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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Hardhatdiver on August 04, 2011, 07:30:00 PM
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Ok so heres the deal. I quit TODAY now i wanna stab someone.... lol not for real. Im Jim a 31 ex navy commercial diver/EMT. I hope this works, this is a last resort for me. ANY advice would be outstanding. Im going through a divorce and mom just died 2 months ago. I think i picked the worst time ever but I really wanna get this shit done. Thanks, Jim
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Ok so heres the deal. I quit TODAY now i wanna stab someone.... lol not for real. Im Jim a 31 ex navy commercial diver/EMT. I hope this works, this is a last resort for me. ANY advice would be outstanding. Im going through a divorce and mom just died 2 months ago. I think i picked the worst time ever but I really wanna get this shit done. Thanks, Jim
can you catch hope in your net? I think not! You Will Do This! No Hope, No Try Here! You either do or do not! Sorry to hear about your mother, but Dip has made nothing better...Nothing! so dipping now would just be an insult. Did your Mom know you dipped? Don't honor her memory by being weak. You can do this!
Drink a lot of water, helps with the headaches and helps flush the system. Keep some candy handy. The sugar helps with the mood swings. Friuit juice kills both birds. Most of all read, read, read... every thing on this site.. post roll learn why we do it!
Welcome to November quit group, Oh and welcome to the Suck! This won't be easy, but it will be worth it in the end. No matter how bad it gets, you know you can do anything for just one day!
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also.....when would a better time to quit be?
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Things I know:
(1) I know you can do this.
(2) I know you can count on me if you need help. Just PM.
(3) I know if you post roll EVERYDAY and quit 1 day at a time you got this
I hope you no longer hope. You and I do for now on. Now, get busy quitting. Read this: index.php?showforum=13 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13) and post roll here index.php?showtopic=5023 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5023). Any questions? Just post them here. Once you post roll post up on this intro thread and let us know you are official and get ready for all the support you can imagine.
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Hi my name is Jim and this is day 1 of quitting. I am a 31 year old ex military commercial diver/ EMT. It's really hard to quit because the environment im in. Does anyone know what I'm going through?? I'm doing this for me and need all the support I can get. Thank you kindly for your help.
You posted the above words two days ago. You should be on day three, not day one. I understand you're going through a lot, but what the fuck?!?
You were HERE! You had help at the tip of your fingers. All you had to do was post roll, read, keep your word, and post.
I strongly suggest you get to posting roll. You'll be amazed at the support you'll receive. Time to quit feeling sorry for yourself, making excuses, and generally acting like the nic bitch's pussy whipped boy toy. Man up, use the site, and stay the fuck quit.
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2 hours have gone by and Its getting bad, havent caved. can someone tell me about this fog shit and when can I expect it?? Honestly my mom asked me to quit for years and I just couldent or wouldent. I can do anything I know but this seems so damn rough. Advice would be great. Ill be honest, i dipped a canand a half today and now I wanna kick myself for it. I dont need the beat down from you guys, what I do need is yall to tell me what helped you through this shit. I got a new job and it starts sept first. I wanna get through the rough shit so im not irratable to others because when I try to quit I get real nasty to people. I just want to live a normal dip free life. Sad part im a personal trainer on the side and I live a very healthy active lifestyle. My dad says Jim you live such a healthy life, why do you ruin it all with dip?? I guess i started seeing what he sees. Im an EMT so how can I tell paitents in the back of an ambulance they should quit smoking when I dip?? Its me being a fucking hypocrit and I sure hate the way that feels. Thank you for the help
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I dont need the beat down from you guys, what I do need is yall to tell me what helped you through this shit.
Do you read or just post? We have been telling you what to do.
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2 hours have gone by and Its getting bad, havent caved. can someone tell me about this fog shit and when can I expect it?? Honestly my mom asked me to quit for years and I just couldent or wouldent. I can do anything I know but this seems so damn rough. Advice would be great. Ill be honest, i dipped a canand a half today and now I wanna kick myself for it. I dont need the beat down from you guys, what I do need is yall to tell me what helped you through this shit. I got a new job and it starts sept first. I wanna get through the rough shit so im not irratable to others because when I try to quit I get real nasty to people. I just want to live a normal dip free life. Sad part im a personal trainer on the side and I live a very healthy active lifestyle. My dad says Jim you live such a healthy life, why do you ruin it all with dip?? I guess i started seeing what he sees. Im an EMT so how can I tell paitents in the back of an ambulance they should quit smoking when I dip?? Its me being a fucking hypocrit and I sure hate the way that feels. Thank you for the help
What has helped:
1. Post roll call- It is a promise to all of us that nicotine is off the table- just for today
2. HONOR THAT PROMISE
3. wake up and goto step 1.
There is no easy way around days 1-3, you need to decide to be quit, no matter how it feels. And it is going to suck. No way to cheat on it though, just have to go through it. You are going to be irritable, grumpy, just a general ahole to be around. You won't be able to concentrate, sleep will elude you..Shortly after that you will begin to have better days, they will become more frequent. But you are going to have to go through some pain to get to freedom. It is the price you are going to have to pay for being an addict.
Your choice, quit or don't. No more trying-
decide to quit, stay here and get it done OR
do another half assed attempt and fade away.
You man enough to hang with us?
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2 hours have gone by and Its getting bad, havent caved. can someone tell me about this fog shit and when can I expect it?? Honestly my mom asked me to quit for years and I just couldent or wouldent. I can do anything I know but this seems so damn rough. Advice would be great. Ill be honest, i dipped a canand a half today and now I wanna kick myself for it. I dont need the beat down from you guys, what I do need is yall to tell me what helped you through this shit. I got a new job and it starts sept first. I wanna get through the rough shit so im not irratable to others because when I try to quit I get real nasty to people. I just want to live a normal dip free life. Sad part im a personal trainer on the side and I live a very healthy active lifestyle. My dad says Jim you live such a healthy life, why do you ruin it all with dip?? I guess i started seeing what he sees. Im an EMT so how can I tell paitents in the back of an ambulance they should quit smoking when I dip?? Its me being a fucking hypocrit and I sure hate the way that feels. Thank you for the help
Dchogs nailed it on the head. Stop being a pussy and get to quittin!!!! Yes it sucks. Yes it is hard. What did you expect? If it was easy it wouldnt be worth the trouble. You have to quit though. Nobody can quit for you. Like multiple people have told you, READ, READ, READ. Post Roll. Get involved. You will get more suppport than you could ever ask for here...but you gotta pull your own weight as well. Everyone here has their own issues....AND THEY ARE STILL QUIT. Man up and let's get this done! One day at a time.
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The fact is, there are no tricks. When you are ready to stay quit, you will.
Decide! That's how we made it through. Put your foot down! Step out. Follow us one day at a time. And look behind you. There are others watching you like you're watching us. Freedom is this way.
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Got a war cry? I'm serious. Can you go to a place where if you were being attacked or someone you cared about was in danger you could tap a level of anger that you could walk through walls? You got a place like that inside of you? That's the fucking strength you need to fight. You go post roll. That will get you all the fucking support you can imagine. But I'm still telling you that you need to fight like YOUR FUCKING LIFE IS ON THE LINE. Of course you're going to a complete fucking asshole during this period. You've been putting poison in your body daily. Now take back control and be a fucking example for those folks you preach a "healthy life style" to. That turns my stomach. Man the fuck up. Make the decision that you are worth more to YOURSELF than a few more dollars into UST's bottom line.
I'll tell you the secret that got me through this period. I grabbed my balls with one hand and made a fist with the other and shouted "FUCK YOU NIC BITCH...MY LIFE IS WORTH LIVING. YOU DON'T OWN ME.".
That is the truth. That's not a beat down. That's called "finding quit". Now get your fucking head straight. Do you want to live or die? Do you want to keep your face or not? Are you afraid of cancer? Let's do this.
What's your plan? Sco's right. You read anything here? You have any idea what you are expecting? Go read. Form a plan of defense. Be proactive not reactive. Take fucking control. You have support around you? You know what to say to folks using around you?
If you are an EMT you have a sense of protocol. Start defining a protocol for yourself.
"When I crave at work, I will do _________________"
"When I crave at home, I will do_________________"
"When I crave at the bathhouse, I will do __________"
Fill in the blanks. Get a plan to fight through this period. We have all done this. You can do it. I know you can. I'm not special. I'm a fucking addict and so are you. Your addict mind is trying to keep control of your body. You need to combat that fucker. Now fight.
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Thank you guys, its 0217 and im still going strong. Got a sore throat though. Iwent to the movies tonight with my girl, BTW its one of my favorite places to dip and I didnt even think about it. Thanks again
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Jim, the hardest times in our lives can show us just how much we want to live. You made the correct choice and I quit with you today and every day from now on.
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Where the hell is this "roll call" grrrrrr i just wanna put my head through a wall. 16 hrs down!!
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Where the hell is this "roll call" grrrrrr i just wanna put my head through a wall. 16 hrs down!!
Your Quit group is November 2011
index.php?showtopic=5023 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5023)
How to post roll: index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Video on How to post roll: http://www.killthecan.org/roll/ (http://www.killthecan.org/roll/)
If you cannot figure out How to Post Roll, add a reply to your quit group saying "Day 1 - please add me to roll call" and someone will add your name.
Do this now.
Souliman out.
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I dont need the beat down from you guys, what I do need is yall to tell me what helped you through this shit.
Sayin you don't need a beatdown gets you nowhere here. No one on this site gives a rat's ass what you "need" unless you are quit. Don't believe me? scroll down through the introductions page and look at my first post "10 years dipping" I fought these guys for two days saying I needed support and understanding not judgement and their quit philosophy.
Want to see support instead of a beatdown? Post roll, that's the only way to get it. Until your name is on the November page you won't get shit from these guys, because you're just lip service "I want to quit, I want to quit, I want to quit"
It's been 4 days for me and it's getting better and I couldn't have done it alone.
If you want to stay quit, post roll every morning, forget all the outside factors that you are turning into excuses and quit.
It's that simple.
As far as tips and tricks go, Fake snuff works wonders on the habitual cravings, reading this site helps for the nic cravings, water water water during the day and keep your mouth shut if you know an arguement is on the horizon. Better to take a "loss" with your s/o, boss, or anyone else, than to explode and look like a fool and say things that are nicotine driven instead of clear headed.
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I dont need the beat down from you guys, what I do need is yall to tell me what helped you through this shit.
Sayin you don't need a beatdown gets you nowhere here. No one on this site gives a rat's ass what you "need" unless you are quit. Don't believe me? scroll down through the introductions page and look at my first post "10 years dipping" I fought these guys for two days saying I needed support and understanding not judgement and their quit philosophy.
Want to see support instead of a beatdown? Post roll, that's the only way to get it. Until your name is on the November page you won't get shit from these guys, because you're just lip service "I want to quit, I want to quit, I want to quit"
It's been 4 days for me and it's getting better and I couldn't have done it alone.
If you want to stay quit, post roll every morning, forget all the outside factors that you are turning into excuses and quit.
It's that simple.
As far as tips and tricks go, Fake snuff works wonders on the habitual cravings, reading this site helps for the nic cravings, water water water during the day and keep your mouth shut if you know an arguement is on the horizon. Better to take a "loss" with your s/o, boss, or anyone else, than to explode and look like a fool and say things that are nicotine driven instead of clear headed.
Good advice...follow it please.
Welcome and PM me if you need anything.
jmiah
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I dont need the beat down from you guys, what I do need is yall to tell me what helped you through this shit.
Sayin you don't need a beatdown gets you nowhere here. No one on this site gives a rat's ass what you "need" unless you are quit. Don't believe me? scroll down through the introductions page and look at my first post "10 years dipping" I fought these guys for two days saying I needed support and understanding not judgement and their quit philosophy.
Want to see support instead of a beatdown? Post roll, that's the only way to get it. Until your name is on the November page you won't get shit from these guys, because you're just lip service "I want to quit, I want to quit, I want to quit"
It's been 4 days for me and it's getting better and I couldn't have done it alone.
If you want to stay quit, post roll every morning, forget all the outside factors that you are turning into excuses and quit.
It's that simple.
As far as tips and tricks go, Fake snuff works wonders on the habitual cravings, reading this site helps for the nic cravings, water water water during the day and keep your mouth shut if you know an arguement is on the horizon. Better to take a "loss" with your s/o, boss, or anyone else, than to explode and look like a fool and say things that are nicotine driven instead of clear headed.
Good advice...follow it please.
Welcome and PM me if you need anything.
jmiah
Damned good advice HM. You've come a long way since those first two days.
Proud to be quit with you.
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25 hrs down!!!! Still cant find roll lol
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Where the hell is this "roll call" grrrrrr i just wanna put my head through a wall. 16 hrs down!!
Your Quit group is November 2011
index.php?showtopic=5023 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5023)
How to post roll: index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Video on How to post roll: http://www.killthecan.org/roll/ (http://www.killthecan.org/roll/)
If you cannot figure out How to Post Roll, add a reply to your quit group saying "Day 1 - please add me to roll call" and someone will add your name.
Do this now.
Souliman out.
bump for hardhat
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I dont need the beat down from you guys, what I do need is yall to tell me what helped you through this shit.
Sayin you don't need a beatdown gets you nowhere here. No one on this site gives a rat's ass what you "need" unless you are quit. Don't believe me? scroll down through the introductions page and look at my first post "10 years dipping" I fought these guys for two days saying I needed support and understanding not judgement and their quit philosophy.
Want to see support instead of a beatdown? Post roll, that's the only way to get it. Until your name is on the November page you won't get shit from these guys, because you're just lip service "I want to quit, I want to quit, I want to quit"
It's been 4 days for me and it's getting better and I couldn't have done it alone.
If you want to stay quit, post roll every morning, forget all the outside factors that you are turning into excuses and quit.
It's that simple.
As far as tips and tricks go, Fake snuff works wonders on the habitual cravings, reading this site helps for the nic cravings, water water water during the day and keep your mouth shut if you know an arguement is on the horizon. Better to take a "loss" with your s/o, boss, or anyone else, than to explode and look like a fool and say things that are nicotine driven instead of clear headed.
Good advice...follow it please.
Welcome and PM me if you need anything.
jmiah
Damned good advice HM. You've come a long way since those first two days.
Proud to be quit with you.
Appreciate it.
--I'll quit with you tomorrow DChogs.
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I dont need the beat down from you guys, what I do need is yall to tell me what helped you through this shit.
Sayin you don't need a beatdown gets you nowhere here. No one on this site gives a rat's ass what you "need" unless you are quit. Don't believe me? scroll down through the introductions page and look at my first post "10 years dipping" I fought these guys for two days saying I needed support and understanding not judgement and their quit philosophy.
Want to see support instead of a beatdown? Post roll, that's the only way to get it. Until your name is on the November page you won't get shit from these guys, because you're just lip service "I want to quit, I want to quit, I want to quit"
It's been 4 days for me and it's getting better and I couldn't have done it alone.
If you want to stay quit, post roll every morning, forget all the outside factors that you are turning into excuses and quit.
It's that simple.
As far as tips and tricks go, Fake snuff works wonders on the habitual cravings, reading this site helps for the nic cravings, water water water during the day and keep your mouth shut if you know an arguement is on the horizon. Better to take a "loss" with your s/o, boss, or anyone else, than to explode and look like a fool and say things that are nicotine driven instead of clear headed.
Good advice...follow it please.
Welcome and PM me if you need anything.
jmiah
Damned good advice HM. You've come a long way since those first two days.
Proud to be quit with you.
Appreciate it.
--I'll quit with you tomorrow DChogs.
Why not quit tonight?? Why tomorrow?? Post roll tonight and quit, and post roll tomorrow and quit! Why procrastinate with the nic bitch brother??? I been battling with the nic demons for 90 some odd days now and thanks to my strong will to quit and KTC Im kicking ass!! Nicofiend
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I dont need the beat down from you guys, what I do need is yall to tell me what helped you through this shit.
Sayin you don't need a beatdown gets you nowhere here. No one on this site gives a rat's ass what you "need" unless you are quit. Don't believe me? scroll down through the introductions page and look at my first post "10 years dipping" I fought these guys for two days saying I needed support and understanding not judgement and their quit philosophy.
Want to see support instead of a beatdown? Post roll, that's the only way to get it. Until your name is on the November page you won't get shit from these guys, because you're just lip service "I want to quit, I want to quit, I want to quit"
It's been 4 days for me and it's getting better and I couldn't have done it alone.
If you want to stay quit, post roll every morning, forget all the outside factors that you are turning into excuses and quit.
It's that simple.
As far as tips and tricks go, Fake snuff works wonders on the habitual cravings, reading this site helps for the nic cravings, water water water during the day and keep your mouth shut if you know an arguement is on the horizon. Better to take a "loss" with your s/o, boss, or anyone else, than to explode and look like a fool and say things that are nicotine driven instead of clear headed.
Good advice...follow it please.
Welcome and PM me if you need anything.
jmiah
Damned good advice HM. You've come a long way since those first two days.
Proud to be quit with you.
Appreciate it.
--I'll quit with you tomorrow DChogs.
Why not quit tonight?? Why tomorrow?? Post roll tonight and quit, and post roll tomorrow and quit! Why procrastinate with the nic bitch brother??? I been battling with the nic demons for 90 some odd days now and thanks to my strong will to quit and KTC Im kicking ass!! Nicofiend
Probably should have clarified that a bit. Tomorrow will be day 5 for me, you can check the roll. However I do appreciate the words and the motivation. I'll remember them in the coming days, proud to be quit with you Nicofiend.
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I dont need the beat down from you guys, what I do need is yall to tell me what helped you through this shit.
Sayin you don't need a beatdown gets you nowhere here. No one on this site gives a rat's ass what you "need" unless you are quit. Don't believe me? scroll down through the introductions page and look at my first post "10 years dipping" I fought these guys for two days saying I needed support and understanding not judgement and their quit philosophy.
Want to see support instead of a beatdown? Post roll, that's the only way to get it. Until your name is on the November page you won't get shit from these guys, because you're just lip service "I want to quit, I want to quit, I want to quit"
It's been 4 days for me and it's getting better and I couldn't have done it alone.
If you want to stay quit, post roll every morning, forget all the outside factors that you are turning into excuses and quit.
It's that simple.
As far as tips and tricks go, Fake snuff works wonders on the habitual cravings, reading this site helps for the nic cravings, water water water during the day and keep your mouth shut if you know an arguement is on the horizon. Better to take a "loss" with your s/o, boss, or anyone else, than to explode and look like a fool and say things that are nicotine driven instead of clear headed.
Good advice...follow it please.
Welcome and PM me if you need anything.
jmiah
Damned good advice HM. You've come a long way since those first two days.
Proud to be quit with you.
Appreciate it.
--I'll quit with you tomorrow DChogs.
Why not quit tonight?? Why tomorrow?? Post roll tonight and quit, and post roll tomorrow and quit! Why procrastinate with the nic bitch brother??? I been battling with the nic demons for 90 some odd days now and thanks to my strong will to quit and KTC Im kicking ass!! Nicofiend
Probably should have clarified that a bit. Tomorrow will be day 5 for me, you can check the roll. However I do appreciate the words and the motivation. I'll remember them in the coming days, proud to be quit with you Nicofiend.
Highway, way to go!! Proud to be quit with you today! nico
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someone post this on roll,
Hardhatdiver- quit for 1 day and 6 hours into day number 2!!
Im gonna beat this shit yet guys. This website is a big big help. Thanks
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still quit, no sleep last night though.
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Where the hell is this "roll call" grrrrrr i just wanna put my head through a wall. 16 hrs down!!
Your Quit group is November 2011
index.php?showtopic=5023 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5023)
How to post roll: index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Video on How to post roll: http://www.killthecan.org/roll/ (http://www.killthecan.org/roll/)
If you cannot figure out How to Post Roll, add a reply to your quit group saying "Day 1 - please add me to roll call" and someone will add your name.
Do this now.
Souliman out.
bump for hardhat
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how do i find my quit group?? 'bang head'
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how do i find my quit group?? 'bang head'
index.php?showtopic=5023 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5023)
did you read this first? index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
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still quit, lol just got out of the hospital. turns out that I have strep throat. On a battery of antobiotics. Still havent caved
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still quit, lol just got out of the hospital. turns out that I have strep throat. On a battery of antobiotics. Still havent caved
Diver I need to ask if you have posted roll? You have received and will receive tremendous support in this effort if you join our program. We have been urging you for some time now to do this.
Before you spout off about our program and the support and whatnot, please read this thread:
Introduction by Dipshit (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5095)
and
index.php?showtopic=120 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=120)
If you have posted roll, I'm with you. You have my support as well as my brothers and sisters. If you haven't, read that thread and then go post roll. If you haven't, you read that thread and decide not to post roll, I'm going to ask you to get your swollen vagina and weak ass garbage out of here. Its our way or nothing. I don't think anyone can stop you from posting in this thread. But I don't think it would do you much good if no one is giving you feedback other than hoping your balls drop and you put your word down that you quit with November (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5023).
Souliman throws open the doors, walks through the crowd chanting "BRING THE QUIT...BRING THE QUIT..." and gets into his Quit Mobile of Terror and lays a patch not before exclaiming "I got real bitches to save. I'm outta here."
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Hi I am Jim and I have been here before. Dipping has caused hell in my life and ready to wage war on it once again. This time for the last time. I am worried about my health and got rid of all stressers in my life. I am ready to quit. New job kicked the gf to the curb. Ready to start fresh in this life. Just need to figure out how to make this shit easier. Any support would be great.
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Hi I am Jim and I have been here before. Dipping has caused hell in my life and ready to wage war on it once again. This time for the last time. I am worried about my health and got rid of all stressers in my life. I am ready to quit. New job kicked the gf to the curb. Ready to start fresh in this life. Just need to figure out how to make this shit easier. Any support would be great.
What happened?
Why did it happen?
What are you going to do differently this time?
(I merged your intros together so we could get a better view of your past.)
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no patches no nic gum no once in a while dip. just gum seeds and whatever else i can find to stay off the shit. Ihonestly caved cause i was a jackass and stayed with my gf after she put me in the hospital twice. I was so aggravated so naturally i went back to dipping because it was a familiar fix. I was stupid thats what it really comes down to.
but here i am new job no gf new state so im ready for that fresh start. Any advice would be great. Like what got you through the first 2-5 days. Thanks!!
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no patches no nic gum no once in a while dip. just gum seeds and whatever else i can find to stay off the shit. Ihonestly caved cause i was a jackass and stayed with my gf after she put me in the hospital twice. I was so aggravated so naturally i went back to dipping because it was a familiar fix. I was stupid thats what it really comes down to.
but here i am new job no gf new state so im ready for that fresh start. Any advice would be great. Like what got you through the first 2-5 days. Thanks!!
Don't worry about quitting forever, quit day by day. You may find that early on you may find success quitting hour by hour. I got through the first week on pure will power. I didn't want to lose that battle, I stuck whatever I could find in my mouth. You can do this, put your mind to it. An attitude goes a long way!
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Desire: increases resolve and determination.
Nicotine didn't do jack shit for me. Didn't matter the situation. Regardless if it was a victory, failure, stabilizer, or social. Nicotine was the biggest lie and deception in my life.
Everything I thought it did for me, it didn't. Just hate the shit so much that even if you were being tortured, you would rather be tortured and tormented than surrender to the lie of tobacco and nicotine.
As an addict, never focus past today. Everyday you wake, go to battle to win. No nic, Not today. Win each day and as they add up, you will enjoy kicking the shit out of the nic bitch.
Relish the pain and enjoy the hurt and suck of breaking the chains. Fresh start? Time for you to own that. Fresh starts aren't easy even if the break is clean, it takes time to heal. Day after Day.
You can do this. Reach out to your group and bleed together and embrace the suck!
258 days no nic for me and I haven't caved. I don't look to tomorrow. I quit today and focus on surviving and winning my match today.
Welcome to hell. You're going to hate it but if you stick with it and go undefeated to the HOF, you will feel a freedom and end up loving the journey to freedom...You will never want to repeat it either.