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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Leon on October 07, 2015, 07:20:00 PM
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The past couple of months I've been checking out KTC, reading about what to expected and any other information I could get my hands on. I knew that at some point I needed to quit..... but I didn't. I would tell myself "I'll quit after final exams" or "work is too stressful to quit right now." Then about another month would pass and the process would start over. Finally, after 8+ years I have told myself to shut the fuck up and quit already. I'm tired of it. I life revolved around chaw. I was always looking forward to the next chaw I could have after work or before bed. At this point, I'm about 24 hours nic free.
In the 24 hours that I haven't had nic, I would say approximately 23 hours and 58 minutes have been spent thinking about chaw.
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That is a normal Day 1 of quit! Way to quit planning and dive in with both feet. It will get better, you will think about things other than chew soon.
If you been lurking here, you know the drill: head on over to the January 2016 quit group, say hi and post roll. Post with the DOGS every morning when you wake. Trade digits with fellow quitters (via PM). Drink lots of water, exercise like crazy. The nicotine should be out of your system in a couple days, then the healing and fun starts.
I quit with you today.
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I quit with you as well. Awesome choice to quit. If you need anything let me know.
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Jeleoooooooooooo! Great decision, my friend. Time to quit the fuck up, baby!
C'mon in here and get you some of this quit: listen to each and every one of these badass quitters.
Check your PMs.
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Get in here with the DOG house and quit your ass off. You will NEVER regret it.
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On day three and I can honestly say that I'm with you. I've been putting off quitting for long enough and I think it's about damn time that we just nut up or shut up. Lets get it done man.
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I have been quit for 46 days now and honestly my quit has been easy. That worries me. Day 1-3 were terrible, mostly I just couldn't get chaw off my mind. After those couple of days i have had a bad day here and there where the cravings were tough but mostly I haven't had any cravings, I haven't had to use fake stuff or seeds in about 35 days. I wish I thought that was a good thing. I'm afraid my addict mind will convince myself, "quitting wasn't that hard, lets just start dipping again and I can quit whenever I want and it won't be difficult," or " I wasn't really an addict, if I was, it would have been harder to quit." Just the thought of me thinking this way, scares the shit out of me.
The one constant thing that has been part of my quit are NIC dreams. I say NIC dreams because I haven't had a DIP dream. All my dreams about NIC involve me smoking a cigar or cigarette. In one dream I was smoking a pipe (like I was mother fucking Sherlock Holmes). I've never smoked cigarettes and i haven't had a cigar in years. Why the hell am I having NIC dreams about those two when I was putting dip in mouth mouth 5 to 6 times a day!?
Also, has anyone ever had a dream where their teeth are breaking in half or that you don't have any teeth? I had another dream where I just started pulling all of my teeth out of mouth. I've been trying to figure out what this dream means and why I started having them.
I quit with all of you.
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So much of quitting is a mind game. Life and quitting nicotine are what we make of them. You can turn your lack of sever cravings into a positive or a negative influence. For me after 3 1/2 years I still think of dip daily which can be damn annoying, but I've been using it as the constant reminder of where I was and where I am now. Be thankful that you aren't haunted constantly by the bitch and remember what it was like being controlled by the poison. Keep positive thoughts and rise above those distracting thoughts no matter how often they come. I'm still losing teeth after all this time being quit and I could say screw it, I waited too long to quit. But instead I choose to look at my situation as being blessed that I'm only losing teeth not my jaw, throat or life. Addiction is such a powerful mind altering experience, our minds are so easy to get out of adjustment. Isn't it amazing how a small amount of a chemical can completely alter our brain?
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I have been quit for 46 days now and honestly my quit has been easy. That worries me. Day 1-3 were terrible, mostly I just couldn't get chaw off my mind. After those couple of days i have had a bad day here and there where the cravings were tough but mostly I haven't had any cravings, I haven't had to use fake stuff or seeds in about 35 days. I wish I thought that was a good thing. I'm afraid my addict mind will convince myself, "quitting wasn't that hard, lets just start dipping again and I can quit whenever I want and it won't be difficult," or " I wasn't really an addict, if I was, it would have been harder to quit." Just the thought of me thinking this way, scares the shit out of me.
The one constant thing that has been part of my quit are NIC dreams. I say NIC dreams because I haven't had a DIP dream. All my dreams about NIC involve me smoking a cigar or cigarette. In one dream I was smoking a pipe (like I was mother fucking Sherlock Holmes). I've never smoked cigarettes and i haven't had a cigar in years. Why the hell am I having NIC dreams about those two when I was putting dip in mouth mouth 5 to 6 times a day!?
Also, has anyone ever had a dream where their teeth are breaking in half or that you don't have any teeth? I had another dream where I just started pulling all of my teeth out of mouth. I've been trying to figure out what this dream means and why I started having them.
I quit with all of you.
Dude, I have had so many dreams where my teeth are falling out by the handfuls because I always worry about the damage I've done to my gums.
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poof*
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I have been quit for 46 days now and honestly my quit has been easy. That worries me. Day 1-3 were terrible, mostly I just couldn't get chaw off my mind. After those couple of days i have had a bad day here and there where the cravings were tough but mostly I haven't had any cravings, I haven't had to use fake stuff or seeds in about 35 days. I wish I thought that was a good thing. I'm afraid my addict mind will convince myself, "quitting wasn't that hard, lets just start dipping again and I can quit whenever I want and it won't be difficult," or " I wasn't really an addict, if I was, it would have been harder to quit." Just the thought of me thinking this way, scares the shit out of me.
The one constant thing that has been part of my quit are NIC dreams. I say NIC dreams because I haven't had a DIP dream. All my dreams about NIC involve me smoking a cigar or cigarette. In one dream I was smoking a pipe (like I was mother fucking Sherlock Holmes). I've never smoked cigarettes and i haven't had a cigar in years. Why the hell am I having NIC dreams about those two when I was putting dip in mouth mouth 5 to 6 times a day!?
Also, has anyone ever had a dream where their teeth are breaking in half or that you don't have any teeth? I had another dream where I just started pulling all of my teeth out of mouth. I've been trying to figure out what this dream means and why I started having them.
I quit with all of you.
Dude, I have had so many dreams where my teeth are falling out by the handfuls because I always worry about the damage I've done to my gums.
That has to be it. I always had the fear of my teeth falling out.
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So much of quitting is a mind game. Life and quitting nicotine are what we make of them. You can turn your lack of sever cravings into a positive or a negative influence. For me after 3 1/2 years I still think of dip daily which can be damn annoying, but I've been using it as the constant reminder of where I was and where I am now. Be thankful that you aren't haunted constantly by the bitch and remember what it was like being controlled by the poison. Keep positive thoughts and rise above those distracting thoughts no matter how often they come. I'm still losing teeth after all this time being quit and I could say screw it, I waited too long to quit. But instead I choose to look at my situation as being blessed that I'm only losing teeth not my jaw, throat or life. Addiction is such a powerful mind altering experience, our minds are so easy to get out of adjustment. Isn't it amazing how a small amount of a chemical can completely alter our brain?
Thank you, this totally changed the way I was viewing my situation. I will try from now on to stay positive. One of your points that I never really thought about is being thankful that I stopped before having my jaw removed or dying. I haven't taken the time to appreciate what could have been if I continued putting that bitch in my mouth. Thank you.
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So much of quitting is a mind game. Life and quitting nicotine are what we make of them. You can turn your lack of sever cravings into a positive or a negative influence. For me after 3 1/2 years I still think of dip daily which can be damn annoying, but I've been using it as the constant reminder of where I was and where I am now. Be thankful that you aren't haunted constantly by the bitch and remember what it was like being controlled by the poison. Keep positive thoughts and rise above those distracting thoughts no matter how often they come. I'm still losing teeth after all this time being quit and I could say screw it, I waited too long to quit. But instead I choose to look at my situation as being blessed that I'm only losing teeth not my jaw, throat or life. Addiction is such a powerful mind altering experience, our minds are so easy to get out of adjustment. Isn't it amazing how a small amount of a chemical can completely alter our brain?
Thank you, this totally changed the way I was viewing my situation. I will try from now on to stay positive. One of your points that I never really thought about is being thankful that I stopped before having my jaw removed or dying. I haven't taken the time to appreciate what could have been if I continued putting that bitch in my mouth. Thank you.
"being thankful that I stopped before having my jaw removed or dying. I haven't taken the time to appreciate what could have been if I continued putting that bitch in my mouth."
^^^This, right here, is exactly how you should think of it. And I'll layer on - remember that fear you had before Wt57 made you have that epiphany. Don't ever forget that fear and how it made you feel. Package that fear, anxiety, nervousness, and paranoia and put it on a mental pedestal. Look at that package of miserable emotion often and promise yourself, with all your hear that you will never, ever, ever put yourself in that position again. I had a health scare that ultimately kick-started my quit; and I've put all of those emotions into a mental urn which I've placed in the center of my quit castle. Every time I look at it, I add another brick to my quit foundation - I post roll, text a buddy, anything. I continue to add rocks to that foundation, because I'm never going to put myself through that again. Never.
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Happy Hof Day Leon!
Celebrate this 100 day mark and keep up the quit and the +1 on roll.
I quit with you today.