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Title: A Good Find
Post by: Clint5280 on October 20, 2011, 03:10:00 PM
I don't know of another word to say than wow. Here is my story. I am a firefighter/emt for volunteer fire department and my full time job is a 911 Dispatcher. So, Just a little bit of stress in life right? And I used Chew to help deal with that stress. Problem is, deep inside I knew it was not good for me. was bad for my health. On and on and on and on. Sunday I decided was my last day chewing. When I woke up that day, I just decided. So, I had a half can left and when that can of cope was gone, I threw it out.

Almost went to get more but I made myself a promise. So Monday, I woke up. And I thought my head would explode. Somehow though, I did not get myself a chew. So yesterday was Day 3 for me of not having any chew. I thought I was going to go nuts. I thought I would actually crawl out of my skin.

I found this website and an amazing chat room. I could not believe the support that is here. Very first thing when I woke up this morning was come back to the web site. I cant believe how encouraging everyone is.

I am quit for 4 days. Tomorrow will be 5. Its gonna be a day at a time, but I am ready to be chew free. Sure am glad I stumbled upon this website.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: LLCope on October 20, 2011, 03:13:00 PM
Welcome.

If you need anything pm me!
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: miles on October 20, 2011, 03:19:00 PM
Welcome to the rest of your life. Quitting is the best decision you have made in a long time. Stay focused and post roll every day.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: davo on October 20, 2011, 03:23:00 PM
I am quit with you Clint. Day 4 for me and hangin' on
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: jmac07 on October 20, 2011, 03:30:00 PM
Clint,

Congratulations man! You're still kickin' and your skin is still intact. You've proved to yourself and to everyone here that you have met your goal of quitting one day at a time. That's right; you quit the rest of Sunday. You quit for Monday. You quit for Tuesday. You quit for Wednesday and you're quitting for Thursday!

I'll echo Miles by saying welcome to the rest of your life. No longer held down by something.

As a firefighter/EMT I'can only assume how much stress you've endured over your time. How relieving is it to know that you don't have to resort to dip anymore?

I support you and I quit with you.

Through heaven and hell man, we're all here for you.

-JMAC
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: Clint5280 on October 20, 2011, 03:35:00 PM
You guys all Rock!
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: Radman on October 20, 2011, 03:35:00 PM
Just dropped you a PM Clint, but I wanted to point out two corrections to your intro:

1. This isn't a "Good" find. It's a GREAT find. It changed my life.

2. If you officially quit sometime Sunday before midnight, that was day 1. If my ciphering is correct, that makes today a big ole "5".

Glad to see you here.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: dragstered on October 20, 2011, 11:48:00 PM
good job on 4 days clint... keep it up man!! you can do it... post roll, stay quit and get on chat if you need some people to help you out... pm me if you need anything

ed
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: wo1miles on October 21, 2011, 04:13:00 AM
Clint,

Glad you decided to jump on the Freedom Train. I cannot gurantee that it will be easy, because it's not. What I can guarantee is that this will be the most rewarding thing you've ever done.

Remember your last dip. It was shitty, nasty, smelly and disgusting. Your brain will tell you differently in a few weeks. It will harken back to the "aahh" feeling you got the first time you put that lip turd in your pie hole.

Remember the shitty feeling of your last dip. Holla if you need help.

I quit with YOU, my friend.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: MattMan on October 21, 2011, 11:53:00 AM
Clint - Sounds like we have similar careers (and similar stressors). For many years I worked prehospital EMS and for a about year in a 911 dispatch center. Now one of my jobs is to manager a air-medical communications center. Also lookes like we quit about the same time.

TacoMedic probably is in our family of first responders.

This type of work gives the nic bitch ammunition. She wispers in your ear, "You deserve this. After all the shit you saw today, all the disease and trauma, all the violence and pain. one little dip is not that big of a deal, YOU DESERVE THIS".

Beware. She is wispering those sweet nothings in my ear also. BUT. I'm determined to not cave. I will no longer be a slave to the can. I can beat this addiction, and TODAY, I give you my word, I WILL NOT USE ANY FORM OF NICOTINE TODAY. Tomorrow, I'll post roll call and make the same committtment, one day at a time.

So Clint, thanks for helping in my quit. Let me know how I can help you.

MattMan
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: TacoMEDIC on October 21, 2011, 01:19:00 PM
Quote from: MattMan
Clint - Sounds like we have similar careers (and similar stressors). For many years I worked prehospital EMS and for a about year in a 911 dispatch center. Now one of my jobs is to manager a air-medical communications center. Also lookes like we quit about the same time.

TacoMedic probably is in our family of first responders.

This type of work gives the nic bitch ammunition. She wispers in your ear, "You deserve this. After all the shit you saw today, all the disease and trauma, all the violence and pain. one little dip is not that big of a deal, YOU DESERVE THIS".

Beware. She is wispering those sweet nothings in my ear also. BUT. I'm determined to not cave. I will no longer be a slave to the can. I can beat this addiction, and TODAY, I give you my word, I WILL NOT USE ANY FORM OF NICOTINE TODAY. Tomorrow, I'll post roll call and make the same committtment, one day at a time.

So Clint, thanks for helping in my quit. Let me know how I can help you.

MattMan
^^^ TRUTH!!

I've been a Paramedic for 5 1/2 years. I know the stressors that make one want to use tobacco. RESIST

I quit with you today. Keep up the good work.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: Clint5280 on October 21, 2011, 02:17:00 PM
You guys rock. Just returned from a car crash (our On scene time was just over 2 1/2 hours) (It was a big crash). Was proud to make it the entire call with out a dip. I did buy some of the fake chew, so I had that when everyone else started grabbing their cans. But still proud I am QUIT FOR 5 DAYS! And I was just around some pretty big temptations and never caved.

The support I am getting here is invaluable.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: Ready on October 21, 2011, 02:21:00 PM
Quote from: Clint5280
You guys rock. Just returned from a car crash (our On scene time was just over 2 1/2 hours) (It was a big crash). Was proud to make it the entire call with out a dip. I did buy some of the fake chew, so I had that when everyone else started grabbing their cans. But still proud I am QUIT FOR 5 DAYS! And I was just around some pretty big temptations and never caved.

The support I am getting here is invaluable.
Well Done.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: Scowick65 on October 21, 2011, 02:36:00 PM
Quote from: Clint5280
You guys rock. Just returned from a car crash (our On scene time was just over 2 1/2 hours) (It was a big crash). Was proud to make it the entire call with out a dip. I did buy some of the fake chew, so I had that when everyone else started grabbing their cans. But still proud I am QUIT FOR 5 DAYS! And I was just around some pretty big temptations and never caved.

The support I am getting here is invaluable.
Yes, well done. Posting roll every morning is like buckling up. It will save your life. Proud to quit with you.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: Radman on October 21, 2011, 04:12:00 PM
Quote from: Ready
Quote from: Clint5280
You guys rock.  Just returned from a car crash (our On scene time was just over 2 1/2 hours) (It was a big crash). Was proud to make it the entire  call with out a dip. I did buy some of the fake chew, so I had that when everyone else started grabbing their cans. But still proud I am QUIT FOR 5 DAYS! And I was just around some pretty big temptations and never caved. 

The support I am getting here is invaluable.
Well Done.
I dare say perfectly done. Keep up the good work.

Wow, looks like we got quite a family of responders here. I'll clip my tag on the ring, too.

You got your plan together for the weekend? Use your numbers and lean on folks if you have to. The first few weekends were tough for me. I found that manual leighbor in around the yard made me feel better and also kept the wife happy.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: Souliman on October 22, 2011, 09:04:00 AM
Quote from: Radman
Quote from: Ready
Quote from: Clint5280
You guys rock.  Just returned from a car crash (our On scene time was just over 2 1/2 hours) (It was a big crash). Was proud to make it the entire  call with out a dip. I did buy some of the fake chew, so I had that when everyone else started grabbing their cans. But still proud I am QUIT FOR 5 DAYS! And I was just around some pretty big temptations and never caved. 

The support I am getting here is invaluable.
Well Done.
I dare say perfectly done. Keep up the good work.

Wow, looks like we got quite a family of responders here. I'll clip my tag on the ring, too.

You got your plan together for the weekend? Use your numbers and lean on folks if you have to. The first few weekends were tough for me. I found that manual leighbor in around the yard made me feel better and also kept the wife happy.
Nice work. Protect that quit brother. Be smart.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: Clint5280 on October 22, 2011, 05:33:00 PM
On day 6. Back at work for the first time since my quit. Wanted to stop and grab a can so bad today. But I didn't. I have 2 cans of the fake chew and a bag of sun seeds. I need your support gang. It's been hard today.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: Ready on October 22, 2011, 05:39:00 PM
Quote from: Clint5280
On day 6. Back at work for the first time since my quit. Wanted to stop and grab a can so bad today. But I didn't. I have 2 cans of the fake chew and a bag of sun seeds. I need your support gang. It's been hard today.
It will get better as long as you stay quit. So much better that even if I describe it, I doubt you would believe me.

There is no "Just one".

never again, for any reason.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: AgLawyer on October 22, 2011, 08:25:00 PM
Quote from: Ready
Quote from: Clint5280
On day 6. Back at work for the first time since my quit. Wanted to stop and grab a can so bad today. But I didn't. I have 2 cans of the fake chew and a bag of sun seeds. I need your support gang. It's been hard today.
It will get better as long as you stay quit. So much better that even if I describe it, I doubt you would believe me.

There is no "Just one".

never again, for any reason.
Clint:

NO, NO, NO, you did not "want to grab a can so bad today." So you WANT to ingest a poison? The addiction is speaking to you. What you WANT is freedom. Imagine the disappointment in yourself that you will feel AS SOON as you touch it to your lips.

Nah, fuck that. I'm liking your quit dude. I'm watching like others are as well. Don't let me down.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: Souliman on October 22, 2011, 10:29:00 PM
Okay Clint. This is bullshit bud. We need to get some resolve going here. You're past the physical and now its the mental. That shit was trying to kill you daily. That's all. That wasn't your friend or some soothing pacifier. That shit was poison in a can that some fucks orchestrated as a product. That product helped pave the way for your addiction. We have been fucked over on this one. Completely fucked over. You're worth more than a few bucks in some suit's bottom line. Aren't you? You shouldn't want to "stop and grab a can"...you should want to fire bomb every fucking 7-11 on the way to and from work. Next time you go into a cancer supply hut, you stare at those cans and give me the old "FUCK YOU BITCH". That's your enemy. Not your friend. Start treating it that way.

DISCLAIMER: I am not advocating anarchy. I just like my quit with extra passion on the side.
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: jmac07 on October 23, 2011, 02:54:00 AM
Clint,

Lately, I have made it a new hobby to stop into almost every gas station I pass or notice just to stare down that damn rack of shit on the wall. Though the temptation is a bitch, I have been able to say no each and every time. I stare it down looking at it from the perspective that it will kill me if I take one more dip. Its habitual to look for "your selection" of dip. Guess what buddy? It's no longer your selection,.. Wait a minute, you're no longer "it's" selection. You walked away with the better hand. You've broken the barrier between you and the dip and now you need to fight off the temptations and habits that come along with getting away from that carcinogen bullshit.

Old habits die hard? No. You will die from old habits.

Thank your lucky stars that you are alive today because you quit. Some of the victims you see on your shifts may not be so lucky, but you my friend are!

You can and will get through this.

Proud to quit with you.

JMAC
Title: Re: A Good Find
Post by: Clint5280 on October 24, 2011, 05:54:00 PM
Hey Everyone,

So for the last decade my chew of choice was Copenhagen Long Cut. I have been trying different "herbal chews" since quitting, and I just got an order of "Jakes Mint Chew" in the mail. If using the fake stuff helps you quit, I recomend this stuff. Its long cut mint leaves. I ordered Mint and Cinnamon and its amazing. Just thought I would pass it along.