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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: bilbo813 on December 31, 2014, 01:02:00 AM
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So I'm currently a law student in Kansas. I started using chew my sophomore year of college in 2007. I used a can of long cut grizzly every day for 6 years and quit for a few days before switching to snus pouches. I quit once in October for a week and had terrible withdrawals and with school and other stress I fell off the wagon. I finally set a quit date for the day of my last final on 12-15-2014. The first three days sucked...but I made it through and I can now say I am chew/nicotine free for more than two weeks. I still get occasional cravings but nothing some sugar free gum or some weight lifting can't curb.
Honestly I have gotten myself to a place where I don't feel like I need nicotine. I also remind myself that if I screw up again I have to go through the same nicotine withdrawals all over agin which I refuse to do. Finally I owe it to my friends for keeping me accountable. I can't tell you how much better I feel just being off of that crap for 2 weeks. I feel like my workouts are better. My gums are looking healthier. And my skin is looking healthier. I never thought I would break the habit for this long. But I took it a day at a time. Each time I said no to a craving was a victory in itself.
Anyways thanks to everyone on this site. I've been a long time troll and I finally did followed through thanks to you guys. Every day is another victory!
Rock Chalk,
Bill
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So I'm currently a law student in Kansas. I started using chew my sophomore year of college in 2007. I used a can of long cut grizzly every day for 6 years and quit for a few days before switching to snus pouches. I quit once in October for a week and had terrible withdrawals and with school and other stress I fell off the wagon. I finally set a quit date for the day of my last final on 12-15-2014. The first three days sucked...but I made it through and I can now say I am chew/nicotine free for more than two weeks. I still get occasional cravings but nothing some sugar free gum or some weight lifting can't curb.
Honestly I have gotten myself to a place where I don't feel like I need nicotine. I also remind myself that if I screw up again I have to go through the same nicotine withdrawals all over agin which I refuse to do. Finally I owe it to my friends for keeping me accountable. I can't tell you how much better I feel just being off of that crap for 2 weeks. I feel like my workouts are better. My gums are looking healthier. And my skin is looking healthier. I never thought I would break the habit for this long. But I took it a day at a time. Each time I said no to a craving was a victory in itself.
Anyways thanks to everyone on this site. I've been a long time troll and I finally did followed through thanks to you guys. Every day is another victory!
Rock Chalk,
Bill
Welcome to KTC! I'm glad you decided to quit. You're going to be part of April (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10847546/58/). That's your quit group, get antiquated with them, become friends with them. Make sure you get members number and post roll everyday.
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Glad you found KTC Bill! And congratulations on making the smartest decision to quit. - It's entirely up to you whether you choose to embrace the KTC way of quitting, or if you end up stopping for some period of time, and then going back to being a full blown nicotine user.
This is a place for support, but also straight talk. You say you have been lurking for a long time on the site (hopefully not a troll). But your intro indicates that you missed some major concepts:
1. Nicotine is a serious addiction and not a habit. If you don't recognize this, you greatly reduce your chances of staying quit.
2. You did not quit in October - you merely stopped using until the addiction overcame your will to be quit.
3. Although after about 3 days the nicotine is out of your system and you think you are a at a place "where I don't feel like I need nicotine", your brain has been permanently rewired. The craving for 'just one dip" will confront you many times during this journey. And unless you are special, you will feel the need to use nicotine just a strong as you did when you caved in October because of stress. We call those cravings "the Nic Bitch". She twists logic and reasoning to expose our weaknesses and get us to falter. We just had a guy in our december group tell a story of how he got into a funk after reaching HOF where the nic bitch was trying to persuade him to take a celebratory dip for reaching HOF! How screwed up is that? But he used the KTC tools to fight her off, knowing full well she will be back.
I sense you are serious about your quit and are committed. I quit with you Bill one day at a time - just like you say. Send me a PM and I will send you my digits.
You are a law student so you must enjoy reading - read all you can on the site. Read how to post roll in the welcome center. Post roll today - it is you promise to yourself and your community here not to use nicotine for the day. We take that promise very seriously here.
CJ
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Last December, you posted this in the General Discussion here:
Not sure if this is where I post...Well, I'm currently on day 5 of the fourth time I've tried quitting but this one feels special. I feel like I am much stronger than the can this time. I have also given up alcohol for at least a month to knockout my biggest trigger this time as well. I'm ready to fricking do this and get my life under my control. I'm tired of getting scared that a bump in my mouth is cancer or that my teeth will fall out. I do have a question though...is fatigue a symptom of withdrawl because I'm more tired than I normally am. Thanks guys for everything! You know how I know it's going to be a great day? Because everyday is a great day!
Words and actions man.
You talk a big game, but it's a temporary game. You forget to continue beyond this point. Never get too big for your britches in your quit. We're all $5 and few bad decisions from starting over. You never posted roll, and I believe that was your biggest mistake. Here at the KTC, we quit one moment at a time. Each day starts with a promise not to use nicotine in any form. This promise is both your cry for help and your battlecry. After that, you just back your word using any means necessary.
2 weeks is awesome, and you are right where you should be physically: In a bout of adrenaline. However, since it's the new year, let's talk about New Year's Resolutions: Think about your gym. The gyms are empty in December, filled in January, and begin slowing down in February. By March, they're back to normal levels. Why is this? Around day 30 or so, we want normalcy. Either we're gonna live this new CHANGED life, or we fall off the wagon just as easily as we got started. It happens here as well. Unfortunately, there are physical peaks and valleys in your quit that will leave you crying on the floor some days. Some come before this point...some after.
By posting roll, you avoid the "long term" that gets many stoppers. Focus on this moment and this moment only. Think about your last visit here, and answer these questions regarding it:
(1) What happened?
(2) Why did it happen?
(3) What are you doing differently this time?
Our mistakes shouldn't haunt us. They should enlighten us. Use your failure to move forward in this quit. There are no excuses for ever, ever using again once you're quit.
You can do this.
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You guys are damned right. I also failed last year because I used a nicotine replacement therapy or whatever BS products were out there. This time I am committed to my quit from my addiction. I refuse to be addicted. I appreciate your harsh, but kind words. I need this. I mean I know the "worst" (physically) is over for me but I have had two ranging mental craves. One was when I played crappy on the golf course and the other was when driving. Both times I felt like I was fighting off a demon over my left shoulder encouraging me to find dip.
I will post roll (if I can find it) and become friends with these guys. It's a bitch, but I'm committed to living my life past my 70th birthday with a full set of teeth.
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Also my official stop date was December 15 at 5pm. Do I post in March with that date or does my roll call go with my introduction date?
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Also my official stop date was December 15 at 5pm. Do I post in March with that date or does my roll call go with my introduction date?
you should be in the March group. welcome to the best decesion of your life.
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Also my official stop date was December 15 at 5pm. Do I post in March with that date or does my roll call go with my introduction date?
Go look in the groups, the membership date range is written at least once on almost every page of every group. Take the initiative to quit then ask for a hand. If you see a child drowning, jump in and try to save it before invoking the Undines.