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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Gunner75 on October 01, 2012, 02:18:00 PM
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First off thanks to all who contribute to this forum support group.
Today is day 11 for me, I'm done with it.
Chewed for 26 years, a can to a can and a half a day. If I was awake I was chewing.
Quite the shit September 21.
First few days were pretty much like everyone else, panic, jitters, constantly thinking about the bitch I just kicked out of my life.
Today, still dealing with the fog, mouth sores off and on, but quit.
Don't know when the fog will lift, or my mouth will fully heal, doesn't matter, I will not chew again.
Anyway, typically just stop by to read, thought I would throw out an intro!
Gunner75
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First off thanks to all who contribute to this forum support group.
Today is day 11 for me, I'm done with it.
Chewed for 26 years, a can to a can and a half a day. If I was awake I was chewing.
Quite the shit September 21.
First few days were pretty much like everyone else, panic, jitters, constantly thinking about the bitch I just kicked out of my life.
Today, still dealing with the fog, mouth sores off and on, but quit.
Don't know when the fog will lift, or my mouth will fully heal, doesn't matter, I will not chew again.
Anyway, typically just stop by to read, thought I would throw out an intro!
Gunner75
Nice job Gunner75! Stay with it. The fog will lift. It will get better!
Looks like you got the posting roll thing down.
I'll quit with you today Gunner. PM me if I can help.
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First off thanks to all who contribute to this forum support group.
Today is day 11 for me, I'm done with it.
Chewed for 26 years, a can to a can and a half a day. If I was awake I was chewing.
Quite the shit September 21.
First few days were pretty much like everyone else, panic, jitters, constantly thinking about the bitch I just kicked out of my life.
Today, still dealing with the fog, mouth sores off and on, but quit.
Don't know when the fog will lift, or my mouth will fully heal, doesn't matter, I will not chew again.
Anyway, typically just stop by to read, thought I would throw out an intro!
Gunner75
Gunner -
glad you're here and saw you posted up with Dec12....awesome.
Keep exercising, eating right, drinking water and that fog should be gone soon for you.But note it will come back from time to time, just learn what it is so you know how to deal with it.
11 days is great, just always beware of the nic bitches whispering in your ear. You need to fight each time as these will be on the low days of your ride through this quit.
you will have good days, so enjoy them too.
Make sure you keep reading and learning here on the site. And remember your group is your brothers, lean on them and let them lean on you. As together the quit is stronger than by yourself.
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Nice job Gunner! Keep it up!
I am in your group and quit with you today!
See you in roll every morning...if not, I'll be in your inbox and riding your ass to find out where you are!!
PM is you need anything.
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Congratulations on 11 days quit. Im on day 13. The cravings can be rough. If i can help you in any way just pm me. I quit with you today.
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Great going Gunner we all start at the same place day one and add to it a day at the time I am at day 66 now but can well remember day eleven it had 73 hours in it day 22 was worse yet but this site and the chat room got me through the rough spots thats what i was doing when i ran across your comments, never hesitate to research and read when you are craving it really helps, the chat room helps to we all understand what the other one is going through, some shit told me in there one day he did not trust me and that pissed me to no end but those words come to me every time the nic bitch gets to chasing me and I say I will show his ass!! it re enforces my quit, post every day it is vital, if your word is worth a shit you will keep it so post as soon as your feet hit the floor. stay strong man!!
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Thanks everyone,
Plan to comment on this thread often as my way of keeping a journal to look back on and to hopefully help someone else.
Smokey Mountain and seeds are working good for me.
Even in a fog I have no desire to go back, I'm sure I have tougher days to come, and that's fine, bring em on!!
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Day 12 almost in the books.
Some fog, dull headache and some dizziness still, but QUIT!
Reading others posts and knowing your not the only one going through it is helpful, and reading advice from those who have been quit for a long time is motivation.
I will not cave. 'Finger' nicotine
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Day 14
Leaning on the fake dip pretty hard.
Get a little panicked when I start running low on this corn silk shit, but better than caving.
Zero patience with lazy ass coworkers, !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When this passes, I will still be quit.
Honestly feels like day 1 all over again.
Late edit: Today fucking sucked, snapping on everything, foggy fucking........FUCK !!!!!!!!
Day 1 was nothing !!!!!!
'bang head' 'Crazy' 'Finger' Nicotine!
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Quit with you all today.
G75
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Next time your having a rough day with the nic, think of this.
Your a Siamese twin.
Your Brother attached to your shoulder is gay.
He has a date coming over tonight.
You only have one ass.
Not so bad now is it?
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Next time your having a rough day with the nic, think of this.
Your a Siamese twin.
Your Brother attached to your shoulder is gay.
He has a date coming over tonight.
You only have one ass.
Not so bad now is it?
My bother is gay.
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So is mine, he thinks its funny.
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You know, this was not meant to be a slur, not meant to be offensive to anyone.
Those with power please get rid of this post,
sorry if I offended anyone
Ill stick with roll, quitting, and shutting the fuck up.
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Just messing with you man. I don't have a brother.
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You know, this was not meant to be a slur, not meant to be offensive to anyone.
Those with power please get rid of this post,
sorry if I offended anyone
Ill stick with roll, quitting, and shutting the fuck up.
My brother is Siamese. And I only have one ass.
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You know, this was not meant to be a slur, not meant to be offensive to anyone.
Those with power please get rid of this post,
sorry if I offended anyone
Ill stick with roll, quitting, and shutting the fuck up.
My brother is Siamese. And I only have one ass.
I have two brothers, they are gay and they both share assholes! I don't know if they have ever shared a siamese. Gmann could help you out!! hahaha. If someone is offended they havent been here very long.
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You know, this was not meant to be a slur, not meant to be offensive to anyone.
Those with power please get rid of this post,
sorry if I offended anyone
Ill stick with roll, quitting, and shutting the fuck up.
Gunner, you're among quitters...which means friends. You gotta try harder than that to offend quitters. We're the biggest reprobates on the Earth. We've lied to those who love us most, stolen time from our families and spouse to spend time with the Nic Bitch, etc. Yessir, in the grand scheme of things...we suck. But let those without sin cast the first stone. I'm quit with you and every son (or daughter) of a bitch who will stand to be counted with us. Righteous indignation has no place among those who struggle to overcome. (I sound like a '60's beat poet, huh?)
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I think this entire post is fucking awesome and I enjoyed reading it. If you didn't like it, don't read it again and stay quit. If you laughed, read it again and stay quit.
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I agree...this was fucking awesome! Thanks for a great laugh...I really needed it about the time I came across it...
Gunner, DON"T shut the fuck up....we need more shit like this in our group!
Proud to be quit with you!!
Kuss
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I knew it. I knew there was no chance both Parputt and his brother were gay.
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I agree...this was fucking awesome! Thanks for a great laugh...I really needed it about the time I came across it...
Gunner, DON"T shut the fuck up....we need more shit like this in our group!
Proud to be quit with you!!
Kuss
Have got to agree with mf-kuss. I needed this so damn bad today, timing is soooo good! Brought me out of the drain on the floor!
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I knew it. I knew there was no chance both Parputt and his brother were gay.
'crackup'
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anyone that is offended by this really needs to go put their head in a meat grinder and stop breathing. i'm so sick of the united states of the offended.
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26 days memo:
I know from reading many of the posts on here that it will eventually get easier, and I believe them and will not cave.
This memo is definitely not meant to screw anyone up that is just getting started with quitting, but I have to log this to look back on and remember how much of a bitch this addiction is.
I have had what is referred to as the "fog" since day 1.
Wake up feeling like I am in a dream, not real.
Disconnected, irritable. Headaches. Tongue sores.
It just plain fucking sucks!
Not going to cave, and this is not meant to be a woe is fucking me post, just something to remind me as I move forward.
Nicotine is the fucking devil, not proud of my addiction.
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26 days memo:
I know from reading many of the posts on here that it will eventually get easier, and I believe them and will not cave.
This memo is definitely not meant to screw anyone up that is just getting started with quitting, but I have to log this to look back on and remember how much of a bitch this addiction is.
I have had what is referred to as the "fog" since day 1.
Wake up feeling like I am in a dream, not real.
Disconnected, irritable. Headaches. Tongue sores.
It just plain fucking sucks!
Not going to cave, and this is not meant to be a woe is fucking me post, just something to remind me as I move forward.
Nicotine is the fucking devil, not proud of my addiction.
Believe me when I tell you, IT DOES GET BETTER. Peeps used to tell me that ALL THE TIME when I first quit and was scared shitless....I never believed them. I thought "maybe for everyone else it gets better but not me, I'm the one in a million guy where things will never get better".
As usual I was wrong and everyone else was right, THANK GOD!!! 135 days quit and I am sharpe as a tack and feel great. You will too, just stick with it. You're brain is re wiring it will take some time.
REMEMBER....this is just a snap shot of time in your life, you will not feel this way forever. 26 days is AWESOME but in the grand scheme of things 26 days flys by like a fart in the wind. So does 135 days for that matter.
Stay strong!!!!
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26 days memo:
I know from reading many of the posts on here that it will eventually get easier, and I believe them and will not cave.
This memo is definitely not meant to screw anyone up that is just getting started with quitting, but I have to log this to look back on and remember how much of a bitch this addiction is.
I have had what is referred to as the "fog" since day 1.
Wake up feeling like I am in a dream, not real.
Disconnected, irritable. Headaches. Tongue sores.
It just plain fucking sucks!
Not going to cave, and this is not meant to be a woe is fucking me post, just something to remind me as I move forward.
Nicotine is the fucking devil, not proud of my addiction.
Believe me when I tell you, IT DOES GET BETTER. Peeps used to tell me that ALL THE TIME when I first quit and was scared shitless....I never believed them. I thought "maybe for everyone else it gets better but not me, I'm the one in a million guy where things will never get better".
As usual I was wrong and everyone else was right, THANK GOD!!! 135 days quit and I am sharpe as a tack and feel great. You will too, just stick with it. You're brain is re wiring it will take some time.
REMEMBER....this is just a snap shot of time in your life, you will not feel this way forever. 26 days is AWESOME but in the grand scheme of things 26 days flys by like a fart in the wind. So does 135 days for that matter.
Stay strong!!!!
listen to diesel. he's a strong quitter, and he's right. It get's better. One day at a time brother.
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Hey guys, day 41 here.
Just wondering if anyone else at this stage is still dealing with or dealt a sore freaking mouth/tongue ?
Canker sores popping up on the tongue constantly, but nothing that stays, just seems like they bounce around.
Today for instance, feels like I bit both freaking cheeks(mouth) hard as fuck and washed it down with a scorching hot cup of coffee and burnt the shit out of the back of my tongue.
Still get extreme dry mouth at night.
Anyone else?
I hate my fucking doctor but may go see what his lazy ass has to say about it.
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Hey guys, day 41 here.
Just wondering if anyone else at this stage is still dealing with or dealt a sore freaking mouth/tongue ?
Canker sores popping up on the tongue constantly, but nothing that stays, just seems like they bounce around.
Today for instance, feels like I bit both freaking cheeks(mouth) hard as fuck and washed it down with a scorching hot cup of coffee and burnt the shit out of the back of my tongue.
Still get extreme dry mouth at night.
Anyone else?
I hate my fucking doctor but may go see what his lazy ass has to say about it.
What's in your mouth now? Seeds, gum, etc??? maybe one of those is aggravating? Once I quit dip I seemed to bite my tongue and cheek often.. don't know why but it happens. as long as they go away i wouldn't worry about it. your body is still trying to figure out what's going on. The bitch is just messing with your mind as well. as for dry mouth? water on nightstand.. lol.. stay strong, stay quit, your mouth will feel good in no time..
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Hey guys, day 41 here.
Just wondering if anyone else at this stage is still dealing with or dealt a sore freaking mouth/tongue ?
Canker sores popping up on the tongue constantly, but nothing that stays, just seems like they bounce around.
Today for instance, feels like I bit both freaking cheeks(mouth) hard as fuck and washed it down with a scorching hot cup of coffee and burnt the shit out of the back of my tongue.
Still get extreme dry mouth at night.
Anyone else?
I hate my fucking doctor but may go see what his lazy ass has to say about it.
What's in your mouth now? Seeds, gum, etc??? maybe one of those is aggravating? Once I quit dip I seemed to bite my tongue and cheek often.. don't know why but it happens. as long as they go away i wouldn't worry about it. your body is still trying to figure out what's going on. The bitch is just messing with your mind as well. as for dry mouth? water on nightstand.. lol.. stay strong, stay quit, your mouth will feel good in no time..
Seems I bite my lip, cheek, or tongue once a day. So yes my mouth still hurts, good news is that I am slowing down on even the gum so it should slow down as well. Stupid brain still can't figure out nothing needs to be in the piehole 18 hours a day! 'Crazy'
Always keep that glass of water handy!
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Some seeds, mints, Smokey Mountain like its going out of style.
I'm sure its due to all the New shit, but it freaks me out at the same time.
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Hey guys, day 41 here.
Just wondering if anyone else at this stage is still dealing with or dealt a sore freaking mouth/tongue ?
Canker sores popping up on the tongue constantly, but nothing that stays, just seems like they bounce around.
Today for instance, feels like I bit both freaking cheeks(mouth) hard as fuck and washed it down with a scorching hot cup of coffee and burnt the shit out of the back of my tongue.
Still get extreme dry mouth at night.
Anyone else?
I hate my fucking doctor but may go see what his lazy ass has to say about it.
Perhaps go to a dentist or ent doc. They could give you some piece of mind.
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My mouth is the same way. Sores and such. They never last very long. They heal faster now than they ever have before. My mouth is also dry most of the time. I drink alot of water and chew gum and it seems to help some but it's still dry. I bite my damn lips all the time to. Hurts like hell. If you need anything or just feel like talking just pm me. Im always available.
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Hey guys, day 41 here.
Just wondering if anyone else at this stage is still dealing with or dealt a sore freaking mouth/tongue ?
Canker sores popping up on the tongue constantly, but nothing that stays, just seems like they bounce around.
Today for instance, feels like I bit both freaking cheeks(mouth) hard as fuck and washed it down with a scorching hot cup of coffee and burnt the shit out of the back of my tongue.
Still get extreme dry mouth at night.
Anyone else?
I hate my fucking doctor but may go see what his lazy ass has to say about it.
My mouth was sore for awhile. Seemed like I bit my tounge or my cheek every other day. It was like I took the dip out and my mouth got retarted.
I am sure all of the extra salt and seeds are not helping. If nothing stays longer than a couple of days I would not sweat them. I know I freaked myself out early on so much I was going to the doctor two times a week.
Relax and keep that shit outta your face...
STAY QUIT
Greg
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Thanks for the feedback guys. Truly appreciated.
I realize I brought this upon myself by poisoning myself for all these years.
Every so often I think how bad it would suck to have quit and find out its too late, already have cancer.
I'm sure its a little paranoia, and I will make an appointment to put my mind at ease.
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Thanks for the feedback guys. Truly appreciated.
I realize I brought this upon myself by poisoning myself for all these years.
Every so often I think how bad it would suck to have quit and find out its too late, already have cancer.
I'm sure its a little paranoia, and I will make an appointment to put my mind at ease.
Not an expert here but I feel the same way sometimes. Maybe it's the guilt of putting that poison in our mouth for so long.
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56 days.
Getting stronger everyday. Still think about it daily, but gone through too much shit to go back now.
Long way to go, and I am prepared for the journey. One day at a time.
Still have lots of side effects, but learning to just deal with them and be patient.
This is the first year I can remember trapping and hunting without my daily inventory of supplies including at least 3 full cans of Husky Natural.
I appreciate this site, it is a huge part of my day to day.
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It will get much better I PROMISE YOU!
Make your quit your lifestyle. Share with others as this will help strenthen and remind you of your quit. If you drink, quit that shit too. Trust me, if you drink and use tobacco you will DIE before your time! I know cause I lost all of my moms side to it. They combine to make accerlerated heart and cancer problems. So, quit that shit and make it your way of life. Celebrate it.
Post roll.
keep your word all day.
Get to sleep.
Wake up and REPEAT!
If i can do it after 30 yrs, 1-2 cans per day, then you can TOO....YOU must DECIDE each a.m. The earlier the better....and YES it does get better. It gets easier to kick the nic bitch in the head and her voice does get much quieter.
It is a victory to be quit through hard work...there is nothing magical or mystical about it....just hard work!
cheers!
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Day 70 brothas!
Man, I'm FINALLY starting to have some pretty decent days.
Thanks to all of you guys for the support. Diesel, man, appreciate you sharing your similarities with me.
I still deal with some fog daily, I think a lot has to do with the fact I stare at a damn computer screen more than I care to.
Mouth is definitely getting better. Was pretty freaked out there for a while.
Am I out of the woods? Hell no, probably never will be, and I accept that and will continue to do this day by day. Prepping myself for the "doldrums" as it has been described by the veterans, and I'm actually looking forward to another challenge.
My Dad used to chew a can of Copenhagen a day for a LONG time. Was chatting with him the other day about quitting. He hasn't chewed for probably 10 years and still says he still has cravings and could pop one in after a meal real easy.
Whats that tell you about this addiction. She's a MEAN BITCH!!!
Very proud of the fact that my group is about to start sending members to the Hall!!!
Ill be one of the last to make it, but am excited to start seeing some of my December brothers cross that goal.
100 days is a hell of a milestone, and whoever designed this website and laid out the guidelines is a genius. I honestly feel like I am in complete control of my addiction now, and it is because of this site and to all of the awesome vets that keep their foot up the newbies asses.
Its never going to be over ladies, we just have to continue to do as is laid out for us.
It really does suck this easy!
Wake up
Post roll
Keep your promise
Repeat
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88 days
The lying addict
That's me. Besides my wife and kids, I waited until a few days ago to even say anything about what I call my "recovery" to anyone.
My mother has for the life of her trying to get her boys to quit chewing for God knows how long. Every-time I "tried" to quit in the past, I would always tell my mother I was quitting. Basically lying to her face. Something about the joy that would come over her face hearing that would make me feel like I was a good son.
Then I would fail and show up to her home on Thanksgiving or Christmas with a face full of shit.
I really don't know how many times I did that to her and the rest of my family, but it was enough that I knew damn well no one believed me. Why the hell should they, I was a lying addict.
So I was really reluctant about telling my Mom this time. When I did, I did not tell her I quit. I told her that I had not chewed for X amount of days. Each time I see her I add to that number, but I do not tell her I quit.
I know when I'm in a hurry to post roll in the mornings, I will just post "quit", and I wish I would not do that.
Still makes me feel like a liar to say that word.
I consider a better term for what I am doing as "recovering".
When they throw that last shovel full of dirt on my casket, and I have been true to my word and have not put any chew in my mouth, then they I will consider myself quit.
Sorry to ramble, but that's how it is in Gunner75's Ville.
On a side note and really a much more important note, Please say a prayer for the Children and Staff that lost their lives and their families in Newtown Ct.
What a tragedy.
Still struggling with that, as I am sure many others are as well.
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88 days
The lying addict
That's me. Besides my wife and kids, I waited until a few days ago to even say anything about what I call my "recovery" to anyone.
My mother has for the life of her trying to get her boys to quit chewing for God knows how long. Every-time I "tried" to quit in the past, I would always tell my mother I was quitting. Basically lying to her face. Something about the joy that would come over her face hearing that would make me feel like I was a good son.
Then I would fail and show up to her home on Thanksgiving or Christmas with a face full of shit.
I really don't know how many times I did that to her and the rest of my family, but it was enough that I knew damn well no one believed me. Why the hell should they, I was a lying addict.
So I was really reluctant about telling my Mom this time. When I did, I did not tell her I quit. I told her that I had not chewed for X amount of days. Each time I see her I add to that number, but I do not tell her I quit.
I know when I'm in a hurry to post roll in the mornings, I will just post "quit", and I wish I would not do that.
Still makes me feel like a liar to say that word.
I consider a better term for what I am doing as "recovering".
When they throw that last shovel full of dirt on my casket, and I have been true to my word and have not put any chew in my mouth, then they I will consider myself quit.
Sorry to ramble, but that's how it is in Gunner75's Ville.
On a side note and really a much more important note, Please say a prayer for the Children and Staff that lost their lives and their families in Newtown Ct.
What a tragedy.
Still struggling with that, as I am sure many others are as well.
Great post, Gunner. I'll recover with you today. I like the way you put it. I too am a liar and have lied to everyone about trying to quit in the past. I feel quit about where I am in my quit. However, that is only because of guys like you that I have talked to and so many others on this site that keep my focus on not killing myself with that poisen.
I'm sure your mom is very proud to here your number every time you see her.
QLF....or RLF in your case.
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88 days
The lying addict
That's me. Besides my wife and kids, I waited until a few days ago to even say anything about what I call my "recovery" to anyone.
My mother has for the life of her trying to get her boys to quit chewing for God knows how long. Every-time I "tried" to quit in the past, I would always tell my mother I was quitting. Basically lying to her face. Something about the joy that would come over her face hearing that would make me feel like I was a good son.
Then I would fail and show up to her home on Thanksgiving or Christmas with a face full of shit.
I really don't know how many times I did that to her and the rest of my family, but it was enough that I knew damn well no one believed me. Why the hell should they, I was a lying addict.
So I was really reluctant about telling my Mom this time. When I did, I did not tell her I quit. I told her that I had not chewed for X amount of days. Each time I see her I add to that number, but I do not tell her I quit.
I know when I'm in a hurry to post roll in the mornings, I will just post "quit", and I wish I would not do that.
Still makes me feel like a liar to say that word.
I consider a better term for what I am doing as "recovering".
When they throw that last shovel full of dirt on my casket, and I have been true to my word and have not put any chew in my mouth, then they I will consider myself quit.
Sorry to ramble, but that's how it is in Gunner75's Ville.
On a side note and really a much more important note, Please say a prayer for the Children and Staff that lost their lives and their families in Newtown Ct.
What a tragedy.
Still struggling with that, as I am sure many others are as well.
Great post, Gunner. I'll recover with you today. I like the way you put it. I too am a liar and have lied to everyone about trying to quit in the past. I feel quit about where I am in my quit. However, that is only because of guys like you that I have talked to and so many others on this site that keep my focus on not killing myself with that poisen.
I'm sure your mom is very proud to here your number every time you see her.
QLF....or RLF in your case.
Hi Gunner75,
I'm 30isEnuff and I'm an addict of nicotine.
I'll QUIT with you and your recovery TODAY...ONE day at a time!! 'bang head'
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'Finger'