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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Suck-It on March 05, 2012, 06:04:00 PM
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Alright - 10 days in and feeling GREAT!!! I've been reading all the intros and felt like it was time to throw one out there - also to serve as a journal to refer back to when shit gets tough. I am like most on here - 22+ years of Copenhagen/can a day. If I wasn't eating or sleeping I was chewing. Did not have to hide it at home and the kids are now getting to the age that they are asking about it. I have 4 oldest is a girl 7, twins (boy and girl) 5, and 2 year old boy. Pretty crazy around my house. Work is a challenge, bunch of guys I work with chew. Great guys and they respect that I am QUIT but nonetheless, I still have to see it all day long. So far I have battled through because the one thing I have is my word and it is Gold. I am done, strong in this quit, and tired of the shit - tired of trying to quit and then failing so many previous times. First week sucked, but has been getting better. Sleeping better now, no more head aches, and the rage is calming. Had a few moments early where I was close to ripping some heads off. Anyways, this is my quick intro - I love the accountability here, it has truly kept me quit through the early days. Looking forward to getting through the funk and getting to know my quit brothers. We will do this. Stay Quit!!!
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I am on my third day of not buying any tobacco products. After 37 years of dipping it is time to quit.
I started each day with one Nico gum and then put on the patch - worked, slept and then did it over again.
Also using gum and sunflowerseeds.
Two weeks out when I have five days off in a row then I go cold turkey.
Skunce
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2 1/2 hours after posting "I Feel Great," I hit a major rage. Not a crave - no crave at all but a major dickhead rage. Sucks how it can sneak in and turn me into a complete asshole. Tonight it was over a 2 dollar redbox return. 2 fucking dollars. Well, truth be told it was a nicotine rage and I owe my wife a big apology. Fuckin Copenhagen!!! Why did I ever get hooked on that shit????
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2 1/2 hours after posting "I Feel Great," I hit a major rage. Not a crave - no crave at all but a major dickhead rage. Sucks how it can sneak in and turn me into a complete asshole. Tonight it was over a 2 dollar redbox return. 2 fucking dollars. Well, truth be told it was a nicotine rage and I owe my wife a big apology. Fuckin Copenhagen!!! Why did I ever get hooked on that shit????
I hear you, man. I raged like a freakin madman the first week of my quit. Then some vet told me to be sure and take out any nic-rage online instead of in-home. So I've been raging online every since.. Lately I have been basically having to make shit up to rage about, but its part of the plan. Most people in May2012 probably think I'm a Lunatic asshole, but its working for me and I'm still quit! My family and I thank May2012 for absorbing the rage. Your quit group can handle the rage, so I suggest giving them your best rage, and sparing those innocent soles around you.
And by the way, a fella can be expected to lose it over anything involving Red Box, wives and late fees. Right?
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I am on my third day of not buying any tobacco products. After 37 years of dipping it is time to quit.
I started each day with one Nico gum and then put on the patch - worked, slept and then did it over again.
Also using gum and sunflowerseeds.
Two weeks out when I have five days off in a row then I go cold turkey.
Skunce
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This is a no nic site. No nic gum, patch, whatever.
It is good you have a quit plan, but don't pretend you are nic-free already when you are still getting dosed. This site supports cold turkey only for active members.
I hope you enact your plan soon, and join the rest of the actual quitters on this site.
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Yeah, same question why did I let it hook me for 37 years!
My reactions so far have been joy and guilt for being a dumb ass.
I am sure a real rage will come, but right now I pretty humble.
Skunce
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Yeah, same question why did I let it hook me for 37 years!
My reactions so far have been joy and guilt for being a dumb ass.
I am sure a real rage will come, but right now I pretty humble.
Skunce
Skunce,
Have you posted roll yet?
Go here.. index.php?showtopic=6044 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=6044)
You will be in the June 2012 group.
Check out the Welcome Center links as well... index.php?showforum=13 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
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Your are right this is a cold turkey site!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will get there soon as I have a plan. Thirty seven years is a long time and a cold turkey would be instant death.
I will never buy another can, but will throttle back for 30 days and t hen drop the patch.
Thanks for brining me back to reality.
Skunce
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Your are right this is a cold turkey site!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will get there soon as I have a plan. Thirty seven years is a long time and a cold turkey would be instant death.
I will never buy another can, but will throttle back for 30 days and t hen drop the patch.
Thanks for brining me back to reality.
Skunce
Tomorrow never comes...don't put off quitting tomorrow what you can quit today.....live for today
Hyperbole aside, you should quit today.
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Your are right this is a cold turkey site!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will get there soon as I have a plan. Thirty seven years is a long time and a cold turkey would be instant death.
I will never buy another can, but will throttle back for 30 days and t hen drop the patch.
Thanks for brining me back to reality.
Skunce
I understand the throttle back and why, just when you do unpatch or drop the gum do it with conviction and stay the course! It will be tough but the tougher it is the more satisfying the quit!
Read on this site as there is a ton of good useful information and when you quit be quit not stopped!
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Your are right this is a cold turkey site!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will get there soon as I have a plan. Thirty seven years is a long time and a cold turkey would be instant death.
I will never buy another can, but will throttle back for 30 days and t hen drop the patch.
Thanks for brining me back to reality.
Skunce
If you're serious, you'll take that patch off right now and throw the remaining ones in the garbage.
You're not helping your problem, you're only treating a symptom by taking the dip out. The nicotine is still there - which is what you are a slave to.
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Your are right this is a cold turkey site!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will get there soon as I have a plan. Thirty seven years is a long time and a cold turkey would be instant death.
I will never buy another can, but will throttle back for 30 days and t hen drop the patch.
Thanks for brining me back to reality.
Skunce
Sorry to have to call it like it is...
BULLSHIT.
I was in it for 26 years. The last several years at 3 cans per day. Go find my intro thread and read about the shit I did to keep on. 37 years isn't any different than 26 years.
This is nicotine. Not heroine. You won't die from withdrawal. It may suck. You may feel some temporary side effects from quitting that aren't pleasant, but you will not die from it. The patch is just delaying what you have to do to get quit which is let the nicotine get flushed out of your system.
YOU ARE NOT ADDICTED TO DIP ITSELF...YOU ARE ADDICTED TO NICOTINE.
If you are serious about quitting, take the patch off, go and find whatever cans of dip you can find and flush them, and post roll. Honor your word. Repeat the next day.
If you aren't serious about quitting, or if you think that you have a better way with a patch, then move along because this honestly isn't the place for you.
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Pmac hit the nail on the head. Quit spouting off about all the great stuff you're "about to do."
There are no short-cuts or easy ways out. Nobody can do this for you. It doesn't matter who your daddy is, or how much money you have. You have to earn your freedom one day at a time.
You know what to do. And you know how to do it. One easy step...quit putting that shit in you lip. I suspect the reason you don't quit is that you're scared. Scared of failing, scared of feeling like crap, scared of not being sure you can do it. Look, I'm here to tell you you can. You take the first step, then we're here for you the rest of the way. But you gotta decide to do it...and do it now.
No pills, no patches, no bullshit, no excuses....just pure 100% white-knuckle, constipated, no sleeping, head aching quitting going on here. And it is WONDERFUL!!! It's freedom. And we're earning it one day at a time.
You're still finger-fucking the Nic Bitch. I wish I were welcoming another bad-ass quitter. But I'm not...yet. Come back when you're serious.
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I posted my intro the other day but it sort of took off in a crazy direction with others. Not a bad thing, glad to start something up and see all the feed back even if it wasn't specific to me. All advice and info is helpful. But, kind of got way off track and want to use this as sort of a journal so I can go back and read the pains of the quit. That being said, today I read an intro from a vet and he talked about his friend Randy who is fighting for his life over oral cancer. Very sad and extremely scary. Not sure how anyone including myself can ever cave after reading that. Cancer is real, it can happen to anyone of us, and I only hope that quitting after 22+ years that I quit early enough. Stay Quit - it is a fight for life or death. Thanks for all the advice and support to this point from the vets and all my quit brothers in June. We will beat this together and earn our Freedom back. Rough day today with rage but not craving. Fighting off the short temper and dickhead attitude. Time for bed. Day 11 done - I win - looking forward to the fight tomorrow.
Go to Capt Kylos post to read about Randy. It will strengthen your quit, I promise.
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Just joined the June quit...on day 8...keep that head on a swivel brother, the nic bitch is a real seductress but every last one of us can kick her to the curb if we stay strong. PM me if you ever need to vent...we're all in this together -Freddy
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Pretty smooth day. One bump in the road early. Co-worker putting in my brand early this morning and I had about a 5-10 minute crave. Not hard but the nic bitch was sure tempting me. To get through it I completely thought about the story I read last night about Randy. Sucks that someone has to go through hell to help another...I feel terrible for Randy because that could very easily be me. I pray for him and his family!!! And, thank you Randy for being my inspiration and motivation today to stay quit in a tough time. I know it is not how you would like to motivate someone but you may be saving a life. Prayers to Randy and his family. Stay strong and fight to the end like a warrior. You will be rewarded.
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One thing I have noticed is that when I wake up first thing in the morning I really miss that dip on the way into work with coffee. That is fucking with me along with the night time dip after putting the kids to bed. Sure wish those craves would go away some time soon. But, another day no cope = another big win. Bring it on tomorrow Bitch. I will win and you all have my word!!!
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One thing I have noticed is that when I wake up first thing in the morning I really miss that dip on the way into work with coffee. That is fucking with me along with the night time dip after putting the kids to bed. Sure wish those craves would go away some time soon. But, another day no cope = another big win. Bring it on tomorrow Bitch. I will win and you all have my word!!!
That's right, each day is a big win. Keep it up!
As long as we all have each other to be accountable to, we can be nic free today...we are only as good as our word, and our word is better than the bitch!
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It will get better. Every day without dip is a win.
I quit with you today!
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Last night I had my first Dip Dream. I have read about the Dip Dream on here and well, can honestly say I was ready to post Day 1 today. I really thought that I caved and had a dip. Cannot believe how pissed I was and embarrassed. How was I going to get on here and explain to all you guys that I was a pussy and caved. Guess why I love KTC - that is some damn good accountability already building up. It took me a while after I woke up to realize it was only a dream and that I really did not cave - Thank God. I wonder if it is related to the fact that I have had a ton more craves over the past couple days. Not sure why but the craves have been stronger and more frequent than the first 2 weeks. Anyways, real glad that I am still a June Quit Brother and did not cave - fuck Copenhagen - and stay the hell out of my dreams!!!
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I'm glad it was just a dream! That sounds unpleasant at best. I'm proud to be quitting with you. One day at a time.
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Headed to Mexico tomorrow with my wife - no kids - and no Copenhagen. 10 Year Anniversary trip, all inclusive resort. Last time we did this was 10 years ago for our honeymoon to Jamaica and I can remember making sure I packed enough Cope to last the week. Really nice not to have to pack a single can or worry about packing enough so that I don't run out during the trip. Ha - the stupid shit we do when hooked. I know my wife is excited so now she doesn't have to worry about throwing a kiss my way and ending up with worm dirt in her mouth. I have my numbers ready in case no internet, and will not miss one day of posting roll. Stay quit my brothers - today is another big WIN!!!
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Headed to Mexico tomorrow with my wife - no kids - and no Copenhagen. 10 Year Anniversary trip, all inclusive resort. Last time we did this was 10 years ago for our honeymoon to Jamaica and I can remember making sure I packed enough Cope to last the week. Really nice not to have to pack a single can or worry about packing enough so that I don't run out during the trip. Ha - the stupid shit we do when hooked. I know my wife is excited so now she doesn't have to worry about throwing a kiss my way and ending up with worm dirt in her mouth. I have my numbers ready in case no internet, and will not miss one day of posting roll. Stay quit my brothers - today is another big WIN!!!
That sounds fantastic going out of the country and not worrying about having enough chew to last...Keep it up man, that rocks.
Oh, I suppose the part about going to Mexico with the wife is pretty cool too :)
Good to quit with you today, have a great trip!
aredoubleyou
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Made it to Mexico and enjoying the all inclusive life. Some triggers involved but overall small craves that were easily beaten. How is it that driving from the airport to the resort we pass a 7-11 store and instantly I'm thinking Copenhagen. Again, another price to pay for the years of addiction. Thanks to Cbird for posting roll for me on Sunday. Glad I can get to a computer and post read up on my June Quit Bros. Stay Quit my brothers!!!
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Had a great week in Mexico with my wife. Beautiful resort, awesome weather, and non-stop booze and food. Also, 6 days of no Copenhagen and did not miss it one bit. Helped that it was out of sight out of mind - ran into one guy at the resort who had to leave dinner and drinks to go have his fix. Was nice to sit there and tell him that I was quit and had no desire to join him. He told me about how he packed 12 cans for the week to make sure he didn't run out. Reminded me of our honeymoon and how I packed just enough to last me through the week and was nervous I didn't pack enough. Glad to say that I did not have that worry this time. I was able to post every day I was there and happy to say I have not missed a day yet. Now, back in the real world about to go back to work tomorrow where chew will be all around me. I am stronger now than before vacation but man was it nice to be in Mexico and did not have to see the shit at all. Made quitting a lot easier. Keep fighting the good fight...Proud of all my June Quit Brothers, and thankful to all on here for all your help and support. Day 23 and Winning every day!!!
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Had a great week in Mexico with my wife. Beautiful resort, awesome weather, and non-stop booze and food. Also, 6 days of no Copenhagen and did not miss it one bit. Helped that it was out of sight out of mind - ran into one guy at the resort who had to leave dinner and drinks to go have his fix. Was nice to sit there and tell him that I was quit and had no desire to join him. He told me about how he packed 12 cans for the week to make sure he didn't run out. Reminded me of our honeymoon and how I packed just enough to last me through the week and was nervous I didn't pack enough. Glad to say that I did not have that worry this time. I was able to post every day I was there and happy to say I have not missed a day yet. Now, back in the real world about to go back to work tomorrow where chew will be all around me. I am stronger now than before vacation but man was it nice to be in Mexico and did not have to see the shit at all. Made quitting a lot easier. Keep fighting the good fight...Proud of all my June Quit Brothers, and thankful to all on here for all your help and support. Day 23 and Winning every day!!!
Freedom rocks.
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Had a great week in Mexico with my wife. Beautiful resort, awesome weather, and non-stop booze and food. Also, 6 days of no Copenhagen and did not miss it one bit. Helped that it was out of sight out of mind - ran into one guy at the resort who had to leave dinner and drinks to go have his fix. Was nice to sit there and tell him that I was quit and had no desire to join him. He told me about how he packed 12 cans for the week to make sure he didn't run out. Reminded me of our honeymoon and how I packed just enough to last me through the week and was nervous I didn't pack enough. Glad to say that I did not have that worry this time. I was able to post every day I was there and happy to say I have not missed a day yet. Now, back in the real world about to go back to work tomorrow where chew will be all around me. I am stronger now than before vacation but man was it nice to be in Mexico and did not have to see the shit at all. Made quitting a lot easier. Keep fighting the good fight...Proud of all my June Quit Brothers, and thankful to all on here for all your help and support. Day 23 and Winning every day!!!
Freedom rocks.
It certainly does... (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2eGWW8KOQio)
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Had a great week in Mexico with my wife. Beautiful resort, awesome weather, and non-stop booze and food. Also, 6 days of no Copenhagen and did not miss it one bit. Helped that it was out of sight out of mind - ran into one guy at the resort who had to leave dinner and drinks to go have his fix. Was nice to sit there and tell him that I was quit and had no desire to join him. He told me about how he packed 12 cans for the week to make sure he didn't run out. Reminded me of our honeymoon and how I packed just enough to last me through the week and was nervous I didn't pack enough. Glad to say that I did not have that worry this time. I was able to post every day I was there and happy to say I have not missed a day yet. Now, back in the real world about to go back to work tomorrow where chew will be all around me. I am stronger now than before vacation but man was it nice to be in Mexico and did not have to see the shit at all. Made quitting a lot easier. Keep fighting the good fight...Proud of all my June Quit Brothers, and thankful to all on here for all your help and support. Day 23 and Winning every day!!!
Wicked!- Use this success for future craves - another layer to the foundation of your quit!!
Way to be strong
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Had a great week in Mexico with my wife. Beautiful resort, awesome weather, and non-stop booze and food. Also, 6 days of no Copenhagen and did not miss it one bit. Helped that it was out of sight out of mind - ran into one guy at the resort who had to leave dinner and drinks to go have his fix. Was nice to sit there and tell him that I was quit and had no desire to join him. He told me about how he packed 12 cans for the week to make sure he didn't run out. Reminded me of our honeymoon and how I packed just enough to last me through the week and was nervous I didn't pack enough. Glad to say that I did not have that worry this time. I was able to post every day I was there and happy to say I have not missed a day yet. Now, back in the real world about to go back to work tomorrow where chew will be all around me. I am stronger now than before vacation but man was it nice to be in Mexico and did not have to see the shit at all. Made quitting a lot easier. Keep fighting the good fight...Proud of all my June Quit Brothers, and thankful to all on here for all your help and support. Day 23 and Winning every day!!!
Thats the way to do it bro!!!!
keep your resolve and stay strong!!!!
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One for the journal - last night had a crazy ass dip dream. Seems like they are getting more and more frequent and more and more intense. Gonna type this one out in detail to look back on someday.
The Dream:
Driving down the highway leaving work (in a state I don't live in with a long ass drive to get home), throw in a fatty like the good ole days - right? Have to pull over to a toll booth but not drive thru they are making me get out of my truck. I do and now I start looking around to make sure no one see's me with a chew in - at this point I am feeling guilty and scared for caving. So the nightmare begins. Get back in and roll out - hit the first rest area to check KTC. Sure enough I have a PM from a vet and all it said was: I C U. Alright, so that is some fucked up shit. I go into complete panic mode. What do I tell my group. Thoughts of saying it was Smokey Mountain or something like that but then I start feeling like shit because I would be completely lieing about a cave. Well, at some point woke up in a complete sweat and for a while thought it was real life. Had to walk around, wake up, drink some water, pet my dogs, before I came to the realization that it was only a dream.
Now, I believe that your word is your word. In life that is all we have and especially on KTC. So, I feel like shit that the thoughts of even lieing about the cave were in the dream, let alone I caved after promising I would not chew today. If I post roll you can guarantee that I will not break my promise - I'm strong with that. But, man, this dream really fucked with me. Don't understand why I am having them so often and so intense but the good news is I wake up and am STILL QUIT. Fuck you Copenhagen, I win again!!! Stay Quit - I will not chew today!!!
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One for the journal - last night had a crazy ass dip dream. Seems like they are getting more and more frequent and more and more intense. Gonna type this one out in detail to look back on someday.
The Dream:
Driving down the highway leaving work (in a state I don't live in with a long ass drive to get home), throw in a fatty like the good ole days - right? Have to pull over to a toll booth but not drive thru they are making me get out of my truck. I do and now I start looking around to make sure no one see's me with a chew in - at this point I am feeling guilty and scared for caving. So the nightmare begins. Get back in and roll out - hit the first rest area to check KTC. Sure enough I have a PM from a vet and all it said was: I C U. Alright, so that is some fucked up shit. I go into complete panic mode. What do I tell my group. Thoughts of saying it was Smokey Mountain or something like that but then I start feeling like shit because I would be completely lieing about a cave. Well, at some point woke up in a complete sweat and for a while thought it was real life. Had to walk around, wake up, drink some water, pet my dogs, before I came to the realization that it was only a dream.
Now, I believe that your word is your word. In life that is all we have and especially on KTC. So, I feel like shit that the thoughts of even lieing about the cave were in the dream, let alone I caved after promising I would not chew today. If I post roll you can guarantee that I will not break my promise - I'm strong with that. But, man, this dream really fucked with me. Don't understand why I am having them so often and so intense but the good news is I wake up and am STILL QUIT. Fuck you Copenhagen, I win again!!! Stay Quit - I will not chew today!!!
That is a dip nightmare bro!
you can't control your dreams, but you are controlling the thing you can control...not having a chew today. Our word is our bond in KTC and I am glad to give you my word every day. Way to stay quit!!
That will definitely be a good one to look back on some day...good quittin with you.
aredoubleyou
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Here comes the 20's funk...I guess. Rough day yesterday. Nic Rage irritable, could have fought the world. Today, better but not much. Last night even had the balls to pop off at vets - all in fun but, early on in this quit thought I would keep my head low, post roll, and grind it out. Today, humbly and quietly quit. But, can feel the edge. Read about the funks at different times and read there is a 20's funk - well, think I'm in it. Thanks a lot Bin Laden!!! I will not chew today but I may punch someone!!!
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Here comes the 20's funk...I guess. Rough day yesterday. Nic Rage irritable, could have fought the world. Today, better but not much. Last night even had the balls to pop off at vets - all in fun but, early on in this quit thought I would keep my head low, post roll, and grind it out. Today, humbly and quietly quit. But, can feel the edge. Read about the funks at different times and read there is a 20's funk - well, think I'm in it. Thanks a lot Bin Laden!!! I will not chew today but I may punch someone!!!
I know you dont want to hear this but this will pass!
When I went thru the 20's I was well a bit on the almost crazy side but I did alot more working out and well KTC and alone time.
I didnt want to rage at my family and was still very new on here so I read ALOT!
I also got a punching bag hung it in my garage and well that is a great way to feel better!
Stay strong bro, you got this!
One day at a time
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Here comes the 20's funk...I guess. Rough day yesterday. Nic Rage irritable, could have fought the world. Today, better but not much. Last night even had the balls to pop off at vets - all in fun but, early on in this quit thought I would keep my head low, post roll, and grind it out. Today, humbly and quietly quit. But, can feel the edge. Read about the funks at different times and read there is a 20's funk - well, think I'm in it. Thanks a lot Bin Laden!!! I will not chew today but I may punch someone!!!
Well, the good news is that you came here and went off on some people who know exactly what it's like...it is a dang good thing that we are not all in the same room all the time or there would be some nic rage induced brawls I am sure. I think the vets will get over it.
Proud of you for going off on here rather than your family. Keep it up bro, I will look to your experience when I hit my 20 something funk 'bang head'
Happy to be quit with you today, you have my number if you need anything.
aredoubleyou
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Here comes the 20's funk...I guess. Rough day yesterday. Nic Rage irritable, could have fought the world. Today, better but not much. Last night even had the balls to pop off at vets - all in fun but, early on in this quit thought I would keep my head low, post roll, and grind it out. Today, humbly and quietly quit. But, can feel the edge. Read about the funks at different times and read there is a 20's funk - well, think I'm in it. Thanks a lot Bin Laden!!! I will not chew today but I may punch someone!!!
Glad you posted. I need to prepare and have a plan. These days are in my future. Thanks for being my trail blazer and leaving a guide map for me. 'Cheers'
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Gophers headed to the Frozen 4. Piss pounded the Lame ass Sioux 5-2. Was at the game and set a personal record on the amount of popcorn I ate. Nervous eating of course - but, the popcorn served it's role well = NO COPENHAGEN!!! At one point during the game I told my buddy that there is no doubt I would normally have thrown in a fat one start of the game and just added to it through out the game. So glad that shit is out of my life. I enjoyed the game just as much without it if not more. Didn't have to worry about where I was going to spit. Didn't have to worry about hiding it from the little kid sitting next to me. So many more positives to have that shit out of my life. So many times I think about how am I going to make it through a certain event, well, every time I make it through I realize that tobacco does not make it all better or more fun. I do enjoy this new way living, tobacco free, nicotine free, and I enjoy it so much more. Still battle the craves and go through occasional rage, but, realizing that this too will pass in time. Stay strong my quit brothers. Loving the shape of our June group. Good fucking group of quitters!!!
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Day 33 is a beast! Feelings of missing my best friend in the morning on the drive in to work with coffee. Some serious craves today and attitude last night. Also, feel some withdrawal symptoms - shitty nights sleep the past 3 nights. Not sure what the fuck is going on but I thought I was safe for a little since I hit a 20's funk. Thought the next funk was down the road a bit. Not even close to caving but fighting my ass off today. The bitch is throwing sucker punches from all over the place. Don't need my life lines today but they are ready. Feel free to comment here and kick me in the balls a few times. Maybe that will take my mind off the shit.
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Day 33 is a beast! Feelings of missing my best friend in the morning on the drive in to work with coffee. Some serious craves today and attitude last night. Also, feel some withdrawal symptoms - shitty nights sleep the past 3 nights. Not sure what the fuck is going on but I thought I was safe for a little since I hit a 20's funk. Thought the next funk was down the road a bit. Not even close to caving but fighting my ass off today. The bitch is throwing sucker punches from all over the place. Don't need my life lines today but they are ready. Feel free to comment here and kick me in the balls a few times. Maybe that will take my mind off the shit.
You've got this and if you weren't up all night watching skinamax with you lotion and tissue you would sleep better.
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Day 33 is a beast! Feelings of missing my best friend in the morning on the drive in to work with coffee. Some serious craves today and attitude last night. Also, feel some withdrawal symptoms - shitty nights sleep the past 3 nights. Not sure what the fuck is going on but I thought I was safe for a little since I hit a 20's funk. Thought the next funk was down the road a bit. Not even close to caving but fighting my ass off today. The bitch is throwing sucker punches from all over the place. Don't need my life lines today but they are ready. Feel free to comment here and kick me in the balls a few times. Maybe that will take my mind off the shit.
You've got this and if you weren't up all night watching skinamax with you lotion and tissue you would sleep better.
Hang in there, Suckah. The clouds just parted on my '20's funk' a couple of days ago, around Day 36/37 for me. Everyone's different, apparently. It was getting so bad I was just resigning myself to the fact that I was going to have this mild depression/funk permanently. It's the addiction talking.
When it abated (waking up on Monday), I felt like a new man. You are strong, you will win, don't let your mind fuck with you, the grass is greener down the road and caving is not an options.
PM me if you need anything.
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Day 33 is a beast! Feelings of missing my best friend in the morning on the drive in to work with coffee. Some serious craves today and attitude last night. Also, feel some withdrawal symptoms - shitty nights sleep the past 3 nights. Not sure what the fuck is going on but I thought I was safe for a little since I hit a 20's funk. Thought the next funk was down the road a bit. Not even close to caving but fighting my ass off today. The bitch is throwing sucker punches from all over the place. Don't need my life lines today but they are ready. Feel free to comment here and kick me in the balls a few times. Maybe that will take my mind off the shit.
You've got this and if you weren't up all night watching skinamax with you lotion and tissue you would sleep better.
Hang in there, Suckah. The clouds just parted on my '20's funk' a couple of days ago, around Day 36/37 for me. Everyone's different, apparently. It was getting so bad I was just resigning myself to the fact that I was going to have this mild depression/funk permanently. It's the addiction talking.
When it abated (waking up on Monday), I felt like a new man. You are strong, you will win, don't let your mind fuck with you, the grass is greener down the road and caving is not an options.
PM me if you need anything.
Stay focused on what your wanting which is to not be a slave to nicotene!!!
These funks craves and shit are part of it all as soon as you start to think you have it all figured out the little deamon nic bitch will search for whatever weakness she can try to find!!!!
You got this and believe me it does pass and when it does your quit is even stronger!
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Day 33 is a beast! Feelings of missing my best friend in the morning on the drive in to work with coffee. Some serious craves today and attitude last night. Also, feel some withdrawal symptoms - shitty nights sleep the past 3 nights. Not sure what the fuck is going on but I thought I was safe for a little since I hit a 20's funk. Thought the next funk was down the road a bit. Not even close to caving but fighting my ass off today. The bitch is throwing sucker punches from all over the place. Don't need my life lines today but they are ready. Feel free to comment here and kick me in the balls a few times. Maybe that will take my mind off the shit.
Way to stick it to her bro! I don't think I can kick you in the balls for being in a funk, but I can sure pat you on the back for staying quit with me today! Text me if you need anything!
Do you care as little as I do about the basketball team in the NIT? Although I am proud of them, I am much more a hockey/football guy.
I am still all jacked up about the final 4!!! Had a chance to go to that game too but I couldn't make it...bummer man.
Proud to be quit with you for another day.
aredoubleyou
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I wrote this in dgonseaux's quit journal and wanted to add it to mine. Again something to look back on in the future - all the reasons I have quit.
To dgon - Really glad to be quit with you. A lot in common. My wife would tell you we are a lot alike - she is constantly trying to drag emotions out of me. The Jenny Kern story is STRONG, POWERFUL STUFF. I have 4 kids and reading that story you can't help but put yourself in that situation - what if that was me?!?!?! Very emotional, very REAL.
I have quit many times like all of us - what is different now, first and foremost I started this quit with including God. I have never done that before. I pray for his strength, I text messaged a good friend who is a Monsignor at our old catholic church my promise and asked for his prayers. My wife reached out to family and told them to pray (she did it without me knowing) but I do believe that has truly helped. This site has also had a huge impact on my quit - I can't say enough about it.
One of the biggest factors is my kids are finally old enough to ask about it. Dad, why do you always eat that stuff. Don't you know it can kill you. My oldest daughter, who is in 1st grade, has learned about smoking and chewing in school - she had all the info and finally put 2 and 2 together on what the shit was that I put in my mouth. Well, that crushed me. And then reading the Jenny Kern story really punched me in the gut and knocked the wind out of me.
So glad to be quit and glad to be quitting with all of you. Very glad that God has given me the opportunity to quit before cancer set in. I will quit for myself and I quit for my family. I know people say you can't quit for your kids, but my kids are me they are the best part of me so I do quit for my kids. I quit for me!!!
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It's been a while since I've posted in here (my personal journal) and probably because like the past 10-15 days of my quit, the motivation seems to have been zapped. Still batting 100% on posting roll and that will not change, but, I need to pick it up again and get more active in my quit.
Today is day 48 and lately there have been some day 1-4 repeats.Some have said it is because you lose a little bit of the early excitement of quitting and begin to get bored. Well, not sure I'm bored but definitely have had to battle through some tough times. Nicotine sucks, Copenhagen sucks, I hate it more today than ever simply because it is so hard to get the shit out of my life. On day 46 or so I finished up a workout and actually reached into my bag searching for my can - I always enjoyed a Cope after a workout - but I had to punch myself in the balls and remind myself that I quit!!! At day 46 I would not have thought that was possible.
On a positive note - my wife and kids are GREAT. My wife out of the blue asked me on day 45 what day I was on. I told her and said yeah, kind of felt like lately you had forgotten about me quitting. I think she felt bad about that which was not my intent at all, just had not talked with her about my quit for a while and she had never asked. Well, I arrived home from work that night and walked in the door to a big "SURPRISE" from the wife and kids. Nothing big - but was still really big to me. They had a few signs posted "Congrats on 45 Days" and little gift bag - a Coors Lite t-shirt and 2 big boxes of Hot Tomalis. My oldest daughter is 7 and she made her own sign all by herself which read, "Great job daddy on quiting chooing. I love you forever." Damn near brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much to my family.
Alright, done rambling, just felt like it was time to up-date my journal. I have a great quit group - the JUNE guys are the best!!! And love the KTC site and all members. Thanks for all the help and support. I quit one day at a time - I Embrace the Suck and I Embrace the pain and shitty days - I invest them into my quit.
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It's been a while since I've posted in here (my personal journal) and probably because like the past 10-15 days of my quit, the motivation seems to have been zapped. Still batting 100% on posting roll and that will not change, but, I need to pick it up again and get more active in my quit.Â
Today is day 48 and lately there have been some day 1-4 repeats.Some have said it is because you lose a little bit of the early excitement of quitting and begin to get bored. Well, not sure I'm bored but definitely have had to battle through some tough times. Nicotine sucks, Copenhagen sucks, I hate it more today than ever simply because it is so hard to get the shit out of my life. On day 46 or so I finished up a workout and actually reached into my bag searching for my can - I always enjoyed a Cope after a workout - but I had to punch myself in the balls and remind myself that I quit!!! At day 46 I would not have thought that was possible.
On a positive note - my wife and kids are GREAT. My wife out of the blue asked me on day 45 what day I was on. I told her and said yeah, kind of felt like lately you had forgotten about me quitting. I think she felt bad about that which was not my intent at all, just had not talked with her about my quit for a while and she had never asked. Well, I arrived home from work that night and walked in the door to a big "SURPRISE" from the wife and kids. Nothing big - but was still really big to me. They had a few signs posted "Congrats on 45 Days" and little gift bag - a Coors Lite t-shirt and 2 big boxes of Hot Tomalis. My oldest daughter is 7 and she made her own sign all by herself which read, "Great job daddy on quiting chooing. I love you forever." Damn near brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much to my family.
Alright, done rambling, just felt like it was time to up-date my journal. I have a great quit group - the JUNE guys are the best!!! And love the KTC site and all members. Thanks for all the help and support. I quit one day at a time - I Embrace the Suck and I Embrace the pain and shitty days - I invest them into my quit.
How's that quit feeling now?!! We finally made a decision they, our wives, have been waiting on, praying on or just plain begging on for a long time. It was/is such an awesome feeling when they took/take an active role of a quit we should have made years (too many in my case) ago.
Snap shot this and file it away to use against the nic bitch the next time she taunts you.
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It's been a while since I've posted in here (my personal journal) and probably because like the past 10-15 days of my quit, the motivation seems to have been zapped. Still batting 100% on posting roll and that will not change, but, I need to pick it up again and get more active in my quit.
Today is day 48 and lately there have been some day 1-4 repeats.Some have said it is because you lose a little bit of the early excitement of quitting and begin to get bored. Well, not sure I'm bored but definitely have had to battle through some tough times. Nicotine sucks, Copenhagen sucks, I hate it more today than ever simply because it is so hard to get the shit out of my life. On day 46 or so I finished up a workout and actually reached into my bag searching for my can - I always enjoyed a Cope after a workout - but I had to punch myself in the balls and remind myself that I quit!!! At day 46 I would not have thought that was possible.
On a positive note - my wife and kids are GREAT. My wife out of the blue asked me on day 45 what day I was on. I told her and said yeah, kind of felt like lately you had forgotten about me quitting. I think she felt bad about that which was not my intent at all, just had not talked with her about my quit for a while and she had never asked. Well, I arrived home from work that night and walked in the door to a big "SURPRISE" from the wife and kids. Nothing big - but was still really big to me. They had a few signs posted "Congrats on 45 Days" and little gift bag - a Coors Lite t-shirt and 2 big boxes of Hot Tomalis. My oldest daughter is 7 and she made her own sign all by herself which read, "Great job daddy on quiting chooing. I love you forever." Damn near brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much to my family.
Alright, done rambling, just felt like it was time to up-date my journal. I have a great quit group - the JUNE guys are the best!!! And love the KTC site and all members. Thanks for all the help and support. I quit one day at a time - I Embrace the Suck and I Embrace the pain and shitty days - I invest them into my quit.
You are the man. I know exactly what you mean with the post-workout chew...it is weird how doing something healthy can be a trigger for something so unhealthy...good job on punching yourself in the balls (did you actually do that?). I think sometimes to fight off the "boredom" or complacency of being quit we need to think back and remember where we came from with the chew. How the can literally ran our lives for so long. When you think about that it really makes you appreciate the battle that you have been winning up to this point and motivates you to stay quit.
Thanks for sharing the story about the wife and kids with us (I know it was more for you)...it is great that you have such a supportive family...when all is said and done those are the most important people in your life.
Keep up the good work, bro. So proud to be quit with you!
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Last week I hit some milestones 45 days, 50 days, been a long time since I have gone that many days without a chew. It was also a tough week. I coach college football and on Good Friday we got news that our starting LBer from this past season had passed away in his sleep in his dorm.Very tough news, a sad week for all of us. He was healthy and preparing for the NFL draft - no drugs, no alcohol, nothing like that found in his system. A great kid with a great smile and a big heart. God needed a tough ass LBer on his team I guess.
Friday, day 49 for me I received news that one of my former college teammates and one of my roommates in the dorm my freshman year - was shot and killed in his house along with his girlfriend - a 3:30am home robbery on Easter Sunday. Guess the big man upstairs needed a bad ass DE.
I write this all not for sympathy or anything else, I write this for later down the road - to look back on and not just remember 2 great people taken from this world early - but because through it all, flying to Florida yesterday (Day 50) for the funeral, sitting in the church trying to make sense of it all knowing that we cannot make sense of God's plan, we can only trust and have faith. But, I thought about my quit and what does it mean in the grand scheme of things. Does it really matter if I chew or not. I mean, these two deaths were completely unexplainable - nothing they did caused it, it was their time, God's plan. You hear all the time, from addicts, justifying their addiction, hell, I used to use it - gotta die from something, probably get cancer from something simple like Milk or apples, whatever - or die in a car wreck on the way to work in the morning. Does it really matter that I quit?
I sat on the plane home from the funeral and had a can of Copenhagen passed up right in front of me and honestly, I had no urge to chew. No desire, no feeling sorry for myself sympathy dip. But I did think hard about life and death, and chewing, and God's plan. I don't want a chew right now, I am not craving for a chew right now, but like the weather outside, I feel dark and gloomy. Not sad and teary eyed, but just slow moving, dark and gloomy. I'm not a teary eyed, emotional person, for whatever reason I hold all that in, right or wrong, but, yesterday and today quitting just feels different - like it is such a small thing with not much meaning in it.
I am strong in my quit and will not cave - no worries, I give my word. Just hit with a lot of big life questions. I mainly quit for my family, for my kids. And yes, my kids are me, they are the best part of me so I do quit for myself. They are what keep me quit because I do not want my kids having to grow up without me. I also quit for the guys and girls on this site. There is no way I can let any of you down, not at this point. It would kill me if a June brother threw in the towel - we are important to each other. You all are another main reason I stay quit.
Lost for more words so ending this now. When I look back on this I want to remember that through all of life's major challenges this past week, I did it without Copenhagen, I did not crave or need Copenhagen to make any of it better, and I am proud to say that not once did I ever consider using the challenges as an excuse to cave. I can make it through anything - as long as I give my word and my commitment that I will quit for TODAY. This site is important to me because without it, and without all of you I could not have done this by myself. You all were on that plane with me and when that can was passed up, you all were there keeping me from grabbing it and caving. Thank you to all. I AM PROUD to be QUIT and PROUD to be a member of KTC and proud to be a June Quit brother. I apologize if this sounds like an emotional train wreck (if anyone has read this much) but felt like getting it out there, in my so called journal, so that down the road I may look back and say - FUCK YOU COPENHAGEN, I DON'T NEED YOU!!!
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Last week I hit some milestones 45 days, 50 days, been a long time since I have gone that many days without a chew. It was also a tough week. I coach college football and on Good Friday we got news that our starting LBer from this past season had passed away in his sleep in his dorm.Very tough news, a sad week for all of us. He was healthy and preparing for the NFL draft - no drugs, no alcohol, nothing like that found in his system. A great kid with a great smile and a big heart. God needed a tough ass LBer on his team I guess.Â
Friday, day 49 for me I received news that one of my former college teammates and one of my roommates in the dorm my freshman year - was shot and killed in his house along with his girlfriend - a 3:30am home robbery on Easter Sunday. Guess the big man upstairs needed a bad ass DE.
I write this all not for sympathy or anything else, I write this for later down the road - to look back on and not just remember 2 great people taken from this world early - but because through it all, flying to Florida yesterday (Day 50) for the funeral, sitting in the church trying to make sense of it all knowing that we cannot make sense of God's plan, we can only trust and have faith. But, I thought about my quit and what does it mean in the grand scheme of things. Does it really matter if I chew or not. I mean, these two deaths were completely unexplainable - nothing they did caused it, it was their time, God's plan. You hear all the time, from addicts, justifying their addiction, hell, I used to use it - gotta die from something, probably get cancer from something simple like Milk or apples, whatever - or die in a car wreck on the way to work in the morning. Does it really matter that I quit?
I sat on the plane home from the funeral and had a can of Copenhagen passed up right in front of me and honestly, I had no urge to chew. No desire, no feeling sorry for myself sympathy dip. But I did think hard about life and death, and chewing, and God's plan. I don't want a chew right now, I am not craving for a chew right now, but like the weather outside, I feel dark and gloomy. Not sad and teary eyed, but just slow moving, dark and gloomy. I'm not a teary eyed, emotional person, for whatever reason I hold all that in, right or wrong, but, yesterday and today quitting just feels different - like it is such a small thing with not much meaning in it.
I am strong in my quit and will not cave - no worries, I give my word. Just hit with a lot of big life questions. I mainly quit for my family, for my kids. And yes, my kids are me, they are the best part of me so I do quit for myself. They are what keep me quit because I do not want my kids having to grow up without me. I also quit for the guys and girls on this site. There is no way I can let any of you down, not at this point. It would kill me if a June brother threw in the towel - we are important to each other. You all are another main reason I stay quit.
Lost for more words so ending this now. When I look back on this I want to remember that through all of life's major challenges this past week, I did it without Copenhagen, I did not crave or need Copenhagen to make any of it better, and I am proud to say that not once did I ever consider using the challenges as an excuse to cave. I can make it through anything - as long as I give my word and my commitment that I will quit for TODAY. This site is important to me because without it, and without all of you I could not have done this by myself. You all were on that plane with me and when that can was passed up, you all were there keeping me from grabbing it and caving. Thank you to all. I AM PROUD to be QUIT and PROUD to be a member of KTC and proud to be a June Quit brother. I apologize if this sounds like an emotional train wreck (if anyone has read this much) but felt like getting it out there, in my so called journal, so that down the road I may look back and say - FUCK YOU COPENHAGEN, I DON'T NEED YOU!!!
Wow, I read and took in every word. If you can get through all that...God must have ministered to you. You're my leader so I hope this doesn't come across condesending but I am proud of you. I feel for you in the struggles you have had.
What an example and as your quit brother, I can't let you down. You didn't even desire to cave, you kept your wits about you. I have never been to or known anyone from mn. You represent them well. I would go into battle any day with you!
You knocked the nic bitch out this week!
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Last week I hit some milestones 45 days, 50 days, been a long time since I have gone that many days without a chew. It was also a tough week. I coach college football and on Good Friday we got news that our starting LBer from this past season had passed away in his sleep in his dorm.Very tough news, a sad week for all of us. He was healthy and preparing for the NFL draft - no drugs, no alcohol, nothing like that found in his system. A great kid with a great smile and a big heart. God needed a tough ass LBer on his team I guess.
Friday, day 49 for me I received news that one of my former college teammates and one of my roommates in the dorm my freshman year - was shot and killed in his house along with his girlfriend - a 3:30am home robbery on Easter Sunday. Guess the big man upstairs needed a bad ass DE.
I write this all not for sympathy or anything else, I write this for later down the road - to look back on and not just remember 2 great people taken from this world early - but because through it all, flying to Florida yesterday (Day 50) for the funeral, sitting in the church trying to make sense of it all knowing that we cannot make sense of God's plan, we can only trust and have faith. But, I thought about my quit and what does it mean in the grand scheme of things. Does it really matter if I chew or not. I mean, these two deaths were completely unexplainable - nothing they did caused it, it was their time, God's plan. You hear all the time, from addicts, justifying their addiction, hell, I used to use it - gotta die from something, probably get cancer from something simple like Milk or apples, whatever - or die in a car wreck on the way to work in the morning. Does it really matter that I quit?
I sat on the plane home from the funeral and had a can of Copenhagen passed up right in front of me and honestly, I had no urge to chew. No desire, no feeling sorry for myself sympathy dip. But I did think hard about life and death, and chewing, and God's plan. I don't want a chew right now, I am not craving for a chew right now, but like the weather outside, I feel dark and gloomy. Not sad and teary eyed, but just slow moving, dark and gloomy. I'm not a teary eyed, emotional person, for whatever reason I hold all that in, right or wrong, but, yesterday and today quitting just feels different - like it is such a small thing with not much meaning in it.
I am strong in my quit and will not cave - no worries, I give my word. Just hit with a lot of big life questions. I mainly quit for my family, for my kids. And yes, my kids are me, they are the best part of me so I do quit for myself. They are what keep me quit because I do not want my kids having to grow up without me. I also quit for the guys and girls on this site. There is no way I can let any of you down, not at this point. It would kill me if a June brother threw in the towel - we are important to each other. You all are another main reason I stay quit.
Lost for more words so ending this now. When I look back on this I want to remember that through all of life's major challenges this past week, I did it without Copenhagen, I did not crave or need Copenhagen to make any of it better, and I am proud to say that not once did I ever consider using the challenges as an excuse to cave. I can make it through anything - as long as I give my word and my commitment that I will quit for TODAY. This site is important to me because without it, and without all of you I could not have done this by myself. You all were on that plane with me and when that can was passed up, you all were there keeping me from grabbing it and caving. Thank you to all. I AM PROUD to be QUIT and PROUD to be a member of KTC and proud to be a June Quit brother. I apologize if this sounds like an emotional train wreck (if anyone has read this much) but felt like getting it out there, in my so called journal, so that down the road I may look back and say - FUCK YOU COPENHAGEN, I DON'T NEED YOU!!!
I'm at a loss for appropriate words so I will just say that those men really will always be with you.
It would be great if you could share their names.
I'm quit with you today. Stay strong.
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Last week I hit some milestones 45 days, 50 days, been a long time since I have gone that many days without a chew. It was also a tough week. I coach college football and on Good Friday we got news that our starting LBer from this past season had passed away in his sleep in his dorm.Very tough news, a sad week for all of us. He was healthy and preparing for the NFL draft - no drugs, no alcohol, nothing like that found in his system. A great kid with a great smile and a big heart. God needed a tough ass LBer on his team I guess.Â
Friday, day 49 for me I received news that one of my former college teammates and one of my roommates in the dorm my freshman year - was shot and killed in his house along with his girlfriend - a 3:30am home robbery on Easter Sunday. Guess the big man upstairs needed a bad ass DE.
I write this all not for sympathy or anything else, I write this for later down the road - to look back on and not just remember 2 great people taken from this world early - but because through it all, flying to Florida yesterday (Day 50) for the funeral, sitting in the church trying to make sense of it all knowing that we cannot make sense of God's plan, we can only trust and have faith. But, I thought about my quit and what does it mean in the grand scheme of things. Does it really matter if I chew or not. I mean, these two deaths were completely unexplainable - nothing they did caused it, it was their time, God's plan. You hear all the time, from addicts, justifying their addiction, hell, I used to use it - gotta die from something, probably get cancer from something simple like Milk or apples, whatever - or die in a car wreck on the way to work in the morning. Does it really matter that I quit?
I sat on the plane home from the funeral and had a can of Copenhagen passed up right in front of me and honestly, I had no urge to chew. No desire, no feeling sorry for myself sympathy dip. But I did think hard about life and death, and chewing, and God's plan. I don't want a chew right now, I am not craving for a chew right now, but like the weather outside, I feel dark and gloomy. Not sad and teary eyed, but just slow moving, dark and gloomy. I'm not a teary eyed, emotional person, for whatever reason I hold all that in, right or wrong, but, yesterday and today quitting just feels different - like it is such a small thing with not much meaning in it.
I am strong in my quit and will not cave - no worries, I give my word. Just hit with a lot of big life questions. I mainly quit for my family, for my kids. And yes, my kids are me, they are the best part of me so I do quit for myself. They are what keep me quit because I do not want my kids having to grow up without me. I also quit for the guys and girls on this site. There is no way I can let any of you down, not at this point. It would kill me if a June brother threw in the towel - we are important to each other. You all are another main reason I stay quit.
Lost for more words so ending this now. When I look back on this I want to remember that through all of life's major challenges this past week, I did it without Copenhagen, I did not crave or need Copenhagen to make any of it better, and I am proud to say that not once did I ever consider using the challenges as an excuse to cave. I can make it through anything - as long as I give my word and my commitment that I will quit for TODAY. This site is important to me because without it, and without all of you I could not have done this by myself. You all were on that plane with me and when that can was passed up, you all were there keeping me from grabbing it and caving. Thank you to all. I AM PROUD to be QUIT and PROUD to be a member of KTC and proud to be a June Quit brother. I apologize if this sounds like an emotional train wreck (if anyone has read this much) but felt like getting it out there, in my so called journal, so that down the road I may look back and say - FUCK YOU COPENHAGEN, I DON'T NEED YOU!!!
oooommmfff. Wind sucking body blows.
Give yourself permission to take a little emotional break, then come back rockin'. Seriously.
What doesn't matter? Chew. What does matter? your kids and family and extended family.
I am proud to be Quit with you.
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Thanks for all the great words. Love KTC
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Last week I hit some milestones 45 days, 50 days, been a long time since I have gone that many days without a chew. It was also a tough week. I coach college football and on Good Friday we got news that our starting LBer from this past season had passed away in his sleep in his dorm.Very tough news, a sad week for all of us. He was healthy and preparing for the NFL draft - no drugs, no alcohol, nothing like that found in his system. A great kid with a great smile and a big heart. God needed a tough ass LBer on his team I guess.
Friday, day 49 for me I received news that one of my former college teammates and one of my roommates in the dorm my freshman year - was shot and killed in his house along with his girlfriend - a 3:30am home robbery on Easter Sunday. Guess the big man upstairs needed a bad ass DE.
I write this all not for sympathy or anything else, I write this for later down the road - to look back on and not just remember 2 great people taken from this world early - but because through it all, flying to Florida yesterday (Day 50) for the funeral, sitting in the church trying to make sense of it all knowing that we cannot make sense of God's plan, we can only trust and have faith. But, I thought about my quit and what does it mean in the grand scheme of things. Does it really matter if I chew or not. I mean, these two deaths were completely unexplainable - nothing they did caused it, it was their time, God's plan. You hear all the time, from addicts, justifying their addiction, hell, I used to use it - gotta die from something, probably get cancer from something simple like Milk or apples, whatever - or die in a car wreck on the way to work in the morning. Does it really matter that I quit?
I sat on the plane home from the funeral and had a can of Copenhagen passed up right in front of me and honestly, I had no urge to chew. No desire, no feeling sorry for myself sympathy dip. But I did think hard about life and death, and chewing, and God's plan. I don't want a chew right now, I am not craving for a chew right now, but like the weather outside, I feel dark and gloomy. Not sad and teary eyed, but just slow moving, dark and gloomy. I'm not a teary eyed, emotional person, for whatever reason I hold all that in, right or wrong, but, yesterday and today quitting just feels different - like it is such a small thing with not much meaning in it.
I am strong in my quit and will not cave - no worries, I give my word. Just hit with a lot of big life questions. I mainly quit for my family, for my kids. And yes, my kids are me, they are the best part of me so I do quit for myself. They are what keep me quit because I do not want my kids having to grow up without me. I also quit for the guys and girls on this site. There is no way I can let any of you down, not at this point. It would kill me if a June brother threw in the towel - we are important to each other. You all are another main reason I stay quit.
Lost for more words so ending this now. When I look back on this I want to remember that through all of life's major challenges this past week, I did it without Copenhagen, I did not crave or need Copenhagen to make any of it better, and I am proud to say that not once did I ever consider using the challenges as an excuse to cave. I can make it through anything - as long as I give my word and my commitment that I will quit for TODAY. This site is important to me because without it, and without all of you I could not have done this by myself. You all were on that plane with me and when that can was passed up, you all were there keeping me from grabbing it and caving. Thank you to all. I AM PROUD to be QUIT and PROUD to be a member of KTC and proud to be a June Quit brother. I apologize if this sounds like an emotional train wreck (if anyone has read this much) but felt like getting it out there, in my so called journal, so that down the road I may look back and say - FUCK YOU COPENHAGEN, I DON'T NEED YOU!!!
Fucking speechless. You've galvanized my quit, I am proud to be quit with you.
Stay strong, brother.
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Last week I hit some milestones 45 days, 50 days, been a long time since I have gone that many days without a chew. It was also a tough week. I coach college football and on Good Friday we got news that our starting LBer from this past season had passed away in his sleep in his dorm.Very tough news, a sad week for all of us. He was healthy and preparing for the NFL draft - no drugs, no alcohol, nothing like that found in his system. A great kid with a great smile and a big heart. God needed a tough ass LBer on his team I guess.
Friday, day 49 for me I received news that one of my former college teammates and one of my roommates in the dorm my freshman year - was shot and killed in his house along with his girlfriend - a 3:30am home robbery on Easter Sunday. Guess the big man upstairs needed a bad ass DE.
I write this all not for sympathy or anything else, I write this for later down the road - to look back on and not just remember 2 great people taken from this world early - but because through it all, flying to Florida yesterday (Day 50) for the funeral, sitting in the church trying to make sense of it all knowing that we cannot make sense of God's plan, we can only trust and have faith. But, I thought about my quit and what does it mean in the grand scheme of things. Does it really matter if I chew or not. I mean, these two deaths were completely unexplainable - nothing they did caused it, it was their time, God's plan. You hear all the time, from addicts, justifying their addiction, hell, I used to use it - gotta die from something, probably get cancer from something simple like Milk or apples, whatever - or die in a car wreck on the way to work in the morning. Does it really matter that I quit?
I sat on the plane home from the funeral and had a can of Copenhagen passed up right in front of me and honestly, I had no urge to chew. No desire, no feeling sorry for myself sympathy dip. But I did think hard about life and death, and chewing, and God's plan. I don't want a chew right now, I am not craving for a chew right now, but like the weather outside, I feel dark and gloomy. Not sad and teary eyed, but just slow moving, dark and gloomy. I'm not a teary eyed, emotional person, for whatever reason I hold all that in, right or wrong, but, yesterday and today quitting just feels different - like it is such a small thing with not much meaning in it.
I am strong in my quit and will not cave - no worries, I give my word. Just hit with a lot of big life questions. I mainly quit for my family, for my kids. And yes, my kids are me, they are the best part of me so I do quit for myself. They are what keep me quit because I do not want my kids having to grow up without me. I also quit for the guys and girls on this site. There is no way I can let any of you down, not at this point. It would kill me if a June brother threw in the towel - we are important to each other. You all are another main reason I stay quit.
Lost for more words so ending this now. When I look back on this I want to remember that through all of life's major challenges this past week, I did it without Copenhagen, I did not crave or need Copenhagen to make any of it better, and I am proud to say that not once did I ever consider using the challenges as an excuse to cave. I can make it through anything - as long as I give my word and my commitment that I will quit for TODAY. This site is important to me because without it, and without all of you I could not have done this by myself. You all were on that plane with me and when that can was passed up, you all were there keeping me from grabbing it and caving. Thank you to all. I AM PROUD to be QUIT and PROUD to be a member of KTC and proud to be a June Quit brother. I apologize if this sounds like an emotional train wreck (if anyone has read this much) but felt like getting it out there, in my so called journal, so that down the road I may look back and say - FUCK YOU COPENHAGEN, I DON'T NEED YOU!!!
I am very proud to be quit with you and I can totally hear the resolve in your words!
That is some serious badass quit going on right there, remember this is for you and as your quit gets stronger your family will appreciate it even more!!!
Stay strong brother and never hesitate to contact me if you need anything!
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Day 54 - Funk??? Yesterday I had some tough ass craves. I hate that I have to see the shit every day at work - yesterday was really tough. Last night was grumpy and real irritable. Wife noticed it right away and asked if this was another funk period. Thought maybe I was just tired so I went to bed hoping I would wake up feeling better. Was wrong about that. Felt shitty all day - grumpy, irritable, and tough ass craves. Mouth watering craves. What in the fuck is going on?
Hoping there is supposed to be a funk in the 50's cause if not, I am creating one. Gotta love the ups and downs of quitting. I Embrace the Suck but honestly getting tired of it. I need a firm kick in the balls to wake me up and knock some sense into me. I know I don't deserve it but sure wish this quit could start getting easier - any day now.
Oh well, I will post Day 55 tomorrow and grind, fight, through another funky day if that is what is ahead. Planning to make it a great quit day no matter.
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Day 54 - Funk??? Yesterday I had some tough ass craves. I hate that I have to see the shit every day at work - yesterday was really tough. Last night was grumpy and real irritable. Wife noticed it right away and asked if this was another funk period. Thought maybe I was just tired so I went to bed hoping I would wake up feeling better. Was wrong about that. Felt shitty all day - grumpy, irritable, and tough ass craves. Mouth watering craves. What in the fuck is going on?
Hoping there is supposed to be a funk in the 50's cause if not, I am creating one. Gotta love the ups and downs of quitting. I Embrace the Suck but honestly getting tired of it. I need a firm kick in the balls to wake me up and knock some sense into me. I know I don't deserve it but sure wish this quit could start getting easier - any day now.
Oh well, I will post Day 55 tomorrow and grind, fight, through another funky day if that is what is ahead. Planning to make it a great quit day no matter.
I would tell you its bad around your 50's brother!
Stay strong and focused and your resolve will win the day!
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Day 66
The challenge is here!!! I have been quitting by the KTC philosophy of "Quit Today and worry about tomorrow, tomorrow." No question this works and I have really done a great job embracing it and not worrying about the future or quitting forever. BUT, in the back of my mind I new this time was coming and would be the toughest challenge in my quit thus far.
The next 4 weeks work has me on the road, home on the weekends, but Monday through Friday, hotels, lots of drive time, flights, etc. and Copenshit has always been my travel companion. Late nights watching TV laying in bed, Copenshit has always kept me up and has always kept me company.
I am looking forward to new sleeping hours, earlier wake-ups, and more productive days, I EMBRACE the CHALLENGE...but I also am fully prepared for the challenges the nic bitch will throw at me. I have tons of numbers from some great quitters. I know you all have my back. I will fight my ass off and I will exhaust all avenues - I WILL NOT CAVE!!! CAVING IS NOT AN OPTION.
I am at war as Mthomas has written about - this is a war and I have the best fucking army behind me. Be prepared for plenty of texts, warn your wives or significant others that a late night text may wake you all up - it's just me fighting off the bitch.
On a side note, I have a phenominal family. My wife and 4 kids baked me a cake, had my favorite dinner ready, and surprised me when I got home...the cake read "Happy 63 Quit Day." That's right - day 63. I looked at my wife and said - it is just day 63, no significance in day 63. She corrected me and said it is significant because I have not chewed in 63 days - every day quit is significant. What a wife and what a family. Reminder next time I read this, when I look back, to thank them for their support.
Alright, time to grind it out and defeat this next challenge. I QUIT LIKE FUCK!!!
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Day 66
The challenge is here!!! I have been quitting by the KTC philosophy of "Quit Today and worry about tomorrow, tomorrow." No question this works and I have really done a great job embracing it and not worrying about the future or quitting forever. BUT, in the back of my mind I new this time was coming and would be the toughest challenge in my quit thus far.
The next 4 weeks work has me on the road, home on the weekends, but Monday through Friday, hotels, lots of drive time, flights, etc. and Copenshit has always been my travel companion. Late nights watching TV laying in bed, Copenshit has always kept me up and has always kept me company.
I am looking forward to new sleeping hours, earlier wake-ups, and more productive days, I EMBRACE the CHALLENGE...but I also am fully prepared for the challenges the nic bitch will throw at me. I have tons of numbers from some great quitters. I know you all have my back. I will fight my ass off and I will exhaust all avenues - I WILL NOT CAVE!!! CAVING IS NOT AN OPTION.
I am at war as Mthomas has written about - this is a war and I have the best fucking army behind me. Be prepared for plenty of texts, warn your wives or significant others that a late night text may wake you all up - it's just me fighting off the bitch.
On a side note, I have a phenominal family. My wife and 4 kids baked me a cake, had my favorite dinner ready, and surprised me when I got home...the cake read "Happy 63 Quit Day." That's right - day 63. I looked at my wife and said - it is just day 63, no significance in day 63. She corrected me and said it is significant because I have not chewed in 63 days - every day quit is significant. What a wife and what a family. Reminder next time I read this, when I look back, to thank them for their support.
Alright, time to grind it out and defeat this next challenge. I QUIT LIKE FUCK!!!
Suck. I have not experienced what you are headed for but I do understand I have some really rough days coming this summer. I'll be here if you need some privates to help in your battle. I'll drop my # in your inbox.
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Day 66
The challenge is here!!! I have been quitting by the KTC philosophy of "Quit Today and worry about tomorrow, tomorrow." No question this works and I have really done a great job embracing it and not worrying about the future or quitting forever. BUT, in the back of my mind I new this time was coming and would be the toughest challenge in my quit thus far.
The next 4 weeks work has me on the road, home on the weekends, but Monday through Friday, hotels, lots of drive time, flights, etc. and Copenshit has always been my travel companion. Late nights watching TV laying in bed, Copenshit has always kept me up and has always kept me company.
I am looking forward to new sleeping hours, earlier wake-ups, and more productive days, I EMBRACE the CHALLENGE...but I also am fully prepared for the challenges the nic bitch will throw at me. I have tons of numbers from some great quitters. I know you all have my back. I will fight my ass off and I will exhaust all avenues - I WILL NOT CAVE!!! CAVING IS NOT AN OPTION.
I am at war as Mthomas has written about - this is a war and I have the best fucking army behind me. Be prepared for plenty of texts, warn your wives or significant others that a late night text may wake you all up - it's just me fighting off the bitch.
On a side note, I have a phenominal family. My wife and 4 kids baked me a cake, had my favorite dinner ready, and surprised me when I got home...the cake read "Happy 63 Quit Day." That's right - day 63. I looked at my wife and said - it is just day 63, no significance in day 63. She corrected me and said it is significant because I have not chewed in 63 days - every day quit is significant. What a wife and what a family. Reminder next time I read this, when I look back, to thank them for their support.
Alright, time to grind it out and defeat this next challenge. I QUIT LIKE FUCK!!!
You just raised my quit strength. Suck-it you are a damn nic KILLER! You can call me day, night, when I'm boning my wife...I don't give a shit. I will interrupt an orgasm for your call! I am on the battlefield with you.
If a thought to cave comes. Dismiss it with this...if you cave, inevitably you will make another attempt to quit. You know you will get sick of the bitch again and have to break it off. That record skips with quit, cave, quit, cave. Gets old.
You are quit! Your family knows it and you know it. They made you a cake on day 63. That is brilliant....you don't need to get to 100 to know you are quit. You have a family that surprises you by letting you know they love that you have quit.
Text me or call me. (I can tell you how bipolar I have become as a quitter) but what a victory when you come back successful in work and being nic free!
I love being quit. My record isn't skipping. I shattered that old song. This new song of, "I am quit"... has a nice melody and never skips because I haven't caved. The song is long it seems to have no end but I never tire of the music of quit! I know you don't either.
We always think we are weak when we are alone. KTC....It is our fault if we feel alone because we don't need to be. You are surrounded with allies.
Time to document your trip because I think it is going to be one of the most successful trips full of rewards.....
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Day 66
The challenge is here!!! I have been quitting by the KTC philosophy of "Quit Today and worry about tomorrow, tomorrow." No question this works and I have really done a great job embracing it and not worrying about the future or quitting forever. BUT, in the back of my mind I new this time was coming and would be the toughest challenge in my quit thus far.
The next 4 weeks work has me on the road, home on the weekends, but Monday through Friday, hotels, lots of drive time, flights, etc. and Copenshit has always been my travel companion. Late nights watching TV laying in bed, Copenshit has always kept me up and has always kept me company.
I am looking forward to new sleeping hours, earlier wake-ups, and more productive days, I EMBRACE the CHALLENGE...but I also am fully prepared for the challenges the nic bitch will throw at me. I have tons of numbers from some great quitters. I know you all have my back. I will fight my ass off and I will exhaust all avenues - I WILL NOT CAVE!!! CAVING IS NOT AN OPTION.
I am at war as Mthomas has written about - this is a war and I have the best fucking army behind me. Be prepared for plenty of texts, warn your wives or significant others that a late night text may wake you all up - it's just me fighting off the bitch.
On a side note, I have a phenominal family. My wife and 4 kids baked me a cake, had my favorite dinner ready, and surprised me when I got home...the cake read "Happy 63 Quit Day." That's right - day 63. I looked at my wife and said - it is just day 63, no significance in day 63. She corrected me and said it is significant because I have not chewed in 63 days - every day quit is significant. What a wife and what a family. Reminder next time I read this, when I look back, to thank them for their support.
Alright, time to grind it out and defeat this next challenge. I QUIT LIKE FUCK!!!
I will quit with you everyday of the week, carry on!
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Day 66
The challenge is here!!! I have been quitting by the KTC philosophy of "Quit Today and worry about tomorrow, tomorrow." No question this works and I have really done a great job embracing it and not worrying about the future or quitting forever. BUT, in the back of my mind I new this time was coming and would be the toughest challenge in my quit thus far.
The next 4 weeks work has me on the road, home on the weekends, but Monday through Friday, hotels, lots of drive time, flights, etc. and Copenshit has always been my travel companion. Late nights watching TV laying in bed, Copenshit has always kept me up and has always kept me company.Â
I am looking forward to new sleeping hours, earlier wake-ups, and more productive days, I EMBRACE the CHALLENGE...but I also am fully prepared for the challenges the nic bitch will throw at me. I have tons of numbers from some great quitters. I know you all have my back. I will fight my ass off and I will exhaust all avenues - I WILL NOT CAVE!!! CAVING IS NOT AN OPTION.
I am at war as Mthomas has written about - this is a war and I have the best fucking army behind me. Be prepared for plenty of texts, warn your wives or significant others that a late night text may wake you all up - it's just me fighting off the bitch.Â
On a side note, I have a phenominal family. My wife and 4 kids baked me a cake, had my favorite dinner ready, and surprised me when I got home...the cake read "Happy 63 Quit Day." That's right - day 63. I looked at my wife and said - it is just day 63, no significance in day 63. She corrected me and said it is significant because I have not chewed in 63 days - every day quit is significant. What a wife and what a family. Reminder next time I read this, when I look back, to thank them for their support.Â
Alright, time to grind it out and defeat this next challenge. I QUIT LIKE FUCK!!!
I will quit with you everyday of the week, carry on!
63 days is no different than any other number and just as important as your family showed you. We are quit for today and that's all we have.
I'll quit with you and old-man Copehater today
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Day 66
The challenge is here!!! I have been quitting by the KTC philosophy of "Quit Today and worry about tomorrow, tomorrow." No question this works and I have really done a great job embracing it and not worrying about the future or quitting forever. BUT, in the back of my mind I new this time was coming and would be the toughest challenge in my quit thus far.
The next 4 weeks work has me on the road, home on the weekends, but Monday through Friday, hotels, lots of drive time, flights, etc. and Copenshit has always been my travel companion. Late nights watching TV laying in bed, Copenshit has always kept me up and has always kept me company.Â
I am looking forward to new sleeping hours, earlier wake-ups, and more productive days, I EMBRACE the CHALLENGE...but I also am fully prepared for the challenges the nic bitch will throw at me. I have tons of numbers from some great quitters. I know you all have my back. I will fight my ass off and I will exhaust all avenues - I WILL NOT CAVE!!! CAVING IS NOT AN OPTION.
I am at war as Mthomas has written about - this is a war and I have the best fucking army behind me. Be prepared for plenty of texts, warn your wives or significant others that a late night text may wake you all up - it's just me fighting off the bitch.Â
On a side note, I have a phenominal family. My wife and 4 kids baked me a cake, had my favorite dinner ready, and surprised me when I got home...the cake read "Happy 63 Quit Day." That's right - day 63. I looked at my wife and said - it is just day 63, no significance in day 63. She corrected me and said it is significant because I have not chewed in 63 days - every day quit is significant. What a wife and what a family. Reminder next time I read this, when I look back, to thank them for their support.Â
Alright, time to grind it out and defeat this next challenge. I QUIT LIKE FUCK!!!
I will quit with you everyday of the week, carry on!
63 days is no different than any other number and just as important as your family showed you. We are quit for today and that's all we have.
I'll quit with you and old-man Copehater today
If you need a number pm. You own this shit.
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Day 66
The challenge is here!!! I have been quitting by the KTC philosophy of "Quit Today and worry about tomorrow, tomorrow." No question this works and I have really done a great job embracing it and not worrying about the future or quitting forever. BUT, in the back of my mind I new this time was coming and would be the toughest challenge in my quit thus far.
The next 4 weeks work has me on the road, home on the weekends, but Monday through Friday, hotels, lots of drive time, flights, etc. and Copenshit has always been my travel companion. Late nights watching TV laying in bed, Copenshit has always kept me up and has always kept me company.Â
I am looking forward to new sleeping hours, earlier wake-ups, and more productive days, I EMBRACE the CHALLENGE...but I also am fully prepared for the challenges the nic bitch will throw at me. I have tons of numbers from some great quitters. I know you all have my back. I will fight my ass off and I will exhaust all avenues - I WILL NOT CAVE!!! CAVING IS NOT AN OPTION.
I am at war as Mthomas has written about - this is a war and I have the best fucking army behind me. Be prepared for plenty of texts, warn your wives or significant others that a late night text may wake you all up - it's just me fighting off the bitch.Â
On a side note, I have a phenominal family. My wife and 4 kids baked me a cake, had my favorite dinner ready, and surprised me when I got home...the cake read "Happy 63 Quit Day." That's right - day 63. I looked at my wife and said - it is just day 63, no significance in day 63. She corrected me and said it is significant because I have not chewed in 63 days - every day quit is significant. What a wife and what a family. Reminder next time I read this, when I look back, to thank them for their support.Â
Alright, time to grind it out and defeat this next challenge. I QUIT LIKE FUCK!!!
I will quit with you everyday of the week, carry on!
63 days is no different than any other number and just as important as your family showed you. We are quit for today and that's all we have.
I'll quit with you and old-man Copehater today
If you need a number pm. You own this shit.
I am quit with you bro!
You helped me thru a very tough stretch and I would like to do the same for you!
You have my numbers and now you know you can reach me anytime!
You are a badass quiter and I am very proud to be quit with you!!!
Stay Strong!
Stay Focused!
Stay QUIT!!!!
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... Copenshit has always been my travel companion. Late nights watching TV laying in bed, Copenshit has always kept me up and has always kept me company.
That was the old you, bro. Make sure to have new routines and alternatives lined up. Reward yourself, too, maybe you can get creative. Since you're traveling, maybe you can shop and look for some cool surprises for your family. Or set some exercise goals in each hotel/city/etc. Research ahead and look for the badass parks in town, or the coolest eateries. Get some photography going or a new hobby, hell. NEW YOU.
You will do this, and come out stronger. We are all expecting you to succeed and make our quits stronger, too.
Stay strong.
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Day 67 - Day 2 on the road.
First and most importantly - thank you to all for your posts and support. There is no way in hell that I could cave because that would mean that all of you who have supported me and my quit in one way or another, I would be cheating every one of you and that is not me, that is not who I am, and again, I thank you all for helping me continue to quit each and every day.
Today, I had dinner with another coach and following dinner he threw in a Skoal Wintergreen. I was good because I'm a Copenhagen Longcut or snuff guy (well I was). Wrong - my mouth started watering and I sat there thinking about how good that dip looked. I had some serious craves - a dip after dinner with a few beers, on the road away from family, was probably my favorite dip.
Driving back to the hotel after dinner talking to my wife, I told her about the situation. She asked how I was doing. I was great, I did not chew, the crave came and went pretty fast, and overall, I defeated the moment and felt really good about my quit. I couldn't wait to get on here and write about it. I talked a little more about it with my wife and basically bragged to her about the site, the support, and the friendships beginning to form even though I have never met anyone of you face to face. Of course I thanked her for her support first, didn't want her getting jealous, but, I do believe that one day at a time I will defeat the nic bitch with the knowledge and support provided here on KTC.
Thank you to all - I am confident that no matter what the crave, no matter how good it may look, I can defeat and I will defeat the bitch and everything she can throw at me. Again, a huge thanks for the support.
Humbly I Quit Like Fuck one day at a time.
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Day 67 - Day 2 on the road.
First and most importantly - thank you to all for your posts and support. There is no way in hell that I could cave because that would mean that all of you who have supported me and my quit in one way or another, I would be cheating every one of you and that is not me, that is not who I am, and again, I thank you all for helping me continue to quit each and every day.
Today, I had dinner with another coach and following dinner he threw in a Skoal Wintergreen. I was good because I'm a Copenhagen Longcut or snuff guy (well I was). Wrong - my mouth started watering and I sat there thinking about how good that dip looked. I had some serious craves - a dip after dinner with a few beers, on the road away from family, was probably my favorite dip.
Driving back to the hotel after dinner talking to my wife, I told her about the situation. She asked how I was doing. I was great, I did not chew, the crave came and went pretty fast, and overall, I defeated the moment and felt really good about my quit. I couldn't wait to get on here and write about it. I talked a little more about it with my wife and basically bragged to her about the site, the support, and the friendships beginning to form even though I have never met anyone of you face to face. Of course I thanked her for her support first, didn't want her getting jealous, but, I do believe that one day at a time I will defeat the nic bitch with the knowledge and support provided here on KTC.
Thank you to all - I am confident that no matter what the crave, no matter how good it may look, I can defeat and I will defeat the bitch and everything she can throw at me. Again, a huge thanks for the support.
Humbly I Quit Like Fuck one day at a time.
Awesome victory for you bro!!!!!
Each day these victories make your quit stronger.
Extremely proud to be quit with you today!
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Day 67 - Day 2 on the road.
First and most importantly - thank you to all for your posts and support. There is no way in hell that I could cave because that would mean that all of you who have supported me and my quit in one way or another, I would be cheating every one of you and that is not me, that is not who I am, and again, I thank you all for helping me continue to quit each and every day.
Today, I had dinner with another coach and following dinner he threw in a Skoal Wintergreen. I was good because I'm a Copenhagen Longcut or snuff guy (well I was). Wrong - my mouth started watering and I sat there thinking about how good that dip looked. I had some serious craves - a dip after dinner with a few beers, on the road away from family, was probably my favorite dip.
Driving back to the hotel after dinner talking to my wife, I told her about the situation. She asked how I was doing. I was great, I did not chew, the crave came and went pretty fast, and overall, I defeated the moment and felt really good about my quit. I couldn't wait to get on here and write about it. I talked a little more about it with my wife and basically bragged to her about the site, the support, and the friendships beginning to form even though I have never met anyone of you face to face. Of course I thanked her for her support first, didn't want her getting jealous, but, I do believe that one day at a time I will defeat the nic bitch with the knowledge and support provided here on KTC.
Thank you to all - I am confident that no matter what the crave, no matter how good it may look, I can defeat and I will defeat the bitch and everything she can throw at me. Again, a huge thanks for the support.
Humbly I Quit Like Fuck one day at a time.
That is a great Quit event! Stand tall. I Quit with you tonight.
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Day 80
Fuck that sounds good - 80 days quit - but still humbly quitting every day cause I know that I have many tough tests in front of me.
Day 76 - Has now been bumped up to the #1 toughest day in my quit. Was frustrated with life in general - not sure why but I think I got a glimpse of what someone with depression goes through. Everything pissed me off, I was mad at the world, frustrated with life, and quitting chew was just piling on. I by no means felt like a cave would make life better - but I did feel like it would be just one thing to check off the list of what was making me miserable. I have no idea why that day I was such a puss but it was rough.
So, I texted some quit brothers with my rant. Was driving (right at noon) saw a Catholic church - went in just to get a few minutes to clear my head or at least try, ended up sitting through the noon Spanish mass - (no I don't speak Spanish) but mass helped and I was able to offer some of it up. Came out of the church still a little frustrated. I noticed I had a new voice message and it was Mthomas so I called his ass back. Glad I did, it was another big help in saving my Quit.
The rest of the day I managed through better than the first half but I was still a major puss for most of it. The great news is I woke up Friday and felt great and had a great day. I did not cave when probably at least 50 times that day I was close to going to the store. I did not cave and Friday was great!!! I know that if I would have caved - Friday would have sucked balls. Friday would have been the worst day in my quit and the worst day of all.
Thank you to God for the timing of me driving by the church and for the strength to endure. To Mthomas for the perfect timing of the phone call. To the quit brothers who texted throughout the day and night, and to KTC for holding me accountable to myself and to all the quit brothers. I am still quit today because I am a June quit brother and a member of KTC. I wear my new long sleeve KTC Black shirt with pride today!!!
Truly I QUIT LIKE FUCK
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Day 80
Fuck that sounds good - 80 days quit - but still humbly quitting every day cause I know that I have many tough tests in front of me.
Day 76 - Has now been bumped up to the #1 toughest day in my quit. Was frustrated with life in general - not sure why but I think I got a glimpse of what someone with depression goes through. Everything pissed me off, I was mad at the world, frustrated with life, and quitting chew was just piling on. I by no means felt like a cave would make life better - but I did feel like it would be just one thing to check off the list of what was making me miserable. I have no idea why that day I was such a puss but it was rough.Â
So, I texted some quit brothers with my rant. Was driving (right at noon) saw a Catholic church - went in just to get a few minutes to clear my head or at least try, ended up sitting through the noon Spanish mass - (no I don't speak Spanish) but mass helped and I was able to offer some of it up. Came out of the church still a little frustrated. I noticed I had a new voice message and it was Mthomas so I called his ass back. Glad I did, it was another big help in saving my Quit.
The rest of the day I managed through better than the first half but I was still a major puss for most of it. The great news is I woke up Friday and felt great and had a great day. I did not cave when probably at least 50 times that day I was close to going to the store. I did not cave and Friday was great!!! I know that if I would have caved - Friday would have sucked balls. Friday would have been the worst day in my quit and the worst day of all.
Thank you to God for the timing of me driving by the church and for the strength to endure. To Mthomas for the perfect timing of the phone call. To the quit brothers who texted throughout the day and night, and to KTC for holding me accountable to myself and to all the quit brothers. I am still quit today because I am a June quit brother and a member of KTC. I wear my new long sleeve KTC Black shirt with pride today!!!
Truly I QUIT LIKE FUCK
Suck-it
Great post, I love reading your journey because it always gets me prepared and I get a feel for what I can expect as days go by.
There is one issue that I have. I would have PM'd you but I think it is valuable for others to read this too.
If you cave....You're a pussy. If you stay true to your promise and remain quit, you are a fighter!!!
No where in your 80 days did I see a pussy! Not once? When you look in the mirror, it is time to see what I see. You are a true fighter that can take a punch and keep standing.
Addiction = temptations, triggers and cravings
Pussy = Caving and surrendering to your addiction
I don't think you are any more or any less than human. You will crave but as a man, you prayed, got help and when your battle was one on one...you fought and inspired.
That is not the definition of pussy. You are the example. You are having many victories. You are humble in your quit and I admire that as well but humility is not a synonym for pussy. QUITE THE OPPOSITE!
Thanks for being a Humble, Brave, Confident, Fighter! You inspire.
In short, please only call yourself a pussy if you cave. If you ever cave, I'll help and call you a candy ass pussy too. Until then, you're a bad ass quitter in my book and I am honored to be quit with you.
'Sing and Drink' I am so happy to celebrate and congratulate 80 days!!!!
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Day 80
Fuck that sounds good - 80 days quit - but still humbly quitting every day cause I know that I have many tough tests in front of me.
Day 76 - Has now been bumped up to the #1 toughest day in my quit. Was frustrated with life in general - not sure why but I think I got a glimpse of what someone with depression goes through. Everything pissed me off, I was mad at the world, frustrated with life, and quitting chew was just piling on. I by no means felt like a cave would make life better - but I did feel like it would be just one thing to check off the list of what was making me miserable. I have no idea why that day I was such a puss but it was rough.Â
So, I texted some quit brothers with my rant. Was driving (right at noon) saw a Catholic church - went in just to get a few minutes to clear my head or at least try, ended up sitting through the noon Spanish mass - (no I don't speak Spanish) but mass helped and I was able to offer some of it up. Came out of the church still a little frustrated. I noticed I had a new voice message and it was Mthomas so I called his ass back. Glad I did, it was another big help in saving my Quit.
The rest of the day I managed through better than the first half but I was still a major puss for most of it. The great news is I woke up Friday and felt great and had a great day. I did not cave when probably at least 50 times that day I was close to going to the store. I did not cave and Friday was great!!! I know that if I would have caved - Friday would have sucked balls. Friday would have been the worst day in my quit and the worst day of all.
Thank you to God for the timing of me driving by the church and for the strength to endure. To Mthomas for the perfect timing of the phone call. To the quit brothers who texted throughout the day and night, and to KTC for holding me accountable to myself and to all the quit brothers. I am still quit today because I am a June quit brother and a member of KTC. I wear my new long sleeve KTC Black shirt with pride today!!!
Truly I QUIT LIKE FUCK
Suck-it
Great post, I love reading your journey because it always gets me prepared and I get a feel for what I can expect as days go by.
There is one issue that I have. I would have PM'd you but I think it is valuable for others to read this too.
If you cave....You're a pussy. If you stay true to your promise and remain quit, you are a fighter!!!
No where in your 80 days did I see a pussy! Not once? When you look in the mirror, it is time to see what I see. You are a true fighter that can take a punch and keep standing.
Addiction = temptations, triggers and cravings
Pussy = Caving and surrendering to your addiction
I don't think you are any more or any less than human. You will crave but as a man, you prayed, got help and when your battle was one on one...you fought and inspired.
That is not the definition of pussy. You are the example. You are having many victories. You are humble in your quit and I admire that as well but humility is not a synonym for pussy. QUITE THE OPPOSITE!
Thanks for being a Humble, Brave, Confident, Fighter! You inspire.
In short, please only call yourself a pussy if you cave. If you ever cave, I'll help and call you a candy ass pussy too. Until then, you're a bad ass quitter in my book and I am honored to be quit with you.
'Sing and Drink' I am so happy to celebrate and congratulate 80 days!!!!
It is always great to read inspiring stories of bad ass quit!
Keep on keeping on!
Punching nic's mouth one day at a time!
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Day 95 - A quick recap of the past month. I had 4 weeks of being on the road for work - 4 weeks I was really worried about but decided long ago to quit one day at a time and to not worry about the future. That thought process definitely paid off and I made it Cope free through 4 weeks of travel and hotels. I stated earlier before I left out that Cope was always my travel companion - kept me company on the road. Well boys and girls, I made it and have conquered another hurdle in my quit.
It wasn't easy and I did it with the help and some great timing from some amazing quit brothers. Thank you to all for the support and much needed help at times. The worst day was day 76, a Thursday, and I got bailed out with some divine intervention. A noon mass, a call from Mthomas, and some texts from a gang of quitters all came at the perfect time to keep me from caving. I also had phone calls along the way from my kids - ages 7, 5, 5, and 2. Mostly from the 7 year old - she left me a ton of messages saying how proud she was of me for making it the number of days I had. Which, fully knowing that my 7 year old wasn't keeping track of my days, I know my wife was behind the calls feeding her with the information needed - thank you to my wife for your awesome support and help. She had given up on me ever beating this addiction but has never given up supporting me in my effort to quit.
Pretty boring post but all in all, a big Thank You to all for supporting me through the past 4 tough ass weeks of quitting on the road. I'm glad it is over. I also must mention that I spent Sunday, all day on the lake, fishing, water skiing, tubing, grilling, pounding beers, and never once craved a chew. That also felt amazing.
5 more days and I have no clue about a HOF Speech. I may have to hire Mthomas to write it for me. Glad to be quit with all you fuckers. Keep it up.
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Day 95 - A quick recap of the past month. I had 4 weeks of being on the road for work - 4 weeks I was really worried about but decided long ago to quit one day at a time and to not worry about the future. That thought process definitely paid off and I made it Cope free through 4 weeks of travel and hotels. I stated earlier before I left out that Cope was always my travel companion - kept me company on the road. Well boys and girls, I made it and have conquered another hurdle in my quit.
It wasn't easy and I did it with the help and some great timing from some amazing quit brothers. Thank you to all for the support and much needed help at times. The worst day was day 76, a Thursday, and I got bailed out with some divine intervention. A noon mass, a call from Mthomas, and some texts from a gang of quitters all came at the perfect time to keep me from caving. I also had phone calls along the way from my kids - ages 7, 5, 5, and 2. Mostly from the 7 year old - she left me a ton of messages saying how proud she was of me for making it the number of days I had. Which, fully knowing that my 7 year old wasn't keeping track of my days, I know my wife was behind the calls feeding her with the information needed - thank you to my wife for your awesome support and help. She had given up on me ever beating this addiction but has never given up supporting me in my effort to quit.
Pretty boring post but all in all, a big Thank You to all for supporting me through the past 4 tough ass weeks of quitting on the road. I'm glad it is over. I also must mention that I spent Sunday, all day on the lake, fishing, water skiing, tubing, grilling, pounding beers, and never once craved a chew. That also felt amazing.
5 more days and I have no clue about a HOF Speech. I may have to hire Mthomas to write it for me. Glad to be quit with all you fuckers. Keep it up.
NICELY DONE on Sunday!!! This has not been easy. I Quit with you tonight!
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Day 95 - A quick recap of the past month. I had 4 weeks of being on the road for work - 4 weeks I was really worried about but decided long ago to quit one day at a time and to not worry about the future. That thought process definitely paid off and I made it Cope free through 4 weeks of travel and hotels. I stated earlier before I left out that Cope was always my travel companion - kept me company on the road. Well boys and girls, I made it and have conquered another hurdle in my quit.
It wasn't easy and I did it with the help and some great timing from some amazing quit brothers. Thank you to all for the support and much needed help at times. The worst day was day 76, a Thursday, and I got bailed out with some divine intervention. A noon mass, a call from Mthomas, and some texts from a gang of quitters all came at the perfect time to keep me from caving. I also had phone calls along the way from my kids - ages 7, 5, 5, and 2. Mostly from the 7 year old - she left me a ton of messages saying how proud she was of me for making it the number of days I had. Which, fully knowing that my 7 year old wasn't keeping track of my days, I know my wife was behind the calls feeding her with the information needed - thank you to my wife for your awesome support and help. She had given up on me ever beating this addiction but has never given up supporting me in my effort to quit.
Pretty boring post but all in all, a big Thank You to all for supporting me through the past 4 tough ass weeks of quitting on the road. I'm glad it is over. I also must mention that I spent Sunday, all day on the lake, fishing, water skiing, tubing, grilling, pounding beers, and never once craved a chew. That also felt amazing.
5 more days and I have no clue about a HOF Speech. I may have to hire Mthomas to write it for me. Glad to be quit with all you fuckers. Keep it up.
NICELY DONE on Sunday!!! This has not been easy. I Quit with you tonight!
Ups and downs are all part of this brother!
Keep your focus and be proud!
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Day 95 - A quick recap of the past month. I had 4 weeks of being on the road for work - 4 weeks I was really worried about but decided long ago to quit one day at a time and to not worry about the future. That thought process definitely paid off and I made it Cope free through 4 weeks of travel and hotels. I stated earlier before I left out that Cope was always my travel companion - kept me company on the road. Well boys and girls, I made it and have conquered another hurdle in my quit.
It wasn't easy and I did it with the help and some great timing from some amazing quit brothers. Thank you to all for the support and much needed help at times. The worst day was day 76, a Thursday, and I got bailed out with some divine intervention. A noon mass, a call from Mthomas, and some texts from a gang of quitters all came at the perfect time to keep me from caving. I also had phone calls along the way from my kids - ages 7, 5, 5, and 2. Mostly from the 7 year old - she left me a ton of messages saying how proud she was of me for making it the number of days I had. Which, fully knowing that my 7 year old wasn't keeping track of my days, I know my wife was behind the calls feeding her with the information needed - thank you to my wife for your awesome support and help. She had given up on me ever beating this addiction but has never given up supporting me in my effort to quit.
Pretty boring post but all in all, a big Thank You to all for supporting me through the past 4 tough ass weeks of quitting on the road. I'm glad it is over. I also must mention that I spent Sunday, all day on the lake, fishing, water skiing, tubing, grilling, pounding beers, and never once craved a chew. That also felt amazing.
5 more days and I have no clue about a HOF Speech. I may have to hire Mthomas to write it for me. Glad to be quit with all you fuckers. Keep it up.
NICELY DONE on Sunday!!! This has not been easy. I Quit with you tonight!
Ups and downs are all part of this brother!
Keep your focus and be proud!
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You are a quitter that inspires my friend. You have always blazed the trail and let me know what to expect in the coming days. It is hard to regret having this addiction. Without it, there is no way we could have crossed paths.
Your faith in God and family makes you a true man. I am honored to be quit with you.
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My Humble Return to KTC:
About a year ago I was joining the hall - had hit 100 days. Felt great and felt great about my quit. I was a part of a great group of Quitters - June 2011. Made some damn good friends and had some strong support. Well, needless to say I think it was around the 120's that I decided to quit posting. Felt like I was strong in my quit and was DONE!!! Done for life!!! Well, that was my mistake. I lost the concept of quit only for the day - don't worry about the future, just quit for the day. This concept along with the great support from others is what helped me quit for a long time - one day at a time. Well, when I quit posting roll I lost that concept and eventually ended up losing the fight.
I am an addict. I am addicted to Nicotine. I am addicted to Copenhagen Longcut. And I cannot have just one!!!
I know I need to give my explanation or excuse for caving and what I will do differently this time. My lame ass excuse was that I am always around it every day at work. I wasn't posting anymore and did not have the accountability from the site to keep me strong. So in the end, I eventually gave way to that Fuck-It attitude "one isn't going to kill me." Well it hasn't killed me yet...
I've kept in touch with MThomas over the past year off and on. Through it all he has been one of the best quitters I know and one of the best supporters of a quitter. Although we have only met once in person, I consider him a great friend because he never gave up on me and has done nothing but look out for me and what is in my best interests. There are several times he could have given up on me but he hasn't and I truly respect him for that. He has just recently pushed me back to the site. He is right, it is what I need and the support and help that I need.
What will I do different this time. I think my answer is obvious - I need to post roll every day. The site works - the support works - the people here are damn good quitters and know what it takes to become a damn good quitter. I was pretty close to being a damn good quitter but I let it go when I quit posting. It didn't happen right away - I was strong for a long time - but eventually nicotine won. It is a daily part of my life - I will have to face it every day - but last summer I was strong because I was posting roll - nicotine won out when I abandoned my Platoon.
Again, I humbly return to KTC. I want to be quit, I fucking hate tobacco, and I need the help. I am an addict and I cannot do this on my own. Those of you who were here for me last year and are still here - when you read this - I thank you for all that you did for me last year. I also ask you for your help - again. To anyone new over the past year - all I can say is post roll every day. Listen to the vets because they know what is going on. This site works - but you have to make it work. You have to be present and you have to live by the rules. This is quitting a drug and it isn't easy - but the site will help make it easier.
MThomas and Grizzly25 - not sure who else is still here - well, I am back and serious and ready to kick some serious ass!!! Hoping there are still some of the guys still around. I need your support and help.
I am starting fresh in October - new group and a new start for me.
Quit Like Fuck - Embracing the Suck
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Damn. Just plain....damn.
I'd like to hear more about the specifics of the "how".
I'd like to hear more about the why. Something you hadn't bought into? Were there some bridges you hadn't burned?
Posting every damn day is gonna keep you quit, but how are you gonna do THAT?
And I repeat....damn. PS - the best place for this thread is probably Jun12 and Oct13.