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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Post Oak on February 02, 2015, 10:59:00 AM
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Hello every one. I am on day 13 of my quit. I have been dipping for 26 years, 2 cans a day for the last 4 years. I came down with the flu on the evening of 1/20 and was out for 4 days. Knowing that I needed to quit and not having a dip for 4 days I figured that it would be as good of a time as ever to quit.
A little more about me: I am 44 years old. I am a full time taxidermist that works at home mainly by myself. I have a 12 yr old son and a loving wife. I have tried seriously quitting 3 times before only to cave a few days to a week into the quit.
My first 7 days without dipping weren't bad at all, chewed the heck out of gum, got plenty of rest, no problems. Now on day 8, 1/29, ......all hell broke loose. My wife was at home helping me in the shop and about noon, out of nowhere I break down and start crying????? Then all these thoughts from the past flood my mind and stay in it. I cry until I go to bed at 1:30 am. I wake up at 4:30 am and start the process all over. The thoughts come back and the crying starts again and doesn't stop. There are a few breaks from the crying spells but not many. This continues for the next 4 days. I haven't gotten any work in my shop done, I have no drive, and my wife was even to the point of telling me, "do what you have to do". I average about 3 to 4 hours of sleep at night with the aide of sleeping pills.
Last night and this morning are no different from the previous 4 days. I fell asleep at 11:30 and woke up at 3:30, started crying around 4:30 and haven't quit since. I hate feeling like this and hate for my family to see me like this.
How long will this last and what can I do to help me get through this?
Thanks,
Post Oak
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Hello every one. I am on day 13 of my quit. I have been dipping for 26 years, 2 cans a day for the last 4 years. I came down with the flu on the evening of 1/20 and was out for 4 days. Knowing that I needed to quit and not having a dip for 4 days I figured that it would be as good of a time as ever to quit.
A little more about me: I am 44 years old. I am a full time taxidermist that works at home mainly by myself. I have a 12 yr old son and a loving wife. I have tried seriously quitting 3 times before only to cave a few days to a week into the quit.
My first 7 days without dipping weren't bad at all, chewed the heck out of gum, got plenty of rest, no problems. Now on day 8, 1/29, ......all hell broke loose. My wife was at home helping me in the shop and about noon, out of nowhere I break down and start crying????? Then all these thoughts from the past flood my mind and stay in it. I cry until I go to bed at 1:30 am. I wake up at 4:30 am and start the process all over. The thoughts come back and the crying starts again and doesn't stop. There are a few breaks from the crying spells but not many. This continues for the next 4 days. I haven't gotten any work in my shop done, I have no drive, and my wife was even to the point of telling me, "do what you have to do". I average about 3 to 4 hours of sleep at night with the aide of sleeping pills.
Last night and this morning are no different from the previous 4 days. I fell asleep at 11:30 and woke up at 3:30, started crying around 4:30 and haven't quit since. I hate feeling like this and hate for my family to see me like this.
How long will this last and what can I do to help me get through this?
Thanks,
Post Oak
From about days 15 through 25 I was getting up at 3:15 am every morning and not getting back to sleep. Now (day 33) I am sleeping fine. No crying although I felt like breaking down a few times. Everything sucks right now but it gets better. I wish I had better answers but that is pretty much all I can say, stay strong and you'll get through it!
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Hello every one. I am on day 13 of my quit. I have been dipping for 26 years, 2 cans a day for the last 4 years. I came down with the flu on the evening of 1/20 and was out for 4 days. Knowing that I needed to quit and not having a dip for 4 days I figured that it would be as good of a time as ever to quit.
A little more about me: I am 44 years old. I am a full time taxidermist that works at home mainly by myself. I have a 12 yr old son and a loving wife. I have tried seriously quitting 3 times before only to cave a few days to a week into the quit.
My first 7 days without dipping weren't bad at all, chewed the heck out of gum, got plenty of rest, no problems. Now on day 8, 1/29, ......all hell broke loose. My wife was at home helping me in the shop and about noon, out of nowhere I break down and start crying????? Then all these thoughts from the past flood my mind and stay in it. I cry until I go to bed at 1:30 am. I wake up at 4:30 am and start the process all over. The thoughts come back and the crying starts again and doesn't stop. There are a few breaks from the crying spells but not many. This continues for the next 4 days. I haven't gotten any work in my shop done, I have no drive, and my wife was even to the point of telling me, "do what you have to do". I average about 3 to 4 hours of sleep at night with the aide of sleeping pills.
Last night and this morning are no different from the previous 4 days. I fell asleep at 11:30 and woke up at 3:30, started crying around 4:30 and haven't quit since. I hate feeling like this and hate for my family to see me like this.
How long will this last and what can I do to help me get through this?
Thanks,
Post Oak
Post Oak,
Welcome and congratulations on your quit. Nicotine/chew have been controlling your mind and body for the last 26years and it will take time for your body and mind to adjust.
There are a lot of guys who have unearthed a lot of other issues after their quit including anxiety and depression. Drink tons of water and flush that poison out.
Go see your doctor, therapist and dentist as well, they will understand and check you out.
Stay quit at all cost, you don't want to have to do that again.
http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/wha ... t-dipping/ (http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/what-to-expect-when-you-quit-dipping/)
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Hey post,
Kinda same boat for me.. Might read my intro. Dipped 30+ years, I think the crying thing is good... Bottled up inside of you.... Let it out.
I would also head back to the doctor. Might be those sleeping pills.
They gave me some while I was in the hospital (first time in hospital and first time on any pills) and I cried uncontrollably also. Good news, I gave up everything.. Nicotine, alcohol, caffeine... After about 4 weeks I started sleeping like a baby.
I'll send you my digits, we can text, and I'll help you though it.
In the mean time... Learn how to post roll in May 2015.
I quit with you today... Tell your wife your gonna quit and get through this.
It's Your life, your decision... Let's get er done.
Rawls
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Hey Post. It will get better I promise. My recommendation is for you to put everything you have into saving your own life. A good way to do that is to read this website all you can. Read everything. Understand your addiction. We are all here with you. And have been where you are. You are doing this. It is hard. But you are determined and and understand there is no option for failure.
Sunflower seeds and atomic fireball jawbreakers were a huge help for me early on. Also, drinking as much water as possible.
I quit with you today.
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Hello every one. I am on day 13 of my quit. I have been dipping for 26 years, 2 cans a day for the last 4 years. I came down with the flu on the evening of 1/20 and was out for 4 days. Knowing that I needed to quit and not having a dip for 4 days I figured that it would be as good of a time as ever to quit.
A little more about me: I am 44 years old. I am a full time taxidermist that works at home mainly by myself. I have a 12 yr old son and a loving wife. I have tried seriously quitting 3 times before only to cave a few days to a week into the quit.
My first 7 days without dipping weren't bad at all, chewed the heck out of gum, got plenty of rest, no problems. Now on day 8, 1/29, ......all hell broke loose. My wife was at home helping me in the shop and about noon, out of nowhere I break down and start crying????? Then all these thoughts from the past flood my mind and stay in it. I cry until I go to bed at 1:30 am. I wake up at 4:30 am and start the process all over. The thoughts come back and the crying starts again and doesn't stop. There are a few breaks from the crying spells but not many. This continues for the next 4 days. I haven't gotten any work in my shop done, I have no drive, and my wife was even to the point of telling me, "do what you have to do". I average about 3 to 4 hours of sleep at night with the aide of sleeping pills.
Last night and this morning are no different from the previous 4 days. I fell asleep at 11:30 and woke up at 3:30, started crying around 4:30 and haven't quit since. I hate feeling like this and hate for my family to see me like this.
How long will this last and what can I do to help me get through this?
Thanks,
Post Oak
Hey post. Welcome to an addicts world! It's probably gonna get worse before it gets better. Please do yourself a favor get in here post roll and I promise you all of us guy's will be here 24-7 to help you because we're all in the same boat just some have different side effects but I bet someone here can relate to anything that's gonna come up. Been dipping 38 years on day 37 quit! My friend I'm not going to lie to you it's been hell but worth every damn second! I couldn't be quit today without all these guy's here it's my 24 hour lifeline and it's free! Damn good bunch guy's and gals waiting and wanting to help!
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Thanks for the replies and words of encouragement! I now that I will get through this and that it will take some/a lot of time. I will stay strong and fight through this. I am too far into it just to give up. Thanks again guys!
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Thanks for the replies and words of encouragement! I now that I will get through this and that it will take some/a lot of time. I will stay strong and fight through this. I am too far into it just to give up. Thanks again guys!
Definitely no giving up here brother! You got this!! Take that nicbitch out back and give her what she deserves. I can relate to the flood of emotions you are experiencing. For far too long I've been one to internalize feelings. Especially through harsh and traumatizing times. The nicbitch seemingly helped to pack those things neatly away in their respective boxes in the brain. Once she received her eviction notice though, she went batshit crazy and trashed the place. Opened damn near every box and dumped it out. I'm still sifting through the crap and cleaning up the mess but I'm honestly finding it refreshingly healing. Instead of looking at these things as triggers, I do what I can to turn them into strengths or inspiration for my quit.
Do what you need to do to further solidify your quit. I highly recommend seeing a doctor and letting him know what you're going through. Rawls may be on to something with the sleeping pills and that is also something worth mentioning to the doc. Use this site, make contacts, post roll, and commit to your quit.
Remember:
One day at a time (ODAAT)
Never again for any reason (NAFAR)
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Hells yes you can do this. Quitting has made me realize that I didn't always deal with shit.... it affects us all differently. Choose to stay quit and do this right the first time.
What are your specialty animal?
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I cried early on in my quit, this addiction we share is a real bitch. Stay strong and it will get better.
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Misfire
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Hey bud it looks like you and I are from nearly the same stomping grounds. I sent you a PM with more info and digits. I quit with you today.
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Post Oak....welcome to the Hall of Fame! This is the first time I've read you're intro, and I'm glad you came through the dark place and are now able to be clean and clear for 100 days. Here's to one more...and one more....and one more. You got this. Congrats.
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Post Oak....welcome to the Hall of Fame! This is the first time I've read you're intro, and I'm glad you came through the dark place and are now able to be clean and clear for 100 days. Here's to one more...and one more....and one more. You got this. Congrats.
Also late congrats post... You Rock!
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First of all, congrats on making it 100 days and into the HOF! From your first post, it appeared early in your quit that you were having some issues. How are those things going for you now and how did you overcome them?
Again, congrats! Glad to see you're still around!
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500 days of Quit :boss: 'Cheers' brother. Proud of you.
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500 days of Quit :boss: 'Cheers' brother. Proud of you.
Same.... ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ ...well done Post.
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1,000 Days is nothing to shake a comma at. Well done brother, proud to quit with you EDD!