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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: RedneckFur on November 02, 2009, 03:54:00 PM
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I dont know where to really begin my story, but I'm willing to bet alot of you have similar ones.
I first started dipping when I was about 12. I used to go fishing on the weekends with another boy my age who's father bought him chew all the time. At the time, I thought he had the coolest dad ever. Now looking back I think he was a pretty crappy dad. One thing led to another and next thing I know I'm enjoying dipping.
At 16 I was introduced to cigaretts, and I startes smoking. My high school had a smoking area (last one in NC, i've heard) so I started chewing less and smoking more. I smoked all through high school, and then college. After college I switched back regularly between smoking and dipping. I would dip for about 6 months or so, and then smoke for about the same amount of time. Every time I switched, I told my self that this was the beginning of quitting. We all know how that story goes.
2 years ago, I did quit tobacco. I used the patches and they really helped. I quit because I got into a new relationship and I didnt want to expose my partner to my nasty habbits. Everything went well for a while. The relationship did end, but I stayed strong and didnt start back.
I'm currently with somone else that I love and adore, but on the aniversary of the breakup with my ex I lost my senses for a bit and started dipping again. I knew it was a bad idea but did it anyway. Kept it secret from my partner because I'm ashamed that I did something so stupid.
So 6 days ago I quit again, cold turkey. The first few were horrible. I felt like I was turning inside out, and I was having mood swings that would do a grizzly bear justice. Its deffinately alot easier now that it as last week, and I'm glad I did it cold turkey this time instead of the long process with patches. Still having the mood swings, uasually at night.
And temptation is still begging me to head to the store for a can of wintergreen grizzly. Truth is I can almost taste it still. Wouldn't mind a Marlboro light either.
I'm not going to start back. Not again. Never. I hope to get to know you guys, and perhaps we can all help each other away from our nasty habbits.
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All you have to do is quit for today. You are in the right place and will find a ton of support here.
I found that reading the Hall of Fame ("HOF") speaches during my first couple weeks really helped supress cravings.
Keep up the good work!
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Welcome aboard. As you know you are getting through the worst of it. Let this time be the last time.Refuse to be a statistic anymore. Once you realized the only way to quit and stay quit is if you accept the responsibility of controlling your own actions. A little can no longer controls your actions, thoughts, emotions, YOUR DESTINY. YOU DO! There is no going back from here or you are that statistic I refuse to be.
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Never expected to get replies so quickly. Thanks for the kind words and support.
I'm ashamed that I'm having to quit a second time. The first time I was tobacco free for 2 years and thought I had that habbit beat. Starting again was a very stupid thing to do.
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Welcome RednecFur! Quit for the last time! Use the support on this site. Read it all. Come into the February group and POST ROLL (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50). Lets kick this shit!
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Never expected to get replies so quickly. Thanks for the kind words and support.
I'm ashamed that I'm having to quit a second time. The first time I was tobacco free for 2 years and thought I had that habbit beat. Starting again was a very stupid thing to do.
Not so much stupid as it highlights the fact that you - like me - are an ADDICT. You fell for the "I can have just one anytime I want" routine. TRUTH is, that is a LIE :) There is no such thing as "just one".
Like others said - just quit for today. Worry about tomorrow when it comes. We quit for one day at a time around and if you let KTC help you - you will see it works.
Welcome to the dysfunctional family....... :)
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How does the roll call thing work? I see everyone talking about it, but I don't know what it is.
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How does the roll call thing work? I see everyone talking about it, but I don't know what it is.
it's just like what your doing here EXcept you basically committing to not chewing for the day. just one day at a time Go back to killthecan.org look for the quit groups, then look for roll call H.O.F feburary Or BE pateint somebody with more time and knowlege than me will send you a link. look forward to seeing your post at roll calll tomorrow!
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How does the roll call thing work? I see everyone talking about it, but I don't know what it is.
You sign roll call with your quit group each day as a way of giving your promise not to use tobacco that day. The simple of act of making a promise to a bunch of other quitters who are going through the same thing can make a world of difference in your quit. If you're on day 6, you're in the February 2010 quit group, because you'll hit 100 days in February. Here are a few links to get you started:
February 2010 quit group (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=2754)
how to post roll call (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
roll call - why we do it (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=120)
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Thanks! I put myself on the roll call for Feb 2010
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Thanks! I put myself on the roll call for Feb 2010
Hey if you need help in your quit PM I am here. Later Hal
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Welcome to the site RedneckFur. Congrats on the BEST decision you will ever make!!! Similar story, different person. You can DO this one day at a time!!! You already know what it is like to be quit so REMEMBER that during this quit so you NEVER have to go through this withdrawl shit again!!! Use this site to the fullest as intended and you will not fail!!! Post roll daily and read everything here including the Tom Kern story. If that won't keep you quit nothing will. PM if you need phone# for support.
Kdip