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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: lou66 on September 08, 2012, 02:06:00 AM
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Just found this site last night and now I'm sitting here chomping on gum to settle my intense cravings. Today is the first day I haven't had chew in over 15 years. I poked around last night on KTC, thinking long and hard about quitting in the near future with the help of this online community. The longer I looked around, the closer the date got to quitting. Yeah, mind you that this was all taking place in a just a few hours. I'd been wanting to quit for years but excuses always pushed any attempt away. Why the difference now? Think, quite honestly, I was not only ready but the page about "what to expect" really resonated. It seemed like, finally, there was a road map. Also, I read a few posts about using Nicorette. The responses were generally like, "Suck it up. Replacing nicotine with nicotine doesn't work. You gotta go cold turkey..." also struck a cord. So, the date to quit became today.
I will say, it was a crazy crazy feeling for most of the day, being in "the fog." Damn! It was literally like I was outside myself, colors and sounds were muted, reactions slow, and processing skills were questionable. I work with kids, so I kind of rely on all my senses working "normal." Not today. I'm fully expecting this to last for a few days, which is why I thought, "What the hell, let's start on a Friday. The nicotine will be out of my system by Mon."
I did not anticipate the friggin' intense cravings. Holy crap. I cannot get my mind off simply having a dip. In fact, sometimes throughout the day, the response was nearly automatic, depending on what I was about to do. But, I've been successful with one day and I'm psyched. Yeah, I know it's just a day and some of you have been at this for a long time (congrats, btw) but, even though I wanted to quit dipping since starting so many years ago, I began to wonder if I had the willpower to make this day a reality.
I will need the support of this online community. But I'm still a bit confused at how to post within my HOF group (which I assume is December)?
Thanks!
Lou66
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Just found this site last night and now I'm sitting here chomping on gum to settle my intense cravings. Today is the first day I haven't had chew in over 15 years. I poked around last night on KTC, thinking long and hard about quitting in the near future with the help of this online community. The longer I looked around, the closer the date got to quitting. Yeah, mind you that this was all taking place in a just a few hours. I'd been wanting to quit for years but excuses always pushed any attempt away. Why the difference now? Think, quite honestly, I was not only ready but the page about "what to expect" really resonated. It seemed like, finally, there was a road map. Also, I read a few posts about using Nicorette. The responses were generally like, "Suck it up. Replacing nicotine with nicotine doesn't work. You gotta go cold turkey..." also struck a cord. So, the date to quit became today.
I will say, it was a crazy crazy feeling for most of the day, being in "the fog." Damn! It was literally like I was outside myself, colors and sounds were muted, reactions slow, and processing skills were questionable. I work with kids, so I kind of rely on all my senses working "normal." Not today. I'm fully expecting this to last for a few days, which is why I thought, "What the hell, let's start on a Friday. The nicotine will be out of my system by Mon."
I did not anticipate the friggin' intense cravings. Holy crap. I cannot get my mind off simply having a dip. In fact, sometimes throughout the day, the response was nearly automatic, depending on what I was about to do. But, I've been successful with one day and I'm psyched. Yeah, I know it's just a day and some of you have been at this for a long time (congrats, btw) but, even though I wanted to quit dipping since starting so many years ago, I began to wonder if I had the willpower to make this day a reality.
I will need the support of this online community. But I'm still a bit confused at how to post within my HOF group (which I assume is December)?
Thanks!
Lou66
Go up to the salmon colored "welcome center" there is information there on how to post roll. The next couple days is going to be a bitch. But you just like many of us here can do it. Seeds, gum, fake shit, water, exercise and whatever the fuck else takes your mind off the cravings. Just do it. Post roll and dive into the overwhelming support you will get here and enjoy the ride. Then enjoy paying it forward once you get through the first few agonizing days. You can do it man. Many quitters before you have shown that it is a real possibility not just a pipe dream.
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Thanks for the help, Gordy. Got it now.
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Thanks for the help, Gordy. Got it now.
No problem man. Keep on keeping on
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Welcome to the site lou...if I can give you one piece of advice it is to try and keep your cool as much as possible. I had some major rage incidents after quitting. Just keep your head up and be sure to post roll daily and early.
Good luck we are a big happy family here!!
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Lou....congrats on your decision......feels good doesn't it?
odds are you are going to fail....
See my avatar? that is the Nic bitch.....yes....haunting you.......every fucking day....
I will quit with you.....if I believe you......
Day 1 is easy.....
Day 2 - kinda easy....
get past Day 3 and I got your back ..... you get me?
lets do this
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Lou....congrats on your decision......feels good doesn't it?
odds are you are going to fail....
See my avatar? that is the Nic bitch.....yes....haunting you.......every fucking day....
I will quit with you.....if I believe you......
Day 1 is easy.....
Day 2 - kinda easy....
get past Day 3 and I got your back ..... you get me?
lets do this
It does feel good, for sure. This was never something I was proud of and so I hid it from a lot of people. It helped ruin my marriage and, yes, it's a bitch. I'm at the end of day 3 now. It's pretty incredible how f'd up it makes you once you go cold turkey. I'm feeling some energy return, tho and I'm still excited that for 3 days in a row I haven't had a chew.
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Lou your doing great! Have you started getting #'s for contacts to reach out to for support? You are about to get past the withdrawal but there are still a lot of other bad days ahead. Like Baudy said rage is part of quitting I made a ass out of myself on day 6 7. That is one of the things we are good at - taking your rage! So bring it on! Pm me if you want to trade #'s
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It is amazing how shitty you feel at first, it made me angry. Angry that I was so hooked on a "non addictive" substance from the time I was a kid. I knew it had a grip on me , but had no idea how chemically dependant I was. That made me even more pissed. You can use that anger to your advantage. After all your in a fight for your life, so you best fight like a junkyard dog. Use the dark side of the force Luke , in this battle anger is a gift but channel it against your addiction, not your loved ones. 72 hrs lou66 and the nic is gone, then your body starts to heal.
Congrats on day three, lets add a plus 1 tomorrow shall we?
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Hey there brother keep on keeping on the first week truly sucks and as we like to say embrace the suck!
We say this cause we never want to relive this shitty feeling where your head hurts and the fog makes you not even want to be around anyone or anything.....
Make sure to trade some numbers right away, numbers increase accountability and accountability increases days quit and days quit is the ultimate goal!
I believe you have what it takes to get the job done but it really doesnt matter if I think that way do you?
You have made the promise and I have gotten a few days underneath your quit belt now dig down and find the determination and resolve to get you over the first hump and those will be your best allies in this fight!
Hit me up if you need any numbers!
Grizzly25/Lou
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Hey guys, thanks for the all your responses. I am fully committed to this, mostly because this site gives me hope every day that there are others that have been there and those that are right there with me. I don't feel like I've quit but I'm damn proud that I've gone 7 days without nicotine.
Recently, I began a new path in my life, changing directions, and heading back to school to be a teacher. I'm nearly there. I am now student teaching, which is the final semester. A few weeks ago my wife asked for a separation, which has turned quickly into a divorce. Ultimately, this has nothing to do with the my withdrawal from nicotine. In fact, I chose to take on this massive challenge now because life is incredibly unpredictable and I realized quickly that I wanted to take this as an opportunity to make some changes. I figured that once the dust settled and my new life began, I would rather be nicotine-free than still dipping, feeling bad for myself that I was still dipping.
Can someone tell me more about contacts?
Thanks again all of you!
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Hey guys, thanks for the all your responses. I am fully committed to this, mostly because this site gives me hope every day that there are others that have been there and those that are right there with me. I don't feel like I've quit but I'm damn proud that I've gone 7 days without nicotine.
Recently, I began a new path in my life, changing directions, and heading back to school to be a teacher. I'm nearly there. I am now student teaching, which is the final semester. A few weeks ago my wife asked for a separation, which has turned quickly into a divorce. Ultimately, this has nothing to do with the my withdrawal from nicotine. In fact, I chose to take on this massive challenge now because life is incredibly unpredictable and I realized quickly that I wanted to take this as an opportunity to make some changes. I figured that once the dust settled and my new life began, I would rather be nicotine-free than still dipping, feeling bad for myself that I was still dipping.
Can someone tell me more about contacts?
Thanks again all of you!
Check your inbox (1). I sent you my number and explained the concept of "contacts".