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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: EvilFish on September 19, 2013, 03:13:00 PM
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I started chewing when I was 15, working on a fishing boat and staying up 18-20 hours a day. I do not even remember why I guess it just gave me something to do. At one point, I was chewing 3-4 cans a day. Up until this morning, I was about a 2 can a day average. I actually sat down and did the math yesterday and $60,000 later realized “I’m a frigen Idiot”. So here we go today is a new day and it starts over now!
I have tried to quit before when I was working in Canada for 6 months and did really well. I do have to admit it was mostly because Copenhagen was around $20 a can! Nevertheless, it worked for me. Working away from home to support my family was not worth wasting the money. After I came home, I started up again.
One question I have is how do you guys deal with the anger and irritability. From experiences, I know that I get quite angry when I quit and take it out on my family (not intentionally). It seems the more they ask me what is wrong the worse it makes it. I am normally a very quiet person and easy going. I never get mad or yell at anyone. I wish I could just go away and quit on my own to keep my family from having to deal with me but I think that was the problem last time.
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I started chewing when I was 15, working on a fishing boat and staying up 18-20 hours a day. I do not even remember why I guess it just gave me something to do. At one point, I was chewing 3-4 cans a day. Up until this morning, I was about a 2 can a day average. I actually sat down and did the math yesterday and $60,000 later realized “I’m a frigen Idiot”. So here we go today is a new day and it starts over now!
I have tried to quit before when I was working in Canada for 6 months and did really well. I do have to admit it was mostly because Copenhagen was around $20 a can! Nevertheless, it worked for me. Working away from home to support my family was not worth wasting the money. After I came home, I started up again.
One question I have is how do you guys deal with the anger and irritability. From experiences, I know that I get quite angry when I quit and take it out on my family (not intentionally). It seems the more they ask me what is wrong the worse it makes it. I am normally a very quiet person and easy going. I never get mad or yell at anyone. I wish I could just go away and quit on my own to keep my family from having to deal with me but I think that was the problem last time.
Great choices quitting and coming here. First of all, read the pink welcome center button up above and over to the left a bit.
Learn how to, and why we post roll here, then go post day 1 in the Dec quit group.
We quit one day at a time here. ODAAT. So, there is no reason to get hung up on the anger stuff that may have come when you stopped in the past (now, you are quit, then, you just stopped for a while) When and if it comes, get on this site and take it out on us. We have all been there, and understand. Exersize helps and accept that it is just part of the path to being quit.
Now, go post roll, promising that you are quit for today.
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Great choice, Evil!!! I agree with Cali...click on the Welcome Center link above and start reading. Read "What to Expect" and other stuff. Also, learn how and why to post roll...then do it.
As far as dealing with anger...exercise seemed to help. Also, try to manage your mindset. See the anger for what it is...a withdrawal symptom. The learn to embrace the all of the withdrawal symptoms. They are the feeling of healing, brother!
Quitting is a privilege reserved to those who have the guts to do it. Think of it this way...you GET to feel this crappy because you had the guts to DECIDE to be free.
You have been getting a steady dose of addictive poison for many years. It is going to take time to get past the early withdrawals. But it can be done. Look at all the other bad-ass quitter who are posting roll...not just your group, but all those months and years. ALL of them have been right where YOU are right now. And every one of those bad-asses are making a promise to you to not use nicotine each and every damn day. Pretty cool, huh?
So anger? How about euphoria!!! Tell folks that you're touchy because you quit. When you tell folks the cause, you will realize how silly you sound. Then all you have to do is learn to laugh at your dumb-ass for making the same mistakes that all of us dumb-asses did.
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What's up Sig? (I call you Sig based on the assumption that you are the Captain of the NorthWestern...lol...)
If you read through the other intro's you may see some of my same words on them but they always hold true so I will just repeat them...
You are in for one nasty fight but you have the tools here to make it.
Read everything on here, post roll call each morning and don't dip. Wow....that sounds so easy, doesn't it?
Go load yourself up with gum, mints, fake chew, seeds and beef jerky. Also get some member phone numbers right now, they will help you through the rough parts.
Next, exercise to exhaustion every single day and drink so much water that you feel like you may bust. Both of these will help. I am a cycling freak so during the first several weeks I lived on my bike and stayed overtrained. Surprisingly, you feel about the same when you are overtrained as you do during the fog so somehow, it made it better.
Unfortunately, I traded dipping for food and have gained 12 lbs. This seems to be a common issue and at first I didn't worry about it as I know how to diet and how to train. Well, it turns out that I can't mentally handle this quit along with a strong diet so I just pulled the plug on the rest of race season. I was really bummed about this at first but I have accepted it as something I needed to do in order to put my quit first. Hell, I will likely have more fun on my bike now that I am just doing it for kicks.
Make sure your wife reads about what you are going through. 99% chance that you are going to be a short fussed dick for the next 3-4 weeks. Try not to take it out on her and the kids. Get on here and take it out on us, we will be fine.
My temper has been my worst ordeal through this and here I am on day 60 and it's still bad. I am trying to work my way through that part one day at a time too.
I quit with you.
Greg
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its nothing to be a shame of.My wife calls me a bitch and a dick since I quit.So all I tell her this dick is hooking up the boat and is going fishing.....
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Welcome cap'n EF all the best to you! You've already got some great advice all round,
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Way to get in and post day 1 bro! Congratulations! This is a great decision and u will not regret it. Read up and learn. You can do this! Quit with you today!
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Congrats on quitting and welcome to KTC. Just listen to what all these fine quitters tell you and post roll early every single day, even twice if you need to. If you need anything at all feel free to pm me...
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Thank you everyone.
Spent most of last night looking over the site and there is some great info on here.
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Thank you everyone.
Spent most of last night looking over the site and there is some great info on here.
Congrats fishy. When you get mad or want to hit something come here. Pick a fight with someone here online. The morning of my 8th day I blew up and fought with another quitter. We understand the pain and all the shit quitting causes. Bring it on!!
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Day 5 now and so far it has been going pretty well. The headaches come and go but so far, the irritability has been under control for the most part. Yesterday when it felt it coming on I just got up and walked around the block. Other than that, it was a great weekend. Took my daughter to the beach and built a table and chairs far for the back yard. Trying to keep my mind and myself busy.
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Day 5 now and so far it has been going pretty well. The headaches come and go but so far, the irritability has been under control for the most part. Yesterday when it felt it coming on I just got up and walked around the block. Other than that, it was a great weekend. Took my daughter to the beach and built a table and chairs far for the back yard. Trying to keep my mind and myself busy.
You will stay quit today also my friend, you have no other choice. You posted roll i presume. Therefore i hold you to that promise. Great things are coming. Stay the course and keep that head pointed forward. Nothing back there but slavery to a filthy disgusting can of poison. You got this. Glad to be Quit with.
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Day 5 now and so far it has been going pretty well. The headaches come and go but so far, the irritability has been under control for the most part. Yesterday when it felt it coming on I just got up and walked around the block. Other than that, it was a great weekend. Took my daughter to the beach and built a table and chairs far for the back yard. Trying to keep my mind and myself busy.
You will stay quit today also my friend, you have no other choice. You posted roll i presume. Therefore i hold you to that promise. Great things are coming. Stay the course and keep that head pointed forward. Nothing back there but slavery to a filthy disgusting can of poison. You got this. Glad to be Quit with.
Way to post roll for day 5! You are doing this bro! Make sure you stay hydrated today. It took me a few days to figure this out despite everyone telling me to do it... But it really helped once I took it for action drank a lot of water. It might help with the headaches some. Keep fighting my man. You got this. Quit with you today!
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Congrats on making it to day 5!
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I just got up and walked around the block.
For some reason this sentence really jumped out at me. I think it's my new euphemism for choosing to not let the negative crap in life get the best of us. Own or be owned. You're doing great, bro.
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Day 8
The past two days have been tough in the morning. I want so bad to stop by the gas station that I use to haunt on the way to work. All I think on my way is “just one more can” by the time I pass by my head hurts my whole face is numb. I think my body is telling me just to stop. I think it is quite amazing how the mind works, as soon as I pass it by the headaches and the numbness goes away. I will not cave!
The irritability has been getting worse the last few days as well. Walking and drinking water seem to work for that. Even lost 10 lbs last week but that is my next hurtle.
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Fish you're speaking my language right now bro. The last couple mornings have been tough for me as well. I'm a couple days behind you, but I get that same itch in the mornings driving past the gas stations. There is a mini-mart in my building I used to buy at as well. When I walk past there and see the tins in the window, I can almost taste it.
Just like you though, I keep moving and get past the windows. It takes a couple minutes to forget about it, but without exception, I do every time. Sometimes it takes longer than others, but hell, if by walking past there and not stopping I buy an extra 10, 15, 20 years with my family, they could be throwing the tins at me for all I care. I'm doing this for me and I'm doing this for them. No 10 minute buzz is going to shake that...
Keep pushing and together we'll walk into that HOF in December.
peace and quit brother.
jz
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Day 8
The past two days have been tough in the morning. I want so bad to stop by the gas station that I use to haunt on the way to work. All I think on my way is “just one more can” by the time I pass by my head hurts my whole face is numb. I think my body is telling me just to stop. I think it is quite amazing how the mind works, as soon as I pass it by the headaches and the numbness goes away. I will not cave!
The irritability has been getting worse the last few days as well. Walking and drinking water seem to work for that. Even lost 10 lbs last week but that is my next hurtle.
Way to focus on one specific thing brother. I suggest alternating your route to work once to see if that helps with the numbness and headaches.
You have a good solid quit starting to brew inside you. Continue to use the site, gain friends as more people equals more accountability. Everyone has a different way of showing it but everyone on here cares enough to help you. Hell, none of us would have gotten this far without someone helping us when we were in the same place you are. Just remember that life will happen around you if you quit or not.
However, being a quitter is one hell of a way to win. Take you life back and be in charge of what you want. If it helps you at all my first two weeks were horrible. I hated people and I do mean everyone, I had anger issues, I gained a few pounds, my work suffered, my family didn't like me...but I made it and out of the blue there was a clearing morning when the fog lifted, the sand fell out of my mental vagina and I was just better. Not cured by any means but better.
I used smokeless tobacco for at least 8,760 days, I am now on day 74 of my quit, which means I have at least 87,00 more days before I can even start to think I am cured.
Keep up the good work, one day at a time.
QFQQ,
Pinched
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Day 8
The past two days have been tough in the morning. I want so bad to stop by the gas station that I use to haunt on the way to work. All I think on my way is “just one more can” by the time I pass by my head hurts my whole face is numb. I think my body is telling me just to stop. I think it is quite amazing how the mind works, as soon as I pass it by the headaches and the numbness goes away. I will not cave!
The irritability has been getting worse the last few days as well. Walking and drinking water seem to work for that. Even lost 10 lbs last week but that is my next hurtle.
Way to focus on one specific thing brother. I suggest alternating your route to work once to see if that helps with the numbness and headaches.
You have a good solid quit starting to brew inside you. Continue to use the site, gain friends as more people equals more accountability. Everyone has a different way of showing it but everyone on here cares enough to help you. Hell, none of us would have gotten this far without someone helping us when we were in the same place you are. Just remember that life will happen around you if you quit or not.
However, being a quitter is one hell of a way to win. Take you life back and be in charge of what you want. If it helps you at all my first two weeks were horrible. I hated people and I do mean everyone, I had anger issues, I gained a few pounds, my work suffered, my family didn't like me...but I made it and out of the blue there was a clearing morning when the fog lifted, the sand fell out of my mental vagina and I was just better. Not cured by any means but better.
I used smokeless tobacco for at least 8,760 days, I am now on day 74 of my quit, which means I have at least 87,00 more days before I can even start to think I am cured.
Keep up the good work, one day at a time.
QFQQ,
Pinched
Your doing great my friend. Pinch gave you some great advice, but i'm going to spin it in another direction.
Drive by that gas stating everyday several times a day. Make that brain of your see that's it's not going to win. Don't let this can of dirt you use to use every day dictate your route to work or any other destination. The more you drive by that store the easier it will get.
After time go into that store and just stick your middle finger right at the poison. Screw the poison. Read my signature line. Never mind I'll just say it. I hate you poison. I hated you this morning and I hate you right now. I'll hate you for dinner and I'll hate you at bed time. I hate you so much I'll mention the hate in a prayer. I enjoy hating you so much I'll wake up tomorrow and began hating you again.
Glad to be quit with you gentlemen.
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Day 8
The past two days have been tough in the morning. I want so bad to stop by the gas station that I use to haunt on the way to work. All I think on my way is “just one more can” by the time I pass by my head hurts my whole face is numb. I think my body is telling me just to stop. I think it is quite amazing how the mind works, as soon as I pass it by the headaches and the numbness goes away. I will not cave!
The irritability has been getting worse the last few days as well. Walking and drinking water seem to work for that. Even lost 10 lbs last week but that is my next hurtle.
Way to focus on one specific thing brother. I suggest alternating your route to work once to see if that helps with the numbness and headaches.
You have a good solid quit starting to brew inside you. Continue to use the site, gain friends as more people equals more accountability. Everyone has a different way of showing it but everyone on here cares enough to help you. Hell, none of us would have gotten this far without someone helping us when we were in the same place you are. Just remember that life will happen around you if you quit or not.
However, being a quitter is one hell of a way to win. Take you life back and be in charge of what you want. If it helps you at all my first two weeks were horrible. I hated people and I do mean everyone, I had anger issues, I gained a few pounds, my work suffered, my family didn't like me...but I made it and out of the blue there was a clearing morning when the fog lifted, the sand fell out of my mental vagina and I was just better. Not cured by any means but better.
I used smokeless tobacco for at least 8,760 days, I am now on day 74 of my quit, which means I have at least 87,00 more days before I can even start to think I am cured.
Keep up the good work, one day at a time.
QFQQ,
Pinched
Your doing great my friend. Pinch gave you some great advice, but i'm going to spin it in another direction.
Drive by that gas stating everyday several times a day. Make that brain of your see that's it's not going to win. Don't let this can of dirt you use to use every day dictate your route to work or any other destination. The more you drive by that store the easier it will get.
After time go into that store and just stick your middle finger right at the poison. Screw the poison. Read my signature line. Never mind I'll just say it. I hate you poison. I hated you this morning and I hate you right now. I'll hate you for dinner and I'll hate you at bed time. I hate you so much I'll mention the hate in a prayer. I enjoy hating you so much I'll wake up tomorrow and began hating you again.
Glad to be quit with you gentlemen.
Great job on 8 days bro. These days are a battle but you are winning. Keep fighting and don't stop in the morning. I used to do the exact same thing every morning. The only reason I stopped was for dip. I drive the same route and go straight to work. Today I actually looked at the 7-11 I would always stop at and laughed. Post roll as you leave for work. Your commitment will be fresh. Before you know it the numbness and headaches will fade away. For today... No dip! Stay quit! Your doing this!