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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: J.D. on December 07, 2014, 01:08:00 AM
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So this is my story:
Just like the boy who broke her heart going away to school so he wouldn't be "that guy with a girl back home..." I threw my first dip in at 16, a true badass... Or dumbass!
Fast forward three years, back together with the girl (now wife), but was a slave, dipping a can a day, starting from the minute I woke up to the second I fell asleep, only stoping to eat. Concerned, 3 years ago she sent me the KTC link... Scared shitless to have my face ripped apart by a surgeon, I still held title of dumbass and said it wouldn't happen to me.
Fast forward 10 years to 27, gum lines eroded and being a closet dipper, I was sick of who I was, what I'd become. I was successful in the eyes of the world, but hated myself for my chains to skoal. I dropped down on one knee and wedding planning was on way. The day before our wedding was my last dip. I used lozenges for the honeymoon and up until yesterday... Dip free for 54 days and nic free for a day. Just got some Smokey Mountain wintergreen this am... This stuff is a dream. Sorry to blab, but if it can encourage anyone, I hope it will. Give up that shit, if not for yourself, think if the one person that cares about you most, do it for them - your wife, kids, sister, dog... Whoever.
I revisited this site today because I am committed to be dip and nicotine free, but I am an addict and struggling. Dip free was okay with lozenges, but today without either was tough. I am here for the long haul, dip free today, dip free till buried.
Stay strong. Blessings
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Congratulations JD on a very wise choice. A couple things; you can only quit for Yourself (others are motivation), don't worry about anytime but today and drink deep of the KTC quit koolaid.
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JD, welcome. I hate to be the one to bust your bubble BUT those 53 days you were dip free mean absolutely nothing. All you did was change the delivery system, you still put that poison in your body. Capeesh? We QUIT here, that is we QUIT nicotine. We QUIT cold turkey. As WT said, we do not quit for anyone but ourselves, period. So, now that you've decided to quit cold turkey and for yourself, get reading, don't stop until your eyes hurt. This place will save your life.
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These fellas speakith truth! It'll take some time to sink in. For now just be nicotine free, post your promise and keep it. Seeds, Trident, exercise, fake dip and your stedfast determination will get you through. Take a look around and taste the freedom, earn it daily. Shout if there's anything you need. There's thousands of folks here who understand and can help if you're willing to help yourself.
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Grady is right that the only days that count are the ones without nic, BUT you're Day 1 nic free! That's a start man! Here are a few pieces of advice for you:
1. POST ROLL. That's just how we do it here. Here's how to do it (topic/1003072/1/#new (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1003072/1/#new)) and here's where to do it (March: topic/10761232/97/#new) (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10761232/97/#new%29). This is how we quit here at KTC. Make a daily promise that you won't put nicotine in your body (in ANY form) for 24 hours. And then keep making that promise.
2. Drink water. Do push-ups. Play video games. Do anything except nicotine. Quitting nicotine is when your body is really going to fight back. Make it through these first 72 hours, count by the hour if you need to. After that, it's all (mostly) psychological.
3. Use this intro thread, if you want, as a place to put stuff that helps your quit. Post about how it's hell, how you never want to do this again. Post why you're quitting. Post if the reasons change or you find new ones. Down the road when you have a big crave and you think you absolutely can't go on without nic, come back here and read up on yourself telling you why you can't dip.
Good luck, and go post roll!