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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: THansen2413 on February 22, 2014, 08:23:00 PM
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Hi fellow quitters,
Here we go again. I'm quitting that monster we call chew, again. I was introduced to chew when I was 15, on a golf course after school. I remember everything about that first time. I quickly found myself asking older friends to buy me a can here and there. My addiction quickly grew from a dip or two a day, to half a can, up to where I am now, which is a 1-1.5 cans a day, grizzly straight. As we speak today, I'm 24 years old and have already quit dipping twice. Both times I've quit I've been dip free for a little under a year, big deal right? Both times I relapsed it was during the summer, and a wild hair ran across my mind to get a tin and I cracked, both times. The most recent relapse was July of 2013. Here we are now almost done with February of 2014 and I've had enough, for the final time. It's costing me about $7 a day, my mouth has become beyond raw and I'm just starting to tell that my addiction is in the early stages of really doing damage to my body. My teeth are stained, my gums hurt, I wake up in the morning and my cheeks are textured where I had dipped the day before. I wanted to make this time count so I joined this website forum. I want that support, advice, kick in the pants to hold me accountable for my actions. I went shopping today and stocked up on the essentials of a quit. Gum, hard candies, and plenty of bottles of water. Tomorrow is Day 1 and I'm ready but apprehensive. See, this time my quit is happening while I'm employed, I've had to move back in with my parents. and my two co workers both smoke. Sorry to ramble, hope I covered the basics, still learning how this forum works and don't want to post anything out of place. I thank you all for your support and time for reading this.
Tyler
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First things first, congratulations on your decision to quit.
Second, got to the welcome area and read all the welcome stuff, pay particular attention to how to post roll.
Then go to the June 2014 quit group and post roll. You'll be in that class.
The next thing, get in touch with people, reach out, build a network.. the difference between your last two stops and your final quit is going to be accountability. When you get that wild hair up your ass next time, you'll have people that you can reach out to and who you will give your word every damn day (EDD) that you won't put that shit in your lip.
I wish I was 24 and taking my quit as seriously as I am now at 37, and I'm sure there are guys on here who are in the 40's, 50's, 60's and beyond who wish like hell they were here at age 24.
Big thing to remember is that posting roll is your promise to yourself and to your accountability partners to not dip today... just have to not do it today, tomorrow will soon be today and you can work on today again, but you only quit one day at a time.
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Normally I respond with something to the effect of, "why the F are you waiting till tomorrow" but seeing how the day is almost doneÂ….fuck that. Why the F are you waiting till tomorrow. Did you read what you just wrote? Stained teeth, painful gums,Â…a mouth that feels like your fingers after soaking them in hot water for 2 hours.
Well, regardless what you do tonight, I assume you've had a dip today, so tomorrow will be your day 1. Day 1 of freedom. No nicotineÂ….in any way, shape, or form. It's going to suck balls too. You've come to KTC, asking for help. Stating that tomorrow is your day 1 and you're apprehensive about it. Well, first off if you are serious about this quit, then KTC will be your rock. The pillar to support your quit. There is much to say about KTC, but most of it you'll need to learn for yourselfÂ…to do this, read everything. Join the chat room. But, the first thing you must learn is to post roll. Write your name in the June quit section and promise to yourself, your fellow June Quitters, and KTC that you will not use nicotine for that day. Not only are you now accountable to yourself, but thousands of others. Then do the same the next dayÂ…we'll worry about the next day's quit when you get there. Lastly, throw your apprehension out the window. You either go into this 110% or Â…you will fail. Create a support network should you feel a crave you can't cope with, we'll talk you off the ledge. PM me if you need a life line or anything. Lets do this brother!
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Normally I respond with something to the effect of, "why the F are you waiting till tomorrow" but seeing how the day is almost doneÂ….fuck that. Why the F are you waiting till tomorrow. Did you read what you just wrote? Stained teeth, painful gums,Â…a mouth that feels like your fingers after soaking them in hot water for 2 hours.Â
Well, regardless what you do tonight, I assume you've had a dip today, so tomorrow will be your day 1. Day 1 of freedom. No nicotine….in any way, shape, or form. It's going to suck balls too. You've come to KTC, asking for help. Stating that tomorrow is your day 1 and you're apprehensive about it. Well, first off if you are serious about this quit, then KTC will be your rock. The pillar to support your quit. There is much to say about KTC, but most of it you'll need to learn for yourself…to do this, read everything. Join the chat room. But, the first thing you must learn is to post roll. Write your name in the June quit section and promise to yourself, your fellow June Quitters, and KTC that you will not use nicotine for that day. Not only are you now accountable to yourself, but thousands of others. Then do the same the next day…we'll worry about the next day's quit when you get there. Lastly, throw your apprehension out the window. You either go into this 110% or …you will fail. Create a support network should you feel a crave you can't cope with, we'll talk you off the ledge. PM me if you need a life line or anything. Lets do this brother!
Thanks for being so blunt, I need that in my quit. You would be correct in assuming I did have some dips today. I had planned to have my last dip before bed tonight but, after reading your post I flushed the last of it. I read the roll call explanation and I think I have it figured out. Let the journey begin.
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Normally I respond with something to the effect of, "why the F are you waiting till tomorrow" but seeing how the day is almost doneÂ….fuck that. Why the F are you waiting till tomorrow. Did you read what you just wrote? Stained teeth, painful gums,Â…a mouth that feels like your fingers after soaking them in hot water for 2 hours.Â
Well, regardless what you do tonight, I assume you've had a dip today, so tomorrow will be your day 1. Day 1 of freedom. No nicotine….in any way, shape, or form. It's going to suck balls too. You've come to KTC, asking for help. Stating that tomorrow is your day 1 and you're apprehensive about it. Well, first off if you are serious about this quit, then KTC will be your rock. The pillar to support your quit. There is much to say about KTC, but most of it you'll need to learn for yourself…to do this, read everything. Join the chat room. But, the first thing you must learn is to post roll. Write your name in the June quit section and promise to yourself, your fellow June Quitters, and KTC that you will not use nicotine for that day. Not only are you now accountable to yourself, but thousands of others. Then do the same the next day…we'll worry about the next day's quit when you get there. Lastly, throw your apprehension out the window. You either go into this 110% or …you will fail. Create a support network should you feel a crave you can't cope with, we'll talk you off the ledge. PM me if you need a life line or anything. Lets do this brother!
Thanks for being so blunt, I need that in my quit. You would be correct in assuming I did have some dips today. I had planned to have my last dip before bed tonight but, after reading your post I flushed the last of it. I read the roll call explanation and I think I have it figured out. Let the journey begin.
Awesome !!! Taking that first step is really the hardest. Bro, I gotta tell ya, quittn is SO freakn awesome. A day is coming when you give yourself a hug and thank yourself for hanging in the rend being quit. It really does get that good. I didn't know what to expect. I've dipped for 35 years. It scared the hell out of me just thinking about quitting. But now, I'm so thankful that I hung in there. And I'm also sad for all those that have given up on being quit. Brotha, I'm telling you, your gonna love it. But true, get to the welcome center, read everything. Get every phone number you can. Give your number out. Build relationships here. They are they the glue that holds you here. Post roll first thing every morning. Never mss a day. Make your quit your first priority. You got this bro!!!
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Normally I respond with something to the effect of, "why the F are you waiting till tomorrow" but seeing how the day is almost doneÂ….fuck that. Why the F are you waiting till tomorrow. Did you read what you just wrote? Stained teeth, painful gums,Â…a mouth that feels like your fingers after soaking them in hot water for 2 hours.Â
Well, regardless what you do tonight, I assume you've had a dip today, so tomorrow will be your day 1. Day 1 of freedom. No nicotine….in any way, shape, or form. It's going to suck balls too. You've come to KTC, asking for help. Stating that tomorrow is your day 1 and you're apprehensive about it. Well, first off if you are serious about this quit, then KTC will be your rock. The pillar to support your quit. There is much to say about KTC, but most of it you'll need to learn for yourself…to do this, read everything. Join the chat room. But, the first thing you must learn is to post roll. Write your name in the June quit section and promise to yourself, your fellow June Quitters, and KTC that you will not use nicotine for that day. Not only are you now accountable to yourself, but thousands of others. Then do the same the next day…we'll worry about the next day's quit when you get there. Lastly, throw your apprehension out the window. You either go into this 110% or …you will fail. Create a support network should you feel a crave you can't cope with, we'll talk you off the ledge. PM me if you need a life line or anything. Lets do this brother!
Thanks for being so blunt, I need that in my quit. You would be correct in assuming I did have some dips today. I had planned to have my last dip before bed tonight but, after reading your post I flushed the last of it. I read the roll call explanation and I think I have it figured out. Let the journey begin.
Awesome !!! Taking that first step is really the hardest. Bro, I gotta tell ya, quittn is SO freakn awesome. A day is coming when you give yourself a hug and thank yourself for hanging in the rend being quit. It really does get that good. I didn't know what to expect. I've dipped for 35 years. It scared the hell out of me just thinking about quitting. But now, I'm so thankful that I hung in there. And I'm also sad for all those that have given up on being quit. Brotha, I'm telling you, your gonna love it. But true, get to the welcome center, read everything. Get every phone number you can. Give your number out. Build relationships here. They are they the glue that holds you here. Post roll first thing every morning. Never mss a day. Make your quit your first priority. You got this bro!!!
Thansen, that is a F'n badass quit move, and I F'n love it. I'm yelling "Yes!" like Marv Albert.
A veteran kindly PM'd me to correct my post, and I would like to own up to the error of my ways. The moment you throw the dip away is day 1. You become quit from that moment forward in that day and we will support you for the rest of that day. So, if you quit yesterday, good news brother, you're already on day 2.
I'm stoked that you pulled the trigger and manned up. Get ready for the suck. Embrace it. Seriously. Embrace the suck as much as you embraced the dip,Â…in just a few short days you'll look back on it and say damn, I don't ever want to do that again. I quit with you all day, tomorrow, I'm going to quit with you again. See the pattern.
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Normally I respond with something to the effect of, "why the F are you waiting till tomorrow" but seeing how the day is almost doneÂ….fuck that. Why the F are you waiting till tomorrow. Did you read what you just wrote? Stained teeth, painful gums,Â…a mouth that feels like your fingers after soaking them in hot water for 2 hours.Â
Well, regardless what you do tonight, I assume you've had a dip today, so tomorrow will be your day 1. Day 1 of freedom. No nicotine….in any way, shape, or form. It's going to suck balls too. You've come to KTC, asking for help. Stating that tomorrow is your day 1 and you're apprehensive about it. Well, first off if you are serious about this quit, then KTC will be your rock. The pillar to support your quit. There is much to say about KTC, but most of it you'll need to learn for yourself…to do this, read everything. Join the chat room. But, the first thing you must learn is to post roll. Write your name in the June quit section and promise to yourself, your fellow June Quitters, and KTC that you will not use nicotine for that day. Not only are you now accountable to yourself, but thousands of others. Then do the same the next day…we'll worry about the next day's quit when you get there. Lastly, throw your apprehension out the window. You either go into this 110% or …you will fail. Create a support network should you feel a crave you can't cope with, we'll talk you off the ledge. PM me if you need a life line or anything. Lets do this brother!
Thanks for being so blunt, I need that in my quit. You would be correct in assuming I did have some dips today. I had planned to have my last dip before bed tonight but, after reading your post I flushed the last of it. I read the roll call explanation and I think I have it figured out. Let the journey begin.
Awesome !!! Taking that first step is really the hardest. Bro, I gotta tell ya, quittn is SO freakn awesome. A day is coming when you give yourself a hug and thank yourself for hanging in the rend being quit. It really does get that good. I didn't know what to expect. I've dipped for 35 years. It scared the hell out of me just thinking about quitting. But now, I'm so thankful that I hung in there. And I'm also sad for all those that have given up on being quit. Brotha, I'm telling you, your gonna love it. But true, get to the welcome center, read everything. Get every phone number you can. Give your number out. Build relationships here. They are they the glue that holds you here. Post roll first thing every morning. Never mss a day. Make your quit your first priority. You got this bro!!!
Thansen, that is a F'n badass quit move, and I F'n love it. I'm yelling "Yes!" like Marv Albert.
A veteran kindly PM'd me to correct my post, and I would like to own up to the error of my ways. The moment you throw the dip away is day 1. You become quit from that moment forward in that day and we will support you for the rest of that day. So, if you quit yesterday, good news brother, you're already on day 2.
I'm stoked that you pulled the trigger and manned up. Get ready for the suck. Embrace it. Seriously. Embrace the suck as much as you embraced the dip,Â…in just a few short days you'll look back on it and say damn, I don't ever want to do that again. I quit with you all day, tomorrow, I'm going to quit with you again. See the pattern.
Welcome Brother, you will find tons of support here, but no coddling. We take this seriously, we depend and count on one another, and expect to see your name on roll every damn day!! You are making the best decision of your life!!
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Normally I respond with something to the effect of, "why the F are you waiting till tomorrow" but seeing how the day is almost doneÂ….fuck that. Why the F are you waiting till tomorrow. Did you read what you just wrote? Stained teeth, painful gums,Â…a mouth that feels like your fingers after soaking them in hot water for 2 hours.Â
Well, regardless what you do tonight, I assume you've had a dip today, so tomorrow will be your day 1. Day 1 of freedom. No nicotine….in any way, shape, or form. It's going to suck balls too. You've come to KTC, asking for help. Stating that tomorrow is your day 1 and you're apprehensive about it. Well, first off if you are serious about this quit, then KTC will be your rock. The pillar to support your quit. There is much to say about KTC, but most of it you'll need to learn for yourself…to do this, read everything. Join the chat room. But, the first thing you must learn is to post roll. Write your name in the June quit section and promise to yourself, your fellow June Quitters, and KTC that you will not use nicotine for that day. Not only are you now accountable to yourself, but thousands of others. Then do the same the next day…we'll worry about the next day's quit when you get there. Lastly, throw your apprehension out the window. You either go into this 110% or …you will fail. Create a support network should you feel a crave you can't cope with, we'll talk you off the ledge. PM me if you need a life line or anything. Lets do this brother!
Thanks for being so blunt, I need that in my quit. You would be correct in assuming I did have some dips today. I had planned to have my last dip before bed tonight but, after reading your post I flushed the last of it. I read the roll call explanation and I think I have it figured out. Let the journey begin.
Awesome !!! Taking that first step is really the hardest. Bro, I gotta tell ya, quittn is SO freakn awesome. A day is coming when you give yourself a hug and thank yourself for hanging in the rend being quit. It really does get that good. I didn't know what to expect. I've dipped for 35 years. It scared the hell out of me just thinking about quitting. But now, I'm so thankful that I hung in there. And I'm also sad for all those that have given up on being quit. Brotha, I'm telling you, your gonna love it. But true, get to the welcome center, read everything. Get every phone number you can. Give your number out. Build relationships here. They are they the glue that holds you here. Post roll first thing every morning. Never mss a day. Make your quit your first priority. You got this bro!!!
Thansen, that is a F'n badass quit move, and I F'n love it. I'm yelling "Yes!" like Marv Albert.
A veteran kindly PM'd me to correct my post, and I would like to own up to the error of my ways. The moment you throw the dip away is day 1. You become quit from that moment forward in that day and we will support you for the rest of that day. So, if you quit yesterday, good news brother, you're already on day 2.
I'm stoked that you pulled the trigger and manned up. Get ready for the suck. Embrace it. Seriously. Embrace the suck as much as you embraced the dip,Â…in just a few short days you'll look back on it and say damn, I don't ever want to do that again. I quit with you all day, tomorrow, I'm going to quit with you again. See the pattern.
Welcome Brother, you will find tons of support here, but no coddling. We take this seriously, we depend and count on one another, and expect to see your name on roll every damn day!! You are making the best decision of your life!!
I'm just starting to tell that my addiction is in the early stages of really doing damage to my body.
Sorry Guy, the damage started 9 years ago when you first introduced the shit into your body. That first dip can be the one that caused cancer. Read all you can and learn from others experiences. As a 40+ year addict I'm glad to see you quitting. I wish I'd wished up sooner but I can't look back only looking at today.
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Normally I respond with something to the effect of, "why the F are you waiting till tomorrow" but seeing how the day is almost doneÂ….fuck that. Why the F are you waiting till tomorrow. Did you read what you just wrote? Stained teeth, painful gums,Â…a mouth that feels like your fingers after soaking them in hot water for 2 hours.Â
Well, regardless what you do tonight, I assume you've had a dip today, so tomorrow will be your day 1. Day 1 of freedom. No nicotine….in any way, shape, or form. It's going to suck balls too. You've come to KTC, asking for help. Stating that tomorrow is your day 1 and you're apprehensive about it. Well, first off if you are serious about this quit, then KTC will be your rock. The pillar to support your quit. There is much to say about KTC, but most of it you'll need to learn for yourself…to do this, read everything. Join the chat room. But, the first thing you must learn is to post roll. Write your name in the June quit section and promise to yourself, your fellow June Quitters, and KTC that you will not use nicotine for that day. Not only are you now accountable to yourself, but thousands of others. Then do the same the next day…we'll worry about the next day's quit when you get there. Lastly, throw your apprehension out the window. You either go into this 110% or …you will fail. Create a support network should you feel a crave you can't cope with, we'll talk you off the ledge. PM me if you need a life line or anything. Lets do this brother!
Thanks for being so blunt, I need that in my quit. You would be correct in assuming I did have some dips today. I had planned to have my last dip before bed tonight but, after reading your post I flushed the last of it. I read the roll call explanation and I think I have it figured out. Let the journey begin.
Awesome !!! Taking that first step is really the hardest. Bro, I gotta tell ya, quittn is SO freakn awesome. A day is coming when you give yourself a hug and thank yourself for hanging in the rend being quit. It really does get that good. I didn't know what to expect. I've dipped for 35 years. It scared the hell out of me just thinking about quitting. But now, I'm so thankful that I hung in there. And I'm also sad for all those that have given up on being quit. Brotha, I'm telling you, your gonna love it. But true, get to the welcome center, read everything. Get every phone number you can. Give your number out. Build relationships here. They are they the glue that holds you here. Post roll first thing every morning. Never mss a day. Make your quit your first priority. You got this bro!!!
Thansen, that is a F'n badass quit move, and I F'n love it. I'm yelling "Yes!" like Marv Albert.
A veteran kindly PM'd me to correct my post, and I would like to own up to the error of my ways. The moment you throw the dip away is day 1. You become quit from that moment forward in that day and we will support you for the rest of that day. So, if you quit yesterday, good news brother, you're already on day 2.
I'm stoked that you pulled the trigger and manned up. Get ready for the suck. Embrace it. Seriously. Embrace the suck as much as you embraced the dip,Â…in just a few short days you'll look back on it and say damn, I don't ever want to do that again. I quit with you all day, tomorrow, I'm going to quit with you again. See the pattern.
Welcome Brother, you will find tons of support here, but no coddling. We take this seriously, we depend and count on one another, and expect to see your name on roll every damn day!! You are making the best decision of your life!!
I'm just starting to tell that my addiction is in the early stages of really doing damage to my body.
Sorry Guy, the damage started 9 years ago when you first introduced the shit into your body. That first dip can be the one that caused cancer. Read all you can and learn from others experiences. As a 40+ year addict I'm glad to see you quitting. I wish I'd wished up sooner but I can't look back only looking at today.
Dumping your can and realizing you have an addiction are important steps to your quit, br proud of that. If you have any 'stash/emergency' cans anywhere, dump them in the toilet and rinse out the cans. Do a solid inventory of your car/truck, where you work/live and make damn sure you don't have any more lying around. Welcome to Day 2!
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Normally I respond with something to the effect of, "why the F are you waiting till tomorrow" but seeing how the day is almost doneÂ….fuck that. Why the F are you waiting till tomorrow. Did you read what you just wrote? Stained teeth, painful gums,Â…a mouth that feels like your fingers after soaking them in hot water for 2 hours.Â
Well, regardless what you do tonight, I assume you've had a dip today, so tomorrow will be your day 1. Day 1 of freedom. No nicotine….in any way, shape, or form. It's going to suck balls too. You've come to KTC, asking for help. Stating that tomorrow is your day 1 and you're apprehensive about it. Well, first off if you are serious about this quit, then KTC will be your rock. The pillar to support your quit. There is much to say about KTC, but most of it you'll need to learn for yourself…to do this, read everything. Join the chat room. But, the first thing you must learn is to post roll. Write your name in the June quit section and promise to yourself, your fellow June Quitters, and KTC that you will not use nicotine for that day. Not only are you now accountable to yourself, but thousands of others. Then do the same the next day…we'll worry about the next day's quit when you get there. Lastly, throw your apprehension out the window. You either go into this 110% or …you will fail. Create a support network should you feel a crave you can't cope with, we'll talk you off the ledge. PM me if you need a life line or anything. Lets do this brother!
Thanks for being so blunt, I need that in my quit. You would be correct in assuming I did have some dips today. I had planned to have my last dip before bed tonight but, after reading your post I flushed the last of it. I read the roll call explanation and I think I have it figured out. Let the journey begin.
Awesome !!! Taking that first step is really the hardest. Bro, I gotta tell ya, quittn is SO freakn awesome. A day is coming when you give yourself a hug and thank yourself for hanging in the rend being quit. It really does get that good. I didn't know what to expect. I've dipped for 35 years. It scared the hell out of me just thinking about quitting. But now, I'm so thankful that I hung in there. And I'm also sad for all those that have given up on being quit. Brotha, I'm telling you, your gonna love it. But true, get to the welcome center, read everything. Get every phone number you can. Give your number out. Build relationships here. They are they the glue that holds you here. Post roll first thing every morning. Never mss a day. Make your quit your first priority. You got this bro!!!
Thansen, that is a F'n badass quit move, and I F'n love it. I'm yelling "Yes!" like Marv Albert.
A veteran kindly PM'd me to correct my post, and I would like to own up to the error of my ways. The moment you throw the dip away is day 1. You become quit from that moment forward in that day and we will support you for the rest of that day. So, if you quit yesterday, good news brother, you're already on day 2.
I'm stoked that you pulled the trigger and manned up. Get ready for the suck. Embrace it. Seriously. Embrace the suck as much as you embraced the dip,Â…in just a few short days you'll look back on it and say damn, I don't ever want to do that again. I quit with you all day, tomorrow, I'm going to quit with you again. See the pattern.
Welcome Brother, you will find tons of support here, but no coddling. We take this seriously, we depend and count on one another, and expect to see your name on roll every damn day!! You are making the best decision of your life!!
I'm just starting to tell that my addiction is in the early stages of really doing damage to my body.
Sorry Guy, the damage started 9 years ago when you first introduced the shit into your body. That first dip can be the one that caused cancer. Read all you can and learn from others experiences. As a 40+ year addict I'm glad to see you quitting. I wish I'd wished up sooner but I can't look back only looking at today.
Dumping your can and realizing you have an addiction are important steps to your quit, br proud of that. If you have any 'stash/emergency' cans anywhere, dump them in the toilet and rinse out the cans. Do a solid inventory of your car/truck, where you work/live and make damn sure you don't have any more lying around. Welcome to Day 2!
I quit with you today- Listen to the people like slugo and the others they will not steer you wrong. You must uncover the stashes and flush them asap. Post roll everyday. be committed to your quit, your brothers
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Did you make the big step and make the commitment to YOURSELF to quit ! And tell the nic bitch 'Finger'
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You can do this !!!
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Wow, I'm absolutely overwhelmed with all the support I'm receiving from each and every one of you! Today, for lack of a better word has been shitty, at times. I drive about 25 min to work every day and my morning dip with coffee has always been my ritual. Today, I drove in a complete haze of tiredness and fogginess. I sipped on my coffee hoping to at least catch a caffeine buzz, which I didn't. By the time I had got to work I was absolutely a mental wreck. I contemplated the whole drive about buying just 1 more tin and really savoring it today, and start my quit tomorrow. I refused to let myself crumble just hours into my quit. Strangely enough, I thought about posting my very first roll call first thing this morning. I thought, "I'm going to be that guy who caves the first morning and has everyone disappointed and shaking their heads." I couldn't let down everyone who believes in me and my fellow quitters. Most important, I couldn't let myself down.
I'm home from work and feeling pretty awesome, mentally. Physically, my stomach is pretty knotted up and bloated feeling. I don't feel as crisp I usually do. Kind of just going through the motions waiting to sleep tonight. As for keeping my oral fixation satisfied while I get over the nicotine, I had to buy a can of Smokey Mountain and have been chewing gum like crazy. I'm feeling very optimistic about the rest of today.
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Keep posting man...it really helps yourself and others going through the same thing.
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Wow, I'm absolutely overwhelmed with all the support I'm receiving from each and every one of you! Today, for lack of a better word has been shitty, at times. I drive about 25 min to work every day and my morning dip with coffee has always been my ritual. Today, I drove in a complete haze of tiredness and fogginess. I sipped on my coffee hoping to at least catch a caffeine buzz, which I didn't. By the time I had got to work I was absolutely a mental wreck. I contemplated the whole drive about buying just 1 more tin and really savoring it today, and start my quit tomorrow. I refused to let myself crumble just hours into my quit. Strangely enough, I thought about posting my very first roll call first thing this morning. I thought, "I'm going to be that guy who caves the first morning and has everyone disappointed and shaking their heads." I couldn't let down everyone who believes in me and my fellow quitters. Most important, I couldn't let myself down.
I'm home from work and feeling pretty awesome, mentally. Physically, my stomach is pretty knotted up and bloated feeling. I don't feel as crisp I usually do. Kind of just going through the motions waiting to sleep tonight. As for keeping my oral fixation satisfied while I get over the nicotine, I had to buy a can of Smokey Mountain and have been chewing gum like crazy. I'm feeling very optimistic about the rest of today.
You've done the only two thing you need to;
1. You posted roll
2. No nicotine today
That's all you have to do to be quit.
It will suck for a while, then it won't. 3-4 days of quit and the nicotine will be gone from your system...and that's very good. Just remember what brought you here, a stupid can of poison laced dried up leaves. Every day in the books is another day of freedom.
It's easier the more you read on here, spend time in Chat and build your 'quit connections'...guys who will hold each other accountable. Be proud of what you accomplished/overcame today...we are!
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Wow, I'm absolutely overwhelmed with all the support I'm receiving from each and every one of you! Today, for lack of a better word has been shitty, at times. I drive about 25 min to work every day and my morning dip with coffee has always been my ritual. Today, I drove in a complete haze of tiredness and fogginess. I sipped on my coffee hoping to at least catch a caffeine buzz, which I didn't. By the time I had got to work I was absolutely a mental wreck. I contemplated the whole drive about buying just 1 more tin and really savoring it today, and start my quit tomorrow. I refused to let myself crumble just hours into my quit. Strangely enough, I thought about posting my very first roll call first thing this morning. I thought, "I'm going to be that guy who caves the first morning and has everyone disappointed and shaking their heads." I couldn't let down everyone who believes in me and my fellow quitters. Most important, I couldn't let myself down.
I'm home from work and feeling pretty awesome, mentally. Physically, my stomach is pretty knotted up and bloated feeling. I don't feel as crisp I usually do. Kind of just going through the motions waiting to sleep tonight. As for keeping my oral fixation satisfied while I get over the nicotine, I had to buy a can of Smokey Mountain and have been chewing gum like crazy. I'm feeling very optimistic about the rest of today.
Water and exercise will help with the withdraws. Read everything you can find on nicotine/addiction. There is s Lotta great information on this site. Learn your enemy it knows you.
Watch your coffee intake. Keep in mind that you need less coffee then when you were using. Nicotine somewhat suppressed the affects of coffee.
Nicotine screwed up a lotta sh@@. It's going to take a minute for you, your brain and body to begin getting use to normalsy. The way things were meant to be. Your body and mind is thanking you. Embrace these next few days and realize you did this to yourself. You want your freedom it's going to cost you. It's worth it all my friend, that i promise. Your going to kick yourself right in the but for ever putting the poison in your pie hole.
Need anything let me know.
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Wow, I'm absolutely overwhelmed with all the support I'm receiving from each and every one of you! Today, for lack of a better word has been shitty, at times. I drive about 25 min to work every day and my morning dip with coffee has always been my ritual. Today, I drove in a complete haze of tiredness and fogginess. I sipped on my coffee hoping to at least catch a caffeine buzz, which I didn't. By the time I had got to work I was absolutely a mental wreck. I contemplated the whole drive about buying just 1 more tin and really savoring it today, and start my quit tomorrow. I refused to let myself crumble just hours into my quit. Strangely enough, I thought about posting my very first roll call first thing this morning. I thought, "I'm going to be that guy who caves the first morning and has everyone disappointed and shaking their heads." I couldn't let down everyone who believes in me and my fellow quitters. Most important, I couldn't let myself down.
I'm home from work and feeling pretty awesome, mentally. Physically, my stomach is pretty knotted up and bloated feeling. I don't feel as crisp I usually do. Kind of just going through the motions waiting to sleep tonight. As for keeping my oral fixation satisfied while I get over the nicotine, I had to buy a can of Smokey Mountain and have been chewing gum like crazy. I'm feeling very optimistic about the rest of today.
Water and exercise will help with the withdraws. Read everything you can find on nicotine/addiction. There is s Lotta great information on this site. Learn your enemy it knows you.
Watch your coffee intake. Keep in mind that you need less coffee then when you were using. Nicotine somewhat suppressed the affects of coffee.
Nicotine screwed up a lotta sh@@. It's going to take a minute for you, your brain and body to begin getting use to normalsy. The way things were meant to be. Your body and mind is thanking you. Embrace these next few days and realize you did this to yourself. You want your freedom it's going to cost you. It's worth it all my friend, that i promise. Your going to kick yourself right in the but for ever putting the poison in your pie hole.
Need anything let me know.
Congratulations on taking your life back. Get ready to embrace the suck and the fog. I posted day 187 this morning and loving every minute of life. PM me and I'll give you a text number. Welcome to the badass club.
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Wow, I'm absolutely overwhelmed with all the support I'm receiving from each and every one of you! Today, for lack of a better word has been shitty, at times. I drive about 25 min to work every day and my morning dip with coffee has always been my ritual. Today, I drove in a complete haze of tiredness and fogginess. I sipped on my coffee hoping to at least catch a caffeine buzz, which I didn't. By the time I had got to work I was absolutely a mental wreck. I contemplated the whole drive about buying just 1 more tin and really savoring it today, and start my quit tomorrow. I refused to let myself crumble just hours into my quit. Strangely enough, I thought about posting my very first roll call first thing this morning. I thought, "I'm going to be that guy who caves the first morning and has everyone disappointed and shaking their heads." I couldn't let down everyone who believes in me and my fellow quitters. Most important, I couldn't let myself down.
I'm home from work and feeling pretty awesome, mentally. Physically, my stomach is pretty knotted up and bloated feeling. I don't feel as crisp I usually do. Kind of just going through the motions waiting to sleep tonight. As for keeping my oral fixation satisfied while I get over the nicotine, I had to buy a can of Smokey Mountain and have been chewing gum like crazy. I'm feeling very optimistic about the rest of today.
Water and exercise will help with the withdraws. Read everything you can find on nicotine/addiction. There is s Lotta great information on this site. Learn your enemy it knows you.
Watch your coffee intake. Keep in mind that you need less coffee then when you were using. Nicotine somewhat suppressed the affects of coffee.
Nicotine screwed up a lotta sh@@. It's going to take a minute for you, your brain and body to begin getting use to normalsy. The way things were meant to be. Your body and mind is thanking you. Embrace these next few days and realize you did this to yourself. You want your freedom it's going to cost you. It's worth it all my friend, that i promise. Your going to kick yourself right in the but for ever putting the poison in your pie hole.
Need anything let me know.
Congratulations on taking your life back. Get ready to embrace the suck and the fog. I posted day 187 this morning and loving every minute of life. PM me and I'll give you a text number. Welcome to the badass club.
Keep it up, THans -- you can look yourself in the mirror tonight knowing that you made it through day 1, despite the cravings early and throughout the day. That's a huge victory, and should give you confidence that you retain the power to make the choices to become healthy again. Build on the foundation that you established today, constantly reminding yourself that you've got one nic-free day under your belt and you're still standing. Keep following the recipe: post roll, make some contacts, record your progress, learn from others' successes and failures. Own your quit.
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First things first, and this will never change. Thank you to all the quitters on here for the support. You know what an impact it makes to have that encouragement from someone who's walked in your shoes. Secondly, I fully intend to reach out to many of you through PM's and exchange numbers, emails, etc. I just haven't had time to do that yet. I'm humbled by all of you who've reached out.
If you read my introduction you know that I've "stopped" dipping two times prior to this. My most recent cave coming in July of 2013 after almost a year of being "stopped". See in my short two days here I've realized the difference between stopping and quitting. I'm confident that this time I will stay quit because I'm being held accountable by many of people who battle same addiction I do. When I reach my 100 days of being quit, I don't stop. I continue to post roll call, I post roll call on future HOF groups and pay back what current HOF did for me on my journey. I'm rambling a lot and probably coming off as over confident in my quit, but why would anyone be anything but CONFIDENT! With the network I'm building I have no choice but to stay quit!
Thoughts from Day 2
Morning drive is a challenge
I'm much more blunt and less likely to take shit when I'm quit (I kinda like it)
Day 2 was MUCH better than Day 1
Few fleeting thoughts about my ol' friend Grizz but not on the front burner
Smokey Mountain and Wint-O-Green mints are helping me tremendously
About to go workout which I enjoy doing
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First things first, and this will never change. Thank you to all the quitters on here for the support. You know what an impact it makes to have that encouragement from someone who's walked in your shoes. Secondly, I fully intend to reach out to many of you through PM's and exchange numbers, emails, etc. I just haven't had time to do that yet. I'm humbled by all of you who've reached out.
If you read my introduction you know that I've "stopped" dipping two times prior to this. My most recent cave coming in July of 2013 after almost a year of being "stopped". See in my short two days here I've realized the difference between stopping and quitting. I'm confident that this time I will stay quit because I'm being held accountable by many of people who battle same addiction I do. When I reach my 100 days of being quit, I don't stop. I continue to post roll call, I post roll call on future HOF groups and pay back what current HOF did for me on my journey. I'm rambling a lot and probably coming off as over confident in my quit, but why would anyone be anything but CONFIDENT! With the network I'm building I have no choice but to stay quit!
Thoughts from Day 2
Morning drive is a challenge
I'm much more blunt and less likely to take shit when I'm quit (I kinda like it)
Day 2 was MUCH better than Day 1
Few fleeting thoughts about my ol' friend Grizz but not on the front burner
Smokey Mountain and Wint-O-Green mints are helping me tremendously
About to go workout which I enjoy doing
Congratulations on day # 2. I just ordered my 200 day milestone coin. The +1 days add up quickly and each day will be better than the one before. You don't need any luck for this journey, just quit one day at a time. Forget about your old friend Grizzly and say hello to your new friend called Freedom. I'm quit with you today.....
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Day 3. It gets better. I don't want to say "easier" because it's not easy. I still have a decent fog over me, my concentration and temper are the most prominent. I haven't and don't plan on blowing up on anyone but I have been much more heated and annoyed these past 3 days. I guess I always just threw in a big chew and went along my way before I was quit. Hopefully that subsides soon, I'm really one of the most easy going people you'd hope to meet but man this nic detox has me raging at times. Exercise, Smokey Mountain, and Trident are keeping me somewhat sane. For anyone who just quit, please don't hesitate to PM me. I know what your going through because I'm going through it. It's not pleasant or fun, but it has to be done, to gain the freedom and health I (we) want.
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Day 3. It gets better. I don't want to say "easier" because it's not easy. I still have a decent fog over me, my concentration and temper are the most prominent. I haven't and don't plan on blowing up on anyone but I have been much more heated and annoyed these past 3 days. I guess I always just threw in a big chew and went along my way before I was quit. Hopefully that subsides soon, I'm really one of the most easy going people you'd hope to meet but man this nic detox has me raging at times. Exercise, Smokey Mountain, and Trident are keeping me somewhat sane. For anyone who just quit, please don't hesitate to PM me. I know what your going through because I'm going through it. It's not pleasant or fun, but it has to be done, to gain the freedom and health I (we) want.
Thansen,
The good news is that all the nicotine is out of your system now and your brain is going to begin healing itself. The mind games begin now. Stay vigilant, stay active here and shout out if you are in trouble. We will all come running. Congrats on 3 days of Freedom! ;Ironman:
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Day 4 almost in the books. I'm finding mornings are still a particularly hard time. After I "wake up" a bit and start my job (Meat Dept Supervisor at retail store) it gets better but the initial 30-60min of being awake sucks. Not much in the way of strong cravings or issues but I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about chewing through out the day. Comes and goes I guess, usually lasts about 10-15 min and I'm over it. I know for every hour I think about chew, I think about all of my fellow quitters double that. Seeing that encouragement everyday from fellow quitters just motivates the hell out of me! I've been quit since Sunday, which means I have an extra $25 in my pocket that I normally wouldn't have had. That's really awesome, and not having raw gums and cheeks is even cooler.
Day 4 thoughts
-Posted Roll
-Building networks and relationships
-ODAAT (I'm learning to live by that)
-I can function without chew
-Exercise is essential
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Day 4 almost in the books. I'm finding mornings are still a particularly hard time. After I "wake up" a bit and start my job (Meat Dept Supervisor at retail store) it gets better but the initial 30-60min of being awake sucks. Not much in the way of strong cravings or issues but I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about chewing through out the day. Comes and goes I guess, usually lasts about 10-15 min and I'm over it. I know for every hour I think about chew, I think about all of my fellow quitters double that. Seeing that encouragement everyday from fellow quitters just motivates the hell out of me! I've been quit since Sunday, which means I have an extra $25 in my pocket that I normally wouldn't have had. That's really awesome, and not having raw gums and cheeks is even cooler.
Day 4 thoughts
-Posted Roll
-Building networks and relationships
-ODAAT (I'm learning to live by that)
-I can function without chew
-Exercise is essential
Day 4, awesome! You're beating this thing. Some pretty well put together thoughts. Get and use fellow quitters phone #s. A quick two word text in the middle of the day can make all the difference in the world. Keep your quit on, right with you!
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Day 4 almost in the books. I'm finding mornings are still a particularly hard time. After I "wake up" a bit and start my job (Meat Dept Supervisor at retail store) it gets better but the initial 30-60min of being awake sucks. Not much in the way of strong cravings or issues but I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about chewing through out the day. Comes and goes I guess, usually lasts about 10-15 min and I'm over it. I know for every hour I think about chew, I think about all of my fellow quitters double that. Seeing that encouragement everyday from fellow quitters just motivates the hell out of me! I've been quit since Sunday, which means I have an extra $25 in my pocket that I normally wouldn't have had. That's really awesome, and not having raw gums and cheeks is even cooler.
Day 4 thoughts
-Posted Roll
-Building networks and relationships
-ODAAT (I'm learning to live by that)
-I can function without chew
-Exercise is essential
Day 4, awesome! You're beating this thing. Some pretty well put together thoughts. Get and use fellow quitters phone #s. A quick two word text in the middle of the day can make all the difference in the world. Keep your quit on, right with you!
good job brother. lots and lots of water, just keep pounding it.
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Day 4 almost in the books. I'm finding mornings are still a particularly hard time. After I "wake up" a bit and start my job (Meat Dept Supervisor at retail store) it gets better but the initial 30-60min of being awake sucks. Not much in the way of strong cravings or issues but I'd be lying if I said I didn't think about chewing through out the day. Comes and goes I guess, usually lasts about 10-15 min and I'm over it. I know for every hour I think about chew, I think about all of my fellow quitters double that. Seeing that encouragement everyday from fellow quitters just motivates the hell out of me! I've been quit since Sunday, which means I have an extra $25 in my pocket that I normally wouldn't have had. That's really awesome, and not having raw gums and cheeks is even cooler.
Day 4 thoughts
-Posted Roll
-Building networks and relationships
-ODAAT (I'm learning to live by that)
-I can function without chew
-Exercise is essential
Day 4, awesome! You're beating this thing. Some pretty well put together thoughts. Get and use fellow quitters phone #s. A quick two word text in the middle of the day can make all the difference in the world. Keep your quit on, right with you!
good job brother. lots and lots of water, just keep pounding it.
Right on. Always appreciate the support and words of wisdom. I'm getting in touch with a lot of my fellow June quitters. We all just have to approach this ODAAT. We'll worry about tomorrow when tomorrow comes.
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Impressive day in the sense that I've been quit for 5 days. Less than impressive in the sense that I've felt in the dumps most of the day. The brain is both a blessing and a curse. I read another quitter's post/reply about comparing quitting in the beginning to "losing a best friend or relative." Man that so sums up my feelings.
My logical side is saying, "you know what one dip will turn into. It starts out for the first dip or two as a relaxing, got the world by the balls experience, then it just turns into a disgusting, anything but fun addiction that leaves my cheeks feeling winkled the following morning. My gums are raw and sore. Teeth are gross yellow. Disgusting after taste all day long."
Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again. You did just get your tax return back so you won't have to worry about being broke from buying the shit for a month."
I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits. Looking forward to actually having a day off this Saturday and having some "me time". About to go blow off what steam I do have left in the gym. Just gotta keep hammering it into my brain, ODAAT.
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Impressive day in the sense that I've been quit for 5 days. Less than impressive in the sense that I've felt in the dumps most of the day. The brain is both a blessing and a curse. I read another quitter's post/reply about comparing quitting in the beginning to "losing a best friend or relative." Man that so sums up my feelings.
My logical side is saying, "you know what one dip will turn into. It starts out for the first dip or two as a relaxing, got the world by the balls experience, then it just turns into a disgusting, anything but fun addiction that leaves my cheeks feeling winkled the following morning. My gums are raw and sore. Teeth are gross yellow. Disgusting after taste all day long."
Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again. You did just get your tax return back so you won't have to worry about being broke from buying the shit for a month."
I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits. Looking forward to actually having a day off this Saturday and having some "me time". About to go blow off what steam I do have left in the gym. Just gotta keep hammering it into my brain, ODAAT.
You really don't miss it. It feels like you do, but that is the sneaky bitch trying to make you use again. You don't need it to live. You need to remain free of it to live.
You will get used to be nic free. That takes time. You can feel sad, but not for
yourself. Feel sad for those who aren't five days clean yet!
Keep on keepin on!
G
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Impressive day in the sense that I've been quit for 5 days. Less than impressive in the sense that I've felt in the dumps most of the day. The brain is both a blessing and a curse. I read another quitter's post/reply about comparing quitting in the beginning to "losing a best friend or relative." Man that so sums up my feelings.
My logical side is saying, "you know what one dip will turn into. It starts out for the first dip or two as a relaxing, got the world by the balls experience, then it just turns into a disgusting, anything but fun addiction that leaves my cheeks feeling winkled the following morning. My gums are raw and sore. Teeth are gross yellow. Disgusting after taste all day long."
Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again. You did just get your tax return back so you won't have to worry about being broke from buying the shit for a month."
I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits. Looking forward to actually having a day off this Saturday and having some "me time". About to go blow off what steam I do have left in the gym. Just gotta keep hammering it into my brain, ODAAT.
You really don't miss it. It feels like you do, but that is the sneaky bitch trying to make you use again. You don't need it to live. You need to remain free of it to live.
You will get used to be nic free. That takes time. You can feel sad, but not for
yourself. Feel sad for those who aren't five days clean yet!
Keep on keepin on!
G
Thats just the nic bitch whispering in your ear. Keep kickin her ass to the curb. She will get the message in time.
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Staying quit is simple, but possibly the most difficult thing you'll do.
Its incredibly rewarding, but it requires you to humble yourself.
Not one addict on this site NEEDS dip. We were lied to. Over, and over, and over again. Until we forgot what the truth was.
Do you want to get back to being the true you? To get back to living freely? Post roll, embrace the suck, the cravings, and all the side effects. Its not easy but its worth it. So worth it.
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THanson, sounds like where I was on day 5. I'm now day 11 and things are looking much better and I'm not feeling depressed about no dip. Hang in there, it gets better.
mb289
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Staying quit is simple, but possibly the most difficult thing you'll do.
Its incredibly rewarding, but it requires you to humble yourself.
Not one addict on this site NEEDS dip. We were lied to. Over, and over, and over again. Until we forgot what the truth was.
Do you want to get back to being the true you? To get back to living freely? Post roll, embrace the suck, the cravings, and all the side effects. Its not easy but its worth it. So worth it.
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Impressive day in the sense that I've been quit for 5 days. Less than impressive in the sense that I've felt in the dumps most of the day. The brain is both a blessing and a curse. I read another quitter's post/reply about comparing quitting in the beginning to "losing a best friend or relative." Man that so sums up my feelings.
My logical side is saying, "you know what one dip will turn into. It starts out for the first dip or two as a relaxing, got the world by the balls experience, then it just turns into a disgusting, anything but fun addiction that leaves my cheeks feeling winkled the following morning. My gums are raw and sore. Teeth are gross yellow. Disgusting after taste all day long."
Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again. You did just get your tax return back so you won't have to worry about being broke from buying the shit for a month."
I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits. Looking forward to actually having a day off this Saturday and having some "me time". About to go blow off what steam I do have left in the gym. Just gotta keep hammering it into my brain, ODAAT.
The good news is that you only have to go thru this one time. I come here everyday and post roll because I never want to forget about my past love affair with the nicotine bitch. Embrace the suck and look forward to the Hall of Fame status. You have what it takes to quit and stay quit. Proud to be quit with you today.
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Impressive day in the sense that I've been quit for 5 days. Less than impressive in the sense that I've felt in the dumps most of the day. The brain is both a blessing and a curse. I read another quitter's post/reply about comparing quitting in the beginning to "losing a best friend or relative." Man that so sums up my feelings.
My logical side is saying, "you know what one dip will turn into. It starts out for the first dip or two as a relaxing, got the world by the balls experience, then it just turns into a disgusting, anything but fun addiction that leaves my cheeks feeling winkled the following morning. My gums are raw and sore. Teeth are gross yellow. Disgusting after taste all day long."
Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again. You did just get your tax return back so you won't have to worry about being broke from buying the shit for a month."
I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits. Looking forward to actually having a day off this Saturday and having some "me time". About to go blow off what steam I do have left in the gym. Just gotta keep hammering it into my brain, ODAAT.
Great post. Everyone's quit is different and I enjoy reading these because even if someone's quit is different than mine, I can always relate to some degree. I too at one point had the craving...the desire to have just one, because I thought a part of me actually enjoyed having a nice fatty in. Now, even typing that sounds ridiculous to me...that is pure addict talk. I never enjoyed a brown wad of nasty tasting, lip cutting, cancer causing, worm shit in my mouth. No freakin way. Nicotine made me think that way. My addiction made me think that way. When I look at your last post I see:
Addict: Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again."
Quitter: I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits.
You're doing a great job THansen, and for someone on the younger side of life you're putting up some inspirational quit fodder for your June quit group and everyone else. No quittin the quit.
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Impressive day in the sense that I've been quit for 5 days. Less than impressive in the sense that I've felt in the dumps most of the day. The brain is both a blessing and a curse. I read another quitter's post/reply about comparing quitting in the beginning to "losing a best friend or relative." Man that so sums up my feelings.
My logical side is saying, "you know what one dip will turn into. It starts out for the first dip or two as a relaxing, got the world by the balls experience, then it just turns into a disgusting, anything but fun addiction that leaves my cheeks feeling winkled the following morning. My gums are raw and sore. Teeth are gross yellow. Disgusting after taste all day long."
Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again. You did just get your tax return back so you won't have to worry about being broke from buying the shit for a month."
I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits. Looking forward to actually having a day off this Saturday and having some "me time". About to go blow off what steam I do have left in the gym. Just gotta keep hammering it into my brain, ODAAT.
Great post. Everyone's quit is different and I enjoy reading these because even if someone's quit is different than mine, I can always relate to some degree. I too at one point had the craving...the desire to have just one, because I thought a part of me actually enjoyed having a nice fatty in. Now, even typing that sounds ridiculous to me...that is pure addict talk. I never enjoyed a brown wad of nasty tasting, lip cutting, cancer causing, worm shit in my mouth. No freakin way. Nicotine made me think that way. My addiction made me think that way. When I look at your last post I see:
Addict: Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again."
Quitter: I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits.
You're doing a great job THansen, and for someone on the younger side of life you're putting up some inspirational quit fodder for your June quit group and everyone else. No quittin the quit.
I appreciate the kind reply Steakbomb and everyone else who's been commenting and sending me PM's. For only being 24 I'm pretty good with words. But that leads me to one of the demons in my closet that fueled my addiction. F my life, I'll never succeed I thought, not when I was born with this. I was born with a stutter. My Grandpa had one, my mom has one, my brother has one and luckily I kept with tradition and have one. Mine is what my speech pathologist would call "moderately severe". This was a big scar for me growing up and even into my first years as a 20yr old. I'm happy to say through hard work and learning "tools" to deal with my stutter I can achieve much more fluent speech than as recent as 2 years ago. I was able to find a job at a local grocery store as a night manager, then was offered a full time position as a meat cutter, and that lead me to my position now as a supervisor of the meat department. Fake it till ya make it, right? Anyway long story short, I'm like a walking thesaurus thanks to my stutter, you have to know a lot of words with similar meanings, just in case you get stuck on the original word you wanted to say :)
Day 6.
I can honestly say days 1-4 were a cake walk compared to days 5-6. Seems like all I think about is chew. No doubt an addict trait. I know it's poison, I know the short term effects it causes in my mouth, and know that someday it will cause cancer. Yet, I think, damn I could sure go for one. If it weren't for KTC and all you badasses I would have caved already. With that being said, today was a little easier than yesterday. I'm learning to throw in a couple pieces of gum when I get that crave and that settles me down quick. When I'm driving I reach for my Smokey Mountain, driving has always been a huge trigger. I absolutely love that my mouth feels the best it has in over a year. My cheeks are actually smooth and fleshy and my gums aren't sore. I missed that feeling! Sleep wise last night was my worst. Woke up at 3:30 am and couldn't get back to bed. Thinking about work and I'm sure my addiction was part of the blame. Looking forward to a day off tomorrow and doing some healthy things that I enjoy doing. Keep on quitting, quitters!
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Impressive day in the sense that I've been quit for 5 days. Less than impressive in the sense that I've felt in the dumps most of the day. The brain is both a blessing and a curse. I read another quitter's post/reply about comparing quitting in the beginning to "losing a best friend or relative." Man that so sums up my feelings.
My logical side is saying, "you know what one dip will turn into. It starts out for the first dip or two as a relaxing, got the world by the balls experience, then it just turns into a disgusting, anything but fun addiction that leaves my cheeks feeling winkled the following morning. My gums are raw and sore. Teeth are gross yellow. Disgusting after taste all day long."
Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again. You did just get your tax return back so you won't have to worry about being broke from buying the shit for a month."
I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits. Looking forward to actually having a day off this Saturday and having some "me time". About to go blow off what steam I do have left in the gym. Just gotta keep hammering it into my brain, ODAAT.
Great post. Everyone's quit is different and I enjoy reading these because even if someone's quit is different than mine, I can always relate to some degree. I too at one point had the craving...the desire to have just one, because I thought a part of me actually enjoyed having a nice fatty in. Now, even typing that sounds ridiculous to me...that is pure addict talk. I never enjoyed a brown wad of nasty tasting, lip cutting, cancer causing, worm shit in my mouth. No freakin way. Nicotine made me think that way. My addiction made me think that way. When I look at your last post I see:
Addict: Then my not so logical side is saying, "Man that feeling of relaxation would feel good, especially while watching Breaking Bad. You quit for 5 days, you can quit again."
Quitter: I'm in a comfortable state at the moment. I've been utilizing mints, gum, and Smokey Mountain. Sent some PM's to fellow quits.
You're doing a great job THansen, and for someone on the younger side of life you're putting up some inspirational quit fodder for your June quit group and everyone else. No quittin the quit.
I appreciate the kind reply Steakbomb and everyone else who's been commenting and sending me PM's. For only being 24 I'm pretty good with words. But that leads me to one of the demons in my closet that fueled my addiction. F my life, I'll never succeed I thought, not when I was born with this. I was born with a stutter. My Grandpa had one, my mom has one, my brother has one and luckily I kept with tradition and have one. Mine is what my speech pathologist would call "moderately severe". This was a big scar for me growing up and even into my first years as a 20yr old. I'm happy to say through hard work and learning "tools" to deal with my stutter I can achieve much more fluent speech than as recent as 2 years ago. I was able to find a job at a local grocery store as a night manager, then was offered a full time position as a meat cutter, and that lead me to my position now as a supervisor of the meat department. Fake it till ya make it, right? Anyway long story short, I'm like a walking thesaurus thanks to my stutter, you have to know a lot of words with similar meanings, just in case you get stuck on the original word you wanted to say :)
Day 6.
I can honestly say days 1-4 were a cake walk compared to days 5-6. Seems like all I think about is chew. No doubt an addict trait. I know it's poison, I know the short term effects it causes in my mouth, and know that someday it will cause cancer. Yet, I think, damn I could sure go for one. If it weren't for KTC and all you badasses I would have caved already. With that being said, today was a little easier than yesterday. I'm learning to throw in a couple pieces of gum when I get that crave and that settles me down quick. When I'm driving I reach for my Smokey Mountain, driving has always been a huge trigger. I absolutely love that my mouth feels the best it has in over a year. My cheeks are actually smooth and fleshy and my gums aren't sore. I missed that feeling! Sleep wise last night was my worst. Woke up at 3:30 am and couldn't get back to bed. Thinking about work and I'm sure my addiction was part of the blame. Looking forward to a day off tomorrow and doing some healthy things that I enjoy doing. Keep on quitting, quitters!
That is some badass quit going on. On day 101 I was sitting in my dentists' chair explaining about my last 100 days of quit and my support group at KTC. The dentist said "... if you hadn't told me that you were a past dipper, I would have never known" It's funny how the body can heal itself when the cancer weed has left your body. Proud to be quit with you today :D .
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"losing a best friend or relative."
I had this exact same feeling. That's the only way I could explain it to my wife.
It will get better, I promise.
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Well today marks Day 7 of no chew and obviously no nic in general. As I look back on the first days I remember days 1-3 (the suck) not being as sucky as I had thought it would be. Sure my day 1 started out with a bit of panicked feeling and general foggy, hazy daze that I wouldn't be filling my lip with chew. I used and continue to use Smokey Mountain to fill that oral fixation need. My toughest days were days 4-5. I was in a general funk. I know we as addicts have to approach this addiction ODAAT but being human I think we all think to ourselves, "wow I can't use any product that has nic in it for the rest of my life!" I'm guilty of this. That's what made my day 4-5 hard. I wasn't living in the moment, rather looking a week ahead, a month ahead and being discouraged that "I might" cave someday." Days 6-7 I'm living in the moment. I can't worry about the cookout on July 4th, I can't worry about kayaking in August. I have to worry about today and staying nic free for today. Benefits I've noticed from being quit for a week are,
-healthy feeling cheeks and gums
-my surface stains on my teeth are slowly going away
-a sense of pride that I've stuck to my word and am living a clean, honest life
-7 days nic free= roughly $40 extra in my pocket
It's getting better each day, for myself. I'm positive that there will be hard days ahead of me and many triggers that will test my will power but for now, I'm living in the moment and I'm at peace with that. I can say that this has been one of the most humbling, best weeks of my life, being quit and making contacts with fellow quitters and knowing that my story, my symptoms are no different than any of yours. We are all in this together and we all tell the nic bitch to kiss our 'arse' everyday!
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Well today marks Day 7 of no chew and obviously no nic in general. As I look back on the first days I remember days 1-3 (the suck) not being as sucky as I had thought it would be. Sure my day 1 started out with a bit of panicked feeling and general foggy, hazy daze that I wouldn't be filling my lip with chew. I used and continue to use Smokey Mountain to fill that oral fixation need. My toughest days were days 4-5. I was in a general funk. I know we as addicts have to approach this addiction ODAAT but being human I think we all think to ourselves, "wow I can't use any product that has nic in it for the rest of my life!" I'm guilty of this. That's what made my day 4-5 hard. I wasn't living in the moment, rather looking a week ahead, a month ahead and being discouraged that "I might" cave someday." Days 6-7 I'm living in the moment. I can't worry about the cookout on July 4th, I can't worry about kayaking in August. I have to worry about today and staying nic free for today. Benefits I've noticed from being quit for a week are,
-healthy feeling cheeks and gums
-my surface stains on my teeth are slowly going away
-a sense of pride that I've stuck to my word and am living a clean, honest life
-7 days nic free= roughly $40 extra in my pocket
It's getting better each day, for myself. I'm positive that there will be hard days ahead of me and many triggers that will test my will power but for now, I'm living in the moment and I'm at peace with that. I can say that this has been one of the most humbling, best weeks of my life, being quit and making contacts with fellow quitters and knowing that my story, my symptoms are no different than any of yours. We are all in this together and we all tell the nic bitch to kiss our 'arse' everyday!
All good news, my friend! Beware the nic bitch is sneaky and subtle...be prepared for a sucker punch at all times...you're doing great!
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Well today marks Day 7 of no chew and obviously no nic in general. As I look back on the first days I remember days 1-3 (the suck) not being as sucky as I had thought it would be. Sure my day 1 started out with a bit of panicked feeling and general foggy, hazy daze that I wouldn't be filling my lip with chew. I used and continue to use Smokey Mountain to fill that oral fixation need. My toughest days were days 4-5. I was in a general funk. I know we as addicts have to approach this addiction ODAAT but being human I think we all think to ourselves, "wow I can't use any product that has nic in it for the rest of my life!" I'm guilty of this. That's what made my day 4-5 hard. I wasn't living in the moment, rather looking a week ahead, a month ahead and being discouraged that "I might" cave someday." Days 6-7 I'm living in the moment. I can't worry about the cookout on July 4th, I can't worry about kayaking in August. I have to worry about today and staying nic free for today. Benefits I've noticed from being quit for a week are,
-healthy feeling cheeks and gums
-my surface stains on my teeth are slowly going away
-a sense of pride that I've stuck to my word and am living a clean, honest life
-7 days nic free= roughly $40 extra in my pocket
It's getting better each day, for myself. I'm positive that there will be hard days ahead of me and many triggers that will test my will power but for now, I'm living in the moment and I'm at peace with that. I can say that this has been one of the most humbling, best weeks of my life, being quit and making contacts with fellow quitters and knowing that my story, my symptoms are no different than any of yours. We are all in this together and we all tell the nic bitch to kiss our 'arse' everyday!
All good news, my friend! Beware the nic bitch is sneaky and subtle...be prepared for a sucker punch at all times...you're doing great!
You have a great outlook on this. I like your attitude. Just stay focused on ODAAT and I promise it will get gradually better (much better) as time passes. Of course like sluggo says, stay vigilant because you're bound to hit a few rough spots here and there.
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Well today marks Day 7 of no chew and obviously no nic in general. As I look back on the first days I remember days 1-3 (the suck) not being as sucky as I had thought it would be. Sure my day 1 started out with a bit of panicked feeling and general foggy, hazy daze that I wouldn't be filling my lip with chew. I used and continue to use Smokey Mountain to fill that oral fixation need. My toughest days were days 4-5. I was in a general funk. I know we as addicts have to approach this addiction ODAAT but being human I think we all think to ourselves, "wow I can't use any product that has nic in it for the rest of my life!" I'm guilty of this. That's what made my day 4-5 hard. I wasn't living in the moment, rather looking a week ahead, a month ahead and being discouraged that "I might" cave someday." Days 6-7 I'm living in the moment. I can't worry about the cookout on July 4th, I can't worry about kayaking in August. I have to worry about today and staying nic free for today. Benefits I've noticed from being quit for a week are,
-healthy feeling cheeks and gums
-my surface stains on my teeth are slowly going away
-a sense of pride that I've stuck to my word and am living a clean, honest life
-7 days nic free= roughly $40 extra in my pocket
It's getting better each day, for myself. I'm positive that there will be hard days ahead of me and many triggers that will test my will power but for now, I'm living in the moment and I'm at peace with that. I can say that this has been one of the most humbling, best weeks of my life, being quit and making contacts with fellow quitters and knowing that my story, my symptoms are no different than any of yours. We are all in this together and we all tell the nic bitch to kiss our 'arse' everyday!
All good news, my friend! Beware the nic bitch is sneaky and subtle...be prepared for a sucker punch at all times...you're doing great!
You have a great outlook on this. I like your attitude. Just stay focused on ODAAT and I promise it will get gradually better (much better) as time passes. Of course like sluggo says, stay vigilant because you're bound to hit a few rough spots here and there.
Thank you both for the continued support. You two, along with a few select others are playing a huge part in my quit. There's no stopping this quit train! Just have to continue following the recipe of success that has been laid forth and keep my guard sharp!
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Well today marks Day 7 of no chew and obviously no nic in general. As I look back on the first days I remember days 1-3 (the suck) not being as sucky as I had thought it would be. Sure my day 1 started out with a bit of panicked feeling and general foggy, hazy daze that I wouldn't be filling my lip with chew. I used and continue to use Smokey Mountain to fill that oral fixation need. My toughest days were days 4-5. I was in a general funk. I know we as addicts have to approach this addiction ODAAT but being human I think we all think to ourselves, "wow I can't use any product that has nic in it for the rest of my life!" I'm guilty of this. That's what made my day 4-5 hard. I wasn't living in the moment, rather looking a week ahead, a month ahead and being discouraged that "I might" cave someday." Days 6-7 I'm living in the moment. I can't worry about the cookout on July 4th, I can't worry about kayaking in August. I have to worry about today and staying nic free for today. Benefits I've noticed from being quit for a week are,
-healthy feeling cheeks and gums
-my surface stains on my teeth are slowly going away
-a sense of pride that I've stuck to my word and am living a clean, honest life
-7 days nic free= roughly $40 extra in my pocket
It's getting better each day, for myself. I'm positive that there will be hard days ahead of me and many triggers that will test my will power but for now, I'm living in the moment and I'm at peace with that. I can say that this has been one of the most humbling, best weeks of my life, being quit and making contacts with fellow quitters and knowing that my story, my symptoms are no different than any of yours. We are all in this together and we all tell the nic bitch to kiss our 'arse' everyday!
All good news, my friend! Beware the nic bitch is sneaky and subtle...be prepared for a sucker punch at all times...you're doing great!
You have a great outlook on this. I like your attitude. Just stay focused on ODAAT and I promise it will get gradually better (much better) as time passes. Of course like sluggo says, stay vigilant because you're bound to hit a few rough spots here and there.
Thank you both for the continued support. You two, along with a few select others are playing a huge part in my quit. There's no stopping this quit train! Just have to continue following the recipe of success that has been laid forth and keep my guard sharp!
Congratulations on 8 days of continued success. I remember those really foggy days. I would check the spreadsheet every morning against my own calculated days quit. Many times the two numbers did not agree LOL. You are going to feel much better soon and these Suck days will be well behind you. Proud to be on your quit team :D
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Well today marks Day 7 of no chew and obviously no nic in general. As I look back on the first days I remember days 1-3 (the suck) not being as sucky as I had thought it would be. Sure my day 1 started out with a bit of panicked feeling and general foggy, hazy daze that I wouldn't be filling my lip with chew. I used and continue to use Smokey Mountain to fill that oral fixation need. My toughest days were days 4-5. I was in a general funk. I know we as addicts have to approach this addiction ODAAT but being human I think we all think to ourselves, "wow I can't use any product that has nic in it for the rest of my life!" I'm guilty of this. That's what made my day 4-5 hard. I wasn't living in the moment, rather looking a week ahead, a month ahead and being discouraged that "I might" cave someday." Days 6-7 I'm living in the moment. I can't worry about the cookout on July 4th, I can't worry about kayaking in August. I have to worry about today and staying nic free for today. Benefits I've noticed from being quit for a week are,
-healthy feeling cheeks and gums
-my surface stains on my teeth are slowly going away
-a sense of pride that I've stuck to my word and am living a clean, honest life
-7 days nic free= roughly $40 extra in my pocket
It's getting better each day, for myself. I'm positive that there will be hard days ahead of me and many triggers that will test my will power but for now, I'm living in the moment and I'm at peace with that. I can say that this has been one of the most humbling, best weeks of my life, being quit and making contacts with fellow quitters and knowing that my story, my symptoms are no different than any of yours. We are all in this together and we all tell the nic bitch to kiss our 'arse' everyday!
All good news, my friend! Beware the nic bitch is sneaky and subtle...be prepared for a sucker punch at all times...you're doing great!
You have a great outlook on this. I like your attitude. Just stay focused on ODAAT and I promise it will get gradually better (much better) as time passes. Of course like sluggo says, stay vigilant because you're bound to hit a few rough spots here and there.
Thank you both for the continued support. You two, along with a few select others are playing a huge part in my quit. There's no stopping this quit train! Just have to continue following the recipe of success that has been laid forth and keep my guard sharp!
Congratulations on 8 days of continued success. I remember those really foggy days. I would check the spreadsheet every morning against my own calculated days quit. Many times the two numbers did not agree LOL. You are going to feel much better soon and these Suck days will be well behind you. Proud to be on your quit team :D
Great timing Construction, as you well know you are one of the select few I'm talking about. I have great respect for you and what you are doing. Keep on QLFEDD!
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Haven't posted an update for a few days, so figured I should touch base and continue creating my virtual quit journey. Day 12 is almost in the books. Damn, day 12! I came to KTC because I was ready to fully immerse myself in my quit. After 2 unsuccessful quit attempts in the last 3 years, I knew I had to take the next step to stay quit. That step of course was joining KTC and taking that plunge into dark, murky, scary waters. I'm so glad I did. In 12 days I've managed to meet quitters who are currently going through the withdrawals I am or have went through them before. I'm making contacts with some of my fellow June Bugs and also have a nice core of vets I've been keeping in touch with. These past 2 days I've been searching the different forums and threads that KTC has to offer. I never knew I'd meet other quitters, who were or are currently in the Boy Scouts, have children in the BSA, or are fellow Eagle Scouts like myself. Immerse yourself in the site and different avenues it has to offer. You can meet some pretty awesome people. Anyway.... Here's the damage report for Day 12...
-Getting to bed early, waking up feeling groggy
-Smokey Mountain still always with me, I don't think about the real stuff anymore at least
-Mouth is pretty tore up, sore gums and sore tongue, just general healing going on
-Exercising almost every day, any weak crave I have is destroyed after 45 min of sweating
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Haven't posted an update for a few days, so figured I should touch base and continue creating my virtual quit journey. Day 12 is almost in the books. Damn, day 12! I came to KTC because I was ready to fully immerse myself in my quit. After 2 unsuccessful quit attempts in the last 3 years, I knew I had to take the next step to stay quit. That step of course was joining KTC and taking that plunge into dark, murky, scary waters. I'm so glad I did. In 12 days I've managed to meet quitters who are currently going through the withdrawals I am or have went through them before. I'm making contacts with some of my fellow June Bugs and also have a nice core of vets I've been keeping in touch with. These past 2 days I've been searching the different forums and threads that KTC has to offer. I never knew I'd meet other quitters, who were or are currently in the Boy Scouts, have children in the BSA, or are fellow Eagle Scouts like myself. Immerse yourself in the site and different avenues it has to offer. You can meet some pretty awesome people. Anyway.... Here's the damage report for Day 12...
-Getting to bed early, waking up feeling groggy
-Smokey Mountain still always with me, I don't think about the real stuff anymore at least
-Mouth is pretty tore up, sore gums and sore tongue, just general healing going on
-Exercising almost every day, any weak crave I have is destroyed after 45 min of sweating
^^^^That, is how we quit people^^^^^
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Haven't posted an update for a few days, so figured I should touch base and continue creating my virtual quit journey. Day 12 is almost in the books. Damn, day 12! I came to KTC because I was ready to fully immerse myself in my quit. After 2 unsuccessful quit attempts in the last 3 years, I knew I had to take the next step to stay quit. That step of course was joining KTC and taking that plunge into dark, murky, scary waters. I'm so glad I did. In 12 days I've managed to meet quitters who are currently going through the withdrawals I am or have went through them before. I'm making contacts with some of my fellow June Bugs and also have a nice core of vets I've been keeping in touch with. These past 2 days I've been searching the different forums and threads that KTC has to offer. I never knew I'd meet other quitters, who were or are currently in the Boy Scouts, have children in the BSA, or are fellow Eagle Scouts like myself. Immerse yourself in the site and different avenues it has to offer. You can meet some pretty awesome people. Anyway.... Here's the damage report for Day 12...
-Getting to bed early, waking up feeling groggy
-Smokey Mountain still always with me, I don't think about the real stuff anymore at least
-Mouth is pretty tore up, sore gums and sore tongue, just general healing going on
-Exercising almost every day, any weak crave I have is destroyed after 45 min of sweating
^^^^That, is how we quit people^^^^^
THansen - fellow Eagle Scout on day 28. Keep fighting, you are doing great. It continues to get better. Proud to quit with you today!
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Haven't posted an update for a few days, so figured I should touch base and continue creating my virtual quit journey. Day 12 is almost in the books. Damn, day 12! I came to KTC because I was ready to fully immerse myself in my quit. After 2 unsuccessful quit attempts in the last 3 years, I knew I had to take the next step to stay quit. That step of course was joining KTC and taking that plunge into dark, murky, scary waters. I'm so glad I did. In 12 days I've managed to meet quitters who are currently going through the withdrawals I am or have went through them before. I'm making contacts with some of my fellow June Bugs and also have a nice core of vets I've been keeping in touch with. These past 2 days I've been searching the different forums and threads that KTC has to offer. I never knew I'd meet other quitters, who were or are currently in the Boy Scouts, have children in the BSA, or are fellow Eagle Scouts like myself. Immerse yourself in the site and different avenues it has to offer. You can meet some pretty awesome people. Anyway.... Here's the damage report for Day 12...
-Getting to bed early, waking up feeling groggy
-Smokey Mountain still always with me, I don't think about the real stuff anymore at least
-Mouth is pretty tore up, sore gums and sore tongue, just general healing going on
-Exercising almost every day, any weak crave I have is destroyed after 45 min of sweating
^^^^That, is how we quit people^^^^^
THansen - fellow Eagle Scout on day 28. Keep fighting, you are doing great. It continues to get better. Proud to quit with you today!
That's the way to KICK ASS AND TAKE NAMES cowboy
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Haven't posted an update for a few days, so figured I should touch base and continue creating my virtual quit journey. Day 12 is almost in the books. Damn, day 12! I came to KTC because I was ready to fully immerse myself in my quit. After 2 unsuccessful quit attempts in the last 3 years, I knew I had to take the next step to stay quit. That step of course was joining KTC and taking that plunge into dark, murky, scary waters. I'm so glad I did. In 12 days I've managed to meet quitters who are currently going through the withdrawals I am or have went through them before. I'm making contacts with some of my fellow June Bugs and also have a nice core of vets I've been keeping in touch with. These past 2 days I've been searching the different forums and threads that KTC has to offer. I never knew I'd meet other quitters, who were or are currently in the Boy Scouts, have children in the BSA, or are fellow Eagle Scouts like myself. Immerse yourself in the site and different avenues it has to offer. You can meet some pretty awesome people. Anyway.... Here's the damage report for Day 12...
-Getting to bed early, waking up feeling groggy
-Smokey Mountain still always with me, I don't think about the real stuff anymore at least
-Mouth is pretty tore up, sore gums and sore tongue, just general healing going on
-Exercising almost every day, any weak crave I have is destroyed after 45 min of sweating
^^^^That, is how we quit people^^^^^
THansen - fellow Eagle Scout on day 28. Keep fighting, you are doing great. It continues to get better. Proud to quit with you today!
That's the way to KICK ASS AND TAKE NAMES cowboy
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Jeez last time I posted in my introduction was 10 days ago. My how the time flies when you QLF! 22 days of quit now under my belt. It wasn't easy getting to double deuces, but oh how sweet it feels. Contrary to my first 2 weeks on here, I've now been speaking up a bit more. As fate would have it, I was one of the first quitters to join June Quit Saloon (it will always be June Bugs to me) :rolleyes: . At 22 days quit, I feel it's my obligation to help, correct, motivate, listen to young quitters in June group. I remember how shitty the suck was and having vet's guide and encourage me through it. Like other's say daily, the recipe isn't complicating. Thousands of others have tested this recipe and every time it comes out as a savory, delicious bowl of success. But, you have to follow the recipe for it to work. Correct me if I'm wrong, please.
My understanding of the recipe
-Post Roll EDD, first thing
-Immerse yourself in this site, free chat, different threads
-Exchange numbers and emails with fellow quits, build your network up
-ODAAT, anybody can do anything for just one measly day
-Under no circumstance is putting a dip in your lip a justifiable answer
Things do get better. I still have tough days, I still think of that shit every once and a while. But I'm silencing the nic bitch every day just a little more. With my understanding of the recipe, failure is not an option for myself and it shouldn't be for you either!
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Jeez last time I posted in my introduction was 10 days ago. My how the time flies when you QLF! 22 days of quit now under my belt. It wasn't easy getting to double deuces, but oh how sweet it feels. Contrary to my first 2 weeks on here, I've now been speaking up a bit more. As fate would have it, I was one of the first quitters to join June Quit Saloon (it will always be June Bugs to me) :rolleyes: . At 22 days quit, I feel it's my obligation to help, correct, motivate, listen to young quitters in June group. I remember how shitty the suck was and having vet's guide and encourage me through it. Like other's say daily, the recipe isn't complicating. Thousands of others have tested this recipe and every time it comes out as a savory, delicious bowl of success. But, you have to follow the recipe for it to work. Correct me if I'm wrong, please.
My understanding of the recipe
-Post Roll EDD, first thing
-Immerse yourself in this site, free chat, different threads
-Exchange numbers and emails with fellow quits, build your network up
-ODAAT, anybody can do anything for just one measly day
-Under no circumstance is putting a dip in your lip a justifiable answer
Things do get better. I still have tough days, I still think of that shit every once and a while. But I'm silencing the nic bitch every day just a little more. With my understanding of the recipe, failure is not an option for myself and it shouldn't be for you either!
Nice post. As far as I can tell you are a bad ass quitter! Keep up the good work brother.
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Since I didn't update my introduction on my 20th day quit, I owe it to myself to update my records on my 25th day quit.
It's been 3.5 weeks since I made the promise to myself, and to all of you to give up the nic bitch, once and for all. I've honored my word for every one of those 25 days. Approaching addiction ODAAT is an absolute must. I never understood that before I came here. I can promise to not use for just 1 day. 24 hours, that's all they ask of you here. Don't use for 24 hours, come back tomorrow, and we'll do it all over again. I can't say where my life or mood will be 3 months from now. For now though, I know I made a promise before even getting out of bed this morning, and I honor that promise all of today. I know people cave, for a variety of reasons, but if you honestly use this place like it's intended, you CAN'T cave. It's not an option.
Here's where I am at, 25 days quit
-feeling damn good. Rarely think of using nic. Still use Smokey Mountain on a daily basis.
-this journey has only begun, but I'm learning to be less of a "yes man" and stand up for myself, mostly at work. I guess I just went along with flow and did whatever was asked of me no matter how shitty it was, when I was using. Since being quit, I have discovered I have a voice and a firm personality that I can use more often
-I've learned that I'm not alone in this. Looking in front of me, I see people who've notched 100's of days of being quit, even 1000's of days. I look behind me and see new quitters, on day 1 or day 5. I can relate to what they're feeling and offer support or a lifeline.
-I've learned I pissed away a lot of money, that I worked hard for, on a product that I never needed but selfishly chose to use. I knew it was bad for me, I knew it was expensive, and I knew I needed it to function. I was right on the first 2 statements, but so dead wrong on the last. Now I can say with a clear mind and heart full of motivation, "I never knew I didn't need chew to get through the day."
Proud as f*ck to quit with June and all of you savages on here!
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Since I didn't update my introduction on my 20th day quit, I owe it to myself to update my records on my 25th day quit.
It's been 3.5 weeks since I made the promise to myself, and to all of you to give up the nic bitch, once and for all. I've honored my word for every one of those 25 days. Approaching addiction ODAAT is an absolute must. I never understood that before I came here. I can promise to not use for just 1 day. 24 hours, that's all they ask of you here. Don't use for 24 hours, come back tomorrow, and we'll do it all over again. I can't say where my life or mood will be 3 months from now. For now though, I know I made a promise before even getting out of bed this morning, and I honor that promise all of today. I know people cave, for a variety of reasons, but if you honestly use this place like it's intended, you CAN'T cave. It's not an option.
Here's where I am at, 25 days quit
-feeling damn good. Rarely think of using nic. Still use Smokey Mountain on a daily basis.
-this journey has only begun, but I'm learning to be less of a "yes man" and stand up for myself, mostly at work. I guess I just went along with flow and did whatever was asked of me no matter how shitty it was, when I was using. Since being quit, I have discovered I have a voice and a firm personality that I can use more often
-I've learned that I'm not alone in this. Looking in front of me, I see people who've notched 100's of days of being quit, even 1000's of days. I look behind me and see new quitters, on day 1 or day 5. I can relate to what they're feeling and offer support or a lifeline.
-I've learned I pissed away a lot of money, that I worked hard for, on a product that I never needed but selfishly chose to use. I knew it was bad for me, I knew it was expensive, and I knew I needed it to function. I was right on the first 2 statements, but so dead wrong on the last. Now I can say with a clear mind and heart full of motivation, "I never knew I didn't need chew to get through the day."
Proud as f*ck to quit with June and all of you savages on here!
Pure badassery! I like it!
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Had a great reminder today about how real nic addiction is, and what addicts we truly are.
I live with my parents at the moment (in between leases), same house I grew up in. I started chewing when I was a sophomore in high school. Parents are very strict, they only drink maybe twice a year, and that's about one glass of wine per session. Neither use nic, my mom has un curable cancer, she has for the last 12 years. Very treatable, just not curable. I kept my addiction a secret from them, especially since I was underage. So I was really a f'n asshole to be using under their roof.
I came home from work today and went upstairs to change clothes. Sitting in the hallway was a sight that made my heart drop. Two brown grocery bags, filled to the brim with empty chew cans and spitters. My Dad was doing some electrical work in my old bedroom (converted computer room) and moved an old tv stand of mine. A door opened on the stand and out came pouring the contents, I've been told. I had forgot I even had done that, 10 years after I started chewing, my parents are still discovering old stash spots of mine. Stash spots filled with incriminating evidence for an underage dipper. dozens of half full spitters, 50 or so empty cans of chew. Here I am, 24 years old now and I see what a fucking idiot I was.
So now my parents are questioning if I'm still using or not. I showed them my can of Smokey Mountain in my pocket. I shared with them I use a quit site and gain lots of strength and encouragement from using that site. They believe me, but damn what a slap in the face for them. They shouldn't have to discover old shit of mine, hidden in secret spots around their house. I feel really fucking discouraged right now. Embarrassed is also an emotion I'm feeling. 26 days quit and I feel like I'm right back to where I started. Defending myself to my parents that I don't use. I know I've honored my daily promise since being quit. I guess that's all that really matters. Time heals everything, and with time my parents will see that I'm serious about this and don't use that shit anymore. NAFAR.
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Had a great reminder today about how real nic addiction is, and what addicts we truly are.
I live with my parents at the moment (in between leases), same house I grew up in. I started chewing when I was a sophomore in high school. Parents are very strict, they only drink maybe twice a year, and that's about one glass of wine per session. Neither use nic, my mom has un curable cancer, she has for the last 12 years. Very treatable, just not curable. I kept my addiction a secret from them, especially since I was underage. So I was really a f'n asshole to be using under their roof.
I came home from work today and went upstairs to change clothes. Sitting in the hallway was a sight that made my heart drop. Two brown grocery bags, filled to the brim with empty chew cans and spitters. My Dad was doing some electrical work in my old bedroom (converted computer room) and moved an old tv stand of mine. A door opened on the stand and out came pouring the contents, I've been told. I had forgot I even had done that, 10 years after I started chewing, my parents are still discovering old stash spots of mine. Stash spots filled with incriminating evidence for an underage dipper. dozens of half full spitters, 50 or so empty cans of chew. Here I am, 24 years old now and I see what a fucking idiot I was.
So now my parents are questioning if I'm still using or not. I showed them my can of Smokey Mountain in my pocket. I shared with them I use a quit site and gain lots of strength and encouragement from using that site. They believe me, but damn what a slap in the face for them. They shouldn't have to discover old shit of mine, hidden in secret spots around their house. I feel really fucking discouraged right now. Embarrassed is also an emotion I'm feeling. 26 days quit and I feel like I'm right back to where I started. Defending myself to my parents that I don't use. I know I've honored my daily promise since being quit. I guess that's all that really matters. Time heals everything, and with time my parents will see that I'm serious about this and don't use that shit anymore. NAFAR.
Dang.
For what it's worth, this is a bit serendipitous. In an instant you gained layers of accountability and you've been slapped in the face with the endless lies you told. Embrace it. Tell them what day you're on... in fact, tell anyone who will listen what day you're on. Welcome the accountability with open arms - it shreds The Addict's plans of self preservation.
My wife always knew that I chewed but we had a sort of don't ask/don't tell policy (don't ask/don't fight). I lied to her all the time, but they were "white lies", or at least that's what I told myself. "You're still chewing?" she'd ask. "Yeah, every once in a while," I'd say, letting myself off the hook on the technicality even though "every once in a while" meant "once" in an hour (while). She's proud of my quit, 252 days today, but she continues to be baffled by the lying. "Where'd you hide it?" "So when I was on a work trip you'd chew in the house?" Um, yeah, the only thing that stopped me when I could "chew in peace" was a blister on my tongue. Anyway...
You're quit now. Post roll every day and don't forget how stupid and selfish you were in the past.
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Had a great reminder today about how real nic addiction is, and what addicts we truly are.
I live with my parents at the moment (in between leases), same house I grew up in. I started chewing when I was a sophomore in high school. Parents are very strict, they only drink maybe twice a year, and that's about one glass of wine per session. Neither use nic, my mom has un curable cancer, she has for the last 12 years. Very treatable, just not curable. I kept my addiction a secret from them, especially since I was underage. So I was really a f'n asshole to be using under their roof.
I came home from work today and went upstairs to change clothes. Sitting in the hallway was a sight that made my heart drop. Two brown grocery bags, filled to the brim with empty chew cans and spitters. My Dad was doing some electrical work in my old bedroom (converted computer room) and moved an old tv stand of mine. A door opened on the stand and out came pouring the contents, I've been told. I had forgot I even had done that, 10 years after I started chewing, my parents are still discovering old stash spots of mine. Stash spots filled with incriminating evidence for an underage dipper. dozens of half full spitters, 50 or so empty cans of chew. Here I am, 24 years old now and I see what a fucking idiot I was.
So now my parents are questioning if I'm still using or not. I showed them my can of Smokey Mountain in my pocket. I shared with them I use a quit site and gain lots of strength and encouragement from using that site. They believe me, but damn what a slap in the face for them. They shouldn't have to discover old shit of mine, hidden in secret spots around their house. I feel really fucking discouraged right now. Embarrassed is also an emotion I'm feeling. 26 days quit and I feel like I'm right back to where I started. Defending myself to my parents that I don't use. I know I've honored my daily promise since being quit. I guess that's all that really matters. Time heals everything, and with time my parents will see that I'm serious about this and don't use that shit anymore. NAFAR.
Dang.
For what it's worth, this is a bit serendipitous. In an instant you gained layers of accountability and you've been slapped in the face with the endless lies you told. Embrace it. Tell them what day you're on... in fact, tell anyone who will listen what day you're on. Welcome the accountability with open arms - it shreds The Addict's plans of self preservation.
My wife always knew that I chewed but we had a sort of don't ask/don't tell policy (don't ask/don't fight). I lied to her all the time, but they were "white lies", or at least that's what I told myself. "You're still chewing?" she'd ask. "Yeah, every once in a while," I'd say, letting myself off the hook on the technicality even though "every once in a while" meant "once" in an hour (while). She's proud of my quit, 252 days today, but she continues to be baffled by the lying. "Where'd you hide it?" "So when I was on a work trip you'd chew in the house?" Um, yeah, the only thing that stopped me when I could "chew in peace" was a blister on my tongue. Anyway...
You're quit now. Post roll every day and don't forget how stupid and selfish you were in the past.
It's good that they know. Just explain everything to them.
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Had a great reminder today about how real nic addiction is, and what addicts we truly are.
I live with my parents at the moment (in between leases), same house I grew up in. I started chewing when I was a sophomore in high school. Parents are very strict, they only drink maybe twice a year, and that's about one glass of wine per session. Neither use nic, my mom has un curable cancer, she has for the last 12 years. Very treatable, just not curable. I kept my addiction a secret from them, especially since I was underage. So I was really a f'n asshole to be using under their roof.
I came home from work today and went upstairs to change clothes. Sitting in the hallway was a sight that made my heart drop. Two brown grocery bags, filled to the brim with empty chew cans and spitters. My Dad was doing some electrical work in my old bedroom (converted computer room) and moved an old tv stand of mine. A door opened on the stand and out came pouring the contents, I've been told. I had forgot I even had done that, 10 years after I started chewing, my parents are still discovering old stash spots of mine. Stash spots filled with incriminating evidence for an underage dipper. dozens of half full spitters, 50 or so empty cans of chew. Here I am, 24 years old now and I see what a fucking idiot I was.
So now my parents are questioning if I'm still using or not. I showed them my can of Smokey Mountain in my pocket. I shared with them I use a quit site and gain lots of strength and encouragement from using that site. They believe me, but damn what a slap in the face for them. They shouldn't have to discover old shit of mine, hidden in secret spots around their house. I feel really fucking discouraged right now. Embarrassed is also an emotion I'm feeling. 26 days quit and I feel like I'm right back to where I started. Defending myself to my parents that I don't use. I know I've honored my daily promise since being quit. I guess that's all that really matters. Time heals everything, and with time my parents will see that I'm serious about this and don't use that shit anymore. NAFAR.
Dang.
For what it's worth, this is a bit serendipitous. In an instant you gained layers of accountability and you've been slapped in the face with the endless lies you told. Embrace it. Tell them what day you're on... in fact, tell anyone who will listen what day you're on. Welcome the accountability with open arms - it shreds The Addict's plans of self preservation.
My wife always knew that I chewed but we had a sort of don't ask/don't tell policy (don't ask/don't fight). I lied to her all the time, but they were "white lies", or at least that's what I told myself. "You're still chewing?" she'd ask. "Yeah, every once in a while," I'd say, letting myself off the hook on the technicality even though "every once in a while" meant "once" in an hour (while). She's proud of my quit, 252 days today, but she continues to be baffled by the lying. "Where'd you hide it?" "So when I was on a work trip you'd chew in the house?" Um, yeah, the only thing that stopped me when I could "chew in peace" was a blister on my tongue. Anyway...
You're quit now. Post roll every day and don't forget how stupid and selfish you were in the past.
It's good that they know. Just explain everything to them.
You are doing Great T! My wife knew I dipped, but not how much. I told her 1-2 cans a week. (It was really 2 cans per day) I used to throw the empties onto a high shelf in our garage behind all the camping gear I only ever took down. Till one day last summer she loaned the tent to a friend and HUNDREDS of empty chew cans came spilling down on her and her best friend. I remember the call at work I got from her. Pretty hilarious now. Not so funny then. Good Times! 'bang head' You and I were total idiot addicts. But not anymore! We are all quit together. Keep Going!
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Had a great reminder today about how real nic addiction is, and what addicts we truly are.
I live with my parents at the moment (in between leases), same house I grew up in. I started chewing when I was a sophomore in high school. Parents are very strict, they only drink maybe twice a year, and that's about one glass of wine per session. Neither use nic, my mom has un curable cancer, she has for the last 12 years. Very treatable, just not curable. I kept my addiction a secret from them, especially since I was underage. So I was really a f'n asshole to be using under their roof.
I came home from work today and went upstairs to change clothes. Sitting in the hallway was a sight that made my heart drop. Two brown grocery bags, filled to the brim with empty chew cans and spitters. My Dad was doing some electrical work in my old bedroom (converted computer room) and moved an old tv stand of mine. A door opened on the stand and out came pouring the contents, I've been told. I had forgot I even had done that, 10 years after I started chewing, my parents are still discovering old stash spots of mine. Stash spots filled with incriminating evidence for an underage dipper. dozens of half full spitters, 50 or so empty cans of chew. Here I am, 24 years old now and I see what a fucking idiot I was.
So now my parents are questioning if I'm still using or not. I showed them my can of Smokey Mountain in my pocket. I shared with them I use a quit site and gain lots of strength and encouragement from using that site. They believe me, but damn what a slap in the face for them. They shouldn't have to discover old shit of mine, hidden in secret spots around their house. I feel really fucking discouraged right now. Embarrassed is also an emotion I'm feeling. 26 days quit and I feel like I'm right back to where I started. Defending myself to my parents that I don't use. I know I've honored my daily promise since being quit. I guess that's all that really matters. Time heals everything, and with time my parents will see that I'm serious about this and don't use that shit anymore. NAFAR.
Dang.
For what it's worth, this is a bit serendipitous. In an instant you gained layers of accountability and you've been slapped in the face with the endless lies you told. Embrace it. Tell them what day you're on... in fact, tell anyone who will listen what day you're on. Welcome the accountability with open arms - it shreds The Addict's plans of self preservation.
My wife always knew that I chewed but we had a sort of don't ask/don't tell policy (don't ask/don't fight). I lied to her all the time, but they were "white lies", or at least that's what I told myself. "You're still chewing?" she'd ask. "Yeah, every once in a while," I'd say, letting myself off the hook on the technicality even though "every once in a while" meant "once" in an hour (while). She's proud of my quit, 252 days today, but she continues to be baffled by the lying. "Where'd you hide it?" "So when I was on a work trip you'd chew in the house?" Um, yeah, the only thing that stopped me when I could "chew in peace" was a blister on my tongue. Anyway...
You're quit now. Post roll every day and don't forget how stupid and selfish you were in the past.
It's good that they know. Just explain everything to them.
You are doing Great T! My wife knew I dipped, but not how much. I told her 1-2 cans a week. (It was really 2 cans per day) I used to throw the empties onto a high shelf in our garage behind all the camping gear I only ever took down. Till one day last summer she loaned the tent to a friend and HUNDREDS of empty chew cans came spilling down on her and her best friend. I remember the call at work I got from her. Pretty hilarious now. Not so funny then. Good Times! 'bang head' You and I were total idiot addicts. But not anymore! We are all quit together. Keep Going!
'crackup'
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Had a great reminder today about how real nic addiction is, and what addicts we truly are.
I live with my parents at the moment (in between leases), same house I grew up in. I started chewing when I was a sophomore in high school. Parents are very strict, they only drink maybe twice a year, and that's about one glass of wine per session. Neither use nic, my mom has un curable cancer, she has for the last 12 years. Very treatable, just not curable. I kept my addiction a secret from them, especially since I was underage. So I was really a f'n asshole to be using under their roof.
I came home from work today and went upstairs to change clothes. Sitting in the hallway was a sight that made my heart drop. Two brown grocery bags, filled to the brim with empty chew cans and spitters. My Dad was doing some electrical work in my old bedroom (converted computer room) and moved an old tv stand of mine. A door opened on the stand and out came pouring the contents, I've been told. I had forgot I even had done that, 10 years after I started chewing, my parents are still discovering old stash spots of mine. Stash spots filled with incriminating evidence for an underage dipper. dozens of half full spitters, 50 or so empty cans of chew. Here I am, 24 years old now and I see what a fucking idiot I was.
So now my parents are questioning if I'm still using or not. I showed them my can of Smokey Mountain in my pocket. I shared with them I use a quit site and gain lots of strength and encouragement from using that site. They believe me, but damn what a slap in the face for them. They shouldn't have to discover old shit of mine, hidden in secret spots around their house. I feel really fucking discouraged right now. Embarrassed is also an emotion I'm feeling. 26 days quit and I feel like I'm right back to where I started. Defending myself to my parents that I don't use. I know I've honored my daily promise since being quit. I guess that's all that really matters. Time heals everything, and with time my parents will see that I'm serious about this and don't use that shit anymore. NAFAR.
Dang.
For what it's worth, this is a bit serendipitous. In an instant you gained layers of accountability and you've been slapped in the face with the endless lies you told. Embrace it. Tell them what day you're on... in fact, tell anyone who will listen what day you're on. Welcome the accountability with open arms - it shreds The Addict's plans of self preservation.
My wife always knew that I chewed but we had a sort of don't ask/don't tell policy (don't ask/don't fight). I lied to her all the time, but they were "white lies", or at least that's what I told myself. "You're still chewing?" she'd ask. "Yeah, every once in a while," I'd say, letting myself off the hook on the technicality even though "every once in a while" meant "once" in an hour (while). She's proud of my quit, 252 days today, but she continues to be baffled by the lying. "Where'd you hide it?" "So when I was on a work trip you'd chew in the house?" Um, yeah, the only thing that stopped me when I could "chew in peace" was a blister on my tongue. Anyway...
You're quit now. Post roll every day and don't forget how stupid and selfish you were in the past.
It's good that they know. Just explain everything to them.
You are doing Great T! My wife knew I dipped, but not how much. I told her 1-2 cans a week. (It was really 2 cans per day) I used to throw the empties onto a high shelf in our garage behind all the camping gear I only ever took down. Till one day last summer she loaned the tent to a friend and HUNDREDS of empty chew cans came spilling down on her and her best friend. I remember the call at work I got from her. Pretty hilarious now. Not so funny then. Good Times! 'bang head' You and I were total idiot addicts. But not anymore! We are all quit together. Keep Going!
'crackup'
Blew off some steam at the gym this evening and had a talk with my parents. They knew I chewed but I don't think they knew to what extent. Got things on the table and everything is cool. They are being supportive of my quit and laid things on the line. Glad to know I wasn't the only one with a secret stash of empty cans and shit haha.
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Well it's been 31 days since I became quit (officially a month). As my story goes, and I hope I'm not beating a dead horse, but I want the newbie quitters to know this; if you want to succeed you can't just post roll and leave. You can't just browse this site and expect to succeed without participating. I certainly don't post as much as some, or have the wisest posts, but I'm 100% more accountable for myself than in my previous two "go at it alone quit attempts".
It was very early on in my quit that my fellow June bro LK16 sent me a message and wondered if I was ok, because I hadn't posted roll yet (10am). Everything was fine, just slept in on a Sunday, but it became clear to me that people are watching. I wasn't only watching for guys to post, but I was being watched. How can I fail when I get messages wondering if everything is cool? How can I fail when vet's give me their number and check on me? How can I fail when I make a promise EDD before getting out of bed? My answer is... I can't! I can't not only fail because I'd let down my June quit bro's, but I can't fail for my health. You can earn more money, but you can't guarantee you will get your health back if it's compromised.
To bring this full circle, this is not an attempt for me anymore. This is my lifestyle, this is my daily struggle. There is no room for "half assed attempts" when it comes to health. I quit daily for myself and all my fellow quitters who put their integrity and reputation on the line EDD by posting roll.
To the newbies:
-It gets better
-The fog lifts
-You will feel normal again
-"Don't give up, Don't ever give up" Jim Valvano
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Day 36 of being quit ladies and gentlemen! It's been a busy, but great week for me.
I blew the head gasket on my 96 Monte Carlo early in the week. The cost to repair was worth more than the car, totaled. Normally I would have filled my lip with 1/4 can of chew and bitched about how bad my luck was. Nah, didn't do that this time. I analyzed things. I thought, "It's an 18 year old car, Tyler. You knew this day was coming sooner than later. You have a full time job, it's time to step up and get a newer reliable car". Rewind to yesterday, I purchased a 2008 Chevy Malibu. Super clean, 56000 miles, feeling on top of the world about it. A fresh new professional looking car, for a fresh new professional meat supervisor. There will not be empty tins on the floor of this car. There will not be empty tins in the glove box. There will not be half filled, 3 month old spitters rolling around the floor boards. This new car symbolizes a new, more mature, me.
Vets, June Bugs, Newbies, keep quitting like fuck! Quit today, no excuses, a dip isn't going to solve a late bill, a problem at work, a fight with a significant other. I'm just in a fiery, motivational mood today. My Smokey Mountain intake is WAY DOWN. I've had the same tin now for 3 days and it's still half full. I just don't "need" it right now. I do know this can change, and if or when it does I'll gladly buy a can of Smokey before I EVER think of buying cancer weed! Make this Sunday, the Sunday you make the nic bitch, your bitch! QLF!!!
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Day 36 of being quit ladies and gentlemen! It's been a busy, but great week for me.
I blew the head gasket on my 96 Monte Carlo early in the week. The cost to repair was worth more than the car, totaled. Normally I would have filled my lip with 1/4 can of chew and bitched about how bad my luck was. Nah, didn't do that this time. I analyzed things. I thought, "It's an 18 year old car, Tyler. You knew this day was coming sooner than later. You have a full time job, it's time to step up and get a newer reliable car". Rewind to yesterday, I purchased a 2008 Chevy Malibu. Super clean, 56000 miles, feeling on top of the world about it. A fresh new professional looking car, for a fresh new professional meat supervisor. There will not be empty tins on the floor of this car. There will not be empty tins in the glove box. There will not be half filled, 3 month old spitters rolling around the floor boards. This new car symbolizes a new, more mature, me.
Vets, June Bugs, Newbies, keep quitting like fuck! Quit today, no excuses, a dip isn't going to solve a late bill, a problem at work, a fight with a significant other. I'm just in a fiery, motivational mood today. My Smokey Mountain intake is WAY DOWN. I've had the same tin now for 3 days and it's still half full. I just don't "need" it right now. I do know this can change, and if or when it does I'll gladly buy a can of Smokey before I EVER think of buying cancer weed! Make this Sunday, the Sunday you make the nic bitch, your bitch! QLF!!!
Good job Tyler. You are drinking the koolaid one gulp at a time.
Quit w/ you!
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Day 36 of being quit ladies and gentlemen! It's been a busy, but great week for me.
I blew the head gasket on my 96 Monte Carlo early in the week. The cost to repair was worth more than the car, totaled. Normally I would have filled my lip with 1/4 can of chew and bitched about how bad my luck was. Nah, didn't do that this time. I analyzed things. I thought, "It's an 18 year old car, Tyler. You knew this day was coming sooner than later. You have a full time job, it's time to step up and get a newer reliable car". Rewind to yesterday, I purchased a 2008 Chevy Malibu. Super clean, 56000 miles, feeling on top of the world about it. A fresh new professional looking car, for a fresh new professional meat supervisor. There will not be empty tins on the floor of this car. There will not be empty tins in the glove box. There will not be half filled, 3 month old spitters rolling around the floor boards. This new car symbolizes a new, more mature, me.
Vets, June Bugs, Newbies, keep quitting like fuck! Quit today, no excuses, a dip isn't going to solve a late bill, a problem at work, a fight with a significant other. I'm just in a fiery, motivational mood today. My Smokey Mountain intake is WAY DOWN. I've had the same tin now for 3 days and it's still half full. I just don't "need" it right now. I do know this can change, and if or when it does I'll gladly buy a can of Smokey before I EVER think of buying cancer weed! Make this Sunday, the Sunday you make the nic bitch, your bitch! QLF!!!
Good job Tyler. You are drinking the koolaid one gulp at a time.
Quit w/ you!
Well done sir! You took a potentially stressful situation and killed it. That a boy.
Congrats on 36 days quit and the new rig! Enjoy it.
Quit on.
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Day 36 of being quit ladies and gentlemen! It's been a busy, but great week for me.
I blew the head gasket on my 96 Monte Carlo early in the week. The cost to repair was worth more than the car, totaled. Normally I would have filled my lip with 1/4 can of chew and bitched about how bad my luck was. Nah, didn't do that this time. I analyzed things. I thought, "It's an 18 year old car, Tyler. You knew this day was coming sooner than later. You have a full time job, it's time to step up and get a newer reliable car". Rewind to yesterday, I purchased a 2008 Chevy Malibu. Super clean, 56000 miles, feeling on top of the world about it. A fresh new professional looking car, for a fresh new professional meat supervisor. There will not be empty tins on the floor of this car. There will not be empty tins in the glove box. There will not be half filled, 3 month old spitters rolling around the floor boards. This new car symbolizes a new, more mature, me.
Vets, June Bugs, Newbies, keep quitting like fuck! Quit today, no excuses, a dip isn't going to solve a late bill, a problem at work, a fight with a significant other. I'm just in a fiery, motivational mood today. My Smokey Mountain intake is WAY DOWN. I've had the same tin now for 3 days and it's still half full. I just don't "need" it right now. I do know this can change, and if or when it does I'll gladly buy a can of Smokey before I EVER think of buying cancer weed! Make this Sunday, the Sunday you make the nic bitch, your bitch! QLF!!!
Good job Tyler. You are drinking the koolaid one gulp at a time.
Quit w/ you!
Well done sir! You took a potentially stressful situation and killed it. That a boy.
Congrats on 36 days quit and the new rig! Enjoy it.
Quit on.
Thank you both for the well wishes. ODAAT, that's all any of us can do. This Kool Aid is refreshing! B)
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For 40 days and 40 nights it rained, whoops wrong story. 40 days ago I made the best decision possibly of my life. Here I am, still nic free. I've faced many triggers and situations where a dip would have been natural. I've faced those triggers and dealt with them head on, with sheer brute willpower to conquer them. It may not be the best to set goals in your quit, as I and others have to approach this addiction ODAAT. However, I knew around day 30 I wanted to get off the fake stuff. Well that didn't happen on day 30, or even day 35, but rather on day 38. I'm proud to say I haven't had anything "packed" in my lip for 2 days. I've now been utilizing gum. Smokey was great for me early on, it was my security blanket. It let me feel like I was dipping while still being nic free. Truth is, I don't like having something in my lip. Strangers, women, and friends still see that wad in your lip and immediately know it's tobacco, even if it is just Smokey. I reached that point in my quit where Smokey wasn't doing anything for me. It was a take it or leave it sort of deal, and I wanted to leave it. I've said this before, and I'll say it again; I more than likely will have to use Smokey in the future, because I know how the bitch works and I will face many more triggers and urges as the days go by. Smokey will trump Grizzly, EDD! For now though, I'm comfortable and secure using nothing but gum. Life is good for me at the moment. If you're struggling reach out to me, I have a clear mind and want to help anyone I can. Proud to quit w/ all you today!
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For 40 days and 40 nights it rained, whoops wrong story. 40 days ago I made the best decision possibly of my life. Here I am, still nic free. I've faced many triggers and situations where a dip would have been natural. I've faced those triggers and dealt with them head on, with sheer brute willpower to conquer them. It may not be the best to set goals in your quit, as I and others have to approach this addiction ODAAT. However, I knew around day 30 I wanted to get off the fake stuff. Well that didn't happen on day 30, or even day 35, but rather on day 38. I'm proud to say I haven't had anything "packed" in my lip for 2 days. I've now been utilizing gum. Smokey was great for me early on, it was my security blanket. It let me feel like I was dipping while still being nic free. Truth is, I don't like having something in my lip. Strangers, women, and friends still see that wad in your lip and immediately know it's tobacco, even if it is just Smokey. I reached that point in my quit where Smokey wasn't doing anything for me. It was a take it or leave it sort of deal, and I wanted to leave it. I've said this before, and I'll say it again; I more than likely will have to use Smokey in the future, because I know how the bitch works and I will face many more triggers and urges as the days go by. Smokey will trump Grizzly, EDD! For now though, I'm comfortable and secure using nothing but gum. Life is good for me at the moment. If you're struggling reach out to me, I have a clear mind and want to help anyone I can. Proud to quit w/ all you today!
Nice work kicking some serious ass.
I didn't use the fake early in my quit. But I do have three cans of fake in case things get hairy. Better to finger bang some mint leaves instead of the death weed.
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On the eve of my 50th day being quit I reflect back on how I've got this far. Looking back at my first, two or three posts I see how deep the nic had my reality distorted. I used words like "apprehensive" "scared" and "try". I was convinced that I needed nic to survive. I was welcomed warmly after I posted my introduction by many vets and some quitters early in their quits. I learned quickly that I wasn't going to get "babied" and receive comments like, "Oh well, try again". I was greeted with welcoming, stern, no holds barred posts. This was life or death. This was war, and I was on the front lines against the nicotine empire! But I wasn't alone, no! I had fellow quitters on both sides of me, waging battle against the bitch with me. I couldn't fail this time, not with all the help and support I had. Honestly, when the going got tough I thought about seeing all the people get called out for caving, and having to answer those 3 damn questions. Not only did I want to prove to myself I can be quit, I truly didn't want to answer 3 questions and feel the shit storm of a thousands quitters coming down on a caver! Like all the true quitters now, Roll is beyond essential to your quit. Without posting, you are only accountable to yourself, and lets be honest, be accountable to ourselves doesn't work very well, that's why we are all here. I'm 50 for 50 on posting roll in the first half of my 100 days, and I plan to go 50 for 50 in the second half. NO excuse to not post when I have access to a computer, quitters email addresses, and quitters telephone numbers. As well as a Facebook group designated to our June group. In my next 50 days I hope to be there for more quitters going through "the suck". I have fleeting thoughts of chewing but it's not a part of me anymore. Other than chewing Trident I don't use any other alternatives at this point in my quit. I'm feeling stronger than I thought possible. But as I say in every one of my posts, I have to be ever vigilant because the nic empire will sneak up on you when you least expect it and fuck you up if you're not prepared. I'm ending my day now, with a shower and bed. So I'll greet tomorrow, when tomorrow comes. Until then, I'm quit for today.
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On the eve of my 50th day being quit I reflect back on how I've got this far. Looking back at my first, two or three posts I see how deep the nic had my reality distorted. I used words like "apprehensive" "scared" and "try". I was convinced that I needed nic to survive. I was welcomed warmly after I posted my introduction by many vets and some quitters early in their quits. I learned quickly that I wasn't going to get "babied" and receive comments like, "Oh well, try again". I was greeted with welcoming, stern, no holds barred posts. This was life or death. This was war, and I was on the front lines against the nicotine empire! But I wasn't alone, no! I had fellow quitters on both sides of me, waging battle against the bitch with me. I couldn't fail this time, not with all the help and support I had. Honestly, when the going got tough I thought about seeing all the people get called out for caving, and having to answer those 3 damn questions. Not only did I want to prove to myself I can be quit, I truly didn't want to answer 3 questions and feel the shit storm of a thousands quitters coming down on a caver! Like all the true quitters now, Roll is beyond essential to your quit. Without posting, you are only accountable to yourself, and lets be honest, be accountable to ourselves doesn't work very well, that's why we are all here. I'm 50 for 50 on posting roll in the first half of my 100 days, and I plan to go 50 for 50 in the second half. NO excuse to not post when I have access to a computer, quitters email addresses, and quitters telephone numbers. As well as a Facebook group designated to our June group. In my next 50 days I hope to be there for more quitters going through "the suck". I have fleeting thoughts of chewing but it's not a part of me anymore. Other than chewing Trident I don't use any other alternatives at this point in my quit. I'm feeling stronger than I thought possible. But as I say in every one of my posts, I have to be ever vigilant because the nic empire will sneak up on you when you least expect it and fuck you up if you're not prepared. I'm ending my day now, with a shower and bed. So I'll greet tomorrow, when tomorrow comes. Until then, I'm quit for today.
I am loving what I am reading in here! Quit on!
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On the eve of my 50th day being quit I reflect back on how I've got this far. Looking back at my first, two or three posts I see how deep the nic had my reality distorted. I used words like "apprehensive" "scared" and "try". I was convinced that I needed nic to survive. I was welcomed warmly after I posted my introduction by many vets and some quitters early in their quits. I learned quickly that I wasn't going to get "babied" and receive comments like, "Oh well, try again". I was greeted with welcoming, stern, no holds barred posts. This was life or death. This was war, and I was on the front lines against the nicotine empire! But I wasn't alone, no! I had fellow quitters on both sides of me, waging battle against the bitch with me. I couldn't fail this time, not with all the help and support I had. Honestly, when the going got tough I thought about seeing all the people get called out for caving, and having to answer those 3 damn questions. Not only did I want to prove to myself I can be quit, I truly didn't want to answer 3 questions and feel the shit storm of a thousands quitters coming down on a caver! Like all the true quitters now, Roll is beyond essential to your quit. Without posting, you are only accountable to yourself, and lets be honest, be accountable to ourselves doesn't work very well, that's why we are all here. I'm 50 for 50 on posting roll in the first half of my 100 days, and I plan to go 50 for 50 in the second half. NO excuse to not post when I have access to a computer, quitters email addresses, and quitters telephone numbers. As well as a Facebook group designated to our June group. In my next 50 days I hope to be there for more quitters going through "the suck". I have fleeting thoughts of chewing but it's not a part of me anymore. Other than chewing Trident I don't use any other alternatives at this point in my quit. I'm feeling stronger than I thought possible. But as I say in every one of my posts, I have to be ever vigilant because the nic empire will sneak up on you when you least expect it and fuck you up if you're not prepared. I'm ending my day now, with a shower and bed. So I'll greet tomorrow, when tomorrow comes. Until then, I'm quit for today.
I am loving what I am reading in here! Quit on!
100% posters are badasses! I am another that needed these brothers and sisters to finally quit! You got this Thansen. Keep it up. You are on a righteous path brother!
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Day 62. Spring has sprung here in SE Minnesota and so has the allergies! I'm battling some allergies hard core right now and I think I'm dealing with some late term craves. I know my sinus pressure, congestion and raspy throat are allergy related. I'm not so sold though that my headache and general foggy feeling and inability to concentrate are allergy related. I always deal with allergies in the spring, almost like clock work every year but I don't remember dealing with this foggy feeling and extreme inability to stay focused on tasks. I had to leave work early today because I wasn't getting anything accomplished and was running in circles. I'm not craving dip in the least bit which is why I'm confused where this foggy feeling is coming from. Just hoping to feel better soon so I can return to working out and a better diet. I may have run myself down a little bit by over exercising last week and allowed this allergy/sickness to really grip me. All I know for sure are allergies suck, the foggy feeling reminds me of "the suck", and I'm QLF today.
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Day 62. Spring has sprung here in SE Minnesota and so has the allergies! I'm battling some allergies hard core right now and I think I'm dealing with some late term craves. I know my sinus pressure, congestion and raspy throat are allergy related. I'm not so sold though that my headache and general foggy feeling and inability to concentrate are allergy related. I always deal with allergies in the spring, almost like clock work every year but I don't remember dealing with this foggy feeling and extreme inability to stay focused on tasks. I had to leave work early today because I wasn't getting anything accomplished and was running in circles. I'm not craving dip in the least bit which is why I'm confused where this foggy feeling is coming from. Just hoping to feel better soon so I can return to working out and a better diet. I may have run myself down a little bit by over exercising last week and allowed this allergy/sickness to really grip me. All I know for sure are allergies suck, the foggy feeling reminds me of "the suck", and I'm QLF today.
TH - you're a badass Poon Saloon quitter and I'm proud to quit with you. Whatever it is you're dealing with is better than having a dip in your lip. I'm proud as hell to be quit with you today.
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Day 62. Spring has sprung here in SE Minnesota and so has the allergies! I'm battling some allergies hard core right now and I think I'm dealing with some late term craves. I know my sinus pressure, congestion and raspy throat are allergy related. I'm not so sold though that my headache and general foggy feeling and inability to concentrate are allergy related. I always deal with allergies in the spring, almost like clock work every year but I don't remember dealing with this foggy feeling and extreme inability to stay focused on tasks. I had to leave work early today because I wasn't getting anything accomplished and was running in circles. I'm not craving dip in the least bit which is why I'm confused where this foggy feeling is coming from. Just hoping to feel better soon so I can return to working out and a better diet. I may have run myself down a little bit by over exercising last week and allowed this allergy/sickness to really grip me. All I know for sure are allergies suck, the foggy feeling reminds me of "the suck", and I'm QLF today.
TH - you're a badass Poon Saloon quitter and I'm proud to quit with you. Whatever it is you're dealing with is better than having a dip in your lip. I'm proud as hell to be quit with you today.
I appreciate that Bronc! You are a great presence for our group, always proud to be quit w/you my man!
Well little update on what I've been dealing with. I'm not experiencing that foggy feeling like I was the other day. It was seriously thicker fog than when I was in "the suck" phase. Still super congested which is purely from pollen. Now last night I experienced something I was hoping to avoid....a dip dream. It wasn't super vivid or lucid but I sure as hell remember putting that dip in and feeling the regret of pissing away the last 64 days of my quit. I was never so happy to wake up. It was still dreamy enough that I'm not affected by it today or anything but it definitely happened! I guess what I'm trying to get at is, I'm on day 64 of my quit and I'm still fighting this bitch as hard as I can. I'm still dealing with symptoms of being quit and re wiring my brain. It's funny how eerily close the symptoms of quitting on the KTC homepage are to what I've experienced along my journey. But, I guess many others have quit before me and many others will quit after me, leaving a road, a recipe if you will, on how to quit and what to expect. Going to enjoy this rainy spring day in Minnesota with a few drinks and sure as hell NO NIC! I QLF again today w/ all you.
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Day 66 and I wouldn't normally be posting in my introduction for a "non milestone day" but, I'm seeing clear again. Had a string of 4 days or so where my allergies were kicking my ass and I was in a deep fog. I wont go into detail in this post because my 2 previous post illustrate my mind and mood while dealing with that. My sinus's are clear today and I feel awesome! I returned to working out last night after taking a week off, which may have led to my foggy/depressed mood.
Whatever it was that I was dealing with, reminded me of probably the most famous acronym on this site, ODAAT. I had more thoughts during those 4 days about throwing in a fat dip than I had my previous 60+ days quit. They weren't "serious" thoughts but I did weigh my options about caving or not. That last sentence makes me sound like a weak ass, like the people I shake my head at now that I'm quit. And now that last sentence sheds light on the very reason I didn't cave. I'm quit. I'm not stopping dip, I chose to be quit. I literally had a few hours during those days where I had to slow down and approach my quit 30 min at a time. Get through this 30 min, get through this hour, now another hour. It was some rough shit but caving was never a viable option for me.
I'm still a 100% poster and I still check this site multiple times a day. I have however dropped the ball on posting with July and offering my support. I've dropped the ball helping out new quitters in introductions. What I'm getting at is this, Now that I've tackled whatever it was that I was dealing with for those 4 days, it allowed me to gain strength I didn't know I had. It's solidified my quit that much more. I never left this site, but now I'm back 100% and ready to offer support for those who need it, and offer an ass chewing for those who deserve it. QLF you savages!
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Day 66 and I wouldn't normally be posting in my introduction for a "non milestone day" but, I'm seeing clear again. Had a string of 4 days or so where my allergies were kicking my ass and I was in a deep fog. I wont go into detail in this post because my 2 previous post illustrate my mind and mood while dealing with that. My sinus's are clear today and I feel awesome! I returned to working out last night after taking a week off, which may have led to my foggy/depressed mood.
Whatever it was that I was dealing with, reminded me of probably the most famous acronym on this site, ODAAT. I had more thoughts during those 4 days about throwing in a fat dip than I had my previous 60+ days quit. They weren't "serious" thoughts but I did weigh my options about caving or not. That last sentence makes me sound like a weak ass, like the people I shake my head at now that I'm quit. And now that last sentence sheds light on the very reason I didn't cave. I'm quit. I'm not stopping dip, I chose to be quit. I literally had a few hours during those days where I had to slow down and approach my quit 30 min at a time. Get through this 30 min, get through this hour, now another hour. It was some rough shit but caving was never a viable option for me.
I'm still a 100% poster and I still check this site multiple times a day. I have however dropped the ball on posting with July and offering my support. I've dropped the ball helping out new quitters in introductions. What I'm getting at is this, Now that I've tackled whatever it was that I was dealing with for those 4 days, it allowed me to gain strength I didn't know I had. It's solidified my quit that much more. I never left this site, but now I'm back 100% and ready to offer support for those who need it, and offer an ass chewing for those who deserve it. QLF you savages!
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Day 66 and I wouldn't normally be posting in my introduction for a "non milestone day" but, I'm seeing clear again. Had a string of 4 days or so where my allergies were kicking my ass and I was in a deep fog. I wont go into detail in this post because my 2 previous post illustrate my mind and mood while dealing with that. My sinus's are clear today and I feel awesome! I returned to working out last night after taking a week off, which may have led to my foggy/depressed mood.
Whatever it was that I was dealing with, reminded me of probably the most famous acronym on this site, ODAAT. I had more thoughts during those 4 days about throwing in a fat dip than I had my previous 60+ days quit. They weren't "serious" thoughts but I did weigh my options about caving or not. That last sentence makes me sound like a weak ass, like the people I shake my head at now that I'm quit. And now that last sentence sheds light on the very reason I didn't cave. I'm quit. I'm not stopping dip, I chose to be quit. I literally had a few hours during those days where I had to slow down and approach my quit 30 min at a time. Get through this 30 min, get through this hour, now another hour. It was some rough shit but caving was never a viable option for me.
I'm still a 100% poster and I still check this site multiple times a day. I have however dropped the ball on posting with July and offering my support. I've dropped the ball helping out new quitters in introductions. What I'm getting at is this, Now that I've tackled whatever it was that I was dealing with for those 4 days, it allowed me to gain strength I didn't know I had. It's solidified my quit that much more. I never left this site, but now I'm back 100% and ready to offer support for those who need it, and offer an ass chewing for those who deserve it. QLF you savages!
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Day 66 and I wouldn't normally be posting in my introduction for a "non milestone day" but, I'm seeing clear again. Had a string of 4 days or so where my allergies were kicking my ass and I was in a deep fog. I wont go into detail in this post because my 2 previous post illustrate my mind and mood while dealing with that. My sinus's are clear today and I feel awesome! I returned to working out last night after taking a week off, which may have led to my foggy/depressed mood.
Whatever it was that I was dealing with, reminded me of probably the most famous acronym on this site, ODAAT. I had more thoughts during those 4 days about throwing in a fat dip than I had my previous 60+ days quit. They weren't "serious" thoughts but I did weigh my options about caving or not. That last sentence makes me sound like a weak ass, like the people I shake my head at now that I'm quit. And now that last sentence sheds light on the very reason I didn't cave. I'm quit. I'm not stopping dip, I chose to be quit. I literally had a few hours during those days where I had to slow down and approach my quit 30 min at a time. Get through this 30 min, get through this hour, now another hour. It was some rough shit but caving was never a viable option for me.
I'm still a 100% poster and I still check this site multiple times a day. I have however dropped the ball on posting with July and offering my support. I've dropped the ball helping out new quitters in introductions. What I'm getting at is this, Now that I've tackled whatever it was that I was dealing with for those 4 days, it allowed me to gain strength I didn't know I had. It's solidified my quit that much more. I never left this site, but now I'm back 100% and ready to offer support for those who need it, and offer an ass chewing for those who deserve it. QLF you savages!
Nice work. Keep kicking ass.
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Day 66 and I wouldn't normally be posting in my introduction for a "non milestone day" but, I'm seeing clear again. Had a string of 4 days or so where my allergies were kicking my ass and I was in a deep fog. I wont go into detail in this post because my 2 previous post illustrate my mind and mood while dealing with that. My sinus's are clear today and I feel awesome! I returned to working out last night after taking a week off, which may have led to my foggy/depressed mood.
Whatever it was that I was dealing with, reminded me of probably the most famous acronym on this site, ODAAT. I had more thoughts during those 4 days about throwing in a fat dip than I had my previous 60+ days quit. They weren't "serious" thoughts but I did weigh my options about caving or not. That last sentence makes me sound like a weak ass, like the people I shake my head at now that I'm quit. And now that last sentence sheds light on the very reason I didn't cave. I'm quit. I'm not stopping dip, I chose to be quit. I literally had a few hours during those days where I had to slow down and approach my quit 30 min at a time. Get through this 30 min, get through this hour, now another hour. It was some rough shit but caving was never a viable option for me.
I'm still a 100% poster and I still check this site multiple times a day. I have however dropped the ball on posting with July and offering my support. I've dropped the ball helping out new quitters in introductions. What I'm getting at is this, Now that I've tackled whatever it was that I was dealing with for those 4 days, it allowed me to gain strength I didn't know I had. It's solidified my quit that much more. I never left this site, but now I'm back 100% and ready to offer support for those who need it, and offer an ass chewing for those who deserve it. QLF you savages!
Nice work. Keep kicking ass.
Keep it up you are doing a great job! Every little twist and crave you face down is another victory, another brick in your wall of quit you are building. Glad you are feeling like paying it forward some more- just do that when you can but take care of your quit first like you did.
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Day 66 and I wouldn't normally be posting in my introduction for a "non milestone day" but, I'm seeing clear again. Had a string of 4 days or so where my allergies were kicking my ass and I was in a deep fog. I wont go into detail in this post because my 2 previous post illustrate my mind and mood while dealing with that. My sinus's are clear today and I feel awesome! I returned to working out last night after taking a week off, which may have led to my foggy/depressed mood.
Whatever it was that I was dealing with, reminded me of probably the most famous acronym on this site, ODAAT. I had more thoughts during those 4 days about throwing in a fat dip than I had my previous 60+ days quit. They weren't "serious" thoughts but I did weigh my options about caving or not. That last sentence makes me sound like a weak ass, like the people I shake my head at now that I'm quit. And now that last sentence sheds light on the very reason I didn't cave. I'm quit. I'm not stopping dip, I chose to be quit. I literally had a few hours during those days where I had to slow down and approach my quit 30 min at a time. Get through this 30 min, get through this hour, now another hour. It was some rough shit but caving was never a viable option for me.
I'm still a 100% poster and I still check this site multiple times a day. I have however dropped the ball on posting with July and offering my support. I've dropped the ball helping out new quitters in introductions. What I'm getting at is this, Now that I've tackled whatever it was that I was dealing with for those 4 days, it allowed me to gain strength I didn't know I had. It's solidified my quit that much more. I never left this site, but now I'm back 100% and ready to offer support for those who need it, and offer an ass chewing for those who deserve it. QLF you savages!
Nice work. Keep kicking ass.
Keep it up you are doing a great job! Every little twist and crave you face down is another victory, another brick in your wall of quit you are building. Glad you are feeling like paying it forward some more- just do that when you can but take care of your quit first like you did.
Stay after it. You will most likely go through more spells where paying it forward isn't as high a priority. Take care of yourself, remember to come back and read up on the newbies, even if you don't post. That always encourages me to get back in the "helpful" mood.
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Well I'm sitting here watching the NBA playoffs, nic free. I'm enjoying a few drinks tonight in the privacy of my house for a few reasons. I've got the day off tomorrow for starters, first in 10 days. Secondly, I just learned today that starting next week I'll be co-manager of a Meat Dept, as well as head manager of a Meat Dept at our sister store. In 55 min I will have reached Day 75 of being quit. What a journey it's been so far! My only regret of my quit is this, I wish I would have joined sooner than I did. I would have saved thousands of dollars. I would have gained hours of freedom back. I would have saved myself dozens of white lies about my dipping. But, I can't look back on the past now. I can't look in the future now. I'm only looking at the present....and in the present, I'm quit as fuck!
It's funny that I thought the more days I racked up the less I would need this place. It's quite the opposite! The more days I rack up, the more I need this place. I've exchanged more numbers in the past week than I had the entire time of being quit. I'm meeting good people on here, who share a common goal. I'm getting satisfaction helping "newbs" or encouraging them in their quits.
I know talk is cheap but, I honestly envision myself going 100% on my first 100 days, and even beyond. How can my name not be on roll? I have access to a computer. If I don't access to a computer, I have email addresses. If I can't get on email, I have multiple numbers to text or call. If I can't do that, check the obituaries in SE MN. Joking aside, I've created a network that makes it impossible for me to fail if I'm a man of his word! I'm feeling stronger than ever, I've posted all this week in July an August group. I'm ready to keep fucking that nic bitch up!
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Well I'm sitting here watching the NBA playoffs, nic free. I'm enjoying a few drinks tonight in the privacy of my house for a few reasons. I've got the day off tomorrow for starters, first in 10 days. Secondly, I just learned today that starting next week I'll be co-manager of a Meat Dept, as well as head manager of a Meat Dept at our sister store. In 55 min I will have reached Day 75 of being quit. What a journey it's been so far! My only regret of my quit is this, I wish I would have joined sooner than I did. I would have saved thousands of dollars. I would have gained hours of freedom back. I would have saved myself dozens of white lies about my dipping. But, I can't look back on the past now. I can't look in the future now. I'm only looking at the present....and in the present, I'm quit as fuck!
It's funny that I thought the more days I racked up the less I would need this place. It's quite the opposite! The more days I rack up, the more I need this place. I've exchanged more numbers in the past week than I had the entire time of being quit. I'm meeting good people on here, who share a common goal. I'm getting satisfaction helping "newbs" or encouraging them in their quits.
I know talk is cheap but, I honestly envision myself going 100% on my first 100 days, and even beyond. How can my name not be on roll? I have access to a computer. If I don't access to a computer, I have email addresses. If I can't get on email, I have multiple numbers to text or call. If I can't do that, check the obituaries in SE MN. Joking aside, I've created a network that makes it impossible for me to fail if I'm a man of his word! I'm feeling stronger than ever, I've posted all this week in July an August group. I'm ready to keep fucking that nic bitch up!
Congratulations on the promotion. Goes to show that you don't need nicotine to succeed.
After reading that, makes me think of coining a new phrase. That there was a quit burp. The long belch of KTC quit knowledge you just spewed was a direct result of the KTC kool-aid you've been drinking.
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Well I'm sitting here watching the NBA playoffs, nic free. I'm enjoying a few drinks tonight in the privacy of my house for a few reasons. I've got the day off tomorrow for starters, first in 10 days. Secondly, I just learned today that starting next week I'll be co-manager of a Meat Dept, as well as head manager of a Meat Dept at our sister store. In 55 min I will have reached Day 75 of being quit. What a journey it's been so far! My only regret of my quit is this, I wish I would have joined sooner than I did. I would have saved thousands of dollars. I would have gained hours of freedom back. I would have saved myself dozens of white lies about my dipping. But, I can't look back on the past now. I can't look in the future now. I'm only looking at the present....and in the present, I'm quit as fuck!
It's funny that I thought the more days I racked up the less I would need this place. It's quite the opposite! The more days I rack up, the more I need this place. I've exchanged more numbers in the past week than I had the entire time of being quit. I'm meeting good people on here, who share a common goal. I'm getting satisfaction helping "newbs" or encouraging them in their quits.
I know talk is cheap but, I honestly envision myself going 100% on my first 100 days, and even beyond. How can my name not be on roll? I have access to a computer. If I don't access to a computer, I have email addresses. If I can't get on email, I have multiple numbers to text or call. If I can't do that, check the obituaries in SE MN. Joking aside, I've created a network that makes it impossible for me to fail if I'm a man of his word! I'm feeling stronger than ever, I've posted all this week in July an August group. I'm ready to keep fucking that nic bitch up!
Congratulations on the promotion. Goes to show that you don't need nicotine to succeed.
After reading that, makes me think of coining a new phrase. That there was a quit burp. The long belch of KTC quit knowledge you just spewed was a direct result of the KTC kool-aid you've been drinking.
Congratulations on your success at work, and your 75 days quit. Quitting with you today.
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Congrats my quit brother! You are bad ass and you got this. That network of quit is a powerful force..really the only thing I know to counter the evil powers of the nic bitch.
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Day 86 quit. 2 weeks away from the HOF. Still approaching this ODAAT because, even at 86 days quit I'm still vulnerable. I've been reflecting a lot this past week on my previous "quits" from dipping, or what I thought was my quit. I've made it to 100 days before, hell I've even made it to 200 days before, give or take a few days, but never before with the help of KTC and all you badasses! I thought I could have one dip in previous quits, just for old times sake. Maybe even one can, just for the hell of it. Well as we all know, one can turns into 1 yr and thousands of dollars wasted. I'm dedicated to keeping this quit ALIVE! I want to stay ALIVE as long as I possibly can. I've made such strides these past 3 years in my life. I've lost 85 lbs and maintained a healthy weight for over a year now. I've been promoted within my job to a manager position. I have a new car. I have money in my checking and savings account. I have a lot going for me right now, and I'm only 24 yrs old. I know all this success can be taken away or put on the back burner with one simple purchase of a plastic tin that holds poison. Never again will I buy that shit. I don't work 12 hr days to poison myself. I work 12 hr days because I'm proud of my Meat Department and I want it to succeed. I work because I want to gain more independence than I currently have. I work because I like earning money and spending it on worthwhile investments. How can I throw 86 days of being nic free when I have brothers/sisters who are standing with me? If I was alone, I would have dipped many days ago, because I thought I needed it. Truth is, I don't and I never did need it. Fuck you Nic, you're a piece of shit. ODAAT folks, I'll see you at the gates of the HOF.
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I'm proud of my Meat Department and I want it to succeed.
LMAO! 'roflmao'
That right there was funny.
Being serious, it sounds like you have a strong quit going. Quit on!
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I'm proud of my Meat Department and I want it to succeed.
LMAO! 'roflmao'
That right there was funny.
Being serious, it sounds like you have a strong quit going. Quit on!
Lol...You sly fox!
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Great reflections. Stay wary- complacency is the real enemy over time. I started feeling the pull towards overconfidence at about the same time you are at now. Great job this far and rhanks for the great updates I always like them!
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Great reflections. Stay wary- complacency is the real enemy over time. I started feeling the pull towards overconfidence at about the same time you are at now. Great job this far and rhanks for the great updates I always like them!
I appreciate that insight, coming from a badass quitter like you makes it sink in that much more. Complacency is what did me in, in the past. I thought I could have a tin for old times sakes, or a cigar with the fellas. I know now that to be successful from here on out I need to...
1.Post Roll EDD
2.Hold my other quit buddies accountable, as I expect them to hold me accountable
3.If I want to buy a tin, I have to ask permission from all of my quit buddies...numbers,emails, etc
4. Keep approaching this battle ODAAT
87 days quit and I'm just as vulnerable as day 1. Only difference is I have the tools, the friends, and the resources to stay quit this time.
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Great reflections. Stay wary- complacency is the real enemy over time. I started feeling the pull towards overconfidence at about the same time you are at now. Great job this far and rhanks for the great updates I always like them!
I appreciate that insight, coming from a badass quitter like you makes it sink in that much more. Complacency is what did me in, in the past. I thought I could have a tin for old times sakes, or a cigar with the fellas. I know now that to be successful from here on out I need to...
1.Post Roll EDD
2.Hold my other quit buddies accountable, as I expect them to hold me accountable
3.If I want to buy a tin, I have to ask permission from all of my quit buddies...numbers,emails, etc
4. Keep approaching this battle ODAAT
87 days quit and I'm just as vulnerable as day 1. Only difference is I have the tools, the friends, and the resources to stay quit this time.
I was thinking today about cavers who are close to their 100 day mark or just past it and I came up with a little theory. I think maybe they think that since that first 100 days was so rough, and such a battle, and took such a toll on their strength, that the rest of their days will be like that. I'm only just past 200 days and I can say with great confidence, and hopefully great assurance, that the 2nd 100 days was a lot easier. I can only assume the next 100 will be even easier. But as the wise vets say complacency will become the enemy. Sorry to look to far ahead into the future as I know the ODAAT philosophy is key. But I think it's worth considering. I know those first 100 days were tough and I'm not saying the 2nd 100 were easy. But they were definitely not as tough.
Anyway, good quitting thansen. Keep it up.
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Day 94 update.
Mixed emotions going on with me during a time where I should be happy and celebrating my near HOF status. Day 1-85 was a cake walk compared to what days 86-94 have been.
I lost a good quit buddy of mine to the bitch, he was on day 87. For those following, you know I recently got a job promotion that most 24 yr olds would kill to get, I am thankful but, I've worked 30 hrs in the last three days, missing all of Memorial Day Weekend while my friends were having fun. I've been tested so many times this past week. I've had more thoughts of buying a tin this past week than I have probably all of my previous days quit, not stopped, but quit because that's what I am. As much of a mind game as it is I still have clear enough thinking to realize buying a tin will just create a brand new problem.
Tyler these are reasons you quit.
Money
Health
Embarrassment
Dirty/Nasty
Mom has cancer and I disrespect her by using a cancer causing product
Funny looks from friends
This wasn't meant to be a long, profound post. Rather an honest update, short and to the point, of where I am today at Day 94. I've used my introduction as a journal, sometimes looking for feedback or congratulations from fellow quitters. This was merely an update to myself, to look back on when things get really hard. NAFAR, Tyler, never again.
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Day 94 update.
Mixed emotions going on with me during a time where I should be happy and celebrating my near HOF status. Day 1-85 was a cake walk compared to what days 86-94 have been.
I lost a good quit buddy of mine to the bitch, he was on day 87. For those following, you know I recently got a job promotion that most 24 yr olds would kill to get, I am thankful but, I've worked 30 hrs in the last three days, missing all of Memorial Day Weekend while my friends were having fun. I've been tested so many times this past week. I've had more thoughts of buying a tin this past week than I have probably all of my previous days quit, not stopped, but quit because that's what I am. As much of a mind game as it is I still have clear enough thinking to realize buying a tin will just create a brand new problem.
Tyler these are reasons you quit.
Money
Health
Embarrassment
Dirty/Nasty
Mom has cancer and I disrespect her by using a cancer causing product
Funny looks from friends
This wasn't meant to be a long, profound post. Rather an honest update, short and to the point, of where I am today at Day 94. I've used my introduction as a journal, sometimes looking for feedback or congratulations from fellow quitters. This was merely an update to myself, to look back on when things get really hard. NAFAR, Tyler, never again.
the late push to 100 usually catches everyone in a tough time. Well done pushing though it.
And the honesty with yourself is always the best. One of my favorites: To Thine own self be true.
Keep remember that list you have there, and remember to put that plan in place (even now) to ensure that stays fresh in your mind and that you never return to day 1.
You got this, keep it going +1 every day
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Day 94 update.
Mixed emotions going on with me during a time where I should be happy and celebrating my near HOF status. Day 1-85 was a cake walk compared to what days 86-94 have been.
I lost a good quit buddy of mine to the bitch, he was on day 87. For those following, you know I recently got a job promotion that most 24 yr olds would kill to get, I am thankful but, I've worked 30 hrs in the last three days, missing all of Memorial Day Weekend while my friends were having fun. I've been tested so many times this past week. I've had more thoughts of buying a tin this past week than I have probably all of my previous days quit, not stopped, but quit because that's what I am. As much of a mind game as it is I still have clear enough thinking to realize buying a tin will just create a brand new problem.
Tyler these are reasons you quit.
Money
Health
Embarrassment
Dirty/Nasty
Mom has cancer and I disrespect her by using a cancer causing product
Funny looks from friends
This wasn't meant to be a long, profound post. Rather an honest update, short and to the point, of where I am today at Day 94. I've used my introduction as a journal, sometimes looking for feedback or congratulations from fellow quitters. This was merely an update to myself, to look back on when things get really hard. NAFAR, Tyler, never again.
the late push to 100 usually catches everyone in a tough time. Well done pushing though it.
And the honesty with yourself is always the best. One of my favorites: To Thine own self be true.
Keep remember that list you have there, and remember to put that plan in place (even now) to ensure that stays fresh in your mind and that you never return to day 1.
You got this, keep it going +1 every day
I sincerely appreciate that. It's really tested me, which is good, but I've got the power/accountability/friends now that even on my worst day of life, nic isn't an option. It only adds another dimension of problems to my life.
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Keep posting up these victories. Life does deal us a lot of crap to deal with. And there are temtations, that little voice. What's different now is that you have knowledge of what addiciton is all about, you have tools to use, and you have a network of support and accountability. Life still throws curves sometimes though. You're learning how to deal with it without doping your brain, and you've done a heck of a job so far!
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I'll start by saying...Day 97!
This post isn't about nic. I didn't know where else to put this so I thought my introduction would be the most fitting.
About 2 years ago, I made a promise to myself to get healthy. Getting healthy meant, losing weight and eating healthier. When I started my workout regime I tipped the scales at 235lbs, I stand 5'9". I was obese. After hard work, healthy eating, and cutting out all junk food, I stand before you 2 years later, weighing in at 150lbs. I'm happy with where I am at. I've been slacking on my work outs as of late though. Work has got me pinned down and I just don't have the motivation for it. I'm going to northern Wisconsin over the 4th of July with a group of my friends who I only see 2 or 3 times a year. Not that I'm out of shape, but I want to truly tone up, and get fitter before out trip. I want to be in the best shape I can be, with the time allowed. I've set a date of June 1st to re pick up my workout routine. I'm wondering if there is a group on this site where I can post daily to promise to eat healthy, and exercise? I just need that extra boost of accountability, to make me value the importance of getting in my workout, even on a tired, stressful day. Any group or member names that could help me out would be greatly appreciated. Help out a fellow quitter, who's got a cabin, and a pontoon reserved for 4 days over the 4th of July weekend....24 yrs old, single and ready to mingle ;).
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Welcome to the forum.. You got this brother, stay strong..
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I'll start by saying...Day 97!
This post isn't about nic. I didn't know where else to put this so I thought my introduction would be the most fitting.
About 2 years ago, I made a promise to myself to get healthy. Getting healthy meant, losing weight and eating healthier. When I started my workout regime I tipped the scales at 235lbs, I stand 5'9". I was obese. After hard work, healthy eating, and cutting out all junk food, I stand before you 2 years later, weighing in at 150lbs. I'm happy with where I am at. I've been slacking on my work outs as of late though. Work has got me pinned down and I just don't have the motivation for it. I'm going to northern Wisconsin over the 4th of July with a group of my friends who I only see 2 or 3 times a year. Not that I'm out of shape, but I want to truly tone up, and get fitter before out trip. I want to be in the best shape I can be, with the time allowed. I've set a date of June 1st to re pick up my workout routine. I'm wondering if there is a group on this site where I can post daily to promise to eat healthy, and exercise? I just need that extra boost of accountability, to make me value the importance of getting in my workout, even on a tired, stressful day. Any group or member names that could help me out would be greatly appreciated. Help out a fellow quitter, who's got a cabin, and a pontoon reserved for 4 days over the 4th of July weekend....24 yrs old, single and ready to mingle ;).
Hey T hit killthecan online community - upper left above. Then scroll down to find "getting my act together". Click on that. Then see if one of the threads there works for you. Quit on!
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Night of Day 99.
I just want to thank everyone, and I mean EVERYONE, that has made an impact on my quit, as of now! This is only the beginning, but a great milestone for me nevertheless. I've been here before in my previous "quits", but never with the help and support of the quitters I've come to know today! I absolutely will write a HOF speech, but I plan on taking a few days to gather my thoughts and write something worthwhile. Something young quitters could read, and use as ammo in their quit. Thank you all....I'm at peace with my quit.
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Night of Day 99.
I just want to thank everyone, and I mean EVERYONE, that has made an impact on my quit, as of now! This is only the beginning, but a great milestone for me nevertheless. I've been here before in my previous "quits", but never with the help and support of the quitters I've come to know today! I absolutely will write a HOF speech, but I plan on taking a few days to gather my thoughts and write something worthwhile. Something young quitters could read, and use as ammo in their quit. Thank you all....I'm at peace with my quit.
Badass quit thus far. Keep it up.
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'band' 'party' 'party2' 'dance' 'boob' 'boob'
HOF! Celebrate, then get on with the triple digit +1s!
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'band' 'party' 'party2' 'dance' 'boob' 'boob'
HOF! Celebrate, then get on with the triple digit +1s!
Congrats Thansen! Way to be brother. Keep it going!
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'band' 'party' 'party2' 'dance' 'boob' 'boob'
HOF! Celebrate, then get on with the triple digit +1s!
Congrats Thansen! Way to be brother. Keep it going!
very well done achieving that first milestone.
keep at it and it will still get better and better.
remember what you have been through so you may never have to again.
celebrate and move on...
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'band' 'party' 'party2' 'dance' 'boob' 'boob'
HOF! Celebrate, then get on with the triple digit +1s!
Congrats Thansen! Way to be brother. Keep it going!
very well done achieving that first milestone.
keep at it and it will still get better and better.
remember what you have been through so you may never have to again.
celebrate and move on...
I sincerely appreciate everything fellas. Everyone who's supporting my quit, is a brick in my every growing quit fortress. Not going to lie though...it feels great to get those first 100 under your belt! I'm on board for another 200.
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'band' 'party' 'party2' 'dance' 'boob' 'boob'
HOF! Celebrate, then get on with the triple digit +1s!
Congrats Thansen! Way to be brother. Keep it going!
very well done achieving that first milestone.
keep at it and it will still get better and better.
remember what you have been through so you may never have to again.
celebrate and move on...
I sincerely appreciate everything fellas. Everyone who's supporting my quit, is a brick in my every growing quit fortress. Not going to lie though...it feels great to get those first 100 under your belt! I'm on board for another 200.
Good for you THansen. HOF is an awesome accomplishment. Keep bangin' out those +1s so us noobs can see where the hard work leads to...
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Insight from a quitter who isn't far removed from stuffing his mouth with a can of shit a day.
To the Day 1's, the 2 weeks, the 1 years, I offer you my humble opinion.
When you joined this site, I can about guarantee you that, you were broke, battered, embarrassed, fed up, and scared for your health. Sound about right? I know I was. I'd stopped dipping 2 or 3 times before, but I wasn't strong enough alone to fend off the all mighty nicotine empire. Nope, she was too powerful for me alone to beat. I can say that now, and I mean it. I was a bitch to a product that was killing me slowly every day, end of story. You gain strength and power in numbers. You have to quit for you and your reasons first. After that, you have to quit for your brother/sister standing next to you. I've lost a few friends on here to the bitch, they caved. They didn't buy in fully to the grounds of what this site is.
When I joined, did I expect Admins and Mod's to comment on my fog laced ramblings? Hell no! Did I expect them to post roll with me daily? Hell no! They're crucial to this site, they keep it working, they keep it live, they keep it inviting. They are quit, they provide me with a platform to quit, and honestly they are the reason I am quit still today. Without them, KTC doesn't exist and we all go at it alone. Listening to non addicts say stuff like, "Oh just keep fighting, I'm sure it's hard." Or my personal favorite, "just don't use the stuff!" Ya, like I haven't wanted to "just not use the stuff" before this day. We are able to form bonds, friendships if you will, because they allowed this platform and site to happen.
To the pre Hall of Famers, don't lose hope or confidence in this place. It's the reason I'm able to wake up in the morning and not have jitters because I'm out. It's the reason I've formed friendships with people half way across the country, who hold me accountable. Do we need to hold everybody accountable? Yes. But we all have our inner circles of quit. Lets worry about our inner circle of quitters and hold them accountable, while still offering up guidance and wisdom when possible with new quitters.
To everybody post Hall of Fame, I appreciate you. I feel like the active members still "get it". Do lights fade or dim after a while? Sure. But we understand what we need to do daily to remain quit. So many of you have impacted my quit and brought me to near tears with your words of wisdom, encouragement, and guidance. I thank each and every one of you for that.
Stick around this place and it WILL change your life.
I'd like to specifically name out a few big names who've impacted my quit. SirDerek, WastePanel, and Scowick. These are dudes that commented early on my shit, they posted roll early in my quit, they offered support early in my quit. One disgruntled person will not end the momentum that these quitters have.
So to the Day 1's or Day Teens that are confused by this drama....Quit on....I was you 123 days ago
THansen- 123 Days of Freedom
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Insight from a quitter who isn't far removed from stuffing his mouth with a can of shit a day.
To the Day 1's, the 2 weeks, the 1 years, I offer you my humble opinion.
When you joined this site, I can about guarantee you that, you were broke, battered, embarrassed, fed up, and scared for your health. Sound about right? I know I was. I'd stopped dipping 2 or 3 times before, but I wasn't strong enough alone to fend off the all mighty nicotine empire. Nope, she was too powerful for me alone to beat. I can say that now, and I mean it. I was a bitch to a product that was killing me slowly every day, end of story. You gain strength and power in numbers. You have to quit for you and your reasons first. After that, you have to quit for your brother/sister standing next to you. I've lost a few friends on here to the bitch, they caved. They didn't buy in fully to the grounds of what this site is.
When I joined, did I expect Admins and Mod's to comment on my fog laced ramblings? Hell no! Did I expect them to post roll with me daily? Hell no! They're crucial to this site, they keep it working, they keep it live, they keep it inviting. They are quit, they provide me with a platform to quit, and honestly they are the reason I am quit still today. Without them, KTC doesn't exist and we all go at it alone. Listening to non addicts say stuff like, "Oh just keep fighting, I'm sure it's hard." Or my personal favorite, "just don't use the stuff!" Ya, like I haven't wanted to "just not use the stuff" before this day. We are able to form bonds, friendships if you will, because they allowed this platform and site to happen.
To the pre Hall of Famers, don't lose hope or confidence in this place. It's the reason I'm able to wake up in the morning and not have jitters because I'm out. It's the reason I've formed friendships with people half way across the country, who hold me accountable. Do we need to hold everybody accountable? Yes. But we all have our inner circles of quit. Lets worry about our inner circle of quitters and hold them accountable, while still offering up guidance and wisdom when possible with new quitters.
To everybody post Hall of Fame, I appreciate you. I feel like the active members still "get it". Do lights fade or dim after a while? Sure. But we understand what we need to do daily to remain quit. So many of you have impacted my quit and brought me to near tears with your words of wisdom, encouragement, and guidance. I thank each and every one of you for that.
Stick around this place and it WILL change your life.
I'd like to specifically name out a few big names who've impacted my quit. SirDerek, WastePanel, and Scowick. These are dudes that commented early on my shit, they posted roll early in my quit, they offered support early in my quit. One disgruntled person will not end the momentum that these quitters have.
So to the Day 1's or Day Teens that are confused by this drama....Quit on....I was you 123 days ago
THansen- 123 Days of Freedom
Well said.
Proud to be quit with you today.
See you tomorrow.
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Day 130-
This place is awesome! Buy in. Dive in. Get rewarded.
There were days early on in my quit where I felt like posting roll was becoming monotonous. I thought, "Damn it, I'm 2 weeks quit, what's the point in posting roll first thing in the morning?" I'd get angry because I'd get bumped, or 2 other quitters would be posting in front of me. Throwing off my morning routine by 5 minutes or so. That's the bitch talking. Now days, if I get bumped I just come back 5 minutes later and post again. If there are other quitters posting in front of me, same thing, go brush my teeth and come back and post.
What do you do when you are unable to post roll? You don't have internet? Or your internet is extremely spotty? If your anything like most people you say, "Fuck it." I'll post tomorrow, it's fine. Thing is, you shouldn't be like everyone else. Be the leader! I'm at 130 days and I've missed posting roll only.....ZERO....times. I'm 130/130. Get numbers. Get emails. Get FB accounts. Not having access to internet is not an excuse to not have your name on roll. So why bring this up. Well I bring it up for the following reasons-
1. I'm tired of people missing roll because they are on vacation, or were busy that particular day.
2. Eh, I post roll when it's convenient for me. I'm active enough... "WRONG!"
3. I'm going on vacation to a cabin for 3 days. Spotty internet. Will you see my name on roll? YES! How? I formulated a quit plan to fit me!
Great thing about texting is...you don't need internet for it! Text a fellow quitter/quitters and have that accountability. Being on vacation, or simply not having internet is a piss poor excuse to miss roll. I'm sorry to say...the only reason you should miss roll is if you're, not conscious or are dead. Sorry to be so blunt, but I truly hold those sentiments to heart.
Take the steps to protect your quit this 4th of July weekend. I know I am.
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Insight from a quitter who isn't far removed from stuffing his mouth with a can of shit a day.
To the Day 1's, the 2 weeks, the 1 years, I offer you my humble opinion.
When you joined this site, I can about guarantee you that, you were broke, battered, embarrassed, fed up, and scared for your health. Sound about right? I know I was. I'd stopped dipping 2 or 3 times before, but I wasn't strong enough alone to fend off the all mighty nicotine empire. Nope, she was too powerful for me alone to beat. I can say that now, and I mean it. I was a bitch to a product that was killing me slowly every day, end of story. You gain strength and power in numbers. You have to quit for you and your reasons first. After that, you have to quit for your brother/sister standing next to you. I've lost a few friends on here to the bitch, they caved. They didn't buy in fully to the grounds of what this site is.
When I joined, did I expect Admins and Mod's to comment on my fog laced ramblings? Hell no! Did I expect them to post roll with me daily? Hell no! They're crucial to this site, they keep it working, they keep it live, they keep it inviting. They are quit, they provide me with a platform to quit, and honestly they are the reason I am quit still today. Without them, KTC doesn't exist and we all go at it alone. Listening to non addicts say stuff like, "Oh just keep fighting, I'm sure it's hard." Or my personal favorite, "just don't use the stuff!" Ya, like I haven't wanted to "just not use the stuff" before this day. We are able to form bonds, friendships if you will, because they allowed this platform and site to happen.
To the pre Hall of Famers, don't lose hope or confidence in this place. It's the reason I'm able to wake up in the morning and not have jitters because I'm out. It's the reason I've formed friendships with people half way across the country, who hold me accountable. Do we need to hold everybody accountable? Yes. But we all have our inner circles of quit. Lets worry about our inner circle of quitters and hold them accountable, while still offering up guidance and wisdom when possible with new quitters.
To everybody post Hall of Fame, I appreciate you. I feel like the active members still "get it". Do lights fade or dim after a while? Sure. But we understand what we need to do daily to remain quit. So many of you have impacted my quit and brought me to near tears with your words of wisdom, encouragement, and guidance. I thank each and every one of you for that.
Stick around this place and it WILL change your life.
I'd like to specifically name out a few big names who've impacted my quit. SirDerek, WastePanel, and Scowick. These are dudes that commented early on my shit, they posted roll early in my quit, they offered support early in my quit. One disgruntled person will not end the momentum that these quitters have.
So to the Day 1's or Day Teens that are confused by this drama....Quit on....I was you 123 days ago
THansen- 123 Days of Freedom
Well said.
Proud to be quit with you today.
See you tomorrow.
Awesome T! I agree with everything you said. My feelings exactly. Quit every day with you brother.
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Insight from a quitter who isn't far removed from stuffing his mouth with a can of shit a day.
To the Day 1's, the 2 weeks, the 1 years, I offer you my humble opinion.
When you joined this site, I can about guarantee you that, you were broke, battered, embarrassed, fed up, and scared for your health. Sound about right? I know I was. I'd stopped dipping 2 or 3 times before, but I wasn't strong enough alone to fend off the all mighty nicotine empire. Nope, she was too powerful for me alone to beat. I can say that now, and I mean it. I was a bitch to a product that was killing me slowly every day, end of story. You gain strength and power in numbers. You have to quit for you and your reasons first. After that, you have to quit for your brother/sister standing next to you. I've lost a few friends on here to the bitch, they caved. They didn't buy in fully to the grounds of what this site is.
When I joined, did I expect Admins and Mod's to comment on my fog laced ramblings? Hell no! Did I expect them to post roll with me daily? Hell no! They're crucial to this site, they keep it working, they keep it live, they keep it inviting. They are quit, they provide me with a platform to quit, and honestly they are the reason I am quit still today. Without them, KTC doesn't exist and we all go at it alone. Listening to non addicts say stuff like, "Oh just keep fighting, I'm sure it's hard." Or my personal favorite, "just don't use the stuff!" Ya, like I haven't wanted to "just not use the stuff" before this day. We are able to form bonds, friendships if you will, because they allowed this platform and site to happen.
To the pre Hall of Famers, don't lose hope or confidence in this place. It's the reason I'm able to wake up in the morning and not have jitters because I'm out. It's the reason I've formed friendships with people half way across the country, who hold me accountable. Do we need to hold everybody accountable? Yes. But we all have our inner circles of quit. Lets worry about our inner circle of quitters and hold them accountable, while still offering up guidance and wisdom when possible with new quitters.
To everybody post Hall of Fame, I appreciate you. I feel like the active members still "get it". Do lights fade or dim after a while? Sure. But we understand what we need to do daily to remain quit. So many of you have impacted my quit and brought me to near tears with your words of wisdom, encouragement, and guidance. I thank each and every one of you for that.
Stick around this place and it WILL change your life.
I'd like to specifically name out a few big names who've impacted my quit. SirDerek, WastePanel, and Scowick. These are dudes that commented early on my shit, they posted roll early in my quit, they offered support early in my quit. One disgruntled person will not end the momentum that these quitters have.
So to the Day 1's or Day Teens that are confused by this drama....Quit on....I was you 123 days ago
THansen- 123 Days of Freedom
Well said.
Proud to be quit with you today.
See you tomorrow.
Awesome T! I agree with everything you said. My feelings exactly. Quit every day with you brother.
That's why I'm so glad you came here TH! Enjoy your vacay and nice job setting up a quit protection plan for the trip. This is a serious quitter people!
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Rested, Relaxed, and Focused!
I want to thank those of you that held me accountable over my 4th of July vacation. The cell service was actually shittier than I had expected. The cabin and pontoon would have been in style about 30 years ago (but hey the cabin kept us dry, and the pontoon kept us afloat). A few of my friends who I haven't seen in about a year have become raging alcoholics (not judging, just not my thing). We caught 2 fish, TWO, the entire time we were up north (I'm sure the 2000+ pontoons racing around the lake didn't help matters).
But here is where things get special for me...
I calmly sat on the pontoon and sipped my beer as 2 of my friends smoked cig's like they were going out of style. Cig's were never my thing, but before choosing to be quit I would have graciously sucked down a few sticks of carcinogenic smoke! I watched as one of my friends asked for a dip from a pontoon passing us. I just watched, not craving or anything, just watching in what I'd call an almost "awe" state. I say "awe" state because being nic free has opened my eyes up to how utterly insane it is that people willingly chose to kill themselves slowly, each day by using a poisonous product! He cracked the tin and threw in what I'd consider a baby dip, but nevertheless it was a dip. Nicotine was around me almost 24/7 this trip. Cool thing is, I never had that "urge" or "itch" to say "fuck it, lets have one!" I couldn't. I didn't text so many of you in the days prior to my trip to fuck it up. I didn't form friendships with so many of you to say, fuck it one dip won't hurt! Quite frankly, I didn't build a solid reputation with all my "core quitters/brothers" to spit it down the drain for a dip, that would probably had made me throw up everywhere.
You can make every excuse in the book to say, "fuck it" and throw away your quit. Truth is, there's not one excuse that can justify your decision to do that. At the end of the day only YOU can chose to be quit or not. It's safe to assume which one I choose.
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This guys gets it.
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Rested, Relaxed, and Focused!
I want to thank those of you that held me accountable over my 4th of July vacation. The cell service was actually shittier than I had expected. The cabin and pontoon would have been in style about 30 years ago (but hey the cabin kept us dry, and the pontoon kept us afloat). A few of my friends who I haven't seen in about a year have become raging alcoholics (not judging, just not my thing). We caught 2 fish, TWO, the entire time we were up north (I'm sure the 2000+ pontoons racing around the lake didn't help matters).
But here is where things get special for me...
I calmly sat on the pontoon and sipped my beer as 2 of my friends smoked cig's like they were going out of style. Cig's were never my thing, but before choosing to be quit I would have graciously sucked down a few sticks of carcinogenic smoke! I watched as one of my friends asked for a dip from a pontoon passing us. I just watched, not craving or anything, just watching in what I'd call an almost "awe" state. I say "awe" state because being nic free has opened my eyes up to how utterly insane it is that people willingly chose to kill themselves slowly, each day by using a poisonous product! He cracked the tin and threw in what I'd consider a baby dip, but nevertheless it was a dip. Nicotine was around me almost 24/7 this trip. Cool thing is, I never had that "urge" or "itch" to say "fuck it, lets have one!" I couldn't. I didn't text so many of you in the days prior to my trip to fuck it up. I didn't form friendships with so many of you to say, fuck it one dip won't hurt! Quite frankly, I didn't build a solid reputation with all my "core quitters/brothers" to spit it down the drain for a dip, that would probably had made me throw up everywhere.
You can make every excuse in the book to say, "fuck it" and throw away your quit. Truth is, there's not one excuse that can justify your decision to do that. At the end of the day only YOU can chose to be quit or not. It's safe to assume which one I choose.
Good post. Another case of quit is quit. Doesn't matter what is happening around you...quit is quit. I'm quit with you today.
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Rested, Relaxed, and Focused!
I want to thank those of you that held me accountable over my 4th of July vacation. The cell service was actually shittier than I had expected. The cabin and pontoon would have been in style about 30 years ago (but hey the cabin kept us dry, and the pontoon kept us afloat). A few of my friends who I haven't seen in about a year have become raging alcoholics (not judging, just not my thing). We caught 2 fish, TWO, the entire time we were up north (I'm sure the 2000+ pontoons racing around the lake didn't help matters).
But here is where things get special for me...
I calmly sat on the pontoon and sipped my beer as 2 of my friends smoked cig's like they were going out of style. Cig's were never my thing, but before choosing to be quit I would have graciously sucked down a few sticks of carcinogenic smoke! I watched as one of my friends asked for a dip from a pontoon passing us. I just watched, not craving or anything, just watching in what I'd call an almost "awe" state. I say "awe" state because being nic free has opened my eyes up to how utterly insane it is that people willingly chose to kill themselves slowly, each day by using a poisonous product! He cracked the tin and threw in what I'd consider a baby dip, but nevertheless it was a dip. Nicotine was around me almost 24/7 this trip. Cool thing is, I never had that "urge" or "itch" to say "fuck it, lets have one!" I couldn't. I didn't text so many of you in the days prior to my trip to fuck it up. I didn't form friendships with so many of you to say, fuck it one dip won't hurt! Quite frankly, I didn't build a solid reputation with all my "core quitters/brothers" to spit it down the drain for a dip, that would probably had made me throw up everywhere.
You can make every excuse in the book to say, "fuck it" and throw away your quit. Truth is, there's not one excuse that can justify your decision to do that. At the end of the day only YOU can chose to be quit or not. It's safe to assume which one I choose.
Good post. Another case of quit is quit. Doesn't matter what is happening around you...quit is quit. I'm quit with you today.
Great job. Thansen is a quitter.
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Rested, Relaxed, and Focused!
I want to thank those of you that held me accountable over my 4th of July vacation. The cell service was actually shittier than I had expected. The cabin and pontoon would have been in style about 30 years ago (but hey the cabin kept us dry, and the pontoon kept us afloat). A few of my friends who I haven't seen in about a year have become raging alcoholics (not judging, just not my thing). We caught 2 fish, TWO, the entire time we were up north (I'm sure the 2000+ pontoons racing around the lake didn't help matters).
But here is where things get special for me...
I calmly sat on the pontoon and sipped my beer as 2 of my friends smoked cig's like they were going out of style. Cig's were never my thing, but before choosing to be quit I would have graciously sucked down a few sticks of carcinogenic smoke! I watched as one of my friends asked for a dip from a pontoon passing us. I just watched, not craving or anything, just watching in what I'd call an almost "awe" state. I say "awe" state because being nic free has opened my eyes up to how utterly insane it is that people willingly chose to kill themselves slowly, each day by using a poisonous product! He cracked the tin and threw in what I'd consider a baby dip, but nevertheless it was a dip. Nicotine was around me almost 24/7 this trip. Cool thing is, I never had that "urge" or "itch" to say "fuck it, lets have one!" I couldn't. I didn't text so many of you in the days prior to my trip to fuck it up. I didn't form friendships with so many of you to say, fuck it one dip won't hurt! Quite frankly, I didn't build a solid reputation with all my "core quitters/brothers" to spit it down the drain for a dip, that would probably had made me throw up everywhere.
You can make every excuse in the book to say, "fuck it" and throw away your quit. Truth is, there's not one excuse that can justify your decision to do that. At the end of the day only YOU can chose to be quit or not. It's safe to assume which one I choose.
Good post. Another case of quit is quit. Doesn't matter what is happening around you...quit is quit. I'm quit with you today.
Great job. Thansen is a quitter.
Great post, Buddy. That's a hell of a quit you have going. Well done.
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Rested, Relaxed, and Focused!
I want to thank those of you that held me accountable over my 4th of July vacation. The cell service was actually shittier than I had expected. The cabin and pontoon would have been in style about 30 years ago (but hey the cabin kept us dry, and the pontoon kept us afloat). A few of my friends who I haven't seen in about a year have become raging alcoholics (not judging, just not my thing). We caught 2 fish, TWO, the entire time we were up north (I'm sure the 2000+ pontoons racing around the lake didn't help matters).
But here is where things get special for me...
I calmly sat on the pontoon and sipped my beer as 2 of my friends smoked cig's like they were going out of style. Cig's were never my thing, but before choosing to be quit I would have graciously sucked down a few sticks of carcinogenic smoke! I watched as one of my friends asked for a dip from a pontoon passing us. I just watched, not craving or anything, just watching in what I'd call an almost "awe" state. I say "awe" state because being nic free has opened my eyes up to how utterly insane it is that people willingly chose to kill themselves slowly, each day by using a poisonous product! He cracked the tin and threw in what I'd consider a baby dip, but nevertheless it was a dip. Nicotine was around me almost 24/7 this trip. Cool thing is, I never had that "urge" or "itch" to say "fuck it, lets have one!" I couldn't. I didn't text so many of you in the days prior to my trip to fuck it up. I didn't form friendships with so many of you to say, fuck it one dip won't hurt! Quite frankly, I didn't build a solid reputation with all my "core quitters/brothers" to spit it down the drain for a dip, that would probably had made me throw up everywhere.
You can make every excuse in the book to say, "fuck it" and throw away your quit. Truth is, there's not one excuse that can justify your decision to do that. At the end of the day only YOU can chose to be quit or not. It's safe to assume which one I choose.
Good post. Another case of quit is quit. Doesn't matter what is happening around you...quit is quit. I'm quit with you today.
Great job. Thansen is a quitter.
Great post, Buddy. That's a hell of a quit you have going. Well done.
10,000 lakes and 2 fish? I'd fit right in. Good job this weekend. You are quit!
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Rested, Relaxed, and Focused!
I want to thank those of you that held me accountable over my 4th of July vacation. The cell service was actually shittier than I had expected. The cabin and pontoon would have been in style about 30 years ago (but hey the cabin kept us dry, and the pontoon kept us afloat). A few of my friends who I haven't seen in about a year have become raging alcoholics (not judging, just not my thing). We caught 2 fish, TWO, the entire time we were up north (I'm sure the 2000+ pontoons racing around the lake didn't help matters).
But here is where things get special for me...
I calmly sat on the pontoon and sipped my beer as 2 of my friends smoked cig's like they were going out of style. Cig's were never my thing, but before choosing to be quit I would have graciously sucked down a few sticks of carcinogenic smoke! I watched as one of my friends asked for a dip from a pontoon passing us. I just watched, not craving or anything, just watching in what I'd call an almost "awe" state. I say "awe" state because being nic free has opened my eyes up to how utterly insane it is that people willingly chose to kill themselves slowly, each day by using a poisonous product! He cracked the tin and threw in what I'd consider a baby dip, but nevertheless it was a dip. Nicotine was around me almost 24/7 this trip. Cool thing is, I never had that "urge" or "itch" to say "fuck it, lets have one!" I couldn't. I didn't text so many of you in the days prior to my trip to fuck it up. I didn't form friendships with so many of you to say, fuck it one dip won't hurt! Quite frankly, I didn't build a solid reputation with all my "core quitters/brothers" to spit it down the drain for a dip, that would probably had made me throw up everywhere.
You can make every excuse in the book to say, "fuck it" and throw away your quit. Truth is, there's not one excuse that can justify your decision to do that. At the end of the day only YOU can chose to be quit or not. It's safe to assume which one I choose.
Good post. Another case of quit is quit. Doesn't matter what is happening around you...quit is quit. I'm quit with you today.
Great job. Thansen is a quitter.
Great post, Buddy. That's a hell of a quit you have going. Well done.
10,000 lakes and 2 fish? I'd fit right in. Good job this weekend. You are quit!
Damn THansen, where the F have I been. I just read about your 4th of July incident and then your day 123 post...that, my friend, is some serious quit gospel.
Reading that reminded me of something I said to my friend rdad on the phone the other day, "when we start to quit, we quit for ourselves. Today, I still quit for me, but my quit is no longer just about me. It's much bigger than me." There was a brief pause, and then mutual agreement. You see, it's quitters like you, like rdad, and the other vets here on this thread who post roll every day, support others on the site, and have built up their accountability networks. All of these people depend on us to keep our quit on. We make their quits stronger as they concurrently make our quits stronger. Whether you want to call it a symbiotic relationship or just simply the affects of brotherhood it just goes to show that there comes a point where the quit is bigger than oneself. There are many invested in our quits. I share that story and point of view because your last couple posts really illustrate that for me.
Good stuff bro. KTC is a better place because it has quitters like yourself.
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Some food for thought this weekend brothers and sisters.
Just got back from our local Relay for Life (Fillmore County, MN). I went because my Mom is a cancer survivor of 12 years. 12 years ago she went in for a routine hysterectomy and the surgeon found a mass inside her. Ended up having all her female organs removed, feet of her intestine, etc. We learned the name of the beast, Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma. That's a mouthful, and it sounds scary as shit! I was 12 at the time, and I remember being scared to the point that I would vomit on a regular basis. I was scared I'd lose my mom. Most everyone is closer to one parent than the other, and for me that parent was my Mom (let the momma's boy jokes come, I deserve it). Great news was, this type of cancer is treatable, it's not curable, but very treatable. Fast forward to today, my mom still has flare ups about every 2 years. She just completed her most recent stint of Chemo last fall. My Mom has never smoked, never dipped, RARELY drinks...and she got cancer.
We willingly chose to increase our odds of getting cancer for a temporary "high". I'm posting this because, I was moved tonight. I got teary eyed seeing my Mom walk around the track with the hundreds of other survivors. She fought her fucking ass off to see me enter Jr High. She fought her fucking ass off to see me enter High School and play sports. She went to Chemo, never complained, got sick....to see me graduate from High School. Food for thought next time you feel like you can't remain quit any longer.
That's all I got. Quit strong...I know I am.
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Day 165
Wow... the time flies when you're running a successful quit. I haven't posted in my introduction for almost a month now. I guess that's for two reasons...
1. I don't want to take away time from the 'newbs' who need an ear and advice.
2. I haven't had anything monumental happen in my quit recently.
I'm posting now because, I've seen what distractions do to us (KTC quitters), and also because I have had monumental moments in my quit... I just didn't know it.
So lets tackle the first reason. I saw what distractions can do to our quits. Our friend Cum Bubbles, distracted from each and everyone of our quits. I'm as guilty as you. I commented once or twice, and lurked on his intro page, while 17+ other quitters lurked and commented at one point. I sent PM's to Mods/Admins, to get their advice on the situation. I tried to trip Bobby boy up. The probem? The problem is this, while we were busy watching and eating 'Popcorn' , we missed an opportunity to impact a young quitters, quit. We might have missed an opportunity to keep a quitter, quit. But, I do thank Bobby for this... You have ignited a fire inside me that will not diminished. You thought you could walk in and post with myself, and my fellow June brothers, without a bat of an eye. Wrong buddy. I will defend June, the Saloon, and our patrons with every last ounce of energy I have. Just like I fight the nic bitch each day... I will fight anyone who impedes my, or any of my June bros/sisters quit. Much like a mother will die for her child... I will die for my group. Because, they have saved my life.
To the next point in question. I text 7 other June members daily, multiple times a day. It's been a topic as of late that, some of us were feeling "funky". Myself included. My diet has been absolutely piss poor. I've been eating just to eat. Like I can't not be snacking on something. I realized this, I told my June bros this. Starting Monday, I made a promise to myself to start eating healthy again and exercise. I was overweight for much of my life. 2 years ago, on the verge of going up from an XL to an XXL, I decided to drop the weight. I wear a M now, and am at a healthy weight. Something I'm very proud of, because I worked incredibly hard to achieve it. If it wasn't for KTC or my June text bros.. I probably... no I would have, bought a can (to help with my snacking). So what, I gained 5 lbs since the 4th of July. Big fucking whoop. I can take off 5 lbs with a healthy run and a dump. So I have had monumental moments since my last post. I overcame a heavy funk, at roughly Day 145- Day 160. Lipi wrote a great deal on the "post HOF funk"... and it's true.
Thanks June, Mayhem, and other scattered members of KTC who influence my quit daily (I hope you know who you are). I also want to thank the quitters I haven't met yet. You keep my enlightened to what I felt at Day 1 or 10, and reaffirm I never want to feel that again. I'm feeling refreshed at Day 165. I also feel like I have a chip on my shoulder. Not only do I love crushing the nic bitch daily... I love the group I'm in. Nobody, will come between what we have going in June right now...and if they try.... I'll be standing at the entrance of the Saloon, with my taser, pepper spray, and fists ready. Keep doing what you're doing guys and gals... you're killing it.
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Keep kickin that ass!!!
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You, Tyler ... you're a quitter! Glad to have ya here, and in my quit.
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Let me let you in on a secret I've learned about life. When heroes fall, it's usually because they've been foolish and/or arrogant. And it's tragic. And then new heroes rise. In fact it just creates room for new heroes to rise when others finally crash after overreaching their abilities. Why bring this up? Because I believe you may be one of the new heroes I the rise. I've been proud to quit with you for a long time and have seen the class and heart you've brought and watched you grow as a quit man. Keep it up and don't be afraid to step into your full roll- leaders are made when others choose to follow them- not when they are appointed. The latter are doomed to fall in time. Quit on my friend you are a leader.
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
Keep up the good fight Thansen! Congrats on you nearing your second floor. Quit on!
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
Keep up the good fight Thansen! Congrats on you nearing your second floor. Quit on!
Tyler, you are a rock of quit ... proud as hell to call you a brother!
I've said it before (in my best Asian voice) ... Me love you long time!
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
Keep up the good fight Thansen! Congrats on you nearing your second floor. Quit on!
Tyler, you are a rock of quit ... proud as hell to call you a brother!
I've said it before (in my best Asian voice) ... Me love you long time!
Rock On! nice quit you've built in here.
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
Keep up the good fight Thansen! Congrats on you nearing your second floor. Quit on!
Tyler, you are a rock of quit ... proud as hell to call you a brother!
I've said it before (in my best Asian voice) ... Me love you long time!
Rock On! nice quit you've built in here.
Words to live by! Everyone should read this! Proud to be quit with you today!
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
Keep up the good fight Thansen! Congrats on you nearing your second floor. Quit on!
Tyler, you are a rock of quit ... proud as hell to call you a brother!
I've said it before (in my best Asian voice) ... Me love you long time!
Rock On! nice quit you've built in here.
Words to live by! Everyone should read this! Proud to be quit with you today!
Great stuff as usual, T. Proud to be with you.
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
Keep up the good fight Thansen! Congrats on you nearing your second floor. Quit on!
Tyler, you are a rock of quit ... proud as hell to call you a brother!
I've said it before (in my best Asian voice) ... Me love you long time!
Rock On! nice quit you've built in here.
Words to live by! Everyone should read this! Proud to be quit with you today!
Great stuff as usual, T. Proud to be with you.
Right on brother! All 5 great reasons to keep doing it.
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
Keep up the good fight Thansen! Congrats on you nearing your second floor. Quit on!
Tyler, you are a rock of quit ... proud as hell to call you a brother!
I've said it before (in my best Asian voice) ... Me love you long time!
Rock On! nice quit you've built in here.
Words to live by! Everyone should read this! Proud to be quit with you today!
Great stuff as usual, T. Proud to be with you.
Right on brother! All 5 great reasons to keep doing it.
I love this post.. I agree with all of it, and I hope some of the newer guys take the time to read it.. proud to be quit with you THansen
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
Keep up the good fight Thansen! Congrats on you nearing your second floor. Quit on!
Tyler, you are a rock of quit ... proud as hell to call you a brother!
I've said it before (in my best Asian voice) ... Me love you long time!
Rock On! nice quit you've built in here.
Words to live by! Everyone should read this! Proud to be quit with you today!
Great stuff as usual, T. Proud to be with you.
Right on brother! All 5 great reasons to keep doing it.
I love this post.. I agree with all of it, and I hope some of the newer guys take the time to read it.. proud to be quit with you THansen
Love this. Good stuff as always!
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
Keep up the good fight Thansen! Congrats on you nearing your second floor. Quit on!
Tyler, you are a rock of quit ... proud as hell to call you a brother!
I've said it before (in my best Asian voice) ... Me love you long time!
Rock On! nice quit you've built in here.
Words to live by! Everyone should read this! Proud to be quit with you today!
Great stuff as usual, T. Proud to be with you.
Right on brother! All 5 great reasons to keep doing it.
I love this post.. I agree with all of it, and I hope some of the newer guys take the time to read it.. proud to be quit with you THansen
Love this. Good stuff as always!
and the equation: Accountability + Brotherhood = Success holds true yet again. No matter which way you spin it, it cannot be proven wrong. Well done TH, you're showing us the way to live this.
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
Keep up the good fight Thansen! Congrats on you nearing your second floor. Quit on!
Tyler, you are a rock of quit ... proud as hell to call you a brother!
I've said it before (in my best Asian voice) ... Me love you long time!
Rock On! nice quit you've built in here.
Words to live by! Everyone should read this! Proud to be quit with you today!
Great stuff as usual, T. Proud to be with you.
Right on brother! All 5 great reasons to keep doing it.
I love this post.. I agree with all of it, and I hope some of the newer guys take the time to read it.. proud to be quit with you THansen
Love this. Good stuff as always!
and the equation: Accountability + Brotherhood = Success holds true yet again. No matter which way you spin it, it cannot be proven wrong. Well done TH, you're showing us the way to live this.
this is why i'm a charter member in the THansen fan club. Friggin' bad a** quitter!
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
Keep up the good fight Thansen! Congrats on you nearing your second floor. Quit on!
Tyler, you are a rock of quit ... proud as hell to call you a brother!
I've said it before (in my best Asian voice) ... Me love you long time!
Rock On! nice quit you've built in here.
Words to live by! Everyone should read this! Proud to be quit with you today!
Great stuff as usual, T. Proud to be with you.
Right on brother! All 5 great reasons to keep doing it.
I love this post.. I agree with all of it, and I hope some of the newer guys take the time to read it.. proud to be quit with you THansen
Love this. Good stuff as always!
and the equation: Accountability + Brotherhood = Success holds true yet again. No matter which way you spin it, it cannot be proven wrong. Well done TH, you're showing us the way to live this.
this is why i'm a charter member in the THansen fan club. Friggin' bad a** quitter!
EDD with you Tyler. Love the pearls of wisdom.
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
Keep up the good fight Thansen! Congrats on you nearing your second floor. Quit on!
Tyler, you are a rock of quit ... proud as hell to call you a brother!
I've said it before (in my best Asian voice) ... Me love you long time!
Rock On! nice quit you've built in here.
Words to live by! Everyone should read this! Proud to be quit with you today!
Great stuff as usual, T. Proud to be with you.
Right on brother! All 5 great reasons to keep doing it.
I love this post.. I agree with all of it, and I hope some of the newer guys take the time to read it.. proud to be quit with you THansen
Love this. Good stuff as always!
and the equation: Accountability + Brotherhood = Success holds true yet again. No matter which way you spin it, it cannot be proven wrong. Well done TH, you're showing us the way to live this.
this is why i'm a charter member in the THansen fan club. Friggin' bad a** quitter!
EDD with you Tyler. Love the pearls of wisdom.
Ambled over to read your day 190 at the suggestion of a post by CavMan in Sept. Good stuff Hansen. I don't regret much at all in my life but damn it would have been nice to grow smarts at your age.
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
TH, your a beast. I quit w/ you!
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Day 190
I've modeled my quest for 200 days, much like my first 100 days...with a few tweaks. So why I am writing this now? Because like my first 100 days, I enjoyed those last 10 magical days before reaching the 1st floor. So I'm going to do just that before I reach the 2nd floor, while still being mindful that I am an addict. My last 90 days have been far more enjoyable than my first 100....and here's why.
I have accountability that should make others on this site jealous. My core group of June Saloon dudes, are the best in the business, and I challenge anyone to prove me wrong. Those are my core dudes, the dudes that would call me by 11am to make sure I'm still alive if I wasn't on roll.
My next level are the guys I've met from other groups. Those could be older vets, or younger HOF classes. You keep me wanting to come back to see you continue to succeed. I've had the honor of not only posting roll with a lot of you, but developing personal friendships. That adds a wrinkle of accountability, that I could only compare to the mystical "God particle". It can't be described, but when you achieve a friendship with a stranger who is quit with you... you'll most certainly feel it.
The last level, arguably my favorite, is helping the young guns. The guys and gals who are posting Day 1's or 1 months. You keep me humble and inspired to continue the fight. You have no idea at this point in your quit what those first 2 levels of accountability (as defined by me) mean. But I hope you will....and I'll do everything I possibly can, without actually quitting for you, to see you reach those levels.
I've faced many battles in these last 90 days, that have truly tested me. Some examples.... going through summer, without dipping. Golfing, without dipping. Holidays, without dipping. Firing an employee, without dipping. Boating, without dipping. Bonfires, without dipping. The list is long, but those are the ones that come to mind.
At this point in my quit, many of you have probably seen my name in the support section of your group. You may have chatted with me in Live Chat. Or, you may have seen one of my ramblings on a thread or an introduction. You wouldn't have seen that in my first 100 days. Right after the HOF, at least for me, I got a euphoric feeling. "Let's help and comment on everything I possibly can!" That's not healthy. Find a balance, help who you can, and inspire others to help, so the load isn't so much to handle.
Here's why I still post roll and will continue to
1. Why not? Is it harming anything? No
2. I'm perfect so far. Do I really want to throw that away? No
3. I have friends on here. Do I want to forget I ever met them? No
4. It's worked so far. Why change? I won't change
5. I'm a man. I admit I'm an addict and always will be. I promise daily to quit, and come back the next day and quit all over again. I will
Keep up the good work TH. I quit with you EDD.
TH, your a beast. I quit w/ you!
Thanks so much for posting this! It is incredibly encouraging to a day 44 guy!!
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In no way, shape, or form do I want to take away from any new guy/gal intro. I just want to say, and acknowledge, everybody who has thanked me on reaching, Day 200.
From the bottom of my heart... Thank you. I wouldn't be able to stand before you today, quit, 100% roll posting status, and feeling as confident as ever if it wasn't for all of you.
June has decided, as requested by Cherman (great job Chris) to not acknowledge the next milestone until Day 365 ( 1 year). I'll update as needed...but for the most part.... I look forward to posting roll, supporting others, and staying quit until that 1 year mark.
I'll keep it short, and sweet.
This place works. Follow the recipe. Make friends. Honor your promise EDD (every damn day). You too, can be me.
edit: Btw.... rewind to however many days you've been quit. The first thing you (and I) use to do was throw in a dip of poison in the morning. What do you (I) do now? Log onto KTC and post roll! I love being quit w/ each and everyone of you!
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In no way, shape, or form do I want to take away from any new guy/gal intro. I just want to say, and acknowledge, everybody who has thanked me on reaching, Day 200.
From the bottom of my heart... Thank you. I wouldn't be able to stand before you today, quit, 100% roll posting status, and feeling as confident as ever if it wasn't for all of you.
June has decided, as requested by Cherman (great job Chris) to not acknowledge the next milestone until Day 365 ( 1 year). I'll update as needed...but for the most part.... I look forward to posting roll, supporting others, and staying quit until that 1 year mark.
I'll keep it short, and sweet.
This place works. Follow the recipe. Make friends. Honor your promise EDD (every damn day). You too, can be me.
edit: Btw.... rewind to however many days you've been quit. The first thing you (and I) use to do was throw in a dip of poison in the morning. What do you (I) do now? Log onto KTC and post roll! I love being quit w/ each and everyone of you!
Bam Thansen! You got that Nic Bitch right in the Ass. If only everyone were like you. There would be no caving that's for sure.
Remain diligent!
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In no way, shape, or form do I want to take away from any new guy/gal intro. I just want to say, and acknowledge, everybody who has thanked me on reaching, Day 200.
From the bottom of my heart... Thank you. I wouldn't be able to stand before you today, quit, 100% roll posting status, and feeling as confident as ever if it wasn't for all of you.
June has decided, as requested by Cherman (great job Chris) to not acknowledge the next milestone until Day 365 ( 1 year). I'll update as needed...but for the most part.... I look forward to posting roll, supporting others, and staying quit until that 1 year mark.
I'll keep it short, and sweet.
This place works. Follow the recipe. Make friends. Honor your promise EDD (every damn day). You too, can be me.
edit: Btw.... rewind to however many days you've been quit. The first thing you (and I) use to do was throw in a dip of poison in the morning. What do you (I) do now? Log onto KTC and post roll! I love being quit w/ each and everyone of you!
Bam Thansen! You got that Nic Bitch right in the Ass. If only everyone were like you. There would be no caving that's for sure.
Remain diligent!
THansen, intros are here for quitters new and quitters of old. They are our journals and when we succeed in our quits they must be celebrated. Quitting is no easy task and it is a task that must be taken seriously and acted upon vigilantly every damn day. So when you succeed in fulfilling your daily oath, then dammit, I want to know about it and celebrate it with you. If you want to celebrate a personal victory along the way or a new learning, then I want to know about that too. Keep doing what you're doing, and that's showing us the way. Like my man Rdad said, if we were all like you, then caving would be a thing of the past.
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In no way, shape, or form do I want to take away from any new guy/gal intro. I just want to say, and acknowledge, everybody who has thanked me on reaching, Day 200.
From the bottom of my heart... Thank you. I wouldn't be able to stand before you today, quit, 100% roll posting status, and feeling as confident as ever if it wasn't for all of you.
June has decided, as requested by Cherman (great job Chris) to not acknowledge the next milestone until Day 365 ( 1 year). I'll update as needed...but for the most part.... I look forward to posting roll, supporting others, and staying quit until that 1 year mark.
I'll keep it short, and sweet.
This place works. Follow the recipe. Make friends. Honor your promise EDD (every damn day). You too, can be me.
edit: Btw.... rewind to however many days you've been quit. The first thing you (and I) use to do was throw in a dip of poison in the morning. What do you (I) do now? Log onto KTC and post roll! I love being quit w/ each and everyone of you!
Bam Thansen! You got that Nic Bitch right in the Ass. If only everyone were like you. There would be no caving that's for sure.
Remain diligent!
THansen, intros are here for quitters new and quitters of old. They are our journals and when we succeed in our quits they must be celebrated. Quitting is no easy task and it is a task that must be taken seriously and acted upon vigilantly every damn day. So when you succeed in fulfilling your daily oath, then dammit, I want to know about it and celebrate it with you. If you want to celebrate a personal victory along the way or a new learning, then I want to know about that too. Keep doing what you're doing, and that's showing us the way. Like my man Rdad said, if we were all like you, then caving would be a thing of the past.
Intro updates are amazing. Because they give you a chance to tell us and acknowledge to yourself where you are on the journey, but also to go and look back at where you've gone from. Go back at look at your first post. Day 200 will look even sweeter.
Congratulations. One day at a time you are taking your life back. Because it really does keep getting better....
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I guess I've been secluding myself these past few days. I haven't been posting support in all the groups I use to. I haven't been in chat, like I use to. It's even been a struggle to post roll in the morning. Nobody outside of "The Epic 8" and my closest quit buddies know what's going on with me. I'm not sure why I haven't updated my intro until now...but I haven't. Maybe I wasn't ready to talk about it...maybe I was in denial. Whatever the case.. I owe my supporters an explanation. I also need to update my intro...no matter how painful this chapter in my quit book may be... it needs to be dealt with.
My Grandma's health has been on the decline for the past month. This is the Grandma who would watch me in the summertime, every summer. This is the Grandma who'd come to all my activities in school. Not because my other grandparents wouldn't. Just because she lived 3 blocks away from me. My other grandparents lived 3 hrs. This last Saturday...she suffered a devastating stroke. She now, eats 1 one meal a day..and that's on a good day. She no longer is able to talk, walk, move, etc. She is dependent on everyone else. On a good day, she may be awake for 2 hrs...and that's top. Just enough time for my Mom to spoon in blended food, and a supplement drink.
This finally became a reality to me this week. I visited her Monday, and tried profusely to wake her up. No luck. After we had got home, my Mom was very upset. My Dad, I love him, but he's a no show emotions guy. He'd rather sit and read his paper and watch the news than have to talk. I get my compassion, and tender heart from my Mom. I thank her for that, every chance I get. I'd rather be a teary eyed, teddy bear, than a closed off, silent man who watches from the sidelines.
Back to point in hand... my Mom sat on the couch with her head held low. I sat next to her, and gave her a hug, embraced her, and she broke down. Subsequently, I did too...and did for most of the night. At 212 days quit... I felt like I was back at B.C Day 1. I honestly had a moment where I said "f it"... "I really don't care". I'm not proud to say that...but I did. I pondered calling each of my quit bros and asking for permission to cave. But, I knew what they'd say. I knew how I'd feel the day after. All that hard work, dedication, preaching...down the drain. So I didn't. Instead I text them. I spoke with them for most of the night. MonsterEMT and Sixer were my guardian angels that night. They listened... they gave advice... and I listened.
Today, my Grandma was put on hospice. Her time on Earth is dwindling by the minute. bronc, gave me some good advice today...and I'm still coming to grips with telling my grandma, "goodbye...it's ok to go now". Even typing that.. I have tears in my eyes. I'm not ready to say that..but I know it has to be done soon. Point is... it's ok to talk about personal things with other men. It's ok to shed...ok, cry like a man. It's what kept me quit. My Grandma would be proud to know that I'm 214 days quit today. She'd be giving me a lecture and disappointed if I caved because of something so natural as death. I've never dealt with death before. At 24, I'm blessed to not have had a family member die yet. Maybe this can help some noob, or someone in my shoes.
When I use to put "NAFAR" in some of my postings....I didn't stop and think what I was saying. Today, I realize just how "powerful" that is. Never Again For Any Reason... that includes you in your darkest hour, and your lowest point.
One foot in front of the other...and before long... I will have overcome this latest mountain.
Thanks for the support and guidance, my brothers and sisters.
THansen
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I guess I've been secluding myself these past few days. I haven't been posting support in all the groups I use to. I haven't been in chat, like I use to. It's even been a struggle to post roll in the morning. Nobody outside of "The Epic 8" and my closest quit buddies know what's going on with me. I'm not sure why I haven't updated my intro until now...but I haven't. Maybe I wasn't ready to talk about it...maybe I was in denial. Whatever the case.. I owe my supporters an explanation. I also need to update my intro...no matter how painful this chapter in my quit book may be... it needs to be dealt with.
My Grandma's health has been on the decline for the past month. This is the Grandma who would watch me in the summertime, every summer. This is the Grandma who'd come to all my activities in school. Not because my other grandparents wouldn't. Just because she lived 3 blocks away from me. My other grandparents lived 3 hrs. This last Saturday...she suffered a devastating stroke. She now, eats 1 one meal a day..and that's on a good day. She no longer is able to talk, walk, move, etc. She is dependent on everyone else. On a good day, she may be awake for 2 hrs...and that's top. Just enough time for my Mom to spoon in blended food, and a supplement drink.
This finally became a reality to me this week. I visited her Monday, and tried profusely to wake her up. No luck. After we had got home, my Mom was very upset. My Dad, I love him, but he's a no show emotions guy. He'd rather sit and read his paper and watch the news than have to talk. I get my compassion, and tender heart from my Mom. I thank her for that, every chance I get. I'd rather be a teary eyed, teddy bear, than a closed off, silent man who watches from the sidelines.
Back to point in hand... my Mom sat on the couch with her head held low. I sat next to her, and gave her a hug, embraced her, and she broke down. Subsequently, I did too...and did for most of the night. At 212 days quit... I felt like I was back at B.C Day 1. I honestly had a moment where I said "f it"... "I really don't care". I'm not proud to say that...but I did. I pondered calling each of my quit bros and asking for permission to cave. But, I knew what they'd say. I knew how I'd feel the day after. All that hard work, dedication, preaching...down the drain. So I didn't. Instead I text them. I spoke with them for most of the night. MonsterEMT and Sixer were my guardian angels that night. They listened... they gave advice... and I listened.
Today, my Grandma was put on hospice. Her time on Earth is dwindling by the minute. bronc, gave me some good advice today...and I'm still coming to grips with telling my grandma, "goodbye...it's ok to go now". Even typing that.. I have tears in my eyes. I'm not ready to say that..but I know it has to be done soon. Point is... it's ok to talk about personal things with other men. It's ok to shed...ok, cry like a man. It's what kept me quit. My Grandma would be proud to know that I'm 214 days quit today. She'd be giving me a lecture and disappointed if I caved because of something so natural as death. I've never dealt with death before. At 24, I'm blessed to not have had a family member die yet. Maybe this can help some noob, or someone in my shoes.
When I use to put "NAFAR" in some of my postings....I didn't stop and think what I was saying. Today, I realize just how "powerful" that is. Never Again For Any Reason... that includes you in your darkest hour, and your lowest point.
One foot in front of the other...and before long... I will have overcome this latest mountain.
Thanks for the support and guidance, my brothers and sisters.
THansen
I won't say to much because you have probably heard it......
I have seen and heard you grow since your quit began. Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends. Your grandma should be round of the man and quitter you have become. Quit hard.
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Praying for you and your family. Grandma is definitely proud of the quitter you are.
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I guess I've been secluding myself these past few days. I haven't been posting support in all the groups I use to. I haven't been in chat, like I use to. It's even been a struggle to post roll in the morning. Nobody outside of "The Epic 8" and my closest quit buddies know what's going on with me. I'm not sure why I haven't updated my intro until now...but I haven't. Maybe I wasn't ready to talk about it...maybe I was in denial. Whatever the case.. I owe my supporters an explanation. I also need to update my intro...no matter how painful this chapter in my quit book may be... it needs to be dealt with.
My Grandma's health has been on the decline for the past month. This is the Grandma who would watch me in the summertime, every summer. This is the Grandma who'd come to all my activities in school. Not because my other grandparents wouldn't. Just because she lived 3 blocks away from me. My other grandparents lived 3 hrs. This last Saturday...she suffered a devastating stroke. She now, eats 1 one meal a day..and that's on a good day. She no longer is able to talk, walk, move, etc. She is dependent on everyone else. On a good day, she may be awake for 2 hrs...and that's top. Just enough time for my Mom to spoon in blended food, and a supplement drink.
This finally became a reality to me this week. I visited her Monday, and tried profusely to wake her up. No luck. After we had got home, my Mom was very upset. My Dad, I love him, but he's a no show emotions guy. He'd rather sit and read his paper and watch the news than have to talk. I get my compassion, and tender heart from my Mom. I thank her for that, every chance I get. I'd rather be a teary eyed, teddy bear, than a closed off, silent man who watches from the sidelines.
Back to point in hand... my Mom sat on the couch with her head held low. I sat next to her, and gave her a hug, embraced her, and she broke down. Subsequently, I did too...and did for most of the night. At 212 days quit... I felt like I was back at B.C Day 1. I honestly had a moment where I said "f it"... "I really don't care". I'm not proud to say that...but I did. I pondered calling each of my quit bros and asking for permission to cave. But, I knew what they'd say. I knew how I'd feel the day after. All that hard work, dedication, preaching...down the drain. So I didn't. Instead I text them. I spoke with them for most of the night. MonsterEMT and Sixer were my guardian angels that night. They listened... they gave advice... and I listened.
Today, my Grandma was put on hospice. Her time on Earth is dwindling by the minute. bronc, gave me some good advice today...and I'm still coming to grips with telling my grandma, "goodbye...it's ok to go now". Even typing that.. I have tears in my eyes. I'm not ready to say that..but I know it has to be done soon. Point is... it's ok to talk about personal things with other men. It's ok to shed...ok, cry like a man. It's what kept me quit. My Grandma would be proud to know that I'm 214 days quit today. She'd be giving me a lecture and disappointed if I caved because of something so natural as death. I've never dealt with death before. At 24, I'm blessed to not have had a family member die yet. Maybe this can help some noob, or someone in my shoes.
When I use to put "NAFAR" in some of my postings....I didn't stop and think what I was saying. Today, I realize just how "powerful" that is. Never Again For Any Reason... that includes you in your darkest hour, and your lowest point.
One foot in front of the other...and before long... I will have overcome this latest mountain.
Thanks for the support and guidance, my brothers and sisters.
THansen
I won't say to much because you have probably heard it......
I have seen and heard you grow since your quit began. Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends. Your grandma should be round of the man and quitter you have become. Quit hard.
Thanks for sharing TH. Quit hard EDD for your Grandma and all the other loved ones in your life...especially you.
Think about it...what would be a better way to honor your Grandma than living your life to the fullest without nicotine?
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I guess I've been secluding myself these past few days. I haven't been posting support in all the groups I use to. I haven't been in chat, like I use to. It's even been a struggle to post roll in the morning. Nobody outside of "The Epic 8" and my closest quit buddies know what's going on with me. I'm not sure why I haven't updated my intro until now...but I haven't. Maybe I wasn't ready to talk about it...maybe I was in denial. Whatever the case.. I owe my supporters an explanation. I also need to update my intro...no matter how painful this chapter in my quit book may be... it needs to be dealt with.
My Grandma's health has been on the decline for the past month. This is the Grandma who would watch me in the summertime, every summer. This is the Grandma who'd come to all my activities in school. Not because my other grandparents wouldn't. Just because she lived 3 blocks away from me. My other grandparents lived 3 hrs. This last Saturday...she suffered a devastating stroke. She now, eats 1 one meal a day..and that's on a good day. She no longer is able to talk, walk, move, etc. She is dependent on everyone else. On a good day, she may be awake for 2 hrs...and that's top. Just enough time for my Mom to spoon in blended food, and a supplement drink.
This finally became a reality to me this week. I visited her Monday, and tried profusely to wake her up. No luck. After we had got home, my Mom was very upset. My Dad, I love him, but he's a no show emotions guy. He'd rather sit and read his paper and watch the news than have to talk. I get my compassion, and tender heart from my Mom. I thank her for that, every chance I get. I'd rather be a teary eyed, teddy bear, than a closed off, silent man who watches from the sidelines.
Back to point in hand... my Mom sat on the couch with her head held low. I sat next to her, and gave her a hug, embraced her, and she broke down. Subsequently, I did too...and did for most of the night. At 212 days quit... I felt like I was back at B.C Day 1. I honestly had a moment where I said "f it"... "I really don't care". I'm not proud to say that...but I did. I pondered calling each of my quit bros and asking for permission to cave. But, I knew what they'd say. I knew how I'd feel the day after. All that hard work, dedication, preaching...down the drain. So I didn't. Instead I text them. I spoke with them for most of the night. MonsterEMT and Sixer were my guardian angels that night. They listened... they gave advice... and I listened.
Today, my Grandma was put on hospice. Her time on Earth is dwindling by the minute. bronc, gave me some good advice today...and I'm still coming to grips with telling my grandma, "goodbye...it's ok to go now". Even typing that.. I have tears in my eyes. I'm not ready to say that..but I know it has to be done soon. Point is... it's ok to talk about personal things with other men. It's ok to shed...ok, cry like a man. It's what kept me quit. My Grandma would be proud to know that I'm 214 days quit today. She'd be giving me a lecture and disappointed if I caved because of something so natural as death. I've never dealt with death before. At 24, I'm blessed to not have had a family member die yet. Maybe this can help some noob, or someone in my shoes.
When I use to put "NAFAR" in some of my postings....I didn't stop and think what I was saying. Today, I realize just how "powerful" that is. Never Again For Any Reason... that includes you in your darkest hour, and your lowest point.
One foot in front of the other...and before long... I will have overcome this latest mountain.
Thanks for the support and guidance, my brothers and sisters.
THansen
I won't say to much because you have probably heard it......
I have seen and heard you grow since your quit began. Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends. Your grandma should be round of the man and quitter you have become. Quit hard.
Thanks for sharing TH. Quit hard EDD for your Grandma and all the other loved ones in your life...especially you.
Think about it...what would be a better way to honor your Grandma than living your life to the fullest without nicotine?
Sixer's comment is somewhat iconic...it illustrates the manner in which you have fostered an unbreakable foundation of quit.
Sixer writes, "Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends." If this isn't brotherhood, then I don't know what is. THansen, this is why you are here today posting another +1. Brotherhood, 50% of the success equation. Thank you for sharing and showing us why that there is never an ok reason to cave; many a caver has caved with far less stress on their shoulders than dealing with the deck of cards you've been dealt. I'm proud of you; we should all be proud of you.
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Thoughts and prayers with you THansen. Life is going to continue to throw us obstacles we get to choose how to react to them. Quit with you
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I guess I've been secluding myself these past few days. I haven't been posting support in all the groups I use to. I haven't been in chat, like I use to. It's even been a struggle to post roll in the morning. Nobody outside of "The Epic 8" and my closest quit buddies know what's going on with me. I'm not sure why I haven't updated my intro until now...but I haven't. Maybe I wasn't ready to talk about it...maybe I was in denial. Whatever the case.. I owe my supporters an explanation. I also need to update my intro...no matter how painful this chapter in my quit book may be... it needs to be dealt with.
My Grandma's health has been on the decline for the past month. This is the Grandma who would watch me in the summertime, every summer. This is the Grandma who'd come to all my activities in school. Not because my other grandparents wouldn't. Just because she lived 3 blocks away from me. My other grandparents lived 3 hrs. This last Saturday...she suffered a devastating stroke. She now, eats 1 one meal a day..and that's on a good day. She no longer is able to talk, walk, move, etc. She is dependent on everyone else. On a good day, she may be awake for 2 hrs...and that's top. Just enough time for my Mom to spoon in blended food, and a supplement drink.
This finally became a reality to me this week. I visited her Monday, and tried profusely to wake her up. No luck. After we had got home, my Mom was very upset. My Dad, I love him, but he's a no show emotions guy. He'd rather sit and read his paper and watch the news than have to talk. I get my compassion, and tender heart from my Mom. I thank her for that, every chance I get. I'd rather be a teary eyed, teddy bear, than a closed off, silent man who watches from the sidelines.
Back to point in hand... my Mom sat on the couch with her head held low. I sat next to her, and gave her a hug, embraced her, and she broke down. Subsequently, I did too...and did for most of the night. At 212 days quit... I felt like I was back at B.C Day 1. I honestly had a moment where I said "f it"... "I really don't care". I'm not proud to say that...but I did. I pondered calling each of my quit bros and asking for permission to cave. But, I knew what they'd say. I knew how I'd feel the day after. All that hard work, dedication, preaching...down the drain. So I didn't. Instead I text them. I spoke with them for most of the night. MonsterEMT and Sixer were my guardian angels that night. They listened... they gave advice... and I listened.
Today, my Grandma was put on hospice. Her time on Earth is dwindling by the minute. bronc, gave me some good advice today...and I'm still coming to grips with telling my grandma, "goodbye...it's ok to go now". Even typing that.. I have tears in my eyes. I'm not ready to say that..but I know it has to be done soon. Point is... it's ok to talk about personal things with other men. It's ok to shed...ok, cry like a man. It's what kept me quit. My Grandma would be proud to know that I'm 214 days quit today. She'd be giving me a lecture and disappointed if I caved because of something so natural as death. I've never dealt with death before. At 24, I'm blessed to not have had a family member die yet. Maybe this can help some noob, or someone in my shoes.
When I use to put "NAFAR" in some of my postings....I didn't stop and think what I was saying. Today, I realize just how "powerful" that is. Never Again For Any Reason... that includes you in your darkest hour, and your lowest point.
One foot in front of the other...and before long... I will have overcome this latest mountain.
Thanks for the support and guidance, my brothers and sisters.
THansen
I won't say to much because you have probably heard it......
I have seen and heard you grow since your quit began. Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends. Your grandma should be round of the man and quitter you have become. Quit hard.
Thanks for sharing TH. Quit hard EDD for your Grandma and all the other loved ones in your life...especially you.
Think about it...what would be a better way to honor your Grandma than living your life to the fullest without nicotine?
Sixer's comment is somewhat iconic...it illustrates the manner in which you have fostered an unbreakable foundation of quit.
Sixer writes, "Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends." If this isn't brotherhood, then I don't know what is. THansen, this is why you are here today posting another +1. Brotherhood, 50% of the success equation. Thank you for sharing and showing us why that there is never an ok reason to cave; many a caver has caved with far less stress on their shoulders than dealing with the deck of cards you've been dealt. I'm proud of you; we should all be proud of you.
THansen, you and I have not connected yet, but I am praying for you and your family. I went through much the same, but it was my mother that passed on Day 225 or so. It was my wife, and this place that got me through all of it. Lean on us.
If I can offer any help, please don't hesitate to ask.
-
I guess I've been secluding myself these past few days. I haven't been posting support in all the groups I use to. I haven't been in chat, like I use to. It's even been a struggle to post roll in the morning. Nobody outside of "The Epic 8" and my closest quit buddies know what's going on with me. I'm not sure why I haven't updated my intro until now...but I haven't. Maybe I wasn't ready to talk about it...maybe I was in denial. Whatever the case.. I owe my supporters an explanation. I also need to update my intro...no matter how painful this chapter in my quit book may be... it needs to be dealt with.
My Grandma's health has been on the decline for the past month. This is the Grandma who would watch me in the summertime, every summer. This is the Grandma who'd come to all my activities in school. Not because my other grandparents wouldn't. Just because she lived 3 blocks away from me. My other grandparents lived 3 hrs. This last Saturday...she suffered a devastating stroke. She now, eats 1 one meal a day..and that's on a good day. She no longer is able to talk, walk, move, etc. She is dependent on everyone else. On a good day, she may be awake for 2 hrs...and that's top. Just enough time for my Mom to spoon in blended food, and a supplement drink.
This finally became a reality to me this week. I visited her Monday, and tried profusely to wake her up. No luck. After we had got home, my Mom was very upset. My Dad, I love him, but he's a no show emotions guy. He'd rather sit and read his paper and watch the news than have to talk. I get my compassion, and tender heart from my Mom. I thank her for that, every chance I get. I'd rather be a teary eyed, teddy bear, than a closed off, silent man who watches from the sidelines.
Back to point in hand... my Mom sat on the couch with her head held low. I sat next to her, and gave her a hug, embraced her, and she broke down. Subsequently, I did too...and did for most of the night. At 212 days quit... I felt like I was back at B.C Day 1. I honestly had a moment where I said "f it"... "I really don't care". I'm not proud to say that...but I did. I pondered calling each of my quit bros and asking for permission to cave. But, I knew what they'd say. I knew how I'd feel the day after. All that hard work, dedication, preaching...down the drain. So I didn't. Instead I text them. I spoke with them for most of the night. MonsterEMT and Sixer were my guardian angels that night. They listened... they gave advice... and I listened.
Today, my Grandma was put on hospice. Her time on Earth is dwindling by the minute. bronc, gave me some good advice today...and I'm still coming to grips with telling my grandma, "goodbye...it's ok to go now". Even typing that.. I have tears in my eyes. I'm not ready to say that..but I know it has to be done soon. Point is... it's ok to talk about personal things with other men. It's ok to shed...ok, cry like a man. It's what kept me quit. My Grandma would be proud to know that I'm 214 days quit today. She'd be giving me a lecture and disappointed if I caved because of something so natural as death. I've never dealt with death before. At 24, I'm blessed to not have had a family member die yet. Maybe this can help some noob, or someone in my shoes.
When I use to put "NAFAR" in some of my postings....I didn't stop and think what I was saying. Today, I realize just how "powerful" that is. Never Again For Any Reason... that includes you in your darkest hour, and your lowest point.
One foot in front of the other...and before long... I will have overcome this latest mountain.
Thanks for the support and guidance, my brothers and sisters.
THansen
I won't say to much because you have probably heard it......
I have seen and heard you grow since your quit began. Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends. Your grandma should be round of the man and quitter you have become. Quit hard.
Thanks for sharing TH. Quit hard EDD for your Grandma and all the other loved ones in your life...especially you.
Think about it...what would be a better way to honor your Grandma than living your life to the fullest without nicotine?
Sixer's comment is somewhat iconic...it illustrates the manner in which you have fostered an unbreakable foundation of quit.
Sixer writes, "Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends." If this isn't brotherhood, then I don't know what is. THansen, this is why you are here today posting another +1. Brotherhood, 50% of the success equation. Thank you for sharing and showing us why that there is never an ok reason to cave; many a caver has caved with far less stress on their shoulders than dealing with the deck of cards you've been dealt. I'm proud of you; we should all be proud of you.
THansen, you and I have not connected yet, but I am praying for you and your family. I went through much the same, but it was my mother that passed on Day 225 or so. It was my wife, and this place that got me through all of it. Lean on us.
If I can offer any help, please don't hesitate to ask.
Add me to the list of brothers here that are thinking and praying for you. You will make it thru this. Always remember....Dip made NOTHING better!
I'm quitting my ass of for you today!
-
I guess I've been secluding myself these past few days. I haven't been posting support in all the groups I use to. I haven't been in chat, like I use to. It's even been a struggle to post roll in the morning. Nobody outside of "The Epic 8" and my closest quit buddies know what's going on with me. I'm not sure why I haven't updated my intro until now...but I haven't. Maybe I wasn't ready to talk about it...maybe I was in denial. Whatever the case.. I owe my supporters an explanation. I also need to update my intro...no matter how painful this chapter in my quit book may be... it needs to be dealt with.
My Grandma's health has been on the decline for the past month. This is the Grandma who would watch me in the summertime, every summer. This is the Grandma who'd come to all my activities in school. Not because my other grandparents wouldn't. Just because she lived 3 blocks away from me. My other grandparents lived 3 hrs. This last Saturday...she suffered a devastating stroke. She now, eats 1 one meal a day..and that's on a good day. She no longer is able to talk, walk, move, etc. She is dependent on everyone else. On a good day, she may be awake for 2 hrs...and that's top. Just enough time for my Mom to spoon in blended food, and a supplement drink.
This finally became a reality to me this week. I visited her Monday, and tried profusely to wake her up. No luck. After we had got home, my Mom was very upset. My Dad, I love him, but he's a no show emotions guy. He'd rather sit and read his paper and watch the news than have to talk. I get my compassion, and tender heart from my Mom. I thank her for that, every chance I get. I'd rather be a teary eyed, teddy bear, than a closed off, silent man who watches from the sidelines.
Back to point in hand... my Mom sat on the couch with her head held low. I sat next to her, and gave her a hug, embraced her, and she broke down. Subsequently, I did too...and did for most of the night. At 212 days quit... I felt like I was back at B.C Day 1. I honestly had a moment where I said "f it"... "I really don't care". I'm not proud to say that...but I did. I pondered calling each of my quit bros and asking for permission to cave. But, I knew what they'd say. I knew how I'd feel the day after. All that hard work, dedication, preaching...down the drain. So I didn't. Instead I text them. I spoke with them for most of the night. MonsterEMT and Sixer were my guardian angels that night. They listened... they gave advice... and I listened.
Today, my Grandma was put on hospice. Her time on Earth is dwindling by the minute. bronc, gave me some good advice today...and I'm still coming to grips with telling my grandma, "goodbye...it's ok to go now". Even typing that.. I have tears in my eyes. I'm not ready to say that..but I know it has to be done soon. Point is... it's ok to talk about personal things with other men. It's ok to shed...ok, cry like a man. It's what kept me quit. My Grandma would be proud to know that I'm 214 days quit today. She'd be giving me a lecture and disappointed if I caved because of something so natural as death. I've never dealt with death before. At 24, I'm blessed to not have had a family member die yet. Maybe this can help some noob, or someone in my shoes.
When I use to put "NAFAR" in some of my postings....I didn't stop and think what I was saying. Today, I realize just how "powerful" that is. Never Again For Any Reason... that includes you in your darkest hour, and your lowest point.
One foot in front of the other...and before long... I will have overcome this latest mountain.
Thanks for the support and guidance, my brothers and sisters.
THansen
I won't say to much because you have probably heard it......
I have seen and heard you grow since your quit began. Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends. Your grandma should be round of the man and quitter you have become. Quit hard.
Thanks for sharing TH. Quit hard EDD for your Grandma and all the other loved ones in your life...especially you.
Think about it...what would be a better way to honor your Grandma than living your life to the fullest without nicotine?
Sixer's comment is somewhat iconic...it illustrates the manner in which you have fostered an unbreakable foundation of quit.
Sixer writes, "Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends." If this isn't brotherhood, then I don't know what is. THansen, this is why you are here today posting another +1. Brotherhood, 50% of the success equation. Thank you for sharing and showing us why that there is never an ok reason to cave; many a caver has caved with far less stress on their shoulders than dealing with the deck of cards you've been dealt. I'm proud of you; we should all be proud of you.
THansen, you and I have not connected yet, but I am praying for you and your family. I went through much the same, but it was my mother that passed on Day 225 or so. It was my wife, and this place that got me through all of it. Lean on us.
If I can offer any help, please don't hesitate to ask.
Add me to the list of brothers here that are thinking and praying for you. You will make it thru this. Always remember....Dip made NOTHING better!
I'm quitting my ass of for you today!
THansen you have always supported me bro, and you and your grandma are in my prayers. Way to use your KTC tools and staying quit, and I quit with you today.
-
I guess I've been secluding myself these past few days. I haven't been posting support in all the groups I use to. I haven't been in chat, like I use to. It's even been a struggle to post roll in the morning. Nobody outside of "The Epic 8" and my closest quit buddies know what's going on with me. I'm not sure why I haven't updated my intro until now...but I haven't. Maybe I wasn't ready to talk about it...maybe I was in denial. Whatever the case.. I owe my supporters an explanation. I also need to update my intro...no matter how painful this chapter in my quit book may be... it needs to be dealt with.
My Grandma's health has been on the decline for the past month. This is the Grandma who would watch me in the summertime, every summer. This is the Grandma who'd come to all my activities in school. Not because my other grandparents wouldn't. Just because she lived 3 blocks away from me. My other grandparents lived 3 hrs. This last Saturday...she suffered a devastating stroke. She now, eats 1 one meal a day..and that's on a good day. She no longer is able to talk, walk, move, etc. She is dependent on everyone else. On a good day, she may be awake for 2 hrs...and that's top. Just enough time for my Mom to spoon in blended food, and a supplement drink.
This finally became a reality to me this week. I visited her Monday, and tried profusely to wake her up. No luck. After we had got home, my Mom was very upset. My Dad, I love him, but he's a no show emotions guy. He'd rather sit and read his paper and watch the news than have to talk. I get my compassion, and tender heart from my Mom. I thank her for that, every chance I get. I'd rather be a teary eyed, teddy bear, than a closed off, silent man who watches from the sidelines.
Back to point in hand... my Mom sat on the couch with her head held low. I sat next to her, and gave her a hug, embraced her, and she broke down. Subsequently, I did too...and did for most of the night. At 212 days quit... I felt like I was back at B.C Day 1. I honestly had a moment where I said "f it"... "I really don't care". I'm not proud to say that...but I did. I pondered calling each of my quit bros and asking for permission to cave. But, I knew what they'd say. I knew how I'd feel the day after. All that hard work, dedication, preaching...down the drain. So I didn't. Instead I text them. I spoke with them for most of the night. MonsterEMT and Sixer were my guardian angels that night. They listened... they gave advice... and I listened.
Today, my Grandma was put on hospice. Her time on Earth is dwindling by the minute. bronc, gave me some good advice today...and I'm still coming to grips with telling my grandma, "goodbye...it's ok to go now". Even typing that.. I have tears in my eyes. I'm not ready to say that..but I know it has to be done soon. Point is... it's ok to talk about personal things with other men. It's ok to shed...ok, cry like a man. It's what kept me quit. My Grandma would be proud to know that I'm 214 days quit today. She'd be giving me a lecture and disappointed if I caved because of something so natural as death. I've never dealt with death before. At 24, I'm blessed to not have had a family member die yet. Maybe this can help some noob, or someone in my shoes.
When I use to put "NAFAR" in some of my postings....I didn't stop and think what I was saying. Today, I realize just how "powerful" that is. Never Again For Any Reason... that includes you in your darkest hour, and your lowest point.
One foot in front of the other...and before long... I will have overcome this latest mountain.
Thanks for the support and guidance, my brothers and sisters.
THansen
I won't say to much because you have probably heard it......
I have seen and heard you grow since your quit began. Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends. Your grandma should be round of the man and quitter you have become. Quit hard.
Thanks for sharing TH. Quit hard EDD for your Grandma and all the other loved ones in your life...especially you.
Think about it...what would be a better way to honor your Grandma than living your life to the fullest without nicotine?
Sixer's comment is somewhat iconic...it illustrates the manner in which you have fostered an unbreakable foundation of quit.
Sixer writes, "Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends." If this isn't brotherhood, then I don't know what is. THansen, this is why you are here today posting another +1. Brotherhood, 50% of the success equation. Thank you for sharing and showing us why that there is never an ok reason to cave; many a caver has caved with far less stress on their shoulders than dealing with the deck of cards you've been dealt. I'm proud of you; we should all be proud of you.
THansen, you and I have not connected yet, but I am praying for you and your family. I went through much the same, but it was my mother that passed on Day 225 or so. It was my wife, and this place that got me through all of it. Lean on us.
If I can offer any help, please don't hesitate to ask.
Add me to the list of brothers here that are thinking and praying for you. You will make it thru this. Always remember....Dip made NOTHING better!
I'm quitting my ass of for you today!
THansen you have always supported me bro, and you and your grandma are in my prayers. Way to use your KTC tools and staying quit, and I quit with you today.
I can't say anything other that. thanks for you and my June Bros.. and KTC.... for keeping me quit. I"m at rock bottom, but caving is never an option.
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Thoughts and prayers are definitely with you. I'll keep it short and leave the advice giving to those who are.in a better position to give it.
Just know that you make my quit stronger on a daily basis. Keep doing what you're doing. Quit with you EDD!
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I guess I've been secluding myself these past few days. I haven't been posting support in all the groups I use to. I haven't been in chat, like I use to. It's even been a struggle to post roll in the morning. Nobody outside of "The Epic 8" and my closest quit buddies know what's going on with me. I'm not sure why I haven't updated my intro until now...but I haven't. Maybe I wasn't ready to talk about it...maybe I was in denial. Whatever the case.. I owe my supporters an explanation. I also need to update my intro...no matter how painful this chapter in my quit book may be... it needs to be dealt with.
My Grandma's health has been on the decline for the past month. This is the Grandma who would watch me in the summertime, every summer. This is the Grandma who'd come to all my activities in school. Not because my other grandparents wouldn't. Just because she lived 3 blocks away from me. My other grandparents lived 3 hrs. This last Saturday...she suffered a devastating stroke. She now, eats 1 one meal a day..and that's on a good day. She no longer is able to talk, walk, move, etc. She is dependent on everyone else. On a good day, she may be awake for 2 hrs...and that's top. Just enough time for my Mom to spoon in blended food, and a supplement drink.
This finally became a reality to me this week. I visited her Monday, and tried profusely to wake her up. No luck. After we had got home, my Mom was very upset. My Dad, I love him, but he's a no show emotions guy. He'd rather sit and read his paper and watch the news than have to talk. I get my compassion, and tender heart from my Mom. I thank her for that, every chance I get. I'd rather be a teary eyed, teddy bear, than a closed off, silent man who watches from the sidelines.
Back to point in hand... my Mom sat on the couch with her head held low. I sat next to her, and gave her a hug, embraced her, and she broke down. Subsequently, I did too...and did for most of the night. At 212 days quit... I felt like I was back at B.C Day 1. I honestly had a moment where I said "f it"... "I really don't care". I'm not proud to say that...but I did. I pondered calling each of my quit bros and asking for permission to cave. But, I knew what they'd say. I knew how I'd feel the day after. All that hard work, dedication, preaching...down the drain. So I didn't. Instead I text them. I spoke with them for most of the night. MonsterEMT and Sixer were my guardian angels that night. They listened... they gave advice... and I listened.
Today, my Grandma was put on hospice. Her time on Earth is dwindling by the minute. bronc, gave me some good advice today...and I'm still coming to grips with telling my grandma, "goodbye...it's ok to go now". Even typing that.. I have tears in my eyes. I'm not ready to say that..but I know it has to be done soon. Point is... it's ok to talk about personal things with other men. It's ok to shed...ok, cry like a man. It's what kept me quit. My Grandma would be proud to know that I'm 214 days quit today. She'd be giving me a lecture and disappointed if I caved because of something so natural as death. I've never dealt with death before. At 24, I'm blessed to not have had a family member die yet. Maybe this can help some noob, or someone in my shoes.
When I use to put "NAFAR" in some of my postings....I didn't stop and think what I was saying. Today, I realize just how "powerful" that is. Never Again For Any Reason... that includes you in your darkest hour, and your lowest point.
One foot in front of the other...and before long... I will have overcome this latest mountain.
Thanks for the support and guidance, my brothers and sisters.
THansen
I won't say to much because you have probably heard it......
I have seen and heard you grow since your quit began. Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends. Your grandma should be round of the man and quitter you have become. Quit hard.
Thanks for sharing TH. Quit hard EDD for your Grandma and all the other loved ones in your life...especially you.
Think about it...what would be a better way to honor your Grandma than living your life to the fullest without nicotine?
Sixer's comment is somewhat iconic...it illustrates the manner in which you have fostered an unbreakable foundation of quit.
Sixer writes, "Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends." If this isn't brotherhood, then I don't know what is. THansen, this is why you are here today posting another +1. Brotherhood, 50% of the success equation. Thank you for sharing and showing us why that there is never an ok reason to cave; many a caver has caved with far less stress on their shoulders than dealing with the deck of cards you've been dealt. I'm proud of you; we should all be proud of you.
THansen, you and I have not connected yet, but I am praying for you and your family. I went through much the same, but it was my mother that passed on Day 225 or so. It was my wife, and this place that got me through all of it. Lean on us.
If I can offer any help, please don't hesitate to ask.
Add me to the list of brothers here that are thinking and praying for you. You will make it thru this. Always remember....Dip made NOTHING better!
I'm quitting my ass of for you today!
THansen you have always supported me bro, and you and your grandma are in my prayers. Way to use your KTC tools and staying quit, and I quit with you today.
I can't say anything other that. thanks for you and my June Bros.. and KTC.... for keeping me quit. I"m at rock bottom, but caving is never an option.
Rock bottom provides a solid place for you to start building on. Don't view it as a bottom, view it as you have found the bedrock upon which you can build. My thought and prayers are with you and yours my friend.
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I guess I've been secluding myself these past few days. I haven't been posting support in all the groups I use to. I haven't been in chat, like I use to. It's even been a struggle to post roll in the morning. Nobody outside of "The Epic 8" and my closest quit buddies know what's going on with me. I'm not sure why I haven't updated my intro until now...but I haven't. Maybe I wasn't ready to talk about it...maybe I was in denial. Whatever the case.. I owe my supporters an explanation. I also need to update my intro...no matter how painful this chapter in my quit book may be... it needs to be dealt with.
My Grandma's health has been on the decline for the past month. This is the Grandma who would watch me in the summertime, every summer. This is the Grandma who'd come to all my activities in school. Not because my other grandparents wouldn't. Just because she lived 3 blocks away from me. My other grandparents lived 3 hrs. This last Saturday...she suffered a devastating stroke. She now, eats 1 one meal a day..and that's on a good day. She no longer is able to talk, walk, move, etc. She is dependent on everyone else. On a good day, she may be awake for 2 hrs...and that's top. Just enough time for my Mom to spoon in blended food, and a supplement drink.
This finally became a reality to me this week. I visited her Monday, and tried profusely to wake her up. No luck. After we had got home, my Mom was very upset. My Dad, I love him, but he's a no show emotions guy. He'd rather sit and read his paper and watch the news than have to talk. I get my compassion, and tender heart from my Mom. I thank her for that, every chance I get. I'd rather be a teary eyed, teddy bear, than a closed off, silent man who watches from the sidelines.
Back to point in hand... my Mom sat on the couch with her head held low. I sat next to her, and gave her a hug, embraced her, and she broke down. Subsequently, I did too...and did for most of the night. At 212 days quit... I felt like I was back at B.C Day 1. I honestly had a moment where I said "f it"... "I really don't care". I'm not proud to say that...but I did. I pondered calling each of my quit bros and asking for permission to cave. But, I knew what they'd say. I knew how I'd feel the day after. All that hard work, dedication, preaching...down the drain. So I didn't. Instead I text them. I spoke with them for most of the night. MonsterEMT and Sixer were my guardian angels that night. They listened... they gave advice... and I listened.
Today, my Grandma was put on hospice. Her time on Earth is dwindling by the minute. bronc, gave me some good advice today...and I'm still coming to grips with telling my grandma, "goodbye...it's ok to go now". Even typing that.. I have tears in my eyes. I'm not ready to say that..but I know it has to be done soon. Point is... it's ok to talk about personal things with other men. It's ok to shed...ok, cry like a man. It's what kept me quit. My Grandma would be proud to know that I'm 214 days quit today. She'd be giving me a lecture and disappointed if I caved because of something so natural as death. I've never dealt with death before. At 24, I'm blessed to not have had a family member die yet. Maybe this can help some noob, or someone in my shoes.
When I use to put "NAFAR" in some of my postings....I didn't stop and think what I was saying. Today, I realize just how "powerful" that is. Never Again For Any Reason... that includes you in your darkest hour, and your lowest point.
One foot in front of the other...and before long... I will have overcome this latest mountain.
Thanks for the support and guidance, my brothers and sisters.
THansen
I won't say to much because you have probably heard it......
I have seen and heard you grow since your quit began. Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends. Your grandma should be round of the man and quitter you have become. Quit hard.
Thanks for sharing TH. Quit hard EDD for your Grandma and all the other loved ones in your life...especially you.
Think about it...what would be a better way to honor your Grandma than living your life to the fullest without nicotine?
Sixer's comment is somewhat iconic...it illustrates the manner in which you have fostered an unbreakable foundation of quit.
Sixer writes, "Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends." If this isn't brotherhood, then I don't know what is. THansen, this is why you are here today posting another +1. Brotherhood, 50% of the success equation. Thank you for sharing and showing us why that there is never an ok reason to cave; many a caver has caved with far less stress on their shoulders than dealing with the deck of cards you've been dealt. I'm proud of you; we should all be proud of you.
THansen, you and I have not connected yet, but I am praying for you and your family. I went through much the same, but it was my mother that passed on Day 225 or so. It was my wife, and this place that got me through all of it. Lean on us.
If I can offer any help, please don't hesitate to ask.
Add me to the list of brothers here that are thinking and praying for you. You will make it thru this. Always remember....Dip made NOTHING better!
I'm quitting my ass of for you today!
THansen you have always supported me bro, and you and your grandma are in my prayers. Way to use your KTC tools and staying quit, and I quit with you today.
I can't say anything other that. thanks for you and my June Bros.. and KTC.... for keeping me quit. I"m at rock bottom, but caving is never an option.
Rock bottom provides a solid place for you to start building on. Don't view it as a bottom, view it as you have found the bedrock upon which you can build. My thought and prayers are with you and yours my friend.
Hang tough bro. I understand how you feel.
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I guess I've been secluding myself these past few days. I haven't been posting support in all the groups I use to. I haven't been in chat, like I use to. It's even been a struggle to post roll in the morning. Nobody outside of "The Epic 8" and my closest quit buddies know what's going on with me. I'm not sure why I haven't updated my intro until now...but I haven't. Maybe I wasn't ready to talk about it...maybe I was in denial. Whatever the case.. I owe my supporters an explanation. I also need to update my intro...no matter how painful this chapter in my quit book may be... it needs to be dealt with.
My Grandma's health has been on the decline for the past month. This is the Grandma who would watch me in the summertime, every summer. This is the Grandma who'd come to all my activities in school. Not because my other grandparents wouldn't. Just because she lived 3 blocks away from me. My other grandparents lived 3 hrs. This last Saturday...she suffered a devastating stroke. She now, eats 1 one meal a day..and that's on a good day. She no longer is able to talk, walk, move, etc. She is dependent on everyone else. On a good day, she may be awake for 2 hrs...and that's top. Just enough time for my Mom to spoon in blended food, and a supplement drink.
This finally became a reality to me this week. I visited her Monday, and tried profusely to wake her up. No luck. After we had got home, my Mom was very upset. My Dad, I love him, but he's a no show emotions guy. He'd rather sit and read his paper and watch the news than have to talk. I get my compassion, and tender heart from my Mom. I thank her for that, every chance I get. I'd rather be a teary eyed, teddy bear, than a closed off, silent man who watches from the sidelines.
Back to point in hand... my Mom sat on the couch with her head held low. I sat next to her, and gave her a hug, embraced her, and she broke down. Subsequently, I did too...and did for most of the night. At 212 days quit... I felt like I was back at B.C Day 1. I honestly had a moment where I said "f it"... "I really don't care". I'm not proud to say that...but I did. I pondered calling each of my quit bros and asking for permission to cave. But, I knew what they'd say. I knew how I'd feel the day after. All that hard work, dedication, preaching...down the drain. So I didn't. Instead I text them. I spoke with them for most of the night. MonsterEMT and Sixer were my guardian angels that night. They listened... they gave advice... and I listened.
Today, my Grandma was put on hospice. Her time on Earth is dwindling by the minute. bronc, gave me some good advice today...and I'm still coming to grips with telling my grandma, "goodbye...it's ok to go now". Even typing that.. I have tears in my eyes. I'm not ready to say that..but I know it has to be done soon. Point is... it's ok to talk about personal things with other men. It's ok to shed...ok, cry like a man. It's what kept me quit. My Grandma would be proud to know that I'm 214 days quit today. She'd be giving me a lecture and disappointed if I caved because of something so natural as death. I've never dealt with death before. At 24, I'm blessed to not have had a family member die yet. Maybe this can help some noob, or someone in my shoes.
When I use to put "NAFAR" in some of my postings....I didn't stop and think what I was saying. Today, I realize just how "powerful" that is. Never Again For Any Reason... that includes you in your darkest hour, and your lowest point.
One foot in front of the other...and before long... I will have overcome this latest mountain.
Thanks for the support and guidance, my brothers and sisters.
THansen
I won't say to much because you have probably heard it......
I have seen and heard you grow since your quit began. Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends. Your grandma should be round of the man and quitter you have become. Quit hard.
Thanks for sharing TH. Quit hard EDD for your Grandma and all the other loved ones in your life...especially you.
Think about it...what would be a better way to honor your Grandma than living your life to the fullest without nicotine?
Sixer's comment is somewhat iconic...it illustrates the manner in which you have fostered an unbreakable foundation of quit.
Sixer writes, "Not only are you one of the most important people involved in my quit but you have become one of my close friends." If this isn't brotherhood, then I don't know what is. THansen, this is why you are here today posting another +1. Brotherhood, 50% of the success equation. Thank you for sharing and showing us why that there is never an ok reason to cave; many a caver has caved with far less stress on their shoulders than dealing with the deck of cards you've been dealt. I'm proud of you; we should all be proud of you.
THansen, you and I have not connected yet, but I am praying for you and your family. I went through much the same, but it was my mother that passed on Day 225 or so. It was my wife, and this place that got me through all of it. Lean on us.
If I can offer any help, please don't hesitate to ask.
Add me to the list of brothers here that are thinking and praying for you. You will make it thru this. Always remember....Dip made NOTHING better!
I'm quitting my ass of for you today!
THansen you have always supported me bro, and you and your grandma are in my prayers. Way to use your KTC tools and staying quit, and I quit with you today.
I can't say anything other that. thanks for you and my June Bros.. and KTC.... for keeping me quit. I"m at rock bottom, but caving is never an option.
Rock bottom provides a solid place for you to start building on. Don't view it as a bottom, view it as you have found the bedrock upon which you can build. My thought and prayers are with you and yours my friend.
Hang tough bro. I understand how you feel.
Tyler, I know we've talked ... and I know we've texted. I wanted to add my support here as well. Thinking of you, proud of you, and quit with you.
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Hey TH.
Quitting with you. Let's go. We hit the low points. We hit them hard sometimes. I need you to reach up and grab my hand and take this support.
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Happy Birthday THansen!!
'boob' 'BanDog' 'Y' 'band' 'wave' 'party' 'dance' 'party2' 'chew2' 'booby' 'Birthday'
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Happy Birthday THansen!!
'boob' 'BanDog' 'Y' 'band' 'wave' 'party' 'dance' 'party2' 'chew2' 'booby' 'Birthday'
Sweet, will there be cake? HB bro!
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Happy Birthday THansen!!
'boob' 'BanDog' 'Y' 'band' 'wave' 'party' 'dance' 'party2' 'chew2' 'booby' 'Birthday'
Sweet, will there be cake? HB bro!
I'll bring the strippers. Happy Birthday TH!
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Happy Birthday THansen!!
'boob' 'BanDog' 'Y' 'band' 'wave' 'party' 'dance' 'party2' 'chew2' 'booby' 'Birthday'
Sweet, will there be cake? HB bro!
I'll bring the strippers. Happy Birthday TH!
Hope itÂ’s a memorable one, TH! 'oh yeah'
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Happy Birthday THansen!!
'boob' 'BanDog' 'Y' 'band' 'wave' 'party' 'dance' 'party2' 'chew2' 'booby' 'Birthday'
Sweet, will there be cake? HB bro!
I'll bring the strippers. Happy Birthday TH!
Hope itÂ’s a memorable one, TH! 'oh yeah'
Have a great nicotine free birthday TH.
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Happy Birthday THansen!!
'boob' 'BanDog' 'Y' 'band' 'wave' 'party' 'dance' 'party2' 'chew2' 'booby' 'Birthday'
Sweet, will there be cake? HB bro!
I'll bring the strippers. Happy Birthday TH!
Hope itÂ’s a memorable one, TH! 'oh yeah'
Have a great nicotine free birthday TH.
You all are too kind! Thank you.
This isn't my first birthday without nicotine. It is however my first birthday QUIT!
Thank you all for not only impacting my quit, but my life.
TH
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Happy Birthday THansen!!
'boob' 'BanDog' 'Y' 'band' 'wave' 'party' 'dance' 'party2' 'chew2' 'booby' 'Birthday'
Sweet, will there be cake? HB bro!
I'll bring the strippers. Happy Birthday TH!
Hope itÂ’s a memorable one, TH! 'oh yeah'
Have a great nicotine free birthday TH.
You all are too kind! Thank you.
This isn't my first birthday without nicotine. It is however my first birthday QUIT!
Thank you all for not only impacting my quit, but my life.
TH
Hope you had a kick ass 25th birthday, bro.
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Happy Birthday THansen!!
'boob' 'BanDog' 'Y' 'band' 'wave' 'party' 'dance' 'party2' 'chew2' 'booby' 'Birthday'
Sweet, will there be cake? HB bro!
I'll bring the strippers. Happy Birthday TH!
Hope itÂ’s a memorable one, TH! 'oh yeah'
Have a great nicotine free birthday TH.
You all are too kind! Thank you.
This isn't my first birthday without nicotine. It is however my first birthday QUIT!
Thank you all for not only impacting my quit, but my life.
TH
Hope you had a kick ass 25th birthday, bro.
Happy Birthday, TH -- hope you had a great day, and look forward to wishing you many more nic-free b'day tidings in the future!
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- Day 257 -
I had what I'd call a, "learning experience" today. Or maybe a glimpse into the past, and my failures of staying quit prior to KTC. Today was just a tiring, stressful day at work. Most people get a reprieve during the fall and winter months, but not me. Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, and then Easter are my busiest times at work. Today, I unloaded and sorted 2 pallets of frozen turkeys. I weighed and packaged a 120 lbs of pollock for a special order. I made 160 lbs of assorted pork... (ground pork, pork sausage, and Italian sausage). Oh, and I had to keep 2 meat cases full of assorted cuts of beef, pork, and chicken. I was working a man down today. The helper I did have, just started 3 days ago. The perfect storm was brewing.
In a blink of an eye, I was 2 hrs behind schedule. Customers were damn near beating down my door wondering, "if we had anymore hamburger", or "could you cut me a smaller roast? These are all too big". By 11 am, I just threw down my knife and went to lunch. I needed an escape. Everything that could go wrong, was going wrong. Anything anybody said, or did raised my anxiety and temper. Dipping crossed my mind, but that's all it did. Much like getting lucky with Carrie Underwood crosses my mind, it's not a realistic option. Neither is dipping.
It's little, pity situations like that, that would have caved me in the past. You may be reading this and thinking, "Ha, what a joke this guy is. If he thinks that's a stressful day, I'd hate to see him walk a mile in my shoes". You're probably right. It wasn't that bad of day. It allowed me to see how addicts rely on "situations" to justify their addiction. We are all guilty of being whiners, complainers, bitchy, etc. It's what we used to justify our addiction.
Quitting takes some heavy balls, or ovaries for our female quitters. At the end of the day, we have to look at ourselves in the mirror and be honest with ourselves.
Today, I was whiny and felt sorry for myself. I let everyday life get under my skin. I identified that prior to being quit, this would have been a day I would have caved. I can go to bed tonight, proud and feeling accomplished. Not only for my quit, but for me as a person.
I won today.
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- Day 257 -
I had what I'd call a, "learning experience" today. Or maybe a glimpse into the past, and my failures of staying quit prior to KTC. Today was just a tiring, stressful day at work. Most people get a reprieve during the fall and winter months, but not me. Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, and then Easter are my busiest times at work. Today, I unloaded and sorted 2 pallets of frozen turkeys. I weighed and packaged a 120 lbs of pollock for a special order. I made 160 lbs of assorted pork... (ground pork, pork sausage, and Italian sausage). Oh, and I had to keep 2 meat cases full of assorted cuts of beef, pork, and chicken. I was working a man down today. The helper I did have, just started 3 days ago. The perfect storm was brewing.
In a blink of an eye, I was 2 hrs behind schedule. Customers were damn near beating down my door wondering, "if we had anymore hamburger", or "could you cut me a smaller roast? These are all too big". By 11 am, I just threw down my knife and went to lunch. I needed an escape. Everything that could go wrong, was going wrong. Anything anybody said, or did raised my anxiety and temper. Dipping crossed my mind, but that's all it did. Much like getting lucky with Carrie Underwood crosses my mind, it's not a realistic option. Neither is dipping.
It's little, pity situations like that, that would have caved me in the past. You may be reading this and thinking, "Ha, what a joke this guy is. If he thinks that's a stressful day, I'd hate to see him walk a mile in my shoes". You're probably right. It wasn't that bad of day. It allowed me to see how addicts rely on "situations" to justify their addiction. We are all guilty of being whiners, complainers, bitchy, etc. It's what we used to justify our addiction.
Quitting takes some heavy balls, or ovaries for our female quitters. At the end of the day, we have to look at ourselves in the mirror and be honest with ourselves.
Today, I was whiny and felt sorry for myself. I let everyday life get under my skin. I identified that prior to being quit, this would have been a day I would have caved. I can go to bed tonight, proud and feeling accomplished. Not only for my quit, but for me as a person.
I won today.
Giggity Giggity Thansen!
Sounds like a stressful day to me. You are killing it my man.
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- Day 257 -
I had what I'd call a, "learning experience" today. Or maybe a glimpse into the past, and my failures of staying quit prior to KTC. Today was just a tiring, stressful day at work. Most people get a reprieve during the fall and winter months, but not me. Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, and then Easter are my busiest times at work. Today, I unloaded and sorted 2 pallets of frozen turkeys. I weighed and packaged a 120 lbs of pollock for a special order. I made 160 lbs of assorted pork... (ground pork, pork sausage, and Italian sausage). Oh, and I had to keep 2 meat cases full of assorted cuts of beef, pork, and chicken. I was working a man down today. The helper I did have, just started 3 days ago. The perfect storm was brewing.
In a blink of an eye, I was 2 hrs behind schedule. Customers were damn near beating down my door wondering, "if we had anymore hamburger", or "could you cut me a smaller roast? These are all too big". By 11 am, I just threw down my knife and went to lunch. I needed an escape. Everything that could go wrong, was going wrong. Anything anybody said, or did raised my anxiety and temper. Dipping crossed my mind, but that's all it did. Much like getting lucky with Carrie Underwood crosses my mind, it's not a realistic option. Neither is dipping.
It's little, pity situations like that, that would have caved me in the past. You may be reading this and thinking, "Ha, what a joke this guy is. If he thinks that's a stressful day, I'd hate to see him walk a mile in my shoes". You're probably right. It wasn't that bad of day. It allowed me to see how addicts rely on "situations" to justify their addiction. We are all guilty of being whiners, complainers, bitchy, etc. It's what we used to justify our addiction.
Quitting takes some heavy balls, or ovaries for our female quitters. At the end of the day, we have to look at ourselves in the mirror and be honest with ourselves.
Today, I was whiny and felt sorry for myself. I let everyday life get under my skin. I identified that prior to being quit, this would have been a day I would have caved. I can go to bed tonight, proud and feeling accomplished. Not only for my quit, but for me as a person.
I won today.
Giggity Giggity Thansen!
Sounds like a stressful day to me. You are killing it my man.
Nice win Tyler, actually ... 257 of them in a row!!
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Once upon a time, not so long ago...
A young man was dying a slow death. He'd poison himself from sun up, to sun down all because he needed his fix. He heard pleas of agony from the ones who cared the most, to just stop poisoning himself. "If only I could", he said. Destined for a life of poor health, empty accounts, and a gut full of regret...the young man accepted his painful demise. A life without a tongue, a cheek, a jaw, and then death.... "Oh well, I guess that's mine".
Call it fate, luck, or destiny in regards to what happened next. A cold February night, will turn out to be the best. Like a moth to the light, this young man was attracted to this site. Chuck full of hard nosed, seasoned quitters who told him, "you can do this". He wasn't treated special, or was fed false hope....he did however realize, "what could it hurt"?
The young man signed up, and dove head first. He followed the recipe and honored his word. He quickly realized this place was full of personalities... but aren't most? Ignoring the hot air, and sucking up the knowledge, the young man crushed through his early days. It wasn't without trial and error, and slippery steps, but his brothers made sure he didn't disappear.
Now well beyond the glitz and glamour of the Hall of Fame days, the young man sees an army at war. It's different this time, though. Instead of fighting this poison, this army is torn. Who is the victim in this conflict? Is it you? Is it me? Or is it some unknown? The young man thinks, it's everyone, both young and old.
The young man is not discouraged at what he sees. For he, himself is free. But what about the future, what do they see? A place of full of personalities that is as unbecoming to them, as it would have been for me? The recipe has never changed, and I'm thankful for that. Tough love and respect, is what worked for me.
The young man, which turns out to be me, is quietly quitting.... do you see?
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Once upon a time, not so long ago...
A young man was dying a slow death. He'd poison himself from sun up, to sun down all because he needed his fix. He heard pleas of agony from the ones who cared the most, to just stop poisoning himself. "If only I could", he said. Destined for a life of poor health, empty accounts, and a gut full of regret...the young man accepted his painful demise. A life without a tongue, a cheek, a jaw, and then death.... "Oh well, I guess that's mine".
Call it fate, luck, or destiny in regards to what happened next. A cold February night, will turn out to be the best. Like a moth to the light, this young man was attracted to this site. Chuck full of hard nosed, seasoned quitters who told him, "you can do this". He wasn't treated special, or was fed false hope....he did however realize, "what could it hurt"?
The young man signed up, and dove head first. He followed the recipe and honored his word. He quickly realized this place was full of personalities... but aren't most? Ignoring the hot air, and sucking up the knowledge, the young man crushed through his early days. It wasn't without trial and error, and slippery steps, but his brothers made sure he didn't disappear.
Now well beyond the glitz and glamour of the Hall of Fame days, the young man sees an army at war. It's different this time, though. Instead of fighting this poison, this army is torn. Who is the victim in this conflict? Is it you? Is it me? Or is it some unknown? The young man thinks, it's everyone, both young and old.
The young man is not discouraged at what he sees. For he, himself is free. But what about the future, what do they see? A place of full of personalities that is as unbecoming to them, as it would have been for me? The recipe has never changed, and I'm thankful for that. Tough love and respect, is what worked for me.
The young man, which turns out to be me, is quietly quitting.... do you see?
BAM! Love me some quit poetry.
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Once upon a time, not so long ago...
A young man was dying a slow death. He'd poison himself from sun up, to sun down all because he needed his fix. He heard pleas of agony from the ones who cared the most, to just stop poisoning himself. "If only I could", he said. Destined for a life of poor health, empty accounts, and a gut full of regret...the young man accepted his painful demise. A life without a tongue, a cheek, a jaw, and then death.... "Oh well, I guess that's mine".
Call it fate, luck, or destiny in regards to what happened next. A cold February night, will turn out to be the best. Like a moth to the light, this young man was attracted to this site. Chuck full of hard nosed, seasoned quitters who told him, "you can do this". He wasn't treated special, or was fed false hope....he did however realize, "what could it hurt"?
The young man signed up, and dove head first. He followed the recipe and honored his word. He quickly realized this place was full of personalities... but aren't most? Ignoring the hot air, and sucking up the knowledge, the young man crushed through his early days. It wasn't without trial and error, and slippery steps, but his brothers made sure he didn't disappear.
Now well beyond the glitz and glamour of the Hall of Fame days, the young man sees an army at war. It's different this time, though. Instead of fighting this poison, this army is torn. Who is the victim in this conflict? Is it you? Is it me? Or is it some unknown? The young man thinks, it's everyone, both young and old.
The young man is not discouraged at what he sees. For he, himself is free. But what about the future, what do they see? A place of full of personalities that is as unbecoming to them, as it would have been for me? The recipe has never changed, and I'm thankful for that. Tough love and respect, is what worked for me.
The young man, which turns out to be me, is quietly quitting.... do you see?
BAM! Love me some quit poetry.
Yeah Thansen, I see...
I see a thoughtful young man that gave us his first promise to keep nic out of his body 290 days ago. And he has repeated that everyday since. Taking what he needs, and leaving the rest. You get it. Proud to be quit with you.
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Once upon a time, not so long ago...
A young man was dying a slow death. He'd poison himself from sun up, to sun down all because he needed his fix. He heard pleas of agony from the ones who cared the most, to just stop poisoning himself. "If only I could", he said. Destined for a life of poor health, empty accounts, and a gut full of regret...the young man accepted his painful demise. A life without a tongue, a cheek, a jaw, and then death.... "Oh well, I guess that's mine".
Call it fate, luck, or destiny in regards to what happened next. A cold February night, will turn out to be the best. Like a moth to the light, this young man was attracted to this site. Chuck full of hard nosed, seasoned quitters who told him, "you can do this". He wasn't treated special, or was fed false hope....he did however realize, "what could it hurt"?
The young man signed up, and dove head first. He followed the recipe and honored his word. He quickly realized this place was full of personalities... but aren't most? Ignoring the hot air, and sucking up the knowledge, the young man crushed through his early days. It wasn't without trial and error, and slippery steps, but his brothers made sure he didn't disappear.
Now well beyond the glitz and glamour of the Hall of Fame days, the young man sees an army at war. It's different this time, though. Instead of fighting this poison, this army is torn. Who is the victim in this conflict? Is it you? Is it me? Or is it some unknown? The young man thinks, it's everyone, both young and old.
The young man is not discouraged at what he sees. For he, himself is free. But what about the future, what do they see? A place of full of personalities that is as unbecoming to them, as it would have been for me? The recipe has never changed, and I'm thankful for that. Tough love and respect, is what worked for me.
The young man, which turns out to be me, is quietly quitting.... do you see?
BAM! Love me some quit poetry.
Yeah Thansen, I see...
I see a thoughtful young man that gave us his first promise to keep nic out of his body 290 days ago. And he has repeated that everyday since. Taking what he needs, and leaving the rest. You get it. Proud to be quit with you.
Nice. Damn. Quitting.
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Once upon a time, not so long ago...
A young man was dying a slow death. He'd poison himself from sun up, to sun down all because he needed his fix. He heard pleas of agony from the ones who cared the most, to just stop poisoning himself. "If only I could", he said. Destined for a life of poor health, empty accounts, and a gut full of regret...the young man accepted his painful demise. A life without a tongue, a cheek, a jaw, and then death.... "Oh well, I guess that's mine".
Call it fate, luck, or destiny in regards to what happened next. A cold February night, will turn out to be the best. Like a moth to the light, this young man was attracted to this site. Chuck full of hard nosed, seasoned quitters who told him, "you can do this". He wasn't treated special, or was fed false hope....he did however realize, "what could it hurt"?
The young man signed up, and dove head first. He followed the recipe and honored his word. He quickly realized this place was full of personalities... but aren't most? Ignoring the hot air, and sucking up the knowledge, the young man crushed through his early days. It wasn't without trial and error, and slippery steps, but his brothers made sure he didn't disappear.
Now well beyond the glitz and glamour of the Hall of Fame days, the young man sees an army at war. It's different this time, though. Instead of fighting this poison, this army is torn. Who is the victim in this conflict? Is it you? Is it me? Or is it some unknown? The young man thinks, it's everyone, both young and old.
The young man is not discouraged at what he sees. For he, himself is free. But what about the future, what do they see? A place of full of personalities that is as unbecoming to them, as it would have been for me? The recipe has never changed, and I'm thankful for that. Tough love and respect, is what worked for me.
The young man, which turns out to be me, is quietly quitting.... do you see?
BAM! Love me some quit poetry.
Yeah Thansen, I see...
I see a thoughtful young man that gave us his first promise to keep nic out of his body 290 days ago. And he has repeated that everyday since. Taking what he needs, and leaving the rest. You get it. Proud to be quit with you.
Nice. Damn. Quitting.
Keep kicking that bitch's ass. That's all that matters.
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Once upon a time, not so long ago...
A young man was dying a slow death. He'd poison himself from sun up, to sun down all because he needed his fix. He heard pleas of agony from the ones who cared the most, to just stop poisoning himself. "If only I could", he said. Destined for a life of poor health, empty accounts, and a gut full of regret...the young man accepted his painful demise. A life without a tongue, a cheek, a jaw, and then death.... "Oh well, I guess that's mine".
Call it fate, luck, or destiny in regards to what happened next. A cold February night, will turn out to be the best. Like a moth to the light, this young man was attracted to this site. Chuck full of hard nosed, seasoned quitters who told him, "you can do this". He wasn't treated special, or was fed false hope....he did however realize, "what could it hurt"?
The young man signed up, and dove head first. He followed the recipe and honored his word. He quickly realized this place was full of personalities... but aren't most? Ignoring the hot air, and sucking up the knowledge, the young man crushed through his early days. It wasn't without trial and error, and slippery steps, but his brothers made sure he didn't disappear.
Now well beyond the glitz and glamour of the Hall of Fame days, the young man sees an army at war. It's different this time, though. Instead of fighting this poison, this army is torn. Who is the victim in this conflict? Is it you? Is it me? Or is it some unknown? The young man thinks, it's everyone, both young and old.
The young man is not discouraged at what he sees. For he, himself is free. But what about the future, what do they see? A place of full of personalities that is as unbecoming to them, as it would have been for me? The recipe has never changed, and I'm thankful for that. Tough love and respect, is what worked for me.
The young man, which turns out to be me, is quietly quitting.... do you see?
BAM! Love me some quit poetry.
Yeah Thansen, I see...
I see a thoughtful young man that gave us his first promise to keep nic out of his body 290 days ago. And he has repeated that everyday since. Taking what he needs, and leaving the rest. You get it. Proud to be quit with you.
Nice. Damn. Quitting.
Keep kicking that bitch's ass. That's all that matters.
I'd rather hear poems about Nantucket, but your's is good too.
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Once upon a time, not so long ago...
A young man was dying a slow death. He'd poison himself from sun up, to sun down all because he needed his fix. He heard pleas of agony from the ones who cared the most, to just stop poisoning himself. "If only I could", he said. Destined for a life of poor health, empty accounts, and a gut full of regret...the young man accepted his painful demise. A life without a tongue, a cheek, a jaw, and then death.... "Oh well, I guess that's mine".
Call it fate, luck, or destiny in regards to what happened next. A cold February night, will turn out to be the best. Like a moth to the light, this young man was attracted to this site. Chuck full of hard nosed, seasoned quitters who told him, "you can do this". He wasn't treated special, or was fed false hope....he did however realize, "what could it hurt"?
The young man signed up, and dove head first. He followed the recipe and honored his word. He quickly realized this place was full of personalities... but aren't most? Ignoring the hot air, and sucking up the knowledge, the young man crushed through his early days. It wasn't without trial and error, and slippery steps, but his brothers made sure he didn't disappear.
Now well beyond the glitz and glamour of the Hall of Fame days, the young man sees an army at war. It's different this time, though. Instead of fighting this poison, this army is torn. Who is the victim in this conflict? Is it you? Is it me? Or is it some unknown? The young man thinks, it's everyone, both young and old.
The young man is not discouraged at what he sees. For he, himself is free. But what about the future, what do they see? A place of full of personalities that is as unbecoming to them, as it would have been for me? The recipe has never changed, and I'm thankful for that. Tough love and respect, is what worked for me.
The young man, which turns out to be me, is quietly quitting.... do you see?
BAM! Love me some quit poetry.
Yeah Thansen, I see...
I see a thoughtful young man that gave us his first promise to keep nic out of his body 290 days ago. And he has repeated that everyday since. Taking what he needs, and leaving the rest. You get it. Proud to be quit with you.
Nice. Damn. Quitting.
Keep kicking that bitch's ass. That's all that matters.
I'd rather hear poems about Nantucket, but your's is good too.
....and loving what we see. Nice work!
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'dance' 'clap' CONGRATS ON 300 Brother! 'clap' 'dance'
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'dance' 'clap' CONGRATS ON 300 Brother! 'clap' 'dance'
Nice 3 bagger THansen. You're as solid as they make em.
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'dance' 'clap' CONGRATS ON 300 Brother! 'clap' 'dance'
Nice 3 bagger THansen. You're as solid as they make em.
Way to take back your freedom Thansen. Congrats! 'wave' 'party2'
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'dance' 'clap' CONGRATS ON 300 Brother! 'clap' 'dance'
Nice 3 bagger THansen. You're as solid as they make em.
Way to take back your freedom Thansen. Congrats! 'wave' 'party2'
Congrats on the third floor!! Keep on keepin on.
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'dance' 'clap' CONGRATS ON 300 Brother! 'clap' 'dance'
Nice 3 bagger THansen. You're as solid as they make em.
Way to take back your freedom Thansen. Congrats! 'wave' 'party2'
Congrats on the third floor!! Keep on keepin on.
I want to thank everyone who has wished me well on my 300th day of quit! I never would have been able to make it this far without the help of all of you. I had originally told my parents I'd treat them to dinner and drinks tonight (simply because I hurt no one else more than me, than my parents by using nicotine). They surprised me by making reservations at my favorite Mexican restaurant in honor of me! So, I'm off for shrimp fajitas and margaritas/cervezas! Keep on quitting KTC, you're winning the battle ODAAT.
TH
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'dance' 'clap' CONGRATS ON 300 Brother! 'clap' 'dance'
Nice 3 bagger THansen. You're as solid as they make em.
Way to take back your freedom Thansen. Congrats! 'wave' 'party2'
Congrats on the third floor!! Keep on keepin on.
I want to thank everyone who has wished me well on my 300th day of quit! I never would have been able to make it this far without the help of all of you. I had originally told my parents I'd treat them to dinner and drinks tonight (simply because I hurt no one else more than me, than my parents by using nicotine). They surprised me by making reservations at my favorite Mexican restaurant in honor of me! So, I'm off for shrimp fajitas and margaritas/cervezas! Keep on quitting KTC, you're winning the battle ODAAT.
TH
Lots of wisdom in this guy at 24/25 years. I was very much still sowing oats and didn't give a rat's ass about self improvement. Find a good girl, have some kids. You'll be a great dad.
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'dance' 'clap' CONGRATS ON 300 Brother! 'clap' 'dance'
Nice 3 bagger THansen. You're as solid as they make em.
Way to take back your freedom Thansen. Congrats! 'wave' 'party2'
Congrats on the third floor!! Keep on keepin on.
I want to thank everyone who has wished me well on my 300th day of quit! I never would have been able to make it this far without the help of all of you. I had originally told my parents I'd treat them to dinner and drinks tonight (simply because I hurt no one else more than me, than my parents by using nicotine). They surprised me by making reservations at my favorite Mexican restaurant in honor of me! So, I'm off for shrimp fajitas and margaritas/cervezas! Keep on quitting KTC, you're winning the battle ODAAT.
TH
Lots of wisdom in this guy at 24/25 years. I was very much still sowing oats and didn't give a rat's ass about self improvement. Find a good girl, have some kids. You'll be a great dad.
Congrats, TH! Welcome to the 3rd floor.
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'dance' 'clap' CONGRATS ON 300 Brother! 'clap' 'dance'
Nice 3 bagger THansen. You're as solid as they make em.
Way to take back your freedom Thansen. Congrats! 'wave' 'party2'
Congrats on the third floor!! Keep on keepin on.
I want to thank everyone who has wished me well on my 300th day of quit! I never would have been able to make it this far without the help of all of you. I had originally told my parents I'd treat them to dinner and drinks tonight (simply because I hurt no one else more than me, than my parents by using nicotine). They surprised me by making reservations at my favorite Mexican restaurant in honor of me! So, I'm off for shrimp fajitas and margaritas/cervezas! Keep on quitting KTC, you're winning the battle ODAAT.
TH
Lots of wisdom in this guy at 24/25 years. I was very much still sowing oats and didn't give a rat's ass about self improvement. Find a good girl, have some kids. You'll be a great dad.
Congrats, TH! Welcome to the 3rd floor.
Sorry I am late bro, you are the man! Thank you for your support!
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The following was quoted from a co worker of mine. She posted this on Facebook, shortly after I posted a picture of myself on Facebook, enjoying a dinner and drinks, with my HOF coin and 200 day chip in the shocker position on my 300th day quit.
Many would argue smoking cigarettes kills. I however strongly feel that it saves lives,....of others, that come near me. Although I'm consuming thousands of molecules of cancerous poisons, making my skin age more quickly, yellowing my teeth and nails, blackening my lungs, etc etc etc. Don't hate on a smoker. I'm tired of the JUDGING. I do not judge if you choose to binge on chocolate, or if your vise is going on shopping sprees! People do things. People have addictions. Whether it's buying a 20 oz pop everyday, a favorite pack of gum, or a carton of cigarettes! In the end we will all end up 6 ft under, if you're not a smoker AWESOME!!!!! If you were a smoker and quit, CONGRATULATIONS, if you're still a smoker - ITS OKAY! Nobody is perfect. Stay humble. *End of rant.
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This is addict talk. This is weak talk. This is bitch talk. Was it a fluke she posted this 2 hrs after I flaunted my quit, possibly.Judging by her ignorance of me today, my initial feelings where true. She's jealous of my freedom.
I'm posting this for guests visiting this site ( and maybe some members who are struggling). Read the quoted paragraph. This is what weak ass addicts say. They make excuses. They justify why they use. "Life is unfair to me". "My boss is annoying". "I'm under a lot of stress". To which I respond, "Me and everyone else too!"
I could really go on and on about everything that's wrong with her post...but I won't. Read her post...evaluate what you want to achieve... and quit. Once and for all. Own up. Man up. Girl up. Quit. There is nothing "cool" about using.
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The following was quoted from a co worker of mine. She posted this on Facebook, shortly after I posted a picture of myself on Facebook, enjoying a dinner and drinks, with my HOF coin and 200 day chip in the shocker position on my 300th day quit.
Many would argue smoking cigarettes kills. I however strongly feel that it saves lives,....of others, that come near me. Although I'm consuming thousands of molecules of cancerous poisons, making my skin age more quickly, yellowing my teeth and nails, blackening my lungs, etc etc etc. Don't hate on a smoker. I'm tired of the JUDGING. I do not judge if you choose to binge on chocolate, or if your vise is going on shopping sprees! People do things. People have addictions. Whether it's buying a 20 oz pop everyday, a favorite pack of gum, or a carton of cigarettes! In the end we will all end up 6 ft under, if you're not a smoker AWESOME!!!!! If you were a smoker and quit, CONGRATULATIONS, if you're still a smoker - ITS OKAY! Nobody is perfect. Stay humble. *End of rant.
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This is addict talk. This is weak talk. This is bitch talk. Was it a fluke she posted this 2 hrs after I flaunted my quit, possibly.Judging by her ignorance of me today, my initial feelings where true. She's jealous of my freedom.
I'm posting this for guests visiting this site ( and maybe some members who are struggling). Read the quoted paragraph. This is what weak ass addicts say. They make excuses. They justify why they use. "Life is unfair to me". "My boss is annoying". "I'm under a lot of stress". To which I respond, "Me and everyone else too!"
I could really go on and on about everything that's wrong with her post...but I won't. Read her post...evaluate what you want to achieve... and quit. Once and for all. Own up. Man up. Girl up. Quit. There is nothing "cool" about using.
Thanks for posting. Yep. It's pure justification. It's easier for her to do this than to face the addiction. She is too ashamed to admit to herself that she is addicted.
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The following was quoted from a co worker of mine. She posted this on Facebook, shortly after I posted a picture of myself on Facebook, enjoying a dinner and drinks, with my HOF coin and 200 day chip in the shocker position on my 300th day quit.
Many would argue smoking cigarettes kills. I however strongly feel that it saves lives,....of others, that come near me. Although I'm consuming thousands of molecules of cancerous poisons, making my skin age more quickly, yellowing my teeth and nails, blackening my lungs, etc etc etc. Don't hate on a smoker. I'm tired of the JUDGING. I do not judge if you choose to binge on chocolate, or if your vise is going on shopping sprees! People do things. People have addictions. Whether it's buying a 20 oz pop everyday, a favorite pack of gum, or a carton of cigarettes! In the end we will all end up 6 ft under, if you're not a smoker AWESOME!!!!! If you were a smoker and quit, CONGRATULATIONS, if you're still a smoker - ITS OKAY! Nobody is perfect. Stay humble. *End of rant.
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This is addict talk. This is weak talk. This is bitch talk. Was it a fluke she posted this 2 hrs after I flaunted my quit, possibly.Judging by her ignorance of me today, my initial feelings where true. She's jealous of my freedom.
I'm posting this for guests visiting this site ( and maybe some members who are struggling). Read the quoted paragraph. This is what weak ass addicts say. They make excuses. They justify why they use. "Life is unfair to me". "My boss is annoying". "I'm under a lot of stress". To which I respond, "Me and everyone else too!"
I could really go on and on about everything that's wrong with her post...but I won't. Read her post...evaluate what you want to achieve... and quit. Once and for all. Own up. Man up. Girl up. Quit. There is nothing "cool" about using.
I think the reason this hits home for me is because I was her once too.. I would lie to myself also.. really thats what being a nicotine addict is.. Nobody's perfect indeed, but some of us choose to take the red pill and embrace reality.. While others are happy to take the blue pill and remain a slave (sorry for the matrix reference)
It may be worth noting to her that
Smoking kills more people than alcohol, AIDS, car accidents, illegal drugs, murders, and suicides combined, with thousands more dying from spit tobacco use. Of the roughly 260,000 kids who become new regular, daily smokers each year, almost a third will ultimately die from it. In addition, smokers lose a decade of life because of their smoking.
But then again its on the side of every pack she buys also..
I am glad you are quit THansen, you are a BAQ and I am happy to post roll here with you..
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Congrats on the full year! You are a bad-ass quitter, keep rolling those +1's bro!
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Congrats on the full year! You are a bad-ass quitter, keep rolling those +1's bro!
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365!
Bad ass April Ape supporter, congratulations!
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Awesome. Way to go. I stand in awe of a full year. http://www.picgifs.com/smileys/s (http://www.picgifs.com/smileys/s)[/url]
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A year is awesome, nicely done!
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A year is awesome, nicely done!
Way to go TH!! You built a great quit- thanks for sharing and for helping me with mine by being around here for it! I hope you stay active, keep helping others- you're a great quitter!
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A year is awesome, nicely done!
Way to go TH!! You built a great quit- thanks for sharing and for helping me with mine by being around here for it! I hope you stay active, keep helping others- you're a great quitter!
Crap, I missed this. Way to be Thansen. One year is a HUGE deal! Right in the ass indeed! 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah'
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A year is awesome, nicely done!
Way to go TH!! You built a great quit- thanks for sharing and for helping me with mine by being around here for it! I hope you stay active, keep helping others- you're a great quitter!
Crap, I missed this. Way to be Thansen. One year is a HUGE deal! Right in the ass indeed! 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah'
Yes. Great accomplishment from a badass. Keep it up.
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A year is awesome, nicely done!
Way to go TH!! You built a great quit- thanks for sharing and for helping me with mine by being around here for it! I hope you stay active, keep helping others- you're a great quitter!
Crap, I missed this. Way to be Thansen. One year is a HUGE deal! Right in the ass indeed! 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah'
Yes. Great accomplishment from a badass. Keep it up.
Damn I know you're proud, he'll I'm proud for you! 1 year dip free probably added 10 years to your life! Congrats brother quit with you today!
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My family got involved with Relay For Life 12 years ago. This has become a near and dear organization to us as my Mom has lived with incurable Non Hodgkins Lymphoma for the last 12 years. For those unfamiliar with Relay For Life, it can best be summed up as an all night walk, fundraiser that helps those who are currently going through Chemo treatments, cancer research, and raising awareness to this awful disease.
How and where do the proceeds go? Donations are made to Team Members (I'm on my Mom's team) and 100% of the donations stay local. For me, that means they stay in Southeast Minnesota. I live about 45 min from Rochester, home of the Mayo Clinic. So this has a real impact on not only local fighters, but national cancer patients as well. Donations will be used locally for gas cards for those traveling to treatments, wigs for those who have lost their hair, gift cards for food, and of course the bulk going to cancer research locally.
How can you donate? Donations can be sent to me, with funds being made out to The American Cancer society. It's not a competition per say, but more of a friendly rivalry between the local teams. Last year, our county raised $100,000 between the 20 some teams!
Options for donations.
1. A straight monetary donation.
2. Luminaries - $10 a piece or 3/$25 these are white bags that line the walking track with either a survivors name, or the name of someone who lost the battle. They all have a candle in them and when the sun goes down, they are lit. I get emotional every time I see those bags lit.
3. Cancer Fact Signs - These are signs that line the track. They have great cancer facts, detection warnings, helpful advice etc professionally printed on them. As well as your name, or business organization on the bottom. Great way to advertise a business while spreading knowledge on this terrible disease. Prices are 1 sign = $100 3 signs = $250 6 signs = $400
4. T-Shirt Sponsorship - Every team member gets a shirt automatically. Close to 1500 people. This option would allow your company logo and name to be printed on the back of EVERY SHIRT. You aren't purchasing shirts to people, you're purchasing a sponsorship on the shirt with your donation going to The American Cancer Society.
I have decided that I'm setting a lofty, but very achievable goal. If I can raise $1,500 from all of you badasses on here, I will shave my head to honor cancer patients. Please share this within your groups if you feel compelled. All inquires can be PM'd to myself and I will give you an address to send donations. If my goal is achieved, photo proof will be sent to Kill The Can Facebook page, and killthecan.org. Thanks so much for reading and considering this. Any amount will help!
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My family got involved with Relay For Life 12 years ago. This has become a near and dear organization to us as my Mom has lived with incurable Non Hodgkins Lymphoma for the last 12 years. For those unfamiliar with Relay For Life, it can best be summed up as an all night walk, fundraiser that helps those who are currently going through Chemo treatments, cancer research, and raising awareness to this awful disease.
How and where do the proceeds go? Donations are made to Team Members (I'm on my Mom's team) and 100% of the donations stay local. For me, that means they stay in Southeast Minnesota. I live about 45 min from Rochester, home of the Mayo Clinic. So this has a real impact on not only local fighters, but national cancer patients as well. Donations will be used locally for gas cards for those traveling to treatments, wigs for those who have lost their hair, gift cards for food, and of course the bulk going to cancer research locally.
How can you donate? Donations can be sent to me, with funds being made out to The American Cancer society. It's not a competition per say, but more of a friendly rivalry between the local teams. Last year, our county raised $100,000 between the 20 some teams!
Options for donations.
1. A straight monetary donation.
2. Luminaries - $10 a piece or 3/$25 these are white bags that line the walking track with either a survivors name, or the name of someone who lost the battle. They all have a candle in them and when the sun goes down, they are lit. I get emotional every time I see those bags lit.
3. Cancer Fact Signs - These are signs that line the track. They have great cancer facts, detection warnings, helpful advice etc professionally printed on them. As well as your name, or business organization on the bottom. Great way to advertise a business while spreading knowledge on this terrible disease. Prices are 1 sign = $100 3 signs = $250 6 signs = $400
4. T-Shirt Sponsorship - Every team member gets a shirt automatically. Close to 1500 people. This option would allow your company logo and name to be printed on the back of EVERY SHIRT. You aren't purchasing shirts to people, you're purchasing a sponsorship on the shirt with your donation going to The American Cancer Society.
I have decided that I'm setting a lofty, but very achievable goal. If I can raise $1,500 from all of you badasses on here, I will shave my head to honor cancer patients. Please share this within your groups if you feel compelled. All inquires can be PM'd to myself and I will give you an address to send donations. If my goal is achieved, photo proof will be sent to Kill The Can Facebook page, and killthecan.org. Thanks so much for reading and considering this. Any amount will help!
Thanks for reading and considering. Now shoot me a PM or ignore, and let's get back to helping the new quitters!
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Just wanted to share something with the community here.
Last night I went out with some friends to a local bar. It was within walking distance so I gleefully tagged along. Sipping, chugging, and sipping some more alcoholic beverages as the night progressed. Judgement was impaired, but I wasn't shitfaced. Legally drunk, yes, drunk and sloppy, no. Anyway, I'm sitting at a table with 2 other friends and a another friend comes up to our table and starts talking. He had saw that I recently surpassed 400 days quit and was kind of joking about it. He's a major addict, both nic and alcohol so I didn't think much of it. Next thing I know he takes out his can of poison and puts one in, closes the lid, and starts to pass it my way and offers me one. Of course, quit tools kicked in and i just laughed it off and told him to get that fucking thing out of my face. Which he did.
Point of this is this, to someone who's 400+ days in, this is a minor speed bump, a minor reminder. To those who just quit, this could have been a cave. This is why we preach to be aware of alcohol early on, and your surroundings. The bitch is always working through mysterious ways to get back into your life. Are you gonna tell her to take a cab? Or come on in for dessert?
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Just wanted to share something with the community here.
Last night I went out with some friends to a local bar. It was within walking distance so I gleefully tagged along. Sipping, chugging, and sipping some more alcoholic beverages as the night progressed. Judgement was impaired, but I wasn't shitfaced. Legally drunk, yes, drunk and sloppy, no. Anyway, I'm sitting at a table with 2 other friends and a another friend comes up to our table and starts talking. He had saw that I recently surpassed 400 days quit and was kind of joking about it. He's a major addict, both nic and alcohol so I didn't think much of it. Next thing I know he takes out his can of poison and puts one in, closes the lid, and starts to pass it my way and offers me one. Of course, quit tools kicked in and i just laughed it off and told him to get that fucking thing out of my face. Which he did.
Point of this is this, to someone who's 400+ days in, this is a minor speed bump, a minor reminder. To those who just quit, this could have been a cave. This is why we preach to be aware of alcohol early on, and your surroundings. The bitch is always working through mysterious ways to get back into your life. Are you gonna tell her to take a cab? Or come on in for dessert?
Offer once, I say no. Offer twice I dump his can on the ground and stomp on it.
Nice job Tyler. People can be real assholes.
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Just wanted to share something with the community here.
Last night I went out with some friends to a local bar. It was within walking distance so I gleefully tagged along. Sipping, chugging, and sipping some more alcoholic beverages as the night progressed. Judgement was impaired, but I wasn't shitfaced. Legally drunk, yes, drunk and sloppy, no. Anyway, I'm sitting at a table with 2 other friends and a another friend comes up to our table and starts talking. He had saw that I recently surpassed 400 days quit and was kind of joking about it. He's a major addict, both nic and alcohol so I didn't think much of it. Next thing I know he takes out his can of poison and puts one in, closes the lid, and starts to pass it my way and offers me one. Of course, quit tools kicked in and i just laughed it off and told him to get that fucking thing out of my face. Which he did.
Point of this is this, to someone who's 400+ days in, this is a minor speed bump, a minor reminder. To those who just quit, this could have been a cave. This is why we preach to be aware of alcohol early on, and your surroundings. The bitch is always working through mysterious ways to get back into your life. Are you gonna tell her to take a cab? Or come on in for dessert?
Offer once, I say no. Offer twice I dump his can on the ground and stomp on it.
Nice job Tyler. People can be real assholes.
Thanks for that Thansen. What would have done us in early on is an easy Fuck Off at +400 days from all we have learned here.
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Complacent quits = Bad quits
I'm not real sure how to start this off, so I'll just start typing from the cuff...
I had a pretty big setback in my quit this week. On Monday night, with work off Tuesday, I decided to pick up a fifth of Fireball Whiskey. I didn't have any limit set in stone to how much I would drink, so one chug, turned into 4, and that turned into me finishing off the fifth over the course of a late afternoon/evening/night. I stayed up until probably 3 am that night. Listening to music, looking at old pictures, and sulking over things that I either, A) could control, or B) couldn't control. Either way, getting drunk off my ass, alone in my bedroom, wasn't going to fix either of those options. I woke up the next morning, and as one of my close quit buddies put it, "wagged the dogs tail." I started drinking about 11 am, and it carried on throughout the day again. This time, a fifth of vodka over the late morning/afternoon/evening.
Tuesday was a bad day. I posted roll, but in my drunken, depressive state I went out and bought a can of poison. I was no doubt going to dip that night. I had made my mind up. I was willing to throw away 480 odd days of being quit, betray my quit brothers, and as I put it "come back better and stronger". It pains me to type those words even today. I guess luckily for me, as most drunks are, they like to text and or talk. Look for attention as sick as it may be. I sent a text out to my 10 quit friends.....no, my quit brothers and it read, "I'm fucking up guys". Luck was in my corner as one of them called me not more than 2 minutes later. I came clean to him that I had bought a can, and was romanticizing dip and nicotine. He gave me a loving, hard nosed talk and put his chips on the table with me. He made me flush my unopened can, and then proceeded to relay to the group that I had bought a can, and everyone should call me. They did just that. I took a few calls from different brothers and they reiterated what a bad choice this would be. That led to a conference call with all of us on the line. I listened, and honestly only remember chunks of that call but what I got was sheer concern, and brotherly advice. After I got off the phone, I continued to text with them. Looking back on those texts I sent, pained me. I was disrespectful to a few of them. Said things I wouldn't have said even on my worst day sober. I then proceeded to jump on chat and talk with the people who were on there. Again, and I'm sorry, I only remember fragments of that time spent on chat. What I'm most sorry about with chat, is I drew the attention away from new quitters. Quitters who were struggling in their first week, first month. For those who reached out to me that night, I know SirNope and Nolaq were on the forefront, thank you.
It's taken me 3 days to get back to feeling "normal" from my alcohol binge. Alcohol is a real bitch. It's left me unmotivated and apathetic for the 3 days. So for 3 days I've been picking up the pieces from my choices I made.
So why share this story with all of you? Some I know, some I don't. Because complacent quits will bite your ass every damn time. I learned today, one of those brothers who I talked with on the phone Wednesday, lost his 100% posting status yesterday. You can say, "Well, he should have double checked or reached out if he had doubts on his roll call." To which I respond, "Maybe, but we are our brothers keepers". Roll post is great. This site is great. But at the end of the day, if you don't have a connection on a deeper level, a bond if you will, with your quit brothers you are absolutely going to fail. I posted roll that morning, I bounced around on here that day, but even in doing those two things I was going to dip. What good are you doing posting your name on that line, if you aren't promising it and connecting to someone you sincerely care about? Someone who is going to go into battle with you.
So for myself, less than 20 days from 500 days quit, it's time to get back to the basics. It's time to connect with someone who is struggling, or someone who just quit. It's a reminder to myself also, that you're never cured from this addiction. It's always going to rear it's filthy head when you're at your lowest point or your judgment is impaired. I forgot for two days why I quit in the first place. I did something I said I'd never do again. I bought a can and donated $7 to UST. I'm so thankful and grateful, I didn't break my ultimate promise. My promise to never dip again. NAFAR.
Stay strong, reach out, make friendships, and stay quit. It's the only option we have in our lives as addicts.
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Glad you're still quit. But it sounds like you better get your shit together. No excuses for failure.
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Glad you're still quit. But it sounds like you better get your shit together. No excuses for failure.
Sounds like another addiction may be knocking at your door and that evil has the nic bitch in tow. With that said, TH thank you for sharing that. I've only been quit a mere 2 months longer than you and that story makes quitting every day just as real now as it was for us 18 months ago. In those 18 months we have all read about 400+ day cavers - some 3 year+ caves and in all those stories there was one consistency. They stopped posting roll. However, that is not you. And because you continue to post roll, you were able to have the wherewithal through the fog of a booze bender to reach out to your quit brothers. That was huge, and clearly, you just received the full wrath of brotherhood. I commend you for that and I commend your brothers for saving your life on that day.
Message to all, post roll. Always.
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Glad you're still quit. But it sounds like you better get your shit together. No excuses for failure.
Sounds like another addiction may be knocking at your door and that evil has the nic bitch in tow. With that said, TH thank you for sharing that. I've only been quit a mere 2 months longer than you and that story makes quitting every day just as real now as it was for us 18 months ago. In those 18 months we have all read about 400+ day cavers - some 3 year+ caves and in all those stories there was one consistency. They stopped posting roll. However, that is not you. And because you continue to post roll, you were able to have the wherewithal through the fog of a booze bender to reach out to your quit brothers. That was huge, and clearly, you just received the full wrath of brotherhood. I commend you for that and I commend your brothers for saving your life on that day.
Message to all, post roll. Always.
Thank you for sharing this.
None of us is invincible. As an individual, in fact, we are weak at times when dealing with this addiction. As a team we are strong. The only people who cave after hof are those who stop posting roll...which is the basis of the team quit.
I know this sounds crazy, but there is still more upside from where you are. Unfortunately there are sometimes cravings too. So what... You've got your team in place.
Proud to quit with you today sir.
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Glad you're still quit. But it sounds like you better get your shit together. No excuses for failure.
Sounds like another addiction may be knocking at your door and that evil has the nic bitch in tow. With that said, TH thank you for sharing that. I've only been quit a mere 2 months longer than you and that story makes quitting every day just as real now as it was for us 18 months ago. In those 18 months we have all read about 400+ day cavers - some 3 year+ caves and in all those stories there was one consistency. They stopped posting roll. However, that is not you. And because you continue to post roll, you were able to have the wherewithal through the fog of a booze bender to reach out to your quit brothers. That was huge, and clearly, you just received the full wrath of brotherhood. I commend you for that and I commend your brothers for saving your life on that day.
Message to all, post roll. Always.
Thank you for sharing this.
None of us is invincible. As an individual, in fact, we are weak at times when dealing with this addiction. As a team we are strong. The only people who cave after hof are those who stop posting roll...which is the basis of the team quit.
I know this sounds crazy, but there is still more upside from where you are. Unfortunately there are sometimes cravings too. So what... You've got your team in place.
Proud to quit with you today sir.
ADDICTION! Strong word, comes in many forms. Some people choose to try and beat whatever there addiction is and others choose to simply give up and usually die. But not you my friend, had it not been for what I will say out of habit, being on ktc every day, in your drunken state of mind you would have packed that fatty. Hey is getting drunk worth it. To me it causes more damage than nic, we not only hurt ourselves but the ones we love also. Happy Father's day still nic free!
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Glad you're still quit. But it sounds like you better get your shit together. No excuses for failure.
Sounds like another addiction may be knocking at your door and that evil has the nic bitch in tow. With that said, TH thank you for sharing that. I've only been quit a mere 2 months longer than you and that story makes quitting every day just as real now as it was for us 18 months ago. In those 18 months we have all read about 400+ day cavers - some 3 year+ caves and in all those stories there was one consistency. They stopped posting roll. However, that is not you. And because you continue to post roll, you were able to have the wherewithal through the fog of a booze bender to reach out to your quit brothers. That was huge, and clearly, you just received the full wrath of brotherhood. I commend you for that and I commend your brothers for saving your life on that day.
Message to all, post roll. Always.
Thank you for sharing this.
None of us is invincible. As an individual, in fact, we are weak at times when dealing with this addiction. As a team we are strong. The only people who cave after hof are those who stop posting roll...which is the basis of the team quit.
I know this sounds crazy, but there is still more upside from where you are. Unfortunately there are sometimes cravings too. So what... You've got your team in place.
Proud to quit with you today sir.
ADDICTION! Strong word, comes in many forms. Some people choose to try and beat whatever there addiction is and others choose to simply give up and usually die. But not you my friend, had it not been for what I will say out of habit, being on ktc every day, in your drunken state of mind you would have packed that fatty. Hey is getting drunk worth it. To me it causes more damage than nic, we not only hurt ourselves but the ones we love also. Happy Father's day still nic free!
Stay strong TH, you are a solid dude.
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Congrats on half a comma today Thansen. You are quite the badass quitter! Keep it up Brother! 'oh yeah' 'party2'
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Congrats on you're 2 years quit!
That's strong quittin there.
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Congrats on you're 2 years quit!
That's strong quittin there.
Oooh lalala....so fancy! Atta baby TH!!! Congrats friend!!
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Congrats on you're 2 years quit!
That's strong quittin there.
Oooh lalala....so fancy! Atta baby TH!!! Congrats friend!!
Ahhh gee whiz :$ thanks you two!
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Congrats on you're 2 years quit!
That's strong quittin there.
Oooh lalala....so fancy! Atta baby TH!!! Congrats friend!!
Ahhh gee whiz :$ thanks you two!
Just to ruin the picture, I'll jump in here. Congrats on 2 years bro and thanks for your support.
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Complacent quits = Bad quits
I'm not real sure how to start this off, so I'll just start typing from the cuff...
I had a pretty big setback in my quit this week. On Monday night, with work off Tuesday, I decided to pick up a fifth of Fireball Whiskey. I didn't have any limit set in stone to how much I would drink, so one chug, turned into 4, and that turned into me finishing off the fifth over the course of a late afternoon/evening/night. I stayed up until probably 3 am that night. Listening to music, looking at old pictures, and sulking over things that I either, A) could control, or B) couldn't control. Either way, getting drunk off my ass, alone in my bedroom, wasn't going to fix either of those options. I woke up the next morning, and as one of my close quit buddies put it, "wagged the dogs tail." I started drinking about 11 am, and it carried on throughout the day again. This time, a fifth of vodka over the late morning/afternoon/evening.
Tuesday was a bad day. I posted roll, but in my drunken, depressive state I went out and bought a can of poison. I was no doubt going to dip that night. I had made my mind up. I was willing to throw away 480 odd days of being quit, betray my quit brothers, and as I put it "come back better and stronger". It pains me to type those words even today. I guess luckily for me, as most drunks are, they like to text and or talk. Look for attention as sick as it may be. I sent a text out to my 10 quit friends.....no, my quit brothers and it read, "I'm fucking up guys". Luck was in my corner as one of them called me not more than 2 minutes later. I came clean to him that I had bought a can, and was romanticizing dip and nicotine. He gave me a loving, hard nosed talk and put his chips on the table with me. He made me flush my unopened can, and then proceeded to relay to the group that I had bought a can, and everyone should call me. They did just that. I took a few calls from different brothers and they reiterated what a bad choice this would be. That led to a conference call with all of us on the line. I listened, and honestly only remember chunks of that call but what I got was sheer concern, and brotherly advice. After I got off the phone, I continued to text with them. Looking back on those texts I sent, pained me. I was disrespectful to a few of them. Said things I wouldn't have said even on my worst day sober. I then proceeded to jump on chat and talk with the people who were on there. Again, and I'm sorry, I only remember fragments of that time spent on chat. What I'm most sorry about with chat, is I drew the attention away from new quitters. Quitters who were struggling in their first week, first month. For those who reached out to me that night, I know SirNope and Nolaq were on the forefront, thank you.
It's taken me 3 days to get back to feeling "normal" from my alcohol binge. Alcohol is a real bitch. It's left me unmotivated and apathetic for the 3 days. So for 3 days I've been picking up the pieces from my choices I made.
So why share this story with all of you? Some I know, some I don't. Because complacent quits will bite your ass every damn time. I learned today, one of those brothers who I talked with on the phone Wednesday, lost his 100% posting status yesterday. You can say, "Well, he should have double checked or reached out if he had doubts on his roll call." To which I respond, "Maybe, but we are our brothers keepers". Roll post is great. This site is great. But at the end of the day, if you don't have a connection on a deeper level, a bond if you will, with your quit brothers you are absolutely going to fail. I posted roll that morning, I bounced around on here that day, but even in doing those two things I was going to dip. What good are you doing posting your name on that line, if you aren't promising it and connecting to someone you sincerely care about? Someone who is going to go into battle with you.
So for myself, less than 20 days from 500 days quit, it's time to get back to the basics. It's time to connect with someone who is struggling, or someone who just quit. It's a reminder to myself also, that you're never cured from this addiction. It's always going to rear it's filthy head when you're at your lowest point or your judgment is impaired. I forgot for two days why I quit in the first place. I did something I said I'd never do again. I bought a can and donated $7 to UST. I'm so thankful and grateful, I didn't break my ultimate promise. My promise to never dip again. NAFAR.
Stay strong, reach out, make friendships, and stay quit. It's the only option we have in our lives as addicts.
This bullshit above is when I knew you were gone. It was inevitable before you once again thought nothing of your brothers, nor of your promise. I know June '14 has taken a big hit due to your cave ... but what the fuck do you care. 3 years, thrown away. I imagine you'll blame it on the demon alcohol ... but drunken actions reflect sober thoughts. You never really took full ownership of what it means to be quit ... you just regurgitated what you read on this site, thinking that made you quit. You've been jonesing for that can since the above post. Your only acknowledgement was to waltz into June, and remove your name from scroll. SMH
I hope your soda quit is still intact.
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Complacent quits = Bad quits
I'm not real sure how to start this off, so I'll just start typing from the cuff...
I had a pretty big setback in my quit this week. On Monday night, with work off Tuesday, I decided to pick up a fifth of Fireball Whiskey. I didn't have any limit set in stone to how much I would drink, so one chug, turned into 4, and that turned into me finishing off the fifth over the course of a late afternoon/evening/night. I stayed up until probably 3 am that night. Listening to music, looking at old pictures, and sulking over things that I either, A) could control, or B) couldn't control. Either way, getting drunk off my ass, alone in my bedroom, wasn't going to fix either of those options. I woke up the next morning, and as one of my close quit buddies put it, "wagged the dogs tail." I started drinking about 11 am, and it carried on throughout the day again. This time, a fifth of vodka over the late morning/afternoon/evening.
Tuesday was a bad day. I posted roll, but in my drunken, depressive state I went out and bought a can of poison. I was no doubt going to dip that night. I had made my mind up. I was willing to throw away 480 odd days of being quit, betray my quit brothers, and as I put it "come back better and stronger". It pains me to type those words even today. I guess luckily for me, as most drunks are, they like to text and or talk. Look for attention as sick as it may be. I sent a text out to my 10 quit friends.....no, my quit brothers and it read, "I'm fucking up guys". Luck was in my corner as one of them called me not more than 2 minutes later. I came clean to him that I had bought a can, and was romanticizing dip and nicotine. He gave me a loving, hard nosed talk and put his chips on the table with me. He made me flush my unopened can, and then proceeded to relay to the group that I had bought a can, and everyone should call me. They did just that. I took a few calls from different brothers and they reiterated what a bad choice this would be. That led to a conference call with all of us on the line. I listened, and honestly only remember chunks of that call but what I got was sheer concern, and brotherly advice. After I got off the phone, I continued to text with them. Looking back on those texts I sent, pained me. I was disrespectful to a few of them. Said things I wouldn't have said even on my worst day sober. I then proceeded to jump on chat and talk with the people who were on there. Again, and I'm sorry, I only remember fragments of that time spent on chat. What I'm most sorry about with chat, is I drew the attention away from new quitters. Quitters who were struggling in their first week, first month. For those who reached out to me that night, I know SirNope and Nolaq were on the forefront, thank you.
It's taken me 3 days to get back to feeling "normal" from my alcohol binge. Alcohol is a real bitch. It's left me unmotivated and apathetic for the 3 days. So for 3 days I've been picking up the pieces from my choices I made.
So why share this story with all of you? Some I know, some I don't. Because complacent quits will bite your ass every damn time. I learned today, one of those brothers who I talked with on the phone Wednesday, lost his 100% posting status yesterday. You can say, "Well, he should have double checked or reached out if he had doubts on his roll call." To which I respond, "Maybe, but we are our brothers keepers". Roll post is great. This site is great. But at the end of the day, if you don't have a connection on a deeper level, a bond if you will, with your quit brothers you are absolutely going to fail. I posted roll that morning, I bounced around on here that day, but even in doing those two things I was going to dip. What good are you doing posting your name on that line, if you aren't promising it and connecting to someone you sincerely care about? Someone who is going to go into battle with you.
So for myself, less than 20 days from 500 days quit, it's time to get back to the basics. It's time to connect with someone who is struggling, or someone who just quit. It's a reminder to myself also, that you're never cured from this addiction. It's always going to rear it's filthy head when you're at your lowest point or your judgment is impaired. I forgot for two days why I quit in the first place. I did something I said I'd never do again. I bought a can and donated $7 to UST. I'm so thankful and grateful, I didn't break my ultimate promise. My promise to never dip again. NAFAR.
Stay strong, reach out, make friendships, and stay quit. It's the only option we have in our lives as addicts.
This bullshit above is when I knew you were gone. It was inevitable before you once again thought nothing of your brothers, nor of your promise. I know June '14 has taken a big hit due to your cave ... but what the fuck do you care. 3 years, thrown away. I imagine you'll blame it on the demon alcohol ... but drunken actions reflect sober thoughts. You never really took full ownership of what it means to be quit ... you just regurgitated what you read on this site, thinking that made you quit. You've been jonesing for that can since the above post. Your only acknowledgement was to waltz into June, and remove your name from scroll. SMH
I hope your soda quit is still intact.
FUCK. That's all I have to say right now.
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Just wanted to share something with the community here.
Last night I went out with some friends to a local bar. It was within walking distance so I gleefully tagged along. Sipping, chugging, and sipping some more alcoholic beverages as the night progressed. Judgement was impaired, but I wasn't shitfaced. Legally drunk, yes, drunk and sloppy, no. Anyway, I'm sitting at a table with 2 other friends and a another friend comes up to our table and starts talking. He had saw that I recently surpassed 400 days quit and was kind of joking about it. He's a major addict, both nic and alcohol so I didn't think much of it. Next thing I know he takes out his can of poison and puts one in, closes the lid, and starts to pass it my way and offers me one. Of course, quit tools kicked in and i just laughed it off and told him to get that fucking thing out of my face. Which he did.
Point of this is this, to someone who's 400+ days in, this is a minor speed bump, a minor reminder. To those who just quit, this could have been a cave. This is why we preach to be aware of alcohol early on, and your surroundings. The bitch is always working through mysterious ways to get back into your life. Are you gonna tell her to take a cab? Or come on in for dessert?
What happened to this quitter?
Very disappointing.
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Complacent quits = Bad quits
I'm not real sure how to start this off, so I'll just start typing from the cuff...
I had a pretty big setback in my quit this week. On Monday night, with work off Tuesday, I decided to pick up a fifth of Fireball Whiskey. I didn't have any limit set in stone to how much I would drink, so one chug, turned into 4, and that turned into me finishing off the fifth over the course of a late afternoon/evening/night. I stayed up until probably 3 am that night. Listening to music, looking at old pictures, and sulking over things that I either, A) could control, or B) couldn't control. Either way, getting drunk off my ass, alone in my bedroom, wasn't going to fix either of those options. I woke up the next morning, and as one of my close quit buddies put it, "wagged the dogs tail." I started drinking about 11 am, and it carried on throughout the day again. This time, a fifth of vodka over the late morning/afternoon/evening.
Tuesday was a bad day. I posted roll, but in my drunken, depressive state I went out and bought a can of poison. I was no doubt going to dip that night. I had made my mind up. I was willing to throw away 480 odd days of being quit, betray my quit brothers, and as I put it "come back better and stronger". It pains me to type those words even today. I guess luckily for me, as most drunks are, they like to text and or talk. Look for attention as sick as it may be. I sent a text out to my 10 quit friends.....no, my quit brothers and it read, "I'm fucking up guys". Luck was in my corner as one of them called me not more than 2 minutes later. I came clean to him that I had bought a can, and was romanticizing dip and nicotine. He gave me a loving, hard nosed talk and put his chips on the table with me. He made me flush my unopened can, and then proceeded to relay to the group that I had bought a can, and everyone should call me. They did just that. I took a few calls from different brothers and they reiterated what a bad choice this would be. That led to a conference call with all of us on the line. I listened, and honestly only remember chunks of that call but what I got was sheer concern, and brotherly advice. After I got off the phone, I continued to text with them. Looking back on those texts I sent, pained me. I was disrespectful to a few of them. Said things I wouldn't have said even on my worst day sober. I then proceeded to jump on chat and talk with the people who were on there. Again, and I'm sorry, I only remember fragments of that time spent on chat. What I'm most sorry about with chat, is I drew the attention away from new quitters. Quitters who were struggling in their first week, first month. For those who reached out to me that night, I know SirNope and Nolaq were on the forefront, thank you.
It's taken me 3 days to get back to feeling "normal" from my alcohol binge. Alcohol is a real bitch. It's left me unmotivated and apathetic for the 3 days. So for 3 days I've been picking up the pieces from my choices I made.
So why share this story with all of you? Some I know, some I don't. Because complacent quits will bite your ass every damn time. I learned today, one of those brothers who I talked with on the phone Wednesday, lost his 100% posting status yesterday. You can say, "Well, he should have double checked or reached out if he had doubts on his roll call." To which I respond, "Maybe, but we are our brothers keepers". Roll post is great. This site is great. But at the end of the day, if you don't have a connection on a deeper level, a bond if you will, with your quit brothers you are absolutely going to fail. I posted roll that morning, I bounced around on here that day, but even in doing those two things I was going to dip. What good are you doing posting your name on that line, if you aren't promising it and connecting to someone you sincerely care about? Someone who is going to go into battle with you.
So for myself, less than 20 days from 500 days quit, it's time to get back to the basics. It's time to connect with someone who is struggling, or someone who just quit. It's a reminder to myself also, that you're never cured from this addiction. It's always going to rear it's filthy head when you're at your lowest point or your judgment is impaired. I forgot for two days why I quit in the first place. I did something I said I'd never do again. I bought a can and donated $7 to UST. I'm so thankful and grateful, I didn't break my ultimate promise. My promise to never dip again. NAFAR.
Stay strong, reach out, make friendships, and stay quit. It's the only option we have in our lives as addicts.
This bullshit above is when I knew you were gone. It was inevitable before you once again thought nothing of your brothers, nor of your promise. I know June '14 has taken a big hit due to your cave ... but what the fuck do you care. 3 years, thrown away. I imagine you'll blame it on the demon alcohol ... but drunken actions reflect sober thoughts. You never really took full ownership of what it means to be quit ... you just regurgitated what you read on this site, thinking that made you quit. You've been jonesing for that can since the above post. Your only acknowledgement was to waltz into June, and remove your name from scroll. SMH
I hope your soda quit is still intact.
FUCK. That's all I have to say right now.
I was the one who made that initial call he mentioned above. It was at this point that I knew this guy cared only about himself. I'm also the guy who organized and sent flowers to your family when your grandmother died. I'm also the guy who took time away from my infant son when you were having one of your drunken temper tantrums. Think about that you FUCK ASS, I took time away from my crying kid to deal with your flunky ass. You are a selfish piece of shit who's not worthy of this site or those who quit every day. Enjoy your cancer weed fuck head. 'Finger'
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Call me an old fool, but other than removing himself from roll how do we know he caved - unless me told someone, then duh of course.
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Call me an old fool, but other than removing himself from roll how do we know he caved - unless me told someone, then duh of course.
He confessed to a couple members of the saloon.
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Call me an old fool, but other than removing himself from roll how do we know he caved - unless me told someone, then duh of course.
He confessed to a couple members of the saloon.
OIC, thanks! Quit on bro (and June 2014) nothing to see here.
The dude in my avi thinks caving sucks THansen.
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Unreal.
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Call me an old fool, but other than removing himself from roll how do we know he caved - unless me told someone, then duh of course.
He confessed to a couple members of the saloon.
OIC, thanks! Quit on bro (and June 2014) nothing to see here.
The dude in my avi thinks caving sucks THansen.
That avatar! Perfect.
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Call me an old fool, but other than removing himself from roll how do we know he caved - unless me told someone, then duh of course.
He confessed to a couple members of the saloon.
OIC, thanks! Quit on bro (and June 2014) nothing to see here.
The dude in my avi thinks caving sucks THansen.
That avatar! Perfect.
Newbies are gonna read this and think... damn after 3 years... it is still this hard???
No, it isn't.
Imagine being on a team, a football team, and fighting hard to win every game you played for 3 years. Every game. Sometimes you got the living shit kicked out of you. Sometimes your teammates did. Bloodied noses. Broken arms. Knees jammed into the family jewels. But you kept playing and winning, and over the years you became like family. You knew your teammates family problems and successes. Their joys and sorrows. And they knew yours.
Then one day you went in and took a shit in each of their lockers and put a note up that said "fuck you im done with you." And then you left.
That, newbies, is what THansen just did. Learn from this selfish POS. Don't be like THansen.
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Call me an old fool, but other than removing himself from roll how do we know he caved - unless me told someone, then duh of course.
He confessed to a couple members of the saloon.
OIC, thanks! Quit on bro (and June 2014) nothing to see here.
The dude in my avi thinks caving sucks THansen.
That avatar! Perfect.
Newbies are gonna read this and think... damn after 3 years... it is still this hard???
No, it isn't.
Imagine being on a team, a football team, and fighting hard to win every game you played for 3 years. Every game. Sometimes you got the living shit kicked out of you. Sometimes your teammates did. Bloodied noses. Broken arms. Knees jammed into the family jewels. But you kept playing and winning, and over the years you became like family. You knew your teammates family problems and successes. Their joys and sorrows. And they knew yours.
Then one day you went in and took a shit in each of their lockers and put a note up that said "fuck you im done with you." And then you left.
That, newbies, is what THansen just did. Learn from this selfish POS. Don't be like THansen.
I love the teamwork part of this analogy. But if quitting is as hard after 3 years as the beginning, you're doing it wrong.
Your quit should grow over time. It should get easier to stay quit as your quit matures. It's like a muscle, the work of quitting strengthens it. Until you quit using it. Then dystrophy sets in and your muscle weakens. Then you're just a sad, pathetic shithead that the away 3 years of "quit."
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June 14 is a group of solid quitters, a handful of whom taught me how to quit, and helped me through the shittiest parts of my quit.
I really hope your answers are well-thought out, although I'm not really sure how someone throws away 3 years of quit, while letting down a group of really good people.
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Call me an old fool, but other than removing himself from roll how do we know he caved - unless me told someone, then duh of course.
He confessed to a couple members of the saloon.
OIC, thanks! Quit on bro (and June 2014) nothing to see here.
The dude in my avi thinks caving sucks THansen.
That avatar! Perfect.
Newbies are gonna read this and think... damn after 3 years... it is still this hard???
No, it isn't.
Imagine being on a team, a football team, and fighting hard to win every game you played for 3 years. Every game. Sometimes you got the living shit kicked out of you. Sometimes your teammates did. Bloodied noses. Broken arms. Knees jammed into the family jewels. But you kept playing and winning, and over the years you became like family. You knew your teammates family problems and successes. Their joys and sorrows. And they knew yours.
Then one day you went in and took a shit in each of their lockers and put a note up that said "fuck you im done with you." And then you left.
That, newbies, is what THansen just did. Learn from this selfish POS. Don't be like THansen.
I love the teamwork part of this analogy. But if quitting is as hard after 3 years as the beginning, you're doing it wrong.
Your quit should grow over time. It should get easier to stay quit as your quit matures. It's like a muscle, the work of quitting strengthens it. Until you quit using it. Then dystrophy sets in and your muscle weakens. Then you're just a sad, pathetic shithead that the away 3 years of "quit."
The difference between a stopper and a quitter is how the bad is handled. A quitter steps up and does what needs to be done. A stopper doesn't.
At 3 years, a quit is not harder. Those muscles are built. But there are occasional blips of "weakness". There are days that are worse than others. It's not bad to feel weak on occasion. It's bad to give into the weakness.
I've fucking been at the 1000 day marker and stepped back. I didn't have the support system I have now and that's why I stay. On my own, I don't know if i can make it quit. Past history says I can't. But when I'm here...
Fuck, tyler. Just....fuck man.
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Call me an old fool, but other than removing himself from roll how do we know he caved - unless me told someone, then duh of course.
He confessed to a couple members of the saloon.
OIC, thanks! Quit on bro (and June 2014) nothing to see here.
The dude in my avi thinks caving sucks THansen.
That avatar! Perfect.
Newbies are gonna read this and think... damn after 3 years... it is still this hard???
No, it isn't.
Imagine being on a team, a football team, and fighting hard to win every game you played for 3 years. Every game. Sometimes you got the living shit kicked out of you. Sometimes your teammates did. Bloodied noses. Broken arms. Knees jammed into the family jewels. But you kept playing and winning, and over the years you became like family. You knew your teammates family problems and successes. Their joys and sorrows. And they knew yours.
Then one day you went in and took a shit in each of their lockers and put a note up that said "fuck you im done with you." And then you left.
That, newbies, is what THansen just did. Learn from this selfish POS. Don't be like THansen.
I love the teamwork part of this analogy. But if quitting is as hard after 3 years as the beginning, you're doing it wrong.
Your quit should grow over time. It should get easier to stay quit as your quit matures. It's like a muscle, the work of quitting strengthens it. Until you quit using it. Then dystrophy sets in and your muscle weakens. Then you're just a sad, pathetic shithead that the away 3 years of "quit."
The difference between a stopper and a quitter is how the bad is handled. A quitter steps up and does what needs to be done. A stopper doesn't.
At 3 years, a quit is not harder. Those muscles are built. But there are occasional blips of "weakness". There are days that are worse than others. It's not bad to feel weak on occasion. It's bad to give into the weakness.
I've fucking been at the 1000 day marker and stepped back. I didn't have the support system I have now and that's why I stay. On my own, I don't know if i can make it quit. Past history says I can't. But when I'm here...
Fuck, tyler. Just....fuck man.
I would contend that if a "weak day" after 1000 brings about even the remotest thought of using, your quit isn't maturing.
At some point you have to become so entrenched in "never again for any reason" that dip is never again an option.
Fwiw, he posted the day of his cave, so it's not like he "was going it alone" unless you call posting in a vacuum with no other interactions flying solo. I kinda think it's close, but whatever
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Call me an old fool, but other than removing himself from roll how do we know he caved - unless me told someone, then duh of course.
He confessed to a couple members of the saloon.
OIC, thanks! Quit on bro (and June 2014) nothing to see here.
The dude in my avi thinks caving sucks THansen.
That avatar! Perfect.
Newbies are gonna read this and think... damn after 3 years... it is still this hard???
No, it isn't.
Imagine being on a team, a football team, and fighting hard to win every game you played for 3 years. Every game. Sometimes you got the living shit kicked out of you. Sometimes your teammates did. Bloodied noses. Broken arms. Knees jammed into the family jewels. But you kept playing and winning, and over the years you became like family. You knew your teammates family problems and successes. Their joys and sorrows. And they knew yours.
Then one day you went in and took a shit in each of their lockers and put a note up that said "fuck you im done with you." And then you left.
That, newbies, is what THansen just did. Learn from this selfish POS. Don't be like THansen.
I love the teamwork part of this analogy. But if quitting is as hard after 3 years as the beginning, you're doing it wrong.
Your quit should grow over time. It should get easier to stay quit as your quit matures. It's like a muscle, the work of quitting strengthens it. Until you quit using it. Then dystrophy sets in and your muscle weakens. Then you're just a sad, pathetic shithead that the away 3 years of "quit."
The difference between a stopper and a quitter is how the bad is handled. A quitter steps up and does what needs to be done. A stopper doesn't.
At 3 years, a quit is not harder. Those muscles are built. But there are occasional blips of "weakness". There are days that are worse than others. It's not bad to feel weak on occasion. It's bad to give into the weakness.
I've fucking been at the 1000 day marker and stepped back. I didn't have the support system I have now and that's why I stay. On my own, I don't know if i can make it quit. Past history says I can't. But when I'm here...
Fuck, tyler. Just....fuck man.
I would contend that if a "weak day" after 1000 brings about even the remotest thought of using, your quit isn't maturing.
At some point you have to become so entrenched in "never again for any reason" that dip is never again an option.
Fwiw, he posted the day of his cave, so it's not like he "was going it alone" unless you call posting in a vacuum with no other interactions flying solo. I kinda think it's close, but whatever
Ain't nobody excusing the actions my friend.
Fucking sucks that he made that decision.
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This guy is a pretender. Nothing more.
Take from this what you will, but three years in...he knows better.
Selfish. Shameful. Stupid. Nothing more.
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This guy is a pretender. Nothing more.
Take from this what you will, but three years in...he knows better.
Selfish. Shameful. Stupid. Nothing more.
One. Thousand. Days.
I won't even waffle and pretend to believe mercy and a second chance should be given. If you're caving at this point... you do NOT belong here.
Ever. Again.
I look up at my July brother Todd's intro and I can tell you with complete peace... Fuck. Right. Off. There is no excuse.
NONE.
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well you did say you were going to get the tough love, and I think those posts before hit that point on the head more that that. But that is then.....
this is now, as it is hard for me to say too much as 1) that is not my style and 2) I have looked you eye to eye in person and have had some times at the PA meet.
As others say, alcohol is not an excuse to cave. Never has been and never will be. And you had 2 things badly going for you. The lack of decision making when inebriated and a feeling of low esteem (the f*ck it feeling). Either of which on their own is a terrible danger to a quit whether it be day 10 or day 1,000, but when combined not only is that major red zone to quit, but a major red zone to one's own life.
I am glad you had posted and realize that, for yourself, the need to handle the alcohol issue as well as nicotine. Both are toxic, addictive substances that if one cannot handle need to remove from one's life, somehow.
You are in a unique situation now, that decision point to right the ship, or just sink. I think after meeting you, that you can handle both, and shed them aside.
Start today with a 'double day 1'
we may not be able to help with the alcohol, but know there are others who can. But you have learned in 3 years what needs to be done. This time just do not let anything get in the way of that knowledge.
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I met you last summer and I don't know what to think other than I'd like to help you if I can. I can post that again and again but it won't mean anything until you decide that you need help and ask for it before you jump off the ledge again.
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I met you last summer and I don't know what to think other than I'd like to help you if I can. I can post that again and again but it won't mean anything until you decide that you need help and ask for it before you jump off the ledge again.
This is a powerful message.