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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: KindCanMan on January 15, 2014, 02:06:00 PM
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Hello Quitters-
I hope that doesn't come off wrong. We're trained and raised to go through life not quitting because quitters never win, right? In this case, when I call you Quitters, I say so with reverence and admiration. I hope to join your league.
My story, I suppose this goes back to college or even before. I went all through high school and up until my senior year of college before I ever even attempted to try a tobacco product. I was an athlete. I didn't touch the stuff. In fact, I despised and still do despise my mother's smoking habit.
Sometime after I gave up running track and before I entered into the "real world" I picked up smoking on the side. A disappointment to myself. Some days I smoked more than others, mostly it was social but I was still addicted. I discovered cycling again, a sport I took up in my pre-teen years, and I started my slow journey towards quitting cigarettes. I met a girl, now my wife, and I didn't want to be a smoker anymore. I quit. Quite literally on the spot. I maybe smoked a handful of cigarettes from that point forward. I went without tobacco for several months, years even. Sometime around the time my wife, at that time my fiance who is now a dentist, was going through her board exams halfway across the country, I was settling on my first house and starting a business at the same time while working a full time job. The urges came back. I didn't want to smoke and had tried smokeless tobacco once or twice before so I figured I'd give it a go. To stop the anxiety and relieve some stress.
In all honesty, the habit has been touch and go. My usage since I began has been more frequent at times than others. It's something that I've always done in private and in my mind it was always a means to an end - it was something I did instead of smoking and to me it was never going to be something that I did. I wasn't a dipper.
Two years later, I'm using more often than I would like. It's the only secret I've ever kept from my wife. If she didn't know, like know one else knew, in my mind I wasn't using it. Somehow, that's how I justified it to myself.
There is no justification. I'm addicted and it needs to stop. That's why I am here. No more lying, no more pretending, no more hurting anyone else. It hurts my wife and it is hurting me.
So, to all of you Quitters out there. I hope to be amongst your ranks. 100 days from now, 100 days after that and more after that. I have no doubts this won't be easy. Bare with me.
Cheers fellas (and ladies),
-Adam
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So you've rationalized your decision to quit - good
now, throw away all tobacco and tobacco related acoutrements you have around your home, vehicles, work.
Next, learn how to post roll - you're in the April 2014 with me - glad to have you aboard!
post roll, daily.
drop into the live chat - make a connection or two there
start drinking more water than you think you need - it helps
get back on the bike - this is really helping me out, personally (I commute 10 miiles each way to work - i'm losing weight and my quit is stronger)
post your daily thoughts and updates into this thread - it will be your quit journal
most of all, don't be afraid to ask for help or get advice. Caving to the craving is never worth it.
you're embarking on a journey of enlightenment - congrats. the first few legs will not be fun though - stay true to yourself.
you got this.
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Hello Quitters-
I hope that doesn't come off wrong. We're trained and raised to go through life not quitting because quitters never win, right? In this case, when I call you Quitters, I say so with reverence and admiration. I hope to join your league.
My story, I suppose this goes back to college or even before. I went all through high school and up until my senior year of college before I ever even attempted to try a tobacco product. I was an athlete. I didn't touch the stuff. In fact, I despised and still do despise my mother's smoking habit.
Sometime after I gave up running track and before I entered into the "real world" I picked up smoking on the side. A disappointment to myself. Some days I smoked more than others, mostly it was social but I was still addicted. I discovered cycling again, a sport I took up in my pre-teen years, and I started my slow journey towards quitting cigarettes. I met a girl, now my wife, and I didn't want to be a smoker anymore. I quit. Quite literally on the spot. I maybe smoked a handful of cigarettes from that point forward. I went without tobacco for several months, years even. Sometime around the time my wife, at that time my fiance who is now a dentist, was going through her board exams halfway across the country, I was settling on my first house and starting a business at the same time while working a full time job. The urges came back. I didn't want to smoke and had tried smokeless tobacco once or twice before so I figured I'd give it a go. To stop the anxiety and relieve some stress.
In all honesty, the habit has been touch and go. My usage since I began has been more frequent at times than others. It's something that I've always done in private and in my mind it was always a means to an end - it was something I did instead of smoking and to me it was never going to be something that I did. I wasn't a dipper.
Two years later, I'm using more often than I would like. It's the only secret I've ever kept from my wife. If she didn't know, like know one else knew, in my mind I wasn't using it. Somehow, that's how I justified it to myself.
There is no justification. I'm addicted and it needs to stop. That's why I am here. No more lying, no more pretending, no more hurting anyone else. It hurts my wife and it is hurting me.
So, to all of you Quitters out there. I hope to be amongst your ranks. 100 days from now, 100 days after that and more after that. I have no doubts this won't be easy. Bare with me.
Cheers fellas (and ladies),
-Adam
Welcome Adam, glad to have you amongst us "quitters." Don't be sorry, we're damn proud of it!
Thanks for sharing a bit of your story. You my friend are not close to being alone. We even have a term for you: ninja dipper. I was a ninja dipper. Most of the people on here were ninja dippers. Your story is so very similar to mine and many others on the site.
Your biggest reason for using: it was a stress reliever. WRONG. One thing you will come to learn if you stick close to this site: 1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems. I know I used to justify it using the same faulty rationale. We're doing ourselves a favor by dipping instead of taking it out on somebody else. Wrong again.
"Using more often than you would like" is not good enough. When you quit on here, you QUIT. No mas. Finito. The awesome part about quitting on KTC is we only quit today. That's it. We don't worry about tomorrow or the next day or the Super Bowl. Quit today. One day at a time (ODAAT). It won't be easy. It's simple, but not easy.
Read everything you can on the site. Go to the pink welcome center tab in the top left of your screen and start with why we post roll. By posting you're making a commitment to yourself and everybody else on this site that you will not use nicotine in any form today. No social cigs, no "just one dip", no patches, no nic gum. Keep reading all the information you can, it will help your resolve and increase your accountability to quit once and for all.
After posting roll, check in with some of your fellow April 2014 comrades. Get to know them, it will again help strengthen your quit because they will be there for you when it seems like it's too tough.
I will quit with you today and any day you're willing to put your life and your wife's happiness ahead of a can of carcinogenic worm dirt. You can do this. You WILL do this.
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Hello Quitters-
I hope that doesn't come off wrong. We're trained and raised to go through life not quitting because quitters never win, right? In this case, when I call you Quitters, I say so with reverence and admiration. I hope to join your league.
My story, I suppose this goes back to college or even before. I went all through high school and up until my senior year of college before I ever even attempted to try a tobacco product. I was an athlete. I didn't touch the stuff. In fact, I despised and still do despise my mother's smoking habit.
Sometime after I gave up running track and before I entered into the "real world" I picked up smoking on the side. A disappointment to myself. Some days I smoked more than others, mostly it was social but I was still addicted. I discovered cycling again, a sport I took up in my pre-teen years, and I started my slow journey towards quitting cigarettes. I met a girl, now my wife, and I didn't want to be a smoker anymore. I quit. Quite literally on the spot. I maybe smoked a handful of cigarettes from that point forward. I went without tobacco for several months, years even. Sometime around the time my wife, at that time my fiance who is now a dentist, was going through her board exams halfway across the country, I was settling on my first house and starting a business at the same time while working a full time job. The urges came back. I didn't want to smoke and had tried smokeless tobacco once or twice before so I figured I'd give it a go. To stop the anxiety and relieve some stress.
In all honesty, the habit has been touch and go. My usage since I began has been more frequent at times than others. It's something that I've always done in private and in my mind it was always a means to an end - it was something I did instead of smoking and to me it was never going to be something that I did. I wasn't a dipper.
Two years later, I'm using more often than I would like. It's the only secret I've ever kept from my wife. If she didn't know, like know one else knew, in my mind I wasn't using it. Somehow, that's how I justified it to myself.
There is no justification. I'm addicted and it needs to stop. That's why I am here. No more lying, no more pretending, no more hurting anyone else. It hurts my wife and it is hurting me.Â
So, to all of you Quitters out there. I hope to be amongst your ranks. 100 days from now, 100 days after that and more after that. I have no doubts this won't be easy. Bare with me.
Cheers fellas (and ladies),
-Adam
Welcome Adam, glad to have you amongst us "quitters." Don't be sorry, we're damn proud of it!
Thanks for sharing a bit of your story. You my friend are not close to being alone. We even have a term for you: ninja dipper. I was a ninja dipper. Most of the people on here were ninja dippers. Your story is so very similar to mine and many others on the site.
Your biggest reason for using: it was a stress reliever. WRONG. One thing you will come to learn if you stick close to this site: 1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems. I know I used to justify it using the same faulty rationale. We're doing ourselves a favor by dipping instead of taking it out on somebody else. Wrong again.
"Using more often than you would like" is not good enough. When you quit on here, you QUIT. No mas. Finito. The awesome part about quitting on KTC is we only quit today. That's it. We don't worry about tomorrow or the next day or the Super Bowl. Quit today. One day at a time (ODAAT). It won't be easy. It's simple, but not easy.
Read everything you can on the site. Go to the pink welcome center tab in the top left of your screen and start with why we post roll. By posting you're making a commitment to yourself and everybody else on this site that you will not use nicotine in any form today. No social cigs, no "just one dip", no patches, no nic gum. Keep reading all the information you can, it will help your resolve and increase your accountability to quit once and for all.
After posting roll, check in with some of your fellow April 2014 comrades. Get to know them, it will again help strengthen your quit because they will be there for you when it seems like it's too tough.
I will quit with you today and any day you're willing to put your life and your wife's happiness ahead of a can of carcinogenic worm dirt. You can do this. You WILL do this.
Welcome to the site Adam! Use our program as intended and you WILL quit!!! My only advice is fess up to your wife that you have fallen back into using nic and are serious about quitting. That way you won't have to go through this journey alone.
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Hello Quitters-
I hope that doesn't come off wrong. We're trained and raised to go through life not quitting because quitters never win, right? In this case, when I call you Quitters, I say so with reverence and admiration. I hope to join your league.
My story, I suppose this goes back to college or even before. I went all through high school and up until my senior year of college before I ever even attempted to try a tobacco product. I was an athlete. I didn't touch the stuff. In fact, I despised and still do despise my mother's smoking habit.
Sometime after I gave up running track and before I entered into the "real world" I picked up smoking on the side. A disappointment to myself. Some days I smoked more than others, mostly it was social but I was still addicted. I discovered cycling again, a sport I took up in my pre-teen years, and I started my slow journey towards quitting cigarettes. I met a girl, now my wife, and I didn't want to be a smoker anymore. I quit. Quite literally on the spot. I maybe smoked a handful of cigarettes from that point forward. I went without tobacco for several months, years even. Sometime around the time my wife, at that time my fiance who is now a dentist, was going through her board exams halfway across the country, I was settling on my first house and starting a business at the same time while working a full time job. The urges came back. I didn't want to smoke and had tried smokeless tobacco once or twice before so I figured I'd give it a go. To stop the anxiety and relieve some stress.
In all honesty, the habit has been touch and go. My usage since I began has been more frequent at times than others. It's something that I've always done in private and in my mind it was always a means to an end - it was something I did instead of smoking and to me it was never going to be something that I did. I wasn't a dipper.
Two years later, I'm using more often than I would like. It's the only secret I've ever kept from my wife. If she didn't know, like know one else knew, in my mind I wasn't using it. Somehow, that's how I justified it to myself.
There is no justification. I'm addicted and it needs to stop. That's why I am here. No more lying, no more pretending, no more hurting anyone else. It hurts my wife and it is hurting me.Â
So, to all of you Quitters out there. I hope to be amongst your ranks. 100 days from now, 100 days after that and more after that. I have no doubts this won't be easy. Bare with me.
Cheers fellas (and ladies),
-Adam
Welcome Adam, glad to have you amongst us "quitters." Don't be sorry, we're damn proud of it!
Thanks for sharing a bit of your story. You my friend are not close to being alone. We even have a term for you: ninja dipper. I was a ninja dipper. Most of the people on here were ninja dippers. Your story is so very similar to mine and many others on the site.
Your biggest reason for using: it was a stress reliever. WRONG. One thing you will come to learn if you stick close to this site: 1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems. I know I used to justify it using the same faulty rationale. We're doing ourselves a favor by dipping instead of taking it out on somebody else. Wrong again.
"Using more often than you would like" is not good enough. When you quit on here, you QUIT. No mas. Finito. The awesome part about quitting on KTC is we only quit today. That's it. We don't worry about tomorrow or the next day or the Super Bowl. Quit today. One day at a time (ODAAT). It won't be easy. It's simple, but not easy.
Read everything you can on the site. Go to the pink welcome center tab in the top left of your screen and start with why we post roll. By posting you're making a commitment to yourself and everybody else on this site that you will not use nicotine in any form today. No social cigs, no "just one dip", no patches, no nic gum. Keep reading all the information you can, it will help your resolve and increase your accountability to quit once and for all.
After posting roll, check in with some of your fellow April 2014 comrades. Get to know them, it will again help strengthen your quit because they will be there for you when it seems like it's too tough.
I will quit with you today and any day you're willing to put your life and your wife's happiness ahead of a can of carcinogenic worm dirt. You can do this. You WILL do this.
Welcome to the site Adam! Use our program as intended and you WILL quit!!! My only advice is fess up to your wife that you have fallen back into using nic and are serious about quitting. That way you won't have to go through this journey alone.
follow these guys' advice brother, they're damn good quitters.
I would like to emphasize 3 things:
1) follow the KTC plan to the letter if you want to be quit
2) spill your guts to your wife (I did - and it was a huge help)
3) tobacco will KILL you if you don't quit
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Welcome Adam. The advice below is solid. Glad to have you aboard. Post roll and jump in with both feet! At day 10, I can tell you that so far the first 3 days were the toughest so far. Embrace the SUCK of those days :)
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Guys, in truth I never expected such a huge response. Thank you.
For starters, I have had the "come to Jesus" talk with my wife. She knows, I know, we're open about it. I told her about you and I think it made her feel better. It's the only thing I've ever lied to her about and I'm ashamed of that. It's up to me to fix that.
Your support is awesome.
As for drinking lots of water, great advise. As a cyclist, that's easy for me to do and beneficial once those hot and humid SC summers come around.
One question, I've tried to find where to roll call, can anyone point me in the right direction?
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Guys, in truth I never expected such a huge response. Thank you.
For starters, I have had the "come to Jesus" talk with my wife. She knows, I know, we're open about it. I told her about you and I think it made her feel better. It's the only thing I've ever lied to her about and I'm ashamed of that. It's up to me to fix that.
Your support is awesome.
As for drinking lots of water, great advise. As a cyclist, that's easy for me to do and beneficial once those hot and humid SC summers come around.
One question, I've tried to find where to roll call, can anyone point me in the right direction?
Adam congrats on coming clean with your wife, I lied to mine for 33 years. As for posting roll click in the salmon color welcome center Above for directions, you will be in the April 2014 group. Pm me if you need anything.
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Guys, in truth I never expected such a huge response. Thank you.
For starters, I have had the "come to Jesus" talk with my wife. She knows, I know, we're open about it. I told her about you and I think it made her feel better. It's the only thing I've ever lied to her about and I'm ashamed of that. It's up to me to fix that.
Your support is awesome.
As for drinking lots of water, great advise. As a cyclist, that's easy for me to do and beneficial once those hot and humid SC summers come around.
One question, I've tried to find where to roll call, can anyone point me in the right direction?
Adam congrats on coming clean with your wife, I lied to mine for 33 years. As for posting roll click in the salmon color welcome center Above for directions, you will be in the April 2014 group. Pm me if you need anything.
Right on. I came clean with my wife the day I quit. She read for spouses and what a huge support she has been.
Wives are great. Its in their nature to forgive and they feel value in being able to support. My wife was and is amazing in helping me and being their in victory and pain.
If you really want to quit, you just got a lot of strength and support by involving her.
We think we lie to protect our wives from our problems. When we are honest and involve them, we end up fixing our problems.
Great strategic move for your quit and to increase the bond you have with her.
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KindCanMan...
Welcome, and congratulations on your Quit, and your being able to successfully post on Day 1. Way to go.
You are probably now enterting what we call "the big suck"....the first few days of quit are full of fog, terror, confusion, and general disconnectedness. Hang in there. The fog will gradually recede, but it will not be easy even after that. Read everything you can on here and post roll daily (a sacred requirement). Also, get to know your fellow April '14 quitters who have, and are, going through the same thing you are.
Check your inbox for digits. Take care and let's get that quit on!!!
ZC
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Thanks dood-
Dood, it's how we spell it amongst my friends. You are all Quitters and Doods. ;)
Thank you for all of the support. Today, well let's just say I've had a lot of coffee today. I've also had a lot of water, don't worry. I've been doing my best to keep busy. I'm probably driving my business partner crazy (I work from home so we're constantly on FaceTime). I'm definitely disconnected today. Working on work things and little hobby things around the house. Been outside a lot with the dog. Doing the best I can to stay positive. You are all helping.
Thanks doods.
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Kindman (I intentionally left out the "can"), thank you for sharing you're story. I particularly like the revelation that what you once considered a habit, was, in fact, a bonafide addiction. That' important, because as an addict we need to understand the commitment we make from day 1 on, that being we can never use nicotine again. Like the alcoholic, we're trying to become sober nicotine addicts, but we'll always be an addict and every day is an individual battle. On that note, don't worry about HOF numbers of 100 and beyond. You worry about notching that next day on your belt, and I'll worry about notching my next day. The great thing about KTC, we'll be notching daily victories together. I got your back, as do all of us.
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Last night was a bit weird. I had a great conversation with my wife who is now extremely positive and supportive and less upset. This helps. Knowing she is upset makes this harder. I know she's lost sleep over this. For Christ's sake, she's a dentist! She knows first hand the dangers of this habit.
I didn't sleep much. I went to bed early apprehending the sleeplessness that I read to expect. I woke several times and ended up waking up a couple hours early to do some reading and respond to some emails for work. (Trying to sell some bikes!) I don't know if my lack of sleep is due to the withdrawal or if it's the anxiety. All of this build up and excitement to make it to the three-day mark. I know I need to let that go. One day at a time. One decision each day.
Maybe this is karmic retribution for all of the sleep I've taken from my wife?
Strangely, I'm not tired. I feel good. I feel positive. I hope this lasts but I'm confident it's going to get harder.
Bastards 04'14
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Also, y'all might find this fucked up but I used to work for a TV show called "Intervention." I know all about addiction. I should know fucking better. Excuse the F-words. It's just. I know I'm better than that. I should have known better.
That's yesterday, today I made my decision.
Letting it go.
Bastards 04'14
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Also, y'all might find this fucked up but I used to work for a TV show called "Intervention." I know all about addiction. I should know fucking better. Excuse the F-words. It's just. I know I'm better than that. I should have known better.
That's yesterday, today I made my decision.
Letting it go.
Bastards 04'14
Don't be ashamed. Move forward as a proud quitter.
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Also, y'all might find this fucked up but I used to work for a TV show called "Intervention." I know all about addiction. I should know fucking better. Excuse the F-words. It's just. I know I'm better than that. I should have known better.
That's yesterday, today I made my decision.
Letting it go.
Bastards 04'14
Don't be ashamed. Move forward as a proud quitter.
Hey KCM Dood! Welcome to the group and yes that's fucked up but its no more fucked up than all of us here who bought a can of shit with big bold white letters on it that said "The use of this product will kill you" or something to that effect and then gleefully ripped that bitch open and poked the contents in our lips!
Fucked up - Check!
Acknowledged and moved on - Check!
Being Quit Today with you! - Priceless!
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Also, y'all might find this fucked up but I used to work for a TV show called "Intervention." I know all about addiction. I should know fucking better. Excuse the F-words. It's just. I know I'm better than that. I should have known better.
That's yesterday, today I made my decision.
Letting it go.
Bastards 04'14
Don't be ashamed. Move forward as a proud quitter.
Hey KCM Dood! Welcome to the group and yes that's fucked up but its no more fucked up than all of us here who bought a can of shit with big bold white letters on it that said "The use of this product will kill you" or something to that effect and then gleefully ripped that bitch open and poked the contents in our lips!
Fucked up - Check!
Acknowledged and moved on - Check!
Being Quit Today with you! - Priceless!
All three of you guys are rocking the quit! I love it! yeah, we all did some really stupid stupid shit. Now it's behind us and we're all walking out of it. We got each other's back. Dood forgive yourself and let it go. The nic bitch would love to see you making yourself feel bad, and hate to see you realizing that you really are so much better off free of her chains. Fuck that, eyes forward move ahead! Right there with each of you.
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So in a cyclist. Something we do as cyclists that a lot of people don't understand is that we shave our legs. We don't do it for aerodynamics like most people think, technicall, having hair on your legs is more aerodynamic (think dimples on a golf ball).
We do it for tradition. For as long as people have been racing bicycles they have been shaving their legs. They did it to make post race massages easier, they did it to make cleaning tar and debris from road rash easier. They did it show off the muscles they worked hard to create.
It's become a tradition for me to have a dip while I shaved and since I started dipping, to my knowledge, I had not shaved without a dip.
Friday was my first dip less shave.
My tradition has changed and to be honest it didn't feel right. That was probably my hardest urge since day one but I managed to get through it. I had received a text from Horseman earlier in the day and he was such a great asset in my Friday quit. He and Zillah have been checking in with me and I can't thank them enough for that.
Here is to new traditions with Zillah, with Horseman and with the rest of my brothers and sisters of quit.
Bastards 04'14
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So in a cyclist. Something we do as cyclists that a lot of people don't understand is that we shave our legs. We don't do it for aerodynamics like most people think, technicall, having hair on your legs is more aerodynamic (think dimples on a golf ball).
We do it for tradition. For as long as people have been racing bicycles they have been shaving their legs. They did it to make post race massages easier, they did it to make cleaning tar and debris from road rash easier. They did it show off the muscles they worked hard to create.
It's become a tradition for me to have a dip while I shaved and since I started dipping, to my knowledge, I had not shaved without a dip.
Friday was my first dip less shave.
My tradition has changed and to be honest it didn't feel right. That was probably my hardest urge since day one but I managed to get through it. I had received a text from Horseman earlier in the day and he was such a great asset in my Friday quit. He and Zillah have been checking in with me and I can't thank them enough for that.
Here is to new traditions with Zillah, with Horseman and with the rest of my brothers and sisters of quit.
Bastards 04'14
It amazes me how ingrained the poison was to our daily routines and life events. My buddy and I made venison sausage a couple of nights this past week. I had a real similar conversation with him. I had never done this without tobacco, it felt like something was actually missing from the experience. Weird and all in my head. It was a blast, the sausage turned out great and I did not have to take a dip out when we fried some up to test the batches. Quit on!
Do cycle for pleasure and/or race? Road or Mountain? I used to do both for pleasure, now pretty much just mountain bike for exercise.
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So in a cyclist. Something we do as cyclists that a lot of people don't understand is that we shave our legs. We don't do it for aerodynamics like most people think, technicall, having hair on your legs is more aerodynamic (think dimples on a golf ball).
We do it for tradition. For as long as people have been racing bicycles they have been shaving their legs. They did it to make post race massages easier, they did it to make cleaning tar and debris from road rash easier. They did it show off the muscles they worked hard to create.
It's become a tradition for me to have a dip while I shaved and since I started dipping, to my knowledge, I had not shaved without a dip.
Friday was my first dip less shave.
My tradition has changed and to be honest it didn't feel right. That was probably my hardest urge since day one but I managed to get through it. I had received a text from Horseman earlier in the day and he was such a great asset in my Friday quit. He and Zillah have been checking in with me and I can't thank them enough for that.
Here is to new traditions with Zillah, with Horseman and with the rest of my brothers and sisters of quit.
Bastards 04'14
It amazes me how ingrained the poison was to our daily routines and life events. My buddy and I made venison sausage a couple of nights this past week. I had a real similar conversation with him. I had never done this without tobacco, it felt like something was actually missing from the experience. Weird and all in my head. It was a blast, the sausage turned out great and I did not have to take a dip out when we fried some up to test the batches. Quit on!
Do cycle for pleasure and/or race? Road or Mountain? I used to do both for pleasure, now pretty much just mountain bike for exercise.
Read your profile after I asked....answered it all....pretty serious about bikes :lol: awesome!
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First off...I will not be a friend of some dude whom shaves his legs....
Second off, wait until you see what your avg HR and recovery time does after all the nic is out of your system. Your resting will be a lot lower too which is always cool to tell people "yup, my resting HR is 39..."
My quit day came 182 days ago as I was doing threshold training. There I was, working my ass off, eating perfectly and I had a freaking dip in as I was pushing my body to the max.
Read my intro if you can, a lot of bike talk and a lot of up and downs. Short story is: I quit dipping, I gained some weight, I cancelled the fall series of racing, I enjoy being on my bike more now and life is great.
Now excuse me as I am searching online for a new razor, I have been getting razor burn around my knees and ankles so it must be time for a new one.... :o
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This is how awesome my wife is.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/44751077@N03/12049604305/ (http://www.flickr.com/photos/44751077@N03/12049604305/)
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This is how awesome my wife is.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/44751077@N03/12049604305/ (http://www.flickr.com/photos/44751077@N03/12049604305/)
That's a keeper, especially with the fact you hid it from her!
Quitting with you today!
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This is how awesome my wife is.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/44751077@N03/12049604305/ (http://www.flickr.com/photos/44751077@N03/12049604305/)
Just wanted to throw another idea out for some that I used. I got me some mint oil from gnc and made mint toothpicks. Keeps your breath smelling good and there is no calories. Just another idea. I'm glad to see your wife helping you. This will be huge. Glad to be quit with you.
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I thought cyclists shaved their legs because should they fall (or turtle over) those road rashes will heal better when the leg is shaven. I dabble in the sport, but certainly not on your level. Anyhow, that was a touching photo and I'm glad to see that your wife has got your back. Makes this whole KTC support system icing on the cake. Stay quit and stay free brother.
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I thought cyclists shaved their legs because should they fall (or turtle over) those road rashes will heal better when the leg is shaven. I dabble in the sport, but certainly not on your level. Anyhow, that was a touching photo and I'm glad to see that your wife has got your back. Makes this whole KTC support system icing on the cake. Stay quit and stay free brother.
That's part of it, but the real reason is for the tradition. We do it because that's what the pros do and did.
Speaking of shaving, I decided since I didn't have a pocket of dip in my lip anymore it was time for another change to my face. The beard is gone. I feel naked.
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I thought cyclists shaved their legs because should they fall (or turtle over) those road rashes will heal better when the leg is shaven. I dabble in the sport, but certainly not on your level. Anyhow, that was a touching photo and I'm glad to see that your wife has got your back. Makes this whole KTC support system icing on the cake. Stay quit and stay free brother.
That's part of it, but the real reason is for the tradition. We do it because that's what the pros do and did.
Speaking of shaving, I decided since I didn't have a pocket of dip in my lip anymore it was time for another change to my face. The beard is gone. I feel naked.
There's a name for people without beards.
Women and Children
I expect it back ASAP. Quit on!
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I thought cyclists shaved their legs because should they fall (or turtle over) those road rashes will heal better when the leg is shaven. I dabble in the sport, but certainly not on your level. Anyhow, that was a touching photo and I'm glad to see that your wife has got your back. Makes this whole KTC support system icing on the cake. Stay quit and stay free brother.
That's part of it, but the real reason is for the tradition. We do it because that's what the pros do and did.
Speaking of shaving, I decided since I didn't have a pocket of dip in my lip anymore it was time for another change to my face. The beard is gone. I feel naked.
There's a name for people without beards.
Women and Children
I expect it back ASAP. Quit on!
Ha, we'll see about that. I considered shaving my head too. Get rid of it all...for the quit, of course.
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I thought cyclists shaved their legs because should they fall (or turtle over) those road rashes will heal better when the leg is shaven. I dabble in the sport, but certainly not on your level. Anyhow, that was a touching photo and I'm glad to see that your wife has got your back. Makes this whole KTC support system icing on the cake. Stay quit and stay free brother.
That's part of it, but the real reason is for the tradition. We do it because that's what the pros do and did.
Speaking of shaving, I decided since I didn't have a pocket of dip in my lip anymore it was time for another change to my face. The beard is gone. I feel naked.
There's a name for people without beards.
Women and Children
I expect it back ASAP. Quit on!
Ha, we'll see about that. I considered shaving my head too. Get rid of it all...for the quit, of course.
The shaving of one's body hair is (at least to me) a new way to commemorate the quit, but if it works for you, by all means.
BTW, when you said SC below in your post, was that Southern Cal, or South Carolina?
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KindMan...
You've got a nice quit going...and a great attitude I know how rough yesterday Day 5 was. You're doing good...just keep grinding....grinding...grinding. The "suck" is done, so now you've "graduated" to mind games and crave management. Yeehaw! Bring on that quit. I quit with you today and every day. Hang in there brother.
ZC.
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Day five and six were pretty rough. I mentioned my near cave. It's hard to believe that was only a couple days ago. Yesterday and today I've felt like a new person. Clear headed, happy, nic free and to be honest - it's like I have to pinch myself to make sure this is real. Did I dip before? Is this all a weird dream? For some reason, Monday and Tuesday feel like an eternity ago.
Speaking of dreams, the other night I dreamed I bought a can. I woke up worried that it had actually happened. I turned the house upside down that morning trying to make sure there was no dip in this house. Luckily, it was just a dream.
I find it funny that my two biggest supporters on here are a Horseman and a cowboy. Horse and Zillah have been huge supporters for me. Keeping me positive and letting me know when I've done right. I know I'm not nearly as supportive as they have been to me but I hope they both know I'm here when and if they need me. I have a feeling they won't, they are strong quitters. Even for a Horse and Cow people.
What would I be? I feel like a name change is needed. KindCanMan was a play on my company name. Maybe I'm SwineGentleman? PigPerson? GoatGuy?
I know I'm gaining weight already. Good thing warm weather is around the corner-ish. Need to get on the bike and hurt myself.
Stay warm quitters. Have a great weekend, it's been a pleasure staying quit for one week with you all.
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Day five and six were pretty rough. I mentioned my near cave. It's hard to believe that was only a couple days ago. Yesterday and today I've felt like a new person. Clear headed, happy, nic free and to be honest - it's like I have to pinch myself to make sure this is real. Did I dip before? Is this all a weird dream? For some reason, Monday and Tuesday feel like an eternity ago.
Speaking of dreams, the other night I dreamed I bought a can. I woke up worried that it had actually happened. I turned the house upside down that morning trying to make sure there was no dip in this house. Luckily, it was just a dream.
I find it funny that my two biggest supporters on here are a Horseman and a cowboy. Horse and Zillah have been huge supporters for me. Keeping me positive and letting me know when I've done right. I know I'm not nearly as supportive as they have been to me but I hope they both know I'm here when and if they need me. I have a feeling they won't, they are strong quitters. Even for a Horse and Cow people.
What would I be? I feel like a name change is needed. KindCanMan was a play on my company name. Maybe I'm SwineGentleman? PigPerson? GoatGuy?
I know I'm gaining weight already. Good thing warm weather is around the corner-ish. Need to get on the bike and hurt myself.
Stay warm quitters. Have a great weekend, it's been a pleasure staying quit for one week with you all.
'clap'
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Day five and six were pretty rough. I mentioned my near cave. It's hard to believe that was only a couple days ago. Yesterday and today I've felt like a new person. Clear headed, happy, nic free and to be honest - it's like I have to pinch myself to make sure this is real. Did I dip before? Is this all a weird dream? For some reason, Monday and Tuesday feel like an eternity ago.
Speaking of dreams, the other night I dreamed I bought a can. I woke up worried that it had actually happened. I turned the house upside down that morning trying to make sure there was no dip in this house. Luckily, it was just a dream.
I find it funny that my two biggest supporters on here are a Horseman and a cowboy. Horse and Zillah have been huge supporters for me. Keeping me positive and letting me know when I've done right. I know I'm not nearly as supportive as they have been to me but I hope they both know I'm here when and if they need me. I have a feeling they won't, they are strong quitters. Even for a Horse and Cow people.
What would I be? I feel like a name change is needed. KindCanMan was a play on my company name. Maybe I'm SwineGentleman? PigPerson? GoatGuy?
I know I'm gaining weight already. Good thing warm weather is around the corner-ish. Need to get on the bike and hurt myself.
Stay warm quitters. Have a great weekend, it's been a pleasure staying quit for one week with you all.
'clap'
You've got a wicked quit goin' on KindMan. I quit with you again today and every day. Rock the weekend with no nic in sight. Yes, and even horse and cow people can do this! Yeehaw!
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So in a cyclist. Something we do as cyclists that a lot of people don't understand is that we shave our legs. We don't do it for aerodynamics like most people think, technicall, having hair on your legs is more aerodynamic (think dimples on a golf ball).
We do it for tradition. For as long as people have been racing bicycles they have been shaving their legs. They did it to make post race massages easier, they did it to make cleaning tar and debris from road rash easier. They did it show off the muscles they worked hard to create.
It's become a tradition for me to have a dip while I shaved and since I started dipping, to my knowledge, I had not shaved without a dip.
Friday was my first dip less shave.
My tradition has changed and to be honest it didn't feel right. That was probably my hardest urge since day one but I managed to get through it. I had received a text from Horseman earlier in the day and he was such a great asset in my Friday quit. He and Zillah have been checking in with me and I can't thank them enough for that.
Here is to new traditions with Zillah, with Horseman and with the rest of my brothers and sisters of quit.
Bastards 04'14
It amazes me how ingrained the poison was to our daily routines and life events. My buddy and I made venison sausage a couple of nights this past week. I had a real similar conversation with him. I had never done this without tobacco, it felt like something was actually missing from the experience. Weird and all in my head. It was a blast, the sausage turned out great and I did not have to take a dip out when we fried some up to test the batches. Quit on!
Do cycle for pleasure and/or race? Road or Mountain? I used to do both for pleasure, now pretty much just mountain bike for exercise.
Sam, sorry I missed this... I race a bit, I actually own a bicycle company. So i do a bit of everything : road, mountain, cross.
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So in a cyclist. Something we do as cyclists that a lot of people don't understand is that we shave our legs. We don't do it for aerodynamics like most people think, technicall, having hair on your legs is more aerodynamic (think dimples on a golf ball).
We do it for tradition. For as long as people have been racing bicycles they have been shaving their legs. They did it to make post race massages easier, they did it to make cleaning tar and debris from road rash easier. They did it show off the muscles they worked hard to create.
It's become a tradition for me to have a dip while I shaved and since I started dipping, to my knowledge, I had not shaved without a dip.
Friday was my first dip less shave.
My tradition has changed and to be honest it didn't feel right. That was probably my hardest urge since day one but I managed to get through it. I had received a text from Horseman earlier in the day and he was such a great asset in my Friday quit. He and Zillah have been checking in with me and I can't thank them enough for that.
Here is to new traditions with Zillah, with Horseman and with the rest of my brothers and sisters of quit.
Bastards 04'14
It amazes me how ingrained the poison was to our daily routines and life events. My buddy and I made venison sausage a couple of nights this past week. I had a real similar conversation with him. I had never done this without tobacco, it felt like something was actually missing from the experience. Weird and all in my head. It was a blast, the sausage turned out great and I did not have to take a dip out when we fried some up to test the batches. Quit on!
Do cycle for pleasure and/or race? Road or Mountain? I used to do both for pleasure, now pretty much just mountain bike for exercise.
Sam, sorry I missed this... I race a bit, I actually own a bicycle company. So i do a bit of everything : road, mountain, cross.
Figured it out when I viewed you profile no sweat! B)
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Day 15...way to go. Keep cycling through this epic quit. Them horse and cow guys are watching you! ;-)
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Bahahaha! Thanks CowmanDoodBro..
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I feel like I've been a bit quit on my personal thread so I figured it's about time for an update. Last week was a breeze this week has been a little more difficult. It's not that I'm having cravings, I'm just thinking about dip a lot more. I'm not dreaming about it, but I am having some whacky dreams - when I sleep. I'm barely sleeping lately. I don't know how much of that is due to the quit or due to my dog just being an amazingly effective barrier dead in the middle of the bed. I swear he gets up and changes positions 30-40 times a night. I also believe this is some crazy ploy to get me out of the bed. He wants my wife all to himself, that rat bastard.
Anyways, enough rambling.
I've been getting bumped a lot recently. I do my best to double check my role call everyday but I've had some busy days where I wasn't able to check as often as usual. I want to apologize for that. I promise to try to keep up better.
Yesterday, I was at the knee surgeon trying to avoid having surgery. If there was any one point in time I really wanted a dip to just chill the eff out - it was yesterday.
The one thing that the fake stuff has taught me is that it's not the habit of dipping that I crave, it's the nic, and I wasn't getting a buzz anymore when I was still dipping...so what the fuck is the point? Why go back to that? I liked it, I enjoyed it, sure. I also like Coca Cola, and I like swordfish and I'd really love to have a new Subaru Cross Trek, or to build a new house... you don't always need or get what you want. Right?
Fuck dip man.
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Fuck dip man.
words to live by
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Congrats on the Hundy today! See you at 101!
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Congrats on hitting the HOF.
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Congrats on hitting the HOF.
Nice work!
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Congrats on hitting the HOF.
Nice work!
Congrats!!!
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Nice 150 over the weekend!!! Flaming 151 shots today:-)
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CONGRATULATIONS BUD!!! 200!
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CONGRATULATIONS BUD!!! 200!
Way to go KCM - not a single post-ride dip in 200 days. Congrats!
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CONGRATULATIONS BUD!!! 200!
Way....to....go my friend. A round of well deserved congratulations on the double hundy! :-)
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CONGRATULATIONS BUD!!! 200!
Way....to....go my friend. A round of well deserved congratulations on the double hundy! :-)
200 is fantastic, +1 at a time!
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CONGRATULATIONS BUD!!! 200!
Way....to....go my friend. A round of well deserved congratulations on the double hundy! :-)
200 is fantastic, +1 at a time!
Congrats on the double hundy!