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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Sooner87 on June 21, 2016, 04:48:00 PM
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Just dumped my can in the toilet and flushed. 2 pouches didn't make it, so, I stared at the juice just rolling out of the pouch and imagined that poison rolling through my veins. I stared a little longer and laid a piece of toilet paper over the left over pouches in the toilet, laid it to rest and flushed. I've stopped and started so many times over around 25 years, i've lost count. Today, I Quit. Here comes the Fog.
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Just dumped my can in the toilet and flushed. 2 pouches didn't make it, so, I stared at the juice just rolling out of the pouch and imagined that poison rolling through my veins. I stared a little longer and laid a piece of toilet paper over the left over pouches in the toilet, laid it to rest and flushed. I've stopped and started so many times over around 25 years, i've lost count. Today, I Quit. Here comes the Fog.
Congrats on your decision, it sounds like you are ready to make this your last and final quit.
Post roll daily here: Sept 2016 (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11649440/150/)
Idaho Spuds
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Just dumped my can in the toilet and flushed. 2 pouches didn't make it, so, I stared at the juice just rolling out of the pouch and imagined that poison rolling through my veins. I stared a little longer and laid a piece of toilet paper over the left over pouches in the toilet, laid it to rest and flushed. I've stopped and started so many times over around 25 years, i've lost count. Today, I Quit. Here comes the Fog.
Congrats on your decision, it sounds like you are ready to make this your last and final quit.
Post roll daily here: Sept 2016 (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11649440/150/)
Idaho Spuds
Sooner....
you have to want this more than just about anything else in your life. If you don't commit to dealing with the suck that will invariably follow you around for the foreseeable future, you may as well move along now. It CAN be done, but it is NOT easy. However, this place has loads of information and resources to help you muddle through it until the fog lifts and your mental balance is restored. Dive in....saw your first "post"....it was close enough for government work! Get to know your fellow quitters, establish rapport with them; lean on them when it massively sucks. Help one another through this. That's what quitting the KTC way is all about. Oh yeah, and the method.... Wake up, Piss, Post Roll, Honor your word (that you won't use nicotine in ANY form for the next 24 hours), Repeat. Simple, yes, but as I said, NOT easy. Welcome aboard!
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Just told beavernation and DWEIRICK. I just made my typical martini for happy hour, and I usually threw in a dip. That got weird real quick, but I'm committed. Triumph chew is coming in a couple of days, but I sliced off a piece of ginseng to chew on. I'm good. Emergency averted. Nicotine 'Finger'
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Day 2, still Foggy, and a Monster BSOS Headache (Brain Shitting On Self).
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Day 2, still Foggy, and a Monster BSOS Headache (Brain Shitting On Self).
Guess what when the bsos goes away and you realize you don't have to stuff your face with poison, life will get so much better! Gonna take awhile and noone is the same so buckle up and enjoy the bumpy ass ride! Proud to be quit with you!
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Day 2, still Foggy, and a Monster BSOS Headache (Brain Shitting On Self).
Guess what when the bsos goes away and you realize you don't have to stuff your face with poison, life will get so much better! Gonna take awhile and noone is the same so buckle up and enjoy the bumpy ass ride! Proud to be quit with you!
What he said.....the physical stuff, while uncomfortable, ain't shit compared to the mental games that are a comin.....hang tough and use the tools contained in these pages. It is SO WORTH it when you begin to gain clarity you've not seen in years.....
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Dig in grab your nutz and hold on. When in doubt follow this plan:
Open waist high dresser drawer
Insert satchel
Close with a purpose
All equals crave gone!
You have my digits use them anytime!
DBG 258
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Day 5
Hangin out with the Fam drinkin a beer, gnawin on raw ginger root and raw turmeric. Stayin quit. Life is good. BTW, I cleaned the hell out of our windows today, and swept up every conceivable piece of dirt off of the back yard deck. And I didn't have the urge to steal away from my wife to grab a secret dip. Felt good. Those windows paid the price though, damn...lol.
*****Note to self...don't forget this feeling
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With apologies to Robert Duvall (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bPXVGQnJm0w) , ......"I love the smell of raw ginger root, tumeric, spic-n-span back yard decks, and window so clean you can't see 'em in the morning. Smells like (sniff), Victory!".....
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Just posted in our Pre HOF Group and thought this would be good for a Journal perspective so I and anyone else can follow.
I have to say that I'm proud of myself so far, but will not get caught in that trap. Every day is a small victory. I've been leaning on a few in here, but not a whole lot. Been chewing a load of ginger which helps, and toward 5pm I'll smooth the edge with a martini(s). I'll start to cut back on those in due time, but I still get those triggers that take me straight to fog, which used to be a knee jerk reaction to look for my can. Now I just reach for some Ginger to chew on. Some days are easier, some are still challenging, no where near the batch that it was the first week, holy shite! When that strong urge comes, and it still does, I just have to say "not today biatch" until it subsides, and it eventually does. It's great to hear that it eventually gets way easier. I'm so looking forward to that easier part. If I keep my mind on other stuff, it helps alot. Just looking forward to not having to rely on keeping my mind on other stuff and not feeling like a such schizo in front of the wife and tator tots. They understand, though, so, I move on/forward.
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Just posted in our Pre HOF Group and thought this would be good for a Journal perspective so I and anyone else can follow.
I have to say that I'm proud of myself so far, but will not get caught in that trap. Every day is a small victory. I've been leaning on a few in here, but not a whole lot. Been chewing a load of ginger which helps, and toward 5pm I'll smooth the edge with a martini(s). I'll start to cut back on those in due time, but I still get those triggers that take me straight to fog, which used to be a knee jerk reaction to look for my can. Now I just reach for some Ginger to chew on. Some days are easier, some are still challenging, no where near the batch that it was the first week, holy shite! When that strong urge comes, and it still does, I just have to say "not today biatch" until it subsides, and it eventually does. It's great to hear that it eventually gets way easier. I'm so looking forward to that easier part. If I keep my mind on other stuff, it helps alot. Just looking forward to not having to rely on keeping my mind on other stuff and not feeling like a such schizo in front of the wife and tator tots. They understand, though, so, I move on/forward.
This my friend is the epitome of one day at a time. Don't get too high or too low, just keep grinding. Right now I'm sure there are more bad days then good days, but working one day at a time the tide will start to turn in your favor. Soon you'll start having more and more good days. Keep up the good work.
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Congratulations on reaching HOF my friend. The journey has just begun for us. Proud to be quit with you EDD!!
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Congrats on your HOF!!! Proud to be quit with you!
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Awesome HOF speech John. My wife has seen me go through several stoppages as well. I'm not sure if she believes this is my last Quit yet and I can't blame her. But my gut is telling me this is the last Quit for the same reasons you listed. So many people going out of their way to support me, how can I let them down.
Congrats again, enjoy your accomplishment and I'll see you again on September's roll in the morning!
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Congratulations on 100!
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Congratulations on 100!
Congrats on 100 and beyond!