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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Bleakness on January 03, 2015, 06:11:00 PM
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So my addiction started way before I was every introduced to Nicotine. My hero and role-model always chewed and was a strong man who was always loving to his family and I was the first newborn he every held in his huge hands because he was worried how fragile babies were( I was 11pounds and 24 inches so I wasn't to new bornish when my dad handed me off to my grandpa.) Skip forward few years and he dies from cancer of the throat and my sadness can never be explained in words, following year is my first experience with tobacco going to a karate tournament in Seattle was giving some. From that point on I was suckered in and being able pass as my brother was able buy nicotine all the time. Years flew by quit couple times here and there even managed to stop for three years, but welcomed the addiction back with open arms one faithful day when stress of 4 kids and wife and bills and temtaption from co-workers grew to much that thought it would help. It didn't all it did was make me now stress about how I was going get my next fix what a mistake that was. So more years fly by and now after watching both parents fall to cancer; and realizing my idol wasn't the chew my hero did it was how he made people feel when they were around him that I must stop this rollercoaster of life I have had with chew and move on to better rides that are out there. So with this being said I vow to beat this addiction that has claimed so much of my time and money and beat it like a red headed step child which is odd since I'm a red head
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Welcome, get er done!
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So my addiction started way before I was every introduced to Nicotine. My hero and role-model always chewed and was a strong man who was always loving to his family and I was the first newborn he every held in his huge hands because he was worried how fragile babies were( I was 11pounds and 24 inches so I wasn't to new bornish when my dad handed me off to my grandpa.) Skip forward few years and he dies from cancer of the throat and my sadness can never be explained in words, following year is my first experience with tobacco going to a karate tournament in Seattle was giving some. From that point on I was suckered in and being able pass as my brother was able buy nicotine all the time. Years flew by quit couple times here and there even managed to stop for three years, but welcomed the addiction back with open arms one faithful day when stress of 4 kids and wife and bills and temtaption from co-workers grew to much that thought it would help. It didn't all it did was make me now stress about how I was going get my next fix what a mistake that was. So more years fly by and now after watching both parents fall to cancer; and realizing my idol wasn't the chew my hero did it was how he made people feel when they were around him that I must stop this rollercoaster of life I have had with chew and move on to better rides that are out there. So with this being said I vow to beat this addiction that has claimed so much of my time and money and beat it like a red headed step child which is odd since I'm a red head
I'm not good with words either, you put it good. You have your reasons and the ability. Next to do it. You told me in chat you pitched your stash, next to make a pledge to yourself and the group, this will be in April 2015 group. Do not give in to it, you have this beat.
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Congrats Bleak! Read a ton on this site and drink a ton of water, it helps. On the top of April's roll post is a link on how to post roll, why don't you give it a shot.
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I did and posted then I take a look on my handy dandy app and says I have saved 3 dollars already.
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I'm 76 days in saved $456 already.
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congrats on 76 days I would be way over the money saved thou
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congrats on 76 days I would be way over the money saved thou
Thanks Bleak, now read up and get to know some of the other quitters in April. Exchange some numbers to add a layer of security and accountability. Staying involved will help a ton as well.
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Didn't know where else to put this and today is bejng the worst yet so if anone want smack me around a little feel free. I will stay quit
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Didn't know where else to put this and today is bejng the worst yet so if anone want smack me around a little feel free. I will stay quit
What's going on Bleak?
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Didn't know where else to put this and today is bejng the worst yet so if anone want smack me around a little feel free. I will stay quit
What's going on Bleak?
you got this bleak, check your pm
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Didn't know where else to put this and today is bejng the worst yet so if anone want smack me around a little feel free. I will stay quit
What's going on Bleak?
you got this bleak, check your pm
Bleak write all you want about what's going on for you here in the intros. Others can read and know how to help you then. It also later will serve as a reminder of the suck you don't ever want to go through again, and it can help other quitters later-- read some intro threads of other quitters and see your own story in them, and you'll see what I mean by how they help others. This addiction makes us feel like are the only ones who did x,y,z, but really anything you've done or felt, others here have too. You got this- it's worth every bit of hard work it throws your way. the freedom is better than you can even imagine right now, but something deep inside you knows there is a much better way to live. You're on the way now but you have to earn it. Just hang in there!!
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just keep having stupid arse thoughts of wanting a dip in and they are really annoying.not going cave so why mind want float these silly ideas into my head.
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if anyone would want exchange numbers for text support from 4am-7pm pacific time hit me up be nice to shoot off random texts to help.
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Hang in there Bleakness. There is nothing good down that old path. You are on a new one that leads to a much better place. Check your Inbox.
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HOF man, congratulations!
Quit with you another 100, EDD!
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Way to hit the hall hard Bleak.
Thank you so much for being there for me all the time.
It means the world to me and my quit.
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Happy 200 man!!!
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HEY, congrats on your 1 year Bleakie!
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HEY, congrats on your 1 year Bleakie!
Congrats on the year Bleakness! Sending rays of sunlight your way.
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HEY, congrats on your 1 year Bleakie!
Congrats on the year Bleakness! Sending rays of sunlight your way.
Congratulations bleak!
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Bleakness. Bleakie, as i call you, you've been with me from my day 1. Yes i remember. There's nothing like the first people who help you through those first hours. The last few days i've seen you again, was nice. I still remember how you reached out and actually protected me, seriously . I'll never forget it and i think I've payed it forward a couple times. Nevertheless, you've made an impact, thank you from the bottom of my heart Bleak.
Congrats again on your 1 year quit. Bad ass. LBP.
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HEY, congrats on your 1 year Bleakie!
Congrats on the year Bleakness! Sending rays of sunlight your way.
Congratulations bleak!
congrats bleak you are the man. quit hard my friend.
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Bleak!
'Birthday' !