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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: bk_grover on May 09, 2011, 04:49:00 PM

Title: It's so satisfying...
Post by: bk_grover on May 09, 2011, 04:49:00 PM: ... to make the decision to remove this shit from my life.
I'm Brian from CT, been dipping since my freshman year of college (9 years) and I was up to a can of Skoal Mint a day until 5/7/2011.

I'm tired of the lying, the hiding, the waiting for my g/f to go to bed so I can pack one in. Tired of my fingertips stinking like dip. Sick of thinking about when I can get 10 minutes to myself to throw one in.

I'm also really thankful that I found this site, because all of you guys are really sick of this same nonsense and many of you have or are in the process of beating it.

So I'm on day 3; threw out the stash; threw out the empty cans in my desk; threw out the spitter in the garage. It was tough driving past the gas station this morning, knowing I could just go in and buy a can without Sam judging me - just having it waiting on the counter for when I walk up with my coffee and $6.02 later I've got a lip in on the ride to work. Not today, not tomorrow, never again.

I look forward to your help, and helping anyone else I might be able to.

Thanks,
bkg
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: ninereasons on May 09, 2011, 05:11:00 PM: Congratulations bk. It's going to suck for a while, but that part will be over soon enough and you won't have to go through that again.

Helping others will be a big help to your own quit. It's good that you see that. See you tomorrow.
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: 30yraddict on May 09, 2011, 06:57:00 PM: Welcome bk,

Check your inbox (1)

Glad to be quit with you

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Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: BTM99 on May 09, 2011, 07:04:00 PM: Welcome brother - great decision.

This is a great place to build Accountability and get support.
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: Jeeper on May 09, 2011, 08:31:00 PM: Congrats on the decision to take back your life.
Post roll, stay on this site, read everything you can and ask for help when you need it.
Yes things will suck at first but it does and will get better.
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: Skoal Monster on May 10, 2011, 12:14:00 AM: welcome bk

wanna know a secret? I was sick of it too. In fact I was so sick of it I didn't care if this quit killed me. I was done. I didn't care if I thought about chew every 8 seconds for the rest of my life. I didn't care if the anxiety of quitting was going to give me a heart attack. I didn't care if I turned into a raging asshole. I didn't care if I ruined my relationships or lost my job. I was just going to be quit come hell or high water. I had "tried" to quit a million times before, even wanted to a few times. But this quit was something else, it was a willing acceptance of all the adversity that I believed would befall me when I quit. I literally didn't give a damn what happened, I just wasn't going to chew. I was, like you. Sick of it.

This attitude, made it the easiest hard thing I ever did. Stay sick of it. Don't look back. Be willing to pay the price and the rest will fall into place.sm
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: bk_grover on May 10, 2011, 08:28:00 AM: Thanks for the encouragement guys... been working out like a madman since Friday, seems to help a little...
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: jaygib on May 10, 2011, 08:32:00 AM: Welcome to the family Brian. Proud to be quit with you. You're here for the same reasons as many of us and if we can you will!
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: MikeA on May 10, 2011, 09:08:00 AM: Quote from: bk_grover
Thanks for the encouragement guys... been working out like a madman since Friday, seems to help a little...
Hell ya bro...P90X helped me stay quit..That and eating everything in site.
Whatever it takes!!!
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: tarpon17 on May 10, 2011, 09:17:00 AM: yeah do whatever it takes to keep off the dip. Jerk off 15 times a day! Its ok, as long as nic is not joining in then you're good. Might lay off the sheep though, they get tired after a couple of rounds.

Need any help give me a PM!
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: Greg5280 on May 10, 2011, 01:45:00 PM: Working out helps control craves and also anxiety. You found THE place to get your quit done.

Follow the methods here, post your word and keep it and you too shall be free from the bitch.

Welcome
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: bk_grover on May 10, 2011, 02:11:00 PM: This just in - without dip my constant heartburn is no longer constant...
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: marjwilliams on May 10, 2011, 02:35:00 PM: Quote from: bk_grover
This just in - without dip my constant heartburn is no longer constant...
I was just thinking the same thing over lunch. Zantac may also no longer need to be a part of my life.
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: ninereasons on May 10, 2011, 04:33:00 PM: Hear that future-bk? past-bk is talking to you, reminding you of something you've probably forgotten. The heartburn didn't go away completely, immediately - too much damage had been done - but you noticed it getting better when it finally got a chance to heal, and eventually you didn't think about it anymore.

Keep building your walls of knowledge, accountability and gratitude, bk. The stronger they are, the better they will keep you safe against a moment of stupidity, selfishness or complacency.
Title: Re: It's so satisfying...
Post by: Jeeper on May 10, 2011, 08:57:00 PM: Quote from: bk_grover
This just in - without dip my constant heartburn is no longer constant...
I very rarely have heartburn now. It is so nice. :D