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Title: Here I am....
Post by: John_in_SC on March 28, 2012, 05:13:00 PM
Hello all,

I chew(ed) for a dozen or so years. Past couple years I've been at 1+ cans/day. Spent a year abroad doing 2 tins/day.

Just woke up one morning and said no more. I've been 8 days free of dirt but still in the fog.

Alot of people don't understand what I'm working through so I decided to join KTC. Looking forward to catching up.


Thanks.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: ballplayer76 on March 28, 2012, 05:35:00 PM
Congrats on quitting John. Never heard of the fog lasting 8 days, but just keep pushing through it, and it will clear up. I'm about a week ahead of you, and I can tell you it does get easier. Although I still have some intense cravings, I'm learning how to deal with them. Stay strong brother.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: John_in_SC on March 28, 2012, 05:47:00 PM
First couple of days, it was terrible. No focus, zoning out, staring into space....terrible. Now, it's usually only in the morning when I wake and the end of the day - kind of like now. :D

I'm working super hard at this. I know I can maintain this. I've got Ice Breaker Mints as a substitue for the time being. My 9 year old asked me the other day why I like to eat this mints all the time now. LOL.

Working on indentifying my triggers. Its like everyday, I find a new one. Biggest one is any amount of time spent in the car by myself.

I started this quit just focusing hour by hour. Made it through the first couple of days and started focusing on 1/2 days. Now I'm day by day.

Not sure what is next but when I go to bed - I celebrate my small victories (quietly to myself) and when I wake up, I promise myself no dirt today.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: ballplayer76 on March 28, 2012, 05:54:00 PM
Sounds good man. Keep up the fight. A lot of guys don't recommend the fake stuff, cuz its too close to the real thing. But if the mints aren't cutting it, its better than real stuff. I use Smokey mountain straight. And it has gotten me through a lot of weak moments. But if your strong enough to do it without it, that is probably best.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: zam on March 29, 2012, 09:26:00 AM
Great choice John! Great Frickn chioce.

Yes, the people here know what you're going through. They know all the BS excuses your nicotine addicted mind will try to justify. They know when you will be weak and vulnerable to the siren's song. They know what it feels like, and they remember what early suck feels like, so they never are tempted to repeat a day 1.

Everyone's "fog" and the timing is a little different, so don't be discouraged if you still feel foggy after 8 days. You have the nicotine out of your body, and now the mind is starting to play games with you. I've only been here 66 days, but I can tell you day 66 is a hell of a lot better than day 8. I can also tell you that day 30 was much worse than day 20. But all in all, you WILL feel better tomorrow - there are thousands of quitters here that can confirm that. That is IF you stay quit TODAY!.

Glad to be quit with you.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: Nolaq on March 29, 2012, 09:32:00 AM
Quote from: John_in_SC
Alot of people don't understand what I'm working through so I decided to join KTC. Looking forward to catching up.
Unless they've walked the walk, NO ONE understands what you're going through EXCEPT KTC.

If you get too foggy, frustrated or just plain ole' pissed off, shoot me a PM, or post it up here.

The people in your life that don't understand what you're going through also do not deserve your rage cuz you were a dumbass for 12 or so years.

But we get it, we were dumbasses too, and we can take it.

Welcome to the freak show brother, it's the best decision you've ever made.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: ntartick on March 29, 2012, 09:37:00 AM
Quote from: John_in_SC
First couple of days, it was terrible. No focus, zoning out, staring into space....terrible. Now, it's usually only in the morning when I wake and the end of the day - kind of like now. :D

I'm working super hard at this. I know I can maintain this. I've got Ice Breaker Mints as a substitue for the time being. My 9 year old asked me the other day why I like to eat this mints all the time now. LOL.

Working on indentifying my triggers. Its like everyday, I find a new one. Biggest one is any amount of time spent in the car by myself.

I started this quit just focusing hour by hour. Made it through the first couple of days and started focusing on 1/2 days. Now I'm day by day.

Not sure what is next but when I go to bed - I celebrate my small victories (quietly to myself) and when I wake up, I promise myself no dirt today.
john,

I know it's hard to hear this and accept but to echo the brothers, "it gets better". I like strategy though smaller goals and victories. Keep it up and if you need anything pm me or anyone for that matter.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: MikeA on March 29, 2012, 09:54:00 AM
Quote from: noonelikesaquitter
Quote from: John_in_SC
Alot of people don't understand what I'm working through so I decided to join KTC.  Looking forward to catching up.
Unless they've walked the walk, NO ONE understands what you're going through EXCEPT KTC.

If you get too foggy, frustrated or just plain ole' pissed off, shoot me a PM, or post it up here.

The people in your life that don't understand what you're going through also do not deserve your rage cuz you were a dumbass for 12 or so years.

But we get it, we were dumbasses too, and we can take it.

Welcome to the freak show brother, it's the best decision you've ever made.
Communicating with others who "understood" is the only thing has kept me quit.

I agree with you about the triggers. For us dippers, everything is a trigger. Everything from getting up to going to bed was a trigger for me.

It will get better and you will succeed if you follow the rules of KTC.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: Grizzly25 on March 29, 2012, 10:00:00 AM
Quote from: MikeA
Quote from: noonelikesaquitter
Quote from: John_in_SC
Alot of people don't understand what I'm working through so I decided to join KTC.  Looking forward to catching up.
Unless they've walked the walk, NO ONE understands what you're going through EXCEPT KTC.

If you get too foggy, frustrated or just plain ole' pissed off, shoot me a PM, or post it up here.

The people in your life that don't understand what you're going through also do not deserve your rage cuz you were a dumbass for 12 or so years.

But we get it, we were dumbasses too, and we can take it.

Welcome to the freak show brother, it's the best decision you've ever made.
Communicating with others who "understood" is the only thing has kept me quit.

I agree with you about the triggers. For us dippers, everything is a trigger. Everything from getting up to going to bed was a trigger for me.

It will get better and you will succeed if you follow the rules of KTC.
The understanding is one of the many tools this site has the other is a great place to rage and vent when needed and it will be needed!!!!

Stay focused on your goal and dive into your quit the rewards are great! I have only been quit for 52 days and I feel great.

The best part is I like the new me and my family appreciates the new me but I am doing this for me not them!!

One day at a time brother.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: raiderx on March 29, 2012, 10:53:00 AM
That's it man, you get it. one day at a time. reward small victories. Make you accountable to the guy in the mirror.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: Aredoubleyou on March 29, 2012, 11:56:00 AM
Congrats on your decision, John.

The very best thing about KTC is that EVERYONE knows what it is like...that is why we can support each other and hold each other accountable.

Glad to have you and glad to be quit with you today.

aredoubleyou
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: John_in_SC on April 04, 2012, 03:12:00 PM
Wow, day 15. Tough one today. I woke up this morning and immediately knew today would be a challenge. Not gonna cave but I just wanted to put it in print that day 15 is being a son of a bitch.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: CDub73 on April 04, 2012, 03:31:00 PM
Kick it's ass John. You can make it. Don't let it get to you. Punch a heavy bag if you need to. Day 15 will end.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: Mthomas3824 on April 04, 2012, 04:01:00 PM
Quote from: John_in_SC
Wow, day 15.  Tough one today. I woke up this morning and immediately knew today would be a challenge.  Not gonna cave but I just wanted to put it in print that day 15 is being a son of a bitch.
Continuous effort - not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential.
Winston Churchill

Day 15 demonstrates continuous effort. Keep it up, you're just discovering your potiential!!!! Kick Nicotine's ASS, Today, Tomorrow and FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

'biggun'
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: ntartick on April 04, 2012, 04:08:00 PM
Quote from: John_in_SC
Wow, day 15. Tough one today. I woke up this morning and immediately knew today would be a challenge. Not gonna cave but I just wanted to put it in print that day 15 is being a son of a bitch.
John you got this wrapped up, I ain't worried about. Just remember when it gets tough, open vice, insert nuts and repeat if necessary. Proud of you, keep it up.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: jonathanrivers on April 04, 2012, 04:16:00 PM
Quote from: John_in_SC
Hello all,

I chew(ed) for a dozen or so years. Past couple years I've been at 1+ cans/day. Spent a year abroad doing 2 tins/day.

Just woke up one morning and said no more. I've been 8 days free of dirt but still in the fog.

Alot of people don't understand what I'm working through so I decided to join KTC. Looking forward to catching up.


Thanks.
From a fellow South Carolinian, welcome!

Also, Tigers or Gamecocks?
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: John_in_SC on April 09, 2012, 05:13:00 PM
Day 20 is here and I know two things to be true:

1. I'm addicted
2. I'm still quit

Fuck nicotine.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: Scowick65 on April 09, 2012, 08:31:00 PM
Quote from: John_in_SC
Day 20 is here and I know two things to be true:

1. I'm addicted
2. I'm still quit

Fuck nicotine.
The day I admitted I was addicted to nicotine was the day I controlled nicotine instead of nicotine controlling me. It does not make quitting easy, it just means I call the shots.


You have made an important realization. Well done.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: John_in_SC on April 11, 2012, 09:46:00 AM
Woke up yesteray with intense craves! Had a NIC dream I woke up from.

Just so happens I had a dental appointment scheduled yesterday to get 2 cavities filled. Went to the appointment with big craves. After the dental visit - no craves!

Point of the story - next time you have craves - go get some dental work done. It will fix the craves albeit I feel like I got punced in the jaw now instead. :P
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: John_in_SC on June 06, 2012, 12:55:00 PM
78 days and counting.......very happy.

I stopped by the local quick mart the other day to pick up a soda. The people working there know me as I used to stop by daily to buy my poison. So I put my soda and candy on the counter and the girl asks me if I want some Skoal as it's on sale. I told her no, not today. She looked at me strangely and asked if I quit to which I replied - yes. She then said "awwww, that's too bad you quit". I packed up my stuff and left.

I don't understand - what is too bad about quitting? Why would someone say that?

Anyhow - 78 days!
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: Mthomas3824 on June 06, 2012, 02:00:00 PM
Quote from: John_in_SC
78 days and counting.......very happy.

I stopped by the local quick mart the other day to pick up a soda. The people working there know me as I used to stop by daily to buy my poison. So I put my soda and candy on the counter and the girl asks me if I want some Skoal as it's on sale. I told her no, not today. She looked at me strangely and asked if I quit to which I replied - yes. She then said "awwww, that's too bad you quit". I packed up my stuff and left.

I don't understand - what is too bad about quitting? Why would someone say that?

Anyhow - 78 days!
I am not a conspiracy guy but there are some people that think quitting is too bad.

1) Those that profit off your addiction. You no longer give your money to them. They lose their bottom line when you quit.

2) Politicians - They justify you to pay more taxes. They won't say it but the more tobacco sales, the more money they have. Citizens don't seem to get their panties in a wad if they raise taxes on tobacco.

3) Out of control addicts - You are living proof that quitting and not partaking is an option. You make them look silly when they say they can't quit.


Those people that think it is a bad thing to quit can go piss up wind for all I care.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: jjprice on June 06, 2012, 02:38:00 PM
Quote from: John_in_SC
78 days and counting.......very happy.

I stopped by the local quick mart the other day to pick up a soda. The people working there know me as I used to stop by daily to buy my poison. So I put my soda and candy on the counter and the girl asks me if I want some Skoal as it's on sale. I told her no, not today. She looked at me strangely and asked if I quit to which I replied - yes. She then said "awwww, that's too bad you quit". I packed up my stuff and left.

I don't understand - what is too bad about quitting? Why would someone say that?

Anyhow - 78 days!
She sounds like a real twat.

Every day is a test.

Way to go on 78!!
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: Buddy Mac on June 06, 2012, 03:27:00 PM
Quote from: jjprice
Quote from: John_in_SC
78 days and counting.......very happy.

I stopped by the local quick mart the other day to pick up a soda.  The people working there know me as I used to stop by daily to buy my poison.  So I put my soda and candy on the counter and the girl asks me if I want some Skoal as it's on sale.  I told her no, not today.  She looked at me strangely and asked if I quit to which I replied - yes.  She then said "awwww, that's too bad you quit".  I packed up my stuff and left.

I don't understand - what is too bad about quitting?  Why would someone say that?

Anyhow - 78 days!
She sounds like a real twat.

Every day is a test.

Way to go on 78!!
I suggest finding a new place to buy your soda..
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: Notdeadyet on June 06, 2012, 03:29:00 PM
Quote from: Buddy
Quote from: jjprice
Quote from: John_in_SC
78 days and counting.......very happy.

I stopped by the local quick mart the other day to pick up a soda.  The people working there know me as I used to stop by daily to buy my poison.  So I put my soda and candy on the counter and the girl asks me if I want some Skoal as it's on sale.  I told her no, not today.  She looked at me strangely and asked if I quit to which I replied - yes.  She then said "awwww, that's too bad you quit".  I packed up my stuff and left.

I don't understand - what is too bad about quitting?  Why would someone say that?

Anyhow - 78 days!
She sounds like a real twat.

Every day is a test.

Way to go on 78!!
I suggest finding a new place to buy your soda..
That's some sound advice from Mr. Mac
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: John_in_SC on June 07, 2012, 08:36:00 AM
I went to a different place this morning. I feel liberated.
Title: Re: Here I am....
Post by: Nolaq on June 07, 2012, 08:53:00 AM
Quote from: Mthomas3824
Quote from: John_in_SC
78 days and counting.......very happy.

I stopped by the local quick mart the other day to pick up a soda.  The people working there know me as I used to stop by daily to buy my poison.  So I put my soda and candy on the counter and the girl asks me if I want some Skoal as it's on sale.  I told her no, not today.  She looked at me strangely and asked if I quit to which I replied - yes.  She then said "awwww, that's too bad you quit".  I packed up my stuff and left.

I don't understand - what is too bad about quitting?  Why would someone say that?

Anyhow - 78 days!
I am not a conspiracy guy but there are some people that think quitting is too bad.

1) Those that profit off your addiction. You no longer give your money to them. They lose their bottom line when you quit.

2) Politicians - They justify you to pay more taxes. They won't say it but the more tobacco sales, the more money they have. Citizens don't seem to get their panties in a wad if they raise taxes on tobacco.

3) Out of control addicts - You are living proof that quitting and not partaking is an option. You make them look silly when they say they can't quit.


Those people that think it is a bad thing to quit can go piss up wind for all I care.
I approve ^^^ that message.

Good choice John.