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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Ddutton10 on June 04, 2018, 11:54:00 PM
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Quit Date: 4/24/2018
Quit Group: H.O.T. August Knights
My name is Dan, and I am an addict.
That doesn't even sounds right. I guess to begin we would need to go back to 2006, my freshman year of high school. I had dipped a couple times back before when my older cousins talked me into trying Copenhagen black, and then laughing as I threw that crap back up. When I got to high school I was able to try Skoal Mint, and that was the beginning. I was then able to get it from older friends that could buy, and hide it in my backpack, or gym locker. My first high school baseball season came the beginning of 2007 and so I was introduced to the lovely Grizzly Wintergreen. I loved the burn. I started dipping everywhere, baseball, football, in class, my parents came to terms I wasn't doing real bad stuff and dipping wasn't as bad as drugs so it was "ok". Let my habit grow for 9 years, and it would be 2015. I was out drinking at a local bar with some friends and this gorgeous girl and her friends sit at my table.
We instantly hit it off.....one bad thing, she hates dip.
I cant blame her, its nasty. I'm sure everyone has had that accident and drank from a spitter....its bad..
Well I had been throwing around the idea with the same amount of intention as I do of becoming an Olympic bodybuilder. But like any dog on the hunt, I told her I would quit for her...WRONG!!!
NEVER QUIT FOR ANYONE BUT YOURSELF!
I kept setting dates...
I'll quit next month, or before our anniversary... and started hiding and ninja dipping.
About a year later, she's pregnant, and I'm packing....my lip that is... and I promised myself I would quit before my son was born.....WRONGGGGGGGG
Well keep going 18 months of lying, and betrayal of my now wife who caught me three times in between then and now.. She finally says it....
My family or the can.
Well I decided I wouldn't quit for them.
BUT I would quit for ME!
And that's what I did.
April 24, 2018, the day after our last big fight, I told myself I was done. I was done for me, and I posted my day 1.
I'm 6 weeks in, and they don't lie, cravings lessen, but haven't gone away completely.
I no longer lie to my wife, and I know what kind of example I want to set for my little boy.
IF YOUR READING THIS....throw that can away and quit with us....send me a message if you need to.
Choose to save your life today.
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Sweet...you quit a lot faster than any of us old(er) farts. Keep it up!!
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Happy to quit with you today!
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Great story. Thank you for sharing
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Proud as hell to be quit with you Dan!! Great intro and one I am sure will inspire folks on the fence to dive in and embrace the freedom we all experience here.
Your story is very similar to mine and I can relate 100%. Keep quitting ODAAT; it's all we can control.