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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: I'm done with chew on January 26, 2015, 12:53:00 PM
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Hello! My name is Jake. IÂ’m about to turn 33 years old and IÂ’ve chewed for so long I canÂ’t remember what it was like to go through a day without chew. I started chewing when I was 16 years old. ItÂ’s crazy to see how long that is after I type it out. More than half my life! I have wanted to quit for the last several years but always convince myself that I canÂ’t do it. I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.
Recently I watched a movie (I forget the title) where a man who wrote a self awareness book helps a man quit smoking. The way he did it is what finally got me to this point. He made the young man face an ocean and yell out his name followed by the declaration that he DOES NOT smoke. It was about the mindset of this man. Rather than tell himself and others that he was “quitting” smoking, he took all the power of his addiction away by declaring that he DOES not smoke. Period!
My fear of the unknown has kept me from being tobacco free. I have always looked at it as an obstacle I canÂ’t overcome. Well, today I quit. IÂ’m not quitting. I AM NOT A CHEWER! I have finally realized that my mindset is what will make me successful in this new chapter of my life. IÂ’m leaving the negative self talk behind and I am going to move forward with enthusiasm.
I have done some reading and I know this is going to be hard. IÂ’ll probably have moments where I second guess all of this. But right now I am committing to be a non-chewer. And I am going to focus on that. Here goes everything!
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Dude you are in the right place. We quit nicotine one day at a time here. You will be in may 2015 group for posting roll. You got to want it if you want to stay quit. You got to want it as much as you want to breathe. You've made the best decision of your life dude. Do not hesitate to reach out for help if you need it. Weve ALL been through the first 3 days it isn't fun but that is the cost of freedom. You can do it. You are doing it. Make sure you toss all forms of nicotine because after today won't need them anymore. If you need anything pm me top right corner of your screen.
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Please read the Welcome Center thread and learn how to post roll. Roll call is our promise to be nicotine free for 24 hours.
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Hello! My name is Jacob Johnson. IÂ’m about to turn 33 years old and IÂ’ve chewed for so long I canÂ’t remember what it was like to go through a day without chew. I started chewing when I was 16 years old. ItÂ’s crazy to see how long that is after I type it out. More than half my life! I have wanted to quit for the last several years but always convince myself that I canÂ’t do it. I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.
Recently I watched a movie (I forget the title) where a man who wrote a self awareness book helps a man quit smoking. The way he did it is what finally got me to this point. He made the young man face an ocean and yell out his name followed by the declaration that he DOES NOT smoke. It was about the mindset of this man. Rather than tell himself and others that he was “quitting” smoking, he took all the power of his addiction away by declaring that he DOES not smoke. Period!
My fear of the unknown has kept me from being tobacco free. I have always looked at it as an obstacle I canÂ’t overcome. Well, today I quit. IÂ’m not quitting. I AM NOT A CHEWER! I have finally realized that my mindset is what will make me successful in this new chapter of my life. IÂ’m leaving the negative self talk behind and I am going to move forward with enthusiasm.
I have done some reading and I know this is going to be hard. IÂ’ll probably have moments where I second guess all of this. But right now I am committing to be a non-chewer. And I am going to focus on that. Here goes everything!
I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.
Lie lie lie lie....... Devil talk. Nic B@*h. Call it what you want, but it is a LIE.
What's worse is you believe it, and so did I.
It's poison that a plant produces to kill invading bugs... That same poison will kill you.
And I promise you can't jump higher, run faster, think smarter, enjoy life more with poison.
Capitol letter BULLS#@T!
Sorry man... It just pisses me off when grown men get away from reality. You were not created to need POISON. It has only stolen your time, your potential, your attitude, and your health.
JJ... Learn how to post roll today. Let's go start over where that 16 year old STUD made a bad decision.
New identity.... New life.... New reason to live ODAAT.
I quit with you today.
Rawls
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Hello! My name is Jacob Johnson. IÂ’m about to turn 33 years old and IÂ’ve chewed for so long I canÂ’t remember what it was like to go through a day without chew. I started chewing when I was 16 years old. ItÂ’s crazy to see how long that is after I type it out. More than half my life! I have wanted to quit for the last several years but always convince myself that I canÂ’t do it. I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.
Recently I watched a movie (I forget the title) where a man who wrote a self awareness book helps a man quit smoking. The way he did it is what finally got me to this point. He made the young man face an ocean and yell out his name followed by the declaration that he DOES NOT smoke. It was about the mindset of this man. Rather than tell himself and others that he was “quitting” smoking, he took all the power of his addiction away by declaring that he DOES not smoke. Period!
My fear of the unknown has kept me from being tobacco free. I have always looked at it as an obstacle I canÂ’t overcome. Well, today I quit. IÂ’m not quitting. I AM NOT A CHEWER! I have finally realized that my mindset is what will make me successful in this new chapter of my life. IÂ’m leaving the negative self talk behind and I am going to move forward with enthusiasm.
I have done some reading and I know this is going to be hard. IÂ’ll probably have moments where I second guess all of this. But right now I am committing to be a non-chewer. And I am going to focus on that. Here goes everything!
I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.
Lie lie lie lie....... Devil talk. Nic B@*h. Call it what you want, but it is a LIE.
What's worse is you believe it, and so did I.
It's poison that a plant produces to kill invading bugs... That same poison will kill you.
And I promise you can't jump higher, run faster, think smarter, enjoy life more with poison.
Capitol letter BULLS#@T!
Sorry man... It just pisses me off when grown men get away from reality. You were not created to need POISON. It has only stolen your time, your potential, your attitude, and your health.
JJ... Learn how to post roll today. Let's go start over where that 16 year old STUD made a bad decision.
New identity.... New life.... New reason to live ODAAT.
I quit with you today.
Rawls
I really can't remember what it was like to not chew. I have a lot to recover from. It's only been a few hours and I already feel out of place in my own body. It's crazy how "off" I feel right now. I posted roll. But it looks like I may have messed it up.
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You did fine for your first time. Congrats on making your promise... Now go get a bottle of water and start flushing your body.... Then walk. Then read on Here. Then Repeat.
The feeling "off" is called fog around here... Learn to like it.. You won't die, it's just a crazy ride that will come and go...
On roll... Tomorrow morning early....
Refresh the page, then find current list. And push quote. You then select "all text" and cut it. Then got to window above and "paste" what you just cut.
At the top find the last person who entered their name and post under them.
Bingo. Another day, another promise of no nicotine of any kind for 24 hours.
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Hello! My name is Jacob Johnson. IÂ’m about to turn 33 years old and IÂ’ve chewed for so long I canÂ’t remember what it was like to go through a day without chew. I started chewing when I was 16 years old. ItÂ’s crazy to see how long that is after I type it out. More than half my life! I have wanted to quit for the last several years but always convince myself that I canÂ’t do it. I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.
Recently I watched a movie (I forget the title) where a man who wrote a self awareness book helps a man quit smoking. The way he did it is what finally got me to this point. He made the young man face an ocean and yell out his name followed by the declaration that he DOES NOT smoke. It was about the mindset of this man. Rather than tell himself and others that he was “quitting” smoking, he took all the power of his addiction away by declaring that he DOES not smoke. Period!
My fear of the unknown has kept me from being tobacco free. I have always looked at it as an obstacle I canÂ’t overcome. Well, today I quit. IÂ’m not quitting. I AM NOT A CHEWER! I have finally realized that my mindset is what will make me successful in this new chapter of my life. IÂ’m leaving the negative self talk behind and I am going to move forward with enthusiasm.
I have done some reading and I know this is going to be hard. IÂ’ll probably have moments where I second guess all of this. But right now I am committing to be a non-chewer. And I am going to focus on that. Here goes everything!
I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.
Lie lie lie lie....... Devil talk. Nic B@*h. Call it what you want, but it is a LIE.
What's worse is you believe it, and so did I.
It's poison that a plant produces to kill invading bugs... That same poison will kill you.
And I promise you can't jump higher, run faster, think smarter, enjoy life more with poison.
Capitol letter BULLS#@T!
Sorry man... It just pisses me off when grown men get away from reality. You were not created to need POISON. It has only stolen your time, your potential, your attitude, and your health.
JJ... Learn how to post roll today. Let's go start over where that 16 year old STUD made a bad decision.
New identity.... New life.... New reason to live ODAAT.
I quit with you today.
Rawls
I really can't remember what it was like to not chew. I have a lot to recover from. It's only been a few hours and I already feel out of place in my own body. It's crazy how "off" I feel right now. I posted roll. But it looks like I may have messed it up.
Just read your intro....I can PROMISE you that life is immeasurably better without Chew. Be excited about quitting bro. Its the greatest decision you ever made. Welcome!
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Jacob, great decision to quit with KTC. Go ahead and shout at that big ocean or forest that you are now quit! But also be ready for that slutty mermaid or wood nymph to pop out and whisper to you that it's ok to just have one . . . Be ready for that. We call her the nic bitch here. And KTC has tools to help you fight the craves and stay quit.
Do you have a no cave plan? Have you printed out the contract? Its in my wallet and I read it from time to time. Get numbers from your fellow quittters. It seems weird, but let go of that. The most important thing is to stay quit. My "no cave plan" is to call three of the brothers i have here and talk to them, then sign the contract before i ever break down.
If you need my number PM me. You are on the right track.
Quit with you.
CJ
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I'm amazed with how much encouragement I've recieved in just a couple hrs as a member here. I think I found the right place to be today. A buddy of mine was telling me that tomorrow would be harder. I bought sunflower seeds to help. He said it was his best weapon. I don't know if I really have a definitive plan in place. I figured I'd just take it a minute at a time. Though this site has helped so far. I keep stopping my work to check the forums. I'll have to read a lot more after work. Looks like there's a lot of history here that would help me understand things. I'm having a moment right now where I wish I could go back and kick my younger selfs ass!
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I'm amazed with how much encouragement I've recieved in just a couple hrs as a member here. I think I found the right place to be today. A buddy of mine was telling me that tomorrow would be harder. I bought sunflower seeds to help. He said it was his best weapon. I don't know if I really have a definitive plan in place. I figured I'd just take it a minute at a time. Though this site has helped so far. I keep stopping my work to check the forums. I'll have to read a lot more after work. Looks like there's a lot of history here that would help me understand things. I'm having a moment right now where I wish I could go back and kick my younger selfs ass!
My brother been dipping longer than you are old, 38 years! You need to realize my friend your an addict just like me! What you are experincing from time to time is what we call fog. It will go away on time but I can't tell you the cravings will because I'm only on day 30 and have them everyday but there definetly nothing I can't handle! Get you some nicotine free stuff for emergencies a lot better than caving! We can't perdict the future but we can damn sure change somethings in our past! I'm proud to be quit with you my brother! Control the rage!
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I'm only 4 days in today, but this was actually a pretty good day. I don't really understand how to use much of this site, but I started getting involved in my quit group today, and I think it made a big difference on my quit. I did a lot of research before coming here so I understand a lot of the stuff people who are experienced here are saying. And Ive spent the last several days reading everyone's' comments I can in any post I can find. But it didn't really mean a lot until today when I interacted. That made it more real. I'm not computer savvy or a big talker but I think I'm gonna get to know some folks. Make it a bit more personal.
I think this thread is supposed to be a log of my quit. So day 4.... feel like I'm under water, and I have almost zero motivation. But learning that a little involvement and interaction with people who are in the same boat as me is important for my quit.
'bang head' - no reason for that emotion thing other then it makes me laugh when I see it....
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I'm only 4 days in today, but this was actually a pretty good day. I don't really understand how to use much of this site, but I started getting involved in my quit group today, and I think it made a big difference on my quit. I did a lot of research before coming here so I understand a lot of the stuff people who are experienced here are saying. And Ive spent the last several days reading everyone's' comments I can in any post I can find. But it didn't really mean a lot until today when I interacted. That made it more real. I'm not computer savvy or a big talker but I think I'm gonna get to know some folks. Make it a bit more personal.
I think this thread is supposed to be a log of my quit. So day 4.... feel like I'm under water, and I have almost zero motivation. But learning that a little involvement and interaction with people who are in the same boat as me is important for my quit.
'bang head' - no reason for that emotion thing other then it makes me laugh when I see it....
That emotion thing was my life for the first week or so of my quit. Reading a lot helped me, that was sort of my weapon against craves. Whenever I wanted a dip I would come on here and just READ READ READ. Made me realize that 1) I was not alone, and 2) most had dipped a lot longer than I had, so my "I can have one and I'll just quit next month" mentality was BS.
I struggled that first week because I kept thinking I had so much to do and couldn't focus. But realized a week of fog and craves was an acceptable tradeoff for a life of FREEDOM. I can't say that every day gets better, man, but on average life gets better and better!
So power through! If a crave is bad, do absolutely anything but DON'T PUT THAT SHIT IN YOUR MOUTH. Pushups and walks helped me, or come on here and rage, whatever gets you through. Your quit is absolutely the most important thing, protect it!
I quit with you today, One Day At A Time.
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I'm only 4 days in today, but this was actually a pretty good day. I don't really understand how to use much of this site, but I started getting involved in my quit group today, and I think it made a big difference on my quit. I did a lot of research before coming here so I understand a lot of the stuff people who are experienced here are saying. And Ive spent the last several days reading everyone's' comments I can in any post I can find. But it didn't really mean a lot until today when I interacted. That made it more real. I'm not computer savvy or a big talker but I think I'm gonna get to know some folks. Make it a bit more personal.
I think this thread is supposed to be a log of my quit. So day 4.... feel like I'm under water, and I have almost zero motivation. But learning that a little involvement and interaction with people who are in the same boat as me is important for my quit.
'bang head' - no reason for that emotion thing other then it makes me laugh when I see it....
That emotion thing was my life for the first week or so of my quit. Reading a lot helped me, that was sort of my weapon against craves. Whenever I wanted a dip I would come on here and just READ READ READ. Made me realize that 1) I was not alone, and 2) most had dipped a lot longer than I had, so my "I can have one and I'll just quit next month" mentality was BS.
I struggled that first week because I kept thinking I had so much to do and couldn't focus. But realized a week of fog and craves was an acceptable tradeoff for a life of FREEDOM. I can't say that every day gets better, man, but on average life gets better and better!
So power through! If a crave is bad, do absolutely anything but DON'T PUT THAT SHIT IN YOUR MOUTH. Pushups and walks helped me, or come on here and rage, whatever gets you through. Your quit is absolutely the most important thing, protect it!
I quit with you today, One Day At A Time.
IDWC, welcome, brother. You are in the right place.
You mentioned not knowing what life was like without chew. I know the feeling. I used to tell myself, "Dipping is sucha part of ME that if I quit, who will I be? What if no one likes who I am without dip?"
Addict speaking bullshit.
The funnier part was when I finally manned up and Quit, and then told people, they were all like, "You chew tobacco?" I was ninja big time, and they never knew.
Read as much as you can around here. There are plenty of guys who will identify with you, and vise versa. I dipped for damned near 30 years, and like you, I had no idea what 'normal' was.
But I can tell you this - you will never regret Quitting. Ever.
Great decision. If you need anything, shoot me a PM, or just shout out. The support here is non stop.
-Nolaq - Day 1,782
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Rewiring yourself is a crazy process. You need to find out and accept that the real you has been buried by addiction for decades. As you come to find out just who you are without nicotine... You're going to be amazed at the freedom from it. I don't know about you but every part of my day for 25 years was a constant planning session to feed the beast. Never enjoying the moment but instead looking ahead for the next fix. I could never get enough. I would make myself sick, packing my lip so full I looked deformed. Getting sick from too much but going right back in with a monster dip to get my quota.
Damn.
Let me tell you... Being free from that need?... Is a weight lifted off my life that I didn't know I was carrying. Today is 654 days free. Some nasty downs, some sweet highs. I will NEVER trade this freedom for that kind of existence again.
Own this bro. You will not regret it.
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Rewiring yourself is a crazy process. You need to find out and accept that the real you has been buried by addiction for decades. As you come to find out just who you are without nicotine... You're going to be amazed at the freedom from it. I don't know about you but every part of my day for 25 years was a constant planning session to feed the beast. Never enjoying the moment but instead looking ahead for the next fix. I could never get enough. I would make myself sick, packing my lip so full I looked deformed. Getting sick from too much but going right back in with a monster dip to get my quota.
Damn.
Let me tell you... Being free from that need?... Is a weight lifted off my life that I didn't know I was carrying. Today is 654 days free. Some nasty downs, some sweet highs. I will NEVER trade this freedom for that kind of existence again.
Own this bro. You will not regret it.
I feel good being on my 5th day. But I look forward to the day when I just feel good. This is still a constant battle. One im sure isn't going to end too soon. For now all I can focus on is making it through today with out piling shit in my lip. But I'm glad to be this far along and I'm gonna fight every minute if need be to keep putting distance between my new life and the demon weed. Thanks for the support.
Ps. I'm a peanut butter cap'n crunch man myself.
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Rewiring yourself is a crazy process. You need to find out and accept that the real you has been buried by addiction for decades. As you come to find out just who you are without nicotine... You're going to be amazed at the freedom from it. I don't know about you but every part of my day for 25 years was a constant planning session to feed the beast. Never enjoying the moment but instead looking ahead for the next fix. I could never get enough. I would make myself sick, packing my lip so full I looked deformed. Getting sick from too much but going right back in with a monster dip to get my quota.
Damn.
Let me tell you... Being free from that need?... Is a weight lifted off my life that I didn't know I was carrying. Today is 654 days free. Some nasty downs, some sweet highs. I will NEVER trade this freedom for that kind of existence again.
Own this bro. You will not regret it.
I feel good being on my 5th day. But I look forward to the day when I just feel good. This is still a constant battle. One im sure isn't going to end too soon. For now all I can focus on is making it through today with out piling shit in my lip. But I'm glad to be this far along and I'm gonna fight every minute if need be to keep putting distance between my new life and the demon weed. Thanks for the support.
Ps. I'm a peanut butter cap'n crunch man myself.
Welcome to your quit! FYI, its not Apple's choice of breakfast foods, but I kid him it is....right Sugar Smacks?
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What's up IDWC.
Noticed you been flying around like a hawk.... Ata boy. Keep reading.
You got a plan for tonight? Got a plan for this weekend?
Stand strong on your word, be prepared, stay busy, carry water everywhere you go....
Its just a MENTAL thing for you now.... you can overcome that.
Nothing wrong with a little suffering, we are all too spoiled and used to having what ever our heart desires.
Tell it not today..... Be excited to win each day with a plan.
PM Me if you need anything.
Quit with you today.
Rawls
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Keep up the fight brother! I'm on day 34 wish I could tell you that it's getting easier but I'm not gonna lie to you! If you've never had to really fight for something worth while in your life to quit for you have now! It's worth every damn second of every day to keep death away! Proud to be quit with you my brother! ODAAT!
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Day 19 -
Fog has pretty much lifted for me lately. I have brief moments where I get tongue tied or I find myself staring off into space, but these moments are becoming rare. I have noticed that over the last week or so I'm quicker to get angry. Things that would normally be a minor irritant are setting me off in an internal rage. I've been good about not letting it show to the people around me (especially at the office). It's not their fault I'm dealing with this shit. My wife and/or co-workers didn't get me hooked on chew so they don't deserve any attitude I'm getting from the rewiring process. My wife's an understanding lady and gives me some space if she senses that I'm in a grouchy mood. And luckily the moments pass quickly. But I appreciate that she will also call me out and remind me that my angry moments are from my brain relearning how to cope with everyday stress, and she doesn't deserve any backlash because of it. I'm glad shes honest. When your in the moment of a crave and your feeling angry it's easy to deflect or get tunnel vision. I can easily end up finding a non existent problem to focus on. This is my battle. She didn't ask for it and it's important to keep her support through this and not allow an attitude to build resentment. Like I said, I'm normally a level headed person and slow to get angry so I'm sure this will pass. My wife and I have only had one fight in 8 years and I'm not looking to add a +1 in that department.
On a more positive side.... My work production is fantastic this week. The fog killed it for a awhile but now I'm enjoying the benefits of not having to put off meetings for a few extra minutes so I can finish a dip in my office or leave work for lunch to get a new can. A client walks into my office and I don't have to hide my bulging cheek while I rush the conversation as I look for an excuse to leave for a moment so I can rinse my mouth. It's these little things that I'm enjoying right now. I love going to Walmart and not having to sit in the truck while my wife goes in. I love not having to check my teeth in mirrors 20 times a day for fear of having black flakes between my teeth. Anyone else notice how much less plaque your teeth gets over the course of a day? It's crazy!
OK, This was meant as an update on my journal thread for my future self to look back on. I'm excited about my quit though and am finding myself rambling. This quit is probably the hardest thing I've ever done but it's giving me some of the most pride I've ever had. My college degree didn't give me this much pride. You can bullshit your way though a class, but you can't bullshit your way through quitting chew. We earn every moment of this freedom.
^^^^ I just started learning how to change fonts and things. Kinda cool.... and very distracting.
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Go! IDWC Go!
You stud! Got some strong quit going on in here.
Proud to quit with you today brother. EDD ODAAT.
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Go! IDWC Go!
You stud! Got some strong quit going on in here.
Proud to quit with you today brother. EDD ODAAT.
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Awesome! Sounds alot like myself! 'oh yeah'
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Go! IDWC Go!
You stud! Got some strong quit going on in here.
Proud to quit with you today brother. EDD ODAAT.
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Nice job brother! Keep fighting today. Remember... ODAAT. Own the day! Quit with you all day.
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Go! IDWC Go!
You stud! Got some strong quit going on in here.
Proud to quit with you today brother. EDD ODAAT.
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Nice job brother! Keep fighting today. Remember... ODAAT. Own the day! Quit with you all day.
This is a great intro. You've got some bad ass bad asses on your team posting in this intro. One day at a time you aren't going to believe how good freedom feels. Keep embracing Ktc (and you have really jumped in with enthusiasm) and you'll love where you are headed. Nicely done!
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Day 19 -
Fog has pretty much lifted for me lately. I have brief moments where I get tongue tied or I find myself staring off into space, but these moments are becoming rare. I have noticed that over the last week or so I'm quicker to get angry. Things that would normally be a minor irritant are setting me off in an internal rage. I've been good about not letting it show to the people around me (especially at the office). It's not their fault I'm dealing with this shit. My wife and/or co-workers didn't get me hooked on chew so they don't deserve any attitude I'm getting from the rewiring process. My wife's an understanding lady and gives me some space if she senses that I'm in a grouchy mood. And luckily the moments pass quickly. But I appreciate that she will also call me out and remind me that my angry moments are from my brain relearning how to cope with everyday stress, and she doesn't deserve any backlash because of it. I'm glad shes honest. When your in the moment of a crave and your feeling angry it's easy to deflect or get tunnel vision. I can easily end up finding a non existent problem to focus on. This is my battle. She didn't ask for it and it's important to keep her support through this and not allow an attitude to build resentment. Like I said, I'm normally a level headed person and slow to get angry so I'm sure this will pass. My wife and I have only had one fight in 8 years and I'm not looking to add a +1 in that department.
On a more positive side.... My work production is fantastic this week. The fog killed it for a awhile but now I'm enjoying the benefits of not having to put off meetings for a few extra minutes so I can finish a dip in my office or leave work for lunch to get a new can. A client walks into my office and I don't have to hide my bulging cheek while I rush the conversation as I look for an excuse to leave for a moment so I can rinse my mouth. It's these little things that I'm enjoying right now. I love going to Walmart and not having to sit in the truck while my wife goes in. I love not having to check my teeth in mirrors 20 times a day for fear of having black flakes between my teeth. Anyone else notice how much less plaque your teeth gets over the course of a day? It's crazy!
OK, This was meant as an update on my journal thread for my future self to look back on. I'm excited about my quit though and am finding myself rambling. This quit is probably the hardest thing I've ever done but it's giving me some of the most pride I've ever had. My college degree didn't give me this much pride. You can bullshit your way though a class, but you can't bullshit your way through quitting chew. We earn every moment of this freedom.
^^^^ I just started learning how to change fonts and things. Kinda cool.... and very distracting.
This is how you win against the bitch. Proud to be quit with you. Great read my friend.
Mogul
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I'm sitting in a hospital right now and I figure I got nothing but time to put a thought out in text. A couple hours ago i got a call from the NYS police saying that my mom was in a head on collision not far from where I work. She was taking my 2yr old niece home when another driver crossed lanes and hit her Ford focus head on. He wouldn't tell me any more other then where the scene was and to get there as soon as I could. My brother (the father of my niece) works near me and I gave him a ride into work today so I picked him up on the way. I didn't know where the accident was so he drove my truck. As I rode with him to the accident I had the thought that if I chewed tonight, no one I know would blame me. My brother chews and it would have been simple to reach over and take his can out of my cup holder. I was ashamed with this thought. I was overwhelmed with the need to get my promise out to someone again today. I figured if I distracted myself with a text or call to someone reaffirming my promise to not chew today, then it would be enough to keep me from caving. So I sent a text to 5 people here who I have contact with. All I said was that my mom was in an accident and I was promising not to cave. I didn't know if it would help but I knew I somehow had to post roll again today with someone. The amazing thing was.... It DID work. In the short minutes it took me to text these guys we had reached the accident scene. My mom had already left the scene as well as two other people in two separate cars. I guess after she was hit by car # 1 she hit car #2. My niece was perfectly fine. Thank God for good car seats. While I waited to be told what hospital she was taken to I took a couple pics of the car. It's definitely totaled. I just bought the car for her 3 months ago. Anyway the hospital was only 5 miles away so we got there fast. My mom has a broken leg and a broken collar bone. And of course some serious looking bruises on her face from the air bag and chest from the seat belt. But shes awake and smiling. When I asked her how she was feeling she said great and then asked me how my quit was going. It made me choke up because in the middle of everything she was feeling she was concerned with my quit. See my mother quit smoking a year ago next week. She smoked my entire life. A year ago I wanted to quit chewing and so we made a pact, we would quit together. I made it a few days, and she never looked back. It took me until 25 days ago to finally quit for good and she has been one of my biggest supporters. She would have been disappointed more then anyone if I had used her accident as an excuse to cave. Funny thing is once I posted roll again via text and took the option off the table, it never came back again. I think roll in the am is good, but maybe a person needs to post it again throughout the day if needed. I'm thankful I took a second to send some texts out and more thankful they all responded. I'm hoping to leave the hospital soon. My mom will stay overnight, but while I'm waiting for her scans to be done I'm gonna sit my Nic free ass here and read on the sight that has helped me do what I can't on my own.
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I'm sitting in a hospital right now and I figure I got nothing but time to put a thought out in text. A couple hours ago i got a call from the NYS police saying that my mom was in a head on collision not far from where I work. She was taking my 2yr old niece home when another driver crossed lanes and hit her Ford focus head on. He wouldn't tell me any more other then where the scene was and to get there as soon as I could. My brother (the father of my niece) works near me and I gave him a ride into work today so I picked him up on the way. I didn't know where the accident was so he drove my truck. As I rode with him to the accident I had the thought that if I chewed tonight, no one I know would blame me. My brother chews and it would have been simple to reach over and take his can out of my cup holder. I was ashamed with this thought. I was overwhelmed with the need to get my promise out to someone again today. I figured if I distracted myself with a text or call to someone reaffirming my promise to not chew today, then it would be enough to keep me from caving. So I sent a text to 5 people here who I have contact with. All I said was that my mom was in an accident and I was promising not to cave. I didn't know if it would help but I knew I somehow had to post roll again today with someone. The amazing thing was.... It DID work. In the short minutes it took me to text these guys we had reached the accident scene. My mom had already left the scene as well as two other people in two separate cars. I guess after she was hit by car # 1 she hit car #2. My niece was perfectly fine. Thank God for good car seats. While I waited to be told what hospital she was taken to I took a couple pics of the car. It's definitely totaled. I just bought the car for her 3 months ago. Anyway the hospital was only 5 miles away so we got there fast. My mom has a broken leg and a broken collar bone. And of course some serious looking bruises on her face from the air bag and chest from the seat belt. But shes awake and smiling. When I asked her how she was feeling she said great and then asked me how my quit was going. It made me choke up because in the middle of everything she was feeling she was concerned with my quit. See my mother quit smoking a year ago next week. She smoked my entire life. A year ago I wanted to quit chewing and so we made a pact, we would quit together. I made it a few days, and she never looked back. It took me until 25 days ago to finally quit for good and she has been one of my biggest supporters. She would have been disappointed more then anyone if I had used her accident as an excuse to cave. Funny thing is once I posted roll again via text and took the option off the table, it never came back again. I think roll in the am is good, but maybe a person needs to post it again throughout the day if needed. I'm thankful I took a second to send some texts out and more thankful they all responded. I'm hoping to leave the hospital soon. My mom will stay overnight, but while I'm waiting for her scans to be done I'm gonna sit my Nic free ass here and read on the sight that has helped me do what I can't on my own.
Awesome! My friend! Glad it all worked out! Damn nic bitch likes to make us think she's answer to everything when in turn she's just opposite! Quit on! Just an addict trying to help another addict!
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I'm sitting in a hospital right now and I figure I got nothing but time to put a thought out in text. A couple hours ago i got a call from the NYS police saying that my mom was in a head on collision not far from where I work. She was taking my 2yr old niece home when another driver crossed lanes and hit her Ford focus head on. He wouldn't tell me any more other then where the scene was and to get there as soon as I could. My brother (the father of my niece) works near me and I gave him a ride into work today so I picked him up on the way. I didn't know where the accident was so he drove my truck. As I rode with him to the accident I had the thought that if I chewed tonight, no one I know would blame me. My brother chews and it would have been simple to reach over and take his can out of my cup holder. I was ashamed with this thought. I was overwhelmed with the need to get my promise out to someone again today. I figured if I distracted myself with a text or call to someone reaffirming my promise to not chew today, then it would be enough to keep me from caving. So I sent a text to 5 people here who I have contact with. All I said was that my mom was in an accident and I was promising not to cave. I didn't know if it would help but I knew I somehow had to post roll again today with someone. The amazing thing was.... It DID work. In the short minutes it took me to text these guys we had reached the accident scene. My mom had already left the scene as well as two other people in two separate cars. I guess after she was hit by car # 1 she hit car #2. My niece was perfectly fine. Thank God for good car seats. While I waited to be told what hospital she was taken to I took a couple pics of the car. It's definitely totaled. I just bought the car for her 3 months ago. Anyway the hospital was only 5 miles away so we got there fast. My mom has a broken leg and a broken collar bone. And of course some serious looking bruises on her face from the air bag and chest from the seat belt. But shes awake and smiling. When I asked her how she was feeling she said great and then asked me how my quit was going. It made me choke up because in the middle of everything she was feeling she was concerned with my quit. See my mother quit smoking a year ago next week. She smoked my entire life. A year ago I wanted to quit chewing and so we made a pact, we would quit together. I made it a few days, and she never looked back. It took me until 25 days ago to finally quit for good and she has been one of my biggest supporters. She would have been disappointed more then anyone if I had used her accident as an excuse to cave. Funny thing is once I posted roll again via text and took the option off the table, it never came back again. I think roll in the am is good, but maybe a person needs to post it again throughout the day if needed. I'm thankful I took a second to send some texts out and more thankful they all responded. I'm hoping to leave the hospital soon. My mom will stay overnight, but while I'm waiting for her scans to be done I'm gonna sit my Nic free ass here and read on the sight that has helped me do what I can't on my own.
Glad all are ok. Scary stuff.
Just know that chew would have changed NONE of what happened. It does not have that kind of power. Popping a dip in is not the equivalent of Superman flying backwards around the earth to reverse time. It doesn't have that kind of power and Superman was a movie.
As you quot moves along, keep in mind that dip fills no voids in your life, it only creates more. You don't need that crap anymore. You never did...
Quit on...
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I'm sitting in a hospital right now and I figure I got nothing but time to put a thought out in text. A couple hours ago i got a call from the NYS police saying that my mom was in a head on collision not far from where I work. She was taking my 2yr old niece home when another driver crossed lanes and hit her Ford focus head on. He wouldn't tell me any more other then where the scene was and to get there as soon as I could. My brother (the father of my niece) works near me and I gave him a ride into work today so I picked him up on the way. I didn't know where the accident was so he drove my truck. As I rode with him to the accident I had the thought that if I chewed tonight, no one I know would blame me. My brother chews and it would have been simple to reach over and take his can out of my cup holder. I was ashamed with this thought. I was overwhelmed with the need to get my promise out to someone again today. I figured if I distracted myself with a text or call to someone reaffirming my promise to not chew today, then it would be enough to keep me from caving. So I sent a text to 5 people here who I have contact with. All I said was that my mom was in an accident and I was promising not to cave. I didn't know if it would help but I knew I somehow had to post roll again today with someone. The amazing thing was.... It DID work. In the short minutes it took me to text these guys we had reached the accident scene. My mom had already left the scene as well as two other people in two separate cars. I guess after she was hit by car # 1 she hit car #2. My niece was perfectly fine. Thank God for good car seats. While I waited to be told what hospital she was taken to I took a couple pics of the car. It's definitely totaled. I just bought the car for her 3 months ago. Anyway the hospital was only 5 miles away so we got there fast. My mom has a broken leg and a broken collar bone. And of course some serious looking bruises on her face from the air bag and chest from the seat belt. But shes awake and smiling. When I asked her how she was feeling she said great and then asked me how my quit was going. It made me choke up because in the middle of everything she was feeling she was concerned with my quit. See my mother quit smoking a year ago next week. She smoked my entire life. A year ago I wanted to quit chewing and so we made a pact, we would quit together. I made it a few days, and she never looked back. It took me until 25 days ago to finally quit for good and she has been one of my biggest supporters. She would have been disappointed more then anyone if I had used her accident as an excuse to cave. Funny thing is once I posted roll again via text and took the option off the table, it never came back again. I think roll in the am is good, but maybe a person needs to post it again throughout the day if needed. I'm thankful I took a second to send some texts out and more thankful they all responded. I'm hoping to leave the hospital soon. My mom will stay overnight, but while I'm waiting for her scans to be done I'm gonna sit my Nic free ass here and read on the sight that has helped me do what I can't on my own.
Glad all are ok. Scary stuff.
Just know that chew would have changed NONE of what happened. It does not have that kind of power. Popping a dip in is not the equivalent of Superman flying backwards around the earth to reverse time. It doesn't have that kind of power and Superman was a movie.
As you quot moves along, keep in mind that dip fills no voids in your life, it only creates more. You don't need that crap anymore. You never did...
Quit on...
I'm glad your family is ok. Family and friends is what life is really all about. When yu joined KTC you disn't expect to make new friends, but it is clear that you have gone just that. Congratulations on a job well done. One day at a time it gets better and easier.
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Hello! My name is Jacob Johnson. IÂ’m about to turn 33 years old and IÂ’ve chewed for so long I canÂ’t remember what it was like to go through a day without chew. I started chewing when I was 16 years old. ItÂ’s crazy to see how long that is after I type it out. More than half my life! I have wanted to quit for the last several years but always convince myself that I canÂ’t do it. I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.
Recently I watched a movie (I forget the title) where a man who wrote a self awareness book helps a man quit smoking. The way he did it is what finally got me to this point. He made the young man face an ocean and yell out his name followed by the declaration that he DOES NOT smoke. It was about the mindset of this man. Rather than tell himself and others that he was “quitting” smoking, he took all the power of his addiction away by declaring that he DOES not smoke. Period!
My fear of the unknown has kept me from being tobacco free. I have always looked at it as an obstacle I canÂ’t overcome. Well, today I quit. IÂ’m not quitting. I AM NOT A CHEWER! I have finally realized that my mindset is what will make me successful in this new chapter of my life. IÂ’m leaving the negative self talk behind and I am going to move forward with enthusiasm.
I have done some reading and I know this is going to be hard. IÂ’ll probably have moments where I second guess all of this. But right now I am committing to be a non-chewer. And I am going to focus on that. Here goes everything!
I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.
Lie lie lie lie....... Devil talk. Nic B@*h. Call it what you want, but it is a LIE.
What's worse is you believe it, and so did I.
It's poison that a plant produces to kill invading bugs... That same poison will kill you.
And I promise you can't jump higher, run faster, think smarter, enjoy life more with poison.
Capitol letter BULLS#@T!
Sorry man... It just pisses me off when grown men get away from reality. You were not created to need POISON. It has only stolen your time, your potential, your attitude, and your health.
JJ... Learn how to post roll today. Let's go start over where that 16 year old STUD made a bad decision.
New identity.... New life.... New reason to live ODAAT.
I quit with you today.
Rawls
I really can't remember what it was like to not chew. I have a lot to recover from. It's only been a few hours and I already feel out of place in my own body. It's crazy how "off" I feel right now. I posted roll. But it looks like I may have messed it up.
Welcome, man. I screwed up roll two days in a row, so don't sweat it. I had to have two pages open at the same time in order to follow the directions correctly....I'm blaming the fog...hahaah. You've picked a good place to be and a lot of us are trying to correct dumbass decisions we made in our teens. You're smarter than I am by a few years, so hold on tight, enjoy the rage against the nicotine and your stupidity in falling for her bullshit for so long you ARE NOT A USER ANY MORE.
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Hello! My name is Jacob Johnson. IÂ’m about to turn 33 years old and IÂ’ve chewed for so long I canÂ’t remember what it was like to go through a day without chew. I started chewing when I was 16 years old. ItÂ’s crazy to see how long that is after I type it out. More than half my life! I have wanted to quit for the last several years but always convince myself that I canÂ’t do it. I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.
Recently I watched a movie (I forget the title) where a man who wrote a self awareness book helps a man quit smoking. The way he did it is what finally got me to this point. He made the young man face an ocean and yell out his name followed by the declaration that he DOES NOT smoke. It was about the mindset of this man. Rather than tell himself and others that he was “quitting” smoking, he took all the power of his addiction away by declaring that he DOES not smoke. Period!
My fear of the unknown has kept me from being tobacco free. I have always looked at it as an obstacle I canÂ’t overcome. Well, today I quit. IÂ’m not quitting. I AM NOT A CHEWER! I have finally realized that my mindset is what will make me successful in this new chapter of my life. IÂ’m leaving the negative self talk behind and I am going to move forward with enthusiasm.
I have done some reading and I know this is going to be hard. IÂ’ll probably have moments where I second guess all of this. But right now I am committing to be a non-chewer. And I am going to focus on that. Here goes everything!
I tell myself that itÂ’s part of who I am and life wonÂ’t be as good without chew.
Lie lie lie lie....... Devil talk. Nic B@*h. Call it what you want, but it is a LIE.
What's worse is you believe it, and so did I.
It's poison that a plant produces to kill invading bugs... That same poison will kill you.
And I promise you can't jump higher, run faster, think smarter, enjoy life more with poison.
Capitol letter BULLS#@T!
Sorry man... It just pisses me off when grown men get away from reality. You were not created to need POISON. It has only stolen your time, your potential, your attitude, and your health.
JJ... Learn how to post roll today. Let's go start over where that 16 year old STUD made a bad decision.
New identity.... New life.... New reason to live ODAAT.
I quit with you today.
Rawls
I really can't remember what it was like to not chew. I have a lot to recover from. It's only been a few hours and I already feel out of place in my own body. It's crazy how "off" I feel right now. I posted roll. But it looks like I may have messed it up.
Welcome, man. I screwed up roll two days in a row, so don't sweat it. I had to have two pages open at the same time in order to follow the directions correctly....I'm blaming the fog...hahaah. You've picked a good place to be and a lot of us are trying to correct dumbass decisions we made in our teens. You're smarter than I am by a few years, so hold on tight, enjoy the rage against the nicotine and your stupidity in falling for her bullshit for so long you ARE NOT A USER ANY MORE.
Brother that is one of the best posts I have ever read here. Your Mom sounds like an awesome lady! I am so glad everyone is OK and that you are still quit. I promise your quit is stronger now. KTC quitting at its finest. Outstanding job.
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I'm sitting in a hospital right now and I figure I got nothing but time to put a thought out in text. A couple hours ago i got a call from the NYS police saying that my mom was in a head on collision not far from where I work. She was taking my 2yr old niece home when another driver crossed lanes and hit her Ford focus head on. He wouldn't tell me any more other then where the scene was and to get there as soon as I could. My brother (the father of my niece) works near me and I gave him a ride into work today so I picked him up on the way. I didn't know where the accident was so he drove my truck. As I rode with him to the accident I had the thought that if I chewed tonight, no one I know would blame me. My brother chews and it would have been simple to reach over and take his can out of my cup holder. I was ashamed with this thought. I was overwhelmed with the need to get my promise out to someone again today. I figured if I distracted myself with a text or call to someone reaffirming my promise to not chew today, then it would be enough to keep me from caving. So I sent a text to 5 people here who I have contact with. All I said was that my mom was in an accident and I was promising not to cave. I didn't know if it would help but I knew I somehow had to post roll again today with someone. The amazing thing was.... It DID work. In the short minutes it took me to text these guys we had reached the accident scene. My mom had already left the scene as well as two other people in two separate cars. I guess after she was hit by car # 1 she hit car #2. My niece was perfectly fine. Thank God for good car seats. While I waited to be told what hospital she was taken to I took a couple pics of the car. It's definitely totaled. I just bought the car for her 3 months ago. Anyway the hospital was only 5 miles away so we got there fast. My mom has a broken leg and a broken collar bone. And of course some serious looking bruises on her face from the air bag and chest from the seat belt. But shes awake and smiling. When I asked her how she was feeling she said great and then asked me how my quit was going. It made me choke up because in the middle of everything she was feeling she was concerned with my quit. See my mother quit smoking a year ago next week. She smoked my entire life. A year ago I wanted to quit chewing and so we made a pact, we would quit together. I made it a few days, and she never looked back. It took me until 25 days ago to finally quit for good and she has been one of my biggest supporters. She would have been disappointed more then anyone if I had used her accident as an excuse to cave. Funny thing is once I posted roll again via text and took the option off the table, it never came back again. I think roll in the am is good, but maybe a person needs to post it again throughout the day if needed. I'm thankful I took a second to send some texts out and more thankful they all responded. I'm hoping to leave the hospital soon. My mom will stay overnight, but while I'm waiting for her scans to be done I'm gonna sit my Nic free ass here and read on the sight that has helped me do what I can't on my own.
Glad all are ok. Scary stuff.
Just know that chew would have changed NONE of what happened. It does not have that kind of power. Popping a dip in is not the equivalent of Superman flying backwards around the earth to reverse time. It doesn't have that kind of power and Superman was a movie.
As you quot moves along, keep in mind that dip fills no voids in your life, it only creates more. You don't need that crap anymore. You never did...
Quit on...
I'm glad your family is ok. Family and friends is what life is really all about. When yu joined KTC you disn't expect to make new friends, but it is clear that you have gone just that. Congratulations on a job well done. One day at a time it gets better and easier.
Brother that is one of the best posts I have ever read here. Your Mom sounds like an awesome lady! I am so glad everyone is OK and that you are still quit. I promise your quit is stronger now. KTC quitting at its finest. Outstanding job.
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This is a tough day! I'm sitting in the ICU talking to my wife's grandma. Well, more like talking at her. She doesn't talk back. My wife's parents died in a house fire when she was little and her grandma raised her. She is essentially her mother. Last week she had a mini stroke and we thought she was gonna be fine but while doing an MRI or some such test, they found a tennis ball sized tumor in her head. On Tuesday they did a craniotomy to remove the tumor and see if it was cancerous. They couldn't get all of it and the testing showed it was cancer. She woke up weds and declined chemo or any other treatment. Doc said she had 6-12 months to live if she did chemo or less without. I can't blame her for wanting to go without being riddled with radiation in her last months. Wednesday night she had another stroke. Post op strokes are even worse then normal ones. She has been on life support from then till last night. She is partially breathing on her own today and she can look at you but she cannot move her body or talk. Hell, I'm not even sure she understands what is happening. Her eyes are kinda blank. Doc just told me her prognosis for living much longer is poor. No time frame, just a caution to get her affairs in order. At some point tonight I have to tell this to my wife. She has wanted me to talk with the doc because she gets to emotional. But I wish I had never been told this. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do next. No one in my family has died. My wifes gramma has money and plans for her death but I think her plans have been shot to hell on this one. It's gonna be a hard time. I'm quit regardless. Chewing in the face of a disaster only makes the problem bigger. Gramma smoked for 55 years. Pretty sure I know what I'm gonna blame for her condition.
I haven't updated my intro in awhile. I'm always talking in the quit group. Can't believe my update is a medical one AGAIN. My family life is normally stable. After I quit chewing it seems like my family is getting hit from all angles. Maybe it's just an effect of being older (33). It won't do anything for my quit other then make it stronger. This post folks is what nicotine ultimately leads to. Recognize it. I don't want my family sitting in the ICU wondering what to do now.
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This is a tough day! I'm sitting in the ICU talking to my wife's grandma. Well, more like talking at her. She doesn't talk back. My wife's parents died in a house fire when she was little and her grandma raised her. She is essentially her mother. Last week she had a mini stroke and we thought she was gonna be fine but while doing an MRI or some such test, they found a tennis ball sized tumor in her head. On Tuesday they did a craniotomy to remove the tumor and see if it was cancerous. They couldn't get all of it and the testing showed it was cancer. She woke up weds and declined chemo or any other treatment. Doc said she had 6-12 months to live if she did chemo or less without. I can't blame her for wanting to go without being riddled with radiation in her last months. Wednesday night she had another stroke. Post op strokes are even worse then normal ones. She has been on life support from then till last night. She is partially breathing on her own today and she can look at you but she cannot move her body or talk. Hell, I'm not even sure she understands what is happening. Her eyes are kinda blank. Doc just told me her prognosis for living much longer is poor. No time frame, just a caution to get her affairs in order. At some point tonight I have to tell this to my wife. She has wanted me to talk with the doc because she gets to emotional. But I wish I had never been told this. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do next. No one in my family has died. My wifes gramma has money and plans for her death but I think her plans have been shot to hell on this one. It's gonna be a hard time. I'm quit regardless. Chewing in the face of a disaster only makes the problem bigger. Gramma smoked for 55 years. Pretty sure I know what I'm gonna blame for her condition.
I haven't updated my intro in awhile. I'm always talking in the quit group. Can't believe my update is a medical one AGAIN. My family life is normally stable. After I quit chewing it seems like my family is getting hit from all angles. Maybe it's just an effect of being older (33). It won't do anything for my quit other then make it stronger. This post folks is what nicotine ultimately leads to. Recognize it. I don't want my family sitting in the ICU wondering what to do now.
We are with you every step of the way. Stay strong brother.
Prayers for you and your family.
Good thing is your thinking more clearly without poison.
Reach out if you need us....EDD ODAAT.
Proud of be quit with you today.
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Stay strong man. I can relate to everything you just said. I watched it first hand.
I sent you a PM. Feel free to bug me.
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This is a tough day! I'm sitting in the ICU talking to my wife's grandma. Well, more like talking at her. She doesn't talk back. My wife's parents died in a house fire when she was little and her grandma raised her. She is essentially her mother. Last week she had a mini stroke and we thought she was gonna be fine but while doing an MRI or some such test, they found a tennis ball sized tumor in her head. On Tuesday they did a craniotomy to remove the tumor and see if it was cancerous. They couldn't get all of it and the testing showed it was cancer. She woke up weds and declined chemo or any other treatment. Doc said she had 6-12 months to live if she did chemo or less without. I can't blame her for wanting to go without being riddled with radiation in her last months. Wednesday night she had another stroke. Post op strokes are even worse then normal ones. She has been on life support from then till last night. She is partially breathing on her own today and she can look at you but she cannot move her body or talk. Hell, I'm not even sure she understands what is happening. Her eyes are kinda blank. Doc just told me her prognosis for living much longer is poor. No time frame, just a caution to get her affairs in order. At some point tonight I have to tell this to my wife. She has wanted me to talk with the doc because she gets to emotional. But I wish I had never been told this. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do next. No one in my family has died. My wifes gramma has money and plans for her death but I think her plans have been shot to hell on this one. It's gonna be a hard time. I'm quit regardless. Chewing in the face of a disaster only makes the problem bigger. Gramma smoked for 55 years. Pretty sure I know what I'm gonna blame for her condition.
I haven't updated my intro in awhile. I'm always talking in the quit group. Can't believe my update is a medical one AGAIN. My family life is normally stable. After I quit chewing it seems like my family is getting hit from all angles. Maybe it's just an effect of being older (33). It won't do anything for my quit other then make it stronger. This post folks is what nicotine ultimately leads to. Recognize it. I don't want my family sitting in the ICU wondering what to do now.
We are with you every step of the way. Stay strong brother.
Prayers for you and your family.
Good thing is your thinking more clearly without poison.
Reach out if you need us....EDD ODAAT.
Proud of be quit with you today.
First of all my friend God has plans for this sweet little lady! She's going home to be with some of her other loved ones. I don't know your wife's gramma but just listening to you she's a sweet little woman everyone love's but at least she may not have to suffer! Maybe your wife can rest at ease knowing she will always be watching over her. I believe when you die you always get to keep watch on your loved ones! It can be just as tough on you but be strong for your wife, she needs you. No way can you put poison in your mouth knowing that you could devastate your wife by leaving here early in life! Stay quit my brother! My prayers are with you and yours!
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This is a tough day! I'm sitting in the ICU talking to my wife's grandma. Well, more like talking at her. She doesn't talk back. My wife's parents died in a house fire when she was little and her grandma raised her. She is essentially her mother. Last week she had a mini stroke and we thought she was gonna be fine but while doing an MRI or some such test, they found a tennis ball sized tumor in her head. On Tuesday they did a craniotomy to remove the tumor and see if it was cancerous. They couldn't get all of it and the testing showed it was cancer. She woke up weds and declined chemo or any other treatment. Doc said she had 6-12 months to live if she did chemo or less without. I can't blame her for wanting to go without being riddled with radiation in her last months. Wednesday night she had another stroke. Post op strokes are even worse then normal ones. She has been on life support from then till last night. She is partially breathing on her own today and she can look at you but she cannot move her body or talk. Hell, I'm not even sure she understands what is happening. Her eyes are kinda blank. Doc just told me her prognosis for living much longer is poor. No time frame, just a caution to get her affairs in order. At some point tonight I have to tell this to my wife. She has wanted me to talk with the doc because she gets to emotional. But I wish I had never been told this. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do next. No one in my family has died. My wifes gramma has money and plans for her death but I think her plans have been shot to hell on this one. It's gonna be a hard time. I'm quit regardless. Chewing in the face of a disaster only makes the problem bigger. Gramma smoked for 55 years. Pretty sure I know what I'm gonna blame for her condition.
I haven't updated my intro in awhile. I'm always talking in the quit group. Can't believe my update is a medical one AGAIN. My family life is normally stable. After I quit chewing it seems like my family is getting hit from all angles. Maybe it's just an effect of being older (33). It won't do anything for my quit other then make it stronger. This post folks is what nicotine ultimately leads to. Recognize it. I don't want my family sitting in the ICU wondering what to do now.
We are with you every step of the way. Stay strong brother.
Prayers for you and your family.
Good thing is your thinking more clearly without poison.
Reach out if you need us....EDD ODAAT.
Proud of be quit with you today.
First of all my friend God has plans for this sweet little lady! She's going home to be with some of her other loved ones. I don't know your wife's gramma but just listening to you she's a sweet little woman everyone love's but at least she may not have to suffer! Maybe your wife can rest at ease knowing she will always be watching over her. I believe when you die you always get to keep watch on your loved ones! It can be just as tough on you but be strong for your wife, she needs you. No way can you put poison in your mouth knowing that you could devastate your wife by leaving here early in life! Stay quit my brother! My prayers are with you and yours!
Thank you. All of you. Things are ok. Gramma is improving but that's all relative because she won't make it long. It's sad. My wife is coming to terms with it, though it won't be easy when she does pass. Today is day 52 in my quit. I thought I was tired of chew 52 days ago. But today I have grown to hate it. It's taking my wifes gramma sooner then she should go and I'm seeing my brother and friends enslaved by it. It's amazing to see how all encompassing it is for people once we quit. I really was blinded by my addiction. A weed that kills.... And yet it tricks you into thinking you NEED it. Bullshit bi NEED to be free. I NEED to live. I've never been happier to have quit. Thank you KTC.
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58 days in and I have to say I am happier today to be a quitter then I have ever been. Today things are good. I have my life challenges just like anyone else, but I am free of nicotine. And THAT makes me feel good. I will never be free of my addiction, but I get a great pride in knowing that the simple act of being involved with this brotherhood has given me everything I need to beat the bitch down on a daily basis. I've gotten to know some solid people here and those relationships have made me stronger. 59 days ago I thought that I was starting something impossible. Each day it has gotten better and each day I'm amazed at how long I let the bitch lie to me. I'm nowhere near safe ground in this battle, but I sure as hell am in the right camp with the right people. Thank you to all of my brothers in the trenches.
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58 days in and I have to say I am happier today to be a quitter then I have ever been. Today things are good. I have my life challenges just like anyone else, but I am free of nicotine. And THAT makes me feel good. I will never be free of my addiction, but I get a great pride in knowing that the simple act of being involved with this brotherhood has given me everything I need to beat the bitch down on a daily basis. I've gotten to know some solid people here and those relationships have made me stronger. 59 days ago I thought that I was starting something impossible. Each day it has gotten better and each day I'm amazed at how long I let the bitch lie to me. I'm nowhere near safe ground in this battle, but I sure as hell am in the right camp with the right people. Thank you to all of my brothers in the trenches.
Proud to quit with you brother. enjoy your freedom. Rely on us for strength when you need it, help guide others to freedom when youre feeling strong.
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58 days in and I have to say I am happier today to be a quitter then I have ever been. Today things are good. I have my life challenges just like anyone else, but I am free of nicotine. And THAT makes me feel good. I will never be free of my addiction, but I get a great pride in knowing that the simple act of being involved with this brotherhood has given me everything I need to beat the bitch down on a daily basis. I've gotten to know some solid people here and those relationships have made me stronger. 59 days ago I thought that I was starting something impossible. Each day it has gotten better and each day I'm amazed at how long I let the bitch lie to me. I'm nowhere near safe ground in this battle, but I sure as hell am in the right camp with the right people. Thank you to all of my brothers in the trenches.
Proud to quit with you brother. enjoy your freedom. Rely on us for strength when you need it, help guide others to freedom when youre feeling strong.
x2. You're a BAQ and getting stronger every day. Keep on honing those tools that have gotten you this far, and never be afraid to use them. You've got the right mindset and all of the support/accountability you could ever need. Keep it up and those days Quit will stack up like cordwood.
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58 days in and I have to say I am happier today to be a quitter then I have ever been. Today things are good. I have my life challenges just like anyone else, but I am free of nicotine. And THAT makes me feel good. I will never be free of my addiction, but I get a great pride in knowing that the simple act of being involved with this brotherhood has given me everything I need to beat the bitch down on a daily basis. I've gotten to know some solid people here and those relationships have made me stronger. 59 days ago I thought that I was starting something impossible. Each day it has gotten better and each day I'm amazed at how long I let the bitch lie to me. I'm nowhere near safe ground in this battle, but I sure as hell am in the right camp with the right people. Thank you to all of my brothers in the trenches.
Proud to quit with you brother. enjoy your freedom. Rely on us for strength when you need it, help guide others to freedom when youre feeling strong.
x2. You're a BAQ and getting stronger every day. Keep on honing those tools that have gotten you this far, and never be afraid to use them. You've got the right mindset and all of the support/accountability you could ever need. Keep it up and those days Quit will stack up like cordwood.
Proud to be in this battle with you, together with our fellow quit brothers we can win this war one hill at a time!
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Time to update my quit log.....
82 days free of poison. I feel great. There are days when my mood is less stable but for the most part I am in a good mood and embracing my new lifestyle. I'm finding that the same attitude of self control and discipline have carried over into other areas of my life. My eating is healthier and I'm more conscious about being active. Quitting chew seems to instill a desire to use control in all things. Not just in my addiction. I'm becoming a stronger man all the way around. Before I quit Nic, my average daily blood pressure was around 150/95. For the last several weeks its been around 117/75. I feel healthier. I have more energy from lack of poison in my veins and the residual blood pressure decrease. I love being a quitter. This isn't a temporary battle. This is who I am now. It's a permanent lifestyle. The hard craves are gone. I have fleeting thoughts of chew but I've learned that attitude dictates the intensity of craves. I do not glorify my past addiction. I embrace my addiction as an opportunity to daily deny myself an evil. Looking at being a quitter as a good thing instead of a "chore" makes it easier to push away those fleeting moments. I will continue to post with my brothers EVERY DAY because I know that as an addict I am always gonna be to close to losing the freedom I've earned. It takes one bad moment. I have the tools. I have a large network of brothers watching my back. Today I am quit. KTC and my daily promise will ensure I stay that way for tomorrow.
QLF with all of you!
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Time to update my quit log.....
82 days free of poison. I feel great. There are days when my mood is less stable but for the most part I am in a good mood and embracing my new lifestyle. I'm finding that the same attitude of self control and discipline have carried over into other areas of my life. My eating is healthier and I'm more conscious about being active. Quitting chew seems to instill a desire to use control in all things. Not just in my addiction. I'm becoming a stronger man all the way around. Before I quit Nic, my average daily blood pressure was around 150/95. For the last several weeks its been around 117/75. I feel healthier. I have more energy from lack of poison in my veins and the residual blood pressure decrease. I love being a quitter. This isn't a temporary battle. This is who I am now. It's a permanent lifestyle. The hard craves are gone. I have fleeting thoughts of chew but I've learned that attitude dictates the intensity of craves. I do not glorify my past addiction. I embrace my addiction as an opportunity to daily deny myself an evil. Looking at being a quitter as a good thing instead of a "chore" makes it easier to push away those fleeting moments. I will continue to post with my brothers EVERY DAY because I know that as an addict I am always gonna be to close to losing the freedom I've earned. It takes one bad moment. I have the tools. I have a large network of brothers watching my back. Today I am quit. KTC and my daily promise will ensure I stay that way for tomorrow.
QLF with all of you!
Your killing it JJ!
New identity.... New life.... New reason to live ODAAT.
Also respect the help you are always giving others.
I quit with you EDD.
Rawls 151
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Time to update my quit log.....
82 days free of poison. I feel great. There are days when my mood is less stable but for the most part I am in a good mood and embracing my new lifestyle. I'm finding that the same attitude of self control and discipline have carried over into other areas of my life. My eating is healthier and I'm more conscious about being active. Quitting chew seems to instill a desire to use control in all things. Not just in my addiction. I'm becoming a stronger man all the way around. Before I quit Nic, my average daily blood pressure was around 150/95. For the last several weeks its been around 117/75. I feel healthier. I have more energy from lack of poison in my veins and the residual blood pressure decrease. I love being a quitter. This isn't a temporary battle. This is who I am now. It's a permanent lifestyle. The hard craves are gone. I have fleeting thoughts of chew but I've learned that attitude dictates the intensity of craves. I do not glorify my past addiction. I embrace my addiction as an opportunity to daily deny myself an evil. Looking at being a quitter as a good thing instead of a "chore" makes it easier to push away those fleeting moments. I will continue to post with my brothers EVERY DAY because I know that as an addict I am always gonna be to close to losing the freedom I've earned. It takes one bad moment. I have the tools. I have a large network of brothers watching my back. Today I am quit. KTC and my daily promise will ensure I stay that way for tomorrow.
QLF with all of you!
Your killing it JJ!
New identity.... New life.... New reason to live ODAAT.
Also respect the help you are always giving others.
I quit with you EDD.
Rawls 151
JJ your a good man. You will defeat this you have the will and the mentality to get it done! Keep up all the advice and support you give to others, not only are you strengthening there quit but you're also strengthening your's! Enjoy reading your post strengthens my quit! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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Time to update my quit log.....
82 days free of poison. I feel great. There are days when my mood is less stable but for the most part I am in a good mood and embracing my new lifestyle. I'm finding that the same attitude of self control and discipline have carried over into other areas of my life. My eating is healthier and I'm more conscious about being active. Quitting chew seems to instill a desire to use control in all things. Not just in my addiction. I'm becoming a stronger man all the way around. Before I quit Nic, my average daily blood pressure was around 150/95. For the last several weeks its been around 117/75. I feel healthier. I have more energy from lack of poison in my veins and the residual blood pressure decrease. I love being a quitter. This isn't a temporary battle. This is who I am now. It's a permanent lifestyle. The hard craves are gone. I have fleeting thoughts of chew but I've learned that attitude dictates the intensity of craves. I do not glorify my past addiction. I embrace my addiction as an opportunity to daily deny myself an evil. Looking at being a quitter as a good thing instead of a "chore" makes it easier to push away those fleeting moments. I will continue to post with my brothers EVERY DAY because I know that as an addict I am always gonna be to close to losing the freedom I've earned. It takes one bad moment. I have the tools. I have a large network of brothers watching my back. Today I am quit. KTC and my daily promise will ensure I stay that way for tomorrow.
QLF with all of you!
Your killing it JJ!
New identity.... New life.... New reason to live ODAAT.
Also respect the help you are always giving others.
I quit with you EDD.
Rawls 151
JJ your a good man. You will defeat this you have the will and the mentality to get it done! Keep up all the advice and support you give to others, not only are you strengthening there quit but you're also strengthening your's! Enjoy reading your post strengthens my quit! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Some pretty inspiring shit here
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I've been having a tough week. Not sure if it's because I just changed careers or because my career change encompasses one of my triggers, or because it's the post HOF funk. Either way I have noticed myself becoming less engaged. My desire to keep a close bond with my brothers here is still strong, but I haven't felt very talkative. And I can FEEL the daily battle. Camping was a time I could chew my face off. I took a job where I'm a manager of a Camping World RV dealership. Everyone chews or smokes freely. It's been a tough week where I've had to make sure everyone knows I quit chewing 117 days ago. I've been shown respect with it, but the job is still a constant reminder of old triggers. With learning a new role I've also had less free time to get the daily dose of KTC I feel I need so much at this point in my quit. I NEED to find my healthy balance. I am quit with all of you today. None of us have permission to lose sight of our quits and cave for any reason.
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I've been having a tough week. Not sure if it's because I just changed careers or because my career change encompasses one of my triggers, or because it's the post HOF funk. Either way I have noticed myself becoming less engaged. My desire to keep a close bond with my brothers here is still strong, but I haven't felt very talkative. And I can FEEL the daily battle. Camping was a time I could chew my face off. I took a job where I'm a manager of a Camping World RV dealership. Everyone chews or smokes freely. It's been a tough week where I've had to make sure everyone knows I quit chewing 117 days ago. I've been shown respect with it, but the job is still a constant reminder of old triggers. With learning a new role I've also had less free time to get the daily dose of KTC I feel I need so much at this point in my quit. I NEED to find my healthy balance. I am quit with all of you today. None of us have permission to lose sight of our quits and cave for any reason.
New stress, new life changes, new environments can be as much of a trigger as anything else. Stay strong brother. I am here to tell you that at 117 Day, you are walking the path in the right way. It gets EASIER! Soon enough you won't even have a second or third thought about it. You'll look at those guys you work with and feel pity on them that they are still slaves and you are a free man.
I posted my Day 1,896 today. You have my word I won't cave today. I'm Quit with you today IDWC. Rock on!
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I've been having a tough week. Not sure if it's because I just changed careers or because my career change encompasses one of my triggers, or because it's the post HOF funk. Either way I have noticed myself becoming less engaged. My desire to keep a close bond with my brothers here is still strong, but I haven't felt very talkative. And I can FEEL the daily battle. Camping was a time I could chew my face off. I took a job where I'm a manager of a Camping World RV dealership. Everyone chews or smokes freely. It's been a tough week where I've had to make sure everyone knows I quit chewing 117 days ago. I've been shown respect with it, but the job is still a constant reminder of old triggers. With learning a new role I've also had less free time to get the daily dose of KTC I feel I need so much at this point in my quit. I NEED to find my healthy balance. I am quit with all of you today. None of us have permission to lose sight of our quits and cave for any reason.
New stress, new life changes, new environments can be as much of a trigger as anything else. Stay strong brother. I am here to tell you that at 117 Day, you are walking the path in the right way. It gets EASIER! Soon enough you won't even have a second or third thought about it. You'll look at those guys you work with and feel pity on them that they are still slaves and you are a free man.
I posted my Day 1,896 today. You have my word I won't cave today. I'm Quit with you today IDWC. Rock on!
What Nolaq says makes good sense.
Also, get selfish about your quit. You are the only one who uses your jaw...keep it. Don't put the poison in Your mouth Today...Just Today...It really does get much easier after you re-learn that dip is pure poison and deadly.
I quit with You Today, just Today.
You're in a much better place mentally than whoever puts the poison in their mouth, period
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I've been having a tough week. Not sure if it's because I just changed careers or because my career change encompasses one of my triggers, or because it's the post HOF funk. Either way I have noticed myself becoming less engaged. My desire to keep a close bond with my brothers here is still strong, but I haven't felt very talkative. And I can FEEL the daily battle. Camping was a time I could chew my face off. I took a job where I'm a manager of a Camping World RV dealership. Everyone chews or smokes freely. It's been a tough week where I've had to make sure everyone knows I quit chewing 117 days ago. I've been shown respect with it, but the job is still a constant reminder of old triggers. With learning a new role I've also had less free time to get the daily dose of KTC I feel I need so much at this point in my quit. I NEED to find my healthy balance. I am quit with all of you today. None of us have permission to lose sight of our quits and cave for any reason.
New stress, new life changes, new environments can be as much of a trigger as anything else. Stay strong brother. I am here to tell you that at 117 Day, you are walking the path in the right way. It gets EASIER! Soon enough you won't even have a second or third thought about it. You'll look at those guys you work with and feel pity on them that they are still slaves and you are a free man.
I posted my Day 1,896 today. You have my word I won't cave today. I'm Quit with you today IDWC. Rock on!
What Nolaq says makes good sense.
Also, get selfish about your quit. You are the only one who uses your jaw...keep it. Don't put the poison in Your mouth Today...Just Today...It really does get much easier after you re-learn that dip is pure poison and deadly.
I quit with You Today, just Today.
You're in a much better place mentally than whoever puts the poison in their mouth, period
Stay strong JJ....
There is a serious stretch after HOF but it gets easier every day...
Don't get wrapped up in what you think you should be feeling and or doing.
Just stay quit for today!
Keep it easy and simple.
EDD ODAAT.
Kick her in the nuts!
Rawls
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I've been having a tough week. Not sure if it's because I just changed careers or because my career change encompasses one of my triggers, or because it's the post HOF funk. Either way I have noticed myself becoming less engaged. My desire to keep a close bond with my brothers here is still strong, but I haven't felt very talkative. And I can FEEL the daily battle. Camping was a time I could chew my face off. I took a job where I'm a manager of a Camping World RV dealership. Everyone chews or smokes freely. It's been a tough week where I've had to make sure everyone knows I quit chewing 117 days ago. I've been shown respect with it, but the job is still a constant reminder of old triggers. With learning a new role I've also had less free time to get the daily dose of KTC I feel I need so much at this point in my quit. I NEED to find my healthy balance. I am quit with all of you today. None of us have permission to lose sight of our quits and cave for any reason.
New stress, new life changes, new environments can be as much of a trigger as anything else. Stay strong brother. I am here to tell you that at 117 Day, you are walking the path in the right way. It gets EASIER! Soon enough you won't even have a second or third thought about it. You'll look at those guys you work with and feel pity on them that they are still slaves and you are a free man.
I posted my Day 1,896 today. You have my word I won't cave today. I'm Quit with you today IDWC. Rock on!
What Nolaq says makes good sense.
Also, get selfish about your quit. You are the only one who uses your jaw...keep it. Don't put the poison in Your mouth Today...Just Today...It really does get much easier after you re-learn that dip is pure poison and deadly.
I quit with You Today, just Today.
You're in a much better place mentally than whoever puts the poison in their mouth, period
Stay strong JJ....
There is a serious stretch after HOF but it gets easier every day...
Don't get wrapped up in what you think you should be feeling and or doing.
Just stay quit for today!
Keep it easy and simple.
EDD ODAAT.
Kick her in the nuts!
Rawls
186
Go back and read your on post. Tough ,hard didn't matter then, as well as I know you it don't matter now! You will continue to defeat the bitch! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend! This temporary bump will pass and life will continue to get better!
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I'M DONE WITH CHEW
"My worst day quit is better then my best day as a slave. I never believed I could handle a few hours without a dip let alone 4 months. I was an open chewer who took pride in the image I portrayed. I am sad at how long I let myself believe the lie and so very grateful I was given the tools to dig myself to freedom. Our quits are the most precious things we need to protect. We can never forget how we felt just before we finally quit. The despair and sense of defeat. We are free today because we have chosen to honor our word and commit to ourselves and others that we will remain dip free. This has taught many of us that we are able to change other deficiencies in our lives and made us better men. Quitting has been the best thing I have ever done and it has rippled throughout my life and those around me."
I can still remember the way I felt 4 months ago as I was throwing out the last dip of chew I ever "hoped" to have. I felt hopeless and full of despair. I wanted to quit in the worst way but I didn't think it was possible to last even a few hours without the crutch I had been leaning on for half my life. How was I going to last forever? That was a concept my enslaved self couldn't comprehend. I searched the web for hours looking for NRT options. I was convinced that I would be most successful if I weaned myself off Nicotine. Somehow I found KTC amongst all the propaganda associated with NRT's. This was about to change my life....
The next day I cleaned out all the spit bottles in my house and made sure I had nothing left to sabotage my quit and joined the brotherhood. I was completely lost, I had never been on a forum based site before. I wasn't sure I would even want to talk to anyone anyway. How could a bunch of strangers help me? Somehow I figured out how to post roll and make an introduction. Not sure why but I introduced myself as Jacob Johnson, which is my first and middle name. Guess I was a bit guarded at first. It was several days before I actually talked with anyone. I kinda sat back and observed and tried to read as much as I could so I could understand what I was dealing with. Talk about being in a fog! Eventually I felt comfortable enough to reach out to a few of my Misfit brothers and a few Vets who I felt I could relate to and who where people that would strengthen me. This was when I really started to grasp the concept of KTC as a brotherhood and what accountability really meant.
Over the last four months I have grown to truly care about my fellow Misfits and those that support me. My quit (like most others) has been tough in many ways. I have been tested. It started with the fog and mood swings. Then my mother was in a head on collision early in my quit, and I had to deal with the cancer treatment and ultimate death of my wife's grandmother (who I was very close with). Recently I lost the job I have had for almost a decade, only to find another very quickly that had more benefits then ever expected. Throughout each of these trials I had the support and the ability to lean on my Brothers here. They carried me many days, even if I seemed strong on my own.
We have had many issues in May. People have come and gone. Some have caved and returned, others have left in a furry of drama. Some days are filled with anger amongst ourselves and towards others posting with us. The thing I am most amazed with is the bond so many of us have formed. MChapman was the first I became close with. He has been a huge asset to my quit in many ways. Hawsman, Kramer, Flredneck, Tom92673, JimJamRustin, Jpfabel1073, PJ8324, you all have been equally instrumental in my success. The conversations on GroupMe have allowed me to get to know you on a personal level. And I always look at your KTC posts with respect. I know that you are all in the trenches with me daily and I would do anything for any of you if the day comes that you need it. My other brothers in May are just as important in other ways. As they grow I grow with them. As they suffer I suffer as well. Our lives are intertwined and success and pain are equally felt. My quit is strong today because of my supporters outside of May as well. Candoit and Pope were the first Vets that took an interest in my quit and helped me through some of the worst days I've had. They were amongst the first I called when My mother was in an accident. I talked with them before I had even reached the scene because I knew I was going to need them. You both have played a large part in my growth. Basshaug, Tuco, 30yrAddict, Rkymtnman, all have challenged me and led by great examples. The involvement you have had with May and myself personally has been key to leading me in the right direction. Some of the Apes have helped my quit as well. Pab, Your the man! Kash, Woosel and BigK, GA, believe it or not I have gained a lot and learned a lot about myself and quitting from you. I see good intentions daily even if we don't always agree.
I have learned that "forever" is a concept left for others not dealing with addiction. As addicts we can only focus on today! Our success comes from making a promise to ourselves and our brothers to not use Nicotine for today only and then honoring our word. If you have truly committed to KTC principles then you will understand that Honoring our word and being men of integrity are two of the most critical things needed to remain free of this poison. Some days are easy and some are hard. It is during the hard moments where integrity alone may be the only thing keeping us from failing.
KTC provides all the tools needed to quit Nicotine and regain the freedom we all so foolishly gave away. It is up to each of us to learn to use these tools and become men we can be proud of. Men who do not leave their wives to be widows, and children to be fatherless. I am thankful that I found this group of Misfits and pledge to stand by each one of them as long as God allows me to breath. I am an addict. I will never be cured. But with the help of my brothers here and the integrity I am building, I will continue to add +1 daily. I will not be going anywhere.
Thank you to all those who have led before me and all those that will follow. I will continue to honor my word and offer support to anyone who needs it. This is what makes KTC strong.
IDWC -125
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I'M DONE WITH CHEW
"My worst day quit is better then my best day as a slave. I never believed I could handle a few hours without a dip let alone 4 months. I was an open chewer who took pride in the image I portrayed. I am sad at how long I let myself believe the lie and so very grateful I was given the tools to dig myself to freedom. Our quits are the most precious things we need to protect. We can never forget how we felt just before we finally quit. The despair and sense of defeat. We are free today because we have chosen to honor our word and commit to ourselves and others that we will remain dip free. This has taught many of us that we are able to change other deficiencies in our lives and made us better men. Quitting has been the best thing I have ever done and it has rippled throughout my life and those around me."
I can still remember the way I felt 4 months ago as I was throwing out the last dip of chew I ever "hoped" to have. I felt hopeless and full of despair. I wanted to quit in the worst way but I didn't think it was possible to last even a few hours without the crutch I had been leaning on for half my life. How was I going to last forever? That was a concept my enslaved self couldn't comprehend. I searched the web for hours looking for NRT options. I was convinced that I would be most successful if I weaned myself off Nicotine. Somehow I found KTC amongst all the propaganda associated with NRT's. This was about to change my life....
The next day I cleaned out all the spit bottles in my house and made sure I had nothing left to sabotage my quit and joined the brotherhood. I was completely lost, I had never been on a forum based site before. I wasn't sure I would even want to talk to anyone anyway. How could a bunch of strangers help me? Somehow I figured out how to post roll and make an introduction. Not sure why but I introduced myself as Jacob Johnson, which is my first and middle name. Guess I was a bit guarded at first. It was several days before I actually talked with anyone. I kinda sat back and observed and tried to read as much as I could so I could understand what I was dealing with. Talk about being in a fog! Eventually I felt comfortable enough to reach out to a few of my Misfit brothers and a few Vets who I felt I could relate to and who where people that would strengthen me. This was when I really started to grasp the concept of KTC as a brotherhood and what accountability really meant.
Over the last four months I have grown to truly care about my fellow Misfits and those that support me. My quit (like most others) has been tough in many ways. I have been tested. It started with the fog and mood swings. Then my mother was in a head on collision early in my quit, and I had to deal with the cancer treatment and ultimate death of my wife's grandmother (who I was very close with). Recently I lost the job I have had for almost a decade, only to find another very quickly that had more benefits then ever expected. Throughout each of these trials I had the support and the ability to lean on my Brothers here. They carried me many days, even if I seemed strong on my own.
We have had many issues in May. People have come and gone. Some have caved and returned, others have left in a furry of drama. Some days are filled with anger amongst ourselves and towards others posting with us. The thing I am most amazed with is the bond so many of us have formed. MChapman was the first I became close with. He has been a huge asset to my quit in many ways. Hawsman, Kramer, Flredneck, Tom92673, JimJamRustin, Jpfabel1073, PJ8324, you all have been equally instrumental in my success. The conversations on GroupMe have allowed me to get to know you on a personal level. And I always look at your KTC posts with respect. I know that you are all in the trenches with me daily and I would do anything for any of you if the day comes that you need it. My other brothers in May are just as important in other ways. As they grow I grow with them. As they suffer I suffer as well. Our lives are intertwined and success and pain are equally felt. My quit is strong today because of my supporters outside of May as well. Candoit and Pope were the first Vets that took an interest in my quit and helped me through some of the worst days I've had. They were amongst the first I called when My mother was in an accident. I talked with them before I had even reached the scene because I knew I was going to need them. You both have played a large part in my growth. Basshaug, Tuco, 30yrAddict, Rkymtnman, all have challenged me and led by great examples. The involvement you have had with May and myself personally has been key to leading me in the right direction. Some of the Apes have helped my quit as well. Pab, Your the man! Kash, Woosel and BigK, GA, believe it or not I have gained a lot and learned a lot about myself and quitting from you. I see good intentions daily even if we don't always agree.
I have learned that "forever" is a concept left for others not dealing with addiction. As addicts we can only focus on today! Our success comes from making a promise to ourselves and our brothers to not use Nicotine for today only and then honoring our word. If you have truly committed to KTC principles then you will understand that Honoring our word and being men of integrity are two of the most critical things needed to remain free of this poison. Some days are easy and some are hard. It is during the hard moments where integrity alone may be the only thing keeping us from failing.
KTC provides all the tools needed to quit Nicotine and regain the freedom we all so foolishly gave away. It is up to each of us to learn to use these tools and become men we can be proud of. Men who do not leave their wives to be widows, and children to be fatherless. I am thankful that I found this group of Misfits and pledge to stand by each one of them as long as God allows me to breath. I am an addict. I will never be cured. But with the help of my brothers here and the integrity I am building, I will continue to add +1 daily. I will not be going anywhere.
Thank you to all those who have led before me and all those that will follow. I will continue to honor my word and offer support to anyone who needs it. This is what makes KTC strong.
IDWC -125
Awesome post my brother! Need alot more like you! I for one will always fight a daily battle side by side with you! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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This whole thread is awesome and inspirational. Any newbies looking for a kick in the shorts to keep after it, read this bad boy start to finish. Quit with you every damn day IDWC.
King
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This whole thread is awesome and inspirational. Any newbies looking for a kick in the shorts to keep after it, read this bad boy start to finish. Quit with you every damn day IDWC.
King
King get this badass right here in your shirt pocket and you will have super quitter in your corner! He really gets it. Just remember you're an addict and always will be, if you can admit that everyday and understand how bad that is, almost as bad as a crack whore and you never want to go back it makes quitting alot easier! Quit on and idwc you know I'm always quitting with you Odaat! EDD!
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"My worst day quit is better then my best day as a slave."
CONGRATS JJ on reaching the Second Floor.
You and your Quit Rock!
I quit with you today.
Rawls 269
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"My worst day quit is better then my best day as a slave."
CONGRATS JJ on reaching the Second Floor.
You and your Quit Rock!
I quit with you today.
Rawls 269
Hell yes 200 is badass my brother! That means for 200 days you didn't have death by tin in your mouth! Quit on you badass!
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Thanks for all the support bro. 200 days is bad ass and I am glad I was here to see it. Keep up the awesome work.
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Thanks for the support guys. 200 days feels good. I would have never thought I could last so long before I came to KTC. It's my interaction with all of you that has kept me focused on my quit. I've signed up for 300 days so you can bet your asses you will see me everyday still. QLF with all of you!
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Got to meet up with Candoit today for several hours and some drinks. He is the first quit brother I've had the pleasure to meet. It's something I highly recommend to quitters who have the opportunity. Candoit has been instrumental in my quit from the beginning 203 days ago. Having the ability to now put a face and personality behind the posts and texts is going to make the connection even more real. It was a good day and an experience I'll benefit from.
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Got to meet up with Candoit today for several hours and some drinks. He is the first quit brother I've had the pleasure to meet. It's something I highly recommend to quitters who have the opportunity. Candoit has been instrumental in my quit from the beginning 203 days ago. Having the ability to now put a face and personality behind the posts and texts is going to make the connection even more real. It was a good day and an experience I'll benefit from.
^^^This all of this, it is quite amazing how the "accountability" goes form a word to a real thing when you meet that first quitter face to face. Knowing that there is a real person behind that keyboard that is ready and willing to be there when you need them or has a boot to put in your ass when you start to get off track.
Meeting quitters face to face is truly a life and quit changing event. Plus Candoit definitely needed that this weekend, thank you for taking that leap, glad to hear it did not turn out like a creepy craigslist meet-up.
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I used to hate that I'm an addict. I saw it as evidence that I was weak. I envied those that didn't have to battle daily to stay free of a poisonous weed. Recently I've come to the conclusion that this is an inaccurate view of myself. Today I've been quit for 248 days. That means that for 248 days I've been stronger and more self controlled then most of the people I had previously envied. I've learned more about myself and who I am then most people learn in a life time. I've denied myself failure in trade of the strength that comes from self discipline. I've made a conscious decision to put my integrity and honor above an addiction that would ultimately rob me of precious moments with loved ones and of my own self respect. So at day 248 I do not envy those who don't know what it's like to stand for something of value. Those of us who have taken this journey know better then most what it means to choose the road less traveled. It's a hard road to walk filled with doubt, fear, and pain, but a road that rewards us with freedom and respect. Those of us who have chosen to fight for this freedom from addiction are strong and worthy to be envied. We are the ones who have earned our honor, earned our integrity, and earned the love and respect of our loved ones. Today I feel strong instead of weak. I don't envy people who are not addicts. I am proud to be an addict who is sober, and a member of a brotherhood dedicated to helping others achieve the same. Those of you who are just starting this journey..... You've taken back your freedom. Your earning your integrity. Stay focused on quitting for today and you will soon understand how strong you really are. The freedom is worth the momentary hardship.
Quit with all of you!
IDWC - 248
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I used to hate that I'm an addict. I saw it as evidence that I was weak. I envied those that didn't have to battle daily to stay free of a poisonous weed. Recently I've come to the conclusion that this is an inaccurate view of myself. Today I've been quit for 248 days. That means that for 248 days I've been stronger and more self controlled then most of the people I had previously envied. I've learned more about myself and who I am then most people learn in a life time. I've denied myself failure in trade of the strength that comes from self discipline. I've made a conscious decision to put my integrity and honor above an addiction that would ultimately rob me of precious moments with loved ones and of my own self respect. So at day 248 I do not envy those who don't know what it's like to stand for something of value. Those of us who have taken this journey know better then most what it means to choose the road less traveled. It's a hard road to walk filled with doubt, fear, and pain, but a road that rewards us with freedom and respect. Those of us who have chosen to fight for this freedom from addiction are strong and worthy to be envied. We are the ones who have earned our honor, earned our integrity, and earned the love and respect of our loved ones. Today I feel strong instead of weak. I don't envy people who are not addicts. I am proud to be an addict who is sober, and a member of a brotherhood dedicated to helping others achieve the same. Those of you who are just starting this journey..... You've taken back your freedom. Your earning your integrity. Stay focused on quitting for today and you will soon understand how strong you really are. The freedom is worth the momentary hardship.
Quit with all of you!
IDWC - 248
Now that just made my quit much stronger today! Thanks and as always I'm proud to call you my brother! Quit on!
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I used to hate that I'm an addict. I saw it as evidence that I was weak. I envied those that didn't have to battle daily to stay free of a poisonous weed. Recently I've come to the conclusion that this is an inaccurate view of myself. Today I've been quit for 248 days. That means that for 248 days I've been stronger and more self controlled then most of the people I had previously envied. I've learned more about myself and who I am then most people learn in a life time. I've denied myself failure in trade of the strength that comes from self discipline. I've made a conscious decision to put my integrity and honor above an addiction that would ultimately rob me of precious moments with loved ones and of my own self respect. So at day 248 I do not envy those who don't know what it's like to stand for something of value. Those of us who have taken this journey know better then most what it means to choose the road less traveled. It's a hard road to walk filled with doubt, fear, and pain, but a road that rewards us with freedom and respect. Those of us who have chosen to fight for this freedom from addiction are strong and worthy to be envied. We are the ones who have earned our honor, earned our integrity, and earned the love and respect of our loved ones. Today I feel strong instead of weak. I don't envy people who are not addicts. I am proud to be an addict who is sober, and a member of a brotherhood dedicated to helping others achieve the same. Those of you who are just starting this journey..... You've taken back your freedom. Your earning your integrity. Stay focused on quitting for today and you will soon understand how strong you really are. The freedom is worth the momentary hardship.
Quit with all of you!
IDWC - 248
Now that just made my quit much stronger today! Thanks and as always I'm proud to call you my brother! Quit on!
Preach brother!
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I used to hate that I'm an addict. I saw it as evidence that I was weak. I envied those that didn't have to battle daily to stay free of a poisonous weed. Recently I've come to the conclusion that this is an inaccurate view of myself. Today I've been quit for 248 days. That means that for 248 days I've been stronger and more self controlled then most of the people I had previously envied. I've learned more about myself and who I am then most people learn in a life time. I've denied myself failure in trade of the strength that comes from self discipline. I've made a conscious decision to put my integrity and honor above an addiction that would ultimately rob me of precious moments with loved ones and of my own self respect. So at day 248 I do not envy those who don't know what it's like to stand for something of value. Those of us who have taken this journey know better then most what it means to choose the road less traveled. It's a hard road to walk filled with doubt, fear, and pain, but a road that rewards us with freedom and respect. Those of us who have chosen to fight for this freedom from addiction are strong and worthy to be envied. We are the ones who have earned our honor, earned our integrity, and earned the love and respect of our loved ones. Today I feel strong instead of weak. I don't envy people who are not addicts. I am proud to be an addict who is sober, and a member of a brotherhood dedicated to helping others achieve the same. Those of you who are just starting this journey..... You've taken back your freedom. Your earning your integrity. Stay focused on quitting for today and you will soon understand how strong you really are. The freedom is worth the momentary hardship.
Quit with all of you!
IDWC - 248
Now that just made my quit much stronger today! Thanks and as always I'm proud to call you my brother! Quit on!
Preach brother!
Solid!
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I've had a really good day so far. And I've also had a "white knuckle" crave in the process. After almost 9 months of being quit I was frustrated that I could still have a few moments where I was on the edge of making such a bad decision. I got to sleep in today (rare lately), then I was able to meet my wife for lunch after some of her clients canceled. It was a good lunch where we relaxed (and I enjoyed a few beers) at a place on the lake. We didn't have to rush which is abnormal for us. After a couple hours we said goodbye to each other and I started driving away. I was very relaxed and in a good mood from a lazy morning and relaxed lunch. I reached towards my center box in the truck for my can of chew so I could have my "buzzed after lunch dip". As I was reaching I was struck with the realization that I don't chew. Its been almost 9 months! Why was I thinking about a dip so strongly and why did it seem normal after so long of being quit. I was out of seeds and anything else to distract myself so I did the only other thing I could think of. I sent a text out via GroupMe proclaiming that Nic can fuck off and I am quit. When I got to a gas station I sat there and reminded myself that I am quit and even 1 dip could and would ruin my freedom. Funny that my addict brain tried to rationalize that smoking would be ok because it wasn't what I really craved. Shot that dumb ass thought down fast. Ultimately I decided that I would go in and buy my seeds and some water and ignore the crave no matter what my bullshit logic was trying to convince me of. If I still felt the urge when I got home I'd call someone. I knew that pushing past the crave was all I could do. Rationalizing with yourself about why it would be ok or not ok to cave is almost worthless at the moment. You can sell yourself on anything if you try hard enough. Especially us addicts. All I could do was say NO right now and trust that if I walked away and gave myself some time, I would be free of the crave and look back happy that I was still quit. And as I type this out I am happy to still be Nic free and past that ridiculous crave. It amazing that the crave can come on so strong after 262 days quit. But like others have said, It's a drop in the bucket compared to my years as a user. I'm thankful that I have the tools and the brotherhood needed to deal with a random crave. It would've been easy to cave today(especially because it felt normal in my buzzed state). But thanks to the support in place and my desire to use it, I am still free!
New guys.... Remember that we are never cured. We have to remain focused on our quits EDD. The craves become less frequent and easier to overcome as time goes by, but they still come and can derail a quit if not careful.
IDWC 262- QLF!
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Nice win, IDWC! It's frustrating as hell to experience shit like that, I'm sure. It never ceases to amaze me how ingrained in our brains nicotine is.
But, KTC and staying quit must be ingrained in your brain even more so. You win, nicotine loses. You ARE having a good day!
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Solid 300 also....
Congrats Brother.
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Solid 300 also....
Congrats Brother.
Congrats on your 300!
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Solid 300 also....
Congrats Brother.
Congrats on your 300!
Congrats my man, you've earned it
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Solid 300 also....
Congrats Brother.
Congrats on your 300!
Congrats my man, you've earned it
Always a pleasure to call you my brother! Congratulations!
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So life has been crazy the last few weeks. A finance manager with my company quit a couple weeks ago and it was decided to not replace him. I'm just gonna take on his work load. That's great as far as money goes but I have been running non stop. Working at 8 am and not getting home till 10-11 pm. I feel like craves have been harder. And at a time that I feel like I need more involvement on KTC to stay focused, I'm so busy that I'm barely able to keep up with much more then roll. I love what I do and I like the money but I need to find a way to be more involved with less time. I'm feeling a little exposed. If that makes sense......
IDWC 339
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So life has been crazy the last few weeks. A finance manager with my company quit a couple weeks ago and it was decided to not replace him. I'm just gonna take on his work load. That's great as far as money goes but I have been running non stop. Working at 8 am and not getting home till 10-11 pm. I feel like craves have been harder. And at a time that I feel like I need more involvement on KTC to stay focused, I'm so busy that I'm barely able to keep up with much more then roll. I love what I do and I like the money but I need to find a way to be more involved with less time. I'm feeling a little exposed. If that makes sense......
IDWC 339
Perhaps shooting a text to a quit brother every so often would help. I do that randomly sometimes and I am usually inspired by the message I get back. B)B
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So life has been crazy the last few weeks. A finance manager with my company quit a couple weeks ago and it was decided to not replace him. I'm just gonna take on his work load. That's great as far as money goes but I have been running non stop. Working at 8 am and not getting home till 10-11 pm. I feel like craves have been harder. And at a time that I feel like I need more involvement on KTC to stay focused, I'm so busy that I'm barely able to keep up with much more then roll. I love what I do and I like the money but I need to find a way to be more involved with less time. I'm feeling a little exposed. If that makes sense......
IDWC 339
Perhaps shooting a text to a quit brother every so often would help. I do that randomly sometimes and I am usually inspired by the message I get back. B)B
My brother I'm a text away. I will say what I always say to my worker's, money is not everything. I'm sure you're not just doing it for the money but I will honestly say I have missed your wisdom here as of late!
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So life has been crazy the last few weeks. A finance manager with my company quit a couple weeks ago and it was decided to not replace him. I'm just gonna take on his work load. That's great as far as money goes but I have been running non stop. Working at 8 am and not getting home till 10-11 pm. I feel like craves have been harder. And at a time that I feel like I need more involvement on KTC to stay focused, I'm so busy that I'm barely able to keep up with much more then roll. I love what I do and I like the money but I need to find a way to be more involved with less time. I'm feeling a little exposed. If that makes sense......
IDWC 339
Perhaps shooting a text to a quit brother every so often would help. I do that randomly sometimes and I am usually inspired by the message I get back. B)B
My brother I'm a text away. I will say what I always say to my worker's, money is not everything. I'm sure you're not just doing it for the money but I will honestly say I have missed your wisdom here as of late!
I don't know if I'd call it wisdom but I appreciate that bro. For my own quit health I'm gonna have to change up my old schedule so I can get/give what I need here.
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So life has been crazy the last few weeks. A finance manager with my company quit a couple weeks ago and it was decided to not replace him. I'm just gonna take on his work load. That's great as far as money goes but I have been running non stop. Working at 8 am and not getting home till 10-11 pm. I feel like craves have been harder. And at a time that I feel like I need more involvement on KTC to stay focused, I'm so busy that I'm barely able to keep up with much more then roll. I love what I do and I like the money but I need to find a way to be more involved with less time. I'm feeling a little exposed. If that makes sense......
IDWC 339
Perhaps shooting a text to a quit brother every so often would help. I do that randomly sometimes and I am usually inspired by the message I get back. B)B
My brother I'm a text away. I will say what I always say to my worker's, money is not everything. I'm sure you're not just doing it for the money but I will honestly say I have missed your wisdom here as of late!
I don't know if I'd call it wisdom but I appreciate that bro. For my own quit health I'm gonna have to change up my old schedule so I can get/give what I need here.
Ok Boss.. it's time to get over the hump.
We live in a fallen world. And life is always crazy.
Always going to be issues.
NICOTINE will never help.
Take it off the list of possibilities.
You and I will never touch it again.
You have to find other ways to handle all the issues that are just around the corner.
The nic boat has been burned.
No need in talking about.
We survive or die tomorrow.
But Will do it QUIT!
You wanta talk about life... Lets talk about how to handle issues as adults.
Not as boys with a bandaid nic poison that is lurking in the shadows.
No more fear.... The bitch is dead.
I respect you and your quit. Im just a sword sharpening another sword to do battle again tomorrow.
We are free... Because we know the truth.
I quit with you IDWC...
Rawls 408
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So life has been crazy the last few weeks. A finance manager with my company quit a couple weeks ago and it was decided to not replace him. I'm just gonna take on his work load. That's great as far as money goes but I have been running non stop. Working at 8 am and not getting home till 10-11 pm. I feel like craves have been harder. And at a time that I feel like I need more involvement on KTC to stay focused, I'm so busy that I'm barely able to keep up with much more then roll. I love what I do and I like the money but I need to find a way to be more involved with less time. I'm feeling a little exposed. If that makes sense......
IDWC 339
Perhaps shooting a text to a quit brother every so often would help. I do that randomly sometimes and I am usually inspired by the message I get back. B)B
My brother I'm a text away. I will say what I always say to my worker's, money is not everything. I'm sure you're not just doing it for the money but I will honestly say I have missed your wisdom here as of late!
I don't know if I'd call it wisdom but I appreciate that bro. For my own quit health I'm gonna have to change up my old schedule so I can get/give what I need here.
Ok Boss.. it's time to get over the hump.
We live in a fallen world. And life is always crazy.
Always going to be issues.
NICOTINE will never help.
Take it off the list of possibilities.
You and I will never touch it again.
You have to find other ways to handle all the issues that are just around the corner.
The nic boat has been burned.
No need in talking about.
We survive or die tomorrow.
But Will do it QUIT!
You wanta talk about life... Lets talk about how to handle issues as adults.
Not as boys with a bandaid nic poison that is lurking in the shadows.
No more fear.... The bitch is dead.
I respect you and your quit. Im just a sword sharpening another sword to do battle again tomorrow.
We are free... Because we know the truth.
I quit with you IDWC...
Rawls 408
ok I can dig that. Nic isn't an option. That is an absolute truth.
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I'm with you IDWC. If you ever need something you know where to find me. I will forever owe a debt of quititude to you for everything you have done for me. Reach out anytime you need my man, I won't let you down.
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So life has been crazy the last few weeks. A finance manager with my company quit a couple weeks ago and it was decided to not replace him. I'm just gonna take on his work load. That's great as far as money goes but I have been running non stop. Working at 8 am and not getting home till 10-11 pm. I feel like craves have been harder. And at a time that I feel like I need more involvement on KTC to stay focused, I'm so busy that I'm barely able to keep up with much more then roll. I love what I do and I like the money but I need to find a way to be more involved with less time. I'm feeling a little exposed. If that makes sense......
IDWC 339
Perhaps shooting a text to a quit brother every so often would help. I do that randomly sometimes and I am usually inspired by the message I get back. B)B
My brother I'm a text away. I will say what I always say to my worker's, money is not everything. I'm sure you're not just doing it for the money but I will honestly say I have missed your wisdom here as of late!
I don't know if I'd call it wisdom but I appreciate that bro. For my own quit health I'm gonna have to change up my old schedule so I can get/give what I need here.
I just read all your posts here IDWC. I suggest you go back and read them as well. You should feel damn proud of yourself and the person you have become from this journey. Today I'm 112 days quit and I was having my first moment of weakness in a while. Reading your introduction tonight helped me stay quit. Thank you!
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Congratulations on your year my brother! That some badass quitting!
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Congratulations on your year my brother! That some badass quitting!
Nice year brother. Proud to be quit with you!
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Congratulations on your year my brother! That some badass quitting!
Nice year brother. Proud to be quit with you!
Wow, a year of freedom under your belt! Celebrating with you today brother! ^_^
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Congratulations on your year my brother! That some badass quitting!
Nice year brother. Proud to be quit with you!
Wow, a year of freedom under your belt! Celebrating with you today brother! ^_^
IDWC, congrats on your 1 year!
Thanks fir your support and your group short for my jackals!
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Congratulations on your year my brother! That some badass quitting!
Nice year brother. Proud to be quit with you!
Wow, a year of freedom under your belt! Celebrating with you today brother! ^_^
IDWC, congrats on your 1 year!
Thanks fir your support and your group short for my jackals!
Congrats IDWC! This new year of quit will bring many rewards! Each new day is a day of freedom with a year of quit behind it.
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Congratulations on your year my brother! That some badass quitting!
Nice year brother. Proud to be quit with you!
Wow, a year of freedom under your belt! Celebrating with you today brother! ^_^
IDWC, congrats on your 1 year!
Thanks fir your support and your group short for my jackals!
Congrats IDWC! This new year of quit will bring many rewards! Each new day is a day of freedom with a year of quit behind it.
Want some truth.... You have been free for a year! Congrats Brother.
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Congratulations on your year my brother! That some badass quitting!
Nice year brother. Proud to be quit with you!
Wow, a year of freedom under your belt! Celebrating with you today brother! ^_^
IDWC, congrats on your 1 year!
Thanks fir your support and your group short for my jackals!
Congrats IDWC! This new year of quit will bring many rewards! Each new day is a day of freedom with a year of quit behind it.
Want some truth.... You have been free for a year! Congrats Brother.
Thank you to all of you. It's been a hell of a year. Most days are relatively easy and then some are still as tough as they were in the beginning. But the beauty of KTC and the brotherhood built here is that I'm never without a lifeline when needed or the tools learned to overcome even the strongest of the Nic bitchs tricks. I've come a long way but have so much further to go. This addiction will forever be present. And remembering "day 1" is a good start to never returning. QLF with all of you.
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Congrats on 500 IDWC!
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Congrats on 500 IDWC!
Hell yeah! Proud of you quit with you edd
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Congrats on 500 IDWC!
Hell yeah! Proud of you quit with you edd
Well done brother!
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It's been almost 6 months since I posted here. I'm on day 682 and yet most days I feel more vulnerable in my quit then I did even in the beginning. I wish you new guys were able to read my thread and see that the struggle goes away, but it's not the case. I coasted for almost a year with few moments of question. But the last several months seem to present struggles daily. The most notable would be complacency. After almost 2 years I feel like I should have this addiction beat but everyday it seems that I have a moment or two where I want to say "fuck it" and leave this brotherhood so I can fall on my face in private. It's been these last few months that I've become acutely aware of the need to stay and continue to learn about my addiction and who I am as a quitter. As simple as the solution sounds though I'm finding it hard to live out. Work is busier then ever and my time to roam these halls is more limited then it was in the past. So how do I break out of the dangerous cycle I've been in? Take it back to the basics! Rather then looking at my day count and feeling inadequate because I'm not at some level of quit that Ive put on myself I'm going to go back to focusing on today. I'm an addict who only has to worry about ODAAT. The 681 days before today don't mean shit if I lose sight of today. So in closing, I have realized that days quit isn't as important as quitting today. And focusing on that alone. Stay focused new quitters. Most days get better. Once and awhile though we have to be reminded where we come from and regroup our efforts. The alternative is failure.
IDWC 682
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It's been almost 6 months since I posted here. I'm on day 682 and yet most days I feel more vulnerable in my quit then I did even in the beginning. I wish you new guys were able to read my thread and see that the struggle goes away, but it's not the case. I coasted for almost a year with few moments of question. But the last several months seem to present struggles daily. The most notable would be complacency. After almost 2 years I feel like I should have this addiction beat but everyday it seems that I have a moment or two where I want to say "fuck it" and leave this brotherhood so I can fall on my face in private. It's been these last few months that I've become acutely aware of the need to stay and continue to learn about my addiction and who I am as a quitter. As simple as the solution sounds though I'm finding it hard to live out. Work is busier then ever and my time to roam these halls is more limited then it was in the past. So how do I break out of the dangerous cycle I've been in? Take it back to the basics! Rather then looking at my day count and feeling inadequate because I'm not at some level of quit that Ive put on myself I'm going to go back to focusing on today. I'm an addict who only has to worry about ODAAT. The 681 days before today don't mean shit if I lose sight of today. So in closing, I have realized that days quit isn't as important as quitting today. And focusing on that alone. Stay focused new quitters. Most days get better. Once and awhile though we have to be reminded where we come from and regroup our efforts. The alternative is failure.
IDWC 682
Failure is not an option and I am glad to see you have the tools to recognize a funk and realize where you have come from. Some days it is truly ODAAT. Knowing that
helps keep you quit. Thanks for bringing this up and hopefully all will learn from it. We stay accountable we stay quit. Proud to be quit with you today IDWC.
JGlav - 460