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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Chihua33 on March 26, 2015, 12:28:00 PM
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Hello all,
I'm very thankful I found this site, I'm on day four right now and it's been going pretty well. I've had headaches and been edgy but overall pretty good!
It already feels great being free from it for four days!
Can't wait to go through all the information here and hopefully be able to help others along the way!
Joe
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Great job posting roll, and gratz on the decision to save your life! May I suggest seeking out phone numbers from other quitters? A timely text can fight off a crave!
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Thank you!
With my wedding coming in a year I want to be healthy and free of the terrible addiction.
I knew it was going to be difficult to quit, but I'm surprised with how well it's gone already.
Last night was a big test, I was cutting trees with a buddy of mine who I have chewed with for years, well he's not ready to quit so it was hard getting the smells of his chew.
I know there will be certain triggers like that, but I feel the decision to quit is the best decision I've made.
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Welcome to the Goons and nice first roll post. Glad to quit with you today. Check your PMs.
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Thanks Dan!
It's nice having somewhere to go to get the support that we all know is needed. I know 4 days isn't very long, but it's the longest I've gone in probably 10 years or so!
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Well I figured I would put into words the road I took to get where I am.
This is in no way a post of excuses to say "This is why I was a chewer" or anything of the sort. I take full responsibility for my choices, and just think I need to put it all into words.
So with that said take this however you would like.
I can still remember the day I first tried chew, it's like it was yesterday. I was rollerblading with a friend of mine in high school, he and I were going down the road and another friend from school came driving by. He stopped to talk to her and I for awhile and happened to ask if I wanted a chew, and i regretfully said yes and that's where it all began. Lets just say my legs were like jello for the rest of that rollerblading trip.
It wasn't that I was hooked from that moment, I would go in spurts where I would chew and then I wouldn't I can't really pinpoint when I finally was addicted.
It was my senior year of high school when I decided I was going to quit, and I did just that cold turkey, no help from a site like this or anything else, just cold turkey and made it for over a year.
After that I went back to it and was on it steady for a few years. In 2007 I got married to the girl I was with for 4 years, everything seemed right in my life and chew was just part of my life. As time passed I slowly found myself cutting back from chew and kind of quit without really realizing it. Fast forward to about 2009ish, things in my marriage started to seem "different" my now ex wife was distant and just overall a different person. To make a long story short, she ended up cheating on me, with the best man from our wedding (The guy who gave me my first chew) Now this was my best friend throughout high school and just someone I really respected and trusted. My life went from great to a whirlwind in a heartbeat. Now this is where I'm saying this isn't an excuse but this is the time I started chewing again, I was mad at the world and at that point I wanted the addiction, I felt I needed it.
No fast forward to the present, I have since obviously moved on from my ex and my ex best friend and have since found a girl that makes my days bright and filled with love, and we are engaged to be married next April. I'm not quitting for her, or for our two boys, of course that's a bonus for quitting but I'm doing this for me. I'm sick of the addiction, I'm sick of the sore mouth, I'm sick of the feeling of "I NEED THIS" It's time to take my life back, it's time for ME to stand up to this and kick it in the ass!
Sorry for the long post, but DAMN did that feel good to put into words!
Keep strong everyone, we grow through each other.
Joe
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Well I figured I would put into words the road I took to get where I am.
This is in no way a post of excuses to say "This is why I was a chewer" or anything of the sort. I take full responsibility for my choices, and just think I need to put it all into words.
So with that said take this however you would like.
I can still remember the day I first tried chew, it's like it was yesterday. I was rollerblading with a friend of mine in high school, he and I were going down the road and another friend from school came driving by. He stopped to talk to her and I for awhile and happened to ask if I wanted a chew, and i regretfully said yes and that's where it all began. Lets just say my legs were like jello for the rest of that rollerblading trip.
It wasn't that I was hooked from that moment, I would go in spurts where I would chew and then I wouldn't I can't really pinpoint when I finally was addicted.
It was my senior year of high school when I decided I was going to quit, and I did just that cold turkey, no help from a site like this or anything else, just cold turkey and made it for over a year.
After that I went back to it and was on it steady for a few years. In 2007 I got married to the girl I was with for 4 years, everything seemed right in my life and chew was just part of my life. As time passed I slowly found myself cutting back from chew and kind of quit without really realizing it. Fast forward to about 2009ish, things in my marriage started to seem "different" my now ex wife was distant and just overall a different person. To make a long story short, she ended up cheating on me, with the best man from our wedding (The guy who gave me my first chew) Now this was my best friend throughout high school and just someone I really respected and trusted. My life went from great to a whirlwind in a heartbeat. Now this is where I'm saying this isn't an excuse but this is the time I started chewing again, I was mad at the world and at that point I wanted the addiction, I felt I needed it.
No fast forward to the present, I have since obviously moved on from my ex and my ex best friend and have since found a girl that makes my days bright and filled with love, and we are engaged to be married next April. I'm not quitting for her, or for our two boys, of course that's a bonus for quitting but I'm doing this for me. I'm sick of the addiction, I'm sick of the sore mouth, I'm sick of the feeling of "I NEED THIS" It's time to take my life back, it's time for ME to stand up to this and kick it in the ass!
Sorry for the long post, but DAMN did that feel good to put into words!
Keep strong everyone, we grow through each other.
Joe
Hell yeah Joe glad you here! You can write all the stories you want in here, not only does it help you but us also! Thanks for sharing with us! Sound like a damn head strong man , just come in here rage, vent, cuss whatever, I can guarantee you someone's gonna read and comment, help or whatever you need from it my man! We all need each other here it's a daily struggle my friend! Damn proud to be quit with you today! Just an addict trying to help another addict!
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It's been a life changing experience to say the least. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would be a addict to anything, nor did I think I would have had an experience like I did with my best friend and ex wife!
In a lot of ways I'm grateful for it all, it sure as hell made me a lot stronger of a person.
Everyday is a challenge and a new battle, but small steps and perseverance will get us all to our goal. It's amazing having a resource like this with so many other people who are devoted to the same outcome.
Still trying to figure the whole site out but loving it that's for sure!
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Damn glad to have you as a Goon. Thanks for sharing the story and keep us updated here.
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Well I figured I would put into words the road I took to get where I am.
This is in no way a post of excuses to say "This is why I was a chewer" or anything of the sort. I take full responsibility for my choices, and just think I need to put it all into words.
So with that said take this however you would like.
I can still remember the day I first tried chew, it's like it was yesterday. I was rollerblading with a friend of mine in high school, he and I were going down the road and another friend from school came driving by. He stopped to talk to her and I for awhile and happened to ask if I wanted a chew, and i regretfully said yes and that's where it all began. Lets just say my legs were like jello for the rest of that rollerblading trip.
It wasn't that I was hooked from that moment, I would go in spurts where I would chew and then I wouldn't I can't really pinpoint when I finally was addicted.
It was my senior year of high school when I decided I was going to quit, and I did just that cold turkey, no help from a site like this or anything else, just cold turkey and made it for over a year.
After that I went back to it and was on it steady for a few years. In 2007 I got married to the girl I was with for 4 years, everything seemed right in my life and chew was just part of my life. As time passed I slowly found myself cutting back from chew and kind of quit without really realizing it. Fast forward to about 2009ish, things in my marriage started to seem "different" my now ex wife was distant and just overall a different person. To make a long story short, she ended up cheating on me, with the best man from our wedding (The guy who gave me my first chew) Now this was my best friend throughout high school and just someone I really respected and trusted. My life went from great to a whirlwind in a heartbeat. Now this is where I'm saying this isn't an excuse but this is the time I started chewing again, I was mad at the world and at that point I wanted the addiction, I felt I needed it.
No fast forward to the present, I have since obviously moved on from my ex and my ex best friend and have since found a girl that makes my days bright and filled with love, and we are engaged to be married next April. I'm not quitting for her, or for our two boys, of course that's a bonus for quitting but I'm doing this for me. I'm sick of the addiction, I'm sick of the sore mouth, I'm sick of the feeling of "I NEED THIS" It's time to take my life back, it's time for ME to stand up to this and kick it in the ass!
Sorry for the long post, but DAMN did that feel good to put into words!
Keep strong everyone, we grow through each other.
Joe
Hell yeah Joe glad you here! You can write all the stories you want in here, not only does it help you but us also! Thanks for sharing with us! Sound like a damn head strong man , just come in here rage, vent, cuss whatever, I can guarantee you someone's gonna read and comment, help or whatever you need from it my man! We all need each other here it's a daily struggle my friend! Damn proud to be quit with you today! Just an addict trying to help another addict!
Congrats on a full week buddy, and welcome to KTC!
Joe-- Never apologize for speaking from the heart and putting it on here. There are thousands upon thousands of people that went through what you are going through now, and can help.
One of the first lessons you'll learn is that 1 dip + 1 problem (the ex-wife scenario) = 2 problems. It won't help you cope with the stress, anxiety, frustration, etc-- it'll only make things worse. How can a drug that increases heart rate by 17.5 times normal rate make you any more relaxed?
Read, read, read some more and post roll every day, and early. I quit with you the rest of the day.
Keep at it, guard your quit, and you will LOVE the new you!
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Well I figured I would put into words the road I took to get where I am.
This is in no way a post of excuses to say "This is why I was a chewer" or anything of the sort. I take full responsibility for my choices, and just think I need to put it all into words.
So with that said take this however you would like.
I can still remember the day I first tried chew, it's like it was yesterday. I was rollerblading with a friend of mine in high school, he and I were going down the road and another friend from school came driving by. He stopped to talk to her and I for awhile and happened to ask if I wanted a chew, and i regretfully said yes and that's where it all began. Lets just say my legs were like jello for the rest of that rollerblading trip.
It wasn't that I was hooked from that moment, I would go in spurts where I would chew and then I wouldn't I can't really pinpoint when I finally was addicted.
It was my senior year of high school when I decided I was going to quit, and I did just that cold turkey, no help from a site like this or anything else, just cold turkey and made it for over a year.
After that I went back to it and was on it steady for a few years. In 2007 I got married to the girl I was with for 4 years, everything seemed right in my life and chew was just part of my life. As time passed I slowly found myself cutting back from chew and kind of quit without really realizing it. Fast forward to about 2009ish, things in my marriage started to seem "different" my now ex wife was distant and just overall a different person. To make a long story short, she ended up cheating on me, with the best man from our wedding (The guy who gave me my first chew) Now this was my best friend throughout high school and just someone I really respected and trusted. My life went from great to a whirlwind in a heartbeat. Now this is where I'm saying this isn't an excuse but this is the time I started chewing again, I was mad at the world and at that point I wanted the addiction, I felt I needed it.
No fast forward to the present, I have since obviously moved on from my ex and my ex best friend and have since found a girl that makes my days bright and filled with love, and we are engaged to be married next April. I'm not quitting for her, or for our two boys, of course that's a bonus for quitting but I'm doing this for me. I'm sick of the addiction, I'm sick of the sore mouth, I'm sick of the feeling of "I NEED THIS" It's time to take my life back, it's time for ME to stand up to this and kick it in the ass!
Sorry for the long post, but DAMN did that feel good to put into words!
Keep strong everyone, we grow through each other.
Joe
Hell yeah Joe glad you here! You can write all the stories you want in here, not only does it help you but us also! Thanks for sharing with us! Sound like a damn head strong man , just come in here rage, vent, cuss whatever, I can guarantee you someone's gonna read and comment, help or whatever you need from it my man! We all need each other here it's a daily struggle my friend! Damn proud to be quit with you today! Just an addict trying to help another addict!
Congrats on a full week buddy, and welcome to KTC!
Joe-- Never apologize for speaking from the heart and putting it on here. There are thousands upon thousands of people that went through what you are going through now, and can help.
One of the first lessons you'll learn is that 1 dip + 1 problem (the ex-wife scenario) = 2 problems. It won't help you cope with the stress, anxiety, frustration, etc-- it'll only make things worse. How can a drug that increases heart rate by 17.5 times normal rate make you any more relaxed?
Read, read, read some more and post roll every day, and early. I quit with you the rest of the day.
Keep at it, guard your quit, and you will LOVE the new you!
Oh I already do love the new me! My teeth and gums don't hurt all the time! My boys don't ask if a can or bottle has "yuckies" in it or if I'm doing my "bad stuff" I know I'm only on the start of things but it's been great so far. I've tested myself, by going to my hunting land looking for shed antlers, something I would have found impossible to do without a chew before. I had a great time, walking, looking, relaxing and it was all chew free and amazing.! And I even found one!
I wish I would have never started but I can't turn back time, all I can do is rule the future and kick that shit to the curb every day!