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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Sparta1989 on August 26, 2012, 11:42:00 PM
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So today was my first day dipless, seven years doing this and finally quitting, it was unreal to say. I planned the 26th to be my quitting day two weeks ago, it was tough, i felt wierd confused dazed all day today, wanted to cave so bad already on day one.., man i never realized how much dip actually had control over me, but i guess having a dip day in day out all day everyday will make it control you...i just want this stuff out of my life for good.
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So today was my first day dipless, seven years doing this and finally quitting, it was unreal to say. I planned the 26th to be my quitting day two weeks ago, it was tough, i felt wierd confused dazed all day today, wanted to cave so bad already on day one.., man i never realized how much dip actually had control over me, but i guess having a dip day in day out all day everyday will make it control you...i just want this stuff out of my life for good.
Sparta click on this link December 2012 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=7001) Read how to post roll. Come here daily And post your promise.. Start working on a contact list for support. Pm me if you need anything! Now let the games begin!!
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It's hard, and going to get harder. Take this one day at a time and focus on getting through today only. Remember the suck and use it to remind you the control this addiction has over you. Drink tons of water, exercise, take a sleep aid to get some rest if needed. Post roll and promise to say quit today, you can do this. Proud to be quit with you today!
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Good for you Sparta. Drink lots of water and fruit juices, get yourself a healthy snack or some candy for those cravings that will come and go,and working out or running is a great stress reliever and will help with the cravings and is great for the body anyway. Keep up the quit and I quit with you today.
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I know last nights sleeping was a little difficult i didnt think it would effect me but it did, waking up almost every hour was kinda of annoying, but this is day 2 now ready to kick its ass...
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keep it up! toughest part is the beginning..... hardest day was yesterday! We quit one day at a time!
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THIS IS SPARTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That is the attitude you need to have. No pussyfootin' up in here. Stare the bitch down and don't waver. Do or do not. There is no try. Welcome aboard.
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Thank you guys, today is day 2. i have done nothing much except be on my computer reading posts killing time, but today just seems to be going by sooo slow, chewing lots of gum, drinking lots of water seems to be working...
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Day 2 is complete, went through a couple mood changes, was getting irritable, constantly wanting just one dip but never did, it was nice telling my self No. I felt as if i have control, but at the same time if i had such control i wouldnt be feeling this miserable....Im sure tomorrow which will be day 3 will be much more worse, today felt strange again, i was pissed off today at different times for no reason what so ever, but idk day 3 I guess im ready for it. i just think i got my ass kicked today..
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Day 2 is complete, went through a couple mood changes, was getting irritable, constantly wanting just one dip but never did, it was nice telling my self No. I felt as if i have control, but at the same time if i had such control i wouldnt be feeling this miserable....Im sure tomorrow which will be day 3 will be much more worse, today felt strange again, i was pissed off today at different times for no reason what so ever, but idk day 3 I guess im ready for it. i just think i got my ass kicked today..
Even though you may not feel like it, you are starting to gain control of your life again. Every single day you remain quit is another day of freedom. Things don't happen overnight and it takes awhile for your body to readjust after the hell it's been through. Keep kicking ass bro one day at a time.
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Day 2 is complete, went through a couple mood changes, was getting irritable, constantly wanting just one dip but never did, it was nice telling my self No. I felt as if i have control, but at the same time if i had such control i wouldnt be feeling this miserable....Im sure tomorrow which will be day 3 will be much more worse, today felt strange again, i was pissed off today at different times for no reason what so ever, but idk day 3 I guess im ready for it. i just think i got my ass kicked today..
Even though you may not feel like it, you are starting to gain control of your life again. Every single day you remain quit is another day of freedom. Things don't happen overnight and it takes awhile for your body to readjust after the hell it's been through. Keep kicking ass bro one day at a time.
Listen to this guy^^^^ He's a bad mfer. First 3 days are the hardest. You are almost through them. After that it's a matter of how badass you are. You either quit or you fail. You pick. BTW -- did you dip today? If not then you DID NOT get your ass kicked. YOU did the ass kicking.
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Day 2 is complete, went through a couple mood changes, was getting irritable, constantly wanting just one dip but never did, it was nice telling my self No. I felt as if i have control, but at the same time if i had such control i wouldnt be feeling this miserable....Im sure tomorrow which will be day 3 will be much more worse, today felt strange again, i was pissed off today at different times for no reason what so ever, but idk day 3 I guess im ready for it. i just think i got my ass kicked today..
Even though you may not feel like it, you are starting to gain control of your life again. Every single day you remain quit is another day of freedom. Things don't happen overnight and it takes awhile for your body to readjust after the hell it's been through. Keep kicking ass bro one day at a time.
Listen to this guy^^^^ He's a bad mfer. First 3 days are the hardest. You are almost through them. After that it's a matter of how badass you are. You either quit or you fail. You pick. BTW -- did you dip today? If not then you DID NOT get your ass kicked. YOU did the ass kicking.
Check through other quitters intros, you are not alone in your thoughts and concerns. Hell, day 5 I wanted to mess someone up in a bad way but like Morgan and anyone else says, it will all subside in time. This my friend is the quickening. Embrace it, within the next 24 hours you will have physically removed all nicotine from your system. Own your quit, revel in the suck, and come out feeling unbelievable on the other side.
Freedom is yours, reach out and grab hold
QLAFM
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The start of a new day, Day number 3, It seems to be Getting harder and harder to stay asleep now, Ive been posting alot on this thread but it helps me get through the days.... Sleeping doesnt come easy anymore, last night was a really bad night, Dont really think i had a dream im not so sure, all i no is i was waking up almost once every hour, Tossing and turning, the other night was bad but id say last night was a little worse. Day 3 has started lets do it.
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Glad to have you with us - don't worry, sleep will come, it may not come as soon as you need it but fuck it - you will make it through!
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The restless sleep was/is the worst for me. It gets better bro. I remember on my day 6 I woke up and couldn't sleep, so I got outta the bed and went for a ride. I went to walgreens bought 3 dozen eggs and did some high school shit. I drove downtown and commenced to covering every store and car that I saw in yellow shit. Yeah I went ham on downtown in the middle of the night. Well, don't do what I did because close to the end of operation chicken fuck, I saw blue lights in my rearview. Yep..i haven't told anyone here about this..but to make a long story short I ended up getting bailed out by my pissed as a motherfucker wife. Went before the judge 4 days ago and got sentenced to 600 hours of community service, and since I'm a coach, I had to make a speech at my school about the seriousness of pranks/crimes like this. Not to mention I had to clean it all up so the business owners and residents of my downtown know it was me and hate me.
Disclaimer: none of the above is true except for the part about me waking up in the middle of the night...i just layed there and thought about shit till I fell asleep.
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Thank guys once again for the support that was a very interesting story, hahaha, i dont see myself doing that anytime in my near future, but if i get to that point in the middle of the night ill keep it in mind ;), but day 3, this is actually my first actual attempt in quitting dip, i wouldnt really call it an attempt, as for i havent failed so far, today was more so, i dont know, the fog tends to be dissappearing, i was really pissed off at some stupid thing today i know that much, but it went away pretty quick. tomorrow will be day 4, the past 3 days have givin me some serious hell, like the lack of sleep is the really thing bugging me. and my irritbility i need to somehow control that.. Thanks for everyone that comes on here it really helps :)
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Thank guys once again for the support that was a very interesting story, hahaha, i dont see myself doing that anytime in my near future, but if i get to that point in the middle of the night ill keep it in mind ;), but day 3, this is actually my first actual attempt in quitting dip, i wouldnt really call it an attempt, as for i havent failed so far, today was more so, i dont know, the fog tends to be dissappearing, i was really pissed off at some stupid thing today i know that much, but it went away pretty quick. tomorrow will be day 4, the past 3 days have givin me some serious hell, like the lack of sleep is the really thing bugging me. and my irritbility i need to somehow control that.. Thanks for everyone that comes on here it really helps :)
Just make sure you are using the correct terminology in your log. It may seem trivial but the subconscious does not process that way. A couple examples:
"this is actually my first actual ATTEMPT in quitting dip..."
This translates to a cave. There is no attempt, only a quit, and they damn sure aren't numbered.
"as I haven't failed so far"
Again, passive aggressive negative speak. This is processed by the mind as a failure is imminent, date has yet to be determined. Take it one fucking day at a time, post roll, keep your word, and honor your integrity.
Be cautious with your words and entries. You are going to need to look back on this when the quit gets tough. You want your log to be strong and resilient to a weak ass life of addiction. You want yourself and others to come here for inspiration and wisdom when all is not well. You want to prove to yourself that you are quit, not trying.
Food for thought, QLAFM
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I havent posted in here since august, now i come in here at day 41. Day 41 wow, Here recently its been an up and down rollarcoaster, My blood pressure is up and down, controlling my anger is tough, it use to be easy when i was dipping, got angry put a dip in, at day 41 im still learning to channel my anger problems, Quitting people say its easy, but you can never put your guard down, I remember day 10 or so i started getting cocky then day 15 day 20 it hit me, im at day 41 and im getting my ass kicked, im never going back, but im learning how powerful this addiction really ease, knowing no matter how many days i put in to quitting, ill always and forever be an addict, I havent said much on the site, i pretty much come on post roll and im gone, but I figured as im going through a rough time i come here and post it like i did on day 3, I use to complain about sleeeping problems, sleepings comes easy now, its the getting mad real easly thats pissing me off the most, I just snap, and its happening more and more as im quitting, maybe its just a stage i have no idea....
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Sparta - the anger is a big issue for some of us including me. You are going to have to learn how to manage your anger. You cannot let it build up. Eventually, you will put yourself into a position that you can't defend. You become so angry for so long that you rationalize that you were a much nicer person, easier to live with, not such a gigantic ass when you dipped.
That is a mind screw that your addiction has created. It is like anything else you have to learn. I have stepped up exercise to deal with these emotions. I will also go for a walk. I have turned football games off. I couldn't watch some of the debate. Eventually, I will be fine, but I am just learning how to operate in a nicotine free environment. Keep tabs on yourself. Vent on this site. These folks are pretty tough.
Whatever you do, don't let your addiction get the upper hand. You were not better before. You were not nicer before. You are a much better you without your addiction.
Quit with you each day.
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A couple years ago, I had attempted to quit nicotine.. I ended up leaving the site and I well ended up failing(bone head move.) It got easy quitting and well one day a couple years ago I decided a pinch wouldn't hurt. Then well after that pinch I ended up having another.. This lasted for the next couple years. I am here today, wanting off this stuff. I decided today was the day I was off of it.. I threw everything that I had away.. I just want to be done with this for good.
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Mod merge please
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Oh... goody.
Yet another caver...
Who's gonna pat him on the ass and give him a thumbs up for "trying" again?...
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Did you make an intro back then? A mod will need to merge them.
At least you came back and concur this is a proven method of quitting. Post roll every day and don't look back.
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I did make an intro back then not sure what I'm needing to do exactly..
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I did make an intro back then not sure what I'm needing to do exactly..
I assume you posted in your new quit group and also posted the 3 questions in your new and old group.
I am a second KTC person as well, you will take your lumps but if you own it and prove you have it, everyone will support you.
Post roll, and don't miss a day!
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I just want to be done with this for good.
Why?
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cool I did thee same thing just a few hours ago and found this site. I have been a chewer for about 35 years.. I hope we can encourage each other. Good job for taking that step again. My name is Kerry
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Thanks Kerry names Matt nice to meet you. I have posted in my old group, the new group I did not, I did though post roll for today.. I will explain myself to my new group..
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I combined the two introductions.
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It's time to get some serious quit goin'!!