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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: bradf on August 06, 2014, 03:47:00 PM
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First off, let me introduce myself. My name is Brad and I am a 21 year addict of nicotine. Ninja when I started at 15 until I left home and went to college and then ninja again once I got married almost 10 years ago. For most of that time, was using a can a day of Cope. Now have two kids, 3 yr old girl and 5 yr old boy. Absolutely worn out from the energy it takes to hide something that I am seriously ashamed of. Absolutely scared of what this could put my wife and kids (me also) through if it gets my health.
Over the last few months and weeks, all of this has been weighing more and more on me and I decided to do something about it. From everything I have read, laid out my plan, cut back over the last four weeks and marked by calendar. So, on Tuesday, August 5th I woke up and started a new life, a life of freedom from nicotine. While I know the road ahead will not be an easy or smooth one, it is one that I must and will travel. I am exited, scared, nervous, you name it and I feel like I have felt it.
Well, that is my intro. Like it or not, like me or not, get used to it as I am here to stay.
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Brad I hid my addiction from my wife for 34 years and understand your pain. Don't worry about anything but today. I quit with you. Pm me if you need anything.
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Excellent. Glad you're quit. If you post every day and honor your word, you will join an army of quitters that are here to support you when the going gets tough.
Welcome aboard and let me know if you need anything.
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First off, let me introduce myself. My name is Brad and I am a 21 year addict of nicotine. Ninja when I started at 15 until I left home and went to college and then ninja again once I got married almost 10 years ago. For most of that time, was using a can a day of Cope. Now have two kids, 3 yr old girl and 5 yr old boy. Absolutely worn out from the energy it takes to hide something that I am seriously ashamed of. Absolutely scared of what this could put my wife and kids (me also) through if it gets my health.
Over the last few months and weeks, all of this has been weighing more and more on me and I decided to do something about it. From everything I have read, laid out my plan, cut back over the last four weeks and marked by calendar. So, on Tuesday, August 5th I woke up and started a new life, a life of freedom from nicotine. While I know the road ahead will not be an easy or smooth one, it is one that I must and will travel. I am exited, scared, nervous, you name it and I feel like I have felt it.
Well, that is my intro. Like it or not, like me or not, get used to it as I am here to stay.
Welcome Brad.
You are correct: "the road ahead will not be an easy or smooth one"
But you are also correct: "it is one that I must and will travel"
And you can. This group will help you more than you may realize now. Don't try to quit alone. Get connected with your quit group. Post here often. Vent often.
The road to victory will be won as you share the road.
Proud to be quitting with you.
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Brad what's not to like? You are like most of us here. Welcome aboard. I see you have already posted roll so you are ahead of the game already. In order to make this quit your last... post roll every morning. When you do you are promising to be quit for one day. Stay quitall day then go to bed, and then wake up and make another promise. If you do that and keep your word, this will be your last quit. So the real question for you Brad is if you are sick of hiding and lying, are you ready to man up and be the opposite...a man of your word?
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Brad what's not to like? You are like most of us here. Welcome aboard. I see you have already posted roll so you are ahead of the game already. In order to make this quit your last... post roll every morning. When you do you are promising to be quit for one day. Stay quitall day then go to bed, and then wake up and make another promise. If you do that and keep your word, this will be your last quit. So the real question for you Brad is if you are sick of hiding and lying, are you ready to man up and be the opposite...a man of your word?
Dag...that is why I am here, to man up and be a man of my word AND actions. From the things I have learned in life, the two that I am keeping in front of me right now : I am stubborn enough to do anything I set out to / Quitting is not something you try, you are either in or out.
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Brad what's not to like? You are like most of us here. Welcome aboard. I see you have already posted roll so you are ahead of the game already. In order to make this quit your last... post roll every morning. When you do you are promising to be quit for one day. Stay quitall day then go to bed, and then wake up and make another promise. If you do that and keep your word, this will be your last quit. So the real question for you Brad is if you are sick of hiding and lying, are you ready to man up and be the opposite...a man of your word?
Dag...that is why I am here, to man up and be a man of my word AND actions. From the things I have learned in life, the two that I am keeping in front of me right now : I am stubborn enough to do anything I set out to / Quitting is not something you try, you are either in or out.
Game fucking on Brad! Love the attitude and excited to see what type of quitter your are to become.
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Welcome to the family Brad. Read every HOF speech you can. And reach out to us. We've all been there. Here's to a nicotine free day!
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Get busy liven' or get busy dyin' is right. Only have one life to life. Best of luck on your journey to a healthier life.
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Brad - Appears you are still ninja with the wife. No need to tell the kids, too young but you will need your wife's support. You are going to be a complete dooshnozzle to her for a long time. She needs to understand why. It will be hard to tell her and she will be pissed for a day or two but she will come around and realize how hard it was for you to tell her and how hard it is to quit. Long term its the right move. There's a spousal support page that you should have her read once she gets passed the pissed phase.
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Definitely, the conversation with my wife has been weighing heavy on me lately. I know it will be a huge relief once it is done, just not a fun feeling to face the lie/deceit I have been living.
If there are any experienced with this, that would like to offer me some sage advice, I would welcome it.
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I have some recent experience in that particular arena:
single/?p=8452943t=10444878 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=8452943&t=10444878)
Even if it puts you in the doghouse for a little bit, fessing up on your own is a hell of a lot more dignified than getting cornered or caught.
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Brad,
I get the impression that you took the time to read up and understand what type of journey you are embarking upon. I recommend that you dig into all this site has to offer- read the Kern's story it will help motivate your quit. Dig up some vet's threads and read them from the start; I really liked Smokeyg and SKoalMonster's threads. Read a lot of the newer guys stuff too. You will quickly come to realize that we are all the same, we have all done the same stupid shit, and our quits are pretty much all the same. You will gain the tools to successfully quit every damn day, and that's the secret to quit. Quit today. Make personal connections and hold yourself accountable to your quit group, your family, and most importantly yourself. You have to be in this for yourself. It sucks but everyday that goes by sucks a little less... The freedom from being a ninja-tard is FUCKING FABULOUS! Trust me I was there too!
QUIT ON!
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Brad,
I get the impression that you took the time to read up and understand what type of journey you are embarking upon. I recommend that you dig into all this site has to offer- read the Kern's story it will help motivate your quit. Dig up some vet's threads and read them from the start; I really liked Smokeyg and SKoalMonster's threads. Read a lot of the newer guys stuff too. You will quickly come to realize that we are all the same, we have all done the same stupid shit, and our quits are pretty much all the same. You will gain the tools to successfully quit every damn day, and that's the secret to quit. Quit today. Make personal connections and hold yourself accountable to your quit group, your family, and most importantly yourself. You have to be in this for yourself. It sucks but everyday that goes by sucks a little less... The freedom from being a ninja-tard is FUCKING FABULOUS! Trust me I was there too!
QUIT ON!
Ultimately it's like pulling a band aid. for me it has been a huge help that my wife is on board. I showed her the site, including my intro, and like a lot of wife's here she was initially skeptical. But as the days went by she would occasionally ask me what day I was on, and that helped my accountability.
Bite the bullet and do this Brad....You have done enough hiding lying and sneaking be open as you can with your quit. As a quitter you can hold your head high, don't be ashamed of it.
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WTG, Brad. Join our November 2014 group and post roll.
How are you doing with withdrawal symptoms? Headaches, the fog? Neck and shoulder tightness?
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WTG, Brad. Join our November 2014 group and post roll.
How are you doing with withdrawal symptoms? Headaches, the fog? Neck and shoulder tightness?
Been posting roll the last 3 days in the November group.
As far as withdrawal symptoms, check, I got em. Not feeling them too bad, been drinking water by what feels like the gallon. Have taken some advil, that really helped. Been going through the Trident like I am a tester for their company.
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Welcome and congratulations on making a decision to save your own life. The struggle we face when we stare down addiction and make a conscious effort to make better decisions is one of the most profound and life changing experiences one can have. This is about so much more than nicotine addiction. We are all liars and thieves, as we have all at some point or another lied about our addiction to ourselves or to others and stolen time away from our families either in longevity or getting away to get a fix. You need to come clean with your family and any close friends who you think would be really upset because they are the ones who care. The men who have posted on this page before me are the ones who made it possible for me to be free from nicotine and I honor them like brothers. Read all you can and be a man of Honesty, Integrity and Character. I am proud to quit with you today Brad. My number is in your PM box send me a text and we can help each other on this journey. Very glad you are here!
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Notes from Day 5
1) Worked in the yard and on projects outside and did it without a dip in my lip. Feeling awesome and realizing how pathetic I was, could not even do some work in my yard without that crap before my quit.
2) Starting to realize some triggers. Big meals or heavy food are mentally tough to fight through right now. Probably has something to do with the extra 20 pounds I could drop. Spearmint Trident helps in these and other trigger situations.
3) I would pay way more than market price for a good message, especially if it helped with a tight neck and shoulders.
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Notes from Days 6 and 7,8,9
Day 6
After being at home by myself for the weekend, enjoyed not having a raw mouth from 24 hour cope benders like in the past. Started to get through some of the early on headache and physical pain/withdrawal.
Days 7,8,9
Was out of town at a job site, worked from sunup to sundown WITHOUT a dip in and didn't just get by, but it felt great. One of the laborers I had working for me was a 19 year old kid who was continually reaching for a pack of smokes or a can of dip. Tried to share some experiences I have dealt with over the last 21 years and also 9 days, didn't really seem to hit home for him - still young and feels like he is invincible. Had to text to post roll,texted with a few guys from my quit group, talked to an experienced quitter - really see and feel the support of the quit community.
Now that I am back in town, will be having the talk with my wife on Friday evening.
Gaining confidence and loving the ODAAT approach.
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Notes from Days 6 and 7,8,9
Day 6
After being at home by myself for the weekend, enjoyed not having a raw mouth from 24 hour cope benders like in the past. Started to get through some of the early on headache and physical pain/withdrawal.
Days 7,8,9
Was out of town at a job site, worked from sunup to sundown WITHOUT a dip in and didn't just get by, but it felt great. One of the laborers I had working for me was a 19 year old kid who was continually reaching for a pack of smokes or a can of dip. Tried to share some experiences I have dealt with over the last 21 years and also 9 days, didn't really seem to hit home for him - still young and feels like he is invincible. Had to text to post roll,texted with a few guys from my quit group, talked to an experienced quitter - really see and feel the support of the quit community.
Now that I am back in town, will be having the talk with my wife on Friday evening.
Gaining confidence and loving the ODAAT approach.
Great job. Great post.
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It looks like you cleared some high hurdles the last few days. I can relate to much of what you've posted. I really worried about my first weekend day home alone because in the past I'd have had a packed lip continuously and diving into some project. I ninja dipped 24/7 and relished the occasional "day of my own" where I could really pack a fat one. What a relief to realize that I can still get into yard work or some home fix-it project without any nasty nic onboard for the ride.
Now here's to finding all the other things we can do; do well; and enjoy free of nicotine.
I'm proud to be quit with you.
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Proud to be quit with you brother! I sincerely hope the talk with your wife goes well. Either way, stay QUIT! Hang in there.
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Day 11
Stopped to fill up with gas at the gas station next to my office where I would ALWAYS go for gas and dip. Paid at the pump for the first time since I won't go inside any more. Some of my pathetic past came to light, the manager came out and asked if I needed anything since he hadn't seen me in a while. Ouch, kick to the pride when the gas station manager knows how predictable you were/are.
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Day 11
Stopped to fill up with gas at the gas station next to my office where I would ALWAYS go for gas and dip. Paid at the pump for the first time since I won't go inside any more. Some of my pathetic past came to light, the manager came out and asked if I needed anything since he hadn't seen me in a while. Ouch, kick to the pride when the gas station manager knows how predictable you were/are.
QFT brother, my local Speedway guy would always have a log on the counter for me. I avoided that gas station for 3 months, and when I finally saw him again it was like we had a break-up. That, or he got in trouble for overstocking the ridiculous amount of poison I went through weekly.
I quit with you, and Steve at Speedway on Division and Front today.
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Keep it up Brad, you have the proper approach. ODAAT and the plan never fails. We keep our word for that 24 hours and we are invincible, undefeated in fact. Quit with you today.........
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Day 11
Stopped to fill up with gas at the gas station next to my office where I would ALWAYS go for gas and dip. Paid at the pump for the first time since I won't go inside any more. Some of my pathetic past came to light, the manager came out and asked if I needed anything since he hadn't seen me in a while. Ouch, kick to the pride when the gas station manager knows how predictable you were/are.
Good stuff, Brad! I haven't been back inside of my local Shell station since I quit yet. I have already promised myself that once I do, I am going to tell the clerk behind the counter (the one that always used to grab a tin of Kodiak or Copenhagen as he saw me walking in) that I am quit, and if he ever sees me coming in and asking for a can under any circumstances, then he is to point directly to the door and tell me to get right the fuck out. I'm pretty sure he'd do it, too.
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Will post longer update in the morning, but wanted to put down a few fresh thoughts. Sacked up and had the talk with my wife. Glad that is done, I WILL NEVER put myself in the situation to do that again. She was as understanding as could be expected and proud of me for having the courage to own up. Feels like I have a great new partner in my quit corner.
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Congrats on your quit. I can only imagine how tough it would be to tell your spouse about your double life. But it's got to be a hell of a lot better than having to explain to her why you have mouth cancer.
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Congrats on your quit. I can only imagine how tough it would be to tell your spouse about your double life. But it's got to be a hell of a lot better than having to explain to her why you have mouth cancer.
When I told my wife -- she was very supportive. She knew that I have chewed in the past but did not realize the extent -- all is fine
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Days 18-19
Very stressful day at work on Friday and Saturday was no peach around the house. For whatever reason, the nic bitch was doing A LOT of persuasion on one shoulder, I mean more than any other time in my quit. Fought through it and had to put her in her place.
Day 20
Got back from a morning jog to get ready for church and as soon as I stepped into the house, a major trigger. My wife decided that she would sleep in and let both our kids do the same. Got everybody up and going, not a big deal in the grand scheme of things but it was stressful and not a peaceful way to start the day. Well, that little nic bitch from Friday and Saturday tried to seize the opportunity...she lost, I WON.
Had a great conversation with my wife and explained to her that I had been feeling the stress of the last two days and the start of this day. Very clearly informed her that the way my brain works, all I could think about for the last 30 minutes was to come up with some bullshit reason to be alone to dip. Pretty much broke down, not as bad as when my three year old can't catch her breath, but more than I really want to write here. She was great and asked what she could do/how she could help...my request was don't let me be alone ALL DAY. I hung out with my family all day without nicotine and it was GREAT.
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Days 18-19
Very stressful day at work on Friday and Saturday was no peach around the house. For whatever reason, the nic bitch was doing A LOT of persuasion on one shoulder, I mean more than any other time in my quit. Fought through it and had to put her in her place.
Day 20
Got back from a morning jog to get ready for church and as soon as I stepped into the house, a major trigger. My wife decided that she would sleep in and let both our kids do the same. Got everybody up and going, not a big deal in the grand scheme of things but it was stressful and not a peaceful way to start the day. Well, that little nic bitch from Friday and Saturday tried to seize the opportunity...she lost, I WON.
Had a great conversation with my wife and explained to her that I had been feeling the stress of the last two days and the start of this day. Very clearly informed her that the way my brain works, all I could think about for the last 30 minutes was to come up with some bullshit reason to be alone to dip. Pretty much broke down, not as bad as when my three year old can't catch her breath, but more than I really want to write here. She was great and asked what she could do/how she could help...my request was don't let me be alone ALL DAY. I hung out with my family all day without nicotine and it was GREAT.
Awesome...just Awesome. Time traded from the nic to the family. WTG
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Days 18-19
Very stressful day at work on Friday and Saturday was no peach around the house. For whatever reason, the nic bitch was doing A LOT of persuasion on one shoulder, I mean more than any other time in my quit. Fought through it and had to put her in her place.
Day 20
Got back from a morning jog to get ready for church and as soon as I stepped into the house, a major trigger. My wife decided that she would sleep in and let both our kids do the same. Got everybody up and going, not a big deal in the grand scheme of things but it was stressful and not a peaceful way to start the day. Well, that little nic bitch from Friday and Saturday tried to seize the opportunity...she lost, I WON.
Had a great conversation with my wife and explained to her that I had been feeling the stress of the last two days and the start of this day. Very clearly informed her that the way my brain works, all I could think about for the last 30 minutes was to come up with some bullshit reason to be alone to dip. Pretty much broke down, not as bad as when my three year old can't catch her breath, but more than I really want to write here. She was great and asked what she could do/how she could help...my request was don't let me be alone ALL DAY. I hung out with my family all day without nicotine and it was GREAT.
Awesome...just Awesome. Time traded from the nic to the family. WTG
Glorious win right there, Brad. I'm glad you wrote that out - for us and for you. There's a reason why week 3 is known as "weak week". 50 megaton craves that seemingly come out of nowhere. In reality, it's the nic bitch not wanting to accept her fate and read the writing you so clearly have put on the wall for her. QLF every day.
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Days 18-19
Very stressful day at work on Friday and Saturday was no peach around the house. For whatever reason, the nic bitch was doing A LOT of persuasion on one shoulder, I mean more than any other time in my quit. Fought through it and had to put her in her place.
Day 20
Got back from a morning jog to get ready for church and as soon as I stepped into the house, a major trigger. My wife decided that she would sleep in and let both our kids do the same. Got everybody up and going, not a big deal in the grand scheme of things but it was stressful and not a peaceful way to start the day. Well, that little nic bitch from Friday and Saturday tried to seize the opportunity...she lost, I WON.
Had a great conversation with my wife and explained to her that I had been feeling the stress of the last two days and the start of this day. Very clearly informed her that the way my brain works, all I could think about for the last 30 minutes was to come up with some bullshit reason to be alone to dip. Pretty much broke down, not as bad as when my three year old can't catch her breath, but more than I really want to write here. She was great and asked what she could do/how she could help...my request was don't let me be alone ALL DAY. I hung out with my family all day without nicotine and it was GREAT.
Awesome...just Awesome. Time traded from the nic to the family. WTG
Glorious win right there, Brad. I'm glad you wrote that out - for us and for you. There's a reason why week 3 is known as "weak week". 50 megaton craves that seemingly come out of nowhere. In reality, it's the nic bitch not wanting to accept her fate and read the writing you so clearly have put on the wall for her. QLF every day.
You have a good quit going. So glad you told your wife. My wife has been the greatest supporter. Congrats on your quit. Keep fighting, its a tough road...but every time you overcome a trigger, it gets easier.
Next time you get a trigger, call or text a brother. Even if it isn't a bad one, get in the habit of calling a quit brother.
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Days 18-19
Very stressful day at work on Friday and Saturday was no peach around the house. For whatever reason, the nic bitch was doing A LOT of persuasion on one shoulder, I mean more than any other time in my quit. Fought through it and had to put her in her place.
Day 20
Got back from a morning jog to get ready for church and as soon as I stepped into the house, a major trigger. My wife decided that she would sleep in and let both our kids do the same. Got everybody up and going, not a big deal in the grand scheme of things but it was stressful and not a peaceful way to start the day. Well, that little nic bitch from Friday and Saturday tried to seize the opportunity...she lost, I WON.
Had a great conversation with my wife and explained to her that I had been feeling the stress of the last two days and the start of this day. Very clearly informed her that the way my brain works, all I could think about for the last 30 minutes was to come up with some bullshit reason to be alone to dip. Pretty much broke down, not as bad as when my three year old can't catch her breath, but more than I really want to write here. She was great and asked what she could do/how she could help...my request was don't let me be alone ALL DAY. I hung out with my family all day without nicotine and it was GREAT.
Awesome...just Awesome. Time traded from the nic to the family. WTG
Glorious win right there, Brad. I'm glad you wrote that out - for us and for you. There's a reason why week 3 is known as "weak week". 50 megaton craves that seemingly come out of nowhere. In reality, it's the nic bitch not wanting to accept her fate and read the writing you so clearly have put on the wall for her. QLF every day.
You have a good quit going. So glad you told your wife. My wife has been the greatest supporter. Congrats on your quit. Keep fighting, its a tough road...but every time you overcome a trigger, it gets easier.
Next time you get a trigger, call or text a brother. Even if it isn't a bad one, get in the habit of calling a quit brother.
Awesome. Way to stay quit. I agree, send a quick text to one of us when you are having those thoughts. you have my number. Always here for you to make sure you stay quit. I know you would do the same for me and for others. Stay quit my brother.
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Days 18-19
Very stressful day at work on Friday and Saturday was no peach around the house. For whatever reason, the nic bitch was doing A LOT of persuasion on one shoulder, I mean more than any other time in my quit. Fought through it and had to put her in her place.
Day 20
Got back from a morning jog to get ready for church and as soon as I stepped into the house, a major trigger. My wife decided that she would sleep in and let both our kids do the same. Got everybody up and going, not a big deal in the grand scheme of things but it was stressful and not a peaceful way to start the day. Well, that little nic bitch from Friday and Saturday tried to seize the opportunity...she lost, I WON.
Had a great conversation with my wife and explained to her that I had been feeling the stress of the last two days and the start of this day. Very clearly informed her that the way my brain works, all I could think about for the last 30 minutes was to come up with some bullshit reason to be alone to dip. Pretty much broke down, not as bad as when my three year old can't catch her breath, but more than I really want to write here. She was great and asked what she could do/how she could help...my request was don't let me be alone ALL DAY. I hung out with my family all day without nicotine and it was GREAT.
Awesome...just Awesome. Time traded from the nic to the family. WTG
Glorious win right there, Brad. I'm glad you wrote that out - for us and for you. There's a reason why week 3 is known as "weak week". 50 megaton craves that seemingly come out of nowhere. In reality, it's the nic bitch not wanting to accept her fate and read the writing you so clearly have put on the wall for her. QLF every day.
You have a good quit going. So glad you told your wife. My wife has been the greatest supporter. Congrats on your quit. Keep fighting, its a tough road...but every time you overcome a trigger, it gets easier.
Next time you get a trigger, call or text a brother. Even if it isn't a bad one, get in the habit of calling a quit brother.
Awesome. Way to stay quit. I agree, send a quick text to one of us when you are having those thoughts. you have my number. Always here for you to make sure you stay quit. I know you would do the same for me and for others. Stay quit my brother.
Gents, thanks for again reaching out. I texted/messaged with a few guys over the weekend and that was very helpful as always.
On Sunday morning, I didn't make the choice to not reach out, I just reached out to the person who was within 5 feet of me. If more support would have been needed right then, my bullpen would have gotten the call for sure. While she does not understand all the crap associated with this addiction, my wife is in my corner 100%. While my network that I am developing on here is phenomenal, sometimes you just cannot beat a pat on your back/hug/kick in your butt from your wife.
Not to get all deep and sappy on you guys, but if you have read my intro, there is going to need to be some redemption between me and my wife after years of my ninja dipping. I look at this situation as one of those moments.
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Days 18-19
Very stressful day at work on Friday and Saturday was no peach around the house. For whatever reason, the nic bitch was doing A LOT of persuasion on one shoulder, I mean more than any other time in my quit. Fought through it and had to put her in her place.
Day 20
Got back from a morning jog to get ready for church and as soon as I stepped into the house, a major trigger. My wife decided that she would sleep in and let both our kids do the same. Got everybody up and going, not a big deal in the grand scheme of things but it was stressful and not a peaceful way to start the day. Well, that little nic bitch from Friday and Saturday tried to seize the opportunity...she lost, I WON.
Had a great conversation with my wife and explained to her that I had been feeling the stress of the last two days and the start of this day. Very clearly informed her that the way my brain works, all I could think about for the last 30 minutes was to come up with some bullshit reason to be alone to dip. Pretty much broke down, not as bad as when my three year old can't catch her breath, but more than I really want to write here. She was great and asked what she could do/how she could help...my request was don't let me be alone ALL DAY. I hung out with my family all day without nicotine and it was GREAT.
Awesome...just Awesome. Time traded from the nic to the family. WTG
Glorious win right there, Brad. I'm glad you wrote that out - for us and for you. There's a reason why week 3 is known as "weak week". 50 megaton craves that seemingly come out of nowhere. In reality, it's the nic bitch not wanting to accept her fate and read the writing you so clearly have put on the wall for her. QLF every day.
You have a good quit going. So glad you told your wife. My wife has been the greatest supporter. Congrats on your quit. Keep fighting, its a tough road...but every time you overcome a trigger, it gets easier.
Next time you get a trigger, call or text a brother. Even if it isn't a bad one, get in the habit of calling a quit brother.
Awesome. Way to stay quit. I agree, send a quick text to one of us when you are having those thoughts. you have my number. Always here for you to make sure you stay quit. I know you would do the same for me and for others. Stay quit my brother.
Gents, thanks for again reaching out. I texted/messaged with a few guys over the weekend and that was very helpful as always.
On Sunday morning, I didn't make the choice to not reach out, I just reached out to the person who was within 5 feet of me. If more support would have been needed right then, my bullpen would have gotten the call for sure. While she does not understand all the crap associated with this addiction, my wife is in my corner 100%. While my network that I am developing on here is phenomenal, sometimes you just cannot beat a pat on your back/hug/kick in your butt from your wife.
Not to get all deep and sappy on you guys, but if you have read my intro, there is going to need to be some redemption between me and my wife after years of my ninja dipping. I look at this situation as one of those moments.
You're killing it bradf. Just catching up with your intro. Nicely done. And good stuff telling the wife.
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Day 23
Been having some serious, long, deep, intense craves the last few days. Today felt like smooth sailing compared to them. Having the network to text and reach out with is huge and has been helpful for me in those circumstances. After seeing some drama the last few days surrounding guys caving and then own up that they did not utilize the tool of their brothers, makes me scratch my head asking why don't we learn from those before us.
Also, in regards to the oral fixation angle of quitting, damn my mouth is raw/hurts. I think it feels worse than I ever remember when dipping. Bought some sunflower seeds yesterday and they have done a number on my mouth. Probably need to chill on the Trident as well, the edges of my tongue feel like I burned it eating hot soup. Not surprised after reading all the info, but damn this is for the birds.
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Brad, we have the same quit date. I thought it was interesting that you noted long intense craves the last few days, because I experienced the same thing. Monday and Tuesday in particular. I was very surprised because they were so intense. Mine have calmed down quite a bit (starting today) and I'm hoping there's not too much of that in the future for us, but I know there will be plenty of challenges. Hang in there, we got this. My Costco pack of Trident is running low, and I'm pretty sure I've gained at least 5 pounds, but I don't care. Quit with you today.
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Brad, we have the same quit date. I thought it was interesting that you noted long intense craves the last few days, because I experienced the same thing. Monday and Tuesday in particular. I was very surprised because they were so intense. Mine have calmed down quite a bit (starting today) and I'm hoping there's not too much of that in the future for us, but I know there will be plenty of challenges. Hang in there, we got this. My Costco pack of Trident is running low, and I'm pretty sure I've gained at least 5 pounds, but I don't care. Quit with you today.
Same quit date? Well, you two just became quit buddies. Swap numbers. Look for each other on roll call and sound an alarm if one of you hasn't posted at the normal time.
Brad, I hope your team loses every single game they play this year. Welcome to the site, man.
Check out our college football pool and join us for some extra accountability. topic/10479945/1/?x=35#new (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10479945/1/?x=35#new)
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Brad, we have the same quit date. I thought it was interesting that you noted long intense craves the last few days, because I experienced the same thing. Monday and Tuesday in particular. I was very surprised because they were so intense. Mine have calmed down quite a bit (starting today) and I'm hoping there's not too much of that in the future for us, but I know there will be plenty of challenges. Hang in there, we got this. My Costco pack of Trident is running low, and I'm pretty sure I've gained at least 5 pounds, but I don't care. Quit with you today.
Same quit date? Well, you two just became quit buddies. Swap numbers. Look for each other on roll call and sound an alarm if one of you hasn't posted at the normal time.
Brad, I hope your team loses every single game they play this year. Welcome to the site, man.
Check out our college football pool and join us for some extra accountability. topic/10479945/1/?x=35#new (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10479945/1/?x=35#new)
Wishing that a man's team lose every single game is like wishing his dog to die. In the case of my team, it would be a sickly dog that might need to be put down. 'Remshot'
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Brad, we have the same quit date. I thought it was interesting that you noted long intense craves the last few days, because I experienced the same thing. Monday and Tuesday in particular. I was very surprised because they were so intense. Mine have calmed down quite a bit (starting today) and I'm hoping there's not too much of that in the future for us, but I know there will be plenty of challenges. Hang in there, we got this. My Costco pack of Trident is running low, and I'm pretty sure I've gained at least 5 pounds, but I don't care. Quit with you today.
Same quit date? Well, you two just became quit buddies. Swap numbers. Look for each other on roll call and sound an alarm if one of you hasn't posted at the normal time.
Brad, I hope your team loses every single game they play this year. Welcome to the site, man.
Check out our college football pool and join us for some extra accountability. topic/10479945/1/?x=35#new (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10479945/1/?x=35#new)
Wishing that a man's team lose every single game is like wishing his dog to die. In the case of my team, it would be a sickly dog that might need to be put down. 'Remshot'
Ha. They'll be back at some point. It's cyclical. I remember 98 when I was so excited for my number 4 dawgs taking on number 5 vols. Gameday was in town. Great atmosphere. Manning was off to the NFL, so our junkyard D was gonna welcome this new kid to the sec starting role. We were in a drought against the vols having lost like 7 in a row going back to Shuler days. T Martin lead the vols to victory and I had to walk by the ut fans in sanford stadium still whooping it up yelling "over-rated" and holding up signs that just said "8" for 8 victories in a row. I really, really, really hate all things orange.
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Day 31
Reread my post from day 23 about my mouth hurting and feeling raw. This aspect of quitting has seriously been screwing with my head the last few days anytime I brush my teeth, look in my mouth, drink, eat, chew gum, etc. While there is not one specific thing that is bothering or concerning me, the anxiety/fear is as real as anything I have every experienced in that realm and probably more mentally consuming than any craving I have had in the last week.
Put in a call to my dentist (who is also a good friend), he is going to have me come in off the books in the next day or two in the evening to give everything a thorough exam. He tried to ease my fears when we talked, as I just had my 6 month checkup back in June and everything was good then. Will update in the next few days once I am able to get some peace of mind.
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Day 31
Reread my post from day 23 about my mouth hurting and feeling raw. This aspect of quitting has seriously been screwing with my head the last few days anytime I brush my teeth, look in my mouth, drink, eat, chew gum, etc. While there is not one specific thing that is bothering or concerning me, the anxiety/fear is as real as anything I have every experienced in that realm and probably more mentally consuming than any craving I have had in the last week.
Put in a call to my dentist (who is also a good friend), he is going to have me come in off the books in the next day or two in the evening to give everything a thorough exam. He tried to ease my fears when we talked, as I just had my 6 month checkup back in June and everything was good then. Will update in the next few days once I am able to get some peace of mind.
Brad - My go to oral replacement has been gum. First month it was eclipse then I started changing it up. I was chewing on avg 18 pieces a day for the first 30 days. I've lessened it since then and am chewing maybe 4 times a day? Right around the same time for yu I had all kinds of weirdness going on in my mouth and mostly the tongue. Felt like someone had cut tiny slices or stabbed it 100 times with a toothpick. That's when I changed up gum. Think it was gum with sorbitol as a sweetener that caused it. Check it out on webmd.
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Day 32
Just got back from a stop by my dentist's office. Although there was nothing specific I was having him check out, it feels great to get a clean checkup under the belt. Since Friday is his day off, he was not in a hurry and we had a great conversation regarding quitting, oral health, things I can do and his professional opinion. So here is the short list for me to remember and pass along some info to others :
1) Keep quit, it is the BEST thing for my health
2) No issues now is a great thing, doesn't mean that will always be the case. That being said, he stated that typically there will be a warning sign while still using (i.e. white patches on gums). Everyday of quit and clean health, the risks decrease greatly.
3) He "prescribed" me to go see a counselor and work on how to keep progressing and recovering. His professional opinion is that mental side of addiction is a VERY TOUGH battle.
4) Being open and honest with your dentist/doctor is extremely beneficial. The more info they have the better. He told me that other than a thorough exam, there is not a reliable test they use for oral cancer. For him to know where to look more closely, he stated is a plus.
5) Nothing wrong or expensive with stopping in every three months for quick checkup. Keep an eye on everything in between and if something comes up that does not heal in two weeks, GO SEE YOUR DENTIST. The earlier an issue is addressed the better.
The only downside of the stop, since his office was closed there were no hygienists working that needed to be leaning over you while they work and he has a great eye at selecting talented employees.
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Day 37
Today was one of the more stressful days I can recall having in quite a while. Work really sucked today, owners son works at our company and is probably the most worthless, entitled, narcissistic, disruptive and general pain in the ass employee I have ever had the pleasure of dealing with. If any one of us could fire him, it would have been done years ago. Today he pressed and pressed every button he could, must have been his time of the month.
My new way of handling that stress, took a great walk at lunch. When I got back to my office I texted my wife requesting she run point with the kids this evening as my day has sucked. Really see how having her in my corner and being open with her about this journey is a huge benefit.
Up to this point in the day, the highlight was looking at the above mentioned employee upon returning from my walk and looking at him and greeting him with a "Howdy Trigger". I have found a great nickname for him.
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Day 37
Today was one of the more stressful days I can recall having in quite a while. Work really sucked today, owners son works at our company and is probably the most worthless, entitled, narcissistic, disruptive and general pain in the ass employee I have ever had the pleasure of dealing with. If any one of us could fire him, it would have been done years ago. Today he pressed and pressed every button he could, must have been his time of the month.
My new way of handling that stress, took a great walk at lunch. When I got back to my office I texted my wife requesting she run point with the kids this evening as my day has sucked. Really see how having her in my corner and being open with her about this journey is a huge benefit.
Up to this point in the day, the highlight was looking at the above mentioned employee upon returning from my walk and looking at him and greeting him with a "Howdy Trigger". I have found a great nickname for him.
Love this post. Nice work. Gotta get through the stress no matter what it takes, so why not do it with your middle finger in the air.
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Day 37
Today was one of the more stressful days I can recall having in quite a while. Work really sucked today, owners son works at our company and is probably the most worthless, entitled, narcissistic, disruptive and general pain in the ass employee I have ever had the pleasure of dealing with. If any one of us could fire him, it would have been done years ago. Today he pressed and pressed every button he could, must have been his time of the month.
My new way of handling that stress, took a great walk at lunch. When I got back to my office I texted my wife requesting she run point with the kids this evening as my day has sucked. Really see how having her in my corner and being open with her about this journey is a huge benefit.
Up to this point in the day, the highlight was looking at the above mentioned employee upon returning from my walk and looking at him and greeting him with a "Howdy Trigger". I have found a great nickname for him.
Love this post. Nice work. Gotta get through the stress no matter what it takes, so why not do it with your middle finger in the air.
Just reread your whole intro Brad....great to see your wife is on board. I quit for me, but it's nice to have a crutch when things get rough. Can't help you with your bosses son....Nepotism has been pissing off people far longer than we've been around.
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Day 37
Today was one of the more stressful days I can recall having in quite a while. Work really sucked today, owners son works at our company and is probably the most worthless, entitled, narcissistic, disruptive and general pain in the ass employee I have ever had the pleasure of dealing with. If any one of us could fire him, it would have been done years ago. Today he pressed and pressed every button he could, must have been his time of the month.
My new way of handling that stress, took a great walk at lunch. When I got back to my office I texted my wife requesting she run point with the kids this evening as my day has sucked. Really see how having her in my corner and being open with her about this journey is a huge benefit.
Up to this point in the day, the highlight was looking at the above mentioned employee upon returning from my walk and looking at him and greeting him with a "Howdy Trigger". I have found a great nickname for him.
Right on! Way to stick it to "Spalding" there.
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Anyone watch the Curt Schilling interview that was just on sportscenter? If not check it out, it's good stuff. Sounds like anyone of us sitting up there talking about how it was the first tho he thought of in the morning and the last thing he thought of at night.
Yes, I need to hear those messages because they make my quit stronger, but I hate to hear those messages because they make me think I didn't quit soon enough. Is there any research on odds of getting cancer decreasing once you quit dipping for certain amount of times. Such as not dipping for a year reduces your chance of getting cancer by 10%.
Here is the link for the interview with Curt Schilling - http://espn.go.com/boston/mlb/story/_/i ... tle-cancer (http://espn.go.com/boston/mlb/story/_/id/11493882/curt-schilling-rejoin-espn-week-battle-cancer)
Posted this today in my quit group, wanted to put it in my intro for easy finding also.
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Day 37
Today was one of the more stressful days I can recall having in quite a while. Work really sucked today, owners son works at our company and is probably the most worthless, entitled, narcissistic, disruptive and general pain in the ass employee I have ever had the pleasure of dealing with. If any one of us could fire him, it would have been done years ago. Today he pressed and pressed every button he could, must have been his time of the month.
My new way of handling that stress, took a great walk at lunch. When I got back to my office I texted my wife requesting she run point with the kids this evening as my day has sucked. Really see how having her in my corner and being open with her about this journey is a huge benefit.
Up to this point in the day, the highlight was looking at the above mentioned employee upon returning from my walk and looking at him and greeting him with a "Howdy Trigger". I have found a great nickname for him.
Love this post. Nice work. Gotta get through the stress no matter what it takes, so why not do it with your middle finger in the air.
Just reread your whole intro Brad....great to see your wife is on board. I quit for me, but it's nice to have a crutch when things get rough. Can't help you with your bosses son....Nepotism has been pissing off people far longer than we've been around.
You're being nice calling him Trigger. Keep up the good quit Brad.
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
On a different note, I am on solo dad duty this weekend since my wife is going to the mountains with some friends. Realized that my thoughts are focused on spending time with my kids and some of the other dads/kids and not on a nic bender like a weekend with my wife gone would have been in the past. Love the freedom to invest my time and energy into things that are actually important.
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
On a different note, I am on solo dad duty this weekend since my wife is going to the mountains with some friends. Realized that my thoughts are focused on spending time with my kids and some of the other dads/kids and not on a nic bender like a weekend with my wife gone would have been in the past. Love the freedom to invest my time and energy into things that are actually important.
That's exactly the right attitude to keep, Brad. Talking to your doc for some peace of mind and to get some help with the anxiety shows that you're not taking any options off the table to keep your quit. The only option that isn't on the table is using nic, and that's what's most important.
Have fun on the solo Dad weekend. It's pretty nice being able to simply enjoy our families and a normal life without having to slink around and gameplan opportunities to pack some cat turds, isn't it?
Quit on, brother!
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
On a different note, I am on solo dad duty this weekend since my wife is going to the mountains with some friends. Realized that my thoughts are focused on spending time with my kids and some of the other dads/kids and not on a nic bender like a weekend with my wife gone would have been in the past. Love the freedom to invest my time and energy into things that are actually important.
That's exactly the right attitude to keep, Brad. Talking to your doc for some peace of mind and to get some help with the anxiety shows that you're not taking any options off the table to keep your quit. The only option that isn't on the table is using nic, and that's what's most important.
Have fun on the solo Dad weekend. It's pretty nice being able to simply enjoy our families and a normal life without having to slink around and gameplan opportunities to pack some cat turds, isn't it?
Quit on, brother!
Keep grinding Brad. Eventually you will get back to normal...and that normal is way better than you've ever been as an adult because it's dip free. You got this.
PS I wish my wife went to the mountains on a girls weekend instead of to Saks Fifth Avenue. Definitely a keeper
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
On a different note, I am on solo dad duty this weekend since my wife is going to the mountains with some friends. Realized that my thoughts are focused on spending time with my kids and some of the other dads/kids and not on a nic bender like a weekend with my wife gone would have been in the past. Love the freedom to invest my time and energy into things that are actually important.
That's exactly the right attitude to keep, Brad. Talking to your doc for some peace of mind and to get some help with the anxiety shows that you're not taking any options off the table to keep your quit. The only option that isn't on the table is using nic, and that's what's most important.
Have fun on the solo Dad weekend. It's pretty nice being able to simply enjoy our families and a normal life without having to slink around and gameplan opportunities to pack some cat turds, isn't it?
Quit on, brother!
Keep grinding Brad. Eventually you will get back to normal...and that normal is way better than you've ever been as an adult because it's dip free. You got this.
PS I wish my wife went to the mountains on a girls weekend instead of to Saks Fifth Avenue. Definitely a keeper
Ranger, don't want to rain on your vision of my wife, but it is not like she is camping and roughing it. More of a moms wine consumption, show off what you have recently bought at saks kind of weekend. Still a keeper though.
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Day 49
So on day 37 I wrote about "Trigger" from work. A bit more back story for you, "Trigger" would also be my father-in-law and the guy who had my position prior to going to rehab in 2010. Needless to say, he is not a fan of reporting to his son-in-law who also initiated the intervention that sent him to rehab.
Well, a few years ago Trigger decided in his infinite business wisdom that he was going to try his hand in the residential real estate development business. Well 2007/2008 was a great time (sarcasm) to put seven figures of borrowed money into real estate. Fast forward to today, I was served a subpoena to appear at a deposition and answer fun questions about how he defrauded the bank by falsifying financial statements in order to obtain the loan.
A few things that are really on my brain after a stressful day : 1) You can't run from the truth 2) It is past the time for me to look for another job 3) FU nic, you lose again today and I WIN free from your chains of oppression.
Anybody know of anything in the operational management / project management field in the Carolina's?
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Day 49
So on day 37 I wrote about "Trigger" from work. A bit more back story for you, "Trigger" would also be my father-in-law and the guy who had my position prior to going to rehab in 2010. Needless to say, he is not a fan of reporting to his son-in-law who also initiated the intervention that sent him to rehab.
Well, a few years ago Trigger decided in his infinite business wisdom that he was going to try his hand in the residential real estate development business. Well 2007/2008 was a great time (sarcasm) to put seven figures of borrowed money into real estate. Fast forward to today, I was served a subpoena to appear at a deposition and answer fun questions about how he defrauded the bank by falsifying financial statements in order to obtain the loan.
A few things that are really on my brain after a stressful day : 1) You can't run from the truth 2) It is past the time for me to look for another job 3) FU nic, you lose again today and I WIN free from your chains of oppression.
Anybody know of anything in the operational management / project management field in the Carolina's?
Yikes. I'm going to go ahead and say that you most certainly did not win in the Father-in-Law department. In this day and age, I still don't understand how it can escape people exactly how much banks really do like their money - and the lengths they will go to get it back. With interest.
Wish I could help you on the job front, but if it's any consolation, I will say that you are turning into quite a badass quitter in your own right. Proud to quit with you today. Keep on keepin' on.
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
Brad - I struggle with this as well. I started smoking around age 18 and switched to dip when I got my first office job. Never smoked much, maybe 5 to 10 a day. Dip was a can a day. I never new I had anxiety until I stopped dipping. All of my adult life I've used tobacco. Am I ADD, dunno. Am I depressed? Not a bit. Am I anxious? Without a doubt yes. Will the brain rewire and fix itself over time, have no idea. All you can do is try and fix it today through meds or therapy. I on a new med now and waiting to see if it's working. Don't think it is but at least I took action. If this doesn't work I'll try something else. You're on the right path. There was a long discussion about anxiety, focus, loss of concentration that I posted to my intro if you want to dig it up.
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Congrats on 50! quit with you today...keep up the hard work!
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.
Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.
On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.
Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.
On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.
Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.
You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'
Nice work.
Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.
Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.
On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.
Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.
You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'
Nice work.
Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.
I think the key for me not gaining weight was Trident. Tough to eat everything in site when you are chewing gum. On a side note, who has home remedies for TMJ...need to back off that gum a bit I guess.
Also, the line has moved to 17 on the UT/UGA game. However, from my experience, NEVER BET ON YOUR OWN TEAM TO WIN, LOSE, OR COVER. 2003, (18) UT @ (6) Miami and I picked Miami. Was in a pool that year, lost out on the season win by 1 game and cost me almost $3K. Now, I simply watch with my son and friends and enjoy the game and maybe an adult beverage.
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.
Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.
On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.
Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.
You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'
Nice work.
Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.
I think the key for me not gaining weight was Trident. Tough to eat everything in site when you are chewing gum. On a side note, who has home remedies for TMJ...need to back off that gum a bit I guess.
Also, the line has moved to 17 on the UT/UGA game. However, from my experience, NEVER BET ON YOUR OWN TEAM TO WIN, LOSE, OR COVER. 2003, (18) UT @ (6) Miami and I picked Miami. Was in a pool that year, lost out on the season win by 1 game and cost me almost $3K. Now, I simply watch with my son and friends and enjoy the game and maybe an adult beverage.
Maybe? It's football season. Good to see you more at ease.
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Glad to read about your clean bill of health. Hope that helps with the anxiety. You've got my # holler if you need anything.
Quit with you
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Good stuff, Brad. I'll throw up a +1 for the exercise as an anxiety remedy. Even hitting the gym for an hour a day 3 days a week will do wonders for your frame of mind.
Quit on!
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.
Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.
On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.
Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.
You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'
Nice work.
Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.
I think the key for me not gaining weight was Trident. Tough to eat everything in site when you are chewing gum. On a side note, who has home remedies for TMJ...need to back off that gum a bit I guess.
Also, the line has moved to 17 on the UT/UGA game. However, from my experience, NEVER BET ON YOUR OWN TEAM TO WIN, LOSE, OR COVER. 2003, (18) UT @ (6) Miami and I picked Miami. Was in a pool that year, lost out on the season win by 1 game and cost me almost $3K. Now, I simply watch with my son and friends and enjoy the game and maybe an adult beverage.
Maybe? It's football season. Good to see you more at ease.
21 years of brain abuse. That's a lot of using/abusing/brain washing.
59 days of quit/freedom/re-wiring is a start of a wonderful process. A journey of re-knowing real life. It will rock your brain, all of your congnitive processes. This is what it's all about. Getting our freedom back to who/where we are suppose to be instead of the poison saturated fumbling human ruined by nicotine.
Be good to yourself. Forgive yourself. Your body will heal, your brain is in over-drive now and may always be in over-drive. Maybe that is how we are "clean". My brain works like I didn't believe it could. I can recall, learn and I discovered a hidden sense of humor.
I'm quit with You Today.
We got this, ODAAT and NAFAR. QLFEDD brother.
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.
Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.
On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.
Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.
You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'
Nice work.
Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.
I think the key for me not gaining weight was Trident. Tough to eat everything in site when you are chewing gum. On a side note, who has home remedies for TMJ...need to back off that gum a bit I guess.
Also, the line has moved to 17 on the UT/UGA game. However, from my experience, NEVER BET ON YOUR OWN TEAM TO WIN, LOSE, OR COVER. 2003, (18) UT @ (6) Miami and I picked Miami. Was in a pool that year, lost out on the season win by 1 game and cost me almost $3K. Now, I simply watch with my son and friends and enjoy the game and maybe an adult beverage.
Maybe? It's football season. Good to see you more at ease.
21 years of brain abuse. That's a lot of using/abusing/brain washing.
59 days of quit/freedom/re-wiring is a start of a wonderful process. A journey of re-knowing real life. It will rock your brain, all of your congnitive processes. This is what it's all about. Getting our freedom back to who/where we are suppose to be instead of the poison saturated fumbling human ruined by nicotine.
Be good to yourself. Forgive yourself. Your body will heal, your brain is in over-drive now and may always be in over-drive. Maybe that is how we are "clean". My brain works like I didn't believe it could. I can recall, learn and I discovered a hidden sense of humor.
I'm quit with You Today.
We got this, ODAAT and NAFAR. QLFEDD brother.
Day 59
Received the results back from the blood test they did when I got my annual physical....drum roll please...all good. In the past year, I have even managed to get my cholesterol into an "excellent" range as the doctor noted (and this is a feat for someone from my dad's family).
Day 60
Was waiting at the dealership while the wife's car was getting serviced this morning and was looking back over the last 60 days. It is absolutely amazing that in the past 21 years, any time I went to the doctor or dentist, all I could think about was the "now" and being good to go until I could get back to the car/office/house and get another dip. Do you realize how screwed up that is? Basically, I was living life in short little increments until the next doctor or dentist visit and numb to the reality that the filter I viewed life through was filthy from nicotine and I could not see further than the next fix. I love the new filter of clarity and freedom that I am starting to experience life through now. For me to give that up would be like Charlton Heston giving up his guns, "when you take it from my cold, dead hands". I will fight with everything I have, every day, to keep my quit.
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.
Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.
On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.
Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.
You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'
Nice work.
Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.
I think the key for me not gaining weight was Trident. Tough to eat everything in site when you are chewing gum. On a side note, who has home remedies for TMJ...need to back off that gum a bit I guess.
Also, the line has moved to 17 on the UT/UGA game. However, from my experience, NEVER BET ON YOUR OWN TEAM TO WIN, LOSE, OR COVER. 2003, (18) UT @ (6) Miami and I picked Miami. Was in a pool that year, lost out on the season win by 1 game and cost me almost $3K. Now, I simply watch with my son and friends and enjoy the game and maybe an adult beverage.
Maybe? It's football season. Good to see you more at ease.
21 years of brain abuse. That's a lot of using/abusing/brain washing.
59 days of quit/freedom/re-wiring is a start of a wonderful process. A journey of re-knowing real life. It will rock your brain, all of your congnitive processes. This is what it's all about. Getting our freedom back to who/where we are suppose to be instead of the poison saturated fumbling human ruined by nicotine.
Be good to yourself. Forgive yourself. Your body will heal, your brain is in over-drive now and may always be in over-drive. Maybe that is how we are "clean". My brain works like I didn't believe it could. I can recall, learn and I discovered a hidden sense of humor.
I'm quit with You Today.
We got this, ODAAT and NAFAR. QLFEDD brother.
Day 59
Received the results back from the blood test they did when I got my annual physical....drum roll please...all good. In the past year, I have even managed to get my cholesterol into an "excellent" range as the doctor noted (and this is a feat for someone from my dad's family).
Day 60
Was waiting at the dealership while the wife's car was getting serviced this morning and was looking back over the last 60 days. It is absolutely amazing that in the past 21 years, any time I went to the doctor or dentist, all I could think about was the "now" and being good to go until I could get back to the car/office/house and get another dip. Do you realize how screwed up that is? Basically, I was living life in short little increments until the next doctor or dentist visit and numb to the reality that the filter I viewed life through was filthy from nicotine and I could not see further than the next fix. I love the new filter of clarity and freedom that I am starting to experience life through now. For me to give that up would be like Charlton Heston giving up his guns, "when you take it from my cold, dead hands". I will fight with everything I have, every day, to keep my quit.
Great to here the test results came back good. Keep that filter clean and enjoy the freedom from nicotine. ODAAT. Quit with you!
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Day 46
My head has really been messing with me the last few weeks, guess that is what happens when you remove a poison that has been screwing with your brain for the last 21 years. Called and made an appointment with my doctor for next week to have a full physical and talk with him about the mental anxiety/roller coaster. I am really hoping that a good look under the hood and talking through some options for dealing with the anxiety can provide some relief and peace of mind.
Day 53
Just got back from the doctor. Had a great appointment with him and after a thorough physical exam and a million questions from him, he gave me a clean bill of health. Obviously, he will know even more to back that up after getting the results from the blood work but he was very positive. As far as the anxiety, talked through options and decided that for now I am going to give it time and exercise which have been very helpful. It is nice to know the things to keep an eye out for regarding the anxiety/depression moving forward and if they hang around or become worse, he will call me in a Rx.
Feel like I can take a deep breath, even though nothing specific led me to go to the doctor. He basically said the healing from nicotine/tobacco and looking everything up on Dr. Google has put me all over the map.
On a side note, I have lost 12 pounds since I last was at his office in the spring for some sinus issues. Besides the daily walk with my dog for 45/60 minutes, cutting back on large/heavy meals to reduce cravings, and worrying enough to give myself heartburn and indigestion there has not been a concerted effort to lose weight. See guys, just another positive of quitting.
Always best to go to a doctor over any issue. Peace of mind is priceless.
You're probably the only guy to lose weight in the first 100 days of quitting, tho. Most of us did this 'trac1'
Nice work.
Oh, and go DAWGS tomorrow. UT always plays my good guys tough, even on a down year, so I'm not at all expecting a blow-out. A 19 point spread? Please. Load up on UT and those points and you'll get rich. That's a five star ***** lock, lock, lock of the century.
I think the key for me not gaining weight was Trident. Tough to eat everything in site when you are chewing gum. On a side note, who has home remedies for TMJ...need to back off that gum a bit I guess.
Also, the line has moved to 17 on the UT/UGA game. However, from my experience, NEVER BET ON YOUR OWN TEAM TO WIN, LOSE, OR COVER. 2003, (18) UT @ (6) Miami and I picked Miami. Was in a pool that year, lost out on the season win by 1 game and cost me almost $3K. Now, I simply watch with my son and friends and enjoy the game and maybe an adult beverage.
Maybe? It's football season. Good to see you more at ease.
21 years of brain abuse. That's a lot of using/abusing/brain washing.
59 days of quit/freedom/re-wiring is a start of a wonderful process. A journey of re-knowing real life. It will rock your brain, all of your congnitive processes. This is what it's all about. Getting our freedom back to who/where we are suppose to be instead of the poison saturated fumbling human ruined by nicotine.
Be good to yourself. Forgive yourself. Your body will heal, your brain is in over-drive now and may always be in over-drive. Maybe that is how we are "clean". My brain works like I didn't believe it could. I can recall, learn and I discovered a hidden sense of humor.
I'm quit with You Today.
We got this, ODAAT and NAFAR. QLFEDD brother.
Day 59
Received the results back from the blood test they did when I got my annual physical....drum roll please...all good. In the past year, I have even managed to get my cholesterol into an "excellent" range as the doctor noted (and this is a feat for someone from my dad's family).
Day 60
Was waiting at the dealership while the wife's car was getting serviced this morning and was looking back over the last 60 days. It is absolutely amazing that in the past 21 years, any time I went to the doctor or dentist, all I could think about was the "now" and being good to go until I could get back to the car/office/house and get another dip. Do you realize how screwed up that is? Basically, I was living life in short little increments until the next doctor or dentist visit and numb to the reality that the filter I viewed life through was filthy from nicotine and I could not see further than the next fix. I love the new filter of clarity and freedom that I am starting to experience life through now. For me to give that up would be like Charlton Heston giving up his guns, "when you take it from my cold, dead hands". I will fight with everything I have, every day, to keep my quit.
Some well-earned peace of mind. Seems light years from Day 1, doesn't it? Taking back that control, bit by bit.
Quit with you today, Brad.
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Day 80
While not a new situation, the last month or so has been very stressful with my wife. Couple that with the 80 day mark / funk and I feel like I want to curl up in the fetal position in my bed alone. I have been finding it odd lately, but my quit is what I feel is giving me energy and encouragement to push on with other things in life such as a difficult marriage. The last 80 days of quitting has reminded me that anything can be done, no matter how hard we think it will be.
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Keep the faith!
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Day 80
While not a new situation, the last month or so has been very stressful with my wife. Couple that with the 80 day mark / funk and I feel like I want to curl up in the fetal position in my bed alone. I have been finding it odd lately, but my quit is what I feel is giving me energy and encouragement to push on with other things in life such as a difficult marriage. The last 80 days of quitting has reminded me that anything can be done, no matter how hard we think it will be.
I remember those days. Really tough, you are solid in your quit but you can't get over the fucking funk. Only thing I can say is it will pass, so keep grinding Brad.
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Day 80
While not a new situation, the last month or so has been very stressful with my wife. Couple that with the 80 day mark / funk and I feel like I want to curl up in the fetal position in my bed alone. I have been finding it odd lately, but my quit is what I feel is giving me energy and encouragement to push on with other things in life such as a difficult marriage. The last 80 days of quitting has reminded me that anything can be done, no matter how hard we think it will be.
You are re-wiring for "the better".
The poison robbed us of many things, including who we really are and what we are really capable of accomplishing. I'm living proof. You're doing it. Just keep doing it. Keep learning and re-wiring to this great poisonless life. Keep posting roll and learn to forgive yourself and be very gentle and forgiving of those in your life. I knows it sounds ghey, but Love really does work. She cares or she wouldn't be there, period
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Day 87
Yesterday felt like I had more stress/triggers/anxiety than any other day that I can remember in the last 87.
- car decided that the a/c compressor needed to cool for the last time, $900
- health insurance decided to inform me that my monthly premium for next year will not be $881 (that is not a typo, if you have health insurance through your company please be thankful)
- found out a good friends newborn boy passed away from a heart defect he has been fighting since being born earlier in October
- work has really sucked lately and I dread going to the office
Did yesterday feel bad? Sure. Did I have to utilize some of the tools that I have learned on KTC? Sure. Did I add a +1? Damn right I did. Folks, life throws some crap your way that nicotine and dip will not help with. Cross that off your list of options and be prepared for what WILL come your way.
ODAAT
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Day 87
Yesterday felt like I had more stress/triggers/anxiety than any other day that I can remember in the last 87.
- car decided that the a/c compressor needed to cool for the last time, $900
- health insurance decided to inform me that my monthly premium for next year will not be $881 (that is not a typo, if you have health insurance through your company please be thankful)
- found out a good friends newborn boy passed away from a heart defect he has been fighting since being born earlier in October
- work has really sucked lately and I dread going to the office
Did yesterday feel bad? Sure. Did I have to utilize some of the tools that I have learned on KTC? Sure. Did I add a +1? Damn right I did. Folks, life throws some crap your way that nicotine and dip will not help with. Cross that off your list of options and be prepared for what WILL come your way.
ODAAT
Keep fighting the good fight. Keep your head up things will turn around. Quit with you.
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Day 87
Yesterday felt like I had more stress/triggers/anxiety than any other day that I can remember in the last 87.
- car decided that the a/c compressor needed to cool for the last time, $900
- health insurance decided to inform me that my monthly premium for next year will not be $881 (that is not a typo, if you have health insurance through your company please be thankful)
- found out a good friends newborn boy passed away from a heart defect he has been fighting since being born earlier in October
- work has really sucked lately and I dread going to the office
Did yesterday feel bad? Sure. Did I have to utilize some of the tools that I have learned on KTC? Sure. Did I add a +1? Damn right I did. Folks, life throws some crap your way that nicotine and dip will not help with. Cross that off your list of options and be prepared for what WILL come your way.
ODAAT
Keep fighting the good fight. Keep your head up things will turn around. Quit with you.
I quit with You today. All day.
Nicotine never did us any good.
Quittin' does us a world of good!
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Well, yesterday was day 100. Received lots of love via texts on hitting a milestone, thanks to all those who sent one to me.
Had to travel for work, was up at 4:00 am and did not get back home until almost 10:00 pm...did not see my kids, chatted with my wife for about 5 minutes before she fell asleep. Did not really feel like a milestone type of day. Feelings...what is that crap. Everyday is a milestone, another day where I chose to boot the crafty nic b@!? to the curb and live a free life.
Quit on, one day at a time.
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Well, yesterday was day 100. Received lots of love via texts on hitting a milestone, thanks to all those who sent one to me.
Had to travel for work, was up at 4:00 am and did not get back home until almost 10:00 pm...did not see my kids, chatted with my wife for about 5 minutes before she fell asleep. Did not really feel like a milestone type of day. Feelings...what is that crap. Everyday is a milestone, another day where I chose to boot the crafty nic b@!? to the curb and live a free life.
Quit on, one day at a time.
I quit with You Today Brad!!
Congratulations on Your 100 day milestone. Big stones you have there Mr. Quitter!
Proud of You.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
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Well, yesterday was day 100. Received lots of love via texts on hitting a milestone, thanks to all those who sent one to me.
Had to travel for work, was up at 4:00 am and did not get back home until almost 10:00 pm...did not see my kids, chatted with my wife for about 5 minutes before she fell asleep. Did not really feel like a milestone type of day. Feelings...what is that crap. Everyday is a milestone, another day where I chose to boot the crafty nic b@!? to the curb and live a free life.
Quit on, one day at a time.
I quit with You Today Brad!!
Congratulations on Your 100 day milestone. Big stones you have there Mr. Quitter!
Proud of You.
ODAAT and NAFAR, period
Belated congrats on 100 Brad! Proud to be quit with you
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Day 137
It has been a while since I have updated my intro and I wanted to document a few things in here for future reference. Life has felt all over the map the last month or so and to my November 14 brothers, sorry to be a "post and ghost" member.
Thanksgiving was great, loaded up the family and drove 12 hours to my parents for 5 days. It was the first time being around my family in that type of setting and not constantly being focused on getting away to dip...tons of freedom experienced. Hung out with a group of guys I grew up with while I was in my hometown, a few still dip and I had the opportunity to tell them about my quit...I heard many excuses and I hope that they see the light before it is too late.
Over the last few months I have been looking around for a different job. Doing some self reflection over this time, I have come to the conclusion that I not only want a new job but that I am desiring some serious changes in life. Quit dipping...check. New career path...working on it. Culture change in my marriage...working on it. All of this has really had my head in a place of a million questions and I decided to see a counselor to help work through some of this and my wife is also coming along very willingly as well. Don't hesitate to seek professional help, it can be life changing.
Lastly, I feel as though my house is a germ factory. My whole family has been sick with fevers, throw up bugs, snotty noses, etc for months off an on. This crap is exhausting!!! For Christmas I am giving myself the gift of having our house deep cleaned by a professional service...carpets, duct work, I am talking everything. Hopefully the flu shots that we got will be the effective ones.
Even with all of these things going on...my quit is something that I focus on every day. Post roll, honor your promise, live life.
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Day 137
It has been a while since I have updated my intro and I wanted to document a few things in here for future reference. Life has felt all over the map the last month or so and to my November 14 brothers, sorry to be a "post and ghost" member.
Thanksgiving was great, loaded up the family and drove 12 hours to my parents for 5 days. It was the first time being around my family in that type of setting and not constantly being focused on getting away to dip...tons of freedom experienced. Hung out with a group of guys I grew up with while I was in my hometown, a few still dip and I had the opportunity to tell them about my quit...I heard many excuses and I hope that they see the light before it is too late.
Over the last few months I have been looking around for a different job. Doing some self reflection over this time, I have come to the conclusion that I not only want a new job but that I am desiring some serious changes in life. Quit dipping...check. New career path...working on it. Culture change in my marriage...working on it. All of this has really had my head in a place of a million questions and I decided to see a counselor to help work through some of this and my wife is also coming along very willingly as well. Don't hesitate to seek professional help, it can be life changing.
Lastly, I feel as though my house is a germ factory. My whole family has been sick with fevers, throw up bugs, snotty noses, etc for months off an on. This crap is exhausting!!! For Christmas I am giving myself the gift of having our house deep cleaned by a professional service...carpets, duct work, I am talking everything. Hopefully the flu shots that we got will be the effective ones.
Even with all of these things going on...my quit is something that I focus on every day. Post roll, honor your promise, live life.
Great stuff Brad. Keep up the good work. Sounds like you are on a great path.
Quit with you
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Day 137
It has been a while since I have updated my intro and I wanted to document a few things in here for future reference. Life has felt all over the map the last month or so and to my November 14 brothers, sorry to be a "post and ghost" member.
Thanksgiving was great, loaded up the family and drove 12 hours to my parents for 5 days. It was the first time being around my family in that type of setting and not constantly being focused on getting away to dip...tons of freedom experienced. Hung out with a group of guys I grew up with while I was in my hometown, a few still dip and I had the opportunity to tell them about my quit...I heard many excuses and I hope that they see the light before it is too late.
Over the last few months I have been looking around for a different job. Doing some self reflection over this time, I have come to the conclusion that I not only want a new job but that I am desiring some serious changes in life. Quit dipping...check. New career path...working on it. Culture change in my marriage...working on it. All of this has really had my head in a place of a million questions and I decided to see a counselor to help work through some of this and my wife is also coming along very willingly as well. Don't hesitate to seek professional help, it can be life changing.
Lastly, I feel as though my house is a germ factory. My whole family has been sick with fevers, throw up bugs, snotty noses, etc for months off an on. This crap is exhausting!!! For Christmas I am giving myself the gift of having our house deep cleaned by a professional service...carpets, duct work, I am talking everything. Hopefully the flu shots that we got will be the effective ones.
Even with all of these things going on...my quit is something that I focus on every day. Post roll, honor your promise, live life.
Great stuff Brad. Keep up the good work. Sounds like you are on a great path.
Quit with you
Nice Brad, good to hear you're still around.