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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: sh4pie on September 05, 2013, 12:03:00 PM
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Hello,
So I've chewed for about 6 years. Decided my birthday present to myself will be quitting. I turn 24 on Sunday, which will be 72 hours quit. I've heard thats roughly how long it takes to purge your body of nicotine.
Had my final chew last night, and even then i was daunted by the idea and finality of "forever."
I should probably say im pretty stubborn, and prideful. I would totally admit to being addicted, but I don't like the idea of "needing help," to quit. Like, if i want to quit, I will. There is nothing anyone can do to help me. But I realize that's an idiotic way to go about things.
Anyways, Been free since about 1230am EST. But slept til about 8am. Its noon now. Nothing too crazy, cravings wise. Just the typical habitual triggers. I.E. After a meal, or during a climatic movie scene. (watching saving private Ryan)
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Congratulations on your decision. Don't worry about "forever", just worry about today: Day 1. Make a promise that you won't use nicotine today and keep the promise.
If you haven't visited the welcome center yet, I strongly recommend that you do so. Read everything.
First things first, now that you've quit, you need to learn how to Post Roll. Here's a link: How to Post Roll (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Here's an explanation of why/what posting roll is all about: Why Post Roll? (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=120)
But the bottom line is, sh4pie, you have to REALLY want to be quit. Prideful? Start with Day 1. The pride of your quit will grow every day!
In the spirit of one of the best movies of all time and QUITTING:
:j2b:
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Fuck forever.
Quit right now, and don't worry about the future.
I once thought (a time or two) that I could do it myself as well. I thought quitting was a mere decision with no follow up required. I mean, how could it be that hard to not do something? When left to our own devices, we will fail. That is our nature.
Quitting is about wanting to be quit, and quitting is about pursuing that. Quitting is not a one step action. It is a series of steps. They eventually add up to a quit.
That's why we post roll. We promise not to use nicotine in any form each day, and we keep our words.
You are quit now, and that is commendable. I wish that I had the balls to quit this at your age (I'm 35.). I wasted a lot of time and money on this addiction and on failed attempts. Please get your head screwed on now, and accept that you are an addict. Know that you are not alone, but you have to ask for help.
We'll light the path for you. You take the steps.
Be quit.
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I'd be willing to bet that there isn't a single person here that has been quit for a year (or maybe even 100 days) that would admit that they could have done this on their own. We all need help in our own ways. Don't look at this as weakness. Think of this as "strength in numbers". Think of this as "learning from our mistakes". Think of this as..... The best decision you have ever made. I'm proud to be quit with you.
Post roll
Keep your promise
Get connected
Read, read, read.
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Congrats on the quit sh4pie. You can do it! I'll be 39 in 2 weeks and how I wish I had quit tobacco when I was your age. Stay strong bro.
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im pretty stubborn, and prideful. I would totally admit to being addicted, but I don't like the idea of "needing help," to quit. Like, if i want to quit, I will.
I hear you brother. When I first quit I was real skeptical of joining a forum like this one. The thing is, I realized that maybe for once I needed help with this addiction. I never even made it one day until ktc. I'm so glad I let go of that PRIDE and jumped in. PRIDE will keep you using brother. PRIDE is one of this addictions best friends.
Now, i'm 203 days quit on one of the most addictive drugs known to man and I owe it to ktc, along with everyone that takes time here to help people quit. Your going to be so surprised at how words from people that know all about what your going through helps. You will learn here how to stay quit. You will learn that 1 is to many and 1000 is never enough. You will learn that one day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. You will learn never again for any reason and you can keep it.
The accountability that ktc brings is key. Posting roll with a bunch of brothers and making them a promise each day that you will not use. You let yourself down, you let them down. You place your name on that roll and your making a promise. If your a man of of your word and I believe you are,,, you'll keep that word. That word will save your quit. Glad to be quit with you. Need another number let me know.
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im pretty stubborn, and prideful. I would totally admit to being addicted, but I don't like the idea of "needing help," to quit. Like, if i want to quit, I will.
I hear you brother. When I first quit I was real skeptical of joining a forum like this one. The thing is, I realized that maybe for once I needed help with this addiction. I never even made it one day until ktc. I'm so glad I let go of that PRIDE and jumped in. PRIDE will keep you using brother. PRIDE is one of this addictions best friends.
Now, i'm 203 days quit on one of the most addictive drugs known to man and I owe it to ktc, along with everyone that takes time here to help people quit. Your going to be so surprised at how words from people that know all about what your going through helps. You will learn here how to stay quit. You will learn that 1 is to many and 1000 is never enough. You will learn that one day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. You will learn never again for any reason and you can keep it.
The accountability that ktc brings is key. Posting roll with a bunch of brothers and making them a promise each day that you will not use. You let yourself down, you let them down. You place your name on that roll and your making a promise. If your a man of of your word and I believe you are,,, you'll keep that word. That word will save your quit. Glad to be quit with you. Need another number let me know.
srans is right on... nice job posting day "enumero" uno.
You said... "Like if I want to quit, I will." Got news for you. That is what it will come down to on this site regardless. You got to want to quit. If you do, you will. This site is a different type of help... this is not like going to some quack Dr. that sits and has you discuss the meaning of life, why you are where you are, and why you are fucked up. This is a bunch of addicts... just like you kicking back an addiction. We all know the lies, the tricks and there is no BS here. Just quitting.
Recommend you maintain your commitment to quitting today... I will do it with you. then report around to post ROLL for "enumero" dos tomorrow. QLF brother!
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im pretty stubborn, and prideful. I would totally admit to being addicted, but I don't like the idea of "needing help," to quit. Like, if i want to quit, I will.
I hear you brother. When I first quit I was real skeptical of joining a forum like this one. The thing is, I realized that maybe for once I needed help with this addiction. I never even made it one day until ktc. I'm so glad I let go of that PRIDE and jumped in. PRIDE will keep you using brother. PRIDE is one of this addictions best friends.
Now, i'm 203 days quit on one of the most addictive drugs known to man and I owe it to ktc, along with everyone that takes time here to help people quit. Your going to be so surprised at how words from people that know all about what your going through helps. You will learn here how to stay quit. You will learn that 1 is to many and 1000 is never enough. You will learn that one day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. You will learn never again for any reason and you can keep it.
The accountability that ktc brings is key. Posting roll with a bunch of brothers and making them a promise each day that you will not use. You let yourself down, you let them down. You place your name on that roll and your making a promise. If your a man of of your word and I believe you are,,, you'll keep that word. That word will save your quit. Glad to be quit with you. Need another number let me know.
srans is right on... nice job posting day "enumero" uno.
You said... "Like if I want to quit, I will." Got news for you. That is what it will come down to on this site regardless. You got to want to quit. If you do, you will. This site is a different type of help... this is not like going to some quack Dr. that sits and has you discuss the meaning of life, why you are where you are, and why you are fucked up. This is a bunch of addicts... just like you kicking back an addiction. We all know the lies, the tricks and there is no BS here. Just quitting.
Recommend you maintain your commitment to quitting today... I will do it with you. then report around to post ROLL for "enumero" dos tomorrow. QLF brother!
Stubborn and prideful?! You ain't the only one bro. Keep an open mind to what some of these brothers are offering in helpful words and support. Follow the path already set out for you. I'll gladly walk shoulder to shoulder with you on it ODAAT if you're willing. Any pride I had about not needing help was beat outta me by this addiction during my last round. I'm sure it'll rear it's ugly know-it-all head again, but luckily I'll have Srans and Derk there to knock it the fuck down.
I am quit with you today. We will handle tomorrow together when we get there.
Peace.
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im pretty stubborn, and prideful. I would totally admit to being addicted, but I don't like the idea of "needing help," to quit. Like, if i want to quit, I will.
I hear you brother. When I first quit I was real skeptical of joining a forum like this one. The thing is, I realized that maybe for once I needed help with this addiction. I never even made it one day until ktc. I'm so glad I let go of that PRIDE and jumped in. PRIDE will keep you using brother. PRIDE is one of this addictions best friends.
Now, i'm 203 days quit on one of the most addictive drugs known to man and I owe it to ktc, along with everyone that takes time here to help people quit. Your going to be so surprised at how words from people that know all about what your going through helps. You will learn here how to stay quit. You will learn that 1 is to many and 1000 is never enough. You will learn that one day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. You will learn never again for any reason and you can keep it.
The accountability that ktc brings is key. Posting roll with a bunch of brothers and making them a promise each day that you will not use. You let yourself down, you let them down. You place your name on that roll and your making a promise. If your a man of of your word and I believe you are,,, you'll keep that word. That word will save your quit. Glad to be quit with you. Need another number let me know.
srans is right on... nice job posting day "enumero" uno.
You said... "Like if I want to quit, I will." Got news for you. That is what it will come down to on this site regardless. You got to want to quit. If you do, you will. This site is a different type of help... this is not like going to some quack Dr. that sits and has you discuss the meaning of life, why you are where you are, and why you are fucked up. This is a bunch of addicts... just like you kicking back an addiction. We all know the lies, the tricks and there is no BS here. Just quitting.
Recommend you maintain your commitment to quitting today... I will do it with you. then report around to post ROLL for "enumero" dos tomorrow. QLF brother!
Stubborn and prideful?! You ain't the only one bro. Keep an open mind to what some of these brothers are offering in helpful words and support. Follow the path already set out for you. I'll gladly walk shoulder to shoulder with you on it ODAAT if you're willing. Any pride I had about not needing help was beat outta me by this addiction during my last round. I'm sure it'll rear it's ugly know-it-all head again, but luckily I'll have Srans and Derk there to knock it the fuck down.
I am quit with you today. We will handle tomorrow together when we get there.
Peace.
If you want to talk about stubborn and prideful, consider this...I initially thought that I didn't need to post roll to quit. I was fluent with every cliche in the book...quit when I want to, just a habit, light dipper, just the taste, etc.
In fact, I told myself that I would post roll until the HoF just to humor the folks on KTC...you know, play by the rules. But after that, no way...because I didn't really need help in the first place, right? I didn't really have a problem, afterall.
Holy crap was I wrong!!! I have a wife, two kids, great life and I almost threw it all away because I was too stubborn and prideful to face one simple fact...I am a nicotine addict and I need help. KTC offered to help me control my addiction. "Tough love" would have run me off...hurt my pride. But I read post after post from the folks who know. And for the first time in over 20 years, it began to sink in. These folks get it. They understand.
Holy shit...I'm an addict. But there's nothing wrong with that. I can learn to control it. And what did KTC charge me for all of this substance abuse knowledge and expertise? Not one thin dime. All they asked me to do was to post roll. So, I decided I would...just until I reached the HoF because by then I would be cured, right? HAHA Glad I kept reading.
This site is as much about getting help from others as it is about giving help to others. Pride and ego have no place here. Quit on!
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Thanks for all the replies, guys.
Day 1 wasn't as bad as I thought, must've gotten lucky. It was a lot of me sitting around actively waiting for something crazy to happen. I may have psyched myself out, which I guess is a good thing.
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Thanks for all the replies, guys.
Day 1 wasn't as bad as I thought, must've gotten lucky. It was a lot of me sitting around actively waiting for something crazy to happen. I may have psyched myself out, which I guess is a good thing.
Day 3 and 6 by far were ugly for me...one and two was puking and shitting my guts out chills and body aches. Don't be scared just know it could happen and when or if it does be ready and embrace it. It doesn't last forever the withdrawals just a while.
PM me if you need anything. while you are sitting around freaked out waiting for something bad to happen read HOF speeches read threads read the welcome center...
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Thanks for all the replies, guys.
Day 1 wasn't as bad as I thought, must've gotten lucky. It was a lot of me sitting around actively waiting for something crazy to happen. I may have psyched myself out, which I guess is a good thing.
welcome sh4pie, glad you made it through day #1! Keep on ODAAT!
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Thanks for all the replies, guys.
Day 1 wasn't as bad as I thought, must've gotten lucky. It was a lot of me sitting around actively waiting for something crazy to happen. I may have psyched myself out, which I guess is a good thing.
welcome sh4pie, glad you made it through day #1! Keep on ODAAT!
I am happy your day 1 wasn't as bad as it could be. Please be vigilant though. That nic bitch will seak up on your ass at any time. Use your tools, get numbers. Be prepared. Proud to be quit withyou man. Great work on getting through day 1.
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Thanks for all the replies, guys.
Day 1 wasn't as bad as I thought, must've gotten lucky. It was a lot of me sitting around actively waiting for something crazy to happen. I may have psyched myself out, which I guess is a good thing.
welcome sh4pie, glad you made it through day #1! Keep on ODAAT!
I am happy your day 1 wasn't as bad as it could be. Please be vigilant though. That nic bitch will seak up on your ass at any time. Use your tools, get numbers. Be prepared. Proud to be quit withyou man. Great work on getting through day 1.
gum, seeds, exercise..
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Sh4pie, where are you?