneak off and get my night cap in. Sometimes I beat the thought back quickly, other times I cannot.
I have good days and bad and even good half days and bad...sometimes I am Joe Positive and sometimes I am Debbie Downer. Sometimes I sleep like a rock and sometimes I barely sleep at all. I think consistency is what I crave most. Consistency of feeling "good".
When I take a step back and look at it though, I really am TRYING my ass off and have made progress. I'm on here a lot reading, I meet with a shrink once every 2-3 weeks and a counselor once a week, I am trying to eat right, I go to the gym now to help with my anxiety, I even jogged a mile around the track at the local high school yesterday. I am trying and will continue to fight.
I do have questions, mainly for the vets...is this "normal" to feel this way? 40 days in? Sometimes I think I'm depressed but my counselor and shrink say NO WAY as a depressed person would not go to the lengths I am going through to kick this addiction.
I guess what I'm looking for is some validation from guys who have been through this before that I really am on the right track, and that things really will get better. I know I am my own worst enemy as I allow negative thoughts to dominate my mind sometimes, but it really is hard to be "Joe Rah Rah" every day. I really do look forward to the day where I don't have to be "Joe Rah Rah" all day, but maybe for only a few brief moments throughout the day.
Anyway, I think Im sounding like big pussy but was just wondering if these are the thoughts of someone "on the right track".
Diesel2112
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Well, made it to day 40. Sometimes I think, "WOW!!! 40 Days, that's awesome!" and sometimes I think "40 days??? That's it???"
I still am struggling a bit with this process. Dip still comsumes most of my thoughts. Not so much that I want to start back up again, but that I still struggle to feel "normal" and sometimes wonder if I will ever get there or what the hell normal even is now. I even still glamourize chew, especially at night when I used to sneak off and get my night cap in. Sometimes I beat the thought back quickly, other times I cannot.
I have good days and bad and even good half days and bad...sometimes I am Joe Positive and sometimes I am Debbie Downer. Sometimes I sleep like a rock and sometimes I barely sleep at all. I think consistency is what I crave most. Consistency of feeling "good".
When I take a step back and look at it though, I really am TRYING my ass off and have made progress. I'm on here a lot reading, I meet with a shrink once every 2-3 weeks and a counselor once a week, I am trying to eat right, I go to the gym now to help with my anxiety, I even jogged a mile around the track at the local high school yesterday. I am trying and will continue to fight.
I do have questions, mainly for the vets...is this "normal" to feel this way? 40 days in? Sometimes I think I'm depressed but my counselor and shrink say NO WAY as a depressed person would not go to the lengths I am going through to kick this addiction.
I guess what I'm looking for is some validation from guys who have been through this before that I really am on the right track, and that things really will get better. I know I am my own worst enemy as I allow negative thoughts to dominate my mind sometimes, but it really is hard to be "Joe Rah Rah" every day. I really do look forward to the day where I don't have to be "Joe Rah Rah" all day, but maybe for only a few brief moments throughout the day.
Anyway, I think Im sounding like big pussy but was just wondering if these are the thoughts of someone "on the right track".
Diesel2112
40 days is awesome, but the most important day for you is today. That is the only one that really matters.
You are indeed on the right track.
It will be a while before you really understand how much this addiction consumed your life, and impacted those around you.
Don't get hung up on "normal".
Stay close to this site and connect with others, that will keep you strong in the fight. It does get easier.
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Well, made it to day 40. Sometimes I think, "WOW!!! 40 Days, that's awesome!" and sometimes I think "40 days??? That's it???"
I still am struggling a bit with this process. Dip still comsumes most of my thoughts. Not so much that I want to start back up again, but that I still struggle to feel "normal" and sometimes wonder if I will ever get there or what the hell normal even is now. I even still glamourize chew, especially at night when I used to sneak off and get my night cap in. Sometimes I beat the thought back quickly, other times I cannot.
I have good days and bad and even good half days and bad...sometimes I am Joe Positive and sometimes I am Debbie Downer. Sometimes I sleep like a rock and sometimes I barely sleep at all. I think consistency is what I crave most. Consistency of feeling "good".
When I take a step back and look at it though, I really am TRYING my ass off and have made progress. I'm on here a lot reading, I meet with a shrink once every 2-3 weeks and a counselor once a week, I am trying to eat right, I go to the gym now to help with my anxiety, I even jogged a mile around the track at the local high school yesterday. I am trying and will continue to fight.
I do have questions, mainly for the vets...is this "normal" to feel this way? 40 days in? Sometimes I think I'm depressed but my counselor and shrink say NO WAY as a depressed person would not go to the lengths I am going through to kick this addiction.
I guess what I'm looking for is some validation from guys who have been through this before that I really am on the right track, and that things really will get better. I know I am my own worst enemy as I allow negative thoughts to dominate my mind sometimes, but it really is hard to be "Joe Rah Rah" every day. I really do look forward to the day where I don't have to be "Joe Rah Rah" all day, but maybe for only a few brief moments throughout the day.Â
Anyway, I think Im sounding like big pussy but was just wondering if these are the thoughts of someone "on the right track".
Diesel2112
40 days is awesome, but the most important day for you is today. That is the only one that really matters.
You are indeed on the right track.
It will be a while before you really understand how much this addiction consumed your life, and impacted those around you.
Don't get hung up on "normal".
Stay close to this site and connect with others, that will keep you strong in the fight. It does get easier.
You are absolutely on the right track.
Keep doing what you are doing.
Post roll everyday first thing.
Keep your word.
I understand exactly what you wrote.
Here's the good part, You have no idea how great things will get. Even if I told you, You would think I was crazy.
You can do this.
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Well, made it to day 40. Sometimes I think, "WOW!!! 40 Days, that's awesome!" and sometimes I think "40 days??? That's it???"
I still am struggling a bit with this process. Dip still comsumes most of my thoughts. Not so much that I want to start back up again, but that I still struggle to feel "normal" and sometimes wonder if I will ever get there or what the hell normal even is now. I even still glamourize chew, especially at night when I used to sneak off and get my night cap in. Sometimes I beat the thought back quickly, other times I cannot.
I have good days and bad and even good half days and bad...sometimes I am Joe Positive and sometimes I am Debbie Downer. Sometimes I sleep like a rock and sometimes I barely sleep at all. I think consistency is what I crave most. Consistency of feeling "good".
When I take a step back and look at it though, I really am TRYING my ass off and have made progress. I'm on here a lot reading, I meet with a shrink once every 2-3 weeks and a counselor once a week, I am trying to eat right, I go to the gym now to help with my anxiety, I even jogged a mile around the track at the local high school yesterday. I am trying and will continue to fight.
I do have questions, mainly for the vets...is this "normal" to feel this way? 40 days in? Sometimes I think I'm depressed but my counselor and shrink say NO WAY as a depressed person would not go to the lengths I am going through to kick this addiction.
I guess what I'm looking for is some validation from guys who have been through this before that I really am on the right track, and that things really will get better. I know I am my own worst enemy as I allow negative thoughts to dominate my mind sometimes, but it really is hard to be "Joe Rah Rah" every day. I really do look forward to the day where I don't have to be "Joe Rah Rah" all day, but maybe for only a few brief moments throughout the day.Â
Anyway, I think Im sounding like big pussy but was just wondering if these are the thoughts of someone "on the right track".
Diesel2112
40 days is awesome, but the most important day for you is today. That is the only one that really matters.
You are indeed on the right track.
It will be a while before you really understand how much this addiction consumed your life, and impacted those around you.
Don't get hung up on "normal".
Stay close to this site and connect with others, that will keep you strong in the fight. It does get easier.
You are absolutely on the right track.
Keep doing what you are doing.
Post roll everyday first thing.
Keep your word.
I understand exactly what you wrote.
Here's the good part, You have no idea how great things will get. Even if I told you, You would think I was crazy.
You can do this.
Man you are definitely on the right track! I spent most of the days between 30-70 battling thoughts like you are. Constantly trying to figure out who I am! The addict kept me feeling sorry for myself. Then I would feel extremely proud of my accomplishments. Then I would have those days of being overwhelmed and really not giving a shit. Emotions have been like a rollercoaster ride. My highs and lows have begun to level out but finding the real me may take awhile, like most of us I haven't had adult days dip free! Don't try to over evaluate yourself, just start living and enjoying life without nicotine. Shit I'm sounding like someone that gave me advise 50 - 60 days ago!
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Well, made it to day 40. Sometimes I think, "WOW!!! 40 Days, that's awesome!" and sometimes I think "40 days??? That's it???"
I still am struggling a bit with this process. Dip still comsumes most of my thoughts. Not so much that I want to start back up again, but that I still struggle to feel "normal" and sometimes wonder if I will ever get there or what the hell normal even is now. I even still glamourize chew, especially at night when I used to sneak off and get my night cap in. Sometimes I beat the thought back quickly, other times I cannot.
I have good days and bad and even good half days and bad...sometimes I am Joe Positive and sometimes I am Debbie Downer. Sometimes I sleep like a rock and sometimes I barely sleep at all. I think consistency is what I crave most. Consistency of feeling "good".
When I take a step back and look at it though, I really am TRYING my ass off and have made progress. I'm on here a lot reading, I meet with a shrink once every 2-3 weeks and a counselor once a week, I am trying to eat right, I go to the gym now to help with my anxiety, I even jogged a mile around the track at the local high school yesterday. I am trying and will continue to fight.
I do have questions, mainly for the vets...is this "normal" to feel this way? 40 days in? Sometimes I think I'm depressed but my counselor and shrink say NO WAY as a depressed person would not go to the lengths I am going through to kick this addiction.
I guess what I'm looking for is some validation from guys who have been through this before that I really am on the right track, and that things really will get better. I know I am my own worst enemy as I allow negative thoughts to dominate my mind sometimes, but it really is hard to be "Joe Rah Rah" every day. I really do look forward to the day where I don't have to be "Joe Rah Rah" all day, but maybe for only a few brief moments throughout the day.Â
Anyway, I think Im sounding like big pussy but was just wondering if these are the thoughts of someone "on the right track".
Diesel2112
40 days is awesome, but the most important day for you is today. That is the only one that really matters.
You are indeed on the right track.
It will be a while before you really understand how much this addiction consumed your life, and impacted those around you.
Don't get hung up on "normal".
Stay close to this site and connect with others, that will keep you strong in the fight. It does get easier.
You are absolutely on the right track.
Keep doing what you are doing.
Post roll everyday first thing.
Keep your word.
I understand exactly what you wrote.
Here's the good part, You have no idea how great things will get. Even if I told you, You would think I was crazy.
You can do this.
Man you are definitely on the right track! I spent most of the days between 30-70 battling thoughts like you are. Constantly trying to figure out who I am! The addict kept me feeling sorry for myself. Then I would feel extremely proud of my accomplishments. Then I would have those days of being overwhelmed and really not giving a shit. Emotions have been like a rollercoaster ride. My highs and lows have begun to level out but finding the real me may take awhile, like most of us I haven't had adult days dip free! Don't try to over evaluate yourself, just start living and enjoying life without nicotine. Shit I'm sounding like someone that gave me advise 50 - 60 days ago!
Thanks guys. Got my ass kicked today by the bitch. I typically drive 5-6 hrs a day as I make deliveries/sales calls. Not one to leave a dip in for more than 15-20 mins, l used to chew about 10 times a day on my route, so I'm basically driving around in a moving trigger.
Surprisingly ive been doing well on my route, making it through each day and growing confidence. Today howevei got bitch slapped. The sweats, what felt like mini panic attacks without the racing heart rate, nausea, and pure fear and terror.
Had the xanax out a few times but resisted as I don't like taking that shit and have only done so once in the last 2 weeks.
Pulled over a few times, ate some fruit, slapped cold water on my face, did jumping jacks, yelled at myself and finally shit calmed down.
Problem is now I'm scared shitless to go to bed tonight and back to work tomorrow as I fear it will happen again. I don't want to do this every damn day. Sucks to as I feel ive taken a huge step backward. Has anyone else ever experienced something similar? If so did it become routine?
Thing that gets me is that throughout it all my brain remained somewhat calm and at no time did I consider caving. It was very odd, as if my body had a mind of its own, no matter what I tried my body was just going spazztic.
Cant wait to see what tomorrow brings...
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Grab some fake stuff to take with you tomorrow. What is worse, the fake or drugs?
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Grab some fake stuff to take with you tomorrow. What is worse, the fake or drugs?
Oh I had some Oregon mint with me. Normally it does a good job of soothing me. Today it just got over powered. I slept like shit last night. Gonna sack out early tonight and see if that helps.
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Grab some fake stuff to take with you tomorrow. What is worse, the fake or drugs?
Oh I had some Oregon mint with me. Normally it does a good job of soothing me. Today it just got over powered. I slept like shit last night. Gonna sack out early tonight and see if that helps.
Get some exercise first. Just not right before bed. Maybe a couple of hours before.
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Well, made it to day 40. Sometimes I think, "WOW!!! 40 Days, that's awesome!" and sometimes I think "40 days??? That's it???"
I still am struggling a bit with this process. Dip still comsumes most of my thoughts. Not so much that I want to start back up again, but that I still struggle to feel "normal" and sometimes wonder if I will ever get there or what the hell normal even is now. I even still glamourize chew, especially at night when I used to sneak off and get my night cap in. Sometimes I beat the thought back quickly, other times I cannot.
I have good days and bad and even good half days and bad...sometimes I am Joe Positive and sometimes I am Debbie Downer. Sometimes I sleep like a rock and sometimes I barely sleep at all. I think consistency is what I crave most. Consistency of feeling "good".
When I take a step back and look at it though, I really am TRYING my ass off and have made progress. I'm on here a lot reading, I meet with a shrink once every 2-3 weeks and a counselor once a week, I am trying to eat right, I go to the gym now to help with my anxiety, I even jogged a mile around the track at the local high school yesterday. I am trying and will continue to fight.
I do have questions, mainly for the vets...is this "normal" to feel this way? 40 days in? Sometimes I think I'm depressed but my counselor and shrink say NO WAY as a depressed person would not go to the lengths I am going through to kick this addiction.
I guess what I'm looking for is some validation from guys who have been through this before that I really am on the right track, and that things really will get better. I know I am my own worst enemy as I allow negative thoughts to dominate my mind sometimes, but it really is hard to be "Joe Rah Rah" every day. I really do look forward to the day where I don't have to be "Joe Rah Rah" all day, but maybe for only a few brief moments throughout the day.Â
Anyway, I think Im sounding like big pussy but was just wondering if these are the thoughts of someone "on the right track".
Diesel2112
40 days is awesome, but the most important day for you is today. That is the only one that really matters.
You are indeed on the right track.
It will be a while before you really understand how much this addiction consumed your life, and impacted those around you.
Don't get hung up on "normal".
Stay close to this site and connect with others, that will keep you strong in the fight. It does get easier.
You are absolutely on the right track.
Keep doing what you are doing.
Post roll everyday first thing.
Keep your word.
I understand exactly what you wrote.
Here's the good part, You have no idea how great things will get. Even if I told you, You would think I was crazy.
You can do this.
Man you are definitely on the right track! I spent most of the days between 30-70 battling thoughts like you are. Constantly trying to figure out who I am! The addict kept me feeling sorry for myself. Then I would feel extremely proud of my accomplishments. Then I would have those days of being overwhelmed and really not giving a shit. Emotions have been like a rollercoaster ride. My highs and lows have begun to level out but finding the real me may take awhile, like most of us I haven't had adult days dip free! Don't try to over evaluate yourself, just start living and enjoying life without nicotine. Shit I'm sounding like someone that gave me advise 50 - 60 days ago!
Thanks guys. Got my ass kicked today by the bitch. I typically drive 5-6 hrs a day as I make deliveries/sales calls. Not one to leave a dip in for more than 15-20 mins, l used to chew about 10 times a day on my route, so I'm basically driving around in a moving trigger.
Surprisingly ive been doing well on my route, making it through each day and growing confidence. Today howevei got bitch slapped. The sweats, what felt like mini panic attacks without the racing heart rate, nausea, and pure fear and terror.
Had the xanax out a few times but resisted as I don't like taking that shit and have only done so once in the last 2 weeks.
Pulled over a few times, ate some fruit, slapped cold water on my face, did jumping jacks, yelled at myself and finally shit calmed down.
Problem is now I'm scared shitless to go to bed tonight and back to work tomorrow as I fear it will happen again. I don't want to do this every damn day. Sucks to as I feel ive taken a huge step backward. Has anyone else ever experienced something similar? If so did it become routine?
Thing that gets me is that throughout it all my brain remained somewhat calm and at no time did I consider caving. It was very odd, as if my body had a mind of its own, no matter what I tried my body was just going spazztic.
Cant wait to see what tomorrow brings...
Can definitely relate to the anxiety problem. Actually get fucking scared about doing doing the most simple, basic shit. Sometimes feel like going back to the poison would be worth it if it would make me feel "normal" again. Then I remember how much I hated that fucking suck ass addicted "normal". Been quit about five months, not going back. Wish I could be more upbeat, know that you aren't the only one going through this. Stay strong.
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Don't know for sure what you have been doing Diesel, but I would suggest you up your physical exercise unless you are maxed out already. It helps me when I start feeling a little anxiety coming on. Stay quit my friend.
100% right on this one. I gotta get my ass to the gym!!! I have a membership. Everything I read about anxiety says exercise is a key ingredient in combating it. Good advice. Thanks.
Big D - Congrats on the 40!! Right behind you chugging away....
1st week in the gym (3 days)....feeling good about it and feel better before, during and after working out this week than when I was chewing and would hit the gym. Don't know why or if it is just mental, but I feel better from cardio to weights....now to keep it up!! :ph43r:
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Well, made it to day 40. Sometimes I think, "WOW!!! 40 Days, that's awesome!" and sometimes I think "40 days??? That's it???"
I still am struggling a bit with this process. Dip still comsumes most of my thoughts. Not so much that I want to start back up again, but that I still struggle to feel "normal" and sometimes wonder if I will ever get there or what the hell normal even is now. I even still glamourize chew, especially at night when I used to sneak off and get my night cap in. Sometimes I beat the thought back quickly, other times I cannot.
I have good days and bad and even good half days and bad...sometimes I am Joe Positive and sometimes I am Debbie Downer. Sometimes I sleep like a rock and sometimes I barely sleep at all. I think consistency is what I crave most. Consistency of feeling "good".
When I take a step back and look at it though, I really am TRYING my ass off and have made progress. I'm on here a lot reading, I meet with a shrink once every 2-3 weeks and a counselor once a week, I am trying to eat right, I go to the gym now to help with my anxiety, I even jogged a mile around the track at the local high school yesterday. I am trying and will continue to fight.
I do have questions, mainly for the vets...is this "normal" to feel this way? 40 days in? Sometimes I think I'm depressed but my counselor and shrink say NO WAY as a depressed person would not go to the lengths I am going through to kick this addiction.
I guess what I'm looking for is some validation from guys who have been through this before that I really am on the right track, and that things really will get better. I know I am my own worst enemy as I allow negative thoughts to dominate my mind sometimes, but it really is hard to be "Joe Rah Rah" every day. I really do look forward to the day where I don't have to be "Joe Rah Rah" all day, but maybe for only a few brief moments throughout the day.Â
Anyway, I think Im sounding like big pussy but was just wondering if these are the thoughts of someone "on the right track".
Diesel2112
40 days is awesome, but the most important day for you is today. That is the only one that really matters.
You are indeed on the right track.
It will be a while before you really understand how much this addiction consumed your life, and impacted those around you.
Don't get hung up on "normal".
Stay close to this site and connect with others, that will keep you strong in the fight. It does get easier.
You are absolutely on the right track.
Keep doing what you are doing.
Post roll everyday first thing.
Keep your word.
I understand exactly what you wrote.
Here's the good part, You have no idea how great things will get. Even if I told you, You would think I was crazy.
You can do this.
Man you are definitely on the right track! I spent most of the days between 30-70 battling thoughts like you are. Constantly trying to figure out who I am! The addict kept me feeling sorry for myself. Then I would feel extremely proud of my accomplishments. Then I would have those days of being overwhelmed and really not giving a shit. Emotions have been like a rollercoaster ride. My highs and lows have begun to level out but finding the real me may take awhile, like most of us I haven't had adult days dip free! Don't try to over evaluate yourself, just start living and enjoying life without nicotine. Shit I'm sounding like someone that gave me advise 50 - 60 days ago!
Thanks guys. Got my ass kicked today by the bitch. I typically drive 5-6 hrs a day as I make deliveries/sales calls. Not one to leave a dip in for more than 15-20 mins, l used to chew about 10 times a day on my route, so I'm basically driving around in a moving trigger.
Surprisingly ive been doing well on my route, making it through each day and growing confidence. Today howevei got bitch slapped. The sweats, what felt like mini panic attacks without the racing heart rate, nausea, and pure fear and terror.
Had the xanax out a few times but resisted as I don't like taking that shit and have only done so once in the last 2 weeks.
Pulled over a few times, ate some fruit, slapped cold water on my face, did jumping jacks, yelled at myself and finally shit calmed down.
Problem is now I'm scared shitless to go to bed tonight and back to work tomorrow as I fear it will happen again. I don't want to do this every damn day. Sucks to as I feel ive taken a huge step backward. Has anyone else ever experienced something similar? If so did it become routine?
Thing that gets me is that throughout it all my brain remained somewhat calm and at no time did I consider caving. It was very odd, as if my body had a mind of its own, no matter what I tried my body was just going spazztic.
Cant wait to see what tomorrow brings...
Can definitely relate to the anxiety problem. Actually get fucking scared about doing doing the most simple, basic shit. Sometimes feel like going back to the poison would be worth it if it would make me feel "normal" again. Then I remember how much I hated that fucking suck ass addicted "normal". Been quit about five months, not going back. Wish I could be more upbeat, know that you aren't the only one going through this. Stay strong.
Damn. Not exactly encouraging from someone 5 months quit. You on any mess for anxiety? Or were you? Are your episodes fewer and further in between at least? I need some hope my brother!!!! Hell even I 2 weeks ago couldn't sit down for more than 10 minutes but now can at least watch a movie. Guess we both gotta hang in there. Sucks but will be worth it.
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Don't know for sure what you have been doing Diesel, but I would suggest you up your physical exercise unless you are maxed out already. It helps me when I start feeling a little anxiety coming on. Stay quit my friend.
100% right on this one. I gotta get my ass to the gym!!! I have a membership. Everything I read about anxiety says exercise is a key ingredient in combating it. Good advice. Thanks.
Big D - Congrats on the 40!! Right behind you chugging away....
1st week in the gym (3 days)....feeling good about it and feel better before, during and after working out this week than when I was chewing and would hit the gym. Don't know why or if it is just mental, but I feel better from cardio to weights....now to keep it up!! :ph43r:
Yeah I was feeling good til today. Lets hope it was just a blip on the radar. Gonna go for a long walk. Getting tired of muscle heads and fat chicks on treadmils at the gym. Variety is good.
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Diesel -
Your bout with anxiety really struck a cord with me - I am on day 29 and it hit me like a fucking swinging barn door last night. I was actually feeling great last week and now I am ready to rip my teeth out.
My family and I had a great couple of days on drift boats in Swan Valley, Idaho. We all know that chew and fly fishing go hand in hand but I was totally satisfied without nicotine (I chewed hooch and smokey mountain throughout the day). I was like "man, I am in the clear" and then it hit me. We broke camp and were heading home (a 3 hour drive or so back home) and suddenly I had a panic attack. I was angry and scared and freaked out for no reason. That carried over into today - I went on a 5 mile trail run this morning but that didn't help much. I spent most of the day in bed. I got up and went for an hour hike up the mountain behind our house and felt a little better.
I made an appointment to see a psychiatrist next week because the emotional and mental swings are scaring the shit out of me and my family. I have been reluctant to do so but I don't what else to do.
All I can say, is that I stand with you and will stay quit with you. Hang in there - you are in my thoughtsm and prayers.
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Diesel -
Your bout with anxiety really struck a cord with me - I am on day 29 and it hit me like a fucking swinging barn door last night. I was actually feeling great last week and now I am ready to rip my teeth out.
My family and I had a great couple of days on drift boats in Swan Valley, Idaho. We all know that chew and fly fishing go hand in hand but I was totally satisfied without nicotine (I chewed hooch and smokey mountain throughout the day). I was like "man, I am in the clear" and then it hit me. We broke camp and were heading home (a 3 hour drive or so back home) and suddenly I had a panic attack. I was angry and scared and freaked out for no reason. That carried over into today - I went on a 5 mile trail run this morning but that didn't help much. I spent most of the day in bed. I got up and went for an hour hike up the mountain behind our house and felt a little better.
I made an appointment to see a psychiatrist next week because the emotional and mental swings are scaring the shit out of me and my family. I have been reluctant to do so but I don't what else to do.
All I can say, is that I stand with you and will stay quit with you. Hang in there - you are in my thoughtsm and prayers.
My anxiety hit about a week or so in. Going to a psychiatrist is smart. If they try to give you Neurotin DONT TAKE IT. It really hasn't helped me much as it wasn't made specifically for anxiety but my guy wont budge...just keeps upping the dosage. After speaking to my regular doctor he suggested I see another one for a 2nd opinion as even he said there's better meds out there for me.
Although anxiety is a pain. Try to remember it is all triggered by the nicotine. There's nothing "wrong" with YOU. That's a concept I had a tough time grasping. Once I did I was able to manage it better. Today was wacky though. Out of the blue it smacked me HARD. Did that to me about a week ago too but I beat it back and was grooving decently til today. Tomorrow though I gotta wake up and get back at it. I cant let it get me down. I must go on with LIFE.
Good luck at the psychiatrist. They are there to help. Keep up the good fight!
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Diesel -
Your bout with anxiety really struck a cord with me - I am on day 29 and it hit me like a fucking swinging barn door last night. I was actually feeling great last week and now I am ready to rip my teeth out.
My family and I had a great couple of days on drift boats in Swan Valley, Idaho. We all know that chew and fly fishing go hand in hand but I was totally satisfied without nicotine (I chewed hooch and smokey mountain throughout the day). I was like "man, I am in the clear" and then it hit me. We broke camp and were heading home (a 3 hour drive or so back home) and suddenly I had a panic attack. I was angry and scared and freaked out for no reason. That carried over into today - I went on a 5 mile trail run this morning but that didn't help much. I spent most of the day in bed. I got up and went for an hour hike up the mountain behind our house and felt a little better.
I made an appointment to see a psychiatrist next week because the emotional and mental swings are scaring the shit out of me and my family. I have been reluctant to do so but I don't what else to do.
All I can say, is that I stand with you and will stay quit with you. Hang in there - you are in my thoughtsm and prayers.
My anxiety hit about a week or so in. Going to a psychiatrist is smart. If they try to give you Neurotin DONT TAKE IT. It really hasn't helped me much as it wasn't made specifically for anxiety but my guy wont budge...just keeps upping the dosage. After speaking to my regular doctor he suggested I see another one for a 2nd opinion as even he said there's better meds out there for me.
Although anxiety is a pain. Try to remember it is all triggered by the nicotine. There's nothing "wrong" with YOU. That's a concept I had a tough time grasping. Once I did I was able to manage it better. Today was wacky though. Out of the blue it smacked me HARD. Did that to me about a week ago too but I beat it back and was grooving decently til today. Tomorrow though I gotta wake up and get back at it. I cant let it get me down. I must go on with LIFE.
Good luck at the psychiatrist. They are there to help. Keep up the good fight!
One more thing. Ive found that 100-200 jumping jacks works well to dull the anxiety. (For me anyway). Gets rid of that "fight or flight" adrenalin rather quickly sometimes.
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It's perfectly normal.
NO, It will not always be like this.
I have not had a serious crave in YEARS!
Life is so much better without being a slave to nicotine. That's a FACT.
It gets much much better.
You can do this.
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It's perfectly normal.
NO, It will not always be like this.
I have not had a serious crave in YEARS!
Life is so much better without being a slave to nicotine. That's a FACT.
It gets much much better.
You can do this.
THANKS!!! Glad I'm not crazy! Also good to hear confirmation the light at the end of the tunnel is not a myth!
Funny too how yesterday, day 40, was just AWFUL and full of anxiety. Yet today, day 41 has been the total opposite with minimal anxiety. Guess the ups and downs aren't a myth either. What a crazy fucked up ride this is. I look forward to getting through the tunnel someday.
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Note to self...don't read FinnBarr Hof speech when looking for inspiration. It scared me.
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It's perfectly normal.
NO, It will not always be like this.
I have not had a serious crave in YEARS!
Life is so much better without being a slave to nicotine. That's a FACT.
It gets much much better.
You can do this.
THANKS!!! Glad I'm not crazy! Also good to hear confirmation the light at the end of the tunnel is not a myth!
Funny too how yesterday, day 40, was just AWFUL and full of anxiety. Yet today, day 41 has been the total opposite with minimal anxiety. Guess the ups and downs aren't a myth either. What a crazy fucked up ride this is. I look forward to getting through the tunnel someday.
You will find that gradually your good days will overwhelm the bad days and the bad craving is replaced by cravings that are shorter in length and less sever in intensity. Never get comfortable in your quit to the point that you let your guard down. That evil nicotine bitch will be there to pounce on you.
I am finding that my craving is still there but in a different form, I fantisice about having that 1 dip just a memory dip to celebrate that I'm clean and that I can handle it now. I know that that is just what my addicted mind is trying to tell me so that I might slip and go back to feeding that addiction. THAT WILL NOT HAPPEN, I AM IN CONTROL TODAY AND I QUIT TODAY!!!!
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Note to self...don't read FinnBarr Hof speech when looking for inspiration. It scared me.
I hear ya Diesel, but that type of information...the truth... is what solidified my quit.
Everybody is different with what motivates them or inspires them. I think *most* people would prefer to hear more positive news about their quit. So that's how the majority of the people here respond to someone going through a crave or a rough spell.
I struggled at the start because of that. I wanted the truth rather than a pep talk. After sorting through thousands of posts I now know the battle never ends. There will not be a magical day with rainbows and unicorns when I will never have craves or have to worry about nicotine again.
My noobie personal opinion is that is why we see so many retreads who cave and come back after 200,300..600+ days quit. They bought into the theory that things get so much better that they don't need to fight for their quit.
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It's perfectly normal.
NO, It will not always be like this.
I have not had a serious crave in YEARS!
Life is so much better without being a slave to nicotine. That's a FACT.
It gets much much better.
You can do this.
THANKS!!! Glad I'm not crazy! Also good to hear confirmation the light at the end of the tunnel is not a myth!
Funny too how yesterday, day 40, was just AWFUL and full of anxiety. Yet today, day 41 has been the total opposite with minimal anxiety. Guess the ups and downs aren't a myth either. What a crazy fucked up ride this is. I look forward to getting through the tunnel someday.
You will find that gradually your good days will overwhelm the bad days and the bad craving is replaced by cravings that are shorter in length and less sever in intensity. Never get comfortable in your quit to the point that you let your guard down. That evil nicotine bitch will be there to pounce on you.
I am finding that my craving is still there but in a different form, I fantisice about having that 1 dip just a memory dip to celebrate that I'm clean and that I can handle it now. I know that that is just what my addicted mind is trying to tell me so that I might slip and go back to feeding that addiction. THAT WILL NOT HAPPEN, I AM IN CONTROL TODAY AND I QUIT TODAY!!!!
I'll second everything WT says there. The more craves you fight off, the more familiar you mind will be to the patterns used to fight the crave. I'm not sure they ever go away but you'll be better prepared and safer when they hit.
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It's perfectly normal.
NO, It will not always be like this.
I have not had a serious crave in YEARS!
Life is so much better without being a slave to nicotine. That's a FACT.
It gets much much better.
You can do this.
THANKS!!! Glad I'm not crazy! Also good to hear confirmation the light at the end of the tunnel is not a myth!
Funny too how yesterday, day 40, was just AWFUL and full of anxiety. Yet today, day 41 has been the total opposite with minimal anxiety. Guess the ups and downs aren't a myth either. What a crazy fucked up ride this is. I look forward to getting through the tunnel someday.
I 2nd this!!! This is me to the T! I have a good day - I hardly crave at all.. Then the next day! You better batten down the fucking hatch! It's gonna be wild!
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Took my son to football practice, then to a buddies for a sleep over. My wife has my daughter at the movies with her girlfriends and wont be home for hours. On the couch watching sports with my dog snuggled on my lap. Fuck you Kodiak bear. I don't need you to enjoy some alone time. You did stare my ass down pretty hard at 7-11 as I picked up some snacks on my way home, though. But, again...FUCK YOU!
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Took my son to football practice, then to a buddies for a sleep over. My wife has my daughter at the movies with her girlfriends and wont be home for hours. On the couch watching sports with my dog snuggled on my lap. Fuck you Kodiak bear. I don't need you to enjoy some alone time. You did stare my ass down pretty hard at 7-11 as I picked up some snacks on my way home, though. But, again...FUCK YOU!
Well done. Yell, Holler. Rough her up!
'clap'
You badass you.
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MOTHER FUCKER I swear that bear on the can was starring right at me!!!! And i was glarring at him too. Holy Fuck was it odd. The clerk who knows I'm quit ( hes probably sold me 1,000 cans before) says "Oh no. You said me sell you no more chew tobacco" . Fuck him too. I grabbed my slurpee, bag of fritos, and honey bun and left. Fuck them too. Fuck my anxiety meds too and fuck this AD med that makes me feel like shit as well. FUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK
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MOTHER FUCKER I swear that bear on the can was starring right at me!!!! And i was glarring at him too. Holy Fuck was it odd. The clerk who knows I'm quit ( hes probably sold me 1,000 cans before) says "Oh no. You said me sell you no more chew tobacco" . Fuck him too. I grabbed my slurpee, bag of fritos, and honey bun and left. Fuck them too. Fuck my anxiety meds too and fuck this AD med that makes me feel like shit as well. FUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK
Get it all out brother and next time poke that bear in the eye brother!
It is times like these that re-enforce your resolve and determination brother!
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MOTHER FUCKER I swear that bear on the can was starring right at me!!!! And i was glarring at him too. Holy Fuck was it odd. The clerk who knows I'm quit ( hes probably sold me 1,000 cans before) says "Oh no. You said me sell you no more chew tobacco" . Fuck him too. I grabbed my slurpee, bag of fritos, and honey bun and left. Fuck them too. Fuck my anxiety meds too and fuck this AD med that makes me feel like shit as well. FUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK
Get it all out brother and next time poke that bear in the eye brother!
It is times like these that re-enforce your resolve and determination brother!
A good bit of anger helped me a lot early on. You are still quit and that is what matters...
STAY QUIT
Greg
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MOTHER FUCKER I swear that bear on the can was starring right at me!!!! And i was glarring at him too. Holy Fuck was it odd. The clerk who knows I'm quit ( hes probably sold me 1,000 cans before) says "Oh no. You said me sell you no more chew tobacco" . Fuck him too. I grabbed my slurpee, bag of fritos, and honey bun and left. Fuck them too. Fuck my anxiety meds too and fuck this AD med that makes me feel like shit as well. FUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK
Get it all out brother and next time poke that bear in the eye brother!
It is times like these that re-enforce your resolve and determination brother!
A good bit of anger helped me a lot early on. You are still quit and that is what matters...
STAY QUIT
Greg
how about this...don't 'fuck him' don't 'fuck the AD med' and don't 'fuck them' But fuck tabacco, fuck this stupid little can we became a slave to. AND FUCK THIS ADDCITION
FU NICBITCH eat a dick
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MOTHER FUCKER I swear that bear on the can was starring right at me!!!! And i was glarring at him too. Holy Fuck was it odd. The clerk who knows I'm quit ( hes probably sold me 1,000 cans before) says "Oh no. You said me sell you no more chew tobacco" . Fuck him too. I grabbed my slurpee, bag of fritos, and honey bun and left. Fuck them too. Fuck my anxiety meds too and fuck this AD med that makes me feel like shit as well. FUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK
Get it all out brother and next time poke that bear in the eye brother!
It is times like these that re-enforce your resolve and determination brother!
A good bit of anger helped me a lot early on. You are still quit and that is what matters...
STAY QUIT
Greg
how about this...don't 'fuck him' don't 'fuck the AD med' and don't 'fuck them' But fuck tabacco, fuck this stupid little can we became a slave to. AND FUCK THIS ADDCITION
FU NICBITCH eat a dick
could not have said it better
FU UST
'Finger'
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MOTHER FUCKER I swear that bear on the can was starring right at me!!!! And i was glarring at him too. Holy Fuck was it odd. The clerk who knows I'm quit ( hes probably sold me 1,000 cans before) says "Oh no. You said me sell you no more chew tobacco" . Fuck him too. I grabbed my slurpee, bag of fritos, and honey bun and left. Fuck them too. Fuck my anxiety meds too and fuck this AD med that makes me feel like shit as well. FUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK
Get it all out brother and next time poke that bear in the eye brother!
It is times like these that re-enforce your resolve and determination brother!
A good bit of anger helped me a lot early on. You are still quit and that is what matters...
STAY QUIT
Greg
how about this...don't 'fuck him' don't 'fuck the AD med' and don't 'fuck them' But fuck tabacco, fuck this stupid little can we became a slave to. AND FUCK THIS ADDCITION
FU NICBITCH eat a dick
could not have said it better
FU UST
'Finger'
'Finger'I couldn't agree more!!! 'Finger'
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days. Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
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The best part of quitting for me has been the chance for me to become the person I should have been all along..the person my kids thought I was. We have all done shit we do not like... me included. I sat in the cancer ward watching my wife take chemo with a dip in my face. The thought haunts me daily.
I found this place, kept quitting each day and became the new me. The bad ass quitter that grabs life by the balls and enjoys things without my addiction. I had some wierd times early on, went to the doc all the time. Was convinced I was going to die, crazy anxiety, depression, you name it. I struggled through my early days but knew the only thing to do was to stay quit!!
Somewhere around day 200 things became much better. Not sure why they just did. I know now what it feels like to be free and I relish that feeling every morning. I enjoy my family more, enjoy time with my children, shit just enjoy waking up every day.
Keep fighting this!! It IS worth it...
STAY QUIT
Greg
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days. Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Straight from the bad ass heart!
Keep your resolve brother, remember nothing easy is worth having.
Be proud of how far you have come and believe me the changes are awesome!
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The best part of quitting for me has been the chance for me to become the person I should have been all along..the person my kids thought I was. We have all done shit we do not like... me included. I sat in the cancer ward watching my wife take chemo with a dip in my face. The thought haunts me daily.
I found this place, kept quitting each day and became the new me. The bad ass quitter that grabs life by the balls and enjoys things without my addiction. I had some wierd times early on, went to the doc all the time. Was convinced I was going to die, crazy anxiety, depression, you name it. I struggled through my early days but knew the only thing to do was to stay quit!!
Somewhere around day 200 things became much better. Not sure why they just did. I know now what it feels like to be free and I relish that feeling every morning. I enjoy my family more, enjoy time with my children, shit just enjoy waking up every day.
Keep fighting this!! It IS worth it...
STAY QUIT
Greg
Great post brother!
Always remember you cannot CHANGE the past just learn from it!
You are truly a badass quiter and proud to be quit with you!
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The best part of quitting for me has been the chance for me to become the person I should have been all along..the person my kids thought I was. We have all done shit we do not like... me included. I sat in the cancer ward watching my wife take chemo with a dip in my face. The thought haunts me daily.Â
I found this place, kept quitting each day and became the new me. The bad ass quitter that grabs life by the balls and enjoys things without my addiction. I had some wierd times early on, went to the doc all the time. Was convinced I was going to die, crazy anxiety, depression, you name it. I struggled through my early days but knew the only thing to do was to stay quit!!
Somewhere around day 200 things became much better. Not sure why they just did. I know now what it feels like to be free and I relish that feeling every morning. I enjoy my family more, enjoy time with my children, shit just enjoy waking up every day.
Keep fighting this!! It IS worth it...
STAY QUIT
Greg
Great post brother!
Always remember you cannot CHANGE the past just learn from it!
You are truly a badass quiter and proud to be quit with you!
Really appreciate the post.
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Anybody ever read the book "nic rag, a guide to quitting chewing tobacco"? I read a sample and it sounds horrible. I read Alan Carr's, "How to quit smoking the easy way" on the recommendation of Skoal Master and it was great. This other book just sounds awful and scary as hell! Just wondered if anyone had read it.
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Anybody ever read the book "nic rag, a guide to quitting chewing tobacco"? I read a sample and it sounds horrible. I read Alan Carr's, "How to quit smoking the easy way" on the recommendation of Skoal Master and it was great. This other book just sounds awful and scary as hell! Just wondered if anyone had read it.
holy crap somebody actually listened to lil ole me?? :o Glad you found that book helpful, I sure did.
Also regarding this
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Your saying "fuck you" to old you, to new you say "right fucking on brother." You are what you do. So if you wanna be that ass kicking mofo who motor boats therapists and plays with their kids and just generally kicks ass? then start doing those things. There isn't a switch that gets flipped that says " ok go do what you want, your all quit now" You just gotta step of the cliff and jump.
Your quit already, in this moment. Live your life the way you want to live it. Let go of the idea that there is some finish line of quit. The destination and the journey are the same thing Diesel. Like the man says " be the ball Danny" . Your free, you may not feel it yet but you are, and that is pretty fucking cool. Putting addiction before your family is what we all did. It's what all addicts do. Having the strength to realize it and take the steps to change it? Thats fucking courage man. That's pure badassery. Fuck nicotine, and fuck big tobacco and fuck addiction, Hooorah for freedom and for the courage to change, and the courage to live a real life. Today I'm quittin with Diesel
sM
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Anybody ever read the book "nic rag, a guide to quitting chewing tobacco"? I read a sample and it sounds horrible. I read Alan Carr's, "How to quit smoking the easy way" on the recommendation of Skoal Master and it was great. This other book just sounds awful and scary as hell! Just wondered if anyone had read it.
holy crap somebody actually listened to lil ole me?? :o Glad you found that book helpful, I sure did.
Also regarding this
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Your saying "fuck you" to old you, to new you say "right fucking on brother." You are what you do. So if you wanna be that ass kicking mofo who motor boats therapists and plays with their kids and just generally kicks ass? then start doing those things. There isn't a switch that gets flipped that says " ok go do what you want, your all quit now" You just gotta step of the cliff and jump.
Your quit already, in this moment. Live your life the way you want to live it. Let go of the idea that there is some finish line of quit. The destination and the journey are the same thing Diesel. Like the man says " be the ball Danny" . Your free, you may not feel it yet but you are, and that is pretty fucking cool. Putting addiction before your family is what we all did. It's what all addicts do. Having the strength to realize it and take the steps to change it? Thats fucking courage man. That's pure badassery. Fuck nicotine, and fuck big tobacco and fuck addiction, Hooorah for freedom and for the courage to change, and the courage to live a real life. Today I'm quittin with Diesel
sM
Sorry its Skoal MONSTER not Master, but the book was a good read. Thanks again!
You're right though. One of my biggest problems has been looking for the "end date" for my quit. Perhaps because I feel like I'm being punished, and when u get punished there is a set time when your punishment is over. Kind of like when I was a kid and got grounded....for say 3 days. It sucked, but at least I knew that after 3 days I would be "free" again, my lesson would be learned, and "normal life" would return.
This shit don't work like that and I COULD NOT ACCEPT THAT. I literally could not wrap my brain around that concept and although after 58 days I'm getting better at it, I still struggle with it. Some days I feel on top and in control. Other days I feel like a ping pong ball at the Olympics getting smashed around. This is a process though and I must keep that in mind.
FREEDOM from addiction is my ultimate goal and although there's no true timetable for it, ive got a decent jump on it and I'm not about to fuck it up now.
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Sorry its Skoal MONSTER not Master, but the book was a good read. Thanks again!
You're right though. One of my biggest problems has been looking for the "end date" for my quit. Perhaps because I feel like I'm being punished, and when u get punished there is a set time when your punishment is over. Kind of like when I was a kid and got grounded....for say 3 days. It sucked, but at least I knew that after 3 days I would be "free" again, my lesson would be learned, and "normal life" would return.
This shit don't work like that and I COULD NOT ACCEPT THAT. I literally could not wrap my brain around that concept and although after 58 days I'm getting better at it, I still struggle with it. Some days I feel on top and in control. Other days I feel like a ping pong ball at the Olympics getting smashed around. This is a process though and I must keep that in mind.
FREEDOM from addiction is my ultimate goal and although there's no true timetable for it, ive got a decent jump on it and I'm not about to fuck it up now.
Wow! You may not recognize the change diesel but I do! You sound like a completely different person than just a few weeks ago!! I'm proud to be on this journey with you.
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Sorry its Skoal MONSTER not Master, but the book was a good read. Thanks again!
You're right though. One of my biggest problems has been looking for the "end date" for my quit. Perhaps because I feel like I'm being punished, and when u get punished there is a set time when your punishment is over. Kind of like when I was a kid and got grounded....for say 3 days.  It sucked, but at least I knew that after 3 days I would be "free" again, my lesson would be learned, and "normal life" would return.
This shit don't work like that and I COULD NOT ACCEPT THAT. I literally could not wrap my brain around that concept and although after 58 days I'm getting better at it, I still struggle with it. Some days I feel on top and in control. Other days I feel like a ping pong ball at the Olympics getting smashed around. This is a process though and I must keep that in mind.
FREEDOM from addiction is my ultimate goal and although there's no true timetable for it, ive got a decent jump on it and I'm not about to fuck it up now.
Wow! You may not recognize the change diesel but I do! You sound like a completely different person than just a few weeks ago!! I'm proud to be on this journey with you.
Thanks WT. Got some new anxiety meds that actually work!!! Feeling much better physically now. Makes a difference on attitude as well.
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Sorry its Skoal MONSTER not Master, but the book was a good read. Thanks again!
You're right though. One of my biggest problems has been looking for the "end date" for my quit. Perhaps because I feel like I'm being punished, and when u get punished there is a set time when your punishment is over. Kind of like when I was a kid and got grounded....for say 3 days.  It sucked, but at least I knew that after 3 days I would be "free" again, my lesson would be learned, and "normal life" would return.
This shit don't work like that and I COULD NOT ACCEPT THAT. I literally could not wrap my brain around that concept and although after 58 days I'm getting better at it, I still struggle with it. Some days I feel on top and in control. Other days I feel like a ping pong ball at the Olympics getting smashed around. This is a process though and I must keep that in mind.
FREEDOM from addiction is my ultimate goal and although there's no true timetable for it, ive got a decent jump on it and I'm not about to fuck it up now.
Wow! You may not recognize the change diesel but I do! You sound like a completely different person than just a few weeks ago!! I'm proud to be on this journey with you.
Thanks WT. Got some new anxiety meds that actually work!!! Feeling much better physically now. Makes a difference on attitude as well.
Staying in control is mental. Whittle the problem down to something you can wrap your head around...one day at a time.
All that matters is today. Don't think about the future...not tomorrow or next week or next year. Just focus on today. Quitting is done one day at a time.
You got this, bro. I hate that you're taking pills, but I love that you are taking your quit so seriously that you were pro-active to get what you need to stay nic free.
PM me and I'll send my digits if you need them. But remember, I'm no trained therapist or anything...just a fellow quitter like you.
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Sorry its Skoal MONSTER not Master, but the book was a good read. Thanks again!
You're right though. One of my biggest problems has been looking for the "end date" for my quit. Perhaps because I feel like I'm being punished, and when u get punished there is a set time when your punishment is over. Kind of like when I was a kid and got grounded....for say 3 days.  It sucked, but at least I knew that after 3 days I would be "free" again, my lesson would be learned, and "normal life" would return.
This shit don't work like that and I COULD NOT ACCEPT THAT. I literally could not wrap my brain around that concept and although after 58 days I'm getting better at it, I still struggle with it. Some days I feel on top and in control. Other days I feel like a ping pong ball at the Olympics getting smashed around. This is a process though and I must keep that in mind.
FREEDOM from addiction is my ultimate goal and although there's no true timetable for it, ive got a decent jump on it and I'm not about to fuck it up now.
Wow! You may not recognize the change diesel but I do! You sound like a completely different person than just a few weeks ago!! I'm proud to be on this journey with you.
Thanks WT. Got some new anxiety meds that actually work!!! Feeling much better physically now. Makes a difference on attitude as well.
Staying in control is mental. Whittle the problem down to something you can wrap your head around...one day at a time.
All that matters is today. Don't think about the future...not tomorrow or next week or next year. Just focus on today. Quitting is done one day at a time.
You got this, bro. I hate that you're taking pills, but I love that you are taking your quit so seriously that you were pro-active to get what you need to stay nic free.
PM me and I'll send my digits if you need them. But remember, I'm no trained therapist or anything...just a fellow quitter like you.
I don't want to come across as an ass but I'm sick of people acting like taking antidepressants or anti-anxiety meds is a bad thing! Sometimes there are those of us that have chemical imbalances that can only be handled with meds!! I can't tell you how many times I've had people tell me to just man up and live with my depression. Those comments only made the situation worse because I felt like even a bigger failure because I literally Couldn't do it! Diesel again you don't even resemble the raging loon you first were! Some might say that was just a nic rage, I say BS. Anxiety, panic attacts and depression are all dangerous medical conditions that need to be taken seriously. Sometimes meds are the only way to deal with it! You wouldn't take insulin from a diabetic and say man up, or tell him sorry you are depending on a drug. Ok my rant and rage are over and I feel better! Diesel I quit with you today.
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Sorry its Skoal MONSTER not Master, but the book was a good read. Thanks again!
You're right though. One of my biggest problems has been looking for the "end date" for my quit. Perhaps because I feel like I'm being punished, and when u get punished there is a set time when your punishment is over. Kind of like when I was a kid and got grounded....for say 3 days.  It sucked, but at least I knew that after 3 days I would be "free" again, my lesson would be learned, and "normal life" would return.
This shit don't work like that and I COULD NOT ACCEPT THAT. I literally could not wrap my brain around that concept and although after 58 days I'm getting better at it, I still struggle with it. Some days I feel on top and in control. Other days I feel like a ping pong ball at the Olympics getting smashed around. This is a process though and I must keep that in mind.
FREEDOM from addiction is my ultimate goal and although there's no true timetable for it, ive got a decent jump on it and I'm not about to fuck it up now.
Wow! You may not recognize the change diesel but I do! You sound like a completely different person than just a few weeks ago!! I'm proud to be on this journey with you.
Thanks WT. Got some new anxiety meds that actually work!!! Feeling much better physically now. Makes a difference on attitude as well.
Staying in control is mental. Whittle the problem down to something you can wrap your head around...one day at a time.
All that matters is today. Don't think about the future...not tomorrow or next week or next year. Just focus on today. Quitting is done one day at a time.
You got this, bro. I hate that you're taking pills, but I love that you are taking your quit so seriously that you were pro-active to get what you need to stay nic free.
PM me and I'll send my digits if you need them. But remember, I'm no trained therapist or anything...just a fellow quitter like you.
I don't want to come across as an ass but I'm sick of people acting like taking antidepressants or anti-anxiety meds is a bad thing! Sometimes there are those of us that have chemical imbalances that can only be handled with meds!! I can't tell you how many times I've had people tell me to just man up and live with my depression. Those comments only made the situation worse because I felt like even a bigger failure because I literally Couldn't do it! Diesel again you don't even resemble the raging loon you first were! Some might say that was just a nic rage, I say BS. Anxiety, panic attacts and depression are all dangerous medical conditions that need to be taken seriously. Sometimes meds are the only way to deal with it! You wouldn't take insulin from a diabetic and say man up, or tell him sorry you are depending on a drug. Ok my rant and rage are over and I feel better! Diesel I quit with you today.
Good points. The important thing is staying quit and staying healthy. I'm quit with Diesel and WT...and all you other bad asses.
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Sorry its Skoal MONSTER not Master, but the book was a good read. Thanks again!
You're right though. One of my biggest problems has been looking for the "end date" for my quit. Perhaps because I feel like I'm being punished, and when u get punished there is a set time when your punishment is over. Kind of like when I was a kid and got grounded....for say 3 days.  It sucked, but at least I knew that after 3 days I would be "free" again, my lesson would be learned, and "normal life" would return.
This shit don't work like that and I COULD NOT ACCEPT THAT. I literally could not wrap my brain around that concept and although after 58 days I'm getting better at it, I still struggle with it. Some days I feel on top and in control. Other days I feel like a ping pong ball at the Olympics getting smashed around. This is a process though and I must keep that in mind.
FREEDOM from addiction is my ultimate goal and although there's no true timetable for it, ive got a decent jump on it and I'm not about to fuck it up now.
Wow! You may not recognize the change diesel but I do! You sound like a completely different person than just a few weeks ago!! I'm proud to be on this journey with you.
Thanks WT. Got some new anxiety meds that actually work!!! Feeling much better physically now. Makes a difference on attitude as well.
Staying in control is mental. Whittle the problem down to something you can wrap your head around...one day at a time.
All that matters is today. Don't think about the future...not tomorrow or next week or next year. Just focus on today. Quitting is done one day at a time.
You got this, bro. I hate that you're taking pills, but I love that you are taking your quit so seriously that you were pro-active to get what you need to stay nic free.
PM me and I'll send my digits if you need them. But remember, I'm no trained therapist or anything...just a fellow quitter like you.
I don't want to come across as an ass but I'm sick of people acting like taking antidepressants or anti-anxiety meds is a bad thing! Sometimes there are those of us that have chemical imbalances that can only be handled with meds!! I can't tell you how many times I've had people tell me to just man up and live with my depression. Those comments only made the situation worse because I felt like even a bigger failure because I literally Couldn't do it! Diesel again you don't even resemble the raging loon you first were! Some might say that was just a nic rage, I say BS. Anxiety, panic attacts and depression are all dangerous medical conditions that need to be taken seriously. Sometimes meds are the only way to deal with it! You wouldn't take insulin from a diabetic and say man up, or tell him sorry you are depending on a drug. Ok my rant and rage are over and I feel better! Diesel I quit with you today.
Good points. The important thing is staying quit and staying healthy. I'm quit with Diesel and WT...and all you other bad asses.
My body literally couldn't handle no nic. I tried like hell to get through it but could not as the anxiety was just too much...i was a physical and mental mess. I don't like being on meds either but you gotta do what you gotta do. Medicine plus talk therapy has really been helping me. My ultimate goal is to kick and handle this shit med free and am looking at the med route as short term. But as of now its really helping.
Every persons different, not only with their quit but with overall life experiences. Meds or no meds it don't matter as long as you're happy, productive and QUIT. That's my opinion anyway.
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Sorry its Skoal MONSTER not Master, but the book was a good read. Thanks again!
You're right though. One of my biggest problems has been looking for the "end date" for my quit. Perhaps because I feel like I'm being punished, and when u get punished there is a set time when your punishment is over. Kind of like when I was a kid and got grounded....for say 3 days.  It sucked, but at least I knew that after 3 days I would be "free" again, my lesson would be learned, and "normal life" would return.
This shit don't work like that and I COULD NOT ACCEPT THAT. I literally could not wrap my brain around that concept and although after 58 days I'm getting better at it, I still struggle with it. Some days I feel on top and in control. Other days I feel like a ping pong ball at the Olympics getting smashed around. This is a process though and I must keep that in mind.
FREEDOM from addiction is my ultimate goal and although there's no true timetable for it, ive got a decent jump on it and I'm not about to fuck it up now.
Wow! You may not recognize the change diesel but I do! You sound like a completely different person than just a few weeks ago!! I'm proud to be on this journey with you.
Thanks WT. Got some new anxiety meds that actually work!!! Feeling much better physically now. Makes a difference on attitude as well.
Staying in control is mental. Whittle the problem down to something you can wrap your head around...one day at a time.
All that matters is today. Don't think about the future...not tomorrow or next week or next year. Just focus on today. Quitting is done one day at a time.
You got this, bro. I hate that you're taking pills, but I love that you are taking your quit so seriously that you were pro-active to get what you need to stay nic free.
PM me and I'll send my digits if you need them. But remember, I'm no trained therapist or anything...just a fellow quitter like you.
I don't want to come across as an ass but I'm sick of people acting like taking antidepressants or anti-anxiety meds is a bad thing! Sometimes there are those of us that have chemical imbalances that can only be handled with meds!! I can't tell you how many times I've had people tell me to just man up and live with my depression. Those comments only made the situation worse because I felt like even a bigger failure because I literally Couldn't do it! Diesel again you don't even resemble the raging loon you first were! Some might say that was just a nic rage, I say BS. Anxiety, panic attacts and depression are all dangerous medical conditions that need to be taken seriously. Sometimes meds are the only way to deal with it! You wouldn't take insulin from a diabetic and say man up, or tell him sorry you are depending on a drug. Ok my rant and rage are over and I feel better! Diesel I quit with you today.
Good points. The important thing is staying quit and staying healthy. I'm quit with Diesel and WT...and all you other bad asses.
My body literally couldn't handle no nic. I tried like hell to get through it but could not as the anxiety was just too much...i was a physical and mental mess. I don't like being on meds either but you gotta do what you gotta do. Medicine plus talk therapy has really been helping me. My ultimate goal is to kick and handle this shit med free and am looking at the med route as short term. But as of now its really helping.
Every persons different, not only with their quit but with overall life experiences. Meds or no meds it don't matter as long as you're happy, productive and QUIT. That's my opinion anyway.
Agreed. Stay strong, stay quit.
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Sorry its Skoal MONSTER not Master, but the book was a good read. Thanks again!
You're right though. One of my biggest problems has been looking for the "end date" for my quit. Perhaps because I feel like I'm being punished, and when u get punished there is a set time when your punishment is over. Kind of like when I was a kid and got grounded....for say 3 days.  It sucked, but at least I knew that after 3 days I would be "free" again, my lesson would be learned, and "normal life" would return.
This shit don't work like that and I COULD NOT ACCEPT THAT. I literally could not wrap my brain around that concept and although after 58 days I'm getting better at it, I still struggle with it. Some days I feel on top and in control. Other days I feel like a ping pong ball at the Olympics getting smashed around. This is a process though and I must keep that in mind.
FREEDOM from addiction is my ultimate goal and although there's no true timetable for it, ive got a decent jump on it and I'm not about to fuck it up now.
Wow! You may not recognize the change diesel but I do! You sound like a completely different person than just a few weeks ago!! I'm proud to be on this journey with you.
Thanks WT. Got some new anxiety meds that actually work!!! Feeling much better physically now. Makes a difference on attitude as well.
Staying in control is mental. Whittle the problem down to something you can wrap your head around...one day at a time.
All that matters is today. Don't think about the future...not tomorrow or next week or next year. Just focus on today. Quitting is done one day at a time.
You got this, bro. I hate that you're taking pills, but I love that you are taking your quit so seriously that you were pro-active to get what you need to stay nic free.
PM me and I'll send my digits if you need them. But remember, I'm no trained therapist or anything...just a fellow quitter like you.
I don't want to come across as an ass but I'm sick of people acting like taking antidepressants or anti-anxiety meds is a bad thing! Sometimes there are those of us that have chemical imbalances that can only be handled with meds!! I can't tell you how many times I've had people tell me to just man up and live with my depression. Those comments only made the situation worse because I felt like even a bigger failure because I literally Couldn't do it! Diesel again you don't even resemble the raging loon you first were! Some might say that was just a nic rage, I say BS. Anxiety, panic attacts and depression are all dangerous medical conditions that need to be taken seriously. Sometimes meds are the only way to deal with it! You wouldn't take insulin from a diabetic and say man up, or tell him sorry you are depending on a drug. Ok my rant and rage are over and I feel better! Diesel I quit with you today.
Good points. The important thing is staying quit and staying healthy. I'm quit with Diesel and WT...and all you other bad asses.
My body literally couldn't handle no nic. I tried like hell to get through it but could not as the anxiety was just too much...i was a physical and mental mess. I don't like being on meds either but you gotta do what you gotta do. Medicine plus talk therapy has really been helping me. My ultimate goal is to kick and handle this shit med free and am looking at the med route as short term. But as of now its really helping.
Every persons different, not only with their quit but with overall life experiences. Meds or no meds it don't matter as long as you're happy, productive and QUIT. That's my opinion anyway.
Agreed. Stay strong, stay quit.
Glad you're getting the help you need Diesel, meds or no meds makes no difference in my book. I had to have them for a time myself. Good job brother!
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Almost six months in now and for the last three days anxiety and depression are kicking my ass...worst I've ever felt. No craves of any significance, just this feeling that my chest is going to explode. Sure, I'm losing my job and I spend way too much time worrying about three nearly grown kids, but there's not a person here that doesn't have some shit to deal with. Been "self medicating" with alcohol most of my adult life, haven't exercised seriously in years and just celebrated my 64th birthday. Wondering if what I'm going through really has anything to do with quitting dip. Any insights guys?
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Almost six months in now and for the last three days anxiety and depression are kicking my ass...worst I've ever felt. No craves of any significance, just this feeling that my chest is going to explode. Sure, I'm losing my job and I spend way too much time worrying about three nearly grown kids, but there's not a person here that doesn't have some shit to deal with. Been "self medicating" with alcohol most of my adult life, haven't exercised seriously in years and just celebrated my 64th birthday. Wondering if what I'm going through really has anything to do with quitting dip. Any insights guys?
First off I'm no doctor but I would venture to guess that after 6 months dip wouldn't Be the MAIN factor. Sounds like life has put a lot of shit on you're plate. My advice would to see a doctor and perhaps he could recommend a psychologist / psychiatrist for either some meds or talk therapy. (Talk therapy worked waaaaay more then I ever imagined). That combo has worked wonders for me, but all my problems were related to quitting dip. Everyones situation is different but I would highly recommend seeing a doctor.
Just my 2 cents...best of luck!!!!
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I'm no Dr. either,but my family has suffered from anxiety and depression as well. My sister and Father have been on meds their whole lives. I think it is slowly killed my father over the years. I hate pharm. companies as much as tobacco. they work together to screw everybody up. all about the coin. Trying to keep on point I agree a therapist would be a good place to start. Just be careful if they try to give you meds. They're as dangerous as nic. Quit with you!
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I'm no Dr. either,but my family has suffered from anxiety and depression as well. My sister and Father have been on meds their whole lives. I think it is slowly killed my father over the years. I hate pharm. companies as much as tobacco. they work together to screw everybody up. all about the coin. Trying to keep on point I agree a therapist would be a good place to start. Just be careful if they try to give you meds. They're as dangerous as nic. Quit with you!
Like I said every situation is different but I know for me personally if not for anti anxiety meds I would be back on the worm dirt right now. I'm already decreasing dosage and eventually plan on being med free, so this is a short term "assist" to help me after my body/brain went haywire after it was deprived of nic after 15 years. Doesn't happen to everyone, guess I was just one of the "luck " ones.
My Doc made a good point to me after I told him I was afraid of meds. He said think of someone out there feeling like crap, losing weight like crazy, always tired, etc and finally one day they go to the doctor and they find out they are diabetic and for the rest of their life they have to take insilin shots to live. Is there anything wrong with that? He said same thing for certain people when it comes to depression or other mental issues. Properly dosed, closely monitored, and not abused meds can allow people to live perfectly normal lives they otherwise not have been able to enjoy without them.
Again I'm no doctor and I know every situation is different and I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong, just giving my 2 cents. I'm quit with every motherfucker on here who posts roll daily!!!
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I'm no Dr. either,but my family has suffered from anxiety and depression as well. My sister and Father have been on meds their whole lives. I think it is slowly killed my father over the years. I hate pharm. companies as much as tobacco. they work together to screw everybody up. all about the coin. Trying to keep on point I agree a therapist would be a good place to start. Just be careful if they try to give you meds. They're as dangerous as nic. Quit with you!
Like I said every situation is different but I know for me personally if not for anti anxiety meds I would be back on the worm dirt right now. I'm already decreasing dosage and eventually plan on being med free, so this is a short term "assist" to help me after my body/brain went haywire after it was deprived of nic after 15 years. Doesn't happen to everyone, guess I was just one of the "luck " ones.
My Doc made a good point to me after I told him I was afraid of meds. He said think of someone out there feeling like crap, losing weight like crazy, always tired, etc and finally one day they go to the doctor and they find out they are diabetic and for the rest of their life they have to take insilin shots to live. Is there anything wrong with that? He said same thing for certain people when it comes to depression or other mental issues. Properly dosed, closely monitored, and not abused meds can allow people to live perfectly normal lives they otherwise not have been able to enjoy without them.
Again I'm no doctor and I know every situation is different and I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong, just giving my 2 cents. I'm quit with every motherfucker on here who posts roll daily!!!
Some meds are needed absolutely. some meds work absolutely, and everyone is different. When it comes to these type of meds all they are doing is guessing. My fathers meds were changed monthly for the past 15 years and it's turned into dementia. If your on a med that works great! Just don't let them flop you around on different types. It's not good for you. My Dr. put me on meds, and one day I blacked out. Smacked my head on the concrete. concussion bla bla. It was the side effect from the med. I stopped taking them immediately.
The symptoms I thought I was helping have actually
diminished since my quit. I truly believe all my problems were directly caused by the nic bitch. I feel so much calmer now. Everybody is different. I think it just takes longer for some people to feel the benefits but they're there. You will feel better with each passing day my friend.
Quit with you!
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I'm no Dr. either,but my family has suffered from anxiety and depression as well. My sister and Father have been on meds their whole lives. I think it is slowly killed my father over the years. I hate pharm. companies as much as tobacco. they work together to screw everybody up. all about the coin. Trying to keep on point I agree a therapist would be a good place to start. Just be careful if they try to give you meds. They're as dangerous as nic. Quit with you!
Like I said every situation is different but I know for me personally if not for anti anxiety meds I would be back on the worm dirt right now. I'm already decreasing dosage and eventually plan on being med free, so this is a short term "assist" to help me after my body/brain went haywire after it was deprived of nic after 15 years. Doesn't happen to everyone, guess I was just one of the "luck " ones.
My Doc made a good point to me after I told him I was afraid of meds. He said think of someone out there feeling like crap, losing weight like crazy, always tired, etc and finally one day they go to the doctor and they find out they are diabetic and for the rest of their life they have to take insilin shots to live. Is there anything wrong with that? He said same thing for certain people when it comes to depression or other mental issues. Properly dosed, closely monitored, and not abused meds can allow people to live perfectly normal lives they otherwise not have been able to enjoy without them.
Again I'm no doctor and I know every situation is different and I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong, just giving my 2 cents. I'm quit with every motherfucker on here who posts roll daily!!!
Some meds are needed absolutely. some meds work absolutely, and everyone is different. When it comes to these type of meds all they are doing is guessing. My fathers meds were changed monthly for the past 15 years and it's turned into dementia. If your on a med that works great! Just don't let them flop you around on different types. It's not good for you. My Dr. put me on meds, and one day I blacked out. Smacked my head on the concrete. concussion bla bla. It was the side effect from the med. I stopped taking them immediately.
The symptoms I thought I was helping have actually
diminished since my quit. I truly believe all my problems were directly caused by the nic bitch. I feel so much calmer now. Everybody is different. I think it just takes longer for some people to feel the benefits but they're there. You will feel better with each passing day my friend.
Quit with you!
I am no doctor either but I have put quite a few of their kids through school! As for my two cents if it weren't for antidepressants I would be dead today! They're good Medications and they're bad medications they're good doctors are bad doctors! Just be careful make wise decisions. Brain chemistry is an interesting subject
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I'm no Dr. either,but my family has suffered from anxiety and depression as well. My sister and Father have been on meds their whole lives. I think it is slowly killed my father over the years. I hate pharm. companies as much as tobacco. they work together to screw everybody up. all about the coin. Trying to keep on point I agree a therapist would be a good place to start. Just be careful if they try to give you meds. They're as dangerous as nic. Quit with you!
Like I said every situation is different but I know for me personally if not for anti anxiety meds I would be back on the worm dirt right now. I'm already decreasing dosage and eventually plan on being med free, so this is a short term "assist" to help me after my body/brain went haywire after it was deprived of nic after 15 years. Doesn't happen to everyone, guess I was just one of the "luck " ones.
My Doc made a good point to me after I told him I was afraid of meds. He said think of someone out there feeling like crap, losing weight like crazy, always tired, etc and finally one day they go to the doctor and they find out they are diabetic and for the rest of their life they have to take insilin shots to live. Is there anything wrong with that? He said same thing for certain people when it comes to depression or other mental issues. Properly dosed, closely monitored, and not abused meds can allow people to live perfectly normal lives they otherwise not have been able to enjoy without them.
Again I'm no doctor and I know every situation is different and I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong, just giving my 2 cents. I'm quit with every motherfucker on here who posts roll daily!!!
Some meds are needed absolutely. some meds work absolutely, and everyone is different. When it comes to these type of meds all they are doing is guessing. My fathers meds were changed monthly for the past 15 years and it's turned into dementia. If your on a med that works great! Just don't let them flop you around on different types. It's not good for you. My Dr. put me on meds, and one day I blacked out. Smacked my head on the concrete. concussion bla bla. It was the side effect from the med. I stopped taking them immediately.
The symptoms I thought I was helping have actually
diminished since my quit. I truly believe all my problems were directly caused by the nic bitch. I feel so much calmer now. Everybody is different. I think it just takes longer for some people to feel the benefits but they're there. You will feel better with each passing day my friend.
Quit with you!
I am no doctor either but I have put quite a few of their kids through school! As for my two cents if it weren't for antidepressants I would be dead today! They're good Medications and they're bad medications they're good doctors are bad doctors! Just be careful make wise decisions. Brain chemistry is an interesting subject
I appreciate you guys taking the time to reply. I'm leery of medications, not exactly in awe of the medical profession in general. Believe I'll lay off the booze and get some exercise in. If that doesn't do the trick guess I'll find a shrink. Thanks again. Stay quit.
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I'm no Dr. either,but my family has suffered from anxiety and depression as well. My sister and Father have been on meds their whole lives. I think it is slowly killed my father over the years. I hate pharm. companies as much as tobacco. they work together to screw everybody up. all about the coin. Trying to keep on point I agree a therapist would be a good place to start. Just be careful if they try to give you meds. They're as dangerous as nic. Quit with you!
Like I said every situation is different but I know for me personally if not for anti anxiety meds I would be back on the worm dirt right now. I'm already decreasing dosage and eventually plan on being med free, so this is a short term "assist" to help me after my body/brain went haywire after it was deprived of nic after 15 years. Doesn't happen to everyone, guess I was just one of the "luck " ones.
My Doc made a good point to me after I told him I was afraid of meds. He said think of someone out there feeling like crap, losing weight like crazy, always tired, etc and finally one day they go to the doctor and they find out they are diabetic and for the rest of their life they have to take insilin shots to live. Is there anything wrong with that? He said same thing for certain people when it comes to depression or other mental issues. Properly dosed, closely monitored, and not abused meds can allow people to live perfectly normal lives they otherwise not have been able to enjoy without them.
Again I'm no doctor and I know every situation is different and I'm not saying anyone is right or wrong, just giving my 2 cents. I'm quit with every motherfucker on here who posts roll daily!!!
Some meds are needed absolutely. some meds work absolutely, and everyone is different. When it comes to these type of meds all they are doing is guessing. My fathers meds were changed monthly for the past 15 years and it's turned into dementia. If your on a med that works great! Just don't let them flop you around on different types. It's not good for you. My Dr. put me on meds, and one day I blacked out. Smacked my head on the concrete. concussion bla bla. It was the side effect from the med. I stopped taking them immediately.
The symptoms I thought I was helping have actually
diminished since my quit. I truly believe all my problems were directly caused by the nic bitch. I feel so much calmer now. Everybody is different. I think it just takes longer for some people to feel the benefits but they're there. You will feel better with each passing day my friend.
Quit with you!
I am no doctor either but I have put quite a few of their kids through school! As for my two cents if it weren't for antidepressants I would be dead today! They're good Medications and they're bad medications they're good doctors are bad doctors! Just be careful make wise decisions. Brain chemistry is an interesting subject
I appreciate you guys taking the time to reply. I'm leery of medications, not exactly in awe of the medical profession in general. Believe I'll lay off the booze and get some exercise in. If that doesn't do the trick guess I'll find a shrink. Thanks again. Stay quit.
hey Duke dog,
i have dealt with anxiety and panic attacks for years. I have had some pretty intense ones that even sent me to the hospital. I thought that I could handle them on my own but they only managed to get worse. They got to the point where I would have them everyday and was starting to interfere with everyday life. The best thing I did was see my doctor and he prescribed me a low dose of lorazepam to help with the panic attacks. It has helped me tremendously. i can't say you will get rid of it for life but there are options for you deal with the suffering.
Kstamp
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Wow what a weekend. I think I will remember it for the rest of my life. "Old me" would have went through 3-4 cans this weekend as a zillion of my old "must dips" were thrown at me one after another. Home alone, long drives, late night with my boys, golfing, etc...Did them all without even a crave and the one word I keep thinking of to describe how I feel is PROUD.
Proud that finally after 70 days I KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT I DONT NEED DIP. I have been told that but I don't think I 100% believed it until today. I know I'm not "cured" and my guard is still up but God Dammit I have confidence now. The more shit I do without dip my brain says "see asshole you don't need that shit" and my pride and confidence grow a little more. I'm finally realizing that I'm quitting for ME. Not my wife, not my kids, not my family but for ME. I don't think I truly beloved that until today either. (I know, I'm a dope).
My quit road has been bumpy to say the least but today I honestly think ive turned a corner where the road ahead looks a little more smooth. I know there may be pitfalls ahead but I'm extremely proud and excited to head down this new road! Thanks to all the cats on here who have kept me between the white lines. For awhile there I thought I was gonna end up road kill on the side of the road. But not now, I'm gonna fucking own this road with all of you!!!
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Wow what a weekend. I think I will remember it for the rest of my life. "Old me" would have went through 3-4 cans this weekend as a zillion of my old "must dips" were thrown at me one after another. Home alone, long drives, late night with my boys, golfing, etc...Did them all without even a crave and the one word I keep thinking of to describe how I feel is PROUD.
Proud that finally after 70 days I KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT I DONT NEED DIP. I have been told that but I don't think I 100% believed it until today. I know I'm not "cured" and my guard is still up but God Dammit I have confidence now. The more shit I do without dip my brain says "see asshole you don't need that shit" and my pride and confidence grow a little more. I'm finally realizing that I'm quitting for ME. Not my wife, not my kids, not my family but for ME. I don't think I truly beloved that until today either. (I know, I'm a dope).
My quit road has been bumpy to say the least but today I honestly think ive turned a corner where the road ahead looks a little more smooth. I know there may be pitfalls ahead but I'm extremely proud and excited to head down this new road! Thanks to all the cats on here who have kept me between the white lines. For awhile there I thought I was gonna end up road kill on the side of the road. But not now, I'm gonna fucking own this road with all of you!!!
Diesel.. Now that was a killer FUCKING post!! Hell Yeah!! You just gave me an entire handful of QUIT! Last few days I don't know? I haven't really been craving? But I have been bored as hell? Kind of a dangerous place for me.. Then I read your post here My full resolve is back.. Thanks Man.. Keep Posting! Gooch
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Wow what a weekend. I think I will remember it for the rest of my life. "Old me" would have went through 3-4 cans this weekend as a zillion of my old "must dips" were thrown at me one after another. Home alone, long drives, late night with my boys, golfing, etc...Did them all without even a crave and the one word I keep thinking of to describe how I feel is PROUD.
Proud that finally after 70 days I KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT I DONT NEED DIP. I have been told that but I don't think I 100% believed it until today. I know I'm not "cured" and my guard is still up but God Dammit I have confidence now. The more shit I do without dip my brain says "see asshole you don't need that shit" and my pride and confidence grow a little more. I'm finally realizing that I'm quitting for ME. Not my wife, not my kids, not my family but for ME. I don't think I truly beloved that until today either. (I know, I'm a dope).
My quit road has been bumpy to say the least but today I honestly think ive turned a corner where the road ahead looks a little more smooth. I know there may be pitfalls ahead but I'm extremely proud and excited to head down this new road! Thanks to all the cats on here who have kept me between the white lines. For awhile there I thought I was gonna end up road kill on the side of the road. But not now, I'm gonna fucking own this road with all of you!!!
Diesel.. Now that was a killer FUCKING post!! Hell Yeah!! You just gave me an entire handful of QUIT! Last few days I don't know? I haven't really been craving? But I have been bored as hell? Kind of a dangerous place for me.. Then I read your post here My full resolve is back.. Thanks Man.. Keep Posting! Gooch
Time, Pride, and Confidence are quite a trio for a successful quit, at least they have been for me. When they all come together at once you feel like king fucking kong. However, as we all know there will be times when we may question parts of this trio, and perhaps not feel so prideful or confident in our quit as the nic whore is well...a whore. That's when you turn to the crazy ass mofos on this site for some encouragement or words of wisdom to get us back on track. We all are fighting the same demon, and we can all beat the fuck of it too if we stick together. Start to stray, and the fight becomes tougher one on one. That's my thoughts on it anyway.
You're a bad mama jama Gooch, You got this shit. I'm quit with you brother, through the good times and the bad!!! Needing nic is a MYTH and I know that me, you, and any other person who posts role daily are the TRUTH. And as someone famous once said, "The truth shall set you free!!!" Not sure about anybody else but I dig the fuck out of freedom.
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Wow what a weekend. I think I will remember it for the rest of my life. "Old me" would have went through 3-4 cans this weekend as a zillion of my old "must dips" were thrown at me one after another. Home alone, long drives, late night with my boys, golfing, etc...Did them all without even a crave and the one word I keep thinking of to describe how I feel is PROUD.
Proud that finally after 70 days I KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT I DONT NEED DIP. I have been told that but I don't think I 100% believed it until today. I know I'm not "cured" and my guard is still up but God Dammit I have confidence now. The more shit I do without dip my brain says "see asshole you don't need that shit" and my pride and confidence grow a little more. I'm finally realizing that I'm quitting for ME. Not my wife, not my kids, not my family but for ME. I don't think I truly beloved that until today either. (I know, I'm a dope).
My quit road has been bumpy to say the least but today I honestly think ive turned a corner where the road ahead looks a little more smooth. I know there may be pitfalls ahead but I'm extremely proud and excited to head down this new road! Thanks to all the cats on here who have kept me between the white lines. For awhile there I thought I was gonna end up road kill on the side of the road. But not now, I'm gonna fucking own this road with all of you!!!
Diesel.. Now that was a killer FUCKING post!! Hell Yeah!! You just gave me an entire handful of QUIT! Last few days I don't know? I haven't really been craving? But I have been bored as hell? Kind of a dangerous place for me.. Then I read your post here My full resolve is back.. Thanks Man.. Keep Posting! Gooch
Time, Pride, and Confidence are quite a trio for a successful quit, at least they have been for me. When they all come together at once you feel like king fucking kong. However, as we all know there will be times when we may question parts of this trio, and perhaps not feel so prideful or confident in our quit as the nic whore is well...a whore. That's when you turn to the crazy ass mofos on this site for some encouragement or words of wisdom to get us back on track. We all are fighting the same demon, and we can all beat the fuck of it too if we stick together. Start to stray, and the fight becomes tougher one on one. That's my thoughts on it anyway.
You're a bad mama jama Gooch, You got this shit. I'm quit with you brother, through the good times and the bad!!! Needing nic is a MYTH and I know that me, you, and any other person who posts role daily are the TRUTH. And as someone famous once said, "The truth shall set you free!!!" Not sure about anybody else but I dig the fuck out of freedom.
I loved reading this post Diesel......you have gone through some shit in your quit journey. You have big brass ones my friend and looks to me you have reached a new point in your quit. The kind of moment that defines everything as "before" this moment and "after" this moment. It's like sunshine bursting through the clouds. I'm glad that you have begun to experience the joys of quitting and the sense of pride and accomplishment that comes along with it instead of the anxiety and misery that you were dealing with prior. Remember bro - any dumb shit can dip. Only bad mfers can quit. Consider yourself a bad mfer sir.
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Wow what a weekend. I think I will remember it for the rest of my life. "Old me" would have went through 3-4 cans this weekend as a zillion of my old "must dips" were thrown at me one after another. Home alone, long drives, late night with my boys, golfing, etc...Did them all without even a crave and the one word I keep thinking of to describe how I feel is PROUD.
Proud that finally after 70 days I KNOW FOR A FUCKING FACT I DONT NEED DIP. I have been told that but I don't think I 100% believed it until today. I know I'm not "cured" and my guard is still up but God Dammit I have confidence now. The more shit I do without dip my brain says "see asshole you don't need that shit" and my pride and confidence grow a little more. I'm finally realizing that I'm quitting for ME. Not my wife, not my kids, not my family but for ME. I don't think I truly beloved that until today either. (I know, I'm a dope).
My quit road has been bumpy to say the least but today I honestly think ive turned a corner where the road ahead looks a little more smooth. I know there may be pitfalls ahead but I'm extremely proud and excited to head down this new road! Thanks to all the cats on here who have kept me between the white lines. For awhile there I thought I was gonna end up road kill on the side of the road. But not now, I'm gonna fucking own this road with all of you!!!
Diesel.. Now that was a killer FUCKING post!! Hell Yeah!! You just gave me an entire handful of QUIT! Last few days I don't know? I haven't really been craving? But I have been bored as hell? Kind of a dangerous place for me.. Then I read your post here My full resolve is back.. Thanks Man.. Keep Posting! Gooch
Time, Pride, and Confidence are quite a trio for a successful quit, at least they have been for me. When they all come together at once you feel like king fucking kong. However, as we all know there will be times when we may question parts of this trio, and perhaps not feel so prideful or confident in our quit as the nic whore is well...a whore. That's when you turn to the crazy ass mofos on this site for some encouragement or words of wisdom to get us back on track. We all are fighting the same demon, and we can all beat the fuck of it too if we stick together. Start to stray, and the fight becomes tougher one on one. That's my thoughts on it anyway.
You're a bad mama jama Gooch, You got this shit. I'm quit with you brother, through the good times and the bad!!! Needing nic is a MYTH and I know that me, you, and any other person who posts role daily are the TRUTH. And as someone famous once said, "The truth shall set you free!!!" Not sure about anybody else but I dig the fuck out of freedom.
I loved reading this post Diesel......you have gone through some shit in your quit journey. You have big brass ones my friend and looks to me you have reached a new point in your quit. The kind of moment that defines everything as "before" this moment and "after" this moment. It's like sunshine bursting through the clouds. I'm glad that you have begun to experience the joys of quitting and the sense of pride and accomplishment that comes along with it instead of the anxiety and misery that you were dealing with prior. Remember bro - any dumb shit can dip. Only bad mfers can quit. Consider yourself a bad mfer sir.
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Always have hated funerals. Wifes Grandpa passed a few days ago and the funeral is tomorrow and Saturday, Im freaking out already. I need to be a rock for her but feel like mush. Anxiety is back (not as bad) and my confidence is in the shitter. No thoughts of caving but cant believe how this is bugging me. Guess its just another hurddle on the quit road. Wish me luck boys, Im gonna need it!!!
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Always have hated funerals. Wifes Grandpa passed a few days ago and the funeral is tomorrow and Saturday, Im freaking out already. I need to be a rock for her but feel like mush. Anxiety is back (not as bad) and my confidence is in the shitter. No thoughts of caving but cant believe how this is bugging me. Guess its just another hurddle on the quit road. Wish me luck boys, Im gonna need it!!!
Read what you wrote a couple days ago in this thread......that is who you are now.....remember it.
I am sorry for the loss your family has suffered - I lost my grandfather right before Christmas last year - it sucks.
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Always have hated funerals. Wifes Grandpa passed a few days ago and the funeral is tomorrow and Saturday, Im freaking out already. I need to be a rock for her but feel like mush. Anxiety is back (not as bad) and my confidence is in the shitter.  No thoughts of caving but cant believe how this is bugging me. Guess its just another hurddle on the quit road. Wish me luck boys, Im gonna need it!!!
Read what you wrote a couple days ago in this thread......that is who you are now.....remember it.
I am sorry for the loss your family has suffered - I lost my grandfather right before Christmas last year - it sucks.
Thanks bro. I was crusing along nicely until I started thinking about all the the things that would be going down at the funeral...family and wife balling, talking to people I rarely see, trying to keep my 7 9 yr old under control, etc..That shit used to stress me out even when I did dlp. Now for some reason my anxiety is back and I fucking HATE it. I know I will get.through this, although it wont be easy and I KNEW I wasn't "cured" just don't like going backwards. Gonna do my best to try and keep a positive attitude and grind it out.
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Always have hated funerals. Wifes Grandpa passed a few days ago and the funeral is tomorrow and Saturday, Im freaking out already. I need to be a rock for her but feel like mush. Anxiety is back (not as bad) and my confidence is in the shitter.  No thoughts of caving but cant believe how this is bugging me. Guess its just another hurddle on the quit road. Wish me luck boys, Im gonna need it!!!
Somebody once told me that anxiety is nothing but "false evidence appearing real".. Acronym for FEAR! Fear Not Diesel.. You really have balls of steel... Death is a tough one yes.. Now you are truly an Oak.. Let the little wife lean on you Pal.. You are unbreakable and unshakable with some deep fucking quit roots! God Bless.. Gooch
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Well...12 long hrs later I made it through the funeral. Not sure how to feel about it. It was tough as hell, first one I can remember going through dip free, and for the most part I was pretty good but I did have to take the 3rd anxiety pill that I eliminated a week or so back as I was really stressing when the place got packed. Also by no means do I feel as good as I did last week when I felt I could take on the world.
My confidence is wavering a bit as I'm unsure if I took a step backwards or just that this situation is just so stressful that its only natural not to plow through it problem free only 75 days quit. I sure hope that's the case as I loved how I was feeling just last week and could not stand to regress.
Tomorrow is the mass where I will be a Paul bearer. I guess when its all over, Sunday I will sit back and analyze this as a win or a loss. Right now I'm just not sure...
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Well...12 long hrs later I made it through the funeral. Not sure how to feel about it. It was tough as hell, first one I can remember going through dip free, and for the most part I was pretty good but I did have to take the 3rd anxiety pill that I eliminated a week or so back as I was really stressing when the place got packed. Also by no means do I feel as good as I did last week when I felt I could take on the world.
My confidence is wavering a bit as I'm unsure if I took a step backwards or just that this situation is just so stressful that its only natural not to plow through it problem free only 75 days quit. I sure hope that's the case as I loved how I was feeling just last week and could not stand to regress.
Tomorrow is the mass where I will be a Paul bearer. I guess when its all over, Sunday I will sit back and analyze this as a win or a loss. Right now I'm just not sure...
Did you have a dip? If not it's a win. That simple.
Again my condolences to you and your family. A difficult time for you guys...
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Well...12 long hrs later I made it through the funeral. Not sure how to feel about it. It was tough as hell, first one I can remember going through dip free, and for the most part I was pretty good but I did have to take the 3rd anxiety pill that I eliminated a week or so back as I was really stressing when the place got packed. Also by no means do I feel as good as I did last week when I felt I could take on the world.
My confidence is wavering a bit as I'm unsure if I took a step backwards or just that this situation is just so stressful that its only natural not to plow through it problem free only 75 days quit. I sure hope that's the case as I loved how I was feeling just last week and could not stand to regress.
Tomorrow is the mass where I will be a Paul bearer. I guess when its all over, Sunday I will sit back and analyze this as a win or a loss. Right now I'm just not sure...
Did you have a dip? If not it's a win. That simple.
Again my condolences to you and your family. A difficult time for you guys...
I agree with Morgan having knowing you since you first quit you are definitely winning
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Well...12 long hrs later I made it through the funeral. Not sure how to feel about it. It was tough as hell, first one I can remember going through dip free, and for the most part I was pretty good but I did have to take the 3rd anxiety pill that I eliminated a week or so back as I was really stressing when the place got packed. Also by no means do I feel as good as I did last week when I felt I could take on the world.
My confidence is wavering a bit as I'm unsure if I took a step backwards or just that this situation is just so stressful that its only natural not to plow through it problem free only 75 days quit. I sure hope that's the case as I loved how I was feeling just last week and could not stand to regress.
Tomorrow is the mass where I will be a Paul bearer. I guess when its all over, Sunday I will sit back and analyze this as a win or a loss. Right now I'm just not sure...
Did you have a dip? If not it's a win. That simple.
Again my condolences to you and your family. A difficult time for you guys...
I agree with Morgan having knowing you since you first quit you are definitely winning
Thanks fellas. No I had no dip just felt weaker than the past few weeks. I guess I need to look at the bright side of things more often. Staying quit is priority #1 which I still am, just had felt like shit for so long before turning a corner last week, Im just a little scared I guess. I'm a big pussy sometimes...
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Well...12 long hrs later I made it through the funeral. Not sure how to feel about it. It was tough as hell, first one I can remember going through dip free, and for the most part I was pretty good but I did have to take the 3rd anxiety pill that I eliminated a week or so back as I was really stressing when the place got packed. Also by no means do I feel as good as I did last week when I felt I could take on the world.
My confidence is wavering a bit as I'm unsure if I took a step backwards or just that this situation is just so stressful that its only natural not to plow through it problem free only 75 days quit. I sure hope that's the case as I loved how I was feeling just last week and could not stand to regress.
Tomorrow is the mass where I will be a Paul bearer. I guess when its all over, Sunday I will sit back and analyze this as a win or a loss. Right now I'm just not sure...
Diesel.. you gave me some real strength this morning! I felt weak yesterday too! And what I am going through is NOTHING compared to you! I am just stressed and busy.. then I read your post again, then I feel like a complete pussy! You are the man! Thanks.. you are there Pal.. All of you - you are there.. In the old days, if you are like me... your ass may have been there, but your head would've been out side with a dip in.. or worse than that.. I would've probably been dipping setting there.. just doing a ninja dip and swallowing the spit! You are there! 100%!! That's huge Bro..
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Well...12 long hrs later I made it through the funeral. Not sure how to feel about it. It was tough as hell, first one I can remember going through dip free, and for the most part I was pretty good but I did have to take the 3rd anxiety pill that I eliminated a week or so back as I was really stressing when the place got packed. Also by no means do I feel as good as I did last week when I felt I could take on the world.
My confidence is wavering a bit as I'm unsure if I took a step backwards or just that this situation is just so stressful that its only natural not to plow through it problem free only 75 days quit. I sure hope that's the case as I loved how I was feeling just last week and could not stand to regress.
Tomorrow is the mass where I will be a Paul bearer. I guess when its all over, Sunday I will sit back and analyze this as a win or a loss. Right now I'm just not sure...
Diesel.. you gave me some real strength this morning! I felt weak yesterday too! And what I am going through is NOTHING compared to you! I am just stressed and busy.. then I read your post again, then I feel like a complete pussy! You are the man! Thanks.. you are there Pal.. All of you - you are there.. In the old days, if you are like me... your ass may have been there, but your head would've been out side with a dip in.. or worse than that.. I would've probably been dipping setting there.. just doing a ninja dip and swallowing the spit! You are there! 100%!! That's huge Bro..
Tanks Gooch! I really needed that. Proud to be quit with you, brother!!!!
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Well...12 long hrs later I made it through the funeral. Not sure how to feel about it. It was tough as hell, first one I can remember going through dip free, and for the most part I was pretty good but I did have to take the 3rd anxiety pill that I eliminated a week or so back as I was really stressing when the place got packed. Also by no means do I feel as good as I did last week when I felt I could take on the world.
My confidence is wavering a bit as I'm unsure if I took a step backwards or just that this situation is just so stressful that its only natural not to plow through it problem free only 75 days quit. I sure hope that's the case as I loved how I was feeling just last week and could not stand to regress.
Tomorrow is the mass where I will be a Paul bearer. I guess when its all over, Sunday I will sit back and analyze this as a win or a loss. Right now I'm just not sure...
Diesel.. you gave me some real strength this morning! I felt weak yesterday too! And what I am going through is NOTHING compared to you! I am just stressed and busy.. then I read your post again, then I feel like a complete pussy! You are the man! Thanks.. you are there Pal.. All of you - you are there.. In the old days, if you are like me... your ass may have been there, but your head would've been out side with a dip in.. or worse than that.. I would've probably been dipping setting there.. just doing a ninja dip and swallowing the spit! You are there! 100%!! That's huge Bro..
Tanks Gooch! I really needed that. Proud to be quit with you, brother!!!!
All you gotta do is keep nicotine out of your body. That's a win. Dipping will not make anything better, or make you less stressed. Dip doesn't fill the void, it created it. I'm sorry for your loss, I'm proud of your quit. I'm quit with you this weekend, and we are winning.
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Thanks for the encouragement fellas. Managed to make it through another looong emotional day. You're all right, no dip so I must consider it a win. However I am also calling this weekend a wake up call.
I felt on top of the world last week (read my post from last weekend), almost as if I had this thing licked after 68 days. And although I said last week I knew I hadn't "won" and I needed to keep my guard up, I really wasn't expecting/ready for the mental ass whipping I took this weekend as the stress and anxiety of a funeral built up the old nic bitch started calling to me again. Unlike the previous couple weeks I was not able to bitch slap her back. I did not give into her however but it was much harder.
I think the real thing I learner this weekend is that this really is a constant process. I was rolling along nicely as I was handling my everyday "life" minus dip pretty well and actually felt "normal" for a while. Then WHAMO along comes a super stressful situation (funeral) and I realize my addict ass still has a lot of work to do.
I'm a bit scared and confused now. Scared that I wont be able to get back to feeling how I did just last weekend and confused if I should take this weekend and look as it as a building block as another life even that can be done without dip, or be scared dip can still fuck with me so bad. I know what the answer is, just hope I get back to feeling "normal" again sooner then later as I hate feeling like this. Iknow a lot of that is up to me and my attitude but right now I feel whipped. Think I need to get a good nights sleep.
Sorry for rambling, just had a lot of shit rolling around in my head.
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Thanks for the encouragement fellas. Managed to make it through another looong emotional day. You're all right, no dip so I must consider it a win. However I am also calling this weekend a wake up call.
I felt on top of the world last week (read my post from last weekend), almost as if I had this thing licked after 68 days. And although I said last week I knew I hadn't "won" and I needed to keep my guard up, I really wasn't expecting/ready for the mental ass whipping I took this weekend as the stress and anxiety of a funeral built up the old nic bitch started calling to me again. Unlike the previous couple weeks I was not able to bitch slap her back. I did not give into her however but it was much harder.
I think the real thing I learner this weekend is that this really is a constant process. I was rolling along nicely as I was handling my everyday "life" minus dip pretty well and actually felt "normal" for a while. Then WHAMO along comes a super stressful situation (funeral) and I realize my addict ass still has a lot of work to do.
I'm a bit scared and confused now. Scared that I wont be able to get back to feeling how I did just last weekend and confused if I should take this weekend and look as it as a building block as another life even that can be done without dip, or be scared dip can still fuck with me so bad. I know what the answer is, just hope I get back to feeling "normal" again sooner then later as I hate feeling like this. Iknow a lot of that is up to me and my attitude but right now I feel whipped. Think I need to get a good nights sleep.
Sorry for rambling, just had a lot of shit rolling around in my head.
The best thing to do is to keep it simple and don't over-think. Plan only what you need to in order to protect today's quit.
There is a bible verse that goes like this: "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matthew 6:34)
The original one day at a time ;)
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Last week at this time I felt like a million bucks...today on day 80 I feel like a $2 piece of shit. Wtf happenend? Fuuuuuuuccccccckkkkkkkk!!!!!!!
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Last week at this time I felt like a million bucks...today on day 80 I feel like a $2 piece of shit. Wtf happenend? Fuuuuuuuccccccckkkkkkkk!!!!!!!
Hey Greg look at it like this - you can quit but you will always be a nicotine addict. There are going to be peaks and valleys. The way I approach it (and I know everyone has their own methods) is that I go to battle everyday. I haven't beaten my enemy for good. I never will until I hit the grave from something other than tobacco use. On that day I will have beaten tobacco for good. I'll take my worn down faded ass HOF coin into the ground with me and I will have won. But every day between now and then I have to battle that mfer. Those daily battles ad up. Mine added up to 86 today. Something I am very proud of. I sport my quit with a fuckin blue ribbon on it because I earn that fucker every day. Just like you do. Don't be afraid to succeed my friend. It's a glorious feeling. You have fought that battle every day for 80 days and won it every day for 80 days. That is something to be proud of. Draw strength from it. Quit again tomorrow with renewed purpose. You are a bad mfer man. You have beaten some demons to get to this point. Do it again tomorrow. Wake up and OWN this fucker. I quit with you bro.
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Last week at this time I felt like a million bucks...today on day 80 I feel like a $2 piece of shit. Wtf happenend? Fuuuuuuuccccccckkkkkkkk!!!!!!!
Hey Greg look at it like this - you can quit but you will always be a nicotine addict. There are going to be peaks and valleys. The way I approach it (and I know everyone has their own methods) is that I go to battle everyday. I haven't beaten my enemy for good. I never will until I hit the grave from something other than tobacco use. On that day I will have beaten tobacco for good. I'll take my worn down faded ass HOF coin into the ground with me and I will have won. But every day between now and then I have to battle that mfer. Those daily battles ad up. Mine added up to 86 today. Something I am very proud of. I sport my quit with a fuckin blue ribbon on it because I earn that fucker every day. Just like you do. Don't be afraid to succeed my friend. It's a glorious feeling. You have fought that battle every day for 80 days and won it every day for 80 days. That is something to be proud of. Draw strength from it. Quit again tomorrow with renewed purpose. You are a bad mfer man. You have beaten some demons to get to this point. Do it again tomorrow. Wake up and OWN this fucker. I quit with you bro.
Bud, Morgan is right on. Don't get discouraged I feel your pain the 70's and 80's sucked for me and then the sky opened and everything was awesome! Post HOF is no different there are those ups and downs like Morgan said. A view of mine on it is I sure as hell haven't carried this addiction for only 100 days Ive been working on it for over 14000 days so I just pray it gets better before I turn 95. If not that worn HOF coin can go to the grave with me too!
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Last week at this time I felt like a million bucks...today on day 80 I feel like a $2 piece of shit. Wtf happenend?  Fuuuuuuuccccccckkkkkkkk!!!!!!!
Hey Greg look at it like this - you can quit but you will always be a nicotine addict. There are going to be peaks and valleys. The way I approach it (and I know everyone has their own methods) is that I go to battle everyday. I haven't beaten my enemy for good. I never will until I hit the grave from something other than tobacco use. On that day I will have beaten tobacco for good. I'll take my worn down faded ass HOF coin into the ground with me and I will have won. But every day between now and then I have to battle that mfer. Those daily battles ad up. Mine added up to 86 today. Something I am very proud of. I sport my quit with a fuckin blue ribbon on it because I earn that fucker every day. Just like you do. Don't be afraid to succeed my friend. It's a glorious feeling. You have fought that battle every day for 80 days and won it every day for 80 days. That is something to be proud of. Draw strength from it. Quit again tomorrow with renewed purpose. You are a bad mfer man. You have beaten some demons to get to this point. Do it again tomorrow. Wake up and OWN this fucker. I quit with you bro.
Bud, Morgan is right on. Don't get discouraged I feel your pain the 70's and 80's sucked for me and then the sky opened and everything was awesome! Post HOF is no different there are those ups and downs like Morgan said. A view of mine on it is I sure as hell haven't carried this addiction for only 100 days Ive been working on it for over 14000 days so I just pray it gets better before I turn 95. If not that worn HOF coin can go to the grave with me too!
Tomorrow is a new day. Get little diesel, go back to basics. Do whatever you have to , just like the beginning. Everyday is one step forward and a win , keep taking em one day at a time. You'll be just fine
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Thanks fellas. I needed the motivation. Just fucking HATE when I KNOW I don't need the shit and for 15 yrs it made me a liar, a bad father a shitty husband and and overall lazy piece of shit. And oh yeah was slowly killing me.
Yet despite knowing all that, there still is that little voice that pops up from time to time that says "come on bro that funeral was tough you deserve a dip to chill" or "man this long drive would be a lot better with just one little lipper". Etc.... And when that shit happens my anxiety spikes to a point to where it can overwhelm my medication, causing me greater frustration.
I know that's total bullshit and last week I said FUCK YOU before those thoughts could even arise but the past few days the thoughts are fucking with me and I'm not so easily squashing them.
You guys are right though...80 days is something to be proud of and id be a dick hole to give in after everything ive gone through these past 80 days. So once again FUCK YOU, YOU NIC BITCH WHORE!!!! 80 days and you're still trying and playing mind games with me. Well FUCK YOU I will not cave and will continue to beat your whore ass no matter what tricks you play.
I felt like a million bucks last week....that's PROOF I can whip your ass. You might be jabbing me right now but you will never knock me out. I will always fight back and land multiple cunt punches until I feel like a million bucks again. FUCK YOU!!!!!!
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Thanks fellas. I needed the motivation. Just fucking HATE when I KNOW I don't need the shit and for 15 yrs it made me a liar, a bad father a shitty husband and and overall lazy piece of shit. And oh yeah was slowly killing me.
Yet despite knowing all that, there still is that little voice that pops up from time to time that says "come on bro that funeral was tough you deserve a dip to chill" or "man this long drive would be a lot better with just one little lipper". Etc.... And when that shit happens my anxiety spikes to a point to where it can overwhelm my medication, causing me greater frustration.
I know that's total bullshit and last week I said FUCK YOU before those thoughts could even arise but the past few days the thoughts are fucking with me and I'm not so easily squashing them.
You guys are right though...80 days is something to be proud of and id be a dick hole to give in after everything ive gone through these past 80 days. So once again FUCK YOU, YOU NIC BITCH WHORE!!!! 80 days and you're still trying and playing mind games with me. Well FUCK YOU I will not cave and will continue to beat your whore ass no matter what tricks you play.
I felt like a million bucks last week....that's PROOF I can whip your ass. You might be jabbing me right now but you will never knock me out. I will always fight back and land multiple cunt punches until I feel like a million bucks again. FUCK YOU!!!!!!
I was going through this funk earlier in the week, in the 50's, so I can relate. I posted some of the mental dialogue I was going through at the time on my intro. It kinda reads like a bipolar mindset and I think it's should. It's the battle of our conscience versus our addiction. You could insert any addiction there, it is always our conscious mind that battles for us. Don't know that I've got your #s, but, seeing how we are both in the push through phase, it wouldn't hurt to drive that road together. QLAFM
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Thanks fellas. I needed the motivation. Just fucking HATE when I KNOW I don't need the shit and for 15 yrs it made me a liar, a bad father a shitty husband and and overall lazy piece of shit. And oh yeah was slowly killing me.
Yet despite knowing all that, there still is that little voice that pops up from time to time that says "come on bro that funeral was tough you deserve a dip to chill" or "man this long drive would be a lot better with just one little lipper". Etc.... And when that shit happens my anxiety spikes to a point to where it can overwhelm my medication, causing me greater frustration.
I know that's total bullshit and last week I said FUCK YOU before those thoughts could even arise but the past few days the thoughts are fucking with me and I'm not so easily squashing them.
You guys are right though...80 days is something to be proud of and id be a dick hole to give in after everything ive gone through these past 80 days. So once again FUCK YOU, YOU NIC BITCH WHORE!!!! 80 days and you're still trying and playing mind games with me. Well FUCK YOU I will not cave and will continue to beat your whore ass no matter what tricks you play.
I felt like a million bucks last week....that's PROOF I can whip your ass. You might be jabbing me right now but you will never knock me out. I will always fight back and land multiple cunt punches until I feel like a million bucks again. FUCK YOU!!!!!!
I was going through this funk earlier in the week, in the 50's, so I can relate. I posted some of the mental dialogue I was going through at the time on my intro. It kinda reads like a bipolar mindset and I think it's should. It's the battle of our conscience versus our addiction. You could insert any addiction there, it is always our conscious mind that battles for us. Don't know that I've got your #s, but, seeing how we are both in the push through phase, it wouldn't hurt to drive that road together. QLAFM
The 80's sucked for me as well. Not sure what the hell it was, but it was all psychological. I pretty much shut down and thought everyone on KTC were a bunch of tools. I was pretty much right about that :) but the clouds did open and the sun did come out, and holy shit it is nice here on the other side. I'm even more pissed at nicotine and UST for the 80's. FUCK tobacco. Get mad, bro.
I too get that inner voice once in a while telling me that it would be cool to have a lipper. However, the great thing is, a fireball, a stick of gum, or a pinch of Smokey Mountain shuts that shit right up (it really does), and I'm always gratified that I didn't CHOOSE to walk into a store, navigate a foreign clerk to a can of carcinogens, and throw away almost 200 days of hard-earned ass-kicking quit, not to mention the pride and respect of my brothers on here. I'm never going back. UST can lick my ass.
Stay strong and rock on, bro.
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Thanks fellas. I needed the motivation. Just fucking HATE when I KNOW I don't need the shit and for 15 yrs it made me a liar, a bad father a shitty husband and and overall lazy piece of shit. And oh yeah was slowly killing me.
Yet despite knowing all that, there still is that little voice that pops up from time to time that says "come on bro that funeral was tough you deserve a dip to chill" or "man this long drive would be a lot better with just one little lipper". Etc.... And when that shit happens my anxiety spikes to a point to where it can overwhelm my medication, causing me greater frustration.
I know that's total bullshit and last week I said FUCK YOU before those thoughts could even arise but the past few days the thoughts are fucking with me and I'm not so easily squashing them.
You guys are right though...80 days is something to be proud of and id be a dick hole to give in after everything ive gone through these past 80 days. So once again FUCK YOU, YOU NIC BITCH WHORE!!!! 80 days and you're still trying and playing mind games with me. Well FUCK YOU I will not cave and will continue to beat your whore ass no matter what tricks you play.
I felt like a million bucks last week....that's PROOF I can whip your ass. You might be jabbing me right now but you will never knock me out. I will always fight back and land multiple cunt punches until I feel like a million bucks again. FUCK YOU!!!!!!
Diesel - thanks for your posts!! Your strength is contagious, believe me.
I have been 'fogging' in and out myself for some reason and looking forward to it ending, without chew of course.....
Fucked up funny story from two days ago....I have been having difficulties at work, dealing w quitting chew, and stressing about physically feeling like a slob from gaining weight from quitting-so left me get back in shape...get this - I wake up at 4am tuesday to get to the gym before work - tired as shit, I back my truck out of the driveway (with my heavy foot of course)....I don't hit the brakes until after my truck starts crunching and shaking as I rub off the driver's side of my wife's SUV........shit all over the driveway....
What an asshole, and I thought to myself....fuck you nic bitch...don't even start w me....I calmly, put the truck in drive, reversed back out of the driveway, went to the gym and called my wife afterwards.......I am living the dream!! Thankfully, without chew..... 'bang head'
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Thanks fellas. I needed the motivation. Just fucking HATE when I KNOW I don't need the shit and for 15 yrs it made me a liar, a bad father a shitty husband and and overall lazy piece of shit. And oh yeah was slowly killing me.
Yet despite knowing all that, there still is that little voice that pops up from time to time that says "come on bro that funeral was tough you deserve a dip to chill" or "man this long drive would be a lot better with just one little lipper". Etc.... And when that shit happens my anxiety spikes to a point to where it can overwhelm my medication, causing me greater frustration.
I know that's total bullshit and last week I said FUCK YOU before those thoughts could even arise but the past few days the thoughts are fucking with me and I'm not so easily squashing them.
You guys are right though...80 days is something to be proud of and id be a dick hole to give in after everything ive gone through these past 80 days. So once again FUCK YOU, YOU NIC BITCH WHORE!!!! 80 days and you're still trying and playing mind games with me. Well FUCK YOU I will not cave and will continue to beat your whore ass no matter what tricks you play.
I felt like a million bucks last week....that's PROOF I can whip your ass. You might be jabbing me right now but you will never knock me out. I will always fight back and land multiple cunt punches until I feel like a million bucks again. FUCK YOU!!!!!!
Diesel - thanks for your posts!! Your strength is contagious, believe me.
I have been 'fogging' in and out myself for some reason and looking forward to it ending, without chew of course.....
Fucked up funny story from two days ago....I have been having difficulties at work, dealing w quitting chew, and stressing about physically feeling like a slob from gaining weight from quitting-so left me get back in shape...get this - I wake up at 4am tuesday to get to the gym before work - tired as shit, I back my truck out of the driveway (with my heavy foot of course)....I don't hit the brakes until after my truck starts crunching and shaking as I rub off the driver's side of my wife's SUV........shit all over the driveway....
What an asshole, and I thought to myself....fuck you nic bitch...don't even start w me....I calmly, put the truck in drive, reversed back out of the driveway, went to the gym and called my wife afterwards.......I am living the dream!! Thankfully, without chew..... 'bang head'
Tinman and Diesel you are both awesome and these are the real life experiences that strengthen me!!
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For yrs as a treat my wife would take the kids to rainforest care for lunch, then a movie, then to some jeepers place for kids and then God knows where else. They all loved it!!!
Where was Dad everytime? At home on the couch ninja dipping like a fool. Well guess fucking what? Today I am going with them. Dip or no dip I'm not sure this is all my cup of tea but God Damn it I'm gonna give it a shot. My kids are thrilled. Dads actually going. Gotta admit I'm a bit nervous but I think I can do this!!!!!
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For yrs as a treat my wife would take the kids to rainforest care for lunch, then a movie, then to some jeepers place for kids and then God knows where else. They all loved it!!!
Where was Dad everytime? At home on the couch ninja dipping like a fool. Well guess fucking what? Today I am going with them. Dip or no dip I'm not sure this is all my cup of tea but God Damn it I'm gonna give it a shot. My kids are thrilled. Dads actually going. Gotta admit I'm a bit nervous but I think I can do this!!!!!
Bad Ass Diesel. It will be fun because you will be with your family minus the dip can!! 'Cheers'
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Diesel - YOu rock man. Proud to be quit with you. Have fun with the fam!
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Had fun with the family at lunch and at jeepers, but the movie...I never did like kids movies. I thought "Ice Age" would never end. But it did and I made it just fine...I gotta call it progress?
It did feel great to do stuff as a family instead of laying on the couch all day dipping inbetween falling asleep like a lazy fuck and then jumping up to hide my shit every time I thought I heard a car pull in the driveway. What a piece if shit I was. Can before family...never again!!!
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Had fun with the family at lunch and at jeepers, but the movie...I never did like kids movies. I thought "Ice Age" would never end. But it did and I made it just fine...I gotta call it progress?
It did feel great to do stuff as a family instead of laying on the couch all day dipping inbetween falling asleep like a lazy fuck and then jumping up to hide my shit every time I thought I heard a car pull in the driveway. What a piece if shit I was. Can before family...never again!!!
I love that diesel! Not having to worry about hearing someone coming is so good! Just shared that with my wife this week when she came into the shop without me hearing her!
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Had fun with the family at lunch and at jeepers, but the movie...I never did like kids movies. I thought "Ice Age" would never end. But it did and I made it just fine...I gotta call it progress?
It did feel great to do stuff as a family instead of laying on the couch all day dipping inbetween falling asleep like a lazy fuck and then jumping up to hide my shit every time I thought I heard a car pull in the driveway. What a piece if shit I was. Can before family...never again!!!
I love that diesel! Not having to worry about hearing someone coming is so good! Just shared that with my wife this week when she came into the shop without me hearing her!
Fuckin A Diesel. You my friend are on the right path. Sacrificing time with your family so that you can cram your face with poison laced with glass shards is GD pathetic. You are not that person anymore. This is another monstrous step in your quit. I am happy for you even if you didn't like Ice Age. HAHAHA. I quit with you all day every day.
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Thanks guys but I ain't nothing special. Just someone bound and determined to take my life back from a horrible addiction, like most on this site. I cringe at some of the shit I did to put the can ahead of my family. I literally get sick thinking about it. I cry though knowing that I came clean about all of it to my wife and she not only lovingly forgave she has been my biggest supporter through this pain in the ass process.
I'm not one of those perfect guys who say they have no regrets in life, because I do. Obviously I wouldn't trade my wife and kids for anything in the world but I'm not too proud to say I wouldn't have done things a little different along the way, and this has nothing to do with dip, more of the "little things" going back to grade school thru college, a time when I didn't even dip.
I will say that my BIGGEST regret in life will be going back to killing myself with posionous weeds in a can. Never again fellas. No matter what tricks my brain/body play on me. Never again for any reason. I was a Dick for 15 yrs...that's 15 yrs too long in my book. I'm 38 yrs old, time to grow the fuck up! My quit hasn't been perfect by any means, but ill be God dammed if I'm giving up. Ill watch "Ice Age" 1,000,000,000 times if I have to.
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Nice diesel, and your on track. A quitter once said , don't crave more dip crave more life. It isn't going to be always easy, but I promise it is always worth it. Today you got a little taste of freedom. Drink deep my friend , it only gets better from here on in.
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Treadmill like quit.
Just got back from the gym. DID NOT FEEL LIKE GOING. But...I dragged my blubber ass of the couch and said to myself "just half ass it on the treadmill for 45 minutes and come home".
That's the attitude I entered the gym with and the attitude I started "running" with. I kept looking at the timer...."fuck, only 3 minutes have gone by???" Look down again "I still have 30 minutes left on this fucking thing??!! Maybe ill just do 20 mins and call it good, its better then nothing. I didn't want to come here anyway".
Then...I told myself, "asshole, you are staying on this thing for 45 minutes if it kills you". I then dialed up the pace, cranked up my ipod, and started looking around. I started watching a pretty good baseball game on the tv, Tex vs TB I believe. Then I started noticing this guy in a super tight shirt constantly flexing and admiring himself in the mirror, that made me laugh. Then I looked to my left and 2 stationery bikes down there was a SUPER HOT chick peddling away with super short shorts on. I kept trying to catch a nice beave shot and then let my imagination run wild "with her", if you know what I mean. I observed a few other things as well. Next thing I know. "Beep beep beep, begin cool down stage".
The 45 mins was over in what seemed like 10 minutes. Then I realized my quit should be more like that. Instead of constantly "watching the clock" waiting for things to get better and obsessing, I need to take a step back and enjoy the ride a little more.
I cant run 45 minutes on the treadmill in 5 minutes, especially with a shit attitude and constant clock watching. Those 45 minutes will crawl by and my frustration will go through the roof. I know its easier said than done but a healthy diversion from an unwanted task can go along way to making that seemingly impossible task not so impossible. I find this especially true the later I go in my quit when I might hit a funk or take a step backwards. I know quitting is a huge part of my life but there is much more going on in this world than the obsessing that sometimes goes on between my ears.
Anyway, just a thought I had...have a good night all.
-Diesel
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Treadmill like quit.
Just got back from the gym. DID NOT FEEL LIKE GOING. But...I dragged my blubber ass of the couch and said to myself "just half ass it on the treadmill for 45 minutes and come home".
That's the attitude I entered the gym with and the attitude I started "running" with. I kept looking at the timer...."fuck, only 3 minutes have gone by???" Look down again "I still have 30 minutes left on this fucking thing??!! Maybe ill just do 20 mins and call it good, its better then nothing. I didn't want to come here anyway".
Then...I told myself, "asshole, you are staying on this thing for 45 minutes if it kills you". I then dialed up the pace, cranked up my ipod, and started looking around. I started watching a pretty good baseball game on the tv, Tex vs TB I believe. Then I started noticing this guy in a super tight shirt constantly flexing and admiring himself in the mirror, that made me laugh. Then I looked to my left and 2 stationery bikes down there was a SUPER HOT chick peddling away with super short shorts on. I kept trying to catch a nice beave shot and then let my imagination run wild "with her", if you know what I mean. I observed a few other things as well. Next thing I know. "Beep beep beep, begin cool down stage".
The 45 mins was over in what seemed like 10 minutes. Then I realized my quit should be more like that. Instead of constantly "watching the clock" waiting for things to get better and obsessing, I need to take a step back and enjoy the ride a little more.
I cant run 45 minutes on the treadmill in 5 minutes, especially with a shit attitude and constant clock watching. Those 45 minutes will crawl by and my frustration will go through the roof. I know its easier said than done but a healthy diversion from an unwanted task can go along way to making that seemingly impossible task not so impossible. I find this especially true the later I go in my quit when I might hit a funk or take a step backwards. I know quitting is a huge part of my life but there is much more going on in this world than the obsessing that sometimes goes on between my ears.
Anyway, just a thought I had...have a good night all.
-Diesel
Digging it with a 2 handed QLF shovel
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Hours from the HOF (I cant fucking believe it) and i keep worrying i will be tested greatly on my "big day." Early flight to Chicago tomorrow to work a trade show for two days. Have done the show many times but never without dip. Been nervous but kept wondering today, why? Not afraid to work the show, not nervous talk to the Ceo and other corporate big wigs, a little afraid to fly (on 9/11 especially), but never dipped on a plane. So what the fuck am I nervous about...not going back to my hotel room and filing my lip full of posion shit? BINGO
Well fuck you nic whore. I've gone 100 days without your skank ass not all easy but I'm kinda Rollin right now. No fucking way are you gonna fuck with my hof day. Go fuck yourself bitch.
I do not need you...never did. I will cunt punch your putrid sausage wallet all while in Chicago and return home a FUCKING CHAMP with laser like focus on the 2nd floor. Fuck you bitch!
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Hours from the HOF (I cant fucking believe it) and i keep worrying i will be tested greatly on my "big day." Early flight to Chicago tomorrow to work a trade show for two days. Have done the show many times but never without dip. Been nervous but kept wondering today, why? Not afraid to work the show, not nervous talk to the Ceo and other corporate big wigs, a little afraid to fly (on 9/11 especially), but never dipped on a plane. So what the fuck am I nervous about...not going back to my hotel room and filing my lip full of posion shit? BINGO
Well fuck you nic whore. I've gone 100 days without your skank ass not all easy but I'm kinda Rollin right now. No fucking way are you gonna fuck with my hof day. Go fuck yourself bitch.
I do not need you...never did. I will cunt punch your putrid sausage wallet all while in Chicago and return home a FUCKING CHAMP with laser like focus on the 2nd floor. Fuck you bitch!
Diesel you have all the tools your journey has been exemptulary. You fought a very rough battle early on and won day by day now you can continue to use the tools from your past victories to win each today! Congratulation on a wonderful fight!
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Hours from the HOF (I cant fucking believe it) and i keep worrying i will be tested greatly on my "big day." Early flight to Chicago tomorrow to work a trade show for two days. Have done the show many times but never without dip. Been nervous but kept wondering today, why? Not afraid to work the show, not nervous talk to the Ceo and other corporate big wigs, a little afraid to fly (on 9/11 especially), but never dipped on a plane. So what the fuck am I nervous about...not going back to my hotel room and filing my lip full of posion shit? BINGO
Well fuck you nic whore. I've gone 100 days without your skank ass not all easy but I'm kinda Rollin right now. No fucking way are you gonna fuck with my hof day. Go fuck yourself bitch.
I do not need you...never did. I will cunt punch your putrid sausage wallet all while in Chicago and return home a FUCKING CHAMP with laser like focus on the 2nd floor. Fuck you bitch!
Just another day diesel. The fact that your anticipating your trigger shows how far you've come. Day 100 is kick ass but it isn't any different than day 99 or day 3000 .
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Hours from the HOF (I cant fucking believe it) and i keep worrying i will be tested greatly on my "big day." Early flight to Chicago tomorrow to work a trade show for two days. Have done the show many times but never without dip. Been nervous but kept wondering today, why? Not afraid to work the show, not nervous talk to the Ceo and other corporate big wigs, a little afraid to fly (on 9/11 especially), but never dipped on a plane. So what the fuck am I nervous about...not going back to my hotel room and filing my lip full of posion shit? BINGO
Well fuck you nic whore. I've gone 100 days without your skank ass not all easy but I'm kinda Rollin right now. No fucking way are you gonna fuck with my hof day. Go fuck yourself bitch.
I do not need you...never did. I will cunt punch your putrid sausage wallet all while in Chicago and return home a FUCKING CHAMP with laser like focus on the 2nd floor. Fuck you bitch!
way to go Diesel recognize the triggers and prepare for battle- you will win no doubts
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Hours from the HOF (I cant fucking believe it) and i keep worrying i will be tested greatly on my "big day." Early flight to Chicago tomorrow to work a trade show for two days. Have done the show many times but never without dip. Been nervous but kept wondering today, why? Not afraid to work the show, not nervous talk to the Ceo and other corporate big wigs, a little afraid to fly (on 9/11 especially), but never dipped on a plane. So what the fuck am I nervous about...not going back to my hotel room and filing my lip full of posion shit? BINGO
Well fuck you nic whore. I've gone 100 days without your skank ass not all easy but I'm kinda Rollin right now. No fucking way are you gonna fuck with my hof day. Go fuck yourself bitch.
I do not need you...never did. I will cunt punch your putrid sausage wallet all while in Chicago and return home a FUCKING CHAMP with laser like focus on the 2nd floor. Fuck you bitch!
Nice job Diesel. You've come a long way man. Some of it has been bumpy for you, but you have won your battle every day for 100 days plus. I'm happy for you man and proud to quit with you! At the trade show, dipping was always a bad idea....you will do much better without it....people checking out dildos and leather masks just don't like the image presented by tobacco. Stay on your game and display your latest and greatest anal beads and space docking videos. You'll do great!
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Thanks Morgan. Sold a couple kick start dildos, 130 pocket pussies, 12 Peter North gyser dongs, and 2 pulpl fiction gimp masks. You need a hook up lemme know, Ill cut you a deal. No free troals though. Hahaaa.
Seriously, thanks. I did have some rough times but i feel pretty damn good right now, and am digging it!
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Congratulations Diesel! That is awesome! (not the part about selling the gimp masks and shit, the part about hitting the HOF)
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Congratulations Diesel! That is awesome! (not the part about selling the gimp masks and shit, the part about hitting the HOF)
Thank you!!!! I had some serious doubts if I could make it. Glad I did!
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Congratulations Diesel! That is awesome! (not the part about selling the gimp masks and shit, the part about hitting the HOF)
Thank you!!!! I had some serious doubts if I could make it. Glad I did!
Funny I never doubted you! I doubted myself many times, But talking with you and understanding your pain strengthened my quit. I know that is just what you will say! That is the genius of KTC. That is the brotherhood, it is a powerful force.
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Congratulations Diesel! That is awesome! (not the part about selling the gimp masks and shit, the part about hitting the HOF)
Thank you!!!! I had some serious doubts if I could make it. Glad I did!
Funny I never doubted you! I doubted myself many times, But talking with you and understanding your pain strengthened my quit. I know that is just what you will say! That is the genius of KTC. That is the brotherhood, it is a powerful force.
Amen
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103 days quit. Not one drop of caffinated pop, not one sip of coffee, nor one swig of beer or alcohol of any kind in those 103 days. Never been a big drinker but do miss an ocassional beer, a can of coke and a cup of coffee. I stayed away from that stuff because I read something bad about them on here and got scared cause I'm a pussy. Do you guys think it would be safe to drink some of that stuff again?
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103 days quit. Not one drop of caffinated pop, not one sip of coffee, nor one swig of beer or alcohol of any kind in those 103 days. Never been a big drinker but do miss an ocassional beer, a can of coke and a cup of coffee. I stayed away from that stuff because I read something bad about them on here and got scared cause I'm a pussy. Do you guys think it would be safe to drink some of that stuff again?
That's very impressive Diesel! I myself have also had no alcohol since I started my quit(29 days ago). I have also cut my caffeine consumption way down. Probably 5% of what it used to be.
If you can avoid these things. Why not? Good for you.
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103 days quit. Not one drop of caffinated pop, not one sip of coffee, nor one swig of beer or alcohol of any kind in those 103 days. Never been a big drinker but do miss an ocassional beer, a can of coke and a cup of coffee. I stayed away from that stuff because I read something bad about them on here and got scared cause I'm a pussy. Do you guys think it would be safe to drink some of that stuff again?
That's very impressive Diesel! I myself have also had no alcohol since I started my quit(29 days ago). I have also cut my caffeine consumption way down. Probably 5% of what it used to be.
If you can avoid these things. Why not? Good for you.
I miss a good cup of coffee. Might try one tonight. Hope i don't die or something. Lol.
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Just spent 6 hrs dealing blackjack at my kids fundraising carnival for their school. (That's how Catholics raise money, gambling and drinking). It was in an out door tent where people could smoke. Jesus Christ I saw every type of nic usage under the sun. Cigarettes, chew, cigars, pipes, cloves, little fruity smelling cigars thingys, etc...
What a fucking disgusting thing to do. I am literally ashamed I fell victim to chew. Sick ass bummy mother fuckers sitting at my table spitting into plastic pop bottles as they say "it me" because they couldn't produce an "h" sound to say "hit me" because their lip was full of shit. The smokers...my God they kept lighting them up like maniacs. The smoke was so thick in there you could barely see from one side of the tent ti the other. My lungs hurt so fucking bad right now I literally can hardly breathe.
I guess I cant condemn the people too much as I was once one of them. Thank God I decided to grow up and quit and now can see what a disgusting and despicable thing nic addiction really is. Thanks to every mofo on this site for helping me stay quit. Its nights like tonight that cement the fact that my struggles to quit have been worth it and I will be a better and healthier person because of it.
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Just spent 6 hrs dealing blackjack at my kids fundraising carnival for their school. (That's how Catholics raise money, gambling and drinking). It was in an out door tent where people could smoke. Jesus Christ I saw every type of nic usage under the sun. Cigarettes, chew, cigars, pipes, cloves, little fruity smelling cigars thingys, etc...
What a fucking disgusting thing to do. I am literally ashamed I fell victim to chew. Sick ass bummy mother fuckers sitting at my table spitting into plastic pop bottles as they say "it me" because they couldn't produce an "h" sound to say "hit me" because their lip was full of shit. The smokers...my God they kept lighting them up like maniacs. The smoke was so thick in there you could barely see from one side of the tent ti the other. My lungs hurt so fucking bad right now I literally can hardly breathe.
I guess I cant condemn the people too much as I was once one of them. Thank God I decided to grow up and quit and now can see what a disgusting and despicable thing nic addiction really is. Thanks to every mofo on this site for helping me stay quit. Its nights like tonight that cement the fact that my struggles to quit have been worth it and I will be a better and healthier person because of it.
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Another Day!
Don't even think about how disgusting we were, that's behind us! Only Think about how good it feels not to be one of them. We are free!
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I'm at day 10 and I swear the shit is making me emotional. I don't typically consider myself a pussy but I'm sitting her at work listening to Shenandoah wanting to cry like a bitch. Also, does anyone feel like they can feel the part of the brain that wants tobacco? I swear there's a part of my brain in the left front about an inch in that wants tobacco. Needless to say, it's not been a good day so far.
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Just spent 6 hrs dealing blackjack at my kids fundraising carnival for their school. (That's how Catholics raise money, gambling and drinking). It was in an out door tent where people could smoke.  Jesus Christ I saw every type of nic usage under the sun. Cigarettes, chew, cigars, pipes, cloves, little fruity smelling cigars thingys, etc...
What a fucking disgusting thing to do. I am literally ashamed I fell victim to chew. Sick ass bummy mother fuckers sitting at my table spitting into plastic pop bottles as they say "it me" because they couldn't produce an "h" sound to say "hit me" because their lip was full of shit. The smokers...my God they kept lighting them up like maniacs. The smoke was so thick in there you could barely see from one side of the tent ti the other. My lungs hurt so fucking bad right now I literally can hardly breathe.
I guess I cant condemn the people too much as I was once one of them. Thank God I decided to grow up and quit and now can see what a disgusting and despicable thing nic addiction really is. Thanks to every mofo on this site for helping me stay quit. Its nights like tonight that cement the fact that my struggles to quit have been worth it and I will be a better and healthier person because of it.
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Another Day!
Don't even think about how disgusting we were, that's behind us! Only Think about how good it feels not to be one of them. We are free!
Diesel right on.... Proud of you my brother.. Into the lions den out with the head.. This is how you do it boys, this is how men quit. Every time I see a cig, or dip poster, (everyday) I just thank god I'm no longer a prisoner.
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Helped my Granny move for the past 6 hrs. Moving sucks as it seems like I'm always helping someone move...and lifting all the heavy stuff. Last year I helped my buddy move and as a "thanks" he bought me a sleeve of kodiak that I hid in the compartment that held my jack in my car. Ninja move.
One of, if not the only thing I used to "like" about moving was that dip when u were driving between old place and new. It was like a reward for a job well done and doing some real manly shit...lifting couches, stoves, refridgetators, etc. Today as I drove from old place to new the thought crossed my mind...for about 5 seconds. Then I thought "you don't chew anymore" and just kept driving back and forth without thinking about it again.
Didn't think much of it then but as I sit here at home now, I'm kinda really proud of myself and almost mark this as one of my biggest "progress points" to date. Funny how the little shit can give you the most strength sometimes.
Anyway, that's my ghey little story for today.
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Helped my Granny move for the past 6 hrs. Moving sucks as it seems like I'm always helping someone move...and lifting all the heavy stuff. Last year I helped my buddy move and as a "thanks" he bought me a sleeve of kodiak that I hid in the compartment that held my jack in my car. Ninja move.
One of, if not the only thing I used to "like" about moving was that dip when u were driving between old place and new. It was like a reward for a job well done and doing some real manly shit...lifting couches, stoves, refridgetators, etc. Today as I drove from old place to new the thought crossed my mind...for about 5 seconds. Then I thought "you don't chew anymore" and just kept driving back and forth without thinking about it again.
Didn't think much of it then but as I sit here at home now, I'm kinda really proud of myself and almost mark this as one of my biggest "progress points" to date. Funny how the little shit can give you the most strength sometimes.
Anyway, that's my ghey little story for today.
sleeve of kodiak- thats a nice fuck you (hahahaha)
i have not moved anyone with out a chew yet. nice job pullilng it off
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Day 122 quit. Griding along nicely but last night and into this morning ive felt like SHIT. No cravings but Sweats, multiple runs to the bathroom, constant stomach ache, tired as hell, head ache, etc..
I'm thinking fuck I'm regressing. ive hit some major funk, time to get back to basics so I start doing a ton of reading and working my "tough times" plan but still...I feel like shit. Finally, mater of factly, my wife says "maybe you just have the flu bug".
Damn...I think she is right. My damn brain is so on guard over the last 4 months it never dawned on me that I could simply "get sick" and not everything is related to this quit. What a fucking dumb ass.
Took the day off to just rest and recover like a "normal" person. Actually feels kind of good to have a "normal people" problem and realize that not every bad feeling you have is quit related.
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Day 122 quit. Griding along nicely but last night and into this morning ive felt like SHIT. No cravings but Sweats, multiple runs to the bathroom, constant stomach ache, tired as hell, head ache, etc..
I'm thinking fuck I'm regressing. ive hit some major funk, time to get back to basics so I start doing a ton of reading and working my "tough times" plan but still...I feel like shit. Finally, mater of factly, my wife says "maybe you just have the flu bug".
Damn...I think she is right. My damn brain is so on guard over the last 4 months it never dawned on me that I could simply "get sick" and not everything is related to this quit. What a fucking dumb ass.
Took the day off to just rest and recover like a "normal" person. Actually feels kind of good to have a "normal people" problem and realize that not every bad feeling you have is quit related.
Diesel, I'm always saying that I'm a dumb ass and one of our friend says "WT quit saying that your not a dumb ass", he's right none if us that come here everyday and post roll fit into the dumb ass category. We have taken control away from nicotine and are winning. The dumb asses are those fools that continue to dip or those that cave!
Easy to forget we have a life that isn't part of our quit, since that is all we've been doing day in and day out. Easy sometimes to blame everything on dip or quitting dip but in doing that we give up ownership of life and life's decisions. Even using withdrawal and quitting as excuses for being assholes, we are giving up some degree of ownership for our actions. Granted our early days are rough as hell and being an ass is hard to avoid! As time progresses though we can gradually assume that power back, that the miserable addiction has robbed from us. Learning to live life as nicotine free adults is new for most of us because we started in our youth! I quit with you everyday us crazies have got to stick together. 'Crazy'
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Day 122 quit. Griding along nicely but last night and into this morning ive felt like SHIT. No cravings but Sweats, multiple runs to the bathroom, constant stomach ache, tired as hell, head ache, etc..
I'm thinking fuck I'm regressing. ive hit some major funk, time to get back to basics so I start doing a ton of reading and working my "tough times" plan but still...I feel like shit. Finally, mater of factly, my wife says "maybe you just have the flu bug".
Damn...I think she is right. My damn brain is so on guard over the last 4 months it never dawned on me that I could simply "get sick" and not everything is related to this quit. What a fucking dumb ass.Â
Took the day off to just rest and recover like a "normal" person. Actually feels kind of good to have a "normal people" problem and realize that not every bad feeling you have is quit related.
Diesel, I'm always saying that I'm a dumb ass and one of our friend says "WT quit saying that your not a dumb ass", he's right none if us that come here everyday and post roll fit into the dumb ass category. We have taken control away from nicotine and are winning. The dumb asses are those fools that continue to dip or those that cave!
Easy to forget we have a life that isn't part of our quit, since that is all we've been doing day in and day out. Easy sometimes to blame everything on dip or quitting dip but in doing that we give up ownership of life and life's decisions. Even using withdrawal and quitting as excuses for being assholes, we are giving up some degree of ownership for our actions. Granted our early days are rough as hell and being an ass is hard to avoid! As time progresses though we can gradually assume that power back, that the miserable addiction has robbed from us. Learning to live life as nicotine free adults is new for most of us because we started in our youth! I quit with you everyday us crazies have got to stick together. 'Crazy'
Welcome to the post HOF funk.
That's why we can never forget this shit. Time does not heal us 100%.
The funks are shorter, and they are spaced further apart, but they come back every now and then and fuck your shit up.
In times of good, we learn tools to help us cope. In times of bad, we lean on our tools we learned.
You can do this. Don't forget what how bad it was and keep your promise today. This is a mere blip in your life and will be over shortly.
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Yep, day 120+ funk. Trust me, this one last a good long while. And they come and go as you go on. I'm sure some guys with many more days can probably say more funks are incoming. Just don't give in, exercise, drink lots of water, etc.
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Damn! I thought I just had a flu bug, unrelated to my quit, that was my original point. I don't feel like I'm in a funk. I slept for 9 hrs straight and am feeling better now, even gonna try to eat something as my stomach feels better.
Maybe it is the start of the dreaded "post HOF funk". I hope not, but if so I'm ready for it.
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Damn! I thought I just had a flu bug, unrelated to my quit, that was my original point. I don't feel like I'm in a funk. I slept for 9 hrs straight and am feeling better now, even gonna try to eat something as my stomach feels better.
Maybe it is the start of the dreaded "post HOF funk". I hope not, but if so I'm ready for it.
Post hof funk is mostly guys being disappointed that they magically don't feel cured after the hof. 100 days is a fucking HUGE accomplishment, but there is no finish line diesel . It's just a daily decision that gets easier to make over time. the funks get further and further apart and easier and easier to deal with. I can't tell you how much better 1,000 days is compared to 100. Tell you what , keep puttin up +1's and you'll see what I mean. Most days my quit is easier than gettin laid in a women's prison with a fistful of pardons. Occasionally it's not. But the 100's of easy days make up for the one or two tricky ones. Stay the course Diesel
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Damn! I thought I just had a flu bug, unrelated to my quit, that was my original point. I don't feel like I'm in a funk. I slept for 9 hrs straight and am feeling better now, even gonna try to eat something as my stomach feels better.
Maybe it is the start of the dreaded "post HOF funk". I hope not, but if so I'm ready for it.
Post hof funk is mostly guys being disappointed that they magically don't feel cured after the hof. 100 days is a fucking HUGE accomplishment, but there is no finish line diesel . It's just a daily decision that gets easier to make over time. the funks get further and further apart and easier and easier to deal with. I can't tell you how much better 1,000 days is compared to 100. Tell you what , keep puttin up +1's and you'll see what I mean. Most days my quit is easier than gettin laid in a women's prison with a fistful of pardons. Occasionally it's not. But the 100's of easy days make up for the one or two tricky ones. Stay the course Diesel
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Thanks for the advice. I will stay the course, no doubt about it. Also I'm tired of thinking EVERYTHING is related to my quit. Some days I might just have a cold and sore throat or my allergies might be bothering me or I may get a flu bug or just not feel well.
At 122 dayd quit I'm tired of feeling scared everytime one of those things happen and trying to relate it to my quit. Like, "oh shit my throat is sore it has to be related to dipping so long". No...you simply have a sore throat, probably caught it from one of my kids or family members.
I'm just sick of being scared period and I'm not going to give into it anymore. I know I haven't "won", I know there's no finish line, I know the road ahead wont always be smooth, but fuck it. Like SM says Ill gladly take a few days of funk or whatever in exchange for 100's of days feeling good.
Ive made it 122 days...on one hand I'm proud as hell on the other bfd, not like I get to slack off or Ive "won" anything. I do know my 122 day was WAAAAAY easier than say my 15th day and I am confident as Sm says day 1000 will be way easier than day 122 and I look forward to walking that journey. I'm just not going to walk it so scared anymore.
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Yep, day 120+ funk. Trust me, this one last a good long while. And they come and go as you go on. I'm sure some guys with many more days can probably say more funks are incoming. Just don't give in, exercise, drink lots of water, etc.
Dude. That avatar. Is. Hypnotizing. Me.
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Just got back from 20yr high school reunion. Had my first sip of alcohol in 133 days (was buzzing after 2 beers). Went outside with "the smokers" many times, a couple guys were dipping. Funny thing is I literally had no thought or urge to partake, almost like I forgot I used to do that and I SHOULD be feeling a crave or something. In fact it wasn't until I was driving home that it dawned on me that I was around a "dipper"
New guys...hang in there. Things get better. If my wussy ass can get to this state of mind in 133 days, so can you.
I know the battles not over nor have I "won" but tonight was a nice payoff to a lot of hard work. To me anyway...pretty damn proud of myself.
After re-reading this, this sounds a little gay, hope nobody laughs at me. Shut up people, let me have my moment!!!
Ok I'm drunk. Going to bed.
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Just got back from 20yr high school reunion. Had my first sip of alcohol in 133 days (was buzzing after 2 beers). Went outside with "the smokers" many times, a couple guys were dipping. Funny thing is I literally had no thought or urge to partake, almost like I forgot I used to do that and I SHOULD be feeling a crave or something. In fact it wasn't until I was driving home that it dawned on me that I was around a "dipper"
New guys...hang in there. Things get better. If my wussy ass can get to this state of mind in 133 days, so can you.
I know the battles not over nor have I "won" but tonight was a nice payoff to a lot of hard work. To me anyway...pretty damn proud of myself.
After re-reading this, this sounds a little gay, hope nobody laughs at me. Shut up people, let me have my moment!!!
Ok I'm drunk. Going to bed.
Good thing is you will wake up hung over and still quit.
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Just got back from 20yr high school reunion. Had my first sip of alcohol in 133 days (was buzzing after 2 beers). Went outside with "the smokers" many times, a couple guys were dipping. Funny thing is I literally had no thought or urge to partake, almost like I forgot I used to do that and I SHOULD be feeling a crave or something. In fact it wasn't until I was driving home that it dawned on me that I was around a "dipper"
New guys...hang in there. Things get better. If my wussy ass can get to this state of mind in 133 days, so can you.Â
I know the battles not over nor have I "won" but tonight was a nice payoff to a lot of hard work. To me anyway...pretty damn proud of myself.
After re-reading this, this sounds a little gay, hope nobody laughs at me. Shut up people, let me have my moment!!!
Ok I'm drunk. Going to bed.
Good thing is you will wake up hung over and still quit.
Effin proud of you bro!!!!!!!!! Well done!!!! 'Cheers'
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Just got back from 20yr high school reunion. Had my first sip of alcohol in 133 days (was buzzing after 2 beers). Went outside with "the smokers" many times, a couple guys were dipping. Funny thing is I literally had no thought or urge to partake, almost like I forgot I used to do that and I SHOULD be feeling a crave or something. In fact it wasn't until I was driving home that it dawned on me that I was around a "dipper"
New guys...hang in there. Things get better. If my wussy ass can get to this state of mind in 133 days, so can you.Â
I know the battles not over nor have I "won" but tonight was a nice payoff to a lot of hard work. To me anyway...pretty damn proud of myself.
After re-reading this, this sounds a little gay, hope nobody laughs at me. Shut up people, let me have my moment!!!
Ok I'm drunk. Going to bed.
Good thing is you will wake up hung over and still quit.
Effin proud of you bro!!!!!!!!! Well done!!!! 'Cheers'
Ain't no laughing here, I'm proud to be quit with you!
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150 days...kind of a neat number of days. Like most things in life though, more than some and less than others.
How do I feel? Proud, Strong, Educated, Equipped...Good.
Am I still an addict? HATE the term, but yes.
Will I ever be cured? Nope. Can I live with that? Yep.
When I first quit did I ever think I'd make it this far? No.
When did I REALLY think I could "do this"? 70-80 days in
Why 70-80 days in? Doing "normal" things in life and sippin more ktc kool aide
Do I think I can remain quit forever? Maybe, but most concerened about tomorrow.
One thing I could see bringing me back and most on guard for? Curiosity and complacency
How do I guard against those things? By using all the tools in my quit tool box and leaning on the support of KTC.
Is my quit tool box full? No and it probably never will be. There will always be room for more tools.
Do I consider quitting a "daily struggle" now? No, I have a rough day now and then but not daily and I don't look at it as a "struggle" anymore.
Do I still fear the "nic bitch"? Not really but I know she's lurking
Thing thats improved most from day 1? Ability to think of things other than dip/quitting
Have I had a day when I did not think about dip/quitting? No but I look forward to that day because I know its coming. 150 days is still a baby quit compared to 15 yrs.
Do I think this post is too long? Maybe but I don't care.
How do I feel about Ktc now? Some days I read a lot and want to help every newb and other days I just post roll and run.
How long will I continue to post roll? I don't know, til the cows come home.
Was all the struggle and "suck" worth it? FUCKING A RIGHT!!!
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150 days...kind of a neat number of days. Like most things in life though, more than some and less than others.
How do I feel? Proud, Strong, Educated, Equipped...Good.
Am I still an addict? HATE the term, but yes.
Will I ever be cured? Nope. Can I live with that? Yep.
When I first quit did I ever think I'd make it this far? No.
When did I REALLY think I could "do this"? 70-80 days in
Why 70-80 days in? Doing "normal" things in life and sippin more ktc kool aide
Do I think I can remain quit forever? Maybe, but most concerened about tomorrow.
One thing I could see bringing me back and most on guard for? Curiosity and complacency
How do I guard against those things? By using all the tools in my quit tool box and leaning on the support of KTC.
Is my quit tool box full? No and it probably never will be. There will always be room for more tools.
Do I consider quitting a "daily struggle" now? No, I have a rough day now and then but not daily and I don't look at it as a "struggle" anymore.
Do I still fear the "nic bitch"? Not really but I know she's lurking
Thing thats improved most from day 1? Ability to think of things other than dip/quitting
Have I had a day when I did not think about dip/quitting? No but I look forward to that day because I know its coming. 150 days is still a baby quit compared to 15 yrs.
Do I think this post is too long? Maybe but I don't care.
How do I feel about Ktc now? Some days I read a lot and want to help every newb and other days I just post roll and run.
How long will I continue to post roll? I don't know, til the cows come home.
Was all the struggle and "suck" worth it? FUCKING A RIGHT!!!
Well put brother!
I say stay posting as long as you stay quit!
I know for me that is definetly one of the biggest keys to maintaining, it is just that daily reminder to where I was to where I am and also a reminder to where I dont want to be....
Quit on Quiter!!
Grizzly25....out
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150 days...kind of a neat number of days. Like most things in life though, more than some and less than others.Â
How do I feel? Proud, Strong, Educated, Equipped...Good.
Am I still an addict? HATE the term, but yes.
Will I ever be cured? Nope. Can I live with that? Yep.
When I first quit did I ever think I'd make it this far? No.
When did I REALLY think I could "do this"? 70-80 days in
Why 70-80 days in? Doing "normal" things in life and sippin more ktc kool aide
Do I think I can remain quit forever? Maybe, but most concerened about tomorrow.
One thing I could see bringing me back and most on guard for? Curiosity and complacency
How do I guard against those things? By using all the tools in my quit tool box and leaning on the support of KTC.
Is my quit tool box full? No and it probably never will be. There will always be room for more tools.
Do I consider quitting a "daily struggle" now?  No, I have a rough day now and then but not daily and I don't look at it as a "struggle" anymore.
Do I still fear the "nic bitch"?  Not really but I know she's lurking
Thing thats improved most from day 1? Ability to think of things other than dip/quitting
Have I had a day when I did not think about dip/quitting? No but I look forward to that day because I know its coming. 150 days is still a baby quit compared to 15 yrs.
Do I think this post is too long? Maybe but I don't care.
How do I feel about Ktc now? Some days I read a lot and want to help every newb and other days I just post roll and run.
How long will I continue to post roll? I don't know, til the cows come home.
Was all the struggle and "suck" worth it? FUCKING A RIGHT!!!
Well put brother!
I say stay posting as long as you stay quit!
I know for me that is definetly one of the biggest keys to maintaining, it is just that daily reminder to where I was to where I am and also a reminder to where I dont want to be....
Quit on Quiter!!
Grizzly25....out
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
Diesel I'm quit with you everyday. You have a good grip on quitting and keep sipping that koolaid.
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Was watching the video Skoal Monster posted in the words of wisdom about Sean Marsee story. It was very powerful. Great stuff Skoal Monster. Then for some reason I clicked on this video below.
What an absolute MORON. This made me feel almost as strong about my quit as the Sean Marsee video. I left a comment telling him what an idiot he was. Feel free to do the same. Not trying to start a war or anything but after reading all the "you the man" comments from a lot of younger kids I had to get me two cents in.
Maybe I'm being too sensative about this and should have laughed and just moved on but it really posses me off for some reason.
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Was watching the video Skoal Monster posted in the words of wisdom about Sean Marsee story. It was very powerful. Great stuff Skoal Monster. Then for some reason I clicked on this video below.
What an absolute MORON. This made me feel almost as strong about my quit as the Sean Marsee video. I left a comment telling him what an idiot he was. Feel free to do the same. Not trying to start a war or anything but after reading all the "you the man" comments from a lot of younger kids I had to get me two cents in.
Maybe I'm being too sensative about this and should have laughed and just moved on but it really posses me off for some reason.
I happened to come across one of his videos somewhere in the 20's of my quit. This was one of the biggest hurdles because my mind was still listening to the nic bitch. I respect everything you do here Diesel, but I thought it would be a really bad idea to post anything by this asshat, just because a quit can be very fragile early on. He almost snagged me. 'Crazy'
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Hmmm. I guess I never thought people would actually buy into what this clown is spewin, but I guess a newbie could be influenced by him. Sad but true I suppose. Driving while I type rhis which isn't safe. I probably will take the link sown when i get home from work.
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Hmmm. I guess I never thought people would actually buy into what this clown is spewin, but I guess a newbie could be influenced by him. Sad but true I suppose. Driving while I type rhis which isn't safe. I probably will take the link sown when i get home from work.
I saw a video of this clown before, too...total idiot. It is very disturbing to see all the comments about how they think this guys is helping them with his "advice." And at the beginning of the video he talks about how he "researched" everything he could about smokeless tobacco....obviously not caring about the risks of death or other health concerns...
Kinda sad, actually...
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Day 158...felt blah, lazy, unmotivated, anxious and scared the last few days. I have been on anti depressants since my quit. Tomorrow my doc wants to ween me off them. Im scared I won't be able to maintain my quit without them, that I will go back to the "dark place" I was in when I first quit some 150 days ago. I had no signs of depression in my life until I quit, I should be ok off them right?
Thing is I should be looking forward to the challenge as a life free of chew and meds was my ultimate goal when I first quit. I still take anti anxiety meds on an as needed basis. I guess I'm just scared that my quit is kind of "fake"? Since I have been using some meds. I know thats a bad way to think but like I said I'm really nervous about getting off the anti depressant stuff, but I think it's a necessary step. Anyway, now Im rambling, maybe I'm just being a pussy. Fuck it, I'll be fine.
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Day 158...felt blah, lazy, unmotivated, anxious and scared the last few days. I have been on anti depressants since my quit. Tomorrow my doc wants to ween me off them. Im scared I won't be able to maintain my quit without them, that I will go back to the "dark place" I was in when I first quit some 150 days ago. I had no signs of depression in my life until I quit, I should be ok off them right?
Thing is I should be looking forward to the challenge as a life free of chew and meds was my ultimate goal when I first quit. I still take anti anxiety meds on an as needed basis. I guess I'm just scared that my quit is kind of "fake"? Since I have been using some meds. I know thats a bad way to think but like I said I'm really nervous about getting off the anti depressant stuff, but I think it's a necessary step. Anyway, now Im rambling, maybe I'm just being a pussy. Fuck it, I'll be fine.
Hey man, follow what you have learned here on the site. Rely on the friends and brothers that you have made.
We are all in this together. And from what I have read throughout your posts, you will be just fine.
I quit a real quit just like you have today
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Day 158...felt blah, lazy, unmotivated, anxious and scared the last few days. I have been on anti depressants since my quit. Tomorrow my doc wants to ween me off them. Im scared I won't be able to maintain my quit without them, that I will go back to the "dark place" I was in when I first quit some 150 days ago. I had no signs of depression in my life until I quit, I should be ok off them right?
Thing is I should be looking forward to the challenge as a life free of chew and meds was my ultimate goal when I first quit. I still take anti anxiety meds on an as needed basis. I guess I'm just scared that my quit is kind of "fake"? Since I have been using some meds. I know thats a bad way to think but like I said I'm really nervous about getting off the anti depressant stuff, but I think it's a necessary step. Anyway, now Im rambling, maybe I'm just being a pussy. Fuck it, I'll be fine.
Hey man, follow what you have learned here on the site. Rely on the friends and brothers that you have made.
We are all in this together. And from what I have read throughout your posts, you will be just fine.
I quit a real quit just like you have today
Your quit is solid. You stated you didn't have problems before, so you should be fine. We're all here for you anytime bro!
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Day 158...felt blah, lazy, unmotivated, anxious and scared the last few days. I have been on anti depressants since my quit. Tomorrow my doc wants to ween me off them. Im scared I won't be able to maintain my quit without them, that I will go back to the "dark place" I was in when I first quit some 150 days ago. I had no signs of depression in my life until I quit, I should be ok off them right?
Thing is I should be looking forward to the challenge as a life free of chew and meds was my ultimate goal when I first quit. I still take anti anxiety meds on an as needed basis. I guess I'm just scared that my quit is kind of "fake"? Since I have been using some meds. I know thats a bad way to think but like I said I'm really nervous about getting off the anti depressant stuff, but I think it's a necessary step. Anyway, now Im rambling, maybe I'm just being a pussy. Fuck it, I'll be fine.
Hey man, follow what you have learned here on the site. Rely on the friends and brothers that you have made.
We are all in this together. And from what I have read throughout your posts, you will be just fine.
I quit a real quit just like you have today
Your quit is solid. You stated you didn't have problems before, so you should be fine. We're all here for you anytime bro!
Thanks guys. I do kind of feel it's been ME that has made my quit stick so far, and the pills were an assist to help me through the begging. Now it's time to put on the big boy pants and tackle this shit minus some assist. May need to lean on this site more, may be fine, may freak the fuck out...Hate not knowing, but I guess I will soon. Thanks again, fellas. Tough to talk to anyone else about this stuff since not many have been through it like we all have. Much appreciated.
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Day 158...felt blah, lazy, unmotivated, anxious and scared the last few days. I have been on anti depressants since my quit. Tomorrow my doc wants to ween me off them. Im scared I won't be able to maintain my quit without them, that I will go back to the "dark place" I was in when I first quit some 150 days ago. I had no signs of depression in my life until I quit, I should be ok off them right?
Thing is I should be looking forward to the challenge as a life free of chew and meds was my ultimate goal when I first quit. I still take anti anxiety meds on an as needed basis. I guess I'm just scared that my quit is kind of "fake"? Since I have been using some meds. I know thats a bad way to think but like I said I'm really nervous about getting off the anti depressant stuff, but I think it's a necessary step. Anyway, now Im rambling, maybe I'm just being a pussy. Fuck it, I'll be fine.
Hey man, follow what you have learned here on the site. Rely on the friends and brothers that you have made.
We are all in this together. And from what I have read throughout your posts, you will be just fine.
I quit a real quit just like you have today
Your quit is solid. You stated you didn't have problems before, so you should be fine. We're all here for you anytime bro!
Thanks guys. I do kind of feel it's been ME that has made my quit stick so far, and the pills were an assist to help me through the begging. Now it's time to put on the big boy pants and tackle this shit minus some assist. May need to lean on this site more, may be fine, may freak the fuck out...Hate not knowing, but I guess I will soon. Thanks again, fellas. Tough to talk to anyone else about this stuff since not many have been through it like we all have. Much appreciated.
You have gotten here by keeping your promise the meds helped in some ways but I think you quit and accomplished this cause its what you wanted not because of meds!
I will give some advise that has helped me on many an occasion even today.... workout workout workout some more the best way for me to get my mellow back is to basically kick my own ass and that helps me far more than some other things....
Anyway dont sell yourself short and have you mind fool you into thinking the meds are what got you here...YOU are what got you here!
Keep on keeping on brother!
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Day 158...felt blah, lazy, unmotivated, anxious and scared the last few days. I have been on anti depressants since my quit. Tomorrow my doc wants to ween me off them. Im scared I won't be able to maintain my quit without them, that I will go back to the "dark place" I was in when I first quit some 150 days ago. I had no signs of depression in my life until I quit, I should be ok off them right?
Thing is I should be looking forward to the challenge as a life free of chew and meds was my ultimate goal when I first quit. I still take anti anxiety meds on an as needed basis. I guess I'm just scared that my quit is kind of "fake"? Since I have been using some meds. I know thats a bad way to think but like I said I'm really nervous about getting off the anti depressant stuff, but I think it's a necessary step. Anyway, now Im rambling, maybe I'm just being a pussy. Fuck it, I'll be fine.
Hey man, follow what you have learned here on the site. Rely on the friends and brothers that you have made.
We are all in this together. And from what I have read throughout your posts, you will be just fine.
I quit a real quit just like you have today
Your quit is solid. You stated you didn't have problems before, so you should be fine. We're all here for you anytime bro!
Thanks guys. I do kind of feel it's been ME that has made my quit stick so far, and the pills were an assist to help me through the begging. Now it's time to put on the big boy pants and tackle this shit minus some assist. May need to lean on this site more, may be fine, may freak the fuck out...Hate not knowing, but I guess I will soon. Thanks again, fellas. Tough to talk to anyone else about this stuff since not many have been through it like we all have. Much appreciated.
You have gotten here by keeping your promise the meds helped in some ways but I think you quit and accomplished this cause its what you wanted not because of meds!
I will give some advise that has helped me on many an occasion even today.... workout workout workout some more the best way for me to get my mellow back is to basically kick my own ass and that helps me far more than some other things....
Anyway dont sell yourself short and have you mind fool you into thinking the meds are what got you here...YOU are what got you here!
Keep on keeping on brother!
Thanks. I think your right about the excersise. I started playing hoops twice a week which is a great workout but the days inbetween are weak. Especially lately when ive neglected going to the gym in favor or raiding the kids halloween bags. I went tonight and feel better. Two nights of hoopin isn't enough.
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Day 158...felt blah, lazy, unmotivated, anxious and scared the last few days. I have been on anti depressants since my quit. Tomorrow my doc wants to ween me off them. Im scared I won't be able to maintain my quit without them, that I will go back to the "dark place" I was in when I first quit some 150 days ago. I had no signs of depression in my life until I quit, I should be ok off them right?
Thing is I should be looking forward to the challenge as a life free of chew and meds was my ultimate goal when I first quit. I still take anti anxiety meds on an as needed basis. I guess I'm just scared that my quit is kind of "fake"? Since I have been using some meds. I know thats a bad way to think but like I said I'm really nervous about getting off the anti depressant stuff, but I think it's a necessary step. Anyway, now Im rambling, maybe I'm just being a pussy. Fuck it, I'll be fine.
Hey man, follow what you have learned here on the site. Rely on the friends and brothers that you have made.
We are all in this together. And from what I have read throughout your posts, you will be just fine.
I quit a real quit just like you have today
Your quit is solid. You stated you didn't have problems before, so you should be fine. We're all here for you anytime bro!
Thanks guys. I do kind of feel it's been ME that has made my quit stick so far, and the pills were an assist to help me through the begging. Now it's time to put on the big boy pants and tackle this shit minus some assist. May need to lean on this site more, may be fine, may freak the fuck out...Hate not knowing, but I guess I will soon. Thanks again, fellas. Tough to talk to anyone else about this stuff since not many have been through it like we all have. Much appreciated.
You have gotten here by keeping your promise the meds helped in some ways but I think you quit and accomplished this cause its what you wanted not because of meds!
I will give some advise that has helped me on many an occasion even today.... workout workout workout some more the best way for me to get my mellow back is to basically kick my own ass and that helps me far more than some other things....
Anyway dont sell yourself short and have you mind fool you into thinking the meds are what got you here...YOU are what got you here!
Keep on keeping on brother!
Thanks. I think your right about the excersise. I started playing hoops twice a week which is a great workout but the days inbetween are weak. Especially lately when ive neglected going to the gym in favor or raiding the kids halloween bags. I went tonight and feel better. Two nights of hoopin isn't enough.
Doc says I'm rushing things because I feel "better". Gonna decrease my doseage but says late spring/early summer I could be 100% med free. I can live with that. 15 years of killing yourself gonna come with some consequences. I will remain quit and vigilant. If nicotine had a face I'd knock it's fucking teeth out.
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I'm such an idiot...a week or so ago Skoal Monster posted a video in words of wisdom about Sean Marsee story. As I said previous it was a great youtube video, but like a dope I clicked on a video called "smokeless tobacco saved my life" by some backwoods hillbilly named Mudjug who was reciting "facts" from a book about how safe chew is compared to cigarettes and in general, written by a doctor. Mostly in regards to oral cancer and low odds of dippers getting it.
I shared this a week ago and someone pointed out I shouldn't post the link because it could jeporadize a quit, especially an early one. I kind of agreed and took down the link to the Mudjug video. Not realizing at the time that MY quit was getting tested because of this video.
My door was cracked and the nic bitch was trying to put her foot in it. I started thinking "wow, a DOCTOR wrote this?" and I started to believe in some of the statistics this Mudjug character was spouting off. I WAS ACTUALLY 2ND GUESSING MY QUIT AND THINKING "MÀYBE CHEW ISN'T THAT BAD???????" WHAT THE FUCK?????!!!
Luckily I snapped out of it and got PISSED. Like a moron I then commented on the video about the ill effects of chew and nicotine addiction, especially since most of the positive comments about the video came from underage kids who Mudjug encouraged ti continue chewing. Of course I was then bombarded by the Mudjug fan club about being a dumb city boy and a doctor would know better than me. After some back and forth I decided there was no use arguing with idiots and moved on...to the doctor who wrote the book.
I did some reasesrch on him and his book, which was funded by a bottomless grant from the tobacco industry. I also found his email address and told him my story of struggle with chew and nicotine addiction. I never expected a response from a Doctor who is an endowed chair of tobacco harm reduction research at a major university. But I did...and then we started going back and forth.
My point to him was he should be stressing tobacco harm ELIMINATION by encouraging people to QUIT. He would then come back with some fancy dancy stats on how "safe" smokeless is compared to cigarettes and that some people CAN'T quit. THAT really pissed me off and I told him everyone can quit its just that most DON'T WANT TO QUIT and he was basically encouraging them to remain addicted to nicotine. I sited my struggles with addiction as well as the stories from this site. We went back and forth until finally I think he had enough of me and ended with this email.
Rodu,Brad to me
Craig,
I absolutely agree with your decision. Congratulations and best wishes!!!
Brad Rodu
Yes I'm dumb for watching that video and letting it get to me, but God Dammit I feel strongly about my quit and the quit of every mother fucker on this site. I am "that guy" who will FIGHT for what he believes in, even if it means duking it out with nic addicted hillbillys or know it all doctors. I may not be an endowed member of any tobacco committee but I am well endowed with HUGE QUIT BALLS!!!
Sorry this was so long but this was a therapeutic process that I wanted to share.
Stay Quit,
Diesel
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Glad you ended up on the right side of that one Diesel. Proud to be Quit with you today!
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Way to call that Sh!t for what it was Diesel. Like the don't back down attitude.. I'm Quit with you today!
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Holy Schnikes! That is awesome dude. I saw that video on youtube too... I don't understand how anyone can argue for a product that rips the inside of my lip to shreds, causes my gums to corrode, takes my teeth away, and even 120 days after quitting it still makes my tongue hurt. Thank you for taking on this issue.
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This mudjug dude is a loser. he's full of lies. Anyone who would tell kids it's ok to chew is an idiot.
Fifty days ago I might have believed it. How I feel now just confirms how much of a poison that shit is!
Great stuff Diesel!
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Thanks guys. I couldn't listen to his crap without giving a few shots.
The emails with the doctor who wrote the book were interesting as well. I actually think he is just as bad as this Mudjug clown. His book was funded by the tobacco companies, it's no wonder what what his findings were.
I don't care if the guy has more degrees than a thermometer and is a million times smarter than me. Anyone who trumpets for big tobacco is a twat nugget and if they fuck with my quit for even a second is gonna get a piece of my mind.
Fuck all of them. I'm quit with the biatches on this site, who have balls of fucking steel to say no to tobacco/nic. A real man can quit, a fucking coward can come up with a bunch of bullshit to justify being a slave to a known poison that is known not only to kill you, but fuck up your bran, ruin relationships, drain bank accounts, and basically rule your life.
I don't need a fucking PHD or to write a book to know this shit. I fucking LIVED the lie for 15 years!!!
Ok, I gotta settle down, I'm starting to steam and want to punch someone in the throat.
Stay Quit,
Diesel
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Dude here's a bad ass NECK CHOP (http://youtu.be/DcaOr1TBA1w?t=33s) that will get you fired up and ready.
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First of all, man...good for you.
Not everybody can be saved. But if one person reads your comments and quits...that person can be. I'm proud of you.
Secondly, this good doc is full of crap and not just because he is funded by tobacco but because he is saying what we (as users) wanted him to say back then: it is too impossible to quit nicotine. He feeds the fear in the these users' heads by telling them "nobody blames you for not being able to quit. It's OK to fail."
Bull-fucking-shit.
First off, his major hypothesis is that people "cannot or will not quit smoking" so (obviously) replacing cigarettes with snus will lead to "quitting". First off....duh on the vehicle replacement. If I didn't hate nicotine so much I might make a nicotine anal plug and claim it is just as effective to aid in "quitting" and is completely invisible to avoid the stigma of people seeing you with something on your mouth. Would you feed an alcoholic that prefers vodka beers and mouthwash to cure him? No.
Secondly, let's concentrate on the "cannot or will not" aspect. What is the percentage of people on this earth that can live without nicotine? Is it 100%? Would anybody die if they didn't get their fix? No. So, that means that people cannot "cannot " quit. That means that's 100% of these users "will not" or "do not want to" quit. Again...duh.
His research claims that that sinus lusers lose 15 days of their lives compared to 8 years for smokers. Physically, I can't disagree with this because...well. what are we contending? Does he have a pathway to an alternate dimension where he is tracking these alternate users that are not using over there? How the fuck does he know? It's because he is looking at the probability of getting diseases "directly" associated with chewing. That means the high blood pressure, sleep apnea, circulation issues, etc that comes with the addiction are not included. Besides, even if I concede the "8 days lost", how many days are spent procuring, using, hiding with your fix? And it also assumes that users do not need more and more product to feed the addiction.
He is the little voice around that helps peddle this smut. He is nothing because, ultimately, be can't make people use. That's up to every one of us.
You're doing a great job. Keep it up.
Fuck this guy.
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Dude here's a bad ass NECK CHOP (http://youtu.be/DcaOr1TBA1w?t=33s) that will get you fired up and ready.
NICE!!!
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First of all, man...good for you.
Not everybody can be saved. But if one person reads your comments and quits...that person can be. I'm proud of you.
Secondly, this good doc is full of crap and not just because he is funded by tobacco but because he is saying what we (as users) wanted him to say back then: it is too impossible to quit nicotine. He feeds the fear in the these users' heads by telling them "nobody blames you for not being able to quit. It's OK to fail."
Bull-fucking-shit.
First off, his major hypothesis is that people "cannot or will not quit smoking" so (obviously) replacing cigarettes with snus will lead to "quitting". First off....duh on the vehicle replacement. If I didn't hate nicotine so much I might make a nicotine anal plug and claim it is just as effective to aid in "quitting" and is completely invisible to avoid the stigma of people seeing you with something on your mouth. Would you feed an alcoholic that prefers vodka beers and mouthwash to cure him? No.
Secondly, let's concentrate on the "cannot or will not" aspect. What is the percentage of people on this earth that can live without nicotine? Is it 100%? Would anybody die if they didn't get their fix? No. So, that means that people cannot "cannot " quit. That means that's 100% of these users "will not" or "do not want to" quit. Again...duh.
His research claims that that sinus lusers lose 15 days of their lives compared to 8 years for smokers. Physically, I can't disagree with this because...well. what are we contending? Does he have a pathway to an alternate dimension where he is tracking these alternate users that are not using over there? How the fuck does he know? It's because he is looking at the probability of getting diseases "directly" associated with chewing. That means the high blood pressure, sleep apnea, circulation issues, etc that comes with the addiction are not included. Besides, even if I concede the "8 days lost", how many days are spent procuring, using, hiding with your fix? And it also assumes that users do not need more and more product to feed the addiction.
He is the little voice around that helps peddle this smut. He is nothing because, ultimately, be can't make people use. That's up to every one of us.
You're doing a great job. Keep it up.
Fuck this guy.
I agree and those were some of the points I brought up with the Doctor as we emailed back and forth. He CLAIMED he does not encourage the use of tobacco to anybody, only that he is making people aware of "safer" alternatives to smoking through his tobacco harm reduction campaign. Like hes doing everyone a big favor by recommending replacing nicotine with...nicotine.
I also got him to admit that "chew" like Cope, Kodiak, Skoal, etc...is more harmful than Swedish snuss because of the additional sweeteners and chemicals added to American dip.
I also pointed out that all these kids who are taking his book as a green light to continue dipping aren't using snuss pouches. They're loading their lips with over sized pinches of chew that contain as much nicotine as 3-5 cigarettes. That's when he ended it and said I was doing the right thing and wished me luck.
Fuck it. I'm not afraid to mix it up with a Doctor. Lord knows ive done dumber things in my life, like poision myself with kodiak for 15 years.
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First of all, man...good for you.
Not everybody can be saved. But if one person reads your comments and quits...that person can be. I'm proud of you.
Secondly, this good doc is full of crap and not just because he is funded by tobacco but because he is saying what we (as users) wanted him to say back then: it is too impossible to quit nicotine. He feeds the fear in the these users' heads by telling them "nobody blames you for not being able to quit. It's OK to fail."
Bull-fucking-shit.
First off, his major hypothesis is that people "cannot or will not quit smoking" so (obviously) replacing cigarettes with snus will lead to "quitting". First off....duh on the vehicle replacement. If I didn't hate nicotine so much I might make a nicotine anal plug and claim it is just as effective to aid in "quitting" and is completely invisible to avoid the stigma of people seeing you with something on your mouth. Would you feed an alcoholic that prefers vodka beers and mouthwash to cure him? No.Â
Secondly, let's concentrate on the "cannot or will not" aspect. What is the percentage of people on this earth that can live without nicotine? Is it 100%? Would anybody die if they didn't get their fix? No. So, that means that people cannot "cannot " quit. That means that's 100% of these users "will not" or "do not want to" quit. Again...duh.Â
His research claims that that sinus lusers lose 15 days of their lives compared to 8 years for smokers. Physically, I can't disagree with this because...well. what are we contending? Does he have a pathway to an alternate dimension where he is tracking these alternate users that are not using over there? How the fuck does he know? It's because he is looking at the probability of getting diseases "directly" associated with chewing. That means the high blood pressure, sleep apnea, circulation issues, etc that comes with the addiction are not included. Besides, even if I concede the "8 days lost", how many days are spent procuring, using, hiding with your fix? And it also assumes that users do not need more and more product to feed the addiction.
He is the little voice around that helps peddle this smut. He is nothing because, ultimately, be can't make people use. That's up to every one of us.
You're doing a great job. Keep it up.
Fuck this guy.
I agree and those were some of the points I brought up with the Doctor as we emailed back and forth. He CLAIMED he does not encourage the use of tobacco to anybody, only that he is making people aware of "safer" alternatives to smoking through his tobacco harm reduction campaign. Like hes doing everyone a big favor by recommending replacing nicotine with...nicotine.
I also got him to admit that "chew" like Cope, Kodiak, Skoal, etc...is more harmful than Swedish snuss because of the additional sweeteners and chemicals added to American dip.
I also pointed out that all these kids who are taking his book as a green light to continue dipping aren't using snuss pouches. They're loading their lips with over sized pinches of chew that contain as much nicotine as 3-5 cigarettes. That's when he ended it and said I was doing the right thing and wished me luck.
Fuck it. I'm not afraid to mix it up with a Doctor. Lord knows ive done dumber things in my life, like poision myself with kodiak for 15 years.
So, basically, you won the argument?
Bravo, sir.
Here's the thing. I had to try to watch that video you did. It's fucking idiocy.
Don't believe their lies. The one dude is making money selling spittoons to people while quoting source material advocating spitless snus, and the other is funded primarily by tobacco.
You are living, breathing example of the ability to quit. You are Santa Clause to them.
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First of all, man...good for you.
Not everybody can be saved. But if one person reads your comments and quits...that person can be. I'm proud of you.
Secondly, this good doc is full of crap and not just because he is funded by tobacco but because he is saying what we (as users) wanted him to say back then: it is too impossible to quit nicotine. He feeds the fear in the these users' heads by telling them "nobody blames you for not being able to quit. It's OK to fail."
Bull-fucking-shit.
First off, his major hypothesis is that people "cannot or will not quit smoking" so (obviously) replacing cigarettes with snus will lead to "quitting". First off....duh on the vehicle replacement. If I didn't hate nicotine so much I might make a nicotine anal plug and claim it is just as effective to aid in "quitting" and is completely invisible to avoid the stigma of people seeing you with something on your mouth. Would you feed an alcoholic that prefers vodka beers and mouthwash to cure him? No.Â
Secondly, let's concentrate on the "cannot or will not" aspect. What is the percentage of people on this earth that can live without nicotine? Is it 100%? Would anybody die if they didn't get their fix? No. So, that means that people cannot "cannot " quit. That means that's 100% of these users "will not" or "do not want to" quit. Again...duh.Â
His research claims that that sinus lusers lose 15 days of their lives compared to 8 years for smokers. Physically, I can't disagree with this because...well. what are we contending? Does he have a pathway to an alternate dimension where he is tracking these alternate users that are not using over there? How the fuck does he know? It's because he is looking at the probability of getting diseases "directly" associated with chewing. That means the high blood pressure, sleep apnea, circulation issues, etc that comes with the addiction are not included. Besides, even if I concede the "8 days lost", how many days are spent procuring, using, hiding with your fix? And it also assumes that users do not need more and more product to feed the addiction.
He is the little voice around that helps peddle this smut. He is nothing because, ultimately, be can't make people use. That's up to every one of us.
You're doing a great job. Keep it up.
Fuck this guy.
I agree and those were some of the points I brought up with the Doctor as we emailed back and forth. He CLAIMED he does not encourage the use of tobacco to anybody, only that he is making people aware of "safer" alternatives to smoking through his tobacco harm reduction campaign. Like hes doing everyone a big favor by recommending replacing nicotine with...nicotine.
I also got him to admit that "chew" like Cope, Kodiak, Skoal, etc...is more harmful than Swedish snuss because of the additional sweeteners and chemicals added to American dip.
I also pointed out that all these kids who are taking his book as a green light to continue dipping aren't using snuss pouches. They're loading their lips with over sized pinches of chew that contain as much nicotine as 3-5 cigarettes. That's when he ended it and said I was doing the right thing and wished me luck.
Fuck it. I'm not afraid to mix it up with a Doctor. Lord knows ive done dumber things in my life, like poision myself with kodiak for 15 years.
So, basically, you won the argument?
Bravo, sir.
Here's the thing. I had to try to watch that video you did. It's fucking idiocy.
Don't believe their lies. The one dude is making money selling spittoons to people while quoting source material advocating spitless snus, and the other is funded primarily by tobacco.
You are living, breathing example of the ability to quit. You are Santa Clause to them.
No sense can come from a dude named "Mudjug".
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First of all, man...good for you.
Not everybody can be saved. But if one person reads your comments and quits...that person can be. I'm proud of you.
Secondly, this good doc is full of crap and not just because he is funded by tobacco but because he is saying what we (as users) wanted him to say back then: it is too impossible to quit nicotine. He feeds the fear in the these users' heads by telling them "nobody blames you for not being able to quit. It's OK to fail."
Bull-fucking-shit.
First off, his major hypothesis is that people "cannot or will not quit smoking" so (obviously) replacing cigarettes with snus will lead to "quitting". First off....duh on the vehicle replacement. If I didn't hate nicotine so much I might make a nicotine anal plug and claim it is just as effective to aid in "quitting" and is completely invisible to avoid the stigma of people seeing you with something on your mouth. Would you feed an alcoholic that prefers vodka beers and mouthwash to cure him? No.Â
Secondly, let's concentrate on the "cannot or will not" aspect. What is the percentage of people on this earth that can live without nicotine? Is it 100%? Would anybody die if they didn't get their fix? No. So, that means that people cannot "cannot " quit. That means that's 100% of these users "will not" or "do not want to" quit. Again...duh.Â
His research claims that that sinus lusers lose 15 days of their lives compared to 8 years for smokers. Physically, I can't disagree with this because...well. what are we contending? Does he have a pathway to an alternate dimension where he is tracking these alternate users that are not using over there? How the fuck does he know? It's because he is looking at the probability of getting diseases "directly" associated with chewing. That means the high blood pressure, sleep apnea, circulation issues, etc that comes with the addiction are not included. Besides, even if I concede the "8 days lost", how many days are spent procuring, using, hiding with your fix? And it also assumes that users do not need more and more product to feed the addiction.
He is the little voice around that helps peddle this smut. He is nothing because, ultimately, be can't make people use. That's up to every one of us.
You're doing a great job. Keep it up.
Fuck this guy.
I agree and those were some of the points I brought up with the Doctor as we emailed back and forth. He CLAIMED he does not encourage the use of tobacco to anybody, only that he is making people aware of "safer" alternatives to smoking through his tobacco harm reduction campaign. Like hes doing everyone a big favor by recommending replacing nicotine with...nicotine.
I also got him to admit that "chew" like Cope, Kodiak, Skoal, etc...is more harmful than Swedish snuss because of the additional sweeteners and chemicals added to American dip.
I also pointed out that all these kids who are taking his book as a green light to continue dipping aren't using snuss pouches. They're loading their lips with over sized pinches of chew that contain as much nicotine as 3-5 cigarettes. That's when he ended it and said I was doing the right thing and wished me luck.
Fuck it. I'm not afraid to mix it up with a Doctor. Lord knows ive done dumber things in my life, like poision myself with kodiak for 15 years.
So, basically, you won the argument?
Bravo, sir.
Here's the thing. I had to try to watch that video you did. It's fucking idiocy.
Don't believe their lies. The one dude is making money selling spittoons to people while quoting source material advocating spitless snus, and the other is funded primarily by tobacco.
You are living, breathing example of the ability to quit. You are Santa Clause to them.
No sense can come from a dude named "Mudjug".
That Mudjug guy is an idiot. I did not watch the video you guys are talking about but I've seen some of his other stuff. Poke around Youtube and you will find lots of vids of people celebrating dipping. Outlaw is another guy that has dipping vids all over the place. While I didn't watch that vid, I did read though some of the comments. A lot of them are by teenage guys that are young and stupid and easily influenced. I was there once. I started when I was 15. There isn't a lot you can tell a 15 year old kid that is gonna change his mind. People like this asshole Mudjug guy contribute to the whole dipping "lifestyle" that appeals to these kids. It's a shame and it's irresponsible.
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Had a little "pep in my step" today as I always do the Wed before Thanksgiving. For YEARS the tradition has been the same. Hoops with the old gang at my old high school at night, Lions game with my Uncles and Brothers on T giving and then over to my Aunts for an absolute FEAST and then my wife joins the mass of dumb dumbs and goes midnight shopping. She loves it though, so whatever.
I love every bit of it, and is one of my favorite times of the year, hence the extra pep today at work, but in the back of my mind I felt "something" was missing...oh yeah, my old friend "kodiak" had been part of all this for the past 15 years. In my addicted mind he was the ultimate "enhancer".
Basketball, Lions game, eat til you pass out, house to yourself as kids sleep and wife is gone...how could life get any better? Oh yeah load up the lip with some kodiak and make a great moment even better. What a bunch of bullshit that was. A complete and total fucking lie.
That crap didn't make ANY of that better, in fact, looking back it made it worse. Always scheming when I could get my dips in, planting cans in the basement and worrying if I found them all or if my wife would find one, constantly calling my wife asking her if she was okay and to call me when she was on her way home because I was worried about her...yeah right I just wanted the warning she was on her way home so I could clean up and hide my shit again. And oh yeah, always in the back of my mind was the fear of cancer and dieing, but don't let that stop you. Just keep "enhancing" the fun. What a slave I was, bottom of the barrel loser.
No "man" should live like that. That's a fucking COWARD way to live...but I lived it and am ashamed of it.
Not today bitches. I still had the extra bounce at work, I still am pumped to hoop tonight, I'm still excited to see the lions lose tomorrow with 4 of the favorite guys in my life, I will still call my wife asking if shes okay and to call me on her way home...but this time it will be because I really do care.
I don't need that shit. I never did. It hooked me BAAAD and tricked me for 15 years but this year I turn the tables. This year for the first time in 15 years I'm doing Thanksgiving as a MAN...and it feels fucking great. Fuck kodiak, fuck nicotine, fuck being a slave, fuck it all.
Be thankful. Be thankful for you're family, you're friends, you're huge quit balls, you're FREEDOM and your life!
Quit on brothers and happy Thanks fucking Giving.
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Had a little "pep in my step" today as I always do the Wed before Thanksgiving. For YEARS the tradition has been the same. Hoops with the old gang at my old high school at night, Lions game with my Uncles and Brothers on T giving and then over to my Aunts for an absolute FEAST and then my wife joins the mass of dumb dumbs and goes midnight shopping. She loves it though, so whatever.
I love every bit of it, and is one of my favorite times of the year, hence the extra pep today at work, but in the back of my mind I felt "something" was missing...oh yeah, my old friend "kodiak" had been part of all this for the past 15 years. In my addicted mind he was the ultimate "enhancer".
Basketball, Lions game, eat til you pass out, house to yourself as kids sleep and wife is gone...how could life get any better? Oh yeah load up the lip with some kodiak and make a great moment even better. What a bunch of bullshit that was. A complete and total fucking lie.
That crap didn't make ANY of that better, in fact, looking back it made it worse. Always scheming when I could get my dips in, planting cans in the basement and worrying if I found them all or if my wife would find one, constantly calling my wife asking her if she was okay and to call me when she was on her way home because I was worried about her...yeah right I just wanted the warning she was on her way home so I could clean up and hide my shit again. And oh yeah, always in the back of my mind was the fear of cancer and dieing, but don't let that stop you. Just keep "enhancing" the fun. What a slave I was, bottom of the barrel loser.
No "man" should live like that. That's a fucking COWARD way to live...but I lived it and am ashamed of it.
Not today bitches. I still had the extra bounce at work, I still am pumped to hoop tonight, I'm still excited to see the lions lose tomorrow with 4 of the favorite guys in my life, I will still call my wife asking if shes okay and to call me on her way home...but this time it will be because I really do care.
I don't need that shit. I never did. It hooked me BAAAD and tricked me for 15 years but this year I turn the tables. This year for the first time in 15 years I'm doing Thanksgiving as a MAN...and it feels fucking great. Fuck kodiak, fuck nicotine, fuck being a slave, fuck it all.
Be thankful. Be thankful for you're family, you're friends, you're huge quit balls, you're FREEDOM and your life!
Quit on brothers and happy Thanks fucking Giving.
Good stuff.
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Enjoy your Freedom Bro. Diesel2112, as you have earned it!
I quit TODAY with you on this Turkey day eve.
My first poison free Turkey day in 30 yrs.
Stay very strong sir! Remember, it is always ONE day at a TiMe with our addiction! I quit with you and pray for you.
Enjoy the games, Cheers!
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Enjoy your Freedom Bro. Diesel2112, as you have earned it!
I quit TODAY with you on this Turkey day eve.
My first poison free Turkey day in 30 yrs.
Stay very strong sir! Remember, it is always ONE day at a TiMe with our addiction! I quit with you and pray for you.
Enjoy the games, Cheers!
Same to you!
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What a crazy, busy, exciting, stressful, fun, long, short Thanksgiving weekend. I did a lot of shit...none of it with dip, and I didn't miss it one bit. Didn't need it...never did. Very eye opening stuff to me. I never thought a lot of this was possible. Glad I was wrong.
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First of all, man...good for you.
Not everybody can be saved. But if one person reads your comments and quits...that person can be. I'm proud of you.
Secondly, this good doc is full of crap and not just because he is funded by tobacco but because he is saying what we (as users) wanted him to say back then: it is too impossible to quit nicotine. He feeds the fear in the these users' heads by telling them "nobody blames you for not being able to quit. It's OK to fail."
Bull-fucking-shit.
First off, his major hypothesis is that people "cannot or will not quit smoking" so (obviously) replacing cigarettes with snus will lead to "quitting". First off....duh on the vehicle replacement. If I didn't hate nicotine so much I might make a nicotine anal plug and claim it is just as effective to aid in "quitting" and is completely invisible to avoid the stigma of people seeing you with something on your mouth. Would you feed an alcoholic that prefers vodka beers and mouthwash to cure him? No.Â
Secondly, let's concentrate on the "cannot or will not" aspect. What is the percentage of people on this earth that can live without nicotine? Is it 100%? Would anybody die if they didn't get their fix? No. So, that means that people cannot "cannot " quit. That means that's 100% of these users "will not" or "do not want to" quit. Again...duh.Â
His research claims that that sinus lusers lose 15 days of their lives compared to 8 years for smokers. Physically, I can't disagree with this because...well. what are we contending? Does he have a pathway to an alternate dimension where he is tracking these alternate users that are not using over there? How the fuck does he know? It's because he is looking at the probability of getting diseases "directly" associated with chewing. That means the high blood pressure, sleep apnea, circulation issues, etc that comes with the addiction are not included. Besides, even if I concede the "8 days lost", how many days are spent procuring, using, hiding with your fix? And it also assumes that users do not need more and more product to feed the addiction.
He is the little voice around that helps peddle this smut. He is nothing because, ultimately, be can't make people use. That's up to every one of us.
You're doing a great job. Keep it up.
Fuck this guy.
I agree and those were some of the points I brought up with the Doctor as we emailed back and forth. He CLAIMED he does not encourage the use of tobacco to anybody, only that he is making people aware of "safer" alternatives to smoking through his tobacco harm reduction campaign. Like hes doing everyone a big favor by recommending replacing nicotine with...nicotine.
I also got him to admit that "chew" like Cope, Kodiak, Skoal, etc...is more harmful than Swedish snuss because of the additional sweeteners and chemicals added to American dip.
I also pointed out that all these kids who are taking his book as a green light to continue dipping aren't using snuss pouches. They're loading their lips with over sized pinches of chew that contain as much nicotine as 3-5 cigarettes. That's when he ended it and said I was doing the right thing and wished me luck.
Fuck it. I'm not afraid to mix it up with a Doctor. Lord knows ive done dumber things in my life, like poision myself with kodiak for 15 years.
So, basically, you won the argument?
Bravo, sir.
Here's the thing. I had to try to watch that video you did. It's fucking idiocy.
Don't believe their lies. The one dude is making money selling spittoons to people while quoting source material advocating spitless snus, and the other is funded primarily by tobacco.
You are living, breathing example of the ability to quit. You are Santa Clause to them.
No sense can come from a dude named "Mudjug".
That Mudjug guy is an idiot. I did not watch the video you guys are talking about but I've seen some of his other stuff. Poke around Youtube and you will find lots of vids of people celebrating dipping. Outlaw is another guy that has dipping vids all over the place. While I didn't watch that vid, I did read though some of the comments. A lot of them are by teenage guys that are young and stupid and easily influenced. I was there once. I started when I was 15. There isn't a lot you can tell a 15 year old kid that is gonna change his mind. People like this asshole Mudjug guy contribute to the whole dipping "lifestyle" that appeals to these kids. It's a shame and it's irresponsible.
I came here based on the anxiety issues that have started around day 75 of my quit. Bad. Real bad. A few full fledged panic attacks as well. More on that later.
But yes, I saw this guys bullshit when I watched the Marsee story. Thank you for taking this douche bag on, and the fine doctor.
Funny what money will make some people do, huh? Both of them will have their karma catch up to them sooner or later. We are doing the BEST thing. Quitting.
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First of all, man...good for you.
Not everybody can be saved. But if one person reads your comments and quits...that person can be. I'm proud of you.
Secondly, this good doc is full of crap and not just because he is funded by tobacco but because he is saying what we (as users) wanted him to say back then: it is too impossible to quit nicotine. He feeds the fear in the these users' heads by telling them "nobody blames you for not being able to quit. It's OK to fail."
Bull-fucking-shit.
First off, his major hypothesis is that people "cannot or will not quit smoking" so (obviously) replacing cigarettes with snus will lead to "quitting". First off....duh on the vehicle replacement. If I didn't hate nicotine so much I might make a nicotine anal plug and claim it is just as effective to aid in "quitting" and is completely invisible to avoid the stigma of people seeing you with something on your mouth. Would you feed an alcoholic that prefers vodka beers and mouthwash to cure him? No.Â
Secondly, let's concentrate on the "cannot or will not" aspect. What is the percentage of people on this earth that can live without nicotine? Is it 100%? Would anybody die if they didn't get their fix? No. So, that means that people cannot "cannot " quit. That means that's 100% of these users "will not" or "do not want to" quit. Again...duh.Â
His research claims that that sinus lusers lose 15 days of their lives compared to 8 years for smokers. Physically, I can't disagree with this because...well. what are we contending? Does he have a pathway to an alternate dimension where he is tracking these alternate users that are not using over there? How the fuck does he know? It's because he is looking at the probability of getting diseases "directly" associated with chewing. That means the high blood pressure, sleep apnea, circulation issues, etc that comes with the addiction are not included. Besides, even if I concede the "8 days lost", how many days are spent procuring, using, hiding with your fix? And it also assumes that users do not need more and more product to feed the addiction.
He is the little voice around that helps peddle this smut. He is nothing because, ultimately, be can't make people use. That's up to every one of us.
You're doing a great job. Keep it up.
Fuck this guy.
I agree and those were some of the points I brought up with the Doctor as we emailed back and forth. He CLAIMED he does not encourage the use of tobacco to anybody, only that he is making people aware of "safer" alternatives to smoking through his tobacco harm reduction campaign. Like hes doing everyone a big favor by recommending replacing nicotine with...nicotine.
I also got him to admit that "chew" like Cope, Kodiak, Skoal, etc...is more harmful than Swedish snuss because of the additional sweeteners and chemicals added to American dip.
I also pointed out that all these kids who are taking his book as a green light to continue dipping aren't using snuss pouches. They're loading their lips with over sized pinches of chew that contain as much nicotine as 3-5 cigarettes. That's when he ended it and said I was doing the right thing and wished me luck.
Fuck it. I'm not afraid to mix it up with a Doctor. Lord knows ive done dumber things in my life, like poision myself with kodiak for 15 years.
So, basically, you won the argument?
Bravo, sir.
Here's the thing. I had to try to watch that video you did. It's fucking idiocy.
Don't believe their lies. The one dude is making money selling spittoons to people while quoting source material advocating spitless snus, and the other is funded primarily by tobacco.
You are living, breathing example of the ability to quit. You are Santa Clause to them.
No sense can come from a dude named "Mudjug".
That Mudjug guy is an idiot. I did not watch the video you guys are talking about but I've seen some of his other stuff. Poke around Youtube and you will find lots of vids of people celebrating dipping. Outlaw is another guy that has dipping vids all over the place. While I didn't watch that vid, I did read though some of the comments. A lot of them are by teenage guys that are young and stupid and easily influenced. I was there once. I started when I was 15. There isn't a lot you can tell a 15 year old kid that is gonna change his mind. People like this asshole Mudjug guy contribute to the whole dipping "lifestyle" that appeals to these kids. It's a shame and it's irresponsible.
I came here based on the anxiety issues that have started around day 75 of my quit. Bad. Real bad. A few full fledged panic attacks as well. More on that later.
But yes, I saw this guys bullshit when I watched the Marsee story. Thank you for taking this douche bag on, and the fine doctor.
Funny what money will make some people do, huh? Both of them will have their karma catch up to them sooner or later. We are doing the BEST thing. Quitting.
Thanks man. Hang in there with that anxiety stuff, I know it can be scary. See a Doc if you need to. Have any questions pm me anytime.
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First of all, man...good for you.
Not everybody can be saved. But if one person reads your comments and quits...that person can be. I'm proud of you.
Secondly, this good doc is full of crap and not just because he is funded by tobacco but because he is saying what we (as users) wanted him to say back then: it is too impossible to quit nicotine. He feeds the fear in the these users' heads by telling them "nobody blames you for not being able to quit. It's OK to fail."
Bull-fucking-shit.
First off, his major hypothesis is that people "cannot or will not quit smoking" so (obviously) replacing cigarettes with snus will lead to "quitting". First off....duh on the vehicle replacement. If I didn't hate nicotine so much I might make a nicotine anal plug and claim it is just as effective to aid in "quitting" and is completely invisible to avoid the stigma of people seeing you with something on your mouth. Would you feed an alcoholic that prefers vodka beers and mouthwash to cure him? No.Â
Secondly, let's concentrate on the "cannot or will not" aspect. What is the percentage of people on this earth that can live without nicotine? Is it 100%? Would anybody die if they didn't get their fix? No. So, that means that people cannot "cannot " quit. That means that's 100% of these users "will not" or "do not want to" quit. Again...duh.Â
His research claims that that sinus lusers lose 15 days of their lives compared to 8 years for smokers. Physically, I can't disagree with this because...well. what are we contending? Does he have a pathway to an alternate dimension where he is tracking these alternate users that are not using over there? How the fuck does he know? It's because he is looking at the probability of getting diseases "directly" associated with chewing. That means the high blood pressure, sleep apnea, circulation issues, etc that comes with the addiction are not included. Besides, even if I concede the "8 days lost", how many days are spent procuring, using, hiding with your fix? And it also assumes that users do not need more and more product to feed the addiction.
He is the little voice around that helps peddle this smut. He is nothing because, ultimately, be can't make people use. That's up to every one of us.
You're doing a great job. Keep it up.
Fuck this guy.
I agree and those were some of the points I brought up with the Doctor as we emailed back and forth. He CLAIMED he does not encourage the use of tobacco to anybody, only that he is making people aware of "safer" alternatives to smoking through his tobacco harm reduction campaign. Like hes doing everyone a big favor by recommending replacing nicotine with...nicotine.
I also got him to admit that "chew" like Cope, Kodiak, Skoal, etc...is more harmful than Swedish snuss because of the additional sweeteners and chemicals added to American dip.
I also pointed out that all these kids who are taking his book as a green light to continue dipping aren't using snuss pouches. They're loading their lips with over sized pinches of chew that contain as much nicotine as 3-5 cigarettes. That's when he ended it and said I was doing the right thing and wished me luck.
Fuck it. I'm not afraid to mix it up with a Doctor. Lord knows ive done dumber things in my life, like poision myself with kodiak for 15 years.
So, basically, you won the argument?
Bravo, sir.
Here's the thing. I had to try to watch that video you did. It's fucking idiocy.
Don't believe their lies. The one dude is making money selling spittoons to people while quoting source material advocating spitless snus, and the other is funded primarily by tobacco.
You are living, breathing example of the ability to quit. You are Santa Clause to them.
No sense can come from a dude named "Mudjug".
That Mudjug guy is an idiot. I did not watch the video you guys are talking about but I've seen some of his other stuff. Poke around Youtube and you will find lots of vids of people celebrating dipping. Outlaw is another guy that has dipping vids all over the place. While I didn't watch that vid, I did read though some of the comments. A lot of them are by teenage guys that are young and stupid and easily influenced. I was there once. I started when I was 15. There isn't a lot you can tell a 15 year old kid that is gonna change his mind. People like this asshole Mudjug guy contribute to the whole dipping "lifestyle" that appeals to these kids. It's a shame and it's irresponsible.
I came here based on the anxiety issues that have started around day 75 of my quit. Bad. Real bad. A few full fledged panic attacks as well. More on that later.
But yes, I saw this guys bullshit when I watched the Marsee story. Thank you for taking this douche bag on, and the fine doctor.
Funny what money will make some people do, huh? Both of them will have their karma catch up to them sooner or later. We are doing the BEST thing. Quitting.
Thanks man. Hang in there with that anxiety stuff, I know it can be scary. See a Doc if you need to. Have any questions pm me anytime.
Seeing a counselor this week. Just feels like I cannot catch a deep satisfying breath, not just during the two 'attacks" I had, but for instance, right now at my desk.
Deciding if I should see my doctor too. While it's not my first preference (which is trail running, but my knees have prevented me from running...), I am NOT against pharmaceutical help for the time being.
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First of all, man...good for you.
Not everybody can be saved. But if one person reads your comments and quits...that person can be. I'm proud of you.
Secondly, this good doc is full of crap and not just because he is funded by tobacco but because he is saying what we (as users) wanted him to say back then: it is too impossible to quit nicotine. He feeds the fear in the these users' heads by telling them "nobody blames you for not being able to quit. It's OK to fail."
Bull-fucking-shit.
First off, his major hypothesis is that people "cannot or will not quit smoking" so (obviously) replacing cigarettes with snus will lead to "quitting". First off....duh on the vehicle replacement. If I didn't hate nicotine so much I might make a nicotine anal plug and claim it is just as effective to aid in "quitting" and is completely invisible to avoid the stigma of people seeing you with something on your mouth. Would you feed an alcoholic that prefers vodka beers and mouthwash to cure him? No.Â
Secondly, let's concentrate on the "cannot or will not" aspect. What is the percentage of people on this earth that can live without nicotine? Is it 100%? Would anybody die if they didn't get their fix? No. So, that means that people cannot "cannot " quit. That means that's 100% of these users "will not" or "do not want to" quit. Again...duh.Â
His research claims that that sinus lusers lose 15 days of their lives compared to 8 years for smokers. Physically, I can't disagree with this because...well. what are we contending? Does he have a pathway to an alternate dimension where he is tracking these alternate users that are not using over there? How the fuck does he know? It's because he is looking at the probability of getting diseases "directly" associated with chewing. That means the high blood pressure, sleep apnea, circulation issues, etc that comes with the addiction are not included. Besides, even if I concede the "8 days lost", how many days are spent procuring, using, hiding with your fix? And it also assumes that users do not need more and more product to feed the addiction.
He is the little voice around that helps peddle this smut. He is nothing because, ultimately, be can't make people use. That's up to every one of us.
You're doing a great job. Keep it up.
Fuck this guy.
I agree and those were some of the points I brought up with the Doctor as we emailed back and forth. He CLAIMED he does not encourage the use of tobacco to anybody, only that he is making people aware of "safer" alternatives to smoking through his tobacco harm reduction campaign. Like hes doing everyone a big favor by recommending replacing nicotine with...nicotine.
I also got him to admit that "chew" like Cope, Kodiak, Skoal, etc...is more harmful than Swedish snuss because of the additional sweeteners and chemicals added to American dip.
I also pointed out that all these kids who are taking his book as a green light to continue dipping aren't using snuss pouches. They're loading their lips with over sized pinches of chew that contain as much nicotine as 3-5 cigarettes. That's when he ended it and said I was doing the right thing and wished me luck.
Fuck it. I'm not afraid to mix it up with a Doctor. Lord knows ive done dumber things in my life, like poision myself with kodiak for 15 years.
So, basically, you won the argument?
Bravo, sir.
Here's the thing. I had to try to watch that video you did. It's fucking idiocy.
Don't believe their lies. The one dude is making money selling spittoons to people while quoting source material advocating spitless snus, and the other is funded primarily by tobacco.
You are living, breathing example of the ability to quit. You are Santa Clause to them.
No sense can come from a dude named "Mudjug".
That Mudjug guy is an idiot. I did not watch the video you guys are talking about but I've seen some of his other stuff. Poke around Youtube and you will find lots of vids of people celebrating dipping. Outlaw is another guy that has dipping vids all over the place. While I didn't watch that vid, I did read though some of the comments. A lot of them are by teenage guys that are young and stupid and easily influenced. I was there once. I started when I was 15. There isn't a lot you can tell a 15 year old kid that is gonna change his mind. People like this asshole Mudjug guy contribute to the whole dipping "lifestyle" that appeals to these kids. It's a shame and it's irresponsible.
I came here based on the anxiety issues that have started around day 75 of my quit. Bad. Real bad. A few full fledged panic attacks as well. More on that later.
But yes, I saw this guys bullshit when I watched the Marsee story. Thank you for taking this douche bag on, and the fine doctor.
Funny what money will make some people do, huh? Both of them will have their karma catch up to them sooner or later. We are doing the BEST thing. Quitting.
Thanks man. Hang in there with that anxiety stuff, I know it can be scary. See a Doc if you need to. Have any questions pm me anytime.
Seeing a counselor this week. Just feels like I cannot catch a deep satisfying breath, not just during the two 'attacks" I had, but for instance, right now at my desk.
Deciding if I should see my doctor too. While it's not my first preference (which is trail running, but my knees have prevented me from running...), I am NOT against pharmaceutical help for the time being.
Sounds all too familiar. I saw a counselor (still do once a month), she was very helpful and still is. I was shocked how good it is to just sit down and talk to someone about this shit. Helped me understand a lot of things. That plus this site are life savers.
Ultimately though got some "assist" from some anti anxiety meds. Nothing wrong with it in my opinion. They don't solve everything, it's not like it's some magic quit pill, but they did get rid of that constant tightness in the chest that I had. Quitting for me was hard enough but dealing with that all the time was like fighting the nic bitch with one had tied behind my back. It only took a "baby dose" to help me out, and I still take them, although even less now.
Do what you gotta do to remain quit, is the way I thought about it. 75 days is awesome and in the grand scheme of your life is just a blip on the radar even though right now it probably seems like an eternity.
Best of luck to you. If you need anything, just holler.
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182 days quit, 364 cans of of shit NOT stuffed in my cake hole, $1,911.00 saved. These numbers just hit me today. What a fool I was. Wish I would have wised up sooner. No use dwelling in the past I guess, ain't shit you can do to change it.
Fuck you tobacco. I fucking hate you. Remaining quit and helping others do the same is the only way I know to get even with you, so I will continue to do so and you can continue to nibble on my Dick like a rat does cheese.
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182 days quit, 364 cans of of shit NOT stuffed in my cake hole, $1,911.00 saved. These numbers just hit me today. What a fool I was. Wish I would have wised up sooner. No use dwelling in the past I guess, ain't shit you can do to change it.
Fuck you tobacco. I fucking hate you. Remaining quit and helping others do the same is the only way I know to get even with you, so I will continue to do so and you can continue to nibble on my Dick like a rat does cheese.
You are a rockstar dude.
I am pleased to quit with you today - and I look forward to seeing you around the bend tomorrow.
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Random thought...
Day 187 and my quit seems to be going very smooth. Still some bumps, mainly when I tackle tasks I've never tackled dip free before but all in all in relation to "every day life", I find myself doing better and better.
As I drove for 4 hrs today I pondered why and came to the conclusion I am not using will power to quit anymore. In the early days will power was all I used. That's because you use will power when you think you are giving up something pleasurable.
Even though I knew that not chewing was the right move, I honestly believed I was giving something "good" up and it pissed me off and stressed me out...not being able to dip only added to this stress. It was a nightmare and a vicious cycle of frustration and only will power kept me quit.
I couldn't continue to be quit with will power alone, it would be torture and just too hard. I would either cave or TOTALLY flip out (my body had already mildly flopped out). It wasn't until I really started reading and educating myself on nicotine addictiont that I realized I wasn't giving up anything pleasurable, I was giving up something that was controlling my life and trying to kill me.
It was FEAR that I really needed to give up. Fear that nic gave me confidence, fear that nic made me sociable, fear that nic relaxed me, fear that nic made "things" better. That was all bullshit. Once I gave those fears up, I quit relying on will power to quit and realized I wasn't giving up a God Damn thing.
I read people with more days quit than me say that they still battle the nic bitch everyday. I don't believe that should be the case. Will every day be easy? Hell no, but I think those that are past the HOF and still fight nic daily are still using will power to quit. I think they need to fight their fears of quitting for things to get easier. I think winning that battle is the true way to freedom.
Again, these are just MY random thoughts. Thanks for reading and STAY QUIT!!'
Diesel2112
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Random thought...
Day 187 and my quit seems to be going very smooth. Still some bumps, mainly when I tackle tasks I've never tackled dip free before but all in all in relation to "every day life", I find myself doing better and better.
As I drove for 4 hrs today I pondered why and came to the conclusion I am not using will power to quit anymore. In the early days will power was all I used. That's because you use will power when you think you are giving up something pleasurable.
Even though I knew that not chewing was the right move, I honestly believed I was giving something "good" up and it pissed me off and stressed me out...not being able to dip only added to this stress. It was a nightmare and a vicious cycle of frustration and only will power kept me quit.
I couldn't continue to be quit with will power alone, it would be torture and just too hard. I would either cave or TOTALLY flip out (my body had already mildly flopped out). It wasn't until I really started reading and educating myself on nicotine addictiont that I realized I wasn't giving up anything pleasurable, I was giving up something that was controlling my life and trying to kill me.
It was FEAR that I really needed to give up. Fear that nic gave me confidence, fear that nic made me sociable, fear that nic relaxed me, fear that nic made "things" better. That was all bullshit. Once I gave those fears up, I quit relying on will power to quit and realized I wasn't giving up a God Damn thing.
I read people with more days quit than me say that they still battle the nic bitch everyday. I don't believe that should be the case. Will every day be easy? Hell no, but I think those that are past the HOF and still fight nic daily are still using will power to quit. I think they need to fight their fears of quitting for things to get easier. I think winning that battle is the true way to freedom.
Again, these are just MY random thoughts. Thanks for reading and STAY QUIT!!'
Diesel2112
insightful and powerful points Diesel, well done brother!
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Another hurdle coming this weekend as the wife is going to Florida for 3 days. In the past this meant chewapalooza as I would dip care free into the wee hours of the night watching sports or playing video games after the kids were in bed.
Ive cleared many hurdles s over the past 193 days but this ones got me nervous already and she doesn't leave til Sunday. I know it wont be easy but I can clear this hurdle just like the others, I might hit my sack getting over this one, but I will do this!!!
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Another hurdle coming this weekend as the wife is going to Florida for 3 days. In the past this meant chewapalooza as I would dip care free into the wee hours of the night watching sports or playing video games after the kids were in bed.
Ive cleared many hurdles s over the past 193 days but this ones got me nervous already and she doesn't leave til Sunday. I know it wont be easy but I can clear this hurdle just like the others, I might hit my sack getting over this one, but I will do this!!!
reward yourself with something you don't usually do. Give yourself something to look forward to as well. Have a eatapalooza instead.. B)
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Another hurdle coming this weekend as the wife is going to Florida for 3 days. In the past this meant chewapalooza as I would dip care free into the wee hours of the night watching sports or playing video games after the kids were in bed.
Ive cleared many hurdles s over the past 193 days but this ones got me nervous already and she doesn't leave til Sunday. I know it wont be easy but I can clear this hurdle just like the others, I might hit my sack getting over this one, but I will do this!!!
What would you tell any other quitter bringing this issue to you?
You guessed it.
Post roll.
Use your tools.
Your actions and thoughts dictate your success and failure. There is a difference between "quit" and "not using". You, sir, are quit. You are actively pursuing a quit lifestyle, and you recognize trouble before you get into it.
I did the same thing in September when I went to Chicago to see a concert with some friends. I freaked out that I would find myself in a bad situation because (before) that was when I chewed my head off.
I planned ahead, and when the time came...I didn't have to worry about it. It turns out all that practicing and planning pretty much left me without a thought of nicotine. I had one moment that entire weekend, and I texted DJR2 to see how he was doing in the World Series. That was it.
You can do this man.
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Another hurdle coming this weekend as the wife is going to Florida for 3 days. In the past this meant chewapalooza as I would dip care free into the wee hours of the night watching sports or playing video games after the kids were in bed.
Ive cleared many hurdles s over the past 193 days but this ones got me nervous already and she doesn't leave til Sunday. I know it wont be easy but I can clear this hurdle just like the others, I might hit my sack getting over this one, but I will do this!!!
What would you tell any other quitter bringing this issue to you?
You guessed it.
Post roll.
Use your tools.
Your actions and thoughts dictate your success and failure. There is a difference between "quit" and "not using". You, sir, are quit. You are actively pursuing a quit lifestyle, and you recognize trouble before you get into it.
I did the same thing in September when I went to Chicago to see a concert with some friends. I freaked out that I would find myself in a bad situation because (before) that was when I chewed my head off.
I planned ahead, and when the time came...I didn't have to worry about it. It turns out all that practicing and planning pretty much left me without a thought of nicotine. I had one moment that entire weekend, and I texted DJR2 to see how he was doing in the World Series. That was it.
You can do this man.
Chat...
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Another hurdle coming this weekend as the wife is going to Florida for 3 days. In the past this meant chewapalooza as I would dip care free into the wee hours of the night watching sports or playing video games after the kids were in bed.
Ive cleared many hurdles s over the past 193 days but this ones got me nervous already and she doesn't leave til Sunday. I know it wont be easy but I can clear this hurdle just like the others,  I might hit my sack getting over this one, but I will do this!!!
What would you tell any other quitter bringing this issue to you?
You guessed it.
Post roll.
Use your tools.
Your actions and thoughts dictate your success and failure. There is a difference between "quit" and "not using". You, sir, are quit. You are actively pursuing a quit lifestyle, and you recognize trouble before you get into it.
I did the same thing in September when I went to Chicago to see a concert with some friends. I freaked out that I would find myself in a bad situation because (before) that was when I chewed my head off.
I planned ahead, and when the time came...I didn't have to worry about it. It turns out all that practicing and planning pretty much left me without a thought of nicotine. I had one moment that entire weekend, and I texted DJR2 to see how he was doing in the World Series. That was it.
You can do this man.
Chat...
Diesel, I'm a fellow Michigan brother, I'll be around all weekend if you need digits let me know. Badass quit going, no need to change that.
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Thanks fellas. You are ALL right. I got the tools, know how to use them, and will. The nic bitch is tricky. She's always got me thinking but I beat her ass everytime. I try to stay 1 step ahead of her, this will be no different, but still the shit aint always easy. I guess nothing worth fighting for is. I will kick her in the sausage wallet like I have for the previous 192 days.
Thanks for the encouragement.
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Damn!!! Wife out of town and the alone time last night after the kids went to bed was TOUGH. So is the stress doing all the shit she normally does. But...I got the tools and will prevail, because I am a fucking quit champion and that's what champs do...they win. Thanks to 30 for the encouragement today.
"Problemes are to the mind what excercise is to the muscles, they toughen and make strong."
I am strong. Nicotine is weak.
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Damn!!! Wife out of town and the alone time last night after the kids went to bed was TOUGH. So is the stress doing all the shit she normally does. But...I got the tools and will prevail, because I am a fucking quit champion and that's what champs do...they win. Thanks to 30 for the encouragement today.
"Problemes are to the mind what excercise is to the muscles, they toughen and make strong."
I am strong. Nicotine is weak.
Scowick shares this bidtit of knowledge: one problem + nicotine = 2 problems
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Damn!!! Wife out of town and the alone time last night after the kids went to bed was TOUGH. So is the stress doing all the shit she normally does. But...I got the tools and will prevail, because I am a fucking quit champion and that's what champs do...they win. Thanks to 30 for the encouragement today.
"Problemes are to the mind what excercise is to the muscles, they toughen and make strong."
I am strong. Nicotine is weak.
Scowick shares this bidtit of knowledge: one problem + nicotine = 2 problems
Life is always gonna throw problems at us.
One problem minus nicotine still equals a problem. Trying to eliminate nicotine from that equation is sometimes easier than others. However every time you beat a problem with a +1 of nicotine, you become +1 stronger.
At least that's the way I see it. Nicotine is a mother fucker, no doubt about it...but so am I.
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Damn!!! Wife out of town and the alone time last night after the kids went to bed was TOUGH. So is the stress doing all the shit she normally does. But...I got the tools and will prevail, because I am a fucking quit champion and that's what champs do...they win. Thanks to 30 for the encouragement today.
"Problemes are to the mind what excercise is to the muscles, they toughen and make strong."
I am strong. Nicotine is weak.
Scowick shares this bidtit of knowledge: one problem + nicotine = 2 problems
Life is always gonna throw problems at us.
One problem minus nicotine still equals a problem. Trying to eliminate nicotine from that equation is sometimes easier than others. However every time you beat a problem with a +1 of nicotine, you become +1 stronger.
At least that's the way I see it. Nicotine is a mother fucker, no doubt about it...but so am I.
You're a badass quitter Diesel. If this were easy anyone could do it. The fact that anyone has has shown me we can too... beating the triggers all day every day, right by your side.
“The three great essentials to achieve anything worth while are, first, hard work; second, stick-to-itiveness; third, common sense.” Thomas Edison
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My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.
2nd floor=PROUD
I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199, 201, or 423 for that matter.
But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses, if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful.
There's some fucked up shit going down in this world. I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet, that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you, via an online community. Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together. I'm glad to be a part of it.
Quit on,
Diesel2112
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My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.
2nd floor=PROUD
I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199, 201, or 423 for that matter.
But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses, if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful.
There's some fucked up shit going down in this world. I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet, that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you, via an online community. Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together. I'm glad to be a part of it.
Quit on,
Diesel2112
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
well done and congrats....onward for the 3rd.
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My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.
2nd floor=PROUD
I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199, 201, or 423 for that matter.
But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses, if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful.Â
There's some fucked up shit going down in this world. I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet, that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you, via an online community. Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together. I'm glad to be a part of it.
Quit on,
Diesel2112
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
well done and congrats....onward for the 3rd.
Well said, Diesel. Smell the roses indeed. You deserve time to take stock in your accomplishment and enjoy this moment.
Congratulations.
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My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.
2nd floor=PROUD
I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199,  201, or 423 for that matter.
But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses, if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful.Â
There's some fucked up shit going down in this world. I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet, that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you, via an online community. Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together. I'm glad to be a part of it.
Quit on,
Diesel2112
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
well done and congrats....onward for the 3rd.
Well said, Diesel. Smell the roses indeed. You deserve time to take stock in your accomplishment and enjoy this moment.
Congratulations.
congrats bro, and proud of you! 'clap'
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My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.
2nd floor=PROUD
I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199, 201, or 423 for that matter.
But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses, if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful.Â
There's some fucked up shit going down in this world. I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet, that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you, via an online community. Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together. I'm glad to be a part of it.
Quit on,
Diesel2112
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
well done and congrats....onward for the 3rd.
Well said, Diesel. Smell the roses indeed. You deserve time to take stock in your accomplishment and enjoy this moment.
Congratulations.
congrats bro, and proud of you! 'clap'
Congrats Sept '12 Brother!!
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My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.
2nd floor=PROUD
I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199,  201, or 423 for that matter.
But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses, if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful.Â
There's some fucked up shit going down in this world. I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet, that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you, via an online community. Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together. I'm glad to be a part of it.
Quit on,
Diesel2112
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
well done and congrats....onward for the 3rd.
Well said, Diesel. Smell the roses indeed. You deserve time to take stock in your accomplishment and enjoy this moment.
Congratulations.
congrats bro, and proud of you! 'clap'
Congrats Sept '12 Brother!!
Congrats Diesel! Rock on my quit brother!
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My name is Diesel
I made it to the 2nd floor
I fucking hate you chew
I know I don't need you no more.
2nd floor=PROUD
I know we quit one day at a time and in the grand scheme of things day 200 is no different than day 199,  201, or 423 for that matter.
But...sometime you have to stop and smell the roses, if only for a minute...they really are quite beautiful.Â
There's some fucked up shit going down in this world. I find it amazing that there's a group of men and women, most of whom will never meet, that provide undying support to one another in order to beat an addictiot that will kill you, via an online community. Proof there is some good in this world and that people can work together. I'm glad to be a part of it.
Quit on,
Diesel2112
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
well done and congrats....onward for the 3rd.
Well said, Diesel. Smell the roses indeed. You deserve time to take stock in your accomplishment and enjoy this moment.
Congratulations.
congrats bro, and proud of you! 'clap'
Congrats Sept '12 Brother!!
Congrats Diesel! Rock on my quit brother!
Motor on quitter!
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It's funny. My wife has me running all over town doing little errands for Christmas...and I don't fucking want to do them.
That's progress.
In the past I would jump at the request to run to the bakery to pick up some cannolis, or head to the grocery store to get everything on her list, or whatever else she asks me to do. I think we all know why, especially all the ninjas.
Now I fucking hate it and bitch up a storm. She said yesterday, " you used to love going to the store for me, now all you do is bitch and complain when I ask you to go".
Yeah, because now that I'm free I see that stuff for what it truly is...a major pain in the ass and not a chance to be alone with my old "friend". I'm also home a lot quicker too.
She used ask why it took me 45 minutes to run to cvs to pick up some milk. I would have to make up some b.s. story like the store was packed, some idiot was holding up the line for a really long time, I ran into so and so and we ended up talking for 25 minutes, etc...What a fucking loser. I would bold face lie right to my wifes face. Didn't even have the balls to admit I was an addict. These are the things I regret most about chewing for 15 years.
Oh well, the past is the past and their ain't shit I can do to change it. Now all I can do is bitch and complain like a normal man and be thankful that I don't even have the urge to use while I'm out running these pain in the ass errands anymore. I will take that exchange any day.
Again, that's progress fellas.
Merry Christmas to all you bad ass quitters out there, I hope its a blessed one!
Diesel2112
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It's funny. My wife has me running all over town doing little errands for Christmas...and I don't fucking want to do them.
That's progress.
In the past I would jump at the request to run to the bakery to pick up some cannolis, or head to the grocery store to get everything on her list, or whatever else she asks me to do. I think we all know why, especially all the ninjas.
Now I fucking hate it and bitch up a storm. She said yesterday, " you used to love going to the store for me, now all you do is bitch and complain when I ask you to go".
Yeah, because now that I'm free I see that stuff for what it truly is...a major pain in the ass and not a chance to be alone with my old "friend". I'm also home a lot quicker too.
She used ask why it took me 45 minutes to run to cvs to pick up some milk. I would have to make up some b.s. story like the store was packed, some idiot was holding up the line for a really long time, I ran into so and so and we ended up talking for 25 minutes, etc...What a fucking loser. I would bold face lie right to my wifes face. Didn't even have the balls to admit I was an addict. These are the things I regret most about chewing for 15 years.
Oh well, the past is the past and their ain't shit I can do to change it. Now all I can do is bitch and complain like a normal man and be thankful that I don't even have the urge to use while I'm out running these pain in the ass errands anymore. I will take that exchange any day.
Again, that's progress fellas.
Merry Christmas to all you bad ass quitters out there, I hope its a blessed one!
Diesel2112
That's hysterical - thanks for sharing!
Merry Christmas!
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Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk??? Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd. Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly. I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.
I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ". That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat, my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety. I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.
Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling. I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.
Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug? Or maybe a bit of both? Fucking nicotine, always messing with my mind. Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it. This ever happen to anyone else?
Fuck it. Just gonna roll with the punches. Still pisses me off though. Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind, I feel weak. Shes a confusing cunt.
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Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk??? Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd. Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly. I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.
I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ". That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat, my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety. I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.
Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling. I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.
Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug? Or maybe a bit of both? Fucking nicotine, always messing with my mind. Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it. This ever happen to anyone else?
Fuck it. Just gonna roll with the punches. Still pisses me off though. Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind, I feel weak. Shes a confusing cunt.
Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.
My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!
Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.
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Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk??? Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd. Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly. I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.
I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ". That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat, my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety. I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.
Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling. I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.
Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug? Or maybe a bit of both? Fucking nicotine, always messing with my mind. Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it. This ever happen to anyone else?
Fuck it. Just gonna roll with the punches. Still pisses me off though. Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind, I feel weak. Shes a confusing cunt.
Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.
My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!
Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.
Thanks, it does help to hear from others. 214 days quit and the bitch still confuses me. I have no crave or thought of going back, I guess there are still things/ situations I still need to tackle. 214 days seems like a lot but compared to 15 years. It ain't shit. Im confused but I will figure it out. The bitch isnt smarter than me but sometimes dumb bitches can fuck with your mind. I'll be fine. Just like to air shit out on here because I always know someone can relate. I do find comfort in that.
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Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk???  Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd. Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly. I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.
I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ".  That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat, my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety. I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.
Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling. I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.
Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug? Or maybe a bit of both? Fucking nicotine, always messing with my mind. Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it. This ever happen to anyone else?
Fuck it. Just gonna roll with the punches. Still pisses me off though. Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind, I feel weak. Shes a confusing cunt.
Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.
My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!
Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.
Thanks, it does help to hear from others. 214 days quit and the bitch still confuses me. I have no crave or thought of going back, I guess there are still things/ situations I still need to tackle. 214 days seems like a lot but compared to 15 years. It ain't shit. Im confused but I will figure it out. The bitch isnt smarter than me but sometimes dumb bitches can fuck with your mind. I'll be fine. Just like to air shit out on here because I always know someone can relate. I do find comfort in that.
understand completely... first of all I think you have some kinda bug. The rest is the bitch. I felt the same way my last funk (136-148?) I learned something last time. I felt out of place, bored, depressed, empty. At the end I was getting pissed and yelling at the shrubs again. I couldn't figure out why I felt this way. I was supposed feel good by now, funks aren't this long. I was looking for something to blame this feeling on, the site, my meds, my life. I then realized we all try to overcomplicate things. This wasn't anything to worry about, it was just your ordinary crappy funk. Just like being sick it can take a week, or two, or less who knows, but the body will always repair itself. That's what it does. Right now we're all getting repaired, and who knows how long it will take, but I do know that ultimately the body will repair itself if you take care of it.
Today's my first day back to work in awhile. I always keep seeds in my work truck as a treat. It's the only place I keep them, and haven't had any in 3 weeks. I 'm actually looking forward to those little things. Don't worry bro, you'll feel better in no time, and you'll be even stronger. quit with you - peace
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I don't know if this helps or not..........but I did put you in my spank bank. As a matter of fact, I made a withdrawal this morning ;)
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Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk???  Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd. Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly. I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.
I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ".  That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat, my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety. I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.
Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling. I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.
Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug? Or maybe a bit of both? Fucking nicotine, always messing with my mind. Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it. This ever happen to anyone else?
Fuck it. Just gonna roll with the punches. Still pisses me off though. Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind, I feel weak. Shes a confusing cunt.
Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.
My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!
Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.
Thanks, it does help to hear from others. 214 days quit and the bitch still confuses me. I have no crave or thought of going back, I guess there are still things/ situations I still need to tackle. 214 days seems like a lot but compared to 15 years. It ain't shit. Im confused but I will figure it out. The bitch isnt smarter than me but sometimes dumb bitches can fuck with your mind. I'll be fine. Just like to air shit out on here because I always know someone can relate. I do find comfort in that.
It really does take one full year to face all of your triggers. The next hurdle will be your one year anniversary. There will be many things that will bring you back to the early days of your quit. For me, I felt like I was right back in the middle of it.
Just be ready for it. The good news is that it doesn't last long and you will really start to cruise into your second year.
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Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk???  Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd. Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly. I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.
I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ".  That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat, my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety. I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.
Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling. I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.
Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug? Or maybe a bit of both? Fucking nicotine, always messing with my mind. Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it. This ever happen to anyone else?
Fuck it. Just gonna roll with the punches. Still pisses me off though. Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind, I feel weak. Shes a confusing cunt.
Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.
My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!
Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.
Thanks, it does help to hear from others. 214 days quit and the bitch still confuses me. I have no crave or thought of going back, I guess there are still things/ situations I still need to tackle. 214 days seems like a lot but compared to 15 years. It ain't shit. Im confused but I will figure it out. The bitch isnt smarter than me but sometimes dumb bitches can fuck with your mind. I'll be fine. Just like to air shit out on here because I always know someone can relate. I do find comfort in that.
It really does take one full year to face all of your triggers. The next hurdle will be your one year anniversary. There will be many things that will bring you back to the early days of your quit. For me, I felt like I was right back in the middle of it.
Just be ready for it. The good news is that it doesn't last long and you will really start to cruise into your second year.
You should PM NOLAQ and/or Roamcountry.
They mentored me through the hurt. I too have no craves or desires to buy a can but there is a phase in addiction that they can see, understand and explain better than me.
I got support there and I would recommend you pm this post to them and get their take.
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Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk???  Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd. Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly. I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.
I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ".  That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat, my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety. I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.
Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling. I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.
Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug? Or maybe a bit of both? Fucking nicotine, always messing with my mind. Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it. This ever happen to anyone else?
Fuck it. Just gonna roll with the punches. Still pisses me off though. Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind, I feel weak. Shes a confusing cunt.
Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.
My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!
Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.
Thanks, it does help to hear from others. 214 days quit and the bitch still confuses me. I have no crave or thought of going back, I guess there are still things/ situations I still need to tackle. 214 days seems like a lot but compared to 15 years. It ain't shit. Im confused but I will figure it out. The bitch isnt smarter than me but sometimes dumb bitches can fuck with your mind. I'll be fine. Just like to air shit out on here because I always know someone can relate. I do find comfort in that.
It really does take one full year to face all of your triggers. The next hurdle will be your one year anniversary. There will be many things that will bring you back to the early days of your quit. For me, I felt like I was right back in the middle of it.
Just be ready for it. The good news is that it doesn't last long and you will really start to cruise into your second year.
You should PM NOLAQ and/or Roamcountry.
They mentored me through the hurt. I too have no craves or desires to buy a can but there is a phase in addiction that they can see, understand and explain better than me.
I got support there and I would recommend you pm this post to them and get their take.
All part of the healing process. The Nic Bitch is making her last stand. She is whispering in your ear that you can have just "one". She thinks since you are stressed about going back to work she can sink her claws back into you. You are in control! You call the shots!! Get lost Bitch!!!! There will always be these moments. It just gets easier to find another way with deal with the post holidays letdown.
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Day 214 and I THINK I'm in a funk???  Hit me yesterday when I had to go back to work after being off since December 22nd. Made it through my first Christmas / New year dip free pretty smoothly. I was very proud of myself and really enjoyed the time spent with my wife and kids.
I've always enjoyed that time but have always dreaded going back to work but used to take solace in the fact that "at least I get to chew all day now ".  That options off the table now and as I drove to work I started thinking about it and started to sweat, my stomach felt sick, and my chest had some anxiety. I made it through the day and coached basketball after work but my stomach still felt queezy as I thought about all the things ahead of me in 2013.
Woke up today and felt much better but once at work my stomach felt like crap again and I got the sweats and started hurling. I came home and slept for 8 hrs straight and now feel like ive been run over by a bus.
Am I in a massive funk or do I just have a stomach bug? Or maybe a bit of both? Fucking nicotine, always messing with my mind. Cant even get sick without she has something to do with it. This ever happen to anyone else?
Fuck it. Just gonna roll with the punches. Still pisses me off though. Anytime I let nic fuck with my mind, I feel weak. Shes a confusing cunt.
Not sure if this is comforting but you are not alone. I would guess its a funk. The sweats and bug may be from excessive drinking over the holidays. Just a guess. Amp up on vitamins, eat bananas and drink some cranberry juice.
My friend, I went ape shit a few days back. Just wanted to kick out all the walls because I was and still hurt. Funk or hurting isn't a sign of weakness. Staying quit is strength period!!!!
Nice post. A lost funk is just a phase. Stay the course! I have and I am getting better. So glad that I haven't let the nic bitch win.
Thanks, it does help to hear from others. 214 days quit and the bitch still confuses me. I have no crave or thought of going back, I guess there are still things/ situations I still need to tackle. 214 days seems like a lot but compared to 15 years. It ain't shit. Im confused but I will figure it out. The bitch isnt smarter than me but sometimes dumb bitches can fuck with your mind. I'll be fine. Just like to air shit out on here because I always know someone can relate. I do find comfort in that.
It really does take one full year to face all of your triggers. The next hurdle will be your one year anniversary. There will be many things that will bring you back to the early days of your quit. For me, I felt like I was right back in the middle of it.
Just be ready for it. The good news is that it doesn't last long and you will really start to cruise into your second year.
You should PM NOLAQ and/or Roamcountry.
They mentored me through the hurt. I too have no craves or desires to buy a can but there is a phase in addiction that they can see, understand and explain better than me.
I got support there and I would recommend you pm this post to them and get their take.
All part of the healing process. The Nic Bitch is making her last stand. She is whispering in your ear that you can have just "one". She thinks since you are stressed about going back to work she can sink her claws back into you. You are in control! You call the shots!! Get lost Bitch!!!! There will always be these moments. It just gets easier to find another way with deal with the post holidays letdown.
The early 200s are bad for some weird reason.
I think it's because our last real funk was in the 120s, and we almost forgot how bad it can be sometimes. I know I had to lean on quite a few brothers during this time period, and I know others have had to do the same.
It does weird shit to you. It makes you all first weekish, and very rebellious. It's a giant case of the "fuck its" because you've made it past every hurdle (that you know about) and "you still feel like shit so what's the point?".
I can tell you that after emerging from this, you become pretty centered. This seems to be the last really big funk. Use your tools. Lean on your brothers.
When times are good, we practice for times like this.
When times are bad (like this), we lean on what we've practiced.
You can do this.
It gets better.
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Thanks to all for the encouragement/advice. It really means a lot to me. Took the day off work and just slept as I have a flu buggy funk combo going on. The flu is fadding as managed to eat something and the funk is as well. Tomorrow I get back to life.
I think sometimes I give nic too much credit yet other times still underestimate its power. Regardless life goes on, I'm not gonna die, I feel better than my first week, I got the tools to work through anything and above all I fucking hate nicotine.
I talk tough sometimes but when the nic bitch fucks with me I feel weak. Maybe I shouldn't talk so tough all the time because I dont have all the answers and can still be affected by the bitch?
Nah, fuck that whore. She can fuck with me once in awhile but I always hold the power...not her. I will beat her every time. Sometimes easier than others, but regardless, I will win.
I am strong, she is weak. Plus I have a bunch of champs that have my back. Fuck that bitch.
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Thanks to all for the encouragement/advice. It really means a lot to me. Took the day off work and just slept as I have a flu buggy funk combo going on. The flu is fadding as managed to eat something and the funk is as well. Tomorrow I get back to life.
I think sometimes I give nic too much credit yet other times still underestimate its power. Regardless life goes on, I'm not gonna die, I feel better than my first week, I got the tools to work through anything and above all I fucking hate nicotine.
I talk tough sometimes but when the nic bitch fucks with me I feel weak. Maybe I shouldn't talk so tough all the time because I dont have all the answers and can still be affected by the bitch?
Nah, fuck that whore. She can fuck with me once in awhile but I always hold the power...not her. I will beat her every time. Sometimes easier than others, but regardless, I will win.
I am strong, she is weak. Plus I have a bunch of champs that have my back. Fuck that bitch.
Keep up the tough talk! I have found several times that the main thing that kept me quit was thinking about the shit I would get if I caved!!! I agree with Waste the early 200 funk was the very worst for me, but by 200 days we've learned so much we know how to deal with it.
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Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.
She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.
It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.
As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...
We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters. Truth is, it's not.
While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.
Never again, for any reason.
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Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.
She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.
It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.
As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...
We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters. Truth is, it's not.
While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.
Never again, for any reason.
sorry for your loss Diesel.
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Sorry to hear that Diesel. I will keep your family in my prayers.
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Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.
She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.
It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.
As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...
We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters. Truth is, it's not.
While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.
Never again, for any reason.
sorry for your loss. me and mine lift you and yours in thought and prayers.
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Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.
She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.
It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.
As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...
We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters. Truth is, it's not.
While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.
Never again, for any reason.
Very sorry for your loss brother, prayers from my family to yours.
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Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.
She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.
It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.
As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...
We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters. Truth is, it's not.Â
While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.Â
Never again, for any reason.
Very sorry for your loss brother, prayers from my family to yours.
Diesel, I am sorry for your loss. Stay strong and know that you have help many a quiter around here!
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Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.
She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.
It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.
As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...
We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters.  Truth is, it's not.Â
While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.Â
Never again, for any reason.
Very sorry for your loss brother, prayers from my family to yours.
Diesel, I am sorry for your loss. Stay strong and know that you have help many a quiter around here!
Sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family.
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Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.
She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.
It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.
As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...
We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters.  Truth is, it's not.Â
While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.Â
Never again, for any reason.
Very sorry for your loss brother, prayers from my family to yours.
Diesel, I am sorry for your loss. Stay strong and know that you have help many a quiter around here!
Sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family.
Thanks for the thoughts and prayers, all. Much appreciated.
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Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.
She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.
It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.
As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...
We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters.  Truth is, it's not.Â
While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.Â
Never again, for any reason.
Very sorry for your loss brother, prayers from my family to yours.
Diesel, I am sorry for your loss. Stay strong and know that you have help many a quiter around here!
Sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family.
Thanks for the thoughts and prayers, all. Much appreciated.
prayers with your family diesel..
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Well boys and gals, the Nic bitch claimed another victim last night...got my Aunt in her sleep, she was 70 years old. 70 is not that old guys, she had more life left in her, she had an 8 year old great grandson she loved to death! Now she will never see him again.
She smoked for 40+ years. The last few years she developed a NASTY hacking cough. Everyone told her to go to the doctor to get it checked out but she would always say "NO, I DON'T WANT TO KNOW IF SOMETHING IS WRONG, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" She knew... I think we all did.
It's a damn shame we couldn't help her, even bigger shame she couldn't help herself because nicotine had such a hold on her. Wouldn't even GO to the doctor because she knew he would tell her to quit smoking and that she most likely had cancer.
As if we needed another reason to stay quit, here is another one...
We always say "quit for today" or "one day at a time" and not to focus on the future. I think that is the correct philosophy in regards to quitting, but sometimes we live in the moment too much and age 70 seems sooooo far away, especially for our younger quitters.  Truth is, it's not.Â
While we should focus on quitting just for today, we need to keep keep in mind we are quitting to live as long as possible. We need to squeeze every precious second out of the time God has given us.Â
Never again, for any reason.
Very sorry for your loss brother, prayers from my family to yours.
Diesel, I am sorry for your loss. Stay strong and know that you have help many a quiter around here!
Sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family.
Thanks for the thoughts and prayers, all. Much appreciated.
prayers with your family diesel..
Prayers to you and yours.
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238 days quit and I had my first dip dream last night. In it I bought a pouch of nasty ass beechnut and a can of my old "pal" Kodiak. Why the hell I bought beechnut I have no idea, think I only tried it a handful of times... kodiak, I know why I bought that.
For some reason I bought them at Walmart and as soon as I walked out of the store I threw in a huge wad of beechnut...and stood there and waited, right in front of the store.
Not sure what I was waiting for. A super buzz? To "be addicted again"? For "the good times to roll again"? OR, maybe to prove...I just don't like the stuff anymore?
My mind didn't race but I did think "the boys at ktc aren't gonna like this". But as I sucked in that beechnut and my mouth filled upwith an un godly amount of spit, nothing happened. No buzz, no euphoria, no OMG what did I just do feeling, just "Damn that shit is nasty!!!!"
So I spat the biggest puddle of disgusting brown slime on the ground, right in front of Walmart and took the pouch and put it in the garbage can and took the tin of unopened Kodiak and chucked it onto the roof. Some guy yelled at me for throwing it on the roof, I told him to fuck off and woke up, relieved it was all a dream.
Not sure what this all means, but it was my first dip dream so I thought I would share.
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Interesting....I had my first dip dream in a 100 days or so last night. Must be something in the air. Pretty good dry streak for me too.
If you begin to have them a lot, though they can be a bitch, you will learn to laugh them off easily enough.
Still a pretty good reminder of how deep the claws were sunk in.
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Interesting....I had my first dip dream in a 100 days or so last night. Must be something in the air. Pretty good dry streak for me too.
If you begin to have them a lot, though they can be a bitch, you will learn to laugh them off easily enough.
Still a pretty good reminder of how deep the claws were sunk in.
hey Diesel2112, Even in your dreams "You are the BadAss Quitter"! You woke up and discovered that the dream is fake, the nic bitch is a liar and YOU my brother are the badass quitter!
Victory is in the air for YOU Diesel. Jump up and down cause you're a winner TODAY!
Proud to be QUIT with YOU!
cheers.
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Almost 240 days quit and I am about to face my toughest challenge yet.
My parents own a small industrial supply buisiness that I work for. Its run out of their home (my old bedroom) and it's literally just me, my mom, and my Dad.
Well every February they take of to Florida for a month. Normally I LOVE IT, as they are out of my hair and I am free to do what I please.
A HUGE part of that was, of course dip. I used to chew my ass off for a month straight. I'm not gonna lie, with them gone my job got 3 times harder and stress 3 levels higher. But still I loved the fact that it was just me and my old "pal".
Now I know I have faced many challenges along the way, and have passed every one. I also know that I have a toolbox full of tools to use to get me through this, including this site. But GOD DAMN and I having some anxiety. Son of a bith!!!
I know I will be strong and that I will make it through it. I also know that dip is off the table and a pipe dream that it would make this month easier. Just don't be shocked if you see me rambling for the next month. It actually really helps me feel better.
Guess I need to heed my own advice..."It's not always going to be easy, but it will always be worth it."
Time to polish up the balls of steel and knock this month out with lead pipe brutality. I haven't brawled with the bitch in awhile...and I'm always ready for a fight.
Thanks for listening and stay quit!
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Almost 240 days quit and I am about to face my toughest challenge yet.
My parents own a small industrial supply buisiness that I work for. Its run out of their home (my old bedroom) and it's literally just me, my mom, and my Dad.
Well every February they take of to Florida for a month. Normally I LOVE IT, as they are out of my hair and I am free to do what I please.
A HUGE part of that was, of course dip. I used to chew my ass off for a month straight. I'm not gonna lie, with them gone my job got 3 times harder and stress 3 levels higher. But still I loved the fact that it was just me and my old "pal".
Now I know I have faced many challenges along the way, and have passed every one. I also know that I have a toolbox full of tools to use to get me through this, including this site. But GOD DAMN and I having some anxiety. Son of a bith!!!
I know I will be strong and that I will make it through it. I also know that dip is off the table and a pipe dream that it would make this month easier. Just don't be shocked if you see me rambling for the next month. It actually really helps me feel better.
Guess I need to heed my own advice..."It's not always going to be easy, but it will always be worth it."
Time to polish up the balls of steel and knock this month out with lead pipe brutality. I haven't brawled with the bitch in awhile...and I'm always ready for a fight.
Thanks for listening and stay quit!
The Nic didnt make you any better at your job. You have always been as kick ass as you are right now! Fuck her!!!
Keep on Quittin!!
J
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Almost 240 days quit and I am about to face my toughest challenge yet.
My parents own a small industrial supply buisiness that I work for. Its run out of their home (my old bedroom) and it's literally just me, my mom, and my Dad.
Well every February they take of to Florida for a month. Normally I LOVE IT, as they are out of my hair and I am free to do what I please.Â
A HUGE part of that was, of course dip. I used to chew my ass off for a month straight. I'm not gonna lie, with them gone my job got 3 times harder and stress 3 levels higher. But still I loved the fact that it was just me and my old "pal".
Now I know I have faced many challenges along the way, and have passed every one. I also know that I have a toolbox full of tools to use to get me through this, including this site. But GOD DAMN and I having some anxiety. Son of a bith!!!
I know I will be strong and that I will make it through it. I also know that dip is off the table and a pipe dream that it would make this month easier. Just don't be shocked if you see me rambling for the next month. It actually really helps me feel better.
Guess I need to heed my own advice..."It's not always going to be easy, but it will always be worth it."
Time to polish up the balls of steel and knock this month out with lead pipe brutality. I haven't brawled with the bitch in awhile...and I'm always ready for a fight.
Thanks for listening and stay quit!
The Nic didnt make you any better at your job. You have always been as kick ass as you are right now! Fuck her!!!
Keep on Quittin!!
J
hey Brother D,
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems!
Nicotine makes nothing better!
NAFAR never again for any reason!
Do something else, like put a box of roofing nails down your pants and run around the yard for 11 minutes! 'bang head'
You got this!
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Almost 240 days quit and I am about to face my toughest challenge yet.
My parents own a small industrial supply buisiness that I work for. Its run out of their home (my old bedroom) and it's literally just me, my mom, and my Dad.
Well every February they take of to Florida for a month. Normally I LOVE IT, as they are out of my hair and I am free to do what I please.Â
A HUGE part of that was, of course dip. I used to chew my ass off for a month straight. I'm not gonna lie, with them gone my job got 3 times harder and stress 3 levels higher. But still I loved the fact that it was just me and my old "pal".
Now I know I have faced many challenges along the way, and have passed every one. I also know that I have a toolbox full of tools to use to get me through this, including this site. But GOD DAMN and I having some anxiety. Son of a bith!!!
I know I will be strong and that I will make it through it. I also know that dip is off the table and a pipe dream that it would make this month easier. Just don't be shocked if you see me rambling for the next month. It actually really helps me feel better.
Guess I need to heed my own advice..."It's not always going to be easy, but it will always be worth it."
Time to polish up the balls of steel and knock this month out with lead pipe brutality.  I haven't brawled with the bitch in awhile...and I'm always ready for a fight.
Thanks for listening and stay quit!
The Nic didnt make you any better at your job. You have always been as kick ass as you are right now! Fuck her!!!
Keep on Quittin!!
J
hey Brother D,
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems!
Nicotine makes nothing better!
NAFAR never again for any reason!
Do something else, like put a box of roofing nails down your pants and run around the yard for 11 minutes! 'bang head'
You got this!
Yo Deisel2012, Don't fuck me. You are a quit stud and a role model for me my infant quit. Ramble on if you need to. Thats what this site is for, but dont even think about walking back into your prison cell. That door is closed and welded shut. I think its cool that you are open enough to express some fear and anxiety but shit man you have scaled mountains my friend, dont trip over a fucking anthill.
Remember this shit is life or death. Never again for any reason!!!! Proud to be quit with you. IG2H
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Diesel, I don't doubt you for a minute. Some of us newbies (me!!) actually read whatever you write because your voice is respected. You have no idea who I am, and it's not me who you would let down if February caved you, but dammit I would be disappointed in your words to me. You got this, bro. I'm the one two weeks in wondering when the first near-cave is going to happen (so far, so good in that regard.) You've almost made a year and didn't need nicky to live for 240 days. I believe in you, dude. And thanks for showing up newbies how powerful this shit is even after 3/4 of a year. It's NOT more powerful than you, though!!!
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Almost 240 days quit and I am about to face my toughest challenge yet.
My parents own a small industrial supply buisiness that I work for. Its run out of their home (my old bedroom) and it's literally just me, my mom, and my Dad.
Well every February they take of to Florida for a month. Normally I LOVE IT, as they are out of my hair and I am free to do what I please.Â
A HUGE part of that was, of course dip. I used to chew my ass off for a month straight. I'm not gonna lie, with them gone my job got 3 times harder and stress 3 levels higher. But still I loved the fact that it was just me and my old "pal".
Now I know I have faced many challenges along the way, and have passed every one. I also know that I have a toolbox full of tools to use to get me through this, including this site. But GOD DAMN and I having some anxiety. Son of a bith!!!
I know I will be strong and that I will make it through it. I also know that dip is off the table and a pipe dream that it would make this month easier. Just don't be shocked if you see me rambling for the next month. It actually really helps me feel better.
Guess I need to heed my own advice..."It's not always going to be easy, but it will always be worth it."
Time to polish up the balls of steel and knock this month out with lead pipe brutality.  I haven't brawled with the bitch in awhile...and I'm always ready for a fight.
Thanks for listening and stay quit!
The Nic didnt make you any better at your job. You have always been as kick ass as you are right now! Fuck her!!!
Keep on Quittin!!
J
hey Brother D,
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems!
Nicotine makes nothing better!
NAFAR never again for any reason!
Do something else, like put a box of roofing nails down your pants and run around the yard for 11 minutes! 'bang head'
You got this!
Yo Deisel2012, Don't fuck me. You are a quit stud and a role model for me my infant quit. Ramble on if you need to. Thats what this site is for, but dont even think about walking back into your prison cell. That door is closed and welded shut. I think its cool that you are open enough to express some fear and anxiety but shit man you have scaled mountains my friend, dont trip over a fucking anthill.
Remember this shit is life or death. Never again for any reason!!!! Proud to be quit with you. IG2H
I ain't fucking anybody but the nic bitch. Caving is not even an option. Ive cleared many hurrdles and this will be another. Just sometimes right before you jump them you think "fuck this is a high one". I told ya I was a pussy. And it's Diesel2112 not 2012. LOL. Thanks for the support.
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Ive cleared many hurrdles and this will be another. Just sometimes right before you jump them you think "fuck this is a high one".
I love this fucking line.
It describes every freaking bad moment of my quit as I, too, freak out before an "event" that usually meant stuffing my face in the past.
I plan to be quit so I recognize where failure may be then I figure out how to succeed. Usually, the "event" goes by without even a crave.
Fucking awesome post man.
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Diesel, I don't doubt you for a minute. Some of us newbies (me!!) actually read whatever you write because your voice is respected. You have no idea who I am, and it's not me who you would let down if February caved you, but dammit I would be disappointed in your words to me. You got this, bro. I'm the one two weeks in wondering when the first near-cave is going to happen (so far, so good in that regard.) You've almost made a year and didn't need nicky to live for 240 days. I believe in you, dude. And thanks for showing up newbies how powerful this shit is even after 3/4 of a year. It's NOT more powerful than you, though!!!
Bro....I ain't letting anybody down. I admit when the bitch gets to me but Im also prepared to kick her ass..and will. I'm human, I get weak from time to time but that's when I turn to this sight. I got fucking noobs encouraging me. I get off on that shit. Thanks for the kind words and don't worry about me...I got this shit.
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Sorry to minimize your upcoming challenge diesel. Kind of a rude and selfish post. It was knee jerk and emotional. It just pisses me off and scares me that guys like you, ROAM and wt57 still having struggles after all this time. I just want to be done and not have to worry about it. Sometimes I think maybe we give this drug too much credit. Ahh, what do I know. I am just an impatient neewbie.
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Sorry to minimize your upcoming challenge diesel. Kind of a rude and selfish post. It was knee jerk and emotional. It just pisses me off and scares me that guys like you, ROAM and wt57 still having struggles after all this time. I just want to be done and not have to worry about it. Sometimes I think maybe we give this drug too much credit. Ahh, what do I know. I am just an impatient neewbie.
You didn't minimize anything and I used to think the same way...some day I would be "DONE" with it all. Sadly I don't think that is true.
HOWEVER, don't let my story scare you. I have waaaay more good days than bad and my bad days aren't nearly as bad as they were in the early days. You gotta remember I'm not even a year quit yet, nor is WT or Roam.
I still have things to tackle that I have never done dip free before. Tackling them for the first time makes me a bit edgy every time. However last night my wife rattled this off for me...
-Being left home alone while my wife was out of town for work
-going to Chicago for 3 nights for work
-Coaching baseball
-Coaching basketball
-Going to funerals
-long drives
-fantasy football draft
-golf
-bowling
-Poker with the boys
-getting drunk
-and more....
These are all hurdles I worried myself sick about tackling and yet I cleared each and every one of them with little problem.
That's the bitch about nic. Even when you know there is a hurdle ahead and you know you're gonna clear it...it still fucking gets to you. I think being prepared and recognizing the struggle before it comes is actually key for clearing them. The day you don't prepare yourself, I think is when you would really be in trouble.
Eventually though, I think I'm gonna clear most of the hurdles in my life and the sailing will be even smoother.
Again, don't let these stories scare or discourage you. The good days far outweigh the bad and you are absolutely on the right track. Keep it up!
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250 days quit. Not bad for a pussy like me. But...like everything in life, always someone with more and someone with less. Was reflecting on how bad the early days were for me and how I, thanks to the help of those on this site, was able to dig myself out. That's when I kind of compared my quit to tending to a garden.
When we start out we have this a FUCKED UP plot of rock hard dirt full of shit. Mine had weeds 15 feet tall, roots 3 feet in diameter, tree stumps, old buried tires, car frames, rocks, boulders and was just a total mess.
I wanted to clean it up and turn it into something beautiful, but I had no tools. All I had was my hands, and every time I looked at that fucked up garden I wanted nothing to do with it. In fact at one point I ran, I left KTC all together. That's how bad my plot was, or more like how big a pussy I was.
Luckily Wedge reached out to me, even after I left the reservation, and offered me up one of those mini spade shovels, and I came back. My garden was still fucked up but I got down on my knees and just started digging with that little shovel.
It still sucked as every time I looked at the garden I thought, no fucking way will I ever be able to fix this bitch up. But...eventually total strangers like WT, Skoal Monster, Ready, and countless others offered me up some other tools.
Eventually I had a rake, a hoe (not that kind but I do like them), an actual shovel, an axe, a pick, etc...and I continued to churn that garden up.
Still though, as grateful as I was for the new tools I acquired from these strange people I was seeing little progress in my garden, even though it was there.
Every time I looked at it the weeds still seemed 5 feet high, the stumps weren't coming out, the roots were still too thick, and the mother fucking tires and the rest of the rocks, boulders, and car frames were just to heavy. I was pissed! No way I could turn this shit around. But at the advice of the guys who gave me the tools, I just kept digging.
Then some weird shit started happening. I actually saw some progress in my garden. The weeds were a lot shorter, I cut through a couple roots, I pulled a few tires and boulders out. The real heavy stuff was still there but holy shit, I thought I had an actual chance to turn this bitch into something beautiful. So I just kept churning the dirt.
I kept active on the site and acquired some new tools. Even bought some MYSELF. Got the $$$ form my CONFIDENCE Bank.
Next thing I knew, I was BULL DOZING that mother fucking plot, like a fucking BOSS. I had my arm dangling out the window of that 5 ton dozer, and was PLOWING all that shit out of my plot. Tires were flying everywhere, stumps were getting pushed around like twigs, car frames were getting flipped repeatedly and those rocks and boulders were getting crushed into dust!!! I was spittin sun flower seeds out window and wasn't wearing a safety hat either. I was loving it!!! I was FINALLY fucking shit up. It WAS all worth the wait!!!
Once all that shit was cleared out and my plot was freshly churned fertile soil, I jumped out of my dozer...took a good look around, deeply inhaled the fresh air and thought to myself..."Time to plant some beautiful ass shit"
So I did. I started dropping serious quit seeds that would take strong ass roots and grow like jacks fucking beanstalk.
They didn't just grow on their own. Oh no. I still had to water them daily. Some of the weeds came back and I had to pull them again. I found a few more stumps buried beneath the surface. Even had to borrow some tools from the KTC store again to get some of the stubborn buggers out. But I maintained it.
Today as I look at my garden, it is plush and beautiful...to me. Like I said previously, there is always gonna be someone with a more beautiful garden and someone with a garden more fucked up than mine was in the beginning.
Right now though, I am really digging my garden and the maintenance required to maintain it is getting less and less. Even though I know the work will never go away totally, weeds may pop up from time to time, I can live with it because I take pride in maintaining my quit garden and have done much heavier work before.
I also am starting to take pride in helping others try and flip their garden and eventually make it a thing of beauty. I try to lend out my tools as much as possible, and I think others with well maintained gardens should do the same.
While I say it's a "garden", this really is a life or death matter. If Wedge hadn't given me that little shovel at the begging who knows, I could literally be Dead. I keep that shovel buffed to a high polish and display it proudly on my mantle.
Tend your garden, boys and girls.
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Hey who is that over there, I woulda come sooner to introduce myself but there is all these car frames and boulders I had to climb through to get here. :D
Thanks Diesel, can I borrow that dozer of yours?
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250 days quit. Not bad for a pussy like me. But...like everything in life, always someone with more and someone with less. Was reflecting on how bad the early days were for me and how I, thanks to the help of those on this site, was able to dig myself out. That's when I kind of compared my quit to tending to a garden.
When we start out we have this a FUCKED UP plot of rock hard dirt full of shit. Mine had weeds 15 feet tall, roots 3 feet in diameter, tree stumps, old buried tires, car frames, rocks, boulders and was just a total mess.
I wanted to clean it up and turn it into something beautiful, but I had no tools. All I had was my hands, and every time I looked at that fucked up garden I wanted nothing to do with it. In fact at one point I ran, I left KTC all together. That's how bad my plot was, or more like how big a pussy I was.
Luckily Wedge reached out to me, even after I left the reservation, and offered me up one of those mini spade shovels, and I came back. My garden was still fucked up but I got down on my knees and just started digging with that little shovel.
It still sucked as every time I looked at the garden I thought, no fucking way will I ever be able to fix this bitch up. But...eventually total strangers like WT, Skoal Monster, Ready, and countless others offered me up some other tools.
Eventually I had a rake, a hoe (not that kind but I do like them), an actual shovel, an axe, a pick, etc...and I continued to churn that garden up.
Still though, as grateful as I was for the new tools I acquired from these strange people I was seeing little progress in my garden, even though it was there.
Every time I looked at it the weeds still seemed 5 feet high, the stumps weren't coming out, the roots were still too thick, and the mother fucking tires and the rest of the rocks, boulders, and car frames were just to heavy. I was pissed! No way I could turn this shit around. But at the advice of the guys who gave me the tools, I just kept digging.
Then some weird shit started happening. I actually saw some progress in my garden. The weeds were a lot shorter, I cut through a couple roots, I pulled a few tires and boulders out. The real heavy stuff was still there but holy shit, I thought I had an actual chance to turn this bitch into something beautiful. So I just kept churning the dirt.
I kept active on the site and acquired some new tools. Even bought some MYSELF. Got the $$$ form my CONFIDENCE Bank.
Next thing I knew, I was BULL DOZING that mother fucking plot, like a fucking BOSS. I had my arm dangling out the window of that 5 ton dozer, and was PLOWING all that shit out of my plot. Tires were flying everywhere, stumps were getting pushed around like twigs, car frames were getting flipped repeatedly and those rocks and boulders were getting crushed into dust!!! I was spittin sun flower seeds out window and wasn't wearing a safety hat either. I was loving it!!! I was FINALLY fucking shit up. It WAS all worth the wait!!!
Once all that shit was cleared out and my plot was freshly churned fertile soil, I jumped out of my dozer...took a good look around, deeply inhaled the fresh air and thought to myself..."Time to plant some beautiful ass shit"
So I did. I started dropping serious quit seeds that would take strong ass roots and grow like jacks fucking beanstalk.
They didn't just grow on their own. Oh no. I still had to water them daily. Some of the weeds came back and I had to pull them again. I found a few more stumps buried beneath the surface. Even had to borrow some tools from the KTC store again to get some of the stubborn buggers out. But I maintained it.
Today as I look at my garden, it is plush and beautiful...to me. Like I said previously, there is always gonna be someone with a more beautiful garden and someone with a garden more fucked up than mine was in the beginning.
Right now though, I am really digging my garden and the maintenance required to maintain it is getting less and less. Even though I know the work will never go away totally, weeds may pop up from time to time, I can live with it because I take pride in maintaining my quit garden and have done much heavier work before.
I also am starting to take pride in helping others try and flip their garden and eventually make it a thing of beauty. I try to lend out my tools as much as possible, and I think others with well maintained gardens should do the same.
While I say it's a "garden", this really is a life or death matter. If Wedge hadn't given me that little shovel at the begging who knows, I could literally be Dead. I keep that shovel buffed to a high polish and display it proudly on my mantle.
Tend your garden, boys and girls.
Very good stuff Diesel. I dont know who Wedge is, but I am also damn glad that he reached out to you. If he hadn't, you may still be packing your pie hole with cancer wads instead of being on KTC. You have helped my quit profoundly and I see you helping many new quitters every week. I am proud to quit with you. Keep up the great work.
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Thank you for your insights. I think it is illegal to display your tool in public though. :)
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250 days quit. Not bad for a pussy like me. But...like everything in life, always someone with more and someone with less. Was reflecting on how bad the early days were for me and how I, thanks to the help of those on this site, was able to dig myself out. That's when I kind of compared my quit to tending to a garden.
When we start out we have this a FUCKED UP plot of rock hard dirt full of shit. Mine had weeds 15 feet tall, roots 3 feet in diameter, tree stumps, old buried tires, car frames, rocks, boulders and was just a total mess.Â
I wanted to clean it up and turn it into something beautiful, but I had no tools. All I had was my hands, and every time I looked at that fucked up garden I wanted nothing to do with it. In fact at one point I ran, I left KTC all together. That's how bad my plot was, or more like how big a pussy I was.
Luckily Wedge reached out to me, even after I left the reservation, and offered me up one of those mini spade shovels, and I came back. My garden was still fucked up but I got down on my knees and just started digging with that little shovel.
It still sucked as every time I looked at the garden I thought, no fucking way will I ever be able to fix this bitch up. But...eventually total strangers like WT, Skoal Monster, Ready, and countless others offered me up some other tools.
Eventually I had a rake, a hoe (not that kind but I do like them), an actual shovel, an axe, a pick, etc...and I continued to churn that garden up.Â
Still though, as grateful as I was for the new tools I acquired from these strange people I was seeing little progress in my garden, even though it was there.
Every time I looked at it the weeds still seemed 5 feet high, the stumps weren't coming out, the roots were still too thick, and the mother fucking tires and the rest of the rocks, boulders, and car frames were just to heavy. I was pissed! No way I could turn this shit around. But at the advice of the guys who gave me the tools, I just kept digging.
Then some weird shit started happening. I actually saw some progress in my garden. The weeds were a lot shorter, I cut through a couple roots, I pulled a few tires and boulders out. The real heavy stuff was still there but holy shit, I thought I had an actual chance to turn this bitch into something beautiful. So I just kept churning the dirt.
I kept active on the site and acquired some new tools. Even bought some MYSELF. Got the $$$ form my CONFIDENCE Bank.
Next thing I knew, I was BULL DOZING that mother fucking plot, like a fucking BOSS. I had my arm dangling out the window of that 5 ton dozer, and was PLOWING all that shit out of my plot. Tires were flying everywhere, stumps were getting pushed around like twigs, car frames were getting flipped repeatedly and those rocks and boulders were getting crushed into dust!!! I was spittin sun flower seeds out window and wasn't wearing a safety hat either. I was loving it!!! I was FINALLY fucking shit up. It WAS all worth the wait!!!Â
Once all that shit was cleared out and my plot was freshly churned fertile soil, I jumped out of my dozer...took a good look around, deeply inhaled the fresh air and thought to myself..."Time to plant some beautiful ass shit"
So I did. I started dropping serious quit seeds that would take strong ass roots and grow like jacks fucking beanstalk.Â
They didn't just grow on their own. Oh no. I still had to water them daily. Some of the weeds came back and I had to pull them again. I found a few more stumps buried beneath the surface. Even had to borrow some tools from the KTC store again to get some of the stubborn buggers out. But I maintained it.
Today as I look at my garden, it is plush and beautiful...to me. Like I said previously, there is always gonna be someone with a more beautiful garden and someone with a garden more fucked up than mine was in the beginning.Â
Right now though, I am really digging my garden and the maintenance required to maintain it is getting less and less. Even though I know the work will never go away totally, weeds may pop up from time to time, I can live with it because I take pride in maintaining my quit garden and have done much heavier work before.
I also am starting to take pride in helping others try and flip their garden and eventually make it a thing of beauty. I try to lend out my tools as much as possible, and I think others with well maintained gardens should do the same.Â
While I say it's a "garden", this really is a life or death matter. If Wedge hadn't given me that little shovel at the begging who knows, I could literally be Dead. I keep that shovel buffed to a high polish and display it proudly on my mantle.
Tend your garden, boys and girls.
Very good stuff Diesel. I dont know who Wedge is, but I am also damn glad that he reached out to you. If he hadn't, you may still be packing your pie hole with cancer wads instead of being on KTC. You have helped my quit profoundly and I see you helping many new quitters every week. I am proud to quit with you. Keep up the great work.
bump. good post Diesel
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Thanks, you guys are welcome to play with my tool any day. But you're gonna have to buy your own dozer!!!
Quit on!!!!!
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit. I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT. Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to. if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit. I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT. Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to. if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
Nice work!
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit.  I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.Â
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT. Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to.  if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
That's bad ass Diesel, it really is amazing how far we all can come after removing such a major part of our lives.I have been reading alot as well in my short going on 45 days quit on KTC.I have made several mentions to alot of different persons on KTC how important your "Tend your Garden" thread was to my quit. I told WP how I could relate to all you had to say,and why I think you could have said it.I enjoy reading what you have to say, not because I think you are 6'4" 245 lbs of bad ass mFer, with a 11" cock.I know that you mean and care about every word you put down before you ever type it.You say what you say for the good of a persons QUIT PERIOD!!Maybe not what we want to hear but tough titties.I'm very glad your life is rewarding you back.Proud to know you and even prouder to be quit with you today.NAFAR.
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit.  I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.Â
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT. Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to.  if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
Nice work!
'clap'
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit.  I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.Â
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT.  Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to.  if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
That's bad ass Diesel, it really is amazing how far we all can come after removing such a major part of our lives.I have been reading alot as well in my short going on 45 days quit on KTC.I have made several mentions to alot of different persons on KTC how important your "Tend your Garden" thread was to my quit. I told WP how I could relate to all you had to say,and why I think you could have said it.I enjoy reading what you have to say, not because I think you are 6'4" 245 lbs of bad ass mFer, with a 11" cock.I know that you mean and care about every word you put down before you ever type it.You say what you say for the good of a persons QUIT PERIOD!!Maybe not what we want to hear but tough titties.I'm very glad your life is rewarding you back.Proud to know you and even prouder to be quit with you today.NAFAR.
Thanks man. Just trying to pay it forward and help others like people helped me. Take this WT guy...if it weren't for him, who knows. He helped me a ton.
If I could be someone else's WT (minus the fungal tongue) I would be one proud s.o.b.
You are 45 days quit, which is huge but add 245 more days onto that and you will feel the same. It may seem like a long ways off but its not. One day at a time and it will be here before you know it.
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit.  I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.Â
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT.  Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to.  if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
That's bad ass Diesel, it really is amazing how far we all can come after removing such a major part of our lives.I have been reading alot as well in my short going on 45 days quit on KTC.I have made several mentions to alot of different persons on KTC how important your "Tend your Garden" thread was to my quit. I told WP how I could relate to all you had to say,and why I think you could have said it.I enjoy reading what you have to say, not because I think you are 6'4" 245 lbs of bad ass mFer, with a 11" cock.I know that you mean and care about every word you put down before you ever type it.You say what you say for the good of a persons QUIT PERIOD!!Maybe not what we want to hear but tough titties.I'm very glad your life is rewarding you back.Proud to know you and even prouder to be quit with you today.NAFAR.
Thanks man. Just trying to pay it forward and help others like people helped me. Take this WT guy...if it weren't for him, who knows. He helped me a ton.
If I could be someone else's WT (minus the fungal tongue) I would be one proud s.o.b.
You are 45 days quit, which is huge but add 245 more days onto that and you will feel the same. It may seem like a long ways off but its not. One day at a time and it will be here before you know it.
Diesel, having a 12 inch dick isnt all its cracked up to be. In fact, it gets kinda old after awhile. But congrats on being med free. Youve helped me with your posts get through some of the roughest times in my quit and I know I sure as hell appreciate hearing your story as well. I quit with you today brother.
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My wife demanded , "Give me 12 inches and make it hurt!"
I fucked her 4 times and punched her in the head.
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My wife demanded , "Give me 12 inches and make it hurt!"
I fucked her 4 times and punched her in the head.
Stick around folks, he's here all week!
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit. I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT. Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to. if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
Good work my brother who likes a football team with funny colors! You bring so much to this site and all of our quits. Now, shrink your head, tuck your huge cock back in your pants and go save some newbie quits!!
J
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit.  I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.Â
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT. Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to.  if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
Good work my brother who likes a football team with funny colors! You bring so much to this site and all of our quits. Now, shrink your head, tuck your huge cock back in your pants and go save some newbie quits!!
J
'loot01'
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit.  I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.Â
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT.  Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to.  if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
Good work my brother who likes a football team with funny colors! You bring so much to this site and all of our quits. Now, shrink your head, tuck your huge cock back in your pants and go save some newbie quits!!
J
'loot01'
proud of you diesel.. you've come a long way, and I'm quit with you...
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit.  I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.Â
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT.  Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to.  if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
Good work my brother who likes a football team with funny colors! You bring so much to this site and all of our quits. Now, shrink your head, tuck your huge cock back in your pants and go save some newbie quits!!
J
'loot01'
proud of you diesel.. you've come a long way, and I'm quit with you...
Thanks all and I like men and Gladiator movies.
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit.  I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.Â
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT.  Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to.  if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
Good work my brother who likes a football team with funny colors! You bring so much to this site and all of our quits. Now, shrink your head, tuck your huge cock back in your pants and go save some newbie quits!!
J
'loot01'
proud of you diesel.. you've come a long way, and I'm quit with you...
Thanks all and I like men and Gladiator movies.
Thanks all and I like men and Gladiator movies.
That's because you root for the Gaze in Blue. :lol:
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit.  I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.Â
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT.  Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to.  if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
Good work my brother who likes a football team with funny colors! You bring so much to this site and all of our quits. Now, shrink your head, tuck your huge cock back in your pants and go save some newbie quits!!
J
'loot01'
proud of you diesel.. you've come a long way, and I'm quit with you...
Thanks all and I like men and Gladiator movies.
Thanks all and I like men and Gladiator movies.
That's because you root for the Gaze in Blue. :lol:
Just be thankful we let you in our conference.
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Day 289.
Today is the first day I have gone completely med free. No anti depression meds, no anxiety pills, no nothing...just me. I feel GREAT.
A lot of people have different thoughts on using meds, but to be honest I could give a squirt of piss what others think. I needed them to get me quit. Others may need need them for the rest of their life. As long as you're quit, who gives a flying fuck...as long as you're not abusing them.
I never thought I could quit nicotine, yet I did. My doctor said I would use these meds as an "assist" to get my body and brain right to quit.  I never thought I would be able to lose the assists, yet I did.
I'm not popping off like some bad ass or suggesting everyone should use meds, because I'm not and not everyone should.
Ive just been reading a lot lately about guys who are at crossroads, still glorifying the worm dirt, and aren't sure if things really will get better, and seem to be losing a bit of enthusiasm for quitting.
Please hang in there. ANYTHING is possible when you put your mind, body and soul into something. Things do get better. Better than you ever thought possible.Â
Dig your claws in and continue to FIGHT.  Take a big deep breath, roll your sleeves up and realize you have unfinished business to tend to.  if you watch college hoops slap the floor like Duke does when they want to get a stop on defense and put some emotion back into your quit.
Get excited again.
It is so worth it, for reasons too many to list.
Do I still think about dipping? Sure, but I also think about banging that smoking hot read head I flirt with on my sales run. I think about what it would be like to be single with no kids, what it would be like to have a 12" cock instead of an 11 incher. I think about a lot of shit, that I just brush off as idle thought. Dipping is now in that relm and it feels great.
I remember being in awe of skoal monster telling me when I first quit that when he thought about dip it was as inconsequential as a mosquito bite and that he could just flick it off.
I never thought I could get to a similar point, yet I did. And so can anyone.
I'm not cured and never will be but I sure as fuck feel "normal" again. Never thought I would say that again, yet I just fucking did.
Stay vigilant.
Good work my brother who likes a football team with funny colors! You bring so much to this site and all of our quits. Now, shrink your head, tuck your huge cock back in your pants and go save some newbie quits!!
J
'loot01'
proud of you diesel.. you've come a long way, and I'm quit with you...
Thanks all and I like men and Gladiator movies.
Thanks all and I like men and Gladiator movies.
That's because you root for the Gaze in Blue. :lol:
Just be thankful we let you in our conference.
Congrats, well done, thanks for the site pep talk. Sorry about the 11" cock, don't worry though even with mine at 13", I still wish for an inch or two more, just because. We do need to continue to fight for our quits. Complacency leads to cave-ins-see, and we want no cave-ins.
QLAFM
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Just be thankful we let you in our conference.
We raised your levels of looks and intelligence, for that you are welcome. :)
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Just be thankful we let you in our conference.
We raised your levels of looks and intelligence, for that you are welcome. :)
Certainly not in basketball... 'flush'
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Just be thankful we let you in our conference.
We raised your levels of looks and intelligence, for that you are welcome. :)
Certainly not in basketball... 'flush'
Certainly not in basketball
'crackup' Taint no arguement there ! I am unarmed in a battle of wits with you, so before I really embarass myself I surrender. ALL HAIL THE GAZE IN BLUE ! :P
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Did it all this weekend fellas...
Watched tourney with the boys at bar while drinking...a lot
Spent all Saturday at home watching the tournament...by myself
Went out with old buddy Saturday night
Got shit faced while out with said friend Saturday night
Ate 8 chicken Sandos and 3 onion chips at white castle at 2AM
Came home and gave wife worst 3 inches of her life at 3AM
Up early Sunday for Palm Sunday Mass
Played catch with my son
Drove to my in-laws for Easter dinner
Left in-laws early to do llittle league draft
Are pizza and drank beer at little league draft
Came home and watched tourney some more...by myself
Dragged fat bloated ass off couch to play basketball
Got sent out by wife at 11PM to pick up some groceries
Not one fucking time did dip truly tempt me. Cross my mind...sure, very briefly, but never offered up any real threat. I was Arthur Fonzarelli cool the entire weekend. And enjoyed the shit out of it .
Little league draft was a cementer for me. My buddy/assistant coach comes to the draft with a tiny kid sized bottle of water. I ask "what the fuck you gonna do with that? Shots of water?". As soon as the word "water" left my tongue, it knew exactly what it was. Sure enough he says "it was gonna be my spitter but I forgot your Joe quit so I wont tempt you" in a sarcastic tone.
Fuck you I thought but "Go ahead man, I'm a big boy and so are you" is what I said. So...sure enough he starts finger banging a can of grizzly and loads up. So the entire draft as we are inches apart going over the player pool this guys "pfffft" ", pfffft", "pfffft"....into his tiny water bottle. I laughed. It suddenly seemed not only disgusting but childish. Guy looked like a fucking moron, and his breath smelled like straight ASS.
I am honestly so happy to be done with that shit. Weekends like this really drive that truth home. In the past this would have been a 6-8 tin weekend. Instead it was a zero pinch weekend and I enjoyed every second of it...and it really wasn't that hard.
Go figure...
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Did it all this weekend fellas...
Watched tourney with the boys at bar while drinking...a lot
Spent all Saturday at home watching the tournament...by myself
Went out with old buddy Saturday night
Got shit faced while out with said friend Saturday night
Ate 8 chicken Sandos and 3 onion chips at white castle at 2AM
Came home and gave wife worst 3 inches of her life at 3AM
Up early Sunday for Palm Sunday Mass
Played catch with my son
Drove to my in-laws for Easter dinner
Left in-laws early to do llittle league draft
Are pizza and drank beer at little league draft
Came home and watched tourney some more...by myself
Dragged fat bloated ass off couch to play basketball
Got sent out by wife at 11PM to pick up some groceries
Not one fucking time did dip truly tempt me. Cross my mind...sure, very briefly, but never offered up any real threat. I was Arthur Fonzarelli cool the entire weekend. And enjoyed the shit out of it .
Little league draft was a cementer for me. My buddy/assistant coach comes to the draft with a tiny kid sized bottle of water. I ask "what the fuck you gonna do with that? Shots of water?". As soon as the word "water" left my tongue, it knew exactly what it was. Sure enough he says "it was gonna be my spitter but I forgot your Joe quit so I wont tempt you" in a sarcastic tone.
Fuck you I thought but "Go ahead man, I'm a big boy and so are you" is what I said. So...sure enough he starts finger banging a can of grizzly and loads up. So the entire draft as we are inches apart going over the player pool this guys "pfffft" ", pfffft", "pfffft"....into his tiny water bottle. I laughed. It suddenly seemed not only disgusting but childish. Guy looked like a fucking moron, and his breath smelled like straight ASS.Â
I am honestly so happy to be done with that shit. Weekends like this really drive that truth home. In the past this would have been a 6-8 tin weekend. Instead it was a zero pinch weekend and I enjoyed every second of it...and it really wasn't that hard.
Go figure...
Confession...there was something that I did NOT do this weekend.
Post roll or check on this site. I did this on purpose.
I DO NOT RECOMMEND THIS TO ANYONE ELSE, ESPECIALLY NEWBS OR ANYONE SHORT OF THE SECOND FLOOR.
Not sure why I consciously decided not to use this site this weekend as I knew it was gonna be a trigger palooza. Not the smartest thing ever and I doubt I will ever again, but my mom always said I wasn't the sharpest marble in the drawer.
Funny thing is, I missed this site more than I missed chewing.
Aint that some shit...especially since most of you like hairy men with 3 balls and I'm silky smooth with 2 perfectly symmetrical
clock weights.
See you all at roll tomorrow.
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Did it all this weekend fellas...
Watched tourney with the boys at bar while drinking...a lot
Spent all Saturday at home watching the tournament...by myself
Went out with old buddy Saturday night
Got shit faced while out with said friend Saturday night
Ate 8 chicken Sandos and 3 onion chips at white castle at 2AM
Came home and gave wife worst 3 inches of her life at 3AM
Up early Sunday for Palm Sunday Mass
Played catch with my son
Drove to my in-laws for Easter dinner
Left in-laws early to do llittle league draft
Are pizza and drank beer at little league draft
Came home and watched tourney some more...by myself
Dragged fat bloated ass off couch to play basketball
Got sent out by wife at 11PM to pick up some groceries
Not one fucking time did dip truly tempt me. Cross my mind...sure, very briefly, but never offered up any real threat. I was Arthur Fonzarelli cool the entire weekend. And enjoyed the shit out of it .
Little league draft was a cementer for me. My buddy/assistant coach comes to the draft with a tiny kid sized bottle of water. I ask "what the fuck you gonna do with that? Shots of water?". As soon as the word "water" left my tongue, it knew exactly what it was. Sure enough he says "it was gonna be my spitter but I forgot your Joe quit so I wont tempt you" in a sarcastic tone.
Fuck you I thought but "Go ahead man, I'm a big boy and so are you" is what I said. So...sure enough he starts finger banging a can of grizzly and loads up. So the entire draft as we are inches apart going over the player pool this guys "pfffft" ", pfffft", "pfffft"....into his tiny water bottle. I laughed. It suddenly seemed not only disgusting but childish. Guy looked like a fucking moron, and his breath smelled like straight ASS.Â
I am honestly so happy to be done with that shit. Weekends like this really drive that truth home. In the past this would have been a 6-8 tin weekend. Instead it was a zero pinch weekend and I enjoyed every second of it...and it really wasn't that hard.
Go figure...
Confession...there was something that I did NOT do this weekend.
Post roll or check on this site. I did this on purpose.
I DO NOT RECOMMEND THIS TO ANYONE ELSE, ESPECIALLY NEWBS OR ANYONE SHORT OF THE SECOND FLOOR.
Not sure why I consciously decided not to use this site this weekend as I knew it was gonna be a trigger palooza. Not the smartest thing ever and I doubt I will ever again, but my mom always said I wasn't the sharpest marble in the drawer.
Funny thing is, I missed this site more than I missed chewing.
Aint that some shit...especially since most of you like hairy men with 3 balls and I'm silky smooth with 2 perfectly symmetrical
clock weights.
See you all at roll tomorrow.
Great story man. Glad you made it. Get your ass on roll next time, you left yourself a way to cave if you had chosen to. You are way smarter than that.
I had a very similar weekend that I posted about on Sunday morning.
Keep walking the walk.
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Did it all this weekend fellas...
Watched tourney with the boys at bar while drinking...a lot
Spent all Saturday at home watching the tournament...by myself
Went out with old buddy Saturday night
Got shit faced while out with said friend Saturday night
Ate 8 chicken Sandos and 3 onion chips at white castle at 2AM
Came home and gave wife worst 3 inches of her life at 3AM
Up early Sunday for Palm Sunday Mass
Played catch with my son
Drove to my in-laws for Easter dinner
Left in-laws early to do llittle league draft
Are pizza and drank beer at little league draft
Came home and watched tourney some more...by myself
Dragged fat bloated ass off couch to play basketball
Got sent out by wife at 11PM to pick up some groceries
Not one fucking time did dip truly tempt me. Cross my mind...sure, very briefly, but never offered up any real threat. I was Arthur Fonzarelli cool the entire weekend. And enjoyed the shit out of it .
Little league draft was a cementer for me. My buddy/assistant coach comes to the draft with a tiny kid sized bottle of water. I ask "what the fuck you gonna do with that? Shots of water?". As soon as the word "water" left my tongue, it knew exactly what it was. Sure enough he says "it was gonna be my spitter but I forgot your Joe quit so I wont tempt you" in a sarcastic tone.
Fuck you I thought but "Go ahead man, I'm a big boy and so are you" is what I said. So...sure enough he starts finger banging a can of grizzly and loads up. So the entire draft as we are inches apart going over the player pool this guys "pfffft" ", pfffft", "pfffft"....into his tiny water bottle. I laughed. It suddenly seemed not only disgusting but childish. Guy looked like a fucking moron, and his breath smelled like straight ASS.Â
I am honestly so happy to be done with that shit. Weekends like this really drive that truth home. In the past this would have been a 6-8 tin weekend. Instead it was a zero pinch weekend and I enjoyed every second of it...and it really wasn't that hard.
Go figure...
Confession...there was something that I did NOT do this weekend.
Post roll or check on this site. I did this on purpose.
I DO NOT RECOMMEND THIS TO ANYONE ELSE, ESPECIALLY NEWBS OR ANYONE SHORT OF THE SECOND FLOOR.
Not sure why I consciously decided not to use this site this weekend as I knew it was gonna be a trigger palooza. Not the smartest thing ever and I doubt I will ever again, but my mom always said I wasn't the sharpest marble in the drawer.
Funny thing is, I missed this site more than I missed chewing.
Aint that some shit...especially since most of you like hairy men with 3 balls and I'm silky smooth with 2 perfectly symmetrical
clock weights.
See you all at roll tomorrow.
Great story man. Glad you made it. Get your ass on roll next time, you left yourself a way to cave if you had chosen to. You are way smarter than that.
I had a very similar weekend that I posted about on Sunday morning.
Keep walking the walk.
Sounds like a truly bad-ass weekend for a true bad-ass quitter.Thanks for sharing that story Diesel.
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Did it all this weekend fellas...
Watched tourney with the boys at bar while drinking...a lot
Spent all Saturday at home watching the tournament...by myself
Went out with old buddy Saturday night
Got shit faced while out with said friend Saturday night
Ate 8 chicken Sandos and 3 onion chips at white castle at 2AM
Came home and gave wife worst 3 inches of her life at 3AM
Up early Sunday for Palm Sunday Mass
Played catch with my son
Drove to my in-laws for Easter dinner
Left in-laws early to do llittle league draft
Are pizza and drank beer at little league draft
Came home and watched tourney some more...by myself
Dragged fat bloated ass off couch to play basketball
Got sent out by wife at 11PM to pick up some groceries
Not one fucking time did dip truly tempt me. Cross my mind...sure, very briefly, but never offered up any real threat. I was Arthur Fonzarelli cool the entire weekend. And enjoyed the shit out of it .
Little league draft was a cementer for me. My buddy/assistant coach comes to the draft with a tiny kid sized bottle of water. I ask "what the fuck you gonna do with that? Shots of water?". As soon as the word "water" left my tongue, it knew exactly what it was. Sure enough he says "it was gonna be my spitter but I forgot your Joe quit so I wont tempt you" in a sarcastic tone.
Fuck you I thought but "Go ahead man, I'm a big boy and so are you" is what I said. So...sure enough he starts finger banging a can of grizzly and loads up. So the entire draft as we are inches apart going over the player pool this guys "pfffft" ", pfffft", "pfffft"....into his tiny water bottle. I laughed. It suddenly seemed not only disgusting but childish. Guy looked like a fucking moron, and his breath smelled like straight ASS.Â
I am honestly so happy to be done with that shit. Weekends like this really drive that truth home. In the past this would have been a 6-8 tin weekend. Instead it was a zero pinch weekend and I enjoyed every second of it...and it really wasn't that hard.
Go figure...
Confession...there was something that I did NOT do this weekend.
Post roll or check on this site. I did this on purpose.
I DO NOT RECOMMEND THIS TO ANYONE ELSE, ESPECIALLY NEWBS OR ANYONE SHORT OF THE SECOND FLOOR.
Not sure why I consciously decided not to use this site this weekend as I knew it was gonna be a trigger palooza. Not the smartest thing ever and I doubt I will ever again, but my mom always said I wasn't the sharpest marble in the drawer.
Funny thing is, I missed this site more than I missed chewing.
Aint that some shit...especially since most of you like hairy men with 3 balls and I'm silky smooth with 2 perfectly symmetrical
clock weights.
See you all at roll tomorrow.
Great story man. Glad you made it. Get your ass on roll next time, you left yourself a way to cave if you had chosen to. You are way smarter than that.
I had a very similar weekend that I posted about on Sunday morning.
Keep walking the walk.
Sounds like a truly bad-ass weekend for a true bad-ass quitter.Thanks for sharing that story Diesel.
Good Stuff Bro!! I like my 3rd ball! I call him Pinky!
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Did it all this weekend fellas...
Watched tourney with the boys at bar while drinking...a lot
Spent all Saturday at home watching the tournament...by myself
Went out with old buddy Saturday night
Got shit faced while out with said friend Saturday night
Ate 8 chicken Sandos and 3 onion chips at white castle at 2AM
Came home and gave wife worst 3 inches of her life at 3AM
Up early Sunday for Palm Sunday Mass
Played catch with my son
Drove to my in-laws for Easter dinner
Left in-laws early to do llittle league draft
Are pizza and drank beer at little league draft
Came home and watched tourney some more...by myself
Dragged fat bloated ass off couch to play basketball
Got sent out by wife at 11PM to pick up some groceries
Not one fucking time did dip truly tempt me. Cross my mind...sure, very briefly, but never offered up any real threat. I was Arthur Fonzarelli cool the entire weekend. And enjoyed the shit out of it .
Little league draft was a cementer for me. My buddy/assistant coach comes to the draft with a tiny kid sized bottle of water. I ask "what the fuck you gonna do with that? Shots of water?". As soon as the word "water" left my tongue, it knew exactly what it was. Sure enough he says "it was gonna be my spitter but I forgot your Joe quit so I wont tempt you" in a sarcastic tone.
Fuck you I thought but "Go ahead man, I'm a big boy and so are you" is what I said. So...sure enough he starts finger banging a can of grizzly and loads up. So the entire draft as we are inches apart going over the player pool this guys "pfffft" ", pfffft", "pfffft"....into his tiny water bottle. I laughed. It suddenly seemed not only disgusting but childish. Guy looked like a fucking moron, and his breath smelled like straight ASS.Â
I am honestly so happy to be done with that shit. Weekends like this really drive that truth home. In the past this would have been a 6-8 tin weekend. Instead it was a zero pinch weekend and I enjoyed every second of it...and it really wasn't that hard.
Go figure...
Confession...there was something that I did NOT do this weekend.
Post roll or check on this site. I did this on purpose.
I DO NOT RECOMMEND THIS TO ANYONE ELSE, ESPECIALLY NEWBS OR ANYONE SHORT OF THE SECOND FLOOR.
Not sure why I consciously decided not to use this site this weekend as I knew it was gonna be a trigger palooza. Not the smartest thing ever and I doubt I will ever again, but my mom always said I wasn't the sharpest marble in the drawer.
Funny thing is, I missed this site more than I missed chewing.
Aint that some shit...especially since most of you like hairy men with 3 balls and I'm silky smooth with 2 perfectly symmetrical
clock weights.
See you all at roll tomorrow.
Great story man. Glad you made it. Get your ass on roll next time, you left yourself a way to cave if you had chosen to. You are way smarter than that.
I had a very similar weekend that I posted about on Sunday morning.
Keep walking the walk.
Sounds like a truly bad-ass weekend for a true bad-ass quitter.Thanks for sharing that story Diesel.
Good Stuff Bro!! I like my 3rd ball! I call him Pinky!
Nice work!
Quiting is never easy but it is very rewarding!
Keep up the good work!
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3rd floor...I like it.
Nicer view, bigger desk, nicer shitter, better vending machines, hotter secretary...ewwww doughnuts!!!! Yum!!!!
300 days of freedom. SUCK IT Kodiak!!! you fucking no good can of SHIT. Go fuck yourself, you fucking whore.
The secrete is out.
I don't need you....never did.
Tongue jack my turd cutter, you stupid bear. I wish I hunted so I could shoot you.
Ahhhhhhh...smelling the roses today. My garden never looked better. I beam with pride and will be back tomorrow to tend it some more. Its enjoyable and worth it.
Diesel2112-3 fucking hundred.
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3rd floor...I like it.
Nicer view, bigger desk, nicer shitter, better vending machines, hotter secretary...ewwww doughnuts!!!! Yum!!!!
300 days of freedom. SUCK IT Kodiak!!! you fucking no good can of SHIT. Go fuck yourself, you fucking whore.Â
The secrete is out.
I don't need you....never did.
Tongue jack my turd cutter, you stupid bear. I wish I hunted so I could shoot you.
Ahhhhhhh...smelling the roses today. My garden never looked better. I beam with pride and will be back tomorrow to tend it some more. Its enjoyable and worth it.Â
Diesel2112-3 fucking hundred.
Congrats!!! That is fucking Bad-ass with a capital "B" brother.Proud as hell to be quit with you today and even prouder to been able to share the last 55 days quit with you.My garden is also starting to come around, got along fucking ways to go.Nothing worth having or doing is ever easy though.Keep fighting the good fight Diesel. QLF today with you.
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3rd floor...I like it.
Nicer view, bigger desk, nicer shitter, better vending machines, hotter secretary...ewwww doughnuts!!!! Yum!!!!
300 days of freedom. SUCK IT Kodiak!!! you fucking no good can of SHIT. Go fuck yourself, you fucking whore.Â
The secrete is out.
I don't need you....never did.
Tongue jack my turd cutter, you stupid bear. I wish I hunted so I could shoot you.
Ahhhhhhh...smelling the roses today. My garden never looked better. I beam with pride and will be back tomorrow to tend it some more. Its enjoyable and worth it.Â
Diesel2112-3 fucking hundred.
Congrats!!! That is fucking Bad-ass with a capital "B" brother.Proud as hell to be quit with you today and even prouder to been able to share the last 55 days quit with you.My garden is also starting to come around, got along fucking ways to go.Nothing worth having or doing is ever easy though.Keep fighting the good fight Diesel. QLF today with you.
KA-BOOOOOOOM
Outstanding Diesel......fucking outstanding.....
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3rd floor...I like it.
Nicer view, bigger desk, nicer shitter, better vending machines, hotter secretary...ewwww doughnuts!!!! Yum!!!!
300 days of freedom. SUCK IT Kodiak!!! you fucking no good can of SHIT. Go fuck yourself, you fucking whore.
The secrete is out.
I don't need you....never did.
Tongue jack my turd cutter, you stupid bear. I wish I hunted so I could shoot you.
Ahhhhhhh...smelling the roses today. My garden never looked better. I beam with pride and will be back tomorrow to tend it some more. Its enjoyable and worth it.
Diesel2112-3 fucking hundred.
God I love extreme vulgarity when it comes to nicotine. I have no idea why, but it helps. It really does.
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3rd floor...I like it.
Nicer view, bigger desk, nicer shitter, better vending machines, hotter secretary...ewwww doughnuts!!!! Yum!!!!
300 days of freedom. SUCK IT Kodiak!!! you fucking no good can of SHIT. Go fuck yourself, you fucking whore.Â
The secrete is out.
I don't need you....never did.
Tongue jack my turd cutter, you stupid bear. I wish I hunted so I could shoot you.
Ahhhhhhh...smelling the roses today. My garden never looked better. I beam with pride and will be back tomorrow to tend it some more. Its enjoyable and worth it.Â
Diesel2112-3 fucking hundred.
God I love extreme vulgarity when it comes to nicotine. I have no idea why, but it helps. It really does.
I think that it goes along with saying "FUCK" when you stub your toe. It lessens the pain. I read that somewhere that is actually true. When in the right company. Congrats Diesel!!! Pretty Friggin Bad Ass!!
J
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Grats on the 3rd floor. The days go by fast and that number grows a lot easier than it did back for those first 100.
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3rd floor...I like it.
Nicer view, bigger desk, nicer shitter, better vending machines, hotter secretary...ewwww doughnuts!!!! Yum!!!!
300 days of freedom. SUCK IT Kodiak!!! you fucking no good can of SHIT. Go fuck yourself, you fucking whore.Â
The secrete is out.
I don't need you....never did.
Tongue jack my turd cutter, you stupid bear. I wish I hunted so I could shoot you.
Ahhhhhhh...smelling the roses today. My garden never looked better. I beam with pride and will be back tomorrow to tend it some more. Its enjoyable and worth it.Â
Diesel2112-3 fucking hundred.
God I love extreme vulgarity when it comes to nicotine. I have no idea why, but it helps. It really does.
I think that it goes along with saying "FUCK" when you stub your toe. It lessens the pain. I read that somewhere that is actually true. When in the right company. Congrats Diesel!!! Pretty Friggin Bad Ass!!
J
I read an article recently that said that people who use a lot of vulgar language are smarter than those who dont.
I can't remember where I read it, or who wrote it, but it was one smart mother fucker, that's for sure.
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3rd floor...I like it.
Nicer view, bigger desk, nicer shitter, better vending machines, hotter secretary...ewwww doughnuts!!!! Yum!!!!
300 days of freedom. SUCK IT Kodiak!!! you fucking no good can of SHIT. Go fuck yourself, you fucking whore.Â
The secrete is out.
I don't need you....never did.
Tongue jack my turd cutter, you stupid bear. I wish I hunted so I could shoot you.
Ahhhhhhh...smelling the roses today. My garden never looked better. I beam with pride and will be back tomorrow to tend it some more. Its enjoyable and worth it.Â
Diesel2112-3 fucking hundred.
God I love extreme vulgarity when it comes to nicotine. I have no idea why, but it helps. It really does.
I think that it goes along with saying "FUCK" when you stub your toe. It lessens the pain. I read that somewhere that is actually true. When in the right company. Congrats Diesel!!! Pretty Friggin Bad Ass!!
J
I read an article recently that said that people who use a lot of vulgar language are smarter than those who dont.
I can't remember where I read it, or who wrote it, but it was one smart mother fucker, that's for sure.
Diesel....it goes back to Sigmund Freud - who was a sick fuck that wanted to fuck his mother....hence his naming of the Oedipus Complex...but I digress....
Freud had a theory of "taboo words" and that those words when said in a specific moment would more strongly anchor that moment in your memory
Tony Robbins is a modern day practitioner of this at his life seminars.....
So, for all you new quitters.....
FUCK YEAH BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lets do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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3rd floor...I like it.
Nicer view, bigger desk, nicer shitter, better vending machines, hotter secretary...ewwww doughnuts!!!! Yum!!!!
300 days of freedom. SUCK IT Kodiak!!! you fucking no good can of SHIT. Go fuck yourself, you fucking whore.Â
The secrete is out.
I don't need you....never did.
Tongue jack my turd cutter, you stupid bear. I wish I hunted so I could shoot you.
Ahhhhhhh...smelling the roses today. My garden never looked better. I beam with pride and will be back tomorrow to tend it some more. Its enjoyable and worth it.Â
Diesel2112-3 fucking hundred.
God I love extreme vulgarity when it comes to nicotine. I have no idea why, but it helps. It really does.
I think that it goes along with saying "FUCK" when you stub your toe. It lessens the pain. I read that somewhere that is actually true. When in the right company. Congrats Diesel!!! Pretty Friggin Bad Ass!!
J
I read an article recently that said that people who use a lot of vulgar language are smarter than those who dont.
I can't remember where I read it, or who wrote it, but it was one smart mother fucker, that's for sure.
Diesel....it goes back to Sigmund Freud - who was a sick fuck that wanted to fuck his mother....hence his naming of the Oedipus Complex...but I digress....
Freud had a theory of "taboo words" and that those words when said in a specific moment would more strongly anchor that moment in your memory
Tony Robbins is a modern day practitioner of this at his life seminars.....
So, for all you new quitters.....
FUCK YEAH BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lets do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3rd floor that's some serious bad ass shit.
I will meet you there someday. QLF robbie day 48
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3rd floor...I like it.
Nicer view, bigger desk, nicer shitter, better vending machines, hotter secretary...ewwww doughnuts!!!! Yum!!!!
300 days of freedom. SUCK IT Kodiak!!! you fucking no good can of SHIT. Go fuck yourself, you fucking whore.Â
The secrete is out.
I don't need you....never did.
Tongue jack my turd cutter, you stupid bear. I wish I hunted so I could shoot you.
Ahhhhhhh...smelling the roses today. My garden never looked better. I beam with pride and will be back tomorrow to tend it some more. Its enjoyable and worth it.Â
Diesel2112-3 fucking hundred.
Fucking A. The hotter secretary part makes it all worthwhile. I guess it depends on where you started and how far you've come with "hotness" levels though...
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Getting my upper left wisdom tooth pulled tomorrow. Big fucking deal right? Sounds like a lame facebook status update From my cousin.
Here's the thing that I wanted to share.
About 2 years ago I had both my back wisdom teeth pulled. Holy fuck what an adventure. They cracked and pulled those pricks 6 ways to Sunday.
Finally when the were done I had two bloody holes stuffed with gauze in the back of my mouth. I could not feel my face, cheeks, or lips from all the shots, and I had a 5 page masterpiece on taking care of the wounds.
So what does my dumb ass do as soon as I get in the car?
Yep. No need to even say it.
What a fucking moronic move that was.
Shit was running down my face as I had no feeling in my lips or cheek. The gauze was no soaked and contaminated with dip juice and the shit was running right into the freshly made holes in my mouth.
In the end I got a severe infection and dry sockets because I continued to dip despite the mess my mouth was in.
What kind of ASS HAT does some shit like that???
Tomorrow will be another story...a normal story. A story of a free man getting his wisdom tooth pulled. Again, big fucking deal right?
Never again for any reason, boys and gals.
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What do you know Diesel can still swear! I like it. Only know hes doing it at himself and nic. Not all of us! I miss the old diesel!
Swearing does help the crave. So if your told to go fuck youself by one of our fellow brothers, know that you are helping them out!
Diesel - we all have had dental work down and immediatly put the chew in our face. I did the exact same thing, only I had all 4 pulled and spit a varied shade of redish brown for the first tin or two. I even went as far as telling myself and other that it helped with the pain.
Freedom can only be known when the whore stops wispering. I cant wait to someday be free.
Ah FUCK - I live in NY (the big part about 6 hours from the city) I will never be free.
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Getting my upper left wisdom tooth pulled tomorrow. Big fucking deal right? Sounds like a lame facebook status update From my cousin.
Here's the thing that I wanted to share.
About 2 years ago I had both my back wisdom teeth pulled. Holy fuck what an adventure. They cracked and pulled those pricks 6 ways to Sunday.
Finally when the were done I had two bloody holes stuffed with gauze in the back of my mouth. I could not feel my face, cheeks, or lips from all the shots, and I had a 5 page masterpiece on taking care of the wounds.
So what does my dumb ass do as soon as I get in the car?
Yep. No need to even say it.
What a fucking moronic move that was.
Shit was running down my face as I had no feeling in my lips or cheek. The gauze was no soaked and contaminated with dip juice and the shit was running right into the freshly made holes in my mouth.
In the end I got a severe infection and dry sockets because I continued to dip despite the mess my mouth was in.
What kind of ASS HAT does some shit like that???
Tomorrow will be another story...a normal story. A story of a free man getting his wisdom tooth pulled. Again, big fucking deal right?
Never again for any reason, boys and gals.
Great Words!!! How many things, are different now? It amazes me when I do something and go...shit I have never done this without a dip.
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Diesel - How did that extraction go? Hopefully your not to sore! If you are shove a cucumber up your ass and you won't think about that tooth at all. Just remember no to suck anything to hard cause that will cause dry socket too. All kidding aside I hope your feeling ok!
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Diesel - How did that extraction go? Hopefully your not to sore! If you are shove a cucumber up your ass and you won't think about that tooth at all. Just remember no to suck anything to hard cause that will cause dry socket too. All kidding aside I hope your feeling ok!
^^^^^ when he feels better cant wait to see this reply. 'Popcorn'
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Diesel - How did that extraction go? Hopefully your not to sore! If you are shove a cucumber up your ass and you won't think about that tooth at all. Just remember no to suck anything to hard cause that will cause dry socket too. All kidding aside I hope your feeling ok!
^^^^^ when he feels better cant wait to see this reply. 'Popcorn'
Diesel is STRONG. Hurt for awhile. But I'm up and at em. Little league practice at 5:30. I'm. There.
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Saw a commercial for an e-cig the other day. Some dick hole, who I guess is "famous"??? Walking down the beach like a tool talking about how we are all adults, yada yada yada...then the fuck face says:
"Its time to take your freedom back"
What?
Yeah asshole, why don't you then by NOT continuing to be a slave to nicotine.
Wanted to reach through my tv and bitch slap that ass hat.
I love how people THINK they just HAVE to use nicotine, and fight over which delivery system is the best.
Cig smokers rip pipe smokers, dippers rip smokers, snus people rip dippers, e cig people rip dippers and smokers, patch/gum/lozenges people rip smokers, dippers, snus heads, and e cig users. Its a complete IDIOT circle jerk.
Just fucking stop using the shit. How about that? Any of you fuck heads ever consider that?
NOBODY needs that shit and it can only do bad things to you. Sick of these nicotine peddling BUMS!
Just fucking QUIT!
That's it, I'm done.
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Saw a commercial for an e-cig the other day. Some dick hole, who I guess is "famous"??? Walking down the beach like a tool talking about how we are all adults, yada yada yada...then the fuck face says:
"Its time to take your freedom back"
What?
Yeah asshole, why don't you then by NOT continuing to be a slave to nicotine.
Wanted to reach through my tv and bitch slap that ass hat.
I love how people THINK they just HAVE to use nicotine, and fight over which delivery system is the best.
Cig smokers rip pipe smokers, dippers rip smokers, snus people rip dippers, e cig people rip dippers and smokers, patch/gum/lozenges people rip smokers, dippers, snus heads, and e cig users. Its a complete IDIOT circle jerk.
Just fucking stop using the shit. How about that? Any of you fuck heads ever consider that?
NOBODY needs that shit and it can only do bad things to you. Sick of these nicotine peddling BUMS!
Just fucking QUIT!
That's it, I'm done.
Ditto.
I'm the Zoning Officer in my town, and because it's retail, had to authorize a Business Use Permit (Business License) for a new small store moving in called "Liberty Vapor Phoenixville." On the application it states in the "Nature of your Business:"
Display and sell different types of electronic cigarette products. These are a new alternative to eliminate smoking. We will inform and sell products to provide a 'smoke-free' lifestyle."
How ironic, the words "liberty" and "vapor" in the same store name.
I have to sign a Business Use Permit for our very own nicotine peddler.
Fuck.
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Saw a commercial for an e-cig the other day. Some dick hole, who I guess is "famous"??? Walking down the beach like a tool talking about how we are all adults, yada yada yada...then the fuck face says:
"Its time to take your freedom back"
What?
Yeah asshole, why don't you then by NOT continuing to be a slave to nicotine.
Wanted to reach through my tv and bitch slap that ass hat.
I love how people THINK they just HAVE to use nicotine, and fight over which delivery system is the best.
Cig smokers rip pipe smokers, dippers rip smokers, snus people rip dippers, e cig people rip dippers and smokers, patch/gum/lozenges people rip smokers, dippers, snus heads, and e cig users. Its a complete IDIOT circle jerk.
Just fucking stop using the shit. How about that? Any of you fuck heads ever consider that?
NOBODY needs that shit and it can only do bad things to you. Sick of these nicotine peddling BUMS!
Just fucking QUIT!
That's it, I'm done.
Ditto.
I'm the Zoning Officer in my town, and because it's retail, had to authorize a Business Use Permit (Business License) for a new small store moving in called "Liberty Vapor Phoenixville." On the application it states in the "Nature of your Business:"
Display and sell different types of electronic cigarette products. These are a new alternative to eliminate smoking. We will inform and sell products to provide a 'smoke-free' lifestyle."
How ironic, the words "liberty" and "vapor" in the same store name.
I have to sign a Business Use Permit for our very own nicotine peddler.
Fuck.
I am done today with Diesel2112! 'bang head'
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Cheesy story time...
FINALLY got some nice weather here in Michigan so I was outside playing catch with my 7yr old daughter and 10 year old son.
The kid next door (about 12) and his sisters boyfriend (about 19 yrs old) were playing too. I was watching and noticed the 19 yr old had a damn hockey puck in mouth and kept dropping 3 foot strings of slime all over their yard. Nasty fuck.
For some reason though I had this fleeting feeling of envy as my mind was trying to convince me I used to really enjoy warm weather, sports, and a lip full.
As I stood half starring and half in a daze the dude across the street stops in his truck, rolls down the window and says, "enjoy it". I'm like "whaaaat". He says, serious as a mother fucker, "enjoy every second on this because before you know it they will be in college and you'll hardly see them". (His 3 daughters are all in college).
At first I was like, "whatever dickweed" but then I looked at my son who was showing his sister how to hold her mit, and it hit me....like a Mack fucking truck.
I am doing the right thing.
Every time I put that shit in my lip I jeopardized time spent with the two must precious things in my life. It made me a selfish piece of shit and bad father.
I'm neither of those things.
I'm doing right...every person on this site is too, for varying reasons. Not just for kids.
Remember that, and be proud. I think its something that gets lost in the process sometimes.
Stay quit .
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Cheesy story time...
FINALLY got some nice weather here in Michigan so I was outside playing catch with my 7yr old daughter and 10 year old son.
The kid next door (about 12) and his sisters boyfriend (about 19 yrs old) were playing too. I was watching and noticed the 19 yr old had a damn hockey puck in mouth and kept dropping 3 foot strings of slime all over their yard. Nasty fuck.
For some reason though I had this fleeting feeling of envy as my mind was trying to convince me I used to really enjoy warm weather, sports, and a lip full.
As I stood half starring and half in a daze the dude across the street stops in his truck, rolls down the window and says, "enjoy it". I'm like "whaaaat". He says, serious as a mother fucker, "enjoy every second on this because before you know it they will be in college and you'll hardly see them". (His 3 daughters are all in college).
At first I was like, "whatever dickweed" but then I looked at my son who was showing his sister how to hold her mit, and it hit me....like a Mack fucking truck.
I am doing the right thing.
Every time I put that shit in my lip I jeopardized time spent with the two must precious things in my life. It made me a selfish piece of shit and bad father.
I'm neither of those things.
I'm doing right...every person on this site is too, for varying reasons. Not just for kids.
Remember that, and be proud. I think its something that gets lost in the process sometimes.
Stay quit .
Absolute spot-on, Diesel!
Cheesy? No.
Badass? Yes.
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Cheesy story time...
FINALLY got some nice weather here in Michigan so I was outside playing catch with my 7yr old daughter and 10 year old son.
The kid next door (about 12) and his sisters boyfriend (about 19 yrs old) were playing too. I was watching and noticed the 19 yr old had a damn hockey puck in mouth and kept dropping 3 foot strings of slime all over their yard. Nasty fuck.
For some reason though I had this fleeting feeling of envy as my mind was trying to convince me I used to really enjoy warm weather, sports, and a lip full.
As I stood half starring and half in a daze the dude across the street stops in his truck, rolls down the window and says, "enjoy it". I'm like "whaaaat". He says, serious as a mother fucker, "enjoy every second on this because before you know it they will be in college and you'll hardly see them". (His 3 daughters are all in college).
At first I was like, "whatever dickweed" but then I looked at my son who was showing his sister how to hold her mit, and it hit me....like a Mack fucking truck.
I am doing the right thing.
Every time I put that shit in my lip I jeopardized time spent with the two must precious things in my life. It made me a selfish piece of shit and bad father.
I'm neither of those things.
I'm doing right...every person on this site is too, for varying reasons. Not just for kids.
Remember that, and be proud. I think its something that gets lost in the process sometimes.
Stay quit .
Totally Awesome!
Made my day Diesel!
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Cheesy story time...
FINALLY got some nice weather here in Michigan so I was outside playing catch with my 7yr old daughter and 10 year old son.
The kid next door (about 12) and his sisters boyfriend (about 19 yrs old) were playing too. I was watching and noticed the 19 yr old had a damn hockey puck in mouth and kept dropping 3 foot strings of slime all over their yard. Nasty fuck.
For some reason though I had this fleeting feeling of envy as my mind was trying to convince me I used to really enjoy warm weather, sports, and a lip full.Â
As I stood half starring and half in a daze the dude across the street stops in his truck, rolls down the window and says, "enjoy it". I'm like "whaaaat". He says, serious as a mother fucker, "enjoy every second on this because before you know it they will be in college and you'll hardly see them". (His 3 daughters are all in college).
At first I was like, "whatever dickweed" but then I looked at my son who was showing his sister how to hold her mit, and it hit me....like a Mack fucking truck.
I am doing the right thing.Â
Every time I put that shit in my lip I jeopardized time spent with the two must precious things in my life. It made me a selfish piece of shit and bad father.
I'm neither of those things.
I'm doing right...every person on this site is too, for varying reasons. Not just for kids.
Remember that, and be proud. I think its something that gets lost in the process sometimes.
Stay quit .
Totally Awesome!
Made my day Diesel!
I'm gonna add my second to the guy in the truck and congratulate you for doing the right thing. I avoided the right thing till it was too late for my daughter. Now I'm making it up by spending the time with her kids. Funny my relationship with my daughter and her hubby is enjoyable also. We can't get lost time and activities back or change the past, but today is possible. Live life for today! I may sound cheesy but as a old bastard live today like there is no tomorrow, there may not be.
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Cheesy story time...
FINALLY got some nice weather here in Michigan so I was outside playing catch with my 7yr old daughter and 10 year old son.
The kid next door (about 12) and his sisters boyfriend (about 19 yrs old) were playing too. I was watching and noticed the 19 yr old had a damn hockey puck in mouth and kept dropping 3 foot strings of slime all over their yard. Nasty fuck.
For some reason though I had this fleeting feeling of envy as my mind was trying to convince me I used to really enjoy warm weather, sports, and a lip full.Â
As I stood half starring and half in a daze the dude across the street stops in his truck, rolls down the window and says, "enjoy it". I'm like "whaaaat". He says, serious as a mother fucker, "enjoy every second on this because before you know it they will be in college and you'll hardly see them". (His 3 daughters are all in college).
At first I was like, "whatever dickweed" but then I looked at my son who was showing his sister how to hold her mit, and it hit me....like a Mack fucking truck.
I am doing the right thing.Â
Every time I put that shit in my lip I jeopardized time spent with the two must precious things in my life. It made me a selfish piece of shit and bad father.
I'm neither of those things.
I'm doing right...every person on this site is too, for varying reasons. Not just for kids.
Remember that, and be proud. I think its something that gets lost in the process sometimes.
Stay quit .
Totally Awesome!
Made my day Diesel!
I'm gonna add my second to the guy in the truck and congratulate you for doing the right thing. I avoided the right thing till it was too late for my daughter. Now I'm making it up by spending the time with her kids. Funny my relationship with my daughter and her hubby is enjoyable also. We can't get lost time and activities back or change the past, but today is possible. Live life for today! I may sound cheesy but as a old bastard live today like there is no tomorrow, there may not be.
Slow clap.
We ain't missing shit.
We're free.
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?� Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.
So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�
Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.
As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch
I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.
I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).
By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.
Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.
You got lucky this time and caught yourself.
Be careful.
EDIT: Go post roll now please.
Go post roll now! P.m. me I'll tell you some anxiety stories and depression stories I understand completely. just remember post every day early make that promise and keep it that's all you have to do it's as simple as that
Good job Wedgie keep listening to him he's the man
I kept track of him, kept nudging him back around. :D
Nice work Wedgie and welcome back Diesel.
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A few weeks back I decided to leave ktc.� I was scared shitless and decided the sight "just wasn't for me".� I was having a hard time feeling the brotherhood with "strangers" and when my physical health hit the wall and I started reading stories on here that scared me rather then helped me, I put ktc down and seeked medical help.
As I told Wedgie,� who has been awesome for keeping me on his text list even though I left Ktc, I approached this all wrong.
I lined up to run this marathon like everyone else but when they shot the gun to start the race I started SPRINTING even though I had been warned "slow down kid".� Well as everyone knows you cant sprint an entire marathon,� especially this one because there really is no finish line,� and I hit the wall, HARD!!!
I woke up one morning damn near paralyzed with anxiety so burning in my chest I could not move, and I did not want to move either.� I did get up and went on this sight and started reading...guys 200 days quit feel like its the first week sometimes?� You can get sores in your mouth after you quit? When will I get mine?� Guys are caving after only a few days?� Guys 1,000 days quit still get craves?� This shit scared me even more and I freaked.� I knew being quit wasn't gonna be lollipops and roses but damn...this really overwhelmed me and at that point I decided to see a psychiatrist and a substance abuse councelor.
I'm not gonna lie.� Talking to them one on one really helped and my psychiatrist prescribed me some meds for my anxiety which really helped.� I did not cave durring this time and I did not go for any nicotene replacement stuff, I'm still quit 31 days now.
Thing is I realized that as helpful as these professionals were, they had never gone through what I was going through and that's when I found myself back here reading stuff and found it more helpful since I wasn't so scared.�
I got busted by Wedgie of course as he saw me on here.� He suggested maybe I come back but there would be no guarantee my quit group would take me back,� which I totally understand.
So,� as I told Wedgie I would at least come on here and apologize and speak the Gods honest truth as to why I left,� and to why I came back.
I am truly sorry for bailing on my Sept quit group.� It was a weak move made out of panic and fear but a move I honsetly thought best at the time.� Not sure this apology will be accepted or even if it should be but it's something I wanted to get off my chest.� If I would be welcomed to post roll again I would but it not I understand.�
Regards,�
Diesel2112 Craig M.
As far as I'm concerned..post up and come on back.. I am sure you are going to catch some shit some from somebody? Just remember it's one day at a time and your experience don't necessarily have to be like someone else's experience.. Do not make something happen that is not suppose to happen.. Our minds are so very powerful... so powerful that after the nicotine is completely out of our body.. (3 days to 2 weeks).. we still have cravings! The reason I wanted to stop - I wanted a better life.. If I am still imprisoned by anything including depression, it's not a better life.. congrats for making an extra effort, getting the outside help that you need.. a lot of folks around here should not try to address serious mental health issues.. we need to only give our advice and experience in quitting nic - thats why we are here! I'm 23 days today and I quit with you Bro! Gooch
I am not in September, but I will say this - if you are nicotine free you can post roll in your group. The only rule I am aware of is no nicotine.
I think your story can help a LOT of quitters, and while you may get given a raft of shit from some, in the end you are doing the same thing they are - quitting. Lots of quitters have sought medical help (for better or worse) and lots of quitters need medical help (or mental help).
By all means, so long as you are nicotine free, post roll. Make sure you have a bit of thick skin though.
Learn from your mistakes.
Quit for today.
Fuck the future.
You got lucky this time and caught yourself.
Be careful.
EDIT: Go post roll now please.
Go post roll now! P.m. me I'll tell you some anxiety stories and depression stories I understand completely. just remember post every day early make that promise and keep it that's all you have to do it's as simple as that
Good job Wedgie keep listening to him he's the man
I kept track of him, kept nudging him back around. :D
Nice work Wedgie and welcome back Diesel.
Whoa...did my shit go haywire or are you pulling stuff from WAY BACK (in my mind anyway), TSNUS? Damn what a PUSSY I was.
Fucking Wedgie...guess I owe the guy a reach around or something...my life possibly. LOL.
Funny how life works sometimes. Dudes you never even met can impact it more than those you've known your entire life.
If it weren't for Wedge and KTC, I'd probably be chin deep in a tin right now, missing out on the best years of mine and my kids life.
What a dick I WAS.
Fuck it. The past is the past. No time to dwell on it. Time to get on with life. It doesn't stop why you try to fix yourself, it just keep flying by like a windshield towards a fly.
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Useless observation....
Waiting in line to pay for gass. Lady being waited on says "two packs, Virginia slim menthols please". Clerk hands her her death sticks. Next guy in line takes a deep, fuck...I know I should stop this shit breath and says "3 packs Marlboro red shorts in a box please". The lady who was before him was still fumbling with her enormous purse and could see the same anquish on his face that I did and says, "look honey, we all gotta die of something, might as well have some fun and do what you like to do. Everything nowadays will kill ya".
Dude. Ate. That. Up.
Like it was a breath of fresh air to him, or a second wind , or almost VALIDATION that what he was doing was ok. Because he was not alone. He immediately felt better and they both walked out with huge smiles on their face.
I used to be like that. Looked for validation for an addiction I knew was bad. Found strength in numbers by hanging with my boys who drank, smoked, and would say shit like, "hey everyone has a vice" after I would ask them to not tell my wife or their wives if they were friends with mine.
Strength in numbers.
Well guess what, that shit works both ways. There's some SERIOUS ASS strength in numbers right here on this site. And they won't jack you off either. Won't lie to you and tell you some bullshit to make you both feel better. Because deep down...you knew. You knew you were doing wrong, I know I did. But when I'd get that ONE buddy who stroked that part of my brain into thinking "yeah, this ain't so bad" the realization that I was doing wrong, VANISHED. And I continued to kill myself and lie to my family with little care, because butt fuck Bobby was doing it too.
What a fucking crock.
Stick to this site boys and girls. You will get the truth. Sometimes the truth hurts, will smack your shit like a god damn 2 X 4 across the face. But guess what...we need that, because this shit WILL control you, will empty your pockets, will make you a toothless liar, will strip you of time with family and loved ones, and will fucking KILL you....literally.
There is TRUE strength in numbers here. Not hollow ass bullshit validatuon for killing yourself and being a pussy ass slave to a can of weeds.
THIS is a place of champions. Fucking stay here, not only for yourself, but for others.
Sorry so long.
Diesel out.
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Useless observation....
Waiting in line to pay for gass. Lady being waited on says "two packs, Virginia slim menthols please". Clerk hands her her death sticks. Next guy in line takes a deep, fuck...I know I should stop this shit breath and says "3 packs Marlboro red shorts in a box please". The lady who was before him was still fumbling with her enormous purse and could see the same anquish on his face that I did and says, "look honey, we all gotta die of something, might as well have some fun and do what you like to do. Everything nowadays will kill ya".
Dude. Ate. That. Up.
Like it was a breath of fresh air to him, or a second wind , or almost VALIDATION that what he was doing was ok. Because he was not alone. He immediately felt better and they both walked out with huge smiles on their face.
I used to be like that. Looked for validation for an addiction I knew was bad. Found strength in numbers by hanging with my boys who drank, smoked, and would say shit like, "hey everyone has a vice" after I would ask them to not tell my wife or their wives if they were friends with mine.
Strength in numbers.
Well guess what, that shit works both ways. There's some SERIOUS ASS strength in numbers right here on this site. And they won't jack you off either. Won't lie to you and tell you some bullshit to make you both feel better. Because deep down...you knew. You knew you were doing wrong, I know I did. But when I'd get that ONE buddy who stroked that part of my brain into thinking "yeah, this ain't so bad" the realization that I was doing wrong, VANISHED. And I continued to kill myself and lie to my family with little care, because butt fuck Bobby was doing it too.
What a fucking crock.
Stick to this site boys and girls. You will get the truth. Sometimes the truth hurts, will smack your shit like a god damn 2 X 4 across the face. But guess what...we need that, because this shit WILL control you, will empty your pockets, will make you a toothless liar, will strip you of time with family and loved ones, and will fucking KILL you....literally.
There is TRUE strength in numbers here. Not hollow ass bullshit validatuon for killing yourself and being a pussy ass slave to a can of weeds.
THIS is a place of champions. Fucking stay here, not only for yourself, but for others.
Sorry so long.
Diesel out.
so true...
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Useless observation....
Waiting in line to pay for gass. Lady being waited on says "two packs, Virginia slim menthols please". Clerk hands her her death sticks. Next guy in line takes a deep, fuck...I know I should stop this shit breath and says "3 packs Marlboro red shorts in a box please". The lady who was before him was still fumbling with her enormous purse and could see the same anquish on his face that I did and says, "look honey, we all gotta die of something, might as well have some fun and do what you like to do. Everything nowadays will kill ya".
Dude. Ate. That. Up.Â
Like it was a breath of fresh air to him, or a second wind , or almost VALIDATION that what he was doing was ok. Because he was not alone. He immediately felt better and they both walked out with huge smiles on their face.
I used to be like that. Looked for validation for an addiction I knew was bad. Found strength in numbers by hanging with my boys who drank, smoked, and would say shit like, "hey everyone has a vice" after I would ask them to not tell my wife or their wives if they were friends with mine.
Strength in numbers.
Well guess what, that shit works both ways. There's some SERIOUS ASS strength in numbers right here on this site. And they won't jack you off either. Won't lie to you and tell you some bullshit to make you both feel better. Because deep down...you knew. You knew you were doing wrong, I know I did. But when I'd get that ONE buddy who stroked that part of my brain into thinking "yeah, this ain't so bad" the realization that I was doing wrong, VANISHED. And I continued to kill myself and lie to my family with little care, because butt fuck Bobby was doing it too.
What a fucking crock.
Stick to this site boys and girls. You will get the truth. Sometimes the truth hurts, will smack your shit like a god damn 2 X 4 across the face. But guess what...we need that, because this shit WILL control you, will empty your pockets, will make you a toothless liar, will strip you of time with family and loved ones, and will fucking KILL you....literally.
There is TRUE strength in numbers here. Not hollow ass bullshit validatuon for killing yourself and being a pussy ass slave to a can of weeds.
THIS is a place of champions. Fucking stay here, not only for yourself, but for others.Â
Sorry so long.
Diesel out.
so true...
Thanks Deisel, you speakin the truth man. You jumped all over my intro 134 days ago and you are still helping to strengthen my quit to this day. Keep up the great work.
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Useless observation....
Waiting in line to pay for gass. Lady being waited on says "two packs, Virginia slim menthols please". Clerk hands her her death sticks. Next guy in line takes a deep, fuck...I know I should stop this shit breath and says "3 packs Marlboro red shorts in a box please". The lady who was before him was still fumbling with her enormous purse and could see the same anquish on his face that I did and says, "look honey, we all gotta die of something, might as well have some fun and do what you like to do. Everything nowadays will kill ya".
Dude. Ate. That. Up.Â
Like it was a breath of fresh air to him, or a second wind , or almost VALIDATION that what he was doing was ok. Because he was not alone. He immediately felt better and they both walked out with huge smiles on their face.
I used to be like that. Looked for validation for an addiction I knew was bad. Found strength in numbers by hanging with my boys who drank, smoked, and would say shit like, "hey everyone has a vice" after I would ask them to not tell my wife or their wives if they were friends with mine.
Strength in numbers.
Well guess what, that shit works both ways. There's some SERIOUS ASS strength in numbers right here on this site. And they won't jack you off either. Won't lie to you and tell you some bullshit to make you both feel better. Because deep down...you knew. You knew you were doing wrong, I know I did. But when I'd get that ONE buddy who stroked that part of my brain into thinking "yeah, this ain't so bad" the realization that I was doing wrong, VANISHED. And I continued to kill myself and lie to my family with little care, because butt fuck Bobby was doing it too.
What a fucking crock.
Stick to this site boys and girls. You will get the truth. Sometimes the truth hurts, will smack your shit like a god damn 2 X 4 across the face. But guess what...we need that, because this shit WILL control you, will empty your pockets, will make you a toothless liar, will strip you of time with family and loved ones, and will fucking KILL you....literally.
There is TRUE strength in numbers here. Not hollow ass bullshit validatuon for killing yourself and being a pussy ass slave to a can of weeds.
THIS is a place of champions. Fucking stay here, not only for yourself, but for others.Â
Sorry so long.
Diesel out.
so true...
Thanks Deisel, you speakin the truth man. You jumped all over my intro 134 days ago and you are still helping to strengthen my quit to this day. Keep up the great work.
How stupid addicts can be? I used to do the same crap and justify my addiction by calling it a stress reliever. I was a foolish and evil.
"There are three kinds of people in this world, wise, foolish, and evil. We all have our moments with each, but some people choose to make a living out of one of them.". Henry Cloud
The good news about fools, is that they can get wise. Cloud says that the orienting question in terms of whether you are wise, foolish, or evil person is this..."what do you do when the light(truth)comes?". Wise people smile and adjust themselves to the light. Foolish people get angry and attempt to adjust the light. Evil people scurry away from the light in search of the darkness.
Necessary Endings is a book by Henry Cloud that really laid groundwork for my quit. He wrote another boom called 9 things you simply must do to succeed in life and love. I share this because anyone who can relate to diesel's story, and maybe has someone in their life who regularly speaks "lies" into your life and quit, I would reccomend either of those books. don't hang around fools! Hang around wise people like diesel:)
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It's amazing how clear we can see after the fog goes away.
Now we have learned we can separate truth from the lies the NicBitch told us and now we call BS and give her a 'nutkick'
Drawing the line in the sand again today with you.
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Useless observation....
Waiting in line to pay for gass. Lady being waited on says "two packs, Virginia slim menthols please". Clerk hands her her death sticks. Next guy in line takes a deep, fuck...I know I should stop this shit breath and says "3 packs Marlboro red shorts in a box please". The lady who was before him was still fumbling with her enormous purse and could see the same anquish on his face that I did and says, "look honey, we all gotta die of something, might as well have some fun and do what you like to do. Everything nowadays will kill ya".
Dude. Ate. That. Up.Â
Like it was a breath of fresh air to him, or a second wind , or almost VALIDATION that what he was doing was ok. Because he was not alone. He immediately felt better and they both walked out with huge smiles on their face.
I used to be like that. Looked for validation for an addiction I knew was bad. Found strength in numbers by hanging with my boys who drank, smoked, and would say shit like, "hey everyone has a vice" after I would ask them to not tell my wife or their wives if they were friends with mine.
Strength in numbers.
Well guess what, that shit works both ways. There's some SERIOUS ASS strength in numbers right here on this site. And they won't jack you off either. Won't lie to you and tell you some bullshit to make you both feel better. Because deep down...you knew. You knew you were doing wrong, I know I did. But when I'd get that ONE buddy who stroked that part of my brain into thinking "yeah, this ain't so bad" the realization that I was doing wrong, VANISHED. And I continued to kill myself and lie to my family with little care, because butt fuck Bobby was doing it too.
What a fucking crock.
Stick to this site boys and girls. You will get the truth. Sometimes the truth hurts, will smack your shit like a god damn 2 X 4 across the face. But guess what...we need that, because this shit WILL control you, will empty your pockets, will make you a toothless liar, will strip you of time with family and loved ones, and will fucking KILL you....literally.
There is TRUE strength in numbers here. Not hollow ass bullshit validatuon for killing yourself and being a pussy ass slave to a can of weeds.
THIS is a place of champions. Fucking stay here, not only for yourself, but for others.Â
Sorry so long.
Diesel out.
so true...
Thanks Deisel, you speakin the truth man. You jumped all over my intro 134 days ago and you are still helping to strengthen my quit to this day. Keep up the great work.
How stupid addicts can be? I used to do the same crap and justify my addiction by calling it a stress reliever. I was a foolish and evil.
"There are three kinds of people in this world, wise, foolish, and evil. We all have our moments with each, but some people choose to make a living out of one of them.". Henry Cloud
The good news about fools, is that they can get wise. Cloud says that the orienting question in terms of whether you are wise, foolish, or evil person is this..."what do you do when the light(truth)comes?". Wise people smile and adjust themselves to the light. Foolish people get angry and attempt to adjust the light. Evil people scurry away from the light in search of the darkness.
Necessary Endings is a book by Henry Cloud that really laid groundwork for my quit. He wrote another boom called 9 things you simply must do to succeed in life and love. I share this because anyone who can relate to diesel's story, and maybe has someone in their life who regularly speaks "lies" into your life and quit, I would reccomend either of those books. don't hang around fools! Hang around wise people like diesel:)
codependency, enablers...whatever it is that the psychoanalists call it. Whatever the name, we all look for that validation for stupidity when thoughts of truth and common sense creep into our heads. There are a LOT of others out there willing to validate our dumbassery in exchange for validating theirs. We crave that validation as much as the dip. Maybe MORE than the dip, because without it, whatever we were hoping to get out of that dip is partially ruined by the guilt and realization that we are being total doochbags. When there are only two nicotine users left in the universe, they will seek each other out in order to replay the scenario witnessed by Diesel.
Good stuff man, thanks.
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Useless observation....
Waiting in line to pay for gass. Lady being waited on says "two packs, Virginia slim menthols please". Clerk hands her her death sticks. Next guy in line takes a deep, fuck...I know I should stop this shit breath and says "3 packs Marlboro red shorts in a box please". The lady who was before him was still fumbling with her enormous purse and could see the same anquish on his face that I did and says, "look honey, we all gotta die of something, might as well have some fun and do what you like to do. Everything nowadays will kill ya".
Dude. Ate. That. Up.Â
Like it was a breath of fresh air to him, or a second wind , or almost VALIDATION that what he was doing was ok. Because he was not alone. He immediately felt better and they both walked out with huge smiles on their face.
I used to be like that. Looked for validation for an addiction I knew was bad. Found strength in numbers by hanging with my boys who drank, smoked, and would say shit like, "hey everyone has a vice" after I would ask them to not tell my wife or their wives if they were friends with mine.
Strength in numbers.
Well guess what, that shit works both ways. There's some SERIOUS ASS strength in numbers right here on this site. And they won't jack you off either. Won't lie to you and tell you some bullshit to make you both feel better. Because deep down...you knew. You knew you were doing wrong, I know I did. But when I'd get that ONE buddy who stroked that part of my brain into thinking "yeah, this ain't so bad" the realization that I was doing wrong, VANISHED. And I continued to kill myself and lie to my family with little care, because butt fuck Bobby was doing it too.
What a fucking crock.
Stick to this site boys and girls. You will get the truth. Sometimes the truth hurts, will smack your shit like a god damn 2 X 4 across the face. But guess what...we need that, because this shit WILL control you, will empty your pockets, will make you a toothless liar, will strip you of time with family and loved ones, and will fucking KILL you....literally.
There is TRUE strength in numbers here. Not hollow ass bullshit validatuon for killing yourself and being a pussy ass slave to a can of weeds.
THIS is a place of champions. Fucking stay here, not only for yourself, but for others.Â
Sorry so long.
Diesel out.
so true...
Thanks Deisel, you speakin the truth man. You jumped all over my intro 134 days ago and you are still helping to strengthen my quit to this day. Keep up the great work.
How stupid addicts can be? I used to do the same crap and justify my addiction by calling it a stress reliever. I was a foolish and evil.
"There are three kinds of people in this world, wise, foolish, and evil. We all have our moments with each, but some people choose to make a living out of one of them.". Henry Cloud
The good news about fools, is that they can get wise. Cloud says that the orienting question in terms of whether you are wise, foolish, or evil person is this..."what do you do when the light(truth)comes?". Wise people smile and adjust themselves to the light. Foolish people get angry and attempt to adjust the light. Evil people scurry away from the light in search of the darkness.
Necessary Endings is a book by Henry Cloud that really laid groundwork for my quit. He wrote another boom called 9 things you simply must do to succeed in life and love. I share this because anyone who can relate to diesel's story, and maybe has someone in their life who regularly speaks "lies" into your life and quit, I would reccomend either of those books. don't hang around fools! Hang around wise people like diesel:)
codependency, enablers...whatever it is that the psychoanalists call it. Whatever the name, we all look for that validation for stupidity when thoughts of truth and common sense creep into our heads. There are a LOT of others out there willing to validate our dumbassery in exchange for validating theirs. We crave that validation as much as the dip. Maybe MORE than the dip, because without it, whatever we were hoping to get out of that dip is partially ruined by the guilt and realization that we are being total doochbags. When there are only two nicotine users left in the universe, they will seek each other out in order to replay the scenario witnessed by Diesel.
Good stuff man, thanks.
.....psychoanalists
Damn.
Anyone that is that crazy for anal is no friend of mine... :ph43r:
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Useless observation....
Waiting in line to pay for gass. Lady being waited on says "two packs, Virginia slim menthols please". Clerk hands her her death sticks. Next guy in line takes a deep, fuck...I know I should stop this shit breath and says "3 packs Marlboro red shorts in a box please". The lady who was before him was still fumbling with her enormous purse and could see the same anquish on his face that I did and says, "look honey, we all gotta die of something, might as well have some fun and do what you like to do. Everything nowadays will kill ya".
Dude. Ate. That. Up.Â
Like it was a breath of fresh air to him, or a second wind , or almost VALIDATION that what he was doing was ok. Because he was not alone. He immediately felt better and they both walked out with huge smiles on their face.
I used to be like that. Looked for validation for an addiction I knew was bad. Found strength in numbers by hanging with my boys who drank, smoked, and would say shit like, "hey everyone has a vice" after I would ask them to not tell my wife or their wives if they were friends with mine.
Strength in numbers.
Well guess what, that shit works both ways. There's some SERIOUS ASS strength in numbers right here on this site. And they won't jack you off either. Won't lie to you and tell you some bullshit to make you both feel better. Because deep down...you knew. You knew you were doing wrong, I know I did. But when I'd get that ONE buddy who stroked that part of my brain into thinking "yeah, this ain't so bad" the realization that I was doing wrong, VANISHED. And I continued to kill myself and lie to my family with little care, because butt fuck Bobby was doing it too.
What a fucking crock.
Stick to this site boys and girls. You will get the truth. Sometimes the truth hurts, will smack your shit like a god damn 2 X 4 across the face. But guess what...we need that, because this shit WILL control you, will empty your pockets, will make you a toothless liar, will strip you of time with family and loved ones, and will fucking KILL you....literally.
There is TRUE strength in numbers here. Not hollow ass bullshit validatuon for killing yourself and being a pussy ass slave to a can of weeds.
THIS is a place of champions. Fucking stay here, not only for yourself, but for others.Â
Sorry so long.
Diesel out.
so true...
Thanks Deisel, you speakin the truth man. You jumped all over my intro 134 days ago and you are still helping to strengthen my quit to this day. Keep up the great work.
How stupid addicts can be? I used to do the same crap and justify my addiction by calling it a stress reliever. I was a foolish and evil.
"There are three kinds of people in this world, wise, foolish, and evil. We all have our moments with each, but some people choose to make a living out of one of them.". Henry Cloud
The good news about fools, is that they can get wise. Cloud says that the orienting question in terms of whether you are wise, foolish, or evil person is this..."what do you do when the light(truth)comes?". Wise people smile and adjust themselves to the light. Foolish people get angry and attempt to adjust the light. Evil people scurry away from the light in search of the darkness.
Necessary Endings is a book by Henry Cloud that really laid groundwork for my quit. He wrote another boom called 9 things you simply must do to succeed in life and love. I share this because anyone who can relate to diesel's story, and maybe has someone in their life who regularly speaks "lies" into your life and quit, I would reccomend either of those books. don't hang around fools! Hang around wise people like diesel:)
codependency, enablers...whatever it is that the psychoanalists call it. Whatever the name, we all look for that validation for stupidity when thoughts of truth and common sense creep into our heads. There are a LOT of others out there willing to validate our dumbassery in exchange for validating theirs. We crave that validation as much as the dip. Maybe MORE than the dip, because without it, whatever we were hoping to get out of that dip is partially ruined by the guilt and realization that we are being total doochbags. When there are only two nicotine users left in the universe, they will seek each other out in order to replay the scenario witnessed by Diesel.
Good stuff man, thanks.
.....psychoanalists
Damn.
Anyone that is that crazy for anal is no friend of mine... :ph43r:
I'm a Champion with Diesel2112 Today and everyday that ends with a "y". 'bang head'
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Useless observation....
Waiting in line to pay for gass. Lady being waited on says "two packs, Virginia slim menthols please". Clerk hands her her death sticks. Next guy in line takes a deep, fuck...I know I should stop this shit breath and says "3 packs Marlboro red shorts in a box please". The lady who was before him was still fumbling with her enormous purse and could see the same anquish on his face that I did and says, "look honey, we all gotta die of something, might as well have some fun and do what you like to do. Everything nowadays will kill ya".
Dude. Ate. That. Up.Â
Like it was a breath of fresh air to him, or a second wind , or almost VALIDATION that what he was doing was ok. Because he was not alone. He immediately felt better and they both walked out with huge smiles on their face.
I used to be like that. Looked for validation for an addiction I knew was bad. Found strength in numbers by hanging with my boys who drank, smoked, and would say shit like, "hey everyone has a vice" after I would ask them to not tell my wife or their wives if they were friends with mine.
Strength in numbers.
Well guess what, that shit works both ways. There's some SERIOUS ASS strength in numbers right here on this site. And they won't jack you off either. Won't lie to you and tell you some bullshit to make you both feel better. Because deep down...you knew. You knew you were doing wrong, I know I did. But when I'd get that ONE buddy who stroked that part of my brain into thinking "yeah, this ain't so bad" the realization that I was doing wrong, VANISHED. And I continued to kill myself and lie to my family with little care, because butt fuck Bobby was doing it too.
What a fucking crock.
Stick to this site boys and girls. You will get the truth. Sometimes the truth hurts, will smack your shit like a god damn 2 X 4 across the face. But guess what...we need that, because this shit WILL control you, will empty your pockets, will make you a toothless liar, will strip you of time with family and loved ones, and will fucking KILL you....literally.
There is TRUE strength in numbers here. Not hollow ass bullshit validatuon for killing yourself and being a pussy ass slave to a can of weeds.
THIS is a place of champions. Fucking stay here, not only for yourself, but for others.Â
Sorry so long.
Diesel out.
so true...
Thanks Deisel, you speakin the truth man. You jumped all over my intro 134 days ago and you are still helping to strengthen my quit to this day. Keep up the great work.
How stupid addicts can be? I used to do the same crap and justify my addiction by calling it a stress reliever. I was a foolish and evil.
"There are three kinds of people in this world, wise, foolish, and evil. We all have our moments with each, but some people choose to make a living out of one of them.". Henry Cloud
The good news about fools, is that they can get wise. Cloud says that the orienting question in terms of whether you are wise, foolish, or evil person is this..."what do you do when the light(truth)comes?". Wise people smile and adjust themselves to the light. Foolish people get angry and attempt to adjust the light. Evil people scurry away from the light in search of the darkness.
Necessary Endings is a book by Henry Cloud that really laid groundwork for my quit. He wrote another boom called 9 things you simply must do to succeed in life and love. I share this because anyone who can relate to diesel's story, and maybe has someone in their life who regularly speaks "lies" into your life and quit, I would reccomend either of those books. don't hang around fools! Hang around wise people like diesel:)
codependency, enablers...whatever it is that the psychoanalists call it. Whatever the name, we all look for that validation for stupidity when thoughts of truth and common sense creep into our heads. There are a LOT of others out there willing to validate our dumbassery in exchange for validating theirs. We crave that validation as much as the dip. Maybe MORE than the dip, because without it, whatever we were hoping to get out of that dip is partially ruined by the guilt and realization that we are being total doochbags. When there are only two nicotine users left in the universe, they will seek each other out in order to replay the scenario witnessed by Diesel.
Good stuff man, thanks.
.....psychoanalists
Damn.
Anyone that is that crazy for anal is no friend of mine... :ph43r:
I'm a Champion with Diesel2112 Today and everyday that ends with a "y". 'bang head'
'clap'
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Hey guys, gals, he-shes and pre op tranny's.
Today I coached baseball, went golfing, cut the grass, ate a big fat dinner, cut up some wood, had a bonefire, watched sports on tv and spanked the monkey.
Guess what? I did it all without hardly a thought or dip. Go figure, eh?
I did think a lot about the golden girls when I flogged the dolphin though....
NEWBIES OR ANYONE STRUGGLING. STICK WITH IT. IT DOES GET EASIER!!!!
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Hey guys, gals, he-shes and pre op tranny's.
Today I coached baseball, went golfing, cut the grass, ate a big fat dinner, cut up some wood, had a bonefire, watched sports on tv and spanked the monkey.
Guess what? I did it all without hardly a thought or dip. Go figure, eh?
I did think a lot about the golden girls when I flogged the dolphin though....
NEWBIES OR ANYONE STRUGGLING. STICK WITH IT. IT DOES GET EASIER!!!!
You are a BadAss Diesel! Thanks for the encouragement.
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Hey guys, gals, he-shes and pre op tranny's.Â
Today I coached baseball, went golfing, cut the grass, ate a big fat dinner, cut up some wood, had a bonefire, watched sports on tv and spanked the monkey.
Guess what? I did it all without hardly a thought or dip. Go figure, eh?Â
I did think a lot about the golden girls when I flogged the dolphin though....
NEWBIES OR ANYONE STRUGGLING. STICK WITH IT. IT DOES GET EASIER!!!!
You are a BadAss Diesel! Thanks for the encouragement.
fap fap fap (http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/05/14/bea-arthur-naked-john-currin-painting-auction_n_3274750.html)
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You guys really know how to quit! Really helps on a shity day 2right now. Thanks!
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Hey guys, gals, he-shes and pre op tranny's.Â
Today I coached baseball, went golfing, cut the grass, ate a big fat dinner, cut up some wood, had a bonefire, watched sports on tv and spanked the monkey.
Guess what? I did it all without hardly a thought or dip. Go figure, eh?Â
I did think a lot about the golden girls when I flogged the dolphin though....
NEWBIES OR ANYONE STRUGGLING. STICK WITH IT. IT DOES GET EASIER!!!!
You are a BadAss Diesel! Thanks for the encouragement.
fap fap fap (http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/05/14/bea-arthur-naked-john-currin-painting-auction_n_3274750.html)
fucking awesome... thanks for leading the way...
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Hey guys, gals, he-shes and pre op tranny's.Â
Today I coached baseball, went golfing, cut the grass, ate a big fat dinner, cut up some wood, had a bonefire, watched sports on tv and spanked the monkey.
Guess what? I did it all without hardly a thought or dip. Go figure, eh?Â
I did think a lot about the golden girls when I flogged the dolphin though....
NEWBIES OR ANYONE STRUGGLING. STICK WITH IT. IT DOES GET EASIER!!!!
You are a BadAss Diesel! Thanks for the encouragement.
fap fap fap (http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/05/14/bea-arthur-naked-john-currin-painting-auction_n_3274750.html)
Fuel for the spank bank. Thanks!
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Nice Diesel,
lead the way!!! If I can find some reruns of the Brady girls I can send them to you for your spank tank!!!
So which Golden girl is the hottest
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I find this odd and frustrating....
A year ago on Memoria Day I vividly remember sitting at my Moms house writhing in fear, anxiety and sheer restlessness.
I had just come off having a panic attack after finding a bump on my lip that I thought was cancer. It wasn't but the horrid memory of that panic attack and the thoughts associated with it took me from the couch at my Moms back to a Memorial Day trip to the ER. I literally didn't know what to do, I thought I was dieing.
Fast forward to today. The vividness of that day is really messing with me right now, as we are headed over to my moms once again for a Memorial Day party.
I am filled with fear and anxiety that I have not felt in months. Why? That stuff was a year ago. I've come so far since then. What the hell am I so afraid of? I simply don't get it.
Has this ever happened to anyone else at this point in their quit?
Its like I'm an accident victim returning to the scene of a tragic accident. Shouldn't I be over this crud by now? I talk tough yet here I am getting slapped around still. Hell, my wife had to give me a pep talk just to get me out of bed today. I've done great things and cleared many hurdles this past 357 days. This should not be fucking with me.
What am I afraid of? Dipping again? No, hasn't really crossed my mind. Having another panic attack? Possibly but what the hell for? Plus I have meds to help with that. That like last year, I'm going to go through hell again this summer and this was the event that triggered it? If I made it through last summer I can make it through anything.
So what to do???? Well, I'm just going to keep pushing forward. Gonna load up the cooler and the kids (and the anti anxiety meds) and just fucking try and roll over yet another bump of SHIT in the road.
It really grinds my ass to feel this way. But it is what it is, I guess. Ill get tthrough it, just shocked to feel this way. Some odd shit, that's for sure.
Thanks for listening and have a great memorial day everyone.
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I find this odd and frustrating....
A year ago on Memoria Day I vividly remember sitting at my Moms house writhing in fear, anxiety and sheer restlessness.
I had just come off having a panic attack after finding a bump on my lip that I thought was cancer. It wasn't but the horrid memory of that panic attack and the thoughts associated with it took me from the couch at my Moms back to a Memorial Day trip to the ER. I literally didn't know what to do, I thought I was dieing.
Fast forward to today. The vividness of that day is really messing with me right now, as we are headed over to my moms once again for a Memorial Day party.
I am filled with fear and anxiety that I have not felt in months. Why? That stuff was a year ago. I've come so far since then. What the hell am I so afraid of? I simply don't get it.
Has this ever happened to anyone else at this point in their quit?
Its like I'm an accident victim returning to the scene of a tragic accident. Shouldn't I be over this crud by now? I talk tough yet here I am getting slapped around still. Hell, my wife had to give me a pep talk just to get me out of bed today. I've done great things and cleared many hurdles this past 357 days. This should not be fucking with me.
What am I afraid of? Dipping again? No, hasn't really crossed my mind. Having another panic attack? Possibly but what the hell for? Plus I have meds to help with that. That like last year, I'm going to go through hell again this summer and this was the event that triggered it? If I made it through last summer I can make it through anything.
So what to do???? Well, I'm just going to keep pushing forward. Gonna load up the cooler and the kids (and the anti anxiety meds) and just fucking try and roll over yet another bump of SHIT in the road.
It really grinds my ass to feel this way. But it is what it is, I guess. Ill get tthrough it, just shocked to feel this way. Some odd shit, that's for sure.
Thanks for listening and have a great memorial day everyone.
Diesel my friend you have done exactly what you should by posting that up in here. We are humans and like you mention going back to the events in our past, the sites/sounds/looks, it make us what and who we are as it is totally normal.
What today and this weekend should then hold is for you and the family to create a new experience. Take a deep breath and make it the best that you can remember, make it all new so that this is the one you can then look back upon.
You can do this and I will celebrate it with you as well at +1.
You have got this 100%. Have fun.
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I find this odd and frustrating....
A year ago on Memoria Day I vividly remember sitting at my Moms house writhing in fear, anxiety and sheer restlessness.
I had just come off having a panic attack after finding a bump on my lip that I thought was cancer. It wasn't but the horrid memory of that panic attack and the thoughts associated with it took me from the couch at my Moms back to a Memorial Day trip to the ER. I literally didn't know what to do, I thought I was dieing.
Fast forward to today. The vividness of that day is really messing with me right now, as we are headed over to my moms once again for a Memorial Day party.Â
I am filled with fear and anxiety that I have not felt in months. Why? That stuff was a year ago. I've come so far since then. What the hell am I so afraid of? I simply don't get it.
Has this ever happened to anyone else at this point in their quit?
Its like I'm an accident victim returning to the scene of a tragic accident. Shouldn't I be over this crud by now? I talk tough yet here I am getting slapped around still. Hell, my wife had to give me a pep talk just to get me out of bed today. I've done great things and cleared many hurdles this past 357 days. This should not be fucking with me.
What am I afraid of? Dipping again? No, hasn't really crossed my mind. Having another panic attack? Possibly but what the hell for? Plus I have meds to help with that. That like last year, I'm going to go through hell again this summer and this was the event that triggered it? If I made it through last summer I can make it through anything.
So what to do???? Well, I'm just going to keep pushing forward. Gonna load up the cooler and the kids (and the anti anxiety meds) and just fucking try and roll over yet another bump of SHIT in the road.
It really grinds my ass to feel this way. But it is what it is, I guess. Ill get tthrough it, just shocked to feel this way. Some odd shit, that's for sure.
Thanks for listening and have a great memorial day everyone.
Diesel my friend you have done exactly what you should by posting that up in here. We are humans and like you mention going back to the events in our past, the sites/sounds/looks, it make us what and who we are as it is totally normal.
What today and this weekend should then hold is for you and the family to create a new experience. Take a deep breath and make it the best that you can remember, make it all new so that this is the one you can then look back upon.
You can do this and I will celebrate it with you as well at +1.
You have got this 100%. Have fun.
Diesel you are a very big part of my quit even though we haven't conversed that much directly.I still read "tending my garden" weekly just to keep me grounded in my quit. Your words are like magical daggers to some, but it is always out of concern and there overall well being.One thing I know for a fact Diesel is that there is no "How to Quit Nicotine 101" handbook or some potion one can ingest to make it all go away.Everyone's quit is different and we all have to face our very own demons.Thankfully we don't have to face them alone,never ever ever.There is a place where at a click of a button or swipe of a mouse 1,000+ people which of whom non of us will ever probably meet in person have your back.The mind games and self induced worrying we will suffer may never stop completely.However we must get up every morning, post roll,keep our word and do the very best we can.Utilizing what we have learned and all the tools we have at our disposal.Face your challenges Diesel head on and learn from them after you have conquered them ODAAT. NAFAR!!
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I find this odd and frustrating....
A year ago on Memoria Day I vividly remember sitting at my Moms house writhing in fear, anxiety and sheer restlessness.
I had just come off having a panic attack after finding a bump on my lip that I thought was cancer. It wasn't but the horrid memory of that panic attack and the thoughts associated with it took me from the couch at my Moms back to a Memorial Day trip to the ER. I literally didn't know what to do, I thought I was dieing.
Fast forward to today.  The vividness of that day is really messing with me right now, as we are headed over to my moms once again for a Memorial Day party.Â
I am filled with fear and anxiety that I have not felt in months. Why?  That stuff was a year ago. I've come so far since then. What the hell am I so afraid of? I simply don't get it.
Has this ever happened to anyone else at this point in their quit?
Its like I'm an accident victim returning to the scene of a tragic accident. Shouldn't I be over this crud by now? I talk tough yet here I am getting slapped around still. Hell, my wife had to give me a pep talk just to get me out of bed today. I've done great things and cleared many hurdles this past 357 days. This should not be fucking with me.
What am I afraid of? Dipping again? No, hasn't really crossed my mind. Having another panic attack? Possibly but what the hell for? Plus I have meds to help with that. That like last year, I'm going to go through hell again this summer and this was the event that triggered it? If I made it through last summer I can make it through anything.
So what to do???? Well, I'm just going to keep pushing forward. Gonna load up the cooler and the kids (and the anti anxiety meds) and just fucking try and roll over yet another bump of SHIT in the road.
It really grinds my ass to feel this way. But it is what it is, I guess. Ill get tthrough it, just shocked to feel this way. Some odd shit, that's for sure.
Thanks for listening and have a great memorial day everyone.
Diesel my friend you have done exactly what you should by posting that up in here. We are humans and like you mention going back to the events in our past, the sites/sounds/looks, it make us what and who we are as it is totally normal.
What today and this weekend should then hold is for you and the family to create a new experience. Take a deep breath and make it the best that you can remember, make it all new so that this is the one you can then look back upon.
You can do this and I will celebrate it with you as well at +1.
You have got this 100%. Have fun.
Diesel you are a very big part of my quit even though we haven't conversed that much directly.I still read "tending my garden" weekly just to keep me grounded in my quit. Your words are like magical daggers to some, but it is always out of concern and there overall well being.One thing I know for a fact Diesel is that there is no "How to Quit Nicotine 101" handbook or some potion one can ingest to make it all go away.Everyone's quit is different and we all have to face our very own demons.Thankfully we don't have to face them alone,never ever ever.There is a place where at a click of a button or swipe of a mouse 1,000+ people which of whom non of us will ever probably meet in person have your back.The mind games and self induced worrying we will suffer may never stop completely.However we must get up every morning, post roll,keep our word and do the very best we can.Utilizing what we have learned and all the tools we have at our disposal.Face your challenges Diesel head on and learn from them after you have conquered them ODAAT. NAFAR!!
Diesel what can I say, fantastic post man. I have been thinking about it all morning.
SirDerek, great response. Jay Nellie, another great response. Damn I love this site, brotherhood at it's finest.
Diesel, keep this in mind, "bumps of shit in the road" are in fact, just a normal part of life. Ups, downs, successes, failures, challenges, triumphs, happiness, sorrow, births, deaths, natural disasters, tradegies, miracles and so on and so on.
I can speak for myself when I tell you that this whole healing process can be summarized in a few words. I am learning how to deal with these bumps in the road of life without nicotine running through my veins. Nicotine hijacked and replaced all of my real feelings and real normal responses to these bumps.
No more Diesel, today we are quit. Can't control yesterday or last year. Tomorrow is too damn far away to think about. But today we can control. I am proud as hell to be quit you on this fine holiday. You'll get through this, you are a bad SOB.
Ryan
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I find this odd and frustrating....
A year ago on Memoria Day I vividly remember sitting at my Moms house writhing in fear, anxiety and sheer restlessness.
I had just come off having a panic attack after finding a bump on my lip that I thought was cancer. It wasn't but the horrid memory of that panic attack and the thoughts associated with it took me from the couch at my Moms back to a Memorial Day trip to the ER. I literally didn't know what to do, I thought I was dieing.
Fast forward to today.  The vividness of that day is really messing with me right now, as we are headed over to my moms once again for a Memorial Day party.Â
I am filled with fear and anxiety that I have not felt in months. Why?  That stuff was a year ago. I've come so far since then. What the hell am I so afraid of? I simply don't get it.
Has this ever happened to anyone else at this point in their quit?
Its like I'm an accident victim returning to the scene of a tragic accident. Shouldn't I be over this crud by now? I talk tough yet here I am getting slapped around still. Hell, my wife had to give me a pep talk just to get me out of bed today. I've done great things and cleared many hurdles this past 357 days. This should not be fucking with me.
What am I afraid of? Dipping again? No, hasn't really crossed my mind. Having another panic attack? Possibly but what the hell for? Plus I have meds to help with that. That like last year, I'm going to go through hell again this summer and this was the event that triggered it? If I made it through last summer I can make it through anything.
So what to do???? Well, I'm just going to keep pushing forward. Gonna load up the cooler and the kids (and the anti anxiety meds) and just fucking try and roll over yet another bump of SHIT in the road.
It really grinds my ass to feel this way. But it is what it is, I guess. Ill get tthrough it, just shocked to feel this way. Some odd shit, that's for sure.
Thanks for listening and have a great memorial day everyone.
Diesel my friend you have done exactly what you should by posting that up in here. We are humans and like you mention going back to the events in our past, the sites/sounds/looks, it make us what and who we are as it is totally normal.
What today and this weekend should then hold is for you and the family to create a new experience. Take a deep breath and make it the best that you can remember, make it all new so that this is the one you can then look back upon.
You can do this and I will celebrate it with you as well at +1.
You have got this 100%. Have fun.
Diesel you are a very big part of my quit even though we haven't conversed that much directly.I still read "tending my garden" weekly just to keep me grounded in my quit. Your words are like magical daggers to some, but it is always out of concern and there overall well being.One thing I know for a fact Diesel is that there is no "How to Quit Nicotine 101" handbook or some potion one can ingest to make it all go away.Everyone's quit is different and we all have to face our very own demons.Thankfully we don't have to face them alone,never ever ever.There is a place where at a click of a button or swipe of a mouse 1,000+ people which of whom non of us will ever probably meet in person have your back.The mind games and self induced worrying we will suffer may never stop completely.However we must get up every morning, post roll,keep our word and do the very best we can.Utilizing what we have learned and all the tools we have at our disposal.Face your challenges Diesel head on and learn from them after you have conquered them ODAAT. NAFAR!!
Diesel what can I say, fantastic post man. I have been thinking about it all morning.
SirDerek, great response. Jay Nellie, another great response. Damn I love this site, brotherhood at it's finest.
Diesel, keep this in mind, "bumps of shit in the road" are in fact, just a normal part of life. Ups, downs, successes, failures, challenges, triumphs, happiness, sorrow, births, deaths, natural disasters, tradegies, miracles and so on and so on.
I can speak for myself when I tell you that this whole healing process can be summarized in a few words. I am learning how to deal with these bumps in the road of life without nicotine running through my veins. Nicotine hijacked and replaced all of my real feelings and real normal responses to these bumps.
No more Diesel, today we are quit. Can't control yesterday or last year. Tomorrow is too damn far away to think about. But today we can control. I am proud as hell to be quit you on this fine holiday. You'll get through this, you are a bad SOB.
Ryan
Thank you for this post Diesel. Always the teacher even in your times of self doubt. Proud of you and all you stand for. I QUIT with you today.
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I find this odd and frustrating....
A year ago on Memoria Day I vividly remember sitting at my Moms house writhing in fear, anxiety and sheer restlessness.
I had just come off having a panic attack after finding a bump on my lip that I thought was cancer. It wasn't but the horrid memory of that panic attack and the thoughts associated with it took me from the couch at my Moms back to a Memorial Day trip to the ER. I literally didn't know what to do, I thought I was dieing.
Fast forward to today.  The vividness of that day is really messing with me right now, as we are headed over to my moms once again for a Memorial Day party.Â
I am filled with fear and anxiety that I have not felt in months. Why?  That stuff was a year ago. I've come so far since then. What the hell am I so afraid of? I simply don't get it.
Has this ever happened to anyone else at this point in their quit?
Its like I'm an accident victim returning to the scene of a tragic accident. Shouldn't I be over this crud by now? I talk tough yet here I am getting slapped around still. Hell, my wife had to give me a pep talk just to get me out of bed today. I've done great things and cleared many hurdles this past 357 days. This should not be fucking with me.
What am I afraid of? Dipping again? No, hasn't really crossed my mind. Having another panic attack? Possibly but what the hell for? Plus I have meds to help with that. That like last year, I'm going to go through hell again this summer and this was the event that triggered it? If I made it through last summer I can make it through anything.
So what to do???? Well, I'm just going to keep pushing forward. Gonna load up the cooler and the kids (and the anti anxiety meds) and just fucking try and roll over yet another bump of SHIT in the road.
It really grinds my ass to feel this way. But it is what it is, I guess. Ill get tthrough it, just shocked to feel this way. Some odd shit, that's for sure.
Thanks for listening and have a great memorial day everyone.
Diesel my friend you have done exactly what you should by posting that up in here. We are humans and like you mention going back to the events in our past, the sites/sounds/looks, it make us what and who we are as it is totally normal.
What today and this weekend should then hold is for you and the family to create a new experience. Take a deep breath and make it the best that you can remember, make it all new so that this is the one you can then look back upon.
You can do this and I will celebrate it with you as well at +1.
You have got this 100%. Have fun.
Diesel you are a very big part of my quit even though we haven't conversed that much directly.I still read "tending my garden" weekly just to keep me grounded in my quit. Your words are like magical daggers to some, but it is always out of concern and there overall well being.One thing I know for a fact Diesel is that there is no "How to Quit Nicotine 101" handbook or some potion one can ingest to make it all go away.Everyone's quit is different and we all have to face our very own demons.Thankfully we don't have to face them alone,never ever ever.There is a place where at a click of a button or swipe of a mouse 1,000+ people which of whom non of us will ever probably meet in person have your back.The mind games and self induced worrying we will suffer may never stop completely.However we must get up every morning, post roll,keep our word and do the very best we can.Utilizing what we have learned and all the tools we have at our disposal.Face your challenges Diesel head on and learn from them after you have conquered them ODAAT. NAFAR!!
Diesel what can I say, fantastic post man. I have been thinking about it all morning.
SirDerek, great response. Jay Nellie, another great response. Damn I love this site, brotherhood at it's finest.
Diesel, keep this in mind, "bumps of shit in the road" are in fact, just a normal part of life. Ups, downs, successes, failures, challenges, triumphs, happiness, sorrow, births, deaths, natural disasters, tradegies, miracles and so on and so on.
I can speak for myself when I tell you that this whole healing process can be summarized in a few words. I am learning how to deal with these bumps in the road of life without nicotine running through my veins. Nicotine hijacked and replaced all of my real feelings and real normal responses to these bumps.
No more Diesel, today we are quit. Can't control yesterday or last year. Tomorrow is too damn far away to think about. But today we can control. I am proud as hell to be quit you on this fine holiday. You'll get through this, you are a bad SOB.
Ryan
Thank you for this post Diesel. Always the teacher even in your times of self doubt. Proud of you and all you stand for. I QUIT with you today.
Nothing to worry about, the shit in the road may splatter on bystanders though. Just go back in your intro and read those posts from last year and you'll see how much different this is than those days of suck. I'm so proud to to have been on this journey with you.
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I find this odd and frustrating....
A year ago on Memoria Day I vividly remember sitting at my Moms house writhing in fear, anxiety and sheer restlessness.
I had just come off having a panic attack after finding a bump on my lip that I thought was cancer. It wasn't but the horrid memory of that panic attack and the thoughts associated with it took me from the couch at my Moms back to a Memorial Day trip to the ER. I literally didn't know what to do, I thought I was dieing.
Fast forward to today.  The vividness of that day is really messing with me right now, as we are headed over to my moms once again for a Memorial Day party.Â
I am filled with fear and anxiety that I have not felt in months. Why?  That stuff was a year ago. I've come so far since then. What the hell am I so afraid of? I simply don't get it.
Has this ever happened to anyone else at this point in their quit?
Its like I'm an accident victim returning to the scene of a tragic accident. Shouldn't I be over this crud by now? I talk tough yet here I am getting slapped around still. Hell, my wife had to give me a pep talk just to get me out of bed today. I've done great things and cleared many hurdles this past 357 days. This should not be fucking with me.
What am I afraid of? Dipping again? No, hasn't really crossed my mind. Having another panic attack? Possibly but what the hell for? Plus I have meds to help with that. That like last year, I'm going to go through hell again this summer and this was the event that triggered it? If I made it through last summer I can make it through anything.
So what to do???? Well, I'm just going to keep pushing forward. Gonna load up the cooler and the kids (and the anti anxiety meds) and just fucking try and roll over yet another bump of SHIT in the road.
It really grinds my ass to feel this way. But it is what it is, I guess. Ill get tthrough it, just shocked to feel this way. Some odd shit, that's for sure.
Thanks for listening and have a great memorial day everyone.
Diesel my friend you have done exactly what you should by posting that up in here. We are humans and like you mention going back to the events in our past, the sites/sounds/looks, it make us what and who we are as it is totally normal.
What today and this weekend should then hold is for you and the family to create a new experience. Take a deep breath and make it the best that you can remember, make it all new so that this is the one you can then look back upon.
You can do this and I will celebrate it with you as well at +1.
You have got this 100%. Have fun.
Diesel you are a very big part of my quit even though we haven't conversed that much directly.I still read "tending my garden" weekly just to keep me grounded in my quit. Your words are like magical daggers to some, but it is always out of concern and there overall well being.One thing I know for a fact Diesel is that there is no "How to Quit Nicotine 101" handbook or some potion one can ingest to make it all go away.Everyone's quit is different and we all have to face our very own demons.Thankfully we don't have to face them alone,never ever ever.There is a place where at a click of a button or swipe of a mouse 1,000+ people which of whom non of us will ever probably meet in person have your back.The mind games and self induced worrying we will suffer may never stop completely.However we must get up every morning, post roll,keep our word and do the very best we can.Utilizing what we have learned and all the tools we have at our disposal.Face your challenges Diesel head on and learn from them after you have conquered them ODAAT. NAFAR!!
Diesel what can I say, fantastic post man. I have been thinking about it all morning.
SirDerek, great response. Jay Nellie, another great response. Damn I love this site, brotherhood at it's finest.
Diesel, keep this in mind, "bumps of shit in the road" are in fact, just a normal part of life. Ups, downs, successes, failures, challenges, triumphs, happiness, sorrow, births, deaths, natural disasters, tradegies, miracles and so on and so on.
I can speak for myself when I tell you that this whole healing process can be summarized in a few words. I am learning how to deal with these bumps in the road of life without nicotine running through my veins. Nicotine hijacked and replaced all of my real feelings and real normal responses to these bumps.
No more Diesel, today we are quit. Can't control yesterday or last year. Tomorrow is too damn far away to think about. But today we can control. I am proud as hell to be quit you on this fine holiday. You'll get through this, you are a bad SOB.
Ryan
Thank you for this post Diesel. Always the teacher even in your times of self doubt. Proud of you and all you stand for. I QUIT with you today.
Nothing to worry about, the shit in the road may splatter on bystanders though. Just go back in your intro and read those posts from last year and you'll see how much different this is than those days of suck. I'm so proud to to have been on this journey with you.
"Fear is pain arising from the anticipation of evil".
That is were I was at this morning. In pain and afraid, just anticipating reliving that evil day that sent me to the hospital and into a downward spiral.
Shame on me, for ANTICIPATING the worst. Their "were" no evil demons waiting for me at my Moms. Turns out something beautiful was there...peace, perspective, and a slice of redemption.
My idiot brain had me so riled up and scared this morning I could barely get out of bed.
But I did.
Took a deep breath....shit, showered, shaved and started to feel a little better. Jumped in my ride, let loose a "LETS DO THIS" primal scream and made my way to the grocery store. Bought necessary picnic supplies, headed home and loaded up the cooler...felt even better.
Packed up the fishing poles, football, baseball gloves, and other kids shit, and started to think "ok asshole lets do this". Picked up my 83 year old Grandma, packed her piece of shit scooter thing into my sled, slammed the hatch, took another deep breath, said "fuck" and headed out.
Got to my Moms...nothing. No fear, no panic, no flashbacks, no nothing. Just "normal". (I fucking love normal)
I fished, played catch, ate like a pig, drank Jones cream soda, talked, went for a boat ride, made a fire, ate some shitty ass smores my kids burnt the shit our of, packed the car back up and headed home, where I now sit, hos...hand on sack and happy as a clam. I had come full circle.
Howd I do it? .I just kept pushing . Just kept living. Just kept doing what I had been doing for the past 357 days...moving forward.
Am I "cured"? Nope, never will be. Was is "easier" than it was in the past? You bet your fucking ass it was. I'm pretty much a dumb fuck, but when you're going through some shit as tough as kicking nics ass you better fucking pay attention and not only learn some lessons, but never fucking forget them. I did that today.
One last thing thst really helped me today...this fucked up place.
Posting my thoughts this morning really helped, just getting it out on the table is a great tool (see I remembered that one). Also checking my alerts and reading the words from those who took time to respone to my post and offer kind and encouraging words really touched me and made me believe in myself even more. Thank you to those who reached out to me.
Man...I add all that shit together and instead of the hellish day I anticipated when I woke up. Today was a fucking kick ass day.
Keep living boys and girls. Keep moving forward, if only at a snails pace. Use this site while doing so. Buy into it fully. Don't half ass it, don't try and reinvent it, don't think you know better, don't be a fucking ass scab. There's lessons and truths here that WILL get you where you want to go. I promise.
Stay quit. Sorry so long, but I like to keep my posts like my shlong. Long and heavy.
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I find this odd and frustrating....
A year ago on Memoria Day I vividly remember sitting at my Moms house writhing in fear, anxiety and sheer restlessness.
I had just come off having a panic attack after finding a bump on my lip that I thought was cancer. It wasn't but the horrid memory of that panic attack and the thoughts associated with it took me from the couch at my Moms back to a Memorial Day trip to the ER. I literally didn't know what to do, I thought I was dieing.
Fast forward to today.  The vividness of that day is really messing with me right now, as we are headed over to my moms once again for a Memorial Day party.Â
I am filled with fear and anxiety that I have not felt in months. Why?  That stuff was a year ago. I've come so far since then. What the hell am I so afraid of? I simply don't get it.
Has this ever happened to anyone else at this point in their quit?
Its like I'm an accident victim returning to the scene of a tragic accident. Shouldn't I be over this crud by now? I talk tough yet here I am getting slapped around still. Hell, my wife had to give me a pep talk just to get me out of bed today. I've done great things and cleared many hurdles this past 357 days. This should not be fucking with me.
What am I afraid of? Dipping again? No, hasn't really crossed my mind. Having another panic attack? Possibly but what the hell for? Plus I have meds to help with that. That like last year, I'm going to go through hell again this summer and this was the event that triggered it? If I made it through last summer I can make it through anything.
So what to do???? Well, I'm just going to keep pushing forward. Gonna load up the cooler and the kids (and the anti anxiety meds) and just fucking try and roll over yet another bump of SHIT in the road.
It really grinds my ass to feel this way. But it is what it is, I guess. Ill get tthrough it, just shocked to feel this way. Some odd shit, that's for sure.
Thanks for listening and have a great memorial day everyone.
Diesel my friend you have done exactly what you should by posting that up in here. We are humans and like you mention going back to the events in our past, the sites/sounds/looks, it make us what and who we are as it is totally normal.
What today and this weekend should then hold is for you and the family to create a new experience. Take a deep breath and make it the best that you can remember, make it all new so that this is the one you can then look back upon.
You can do this and I will celebrate it with you as well at +1.
You have got this 100%. Have fun.
Diesel you are a very big part of my quit even though we haven't conversed that much directly.I still read "tending my garden" weekly just to keep me grounded in my quit. Your words are like magical daggers to some, but it is always out of concern and there overall well being.One thing I know for a fact Diesel is that there is no "How to Quit Nicotine 101" handbook or some potion one can ingest to make it all go away.Everyone's quit is different and we all have to face our very own demons.Thankfully we don't have to face them alone,never ever ever.There is a place where at a click of a button or swipe of a mouse 1,000+ people which of whom non of us will ever probably meet in person have your back.The mind games and self induced worrying we will suffer may never stop completely.However we must get up every morning, post roll,keep our word and do the very best we can.Utilizing what we have learned and all the tools we have at our disposal.Face your challenges Diesel head on and learn from them after you have conquered them ODAAT. NAFAR!!
Diesel what can I say, fantastic post man. I have been thinking about it all morning.
SirDerek, great response. Jay Nellie, another great response. Damn I love this site, brotherhood at it's finest.
Diesel, keep this in mind, "bumps of shit in the road" are in fact, just a normal part of life. Ups, downs, successes, failures, challenges, triumphs, happiness, sorrow, births, deaths, natural disasters, tradegies, miracles and so on and so on.
I can speak for myself when I tell you that this whole healing process can be summarized in a few words. I am learning how to deal with these bumps in the road of life without nicotine running through my veins. Nicotine hijacked and replaced all of my real feelings and real normal responses to these bumps.
No more Diesel, today we are quit. Can't control yesterday or last year. Tomorrow is too damn far away to think about. But today we can control. I am proud as hell to be quit you on this fine holiday. You'll get through this, you are a bad SOB.
Ryan
Thank you for this post Diesel. Always the teacher even in your times of self doubt. Proud of you and all you stand for. I QUIT with you today.
Nothing to worry about, the shit in the road may splatter on bystanders though. Just go back in your intro and read those posts from last year and you'll see how much different this is than those days of suck. I'm so proud to to have been on this journey with you.
"Fear is pain arising from the anticipation of evil".
That is were I was at this morning. In pain and afraid, just anticipating reliving that evil day that sent me to the hospital and into a downward spiral.
Shame on me, for ANTICIPATING the worst. Their "were" no evil demons waiting for me at my Moms. Turns out something beautiful was there...peace, perspective, and a slice of redemption.
My idiot brain had me so riled up and scared this morning I could barely get out of bed.
But I did.
Took a deep breath....shit, showered, shaved and started to feel a little better. Jumped in my ride, let loose a "LETS DO THIS" primal scream and made my way to the grocery store. Bought necessary picnic supplies, headed home and loaded up the cooler...felt even better.
Packed up the fishing poles, football, baseball gloves, and other kids shit, and started to think "ok asshole lets do this". Picked up my 83 year old Grandma, packed her piece of shit scooter thing into my sled, slammed the hatch, took another deep breath, said "fuck" and headed out.
Got to my Moms...nothing. No fear, no panic, no flashbacks, no nothing. Just "normal". (I fucking love normal)
I fished, played catch, ate like a pig, drank Jones cream soda, talked, went for a boat ride, made a fire, ate some shitty ass smores my kids burnt the shit our of, packed the car back up and headed home, where I now sit, hos...hand on sack and happy as a clam. I had come full circle.
Howd I do it? .I just kept pushing . Just kept living. Just kept doing what I had been doing for the past 357 days...moving forward.
Am I "cured"? Nope, never will be. Was is "easier" than it was in the past? You bet your fucking ass it was. I'm pretty much a dumb fuck, but when you're going through some shit as tough as kicking nics ass you better fucking pay attention and not only learn some lessons, but never fucking forget them. I did that today.
One last thing thst really helped me today...this fucked up place.
Posting my thoughts this morning really helped, just getting it out on the table is a great tool (see I remembered that one). Also checking my alerts and reading the words from those who took time to respone to my post and offer kind and encouraging words really touched me and made me believe in myself even more. Thank you to those who reached out to me.
Man...I add all that shit together and instead of the hellish day I anticipated when I woke up. Today was a fucking kick ass day.
Keep living boys and girls. Keep moving forward, if only at a snails pace. Use this site while doing so. Buy into it fully. Don't half ass it, don't try and reinvent it, don't think you know better, don't be a fucking ass scab. There's lessons and truths here that WILL get you where you want to go. I promise.
Stay quit. Sorry so long, but I like to keep my posts like my shlong. Long and heavy.
Love it....outstanding job bother
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I find this odd and frustrating....
A year ago on Memoria Day I vividly remember sitting at my Moms house writhing in fear, anxiety and sheer restlessness.
I had just come off having a panic attack after finding a bump on my lip that I thought was cancer. It wasn't but the horrid memory of that panic attack and the thoughts associated with it took me from the couch at my Moms back to a Memorial Day trip to the ER. I literally didn't know what to do, I thought I was dieing.
Fast forward to today.  The vividness of that day is really messing with me right now, as we are headed over to my moms once again for a Memorial Day party.Â
I am filled with fear and anxiety that I have not felt in months. Why?  That stuff was a year ago. I've come so far since then. What the hell am I so afraid of? I simply don't get it.
Has this ever happened to anyone else at this point in their quit?
Its like I'm an accident victim returning to the scene of a tragic accident. Shouldn't I be over this crud by now? I talk tough yet here I am getting slapped around still. Hell, my wife had to give me a pep talk just to get me out of bed today. I've done great things and cleared many hurdles this past 357 days. This should not be fucking with me.
What am I afraid of? Dipping again? No, hasn't really crossed my mind. Having another panic attack? Possibly but what the hell for? Plus I have meds to help with that. That like last year, I'm going to go through hell again this summer and this was the event that triggered it? If I made it through last summer I can make it through anything.
So what to do???? Well, I'm just going to keep pushing forward. Gonna load up the cooler and the kids (and the anti anxiety meds) and just fucking try and roll over yet another bump of SHIT in the road.
It really grinds my ass to feel this way. But it is what it is, I guess. Ill get tthrough it, just shocked to feel this way. Some odd shit, that's for sure.
Thanks for listening and have a great memorial day everyone.
Diesel my friend you have done exactly what you should by posting that up in here. We are humans and like you mention going back to the events in our past, the sites/sounds/looks, it make us what and who we are as it is totally normal.
What today and this weekend should then hold is for you and the family to create a new experience. Take a deep breath and make it the best that you can remember, make it all new so that this is the one you can then look back upon.
You can do this and I will celebrate it with you as well at +1.
You have got this 100%. Have fun.
Diesel you are a very big part of my quit even though we haven't conversed that much directly.I still read "tending my garden" weekly just to keep me grounded in my quit. Your words are like magical daggers to some, but it is always out of concern and there overall well being.One thing I know for a fact Diesel is that there is no "How to Quit Nicotine 101" handbook or some potion one can ingest to make it all go away.Everyone's quit is different and we all have to face our very own demons.Thankfully we don't have to face them alone,never ever ever.There is a place where at a click of a button or swipe of a mouse 1,000+ people which of whom non of us will ever probably meet in person have your back.The mind games and self induced worrying we will suffer may never stop completely.However we must get up every morning, post roll,keep our word and do the very best we can.Utilizing what we have learned and all the tools we have at our disposal.Face your challenges Diesel head on and learn from them after you have conquered them ODAAT. NAFAR!!
Diesel what can I say, fantastic post man. I have been thinking about it all morning.
SirDerek, great response. Jay Nellie, another great response. Damn I love this site, brotherhood at it's finest.
Diesel, keep this in mind, "bumps of shit in the road" are in fact, just a normal part of life. Ups, downs, successes, failures, challenges, triumphs, happiness, sorrow, births, deaths, natural disasters, tradegies, miracles and so on and so on.
I can speak for myself when I tell you that this whole healing process can be summarized in a few words. I am learning how to deal with these bumps in the road of life without nicotine running through my veins. Nicotine hijacked and replaced all of my real feelings and real normal responses to these bumps.
No more Diesel, today we are quit. Can't control yesterday or last year. Tomorrow is too damn far away to think about. But today we can control. I am proud as hell to be quit you on this fine holiday. You'll get through this, you are a bad SOB.
Ryan
Thank you for this post Diesel. Always the teacher even in your times of self doubt. Proud of you and all you stand for. I QUIT with you today.
Nothing to worry about, the shit in the road may splatter on bystanders though. Just go back in your intro and read those posts from last year and you'll see how much different this is than those days of suck. I'm so proud to to have been on this journey with you.
"Fear is pain arising from the anticipation of evil".
That is were I was at this morning. In pain and afraid, just anticipating reliving that evil day that sent me to the hospital and into a downward spiral.
Shame on me, for ANTICIPATING the worst. Their "were" no evil demons waiting for me at my Moms. Turns out something beautiful was there...peace, perspective, and a slice of redemption.
My idiot brain had me so riled up and scared this morning I could barely get out of bed.
But I did.
Took a deep breath....shit, showered, shaved and started to feel a little better. Jumped in my ride, let loose a "LETS DO THIS" primal scream and made my way to the grocery store. Bought necessary picnic supplies, headed home and loaded up the cooler...felt even better.
Packed up the fishing poles, football, baseball gloves, and other kids shit, and started to think "ok asshole lets do this". Picked up my 83 year old Grandma, packed her piece of shit scooter thing into my sled, slammed the hatch, took another deep breath, said "fuck" and headed out.
Got to my Moms...nothing. No fear, no panic, no flashbacks, no nothing. Just "normal". (I fucking love normal)
I fished, played catch, ate like a pig, drank Jones cream soda, talked, went for a boat ride, made a fire, ate some shitty ass smores my kids burnt the shit our of, packed the car back up and headed home, where I now sit, hos...hand on sack and happy as a clam. I had come full circle.
Howd I do it? .I just kept pushing . Just kept living. Just kept doing what I had been doing for the past 357 days...moving forward.
Am I "cured"? Nope, never will be. Was is "easier" than it was in the past? You bet your fucking ass it was. I'm pretty much a dumb fuck, but when you're going through some shit as tough as kicking nics ass you better fucking pay attention and not only learn some lessons, but never fucking forget them. I did that today.
One last thing thst really helped me today...this fucked up place.
Posting my thoughts this morning really helped, just getting it out on the table is a great tool (see I remembered that one). Also checking my alerts and reading the words from those who took time to respone to my post and offer kind and encouraging words really touched me and made me believe in myself even more. Thank you to those who reached out to me.
Man...I add all that shit together and instead of the hellish day I anticipated when I woke up. Today was a fucking kick ass day.
Keep living boys and girls. Keep moving forward, if only at a snails pace. Use this site while doing so. Buy into it fully. Don't half ass it, don't try and reinvent it, don't think you know better, don't be a fucking ass scab. There's lessons and truths here that WILL get you where you want to go. I promise.
Stay quit. Sorry so long, but I like to keep my posts like my shlong. Long and heavy.
Love it....outstanding job bother
1 year ago you were by yourself, this time you have an army surrounding you. I had a feeling you'd be ok, because that guy from a year ago doesn't exist anymore. He was replaced by a smart, strong individual, and I quit with you all day long.. peace
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365 Days brother. Bad Ass indeed Sir! Thanks for doing/being who you are. 'clap'
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365 Days brother. Bad Ass indeed Sir! Thanks for doing/being who you are. 'clap'
Grats on the trip around the sun!!!
Keep day it forward/backward!!!
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365 Days brother. Bad Ass indeed Sir! Thanks for doing/being who you are. 'clap'
Grats on the trip around the sun!!!
Keep day it forward/backward!!!
You are one bad ass quitter that isn't afraid to tell it like it is!
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365 Days brother. Bad Ass indeed Sir! Thanks for doing/being who you are. 'clap'
Grats on the trip around the sun!!!
Keep day it forward/backward!!!
You are one bad ass quitter that isn't afraid to tell it like it is!
Congrats diesel you inspire a lot new quitters here in intros keep up the good fight and paying it forward
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365 Days brother. Bad Ass indeed Sir! Thanks for doing/being who you are. 'clap'
Grats on the trip around the sun!!!
Keep day it forward/backward!!!
You are one bad ass quitter that isn't afraid to tell it like it is!
Congrats diesel you inspire a lot new quitters here in intros keep up the good fight and paying it forward
Congrats my friend!! 365 is huge! Where were you a year ago? Amazing how much a year can make in a persons life! 'oh yeah'
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365 Days brother. Bad Ass indeed Sir! Thanks for doing/being who you are. 'clap'
Grats on the trip around the sun!!!
Keep day it forward/backward!!!
You are one bad ass quitter that isn't afraid to tell it like it is!
Congrats diesel you inspire a lot new quitters here in intros keep up the good fight and paying it forward
Congrats my friend!! 365 is huge! Where were you a year ago? Amazing how much a year can make in a persons life! 'oh yeah'
Congratulations Diesel. So good having you here. I'll quit with you everyday that ends with a 'Y'!!
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365 Days brother. Bad Ass indeed Sir! Thanks for doing/being who you are. 'clap'
Grats on the trip around the sun!!!
Keep day it forward/backward!!!
You are one bad ass quitter that isn't afraid to tell it like it is!
Congrats diesel you inspire a lot new quitters here in intros keep up the good fight and paying it forward
Congrats my friend!! 365 is huge! Where were you a year ago? Amazing how much a year can make in a persons life! 'oh yeah'
Congratulations Diesel. So good having you here. I'll quit with you everyday that ends with a 'Y'!!
Congrats Diesel I have read your thread, inspiring all that in a year nice.
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Your a fucking BAD ASS! That's all I've got to say man!!!! Bad Ass diesel! I hope you never get on my ass for anything, but I am damn glad you around, for that very reason!
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You all are too kind. What the fuck are you trying to do, make me weepy? Thanks for the kind words.
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You all are too kind. What the fuck are you trying to do, make me weepy? Thanks for the kind words.
Good job bro.
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I will send you a Golden Girls dvd gift box to cheer ya up...
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I will send you a Golden Girls dvd gift box to cheer ya up...
Mmmmmmm
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I will send you a Golden Girls dvd gift box to cheer ya up...
Mmmmmmm
Now I'm jealous trauma. Lmao!
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365 Days brother. Bad Ass indeed Sir! Thanks for doing/being who you are. 'clap'
Grats on the trip around the sun!!!
Keep day it forward/backward!!!
You are one bad ass quitter that isn't afraid to tell it like it is!
Congrats diesel you inspire a lot new quitters here in intros keep up the good fight and paying it forward
Congrats my friend!! 365 is huge! Where were you a year ago? Amazing how much a year can make in a persons life! 'oh yeah'
Congratulations Diesel. So good having you here. I'll quit with you everyday that ends with a 'Y'!!
Congrats Diesel I have read your thread, inspiring all that in a year nice.
Congrats Deisel. One year is a great start man. I can honestly say that if you were not here I would not have made it through. You had words that I needed to hear EXACTLY when I need to hear them. Also I can also count always count on you to crack me up. You have a command of the urban dictionary like no other. Keep up the great work.
Ryan
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365 Days brother. Bad Ass indeed Sir! Thanks for doing/being who you are. 'clap'
Grats on the trip around the sun!!!
Keep day it forward/backward!!!
You are one bad ass quitter that isn't afraid to tell it like it is!
Congrats diesel you inspire a lot new quitters here in intros keep up the good fight and paying it forward
Congrats my friend!! 365 is huge! Where were you a year ago? Amazing how much a year can make in a persons life! 'oh yeah'
Congratulations Diesel. So good having you here. I'll quit with you everyday that ends with a 'Y'!!
Congrats Diesel I have read your thread, inspiring all that in a year nice.
Congrats Deisel. One year is a great start man. I can honestly say that if you were not here I would not have made it through. You had words that I needed to hear EXACTLY when I need to hear them. Also I can also count always count on you to crack me up. You have a command of the urban dictionary like no other. Keep up the great work.
Ryan
Diesel rules. Nice work bro! Quit everyday with you.
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15:1
That's a ratio. Years used, abused, addicted and dependent to years quit. Looks bad, right?
I have never been so proud to put up that lonely little number 1 in my life as today marks 365 days quit.
Most of the days that got me to that year number 1 sucked...BAD.
However, the way I see it, when you take a step back. "Most of a year" really isn't that long, when you're trying to take your life back. Even though it sure as hell seemed like it.
The way I see it I survived the toughest part and only better days are ahead. I'm by no means cured but getting that ratio a little more respectable is my new goal. How do I plan to do it? One day at a time.
The way I see it, fuck looking back at the 15. I'm only gonna look ahead to a journey where I get that number on the right, larger than the one on the left. Might take some time, but I got nothing better to do..
I'm going to walk that journey the way God intended me to walk this earth. Dip free, nic free, and addicted to nothing other than my family, friends and loved ones.
This is the way I see it. Anyone care to join me?
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15:1
That's a ratio. Years used, abused, addicted and dependent to years quit. Looks bad, right?
I have never been so proud to put up that lonely little number 1 in my life as today marks 365 days quit.
Most of the days that got me to that year number 1 sucked...BAD.
However, the way I see it, when you take a step back. "Most of a year" really isn't that long, when you're trying to take your life back. Even though it sure as hell seemed like it.
The way I see it I survived the toughest part and only better days are ahead. I'm by no means cured but getting that ratio a little more respectable is my new goal. How do I plan to do it? One day at a time.
The way I see it, fuck looking back at the 15. I'm only gonna look ahead to a journey where I get that number on the right, larger than the one on the left. Might take some time, but I got nothing better to do..
I'm going to walk that journey the way God intended me to walk this earth. Dip free, nic free, and addicted to nothing other than my family, friends and loved ones.
This is the way I see it. Anyone care to join me?
Damn straight. I will join you all the way. Just dont ever let me catch your day count. I wanna stay 210 days behind you for the rest of my life.
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15:1
That's a ratio. Years used, abused, addicted and dependent to years quit. Looks bad, right?
I have never been so proud to put up that lonely little number 1 in my life as today marks 365 days quit.
Most of the days that got me to that year number 1 sucked...BAD.
However, the way I see it, when you take a step back. "Most of a year" really isn't that long, when you're trying to take your life back. Even though it sure as hell seemed like it.
The way I see it I survived the toughest part and only better days are ahead. I'm by no means cured but getting that ratio a little more respectable is my new goal. How do I plan to do it? One day at a time.
The way I see it, fuck looking back at the 15. I'm only gonna look ahead to a journey where I get that number on the right, larger than the one on the left. Might take some time, but I got nothing better to do..
I'm going to walk that journey the way God intended me to walk this earth. Dip free, nic free, and addicted to nothing other than my family, friends and loved ones.
This is the way I see it. Anyone care to join me?
Damn straight. I will join you all the way. Just dont ever let me catch your day count. I wanna stay 210 days behind you for the rest of my life.
You will .
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15:1
That's a ratio. Years used, abused, addicted and dependent to years quit. Looks bad, right?
I have never been so proud to put up that lonely little number 1 in my life as today marks 365 days quit.
Most of the days that got me to that year number 1 sucked...BAD.
However, the way I see it, when you take a step back. "Most of a year" really isn't that long, when you're trying to take your life back. Even though it sure as hell seemed like it.
The way I see it I survived the toughest part and only better days are ahead. I'm by no means cured but getting that ratio a little more respectable is my new goal. How do I plan to do it? One day at a time.
The way I see it, fuck looking back at the 15. I'm only gonna look ahead to a journey where I get that number on the right, larger than the one on the left. Might take some time, but I got nothing better to do..
I'm going to walk that journey the way God intended me to walk this earth. Dip free, nic free, and addicted to nothing other than my family, friends and loved ones.
This is the way I see it. Anyone care to join me?
Damn straight. I will join you all the way. Just dont ever let me catch your day count. I wanna stay 210 days behind you for the rest of my life.
Got room for one more? Pretty amazing way of looking at it fellas. My ratio unfortunately wouldn't look so impressive.It would be more the rear-end in a 78' ford 1/2 ton pickup.None the less it's just a number and a number other than "1" Day at a time or +1 means jack fucking shit to me.Congrats again Diesel on the 1 year mark but 366 means just as much my friend.
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15:1
That's a ratio. Years used, abused, addicted and dependent to years quit. Looks bad, right?
I have never been so proud to put up that lonely little number 1 in my life as today marks 365 days quit.
Most of the days that got me to that year number 1 sucked...BAD.
However, the way I see it, when you take a step back. "Most of a year" really isn't that long, when you're trying to take your life back.  Even though it sure as hell seemed like it.
The way I see it I survived the toughest part and only better days are ahead. I'm by no means cured but getting that ratio a little more respectable is my new goal. How do I plan to do it? One day at a time.
The way I see it, fuck looking back at the 15. I'm only gonna look ahead to a journey where I get that number on the right, larger than the one on the left. Might take some time, but I got nothing better to do..
I'm going to walk that journey the way God intended me to walk this earth. Dip free, nic free, and addicted to nothing other than my family, friends and loved ones.
This is the way I see it. Anyone care to join me?
Damn straight. I will join you all the way. Just dont ever let me catch your day count. I wanna stay 210 days behind you for the rest of my life.
Got room for one more? Pretty amazing way of looking at it fellas. My ratio unfortunately wouldn't look so impressive.It would be more the rear-end in a 78' ford 1/2 ton pickup.None the less it's just a number and a number other than "1" Day at a time or +1 means jack fucking shit to me.Congrats again Diesel on the 1 year mark but 366 means just as much my friend.
One second, one minute, one hour, one day, one month, one year, one fuckig decade. Doesn't matter. You can't get to any of them without walking step by step one day at a time.
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All I can say is thanks, Diesel. I don't post much, but I read every damn word you write (that doesn't really make you all that special; I read everything almost everybody writes, but I pay the most attention to the vets I've come to love and respect.) Some of what you've written has been on my behalf, even some shit that pissed me off at the time. But I needed it. I still need it.
Newbies don't seem to "get" you sometimes, but we know who you are, and a year quit has probably confirmed it with you, too. You are an absolute asset to this site and a KING of how to quit. I actually joined this site 2 days BEFORE you and it took me seven months to quit. Not so with you. You just decided to fucking quit and you did it.
Congrats on a year, brother. Please keep doing what you're doing, even (and when) you step on a few toes.
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15:1
That's a ratio. Years used, abused, addicted and dependent to years quit. Looks bad, right?
I have never been so proud to put up that lonely little number 1 in my life as today marks 365 days quit.
Most of the days that got me to that year number 1 sucked...BAD.
However, the way I see it, when you take a step back. "Most of a year" really isn't that long, when you're trying to take your life back.  Even though it sure as hell seemed like it.
The way I see it I survived the toughest part and only better days are ahead. I'm by no means cured but getting that ratio a little more respectable is my new goal. How do I plan to do it? One day at a time.
The way I see it, fuck looking back at the 15. I'm only gonna look ahead to a journey where I get that number on the right, larger than the one on the left. Might take some time, but I got nothing better to do..
I'm going to walk that journey the way God intended me to walk this earth. Dip free, nic free, and addicted to nothing other than my family, friends and loved ones.
This is the way I see it. Anyone care to join me?
Damn straight. I will join you all the way. Just dont ever let me catch your day count. I wanna stay 210 days behind you for the rest of my life.
Got room for one more? Pretty amazing way of looking at it fellas. My ratio unfortunately wouldn't look so impressive.It would be more the rear-end in a 78' ford 1/2 ton pickup.None the less it's just a number and a number other than "1" Day at a time or +1 means jack fucking shit to me.Congrats again Diesel on the 1 year mark but 366 means just as much my friend.
One second, one minute, one hour, one day, one month, one year, one fuckig decade. Doesn't matter. You can't get to any of them without walking step by step one day at a time.
I have never more proud of a Gaze n Blue guy in my life, seriously job well done !
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15:1
That's a ratio. Years used, abused, addicted and dependent to years quit. Looks bad, right?
I have never been so proud to put up that lonely little number 1 in my life as today marks 365 days quit.
Most of the days that got me to that year number 1 sucked...BAD.
However, the way I see it, when you take a step back. "Most of a year" really isn't that long, when you're trying to take your life back.  Even though it sure as hell seemed like it.
The way I see it I survived the toughest part and only better days are ahead. I'm by no means cured but getting that ratio a little more respectable is my new goal. How do I plan to do it? One day at a time.
The way I see it, fuck looking back at the 15. I'm only gonna look ahead to a journey where I get that number on the right, larger than the one on the left. Might take some time, but I got nothing better to do..
I'm going to walk that journey the way God intended me to walk this earth. Dip free, nic free, and addicted to nothing other than my family, friends and loved ones.
This is the way I see it. Anyone care to join me?
Damn straight. I will join you all the way. Just dont ever let me catch your day count. I wanna stay 210 days behind you for the rest of my life.
Got room for one more? Pretty amazing way of looking at it fellas. My ratio unfortunately wouldn't look so impressive.It would be more the rear-end in a 78' ford 1/2 ton pickup.None the less it's just a number and a number other than "1" Day at a time or +1 means jack fucking shit to me.Congrats again Diesel on the 1 year mark but 366 means just as much my friend.
One second, one minute, one hour, one day, one month, one year, one fuckig decade. Doesn't matter. You can't get to any of them without walking step by step one day at a time.
I have never more proud of a Gaze n Blue guy in my life, seriously job well done !
The Block M will be back soon, you can bet yo ass on that!!! Thanks by the way. LOL
GO BLUE!!!
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Today was my 39th birthday. Not saying that be one of those birthday attention whores, and nobody wish me a happy b day please. I'm an adult. Not a kid.
Anyway, I remember my 38th birthday. It fucking sucked. I was 5 days quit and it was LOUD.
Not LOUD, as in a blaring music loud, but loud as in I was getting hit and hitting myself with a million different things, that nobody could hear but me.
"Can I do this? will I cave? how can I do this or that without dip? what's that discomfort in my chest? is ktc and these loony people for me? how can I drive my sales route without dip? what if I have another panic attack? I can't be depressed, can I? Im too manly to see a counselor, will my wife ever forgive me? will my family forgive me? I'm leaving Ktc, fuck I need to come back to ktc, will they take me back? Oh good they took me back, fuck they took me back this is still hard, when will I feel better? when will I feel normal? was dip THAT bad? Could I be a social dipper?" and on and on and on..."
My brain was fucking ROCKING and ROLLING. The volume knob to my brain was at 11, yet only I could hear all the racket, and the fucker was busted. I couldnt turn it down.
Looking back things were loud when I was dipping too. A ton of crap constantly running through my head, "will I get caught? Do I have cancer? Where can I hide my tin? Do I have $5.25 for a tin in the morning? What excuse will I use tonight to leave the house to get my night cap in?, did I leave flakes around the toilet, did my daughter see me slip that lipper in?, etc.." things that once again, only I could hear.
Today I was at peace.
All those questions have been answered and concerns squashed. My volume knob was at whatever the fuck I wanted it to be at, because I am in control now. Will I still get some static from time to time? Probably, but I know how to adjust the volume now.
It's actually a very liberating feeling, one I wish I wouldn't have waited so long to get back. Because I did have control over my volume button 15 years ago.
Newbies...you have enough noise going on inside your brains. Try not to let some of the bullshit that goes on from time to time on this site get to you and make it louder.
I'm here to tell you and am living proof that if you stick to the ktc program, you too will find peace.
Dont try and reinvent the wheel, don't try and tweek iit a little bit, or throw in your special little wrinkle. Stay the course. Veer off a little, we will help you back on. Go off the tracks like a freak, we may let you spiral out of control and deem you unworth the effort.
Stay the course boys and girls. The peace and control are totally worth the fight.
Stay Quit.
Diesel2112 371
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Congrats on over one year nic free Diesel!
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Congrats on over one year nic free Diesel!
You are static, you help nobody and don't buy in. I choose to tune you out. Thanks for proving my point. I muting you and rolling on.
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Congrats on over one year nic free Diesel!
You are static, you help nobody and don't buy in. I choose to tune you out. Thanks for proving my point. I muting you and rolling on.
Holy crap. That was amazing. You, sir, are a badass. (half-homo)
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It fucking sucked. I was 5 days quit and it was LOUD.Â
Not LOUD, as in a blaring music loud, but loud as in I was getting hit and hitting myself with a million different things, that nobody could hear but me.
"Can I do this? will I cave? how can I do this or that without dip? what's that discomfort in my chest? is ktc and these loony people for me? how can I drive my sales route without dip? what if I have another panic attack? I can't be depressed, can I? Im too manly to see a counselor, will my wife ever forgive me? will my family forgive me? I'm leaving Ktc, fuck I need to come back to ktc, will they take me back? Oh good they took me back, fuck they took me back this is still hard, when will I feel better? when will I feel normal? was dip THAT bad? Could I be a social dipper?" and on and on and on..."
My brain was fucking ROCKING and ROLLING. The volume knob to my brain was at 11, yet only I could hear all the racket, and the fucker was busted. I couldnt turn it down.
Looking back things were loud when I was dipping too. A ton of crap constantly running through my head, "will I get caught? Do I have cancer? Where can I hide my tin? Do I have $5.25 for a tin in the morning? What excuse will I use tonight to leave the house to get my night cap in?, did I leave flakes around the toilet, did my daughter see me slip that lipper in?, etc.." things that once again, only I could hear.Â
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OMG!!! this is me right now!!!!!!!!!! I really hope I can make it to the last part of your post!!!! 30+ years dipping, I really want to do it this time!! but I'm am going NUTS right now!!!!!!
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It fucking sucked. I was 5 days quit and it was LOUD.Â
Not LOUD, as in a blaring music loud, but loud as in I was getting hit and hitting myself with a million different things, that nobody could hear but me.
"Can I do this? will I cave? how can I do this or that without dip? what's that discomfort in my chest? is ktc and these loony people for me? how can I drive my sales route without dip? what if I have another panic attack? I can't be depressed, can I? Im too manly to see a counselor, will my wife ever forgive me? will my family forgive me? I'm leaving Ktc, fuck I need to come back to ktc, will they take me back? Oh good they took me back, fuck they took me back this is still hard, when will I feel better? when will I feel normal? was dip THAT bad? Could I be a social dipper?" and on and on and on..."
My brain was fucking ROCKING and ROLLING. The volume knob to my brain was at 11, yet only I could hear all the racket, and the fucker was busted. I couldnt turn it down.
Looking back things were loud when I was dipping too. A ton of crap constantly running through my head, "will I get caught? Do I have cancer? Where can I hide my tin? Do I have $5.25 for a tin in the morning? What excuse will I use tonight to leave the house to get my night cap in?, did I leave flakes around the toilet, did my daughter see me slip that lipper in?, etc.." things that once again, only I could hear.Â
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OMG!!! this is me right now!!!!!!!!!! I really hope I can make it to the last part of your post!!!! 30+ years dipping, I really want to do it this time!! but I'm am going NUTS right now!!!!!!
We all are a little nuts at the beginning. It's normal.
5 days is awesome, and don't "hope" you will be here in a year. Get through today. I'll help. Tomorrow, we'll help each other as well. You are on the same path as badass diesel and the rest of us. Walk with us. You can do this.
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We all are a little nuts at the beginning. It's normal.
5 days is awesome, and don't "hope" you will be here in a year. Get through today. I'll help. Tomorrow, we'll help each other as well. You are on the same path as badass diesel and the rest of us. Walk with us. You can do this.
Thanks! all the support on this site is awesome!!! Definetly got me through last night!!! Glad I stumbled on this site.......Well, actually, I'm glad I was guided to this site!!!
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It fucking sucked. I was 5 days quit and it was LOUD.Â
Not LOUD, as in a blaring music loud, but loud as in I was getting hit and hitting myself with a million different things, that nobody could hear but me.
"Can I do this? will I cave? how can I do this or that without dip? what's that discomfort in my chest? is ktc and these loony people for me? how can I drive my sales route without dip? what if I have another panic attack? I can't be depressed, can I? Im too manly to see a counselor, will my wife ever forgive me? will my family forgive me? I'm leaving Ktc, fuck I need to come back to ktc, will they take me back? Oh good they took me back, fuck they took me back this is still hard, when will I feel better? when will I feel normal? was dip THAT bad? Could I be a social dipper?" and on and on and on..."
My brain was fucking ROCKING and ROLLING. The volume knob to my brain was at 11, yet only I could hear all the racket, and the fucker was busted. I couldnt turn it down.
Looking back things were loud when I was dipping too. A ton of crap constantly running through my head, "will I get caught? Do I have cancer? Where can I hide my tin? Do I have $5.25 for a tin in the morning? What excuse will I use tonight to leave the house to get my night cap in?, did I leave flakes around the toilet, did my daughter see me slip that lipper in?, etc.." things that once again, only I could hear.Â
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OMG!!! this is me right now!!!!!!!!!! I really hope I can make it to the last part of your post!!!! 30+ years dipping, I really want to do it this time!! but I'm am going NUTS right now!!!!!!
Like Waste said, do not HOPE my friend. You WILL do this
If a pussy like me can do it, anyone can. We will help you every step of the way. Dont worry about a year. Just today.
Welcome!!!
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Had been getting my ass kicked the past few weeks. Out of nowhere...wild anxiety, near panic attacks, frightfulness...like I was back in the first few weeks. I COULD NOT figure out why as my quit had been rolling strong.
So I went to see my shrink and was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder. (Actually rustaf diagnosed me with it first in Anxiety and Depression part of the wild card section, guys a champ).
What the fuck. I didn't even know that was possible. Post traumatic stress disorder over a year after quitting chew??? FUCK!!! Shrink said that I struggled so much with my quit last summer and was so traumatic to my brain and body that certain triggers like warmer weather, swimming in my pool, planning vacation, having the kids home from school, going to my daughters dance recital, etc...caused instant anxiety. He said those events were such a struggle and so traumatic for me to get through last year, that on some level my brain was working like someone who had been a victim or rape, witnessed a tragic murder, or had been shot it War??? WHAT THE FUCK. I Couldn't believe what I was hearing. But he said that it was my wondering THOUGHTS that were really fucking me, as beyond the pain in the ass anxiety, I THOUGHT I was going to go back to that place I was in last year. A DARK place filled with panic, fear and fucked up thoughts. A place I NEVER want to go back to again. He suggested I go back to my counselor, so I did.
Thank God.
She reminded me that the person I feared going back to really wasn't me at all. It was a fucked up one time version of me who was fighting an addiction so powerful that is literally had me thinking like a crazy person in order to get me back on the can.
But I didn't. I fought my balls off, and have stayed away from that shit for 382 days now.
That person I fear going back, wasn't me and is now dead. How I couldn't see that without the help of this lady is beyond me, but it is true.
I feel great now. Hurdle 6,765 cleared.
While this shit does get easier, be aware...their are big fucking 2 X 4's ready to smack you in the face at any time.
Stay quit, you guys.
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Had been getting my ass kicked the past few weeks. Out of nowhere...wild anxiety, near panic attacks, frightfulness...like I was back in the first few weeks. I COULD NOT figure out why as my quit had been rolling strong.
So I went to see my shrink and was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder. (Actually rustaf diagnosed me with it first in Anxiety and Depression part of the wild card section, guys a champ).
What the fuck. I didn't even know that was possible. Post traumatic stress disorder over a year after quitting chew??? FUCK!!! Shrink said that I struggled so much with my quit last summer and was so traumatic to my brain and body that certain triggers like warmer weather, swimming in my pool, planning vacation, having the kids home from school, going to my daughters dance recital, etc...caused instant anxiety. He said those events were such a struggle and so traumatic for me to get through last year, that on some level my brain was working like someone who had been a victim or rape, witnessed a tragic murder, or had been shot it War??? WHAT THE FUCK. I Couldn't believe what I was hearing. But he said that it was my wondering THOUGHTS that were really fucking me, as beyond the pain in the ass anxiety, I THOUGHT I was going to go back to that place I was in last year. A DARK place filled with panic, fear and fucked up thoughts. A place I NEVER want to go back to again. He suggested I go back to my counselor, so I did.
Thank God.
She reminded me that the person I feared going back to really wasn't me at all. It was a fucked up one time version of me who was fighting an addiction so powerful that is literally had me thinking like a crazy person in order to get me back on the can.
But I didn't. I fought my balls off, and have stayed away from that shit for 382 days now.
That person I fear going back, wasn't me and is now dead. How I couldn't see that without the help of this lady is beyond me, but it is true.
I feel great now. Hurdle 6,765 cleared.
While this shit does get easier, be aware...their are big fucking 2 X 4's ready to smack you in the face at any time.
Stay quit, you guys.
You're a fucking stud. Thanks for sharing this stuff.
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Had been getting my ass kicked the past few weeks. Out of nowhere...wild anxiety, near panic attacks, frightfulness...like I was back in the first few weeks. I COULD NOT figure out why as my quit had been rolling strong.
So I went to see my shrink and was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder. (Actually rustaf diagnosed me with it first in Anxiety and Depression part of the wild card section, guys a champ).
What the fuck. I didn't even know that was possible. Post traumatic stress disorder over a year after quitting chew??? FUCK!!! Shrink said that I struggled so much with my quit last summer and was so traumatic to my brain and body that certain triggers like warmer weather, swimming in my pool, planning vacation, having the kids home from school, going to my daughters dance recital, etc...caused instant anxiety. He said those events were such a struggle and so traumatic for me to get through last year, that on some level my brain was working like someone who had been a victim or rape, witnessed a tragic murder, or had been shot it War??? WHAT THE FUCK. I Couldn't believe what I was hearing. But he said that it was my wondering THOUGHTS that were really fucking me, as beyond the pain in the ass anxiety, I THOUGHT I was going to go back to that place I was in last year. A DARK place filled with panic, fear and fucked up thoughts. A place I NEVER want to go back to again. He suggested I go back to my counselor, so I did.
Thank God.
She reminded me that the person I feared going back to really wasn't me at all. It was a fucked up one time version of me who was fighting an addiction so powerful that is literally had me thinking like a crazy person in order to get me back on the can.
But I didn't. I fought my balls off, and have stayed away from that shit for 382 days now.
That person I fear going back, wasn't me and is now dead. How I couldn't see that without the help of this lady is beyond me, but it is true.
I feel great now. Hurdle 6,765 cleared.
While this shit does get easier, be aware...their are big fucking 2 X 4's ready to smack you in the face at any time.
Stay quit, you guys.
Proud to be quit with brother!
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Had been getting my ass kicked the past few weeks. Out of nowhere...wild anxiety, near panic attacks, frightfulness...like I was back in the first few weeks. I COULD NOT figure out why as my quit had been rolling strong.
So I went to see my shrink and was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder. (Actually rustaf diagnosed me with it first in Anxiety and Depression part of the wild card section, guys a champ).
What the fuck. I didn't even know that was possible. Post traumatic stress disorder over a year after quitting chew??? FUCK!!! Shrink said that I struggled so much with my quit last summer and was so traumatic to my brain and body that certain triggers like warmer weather, swimming in my pool, planning vacation, having the kids home from school, going to my daughters dance recital, etc...caused instant anxiety. He said those events were such a struggle and so traumatic for me to get through last year, that on some level my brain was working like someone who had been a victim or rape, witnessed a tragic murder, or had been shot it War??? WHAT THE FUCK. I Couldn't believe what I was hearing. But he said that it was my wondering THOUGHTS that were really fucking me, as beyond the pain in the ass anxiety, I THOUGHT I was going to go back to that place I was in last year. A DARK place filled with panic, fear and fucked up thoughts. A place I NEVER want to go back to again. He suggested I go back to my counselor, so I did.
Thank God.
She reminded me that the person I feared going back to really wasn't me at all. It was a fucked up one time version of me who was fighting an addiction so powerful that is literally had me thinking like a crazy person in order to get me back on the can.Â
But I didn't. I fought my balls off, and have stayed away from that shit for 382 days now.Â
That person I fear going back, wasn't me and is now dead. How I couldn't see that without the help of this lady is beyond me, but it is true.
I feel great now. Hurdle 6,765 cleared.
While this shit does get easier, be aware...their are big fucking 2 X 4's ready to smack you in the face at any time.Â
Stay quit, you guys.
You're a fucking stud. Thanks for sharing this stuff.
I had bee hesitant to share this as I don't want to scare anyone and a tad embarasing to honest. But I figure if it helps one person, it would be worth it.
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Had been getting my ass kicked the past few weeks. Out of nowhere...wild anxiety, near panic attacks, frightfulness...like I was back in the first few weeks. I COULD NOT figure out why as my quit had been rolling strong.
So I went to see my shrink and was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder. (Actually rustaf diagnosed me with it first in Anxiety and Depression part of the wild card section, guys a champ).
What the fuck. I didn't even know that was possible. Post traumatic stress disorder over a year after quitting chew??? FUCK!!! Shrink said that I struggled so much with my quit last summer and was so traumatic to my brain and body that certain triggers like warmer weather, swimming in my pool, planning vacation, having the kids home from school, going to my daughters dance recital, etc...caused instant anxiety. He said those events were such a struggle and so traumatic for me to get through last year, that on some level my brain was working like someone who had been a victim or rape, witnessed a tragic murder, or had been shot it War??? WHAT THE FUCK. I Couldn't believe what I was hearing.  But he said that it was my wondering THOUGHTS that were really fucking me, as beyond the pain in the ass anxiety, I THOUGHT I was going to go back to that place I was in last year. A DARK place filled with panic, fear and fucked up thoughts. A place I NEVER want to go back to again. He suggested I go back to my counselor, so I did.
Thank God.
She reminded me that the person I feared going back to really wasn't me at all. It was a fucked up one time version of me who was fighting an addiction so powerful that is literally had me thinking like a crazy person in order to get me back on the can.Â
But I didn't. I fought my balls off, and have stayed away from that shit for 382 days now.Â
That person I fear going back, wasn't me and is now dead. How I couldn't see that without the help of this lady is beyond me, but it is true.
I feel great now. Hurdle 6,765 cleared.
While this shit does get easier, be aware...their are big fucking 2 X 4's ready to smack you in the face at any time.Â
Stay quit, you guys.
You're a fucking stud. Thanks for sharing this stuff.
I had bee hesitant to share this as I don't want to scare anyone and a tad embarasing to honest. But I figure if it helps one person, it would be worth it.
I deal with panic all the time lately. Any time I make the mistake of thinking towards the future. Past today is too much for me. Your a bad assed dude and I am glad you put this out there. It helps me to know that it can be normal! We fucked ourselves for decades! Of course we are gonna be traumatized. It doesn't mean we are broken. It means we are fixing ourselves! ODAAT! One anxiety stricken event at a time. It all adds up to a win! I definitely quit with you today!
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Had been getting my ass kicked the past few weeks. Out of nowhere...wild anxiety, near panic attacks, frightfulness...like I was back in the first few weeks. I COULD NOT figure out why as my quit had been rolling strong.
So I went to see my shrink and was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder. (Actually rustaf diagnosed me with it first in Anxiety and Depression part of the wild card section, guys a champ).
What the fuck. I didn't even know that was possible. Post traumatic stress disorder over a year after quitting chew??? FUCK!!! Shrink said that I struggled so much with my quit last summer and was so traumatic to my brain and body that certain triggers like warmer weather, swimming in my pool, planning vacation, having the kids home from school, going to my daughters dance recital, etc...caused instant anxiety. He said those events were such a struggle and so traumatic for me to get through last year, that on some level my brain was working like someone who had been a victim or rape, witnessed a tragic murder, or had been shot it War??? WHAT THE FUCK. I Couldn't believe what I was hearing.  But he said that it was my wondering THOUGHTS that were really fucking me, as beyond the pain in the ass anxiety, I THOUGHT I was going to go back to that place I was in last year. A DARK place filled with panic, fear and fucked up thoughts. A place I NEVER want to go back to again. He suggested I go back to my counselor, so I did.
Thank God.
She reminded me that the person I feared going back to really wasn't me at all. It was a fucked up one time version of me who was fighting an addiction so powerful that is literally had me thinking like a crazy person in order to get me back on the can.Â
But I didn't. I fought my balls off, and have stayed away from that shit for 382 days now.Â
That person I fear going back, wasn't me and is now dead. How I couldn't see that without the help of this lady is beyond me, but it is true.
I feel great now. Hurdle 6,765 cleared.
While this shit does get easier, be aware...their are big fucking 2 X 4's ready to smack you in the face at any time.Â
Stay quit, you guys.
You're a fucking stud. Thanks for sharing this stuff.
I had bee hesitant to share this as I don't want to scare anyone and a tad embarasing to honest. But I figure if it helps one person, it would be worth it.
I deal with panic all the time lately. Any time I make the mistake of thinking towards the future. Past today is too much for me. Your a bad assed dude and I am glad you put this out there. It helps me to know that it can be normal! We fucked ourselves for decades! Of course we are gonna be traumatized. It doesn't mean we are broken. It means we are fixing ourselves! ODAAT! One anxiety stricken event at a time. It all adds up to a win! I definitely quit with you today!
Sucks sometimes. I finally get passed looking ahead and I get ass rammed looking back. Really bummed me out for awhile, like I couldn't fucking win.
But...with some time, reflection, perspective and logical thinking you can get back on track.
If an idiot like me can do it. Any crouton can.
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Had been getting my ass kicked the past few weeks. Out of nowhere...wild anxiety, near panic attacks, frightfulness...like I was back in the first few weeks. I COULD NOT figure out why as my quit had been rolling strong.
So I went to see my shrink and was diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder. (Actually rustaf diagnosed me with it first in Anxiety and Depression part of the wild card section, guys a champ).
What the fuck. I didn't even know that was possible. Post traumatic stress disorder over a year after quitting chew??? FUCK!!! Shrink said that I struggled so much with my quit last summer and was so traumatic to my brain and body that certain triggers like warmer weather, swimming in my pool, planning vacation, having the kids home from school, going to my daughters dance recital, etc...caused instant anxiety. He said those events were such a struggle and so traumatic for me to get through last year, that on some level my brain was working like someone who had been a victim or rape, witnessed a tragic murder, or had been shot it War??? WHAT THE FUCK. I Couldn't believe what I was hearing.  But he said that it was my wondering THOUGHTS that were really fucking me, as beyond the pain in the ass anxiety, I THOUGHT I was going to go back to that place I was in last year. A DARK place filled with panic, fear and fucked up thoughts. A place I NEVER want to go back to again. He suggested I go back to my counselor, so I did.
Thank God.
She reminded me that the person I feared going back to really wasn't me at all. It was a fucked up one time version of me who was fighting an addiction so powerful that is literally had me thinking like a crazy person in order to get me back on the can.Â
But I didn't. I fought my balls off, and have stayed away from that shit for 382 days now.Â
That person I fear going back, wasn't me and is now dead. How I couldn't see that without the help of this lady is beyond me, but it is true.
I feel great now. Hurdle 6,765 cleared.
While this shit does get easier, be aware...their are big fucking 2 X 4's ready to smack you in the face at any time.Â
Stay quit, you guys.
You're a fucking stud. Thanks for sharing this stuff.
I had bee hesitant to share this as I don't want to scare anyone and a tad embarasing to honest. But I figure if it helps one person, it would be worth it.
I deal with panic all the time lately. Any time I make the mistake of thinking towards the future. Past today is too much for me. Your a bad assed dude and I am glad you put this out there. It helps me to know that it can be normal! We fucked ourselves for decades! Of course we are gonna be traumatized. It doesn't mean we are broken. It means we are fixing ourselves! ODAAT! One anxiety stricken event at a time. It all adds up to a win! I definitely quit with you today!
Takes some big balls to lay it to here like that Diesel. Proud to be quit with you!
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Thanks for sharing Diesel. I'm trying not to get freaked out about it though. I hope this doesn't happen to everyone!
I have a very pragmatic question about your anxiety issues. Are you dying for a dip amidst these moods or is that the last thing on your mind?
Right now, I'm completely obsessed with the hope that one day, my cravings will diminish and that I won't feel like gnawing on my arm without dip. If I have anxiety and depression, so be it. It's probably related to more than just dip for me anyway. For whatever reason, I'm less fearful of that. I just want to live free of living one step away from driving to 7-11.
Anyway, good luck with everything. I hope you get some peace and quell all the after effects of our shared menace.
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Thanks for sharing Diesel. I'm trying not to get freaked out about it though. I hope this doesn't happen to everyone!
I have a very pragmatic question about your anxiety issues. Are you dying for a dip amidst these moods or is that the last thing on your mind?
Right now, I'm completely obsessed with the hope that one day, my cravings will diminish and that I won't feel like gnawing on my arm without dip. If I have anxiety and depression, so be it. It's probably related to more than just dip for me anyway. For whatever reason, I'm less fearful of that. I just want to live free of living one step away from driving to 7-11.
Anyway, good luck with everything. I hope you get some peace and quell all the after effects of our shared menace.
Don't worry. I think I'm just "lucky" with this ptsd thing. I've read a lot of stuff on here, but never anything about that. Think that's why I was so shocked by it.
Am I dying for a dip? Nope. Not one bit. I can beat a crave in 2.7 seconds, NOW..
When I first quit...I honestly believe every time I had a crave it came in the form of an anxiety attack. It literally was hell. The crave was bad but I honestly did not think I could live my life without dip. Flowers had no smell, food had no taste, my phone wrang I didn't answer, my email inbox had 1,000 unopened emails, I even questioned if I loved my own fucking kids. I was down and out, big time. Some of the thoughts in my head are unspeakable.
See, I'm not gonna bullshit here, I was a spoiled mother fucker growing up. Had a lot of stuff. My first car was a blue Z-28 my parents gave me. They paid for my college, books and spending money, they gave and did everything for me.
When I quit I had to do it by myself, well I had a lot of help from here and other resources but ultimately I was the one who had to do it.
I wanted so badly for someone else to quit for me, or tell me when I would be cured it drove me fucking ape shit. My mind and body were not used to this and I honestly believe that is why I struggled so much.
Why I didn't go back to the can, I have no idea. I vividly remember at one point my shrink considering if I should go back and ween myself back onto and off of chew again, or go for some nrt shit.
But, thanks to some great people, some meds and this site I dug down and stuck with it.
Don't let my story scare you. I'm a pussy. Let it inspire you that if a dumb ass goofball like myself can get through this shit, certainly YOU can too.
Everyone's journey is different, don't let my fucked up path influence you negatively.
You ever need anything, pm me anytime.
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Thanks for sharing Diesel. I'm trying not to get freaked out about it though. I hope this doesn't happen to everyone!
I have a very pragmatic question about your anxiety issues. Are you dying for a dip amidst these moods or is that the last thing on your mind?
Right now, I'm completely obsessed with the hope that one day, my cravings will diminish and that I won't feel like gnawing on my arm without dip. If I have anxiety and depression, so be it. It's probably related to more than just dip for me anyway. For whatever reason, I'm less fearful of that. I just want to live free of living one step away from driving to 7-11.Â
Anyway, good luck with everything. I hope you get some peace and quell all the after effects of our shared menace.
Don't worry. I think I'm just "lucky" with this ptsd thing. I've read a lot of stuff on here, but never anything about that. Think that's why I was so shocked by it.
Am I dying for a dip? Nope. Not one bit. I can beat a crave in 2.7 seconds, NOW..
When I first quit...I honestly believe every time I had a crave it came in the form of an anxiety attack. It literally was hell. The crave was bad but I honestly did not think I could live my life without dip. Flowers had no smell, food had no taste, my phone wrang I didn't answer, my email inbox had 1,000 unopened emails, I even questioned if I loved my own fucking kids. I was down and out, big time. Some of the thoughts in my head are unspeakable.
See, I'm not gonna bullshit here, I was a spoiled mother fucker growing up. Had a lot of stuff. My first car was a blue Z-28 my parents gave me. They paid for my college, books and spending money, they gave and did everything for me.
When I quit I had to do it by myself, well I had a lot of help from here and other resources but ultimately I was the one who had to do it.
I wanted so badly for someone else to quit for me, or tell me when I would be cured it drove me fucking ape shit. My mind and body were not used to this and I honestly believe that is why I struggled so much.
Why I didn't go back to the can, I have no idea. I vividly remember at one point my shrink considering if I should go back and ween myself back onto and off of chew again, or go for some nrt shit.
But, thanks to some great people, some meds and this site I dug down and stuck with it.
Don't let my story scare you. I'm a pussy. Let it inspire you that if a dumb ass goofball like myself can get through this shit, certainly YOU can too.
Everyone's journey is different, don't let my fucked up path influence you negatively.
You ever need anything, pm me anytime.
Dave,
Today I think is day 2 for you. On day 2 your mind plays all sorts of flicked up games. The nicotine is working its way out of your body and fighting every step of the way. There are a lot if different experiences that people feel as they progress on their quit, but if you think of a bell curve, diesel's experience is way to the right. He has inspired and motivated many if us on here, but on day 2, you should be focused on getting through life on day 2. I am fortunate to not be at that extreme on the bell curve, and if you keep your word and post roll first thing in the morning you can do this. You will be able to drive past a 7-11 no problem. It will take a few days, maybe a bit longer, but you can do it.
If you post roll and keep your word. Have you posted roll in September today????
No post roll... No word to keep. No word to keep while the nicotine is whispering seductive thoughts in you ear on day 2 makes a right turn into 7-11 a lot easier to justify. Post roll dammit!! Let this work for you!
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Thanks for sharing Diesel. I'm trying not to get freaked out about it though. I hope this doesn't happen to everyone!
I have a very pragmatic question about your anxiety issues. Are you dying for a dip amidst these moods or is that the last thing on your mind?
Right now, I'm completely obsessed with the hope that one day, my cravings will diminish and that I won't feel like gnawing on my arm without dip. If I have anxiety and depression, so be it. It's probably related to more than just dip for me anyway. For whatever reason, I'm less fearful of that. I just want to live free of living one step away from driving to 7-11.Â
Anyway, good luck with everything. I hope you get some peace and quell all the after effects of our shared menace.
Don't worry. I think I'm just "lucky" with this ptsd thing. I've read a lot of stuff on here, but never anything about that. Think that's why I was so shocked by it.
Am I dying for a dip? Nope. Not one bit. I can beat a crave in 2.7 seconds, NOW..
When I first quit...I honestly believe every time I had a crave it came in the form of an anxiety attack. It literally was hell. The crave was bad but I honestly did not think I could live my life without dip. Flowers had no smell, food had no taste, my phone wrang I didn't answer, my email inbox had 1,000 unopened emails, I even questioned if I loved my own fucking kids. I was down and out, big time. Some of the thoughts in my head are unspeakable.
See, I'm not gonna bullshit here, I was a spoiled mother fucker growing up. Had a lot of stuff. My first car was a blue Z-28 my parents gave me. They paid for my college, books and spending money, they gave and did everything for me.
When I quit I had to do it by myself, well I had a lot of help from here and other resources but ultimately I was the one who had to do it.
I wanted so badly for someone else to quit for me, or tell me when I would be cured it drove me fucking ape shit. My mind and body were not used to this and I honestly believe that is why I struggled so much.
Why I didn't go back to the can, I have no idea. I vividly remember at one point my shrink considering if I should go back and ween myself back onto and off of chew again, or go for some nrt shit.
But, thanks to some great people, some meds and this site I dug down and stuck with it.
Don't let my story scare you. I'm a pussy. Let it inspire you that if a dumb ass goofball like myself can get through this shit, certainly YOU can too.
Everyone's journey is different, don't let my fucked up path influence you negatively.
You ever need anything, pm me anytime.
Dave,
Today I think is day 2 for you. On day 2 your mind plays all sorts of flicked up games. The nicotine is working its way out of your body and fighting every step of the way. There are a lot if different experiences that people feel as they progress on their quit, but if you think of a bell curve, diesel's experience is way to the right. He has inspired and motivated many if us on here, but on day 2, you should be focused on getting through life on day 2. I am fortunate to not be at that extreme on the bell curve, and if you keep your word and post roll first thing in the morning you can do this. You will be able to drive past a 7-11 no problem. It will take a few days, maybe a bit longer, but you can do it.
If you post roll and keep your word. Have you posted roll in September today????
No post roll... No word to keep. No word to keep while the nicotine is whispering seductive thoughts in you ear on day 2 makes a right turn into 7-11 a lot easier to justify. Post roll dammit!! Let this work for you!
Not sure why my roll call didn't work this morning but I think I got it on there now. Thanks for checking on me. Yes, true, I need to worry about today and not months from now. Patience, patience.
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I think this thread is a great service to this community Diesel. Thanks for sharing.
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I think this thread is a great service to this community Diesel. Thanks for sharing.
x 2.
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I think this thread is a great service to this community Diesel. Thanks for sharing.
x 2.
'clap' yep me too
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Thanks for sharing Diesel. I'm trying not to get freaked out about it though. I hope this doesn't happen to everyone!
I have a very pragmatic question about your anxiety issues. Are you dying for a dip amidst these moods or is that the last thing on your mind?
Right now, I'm completely obsessed with the hope that one day, my cravings will diminish and that I won't feel like gnawing on my arm without dip. If I have anxiety and depression, so be it. It's probably related to more than just dip for me anyway. For whatever reason, I'm less fearful of that. I just want to live free of living one step away from driving to 7-11.Â
Anyway, good luck with everything. I hope you get some peace and quell all the after effects of our shared menace.
Don't worry. I think I'm just "lucky" with this ptsd thing. I've read a lot of stuff on here, but never anything about that. Think that's why I was so shocked by it.
Am I dying for a dip? Nope. Not one bit. I can beat a crave in 2.7 seconds, NOW..
When I first quit...I honestly believe every time I had a crave it came in the form of an anxiety attack. It literally was hell. The crave was bad but I honestly did not think I could live my life without dip. Flowers had no smell, food had no taste, my phone wrang I didn't answer, my email inbox had 1,000 unopened emails, I even questioned if I loved my own fucking kids. I was down and out, big time. Some of the thoughts in my head are unspeakable.
See, I'm not gonna bullshit here, I was a spoiled mother fucker growing up. Had a lot of stuff. My first car was a blue Z-28 my parents gave me. They paid for my college, books and spending money, they gave and did everything for me.
When I quit I had to do it by myself, well I had a lot of help from here and other resources but ultimately I was the one who had to do it.
I wanted so badly for someone else to quit for me, or tell me when I would be cured it drove me fucking ape shit. My mind and body were not used to this and I honestly believe that is why I struggled so much.
Why I didn't go back to the can, I have no idea. I vividly remember at one point my shrink considering if I should go back and ween myself back onto and off of chew again, or go for some nrt shit.
But, thanks to some great people, some meds and this site I dug down and stuck with it.
Don't let my story scare you. I'm a pussy. Let it inspire you that if a dumb ass goofball like myself can get through this shit, certainly YOU can too.
Everyone's journey is different, don't let my fucked up path influence you negatively.
You ever need anything, pm me anytime.
Dave,
Today I think is day 2 for you. On day 2 your mind plays all sorts of flicked up games. The nicotine is working its way out of your body and fighting every step of the way. There are a lot if different experiences that people feel as they progress on their quit, but if you think of a bell curve, diesel's experience is way to the right. He has inspired and motivated many if us on here, but on day 2, you should be focused on getting through life on day 2. I am fortunate to not be at that extreme on the bell curve, and if you keep your word and post roll first thing in the morning you can do this. You will be able to drive past a 7-11 no problem. It will take a few days, maybe a bit longer, but you can do it.
If you post roll and keep your word. Have you posted roll in September today????
No post roll... No word to keep. No word to keep while the nicotine is whispering seductive thoughts in you ear on day 2 makes a right turn into 7-11 a lot easier to justify. Post roll dammit!! Let this work for you!
Not sure why my roll call didn't work this morning but I think I got it on there now. Thanks for checking on me. Yes, true, I need to worry about today and not months from now. Patience, patience.
Damn Deisel you had it bad. It reminds me of me for the 1st 2 months, but you sound like you were even worse. I am just lucky that you came before me and were willing to share with me how to get through it. I honestly do not know if I could have been successful without the investment you made in my quit.
Keep up the quit. And don't stop helping these noobs, you are damn good at it.
Ryan
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Thanks for sharing Diesel. I'm trying not to get freaked out about it though. I hope this doesn't happen to everyone!
I have a very pragmatic question about your anxiety issues. Are you dying for a dip amidst these moods or is that the last thing on your mind?
Right now, I'm completely obsessed with the hope that one day, my cravings will diminish and that I won't feel like gnawing on my arm without dip. If I have anxiety and depression, so be it. It's probably related to more than just dip for me anyway. For whatever reason, I'm less fearful of that. I just want to live free of living one step away from driving to 7-11.Â
Anyway, good luck with everything. I hope you get some peace and quell all the after effects of our shared menace.
Don't worry. I think I'm just "lucky" with this ptsd thing. I've read a lot of stuff on here, but never anything about that. Think that's why I was so shocked by it.
Am I dying for a dip? Nope. Not one bit. I can beat a crave in 2.7 seconds, NOW..
When I first quit...I honestly believe every time I had a crave it came in the form of an anxiety attack. It literally was hell. The crave was bad but I honestly did not think I could live my life without dip. Flowers had no smell, food had no taste, my phone wrang I didn't answer, my email inbox had 1,000 unopened emails, I even questioned if I loved my own fucking kids. I was down and out, big time. Some of the thoughts in my head are unspeakable.
See, I'm not gonna bullshit here, I was a spoiled mother fucker growing up. Had a lot of stuff. My first car was a blue Z-28 my parents gave me. They paid for my college, books and spending money, they gave and did everything for me.
When I quit I had to do it by myself, well I had a lot of help from here and other resources but ultimately I was the one who had to do it.
I wanted so badly for someone else to quit for me, or tell me when I would be cured it drove me fucking ape shit. My mind and body were not used to this and I honestly believe that is why I struggled so much.
Why I didn't go back to the can, I have no idea. I vividly remember at one point my shrink considering if I should go back and ween myself back onto and off of chew again, or go for some nrt shit.
But, thanks to some great people, some meds and this site I dug down and stuck with it.
Don't let my story scare you. I'm a pussy. Let it inspire you that if a dumb ass goofball like myself can get through this shit, certainly YOU can too.
Everyone's journey is different, don't let my fucked up path influence you negatively.
You ever need anything, pm me anytime.
Dave,
Today I think is day 2 for you. On day 2 your mind plays all sorts of flicked up games. The nicotine is working its way out of your body and fighting every step of the way. There are a lot if different experiences that people feel as they progress on their quit, but if you think of a bell curve, diesel's experience is way to the right. He has inspired and motivated many if us on here, but on day 2, you should be focused on getting through life on day 2. I am fortunate to not be at that extreme on the bell curve, and if you keep your word and post roll first thing in the morning you can do this. You will be able to drive past a 7-11 no problem. It will take a few days, maybe a bit longer, but you can do it.
If you post roll and keep your word. Have you posted roll in September today????
No post roll... No word to keep. No word to keep while the nicotine is whispering seductive thoughts in you ear on day 2 makes a right turn into 7-11 a lot easier to justify. Post roll dammit!! Let this work for you!
Not sure why my roll call didn't work this morning but I think I got it on there now. Thanks for checking on me. Yes, true, I need to worry about today and not months from now. Patience, patience.
Damn Deisel you had it bad. It reminds me of me for the 1st 2 months, but you sound like you were even worse. I am just lucky that you came before me and were willing to share with me how to get through it. I honestly do not know if I could have been successful without the investment you made in my quit.
Keep up the quit. And don't stop helping these noobs, you are damn good at it.
Ryan
Yeah. I had it pretty fucking bad. Which is why I left the site for awhile. Thought I was gonna die from quitting. I could barely function . Thank God I work for my parents (still spoiled) or I would have been fired from any real job.
But I never caved and I never lied.
Think that's why I get so pissed at people who not only cave but lie about it or blow ot off like its no big deal.
Fuck it. It was some FOUL shit to go through, but I survived.
Little embarrassing but ill share the story. I don't give a fuck.
If it helps one person, its worth it in my book.
Today, I feel great. And that's the day that's most important around here, right?
Have a good weekend, you guys!
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Man, it's fun watching you lay it all out 'Popcorn' . Sometimes it's 'Finger' or 'bangin' other times it's 'chain' then they look like :blink: and they usually 'blowup'. What they don't understand is you're just trying to 'help'. Although I haven't seen much :asskiss: or 'bj' in the end 'arse' they've gone from 'zombie' to 'dance'. So, Big D...
'Cheers' brother. No 'B.S.'
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Man, it's fun watching you lay it all out 'Popcorn' . Sometimes it's 'Finger' or 'bangin' other times it's 'chain' then they look like :blink: and they usually 'blowup'. What they don't understand is you're just trying to 'help'. Although I haven't seen much :asskiss: or 'bj' in the end 'arse' they've gone from 'zombie' to 'dance'. So, Big D...
'Cheers' brother. No 'B.S.'
Whoa. That was some strong emoticinning. Impressive. And thanks.
'embarrassed'
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********MICHIGAN MEET UP*************
Ann Arbor Buffalo Wild Wings on Tuesday June 25th at 6 pm. Spartanron , Nickald , IG2H and whoever else wants to join in.
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********MICHIGAN MEET UP*************
Ann Arbor Buffalo Wild Wings on Tuesday June 25th at 6 pm. Spartanron , Nickald , IG2H and whoever else wants to join in.
Used to go there a lot as I went to college at Eastern. Sadly I cannot make it. Little 8 yr old Miss Diesel has a softball game I cannot miss.
Have some mango habanero wings and brews for me!!!
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********MICHIGAN MEET UP*************
Ann Arbor Buffalo Wild Wings on Tuesday June 25th at 6 pm. Spartanron , Nickald , IG2H and whoever else wants to join in.
Used to go there a lot as I went to college at Eastern. Sadly I cannot make it. Little 8 yr old Miss Diesel has a softball game I cannot miss.
Have some mango habanero wings and brews for me!!!
Have a good time. We'll have some for you and catch you next time.
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********MICHIGAN MEET UP*************
Ann Arbor Buffalo Wild Wings on Tuesday June 25th at 6 pm. Spartanron , Nickald , IG2H and whoever else wants to join in.
Used to go there a lot as I went to college at Eastern. Sadly I cannot make it. Little 8 yr old Miss Diesel has a softball game I cannot miss.
Have some mango habanero wings and brews for me!!!
Have a good time. We'll have some for you and catch you next time.
Damn it!!! Wish you guys would have that Michigan Meet Up in Eugene, Oregon instead. Really love to hang with you Bad Mother $#@er's!! Maybe after Oregon dominates the Pac-12 this year we will come rule the Big-8 or 9 or ???? Good excuse to go thump on some Wolverines and see the likes....QLF men from ME!!
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Staying in a hotel in Grand Rapids for a Rush concert. Have to admit I'm having some anxiety like last summer when the wife and I went away, but am managing it pretty well, much better than last year that's for sure. 392 days quit and still a process for me which partially pisses me off, yet partially am encouraged as by tackling these past traumatic events is getting easier.
Also was helpful when this morning I went down to the gift shop to buy a paper and some disheveled raspy voiced ass hat cut in front of me and in a panic asked "do you carry Marlboro red lights in a box???!!!!"
The cashier lady almost apologetically says "yes...but they are $9.50 a pack..."
"I DON'T CARE, GIVE ME 2 PACKS". was his response and I then watched him walk out onto the street and smoke down a cig in about 2 minutes.
I never smoked but sadly I could relate.
I may still struggle with anxiety but at least I'm not a slave anymore.
I'm still pissed that I ever started that fucking shit. God I hate it.
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Have fun at the show man. I f'ing hated Rush until my BFF dragged me to see them live. I have seen them live 15 times now, and I am still blown away by how those 3 guys put out that wall of noise! Top 10 for sure all time bassist, guitarist, and drummer... Damn I am wishing I was seeing them tonight too... Just think about how the low notes will massage you if you are feeling jittery.
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Have fun at the show man. I f'ing hated Rush until my BFF dragged me to see them live. I have seen them live 15 times now, and I am still blown away by how those 3 guys put out that wall of noise! Top 10 for sure all time bassist, guitarist, and drummer... Damn I am wishing I was seeing them tonight too... Just think about how the low notes will massage you if you are feeling jittery.
What a fucking show!!! Wow! Was therapeutic as well. Some of those songs really helped me through some rough times. Long live RUSH..
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Have fun at the show man. I f'ing hated Rush until my BFF dragged me to see them live. I have seen them live 15 times now, and I am still blown away by how those 3 guys put out that wall of noise! Top 10 for sure all time bassist, guitarist, and drummer... Damn I am wishing I was seeing them tonight too... Just think about how the low notes will massage you if you are feeling jittery.
What a fucking show!!! Wow! Was therapeutic as well. Some of those songs really helped me through some rough times. Long live RUSH..
My turn July 28th. Can't freakin' wait!!
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Have fun at the show man. I f'ing hated Rush until my BFF dragged me to see them live. I have seen them live 15 times now, and I am still blown away by how those 3 guys put out that wall of noise! Top 10 for sure all time bassist, guitarist, and drummer... Damn I am wishing I was seeing them tonight too... Just think about how the low notes will massage you if you are feeling jittery.
What a fucking show!!! Wow! Was therapeutic as well. Some of those songs really helped me through some rough times. Long live RUSH..
My turn July 28th. Can't freakin' wait!!
I had sweet seats and caught a tee shirt thrown by Geddy. You would have thought I caught a fucking td in the Superbowl.
It really is amazing. 3 dudes just jamming like fucking bosses like 40 years after their first album.
No swearing, no dancing douch bags, no DJ's...just bare bones bass, guitar, and drums. Neil is a fucking MACHINE.
Enjoy the show man. I know you will.
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Have fun at the show man. I f'ing hated Rush until my BFF dragged me to see them live. I have seen them live 15 times now, and I am still blown away by how those 3 guys put out that wall of noise! Top 10 for sure all time bassist, guitarist, and drummer... Damn I am wishing I was seeing them tonight too... Just think about how the low notes will massage you if you are feeling jittery.
What a fucking show!!! Wow! Was therapeutic as well. Some of those songs really helped me through some rough times. Long live RUSH..
My turn July 28th. Can't freakin' wait!!
I had sweet seats and caught a tee shirt thrown by Geddy. You would have thought I caught a fucking td in the Superbowl.
It really is amazing. 3 dudes just jamming like fucking bosses like 40 years after their first album.
No swearing, no dancing douch bags, no DJ's...just bare bones bass, guitar, and drums. Neil is a fucking MACHINE.
Enjoy the show man. I know you will.
I still remember the first moment of that first time I heard Tom Sawyer come exploding out of the house. Oh. My. God!!
You know how awesome Neil is?? I spend the entire show mesmerized by him and I'm a freakin' guitar player!
Congrats on the T-shirt dude. Too damn cool...
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Have fun at the show man. I f'ing hated Rush until my BFF dragged me to see them live. I have seen them live 15 times now, and I am still blown away by how those 3 guys put out that wall of noise! Top 10 for sure all time bassist, guitarist, and drummer... Damn I am wishing I was seeing them tonight too... Just think about how the low notes will massage you if you are feeling jittery.
What a fucking show!!! Wow! Was therapeutic as well. Some of those songs really helped me through some rough times. Long live RUSH..
My turn July 28th. Can't freakin' wait!!
I had sweet seats and caught a tee shirt thrown by Geddy. You would have thought I caught a fucking td in the Superbowl.
It really is amazing. 3 dudes just jamming like fucking bosses like 40 years after their first album.
No swearing, no dancing douch bags, no DJ's...just bare bones bass, guitar, and drums. Neil is a fucking MACHINE.
Enjoy the show man. I know you will.
I still remember the first moment of that first time I heard Tom Sawyer come exploding out of the house. Oh. My. God!!
You know how awesome Neil is?? I spend the entire show mesmerized by him and I'm a freakin' guitar player!
Congrats on the T-shirt dude. Too damn cool...
I am blown away by all of them. Geddy is right behind Entwistle as my personal #2 Bassist all time: on top of that he sings and plays keyboards often all at the same time! I think that may be the reason I love these guys, they are just such crazy good musicians. Alex is the most underrated guitar god out there, but Neil and Geddy are so unbelievably awesome that Alex is in their shadow. Love the fact that I live in their backyard as they seem to be here every year or two, and I can drive 1-3 hours and catch them in another 3-4 cities! Arg now I am jonesin' to see them again! I saw them last Oct. but that seems too long now.
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Have fun at the show man. I f'ing hated Rush until my BFF dragged me to see them live. I have seen them live 15 times now, and I am still blown away by how those 3 guys put out that wall of noise! Top 10 for sure all time bassist, guitarist, and drummer... Damn I am wishing I was seeing them tonight too... Just think about how the low notes will massage you if you are feeling jittery.
What a fucking show!!! Wow! Was therapeutic as well. Some of those songs really helped me through some rough times. Long live RUSH..
My turn July 28th. Can't freakin' wait!!
I had sweet seats and caught a tee shirt thrown by Geddy. You would have thought I caught a fucking td in the Superbowl.
It really is amazing. 3 dudes just jamming like fucking bosses like 40 years after their first album.
No swearing, no dancing douch bags, no DJ's...just bare bones bass, guitar, and drums. Neil is a fucking MACHINE.
Enjoy the show man. I know you will.
I still remember the first moment of that first time I heard Tom Sawyer come exploding out of the house. Oh. My. God!!
You know how awesome Neil is?? I spend the entire show mesmerized by him and I'm a freakin' guitar player!
Congrats on the T-shirt dude. Too damn cool...
I am blown away by all of them. Geddy is right behind Entwistle as my personal #2 Bassist all time: on top of that he sings and plays keyboards often all at the same time! I think that may be the reason I love these guys, they are just such crazy good musicians. Alex is the most underrated guitar god out there, but Neil and Geddy are so unbelievably awesome that Alex is in their shadow. Love the fact that I live in their backyard as they seem to be here every year or two, and I can drive 1-3 hours and catch them in another 3-4 cities! Arg now I am jonesin' to see them again! I saw them last Oct. but that seems too long now.
Gotta be honest I do not know Rush at such a level as Yall all I know is that I saw them in PHX back in the day and I had a cassette of them that I used to jam to them in my 70 maverick. aside from that trip down memory lane just wanted to say that I am very proud of my brother of quit Diesel that he faced his anxieties and kicked ass and had fun. Proud to quit with you any day
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Have fun at the show man. I f'ing hated Rush until my BFF dragged me to see them live. I have seen them live 15 times now, and I am still blown away by how those 3 guys put out that wall of noise! Top 10 for sure all time bassist, guitarist, and drummer... Damn I am wishing I was seeing them tonight too... Just think about how the low notes will massage you if you are feeling jittery.
What a fucking show!!! Wow! Was therapeutic as well. Some of those songs really helped me through some rough times. Long live RUSH..
My turn July 28th. Can't freakin' wait!!
I had sweet seats and caught a tee shirt thrown by Geddy. You would have thought I caught a fucking td in the Superbowl.
It really is amazing. 3 dudes just jamming like fucking bosses like 40 years after their first album.
No swearing, no dancing douch bags, no DJ's...just bare bones bass, guitar, and drums. Neil is a fucking MACHINE.
Enjoy the show man. I know you will.
I still remember the first moment of that first time I heard Tom Sawyer come exploding out of the house. Oh. My. God!!
You know how awesome Neil is?? I spend the entire show mesmerized by him and I'm a freakin' guitar player!
Congrats on the T-shirt dude. Too damn cool...
I am blown away by all of them. Geddy is right behind Entwistle as my personal #2 Bassist all time: on top of that he sings and plays keyboards often all at the same time! I think that may be the reason I love these guys, they are just such crazy good musicians. Alex is the most underrated guitar god out there, but Neil and Geddy are so unbelievably awesome that Alex is in their shadow. Love the fact that I live in their backyard as they seem to be here every year or two, and I can drive 1-3 hours and catch them in another 3-4 cities! Arg now I am jonesin' to see them again! I saw them last Oct. but that seems too long now.
Gotta be honest I do not know Rush at such a level as Yall all I know is that I saw them in PHX back in the day and I had a cassette of them that I used to jam to them in my 70 maverick. aside from that trip down memory lane just wanted to say that I am very proud of my brother of quit Diesel that he faced his anxieties and kicked ass and had fun. Proud to quit with you any day
Thanks man.
Rush's first album came out in 1974...the year I was born. They reach a wide audience of young and old.
This weekend was interesting. I won, but man I still had some bouts of anxiety. I think because I went on vacation last year when I first quit and it was a total disaster I kind of still get anxious when I'm away from home.
Fuck it. Only thing I can do is keep on keeping on and every time I go away, things will get easier and the bad memories will fade.
I am strong. I will win.
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Have fun at the show man. I f'ing hated Rush until my BFF dragged me to see them live. I have seen them live 15 times now, and I am still blown away by how those 3 guys put out that wall of noise! Top 10 for sure all time bassist, guitarist, and drummer... Damn I am wishing I was seeing them tonight too... Just think about how the low notes will massage you if you are feeling jittery.
What a fucking show!!! Wow! Was therapeutic as well. Some of those songs really helped me through some rough times. Long live RUSH..
My turn July 28th. Can't freakin' wait!!
I had sweet seats and caught a tee shirt thrown by Geddy. You would have thought I caught a fucking td in the Superbowl.
It really is amazing. 3 dudes just jamming like fucking bosses like 40 years after their first album.
No swearing, no dancing douch bags, no DJ's...just bare bones bass, guitar, and drums. Neil is a fucking MACHINE.
Enjoy the show man. I know you will.
I still remember the first moment of that first time I heard Tom Sawyer come exploding out of the house. Oh. My. God!!
You know how awesome Neil is?? I spend the entire show mesmerized by him and I'm a freakin' guitar player!
Congrats on the T-shirt dude. Too damn cool...
I am blown away by all of them. Geddy is right behind Entwistle as my personal #2 Bassist all time: on top of that he sings and plays keyboards often all at the same time! I think that may be the reason I love these guys, they are just such crazy good musicians. Alex is the most underrated guitar god out there, but Neil and Geddy are so unbelievably awesome that Alex is in their shadow. Love the fact that I live in their backyard as they seem to be here every year or two, and I can drive 1-3 hours and catch them in another 3-4 cities! Arg now I am jonesin' to see them again! I saw them last Oct. but that seems too long now.
Gotta be honest I do not know Rush at such a level as Yall all I know is that I saw them in PHX back in the day and I had a cassette of them that I used to jam to them in my 70 maverick. aside from that trip down memory lane just wanted to say that I am very proud of my brother of quit Diesel that he faced his anxieties and kicked ass and had fun. Proud to quit with you any day
Thanks man.
Rush's first album came out in 1974...the year I was born. They reach a wide audience of young and old.
This weekend was interesting. I won, but man I still had some bouts of anxiety. I think because I went on vacation last year when I first quit and it was a total disaster I kind of still get anxious when I'm away from home.
Fuck it. Only thing I can do is keep on keeping on and every time I go away, things will get easier and the bad memories will fade.
I am strong. I will win.
the music of now is nothing but noise, these guys are musicians.. and fucking not of this earth. Rock n roll hall of fame still doesn't recognize these guys is a load of crap.. They play so effortlessly It just amazes me. I played drums for a long time, and playing all of 2112 was accomplished when I was 14, but don't ask me to do it now..lol..
Glad you had a good time diesel, you deserve it..
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days.  Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.Â
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.Â
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Bumping the above , which came from a dark place nearly a year ago...
Today...
Got up early this morning to play some hoops, didn't have any tears of take any AD meds to make it there. Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight.
Haven't quite pulled the motor boat trigger, YET. Vacation in a couple weeks....
Still alive and still writing this story.
Quite a difference a year makes.
Stick with it boys and girls. Things get better.
I promise.
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days.  Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.Â
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.Â
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Bumping the above , which came from a dark place nearly a year ago...
Today...
Got up early this morning to play some hoops, didn't have any tears of take any AD meds to make it there. Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight.
Haven't quite pulled the motor boat trigger, YET. Vacation in a couple weeks....
Still alive and still writing this story.
Quite a difference a year makes.
Stick with it boys and girls. Things get better.
I promise.
BOOOOOOM!!, (As Clean Fuel would say). Thanks for bumping Diesel, keep fighting the good fight.
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days.  Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.Â
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.Â
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Bumping the above , which came from a dark place nearly a year ago...
Today...
Got up early this morning to play some hoops, didn't have any tears of take any AD meds to make it there. Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight.
Haven't quite pulled the motor boat trigger, YET. Vacation in a couple weeks....
Still alive and still writing this story.
Quite a difference a year makes.
Stick with it boys and girls. Things get better.
I promise.
BOOOOOOM!!, (As Clean Fuel would say). Thanks for bumping Diesel, keep fighting the good fight.
Wow. This is an inspiring thread. Congrats
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days.  Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.Â
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.Â
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Bumping the above , which came from a dark place nearly a year ago...
Today...
Got up early this morning to play some hoops, didn't have any tears of take any AD meds to make it there. Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight.
Haven't quite pulled the motor boat trigger, YET. Vacation in a couple weeks....
Still alive and still writing this story.
Quite a difference a year makes.
Stick with it boys and girls. Things get better.
I promise.
BOOOOOOM!!, (As Clean Fuel would say). Thanks for bumping Diesel, keep fighting the good fight.
Wow. This is an inspiring thread. Congrats
That's awesome brother. Congratulations on such a power journey.
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days.  Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.Â
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.Â
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Bumping the above , which came from a dark place nearly a year ago...
Today...
Got up early this morning to play some hoops, didn't have any tears of take any AD meds to make it there. Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight.
Haven't quite pulled the motor boat trigger, YET. Vacation in a couple weeks....
Still alive and still writing this story.
Quite a difference a year makes.
Stick with it boys and girls. Things get better.
I promise.
BOOOOOOM!!, (As Clean Fuel would say). Thanks for bumping Diesel, keep fighting the good fight.
Wow. This is an inspiring thread. Congrats
That's awesome brother. Congratulations on such a power journey.
Good for you, enjoy your freedom brother !
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days.  Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.Â
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.Â
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Bumping the above , which came from a dark place nearly a year ago...
Today...
Got up early this morning to play some hoops, didn't have any tears of take any AD meds to make it there. Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight.
Haven't quite pulled the motor boat trigger, YET. Vacation in a couple weeks....
Still alive and still writing this story.
Quite a difference a year makes.
Stick with it boys and girls. Things get better.
I promise.
BOOOOOOM!!, (As Clean Fuel would say). Thanks for bumping Diesel, keep fighting the good fight.
Wow. This is an inspiring thread. Congrats
That's awesome brother. Congratulations on such a power journey.
Good for you, enjoy your freedom brother !
We've witnessed your transformation, talk about a journey. proud to be quit with you every damn day...
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days.  Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.Â
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.Â
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Bumping the above , which came from a dark place nearly a year ago...
Today...
Got up early this morning to play some hoops, didn't have any tears of take any AD meds to make it there. Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight.
Haven't quite pulled the motor boat trigger, YET. Vacation in a couple weeks....
Still alive and still writing this story.
Quite a difference a year makes.
Stick with it boys and girls. Things get better.
I promise.
BOOOOOOM!!, (As Clean Fuel would say). Thanks for bumping Diesel, keep fighting the good fight.
Wow. This is an inspiring thread. Congrats
That's awesome brother. Congratulations on such a power journey.
Good for you, enjoy your freedom brother !
I remember each of those days that have lead us to where we are today. Lmao now at how we cried like little girls when our bodies were withdrawing from years of slavery. You are one bad ass quitter.
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days.  Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.Â
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.Â
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Bumping the above , which came from a dark place nearly a year ago...
Today...
Got up early this morning to play some hoops, didn't have any tears of take any AD meds to make it there. Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight.
Haven't quite pulled the motor boat trigger, YET. Vacation in a couple weeks....
Still alive and still writing this story.
Quite a difference a year makes.
Stick with it boys and girls. Things get better.
I promise.
BOOOOOOM!!, (As Clean Fuel would say). Thanks for bumping Diesel, keep fighting the good fight.
Wow. This is an inspiring thread. Congrats
That's awesome brother. Congratulations on such a power journey.
Good for you, enjoy your freedom brother !
I remember each of those days that have lead us to where we are today. Lmao now at how we cried like little girls when our bodies were withdrawing from years of slavery. You are one bad ass quitter.
"Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight"
Pure badassery....FU Diesel!
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days.  Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.Â
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.Â
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Bumping the above , which came from a dark place nearly a year ago...
Today...
Got up early this morning to play some hoops, didn't have any tears of take any AD meds to make it there. Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight.
Haven't quite pulled the motor boat trigger, YET. Vacation in a couple weeks....
Still alive and still writing this story.
Quite a difference a year makes.
Stick with it boys and girls. Things get better.
I promise.
BOOOOOOM!!, (As Clean Fuel would say). Thanks for bumping Diesel, keep fighting the good fight.
Wow. This is an inspiring thread. Congrats
That's awesome brother. Congratulations on such a power journey.
Good for you, enjoy your freedom brother !
I remember each of those days that have lead us to where we are today. Lmao now at how we cried like little girls when our bodies were withdrawing from years of slavery. You are one bad ass quitter.
"Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight"
Pure badassery....FU Diesel!
What a complete bad ass inspiration you have become. Glad as hell I get to follow people like you! I quit with you because your the definition of a KTC BAD ASS!
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days.  Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.Â
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.Â
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Bumping the above , which came from a dark place nearly a year ago...
Today...
Got up early this morning to play some hoops, didn't have any tears of take any AD meds to make it there. Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight.
Haven't quite pulled the motor boat trigger, YET. Vacation in a couple weeks....
Still alive and still writing this story.
Quite a difference a year makes.
Stick with it boys and girls. Things get better.
I promise.
BOOOOOOM!!, (As Clean Fuel would say). Thanks for bumping Diesel, keep fighting the good fight.
Wow. This is an inspiring thread. Congrats
That's awesome brother. Congratulations on such a power journey.
Good for you, enjoy your freedom brother !
I remember each of those days that have lead us to where we are today. Lmao now at how we cried like little girls when our bodies were withdrawing from years of slavery. You are one bad ass quitter.
"Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight"
Pure badassery....FU Diesel!
What a complete bad ass inspiration you have become. Glad as hell I get to follow people like you! I quit with you because your the definition of a KTC BAD ASS!
Simply Out-Fucking-Standing!!!
KA-POWWWWW
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days.  Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.Â
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.Â
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Bumping the above , which came from a dark place nearly a year ago...
Today...
Got up early this morning to play some hoops, didn't have any tears of take any AD meds to make it there. Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight.
Haven't quite pulled the motor boat trigger, YET. Vacation in a couple weeks....
Still alive and still writing this story.
Quite a difference a year makes.
Stick with it boys and girls. Things get better.
I promise.
BOOOOOOM!!, (As Clean Fuel would say). Thanks for bumping Diesel, keep fighting the good fight.
Wow. This is an inspiring thread. Congrats
That's awesome brother. Congratulations on such a power journey.
Good for you, enjoy your freedom brother !
I remember each of those days that have lead us to where we are today. Lmao now at how we cried like little girls when our bodies were withdrawing from years of slavery. You are one bad ass quitter.
"Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight"
Pure badassery....FU Diesel!
What a complete bad ass inspiration you have become. Glad as hell I get to follow people like you! I quit with you because your the definition of a KTC BAD ASS!
Simply Out-Fucking-Standing!!!
KA-POWWWWW
You are the man deez! Inspiration to us all.
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Just sick of it all. Trips to the shrink, meetings with a councelor, meds fucking up my head. Tears as I try and drag myself out of bed some days.  Assholes next store pratying it up smoking like chimneys as I sat here sipping a slurpee. 4th of July...blahhhh. Family vacation up in Northern Michigan...blahhh. My life un general right now...blahhh. I'm functioning but that's about it.Â
I swear to God if I EVER get out of this shit fuck of a rut I'm in right now, next year I will be the most full of life loving mother fucker the world has ever seen. Ill be shooting fireworks out my ass next 4th of July. Ill motor boat my councelors milk pillows if she gets me through this and decide I don't need to see her anymore. I'll stick these meds up my shrinks ass with my foot. Ill be up at the but crack of dawn cooking breakfast for my family next summer vacation, then will drive 400 miles to find the funnest thing to do to make my 7 yr old daughter laugh.Â
Here's the kicker I recently realized though. I THOUGHT I was that guy before I quit...but I wasn't. I was a low life lazy ass piece of shit. I wasn't "Joe Fun". I ninjas dipped all day at work then came home, rolled into bed and slept til about 6:00. Kids came in to ask for help with homework, I told them I didn't feel good and ask mom. Finally id get up, yell at wife for crappy dinner, snap at kids for no reason and count down time the kids went to bed so I could sneak out and get my goodnight dip in. Then hopped up on dip fuel id stay up tip 2am and start the process all over again.
Sure I coached my kids in baseball, basketball and football. Was in the men's club and sports committee for their school but at the core of it all I was a scumbag. A liar. A fake. A phony. A piece of total and utter shit. Recently my Dad said " of all the people in the world I never would have guessed you could have had a secret like that." So add coward to the list as well.
I guess instead of f bombing everything and everyone else. I need to say FUCK YOU to ME. I'm not dead though. This story is not fully written.
Bumping the above , which came from a dark place nearly a year ago...
Today...
Got up early this morning to play some hoops, didn't have any tears of take any AD meds to make it there. Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight.
Haven't quite pulled the motor boat trigger, YET. Vacation in a couple weeks....
Still alive and still writing this story.
Quite a difference a year makes.
Stick with it boys and girls. Things get better.
I promise.
BOOOOOOM!!, (As Clean Fuel would say). Thanks for bumping Diesel, keep fighting the good fight.
Wow. This is an inspiring thread. Congrats
That's awesome brother. Congratulations on such a power journey.
Good for you, enjoy your freedom brother !
I remember each of those days that have lead us to where we are today. Lmao now at how we cried like little girls when our bodies were withdrawing from years of slavery. You are one bad ass quitter.
"Shot a Roman candle out my ass tonight"
Pure badassery....FU Diesel!
What a complete bad ass inspiration you have become. Glad as hell I get to follow people like you! I quit with you because your the definition of a KTC BAD ASS!
Simply Out-Fucking-Standing!!!
KA-POWWWWW
You are the man deez! Inspiration to us all.
We've witnessed your transformation, talk about a journey. proud to be quit with you every damn day...
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400 days. 4th floor. Weeeeee.
Its 8:00AM and I'm sitting in a lawn chair at Delasalle High School waiting to watch my 10 year old son start a 4 day football camp.
I'm one of very few parents staying to watch. Most probably have real jobs...
They haven't hit the field yet as they are inside the gym getting instructions and tee shirts from the coaches.
400 days ago I would have been as happy as a clam to be sitting out here spewing brown slime into a bottle, hopping nobody noticed me.
Today I'm just happy to watch my son. Nothing more.
As it should be.
What a fool I used to be...
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You have a real job. Being a father. From your description of your day you are being a great one.
Good shit on 400 Diesel. Thank you for being Sept 2012 and helping me in with quit.
-p23
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You have a real job. Being a father. From your description of your day you are being a great one.
Good shit on 400 Diesel. Thank you for being Sept 2012 and helping me in with quit.
-p23
400 is awesome. Hope your son grows up to be a Husker recruit !
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You have a real job. Being a father. From your description of your day you are being a great one.Â
Good shit on 400 Diesel. Thank you for being Sept 2012 and helping me in with quit.
-p23
400 is awesome. Hope your son grows up to be a Husker recruit !
Maize and Blue...
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400 days. 4th floor. Weeeeee.
Its 8:00AM and I'm sitting in a lawn chair at Delasalle High School waiting to watch my 10 year old son start a 4 day football camp.
I'm one of very few parents staying to watch. Most probably have real jobs...
They haven't hit the field yet as they are inside the gym getting instructions and tee shirts from the coaches.
400 days ago I would have been as happy as a clam to be sitting out here spewing brown slime into a bottle, hopping nobody noticed me.
Today I'm just happy to watch my son. Nothing more.
As it should be.
What a fool I used to be...
Awesome Diesel w the 4th floor we were all dumb asses operative word is were and we keep it that way ODAAT. Enjoy your time w your son today look around imprint this day in your mind. quit w you today
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400 days. 4th floor. Weeeeee.
Its 8:00AM and I'm sitting in a lawn chair at Delasalle High School waiting to watch my 10 year old son start a 4 day football camp.
I'm one of very few parents staying to watch. Most probably have real jobs...
They haven't hit the field yet as they are inside the gym getting instructions and tee shirts from the coaches.
400 days ago I would have been as happy as a clam to be sitting out here spewing brown slime into a bottle, hopping nobody noticed me.
Today I'm just happy to watch my son. Nothing more.Â
As it should be.
What a fool I used to be...
Awesome Diesel w the 4th floor we were all dumb asses operative word is were and we keep it that way ODAAT. Enjoy your time w your son today look around imprint this day in your mind. quit w you today
Thanks. I'm still a dumb ass though. Just one who isn't controlled by a poisonous drug.
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400 days. 4th floor. Weeeeee.
Its 8:00AM and I'm sitting in a lawn chair at Delasalle High School waiting to watch my 10 year old son start a 4 day football camp.
I'm one of very few parents staying to watch. Most probably have real jobs...
They haven't hit the field yet as they are inside the gym getting instructions and tee shirts from the coaches.
400 days ago I would have been as happy as a clam to be sitting out here spewing brown slime into a bottle, hopping nobody noticed me.
Today I'm just happy to watch my son. Nothing more.Â
As it should be.
What a fool I used to be...
Awesome Diesel w the 4th floor we were all dumb asses operative word is were and we keep it that way ODAAT. Enjoy your time w your son today look around imprint this day in your mind. quit w you today
Thanks. I'm still a dumb ass though. Just one who isn't controlled by a poisonous drug.
Good stuff there Diesel... proud to be quit with you again today. Once again you've strengthened my quit by simply pointing out the obvious. I think sometimes that gets lost in the day to day actions of being quit. Thank you NAFAR!!!
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400 days. 4th floor. Weeeeee.
Its 8:00AM and I'm sitting in a lawn chair at Delasalle High School waiting to watch my 10 year old son start a 4 day football camp.
I'm one of very few parents staying to watch. Most probably have real jobs...
They haven't hit the field yet as they are inside the gym getting instructions and tee shirts from the coaches.
400 days ago I would have been as happy as a clam to be sitting out here spewing brown slime into a bottle, hopping nobody noticed me.
Today I'm just happy to watch my son. Nothing more.Â
As it should be.
What a fool I used to be...
Awesome Diesel w the 4th floor we were all dumb asses operative word is were and we keep it that way ODAAT. Enjoy your time w your son today look around imprint this day in your mind. quit w you today
Thanks. I'm still a dumb ass though. Just one who isn't controlled by a poisonous drug.
Good stuff there Diesel... proud to be quit with you again today. Once again you've strengthened my quit by simply pointing out the obvious. I think sometimes that gets lost in the day to day actions of being quit. Thank you NAFAR!!!
'clap'
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400 days. 4th floor. Weeeeee.
Its 8:00AM and I'm sitting in a lawn chair at Delasalle High School waiting to watch my 10 year old son start a 4 day football camp.
I'm one of very few parents staying to watch. Most probably have real jobs...
They haven't hit the field yet as they are inside the gym getting instructions and tee shirts from the coaches.
400 days ago I would have been as happy as a clam to be sitting out here spewing brown slime into a bottle, hopping nobody noticed me.
Today I'm just happy to watch my son. Nothing more.Â
As it should be.
What a fool I used to be...
Awesome Diesel w the 4th floor we were all dumb asses operative word is were and we keep it that way ODAAT. Enjoy your time w your son today look around imprint this day in your mind. quit w you today
Thanks. I'm still a dumb ass though. Just one who isn't controlled by a poisonous drug.
Good stuff there Diesel... proud to be quit with you again today. Once again you've strengthened my quit by simply pointing out the obvious. I think sometimes that gets lost in the day to day actions of being quit. Thank you NAFAR!!!
'clap'
Congrats brother. I haven't a clue what any of the floors feel like but I can say I know how to get to them! Thanks Diesel
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400 days. 4th floor. Weeeeee.
Its 8:00AM and I'm sitting in a lawn chair at Delasalle High School waiting to watch my 10 year old son start a 4 day football camp.
I'm one of very few parents staying to watch. Most probably have real jobs...
They haven't hit the field yet as they are inside the gym getting instructions and tee shirts from the coaches.
400 days ago I would have been as happy as a clam to be sitting out here spewing brown slime into a bottle, hopping nobody noticed me.
Today I'm just happy to watch my son. Nothing more.Â
As it should be.
What a fool I used to be...
Awesome Diesel w the 4th floor we were all dumb asses operative word is were and we keep it that way ODAAT. Enjoy your time w your son today look around imprint this day in your mind. quit w you today
Thanks. I'm still a dumb ass though. Just one who isn't controlled by a poisonous drug.
Good stuff there Diesel... proud to be quit with you again today. Once again you've strengthened my quit by simply pointing out the obvious. I think sometimes that gets lost in the day to day actions of being quit. Thank you NAFAR!!!
'clap'
Congrats brother. I haven't a clue what any of the floors feel like but I can say I know how to get to them! Thanks Diesel
They feel like...warm apple pie.
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400 days. 4th floor. Weeeeee.
Its 8:00AM and I'm sitting in a lawn chair at Delasalle High School waiting to watch my 10 year old son start a 4 day football camp.
I'm one of very few parents staying to watch. Most probably have real jobs...
They haven't hit the field yet as they are inside the gym getting instructions and tee shirts from the coaches.
400 days ago I would have been as happy as a clam to be sitting out here spewing brown slime into a bottle, hopping nobody noticed me.
Today I'm just happy to watch my son. Nothing more.Â
As it should be.
What a fool I used to be...
Awesome Diesel w the 4th floor we were all dumb asses operative word is were and we keep it that way ODAAT. Enjoy your time w your son today look around imprint this day in your mind. quit w you today
Thanks. I'm still a dumb ass though. Just one who isn't controlled by a poisonous drug.
Good stuff there Diesel... proud to be quit with you again today. Once again you've strengthened my quit by simply pointing out the obvious. I think sometimes that gets lost in the day to day actions of being quit. Thank you NAFAR!!!
'clap'
Congrats brother. I haven't a clue what any of the floors feel like but I can say I know how to get to them! Thanks Diesel
They feel like...warm apple pie.
Rock on Mr. Deisel. Keep up the great work and congrats on the 4th floor.
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400 days. 4th floor. Weeeeee.
Its 8:00AM and I'm sitting in a lawn chair at Delasalle High School waiting to watch my 10 year old son start a 4 day football camp.
I'm one of very few parents staying to watch. Most probably have real jobs...
They haven't hit the field yet as they are inside the gym getting instructions and tee shirts from the coaches.
400 days ago I would have been as happy as a clam to be sitting out here spewing brown slime into a bottle, hopping nobody noticed me.
Today I'm just happy to watch my son. Nothing more.Â
As it should be.
What a fool I used to be...
Awesome Diesel w the 4th floor we were all dumb asses operative word is were and we keep it that way ODAAT. Enjoy your time w your son today look around imprint this day in your mind. quit w you today
Thanks. I'm still a dumb ass though. Just one who isn't controlled by a poisonous drug.
Good stuff there Diesel... proud to be quit with you again today. Once again you've strengthened my quit by simply pointing out the obvious. I think sometimes that gets lost in the day to day actions of being quit. Thank you NAFAR!!!
'clap'
Congrats brother. I haven't a clue what any of the floors feel like but I can say I know how to get to them! Thanks Diesel
They feel like...warm apple pie.
Rock on Mr. Deisel. Keep up the great work and congrats on the 4th floor.
Love me some quit! Great job!
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I'm not sure what it is Big 'D'...... Every time I try and visualize you sitting at your keyboard going off or I mean "Supporting " some newb for trying to reinvent the wheel all I can picture is you and Kid-Rock jamming to Sweet Home Alabama and catching walleyes off the dock. Funny how your mind fucs with yourself.....isn't it!
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I'm not sure what it is Big 'D'...... Every time I try and visualize you sitting at your keyboard going off or I mean "Supporting " some newb for trying to reinvent the wheel all I can picture is you and Kid-Rock jamming to Sweet Home Alabama and catching walleyes off the dock. Funny how your mind fucs with yourself.....isn't it!
Followed up with the next song Heaven...if they dont have an 8 mile like they do up in the D send me to hell or SLC be about the same to me....
Diesel mother fucker all God damn day
You could take Gratiot south, but that's a real rough route
You'll get found face down with your pockets hangin out
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I'm not sure what it is Big 'D'...... Every time I try and visualize you sitting at your keyboard going off or I mean "Supporting " some newb for trying to reinvent the wheel all I can picture is you and Kid-Rock jamming to Sweet Home Alabama and catching walleyes off the dock. Funny how your mind fucs with yourself.....isn't it!
Followed up with the next song Heaven...if they dont have an 8 mile like they do up in the D send me to hell or SLC be about the same to me....
Diesel mother fucker all God damn day
You could take Gratiot south, but that's a real rough route
You'll get found face down with your pockets hangin out
I drive 8 mile every damn day for work. Pretty scary sometimes.
I live off 13 mile (not nearly as hard a 8 mile) and Gratiot is 1/4 mile away, I try not to go south of 10 mile.
My Dad got his limit of walleye this morning, but in his boat not off his dock.
I'm soft as Charmin.
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I'm not sure what it is Big 'D'...... Every time I try and visualize you sitting at your keyboard going off or I mean "Supporting " some newb for trying to reinvent the wheel all I can picture is you and Kid-Rock jamming to Sweet Home Alabama and catching walleyes off the dock. Funny how your mind fucs with yourself.....isn't it!
Followed up with the next song Heaven...if they dont have an 8 mile like they do up in the D send me to hell or SLC be about the same to me....
Diesel mother fucker all God damn day
You could take Gratiot south, but that's a real rough route
You'll get found face down with your pockets hangin out
I drive 8 mile every damn day for work. Pretty scary sometimes.
I live off 13 mile (not nearly as hard a 8 mile) and Gratiot is 1/4 mile away, I try not to go south of 10 mile.
My Dad got his limit of walleye this morning, but in his boat not off his dock.
I'm soft as Charmin.
Diesel and I are neighbors. Don't let him fool you, he is a hard core bad ass motha fucka to the core. I know this, he just also happens to be modest.
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I'm not sure what it is Big 'D'...... Every time I try and visualize you sitting at your keyboard going off or I mean "Supporting " some newb for trying to reinvent the wheel all I can picture is you and Kid-Rock jamming to Sweet Home Alabama and catching walleyes off the dock. Funny how your mind fucs with yourself.....isn't it!
Followed up with the next song Heaven...if they dont have an 8 mile like they do up in the D send me to hell or SLC be about the same to me....
Diesel mother fucker all God damn day
You could take Gratiot south, but that's a real rough route
You'll get found face down with your pockets hangin out
I drive 8 mile every damn day for work. Pretty scary sometimes.
I live off 13 mile (not nearly as hard a 8 mile) and Gratiot is 1/4 mile away, I try not to go south of 10 mile.
My Dad got his limit of walleye this morning, but in his boat not off his dock.
I'm soft as Charmin.
Diesel and I are neighbors. Don't let him fool you, he is a hard core bad ads moths ticks to the core. I know this, he just also happens to be modest.
Where you at again? Downriver?
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I'm not sure what it is Big 'D'...... Every time I try and visualize you sitting at your keyboard going off or I mean "Supporting " some newb for trying to reinvent the wheel all I can picture is you and Kid-Rock jamming to Sweet Home Alabama and catching walleyes off the dock. Funny how your mind fucs with yourself.....isn't it!
Followed up with the next song Heaven...if they dont have an 8 mile like they do up in the D send me to hell or SLC be about the same to me....
Diesel mother fucker all God damn day
You could take Gratiot south, but that's a real rough route
You'll get found face down with your pockets hangin out
I drive 8 mile every damn day for work. Pretty scary sometimes.
I live off 13 mile (not nearly as hard a 8 mile) and Gratiot is 1/4 mile away, I try not to go south of 10 mile.
My Dad got his limit of walleye this morning, but in his boat not off his dock.
I'm soft as Charmin.
Diesel and I are neighbors. Don't let him fool you, he is a hard core bad ads moths ticks to the core. I know this, he just also happens to be modest.
Where you at again? Downriver?
So you never really said Diesel........you and Kid-Rock... you guys Tight ?? ;)
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'zombie' 'zombie' 'zombie'
More dead people.
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I'm not sure what it is Big 'D'...... Every time I try and visualize you sitting at your keyboard going off or I mean "Supporting " some newb for trying to reinvent the wheel all I can picture is you and Kid-Rock jamming to Sweet Home Alabama and catching walleyes off the dock. Funny how your mind fucs with yourself.....isn't it!
Followed up with the next song Heaven...if they dont have an 8 mile like they do up in the D send me to hell or SLC be about the same to me....
Diesel mother fucker all God damn day
You could take Gratiot south, but that's a real rough route
You'll get found face down with your pockets hangin out
I drive 8 mile every damn day for work. Pretty scary sometimes.
I live off 13 mile (not nearly as hard a 8 mile) and Gratiot is 1/4 mile away, I try not to go south of 10 mile.
My Dad got his limit of walleye this morning, but in his boat not off his dock.
I'm soft as Charmin.
Diesel and I are neighbors. Don't let him fool you, he is a hard core bad ads moths ticks to the core. I know this, he just also happens to be modest.
Where you at again? Downriver?
So you never really said Diesel........you and Kid-Rock... you guys Tight ?? ;)
When I was in high school a guy I knew was dating his sister. I saw him a few times. He was a wanna be rapper then. I remember one song he had called "yoddling in the valley" was popular in my circle of friends.
He still lives in Romeo which isn't too far from me, but I certainly don't know him and think his music is ok. His Dad was very wealthy, owned large car dealership so when I hear some of his songs about his "hardships" I kind of laugh.
I'm a RUSH man. Met Geddy Lee once. More of a thrill than Bob Richey.
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Preface: this is going to be long and most likely boring. I'm writing it for ME for mostly therapeutic reasons. If you like it, lovely. If not, lick my balls, its my thread. LOL.
Loading up the family truckster and heading out on a week's vacation to Western Michigan tomorrow. Silver Lake, Muskegon, Traverse City, and Luddington are just a few stops team Diesel has planned. Wife and kids are pumped!!!
Big fucking deal right? A lot of people go on vacation.
Well...last year team Diesel went to Gaylord Michigan for a weeks vacation, I was about a month and a half quit then.
It was a fucking disaster of epic proportions. Because of me.
Riddled with depression and anxiety I DID NOT WANT TO GO. But on the advice of my shrink and counselor, they thought it would be good for me to get away for awhile maybe take my mind off my quitting. Plus I couldn't let my kids down. Not to mention my wife who works her ass off and loves to get away.
From jump street I was a mess. Could barely pull myself out of bed that morning to leave. Tears, fear, anxiety, anger, all ate at me like I never felt before. I had never been on vaction without my crutch. Half the fun of it used to be finding ways to sneak off and get my dip in. Fucking idiot.
I remember strapping on my seatbelt for the 3 hour drive, my shirt was DRENCHED in sweat and that shift from "park" to "drive" might as well have been a shift from "barely stable" to "hot fucking mess". Looking back however, there was one thing that bothers me more. There was no joy in the car. My wife knew I was a mess and she was probably going to have to hold me together (so much for getting away from work), and my kids who were 7 and 9 were not dumb. They saw me struggling that morning, they saw the tears and the anguish. I remember looking in the rear view mirror and seeing my daughter just staring down at her teddy bear like we were going to hell, not on a fun vacation.
When we got to the cabin (diesel rents cabins, he does not camp) I had an anxiety attack as soon as we walked in the door. Meanwhile my kids were running through the place checking out every room bouncing off the wall with excitement. They saw there was a nice private beach across the street and started the "can we go? can we go?" chants. My wife looked to me. As in the past I would have been in that water before the kids. This time I was in the fetal posistion on the couch, barely able to move. In one of most cowardly moves I've ever made I told my own kids "I don't feel like it, Mom will take you". In shock my wife said, "FINE, do you think you can handle unloading the car at least??!!". Turns out I couldn't. I just sat there on that couch wondering how the hell I was going to make it a week without my dip.
I will spare you the details of what that week held. Lets just say it was not pretty. I was useless. I BEGGED my wife to let me buy a can, and that would make me "fun" again. She did not buy it and rightfully said no each time. I also had to make an emergency call to my therapist on day two as my brain was completely fucked up. I even considered checking myself into a hospital at one point I was such a fucking mess. I was a walking anxiety attack and no amount of medicine seemed to help.
We went to a lot of different places on that trip. My wife was determined to show my kids a good time, God bless her sole.
I was a fucking anchor they were dragging around.
I remember one BEAUTIFUL day, my wife drove us to a really neat putt putt golf/ go kart place in the morning. I didn't even play fucking putt putt or drive the go karts. I sat in the snack bar area like a fucking moron, watching my wife and kids play putt putt golf and ride go karts...I couldn't even get up. Talk about a fucking LOSER.
After that she drove us to Otsego Lake State Park. Beautiful day, beautiful water, beautiful beach, and my beautiful kids were in the water BEGGING ME to come in...I could not. I was in the fetal posistion biting my knee. My wife was exhausted and looked at me with disgust for the first time since I had quit. She pulled herself up off her towel, where she should have been napping and getting some well deserved rest, and headed out to the water to swim with the kids. I told her, "I'm sorry honey, I promise next year ill be better". She said "You better, you fucking ruined this vacation for all of us". Talk about a dagger. Ouch.
Well...here it is "next year" and although I am feeling a tad anxious at the memories of last year (part of my lovely ptsd), I am mainly looking to get some revenge on the nic bitch from last year.
I am seriously looking to fuck some shit UP. Like just fucking turn into some kind of have fun at all costs mad man and undo every wrong I made last year.
I believe I have to "game" to do that now.
To say I am in a different place from last year is to say that SHIT tastes a little bit different than Filet.
I must admit though, that while the events of last year have me ultra motivated, they have me a tad scared as well, like "what if I slip back into that place?"
But fuck it. I'm gonna try my best not to dwell on the past and focus in the now. I've gone 412 days without a flake of nicotine. Had some ups and downs, but I am honestly looking for these next 7 days to be 7 of the best fucking days yet.
Wish me....success. We know luck ain't got no place in here.
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Preface: this is going to be long and most likely boring. I'm writing it for ME for mostly therapeutic reasons. If you like it, lovely. If not, lick my balls, its my thread. LOL.
Loading up the family truckster and heading out on a week's vacation to Western Michigan tomorrow. Silver Lake, Muskegon, Traverse City, and Luddington are just a few stops team Diesel has planned. Wife and kids are pumped!!!
Big fucking deal right? A lot of people go on vacation.
Well...last year team Diesel went to Gaylord Michigan for a weeks vacation, I was about a month and a half quit then.
It was a fucking disaster of epic proportions. Because of me.
Riddled with depression and anxiety I DID NOT WANT TO GO. But on the advice of my shrink and counselor, they thought it would be good for me to get away for awhile maybe take my mind off my quitting. Plus I couldn't let my kids down. Not to mention my wife who works her ass off and loves to get away.
From jump street I was a mess. Could barely pull myself out of bed that morning to leave. Tears, fear, anxiety, anger, all ate at me like I never felt before. I had never been on vaction without my crutch. Half the fun of it used to be finding ways to sneak off and get my dip in. Fucking idiot.
I remember strapping on my seatbelt for the 3 hour drive, my shirt was DRENCHED in sweat and that shift from "park" to "drive" might as well have been a shift from "barely stable" to "hot fucking mess". Looking back however, there was one thing that bothers me more. There was no joy in the car. My wife knew I was a mess and she was probably going to have to hold me together (so much for getting away from work), and my kids who were 7 and 9 were not dumb. They saw me struggling that morning, they saw the tears and the anguish. I remember looking in the rear view mirror and seeing my daughter just staring down at her teddy bear like we were going to hell, not on a fun vacation.
When we got to the cabin (diesel rents cabins, he does not camp) I had an anxiety attack as soon as we walked in the door. Meanwhile my kids were running through the place checking out every room bouncing off the wall with excitement. They saw there was a nice private beach across the street and started the "can we go? can we go?" chants. My wife looked to me. As in the past I would have been in that water before the kids. This time I was in the fetal posistion on the couch, barely able to move. In one of most cowardly moves I've ever made I told my own kids "I don't feel like it, Mom will take you". In shock my wife said, "FINE, do you think you can handle unloading the car at least??!!". Turns out I couldn't. I just sat there on that couch wondering how the hell I was going to make it a week without my dip.
I will spare you the details of what that week held. Lets just say it was not pretty. I was useless. I BEGGED my wife to let me buy a can, and that would make me "fun" again. She did not buy it and rightfully said no each time. I also had to make an emergency call to my therapist on day two as my brain was completely fucked up. I even considered checking myself into a hospital at one point I was such a fucking mess. I was a walking anxiety attack and no amount of medicine seemed to help.
We went to a lot of different places on that trip. My wife was determined to show my kids a good time, God bless her sole.
I was a fucking anchor they were dragging around.
I remember one BEAUTIFUL day, my wife drove us to a really neat putt putt golf/ go kart place in the morning. I didn't even play fucking putt putt or drive the go karts. I sat in the snack bar area like a fucking moron, watching my wife and kids play putt putt golf and ride go karts...I couldn't even get up. Talk about a fucking LOSER.
After that she drove us to Otsego Lake State Park. Beautiful day, beautiful water, beautiful beach, and my beautiful kids were in the water BEGGING ME to come in...I could not. I was in the fetal posistion biting my knee. My wife was exhausted and looked at me with disgust for the first time since I had quit. She pulled herself up off her towel, where she should have been napping and getting some well deserved rest, and headed out to the water to swim with the kids. I told her, "I'm sorry honey, I promise next year ill be better". She said "You better, you fucking ruined this vacation for all of us". Talk about a dagger. Ouch.
Well...here it is "next year" and although I am feeling a tad anxious at the memories of last year (part of my lovely ptsd), I am mainly looking to get some revenge on the nic bitch from last year.
I am seriously looking to fuck some shit UP. Like just fucking turn into some kind of have fun at all costs mad man and undo every wrong I made last year.
I believe I have to "game" to do that now.
To say I am in a different place from last year is to say that SHIT tastes a little bit different than Filet.
I must admit though, that while the events of last year have me ultra motivated, they have me a tad scared as well, like "what if I slip back into that place?"
But fuck it. I'm gonna try my best not to dwell on the past and focus in the now. I've gone 412 days without a flake of nicotine. Had some ups and downs, but I am honestly looking for these next 7 days to be 7 of the best fucking days yet.
Wish me....success. We know luck ain't got no place in here.
Wont lick your balls but will say this post describes what is going on in the head of an addict.
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Preface: this is going to be long and most likely boring. I'm writing it for ME for mostly therapeutic reasons. If you like it, lovely. If not, lick my balls, its my thread. LOL.
Loading up the family truckster and heading out on a week's vacation to Western Michigan tomorrow. Silver Lake, Muskegon, Traverse City, and Luddington are just a few stops team Diesel has planned. Wife and kids are pumped!!!
Big fucking deal right? A lot of people go on vacation.
Well...last year team Diesel went to Gaylord Michigan for a weeks vacation, I was about a month and a half quit then.Â
It was a fucking disaster of epic proportions. Because of me.
Riddled with depression and anxiety I DID NOT WANT TO GO. But on the advice of my shrink and counselor, they thought it would be good for me to get away for awhile maybe take my mind off my quitting. Plus I couldn't let my kids down. Not to mention my wife who works her ass off and loves to get away.
From jump street I was a mess. Could barely pull myself out of bed that morning to leave. Tears, fear, anxiety, anger, all ate at me like I never felt before. I had never been on vaction without my crutch. Half the fun of it used to be finding ways to sneak off and get my dip in. Fucking idiot.
I remember strapping on my seatbelt for the 3 hour drive, my shirt was DRENCHED in sweat and that shift from "park" to "drive" might as well have been a shift from "barely stable" to "hot fucking mess". Looking back however, there was one thing that bothers me more. There was no joy in the car. My wife knew I was a mess and she was probably going to have to hold me together (so much for getting away from work), and my kids who were 7 and 9 were not dumb. They saw me struggling that morning, they saw the tears and the anguish. I remember looking in the rear view mirror and seeing my daughter just staring down at her teddy bear like we were going to hell, not on a fun vacation.
When we got to the cabin (diesel rents cabins, he does not camp) I had an anxiety attack as soon as we walked in the door. Meanwhile my kids were running through the place checking out every room bouncing off the wall with excitement. They saw there was a nice private beach across the street and started the "can we go? can we go?" chants. My wife looked to me. As in the past I would have been in that water before the kids. This time I was in the fetal posistion on the couch, barely able to move. In one of most cowardly moves I've ever made I told my own kids "I don't feel like it, Mom will take you".  In shock my wife said, "FINE, do you think you can handle unloading the car at least??!!". Turns out I couldn't. I just sat there on that couch wondering how the hell I was going to make it a week without my dip.
I will spare you the details of what that week held. Lets just say it was not pretty. I was useless. I BEGGED my wife to let me buy a can, and that would make me "fun" again. She did not buy it and rightfully said no each time. I also had to make an emergency call to my therapist on day two as my brain was completely fucked up. I even considered checking myself into a hospital at one point I was such a fucking mess. I was a walking anxiety attack and no amount of medicine seemed to help.
We went to a lot of different places on that trip. My wife was determined to show my kids a good time, God bless her sole.Â
I was a fucking anchor they were dragging around.Â
I remember one BEAUTIFUL day, my wife drove us to a really neat putt putt golf/ go kart place in the morning. I didn't even play fucking putt putt or drive the go karts. I sat in the snack bar area like a fucking moron, watching my wife and kids play putt putt golf and ride go karts...I couldn't even get up. Talk about a fucking LOSER.
After that she drove us to Otsego Lake State Park. Beautiful day, beautiful water, beautiful beach, and my beautiful kids were in the water BEGGING ME to come in...I could not. I was in the fetal posistion biting my knee. My wife was exhausted and looked at me with disgust for the first time since I had quit. She pulled herself up off her towel, where she should have been napping and getting some well deserved rest, and headed out to the water to swim with the kids. I told her, "I'm sorry honey, I promise next year ill be better". She said "You better, you fucking ruined this vacation for all of us". Talk about a dagger. Ouch.
Well...here it is "next year" and although I am feeling a tad anxious at the memories of last year (part of my lovely ptsd), I am mainly looking to get some revenge on the nic bitch from last year.
I am seriously looking to fuck some shit UP. Like just fucking turn into some kind of have fun at all costs mad man and undo every wrong I made last year.
I believe I have to "game" to do that now.
To say I am in a different place from last year is to say that SHIT tastes a little bit different than Filet.Â
I must admit though, that while the events of last year have me ultra motivated, they have me a tad scared as well, like "what if I slip back into that place?"
But fuck it. I'm gonna try my best not to dwell on the past and focus in the now. I've gone 412 days without a flake of nicotine. Had some ups and downs, but I am honestly looking for these next 7 days to be 7 of the best fucking days yet.
Wish me....success. We know luck ain't got no place in here.
Wont lick your balls but will say this post describes what is going on in the head of an addict.
Like always a great read D. The alternative to not liking it was very scary.
-
Preface: this is going to be long and most likely boring. I'm writing it for ME for mostly therapeutic reasons. If you like it, lovely. If not, lick my balls, its my thread. LOL.
Loading up the family truckster and heading out on a week's vacation to Western Michigan tomorrow. Silver Lake, Muskegon, Traverse City, and Luddington are just a few stops team Diesel has planned. Wife and kids are pumped!!!
Big fucking deal right? A lot of people go on vacation.
Well...last year team Diesel went to Gaylord Michigan for a weeks vacation, I was about a month and a half quit then.Â
It was a fucking disaster of epic proportions. Because of me.
Riddled with depression and anxiety I DID NOT WANT TO GO. But on the advice of my shrink and counselor, they thought it would be good for me to get away for awhile maybe take my mind off my quitting. Plus I couldn't let my kids down. Not to mention my wife who works her ass off and loves to get away.
From jump street I was a mess. Could barely pull myself out of bed that morning to leave. Tears, fear, anxiety, anger, all ate at me like I never felt before. I had never been on vaction without my crutch. Half the fun of it used to be finding ways to sneak off and get my dip in. Fucking idiot.
I remember strapping on my seatbelt for the 3 hour drive, my shirt was DRENCHED in sweat and that shift from "park" to "drive" might as well have been a shift from "barely stable" to "hot fucking mess". Looking back however, there was one thing that bothers me more. There was no joy in the car. My wife knew I was a mess and she was probably going to have to hold me together (so much for getting away from work), and my kids who were 7 and 9 were not dumb. They saw me struggling that morning, they saw the tears and the anguish. I remember looking in the rear view mirror and seeing my daughter just staring down at her teddy bear like we were going to hell, not on a fun vacation.
When we got to the cabin (diesel rents cabins, he does not camp) I had an anxiety attack as soon as we walked in the door. Meanwhile my kids were running through the place checking out every room bouncing off the wall with excitement. They saw there was a nice private beach across the street and started the "can we go? can we go?" chants. My wife looked to me. As in the past I would have been in that water before the kids. This time I was in the fetal posistion on the couch, barely able to move. In one of most cowardly moves I've ever made I told my own kids "I don't feel like it, Mom will take you".  In shock my wife said, "FINE, do you think you can handle unloading the car at least??!!". Turns out I couldn't. I just sat there on that couch wondering how the hell I was going to make it a week without my dip.
I will spare you the details of what that week held. Lets just say it was not pretty. I was useless. I BEGGED my wife to let me buy a can, and that would make me "fun" again. She did not buy it and rightfully said no each time. I also had to make an emergency call to my therapist on day two as my brain was completely fucked up. I even considered checking myself into a hospital at one point I was such a fucking mess. I was a walking anxiety attack and no amount of medicine seemed to help.
We went to a lot of different places on that trip. My wife was determined to show my kids a good time, God bless her sole.Â
I was a fucking anchor they were dragging around.Â
I remember one BEAUTIFUL day, my wife drove us to a really neat putt putt golf/ go kart place in the morning. I didn't even play fucking putt putt or drive the go karts. I sat in the snack bar area like a fucking moron, watching my wife and kids play putt putt golf and ride go karts...I couldn't even get up.  Talk about a fucking LOSER.
After that she drove us to Otsego Lake State Park. Beautiful day, beautiful water, beautiful beach, and my beautiful kids were in the water BEGGING ME to come in...I could not. I was in the fetal posistion biting my knee. My wife was exhausted and looked at me with disgust for the first time since I had quit. She pulled herself up off her towel, where she should have been napping and getting some well deserved rest, and headed out to the water to swim with the kids. I told her, "I'm sorry honey, I promise next year ill be better". She said "You better, you fucking ruined this vacation for all of us". Talk about a dagger. Ouch.
Well...here it is "next year" and although I am feeling a tad anxious at the memories of last year (part of my lovely ptsd), I am mainly looking to get some revenge on the nic bitch from last year.
I am seriously looking to fuck some shit UP. Like just fucking turn into some kind of have fun at all costs mad man and undo every wrong I made last year.
I believe I have to "game" to do that now.
To say I am in a different place from last year is to say that SHIT tastes a little bit different than Filet.Â
I must admit though, that while the events of last year have me ultra motivated, they have me a tad scared as well, like "what if I slip back into that place?"
But fuck it. I'm gonna try my best not to dwell on the past and focus in the now. I've gone 412 days without a flake of nicotine. Had some ups and downs, but I am honestly looking for these next 7 days to be 7 of the best fucking days yet.
Wish me....success. We know luck ain't got no place in here.
Wont lick your balls but will say this post describes what is going on in the head of an addict.
Like always a great read D. The alternative to not liking it was very scary.
Whaat? They are freshly shaved for vacation. :D
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Preface: this is going to be long and most likely boring. I'm writing it for ME for mostly therapeutic reasons. If you like it, lovely. If not, lick my balls, its my thread. LOL.
Loading up the family truckster and heading out on a week's vacation to Western Michigan tomorrow. Silver Lake, Muskegon, Traverse City, and Luddington are just a few stops team Diesel has planned. Wife and kids are pumped!!!
Big fucking deal right? A lot of people go on vacation.
Well...last year team Diesel went to Gaylord Michigan for a weeks vacation, I was about a month and a half quit then.Â
It was a fucking disaster of epic proportions. Because of me.
Riddled with depression and anxiety I DID NOT WANT TO GO. But on the advice of my shrink and counselor, they thought it would be good for me to get away for awhile maybe take my mind off my quitting. Plus I couldn't let my kids down. Not to mention my wife who works her ass off and loves to get away.
From jump street I was a mess. Could barely pull myself out of bed that morning to leave. Tears, fear, anxiety, anger, all ate at me like I never felt before. I had never been on vaction without my crutch. Half the fun of it used to be finding ways to sneak off and get my dip in. Fucking idiot.
I remember strapping on my seatbelt for the 3 hour drive, my shirt was DRENCHED in sweat and that shift from "park" to "drive" might as well have been a shift from "barely stable" to "hot fucking mess". Looking back however, there was one thing that bothers me more. There was no joy in the car. My wife knew I was a mess and she was probably going to have to hold me together (so much for getting away from work), and my kids who were 7 and 9 were not dumb. They saw me struggling that morning, they saw the tears and the anguish. I remember looking in the rear view mirror and seeing my daughter just staring down at her teddy bear like we were going to hell, not on a fun vacation.
When we got to the cabin (diesel rents cabins, he does not camp) I had an anxiety attack as soon as we walked in the door. Meanwhile my kids were running through the place checking out every room bouncing off the wall with excitement. They saw there was a nice private beach across the street and started the "can we go? can we go?" chants. My wife looked to me. As in the past I would have been in that water before the kids. This time I was in the fetal posistion on the couch, barely able to move. In one of most cowardly moves I've ever made I told my own kids "I don't feel like it, Mom will take you".  In shock my wife said, "FINE, do you think you can handle unloading the car at least??!!". Turns out I couldn't. I just sat there on that couch wondering how the hell I was going to make it a week without my dip.
I will spare you the details of what that week held. Lets just say it was not pretty. I was useless. I BEGGED my wife to let me buy a can, and that would make me "fun" again. She did not buy it and rightfully said no each time. I also had to make an emergency call to my therapist on day two as my brain was completely fucked up. I even considered checking myself into a hospital at one point I was such a fucking mess. I was a walking anxiety attack and no amount of medicine seemed to help.
We went to a lot of different places on that trip. My wife was determined to show my kids a good time, God bless her sole.Â
I was a fucking anchor they were dragging around.Â
I remember one BEAUTIFUL day, my wife drove us to a really neat putt putt golf/ go kart place in the morning. I didn't even play fucking putt putt or drive the go karts. I sat in the snack bar area like a fucking moron, watching my wife and kids play putt putt golf and ride go karts...I couldn't even get up.  Talk about a fucking LOSER.
After that she drove us to Otsego Lake State Park. Beautiful day, beautiful water, beautiful beach, and my beautiful kids were in the water BEGGING ME to come in...I could not. I was in the fetal posistion biting my knee. My wife was exhausted and looked at me with disgust for the first time since I had quit. She pulled herself up off her towel, where she should have been napping and getting some well deserved rest, and headed out to the water to swim with the kids. I told her, "I'm sorry honey, I promise next year ill be better". She said "You better, you fucking ruined this vacation for all of us". Talk about a dagger. Ouch.
Well...here it is "next year" and although I am feeling a tad anxious at the memories of last year (part of my lovely ptsd), I am mainly looking to get some revenge on the nic bitch from last year.
I am seriously looking to fuck some shit UP. Like just fucking turn into some kind of have fun at all costs mad man and undo every wrong I made last year.
I believe I have to "game" to do that now.
To say I am in a different place from last year is to say that SHIT tastes a little bit different than Filet.Â
I must admit though, that while the events of last year have me ultra motivated, they have me a tad scared as well, like "what if I slip back into that place?"
But fuck it. I'm gonna try my best not to dwell on the past and focus in the now. I've gone 412 days without a flake of nicotine. Had some ups and downs, but I am honestly looking for these next 7 days to be 7 of the best fucking days yet.
Wish me....success. We know luck ain't got no place in here.
Wont lick your balls but will say this post describes what is going on in the head of an addict.
Like always a great read D. The alternative to not liking it was very scary.
Whaat? They are freshly shaved for vacation. :D
prolly smell like walleyes
-
Preface: this is going to be long and most likely boring. I'm writing it for ME for mostly therapeutic reasons. If you like it, lovely. If not, lick my balls, its my thread. LOL.
Loading up the family truckster and heading out on a week's vacation to Western Michigan tomorrow. Silver Lake, Muskegon, Traverse City, and Luddington are just a few stops team Diesel has planned. Wife and kids are pumped!!!
Big fucking deal right? A lot of people go on vacation.
Well...last year team Diesel went to Gaylord Michigan for a weeks vacation, I was about a month and a half quit then.Â
It was a fucking disaster of epic proportions. Because of me.
Riddled with depression and anxiety I DID NOT WANT TO GO. But on the advice of my shrink and counselor, they thought it would be good for me to get away for awhile maybe take my mind off my quitting. Plus I couldn't let my kids down. Not to mention my wife who works her ass off and loves to get away.
From jump street I was a mess. Could barely pull myself out of bed that morning to leave. Tears, fear, anxiety, anger, all ate at me like I never felt before. I had never been on vaction without my crutch. Half the fun of it used to be finding ways to sneak off and get my dip in. Fucking idiot.
I remember strapping on my seatbelt for the 3 hour drive, my shirt was DRENCHED in sweat and that shift from "park" to "drive" might as well have been a shift from "barely stable" to "hot fucking mess". Looking back however, there was one thing that bothers me more. There was no joy in the car. My wife knew I was a mess and she was probably going to have to hold me together (so much for getting away from work), and my kids who were 7 and 9 were not dumb. They saw me struggling that morning, they saw the tears and the anguish. I remember looking in the rear view mirror and seeing my daughter just staring down at her teddy bear like we were going to hell, not on a fun vacation.
When we got to the cabin (diesel rents cabins, he does not camp) I had an anxiety attack as soon as we walked in the door. Meanwhile my kids were running through the place checking out every room bouncing off the wall with excitement. They saw there was a nice private beach across the street and started the "can we go? can we go?" chants. My wife looked to me. As in the past I would have been in that water before the kids. This time I was in the fetal posistion on the couch, barely able to move. In one of most cowardly moves I've ever made I told my own kids "I don't feel like it, Mom will take you".  In shock my wife said, "FINE, do you think you can handle unloading the car at least??!!". Turns out I couldn't. I just sat there on that couch wondering how the hell I was going to make it a week without my dip.
I will spare you the details of what that week held. Lets just say it was not pretty. I was useless. I BEGGED my wife to let me buy a can, and that would make me "fun" again. She did not buy it and rightfully said no each time. I also had to make an emergency call to my therapist on day two as my brain was completely fucked up. I even considered checking myself into a hospital at one point I was such a fucking mess. I was a walking anxiety attack and no amount of medicine seemed to help.
We went to a lot of different places on that trip. My wife was determined to show my kids a good time, God bless her sole.Â
I was a fucking anchor they were dragging around.Â
I remember one BEAUTIFUL day, my wife drove us to a really neat putt putt golf/ go kart place in the morning. I didn't even play fucking putt putt or drive the go karts. I sat in the snack bar area like a fucking moron, watching my wife and kids play putt putt golf and ride go karts...I couldn't even get up.  Talk about a fucking LOSER.
After that she drove us to Otsego Lake State Park. Beautiful day, beautiful water, beautiful beach, and my beautiful kids were in the water BEGGING ME to come in...I could not. I was in the fetal posistion biting my knee. My wife was exhausted and looked at me with disgust for the first time since I had quit. She pulled herself up off her towel, where she should have been napping and getting some well deserved rest, and headed out to the water to swim with the kids. I told her, "I'm sorry honey, I promise next year ill be better". She said "You better, you fucking ruined this vacation for all of us". Talk about a dagger. Ouch.
Well...here it is "next year" and although I am feeling a tad anxious at the memories of last year (part of my lovely ptsd), I am mainly looking to get some revenge on the nic bitch from last year.
I am seriously looking to fuck some shit UP. Like just fucking turn into some kind of have fun at all costs mad man and undo every wrong I made last year.
I believe I have to "game" to do that now.
To say I am in a different place from last year is to say that SHIT tastes a little bit different than Filet.Â
I must admit though, that while the events of last year have me ultra motivated, they have me a tad scared as well, like "what if I slip back into that place?"
But fuck it. I'm gonna try my best not to dwell on the past and focus in the now. I've gone 412 days without a flake of nicotine. Had some ups and downs, but I am honestly looking for these next 7 days to be 7 of the best fucking days yet.
Wish me....success. We know luck ain't got no place in here.
Wont lick your balls but will say this post describes what is going on in the head of an addict.
Like always a great read D. The alternative to not liking it was very scary.
Whaat? They are freshly shaved for vacation. :D
I don't care if there gold plated and taste like a cotton candy Lolly pop. Still very scary.
-
Preface: this is going to be long and most likely boring. I'm writing it for ME for mostly therapeutic reasons. If you like it, lovely. If not, lick my balls, its my thread. LOL.
Loading up the family truckster and heading out on a week's vacation to Western Michigan tomorrow. Silver Lake, Muskegon, Traverse City, and Luddington are just a few stops team Diesel has planned. Wife and kids are pumped!!!
Big fucking deal right? A lot of people go on vacation.
Well...last year team Diesel went to Gaylord Michigan for a weeks vacation, I was about a month and a half quit then.Â
It was a fucking disaster of epic proportions. Because of me.
Riddled with depression and anxiety I DID NOT WANT TO GO. But on the advice of my shrink and counselor, they thought it would be good for me to get away for awhile maybe take my mind off my quitting. Plus I couldn't let my kids down. Not to mention my wife who works her ass off and loves to get away.
From jump street I was a mess. Could barely pull myself out of bed that morning to leave. Tears, fear, anxiety, anger, all ate at me like I never felt before. I had never been on vaction without my crutch. Half the fun of it used to be finding ways to sneak off and get my dip in. Fucking idiot.
I remember strapping on my seatbelt for the 3 hour drive, my shirt was DRENCHED in sweat and that shift from "park" to "drive" might as well have been a shift from "barely stable" to "hot fucking mess". Looking back however, there was one thing that bothers me more. There was no joy in the car. My wife knew I was a mess and she was probably going to have to hold me together (so much for getting away from work), and my kids who were 7 and 9 were not dumb. They saw me struggling that morning, they saw the tears and the anguish. I remember looking in the rear view mirror and seeing my daughter just staring down at her teddy bear like we were going to hell, not on a fun vacation.
When we got to the cabin (diesel rents cabins, he does not camp) I had an anxiety attack as soon as we walked in the door. Meanwhile my kids were running through the place checking out every room bouncing off the wall with excitement. They saw there was a nice private beach across the street and started the "can we go? can we go?" chants. My wife looked to me. As in the past I would have been in that water before the kids. This time I was in the fetal posistion on the couch, barely able to move. In one of most cowardly moves I've ever made I told my own kids "I don't feel like it, Mom will take you".  In shock my wife said, "FINE, do you think you can handle unloading the car at least??!!". Turns out I couldn't. I just sat there on that couch wondering how the hell I was going to make it a week without my dip.
I will spare you the details of what that week held. Lets just say it was not pretty. I was useless. I BEGGED my wife to let me buy a can, and that would make me "fun" again. She did not buy it and rightfully said no each time. I also had to make an emergency call to my therapist on day two as my brain was completely fucked up. I even considered checking myself into a hospital at one point I was such a fucking mess. I was a walking anxiety attack and no amount of medicine seemed to help.
We went to a lot of different places on that trip. My wife was determined to show my kids a good time, God bless her sole.Â
I was a fucking anchor they were dragging around.Â
I remember one BEAUTIFUL day, my wife drove us to a really neat putt putt golf/ go kart place in the morning. I didn't even play fucking putt putt or drive the go karts. I sat in the snack bar area like a fucking moron, watching my wife and kids play putt putt golf and ride go karts...I couldn't even get up.  Talk about a fucking LOSER.
After that she drove us to Otsego Lake State Park. Beautiful day, beautiful water, beautiful beach, and my beautiful kids were in the water BEGGING ME to come in...I could not. I was in the fetal posistion biting my knee. My wife was exhausted and looked at me with disgust for the first time since I had quit. She pulled herself up off her towel, where she should have been napping and getting some well deserved rest, and headed out to the water to swim with the kids. I told her, "I'm sorry honey, I promise next year ill be better". She said "You better, you fucking ruined this vacation for all of us". Talk about a dagger. Ouch.
Well...here it is "next year" and although I am feeling a tad anxious at the memories of last year (part of my lovely ptsd), I am mainly looking to get some revenge on the nic bitch from last year.
I am seriously looking to fuck some shit UP. Like just fucking turn into some kind of have fun at all costs mad man and undo every wrong I made last year.
I believe I have to "game" to do that now.
To say I am in a different place from last year is to say that SHIT tastes a little bit different than Filet.Â
I must admit though, that while the events of last year have me ultra motivated, they have me a tad scared as well, like "what if I slip back into that place?"
But fuck it. I'm gonna try my best not to dwell on the past and focus in the now. I've gone 412 days without a flake of nicotine. Had some ups and downs, but I am honestly looking for these next 7 days to be 7 of the best fucking days yet.
Wish me....success. We know luck ain't got no place in here.
Wont lick your balls but will say this post describes what is going on in the head of an addict.
Like always a great read D. The alternative to not liking it was very scary.
Whaat? They are freshly shaved for vacation. :D
You, diesel, have my complete respect. Thanks for sharing this. I hope this is also a vacation to remember, but for different reasons.
-
Preface: this is going to be long and most likely boring. I'm writing it for ME for mostly therapeutic reasons. If you like it, lovely. If not, lick my balls, its my thread. LOL.
Loading up the family truckster and heading out on a week's vacation to Western Michigan tomorrow. Silver Lake, Muskegon, Traverse City, and Luddington are just a few stops team Diesel has planned. Wife and kids are pumped!!!
Big fucking deal right? A lot of people go on vacation.
Well...last year team Diesel went to Gaylord Michigan for a weeks vacation, I was about a month and a half quit then.Â
It was a fucking disaster of epic proportions. Because of me.
Riddled with depression and anxiety I DID NOT WANT TO GO. But on the advice of my shrink and counselor, they thought it would be good for me to get away for awhile maybe take my mind off my quitting. Plus I couldn't let my kids down. Not to mention my wife who works her ass off and loves to get away.
From jump street I was a mess. Could barely pull myself out of bed that morning to leave. Tears, fear, anxiety, anger, all ate at me like I never felt before. I had never been on vaction without my crutch. Half the fun of it used to be finding ways to sneak off and get my dip in. Fucking idiot.
I remember strapping on my seatbelt for the 3 hour drive, my shirt was DRENCHED in sweat and that shift from "park" to "drive" might as well have been a shift from "barely stable" to "hot fucking mess". Looking back however, there was one thing that bothers me more. There was no joy in the car. My wife knew I was a mess and she was probably going to have to hold me together (so much for getting away from work), and my kids who were 7 and 9 were not dumb. They saw me struggling that morning, they saw the tears and the anguish. I remember looking in the rear view mirror and seeing my daughter just staring down at her teddy bear like we were going to hell, not on a fun vacation.
When we got to the cabin (diesel rents cabins, he does not camp) I had an anxiety attack as soon as we walked in the door. Meanwhile my kids were running through the place checking out every room bouncing off the wall with excitement. They saw there was a nice private beach across the street and started the "can we go? can we go?" chants. My wife looked to me. As in the past I would have been in that water before the kids. This time I was in the fetal posistion on the couch, barely able to move. In one of most cowardly moves I've ever made I told my own kids "I don't feel like it, Mom will take you".  In shock my wife said, "FINE, do you think you can handle unloading the car at least??!!". Turns out I couldn't. I just sat there on that couch wondering how the hell I was going to make it a week without my dip.
I will spare you the details of what that week held. Lets just say it was not pretty. I was useless. I BEGGED my wife to let me buy a can, and that would make me "fun" again. She did not buy it and rightfully said no each time. I also had to make an emergency call to my therapist on day two as my brain was completely fucked up. I even considered checking myself into a hospital at one point I was such a fucking mess. I was a walking anxiety attack and no amount of medicine seemed to help.
We went to a lot of different places on that trip. My wife was determined to show my kids a good time, God bless her sole.Â
I was a fucking anchor they were dragging around.Â
I remember one BEAUTIFUL day, my wife drove us to a really neat putt putt golf/ go kart place in the morning. I didn't even play fucking putt putt or drive the go karts. I sat in the snack bar area like a fucking moron, watching my wife and kids play putt putt golf and ride go karts...I couldn't even get up.  Talk about a fucking LOSER.
After that she drove us to Otsego Lake State Park. Beautiful day, beautiful water, beautiful beach, and my beautiful kids were in the water BEGGING ME to come in...I could not. I was in the fetal posistion biting my knee. My wife was exhausted and looked at me with disgust for the first time since I had quit. She pulled herself up off her towel, where she should have been napping and getting some well deserved rest, and headed out to the water to swim with the kids. I told her, "I'm sorry honey, I promise next year ill be better". She said "You better, you fucking ruined this vacation for all of us". Talk about a dagger. Ouch.
Well...here it is "next year" and although I am feeling a tad anxious at the memories of last year (part of my lovely ptsd), I am mainly looking to get some revenge on the nic bitch from last year.
I am seriously looking to fuck some shit UP. Like just fucking turn into some kind of have fun at all costs mad man and undo every wrong I made last year.
I believe I have to "game" to do that now.
To say I am in a different place from last year is to say that SHIT tastes a little bit different than Filet.Â
I must admit though, that while the events of last year have me ultra motivated, they have me a tad scared as well, like "what if I slip back into that place?"
But fuck it. I'm gonna try my best not to dwell on the past and focus in the now. I've gone 412 days without a flake of nicotine. Had some ups and downs, but I am honestly looking for these next 7 days to be 7 of the best fucking days yet.
Wish me....success. We know luck ain't got no place in here.
Wont lick your balls but will say this post describes what is going on in the head of an addict.
Like always a great read D. The alternative to not liking it was very scary.
Whaat? They are freshly shaved for vacation. :D
You, diesel, have my complete respect. Thanks for sharing this. I hope this is also a vacation to remember, but for different reasons.
Respect and brotherhood x infinity. In fact I have ceremoniously also shorn my scrotum, my peepee shaft and even down in the neither region. And, when the waves gently lap against your gold and maize scrotum this week, give yourself a pat on the back - and the Bitch a hearty 'Finger' cause you've done good Big D.
-
Preface: this is going to be long and most likely boring. I'm writing it for ME for mostly therapeutic reasons. If you like it, lovely. If not, lick my balls, its my thread. LOL.
Loading up the family truckster and heading out on a week's vacation to Western Michigan tomorrow. Silver Lake, Muskegon, Traverse City, and Luddington are just a few stops team Diesel has planned. Wife and kids are pumped!!!
Big fucking deal right? A lot of people go on vacation.
Well...last year team Diesel went to Gaylord Michigan for a weeks vacation, I was about a month and a half quit then.Â
It was a fucking disaster of epic proportions. Because of me.
Riddled with depression and anxiety I DID NOT WANT TO GO. But on the advice of my shrink and counselor, they thought it would be good for me to get away for awhile maybe take my mind off my quitting. Plus I couldn't let my kids down. Not to mention my wife who works her ass off and loves to get away.
From jump street I was a mess. Could barely pull myself out of bed that morning to leave. Tears, fear, anxiety, anger, all ate at me like I never felt before. I had never been on vaction without my crutch. Half the fun of it used to be finding ways to sneak off and get my dip in. Fucking idiot.
I remember strapping on my seatbelt for the 3 hour drive, my shirt was DRENCHED in sweat and that shift from "park" to "drive" might as well have been a shift from "barely stable" to "hot fucking mess". Looking back however, there was one thing that bothers me more. There was no joy in the car. My wife knew I was a mess and she was probably going to have to hold me together (so much for getting away from work), and my kids who were 7 and 9 were not dumb. They saw me struggling that morning, they saw the tears and the anguish. I remember looking in the rear view mirror and seeing my daughter just staring down at her teddy bear like we were going to hell, not on a fun vacation.
When we got to the cabin (diesel rents cabins, he does not camp) I had an anxiety attack as soon as we walked in the door. Meanwhile my kids were running through the place checking out every room bouncing off the wall with excitement. They saw there was a nice private beach across the street and started the "can we go? can we go?" chants. My wife looked to me. As in the past I would have been in that water before the kids. This time I was in the fetal posistion on the couch, barely able to move. In one of most cowardly moves I've ever made I told my own kids "I don't feel like it, Mom will take you".  In shock my wife said, "FINE, do you think you can handle unloading the car at least??!!". Turns out I couldn't. I just sat there on that couch wondering how the hell I was going to make it a week without my dip.
I will spare you the details of what that week held. Lets just say it was not pretty. I was useless. I BEGGED my wife to let me buy a can, and that would make me "fun" again. She did not buy it and rightfully said no each time. I also had to make an emergency call to my therapist on day two as my brain was completely fucked up. I even considered checking myself into a hospital at one point I was such a fucking mess. I was a walking anxiety attack and no amount of medicine seemed to help.
We went to a lot of different places on that trip. My wife was determined to show my kids a good time, God bless her sole.Â
I was a fucking anchor they were dragging around.Â
I remember one BEAUTIFUL day, my wife drove us to a really neat putt putt golf/ go kart place in the morning. I didn't even play fucking putt putt or drive the go karts. I sat in the snack bar area like a fucking moron, watching my wife and kids play putt putt golf and ride go karts...I couldn't even get up.  Talk about a fucking LOSER.
After that she drove us to Otsego Lake State Park. Beautiful day, beautiful water, beautiful beach, and my beautiful kids were in the water BEGGING ME to come in...I could not. I was in the fetal posistion biting my knee. My wife was exhausted and looked at me with disgust for the first time since I had quit. She pulled herself up off her towel, where she should have been napping and getting some well deserved rest, and headed out to the water to swim with the kids. I told her, "I'm sorry honey, I promise next year ill be better". She said "You better, you fucking ruined this vacation for all of us". Talk about a dagger. Ouch.
Well...here it is "next year" and although I am feeling a tad anxious at the memories of last year (part of my lovely ptsd), I am mainly looking to get some revenge on the nic bitch from last year.
I am seriously looking to fuck some shit UP. Like just fucking turn into some kind of have fun at all costs mad man and undo every wrong I made last year.
I believe I have to "game" to do that now.
To say I am in a different place from last year is to say that SHIT tastes a little bit different than Filet.Â
I must admit though, that while the events of last year have me ultra motivated, they have me a tad scared as well, like "what if I slip back into that place?"
But fuck it. I'm gonna try my best not to dwell on the past and focus in the now. I've gone 412 days without a flake of nicotine. Had some ups and downs, but I am honestly looking for these next 7 days to be 7 of the best fucking days yet.
Wish me....success. We know luck ain't got no place in here.
Wont lick your balls but will say this post describes what is going on in the head of an addict.
Like always a great read D. The alternative to not liking it was very scary.
Whaat? They are freshly shaved for vacation. :D
You, diesel, have my complete respect. Thanks for sharing this. I hope this is also a vacation to remember, but for different reasons.
Respect and brotherhood x infinity. In fact I have ceremoniously also shorn my scrotum, my peepee shaft and even down in the neither region. And, when the waves gently lap against your gold and maize scrotum this week, give yourself a pat on the back - and the Bitch a hearty 'Finger' cause you've done good Big D.
As when in Rome. I as well will be smooth as talcum powder when I get home this evening.
D, you got this. You are in a different place and a different state of mind.
Do yourself and you family a huge favor, RELAX AND HAVE A GOOD TIME.
That is an order sir!!!
-
Preface: this is going to be long and most likely boring. I'm writing it for ME for mostly therapeutic reasons. If you like it, lovely. If not, lick my balls, its my thread. LOL.
Loading up the family truckster and heading out on a week's vacation to Western Michigan tomorrow. Silver Lake, Muskegon, Traverse City, and Luddington are just a few stops team Diesel has planned. Wife and kids are pumped!!!
Big fucking deal right? A lot of people go on vacation.
Well...last year team Diesel went to Gaylord Michigan for a weeks vacation, I was about a month and a half quit then.Â
It was a fucking disaster of epic proportions. Because of me.
Riddled with depression and anxiety I DID NOT WANT TO GO. But on the advice of my shrink and counselor, they thought it would be good for me to get away for awhile maybe take my mind off my quitting. Plus I couldn't let my kids down. Not to mention my wife who works her ass off and loves to get away.
From jump street I was a mess. Could barely pull myself out of bed that morning to leave. Tears, fear, anxiety, anger, all ate at me like I never felt before. I had never been on vaction without my crutch. Half the fun of it used to be finding ways to sneak off and get my dip in. Fucking idiot.
I remember strapping on my seatbelt for the 3 hour drive, my shirt was DRENCHED in sweat and that shift from "park" to "drive" might as well have been a shift from "barely stable" to "hot fucking mess". Looking back however, there was one thing that bothers me more. There was no joy in the car. My wife knew I was a mess and she was probably going to have to hold me together (so much for getting away from work), and my kids who were 7 and 9 were not dumb. They saw me struggling that morning, they saw the tears and the anguish. I remember looking in the rear view mirror and seeing my daughter just staring down at her teddy bear like we were going to hell, not on a fun vacation.
When we got to the cabin (diesel rents cabins, he does not camp) I had an anxiety attack as soon as we walked in the door. Meanwhile my kids were running through the place checking out every room bouncing off the wall with excitement. They saw there was a nice private beach across the street and started the "can we go? can we go?" chants. My wife looked to me. As in the past I would have been in that water before the kids. This time I was in the fetal posistion on the couch, barely able to move. In one of most cowardly moves I've ever made I told my own kids "I don't feel like it, Mom will take you".  In shock my wife said, "FINE, do you think you can handle unloading the car at least??!!". Turns out I couldn't. I just sat there on that couch wondering how the hell I was going to make it a week without my dip.
I will spare you the details of what that week held. Lets just say it was not pretty. I was useless. I BEGGED my wife to let me buy a can, and that would make me "fun" again. She did not buy it and rightfully said no each time. I also had to make an emergency call to my therapist on day two as my brain was completely fucked up. I even considered checking myself into a hospital at one point I was such a fucking mess. I was a walking anxiety attack and no amount of medicine seemed to help.
We went to a lot of different places on that trip. My wife was determined to show my kids a good time, God bless her sole.Â
I was a fucking anchor they were dragging around.Â
I remember one BEAUTIFUL day, my wife drove us to a really neat putt putt golf/ go kart place in the morning. I didn't even play fucking putt putt or drive the go karts. I sat in the snack bar area like a fucking moron, watching my wife and kids play putt putt golf and ride go karts...I couldn't even get up.  Talk about a fucking LOSER.
After that she drove us to Otsego Lake State Park. Beautiful day, beautiful water, beautiful beach, and my beautiful kids were in the water BEGGING ME to come in...I could not. I was in the fetal posistion biting my knee. My wife was exhausted and looked at me with disgust for the first time since I had quit. She pulled herself up off her towel, where she should have been napping and getting some well deserved rest, and headed out to the water to swim with the kids. I told her, "I'm sorry honey, I promise next year ill be better". She said "You better, you fucking ruined this vacation for all of us". Talk about a dagger. Ouch.
Well...here it is "next year" and although I am feeling a tad anxious at the memories of last year (part of my lovely ptsd), I am mainly looking to get some revenge on the nic bitch from last year.
I am seriously looking to fuck some shit UP. Like just fucking turn into some kind of have fun at all costs mad man and undo every wrong I made last year.
I believe I have to "game" to do that now.
To say I am in a different place from last year is to say that SHIT tastes a little bit different than Filet.Â
I must admit though, that while the events of last year have me ultra motivated, they have me a tad scared as well, like "what if I slip back into that place?"
But fuck it. I'm gonna try my best not to dwell on the past and focus in the now. I've gone 412 days without a flake of nicotine. Had some ups and downs, but I am honestly looking for these next 7 days to be 7 of the best fucking days yet.
Wish me....success. We know luck ain't got no place in here.
Wont lick your balls but will say this post describes what is going on in the head of an addict.
Like always a great read D. The alternative to not liking it was very scary.
Whaat? They are freshly shaved for vacation. :D
You, diesel, have my complete respect. Thanks for sharing this. I hope this is also a vacation to remember, but for different reasons.
Respect and brotherhood x infinity. In fact I have ceremoniously also shorn my scrotum, my peepee shaft and even down in the neither region. And, when the waves gently lap against your gold and maize scrotum this week, give yourself a pat on the back - and the Bitch a hearty 'Finger' cause you've done good Big D.
As when in Rome. I as well will be smooth as talcum powder when I get home this evening.
D, you got this. You are in a different place and a different state of mind.
Do yourself and you family a huge favor, RELAX AND HAVE A GOOD TIME.
That is an order sir!!!
Remember my friend that fetal position was your birth into this nicotine free life and it turned you into one bad ass quitter. You can handle what ever is thrown your way. No birthing this year, just enjoyment and pleasure. Wear the kids out all day so you can wear Mrs Diesel out all night. No doubt you will succeed.
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Odd. It's 2:30AM right now but over an hour ago I tried to go to bed but could not sleep. So I click on sportscenter. I'm watching all these baseball highlights and like a ton of dudes had huge dips in. So being bored I grabbed my tablet and googled "how many mlb players dip".
Funny part is, as often happens when you ask the internet a question, I got spun into a totally different tangent. I didn't end up reading anything about mlb ball players dipping, I suddenly found myself reading how "safe" dip was, especially compared to cigarettes.
I was like, "what the fuck???".
Now I'm not dumb, in my 426 days here I know dipping is not safe, and reading this did not make me want to "revive the can", but it morbidly interested me, so I kept reading.
I read articles and studies about some levels of blah blah blah in smokeless tobacco were lower than in cigarettes, and how lung cancer is more prevelant than oral cancer, which is associated with dipping, etc...
However, there was one word that I did not read in any of those studies....addiction. They spoke nothing of it. They made it seem like it was cigs or smokeless, you were fucked either way. Almost like you had no choice in the matter.
Some fucking how I found my way into some kind of forum preaching the virtues of smokeless being "safer" than cigarettes and I started to get into it with this guy about this claim.
We went back and forth for a bit about mouth cancer and the normal stuff and he was always quick to the trigger with some canned response and cheesed out statistics he had memorized. Then I dropped this on him.
"How about you eliminate nicotine all together, and just fucking quit."
Suddenly his cursor was blinking for a few minutes. Pretty sure he didn't disappear to the bathroom. I think I gave him an option he had never considered, and he was dumbfounded.
Finally he typed back, "well of course not using anything is the safest thing to do, but that's not what we were talking abou here...'
I won.
I simply typed back , "LOL, ya think so genious. Best of LUCK to you, you're gonna need it" and I closed the page.
In find it sick that now the debate seems to be focusing on "which delivery method of nicotine is the safest".
Any Dick Face with half a brain know the answer to that...no delivery system at all. Just fucking quit or never start using.
Contrary to popular belife nowadays, there is a choice. Its not fucking mandatory to constantly fill your shit to the brim with nicotine and argue about which way of doing it is the "safest". What the fuck is wrong with people???
Why is addiction taken out of the equation?
That's why the peeps here are so bad ass. They are choosing a life of FREEDOM from ANY form of nicotine addiction.
We are the smart ones. We are willing to fight for our freedom while the lazy weak fucks want to fight over which form of keeping them a slave is "best". I mean seriously, how fucking stupid is that???
Fuck "them". I'm happy to be right here.
Even though I've had my struggles, deep down I knew I was and still am doing the right thing.
Doing the right thing...seems to be an outdated concept these days and it's a damn shame.
Sorry for the rant. Actually I'm not.
Keep vigilant you mother fuckers and stay quit!
-
Odd. It's 2:30AM right now but over an hour ago I tried to go to bed but could not sleep. So I click on sportscenter. I'm watching all these baseball highlights and like a ton of dudes had huge dips in. So being bored I grabbed my tablet and googled "how many mlb players dip".
Funny part is, as often happens when you ask the internet a question, I got spun into a totally different tangent. I didn't end up reading anything about mlb ball players dipping, I suddenly found myself reading how "safe" dip was, especially compared to cigarettes.
I was like, "what the fuck???".
Now I'm not dumb, in my 426 days here I know dipping is not safe, and reading this did not make me want to "revive the can", but it morbidly interested me, so I kept reading.
I read articles and studies about some levels of blah blah blah in smokeless tobacco were lower than in cigarettes, and how lung cancer is more prevelant than oral cancer, which is associated with dipping, etc...
However, there was one word that I did not read in any of those studies....addiction. They spoke nothing of it. They made it seem like it was cigs or smokeless, you were fucked either way. Almost like you had no choice in the matter.
Some fucking how I found my way into some kind of forum preaching the virtues of smokeless being "safer" than cigarettes and I started to get into it with this guy about this claim.
We went back and forth for a bit about mouth cancer and the normal stuff and he was always quick to the trigger with some canned response and cheesed out statistics he had memorized. Then I dropped this on him.
"How about you eliminate nicotine all together, and just fucking quit."
Suddenly his cursor was blinking for a few minutes. Pretty sure he didn't disappear to the bathroom. I think I gave him an option he had never considered, and he was dumbfounded.
Finally he typed back, "well of course not using anything is the safest thing to do, but that's not what we were talking abou here...'
I won.
I simply typed back , "LOL, ya think so genious. Best of LUCK to you, you're gonna need it" and I closed the page.
In find it sick that now the debate seems to be focusing on "which delivery method of nicotine is the safest".
Any Dick Face with half a brain know the answer to that...no delivery system at all. Just fucking quit or never start using.
Contrary to popular belife nowadays, there is a choice. Its not fucking mandatory to constantly fill your shit to the brim with nicotine and argue about which way of doing it is the "safest". What the fuck is wrong with people???
Why is addiction taken out of the equation?
That's why the peeps here are so bad ass. They are choosing a life of FREEDOM from ANY form of nicotine addiction.
We are the smart ones. We are willing to fight for our freedom while the lazy weak fucks want to fight over which form of keeping them a slave is "best". I mean seriously, how fucking stupid is that???
Fuck "them". I'm happy to be right here.
Even though I've had my struggles, deep down I knew I was and still am doing the right thing.
Doing the right thing...seems to be an outdated concept these days and it's a damn shame.
Sorry for the rant. Actually I'm not.
Keep vigilant you mother fuckers and stay quit!
Thanks Deisel, needed that.
I am surrounded by e-cig toting woman who find nothing wrong with it. I withhold judgement because that just aint my style but gosh it breaks my heart to see them so addicted. They can barely put the crack pipe down. I am talking like every minute or two they take a big drag. It is basically a lifetime of chain smoking, but they are all very happy that they have "quit" smoking. Very sad.
I will choose freedom with you today Deisel.
Ryan
-
Odd. It's 2:30AM right now but over an hour ago I tried to go to bed but could not sleep. So I click on sportscenter. I'm watching all these baseball highlights and like a ton of dudes had huge dips in. So being bored I grabbed my tablet and googled "how many mlb players dip".
Funny part is, as often happens when you ask the internet a question, I got spun into a totally different tangent. I didn't end up reading anything about mlb ball players dipping, I suddenly found myself reading how "safe" dip was, especially compared to cigarettes.
I was like, "what the fuck???".
Now I'm not dumb, in my 426 days here I know dipping is not safe, and reading this did not make me want to "revive the can", but it morbidly interested me, so I kept reading.Â
I read articles and studies about some levels of blah blah blah in smokeless tobacco were lower than in cigarettes, and how lung cancer is more prevelant than oral cancer, which is associated with dipping, etc...
However, there was one word that I did not read in any of those studies....addiction. They spoke nothing of it. They made it seem like it was cigs or smokeless, you were fucked either way. Almost like you had no choice in the matter.
Some fucking how I found my way into some kind of forum preaching the virtues of smokeless being "safer" than cigarettes and I started to get into it with this guy about this claim.
We went back and forth for a bit about mouth cancer and the normal stuff and he was always quick to the trigger with some canned response and cheesed out statistics he had memorized. Then I dropped this on him.
"How about you eliminate nicotine all together, and just fucking quit."
Suddenly his cursor was blinking for a few minutes. Pretty sure he didn't disappear to the bathroom. I think I gave him an option he had never considered, and he was dumbfounded.
Finally he typed back, "well of course not using anything is the safest thing to do, but that's not what we were talking abou here...'
I won.
I simply typed back , "LOL, ya think so genious. Best of LUCK to you, you're gonna need it" and I closed the page.
In find it sick that now the debate seems to be focusing on "which delivery method of nicotine is the safest".
Any Dick Face with half a brain know the answer to that...no delivery system at all. Just fucking quit or never start using.
Contrary to popular belife nowadays, there is a choice. Its not fucking mandatory to constantly fill your shit to the brim with nicotine and argue about which way of doing it is the "safest". What the fuck is wrong with people???Â
Why is addiction taken out of the equation?
That's why the peeps here are so bad ass. They are choosing a life of FREEDOM from ANY form of nicotine addiction.Â
We are the smart ones. We are willing to fight for our freedom while the lazy weak fucks want to fight over which form of keeping them a slave is "best". I mean seriously, how fucking stupid is that???
Fuck "them". I'm happy to be right here.Â
Even though I've had my struggles, deep down I knew I was and still am doing the right thing.Â
Doing the right thing...seems to be an outdated concept these days and it's a damn shame.
Sorry for the rant. Actually I'm not.
Keep vigilant you mother fuckers and stay quit!
Thanks Deisel, needed that.
I am surrounded by e-cig toting woman who find nothing wrong with it. I withhold judgement because that just aint my style but gosh it breaks my heart to see them so addicted. They can barely put the crack pipe down. I am talking like every minute or two they take a big drag. It is basically a lifetime of chain smoking, but they are all very happy that they have "quit" smoking. Very sad.
I will choose freedom with you today Deisel.
Ryan
Have y'all seen the ecig commercial? The idiot is talking about how great the ecig is. At the very end the idiot says,, "its time to take our freedom back".
Holy crap Batman,,, how many people fall for this line? I want to throw a rock at the tv every time the commercial comes on, but i just bought it. I like my tv so I'll leave the rocks outside.
Take your freedom back by sucking on ecigg? Wtf tv land. What happened to no commercials about tobacco? Its ok now that we have crack pipes with nicotine in them?? I'll take quit with all of you anyday. Screw tv land and the ecigg.
-
Odd. It's 2:30AM right now but over an hour ago I tried to go to bed but could not sleep. So I click on sportscenter. I'm watching all these baseball highlights and like a ton of dudes had huge dips in.  So being bored I grabbed my tablet and googled "how many mlb players dip".
Funny part is, as often happens when you ask the internet a question, I got spun into a totally different tangent. I didn't end up reading anything about mlb ball players dipping, I suddenly found myself reading how "safe" dip was, especially compared to cigarettes.
I was like, "what the fuck???".
Now I'm not dumb, in my 426 days here I know dipping is not safe, and reading this did not make me want to "revive the can", but it morbidly interested me, so I kept reading.Â
I read articles and studies about some levels of blah blah blah in smokeless tobacco were lower than in cigarettes, and how lung cancer is more prevelant than oral cancer, which is associated with dipping, etc...
However, there was one word that I did not read in any of those studies....addiction. They spoke nothing of it. They made it seem like it was cigs or smokeless, you were fucked either way. Almost like you had no choice in the matter.
Some fucking how I found my way into some kind of forum preaching the virtues of smokeless being "safer" than cigarettes and I started to get into it with this guy about this claim.
We went back and forth for a bit about mouth cancer and the normal stuff and he was always quick to the trigger with some canned response and cheesed out statistics he had memorized. Then I dropped this on him.
"How about you eliminate nicotine all together, and just fucking quit."
Suddenly his cursor was blinking for a few minutes. Pretty sure he didn't disappear to the bathroom. I think I gave him an option he had never considered, and he was dumbfounded.
Finally he typed back, "well of course not using anything is the safest thing to do, but that's not what we were talking abou here...'
I won.
I simply typed back , "LOL, ya think so genious. Best of LUCK to you, you're gonna need it" and I closed the page.
In find it sick that now the debate seems to be focusing on "which delivery method of nicotine is the safest".
Any Dick Face with half a brain know the answer to that...no delivery system at all. Just fucking quit or never start using.
Contrary to popular belife nowadays, there is a choice. Its not fucking mandatory to constantly fill your shit to the brim with nicotine and argue about which way of doing it is the "safest". What the fuck is wrong with people???Â
Why is addiction taken out of the equation?
That's why the peeps here are so bad ass. They are choosing a life of FREEDOM from ANY form of nicotine addiction.Â
We are the smart ones. We are willing to fight for our freedom while the lazy weak fucks want to fight over which form of keeping them a slave is "best". I mean seriously, how fucking stupid is that???
Fuck "them". I'm happy to be right here.Â
Even though I've had my struggles, deep down I knew I was and still am doing the right thing.Â
Doing the right thing...seems to be an outdated concept these days and it's a damn shame.
Sorry for the rant. Actually I'm not.
Keep vigilant you mother fuckers and stay quit!
Thanks Deisel, needed that.
I am surrounded by e-cig toting woman who find nothing wrong with it. I withhold judgement because that just aint my style but gosh it breaks my heart to see them so addicted. They can barely put the crack pipe down. I am talking like every minute or two they take a big drag. It is basically a lifetime of chain smoking, but they are all very happy that they have "quit" smoking. Very sad.
I will choose freedom with you today Deisel.
Ryan
Have y'all seen the ecig commercial? The idiot is talking about how great the ecig is. At the very end the idiot says,, "its time to take our freedom back".
Holy crap Batman,,, how many people fall for this line? I want to throw a rock at the tv every time the commercial comes on, but i just bought it. I like my tv so I'll leave the rocks outside.
Take your freedom back by sucking on ecigg? Wtf tv land. What happened to no commercials about tobacco? Its ok now that we have crack pipes with nicotine in them?? I'll take quit with all of you anyday. Screw tv land and the ecigg.
I know right, Stephen Dorff is a friggin dooshbag...lol.
..and have you seen the new one with Jenny McCarthy, I laugh everytime I see one of those e-cig commercials now.
The road less traveled, the dirt road......what ever you wanna call it, nic free is the toughest way but the most rewarding because we truly are free today from it. All that crap around just remind us of how damn addictive the shit is that people need to keep finding a "safer" delivery system for their fix.
I'm quit with all you bad asses today! Awesome post Diesel.
-
Odd. It's 2:30AM right now but over an hour ago I tried to go to bed but could not sleep. So I click on sportscenter. I'm watching all these baseball highlights and like a ton of dudes had huge dips in.  So being bored I grabbed my tablet and googled "how many mlb players dip".
Funny part is, as often happens when you ask the internet a question, I got spun into a totally different tangent. I didn't end up reading anything about mlb ball players dipping, I suddenly found myself reading how "safe" dip was, especially compared to cigarettes.
I was like, "what the fuck???".
Now I'm not dumb, in my 426 days here I know dipping is not safe, and reading this did not make me want to "revive the can", but it morbidly interested me, so I kept reading.Â
I read articles and studies about some levels of blah blah blah in smokeless tobacco were lower than in cigarettes, and how lung cancer is more prevelant than oral cancer, which is associated with dipping, etc...
However, there was one word that I did not read in any of those studies....addiction. They spoke nothing of it. They made it seem like it was cigs or smokeless, you were fucked either way. Almost like you had no choice in the matter.
Some fucking how I found my way into some kind of forum preaching the virtues of smokeless being "safer" than cigarettes and I started to get into it with this guy about this claim.
We went back and forth for a bit about mouth cancer and the normal stuff and he was always quick to the trigger with some canned response and cheesed out statistics he had memorized. Then I dropped this on him.
"How about you eliminate nicotine all together, and just fucking quit."
Suddenly his cursor was blinking for a few minutes. Pretty sure he didn't disappear to the bathroom. I think I gave him an option he had never considered, and he was dumbfounded.
Finally he typed back, "well of course not using anything is the safest thing to do, but that's not what we were talking abou here...'
I won.
I simply typed back , "LOL, ya think so genious. Best of LUCK to you, you're gonna need it" and I closed the page.
In find it sick that now the debate seems to be focusing on "which delivery method of nicotine is the safest".
Any Dick Face with half a brain know the answer to that...no delivery system at all. Just fucking quit or never start using.
Contrary to popular belife nowadays, there is a choice. Its not fucking mandatory to constantly fill your shit to the brim with nicotine and argue about which way of doing it is the "safest". What the fuck is wrong with people???Â
Why is addiction taken out of the equation?
That's why the peeps here are so bad ass. They are choosing a life of FREEDOM from ANY form of nicotine addiction.Â
We are the smart ones. We are willing to fight for our freedom while the lazy weak fucks want to fight over which form of keeping them a slave is "best". I mean seriously, how fucking stupid is that???
Fuck "them". I'm happy to be right here.Â
Even though I've had my struggles, deep down I knew I was and still am doing the right thing.Â
Doing the right thing...seems to be an outdated concept these days and it's a damn shame.
Sorry for the rant. Actually I'm not.
Keep vigilant you mother fuckers and stay quit!
Thanks Deisel, needed that.
I am surrounded by e-cig toting woman who find nothing wrong with it. I withhold judgement because that just aint my style but gosh it breaks my heart to see them so addicted. They can barely put the crack pipe down. I am talking like every minute or two they take a big drag. It is basically a lifetime of chain smoking, but they are all very happy that they have "quit" smoking. Very sad.
I will choose freedom with you today Deisel.
Ryan
Have y'all seen the ecig commercial? The idiot is talking about how great the ecig is. At the very end the idiot says,, "its time to take our freedom back".
Holy crap Batman,,, how many people fall for this line? I want to throw a rock at the tv every time the commercial comes on, but i just bought it. I like my tv so I'll leave the rocks outside.
Take your freedom back by sucking on ecigg? Wtf tv land. What happened to no commercials about tobacco? Its ok now that we have crack pipes with nicotine in them?? I'll take quit with all of you anyday. Screw tv land and the ecigg.
I know right, Stephen Dorff is a friggin dooshbag...lol.
..and have you seen the new one with Jenny McCarthy, I laugh everytime I see one of those e-cig commercials now.
The road less traveled, the dirt road......what ever you wanna call it, nic free is the toughest way but the most rewarding because we truly are free today from it. All that crap around just remind us of how damn addictive the shit is that people need to keep finding a "safer" delivery system for their fix.
I'm quit with all you bad asses today! Awesome post Diesel.
Having traveled both roads, THEY are on the dirt road. WE are on the golden road.
Also I don't believe nic free road is the toughest. NOW it is as we break the chains of addiction, but staying off that road all together would have no doubt been the easiest, and the road I wish I had taken. But I didn't, I strayed and am now merging back onto that beautiful golden road, which IS tough, no doubt.
People who never start are the true "golden roaders"
That's what these assholes should be focusing their efforts on...Never starting or if you did stray to get back on track, not which way of keeping you addicted is the safest.
Bunch of dick wads.
-
Odd. It's 2:30AM right now but over an hour ago I tried to go to bed but could not sleep. So I click on sportscenter. I'm watching all these baseball highlights and like a ton of dudes had huge dips in.  So being bored I grabbed my tablet and googled "how many mlb players dip".
Funny part is, as often happens when you ask the internet a question, I got spun into a totally different tangent. I didn't end up reading anything about mlb ball players dipping, I suddenly found myself reading how "safe" dip was, especially compared to cigarettes.
I was like, "what the fuck???".
Now I'm not dumb, in my 426 days here I know dipping is not safe, and reading this did not make me want to "revive the can", but it morbidly interested me, so I kept reading.Â
I read articles and studies about some levels of blah blah blah in smokeless tobacco were lower than in cigarettes, and how lung cancer is more prevelant than oral cancer, which is associated with dipping, etc...
However, there was one word that I did not read in any of those studies....addiction. They spoke nothing of it. They made it seem like it was cigs or smokeless, you were fucked either way. Almost like you had no choice in the matter.
Some fucking how I found my way into some kind of forum preaching the virtues of smokeless being "safer" than cigarettes and I started to get into it with this guy about this claim.
We went back and forth for a bit about mouth cancer and the normal stuff and he was always quick to the trigger with some canned response and cheesed out statistics he had memorized. Then I dropped this on him.
"How about you eliminate nicotine all together, and just fucking quit."
Suddenly his cursor was blinking for a few minutes. Pretty sure he didn't disappear to the bathroom. I think I gave him an option he had never considered, and he was dumbfounded.
Finally he typed back, "well of course not using anything is the safest thing to do, but that's not what we were talking abou here...'
I won.
I simply typed back , "LOL, ya think so genious. Best of LUCK to you, you're gonna need it" and I closed the page.
In find it sick that now the debate seems to be focusing on "which delivery method of nicotine is the safest".
Any Dick Face with half a brain know the answer to that...no delivery system at all. Just fucking quit or never start using.
Contrary to popular belife nowadays, there is a choice. Its not fucking mandatory to constantly fill your shit to the brim with nicotine and argue about which way of doing it is the "safest". What the fuck is wrong with people???Â
Why is addiction taken out of the equation?
That's why the peeps here are so bad ass. They are choosing a life of FREEDOM from ANY form of nicotine addiction.Â
We are the smart ones. We are willing to fight for our freedom while the lazy weak fucks want to fight over which form of keeping them a slave is "best". I mean seriously, how fucking stupid is that???
Fuck "them". I'm happy to be right here.Â
Even though I've had my struggles, deep down I knew I was and still am doing the right thing.Â
Doing the right thing...seems to be an outdated concept these days and it's a damn shame.
Sorry for the rant. Actually I'm not.
Keep vigilant you mother fuckers and stay quit!
Thanks Deisel, needed that.
I am surrounded by e-cig toting woman who find nothing wrong with it. I withhold judgement because that just aint my style but gosh it breaks my heart to see them so addicted. They can barely put the crack pipe down. I am talking like every minute or two they take a big drag. It is basically a lifetime of chain smoking, but they are all very happy that they have "quit" smoking. Very sad.
I will choose freedom with you today Deisel.
Ryan
Have y'all seen the ecig commercial? The idiot is talking about how great the ecig is. At the very end the idiot says,, "its time to take our freedom back".
Holy crap Batman,,, how many people fall for this line? I want to throw a rock at the tv every time the commercial comes on, but i just bought it. I like my tv so I'll leave the rocks outside.
Take your freedom back by sucking on ecigg? Wtf tv land. What happened to no commercials about tobacco? Its ok now that we have crack pipes with nicotine in them?? I'll take quit with all of you anyday. Screw tv land and the ecigg.
I know right, Stephen Dorff is a friggin dooshbag...lol.
..and have you seen the new one with Jenny McCarthy, I laugh everytime I see one of those e-cig commercials now.
The road less traveled, the dirt road......what ever you wanna call it, nic free is the toughest way but the most rewarding because we truly are free today from it. All that crap around just remind us of how damn addictive the shit is that people need to keep finding a "safer" delivery system for their fix.
I'm quit with all you bad asses today! Awesome post Diesel.
Having traveled both roads, THEY are on the dirt road. WE are on the golden road.
Also I don't believe nic free road is the toughest. NOW it is as we break the chains of addiction, but staying off that road all together would have no doubt been the easiest, and the road I wish I had taken. But I didn't, I strayed and am now merging back onto that beautiful golden road, which IS tough, no doubt.
People who never start are the true "golden roaders"
That's what these assholes should be focusing their efforts on...Never starting or if you did stray to get back on track, not which way of keeping you addicted is the safest.
Bunch of dick wads.
I work in a bar/restaurant have had to tell Numerous people to not rip their F-ing ecigs inside. Like WTF are you thinking?? Oh douche Stephan dorf says it's fine...fuck that. I ask if they'd be ok blowing that shit in a baby's face? Answers always no! Then don't make me have to inhale shit.
Fortunately Colorado has a clean air law I can just tell the dumbass it's illegal
-
Odd. It's 2:30AM right now but over an hour ago I tried to go to bed but could not sleep. So I click on sportscenter. I'm watching all these baseball highlights and like a ton of dudes had huge dips in.  So being bored I grabbed my tablet and googled "how many mlb players dip".
Funny part is, as often happens when you ask the internet a question, I got spun into a totally different tangent. I didn't end up reading anything about mlb ball players dipping, I suddenly found myself reading how "safe" dip was, especially compared to cigarettes.
I was like, "what the fuck???".
Now I'm not dumb, in my 426 days here I know dipping is not safe, and reading this did not make me want to "revive the can", but it morbidly interested me, so I kept reading.Â
I read articles and studies about some levels of blah blah blah in smokeless tobacco were lower than in cigarettes, and how lung cancer is more prevelant than oral cancer, which is associated with dipping, etc...
However, there was one word that I did not read in any of those studies....addiction. They spoke nothing of it. They made it seem like it was cigs or smokeless, you were fucked either way. Almost like you had no choice in the matter.
Some fucking how I found my way into some kind of forum preaching the virtues of smokeless being "safer" than cigarettes and I started to get into it with this guy about this claim.
We went back and forth for a bit about mouth cancer and the normal stuff and he was always quick to the trigger with some canned response and cheesed out statistics he had memorized. Then I dropped this on him.
"How about you eliminate nicotine all together, and just fucking quit."
Suddenly his cursor was blinking for a few minutes. Pretty sure he didn't disappear to the bathroom. I think I gave him an option he had never considered, and he was dumbfounded.
Finally he typed back, "well of course not using anything is the safest thing to do, but that's not what we were talking abou here...'
I won.
I simply typed back , "LOL, ya think so genious. Best of LUCK to you, you're gonna need it" and I closed the page.
In find it sick that now the debate seems to be focusing on "which delivery method of nicotine is the safest".
Any Dick Face with half a brain know the answer to that...no delivery system at all. Just fucking quit or never start using.
Contrary to popular belife nowadays, there is a choice. Its not fucking mandatory to constantly fill your shit to the brim with nicotine and argue about which way of doing it is the "safest". What the fuck is wrong with people???Â
Why is addiction taken out of the equation?
That's why the peeps here are so bad ass. They are choosing a life of FREEDOM from ANY form of nicotine addiction.Â
We are the smart ones. We are willing to fight for our freedom while the lazy weak fucks want to fight over which form of keeping them a slave is "best". I mean seriously, how fucking stupid is that???
Fuck "them". I'm happy to be right here.Â
Even though I've had my struggles, deep down I knew I was and still am doing the right thing.Â
Doing the right thing...seems to be an outdated concept these days and it's a damn shame.
Sorry for the rant. Actually I'm not.
Keep vigilant you mother fuckers and stay quit!
Thanks Deisel, needed that.
I am surrounded by e-cig toting woman who find nothing wrong with it. I withhold judgement because that just aint my style but gosh it breaks my heart to see them so addicted. They can barely put the crack pipe down. I am talking like every minute or two they take a big drag. It is basically a lifetime of chain smoking, but they are all very happy that they have "quit" smoking. Very sad.
I will choose freedom with you today Deisel.
Ryan
Have y'all seen the ecig commercial? The idiot is talking about how great the ecig is. At the very end the idiot says,, "its time to take our freedom back".
Holy crap Batman,,, how many people fall for this line? I want to throw a rock at the tv every time the commercial comes on, but i just bought it. I like my tv so I'll leave the rocks outside.
Take your freedom back by sucking on ecigg? Wtf tv land. What happened to no commercials about tobacco? Its ok now that we have crack pipes with nicotine in them?? I'll take quit with all of you anyday. Screw tv land and the ecigg.
I know right, Stephen Dorff is a friggin dooshbag...lol.
..and have you seen the new one with Jenny McCarthy, I laugh everytime I see one of those e-cig commercials now.
The road less traveled, the dirt road......what ever you wanna call it, nic free is the toughest way but the most rewarding because we truly are free today from it. All that crap around just remind us of how damn addictive the shit is that people need to keep finding a "safer" delivery system for their fix.
I'm quit with all you bad asses today! Awesome post Diesel.
Having traveled both roads, THEY are on the dirt road. WE are on the golden road.
Also I don't believe nic free road is the toughest. NOW it is as we break the chains of addiction, but staying off that road all together would have no doubt been the easiest, and the road I wish I had taken. But I didn't, I strayed and am now merging back onto that beautiful golden road, which IS tough, no doubt.
People who never start are the true "golden roaders"
That's what these assholes should be focusing their efforts on...Never starting or if you did stray to get back on track, not which way of keeping you addicted is the safest.
Bunch of dick wads.
I work in a bar/restaurant have had to tell Numerous people to not rip their F-ing ecigs inside. Like WTF are you thinking?? Oh douche Stephan dorf says it's fine...fuck that. I ask if they'd be ok blowing that shit in a baby's face? Answers always no! Then don't make me have to inhale shit.
Fortunately Colorado has a clean air law I can just tell the dumbass it's illegal
"lazy weak fucks" that just about sums it up Diesel.....
It has become easier in this society to ask "why" and point fingers and blame others then it is to fight for and try for "why not".
Thanks once again Diesel for pointing out the obvious......
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Was pretty awesome this weekend. I was at a huge dago family picnic. My Uncle was smoking lung darts the entire day. He offered me a cigar the size of a boat oar as we were eating desserts, I'm sure he had been looking forward to pulling that thing out for the whole, "After a good meal smoke" the entire time he was at the party. I said "Nah, I quit tobacco". He took a deep drag off of it and blew it in my face.
Total dick move, right? I wanted to cough as the shit was nasty as hell and got into my lungs, and I also wanted to rip his fucking face off. But I didn't. In fact I didn't do a God Damn thing other than gather myself with a DEEP fucking breath and went back to my cannoli. I reveled in the satisfaction that I am beating an addiction that that son of a bitch could only DREAM to beat.
How am I doing it? one day at a time, just like I have for 249 days now. How did I eat that cannoli? In like 2 fucking bites. Don't treat your quit like a cannoli boys and girls.
Quit on...
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Was pretty awesome this weekend. I was at a huge dago family picnic. My Uncle was smoking lung darts the entire day. He offered me a cigar the size of a boat oar as we were eating desserts, I'm sure he had been looking forward to pulling that thing out for the whole, "After a good meal smoke" the entire time he was at the party. I said "Nah, I quit tobacco". He took a deep drag off of it and blew it in my face.
Total dick move, right? I wanted to cough as the shit was nasty as hell and got into my lungs, and I also wanted to rip his fucking face off. But I didn't. In fact I didn't do a God Damn thing other than gather myself with a DEEP fucking breath and went back to my cannoli. I reveled in the satisfaction that I am beating an addiction that that son of a bitch could only DREAM to beat.
How am I doing it? one day at a time, just like I have for 249 days now. How did I eat that cannoli? In like 2 fucking bites. Don't treat your quit like a cannoli boys and girls.
Quit on...
Way to not give him the power Diesel. It had to be a complete sense of accomplishment knowing you are QUIT and he is still deep-throatin cancer. Not to be insensitive to your uncle killing himself but damn, he sure didn't give a shit about blowin it in yer face.
Pisses me off thinking about. I am glad to be quit with you. Your a badazz! Thanks for the inspiration and reminding me who is in control. Quack on!
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Was pretty awesome this weekend. I was at a huge dago family picnic. My Uncle was smoking lung darts the entire day. He offered me a cigar the size of a boat oar as we were eating desserts, I'm sure he had been looking forward to pulling that thing out for the whole, "After a good meal smoke" the entire time he was at the party.  I said "Nah, I quit tobacco". He took a deep drag off of it and blew it in my face.
Total dick move, right? I wanted to cough as the shit was nasty as hell and got into my lungs, and I also wanted to rip his fucking face off. But I didn't. In fact I didn't do a God Damn thing other than gather myself with a DEEP fucking breath and went back to my cannoli. I reveled in the satisfaction that I am beating an addiction that that son of a bitch could only DREAM to beat.
How am I doing it? one day at a time, just like I have for 249 days now. How did I eat that cannoli? In like 2 fucking bites. Don't treat your quit like a cannoli boys and girls.
Quit on...
Way to not give him the power Diesel. It had to be a complete sense of accomplishment knowing you are QUIT and he is still deep-throatin cancer. Not to be insensitive to your uncle killing himself but damn, he sure didn't give a shit about blowin it in yer face.
Pisses me off thinking about. I am glad to be quit with you. Your a badazz! Thanks for the inspiration and reminding me who is in control. Quack on!
You da man, I just quit here...
Rock on Brother!
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Hell to the Yeah. FINALLY got a new Avitar to load.
GO BLUE!!! Bring on college football!!!!!
Quit on...
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Hell to the Yeah. FINALLY got a new Avitar to load.
GO BLUE!!! Bring on college football!!!!!
Quit on...
I waited 2 weeks for that......
Big Ten............
What a Debbie Downer............ 'finger point'
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo time Baby!!!!! 'oh yeah'
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Hell to the Yeah. FINALLY got a new Avitar to load.
GO BLUE!!! Bring on college football!!!!!
Quit on...
I waited 2 weeks for that......
Big Ten............
What a Debbie Downer............ 'finger point'
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo time Baby!!!!! 'oh yeah'
Hoke-a-Mania gonna lead the maize and blue and the big 10 back to elite status.
Lets see how the duck dynasty does minus their coach. Luckily they have Phil Knight and Nike's deep pockets to keep them going.
Quit on...
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Hell to the Yeah. FINALLY got a new Avitar to load.
GO BLUE!!! Bring on college football!!!!!
Quit on...
I waited 2 weeks for that......
Big Ten............
What a Debbie Downer............ 'finger point'
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo time Baby!!!!! 'oh yeah'
Hoke-a-Mania gonna lead the maize and blue and the big 10 back to elite status.
Lets see how the duck dynasty does minus their coach. Luckily they have Phil Knight and Nike's deep pockets to keep them going.
Quit on...
You are both speaking a language I don't understand.
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Hell to the Yeah. FINALLY got a new Avitar to load.
GO BLUE!!! Bring on college football!!!!!
Quit on...
I waited 2 weeks for that......
Big Ten............
What a Debbie Downer............ 'finger point'
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo time Baby!!!!! 'oh yeah'
Hoke-a-Mania gonna lead the maize and blue and the big 10 back to elite status.
Lets see how the duck dynasty does minus their coach. Luckily they have Phil Knight and Nike's deep pockets to keep them going.
Quit on...
You are both speaking a language I don't understand.
Just talking a little college football. It starts this week and Is a very exciting time in a man's life.
Quit on...
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Hell to the Yeah. FINALLY got a new Avitar to load.
GO BLUE!!! Bring on college football!!!!!
Quit on...
I waited 2 weeks for that......
Big Ten............
What a Debbie Downer............ 'finger point'
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo time Baby!!!!! 'oh yeah'
Hoke-a-Mania gonna lead the maize and blue and the big 10 back to elite status.
Lets see how the duck dynasty does minus their coach. Luckily they have Phil Knight and Nike's deep pockets to keep them going.
Quit on...
You are both speaking a language I don't understand.
Just talking a little college football. It starts this week and Is a very exciting time in a man's life.
Quit on...
Now I understand, thanks Diesel for the clarification.
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Hell to the Yeah. FINALLY got a new Avitar to load.
GO BLUE!!! Bring on college football!!!!!
Quit on...
I waited 2 weeks for that......
Big Ten............
What a Debbie Downer............ 'finger point'
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo time Baby!!!!! 'oh yeah'
Hoke-a-Mania gonna lead the maize and blue and the big 10 back to elite status.
Lets see how the duck dynasty does minus their coach. Luckily they have Phil Knight and Nike's deep pockets to keep them going.
Quit on...
You are both speaking a language I don't understand.
Just talking a little college football. It starts this week and Is a very exciting time in a man's life.
Quit on...
Now I understand, thanks Diesel for the clarification.
No prob. That's what I'm here for...clarification. Need anything else cleared up, hit me up.
Quit on...
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Hell to the Yeah. FINALLY got a new Avitar to load.
GO BLUE!!! Bring on college football!!!!!
Quit on...
I waited 2 weeks for that......
Big Ten............
What a Debbie Downer............ 'finger point'
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo time Baby!!!!! 'oh yeah'
Hoke-a-Mania gonna lead the maize and blue and the big 10 back to elite status.
Lets see how the duck dynasty does minus their coach. Luckily they have Phil Knight and Nike's deep pockets to keep them going.
Quit on...
You are both speaking a language I don't understand.
Just talking a little college football. It starts this week and Is a very exciting time in a man's life.
Quit on...
Now I understand, thanks Diesel for the clarification.
No prob. That's what I'm here for...clarification. Need anything else cleared up, hit me up.
Quit on...
While we are still civil with each other :D Good luck this year. GBR !
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Hell to the Yeah. FINALLY got a new Avitar to load.
GO BLUE!!! Bring on college football!!!!!
Quit on...
I waited 2 weeks for that......
Big Ten............
What a Debbie Downer............ 'finger point'
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooo time Baby!!!!! 'oh yeah'
Hoke-a-Mania gonna lead the maize and blue and the big 10 back to elite status.
Lets see how the duck dynasty does minus their coach. Luckily they have Phil Knight and Nike's deep pockets to keep them going.
Quit on...
You are both speaking a language I don't understand.
Just talking a little college football. It starts this week and Is a very exciting time in a man's life.
Quit on...
Now I understand, thanks Diesel for the clarification.
No prob. That's what I'm here for...clarification. Need anything else cleared up, hit me up.
Quit on...
While we are still civil with each other :D Good luck this year. GBR !
Is this Taylor Martinez's 8th year at Nebraska?
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First fantasy fb draft tonight without the shit. I actually skipped playing last year because I didn't handle the temptation and would not enjoy being around the fellas at the draft without a lip full.
What a ding-a-ling.
Quit on...
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First fantasy fb draft tonight without the shit. I actually skipped playing last year because I didn't handle the temptation and would not enjoy being around the fellas at the draft without a lip full.
What a ding-a-ling.
Quit on...
Enjoy your first nic free draft. You are a quit master and have helped me plenty in getting my mind right and my quit solid. Here is my take on your last year miss. . You were just being cautious. You weren't confident you could deal with it at that point, so you just stayed away. Now, you have your quit on lockdown, and not a damn thing is going to mess with it.
Sounds like solid quit game all the way around.
Thanks for being an inspiration and sayer of quit truth.
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First fantasy fb draft tonight without the shit. I actually skipped playing last year because I didn't handle the temptation and would not enjoy being around the fellas at the draft without a lip full.
What a ding-a-ling.
Quit on...
Yep. Online drafts without a lip full coming up for me. 2 in fact. Not a temptation because I will post roll and I will honor that word. Just another thing to put a notch next too that we do now without the cat turd.
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First fantasy fb draft tonight without the shit. I actually skipped playing last year because I didn't handle the temptation and would not enjoy being around the fellas at the draft without a lip full.
What a ding-a-ling.
Quit on...
Yep. Online drafts without a lip full coming up for me. 2 in fact. Not a temptation because I will post roll and I will honor that word. Just another thing to put a notch next too that we do now without the cat turd.
Gee. What do you know. I made it through the draft no problem.
I remember 2 years ago, sitting in my buddies garage for 4 hrs of drafting and then 3 hrs of poker after. I had a dip in almost the entire time. Took it out only to eat some pizza and sub.
I vividly remember driving home with my tongue, gums and inner lips just aching like a son of a bitch. I remember thinking to myself, 'fuck, when are you gonna quit this shit. It doesn't even taste good anymore, it fucking hurts"
Even though I asked myself a pretty serious question , I gave myself a shifty answer..."Fuck it"
Nice line of thinking. "Fuck it", what a moronic answer swayed by the demon known as addiction.
Thank the lord I wised up, got help here and other places, and have been quit for 450 days.
Tonight I drove home and asked myself , "how could I have been so stupid???"
Quit on...
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First fantasy fb draft tonight without the shit. I actually skipped playing last year because I didn't handle the temptation and would not enjoy being around the fellas at the draft without a lip full.
What a ding-a-ling.
Quit on...
Yep. Online drafts without a lip full coming up for me. 2 in fact. Not a temptation because I will post roll and I will honor that word. Just another thing to put a notch next too that we do now without the cat turd.
Gee. What do you know. I made it through the draft no problem.
I remember 2 years ago, sitting in my buddies garage for 4 hrs of drafting and then 3 hrs of poker after. I had a dip in almost the entire time. Took it out only to eat some pizza and sub.
I vividly remember driving home with my tongue, gums and inner lips just aching like a son of a bitch. I remember thinking to myself, 'fuck, when are you gonna quit this shit. It doesn't even taste good anymore, it fucking hurts"
Even though I asked myself a pretty serious question , I gave myself a shifty answer..."Fuck it"
Nice line of thinking. "Fuck it", what a moronic answer swayed by the demon known as addiction.
Thank the lord I wised up, got help here and other places, and have been quit for 450 days.
Tonight I drove home and asked myself , "how could I have been so stupid???"
Quit on...
'worship'
Lovin ' it Diesel .......thanks once again
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First fantasy fb draft tonight without the shit. I actually skipped playing last year because I didn't handle the temptation and would not enjoy being around the fellas at the draft without a lip full.
What a ding-a-ling.
Quit on...
Yep. Online drafts without a lip full coming up for me. 2 in fact. Not a temptation because I will post roll and I will honor that word. Just another thing to put a notch next too that we do now without the cat turd.
Gee. What do you know. I made it through the draft no problem.
I remember 2 years ago, sitting in my buddies garage for 4 hrs of drafting and then 3 hrs of poker after. I had a dip in almost the entire time. Took it out only to eat some pizza and sub.
I vividly remember driving home with my tongue, gums and inner lips just aching like a son of a bitch. I remember thinking to myself, 'fuck, when are you gonna quit this shit. It doesn't even taste good anymore, it fucking hurts"
Even though I asked myself a pretty serious question , I gave myself a shifty answer..."Fuck it"
Nice line of thinking. "Fuck it", what a moronic answer swayed by the demon known as addiction.
Thank the lord I wised up, got help here and other places, and have been quit for 450 days.
Tonight I drove home and asked myself , "how could I have been so stupid???"
Quit on...
'worship'
Lovin ' it Diesel .......thanks once again
I went to my first draft after quitting with a buddy of mine that knew I was quit. Nobody else did.
However, about the third round, I threw in some Smokey Mountain Snuff.
The friend, who also is a chewer and knew I was quit, was ecstatic. "I knew you couldn't stay quit. Ha! It's hard, isn't it?"
I explained to him what the stuff was, and that I was still quit. The next day I sent him a long Facebook message talking about my quit, this site, and how he could quit as well.
Good job getting through it man. Proud of you.
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First fantasy fb draft tonight without the shit. I actually skipped playing last year because I didn't handle the temptation and would not enjoy being around the fellas at the draft without a lip full.
What a ding-a-ling.
Quit on...
Yep. Online drafts without a lip full coming up for me. 2 in fact. Not a temptation because I will post roll and I will honor that word. Just another thing to put a notch next too that we do now without the cat turd.
Gee. What do you know. I made it through the draft no problem.
I remember 2 years ago, sitting in my buddies garage for 4 hrs of drafting and then 3 hrs of poker after. I had a dip in almost the entire time. Took it out only to eat some pizza and sub.
I vividly remember driving home with my tongue, gums and inner lips just aching like a son of a bitch. I remember thinking to myself, 'fuck, when are you gonna quit this shit. It doesn't even taste good anymore, it fucking hurts"
Even though I asked myself a pretty serious question , I gave myself a shifty answer..."Fuck it"
Nice line of thinking. "Fuck it", what a moronic answer swayed by the demon known as addiction.
Thank the lord I wised up, got help here and other places, and have been quit for 450 days.
Tonight I drove home and asked myself , "how could I have been so stupid???"
Quit on...
'worship'
Lovin ' it Diesel .......thanks once again
I went to my first draft after quitting with a buddy of mine that knew I was quit. Nobody else did.
However, about the third round, I threw in some Smokey Mountain Snuff.
The friend, who also is a chewer and knew I was quit, was ecstatic. "I knew you couldn't stay quit. Ha! It's hard, isn't it?"
I explained to him what the stuff was, and that I was still quit. The next day I sent him a long Facebook message talking about my quit, this site, and how he could quit as well.
Good job getting through it man. Proud of you.
Excellent success stories!
I have a draft coming up this Saturday and it's a big bbq/beer affair at my buddies.
I lived with a dip in and I still get a little anxious sometimes but I'm not throwing away my quit for 5 minutes of burn and a lifetime of shame!
Fuck that noise! I'm loving the freedom!
You guys are awesome examples of quit success.
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First fantasy fb draft tonight without the shit. I actually skipped playing last year because I didn't handle the temptation and would not enjoy being around the fellas at the draft without a lip full.
What a ding-a-ling.
Quit on...
Yep. Online drafts without a lip full coming up for me. 2 in fact. Not a temptation because I will post roll and I will honor that word. Just another thing to put a notch next too that we do now without the cat turd.
Gee. What do you know. I made it through the draft no problem.
I remember 2 years ago, sitting in my buddies garage for 4 hrs of drafting and then 3 hrs of poker after. I had a dip in almost the entire time. Took it out only to eat some pizza and sub.
I vividly remember driving home with my tongue, gums and inner lips just aching like a son of a bitch. I remember thinking to myself, 'fuck, when are you gonna quit this shit. It doesn't even taste good anymore, it fucking hurts"
Even though I asked myself a pretty serious question , I gave myself a shifty answer..."Fuck it"
Nice line of thinking. "Fuck it", what a moronic answer swayed by the demon known as addiction.
Thank the lord I wised up, got help here and other places, and have been quit for 450 days.
Tonight I drove home and asked myself , "how could I have been so stupid???"
Quit on...
'worship'
Lovin ' it Diesel .......thanks once again
I went to my first draft after quitting with a buddy of mine that knew I was quit. Nobody else did.
However, about the third round, I threw in some Smokey Mountain Snuff.
The friend, who also is a chewer and knew I was quit, was ecstatic. "I knew you couldn't stay quit. Ha! It's hard, isn't it?"
I explained to him what the stuff was, and that I was still quit. The next day I sent him a long Facebook message talking about my quit, this site, and how he could quit as well.
Good job getting through it man. Proud of you.
Excellent success stories!
I have a draft coming up this Saturday and it's a big bbq/beer affair at my buddies.
I lived with a dip in and I still get a little anxious sometimes but I'm not throwing away my quit for 5 minutes of burn and a lifetime of shame!
Fuck that noise! I'm loving the freedom!
You guys are awesome examples of quit success.
It's funny how misery seems to love company. Our draft was at a bar this year. The smokers kept pausing the draft to go outside and suck on cancer sticks, I think 2 guys were chewers so they went for a quick stuff and spit too.
They asked me to go, nobody knew I quit. I told them, "nah I quit that shit". Yet every fucking time they went outside, they asked "You sure you don't want to go???" Like I was missing out on something great.
Fucking idiots. They are like addicted dogs that like to run in packs. Fuck being part of that pack.
Quit on...
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First fantasy fb draft tonight without the shit. I actually skipped playing last year because I didn't handle the temptation and would not enjoy being around the fellas at the draft without a lip full.
What a ding-a-ling.
Quit on...
Yep. Online drafts without a lip full coming up for me. 2 in fact. Not a temptation because I will post roll and I will honor that word. Just another thing to put a notch next too that we do now without the cat turd.
Gee. What do you know. I made it through the draft no problem.
I remember 2 years ago, sitting in my buddies garage for 4 hrs of drafting and then 3 hrs of poker after. I had a dip in almost the entire time. Took it out only to eat some pizza and sub.
I vividly remember driving home with my tongue, gums and inner lips just aching like a son of a bitch. I remember thinking to myself, 'fuck, when are you gonna quit this shit. It doesn't even taste good anymore, it fucking hurts"
Even though I asked myself a pretty serious question , I gave myself a shifty answer..."Fuck it"
Nice line of thinking. "Fuck it", what a moronic answer swayed by the demon known as addiction.
Thank the lord I wised up, got help here and other places, and have been quit for 450 days.
Tonight I drove home and asked myself , "how could I have been so stupid???"
Quit on...
'worship'
Lovin ' it Diesel .......thanks once again
I went to my first draft after quitting with a buddy of mine that knew I was quit. Nobody else did.
However, about the third round, I threw in some Smokey Mountain Snuff.
The friend, who also is a chewer and knew I was quit, was ecstatic. "I knew you couldn't stay quit. Ha! It's hard, isn't it?"
I explained to him what the stuff was, and that I was still quit. The next day I sent him a long Facebook message talking about my quit, this site, and how he could quit as well.
Good job getting through it man. Proud of you.
Excellent success stories!
I have a draft coming up this Saturday and it's a big bbq/beer affair at my buddies.
I lived with a dip in and I still get a little anxious sometimes but I'm not throwing away my quit for 5 minutes of burn and a lifetime of shame!
Fuck that noise! I'm loving the freedom!
You guys are awesome examples of quit success.
It's funny how misery seems to love company. Our draft was at a bar this year. The smokers kept pausing the draft to go outside and suck on cancer sticks, I think 2 guys were chewers so they went for a quick stuff and spit too.
They asked me to go, nobody knew I quit. I told them, "nah I quit that shit". Yet every fucking time they went outside, they asked "You sure you don't want to go???" Like I was missing out on something great.
Fucking idiots. They are like addicted dogs that like to run in packs. Fuck being part of that pack.
Quit on...
Good read.
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First fantasy fb draft tonight without the shit. I actually skipped playing last year because I didn't handle the temptation and would not enjoy being around the fellas at the draft without a lip full.
What a ding-a-ling.
Quit on...
Yep. Online drafts without a lip full coming up for me. 2 in fact. Not a temptation because I will post roll and I will honor that word. Just another thing to put a notch next too that we do now without the cat turd.
Gee. What do you know. I made it through the draft no problem.
I remember 2 years ago, sitting in my buddies garage for 4 hrs of drafting and then 3 hrs of poker after. I had a dip in almost the entire time. Took it out only to eat some pizza and sub.
I vividly remember driving home with my tongue, gums and inner lips just aching like a son of a bitch. I remember thinking to myself, 'fuck, when are you gonna quit this shit. It doesn't even taste good anymore, it fucking hurts"
Even though I asked myself a pretty serious question , I gave myself a shifty answer..."Fuck it"
Nice line of thinking. "Fuck it", what a moronic answer swayed by the demon known as addiction.
Thank the lord I wised up, got help here and other places, and have been quit for 450 days.
Tonight I drove home and asked myself , "how could I have been so stupid???"
Quit on...
'worship'
Lovin ' it Diesel .......thanks once again
I went to my first draft after quitting with a buddy of mine that knew I was quit. Nobody else did.
However, about the third round, I threw in some Smokey Mountain Snuff.
The friend, who also is a chewer and knew I was quit, was ecstatic. "I knew you couldn't stay quit. Ha! It's hard, isn't it?"
I explained to him what the stuff was, and that I was still quit. The next day I sent him a long Facebook message talking about my quit, this site, and how he could quit as well.
Good job getting through it man. Proud of you.
Excellent success stories!
I have a draft coming up this Saturday and it's a big bbq/beer affair at my buddies.
I lived with a dip in and I still get a little anxious sometimes but I'm not throwing away my quit for 5 minutes of burn and a lifetime of shame!
Fuck that noise! I'm loving the freedom!
You guys are awesome examples of quit success.
It's funny how misery seems to love company. Our draft was at a bar this year. The smokers kept pausing the draft to go outside and suck on cancer sticks, I think 2 guys were chewers so they went for a quick stuff and spit too.
They asked me to go, nobody knew I quit. I told them, "nah I quit that shit". Yet every fucking time they went outside, they asked "You sure you don't want to go???" Like I was missing out on something great.
Fucking idiots. They are like addicted dogs that like to run in packs. Fuck being part of that pack.
Quit on...
Good read.
Kinda like what happened with my mom and dad in-laws.
They quit drinking...then wondered where all their (so called) friends went to.
Thank God we are QUIT Deisel!!
NAFAR brother. Always ODAAT!
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First fantasy fb draft tonight without the shit. I actually skipped playing last year because I didn't handle the temptation and would not enjoy being around the fellas at the draft without a lip full.
What a ding-a-ling.
Quit on...
Yep. Online drafts without a lip full coming up for me. 2 in fact. Not a temptation because I will post roll and I will honor that word. Just another thing to put a notch next too that we do now without the cat turd.
Gee. What do you know. I made it through the draft no problem.
I remember 2 years ago, sitting in my buddies garage for 4 hrs of drafting and then 3 hrs of poker after. I had a dip in almost the entire time. Took it out only to eat some pizza and sub.
I vividly remember driving home with my tongue, gums and inner lips just aching like a son of a bitch. I remember thinking to myself, 'fuck, when are you gonna quit this shit. It doesn't even taste good anymore, it fucking hurts"
Even though I asked myself a pretty serious question , I gave myself a shifty answer..."Fuck it"
Nice line of thinking. "Fuck it", what a moronic answer swayed by the demon known as addiction.
Thank the lord I wised up, got help here and other places, and have been quit for 450 days.
Tonight I drove home and asked myself , "how could I have been so stupid???"
Quit on...
'worship'
Lovin ' it Diesel .......thanks once again
I went to my first draft after quitting with a buddy of mine that knew I was quit. Nobody else did.
However, about the third round, I threw in some Smokey Mountain Snuff.
The friend, who also is a chewer and knew I was quit, was ecstatic. "I knew you couldn't stay quit. Ha! It's hard, isn't it?"
I explained to him what the stuff was, and that I was still quit. The next day I sent him a long Facebook message talking about my quit, this site, and how he could quit as well.
Good job getting through it man. Proud of you.
Excellent success stories!
I have a draft coming up this Saturday and it's a big bbq/beer affair at my buddies.
I lived with a dip in and I still get a little anxious sometimes but I'm not throwing away my quit for 5 minutes of burn and a lifetime of shame!
Fuck that noise! I'm loving the freedom!
You guys are awesome examples of quit success.
It's funny how misery seems to love company. Our draft was at a bar this year. The smokers kept pausing the draft to go outside and suck on cancer sticks, I think 2 guys were chewers so they went for a quick stuff and spit too.
They asked me to go, nobody knew I quit. I told them, "nah I quit that shit". Yet every fucking time they went outside, they asked "You sure you don't want to go???" Like I was missing out on something great.
Fucking idiots. They are like addicted dogs that like to run in packs. Fuck being part of that pack.
Quit on...
Good read.
Kinda like what happened with my mom and dad in-laws.
They quit drinking...then wondered where all their (so called) friends went to.
Thank God we are QUIT Deisel!!
NAFAR brother. Always ODAAT!
Perfect
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September 11th. A special day for obvious reasons, but on a much smaller and personal scale, for me in my little world, it's the day I hit the HOF. Today is my 465th day of quit. So basically a year plus a hof. I thought that was pretty cool. Not sure that it really is, but I thought so.
I am going to call it my special yearhof day.
Bigger respect and remembrance for those who paid the ultimate price 12 years ago today.
Never forget!!!
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September 11th. A special day for obvious reasons, but on a much smaller and personal scale, for me in my little world, it's the day I hit the HOF. Today is my 465th day of quit. So basically a year plus a hof. I thought that was pretty cool. Not sure that it really is, but I thought so.
I am going to call it my special yearhof day.
Bigger respect and remembrance for those who paid the ultimate price 12 years ago today.
Never forget!!!
Congrates Deisel! It is a special day and you should celebrate. Blast some 2112 on your boom box and piss off the neighbors!
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September 11th. A special day for obvious reasons, but on a much smaller and personal scale, for me in my little world, it's the day I hit the HOF. Today is my 465th day of quit. So basically a year plus a hof. I thought that was pretty cool. Not sure that it really is, but I thought so.
I am going to call it my special yearhof day.
Bigger respect and remembrance for those who paid the ultimate price 12 years ago today.
Never forget!!!
Congrats on your year a HOF! :D
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Wanted to say contrates on you hof +1 year.
And took the time today to go through your intro and I want to say I am glad to have you as a brother in this fight.
And I gladely welcome any swift kicks in the ass when I need them. I see that you really do understand all of what I am facing at this point.
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You the man bro........Proud to be quit with you again today!!!! Inspiring ODAAT
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You the man bro........Proud to be quit with you again today!!!! Inspiring ODAAT
Thanks all. Still amazed at how this site works sometimes.
Kandalk, if you took the time to read 36 pages of me being a big baby, then you deserved some kind of award.
I went back and quickly glanced over my 465 days. Some AMAZING words from some bad ass quitters. Also some words from people who fell by the wayside.
All in all an incredible journey that is still ongoing.
Quit on...
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You the man bro........Proud to be quit with you again today!!!! Inspiring ODAAT
Thanks all. Still amazed at how this site works sometimes.
Kandalk, if you took the time to read 36 pages of me being a big baby, then you deserved some kind of award.
I went back and quickly glanced over my 465 days. Some AMAZING words from some bad ass quitters. Also some words from people who fell by the wayside.
All in all an incredible journey that is still ongoing.
Quit on...
Congrats Diesel.sorry I am a day late. Your quit is very inspiring to me bro.
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You the man bro........Proud to be quit with you again today!!!! Inspiring ODAAT
Thanks all. Still amazed at how this site works sometimes.
Kandalk, if you took the time to read 36 pages of me being a big baby, then you deserved some kind of award.
I went back and quickly glanced over my 465 days. Some AMAZING words from some bad ass quitters. Also some words from people who fell by the wayside.
All in all an incredible journey that is still ongoing.
Quit on...
Congrats Diesel.sorry I am a day late. Your quit is very inspiring to me bro.
Yes, tip of the cap to you.
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You the man bro........Proud to be quit with you again today!!!! Inspiring ODAAT
Thanks all. Still amazed at how this site works sometimes.
Kandalk, if you took the time to read 36 pages of me being a big baby, then you deserved some kind of award.
I went back and quickly glanced over my 465 days. Some AMAZING words from some bad ass quitters. Also some words from people who fell by the wayside.
All in all an incredible journey that is still ongoing.
Quit on...
Was craving bad last night and needed something to get my mind off, between reading, getting my ass verbally kicked on chat. Something in my brain finally clicked back on and settled. possibility the sanity.
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September 11th. A special day for obvious reasons, but on a much smaller and personal scale, for me in my little world, it's the day I hit the HOF. Today is my 465th day of quit. So basically a year plus a hof. I thought that was pretty cool. Not sure that it really is, but I thought so.
I am going to call it my special yearhof day.
Bigger respect and remembrance for those who paid the ultimate price 12 years ago today.
Never forget!!!
day late bro but proud to quit with you bro EDD. Keep up your work here!
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This is odd. 470 days quit and for the first time my wife went out of town for work. She left last night and won't be home til Friday. With an 8 and 10 year old this is gonna blow donkey dick.
Kids in bed, FINALLY and I'm just sitting her watching football when I have a small flashback to how I used load up pinch after pinch when my wife would go away.
It used to be the best of times and the worst of times.
I thought maybe for a minute I was missing it but then I really started thinking about it, and I honestly do not.
As a ninja I used to literally chin dip the entire time my kids were in bed. I even used to pack one as I layed in bed and fell asleep with one in once. Fucking idiot.
Also, even though my wife was in a different country I used to fear she would somehow magically come home 3 days early without telling me, so I would hide tins and spitters all through the house. I'd hide them in some fucked up places too. Some under the kitchen sink, some in the basement in boxes of old clothes, some in the hall closet under some towels, some under my bed, etc...
Then the day before she would come home I would freak and tear the house apart looking for them all. Literally I would be in a cold sweat hoping I got them all. What a fucking moron. Why didn't I just keep them all together? What was I? A fucking dog burying bones in the back yard?
I don't miss that shit. Not one fucking bit. I don't miss the taste, the spitting into a bottle, the shit breath, the sick to my stomach feeling I'd get when I would literally o.d. on nicotine, and I sure as hell don't miss running around hiding and digging up tins and spitters like a fucking Labrador Retriever.
That's no way for a "man" to live...totally controlled by nicotine.
Pretty proud that I chose freedom and am just sitting here like a normal guy watching football rather than living my life like a fucking dog.
Quit on...
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This is odd. 470 days quit and for the first time my wife went out of town for work. She left last night and won't be home til Friday. With an 8 and 10 year old this is gonna blow donkey dick.
Kids in bed, FINALLY and I'm just sitting her watching football when I have a small flashback to how I used load up pinch after pinch when my wife would go away.
It used to be the best of times and the worst of times.
I thought maybe for a minute I was missing it but then I really started thinking about it, and I honestly do not.
As a ninja I used to literally chin dip the entire time my kids were in bed. I even used to pack one as I layed in bed and fell asleep with one in once. Fucking idiot.
Also, even though my wife was in a different country I used to fear she would somehow magically come home 3 days early without telling me, so I would hide tins and spitters all through the house. I'd hide them in some fucked up places too. Some under the kitchen sink, some in the basement in boxes of old clothes, some in the hall closet under some towels, some under my bed, etc...
Then the day before she would come home I would freak and tear the house apart looking for them all. Literally I would be in a cold sweat hoping I got them all. What a fucking moron. Why didn't I just keep them all together? What was I? A fucking dog burying bones in the back yard?
I don't miss that shit. Not one fucking bit. I don't miss the taste, the spitting into a bottle, the shit breath, the sick to my stomach feeling I'd get when I would literally o.d. on nicotine, and I sure as hell don't miss running around hiding and digging up tins and spitters like a fucking Labrador Retriever.
That's no way for a "man" to live...totally controlled by nicotine.Â
Pretty proud that I chose freedom and am just sitting here like a normal guy watching football rather than living my life like a fucking dog.
Quit on...
'oh yeah' 'worship' Once again My friend........showing the reason for the season..Quit On Bad-Ass!! Quit On
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This is odd. 470 days quit and for the first time my wife went out of town for work. She left last night and won't be home til Friday. With an 8 and 10 year old this is gonna blow donkey dick.
Kids in bed, FINALLY and I'm just sitting her watching football when I have a small flashback to how I used load up pinch after pinch when my wife would go away.
It used to be the best of times and the worst of times.
I thought maybe for a minute I was missing it but then I really started thinking about it, and I honestly do not.
As a ninja I used to literally chin dip the entire time my kids were in bed. I even used to pack one as I layed in bed and fell asleep with one in once. Fucking idiot.
Also, even though my wife was in a different country I used to fear she would somehow magically come home 3 days early without telling me, so I would hide tins and spitters all through the house. I'd hide them in some fucked up places too. Some under the kitchen sink, some in the basement in boxes of old clothes, some in the hall closet under some towels, some under my bed, etc...
Then the day before she would come home I would freak and tear the house apart looking for them all. Literally I would be in a cold sweat hoping I got them all. What a fucking moron. Why didn't I just keep them all together? What was I? A fucking dog burying bones in the back yard?
I don't miss that shit. Not one fucking bit. I don't miss the taste, the spitting into a bottle, the shit breath, the sick to my stomach feeling I'd get when I would literally o.d. on nicotine, and I sure as hell don't miss running around hiding and digging up tins and spitters like a fucking Labrador Retriever.
That's no way for a "man" to live...totally controlled by nicotine.Â
Pretty proud that I chose freedom and am just sitting here like a normal guy watching football rather than living my life like a fucking dog.
Quit on...
'oh yeah' 'worship' Once again My friend........showing the reason for the season..Quit On Bad-Ass!! Quit On
I quit with Diesel2112 because he's a normal guy who watches football without shit breath Today! In the morning I will post with him again because he hates nicotine and the pushers of it.
ODAAT and NAFAR
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Quitting nicotine is hard, doing it cold turkey...even harder.
I'm 491 days quit now, but still have an occasional struggle.
I used to go into a gas station and look at all the new flavors of chew and shake my head. Now I shake my head at these new E-cigs and talk of tobacco harm reduction.
It's almost like people are throwing in the towel and saying "fuck it, I can't quit this shit, let's try and find a way to continue using it that's safer".
I say bullshit. These people are weak willed spineless pussies. You want total harm reduction...fucking quit.
NICOTINE is a posion. ADDICTION is disease...no matter what delivery method you use.
These people think nicotine is a pleasure prop, a stress reducer, a cure for boredom and something they can't live without. The more products that come out claiming to be "safer" only further these beliefs, and spare me the bullshit about these products being a gateway to quitting. They are nothing more than agents to keep you addicted while feeling a little less guilty. If an e-cig is safer than a cigarette or a wad of chaw...big fucking deal. You're still a slave.
I see people fighting HERE on a daily basis to rid themselves of the posion and the disease. People searching for freedom, people aware of the lies, people who know the true enemy, nicotine, and I am proud to fight beside you all on a daily basis.
To anyone out there battling and wondering "is it worth it". The answer is a resounding, YES.
Not only for obvious health reasons, but how about some fucking personal pride. How about the sense and desire to put your fucking foot down and say, "enough is enough". How about because you simply WANT to, because you know its the right thing.
WANT...that's what big tobacco is really trying to take from us.
"I know I should quit and I really want to but why should I now that I can enjoy my nicotine safely?"
Not sure about any of you, but I don't want to be one of those people. I want to live my life free of addiction and dependency on any substance.
You want to get addicted to something? Get addicted to your wife/husband, your kids, you family, your health, God, or just being a better person.
Beating this addiction IS possible, worth it, and not the pure hell some would lead you to believe. Want proof...pull up a chair and start reading the stories on this site.
Giving into addiction and the lies is for the weak. This place is for the strong and I'm proud to be one of the strong ones.
Quit on...
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Quitting nicotine is hard, doing it cold turkey...even harder.
I'm 491 days quit now, but still have an occasional struggle.
I used to go into a gas station and look at all the new flavors of chew and shake my head. Now I shake my head at these new E-cigs and talk of tobacco harm reduction.
It's almost like people are throwing in the towel and saying "fuck it, I can't quit this shit, let's try and find a way to continue using it that's safer".
I say bullshit. These people are weak willed spineless pussies. You want total harm reduction...fucking quit.
NICOTINE is a posion. ADDICTION is disease...no matter what delivery method you use.
These people think nicotine is a pleasure prop, a stress reducer, a cure for boredom and something they can't live without. The more products that come out claiming to be "safer" only further these beliefs, and spare me the bullshit about these products being a gateway to quitting. They are nothing more than agents to keep you addicted while feeling a little less guilty. If an e-cig is safer than a cigarette or a wad of chaw...big fucking deal. You're still a slave.
I see people fighting HERE on a daily basis to rid themselves of the posion and the disease. People searching for freedom, people aware of the lies, people who know the true enemy, nicotine, and I am proud to fight beside you all on a daily basis.
To anyone out there battling and wondering "is it worth it". The answer is a resounding, YES.
Not only for obvious health reasons, but how about some fucking personal pride. How about the sense and desire to put your fucking foot down and say, "enough is enough". How about because you simply WANT to, because you know its the right thing.
WANT...that's what big tobacco is really trying to take from us.
"I know I should quit and I really want to but why should I now that I can enjoy my nicotine safely?"
Not sure about any of you, but I don't want to be one of those people. I want to live my life free of addiction and dependency on any substance.
You want to get addicted to something? Get addicted to your wife/husband, your kids, you family, your health, God, or just being a better person.
Beating this addiction IS possible, worth it, and not the pure hell some would lead you to believe. Want proof...pull up a chair and start reading the stories on this site.
Giving into addiction and the lies is for the weak. This place is for the strong and I'm proud to be one of the strong ones.
Quit on...
BOOM. I will stand with Diesel on this one. Preach on quitter.
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Quitting nicotine is hard, doing it cold turkey...even harder.
I'm 491 days quit now, but still have an occasional struggle.
I used to go into a gas station and look at all the new flavors of chew and shake my head. Now I shake my head at these new E-cigs and talk of tobacco harm reduction.Â
It's almost like people are throwing in the towel and saying "fuck it, I can't quit this shit, let's try and find a way to continue using it that's safer".Â
I say bullshit. These people are weak willed spineless pussies. You want total harm reduction...fucking quit.
NICOTINE is a posion. ADDICTION is disease...no matter what delivery method you use.
These people think nicotine is a pleasure prop, a stress reducer, a cure for boredom and something they can't live without. The more products that come out claiming to be "safer" only further these beliefs, and spare me the bullshit about these products being a gateway to quitting. They are nothing more than agents to keep you addicted while feeling a little less guilty. If an e-cig is safer than a cigarette or a wad of chaw...big fucking deal. You're still a slave.
I see people fighting HERE on a daily basis to rid themselves of the posion and the disease. People searching for freedom, people aware of the lies, people who know the true enemy, nicotine, and I am proud to fight beside you all on a daily basis.
To anyone out there battling and wondering "is it worth it". The answer is a resounding, YES.Â
Not only for obvious health reasons, but how about some fucking personal pride. How about the sense and desire to put your fucking foot down and say, "enough is enough". How about because you simply WANT to, because you know its the right thing.
WANT...that's what big tobacco is really trying to take from us.Â
"I know I should quit and I really want to but why should I now that I can enjoy my nicotine safely?"
Not sure about any of you, but I don't want to be one of those people. I want to live my life free of addiction and dependency on any substance.
You want to get addicted to something? Get addicted to your wife/husband, your kids, you family, your health, God, or just being a better person.
Beating this addiction IS possible, worth it, and not the pure hell some would lead you to believe. Want proof...pull up a chair and start reading the stories on this site.Â
Giving into addiction and the lies is for the weak. This place is for the strong and I'm proud to be one of the strong ones.Â
Quit on...
BOOM. I will stand with Diesel on this one. Preach on quitter.
I quit with Diesel2112 Today because he knows the facts and CHOOSES not to fall for the beliefs (lies) that the Poison Industry propagates!
ODAAT and NAFAR and we're still fucking here!! Fuck off Nic Bitch and cavers!!
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Quitting nicotine is hard, doing it cold turkey...even harder.
I'm 491 days quit now, but still have an occasional struggle.
I used to go into a gas station and look at all the new flavors of chew and shake my head. Now I shake my head at these new E-cigs and talk of tobacco harm reduction. Â
It's almost like people are throwing in the towel and saying "fuck it, I can't quit this shit, let's try and find a way to continue using it that's safer".Â
I say bullshit. These people are weak willed spineless pussies. You want total harm reduction...fucking quit.
NICOTINE is a posion. ADDICTION is disease...no matter what delivery method you use.
These people think nicotine is a pleasure prop, a stress reducer, a cure for boredom and something they can't live without. The more products that come out claiming to be "safer" only further these beliefs, and spare me the bullshit about these products being a gateway to quitting. They are nothing more than agents to keep you addicted while feeling a little less guilty. If an e-cig is safer than a cigarette or a wad of chaw...big fucking deal. You're still a slave.
I see people fighting HERE on a daily basis to rid themselves of the posion and the disease. People searching for freedom, people aware of the lies, people who know the true enemy, nicotine, and I am proud to fight beside you all on a daily basis.
To anyone out there battling and wondering "is it worth it". The answer is a resounding, YES.Â
Not only for obvious health reasons, but how about some fucking personal pride. How about the sense and desire to put your fucking foot down and say, "enough is enough". How about because you simply WANT to, because you know its the right thing.
WANT...that's what big tobacco is really trying to take from us.Â
"I know I should quit and I really want to but why should I now that I can enjoy my nicotine safely?"
Not sure about any of you, but I don't want to be one of those people. I want to live my life free of addiction and dependency on any substance.
You want to get addicted to something? Get addicted to your wife/husband, your kids, you family, your health, God, or just being a better person.
Beating this addiction IS possible, worth it, and not the pure hell some would lead you to believe. Want proof...pull up a chair and start reading the stories on this site.Â
Giving into addiction and the lies is for the weak. This place is for the strong and I'm proud to be one of the strong ones.Â
Quit on...
BOOM. I will stand with Diesel on this one. Preach on quitter.
I quit with Diesel2112 Today because he knows the facts and CHOOSES not to fall for the beliefs (lies) that the Poison Industry propagates!
ODAAT and NAFAR and we're still fucking here!! Fuck off Nic Bitch and cavers!!
Yep, I quit with this quitter everyday!
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Quitting nicotine is hard, doing it cold turkey...even harder.
I'm 491 days quit now, but still have an occasional struggle.
I used to go into a gas station and look at all the new flavors of chew and shake my head. Now I shake my head at these new E-cigs and talk of tobacco harm reduction. Â
It's almost like people are throwing in the towel and saying "fuck it, I can't quit this shit, let's try and find a way to continue using it that's safer".Â
I say bullshit. These people are weak willed spineless pussies. You want total harm reduction...fucking quit.
NICOTINE is a posion. ADDICTION is disease...no matter what delivery method you use.
These people think nicotine is a pleasure prop, a stress reducer, a cure for boredom and something they can't live without. The more products that come out claiming to be "safer" only further these beliefs, and spare me the bullshit about these products being a gateway to quitting. They are nothing more than agents to keep you addicted while feeling a little less guilty. If an e-cig is safer than a cigarette or a wad of chaw...big fucking deal. You're still a slave.
I see people fighting HERE on a daily basis to rid themselves of the posion and the disease. People searching for freedom, people aware of the lies, people who know the true enemy, nicotine, and I am proud to fight beside you all on a daily basis.
To anyone out there battling and wondering "is it worth it". The answer is a resounding, YES.Â
Not only for obvious health reasons, but how about some fucking personal pride. How about the sense and desire to put your fucking foot down and say, "enough is enough". How about because you simply WANT to, because you know its the right thing.
WANT...that's what big tobacco is really trying to take from us.Â
"I know I should quit and I really want to but why should I now that I can enjoy my nicotine safely?"
Not sure about any of you, but I don't want to be one of those people. I want to live my life free of addiction and dependency on any substance.
You want to get addicted to something? Get addicted to your wife/husband, your kids, you family, your health, God, or just being a better person.
Beating this addiction IS possible, worth it, and not the pure hell some would lead you to believe. Want proof...pull up a chair and start reading the stories on this site.Â
Giving into addiction and the lies is for the weak. This place is for the strong and I'm proud to be one of the strong ones.Â
Quit on...
BOOM. I will stand with Diesel on this one. Preach on quitter.
I quit with Diesel2112 Today because he knows the facts and CHOOSES not to fall for the beliefs (lies) that the Poison Industry propagates!
ODAAT and NAFAR and we're still fucking here!! Fuck off Nic Bitch and cavers!!
Yep, I quit with this quitter everyday!
Awesome Post. Great way to start the week off!
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Quitting nicotine is hard, doing it cold turkey...even harder.
I'm 491 days quit now, but still have an occasional struggle.
I used to go into a gas station and look at all the new flavors of chew and shake my head. Now I shake my head at these new E-cigs and talk of tobacco harm reduction. Â
It's almost like people are throwing in the towel and saying "fuck it, I can't quit this shit, let's try and find a way to continue using it that's safer".Â
I say bullshit. These people are weak willed spineless pussies. You want total harm reduction...fucking quit.
NICOTINE is a posion. ADDICTION is disease...no matter what delivery method you use.
These people think nicotine is a pleasure prop, a stress reducer, a cure for boredom and something they can't live without. The more products that come out claiming to be "safer" only further these beliefs, and spare me the bullshit about these products being a gateway to quitting. They are nothing more than agents to keep you addicted while feeling a little less guilty. If an e-cig is safer than a cigarette or a wad of chaw...big fucking deal. You're still a slave.
I see people fighting HERE on a daily basis to rid themselves of the posion and the disease. People searching for freedom, people aware of the lies, people who know the true enemy, nicotine, and I am proud to fight beside you all on a daily basis.
To anyone out there battling and wondering "is it worth it". The answer is a resounding, YES.Â
Not only for obvious health reasons, but how about some fucking personal pride. How about the sense and desire to put your fucking foot down and say, "enough is enough". How about because you simply WANT to, because you know its the right thing.
WANT...that's what big tobacco is really trying to take from us.Â
"I know I should quit and I really want to but why should I now that I can enjoy my nicotine safely?"
Not sure about any of you, but I don't want to be one of those people. I want to live my life free of addiction and dependency on any substance.
You want to get addicted to something? Get addicted to your wife/husband, your kids, you family, your health, God, or just being a better person.
Beating this addiction IS possible, worth it, and not the pure hell some would lead you to believe. Want proof...pull up a chair and start reading the stories on this site.Â
Giving into addiction and the lies is for the weak. This place is for the strong and I'm proud to be one of the strong ones.Â
Quit on...
BOOM. I will stand with Diesel on this one. Preach on quitter.
I quit with Diesel2112 Today because he knows the facts and CHOOSES not to fall for the beliefs (lies) that the Poison Industry propagates!
ODAAT and NAFAR and we're still fucking here!! Fuck off Nic Bitch and cavers!!
Yep, I quit with this quitter everyday!
Awesome Post. Great way to start the week off!
Nice read Diesel...I remember back in the day when the SAFE alternative to smoking was DIPPING it was in all the advertisements. Then peoples faces started falling off. Ecigs are new but give them time
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Quitting nicotine is hard, doing it cold turkey...even harder.
I'm 491 days quit now, but still have an occasional struggle.
I used to go into a gas station and look at all the new flavors of chew and shake my head. Now I shake my head at these new E-cigs and talk of tobacco harm reduction. Â
It's almost like people are throwing in the towel and saying "fuck it, I can't quit this shit, let's try and find a way to continue using it that's safer".Â
I say bullshit. These people are weak willed spineless pussies. You want total harm reduction...fucking quit.
NICOTINE is a posion. ADDICTION is disease...no matter what delivery method you use.
These people think nicotine is a pleasure prop, a stress reducer, a cure for boredom and something they can't live without. The more products that come out claiming to be "safer" only further these beliefs, and spare me the bullshit about these products being a gateway to quitting. They are nothing more than agents to keep you addicted while feeling a little less guilty. If an e-cig is safer than a cigarette or a wad of chaw...big fucking deal. You're still a slave.
I see people fighting HERE on a daily basis to rid themselves of the posion and the disease. People searching for freedom, people aware of the lies, people who know the true enemy, nicotine, and I am proud to fight beside you all on a daily basis.
To anyone out there battling and wondering "is it worth it". The answer is a resounding, YES.Â
Not only for obvious health reasons, but how about some fucking personal pride. How about the sense and desire to put your fucking foot down and say, "enough is enough". How about because you simply WANT to, because you know its the right thing.
WANT...that's what big tobacco is really trying to take from us.Â
"I know I should quit and I really want to but why should I now that I can enjoy my nicotine safely?"
Not sure about any of you, but I don't want to be one of those people. I want to live my life free of addiction and dependency on any substance.
You want to get addicted to something? Get addicted to your wife/husband, your kids, you family, your health, God, or just being a better person.
Beating this addiction IS possible, worth it, and not the pure hell some would lead you to believe. Want proof...pull up a chair and start reading the stories on this site.Â
Giving into addiction and the lies is for the weak. This place is for the strong and I'm proud to be one of the strong ones.Â
Quit on...
BOOM. I will stand with Diesel on this one. Preach on quitter.
I quit with Diesel2112 Today because he knows the facts and CHOOSES not to fall for the beliefs (lies) that the Poison Industry propagates!
ODAAT and NAFAR and we're still fucking here!! Fuck off Nic Bitch and cavers!!
Yep, I quit with this quitter everyday!
Awesome Post. Great way to start the week off!
Nice read Diesel...I remember back in the day when the SAFE alternative to smoking was DIPPING it was in all the advertisements. Then peoples faces started falling off. Ecigs are new but give them time
'clap' Well quit good sir. Well quit.
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Quitting nicotine is hard, doing it cold turkey...even harder.
I'm 491 days quit now, but still have an occasional struggle.
I used to go into a gas station and look at all the new flavors of chew and shake my head. Now I shake my head at these new E-cigs and talk of tobacco harm reduction.
It's almost like people are throwing in the towel and saying "fuck it, I can't quit this shit, let's try and find a way to continue using it that's safer".
I say bullshit. These people are weak willed spineless pussies. You want total harm reduction...fucking quit.
NICOTINE is a posion. ADDICTION is disease...no matter what delivery method you use.
These people think nicotine is a pleasure prop, a stress reducer, a cure for boredom and something they can't live without. The more products that come out claiming to be "safer" only further these beliefs, and spare me the bullshit about these products being a gateway to quitting. They are nothing more than agents to keep you addicted while feeling a little less guilty. If an e-cig is safer than a cigarette or a wad of chaw...big fucking deal. You're still a slave.
I see people fighting HERE on a daily basis to rid themselves of the posion and the disease. People searching for freedom, people aware of the lies, people who know the true enemy, nicotine, and I am proud to fight beside you all on a daily basis.
To anyone out there battling and wondering "is it worth it". The answer is a resounding, YES.
Not only for obvious health reasons, but how about some fucking personal pride. How about the sense and desire to put your fucking foot down and say, "enough is enough". How about because you simply WANT to, because you know its the right thing.
WANT...that's what big tobacco is really trying to take from us.
"I know I should quit and I really want to but why should I now that I can enjoy my nicotine safely?"
Not sure about any of you, but I don't want to be one of those people. I want to live my life free of addiction and dependency on any substance.
You want to get addicted to something? Get addicted to your wife/husband, your kids, you family, your health, God, or just being a better person.
Beating this addiction IS possible, worth it, and not the pure hell some would lead you to believe. Want proof...pull up a chair and start reading the stories on this site.
Giving into addiction and the lies is for the weak. This place is for the strong and I'm proud to be one of the strong ones.
Quit on...
'oh yeah' here here, proud to be quit with you today
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Well, slap my ass and call me Judy. I've made it to the 5th floor. Suck my dick, Kodiak bear. You are a bad bear, bad!!! I look forward to bitch slappin your ass again today. 500-0 since I woke up and decided to take my freedom back. You still try to fuck with me now and again, but you always lose. I am strong, you are weak. Those are the facts.
Quit on....
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Congrats Diesel!
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Well, slap my ass and call me Judy. I've made it to the 5th floor. Suck my dick, Kodiak bear. You are a bad bear, bad!!! I look forward to bitch slappin your ass again today. 500-0 since I woke up and decided to take my freedom back. You still try to fuck with me now and again, but you always lose. I am strong, you are weak. Those are the facts.
Quit on....
I quit with You Brother...because you really do have your facts straight!!
Love you brother. Pat yourself on the back, you worked very damn hard to be here Today.
Cheers
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Well, slap my ass and call me Judy. I've made it to the 5th floor. Suck my dick, Kodiak bear. You are a bad bear, bad!!! I look forward to bitch slappin your ass again today. 500-0 since I woke up and decided to take my freedom back.  You still try to fuck with me now and again, but you always lose. I am strong, you are weak. Those are the facts.
Quit on....
I quit with You Brother...because you really do have your facts straight!!
Love you brother. Pat yourself on the back, you worked very damn hard to be here Today.
Cheers
Your a BAD ASS. I quit with you! 'oh yeah'
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Well, slap my ass and call me Judy. I've made it to the 5th floor. Suck my dick, Kodiak bear. You are a bad bear, bad!!! I look forward to bitch slappin your ass again today. 500-0 since I woke up and decided to take my freedom back.  You still try to fuck with me now and again, but you always lose. I am strong, you are weak. Those are the facts.
Quit on....
I quit with You Brother...because you really do have your facts straight!!
Love you brother. Pat yourself on the back, you worked very damn hard to be here Today.
Cheers
Your a BAD ASS. I quit with you! 'oh yeah'
You are a bad ass Diesel! Jam out to some Rush and have a great day of quit.
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Way to go Judy....I can't reach your ass so slap it for me :D
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Congrats on hitting the 5th floor diesel! You are a bada$$... that is a fact! Keep quitting bro! Proud to be quit with you today Judy!
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Not only have you made it to the fifth floor, you have helped pull the rest of us along behind you.
Thanks and congratulations.
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I would also like an ass slap if that's an option?
Congrats Diesel, thanks for all you do here!
Proud to quit with you today.
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Fuck yeah!!! Great Job Brother!! Keep on Quittin ON!!!!
J shocker
Go Hawks!!
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Thanks for the kind words. If an asshole like me can do this, any fucktard can.
Quit on...
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'worship' 'worship'
Nothing but props for you brutha....you and K to the Rock!!!!!
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Well done!!!
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You are an awesome inspiration to many fucktards (my Evilself included). Keep on with the straight-talk in the intros.
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You are an awesome inspiration to many fucktards (my Evilself included). Keep on with the straight-talk in the intros.
Agree with Evil. Keep doing what you do Diesel.
Congrats on the 1/2 comma.
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
Yes. Go to the doctor and have it checked out.
I'd go get that one checked out. I had what felt like the flu that I fully believe to be nic related but never had dull pain. I'm not an expert but that sounds like one of the symptoms to heart related stuff.
Thanks guys. The bitch of all this is I was in the hospital for panic attacks which mask the symptoms of a heart troubles. They tested my heart every possible way and it was fine. Problem was when I got out of the hospital I kept thinking I was going to have more panic attacks and went back in. Again they tested my heart every which way til Sunday and it was fine. I think I'm still a bit nervous from the panic attack thing, plus quitting...it's just fucking my shit up. What a pain in the dick this all is. As if quitting wasn't enough I gotta deal with this panic attack bullshit. FML.
I have had panic attacks before.. well let me rephrase. I had a panic attack about 4 years ago. I was driving home from work late at night in the rain on a road in the middle of nowhere. Of course I had a chew in and all these stupid thoughts were running into my head about what would happen if i were to crash. I felt like I needed to take a deep breath and I couldn't quite get it. sooooo I pulled over and flipped the fuck out in my car. PUnching the windows and it felt like someone had a pillow over my face while sitting on my chest. I couldn't even leave my house for 3 days. Only reason I did was to go to doc. He said I was fine. I finally made it back to work and on the way home I was shaking and sweating and feeling like I was about to flip again. I stopped at e.r . got tested all good. they gave me ativan ( which I still have a script for) . It helps but I still always have that thought in the back of my head. What if it happens again... what if I can't get to a hospital... WHAT IF. Most days I am good and others I am not. I have been quit for 15 days and have noticed that I am having a lot more better days.
Not sure if this story helps any but it is my true story. I hope to continue to get better and you sir are in my thoughts and prayers as we both continue to fight the nic bitch and anxiety. Take it a day at a time brother! See you in the HOF
I had panic attacks quite often early in my quit. I had convinced myself I had every major disease there is and I would surely die at any moment. I like you had a tough time catching my breath, and all the other symptoms of anxiety. I went to the doctor so many times in my first 45 days or so that she finally told me to stop coming in. I had heart tests, lung tests, physicals, cancer screenings, you name it and I got tested for it.
I am now well into my quit and things are better. I still get the onset of a panic attack every now and then but I have learned to diffuse them. Some things I did to help early on: Work up a good sweat,walk, workout, whatever kills craves and anxiety. Meditate, it relaxes you and helps clear your mind. Instead of all the negative mind chatter replace it with positive thoughts.
Panic attacks can only happen when you create fear and doubt in your mind. Instead of wondering if or when the next attack may happen replace that thought with. I am done with panic attacks, my body is fine and I no longer fear them and I am free to enjoy life.
Keep fighting! It is worth it!!
STAY QUIT
Greg
Thanks guys. On day 10, what a motherfucker this is. Hope it gets better soon. I miss "me".
Just a little BUMP, to remind you of who you were on day 9 and 10.
Never again for any reason!!
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GOOD STUFF IN HERE-- JUST BUMPING SOMETHING DOWN...
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
Yes. Go to the doctor and have it checked out.
I'd go get that one checked out. I had what felt like the flu that I fully believe to be nic related but never had dull pain. I'm not an expert but that sounds like one of the symptoms to heart related stuff.
Thanks guys. The bitch of all this is I was in the hospital for panic attacks which mask the symptoms of a heart troubles. They tested my heart every possible way and it was fine. Problem was when I got out of the hospital I kept thinking I was going to have more panic attacks and went back in. Again they tested my heart every which way til Sunday and it was fine. I think I'm still a bit nervous from the panic attack thing, plus quitting...it's just fucking my shit up. What a pain in the dick this all is. As if quitting wasn't enough I gotta deal with this panic attack bullshit. FML.
I have had panic attacks before.. well let me rephrase. I had a panic attack about 4 years ago. I was driving home from work late at night in the rain on a road in the middle of nowhere. Of course I had a chew in and all these stupid thoughts were running into my head about what would happen if i were to crash. I felt like I needed to take a deep breath and I couldn't quite get it. sooooo I pulled over and flipped the fuck out in my car. PUnching the windows and it felt like someone had a pillow over my face while sitting on my chest. I couldn't even leave my house for 3 days. Only reason I did was to go to doc. He said I was fine. I finally made it back to work and on the way home I was shaking and sweating and feeling like I was about to flip again. I stopped at e.r . got tested all good. they gave me ativan ( which I still have a script for) . It helps but I still always have that thought in the back of my head. What if it happens again... what if I can't get to a hospital... WHAT IF. Most days I am good and others I am not. I have been quit for 15 days and have noticed that I am having a lot more better days.
Not sure if this story helps any but it is my true story. I hope to continue to get better and you sir are in my thoughts and prayers as we both continue to fight the nic bitch and anxiety. Take it a day at a time brother! See you in the HOF
I had panic attacks quite often early in my quit. I had convinced myself I had every major disease there is and I would surely die at any moment. I like you had a tough time catching my breath, and all the other symptoms of anxiety. I went to the doctor so many times in my first 45 days or so that she finally told me to stop coming in. I had heart tests, lung tests, physicals, cancer screenings, you name it and I got tested for it.
I am now well into my quit and things are better. I still get the onset of a panic attack every now and then but I have learned to diffuse them. Some things I did to help early on: Work up a good sweat,walk, workout, whatever kills craves and anxiety. Meditate, it relaxes you and helps clear your mind. Instead of all the negative mind chatter replace it with positive thoughts.
Panic attacks can only happen when you create fear and doubt in your mind. Instead of wondering if or when the next attack may happen replace that thought with. I am done with panic attacks, my body is fine and I no longer fear them and I am free to enjoy life.
Keep fighting! It is worth it!!
STAY QUIT
Greg
Thanks guys. On day 10, what a motherfucker this is. Hope it gets better soon. I miss "me".
Just a little BUMP, to remind you of who you were on day 9 and 10.
Never again for any reason!!
Thanks for bumping this up IG2H, I thought I'd read Diesel's intro before, but maybe not, still glad to read it now for some more perspective on anxiety panic.
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Im on day 9 of quit, but every morning I start off feeling like complete SHIT! I get a good nights sleep but when I wake up I feel like I have smoked a pack of cigarettes or like somebody punched me in the chest, or almost like I have asthma or something. I also have a pretty bad stomach ache. I force myself to eat breakfast, drive my ass to work and feel like total shit til about noon. Then the rest of the day I seem to feel pretty good, but that dull chest pain really never seems to go away. It might lessen a little bit but it always seems to be there. (maybe a mental thing)
I guess what I am asking is if this is "normal"? have others experienced this? and just another thing I have to grind through? or maybe should I go to the doctor and see if something else is going on? It's really pissing me off.
Yes. Go to the doctor and have it checked out.
I'd go get that one checked out. I had what felt like the flu that I fully believe to be nic related but never had dull pain. I'm not an expert but that sounds like one of the symptoms to heart related stuff.
Thanks guys. The bitch of all this is I was in the hospital for panic attacks which mask the symptoms of a heart troubles. They tested my heart every possible way and it was fine. Problem was when I got out of the hospital I kept thinking I was going to have more panic attacks and went back in. Again they tested my heart every which way til Sunday and it was fine. I think I'm still a bit nervous from the panic attack thing, plus quitting...it's just fucking my shit up. What a pain in the dick this all is. As if quitting wasn't enough I gotta deal with this panic attack bullshit. FML.
I have had panic attacks before.. well let me rephrase. I had a panic attack about 4 years ago. I was driving home from work late at night in the rain on a road in the middle of nowhere. Of course I had a chew in and all these stupid thoughts were running into my head about what would happen if i were to crash. I felt like I needed to take a deep breath and I couldn't quite get it. sooooo I pulled over and flipped the fuck out in my car. PUnching the windows and it felt like someone had a pillow over my face while sitting on my chest. I couldn't even leave my house for 3 days. Only reason I did was to go to doc. He said I was fine. I finally made it back to work and on the way home I was shaking and sweating and feeling like I was about to flip again. I stopped at e.r . got tested all good. they gave me ativan ( which I still have a script for) . It helps but I still always have that thought in the back of my head. What if it happens again... what if I can't get to a hospital... WHAT IF. Most days I am good and others I am not. I have been quit for 15 days and have noticed that I am having a lot more better days.
Not sure if this story helps any but it is my true story. I hope to continue to get better and you sir are in my thoughts and prayers as we both continue to fight the nic bitch and anxiety. Take it a day at a time brother! See you in the HOF
I had panic attacks quite often early in my quit. I had convinced myself I had every major disease there is and I would surely die at any moment. I like you had a tough time catching my breath, and all the other symptoms of anxiety. I went to the doctor so many times in my first 45 days or so that she finally told me to stop coming in. I had heart tests, lung tests, physicals, cancer screenings, you name it and I got tested for it.
I am now well into my quit and things are better. I still get the onset of a panic attack every now and then but I have learned to diffuse them. Some things I did to help early on: Work up a good sweat,walk, workout, whatever kills craves and anxiety. Meditate, it relaxes you and helps clear your mind. Instead of all the negative mind chatter replace it with positive thoughts.
Panic attacks can only happen when you create fear and doubt in your mind. Instead of wondering if or when the next attack may happen replace that thought with. I am done with panic attacks, my body is fine and I no longer fear them and I am free to enjoy life.
Keep fighting! It is worth it!!
STAY QUIT
Greg
Thanks guys. On day 10, what a motherfucker this is. Hope it gets better soon. I miss "me".
Just a little BUMP, to remind you of who you were on day 9 and 10.
Never again for any reason!!
Thanks for bumping this up IG2H, I thought I'd read Diesel's intro before, but maybe not, still glad to read it now for some more perspective on anxiety panic.
39 pages of a crying little baby. It wasn't always easy but it has always been worth it.
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Hey all, its the fake tough guy keyboard cowboy here.
Just wanted to say I'm 513-0 vs the nic bitch and I ain't changing for ANYONE.
You think I'm fake.. fuck you
You think its ok to make fun of some if the shit I went through...fuck you
You think I'm here for any reason other than to quit and help others do the same...fuck you
You think Im just a coward behind a keyboard...fuck you
I'm real and I'm ME. You don't like it...
Fuck You.
Have a blessed day
Quit on...
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Hey all, its the fake tough guy keyboard cowboy here.
Just wanted to say I'm 513-0 vs the nic bitch and I ain't changing for ANYONE.
You think I'm fake.. fuck you
You think its ok to make fun of some if the shit I went through...fuck you
You think I'm here for any reason other than to quit and help others do the same...fuck you
You think Im just a coward behind a keyboard...fuck you
I'm real and I'm ME. You don't like it...
Fuck You.
Have a blessed day
Quit on...
Let. It. Go.
Thank you for being helpful on this path. Quit together, not apart.
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Hey all, its the fake tough guy keyboard cowboy here.
Just wanted to say I'm 513-0 vs the nic bitch and I ain't changing for ANYONE.
You think I'm fake.. fuck you
You think its ok to make fun of some if the shit I went through...fuck you
You think I'm here for any reason other than to quit and help others do the same...fuck you
You think Im just a coward behind a keyboard...fuck you
I'm real and I'm ME. You don't like it...
Fuck You.
Have a blessed day
Quit on...
Let. It. Go.
Thank you for being helpful on this path. Quit together, not apart.
Its gone. Just had to vent.
Quit on biatches...
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A tradition made better.
Another lions game down. Another feast at my Aunts where my kids stay behind to spend the night with their cousins, and once again my crazy ass wife has just left for some midnight madness sales.
This leaves me satisfied, full, and alone.
In my ninja days this tradition ended with me stuffing rediculous amounts of Kodiak in my pie hole. For years I THOUGHT that capper made an already great day better.
It did not.
No pererson of worth needs to end an already special day by poisoning themselves. In no way does it make that day better, in fact it makes it worse. Took me a long time and a lot of struggle to realize this, but I'm glad I have.
This marks year two of my new tradition of simply enjoying thanksgiving, free from the chains of addiction.
For this, I am truly thankful.
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A tradition made better.
Another lions game down. Another feast at my Aunts where my kids stay behind to spend the night with their cousins, and once again my crazy ass wife has just left for some midnight madness sales.
This leaves me satisfied, full, and alone.
In my ninja days this tradition ended with me stuffing rediculous amounts of Kodiak in my pie hole. For years I THOUGHT that capper made an already great day better.
It did not.
No pererson of worth needs to end an already special day by poisoning themselves. In no way does it make that day better, in fact it makes it worse. Took me a long time and a lot of struggle to realize this, but I'm glad I have.
This marks year two of my new tradition of simply enjoying thanksgiving, free from the chains of addiction.Â
For this, I am truly thankful.
Thank You Sir!!!! .......Nuff said 'clap'
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A tradition made better.
Another lions game down. Another feast at my Aunts where my kids stay behind to spend the night with their cousins, and once again my crazy ass wife has just left for some midnight madness sales.
This leaves me satisfied, full, and alone.
In my ninja days this tradition ended with me stuffing rediculous amounts of Kodiak in my pie hole. For years I THOUGHT that capper made an already great day better.
It did not.
No pererson of worth needs to end an already special day by poisoning themselves. In no way does it make that day better, in fact it makes it worse. Took me a long time and a lot of struggle to realize this, but I'm glad I have.
This marks year two of my new tradition of simply enjoying thanksgiving, free from the chains of addiction.
For this, I am truly thankful.
I understand the pain and yet the feeling of victory. Sorry you got left behind with by the deal hunters. We are here for you. Yes, this would have been a prime dipping time for me as well. it is so hard to get through, but we will and will feel better tomorrow for doing so. That strength will help get us through tomorrow and the days after. For me, these holidays are the hardest days of all. Together we are stronger. One more day and we'll do it again.
George Hayduke
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A tradition made better.
Another lions game down. Another feast at my Aunts where my kids stay behind to spend the night with their cousins, and once again my crazy ass wife has just left for some midnight madness sales.
This leaves me satisfied, full, and alone.
In my ninja days this tradition ended with me stuffing rediculous amounts of Kodiak in my pie hole. For years I THOUGHT that capper made an already great day better.
It did not.
No pererson of worth needs to end an already special day by poisoning themselves. In no way does it make that day better, in fact it makes it worse. Took me a long time and a lot of struggle to realize this, but I'm glad I have.
This marks year two of my new tradition of simply enjoying thanksgiving, free from the chains of addiction.Â
For this, I am truly thankful.
I understand the pain and yet the feeling of victory. Sorry you got left behind with by the deal hunters. We are here for you. Yes, this would have been a prime dipping time for me as well. it is so hard to get through, but we will and will feel better tomorrow for doing so. That strength will help get us through tomorrow and the days after. For me, these holidays are the hardest days of all. Together we are stronger. One more day and we'll do it again.
George Hayduke
D, I'm not sure I'll ever be free from this addiction which is a 'nutkick'. Today, brother, we choose a life free from poison and just between us there's already about six grand that can go towards black friday for our families. :blink: Man, that's well worth it, we're well worth it and so are they. In fact, I'd agree with Mr. Hayduke here and affirm we meet back here tomorrow and do it again. :)
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A tradition made better.
Another lions game down. Another feast at my Aunts where my kids stay behind to spend the night with their cousins, and once again my crazy ass wife has just left for some midnight madness sales.
This leaves me satisfied, full, and alone.
In my ninja days this tradition ended with me stuffing rediculous amounts of Kodiak in my pie hole. For years I THOUGHT that capper made an already great day better.
It did not.
No pererson of worth needs to end an already special day by poisoning themselves. In no way does it make that day better, in fact it makes it worse. Took me a long time and a lot of struggle to realize this, but I'm glad I have.
This marks year two of my new tradition of simply enjoying thanksgiving, free from the chains of addiction.Â
For this, I am truly thankful.
I understand the pain and yet the feeling of victory. Sorry you got left behind with by the deal hunters. We are here for you. Yes, this would have been a prime dipping time for me as well. it is so hard to get through, but we will and will feel better tomorrow for doing so. That strength will help get us through tomorrow and the days after. For me, these holidays are the hardest days of all. Together we are stronger. One more day and we'll do it again.
George Hayduke
D, I'm not sure I'll ever be free from this addiction which is a 'nutkick'. Today, brother, we choose a life free from poison and just between us there's already about six grand that can go towards black friday for our families. :blink: Man, that's well worth it, we're well worth it and so are they. In fact, I'd agree with Mr. Hayduke here and affirm we meet back here tomorrow and do it again. :)
Every fucking day. On day at a time. Ill be here. It just keeps greying sweeter, especially when you don't do it alone. Feels good to be in the presence of bad ass quitters.
Quit on...
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A tradition made better.
Another lions game down. Another feast at my Aunts where my kids stay behind to spend the night with their cousins, and once again my crazy ass wife has just left for some midnight madness sales.
This leaves me satisfied, full, and alone.
In my ninja days this tradition ended with me stuffing rediculous amounts of Kodiak in my pie hole. For years I THOUGHT that capper made an already great day better.
It did not.
No pererson of worth needs to end an already special day by poisoning themselves. In no way does it make that day better, in fact it makes it worse. Took me a long time and a lot of struggle to realize this, but I'm glad I have.
This marks year two of my new tradition of simply enjoying thanksgiving, free from the chains of addiction.Â
For this, I am truly thankful.
I understand the pain and yet the feeling of victory. Sorry you got left behind with by the deal hunters. We are here for you. Yes, this would have been a prime dipping time for me as well. it is so hard to get through, but we will and will feel better tomorrow for doing so. That strength will help get us through tomorrow and the days after. For me, these holidays are the hardest days of all. Together we are stronger. One more day and we'll do it again.
George Hayduke
D, I'm not sure I'll ever be free from this addiction which is a 'nutkick'. Today, brother, we choose a life free from poison and just between us there's already about six grand that can go towards black friday for our families. :blink: Man, that's well worth it, we're well worth it and so are they. In fact, I'd agree with Mr. Hayduke here and affirm we meet back here tomorrow and do it again. :)
Every fucking day. On day at a time. Ill be here. It just keeps greying sweeter, especially when you don't do it alone. Feels good to be in the presence of bad ass quitters.
Quit on...
hey Brother Deisel, I quit with you and cope today.
It's our personal thoughts, takes and perspectives of our addictions that I cherish.
Cope believes: Never cured
You believe: Fuck you nic bitch every damn day.
I believe in both of yalls quits and beliefs!
Your quit is my quit, my quit is yours.
We keep doing the things that keep us quit and we keep quit from the thing we are addicted to.
Love you both. Glad you are here every damn day.
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A tradition made better.
Another lions game down.� Another feast at my Aunts where my kids stay behind to spend the night with their cousins, and once again my crazy ass wife has just left for some midnight madness sales.
This leaves me satisfied, full, and alone.
In my ninja days this tradition ended with me stuffing rediculous amounts of Kodiak in my pie hole.� For years I THOUGHT that capper made an already great day better.
It did not.
No pererson of worth needs to end an already special day by poisoning themselves.� In no way does it make that day better, in fact it makes it worse.� Took me a long time and a lot of struggle to realize this, but I'm glad I have.
This marks year two of my new tradition of simply enjoying thanksgiving, free from the chains of addiction.�
For this, I am truly thankful.
I understand the pain and yet the feeling of victory. Sorry you got left behind with by the deal hunters. We are here for you. Yes, this would have been a prime dipping time for me as well. it is so hard to get through, but we will and will feel better tomorrow for doing so. That strength will help get us through tomorrow and the days after. For me, these holidays are the hardest days of all. Together we are stronger. One more day and we'll do it again.
George Hayduke
D, I'm not sure I'll ever be free from this addiction which is a 'nutkick'. Today, brother, we choose a life free from poison and just between us there's already about six grand that can go towards black friday for our families. :blink: Man, that's well worth it, we're well worth it and so are they. In fact, I'd agree with Mr. Hayduke here and affirm we meet back here tomorrow and do it again. :)
Every fucking day. On day at a time. Ill be here. It just keeps greying sweeter, especially when you don't do it alone. Feels good to be in the presence of bad ass quitters.
Quit on...
hey Brother Deisel, I quit with you and cope today.
It's our personal thoughts, takes and perspectives of our addictions that I cherish.
Cope believes: Never cured
You believe: Fuck you nic bitch every damn day.
I believe in both of yalls quits and beliefs!
Your quit is my quit, my quit is yours.
We keep doing the things that keep us quit and we keep quit from the thing we are addicted to.
Love you both. Glad you are here every damn day.
Amen to all of that. I am on this quit team. This is a band of winners right here.
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Hey ass gaskets...
STOP CAVING!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?????!!!!!!
Like dominos I see another weakling fall every day it seems, and not some newb who fucks up after a day or two. People who supposedly know better, people who have talked the talk and have now fallen flat on their bitch ass faces as they can't walk the walk.
I'd give a rah rah speech or a "what to do if you think you are gonna cave" sermon, but that shit is all over this fucking site. Open up your fucking eyes and use it.
You're setting shitty examples for the new guys as well.
Pull your shit together or get the fuck out!!!
Fuck Me....
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Hey ass gaskets...
STOP CAVING!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?????!!!!!!
Like dominos I see another weakling fall every day it seems, and not some newb who fucks up after a day or two. People who supposedly know better, people who have talked the talk and have now fallen flat on their bitch ass faces as they can't walk the walk.
I'd give a rah rah speech or a "what to do if you think you are gonna cave" sermon, but that shit is all over this fucking site. Open up your fucking eyes and use it.
You're setting shitty examples for the new guys as well.
Pull your shit together or get the fuck out!!!
Fuck Me....
BRAVO!!!!!!
Said like a True Bad Ass that Honestly Cares
Preach On Brother!!!! 'chew2'
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Hey ass gaskets...
STOP CAVING!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?????!!!!!!
Like dominos I see another weakling fall every day it seems, and not some newb who fucks up after a day or two.  People who supposedly know better, people who have talked the talk and have now fallen flat on their bitch ass faces as they can't walk the walk.Â
I'd give a rah rah speech or a "what to do if you think you are gonna cave" sermon, but that shit is all over this fucking site. Open up your fucking eyes and use it.Â
You're setting shitty examples for the new guys as well.Â
Pull your shit together or get the fuck out!!!
Fuck Me....
BRAVO!!!!!!
Said like a True Bad Ass that Honestly Cares
Preach On Brother!!!! 'chew2'
Ditto. Thank you.
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Hey ass gaskets...
STOP CAVING!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?????!!!!!!
Like dominos I see another weakling fall every day it seems, and not some newb who fucks up after a day or two.  People who supposedly know better, people who have talked the talk and have now fallen flat on their bitch ass faces as they can't walk the walk.Â
I'd give a rah rah speech or a "what to do if you think you are gonna cave" sermon, but that shit is all over this fucking site. Open up your fucking eyes and use it.Â
You're setting shitty examples for the new guys as well.Â
Pull your shit together or get the fuck out!!!
Fuck Me....
BRAVO!!!!!!
Said like a True Bad Ass that Honestly Cares
Preach On Brother!!!! 'chew2'
Ditto. Thank you.
x2 Diesel except I am not going to fuck you physically
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Hey ass gaskets...
STOP CAVING!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?????!!!!!!
Like dominos I see another weakling fall every day it seems, and not some newb who fucks up after a day or two.  People who supposedly know better, people who have talked the talk and have now fallen flat on their bitch ass faces as they can't walk the walk.Â
I'd give a rah rah speech or a "what to do if you think you are gonna cave" sermon, but that shit is all over this fucking site. Open up your fucking eyes and use it.Â
You're setting shitty examples for the new guys as well.Â
Pull your shit together or get the fuck out!!!
Fuck Me....
BRAVO!!!!!!
Said like a True Bad Ass that Honestly Cares
Preach On Brother!!!! 'chew2'
Ditto. Thank you.
x2 Diesel except I am not going to fuck you physically
X3 I concur!!!
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Hey ass gaskets...
STOP CAVING!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?????!!!!!!
Like dominos I see another weakling fall every day it seems, and not some newb who fucks up after a day or two.  People who supposedly know better, people who have talked the talk and have now fallen flat on their bitch ass faces as they can't walk the walk.Â
I'd give a rah rah speech or a "what to do if you think you are gonna cave" sermon, but that shit is all over this fucking site. Open up your fucking eyes and use it.Â
You're setting shitty examples for the new guys as well.Â
Pull your shit together or get the fuck out!!!
Fuck Me....
BRAVO!!!!!!
Said like a True Bad Ass that Honestly Cares
Preach On Brother!!!! 'chew2'
Ditto. Thank you.
x2 Diesel except I am not going to fuck you physically
X3 I concur!!!
Can't even get any ass play on this site anymore. Sad.
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I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but IÂ can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
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I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but IÂ can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
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I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
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I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
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I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.
I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.
Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.
-
I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.
I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.
Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.
You fucking caved?
Sarcasm
Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'
-
I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.
I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.
Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.
Thanks fellas. Even though in my heart of hearts I know I did not cave, this whole thing threw me for a complete loop. My shrink was pissed I called him this morning for something so, as he called "minor". Fucker said he was gonna bill me. I don't give a fuck. Ill gladly pay him, even though he gave me shitty advice. Told me, "you don't owe those people an explanation, you made an honest mistake. Stop beating yourself up over it". I could not do that.
My kids had their annual Christmas concert/play last night. My son was a wise man with some speaking lines. I have no clue what he said or how he did. All I could think about was this fuck up. My mom (who was there also) could see it on my face too, and kept telling me to let it go.
I could not until I got it off my chest here. My brain has been going haywire, like I'm "waiting" for the law of addiction to kick in because nic vapor, or whatever the fuck that shit is, came out of my mouth.
It was a honest fuck up but it also has scared the living shit out of me. It has also made me realize that this site has turned me in to one honest mother fucker.
Thanks again, gents.
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I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.
I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.
Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.
You fucking caved?
Sarcasm
Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'
No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.
I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.
Time to move forward.
Thanks.
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I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.
I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.
Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.
You fucking caved?
Sarcasm
Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'
No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.
I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.
Time to move forward.
Thanks.
The bitch will stop at nothing. Even an accident can get you hooked again. Be careful Deisel.
Crazy timing on that post. I had just finished up a phone call with a Day 2 newbie and I suggested that he check out your thread. You are an outstanding quitter and a major contributor to this brotherhood. This changes nothing. Not a cave!!! But holy shit bro there is nothing that could be any closer. Be careful Deisel.
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I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.
I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.
Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.
You fucking caved?
Sarcasm
Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'
No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.
I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.
Time to move forward.
Thanks.
The bitch will stop at nothing. Even an accident can get you hooked again. Be careful Deisel.
Crazy timing on that post. I had just finished up a phone call with a Day 2 newbie and I suggested that he check out your thread. You are an outstanding quitter and a major contributor to this brotherhood. This changes nothing. Not a cave!!! But holy shit bro there is nothing that could be any closer. Be careful Deisel.
Thanks man. You're right.
Even though I was simply trying to make my old man laugh. I know the power of nic and the "just one" .
That's why even though I had no intention to do what I did, it scared the shit out of me...as it should.
-
I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.
I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.
Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.
You fucking caved?
Sarcasm
Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'
No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.
I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.
Time to move forward.
Thanks.
The bitch will stop at nothing. Even an accident can get you hooked again. Be careful Deisel.
Crazy timing on that post. I had just finished up a phone call with a Day 2 newbie and I suggested that he check out your thread. You are an outstanding quitter and a major contributor to this brotherhood. This changes nothing. Not a cave!!! But holy shit bro there is nothing that could be any closer. Be careful Deisel.
Thanks man. You're right.
Even though I was simply trying to make my old man laugh. I know the power of nic and the "just one" .
That's why even though I had no intention to do what I did, it scared the shit out of me...as it should.
It scares me too man. I am talking to my wife about it right now. Kind of shook me up to read the post.
The door was cracked open. The door that you held closed so tightly for over 400 days. That fucker cracked open, albeit a cunt hair. Accident or no accident, you give that bitch an inch and .......... you know. Be vigilant friend. Kick that fugger shut, chain it, bolt it, weld it and stand guard. I quit with you, hit me up if you need anything. You've got the digits.
Ryan
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I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.
I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.
Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.
You fucking caved?
Sarcasm
Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'
No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.
I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.
Time to move forward.
Thanks.
The bitch will stop at nothing. Even an accident can get you hooked again. Be careful Deisel.
Crazy timing on that post. I had just finished up a phone call with a Day 2 newbie and I suggested that he check out your thread. You are an outstanding quitter and a major contributor to this brotherhood. This changes nothing. Not a cave!!! But holy shit bro there is nothing that could be any closer. Be careful Deisel.
Thanks man. You're right.
Even though I was simply trying to make my old man laugh. I know the power of nic and the "just one" .
That's why even though I had no intention to do what I did, it scared the shit out of me...as it should.
It scares me too man. I am talking to my wife about it right now. Kind of shook me up to read the post.
The door was cracked open. The door that you held closed so tightly for over 400 days. That fucker cracked open, albeit a cunt hair. Accident or no accident, you give that bitch an inch and .......... you know. Be vigilant friend. Kick that fugger shut, chain it, bolt it, weld it and stand guard. I quit with you, hit me up if you need anything. You've got the digits.
Ryan
Thanks man.
-
I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.
I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.
Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.
You fucking caved?
Sarcasm
Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'
No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.
I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.
Time to move forward.
Thanks.
The bitch will stop at nothing. Even an accident can get you hooked again. Be careful Deisel.
Crazy timing on that post. I had just finished up a phone call with a Day 2 newbie and I suggested that he check out your thread. You are an outstanding quitter and a major contributor to this brotherhood. This changes nothing. Not a cave!!! But holy shit bro there is nothing that could be any closer. Be careful Deisel.
Thanks man. You're right.
Even though I was simply trying to make my old man laugh. I know the power of nic and the "just one" .
That's why even though I had no intention to do what I did, it scared the shit out of me...as it should.
It scares me too man. I am talking to my wife about it right now. Kind of shook me up to read the post.
The door was cracked open. The door that you held closed so tightly for over 400 days. That fucker cracked open, albeit a cunt hair. Accident or no accident, you give that bitch an inch and .......... you know. Be vigilant friend. Kick that fugger shut, chain it, bolt it, weld it and stand guard. I quit with you, hit me up if you need anything. You've got the digits.
Ryan
Thanks man.
I looked up the definition of the word cave.
Cave
Pronunciation: \ˈkÄv\
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): caved; cav·ing
Etymology: probably alteration of calve
Date: 1513
intransitive verb
1 : to fall in or down especially from being undermined —usually used with in 2 : to cease to resist.
You did not cave... Or Cease to resist, brother. Anyone that jams soap down their throat is still in the fight. I appreciate your honesty and I was sitting here imagining you running to the sink wearing your Desmond Howard jersey and all I could think was... Typical Michigan man! Quit on!
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I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.
I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.
Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.
You fucking caved?
Sarcasm
Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'
No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.
I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.
Time to move forward.
Thanks.
The bitch will stop at nothing. Even an accident can get you hooked again. Be careful Deisel.
Crazy timing on that post. I had just finished up a phone call with a Day 2 newbie and I suggested that he check out your thread. You are an outstanding quitter and a major contributor to this brotherhood. This changes nothing. Not a cave!!! But holy shit bro there is nothing that could be any closer. Be careful Deisel.
Thanks man. You're right.
Even though I was simply trying to make my old man laugh. I know the power of nic and the "just one" .
That's why even though I had no intention to do what I did, it scared the shit out of me...as it should.
It scares me too man. I am talking to my wife about it right now. Kind of shook me up to read the post.
The door was cracked open. The door that you held closed so tightly for over 400 days. That fucker cracked open, albeit a cunt hair. Accident or no accident, you give that bitch an inch and .......... you know. Be vigilant friend. Kick that fugger shut, chain it, bolt it, weld it and stand guard. I quit with you, hit me up if you need anything. You've got the digits.
Ryan
Thanks man.
I looked up the definition of the word cave.
Cave
Pronunciation: \ˈkÄv\
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): caved; cav·ing
Etymology: probably alteration of calve
Date: 1513
intransitive verb
1 : to fall in or down especially from being undermined —usually used with in 2 : to cease to resist.
You did not cave... Or Cease to resist, brother. Anyone that jams soap down their throat is still in the fight. I appreciate your honesty and I was sitting here imagining you running to the sink wearing your Desmond Howard jersey and all I could think was... Typical Michigan man! Quit on!
Embarassing. I once had an Anthony Carter jersey, but that's it.
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I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.
I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.
Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.
You fucking caved?
Sarcasm
Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'
No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.
I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.
Time to move forward.
Thanks.
The bitch will stop at nothing. Even an accident can get you hooked again. Be careful Deisel.
Crazy timing on that post. I had just finished up a phone call with a Day 2 newbie and I suggested that he check out your thread. You are an outstanding quitter and a major contributor to this brotherhood. This changes nothing. Not a cave!!! But holy shit bro there is nothing that could be any closer. Be careful Deisel.
Thanks man. You're right.
Even though I was simply trying to make my old man laugh. I know the power of nic and the "just one" .
That's why even though I had no intention to do what I did, it scared the shit out of me...as it should.
It scares me too man. I am talking to my wife about it right now. Kind of shook me up to read the post.
The door was cracked open. The door that you held closed so tightly for over 400 days. That fucker cracked open, albeit a cunt hair. Accident or no accident, you give that bitch an inch and .......... you know. Be vigilant friend. Kick that fugger shut, chain it, bolt it, weld it and stand guard. I quit with you, hit me up if you need anything. You've got the digits.
Ryan
Thanks man.
I looked up the definition of the word cave.
Cave
Pronunciation: \ˈkâv\
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): caved; cav·ing
Etymology: probably alteration of calve
Date: 1513
intransitive verb
1 : to fall in or down especially from being undermined —usually used with in 2 : to cease to resist.
You did not cave... Or Cease to resist, brother. Anyone that jams soap down their throat is still in the fight. I appreciate your honesty and I was sitting here imagining you running to the sink wearing your Desmond Howard jersey and all I could think was... Typical Michigan man! Quit on!
Embarassing. I once had an Anthony Carter jersey, but that's it.
What is a cave? We have heard the term used in here since day 1. Prior to joining KTC, I had always thought of a cave as a tunnel in a mountainÂ…but no longer. But what is it? Other than a dictionary definition, I think a cave is the intentional ingestion of nicotine via one of the following three socially accepted nicotine delivery systems: (1) the subcutaneous absorption of the drug through patches placed on the epidermis; (2) oral absorption of the drug through ground up or whole tobacco leaves sited in ones mouth; and/or (3) the ingestion of the drug through smoke vapor inhaled into the mouth or lungs. I am sure there are other means available, but these three seem to be the most common methodologies. The operative language in all of this nonsense is intentional, ie, was DieselÂ’s use of the electronic cigarette an intentional means to use nicotine? Did he possess the requisite mental intent at that time to ingest nicotine into his body? Clearly the answer is NO. I have also thought about having gone into some old, nasty, skank infested bars when I ride my scooter and having ingested 2nd hand smokeÂ…is that a cave? Again, without the intent to ingest nicotine negates a cave. Just my opinion and some food for thought today. Enjoy your Sunday afternoon w/o worry Diesel.
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I gotta get this off my chest. My wife and everyone else I've talked to about it, including my parents, my shrink and councelor (yes I put in an emergency call to both last night) laughed about it and said I did nothing wrong, but the guilt of this stupid action is tearing me up, so here goes...
First off, I work with my mom and Dad in the company business out of their home. Since the day I quit I have tried unsuccessfully to get my mom to quit smoking. She's smoked for 46 and simply tells me "Craig I DON'T WANT TO QUIT. NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!". I keep bugging her on it not but to no avail.
Yesterday, late afternoon I was finishing up some work on my moms computer at work. I saw what looked like a fake white cigarette sitting on my moms desk.
You see, throughout my youth my mom, would half ass attempt to quit or cut down anyway, by buying this paper cigarette that I guess was supposed to simulate filling the oral void of not smoking and having a cig hang out of your mouth??? When we were kids every so often my mom would bust this thing out (when she was feeling guilty I guess) and me and my brothers would ask, "why are you having a candy cigarette?". She would tell us to "SHUT UP!!!".
So when I saw this cheesy thing on her
desk where I was working I thought "oh boy, looks like moms feeling guilty again".
A minute later my Dad was walking down the hall thinking my Mom was in the office and I guess he had a question for her and said "Hey Nance" (my moms name is Nancy).
Like a dope trying to be funny I put the fake cig in my mouth, swung around in my chair and said "Yes Howard" (my Dads name is Howard). He laugghed but as I said those words a small plume of vapor came out of my mouth. Confused I asked my Dad, "what the fuck was that?". He laughed and said, "it's your moms new toy, an electronic cigarette".
HOLY FUCK!!!!
I immediately ran to the bathroom and started to suck on a bar of soap and flush my mouth out. I put nicotine vapor in my mouth!!! I had an immediate anxiety attack and stated to cry. My parents were baffled. My mom even said "Jesus Christ Craig, grow up!!!"
I called my wife in tears and she was and still is baffled as well as to why I was and still am so upset. I am physically shaking ask I type this right now.Â
I have d bag buddies who use those stupid e cigs but they didn't look like my moms cheesy ass thing. Theirs are kind of stream lined looking and longer with some kind of oil thing.
I swear to all that is holy that I did not know this white fake cigarette was an e cig. I thought it was her dumb ass fake cig again.
I also did not "puff" or take drag of this thing, it was literally in my mouth for 15 seconds. I simply put it in my mouth trying to be funny and I the process must have pulled a little bit of the vapor out. heck I've never even smoked before so I don't even know how to inhale a cigarette. I got no buzz or nicotine rush from this thing. Like I said once I saw that vapor and my Dad told me what it was I freaked the fuck out and sucked on a bar of soap.
Is this a cave? God I hope not.Â
I wasn't jonsing for some chew, I wasn't stressing out over something, I didn't say "fuck it" and ignore all that I have learned here, or not use all the tools at my disposal. Hell I dont even think I inhaled the son of a bitch, and really the only thing I was trying to do was make my old man laugh. Had I known that was an e cig, I never would have touched it.
I've been on the brink of a cave before and pulled myself out of it by coming here. I remember one time very vividly where I was parked at a 7-11 and I texted Wedgie and told him I was gonna buy a can because everyone around me was enjoying nicotine and I was gonna too. He talked me out of it, thank God. Their have been other times I've been on the brink, and came here and read and came to my senses.Â
I know what to do when a true crave comes and "cave" enters the brain. To be honest that has not happened to me since about day 150, and it didn't happen to me yesterday afternoon either. I was simply trying to be funny.
My wife says I'm a fool for sharing what happened yesterday, but I can't help it. I've been honest about every ounce of my quit since my first day here and I'm just doing the same now.
I literally was up all night debating what to say, if anything. I decided on the long version of the truth.
Holy shit am I shaking like a leaf, but I HAD to get this off my chest. Thanks for listening.
Craig
Not a cave. The fact that you chomped on a bar of soap and came on here spilling your guts, in a message where a reader can feel your emotion and fear, tells the whole story. Not a cave.
You have my complete respect today. Thanks for sharing.
Tell you mom to throw out the d bag e cig. Enjoy your weekend.
Michael
Not a cave. But still a horrible experience for you. Hold your fucking head up. We trust you and respect the shit out of your ass bro. I quit with you.
What Erussell said x2.........Your a Bad Ass Quitter Bro!!!!
Proud as Hell to be Quit with You today my friend.Quit On!!!
going to follow suit here, with a vote for no cave, and a brother here that will stand right beside you.
I would not blame you for blowing a stack today, not at your mom but at the manufacturers of all of this new fangled crap that is coming out that looks like fakes or toys, but in fact are just another delivery system for a poison. It is starting to really piss me off what these companies are doing.
Keep your head up, and let me know if there is anything I can do.
You fucking caved?
Sarcasm
Come on Diesel, take a few deep breaths and get out there telling some weak assed pussy caver to FUCK OFF.. Your reaction is the answer to your question. Just consider it second hand smoke if the soap didn't do the job. Fuck! Soap, really? 'crackup'
No doubt. Most mornings when I come to work I walk through a cloud of smoke to get to my desk. Probably does more damage than what I did yesterday.
I still have soap taste in my mouth. I didn't know what to do. I wanted strangle my Mom but also wanted to fly backwards around the earth like Superman and reverse time so I coukd realize the cheesy looking thing was an e cig.
Time to move forward.
Thanks.
The bitch will stop at nothing. Even an accident can get you hooked again. Be careful Deisel.
Crazy timing on that post. I had just finished up a phone call with a Day 2 newbie and I suggested that he check out your thread. You are an outstanding quitter and a major contributor to this brotherhood. This changes nothing. Not a cave!!! But holy shit bro there is nothing that could be any closer. Be careful Deisel.
Thanks man. You're right.
Even though I was simply trying to make my old man laugh. I know the power of nic and the "just one" .
That's why even though I had no intention to do what I did, it scared the shit out of me...as it should.
It scares me too man. I am talking to my wife about it right now. Kind of shook me up to read the post.
The door was cracked open. The door that you held closed so tightly for over 400 days. That fucker cracked open, albeit a cunt hair. Accident or no accident, you give that bitch an inch and .......... you know. Be vigilant friend. Kick that fugger shut, chain it, bolt it, weld it and stand guard. I quit with you, hit me up if you need anything. You've got the digits.
Ryan
Thanks man.
I looked up the definition of the word cave.
Cave
Pronunciation: \ˈkâv\
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): caved; cav·ing
Etymology: probably alteration of calve
Date: 1513
intransitive verb
1 : to fall in or down especially from being undermined —usually used with in 2 : to cease to resist.
You did not cave... Or Cease to resist, brother. Anyone that jams soap down their throat is still in the fight. I appreciate your honesty and I was sitting here imagining you running to the sink wearing your Desmond Howard jersey and all I could think was... Typical Michigan man! Quit on!
Embarassing. I once had an Anthony Carter jersey, but that's it.
What is a cave? We have heard the term used in here since day 1. Prior to joining KTC, I had always thought of a cave as a tunnel in a mountainÂ…but no longer. But what is it? Other than a dictionary definition, I think a cave is the intentional ingestion of nicotine via one of the following three socially accepted nicotine delivery systems: (1) the subcutaneous absorption of the drug through patches placed on the epidermis; (2) oral absorption of the drug through ground up or whole tobacco leaves sited in ones mouth; and/or (3) the ingestion of the drug through smoke vapor inhaled into the mouth or lungs. I am sure there are other means available, but these three seem to be the most common methodologies. The operative language in all of this nonsense is intentional, ie, was DieselÂ’s use of the electronic cigarette an intentional means to use nicotine? Did he possess the requisite mental intent at that time to ingest nicotine into his body? Clearly the answer is NO. I have also thought about having gone into some old, nasty, skank infested bars when I ride my scooter and having ingested 2nd hand smokeÂ…is that a cave? Again, without the intent to ingest nicotine negates a cave. Just my opinion and some food for thought today. Enjoy your Sunday afternoon w/o worry Diesel.
Am I caving when I have to go in my garage after my wife slurps a heater? Is my mangina yeasty? Do I have girl parts???
Sorry Diesel, but I just had an epiphany and now believe you when you say you are a big pussy. It took me 200+ days to get past the FACT that you are a BAD ASS quitter, and that you are a fellow Rush fan, but I have now confirmed to myself that you are a drama queen!
Seriously your e-cig moment would have freaked me out too, but you should have no worries. You got this.
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Hey Diesel
When I first joined KTC I read your posts all over the place and quickly came to the conclusion that you were one quit dude! I don't know why, but tonight I read your whole 41 page intro and I am exhausted. To follow your path has totally de-funked me tonight! What a great journey . You are nurturing and protecting one beautiful garden! Thanks for keeping up on it like you did. You would be one of my biggest quit leaders even if you didn't worship at the alter of the Holy Canadian Triumvirate!
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Hey Diesel
When I first joined KTC I read your posts all over the place and quickly came to the conclusion that you were one quit dude! I don't know why, but tonight I read your whole 41 page intro and I am exhausted. To follow your path has totally de-funked me tonight! What a great journey . You are nurturing and protecting one beautiful garden! Thanks for keeping up on it like you did. You would be one of my biggest quit leaders even if you didn't worship at the alter of the Holy Canadian Triumvirate!
Dude...if you took the time to read all 41 pages of my fucked up intro, you must have either been funking like a funked out funker, or bored out your mind.
My journey has been pretty jacked up. If it helped you in any way, then I'm happy for that.
But remember, "the point of a journey, is not to arrive".
Quit on...
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Hey Diesel
When I first joined KTC I read your posts all over the place and quickly came to the conclusion that you were one quit dude! I don't know why, but tonight I read your whole 41 page intro and I am exhausted. To follow your path has totally de-funked me tonight! What a great journey . You are nurturing and protecting one beautiful garden! Thanks for keeping up on it like you did. You would be one of my biggest quit leaders even if you didn't worship at the alter of the Holy Canadian Triumvirate!
Dude...if you took the time to read all 41 pages of my fucked up intro, you must have either been funking like a funked out funker, or bored out your mind.
My journey has been pretty jacked up. If it helped you in any way, then I'm happy for that.
But remember, "the point of a journey, is not to arrive".
Quit on...
I need to save the world (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmYlmaZJRrY)
fuck dip i quit
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Hey Diesel
When I first joined KTC I read your posts all over the place and quickly came to the conclusion that you were one quit dude! I don't know why, but tonight I read your whole 41 page intro and I am exhausted. To follow your path has totally de-funked me tonight! What a great journey . You are nurturing and protecting one beautiful garden! Thanks for keeping up on it like you did. You would be one of my biggest quit leaders even if you didn't worship at the alter of the Holy Canadian Triumvirate!
Dude...if you took the time to read all 41 pages of my fucked up intro, you must have either been funking like a funked out funker, or bored out your mind.
My journey has been pretty jacked up. If it helped you in any way, then I'm happy for that.
But remember, "the point of a journey, is not to arrive".
Quit on...
I need to save the world (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmYlmaZJRrY)
fuck dip i quit
I still remember that day of meltdown and knew I wasn't alone. I always know if I start losing my mind diesel will understand and listen before telling me "fuck you", and "get your head out of your ass".
We quit, we deal with life's challenges, we tell our cravings to fuck off, we set down and cry if we need to but at the end of the day we pat ourselves and our brothers and sisters on the back and say well done. And then we start over again. ( that was my reasoning behind posting my promise shortly after midnight everyday for months.)
I will quit with diesel everyday because I've been there since his day 1 and know the struggles he has overcome.
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Hey Diesel
When I first joined KTC I read your posts all over the place and quickly came to the conclusion that you were one quit dude! I don't know why, but tonight I read your whole 41 page intro and I am exhausted. To follow your path has totally de-funked me tonight! What a great journey . You are nurturing and protecting one beautiful garden! Thanks for keeping up on it like you did. You would be one of my biggest quit leaders even if you didn't worship at the alter of the Holy Canadian Triumvirate!
Dude...if you took the time to read all 41 pages of my fucked up intro, you must have either been funking like a funked out funker, or bored out your mind.
My journey has been pretty jacked up. If it helped you in any way, then I'm happy for that.
But remember, "the point of a journey, is not to arrive".
Quit on...
I need to save the world (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmYlmaZJRrY)
fuck dip i quit
I still remember that day of meltdown and knew I wasn't alone. I always know if I start losing my mind diesel will understand and listen before telling me "fuck you", and "get your head out of your ass".
We quit, we deal with life's challenges, we tell our cravings to fuck off, we set down and cry if we need to but at the end of the day we pat ourselves and our brothers and sisters on the back and say well done. And then we start over again. ( that was my reasoning behind posting my promise shortly after midnight everyday for months.)
I will quit with diesel everyday because I've been there since his day 1 and know the struggles he has overcome.
What are you guys trying to do, make a guy weepy???
Thanks for being there from day 1 WT, and thanks to anyone who took the time to post some words of encouragement. That's what makes this site great.
I took a look back and some guys are still here kicking ass and others
went back to the can.
Proud to be an ass kicker, with all of you.
Quit on...
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Hey Diesel
When I first joined KTC I read your posts all over the place and quickly came to the conclusion that you were one quit dude! I don't know why, but tonight I read your whole 41 page intro and I am exhausted. To follow your path has totally de-funked me tonight! What a great journey . You are nurturing and protecting one beautiful garden! Thanks for keeping up on it like you did. You would be one of my biggest quit leaders even if you didn't worship at the alter of the Holy Canadian Triumvirate!
Dude...if you took the time to read all 41 pages of my fucked up intro, you must have either been funking like a funked out funker, or bored out your mind.
My journey has been pretty jacked up. If it helped you in any way, then I'm happy for that.
But remember, "the point of a journey, is not to arrive".
Quit on...
I need to save the world (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmYlmaZJRrY)
fuck dip i quit
I still remember that day of meltdown and knew I wasn't alone. I always know if I start losing my mind diesel will understand and listen before telling me "fuck you", and "get your head out of your ass".
We quit, we deal with life's challenges, we tell our cravings to fuck off, we set down and cry if we need to but at the end of the day we pat ourselves and our brothers and sisters on the back and say well done. And then we start over again. ( that was my reasoning behind posting my promise shortly after midnight everyday for months.)
I will quit with diesel everyday because I've been there since his day 1 and know the struggles he has overcome.
What are you guys trying to do, make a guy weepy???
Thanks for being there from day 1 WT, and thanks to anyone who took the time to post some words of encouragement. That's what makes this site great.
I took a look back and some guys are still here kicking ass and others
went back to the can.
Proud to be an ass kicker, with all of you.
Quit on...
yup, Diesel's thread has kept me going...
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Busy weekend as I am the assistant athletic director at my kids school (despite somes claim I have no life), and we hosted a huge girls basketball tournament.
Our head A.D. is a chain smoker, every half hour or so he would say, "time to go burn one", like he was about to go outside and get a prize or something. Instead, he would go out into the frigid Michigan air and suck on a lung dart.
I don't preach to those who don't WANT to be helped so I never said a word to him until he said to me, "Craig, we gotta get you smoking my man". Not sure if that was some kind of term of endearment as he missed me for those 5 minutes he would disappear outside, but it was probably one of the dumbest things anyone has ever said to me.
Very calmly I just said, "No way man, that shit will kill you" and then went on to tell him my story of chewing for 15 years, my early struggles to quit, and that I had no desire to be a SLAVE to nicotine any longer. I also reminded him that I had two young kids and I'd like to be with them as long as possible.
He did not seem to like that, especially since he has two sons of his own, both in high school now. He got very agitated and defensive after I told him my story and started throwing addict logic at me. But I was ready, WITH BOLD REBUTTALS...
"Hey man, we all gotta die of something"...YEAH BUT NO FROM THAT SHIT. HAVENT YOU EVER SEEN OR READ ANYTHING ABOUT HOW BAD SMOKING IS FOR YOU??? SHITS A PROVEN SCIENTIFIC FACT
"I could get hit by a bus tomorrow"...DON'T YOU LOOK BOTH WAYS BEFORE YOU CROSS THE STREET? AND WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU HEARD OF ANY MOTHER FUCKER GETTING HIT BY A BUS????
"My Aunt Suzie smoked and she lived to be 95"...MY WIFES UNCLE DIED LAST YEAR FROM SMALL CELL CANCER, HE SMOKED FOR 40 YEARS, HE WAS 58.
"I'm smoking as a favor to my son's. When they see me with cancer and die, they will know not to smoke"....THAT'S THE DUMBEST THING YOU HAVE EVER SAID AND I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT.
"Smoking relaxes me"...IF THAT'S THE CASE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO OUTSIDE EVERY HALF HOUR TO SMOKE SOME MORE???
"Dude, I can't quit. I'm fucking addicted as a mother fucker"...BINGO, YOU DON'T WANT TO QUIT.
His final word..."Nope and I aint gonna either".
Sad shit boys and girls. Keep fighting the good fight. Don't be a fucking douche nozzle like that guy.
Stay Quit...
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Thank you.
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Thank you.
There is only one way to Quit.....Fucking Quit!!!!
Thanks again Diesel...
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Thank you.
There is only one way to Quit.....Fucking Quit!!!!
Thanks again Diesel...
Diesel you are one bad ass MFer. Love ya man!
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Thank you.
There is only one way to Quit.....Fucking Quit!!!!
Thanks again Diesel...
Diesel you are one bad ass MFer. Love ya man!
Nice read, thanks diesel.
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Thank you.
There is only one way to Quit.....Fucking Quit!!!!
Thanks again Diesel...
Diesel you are one bad ass MFer. Love ya man!
Nice read, thanks diesel.
suicide is for pussies...
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Busy weekend as I am the assistant athletic director at my kids school (despite somes claim I have no life), and we hosted a huge girls basketball tournament.
Our head A.D. is a chain smoker, every half hour or so he would say, "time to go burn one", like he was about to go outside and get a prize or something. Instead, he would go out into the frigid Michigan air and suck on a lung dart.
I don't preach to those who don't WANT to be helped so I never said a word to him until he said to me, "Craig, we gotta get you smoking my man". Not sure if that was some kind of term of endearment as he missed me for those 5 minutes he would disappear outside, but it was probably one of the dumbest things anyone has ever said to me.
Very calmly I just said, "No way man, that shit will kill you" and then went on to tell him my story of chewing for 15 years, my early struggles to quit, and that I had no desire to be a SLAVE to nicotine any longer. I also reminded him that I had two young kids and I'd like to be with them as long as possible.
He did not seem to like that, especially since he has two sons of his own, both in high school now. He got very agitated and defensive after I told him my story and started throwing addict logic at me. But I was ready, WITH BOLD REBUTTALS...
"Hey man, we all gotta die of something"...YEAH BUT NO FROM THAT SHIT. HAVENT YOU EVER SEEN OR READ ANYTHING ABOUT HOW BAD SMOKING IS FOR YOU??? SHITS A PROVEN SCIENTIFIC FACT
"I could get hit by a bus tomorrow"...DON'T YOU LOOK BOTH WAYS BEFORE YOU CROSS THE STREET? AND WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU HEARD OF ANY MOTHER FUCKER GETTING HIT BY A BUS????
"My Aunt Suzie smoked and she lived to be 95"...MY WIFES UNCLE DIED LAST YEAR FROM SMALL CELL CANCER, HE SMOKED FOR 40 YEARS, HE WAS 58.
"I'm smoking as a favor to my son's. When they see me with cancer and die, they will know not to smoke"....THAT'S THE DUMBEST THING YOU HAVE EVER SAID AND I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT.
"Smoking relaxes me"...IF THAT'S THE CASE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO OUTSIDE EVERY HALF HOUR TO SMOKE SOME MORE???
"Dude, I can't quit. I'm fucking addicted as a mother fucker"...BINGO, YOU DON'T WANT TO QUIT.
His final word..."Nope and I aint gonna either".
Sad shit boys and girls. Keep fighting the good fight. Don't be a fucking douche nozzle like that guy.
Stay Quit...
This is awesome. I'm still learning the "ammo" portion of this thing, but reading this gives me the hope that someday I'll be ready to fight any of the addict logic off without batting an eye.
Guys like you are inspiration for the rest of us Diesel. Thanks for posting and glad to be quit with you today.
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Busy weekend as I am the assistant athletic director at my kids school (despite somes claim I have no life), and we hosted a huge girls basketball tournament.
Our head A.D. is a chain smoker, every half hour or so he would say, "time to go burn one", like he was about to go outside and get a prize or something. Instead, he would go out into the frigid Michigan air and suck on a lung dart.
I don't preach to those who don't WANT to be helped so I never said a word to him until he said to me, "Craig, we gotta get you smoking my man". Not sure if that was some kind of term of endearment as he missed me for those 5 minutes he would disappear outside, but it was probably one of the dumbest things anyone has ever said to me.
Very calmly I just said, "No way man, that shit will kill you" and then went on to tell him my story of chewing for 15 years, my early struggles to quit, and that I had no desire to be a SLAVE to nicotine any longer. I also reminded him that I had two young kids and I'd like to be with them as long as possible.
He did not seem to like that, especially since he has two sons of his own, both in high school now. He got very agitated and defensive after I told him my story and started throwing addict logic at me. But I was ready, WITH BOLD REBUTTALS...
"Hey man, we all gotta die of something"...YEAH BUT NO FROM THAT SHIT. HAVENT YOU EVER SEEN OR READ ANYTHING ABOUT HOW BAD SMOKING IS FOR YOU??? SHITS A PROVEN SCIENTIFIC FACT
"I could get hit by a bus tomorrow"...DON'T YOU LOOK BOTH WAYS BEFORE YOU CROSS THE STREET? AND WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU HEARD OF ANY MOTHER FUCKER GETTING HIT BY A BUS????
"My Aunt Suzie smoked and she lived to be 95"...MY WIFES UNCLE DIED LAST YEAR FROM SMALL CELL CANCER, HE SMOKED FOR 40 YEARS, HE WAS 58.
"I'm smoking as a favor to my son's. When they see me with cancer and die, they will know not to smoke"....THAT'S THE DUMBEST THING YOU HAVE EVER SAID AND I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT.
"Smoking relaxes me"...IF THAT'S THE CASE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO OUTSIDE EVERY HALF HOUR TO SMOKE SOME MORE???
"Dude, I can't quit. I'm fucking addicted as a mother fucker"...BINGO, YOU DON'T WANT TO QUIT.
His final word..."Nope and I aint gonna either".
Sad shit boys and girls. Keep fighting the good fight. Don't be a fucking douche nozzle like that guy.
Stay Quit...
This is awesome. I'm still learning the "ammo" portion of this thing, but reading this gives me the hope that someday I'll be ready to fight any of the addict logic off without batting an eye.
Guys like you are inspiration for the rest of us Diesel. Thanks for posting and glad to be quit with you today.
It's amazing how many times you hear people on this board spouting the same logic as that guy. They "can't quit right now because of __________".
Here's the funny thing:
________ don't mean shit.
Diesel broke down every one of his arguments until he was left with "I smoke because I want to". Ain't nobody making him use but him, and he would be fine (better) if he ever quits. We see that here every day.
'oh yeah' Way to go Diesel 'oh yeah'
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Busy weekend as I am the assistant athletic director at my kids school (despite somes claim I have no life), and we hosted a huge girls basketball tournament.
Our head A.D. is a chain smoker, every half hour or so he would say, "time to go burn one", like he was about to go outside and get a prize or something.  Instead, he would go out into the frigid Michigan air and suck on a lung dart.
I don't preach to those who don't WANT to be helped so I never said a word to him until he said to me, "Craig, we gotta get you smoking my man". Not sure if that was some kind of term of endearment as he missed me for those 5 minutes he would disappear outside, but it was probably one of the dumbest things anyone has ever said to me.
Very calmly I just said, "No way man, that shit will kill you" and then went on to tell him my story of chewing for 15 years, my early struggles to quit, and that I had no desire to be a SLAVE to nicotine any longer. I also reminded him that I had two young kids and I'd like to be with them as long as possible.
He did not seem to like that, especially since he has two sons of his own, both in high school now. He got very agitated and defensive after I told him my story and started throwing addict logic at me.  But I was ready, WITH BOLD REBUTTALS...
"Hey man, we all gotta die of something"...YEAH BUT NO FROM THAT SHIT. HAVENT YOU EVER SEEN OR READ ANYTHING ABOUT HOW BAD SMOKING IS FOR YOU??? SHITS A PROVEN SCIENTIFIC FACT
"I could get hit by a bus tomorrow"...DON'T YOU LOOK BOTH WAYS BEFORE YOU CROSS THE STREET? AND WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU HEARD OF ANY MOTHER FUCKER GETTING HIT BY A BUS????
"My Aunt Suzie smoked and she lived to be 95"...MY WIFES UNCLE DIED LAST YEAR FROM SMALL CELL CANCER, HE SMOKED FOR 40 YEARS, HE WAS 58.
"I'm smoking as a favor to my son's. When they see me with cancer and die, they will know not to smoke"....THAT'S THE DUMBEST THING YOU HAVE EVER SAID AND I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT.
"Smoking relaxes me"...IF THAT'S THE CASE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO OUTSIDE EVERY HALF HOUR TO SMOKE SOME MORE???
"Dude, I can't quit. I'm fucking addicted as a mother fucker"...BINGO, YOU DON'T WANT TO QUIT.
His final word..."Nope and I aint gonna either".
Sad shit boys and girls. Keep fighting the good fight. Don't be a fucking douche nozzle like that guy.
Stay Quit...
This is awesome. I'm still learning the "ammo" portion of this thing, but reading this gives me the hope that someday I'll be ready to fight any of the addict logic off without batting an eye.
Guys like you are inspiration for the rest of us Diesel. Thanks for posting and glad to be quit with you today.
It's amazing how many times you hear people on this board spouting the same logic as that guy. They "can't quit right now because of __________".
Here's the funny thing:
________ don't mean shit.
Diesel broke down every one of his arguments until he was left with "I smoke because I want to". Ain't nobody making him use but him, and he would be fine (better) if he ever quits. We see that here every day.
'oh yeah' Way to go Diesel 'oh yeah'
Yes. Don't throw addict talk Diesel's way. He will own you. Way to fight the good fight friend!
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Busy weekend as I am the assistant athletic director at my kids school (despite somes claim I have no life), and we hosted a huge girls basketball tournament.
Our head A.D. is a chain smoker, every half hour or so he would say, "time to go burn one", like he was about to go outside and get a prize or something.  Instead, he would go out into the frigid Michigan air and suck on a lung dart.
I don't preach to those who don't WANT to be helped so I never said a word to him until he said to me, "Craig, we gotta get you smoking my man". Not sure if that was some kind of term of endearment as he missed me for those 5 minutes he would disappear outside, but it was probably one of the dumbest things anyone has ever said to me.
Very calmly I just said, "No way man, that shit will kill you" and then went on to tell him my story of chewing for 15 years, my early struggles to quit, and that I had no desire to be a SLAVE to nicotine any longer. I also reminded him that I had two young kids and I'd like to be with them as long as possible.
He did not seem to like that, especially since he has two sons of his own, both in high school now. He got very agitated and defensive after I told him my story and started throwing addict logic at me.  But I was ready, WITH BOLD REBUTTALS...
"Hey man, we all gotta die of something"...YEAH BUT NO FROM THAT SHIT. HAVENT YOU EVER SEEN OR READ ANYTHING ABOUT HOW BAD SMOKING IS FOR YOU??? SHITS A PROVEN SCIENTIFIC FACT
"I could get hit by a bus tomorrow"...DON'T YOU LOOK BOTH WAYS BEFORE YOU CROSS THE STREET? AND WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU HEARD OF ANY MOTHER FUCKER GETTING HIT BY A BUS????
"My Aunt Suzie smoked and she lived to be 95"...MY WIFES UNCLE DIED LAST YEAR FROM SMALL CELL CANCER, HE SMOKED FOR 40 YEARS, HE WAS 58.
"I'm smoking as a favor to my son's. When they see me with cancer and die, they will know not to smoke"....THAT'S THE DUMBEST THING YOU HAVE EVER SAID AND I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT.
"Smoking relaxes me"...IF THAT'S THE CASE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO OUTSIDE EVERY HALF HOUR TO SMOKE SOME MORE???
"Dude, I can't quit. I'm fucking addicted as a mother fucker"...BINGO, YOU DON'T WANT TO QUIT.
His final word..."Nope and I aint gonna either".
Sad shit boys and girls. Keep fighting the good fight. Don't be a fucking douche nozzle like that guy.
Stay Quit...
This is awesome. I'm still learning the "ammo" portion of this thing, but reading this gives me the hope that someday I'll be ready to fight any of the addict logic off without batting an eye.
Guys like you are inspiration for the rest of us Diesel. Thanks for posting and glad to be quit with you today.
It's amazing how many times you hear people on this board spouting the same logic as that guy. They "can't quit right now because of __________".
Here's the funny thing:
________ don't mean shit.
Diesel broke down every one of his arguments until he was left with "I smoke because I want to". Ain't nobody making him use but him, and he would be fine (better) if he ever quits. We see that here every day.
'oh yeah' Way to go Diesel 'oh yeah'
Yes. Don't throw addict talk Diesel's way. He will own you. Way to fight the good fight friend!
People hate to hear the truth. I know I did when I dipped.
Even though I was a ninja I had a few buddies who knew. One of them constantly kept telling me how bad the shit was for me. I would get soooo pissed, and tell him to shut the fuck up.
It wasn't because he was annoying me, it was because I knew he was right.
Denial...another ugly part of addiction.
Quit on...
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Busy weekend as I am the assistant athletic director at my kids school (despite somes claim I have no life), and we hosted a huge girls basketball tournament.
Our head A.D. is a chain smoker, every half hour or so he would say, "time to go burn one", like he was about to go outside and get a prize or something.  Instead, he would go out into the frigid Michigan air and suck on a lung dart.
I don't preach to those who don't WANT to be helped so I never said a word to him until he said to me, "Craig, we gotta get you smoking my man". Not sure if that was some kind of term of endearment as he missed me for those 5 minutes he would disappear outside, but it was probably one of the dumbest things anyone has ever said to me.
Very calmly I just said, "No way man, that shit will kill you" and then went on to tell him my story of chewing for 15 years, my early struggles to quit, and that I had no desire to be a SLAVE to nicotine any longer. I also reminded him that I had two young kids and I'd like to be with them as long as possible.
He did not seem to like that, especially since he has two sons of his own, both in high school now. He got very agitated and defensive after I told him my story and started throwing addict logic at me.  But I was ready, WITH BOLD REBUTTALS...
"Hey man, we all gotta die of something"...YEAH BUT NO FROM THAT SHIT. HAVENT YOU EVER SEEN OR READ ANYTHING ABOUT HOW BAD SMOKING IS FOR YOU??? SHITS A PROVEN SCIENTIFIC FACT
"I could get hit by a bus tomorrow"...DON'T YOU LOOK BOTH WAYS BEFORE YOU CROSS THE STREET? AND WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU HEARD OF ANY MOTHER FUCKER GETTING HIT BY A BUS????
"My Aunt Suzie smoked and she lived to be 95"...MY WIFES UNCLE DIED LAST YEAR FROM SMALL CELL CANCER, HE SMOKED FOR 40 YEARS, HE WAS 58.
"I'm smoking as a favor to my son's. When they see me with cancer and die, they will know not to smoke"....THAT'S THE DUMBEST THING YOU HAVE EVER SAID AND I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT.
"Smoking relaxes me"...IF THAT'S THE CASE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO OUTSIDE EVERY HALF HOUR TO SMOKE SOME MORE???
"Dude, I can't quit. I'm fucking addicted as a mother fucker"...BINGO, YOU DON'T WANT TO QUIT.
His final word..."Nope and I aint gonna either".
Sad shit boys and girls. Keep fighting the good fight. Don't be a fucking douche nozzle like that guy.
Stay Quit...
This is awesome. I'm still learning the "ammo" portion of this thing, but reading this gives me the hope that someday I'll be ready to fight any of the addict logic off without batting an eye.
Guys like you are inspiration for the rest of us Diesel. Thanks for posting and glad to be quit with you today.
It's amazing how many times you hear people on this board spouting the same logic as that guy. They "can't quit right now because of __________".
Here's the funny thing:
________ don't mean shit.
Diesel broke down every one of his arguments until he was left with "I smoke because I want to". Ain't nobody making him use but him, and he would be fine (better) if he ever quits. We see that here every day.
'oh yeah' Way to go Diesel 'oh yeah'
Yes. Don't throw addict talk Diesel's way. He will own you. Way to fight the good fight friend!
People hate to hear the truth. I know I did when I dipped.
Even though I was a ninja I had a few buddies who knew. One of them constantly kept telling me how bad the shit was for me. I would get soooo pissed, and tell him to shut the fuck up.
It wasn't because he was annoying me, it was because I knew he was right.
Denial...another ugly part of addiction.
Quit on...
and the pupil has become the master.....nice Job Diesel
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Busy weekend as I am the assistant athletic director at my kids school (despite somes claim I have no life), and we hosted a huge girls basketball tournament.
Our head A.D. is a chain smoker, every half hour or so he would say, "time to go burn one", like he was about to go outside and get a prize or something.  Instead, he would go out into the frigid Michigan air and suck on a lung dart.
I don't preach to those who don't WANT to be helped so I never said a word to him until he said to me, "Craig, we gotta get you smoking my man". Not sure if that was some kind of term of endearment as he missed me for those 5 minutes he would disappear outside, but it was probably one of the dumbest things anyone has ever said to me.
Very calmly I just said, "No way man, that shit will kill you" and then went on to tell him my story of chewing for 15 years, my early struggles to quit, and that I had no desire to be a SLAVE to nicotine any longer. I also reminded him that I had two young kids and I'd like to be with them as long as possible.
He did not seem to like that, especially since he has two sons of his own, both in high school now. He got very agitated and defensive after I told him my story and started throwing addict logic at me.  But I was ready, WITH BOLD REBUTTALS...
"Hey man, we all gotta die of something"...YEAH BUT NO FROM THAT SHIT. HAVENT YOU EVER SEEN OR READ ANYTHING ABOUT HOW BAD SMOKING IS FOR YOU??? SHITS A PROVEN SCIENTIFIC FACT
"I could get hit by a bus tomorrow"...DON'T YOU LOOK BOTH WAYS BEFORE YOU CROSS THE STREET? AND WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU HEARD OF ANY MOTHER FUCKER GETTING HIT BY A BUS????
"My Aunt Suzie smoked and she lived to be 95"...MY WIFES UNCLE DIED LAST YEAR FROM SMALL CELL CANCER, HE SMOKED FOR 40 YEARS, HE WAS 58.
"I'm smoking as a favor to my son's. When they see me with cancer and die, they will know not to smoke"....THAT'S THE DUMBEST THING YOU HAVE EVER SAID AND I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT.
"Smoking relaxes me"...IF THAT'S THE CASE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO OUTSIDE EVERY HALF HOUR TO SMOKE SOME MORE???
"Dude, I can't quit. I'm fucking addicted as a mother fucker"...BINGO, YOU DON'T WANT TO QUIT.
His final word..."Nope and I aint gonna either".
Sad shit boys and girls. Keep fighting the good fight. Don't be a fucking douche nozzle like that guy.
Stay Quit...
This is awesome. I'm still learning the "ammo" portion of this thing, but reading this gives me the hope that someday I'll be ready to fight any of the addict logic off without batting an eye.
Guys like you are inspiration for the rest of us Diesel. Thanks for posting and glad to be quit with you today.
It's amazing how many times you hear people on this board spouting the same logic as that guy. They "can't quit right now because of __________".
Here's the funny thing:
________ don't mean shit.
Diesel broke down every one of his arguments until he was left with "I smoke because I want to". Ain't nobody making him use but him, and he would be fine (better) if he ever quits. We see that here every day.
'oh yeah' Way to go Diesel 'oh yeah'
Yes. Don't throw addict talk Diesel's way. He will own you. Way to fight the good fight friend!
People hate to hear the truth. I know I did when I dipped.
Even though I was a ninja I had a few buddies who knew. One of them constantly kept telling me how bad the shit was for me. I would get soooo pissed, and tell him to shut the fuck up.
It wasn't because he was annoying me, it was because I knew he was right.
Denial...another ugly part of addiction.
Quit on...
and the pupil has become the master.....nice Job Diesel
It's tough to follow the commendation from the jedi master above ^^^^^^ but i wanted to add my own thanks too. Another fine example of true leadership and strength-- makes me want to go out and try and have a similar conversation with a nic addict who's still using, right away! Now that'a a positive influence!
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Busy weekend as I am the assistant athletic director at my kids school (despite somes claim I have no life), and we hosted a huge girls basketball tournament.
Our head A.D. is a chain smoker, every half hour or so he would say, "time to go burn one", like he was about to go outside and get a prize or something.  Instead, he would go out into the frigid Michigan air and suck on a lung dart.
I don't preach to those who don't WANT to be helped so I never said a word to him until he said to me, "Craig, we gotta get you smoking my man". Not sure if that was some kind of term of endearment as he missed me for those 5 minutes he would disappear outside, but it was probably one of the dumbest things anyone has ever said to me.
Very calmly I just said, "No way man, that shit will kill you" and then went on to tell him my story of chewing for 15 years, my early struggles to quit, and that I had no desire to be a SLAVE to nicotine any longer. I also reminded him that I had two young kids and I'd like to be with them as long as possible.
He did not seem to like that, especially since he has two sons of his own, both in high school now. He got very agitated and defensive after I told him my story and started throwing addict logic at me.  But I was ready, WITH BOLD REBUTTALS...
"Hey man, we all gotta die of something"...YEAH BUT NO FROM THAT SHIT. HAVENT YOU EVER SEEN OR READ ANYTHING ABOUT HOW BAD SMOKING IS FOR YOU??? SHITS A PROVEN SCIENTIFIC FACT
"I could get hit by a bus tomorrow"...DON'T YOU LOOK BOTH WAYS BEFORE YOU CROSS THE STREET? AND WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU HEARD OF ANY MOTHER FUCKER GETTING HIT BY A BUS????
"My Aunt Suzie smoked and she lived to be 95"...MY WIFES UNCLE DIED LAST YEAR FROM SMALL CELL CANCER, HE SMOKED FOR 40 YEARS, HE WAS 58.
"I'm smoking as a favor to my son's. When they see me with cancer and die, they will know not to smoke"....THAT'S THE DUMBEST THING YOU HAVE EVER SAID AND I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT.
"Smoking relaxes me"...IF THAT'S THE CASE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO OUTSIDE EVERY HALF HOUR TO SMOKE SOME MORE???
"Dude, I can't quit. I'm fucking addicted as a mother fucker"...BINGO, YOU DON'T WANT TO QUIT.
His final word..."Nope and I aint gonna either".
Sad shit boys and girls. Keep fighting the good fight. Don't be a fucking douche nozzle like that guy.
Stay Quit...
This is awesome. I'm still learning the "ammo" portion of this thing, but reading this gives me the hope that someday I'll be ready to fight any of the addict logic off without batting an eye.
Guys like you are inspiration for the rest of us Diesel. Thanks for posting and glad to be quit with you today.
It's amazing how many times you hear people on this board spouting the same logic as that guy. They "can't quit right now because of __________".
Here's the funny thing:
________ don't mean shit.
Diesel broke down every one of his arguments until he was left with "I smoke because I want to". Ain't nobody making him use but him, and he would be fine (better) if he ever quits. We see that here every day.
'oh yeah' Way to go Diesel 'oh yeah'
Yes. Don't throw addict talk Diesel's way. He will own you. Way to fight the good fight friend!
People hate to hear the truth. I know I did when I dipped.
Even though I was a ninja I had a few buddies who knew. One of them constantly kept telling me how bad the shit was for me. I would get soooo pissed, and tell him to shut the fuck up.
It wasn't because he was annoying me, it was because I knew he was right.
Denial...another ugly part of addiction.
Quit on...
and the pupil has become the master.....nice Job Diesel
It's tough to follow the commendation from the jedi master above ^^^^^^ but i wanted to add my own thanks too. Another fine example of true leadership and strength-- makes me want to go out and try and have a similar conversation with a nic addict who's still using, right away! Now that'a a positive influence!
I am a master...Bater. 'jerk'
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Busy weekend as I am the assistant athletic director at my kids school (despite somes claim I have no life), and we hosted a huge girls basketball tournament.
Our head A.D. is a chain smoker, every half hour or so he would say, "time to go burn one", like he was about to go outside and get a prize or something.  Instead, he would go out into the frigid Michigan air and suck on a lung dart.
I don't preach to those who don't WANT to be helped so I never said a word to him until he said to me, "Craig, we gotta get you smoking my man". Not sure if that was some kind of term of endearment as he missed me for those 5 minutes he would disappear outside, but it was probably one of the dumbest things anyone has ever said to me.
Very calmly I just said, "No way man, that shit will kill you" and then went on to tell him my story of chewing for 15 years, my early struggles to quit, and that I had no desire to be a SLAVE to nicotine any longer. I also reminded him that I had two young kids and I'd like to be with them as long as possible.
He did not seem to like that, especially since he has two sons of his own, both in high school now. He got very agitated and defensive after I told him my story and started throwing addict logic at me.  But I was ready, WITH BOLD REBUTTALS...
"Hey man, we all gotta die of something"...YEAH BUT NO FROM THAT SHIT. HAVENT YOU EVER SEEN OR READ ANYTHING ABOUT HOW BAD SMOKING IS FOR YOU??? SHITS A PROVEN SCIENTIFIC FACT
"I could get hit by a bus tomorrow"...DON'T YOU LOOK BOTH WAYS BEFORE YOU CROSS THE STREET? AND WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU HEARD OF ANY MOTHER FUCKER GETTING HIT BY A BUS????
"My Aunt Suzie smoked and she lived to be 95"...MY WIFES UNCLE DIED LAST YEAR FROM SMALL CELL CANCER, HE SMOKED FOR 40 YEARS, HE WAS 58.
"I'm smoking as a favor to my son's. When they see me with cancer and die, they will know not to smoke"....THAT'S THE DUMBEST THING YOU HAVE EVER SAID AND I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT.
"Smoking relaxes me"...IF THAT'S THE CASE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO OUTSIDE EVERY HALF HOUR TO SMOKE SOME MORE???
"Dude, I can't quit. I'm fucking addicted as a mother fucker"...BINGO, YOU DON'T WANT TO QUIT.
His final word..."Nope and I aint gonna either".
Sad shit boys and girls. Keep fighting the good fight. Don't be a fucking douche nozzle like that guy.
Stay Quit...
This is awesome. I'm still learning the "ammo" portion of this thing, but reading this gives me the hope that someday I'll be ready to fight any of the addict logic off without batting an eye.
Guys like you are inspiration for the rest of us Diesel. Thanks for posting and glad to be quit with you today.
It's amazing how many times you hear people on this board spouting the same logic as that guy. They "can't quit right now because of __________".
Here's the funny thing:
________ don't mean shit.
Diesel broke down every one of his arguments until he was left with "I smoke because I want to". Ain't nobody making him use but him, and he would be fine (better) if he ever quits. We see that here every day.
'oh yeah' Way to go Diesel 'oh yeah'
Yes. Don't throw addict talk Diesel's way. He will own you. Way to fight the good fight friend!
People hate to hear the truth. I know I did when I dipped.
Even though I was a ninja I had a few buddies who knew. One of them constantly kept telling me how bad the shit was for me. I would get soooo pissed, and tell him to shut the fuck up.
It wasn't because he was annoying me, it was because I knew he was right.
Denial...another ugly part of addiction.
Quit on...
and the pupil has become the master.....nice Job Diesel
It's tough to follow the commendation from the jedi master above ^^^^^^ but i wanted to add my own thanks too. Another fine example of true leadership and strength-- makes me want to go out and try and have a similar conversation with a nic addict who's still using, right away! Now that'a a positive influence!
I am a master...Bater. 'jerk'
This sounds like the woman I met one time who said that she and her son needed to stop smoking because they found a hole in his jaw, and she really wanted to be able to use her arms again. She walked out of the store with smokes for her and her son.... 'Remshot' 'arse'
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Busy weekend as I am the assistant athletic director at my kids school (despite somes claim I have no life), and we hosted a huge girls basketball tournament.
Our head A.D. is a chain smoker, every half hour or so he would say, "time to go burn one", like he was about to go outside and get a prize or something.  Instead, he would go out into the frigid Michigan air and suck on a lung dart.
I don't preach to those who don't WANT to be helped so I never said a word to him until he said to me, "Craig, we gotta get you smoking my man". Not sure if that was some kind of term of endearment as he missed me for those 5 minutes he would disappear outside, but it was probably one of the dumbest things anyone has ever said to me.
Very calmly I just said, "No way man, that shit will kill you" and then went on to tell him my story of chewing for 15 years, my early struggles to quit, and that I had no desire to be a SLAVE to nicotine any longer. I also reminded him that I had two young kids and I'd like to be with them as long as possible.
He did not seem to like that, especially since he has two sons of his own, both in high school now. He got very agitated and defensive after I told him my story and started throwing addict logic at me.  But I was ready, WITH BOLD REBUTTALS...
"Hey man, we all gotta die of something"...YEAH BUT NO FROM THAT SHIT. HAVENT YOU EVER SEEN OR READ ANYTHING ABOUT HOW BAD SMOKING IS FOR YOU??? SHITS A PROVEN SCIENTIFIC FACT
"I could get hit by a bus tomorrow"...DON'T YOU LOOK BOTH WAYS BEFORE YOU CROSS THE STREET? AND WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU HEARD OF ANY MOTHER FUCKER GETTING HIT BY A BUS????
"My Aunt Suzie smoked and she lived to be 95"...MY WIFES UNCLE DIED LAST YEAR FROM SMALL CELL CANCER, HE SMOKED FOR 40 YEARS, HE WAS 58.
"I'm smoking as a favor to my son's. When they see me with cancer and die, they will know not to smoke"....THAT'S THE DUMBEST THING YOU HAVE EVER SAID AND I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT.
"Smoking relaxes me"...IF THAT'S THE CASE WHY DO YOU HAVE TO GO OUTSIDE EVERY HALF HOUR TO SMOKE SOME MORE???
"Dude, I can't quit. I'm fucking addicted as a mother fucker"...BINGO, YOU DON'T WANT TO QUIT.
His final word..."Nope and I aint gonna either".
Sad shit boys and girls. Keep fighting the good fight. Don't be a fucking douche nozzle like that guy.
Stay Quit...
This is awesome. I'm still learning the "ammo" portion of this thing, but reading this gives me the hope that someday I'll be ready to fight any of the addict logic off without batting an eye.
Guys like you are inspiration for the rest of us Diesel. Thanks for posting and glad to be quit with you today.
It's amazing how many times you hear people on this board spouting the same logic as that guy. They "can't quit right now because of __________".
Here's the funny thing:
________ don't mean shit.
Diesel broke down every one of his arguments until he was left with "I smoke because I want to". Ain't nobody making him use but him, and he would be fine (better) if he ever quits. We see that here every day.
'oh yeah' Way to go Diesel 'oh yeah'
Yes. Don't throw addict talk Diesel's way. He will own you. Way to fight the good fight friend!
People hate to hear the truth. I know I did when I dipped.
Even though I was a ninja I had a few buddies who knew. One of them constantly kept telling me how bad the shit was for me. I would get soooo pissed, and tell him to shut the fuck up.
It wasn't because he was annoying me, it was because I knew he was right.
Denial...another ugly part of addiction.
Quit on...
and the pupil has become the master.....nice Job Diesel
It's tough to follow the commendation from the jedi master above ^^^^^^ but i wanted to add my own thanks too. Another fine example of true leadership and strength-- makes me want to go out and try and have a similar conversation with a nic addict who's still using, right away! Now that'a a positive influence!
I am a master...Bater. 'jerk'
This sounds like the woman I met one time who said that she and her son needed to stop smoking because they found a hole in his jaw, and she really wanted to be able to use her arms again. She walked out of the store with smokes for her and her son.... 'Remshot' 'arse'
A lot of addicts do not like to be told that they are addicted. Especially the ones who have no desire to quit. The ones who want to quit but can't need a slap in the face. Is it our job as quitters to go around slapping people? I almost feel like it is. Bravo for trying.
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CONGRATS ON SIX BILLS....and as you put it same weight as your nutsack!!!
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It sounds to me you are ready. Be strong and remember why you are quitting. Quit for yourself. Ive been a dipper for over 30 years. I quit once for three years. Ive quit again over 80 days. Point being is never let your guard down after getting over the hump. Just do it and dont look back.
Thanks man. Might be around 588lbs. Haven't weighed them in awhile.
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob' 'boob' 'oh yeah'
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob' 'boob' 'oh yeah'
'clap'
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
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Congrats on 600 Diesel. You have been a big help to me. Thank you!
"From first to last, the peak is never past"
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
ODAAT....Awesome!
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
ODAAT....Awesome!
Good job diesel.
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
ODAAT....Awesome!
Good job diesel.
Great work brother; 600 days of spouting truth
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
ODAAT....Awesome!
Good job diesel.
Great work brother; 600 days of spouting truth
nice quitting brother.. proud of you.. onwards upwards
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
ODAAT....Awesome!
Good job diesel.
Great work brother; 600 days of spouting truth
nice quitting brother.. proud of you.. onwards upwards
Congrats. Keep saying it like it is!
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
ODAAT....Awesome!
Good job diesel.
Great work brother; 600 days of spouting truth
nice quitting brother.. proud of you.. onwards upwards
Congrats. Keep saying it like it is!
Well done 2112! Thanks for all the help you gave me in my quit. Keep leading the way.
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
ODAAT....Awesome!
Good job diesel.
Great work brother; 600 days of spouting truth
nice quitting brother.. proud of you.. onwards upwards
Congrats. Keep saying it like it is!
Well done 2112! Thanks for all the help you gave me in my quit. Keep leading the way.
Congratulations! I guess that hammock is getting weathered by this point in time - lol - i'll get you a new one for your present :)
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
ODAAT....Awesome!
Good job diesel.
Great work brother; 600 days of spouting truth
nice quitting brother.. proud of you.. onwards upwards
Congrats. Keep saying it like it is!
Well done 2112! Thanks for all the help you gave me in my quit. Keep leading the way.
Congratulations! I guess that hammock is getting weathered by this point in time - lol - i'll get you a new one for your present :)
Atta Boy Luther!!! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6QlbKt3qcE)
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
ODAAT....Awesome!
Good job diesel.
Great work brother; 600 days of spouting truth
nice quitting brother.. proud of you.. onwards upwards
Congrats. Keep saying it like it is!
Well done 2112! Thanks for all the help you gave me in my quit. Keep leading the way.
Congratulations! I guess that hammock is getting weathered by this point in time - lol - i'll get you a new one for your present :)
Atta Boy Luther!!! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6QlbKt3qcE)
Slow
Fucking
Clap
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
ODAAT....Awesome!
Good job diesel.
Great work brother; 600 days of spouting truth
nice quitting brother.. proud of you.. onwards upwards
Congrats. Keep saying it like it is!
Well done 2112! Thanks for all the help you gave me in my quit. Keep leading the way.
Congratulations! I guess that hammock is getting weathered by this point in time - lol - i'll get you a new one for your present :)
Atta Boy Luther!!! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6QlbKt3qcE)
Slow
Fucking
Clap
'BanDog'
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
ODAAT....Awesome!
Good job diesel.
Great work brother; 600 days of spouting truth
nice quitting brother.. proud of you.. onwards upwards
Congrats. Keep saying it like it is!
Well done 2112! Thanks for all the help you gave me in my quit. Keep leading the way.
Congratulations! I guess that hammock is getting weathered by this point in time - lol - i'll get you a new one for your present :)
Atta Boy Luther!!! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6QlbKt3qcE)
Slow
Fucking
Clap
'BanDog'
Congrats bad ass. Well done. The best part is that we all know you will be right here again tomorrow helping us lesser days find our way to your many days! Thank you for all you haven done, all you do, and all you will do. Erussell 271.
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Congrats Diesel on 6 Hundy Bro!!! We have had some really great conversations over the past year and your truly an inspiration to me and my Quit. Thanks for all you do here and you know I got your back 365 24/7. Keep fighting the Good Fight
ODAAT....... 'boob'Â 'boob'Â 'oh yeah'
'clap'
Congrats Diesel!
Congrats
Diesel - well done brother....
and remember I always want to see you ahead of me, don't let my number catch yours.
Thanks for all that you've done over the past 600 to help those of us that were or are newbies. You are one of the leaders on this site, and it is fair to say that you have contributed to saving many lives. Your honesty and directness are just what we need sometimes. I just hope that you develop some love for the jayhawks in the next 600 days - this journey is all about growth after all. :)
Congratulations and thanks -
Thanks man. Seems like every person on here is a Jayhawk fan or a lawyer.
Thanks to all who took time to offer "congrats" today. It means a lot.
The view is pretty sweet from the 6th floor, but I will always have my feet on the ground floor. 601 tomorrow. CAN'T WAIT! (Bart Scott voice).
Quit on...
Congrats on 6th floorDiesel. Freedom wasn't free. It cost a great deal of time and effort. Even still. Thanks for showing me the way.
ODAAT....Awesome!
Good job diesel.
Great work brother; 600 days of spouting truth
nice quitting brother.. proud of you.. onwards upwards
Congrats. Keep saying it like it is!
Well done 2112! Thanks for all the help you gave me in my quit. Keep leading the way.
Congratulations! I guess that hammock is getting weathered by this point in time - lol - i'll get you a new one for your present :)
Atta Boy Luther!!! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6QlbKt3qcE)
Slow
Fucking
Clap
'BanDog'
Congrats bad ass. Well done. The best part is that we all know you will be right here again tomorrow helping us lesser days find our way to your many days! Thank you for all you haven done, all you do, and all you will do. Erussell 271.
Thanks all. I got the bananas!!!! I love those fuckers!!!!
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Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day. I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man. The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed. While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
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Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day. I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man. The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed. While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
-
Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day. I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man. The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed. While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
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Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day.  I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man.  The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed.  While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
As always Diesel, great read. Thanks!
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Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day.  I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man.  The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed.  While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
As always Diesel, great read. Thanks!
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Loved it esp. ^^^ that part 'crackup'
I'm fired up to be QLF all day now
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Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day.  I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man.  The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed.  While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
As always Diesel, great read. Thanks!
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Loved it esp. ^^^ that part 'crackup'
I'm fired up to be QLF all day now
Fuckin' aye, I want to be a Grandpa with Diesel!! 90 sounds much better than 60 any damn day. Healthier every day with You! Quit with you D all day long.
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Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day.  I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man.  The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed.  While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
As always Diesel, great read. Thanks!
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Loved it esp. ^^^ that part 'crackup'
I'm fired up to be QLF all day now
Fuckin' aye, I want to be a Grandpa with Diesel!! 90 sounds much better than 60 any damn day. Healthier every day with You! Quit with you D all day long.
"So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off..."
As a fellow (former) Michigander....don't you just hate rice burners Diesel? Although like any GM vehicle (circa 1970s), with sufficient age, eventually the door will just fall off on its own. May it be so with your aged quit as well!
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Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day.  I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man.  The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed.  While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
As always Diesel, great read. Thanks!
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Loved it esp. ^^^ that part 'crackup'
I'm fired up to be QLF all day now
Fuckin' aye, I want to be a Grandpa with Diesel!! 90 sounds much better than 60 any damn day. Healthier every day with You! Quit with you D all day long.
"So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off..."
As a fellow (former) Michigander....don't you just hate rice burners Diesel? Although like any GM vehicle (circa 1970s), with sufficient age, eventually the door will just fall off on its own. May it be so with your aged quit as well!
You's a gud riter Diesel! Thanks for that! Getting all smoothed out inside.
Raging at unreachable glory, straining at invisible chains, turn around and walk the razors edge.
-
Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day.  I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man.  The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed.  While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
As always Diesel, great read. Thanks!
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Loved it esp. ^^^ that part 'crackup'
I'm fired up to be QLF all day now
Fuckin' aye, I want to be a Grandpa with Diesel!! 90 sounds much better than 60 any damn day. Healthier every day with You! Quit with you D all day long.
"So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off..."
As a fellow (former) Michigander....don't you just hate rice burners Diesel? Although like any GM vehicle (circa 1970s), with sufficient age, eventually the door will just fall off on its own. May it be so with your aged quit as well!
You's a gud riter Diesel! Thanks for that! Getting all smoothed out inside.
Raging at unreachable glory, straining at invisible chains, turn around and walk the razors edge.
very nice man. Dont stop. Sometimes your words are exactly that inspiration that you speak of.
-
Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day.  I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man.  The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed.  While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
As always Diesel, great read. Thanks!
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Loved it esp. ^^^ that part 'crackup'
I'm fired up to be QLF all day now
Fuckin' aye, I want to be a Grandpa with Diesel!! 90 sounds much better than 60 any damn day. Healthier every day with You! Quit with you D all day long.
"So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off..."
As a fellow (former) Michigander....don't you just hate rice burners Diesel? Although like any GM vehicle (circa 1970s), with sufficient age, eventually the door will just fall off on its own. May it be so with your aged quit as well!
You's a gud riter Diesel! Thanks for that! Getting all smoothed out inside.
Raging at unreachable glory, straining at invisible chains, turn around and walk the razors edge.
very nice man. Dont stop. Sometimes your words are exactly that inspiration that you speak of.
Funny how your inspiration turned to my inspiration. Thank you for sharing! QLF!
-
Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day.  I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man.  The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed.  While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
As always Diesel, great read. Thanks!
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Loved it esp. ^^^ that part 'crackup'
I'm fired up to be QLF all day now
Fuckin' aye, I want to be a Grandpa with Diesel!! 90 sounds much better than 60 any damn day. Healthier every day with You! Quit with you D all day long.
"So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off..."
As a fellow (former) Michigander....don't you just hate rice burners Diesel? Although like any GM vehicle (circa 1970s), with sufficient age, eventually the door will just fall off on its own. May it be so with your aged quit as well!
You's a gud riter Diesel! Thanks for that! Getting all smoothed out inside.
Raging at unreachable glory, straining at invisible chains, turn around and walk the razors edge.
very nice man. Dont stop. Sometimes your words are exactly that inspiration that you speak of.
Every time I go into a grocery store I go to the cereal isle just to check and see if possibly they have it,,,,,,, they never do,,,,,,,, but,,,,,, one of these days I am confident I will find it,,,, I will walk down the isle and there it will be,,,,,,,, "Diesel's Crunch". Yea and it will set right next to the damn Wheaties,,, for winners,,,,, yea and our fucking cereal will say "for quitters who fucking mean it"!!!!
Nutritional facts
Supplement Daily percent
Quit..........................100%
Roll...........................100%
Kool-aid.....................100%
Honoring ones word....100%
Supporting others.......100%
Pussies.........................0%
Caving..........................0%
Nicotine........................0% (ALL FUCKING DAY)
Ingredients;
Brotherhood, honesty, integrity, resolve, quit knowledge, and the desire to be quit!
Questions; please submit to Killthecan.org
Thanks for the cereal Diesel. I am grateful to be quitting with you.
Erussell 282 days of freedom!
-
Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day.  I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man.  The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed.  While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
As always Diesel, great read. Thanks!
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Loved it esp. ^^^ that part 'crackup'
I'm fired up to be QLF all day now
Fuckin' aye, I want to be a Grandpa with Diesel!! 90 sounds much better than 60 any damn day. Healthier every day with You! Quit with you D all day long.
"So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off..."
As a fellow (former) Michigander....don't you just hate rice burners Diesel? Although like any GM vehicle (circa 1970s), with sufficient age, eventually the door will just fall off on its own. May it be so with your aged quit as well!
You's a gud riter Diesel! Thanks for that! Getting all smoothed out inside.
Raging at unreachable glory, straining at invisible chains, turn around and walk the razors edge.
very nice man. Dont stop. Sometimes your words are exactly that inspiration that you speak of.
Every time I go into a grocery store I go to the cereal isle just to check and see if possibly they have it,,,,,,, they never do,,,,,,,, but,,,,,, one of these days I am confident I will find it,,,, I will walk down the isle and there it will be,,,,,,,, "Diesel's Crunch". Yea and it will set right next to the damn Wheaties,,, for winners,,,,, yea and our fucking cereal will say "for quitters who fucking mean it"!!!!
Nutritional facts
Supplement Daily percent
Quit..........................100%
Roll...........................100%
Kool-aid.....................100%
Honoring ones word....100%
Supporting others.......100%
Pussies.........................0%
Caving..........................0%
Nicotine........................0% (ALL FUCKING DAY)
Ingredients;
Brotherhood, honesty, integrity, resolve, quit knowledge, and the desire to be quit!
Questions; please submit to Killthecan.org
Thanks for the cereal Diesel. I am grateful to be quitting with you.
Erussell 282 days of freedom!
That^^^^^^ Is awesome. I love it!
-
Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day.  I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man.  The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed.  While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
As always Diesel, great read. Thanks!
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Loved it esp. ^^^ that part 'crackup'
I'm fired up to be QLF all day now
Fuckin' aye, I want to be a Grandpa with Diesel!! 90 sounds much better than 60 any damn day. Healthier every day with You! Quit with you D all day long.
"So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off..."
As a fellow (former) Michigander....don't you just hate rice burners Diesel? Although like any GM vehicle (circa 1970s), with sufficient age, eventually the door will just fall off on its own. May it be so with your aged quit as well!
You's a gud riter Diesel! Thanks for that! Getting all smoothed out inside.
Raging at unreachable glory, straining at invisible chains, turn around and walk the razors edge.
very nice man. Dont stop. Sometimes your words are exactly that inspiration that you speak of.
Every time I go into a grocery store I go to the cereal isle just to check and see if possibly they have it,,,,,,, they never do,,,,,,,, but,,,,,, one of these days I am confident I will find it,,,, I will walk down the isle and there it will be,,,,,,,, "Diesel's Crunch". Yea and it will set right next to the damn Wheaties,,, for winners,,,,, yea and our fucking cereal will say "for quitters who fucking mean it"!!!!
Nutritional facts
Supplement Daily percent
Quit..........................100%
Roll...........................100%
Kool-aid.....................100%
Honoring ones word....100%
Supporting others.......100%
Pussies.........................0%
Caving..........................0%
Nicotine........................0% (ALL FUCKING DAY)
Ingredients;
Brotherhood, honesty, integrity, resolve, quit knowledge, and the desire to be quit!
Questions; please submit to Killthecan.org
Thanks for the cereal Diesel. I am grateful to be quitting with you.
Erussell 282 days of freedom!
That^^^^^^ Is awesome. I love it!
Mmmmm......pass me some of that Diesel Crunch. I'll eat that shit for breakfast lunch and dinner!
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Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day.  I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man.  The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed.  While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
As always Diesel, great read. Thanks!
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Loved it esp. ^^^ that part 'crackup'
I'm fired up to be QLF all day now
Fuckin' aye, I want to be a Grandpa with Diesel!! 90 sounds much better than 60 any damn day. Healthier every day with You! Quit with you D all day long.
"So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off..."
As a fellow (former) Michigander....don't you just hate rice burners Diesel? Although like any GM vehicle (circa 1970s), with sufficient age, eventually the door will just fall off on its own. May it be so with your aged quit as well!
You's a gud riter Diesel! Thanks for that! Getting all smoothed out inside.
Raging at unreachable glory, straining at invisible chains, turn around and walk the razors edge.
very nice man. Dont stop. Sometimes your words are exactly that inspiration that you speak of.
Every time I go into a grocery store I go to the cereal isle just to check and see if possibly they have it,,,,,,, they never do,,,,,,,, but,,,,,, one of these days I am confident I will find it,,,, I will walk down the isle and there it will be,,,,,,,, "Diesel's Crunch". Yea and it will set right next to the damn Wheaties,,, for winners,,,,, yea and our fucking cereal will say "for quitters who fucking mean it"!!!!
Nutritional facts
Supplement Daily percent
Quit..........................100%
Roll...........................100%
Kool-aid.....................100%
Honoring ones word....100%
Supporting others.......100%
Pussies.........................0%
Caving..........................0%
Nicotine........................0% (ALL FUCKING DAY)
Ingredients;
Brotherhood, honesty, integrity, resolve, quit knowledge, and the desire to be quit!
Questions; please submit to Killthecan.org
Thanks for the cereal Diesel. I am grateful to be quitting with you.
Erussell 282 days of freedom!
That^^^^^^ Is awesome. I love it!
Mmmmm......pass me some of that Diesel Crunch. I'll eat that shit for breakfast lunch and dinner!
Diesel crunch. Awesome!!
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Inspiration.
Sometimes we need some.
Especially lately with people caving, making excuses why they can't post role, some lieing and getting kicked off the site, etc...shit can get depressing.
Add to that a famous actor who after 20 years fell back into the arms of addiction and paid the ultimate price for it. I understand Kodiak and heroine aren't the same, but addiction is universal, and it got me to thinking.
It makes you, well at least made ME think..."damn, this addiction stuff sucks". I read something today relating addiction to putting a car in park, but never being able to turn off the engine, or being able to forget the sound of reving the engine. Might be a good analogy, but when you're the one sitting in the car you don't get warm and fuzzy feelings.
On top of all that, some shit is going haywire at work, running my kids in 10 different directions is starting to wear on me, and my buddies mom passed of lung cancer last week and he's really struggling. She was 59 and smoked for 42 years. Dayum.
All this has made the Diesel a little glum.
Needing an inspirational pick me up, I came here and did some reading. Helped a bit but after 610 days sometimes you have to go off the grid to get some wind back in your sails.
So...after a good workout at the gym I came home, left my headphones in, sat down at the computer opened the "my pictures" folder and just started scrolling.
One of the downfalls of digital cameras I suppose, is you never Fucking print the pictures. You just download them onto your computer to free up space on your card so you can take MORE pictures. At least that's the case with me.
So I as I sat there I was basically scrolling through my adult life. I saw my wife and I before we were married, our wedding pictures, pics of my wife prego, my son (now 10) in his first minute in this world up to present day.  I saw him morph from my little guy into an outstanding young man.  The same for my beautiful daughter who is now 8. Went from her in diapers, to her in her first little ballet tutu, to last year where at her dance recital looking like she was a damn teenager.Â
Along the way I also saw pics of friends and family members who had passed. Many thanks to addiction...Uncle Billy to small cell cancer from smoking at 58. My Aunt Flo also taken too young from smoking. My Grandpa whose love of his pipe cut him down early. My cousin Kim who fell victim to drugs and alcoholism and actually died in jail, and my Uncle Dick...he abused alcohol and tobacco as well. I had forgotten how bad he was until I saw the pics of him with no jaw.
It was all a lot to take in to be honest.Â
Yet it was that inspirational spark I was looking for.
The pics of my kids got to me the most. Just the thought of doing anything to cut my time with them short got me pissed.  While addiction claimed many of my past family members, I believe selfishness feeds into addiction. I refuse to be selfish. I don't want to be a memory on someone else's hard drive. I want to be Grandpa Diesel, who at age 90 is grabbing my grandsons wife's ass in a picture, not someone who died 30 years prior because he chose to be a slave to nicotine.
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Bottom line (this got waaay longer than I intended), when you feel a little down, maybe questioning a few things and you find that as great as this site is , maybe no matter how much you read you still are feeling a little down. Go off the grid for some inspiration and to put some mojo back into your quit. It's not uncommon to feel bunched up and frustrated, so don't feel bad if you go there.
"It's not as if this barricade, blocks the only road.
It's not as if you're all alone, in wanting to explode..."
Quit on....
Sometimes we just need to share. It has positive effects on our psychic. It helps the reader and writer. It's good to find we aren't alone!
Enjoyed the read, thanks.
As always Diesel, great read. Thanks!
So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off, but I'm opening the Fucking door and getting out of the son of a bitch and going to live life. The doors aren't Fucking locked. Who's the asshole who came up with that analogy, anyway? It sucks.
Loved it esp. ^^^ that part 'crackup'
I'm fired up to be QLF all day now
Fuckin' aye, I want to be a Grandpa with Diesel!! 90 sounds much better than 60 any damn day. Healthier every day with You! Quit with you D all day long.
"So yeah I'm in that parked car and maybe I can't shut the engine off..."
As a fellow (former) Michigander....don't you just hate rice burners Diesel? Although like any GM vehicle (circa 1970s), with sufficient age, eventually the door will just fall off on its own. May it be so with your aged quit as well!
You's a gud riter Diesel! Thanks for that! Getting all smoothed out inside.
Raging at unreachable glory, straining at invisible chains, turn around and walk the razors edge.
very nice man. Dont stop. Sometimes your words are exactly that inspiration that you speak of.
Every time I go into a grocery store I go to the cereal isle just to check and see if possibly they have it,,,,,,, they never do,,,,,,,, but,,,,,, one of these days I am confident I will find it,,,, I will walk down the isle and there it will be,,,,,,,, "Diesel's Crunch". Yea and it will set right next to the damn Wheaties,,, for winners,,,,, yea and our fucking cereal will say "for quitters who fucking mean it"!!!!
Nutritional facts
Supplement Daily percent
Quit..........................100%
Roll...........................100%
Kool-aid.....................100%
Honoring ones word....100%
Supporting others.......100%
Pussies.........................0%
Caving..........................0%
Nicotine........................0% (ALL FUCKING DAY)
Ingredients;
Brotherhood, honesty, integrity, resolve, quit knowledge, and the desire to be quit!
Questions; please submit to Killthecan.org
Thanks for the cereal Diesel. I am grateful to be quitting with you.
Erussell 282 days of freedom!
That^^^^^^ Is awesome. I love it!
Mmmmm......pass me some of that Diesel Crunch. I'll eat that shit for breakfast lunch and dinner!
Diesel crunch. Awesome!!
Good stuff Diesel.
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Quick dickhole sigting...
I'm at a charity dinner auction fundraiser for my kids school. Pretty formal, suits and ties, etc...
There's an ass muncher here walking around with a bottom lip full, spitting into a Tim Hortons cup.
He looks like a fucking ass sore, and is the talk of our table about how disgusting he is, and how he could at least "do that" outside.
What a dooooosh.
That is all.
Quit on...
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Quick dickhole sigting...
I'm at a charity dinner auction fundraiser for my kids school. Pretty formal, suits and ties, etc...
There's an ass muncher here walking around with a bottom lip full, spitting into a Tim Hortons cup.
He looks like a fucking ass sore, and is the talk of our table about how disgusting he is, and how he could at least "do that" outside.
What a dooooosh.
That is all.
Quit on...
Give him my web address. Www.killthecan.org (http://Www.killthecan.org).
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Quick dickhole sigting...
I'm at a charity dinner auction fundraiser for my kids school. Pretty formal, suits and ties, etc...
There's an ass muncher here walking around with a bottom lip full, spitting into a Tim Hortons cup.
He looks like a fucking ass sore, and is the talk of our table about how disgusting he is, and how he could at least "do that" outside.
What a dooooosh.
That is all.
Quit on...
What a loser! Who would do that? 'winker'
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Quick dickhole sigting...
I'm at a charity dinner auction fundraiser for my kids school. Pretty formal, suits and ties, etc...
There's an ass muncher here walking around with a bottom lip full, spitting into a Tim Hortons cup.
He looks like a fucking ass sore, and is the talk of our table about how disgusting he is, and how he could at least "do that" outside.
What a dooooosh.
That is all.
Quit on...
What a loser! Who would do that? 'winker'
'embarrassed'
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Sick of reading this "I'll quit TOMORROW" bullshit.
TOMORROW I'm gonna wake up and quit like I have the previous 640 days.
Anyone care to join me?
If not, fuck off.
Good night Nowwww.
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Sick of reading this "I'll quit TOMORROW" bullshit.
TOMORROW I'm gonna wake up and quit like I have the previous 640 days.
Anyone care to join me?
If not, fuck off.
Good night Nowwww.
Hell yeah brother, I agree. I gonna wake up tomorrow with a headache and a fuck off to dip. I'm sick of it too.
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Sick of reading this "I'll quit TOMORROW" bullshit.
TOMORROW I'm gonna wake up and quit like I have the previous 640 days.
Anyone care to join me?
If not, fuck off.
Good night Nowwww.
Hell yeah brother, I agree. I gonna wake up tomorrow with a headache and a fuck off to dip. I'm sick of it too.
That's what I'm talking about!!!!
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Sick of reading this "I'll quit TOMORROW" bullshit.
TOMORROW I'm gonna wake up and quit like I have the previous 640 days.
Anyone care to join me?
If not, fuck off.
Good night Nowwww.
Hell yeah brother, I agree. I gonna wake up tomorrow with a headache and a fuck off to dip. I'm sick of it too.
That's what I'm talking about!!!!
'worship'
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Check out how many post I have.
Frickin Suhweeeet!!!!
Look around at this world we've made
Equality our stock in trade
Come and join the Brotherhood of Man
Oh, what a nice, contented world
Let the banners be unfurled
Hold the Red Star proudly high in hand!
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Check out how many post I have.
Frickin Suhweeeet!!!!
Look around at this world we've made
Equality our stock in trade
Come and join the Brotherhood of Man
Oh, what a nice, contented world
Let the banners be unfurled
Hold the Red Star proudly high in hand!
I'm pulling the CD out today for my ride to work...ha ha ha screw the Rush haters:-)
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Check out how many post I have.Â
Frickin Suhweeeet!!!!
Look around at this world we've made
Equality our stock in trade
Come and join the Brotherhood of Man
Oh, what a nice, contented world
Let the banners be unfurled
Hold the Red Star proudly high in hand!
I'm pulling the CD out today for my ride to work...ha ha ha screw the Rush haters:-)
Yeah! Screw the Rush Haters!
We have assumed control.....We have assumed control....We have assumed control.
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Check out how many post I have.Â
Frickin Suhweeeet!!!!
Look around at this world we've made
Equality our stock in trade
Come and join the Brotherhood of Man
Oh, what a nice, contented world
Let the banners be unfurled
Hold the Red Star proudly high in hand!
I'm pulling the CD out today for my ride to work...ha ha ha screw the Rush haters:-)
Yeah! Screw the Rush Haters!
We have assumed control.....We have assumed control....We have assumed control.
And the meek shall inherit the earth...
DA DOOM DADA DOOM DA DOOM DADA DOOM DA DOOM DADA DOOM DA DA DOOM...
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Check out how many post I have.Â
Frickin Suhweeeet!!!!
Look around at this world we've made
Equality our stock in trade
Come and join the Brotherhood of Man
Oh, what a nice, contented world
Let the banners be unfurled
Hold the Red Star proudly high in hand!
I'm pulling the CD out today for my ride to work...ha ha ha screw the Rush haters:-)
Yeah! Screw the Rush Haters!
We have assumed control.....We have assumed control....We have assumed control.
And the meek shall inherit the earth...
DA DOOM DADA DOOM DA DOOM DADA DOOM DA DOOM DADA DOOM DA DA DOOM...
'band'
Can you Pick Diesel out in the band????
'crackup' 'boob' 'boob'
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Check out how many post I have.Â
Frickin Suhweeeet!!!!
Look around at this world we've made
Equality our stock in trade
Come and join the Brotherhood of Man
Oh, what a nice, contented world
Let the banners be unfurled
Hold the Red Star proudly high in hand!
I'm pulling the CD out today for my ride to work...ha ha ha screw the Rush haters:-)
Yeah! Screw the Rush Haters!
We have assumed control.....We have assumed control....We have assumed control.
And the meek shall inherit the earth...
DA DOOM DADA DOOM DA DOOM DADA DOOM DA DOOM DADA DOOM DA DA DOOM...
'band'
Can you Pick Diesel out in the band????
'crackup' 'boob' 'boob'
I did take drum lessons for 6 years.
I also play a mean Hungarian crotch bugle.
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Check out how many post I have.Â
Frickin Suhweeeet!!!!
Look around at this world we've made
Equality our stock in trade
Come and join the Brotherhood of Man
Oh, what a nice, contented world
Let the banners be unfurled
Hold the Red Star proudly high in hand!
I'm pulling the CD out today for my ride to work...ha ha ha screw the Rush haters:-)
Yeah! Screw the Rush Haters!
We have assumed control.....We have assumed control....We have assumed control.
And the meek shall inherit the earth...
DA DOOM DADA DOOM DA DOOM DADA DOOM DA DOOM DADA DOOM DA DA DOOM...
'band'
Can you Pick Diesel out in the band????
'crackup' 'boob' 'boob'
And the meek shall inherit the earth...
Diesel, I guess that means that you and me will just have to be happy to live on it for now and be prepared to give it up to them someday.
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Bump
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Bump
This guys a pussy!!!! Oh wait...
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Bump
This guys a pussy!!!! Oh wait...
That's a new one, a pussy with 'balls'.
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Bump
This guys a pussy!!!! Oh wait...
That's a new one, a pussy with 'balls'.
Saw one of those in college. Disturbing...
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Bump
This guys a pussy!!!! Oh wait...
That's a new one, a pussy with 'balls'.
Saw one of those in college. Disturbing...
:blink:
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Bump
This guys a pussy!!!! Oh wait...
That's a new one, a pussy with 'balls'.
Saw one of those in college. Disturbing...
:blink:
I hope to god you saw it dancing near the strobe light! Note to any potential party goers, the ugly girls hover near the strobe light because the light blinks so fast they start to look normal.
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Bump
This guys a pussy!!!! Oh wait...
That's a new one, a pussy with 'balls'.
Saw one of those in college. Disturbing...
:blink:
I hope to god you saw it dancing near the strobe light! Note to any potential party goers, the ugly girls hover near the strobe light because the light blinks so fast they start to look normal.
Had I known, I would have gone to college. :angry:
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Bump
This guys a pussy!!!! Oh wait...
That's a new one, a pussy with 'balls'.
Saw one of those in college. Disturbing...
:blink:
I hope to god you saw it dancing near the strobe light! Note to any potential party goers, the ugly girls hover near the strobe light because the light blinks so fast they start to look normal.
Had I known, I would have gone to college. :angry:
The pointy Adams apple should have given it away. SHOULD HAVE...
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Bump
This guys a pussy!!!! Oh wait...
That's a new one, a pussy with 'balls'.
Saw one of those in college. Disturbing...
:blink:
I hope to god you saw it dancing near the strobe light! Note to any potential party goers, the ugly girls hover near the strobe light because the light blinks so fast they start to look normal.
Had I known, I would have gone to college. :angry:
The pointy Adams apple should have given it away. SHOULD HAVE...
It's like the Crying Game in here!
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Â
I'm going to take a different approach, since this same exact thing happened to me. Others may disagree, and that's fine.
Do what you have to do to get yourself right and your anxiety under control. But you must remain quit.
Once you get stable again, you will be back. I guarantee it.
Let the doctors and therapists do their job. Anxiety is a mother fucker. It gets you thinking stuff you have no business thinking and its scary. Good news is you can reverse it and you have taken steps to do so. Shows me you really want this.
Once you get feeling better again you will realize that as great as the doctors/therapists are, they cannot relate to the daily struggles of beating nicotine addiction. That's when you will come back. Things will be less scary and you will be able to handle things better because you wont be riddled with anxiety and you won't be having irrational thoughts.
Get right, stay quit, and come back. I'll still be here.
Take care.
Take notice, I have seen and heard other state that a certain someone is a dickhead. Although I don't agree with everything other say on here all the time, I find it irrational to put a name on or place people in certain categories because of how you perceive or interpret their words. Diesel here is consistent, he types what he believe and he does what he can to support others. If nice guys always finish last I will be right in with this Quitter at the finish line every damn time.
However, look at posts like this where Diesel, not only injects his wisdom, but he also makes an offer to be here waiting for this quitter's return.
This is the kind of glue that hold KTC together, this is Brotherhood!
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Â
I'm going to take a different approach, since this same exact thing happened to me. Others may disagree, and that's fine.
Do what you have to do to get yourself right and your anxiety under control. But you must remain quit.
Once you get stable again, you will be back. I guarantee it.
Let the doctors and therapists do their job. Anxiety is a mother fucker. It gets you thinking stuff you have no business thinking and its scary. Good news is you can reverse it and you have taken steps to do so. Shows me you really want this.
Once you get feeling better again you will realize that as great as the doctors/therapists are, they cannot relate to the daily struggles of beating nicotine addiction. That's when you will come back. Things will be less scary and you will be able to handle things better because you wont be riddled with anxiety and you won't be having irrational thoughts.
Get right, stay quit, and come back. I'll still be here.
Take care.
Take notice, I have seen and heard other state that a certain someone is a dickhead. Although I don't agree with everything other say on here all the time, I find it irrational to put a name on or place people in certain categories because of how you perceive or interpret their words. Diesel here is consistent, he types what he believe and he does what he can to support others. If nice guys always finish last I will be right in with this Quitter at the finish line every damn time.
However, look at posts like this where Diesel, not only injects his wisdom, but he also makes an offer to be here waiting for this quitter's return.
This is the kind of glue that hold KTC together, this is Brotherhood!
People been talking about me??? Lol. Thanks for the kind words.
I just really empathize with this dude. I was in the same exact spot. He is seeking help from professionals, just like I did. He is not saying he is going lone wolf or leaving the site all together. He says he's taking a break, to get right. It might be much needed for him and actually keep him quit, possibly alive.
Just my 2 cents on the matter since it struck so close to home.
Others will disagree and that's fine.
Quit on...
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Â
I'm going to take a different approach, since this same exact thing happened to me. Others may disagree, and that's fine.
Do what you have to do to get yourself right and your anxiety under control. But you must remain quit.
Once you get stable again, you will be back. I guarantee it.
Let the doctors and therapists do their job. Anxiety is a mother fucker. It gets you thinking stuff you have no business thinking and its scary. Good news is you can reverse it and you have taken steps to do so. Shows me you really want this.
Once you get feeling better again you will realize that as great as the doctors/therapists are, they cannot relate to the daily struggles of beating nicotine addiction. That's when you will come back. Things will be less scary and you will be able to handle things better because you wont be riddled with anxiety and you won't be having irrational thoughts.
Get right, stay quit, and come back. I'll still be here.
Take care.
Take notice, I have seen and heard other state that a certain someone is a dickhead. Although I don't agree with everything other say on here all the time, I find it irrational to put a name on or place people in certain categories because of how you perceive or interpret their words. Diesel here is consistent, he types what he believe and he does what he can to support others. If nice guys always finish last I will be right in with this Quitter at the finish line every damn time.
However, look at posts like this where Diesel, not only injects his wisdom, but he also makes an offer to be here waiting for this quitter's return.
This is the kind of glue that hold KTC together, this is Brotherhood!
People been talking about me??? Lol. Thanks for the kind words.
I just really empathize with this dude. I was in the same exact spot. He is seeking help from professionals, just like I did. He is not saying he is going lone wolf or leaving the site all together. He says he's taking a break, to get right. It might be much needed for him and actually keep him quit, possibly alive.
Just my 2 cents on the matter since it struck so close to home.
Others will disagree and that's fine.
Quit on...
I don't disagree. I have no experience with anxiety related issues. I cant imagine having to deal with that kind of fear and deal with quitting dip at the same time. It scares me to think about it. I defer to those with more experience. "Different eyes see different things...Different hearts beat on different strings"
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7th floor. Cool.
Today was just a "normal" day.
Slept in til about 9:00. Just kind of vegged until I had to be to the field for my sons baseball game at noon.
Coached his team to a 23-1 loss, argued with other coach about one of his players using an illegal bat, in the process. Like it would have mattered...
Was happy the wife was taking the kids shopping after the game and I didn't have to go. Picked up some lunch (firehouse subs) took it home and watched the tigers game. Drifted in and out of sleep in the process, as Verlander toyed with a no hitter.
Woke up when wife and kids came home. Daughter had a softball game at 6:30 so I went out and worked with her a bit to get ready. Got to the field, other team didn't show...so I had to sit there and watch them practice in this brisk Michigan, May weather.
Came home, ate a late dinner, helped kids finish up homework, helped them get ready for bed and have been watching the boob tube ever since.
Dip never even crossed my mind today. I had zero anxiety, zero craves, zero anything. I was just like a real normal guy.
Well, that's what day 700 looks like from the Diesels eyes.
Pretty boring, eh?
God I love boring, and so will any of you who are struggling right now wondering if things will get better. They will. I promise.
Quit on...
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7th floor. Cool.
Today was just a "normal" day.
Slept in til about 9:00. Just kind of vegged until I had to be to the field for my sons baseball game at noon.
Coached his team to a 23-1 loss, argued with other coach about one of his players using an illegal bat, in the process. Like it would have mattered...
Was happy the wife was taking the kids shopping after the game and I didn't have to go. Picked up some lunch (firehouse subs) took it home and watched the tigers game. Drifted in and out of sleep in the process, as Verlander toyed with a no hitter.
Woke up when wife and kids came home. Daughter had a softball game at 6:30 so I went out and worked with her a bit to get ready. Got to the field, other team didn't show...so I had to sit there and watch them practice in this brisk Michigan, May weather.
Came home, ate a late dinner, helped kids finish up homework, helped them get ready for bed and have been watching the boob tube ever since.
Dip never even crossed my mind today. I had zero anxiety, zero craves, zero anything. I was just like a real normal guy.
Well, that's what day 700 looks like from the Diesels eyes.
Pretty boring, eh?
God I love boring, and so will any of you who are struggling right now wondering if things will get better. They will. I promise.
Quit on...
That's a great day coach Diesel! "Life's not unpleasant, in their little neighborhood"
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7th floor. Cool.
Today was just a "normal" day.
Slept in til about 9:00. Just kind of vegged until I had to be to the field for my sons baseball game at noon.
Coached his team to a 23-1 loss, argued with other coach about one of his players using an illegal bat, in the process. Like it would have mattered...
Was happy the wife was taking the kids shopping after the game and I didn't have to go. Picked up some lunch (firehouse subs) took it home and watched the tigers game. Drifted in and out of sleep in the process, as Verlander toyed with a no hitter.
Woke up when wife and kids came home. Daughter had a softball game at 6:30 so I went out and worked with her a bit to get ready. Got to the field, other team didn't show...so I had to sit there and watch them practice in this brisk Michigan, May weather.
Came home, ate a late dinner, helped kids finish up homework, helped them get ready for bed and have been watching the boob tube ever since.
Dip never even crossed my mind today. I had zero anxiety, zero craves, zero anything. I was just like a real normal guy.
Well, that's what day 700 looks like from the Diesels eyes.
Pretty boring, eh?
God I love boring, and so will any of you who are struggling right now wondering if things will get better. They will. I promise.
Quit on...
That's a great day coach Diesel! "Life's not unpleasant, in their little neighborhood"
Congrats Diesel, and way to keep it boring!
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7th floor. Cool.
Today was just a "normal" day.
Slept in til about 9:00. Just kind of vegged until I had to be to the field for my sons baseball game at noon.
Coached his team to a 23-1 loss, argued with other coach about one of his players using an illegal bat, in the process. Like it would have mattered...
Was happy the wife was taking the kids shopping after the game and I didn't have to go. Picked up some lunch (firehouse subs) took it home and watched the tigers game. Drifted in and out of sleep in the process, as Verlander toyed with a no hitter.
Woke up when wife and kids came home. Daughter had a softball game at 6:30 so I went out and worked with her a bit to get ready. Got to the field, other team didn't show...so I had to sit there and watch them practice in this brisk Michigan, May weather.
Came home, ate a late dinner, helped kids finish up homework, helped them get ready for bed and have been watching the boob tube ever since.
Dip never even crossed my mind today. I had zero anxiety, zero craves, zero anything. I was just like a real normal guy.
Well, that's what day 700 looks like from the Diesels eyes.
Pretty boring, eh?
God I love boring, and so will any of you who are struggling right now wondering if things will get better. They will. I promise.
Quit on...
That's a great day coach Diesel! "Life's not unpleasant, in their little neighborhood"
Nice Diesel! Thanks for sharing. What a journey... Man it is sure worth the ride!
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Maybe if you would have paid attention to the Tigers game instead of snoozing Verlander would have gotten the no-no (actually I jinxed it by making fun of my neighbor, then whap, a single in the 6th). Gratz on the 7th floor Screamin' Eagle.
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Maybe if you would have paid attention to the Tigers game instead of snoozing Verlander would have gotten the no-no (actually I jinxed it by making fun of my neighbor, then whap, a single in the 6th). Gratz on the 7th floor Screamin' Eagle.
I was wondering who fucked it up for JV... 'finger point'
Congrats Diesel.
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Congrats on 7th floor. Normal boring sounds great and a good thing to aspire too, when coming from the dysfunctional world of the Nic. Bitch who reared us "Brothers" suckling her saggy nic tits....... Quit on and thanks!......Robbie
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Congrats on the 7th floor. Oh how I fucking crave normal, boring and all those other words. Quit with you today Diesel
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Congrats on the 7th floor!! I'll quit with you any day!!
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Congrats brother! And thanks for all the help you have given me!
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Congrats. Quitting with you today.
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Way to go Deez. You are a hardcore quitter!
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7th floor. Cool.
Today was just a "normal" day.
Slept in til about 9:00. Just kind of vegged until I had to be to the field for my sons baseball game at noon.
Coached his team to a 23-1 loss, argued with other coach about one of his players using an illegal bat, in the process. Like it would have mattered...
Was happy the wife was taking the kids shopping after the game and I didn't have to go. Picked up some lunch (firehouse subs) took it home and watched the tigers game. Drifted in and out of sleep in the process, as Verlander toyed with a no hitter.
Woke up when wife and kids came home. Daughter had a softball game at 6:30 so I went out and worked with her a bit to get ready. Got to the field, other team didn't show...so I had to sit there and watch them practice in this brisk Michigan, May weather.
Came home, ate a late dinner, helped kids finish up homework, helped them get ready for bed and have been watching the boob tube ever since.
Dip never even crossed my mind today. I had zero anxiety, zero craves, zero anything. I was just like a real normal guy.
Well, that's what day 700 looks like from the Diesels eyes.
Pretty boring, eh?
God I love boring, and so will any of you who are struggling right now wondering if things will get better. They will. I promise.
Quit on...
That does sound very boring.....and I can't wait for boring!!! I'm less than 2 weeks from the Hall everyday isn't easy....in fact, most days lately have had a couple big time craves....thanks for sharing your boring day. I look forward to more boring days!!
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Way to be Diesel. The bell tolls for thee brother! Outstanding. Thanks for all your support.
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This SHIT is awesome. 700 days is unbelievable!
I love happy endings.
Quit with you, dill hole.
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This SHIT is awesome. 700 days is unbelievable!
I love happy endings.
Quit with you, dill hole.
I agree. But... do i smell someone chef-ing up some crow? Proud to quit with both you dillholes.
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This SHIT is awesome. 700 days is unbelievable!
I love happy endings.
Quit with you, dill hole.
I agree. But... do i smell someone chef-ing up some crow? Proud to quit with both you dillholes.
Damn shame I missed your 7th floor celebration.....
'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog'
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This SHIT is awesome. 700 days is unbelievable!
I love happy endings.
Quit with you, dill hole.
I agree. But... do i smell someone chef-ing up some crow? Proud to quit with both you dillholes.
Damn shame I missed your 7th floor celebration.....
'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog'
No worries. Catch me at 800. Lol .
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Nice read! I'm starting to identify w/ this.
Congrats on 2 yrs also!
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
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2 years is awesome Screaming Eagle!
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
'Cheers' nice job diesel, keep that quit coming!
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
'Cheers' nice job diesel, keep that quit coming!
2 years of helping others in addition to helping yourself. That is a whole lot if toothpaste. Thank you, and congratulations!
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
Great analogy. Nice work on 2 years. Keep on keepin on!
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
'BanDog'
Although I must admit...I'm a little confused about the tube of toothpaste analogy. :unsure:
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
2 years is fantastic!
Don't forget to floss.
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
2 years is fantastic!
Don't forget to floss.
Congrats my friend, keep moving forward
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
2 years is fantastic!
Don't forget to floss.
Congrats my friend, keep moving forward
HELL Yes!!!!!!! Congrats
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
2 years is fantastic!
Don't forget to floss.
Congrats my friend, keep moving forward
HELL Yes!!!!!!! Congrats
Congrats. You are an addiction Fighting Muskrat.
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
2 years is fantastic!
Don't forget to floss.
Congrats my friend, keep moving forward
HELL Yes!!!!!!! Congrats
Congrats. You are an addiction Fighting Muskrat.
Congrats brother. I swear they are gonna come out with Diesel crunch for quitters breakfast cereal.
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
2 years is fantastic!
Don't forget to floss.
Congrats my friend, keep moving forward
HELL Yes!!!!!!! Congrats
Congrats. You are an addiction Fighting Muskrat.
Congrats brother. I swear they are gonna come out with Diesel crunch for quitters breakfast cereal.
Your quit story is truly inspirational. You have proven that........
"You can live in grace and comfort in the world that you transform"
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
2 years is fantastic!
Don't forget to floss.
Congrats my friend, keep moving forward
HELL Yes!!!!!!! Congrats
Congrats. You are an addiction Fighting Muskrat.
Congrats brother. I swear they are gonna come out with Diesel crunch for quitters breakfast cereal.
Your quit story is truly inspirational. You have proven that........
"You can live in grace and comfort in the world that you transform"
Congrats on 2 years. I'm 18 days in and love seeing that this can be done! Thanks for posting on my intro too.
Freedom
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
2 years is fantastic!
Don't forget to floss.
Congrats my friend, keep moving forward
HELL Yes!!!!!!! Congrats
Congrats. You are an addiction Fighting Muskrat.
Congrats brother. I swear they are gonna come out with Diesel crunch for quitters breakfast cereal.
Your quit story is truly inspirational. You have proven that........
"You can live in grace and comfort in the world that you transform"
Congrats on 2 years. I'm 18 days in and love seeing that this can be done! Thanks for posting on my intro too.
Freedom
Thanks all. I appreciate the kind words.
I have a toothpaste fetish.
Also, the only thing better than two years quit is two years and a day.
Quit on...
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Congrats on 2 years, man.
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2 years. Wow.
For such a small can that shit can cause some big problems. And not just between the lips and gums.
Looking back, that can masked things I didn't even know were there. Addiction is an obvious term but within that I became dependent on that can. Truth is I relied on that can to get me through every day life. A lot of toothpaste came of the tube when I quit after being enslaved by that can for 15 years. It was a fucking mess.
For the majority of my quit I tried to push all that toothpaste back into the tube. Not only is that a painstaking task, but over those two years I learned that not all of that toothpaste needs to go back into the tube. Some of the toothpaste that came out of the tube didn't belong there in the first place. Accepting that fact made the job even harder. How much of this mess should I be trying to push back into the God damn tube?
Thankfully, over time I figured it out. With some patience and pressure I was able to push the correct amount back into the tube. It was the good stuff. The stuff that made Craig..."Craig". The remaining toxic mess that sat on the counter I wiped up with a gasoline soaked rag and set the mother fucker ablaze. I don't want that shit back in my tube. It never belonged there.
The fights not over at two years. I know I haven't "Won" and that I never will. But I sure as fuck know I am WINNING and will continue to do so.
There's no way in hell I'm letting my toothpaste get infected again. I've come too far and the struggle was too great. Each day I simply tighten the cap on that tube a little bit more. I got what needs to be in there now, and I am going to keep it that way.
Quit on...
Powerful and right on. Congrats on 2 years...and to figuring out what tooth paste to save and what to throw out. Proud to quit w you today.
Well said and well done.....
proud to be quit with like minded brothers.
great accomplishment Diesel keep up the great work!!! Thanks for reminding us that the fight is never done.
2 years is fantastic!
Don't forget to floss.
Congrats my friend, keep moving forward
HELL Yes!!!!!!! Congrats
Congrats. You are an addiction Fighting Muskrat.
Congrats brother. I swear they are gonna come out with Diesel crunch for quitters breakfast cereal.
Your quit story is truly inspirational. You have proven that........
"You can live in grace and comfort in the world that you transform"
Congrats on 2 years. I'm 18 days in and love seeing that this can be done! Thanks for posting on my intro too.
Freedom
Thanks all. I appreciate the kind words.
I have a toothpaste fetish.
Also, the only thing better than two years quit is two years and a day.
Quit on...
Let me be the first to congratulate you on 2 years and 8 days! You were the first on the KTC to call me a pussy, so thanks for that! Quit with you all day today Screamin' Eagle!
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Former MLB'er, Tony Gwyn dead at age 54, due to oral cancer. I think most of us know his history. If there's anyone out there thinking, "it won't happen to me", look no further. Safe to say he had more money and resources to battle the cancer than most of us, he still lost.
If your thinking of quitting, stop and do it now before it's too late.
You don't have to do it alone. We will help.
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Former MLB'er, Tony Gwyn dead at age 54, due to oral cancer. I think most of us know his history. If there's anyone out there thinking, "it won't happen to me", look no further. Safe to say he had more money and resources to battle the cancer than most of us, he still lost.
If your thinking of quitting, stop and do it now before it's too late.
You don't have to do it alone. We will help.
This really sucks. So Sad. We are in the right place boys and girls! Never. Ever. Again.!
Thanks Diesel.
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Former MLB'er, Tony Gwyn dead at age 54, due to oral cancer. I think most of us know his history. If there's anyone out there thinking, "it won't happen to me", look no further. Safe to say he had more money and resources to battle the cancer than most of us, he still lost.
If your thinking of quitting, stop and do it now before it's too late.
You don't have to do it alone. We will help.
This really sucks. So Sad. We are in the right place boys and girls! Never. Ever. Again.!
Thanks Diesel.
Such a shame. Quit Like Fuck.
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Former MLB'er, Tony Gwyn dead at age 54, due to oral cancer. I think most of us know his history. If there's anyone out there thinking, "it won't happen to me", look no further. Safe to say he had more money and resources to battle the cancer than most of us, he still lost.
If your thinking of quitting, stop and do it now before it's too late.
You don't have to do it alone. We will help.
This really sucks. So Sad. We are in the right place boys and girls! Never. Ever. Again.!
Thanks Diesel.
Such a shame. Quit Like Fuck.
The poison sucks!
Saw a picture of my Dad with Jim Kelly yesterday, both looking healthy! Picture was 5 years old... My Dad's been gone 3+ years, and J.K. id still fighting cancer! OMG get quit stay quit!
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Former MLB'er, Tony Gwyn dead at age 54, due to oral cancer. I think most of us know his history. If there's anyone out there thinking, "it won't happen to me", look no further. Safe to say he had more money and resources to battle the cancer than most of us, he still lost.
If your thinking of quitting, stop and do it now before it's too late.
You don't have to do it alone. We will help.
This really sucks. So Sad. We are in the right place boys and girls! Never. Ever. Again.!
Thanks Diesel.
Such a shame. Quit Like Fuck.
The poison sucks!
Saw a picture of my Dad with Jim Kelly yesterday, both looking healthy! Picture was 5 years old... My Dad's been gone 3+ years, and J.K. id still fighting cancer! OMG get quit stay quit!
http://m.espn.go.com/mlb/story?storyId=11093930 (http://m.espn.go.com/mlb/story?storyId=11093930)
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
Amen to all of that Diesel. I think I will stay team QUIT with Diesel. It just makes too much sense to do anything different.
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Dude, if your gonna type a wall of text, don't start with "hot dogs", because I am fat and lazy, and hot dogs are the devil's dipstick, and I tend to stop reading to get my oil changed. All I know is I am quit with you today.
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
Amen to all of that Diesel. I think I will stay team QUIT with Diesel. It just makes too much sense to do anything different.
nice capture of the truth Diesel...quit with you today
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
Amen to all of that Diesel. I think I will stay team QUIT with Diesel. It just makes too much sense to do anything different.
nice capture of the truth Diesel...quit with you today
Well said. Quit with you diesel.
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
Amen to all of that Diesel. I think I will stay team QUIT with Diesel. It just makes too much sense to do anything different.
nice capture of the truth Diesel...quit with you today
Well said. Quit with you diesel.
Agreed. I'm on Team Quit.
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
Amen to all of that Diesel. I think I will stay team QUIT with Diesel. It just makes too much sense to do anything different.
nice capture of the truth Diesel...quit with you today
Well said. Quit with you diesel.
Agreed. I'm on Team Quit.
I'd like to exercise my contract option for Team QUIT with you. Diesel, you always cut straight to it. Thanks.
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
Amen to all of that Diesel. I think I will stay team QUIT with Diesel. It just makes too much sense to do anything different.
nice capture of the truth Diesel...quit with you today
Well said. Quit with you diesel.
Agreed. I'm on Team Quit.
I'd like to exercise my contract option for Team QUIT with you. Diesel, you always cut straight to it. Thanks.
Where do I sign up for this team, it's looking pretty strong?
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
Amen to all of that Diesel. I think I will stay team QUIT with Diesel. It just makes too much sense to do anything different.
nice capture of the truth Diesel...quit with you today
Well said. Quit with you diesel.
Agreed. I'm on Team Quit.
I'd like to exercise my contract option for Team QUIT with you. Diesel, you always cut straight to it. Thanks.
Where do I sign up for this team, it's looking pretty strong?
quit every single day with you....
great post....and thank you..
just a quitter....
mule
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
Amen to all of that Diesel. I think I will stay team QUIT with Diesel. It just makes too much sense to do anything different.
nice capture of the truth Diesel...quit with you today
Well said. Quit with you diesel.
Agreed. I'm on Team Quit.
I'd like to exercise my contract option for Team QUIT with you. Diesel, you always cut straight to it. Thanks.
Where do I sign up for this team, it's looking pretty strong?
quit every single day with you....
great post....and thank you..
just a quitter....
mule
Diesel
I have spent thousands of hours on this site over my 6+ years here. You have captured my thoughts that I no longer can muster the energy to put into words for that very reason.
Thank you.
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
Amen to all of that Diesel. I think I will stay team QUIT with Diesel. It just makes too much sense to do anything different.
nice capture of the truth Diesel...quit with you today
Well said. Quit with you diesel.
Agreed. I'm on Team Quit.
I'd like to exercise my contract option for Team QUIT with you. Diesel, you always cut straight to it. Thanks.
Where do I sign up for this team, it's looking pretty strong?
quit every single day with you....
great post....and thank you..
just a quitter....
mule
Diesel
I have spent thousands of hours on this site over my 6+ years here. You have captured my thoughts that I no longer can muster the energy to put into words for that very reason.
Thank you.
it is well stated as I think it affects a lot of us.
heck hot dogs? I know what is in scrapple and love it.....
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
Amen to all of that Diesel. I think I will stay team QUIT with Diesel. It just makes too much sense to do anything different.
nice capture of the truth Diesel...quit with you today
Well said. Quit with you diesel.
Agreed. I'm on Team Quit.
I'd like to exercise my contract option for Team QUIT with you. Diesel, you always cut straight to it. Thanks.
Where do I sign up for this team, it's looking pretty strong?
quit every single day with you....
great post....and thank you..
just a quitter....
mule
Diesel
I have spent thousands of hours on this site over my 6+ years here. You have captured my thoughts that I no longer can muster the energy to put into words for that very reason.
Thank you.
it is well stated as I think it affects a lot of us.
heck hot dogs? I know what is in scrapple and love it.....
Not bad for a guy who supports the wrong michigan school
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
Amen to all of that Diesel. I think I will stay team QUIT with Diesel. It just makes too much sense to do anything different.
nice capture of the truth Diesel...quit with you today
Well said. Quit with you diesel.
Agreed. I'm on Team Quit.
I'd like to exercise my contract option for Team QUIT with you. Diesel, you always cut straight to it. Thanks.
Where do I sign up for this team, it's looking pretty strong?
quit every single day with you....
great post....and thank you..
just a quitter....
mule
Diesel
I have spent thousands of hours on this site over my 6+ years here. You have captured my thoughts that I no longer can muster the energy to put into words for that very reason.
Thank you.
it is well stated as I think it affects a lot of us.
heck hot dogs? I know what is in scrapple and love it.....
Not bad for a guy who supports the wrong michigan school
Thanks for the postive words, y'all. Go Blue and EMU!!!
Also, what the hell is scrapple? Sounds yummy.
Quit on....
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I'm not gonna worry about how hot dogs are really made, I'm just gonna keep eating them.
Seriously, I can see all sides to this recent "drama". To say I'm on team "LooT" or Team "J2B" or team "Admin" or whatever the fuck teams their are is ridiculous. We are all on team "QUIT".
I just read where someone said they were glad LooT was gone because he was a cancer. Really? The dude that's been here for 8 Fucking years is a cancer??? Give me a Fucking break.
I believe a lot of times conflict is good. It can get shit out on the table that maybe has been building up for awhile, and then bring about necessary change or even light a fire under someone's ass causing them to rise to levels they didn't know were possible or they had forgotten they could achieve.
The bad part of conflict is snap reactions, where you end up severing relationships or losing a valuable part of a team, like team quit did.
Personally I have seen myself drift away a bit from the site. Not because I'm planning a cave or anything, but because I'm comfortable. I'm kind of fat and lazy, but I am also kind of burnt out. Not on quitting but on "getting involved". Shame on me, I know. But I'm just telling the truth.
I remember seeing someone responding to newbie intros with a "canned", almost robotic, cut and paste response..."Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF". Like 5 intros in a row they just kept pasting the same thing. I though to myself, if I ever get to that point it's time to back away, I'm not "Bob" from DELL reading off a script in India trying to help someone troubleshoot a floppy disc problem. I'm trying to give some advice to help save someone's life!!! Just like somebody did for me.
But I gotta tell you after 2 years you tend to run out of material. I can only imagine how guys who have been here longer feel. Most specifically some of the admins who have been here since jump street. That's why beyong posting role, which is a given, I don't get the ball busting of guys who have 10,000 posts to "do more". For crying out loud, I know quitting is a full time job but eventually you need to graduate from running the jackhammer to a nice office job. Doesn't mean you aren't still a part of the team and you can still grab the jackhammer from time to time to go back to your roots, but too much time on that thing will drive you bonkers.
As quits evolve you have to look for "new blood" to emerge and work the jackhammer. That doesn't mean the "old guys" need to go away, you just can't expect them to keep up such a torrid pace. There needs to be new old guys. If that makes any sense, AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
Damn, this is long and I'm very tired and might not be making much sense but with all the recent drama it made me think about where I personally was at and my overall view of the site. I wanted to put it down in my intro so some day down the road I could look at it. I'm selfish like that.
Quit on...
Amen to all of that Diesel. I think I will stay team QUIT with Diesel. It just makes too much sense to do anything different.
nice capture of the truth Diesel...quit with you today
Well said. Quit with you diesel.
Agreed. I'm on Team Quit.
I'd like to exercise my contract option for Team QUIT with you. Diesel, you always cut straight to it. Thanks.
Where do I sign up for this team, it's looking pretty strong?
quit every single day with you....
great post....and thank you..
just a quitter....
mule
Diesel
I have spent thousands of hours on this site over my 6+ years here. You have captured my thoughts that I no longer can muster the energy to put into words for that very reason.
Thank you.
it is well stated as I think it affects a lot of us.
heck hot dogs? I know what is in scrapple and love it.....
Not bad for a guy who supports the wrong michigan school
Thanks for the postive words, y'all. Go Blue and EMU!!!
Also, what the hell is scrapple? Sounds yummy.
Quit on....
Well said. Now, if I can just find my jackhammer. I know I left it around here somewhere......
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..... AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
And that's the reason this whole sordid ordeal has played out the way it has....
Accountability is a two-way street. If it's good for the Day 1-er's, it's good for the 15-year-ers (the F'in OLD guys). EACH AND EVERY ONE, EVERY DAMN DAY.
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..... AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
And that's the reason this whole sordid ordeal has played out the way it has....
Accountability is a two-way street. If it's good for the Day 1-er's, it's good for the 15-year-ers (the F'in OLD guys). EACH AND EVERY ONE, EVERY DAMN DAY.
I can only speak for myself. Go check my record. Once you do, you are welcome to post in my group.....with a few caveats.
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..... AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
And that's the reason this whole sordid ordeal has played out the way it has....
Accountability is a two-way street. If it's good for the Day 1-er's, it's good for the 15-year-ers (the F'in OLD guys). EACH AND EVERY ONE, EVERY DAMN DAY.
I can only speak for myself. Go check my record. Once you do, you are welcome to post in my group.....with a few caveats.
Extra Accountability...and in TTF? Cavman, that's a no-brainer. Take him up on it.
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..... AND THEY ALL NEED TO BE POSTING ROLL. That's the glue that holds team quit together.
And that's the reason this whole sordid ordeal has played out the way it has....
Accountability is a two-way street. If it's good for the Day 1-er's, it's good for the 15-year-ers (the F'in OLD guys). EACH AND EVERY ONE, EVERY DAMN DAY.
I can only speak for myself. Go check my record. Once you do, you are welcome to post in my group.....with a few caveats.
Extra Accountability...and in TTF? Cavman, that's a no-brainer. Take him up on it.
These generalities speak volumes of ignorance.
Check and see where and how often I post roll. Then move on to reality.
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You're a month ahead of me - I've seen a lot of your posts Diesel, some of them I got, I tried to understand some, a few pissed me off. I love this post - thanks for putting fingers to keyboard (sorry - a u of m fan - probably more like finger to keyboard! :P )
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You're a month ahead of me - I've seen a lot of your posts Diesel, some of them I got, I tried to understand some, a few pissed me off. I love this post - thanks for putting fingers to keyboard (sorry - a u of m fan - probably more like finger to keyboard! :P )
Thanks and don't feel bad. I don't even understand some of my posts.
Search and peck is my typing style.
Quit on...
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You're a month ahead of me - I've seen a lot of your posts Diesel, some of them I got, I tried to understand some, a few pissed me off. I love this post - thanks for putting fingers to keyboard (sorry - a u of m fan - probably more like finger to keyboard! :P )
Thanks and don't feel bad. I don't even understand some of my posts.
Search and peck is my typing style.
Quit on...
I love this post. Like I've said we need a cereal called diesel crunch to eat every morning for breakfast. Love this post!!!!!
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You're a month ahead of me - I've seen a lot of your posts Diesel, some of them I got, I tried to understand some, a few pissed me off. I love this post - thanks for putting fingers to keyboard (sorry - a u of m fan - probably more like finger to keyboard! :P )
Thanks and don't feel bad. I don't even understand some of my posts.
Search and peck is my typing style.
Quit on...
I love this post. Like I've said we need a cereal called diesel crunch to eat every morning for breakfast. Love this post!!!!!
I like frankenberry.
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Of a list of people one might make to call and seek permission if they ever wanted to cave...
...this guy should be on it.
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Of a list of people one might make to call and seek permission if they ever wanted to cave...
...this guy should be on it.
I agree. Diesel could scare the cave out of anyone. Superconducting Quit Monster!
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Of a list of people one might make to call and seek permission if they ever wanted to cave...
...this guy should be on it.
Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF
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Of a list of people one might make to call and seek permission if they ever wanted to cave...
...this guy should be on it.
Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF
Canned Ham ^^^^
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Of a list of people one might make to call and seek permission if they ever wanted to cave...
...this guy should be on it.
Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF
Canned Ham ^^^^
D - you got some great words of advice there! Take them to heart!!! Click on the salmon colored link...
I gotta say... I'm sitting in the KC airport right now reading the intros and this is the funniest post of the night!
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Of a list of people one might make to call and seek permission if they ever wanted to cave...
...this guy should be on it.
Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF
Canned Ham ^^^^
D - you got some great words of advice there! Take them to heart!!! Click on the salmon colored link...
I gotta say... I'm sitting in the KC airport right now reading the intros and this is the funniest post of the night!
Someone please tell me when QLF became "canned ham?" I'm so ashamed.....it meant so much more.....Quit Like Canned Ham.
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Of a list of people one might make to call and seek permission if they ever wanted to cave...
...this guy should be on it.
Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF
Canned Ham ^^^^
D - you got some great words of advice there! Take them to heart!!! Click on the salmon colored link...
I gotta say... I'm sitting in the KC airport right now reading the intros and this is the funniest post of the night!
Someone please tell me when QLF became "canned ham?" I'm so ashamed.....it meant so much more.....Quit Like Canned Ham.
It's everything that preceeds the QLF that is canned ham. QLF is, and always will be strong. You really should trademark that.
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Of a list of people one might make to call and seek permission if they ever wanted to cave...
...this guy should be on it.
Great decision to quit. Read the welcome center to learn how to post roll. Do this daily. You got this. QLF
Canned Ham ^^^^
D - you got some great words of advice there! Take them to heart!!! Click on the salmon colored link...
I gotta say... I'm sitting in the KC airport right now reading the intros and this is the funniest post of the night!
Someone please tell me when QLF became "canned ham?" I'm so ashamed.....it meant so much more.....Quit Like Canned Ham.
It's everything that preceeds the QLF that is canned ham. QLF is, and always will be strong. You really should trademark that.
If you need numbers bro let me know. its Friday so have your weekend plan and Ease up on the drinking. Reach out if you need me. I quit with you ODAAT.
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Happy Bastille Day, Everybody!!! Pretty sure RUSH is the only band to write a song about it. Should be right up there with Bing Crosby's ,"White Christmas"!
There's no bread, let them eat cake
There's no end to what they'll take
Flaunt the fruits of noble birth
Wash the salt into the earth
But they're marching to Bastille Day
La guillotine will claim her bloody prize
Free the dungeons of the innocent
The king will kneel and let his kingdom rise
Bloodstained velvet, dirty lace
Naked fear on every face
See them bow their heads to die
As we would bow as they rode by
And we're marching to Bastille Day
La guillotine will claim her bloody prize
Sing, oh choirs of cacophony
The king has kneeled, to let his kingdom rise
Lessons taught but never learned
All around us anger burns
Guide the future by the past
Long ago the mould was cast
For they marched up to Bastille Day
La guillotine claimed her bloody prize
Hear the echoes of the centuries
Power isn't all that money buys
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Happy Bastille Day, Everybody!!! Pretty sure RUSH is the only band to write a song about it. Should be right up there with Bing Crosby's ,"White Christmas"!
There's no bread, let them eat cake
There's no end to what they'll take
Flaunt the fruits of noble birth
Wash the salt into the earth
But they're marching to Bastille Day
La guillotine will claim her bloody prize
Free the dungeons of the innocent
The king will kneel and let his kingdom rise
Bloodstained velvet, dirty lace
Naked fear on every face
See them bow their heads to die
As we would bow as they rode by
And we're marching to Bastille Day
La guillotine will claim her bloody prize
Sing, oh choirs of cacophony
The king has kneeled, to let his kingdom rise
Lessons taught but never learned
All around us anger burns
Guide the future by the past
Long ago the mould was cast
For they marched up to Bastille Day
La guillotine claimed her bloody prize
Hear the echoes of the centuries
Power isn't all that money buys
Yah Buddy!
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car. As I sat there while they fixed the wheel, I wondered if I should go off on them for Fucking up so bad. I imagined myself standing on the counter demanding free oil changes for life, or threatening to sue their asses. I did neither. They had shark week playing on the small tv in the waiting room and I just kind of zoned our watching that. .I like sharks.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
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Happy 800 brother!
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
You look maaaarvelous!
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
You look maaaarvelous!
So there are boobs, ass, beer, and pizza all in wrapped up in one post! Probably the best post ever on KTC! Congrats on 800
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
You look maaaarvelous!
So there are boobs, ass, beer, and pizza all in wrapped up in one post! Probably the best post ever on KTC! Congrats on 800
Love everything about this post...Congrats on 800 fucking days!
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
You look maaaarvelous!
So there are boobs, ass, beer, and pizza all in wrapped up in one post! Probably the best post ever on KTC! Congrats on 800
Love everything about this post...Congrats on 800 fucking days!
Sweeeeeeeet!!!!!!!!
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
You look maaaarvelous!
So there are boobs, ass, beer, and pizza all in wrapped up in one post! Probably the best post ever on KTC! Congrats on 800
Love everything about this post...Congrats on 800 fucking days!
Sweeeeeeeet!!!!!!!!
Nice 800 Diesel.
Boobs are great. Tigers not so much right now.
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
You look maaaarvelous!
So there are boobs, ass, beer, and pizza all in wrapped up in one post! Probably the best post ever on KTC! Congrats on 800
Love everything about this post...Congrats on 800 fucking days!
Sweeeeeeeet!!!!!!!!
Nice 800 Diesel.
Boobs are great. Tigers not so much right now.
'Have a beer' 'boob' 'do it' 'booby' :Winner:
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
You look maaaarvelous!
So there are boobs, ass, beer, and pizza all in wrapped up in one post! Probably the best post ever on KTC! Congrats on 800
Love everything about this post...Congrats on 800 fucking days!
Sweeeeeeeet!!!!!!!!
Nice 800 Diesel.
Boobs are great. Tigers not so much right now.
'Have a beer' 'boob' 'do it' 'booby' :Winner:
COngrats on 800, Your no bullshit way of cutting to the heart of the matter is enjoyable to read.
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
You look maaaarvelous!
So there are boobs, ass, beer, and pizza all in wrapped up in one post! Probably the best post ever on KTC! Congrats on 800
Love everything about this post...Congrats on 800 fucking days!
Sweeeeeeeet!!!!!!!!
Nice 800 Diesel.
Boobs are great. Tigers not so much right now.
'Have a beer' 'boob' 'do it' 'booby' :Winner:
COngrats on 800, Your no bullshit way of cutting to the heart of the matter is enjoyable to read.
80% to your comma! Nice work brother!
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
You look maaaarvelous!
So there are boobs, ass, beer, and pizza all in wrapped up in one post! Probably the best post ever on KTC! Congrats on 800
Love everything about this post...Congrats on 800 fucking days!
Sweeeeeeeet!!!!!!!!
Nice 800 Diesel.
Boobs are great. Tigers not so much right now.
'Have a beer' 'boob' 'do it' 'booby' :Winner:
COngrats on 800, Your no bullshit way of cutting to the heart of the matter is enjoyable to read.
80% to your comma! Nice work brother!
Atta boy Diesel
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
You look maaaarvelous!
So there are boobs, ass, beer, and pizza all in wrapped up in one post! Probably the best post ever on KTC! Congrats on 800
Love everything about this post...Congrats on 800 fucking daysaj
Enjoy watching the boy ball, drink more bud light, motorboat those funbags and get some Detroit ass. Just don't worry about my Royals and keep on quitting....
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
You look maaaarvelous!
So there are boobs, ass, beer, and pizza all in wrapped up in one post! Probably the best post ever on KTC! Congrats on 800
Love everything about this post...Congrats on 800 fucking daysaj
Enjoy watching the boy ball, drink more bud light, motorboat those funbags and get some Detroit ass. Just don't worry about my Royals and keep on quitting....
An 8 looks like the infinity sign, and the 00's look like 2 eyes.
We'll keep watching. Quits are forever.
Thank you for all you do.
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8th floor. Suck it.
I had new rear brake pads and rotors installed on my work vehicle Friday. Yesterday my rear drivers side tire flew off as I was driving because they didn't tighten the lug nuts properly. It sucked, but I called a tow truck and the auto repair shop fixed me up and I was back on the road in an hour. Just thankful it didn't happen while I was on the expressway with my kids in the car.
Today, I navigated some pretty fucked up streets in metro Detroit as we got hit hard with storms last night that caused MASSIVE flooding. It was frustrating at times, but I thought about boobs a lot. I also thought about my high school days and some of the good times I had. I also thought about my kids a lot. I am really looking forward to my sons upcoming football season. I though a lot about some of the great things he might do. I also wondered what my wife was going to make for dinner. I hoped it wasn't pork chops. I don't like pork chops. Then I remembered I had a sports committee meeting for my kids school and we were going to have beer and pizza at a local bar. I like beer and pizza. I also like the boobs on one of the moms on the committee, so I though about motor boating them.
The meeting was pretty boring, so I ate a lot of pizza and mainly just watched the tigers game. I glanced a lot at those boobs too. I also had a few beers. I really like bud light. One beer snob there said bud light might as well be toilet water. I thought about trying a different beer with an odd name, but I decided to just stick with my bud light, because that's what I like. The meeting seemed to really drag on and I found myself thinking about having to cut the grass and clean the pool tomorrow. I don't like to cut the grass or clean the pool.
Driving home from the meeting I was thinking a lot about this weekend. I have a lot of fun stuff lined up, including my sons first football scrimmage and a guys day Sunday with my brothers and uncles. I also thought about how even though I've been in the wife's dog house of late, that if I played my cards right Saturday night, I might get some ass. I like ass.
Then I got home home and after I fed mg two pugs and had some small talk with the family, I wrote this.
I'm glad you did. I only wish I could grant you that motor boatin on your 8th floor. Congrats and thanks for all you do around here.
Agree on most all fronts. I don't like pork chops. I like boobs. Pizza is delicious. But, D, bud light...???? C'mon man. PS - go Royals!
Happy 800! And, thank you. Your tentacles of quit wisdom pulled many of us along for the ride. Have a Sam Adams or something to celebrate!
Sam Adams gives me the shits, so does watching the tigers of late.
Big huge congrats!
800 is awesome Diesel, enjoy your day, you are a pillar of quit!
You look maaaarvelous!
So there are boobs, ass, beer, and pizza all in wrapped up in one post! Probably the best post ever on KTC! Congrats on 800
Love everything about this post...Congrats on 800 fucking daysaj
Enjoy watching the boy ball, drink more bud light, motorboat those funbags and get some Detroit ass. Just don't worry about my Royals and keep on quitting....
An 8 looks like the infinity sign, and the 00's look like 2 eyes.
We'll keep watching. Quits are forever.
Thank you for all you do.
Thanks all.
I can't wait until I hit day 8008 it will look like the word BOOB on a calculator.
But for now I will just worry about TODAY.
Quit on...
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Congrats on 800 Diesel,
I've read so many of your responses to fellow quitters over the course of time and gotta say, I love your no nonsense, tough love approach. If Old ES was picking Captains for his team, you would definitely be one of them. Proud to quit with you.
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Congrats on 800 Diesel,
I've read so many of your responses to fellow quitters over the course of time and gotta say, I love your no nonsense, tough love approach. If Old ES was picking Captains for his team, you would definitely be one of them. Proud to quit with you.
What ^^^ he said. Awesome job, bro. Sorry this is late, but still heartfelt.
~typing 8008 on his calculator right now~
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Congrats on 800 Diesel,
I've read so many of your responses to fellow quitters over the course of time and gotta say, I love your no nonsense, tough love approach. If Old ES was picking Captains for his team, you would definitely be one of them. Proud to quit with you.
What ^^^ he said. Awesome job, bro. Sorry this is late, but still heartfelt.
~typing 8008 on his calculator right now~
Way to be, to the funniest guy on this site. You move me, you move me....in a non-ghey way. Keep going. In 1,311 days you are going to post the coolest number ever! 'oh yeah'
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
Just plain awesome!
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
Just plain awesome!
Whenever I saw that Big fucking yellow "M" on my intro thread I knew I was in for it that day, but without you kicking this MSU boys ass, I wouldn't have been as likely to be at the 2nd floor today. Enjoy your 9th floor today man!
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
Just plain awesome!
Whenever I saw that Big fucking yellow "M" on my intro thread I knew I was in for it that day, but without you kicking this MSU boys ass, I wouldn't have been as likely to be at the 2nd floor today. Enjoy your 9th floor today man!
Sounds pretty profound to me. Keep quitting and listen to some Rush really loud today!
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
Just plain awesome!
Whenever I saw that Big fucking yellow "M" on my intro thread I knew I was in for it that day, but without you kicking this MSU boys ass, I wouldn't have been as likely to be at the 2nd floor today. Enjoy your 9th floor today man!
Sounds pretty profound to me. Keep quitting and listen to some Rush really loud today!
Awesome!!!!!
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
Just plain awesome!
Whenever I saw that Big fucking yellow "M" on my intro thread I knew I was in for it that day, but without you kicking this MSU boys ass, I wouldn't have been as likely to be at the 2nd floor today. Enjoy your 9th floor today man!
Sounds pretty profound to me. Keep quitting and listen to some Rush really loud today!
Awesome!!!!!
Very proud of you man. You've come a long way, and you've helped a lot of people along the way. Keep it up.
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
Just plain awesome!
Whenever I saw that Big fucking yellow "M" on my intro thread I knew I was in for it that day, but without you kicking this MSU boys ass, I wouldn't have been as likely to be at the 2nd floor today. Enjoy your 9th floor today man!
Sounds pretty profound to me. Keep quitting and listen to some Rush really loud today!
Awesome!!!!!
Very proud of you man. You've come a long way, and you've helped a lot of people along the way. Keep it up.
That's so great D! Nine floors, totally comfy, with a well tended Garden! Ceiling Unlimited Brother!
Oh yeah...Thanks for support. It means the world to me!
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
Just plain awesome!
Whenever I saw that Big fucking yellow "M" on my intro thread I knew I was in for it that day, but without you kicking this MSU boys ass, I wouldn't have been as likely to be at the 2nd floor today. Enjoy your 9th floor today man!
Sounds pretty profound to me. Keep quitting and listen to some Rush really loud today!
Awesome!!!!!
Very proud of you man. You've come a long way, and you've helped a lot of people along the way. Keep it up.
That's so great D! Nine floors, totally comfy, with a well tended Garden! Ceiling Unlimited Brother!
Oh yeah...Thanks for support. It means the world to me!
Congratulations on 9th floor buddy. Great to see your name on the boards. You have indeed helped many, including myself. Keep paving the way.
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
Just plain awesome!
Whenever I saw that Big fucking yellow "M" on my intro thread I knew I was in for it that day, but without you kicking this MSU boys ass, I wouldn't have been as likely to be at the 2nd floor today. Enjoy your 9th floor today man!
Sounds pretty profound to me. Keep quitting and listen to some Rush really loud today!
Awesome!!!!!
Very proud of you man. You've come a long way, and you've helped a lot of people along the way. Keep it up.
That's so great D! Nine floors, totally comfy, with a well tended Garden! Ceiling Unlimited Brother!
Oh yeah...Thanks for support. It means the world to me!
Congratulations on 9th floor buddy. Great to see your name on the boards. You have indeed helped many, including myself. Keep paving the way.
This rocks Diesel proud to be quit with you
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
Just plain awesome!
Whenever I saw that Big fucking yellow "M" on my intro thread I knew I was in for it that day, but without you kicking this MSU boys ass, I wouldn't have been as likely to be at the 2nd floor today. Enjoy your 9th floor today man!
Sounds pretty profound to me. Keep quitting and listen to some Rush really loud today!
Awesome!!!!!
Very proud of you man. You've come a long way, and you've helped a lot of people along the way. Keep it up.
That's so great D! Nine floors, totally comfy, with a well tended Garden! Ceiling Unlimited Brother!
Oh yeah...Thanks for support. It means the world to me!
Congratulations on 9th floor buddy. Great to see your name on the boards. You have indeed helped many, including myself. Keep paving the way.
This rocks Diesel proud to be quit with you
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
Just plain awesome!
Whenever I saw that Big fucking yellow "M" on my intro thread I knew I was in for it that day, but without you kicking this MSU boys ass, I wouldn't have been as likely to be at the 2nd floor today. Enjoy your 9th floor today man!
Sounds pretty profound to me. Keep quitting and listen to some Rush really loud today!
Awesome!!!!!
Very proud of you man. You've come a long way, and you've helped a lot of people along the way. Keep it up.
That's so great D! Nine floors, totally comfy, with a well tended Garden! Ceiling Unlimited Brother!
Oh yeah...Thanks for support. It means the world to me!
Congratulations on 9th floor buddy. Great to see your name on the boards. You have indeed helped many, including myself. Keep paving the way.
This rocks Diesel proud to be quit with you
Congrats Diesel. The 9th floor is awesome
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
Just plain awesome!
Whenever I saw that Big fucking yellow "M" on my intro thread I knew I was in for it that day, but without you kicking this MSU boys ass, I wouldn't have been as likely to be at the 2nd floor today. Enjoy your 9th floor today man!
Sounds pretty profound to me. Keep quitting and listen to some Rush really loud today!
Awesome!!!!!
Very proud of you man. You've come a long way, and you've helped a lot of people along the way. Keep it up.
That's so great D! Nine floors, totally comfy, with a well tended Garden! Ceiling Unlimited Brother!
Oh yeah...Thanks for support. It means the world to me!
Congratulations on 9th floor buddy. Great to see your name on the boards. You have indeed helped many, including myself. Keep paving the way.
This rocks Diesel proud to be quit with you
Congrats Diesel. The 9th floor is awesome
Thanks to all those who took time to drop some kind words. It's greatly appreciated. Perhaps one day we could all spoon.
Quit on...
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Hit the 9th floor today. Was going to come here and drop something profound but I got nothing.
I haven't been spending as much time here as I used to. I've just been living life like a "normal guy".
I've stopped defining myself as an addict (yes, I know I still am) and just think of myself as a guy who used to chew. That has really seemed to help for some reason. Maybe because I actually believe it, now.
I think I read something once that said if you put 10,000 hours of practice into a particular sport you could become a professional. Well, I put about 130,000 hours into chewing so I was pretty much a grand master.
Thankfully I stuck to the game plan laid out by those who came before me and over time things became easier for me.
While I may not be here as frequently as I once was, I never forget this place and those who have helped me get to where I am today. There's no way I could have made it to 900 days alone. I am eternally grateful for all the support this site has provided.
To any noobs reading this...stick with the program. Lean on your brothers and sisters and I PROMISE that over time things will get easier. Going from a grand master of chewing to a grand master of quit, is an incredible feeling.
Quit on...
Great job my friend. Every few months someone comes along and sets a good example of what quitting really should be like (different for everyone). For me you were an inspiring quitter in my first year. Probably the reason I related was our shared experience with anxiety and depression in quitting. How we view ourselves truly makes the difference. When we were weak slaves our self esteem sucked leading to that downward spiral.
Any newbies out there that have been experiencing anxiety and aren't aquainted with this fine quitter I suggest you read this intro from the beginning to see what is possible.
What WT Said...
You were one of the first to reply to me when I landed here. You led the way and sent Pms encouraging and setting me straight. And I know I was one of many.
Next stop = 1000. Congratulations of living freedom Craig. Thank you.
Congrats on 900, it is hard to follow the sage words dispelled above but you were instrumental in my quit as well; so from the bottom of my heart I thank you.
Congrats Diesel! You are a bad man. Appreciate you. Enjoy the 9th floor!
I can tell you this, you have helped my quit. Thanks for the time you spend here, even if it's just checking in. Skoal Monster used a few of your posts in Jan this week as inspiration for new quitters. How bout that!
Congrats Diesel on the 9th floor. No need to be profound. You've dropped a lot of quit knowledge all over these boards. Always nice to see others using the nuggets you've dropped along the way. Carry on!
Congrats on the 9th floor bro. You've left and continue to leave quite the mark here at KTC ... looking forwards to many more!
Just plain awesome!
Whenever I saw that Big fucking yellow "M" on my intro thread I knew I was in for it that day, but without you kicking this MSU boys ass, I wouldn't have been as likely to be at the 2nd floor today. Enjoy your 9th floor today man!
Sounds pretty profound to me. Keep quitting and listen to some Rush really loud today!
Awesome!!!!!
Very proud of you man. You've come a long way, and you've helped a lot of people along the way. Keep it up.
That's so great D! Nine floors, totally comfy, with a well tended Garden! Ceiling Unlimited Brother!
Oh yeah...Thanks for support. It means the world to me!
Congratulations on 9th floor buddy. Great to see your name on the boards. You have indeed helped many, including myself. Keep paving the way.
This rocks Diesel proud to be quit with you
Congrats Diesel. The 9th floor is awesome
Thanks to all those who took time to drop some kind words. It's greatly appreciated. Perhaps one day we could all spoon.
Quit on...
I'd rather fork.
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Diesel - Note of appreciation for continuing to be involved and actively posting to the anxiety depression improvement page. I had no idea how many quitters had issues post quit until I experienced it myself and found this thread. Both you and WT have been the leaders giving the rest of us hope that we will get better.
Keep it up bro, you're making lives better!
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Diesel - Note of appreciation for continuing to be involved and actively posting to the anxiety depression improvement page. I had no idea how many quitters had issues post quit until I experienced it myself and found this thread. Both you and WT have been the leaders giving the rest of us hope that we will get better.
Keep it up bro, you're making lives better!
x2 here! Diesel is the SUPERCONDUCTOR of quitting and healing.
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'oh yeah' JUNE 24!!!!!!!! 'oh yeah'
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'oh yeah' JUNE 24!!!!!!!! 'oh yeah'
June 14 they come to Detroit. Will be a hot and expensive ticket.
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Congrats on your many days of not poisoning yourself. Thanks for the record of your quit that are on this tread. They helped put my mind at ease a bit with things you and others experienced in the early days of quitting.... Can really mess with your mental health dwelling on all the physical health possibilities.
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Congrats on your many days of not poisoning yourself. Thanks for the record of your quit that are on this tread. They helped put my mind at ease a bit with things you and others experienced in the early days of quitting.... Can really mess with your mental health dwelling on all the physical health possibilities.
Hang in there Wooly. This shithe can kick your ass, especially early on but like most things in life, the longer you do it, the easier it gets.
Try to keep some perspective, don't be too hard on yourself, and don't think to far into the future. Focus on today. Then when today is over, focus on today again.
Quit on...
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'oh yeah' JUNE 24!!!!!!!! 'oh yeah'
June 14 they come to Detroit. Will be a hot and expensive ticket.
June 6th in B-lo... Getting tickets today I think! I'd say I'll let you know how they sound, but you know it will be awesome!
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I'm a day early, but then again 999 ain't too shabby.
Congrats!!
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I'm a day early, but then again 999 ain't too shabby.
Congrats!!
You have paid it forward more than anyone I can think of. Congratulations Craig. You fought hard. Today is a huge milestone. I'll raise a drink to you today. And I cannot thank you enough. Enjoy today!
-w2w
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Diesel, a huge congratulations to you on this milestone. I have always admired your way with words especially here in the intro's. You've made a very big impact on my quit. Thank you for that.
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I'm a day early, but then again 999 ain't too shabby.
Congrats!!
You have paid it forward more than anyone I can think of. Congratulations Craig. You fought hard. Today is a huge milestone. I'll raise a drink to you today. And I cannot thank you enough. Enjoy today!
-w2w
Diesel Dangle!!!!
'oh yeah'
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I'm a day early, but then again 999 ain't too shabby.
Congrats!!
You have paid it forward more than anyone I can think of. Congratulations Craig. You fought hard. Today is a huge milestone. I'll raise a drink to you today. And I cannot thank you enough. Enjoy today!
-w2w
Diesel Dangle!!!!
'oh yeah'
Thanks all. The angle of the dangle is directionally proportionate to the heat of the meat.
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I'm a day early, but then again 999 ain't too shabby.
Congrats!!
You have paid it forward more than anyone I can think of. Congratulations Craig. You fought hard. Today is a huge milestone. I'll raise a drink to you today. And I cannot thank you enough. Enjoy today!
-w2w
Diesel Dangle!!!!
'oh yeah'
Thanks all. The angle of the dangle is directionally proportionate to the heat of the meat.
,
'oh yeah'
Bad ass
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I'm a day early, but then again 999 ain't too shabby.
Congrats!!
You have paid it forward more than anyone I can think of. Congratulations Craig. You fought hard. Today is a huge milestone. I'll raise a drink to you today. And I cannot thank you enough. Enjoy today!
-w2w
Diesel Dangle!!!!
'oh yeah'
Thanks all. The angle of the dangle is directionally proportionate to the heat of the meat.
,
'oh yeah'
Bad ass
,
Really nice quit, diesel. Thanks for all you do here.
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I'm a day early, but then again 999 ain't too shabby.
Congrats!!
You have paid it forward more than anyone I can think of. Congratulations Craig. You fought hard. Today is a huge milestone. I'll raise a drink to you today. And I cannot thank you enough. Enjoy today!
-w2w
Diesel Dangle!!!!
'oh yeah'
Thanks all. The angle of the dangle is directionally proportionate to the heat of the meat.
,
'oh yeah'
Bad ass
,
Really nice quit, diesel. Thanks for all you do here.
nice fugginig comma bud!
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I'm a day early, but then again 999 ain't too shabby.
Congrats!!
You have paid it forward more than anyone I can think of. Congratulations Craig. You fought hard. Today is a huge milestone. I'll raise a drink to you today. And I cannot thank you enough. Enjoy today!
-w2w
Diesel Dangle!!!!
'oh yeah'
Thanks all. The angle of the dangle is directionally proportionate to the heat of the meat.
,
'oh yeah'
Bad ass
,
Really nice quit, diesel. Thanks for all you do here.
nice fugginig comma bud!
Right on Diesel. Thank you for all the support you've given. Ceiling Unlimited brother.
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I'm a day early, but then again 999 ain't too shabby.
Congrats!!
You have paid it forward more than anyone I can think of. Congratulations Craig. You fought hard. Today is a huge milestone. I'll raise a drink to you today. And I cannot thank you enough. Enjoy today!
-w2w
Diesel Dangle!!!!
'oh yeah'
Thanks all. The angle of the dangle is directionally proportionate to the heat of the meat.
,
'oh yeah'
Bad ass
,
Really nice quit, diesel. Thanks for all you do here.
nice fugginig comma bud!
Right on Diesel. Thank you for all the support you've given. Ceiling Unlimited brother.
a fine quit indeed, congrats
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I'm a day early, but then again 999 ain't too shabby.
Congrats!!
You have paid it forward more than anyone I can think of. Congratulations Craig. You fought hard. Today is a huge milestone. I'll raise a drink to you today. And I cannot thank you enough. Enjoy today!
-w2w
Diesel Dangle!!!!
'oh yeah'
Thanks all. The angle of the dangle is directionally proportionate to the heat of the meat.
,
'oh yeah'
Bad ass
,
Really nice quit, diesel. Thanks for all you do here.
nice fugginig comma bud!
Right on Diesel. Thank you for all the support you've given. Ceiling Unlimited brother.
a fine quit indeed, congrats
Congrats on the comma!
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I'm a day early, but then again 999 ain't too shabby.
Congrats!!
You have paid it forward more than anyone I can think of. Congratulations Craig. You fought hard. Today is a huge milestone. I'll raise a drink to you today. And I cannot thank you enough. Enjoy today!
-w2w
Diesel Dangle!!!!
'oh yeah'
Thanks all. The angle of the dangle is directionally proportionate to the heat of the meat.
,
'oh yeah'
Bad ass
,
Really nice quit, diesel. Thanks for all you do here.
nice fugginig comma bud!
Right on Diesel. Thank you for all the support you've given. Ceiling Unlimited brother.
a fine quit indeed, congrats
Congrats on the comma!
Wow. Comma day? Congrats on a huge milestone. It's been a pleasure watching your quit and reading your words of advice to so many here. Thanks for getting on my ass early on in my quit. Scared straight works. I was always afraid of what you'd say if I caved. Instead, I copied you. Post daily and keep my word. See....it works. Congrats again Diesel!
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Thanks to those who took time to say congrats on my 1,000 days of quit. It means a lot and is greatly appreciated.
Beating this addiction is tough stuff, especially early on. When I think back I ask myself "why the fuck was it so hard???"
For me, it was hard because not only was I breaking free from the chains of addiction, I was also breaking thousands of bad habits that came along with the fucking addiction.
"Quitting chew" was a lot more than just no longer putting Kodiak in my lip, it was changing the entire way I lived. That seems kind of silly and over the top to me now, but it's the sad truth.
While I say addiction, I honestly think dependency is a better word. So much "bad" was born from me constantly turning to the tin and thinking it was a true part of me.
All that "bad" was REALLLY hard to undo and even more "bad" was born when I was trying to undo the old "bad". It felt like I was walking in circles in the mud, while wearing concrete shoes.
But I kept walking. Not sure why, but I did. Eventually I got out of the mud, busted out of the concrete shoes and turned "bad" into good.
Turns out I didn't need to depend on that shit and I never did.
I'm not on here as much as I used to be. I'm kinda just enjoying being "normal" again. Part of me misses telling some newbie to pull his head out of his fucking ass and to quit being a pussy ass bitch, but I think a bigger part of me doesn't.
If you are struggling, keep on walking. Things will get better, I promise and am living proof.
Quit on...
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Thanks to those who took time to say congrats on my 1,000 days of quit. It means a lot and is greatly appreciated.
Beating this addiction is tough stuff, especially early on. When I think back I ask myself "why the fuck was it so hard???"
For me, it was hard because not only was I breaking free from the chains of addiction, I was also breaking thousands of bad habits that came along with the fucking addiction.
"Quitting chew" was a lot more than just no longer putting Kodiak in my lip, it was changing the entire way I lived. That seems kind of silly and over the top to me now, but it's the sad truth.
While I say addiction, I honestly think dependency is a better word. So much "bad" was born from me constantly turning to the tin and thinking it was a true part of me.
All that "bad" was REALLLY hard to undo and even more "bad" was born when I was trying to undo the old "bad". It felt like I was walking in circles in the mud, while wearing concrete shoes.
But I kept walking. Not sure why, but I did. Eventually I got out of the mud, busted out of the concrete shoes and turned "bad" into good.
Turns out I didn't need to depend on that shit and I never did.
I'm not on here as much as I used to be. I'm kinda just enjoying being "normal" again. Part of me misses telling some newbie to pull his head out of his fucking ass and to quit being a pussy ass bitch, but I think a bigger part of me doesn't.
If you are struggling, keep on walking. Things will get better, I promise and am living proof.
Quit on...
Late to the party again! Thanks Diesel for all you've done. In you telling some newbie to pull his head out of his ass, you can always find wisdom. In that you've kept it real and honest. Most of us have taken a little bit of the things you've said and built upon it.
Congrats on the comma!
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Thanks to those who took time to say congrats on my 1,000 days of quit. It means a lot and is greatly appreciated.
Beating this addiction is tough stuff, especially early on. When I think back I ask myself "why the fuck was it so hard???"
For me, it was hard because not only was I breaking free from the chains of addiction, I was also breaking thousands of bad habits that came along with the fucking addiction.
"Quitting chew" was a lot more than just no longer putting Kodiak in my lip, it was changing the entire way I lived. That seems kind of silly and over the top to me now, but it's the sad truth.
While I say addiction, I honestly think dependency is a better word. So much "bad" was born from me constantly turning to the tin and thinking it was a true part of me.
All that "bad" was REALLLY hard to undo and even more "bad" was born when I was trying to undo the old "bad". It felt like I was walking in circles in the mud, while wearing concrete shoes.
But I kept walking. Not sure why, but I did. Eventually I got out of the mud, busted out of the concrete shoes and turned "bad" into good.
Turns out I didn't need to depend on that shit and I never did.
I'm not on here as much as I used to be. I'm kinda just enjoying being "normal" again. Part of me misses telling some newbie to pull his head out of his fucking ass and to quit being a pussy ass bitch, but I think a bigger part of me doesn't.
If you are struggling, keep on walking. Things will get better, I promise and am living proof.
Quit on...
Late to the party again! Thanks Diesel for all you've done. In you telling some newbie to pull his head out of his ass, you can always find wisdom. In that you've kept it real and honest. Most of us have taken a little bit of the things you've said and built upon it.
Congrats on the comma!
I'm late too, but have to say congrats and thanks for all the help you've given to so many along the way!
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Golf outing today. Could barely hear a thing on the first tee with all the can thwaping going on. Didn't bug me though.
Guy in my cart knew I had quit. He asked if it would bother me if he dipped. Lmao. I said, "dude, I don't give a shit. Dip away"...and he did the entire round. Didn't bug me though.
I told him 15 years was enough. He said "brother I got that doubled, I started in 1985." All the sudden another guy came running over to our cart, he said... "1985???? That's the year I started too, give me some!!!" Then they hi-fived. That bugged me.
He asked why I quit. I didn't want to be preachy or tell a long story so I simply said, "dude..I could barely feel my tongue anymore..." and he stopped me mid sentence. He said he fucking hated the shit and knew how bad it was for him. He said he tried to quit a million times, but just couldn't do it. It was like he had a brief moment of complete honesty and frustration. But then like all good addicts, he must have just said "fuck it" and let loose a long brown luggie. Didn't bug me though.
Nothing bugs me anymore when it comes to being around others dipping. Why? Because fuck them. I'm better than that. We all are.
Quit on...
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Golf outing today. Could barely hear a thing on the first tee with all the can thwaping going on. Didn't bug me though.
Guy in my cart knew I had quit. He asked if it would bother me if he dipped. Lmao. I said, "dude, I don't give a shit. Dip away"...and he did the entire round. Didn't bug me though.
I told him 15 years was enough. He said "brother I got that doubled, I started in 1985." All the sudden another guy came running over to our cart, he said... "1985???? That's the year I started too, give me some!!!" Then they hi-fived. That bugged me.
He asked why I quit. I didn't want to be preachy or tell a long story so I simply said, "dude..I could barely feel my tongue anymore..." and he stopped me mid sentence. He said he fucking hated the shit and knew how bad it was for him. He said he tried to quit a million times, but just couldn't do it. It was like he had a brief moment of complete honesty and frustration. But then like all good addicts, he must have just said "fuck it" and let loose a long brown luggie. Didn't bug me though.
Nothing bugs me anymore when it comes to being around others dipping. Why? Because fuck them. I'm better than that. We all are.
Quit on...
Fuckin A Right Diesel. You are way beyond that stupid bullshit! Nice to hear from you. I quit with you EVERY day.
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Congrats on the 2 years!!!
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Congrats on the 2 years!!!
Badass! Congrats on the past two years, AND your golf outing. All quit. No bullshit. The best.
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Congrats on the 2 years!!!
Badass! Congrats on the past two years, AND your golf outing. All quit. No bullshit. The best.
Ceiling Unlimited! Nice work D!
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Congrats on the 2 years!!!
Badass! Congrats on the past two years, AND your golf outing. All quit. No bullshit. The best.
Ceiling Unlimited! Nice work D!
Add a year for me big D. Happy 3 years. And thank you
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Congrats on the 2 years!!!
Badass! Congrats on the past two years, AND your golf outing. All quit. No bullshit. The best.
Ceiling Unlimited! Nice work D!
Add a year for me big D. Happy 3 years. And thank you
Thanks fellas! And finally someone knows how to add. It's THREE years you no counting sons a bitches! HAHAAA.
Quit on...
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Congrats on the 2 years!!!
Badass! Congrats on the past two years, AND your golf outing. All quit. No bullshit. The best.
Ceiling Unlimited! Nice work D!
Add a year for me big D. Happy 3 years. And thank you
Thanks fellas! And finally someone knows how to add. It's THREE years you no counting sons a bitches! HAHAAA.
Quit on...
congrats
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Congrats on the 2 years!!!
Badass! Congrats on the past two years, AND your golf outing. All quit. No bullshit. The best.
Ceiling Unlimited! Nice work D!
Add a year for me big D. Happy 3 years. And thank you
Thanks fellas! And finally someone knows how to add. It's THREE years you no counting sons a bitches! HAHAAA.
Quit on...
Razd was a little off yesterday. Don't take it out on him! Diesel... thanks for all of your help in the early days of my quit!
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Congrats on the 2 years!!!
Badass! Congrats on the past two years, AND your golf outing. All quit. No bullshit. The best.
Ceiling Unlimited! Nice work D!
Add a year for me big D. Happy 3 years. And thank you
Thanks fellas! And finally someone knows how to add. It's THREE years you no counting sons a bitches! HAHAAA.
Quit on...
Razd was a little off yesterday. Don't take it out on him! Diesel... thanks for all of your help in the early days of my quit!
Sheesh.
One, Two, Three, there I can count. Well Done D!!!
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4 years? Damn.
I never thought I'd make it 4 DAYS.
Just proof that any asshole can do it, if they really want to.
Freedom is a beautiful thing, boys and girls. GET SOME!!!
Qu it on...
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4 years? Damn.
I never thought I'd make it 4 DAYS.
Just proof that any asshole can do it, if they really want to.
Freedom is a beautiful thing, boys and girls. GET SOME!!!
Qu it on...
Congratulations diesel! 4years is phenomenal!
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4 years? Damn.
I never thought I'd make it 4 DAYS.
Just proof that any asshole can do it, if they really want to.
Freedom is a beautiful thing, boys and girls. GET SOME!!!
Qu it on...
Congratulations diesel! 4years is phenomenal!
Congratulations D. If you weren't celebrating 4 years, I'm not sure a lot of us would have made it either. You are the man.
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4 years? Damn.
I never thought I'd make it 4 DAYS.
Just proof that any asshole can do it, if they really want to.
Freedom is a beautiful thing, boys and girls. GET SOME!!!
Qu it on...
Congratulations diesel! 4years is phenomenal!
Congratulations D. If you weren't celebrating 4 years, I'm not sure a lot of us would have made it either. You are the man.
Congrats bud.
I hope you celebrated like h*ll, as you have earned it, 100% and more.
well done.
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4 years? Damn.
I never thought I'd make it 4 DAYS.
Just proof that any asshole can do it, if they really want to.
Freedom is a beautiful thing, boys and girls. GET SOME!!!
Qu it on...
Congratulations diesel! 4years is phenomenal!
Congratulations D. If you weren't celebrating 4 years, I'm not sure a lot of us would have made it either. You are the man.
Congrats bud.
I hope you celebrated like h*ll, as you have earned it, 100% and more.
well done.
Congrats on 4 years of quit, combined with 4 years of demanding accountability...no one does it better.
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4 years? Damn.
I never thought I'd make it 4 DAYS.
Just proof that any asshole can do it, if they really want to.
Freedom is a beautiful thing, boys and girls. GET SOME!!!
Qu it on...
Congratulations diesel! 4years is phenomenal!
Congratulations D. If you weren't celebrating 4 years, I'm not sure a lot of us would have made it either. You are the man.
Congrats bud.
I hope you celebrated like h*ll, as you have earned it, 100% and more.
well done.
Congrats on 4 years of quit, combined with 4 years of demanding accountability...no one does it better.
Diesel,
The Afterimage of your addiction has faded behind 4 Animated years of Everday Glory. Your Marathon of quit has been a Headlong Flight of Lessons for us all on how to build Gardens of quit for ourselves. You have Faced Up to the nic bitch and beat her down Hand Over Fist. Your Show Don't Tell example has shown us all that the is more than just a Ghost of a Chance to exercise our Freewill and claim One Little Victory every damn day. You have not been Driven every which Way the Wind Blows. You always tell it How it Is . Your early Neurotica has finally turned into a Peaceable Kindgdom.
Ceiling Unlimited Bro.
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4 years? Damn.
I never thought I'd make it 4 DAYS.
Just proof that any asshole can do it, if they really want to.
Freedom is a beautiful thing, boys and girls. GET SOME!!!
Qu it on...
Congratulations diesel! 4years is phenomenal!
Congratulations D. If you weren't celebrating 4 years, I'm not sure a lot of us would have made it either. You are the man.
Congrats bud.
I hope you celebrated like h*ll, as you have earned it, 100% and more.
well done.
Congrats on 4 years of quit, combined with 4 years of demanding accountability...no one does it better.
Diesel,
The Afterimage of your addiction has faded behind 4 Animated years of Everday Glory. Your Marathon of quit has been a Headlong Flight of Lessons for us all on how to build Gardens of quit for ourselves. You have Faced Up to the nic bitch and beat her down Hand Over Fist. Your Show Don't Tell example has shown us all that the is more than just a Ghost of a Chance to exercise our Freewill and claim One Little Victory every damn day. You have not been Driven every which Way the Wind Blows. You always tell it How it Is . Your early Neurotica has finally turned into a Peaceable Kindgdom.
Ceiling Unlimited Bro.
Thanks guys.
Damn rdad, way to go HAM with some serious Rushology! I think NP would be proud.
Probably won't dust this thing off again for awhile. Keep on trucking boys and girls.
Quit on...
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1700 days. Lmao.
If anyone tells you it will never be easy, it's simply not true.
Dip is not even a blip on the radar of my life. I simply don't think about it.
Only reason I realized I hit the 17th floor is because I was cleaning apps from my phone and was debating to get rid of "Quit Tracker" and saw I was at 1700. I just laughed. Quite a contrast ftom my early days when I looked at the quit tracker and would cry.
Believe me. If quitting still sucked and was hard, I would say so. If I still thought about it a lot or still had cravings, I'd tell you that too.
But I don't. I'm free and I'm happy.
I'm not a very smart man but I know one thing to be absolutely TRUE...Dip NEVER made me happy. I just thought it did.
To bad it took me quitting to figure that out.
Quit on...
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1700 days. Lmao.
If anyone tells you it will never be easy, it's simply not true.
Dip is not even a blip on the radar of my life. I simply don't think about it.
Only reason I realized I hit the 17th floor is because I was cleaning apps from my phone and was debating to get rid of "Quit Tracker" and saw I was at 1700. I just laughed. Quite a contrast ftom my early days when I looked at the quit tracker and would cry.
Believe me. If quitting still sucked and was hard, I would say so. If I still thought about it a lot or still had cravings, I'd tell you that too.
But I don't. I'm free and I'm happy.
I'm not a very smart man but I know one thing to be absolutely TRUE...Dip NEVER made me happy. I just thought it did.
To bad it took me quitting to figure that out.
Quit on...
Werd. Not even a smidgen of a blip.
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Congratulations brother!
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5 years. Who'd a thunk it.
Quit on y'all.
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5 years. Who'd a thunk it.
Quit on y'all.
Hell. Yes!
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5 years. Who'd a thunk it.
Quit on y'all.
Hell. Yes!
Hey Diesel. If it had not been for people like yourself who selflessly helped all of us newbie quitters I probably wouldn't be here today. Enjoy the 5'er!!!
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Right on Diesel! Simply Awesome.
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6 years quit. I remember when I didn't think I'd make it 6 DAYS.
I think it's good to remember the bad times, but I am also glad I have forgotten a lot of those times, and only recall them when I force myself too.
They say "never forget" but sometimes you just have to let go. In fact sometimes you will never get "better" until you stop trying. That's where I'm at right now, and it's nice.
For those in the struggle...keep grinding, I promise it will get better. If it didn't, I wouldn't have made it 6 years. But it does, and I did.
Quit on...