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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: NWIeng on February 23, 2015, 03:47:00 PM
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Hey there, James from Chicagoland. I'm sure my situation isn't very unique, but I'll throw it out there anywhere.
City slicker, just worked an outdoor job in high school. Half the staff of guys dipped, and I was stupid enough to try. Here I am, 31 years old and hooked harder than ever before. I stumbled on this site a couple weeks back, added it to my bookmarks, and didn't really think much else of it.
I've always wanted to quit, I've always known I should quit. I know that dipping is doing nothing positive for me. It's costing me time in the future, and it's costing me time and money in the present.
I don't know what changed this morning. Three weeks ago I purchased my first roll instead of just buying a can or two at a time. That first time I thought to myself 'Great, now you really are officially hooked'. I am sick of being hooked.
I'm going to post roll. My quit began at 6:45 AM CST, 2/23/2015 when I passed the Speedway on the way to work without stopping. Thanks in advance for all the help I know I'll need.
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Welcome aboard, brother. I'm 43 days in and never looked back. The next 72 hours are gonna be hell, but once you learn to "embrace the suck", you'll enjoy your freedom even more. You've already posted roll which is your promise not to use in any form for the next 24 hours. Nice work and keep it up! Literally one day at a time, and sometimes it is one hour at a time.
You're in the right place and you've got this!
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Welcome aboard, brother. I'm 43 days in and never looked back. The next 72 hours are gonna be hell, but once you learn to "embrace the suck", you'll enjoy your freedom even more. You've already posted roll which is your promise not to use in any form for the next 24 hours. Nice work and keep it up! Literally one day at a time, and sometimes it is one hour at a time.
You're in the right place and you've got this!
Great decision my friend! Day 57 here getting my life back in order. Does it suck yes. Is it hard yes. Do I regret it, not one damn second! post roll edd! Quit odaat! Were all addicts here waiting to help you while feeding an addiction of quit! Damn proud to be quit with you today!! need numbers pick some guys gals out pm them!
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Great job at posting roll. I screwed it up the first few times.
You have made the best decision in quitting. When I started my quit reading the pages and stories helped a lot. Drink plenty of water and mix up your routines as much as you can.
PM me if you want my number. You can text for support or help in posting roll. We are all here for you, as you are here for us. We got this!
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Welcome in bro. It's a tough ride your coming into but one that you will never regret. All you have to do is focus on today. No dip today. Tomorrow we all wake up and make that committment again. If you have to, take it 1 hr at a time. If you need help or want to vent, come to KTC. We are here to support you in anyway.
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Everyone here has given great advice. I'll echo what IDWC said — "If you need help or want to vent, come to KTC."
You can either post in your group or go in Live Chat.
Sometimes, I came on planning to do that and ended up just reading for an hour.
Fight hard. Stay quit. See you on roll tomorrow.
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Hey there, James from Chicagoland. I'm sure my situation isn't very unique, but I'll throw it out there anywhere.
City slicker, just worked an outdoor job in high school. Half the staff of guys dipped, and I was stupid enough to try. Here I am, 31 years old and hooked harder than ever before. I stumbled on this site a couple weeks back, added it to my bookmarks, and didn't really think much else of it.
I've always wanted to quit, I've always known I should quit. I know that dipping is doing nothing positive for me. It's costing me time in the future, and it's costing me time and money in the present.
I don't know what changed this morning. Three weeks ago I purchased my first roll instead of just buying a can or two at a time. That first time I thought to myself 'Great, now you really are officially hooked'. I am sick of being hooked.
I'm going to post roll. My quit began at 6:45 AM CST, 2/23/2015 when I passed the Speedway on the way to work without stopping. Thanks in advance for all the help I know I'll need.
Hi James, I always wanted to quit too. I thought I would be buried with the poison in my mouth. I though the only way I could quit was if I won the lotto and checked into a prison type place that would force me to quit. Well, needless to say 1003 days ago I won the lotto by finding this site and the nicotine addict in the mirror.
Just get in here and gather your quit tools mister and you too can "be quit" ODAAT. (one day at a time).
If my sorry ass can do this then I know that YOU can to KILL THE CAN everyday that your feet hit the floor.
Glad you made it here, stick around and your quit will stick.
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Not sure if you are on or if it just a glitch, but if you need to text me just go ahead.
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So it's the end of day 3. Relax everyone, I'm cool tonight. I'm definitely bored, which, let's face it, is half the reason we all dip, dipped. I haven't really figured out how the past and present tenses go yet on this site, so I'm going to plead ignorance if I fuck anything up. I'm posting at the end of day 3, and I'm clean. Let's be absolutely clear on that. Everyone says write when you're craving or bored, so that's what I'm doing.
Without putting the cart too far ahead of the course, I'm starting to see why this place works. I'm no f'in saint, but I don't like lying....at least to other people. I'd lie to myself all day long. "This won't hurt you" "You're only 24, you can kick this shit when you get married, no harm, no foul". I don't know half the other people here beyond a name or phone number, but I don't feel like being a liar.
Here's the biggest fucking whopper I've told. Laugh all you guys want. I shit you not. I bought a new car in 2010 and literally said "Let's get a manual transmission! There's no way in hell I'll be able to dip and drive stick! That'll help me quit"
Oh, side note...I got married in 2009, so we all know how the first part went. And the married part? Well, that part will be over whenever the lawyer gets paid. I won't blame that on dip, but let's face it, it didn't help.
And as for the car? Let's just say in the last few years, I have become very proficient at both.
Like I said, I'm cool tonight. The quit is on for tomorrow's Day 4. But if there's one thing I've learned from being here...
I am an addict. I am, have been, and always will be addicted to Nicotine. And knowing and accepting that, I know what I need to do. And I'm going to do it.
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So it's the end of day 3. Relax everyone, I'm cool tonight. I'm definitely bored, which, let's face it, is half the reason we all dip, dipped. I haven't really figured out how the past and present tenses go yet on this site, so I'm going to plead ignorance if I fuck anything up. I'm posting at the end of day 3, and I'm clean. Let's be absolutely clear on that. Everyone says write when you're craving or bored, so that's what I'm doing.
Without putting the cart too far ahead of the course, I'm starting to see why this place works. I'm no f'in saint, but I don't like lying....at least to other people. I'd lie to myself all day long. "This won't hurt you" "You're only 24, you can kick this shit when you get married, no harm, no foul". I don't know half the other people here beyond a name or phone number, but I don't feel like being a liar.
Here's the biggest fucking whopper I've told. Laugh all you guys want. I shit you not. I bought a new car in 2010 and literally said "Let's get a manual transmission! There's no way in hell I'll be able to dip and drive stick! That'll help me quit"
Oh, side note...I got married in 2009, so we all know how the first part went. And the married part? Well, that part will be over whenever the lawyer gets paid. I won't blame that on dip, but let's face it, it didn't help.
And as for the car? Let's just say in the last few years, I have become very proficient at both.
Like I said, I'm cool tonight. The quit is on for tomorrow's Day 4. But if there's one thing I've learned from being here...
I am an addict. I am, have been, and always will be addicted to Nicotine. And knowing and accepting that, I know what I need to do. And I'm going to do it.
Damn proud of you for posting and taking control over your life not letting olé nic bitch dictate what you will or will not do! Quit on, rage on it only gets better! Damn proud to be quit with you!
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So it's the end of day 3. Relax everyone, I'm cool tonight. I'm definitely bored, which, let's face it, is half the reason we all dip, dipped. I haven't really figured out how the past and present tenses go yet on this site, so I'm going to plead ignorance if I fuck anything up. I'm posting at the end of day 3, and I'm clean. Let's be absolutely clear on that. Everyone says write when you're craving or bored, so that's what I'm doing.
Without putting the cart too far ahead of the course, I'm starting to see why this place works. I'm no f'in saint, but I don't like lying....at least to other people. I'd lie to myself all day long. "This won't hurt you" "You're only 24, you can kick this shit when you get married, no harm, no foul". I don't know half the other people here beyond a name or phone number, but I don't feel like being a liar.
Here's the biggest fucking whopper I've told. Laugh all you guys want. I shit you not. I bought a new car in 2010 and literally said "Let's get a manual transmission! There's no way in hell I'll be able to dip and drive stick! That'll help me quit"
Oh, side note...I got married in 2009, so we all know how the first part went. And the married part? Well, that part will be over whenever the lawyer gets paid. I won't blame that on dip, but let's face it, it didn't help.
And as for the car? Let's just say in the last few years, I have become very proficient at both.
Like I said, I'm cool tonight. The quit is on for tomorrow's Day 4. But if there's one thing I've learned from being here...
I am an addict. I am, have been, and always will be addicted to Nicotine. And knowing and accepting that, I know what I need to do. And I'm going to do it.
Damn proud of you for posting and taking control over your life not letting olé nic bitch dictate what you will or will not do! Quit on, rage on it only gets better! Damn proud to be quit with you!
yep I went through the same shit oh I'll quit when I get married I'll quit when this softball season is over I'll Quit when I'm done with this can It seemed like it would never end. Then one day I had enough and began to fight back.that's what you're doing right now you're fighting for your freedom. you're almost through the worst part each day will continue to get easier I promise. continue to lean on this site. You don't need nicotine at all, for anything, ever.
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So it's the end of day 3. Relax everyone, I'm cool tonight. I'm definitely bored, which, let's face it, is half the reason we all dip, dipped. I haven't really figured out how the past and present tenses go yet on this site, so I'm going to plead ignorance if I fuck anything up. I'm posting at the end of day 3, and I'm clean. Let's be absolutely clear on that. Everyone says write when you're craving or bored, so that's what I'm doing.
Without putting the cart too far ahead of the course, I'm starting to see why this place works. I'm no f'in saint, but I don't like lying....at least to other people. I'd lie to myself all day long. "This won't hurt you" "You're only 24, you can kick this shit when you get married, no harm, no foul". I don't know half the other people here beyond a name or phone number, but I don't feel like being a liar.
Here's the biggest fucking whopper I've told. Laugh all you guys want. I shit you not. I bought a new car in 2010 and literally said "Let's get a manual transmission! There's no way in hell I'll be able to dip and drive stick! That'll help me quit"
Oh, side note...I got married in 2009, so we all know how the first part went. And the married part? Well, that part will be over whenever the lawyer gets paid. I won't blame that on dip, but let's face it, it didn't help.
And as for the car? Let's just say in the last few years, I have become very proficient at both.
Like I said, I'm cool tonight. The quit is on for tomorrow's Day 4. But if there's one thing I've learned from being here...
I am an addict. I am, have been, and always will be addicted to Nicotine. And knowing and accepting that, I know what I need to do. And I'm going to do it.
You're doing alright! Once you figured out that you are an addict, the better. From today on, you can never, ever, never, ever dip again. Not once! Not even a fucking taste. You are doing awesome and I thank you for helping me quit.
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So it's the end of day 3. Relax everyone, I'm cool tonight. I'm definitely bored, which, let's face it, is half the reason we all dip, dipped. I haven't really figured out how the past and present tenses go yet on this site, so I'm going to plead ignorance if I fuck anything up. I'm posting at the end of day 3, and I'm clean. Let's be absolutely clear on that. Everyone says write when you're craving or bored, so that's what I'm doing.
Without putting the cart too far ahead of the course, I'm starting to see why this place works. I'm no f'in saint, but I don't like lying....at least to other people. I'd lie to myself all day long. "This won't hurt you" "You're only 24, you can kick this shit when you get married, no harm, no foul". I don't know half the other people here beyond a name or phone number, but I don't feel like being a liar.
Here's the biggest fucking whopper I've told. Laugh all you guys want. I shit you not. I bought a new car in 2010 and literally said "Let's get a manual transmission! There's no way in hell I'll be able to dip and drive stick! That'll help me quit"
Oh, side note...I got married in 2009, so we all know how the first part went. And the married part? Well, that part will be over whenever the lawyer gets paid. I won't blame that on dip, but let's face it, it didn't help.
And as for the car? Let's just say in the last few years, I have become very proficient at both.
Like I said, I'm cool tonight. The quit is on for tomorrow's Day 4. But if there's one thing I've learned from being here...
I am an addict. I am, have been, and always will be addicted to Nicotine. And knowing and accepting that, I know what I need to do. And I'm going to do it.
You're doing alright! Once you figured out that you are an addict, the better. From today on, you can never, ever, never, ever dip again. Not once! Not even a fucking taste. You are doing awesome and I thank you for helping me quit.
Dude...... You have no idea the awesome support of CAPITOL LETTER STUDS you have on your page.
That is a huge Booster.
Also like your attitude of being so transparent.
Your strongest asset is understanding the difference between the truth and lies.
The Nic B#@h is outside your door doing push-ups right now! She is ready for war.... But she doesn't have the support and knowledge you can obtain here at KTC.
You are on a great start.
PM if you ever need any help.
Spend the same amount of time quiting as you used to spend spitting...
I quit with you today..
Rawls
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You a flog er?
Played yet without Nic.?
You will play better without it.
Focus on protein intake. Not sugar!
What's your handicap?
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Holy shit. I don't know where to begin. This week has been a week of firsts. I don't know if my situation is an aberration, or somewhat normal. I am not freaking out, pulling my hair out, screaming out loud, anything.....but....
Honestly, I constantly want (to) dip. I think I may feel better if I had stopped by the gas station on the way home. But I didn't. Because as much as I may want to dip, I DON'T WANT TO more.
I really don't know what to say without rambling, but this is a list of firsts that happened this week:
-Played with my daughter all morning...without a dip in for any portion of time
-Drove said daughter around to gymboree, errands, etc.....without a dip in for any portion of time
-Went golfing without a dip in for any portion of time
-Went out for dinner, chatted with a friend of a friend, and drove home....without a dip in for any portion of time
I am slowly and quickly realizing that while I am in the gym tomorrow morning, I will have gone an entire week without tobacco. 6:45 AM, ish.
I really didn't think I'd make it this long, but I have. And tomorrow, I will quit again. Thank you to everyone, and thanks to those who have helped closer.
Give ya'll an update after week 2. Take care.
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You're doing great and congratulations on the full week!
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Holy shit. I don't know where to begin. This week has been a week of firsts. I don't know if my situation is an aberration, or somewhat normal. I am not freaking out, pulling my hair out, screaming out loud, anything.....but....
Honestly, I constantly want (to) dip. I think I may feel better if I had stopped by the gas station on the way home. But I didn't. Because as much as I may want to dip, I DON'T WANT TO more.
I really don't know what to say without rambling, but this is a list of firsts that happened this week:
-Played with my daughter all morning...without a dip in for any portion of time
-Drove said daughter around to gymboree, errands, etc.....without a dip in for any portion of time
-Went golfing without a dip in for any portion of time
-Went out for dinner, chatted with a friend of a friend, and drove home....without a dip in for any portion of time
I am slowly and quickly realizing that while I am in the gym tomorrow morning, I will have gone an entire week without tobacco. 6:45 AM, ish.
I really didn't think I'd make it this long, but I have. And tomorrow, I will quit again. Thank you to everyone, and thanks to those who have helped closer.
Give ya'll an update after week 2. Take care.
Smells good.. Real good! 'oh yeah'
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Holy shit. I don't know where to begin. This week has been a week of firsts. I don't know if my situation is an aberration, or somewhat normal. I am not freaking out, pulling my hair out, screaming out loud, anything.....but....
Honestly, I constantly want (to) dip. I think I may feel better if I had stopped by the gas station on the way home. But I didn't. Because as much as I may want to dip, I DON'T WANT TO more.
I really don't know what to say without rambling, but this is a list of firsts that happened this week:
-Played with my daughter all morning...without a dip in for any portion of time
-Drove said daughter around to gymboree, errands, etc.....without a dip in for any portion of time
-Went golfing without a dip in for any portion of time
-Went out for dinner, chatted with a friend of a friend, and drove home....without a dip in for any portion of time
I am slowly and quickly realizing that while I am in the gym tomorrow morning, I will have gone an entire week without tobacco. 6:45 AM, ish.
I really didn't think I'd make it this long, but I have. And tomorrow, I will quit again. Thank you to everyone, and thanks to those who have helped closer.
Give ya'll an update after week 2. Take care.
Smells good.. Real good! 'oh yeah'
Got some badass quitters watching over you^^^^listen to these guys there full diehard quitters! Damn proud to be quit with you!
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Holy shit. I don't know where to begin. This week has been a week of firsts. I don't know if my situation is an aberration, or somewhat normal. I am not freaking out, pulling my hair out, screaming out loud, anything.....but....
Honestly, I constantly want (to) dip. I think I may feel better if I had stopped by the gas station on the way home. But I didn't. Because as much as I may want to dip, I DON'T WANT TO more.
I really don't know what to say without rambling, but this is a list of firsts that happened this week:
-Played with my daughter all morning...without a dip in for any portion of time
-Drove said daughter around to gymboree, errands, etc.....without a dip in for any portion of time
-Went golfing without a dip in for any portion of time
-Went out for dinner, chatted with a friend of a friend, and drove home....without a dip in for any portion of time
I am slowly and quickly realizing that while I am in the gym tomorrow morning, I will have gone an entire week without tobacco. 6:45 AM, ish.
I really didn't think I'd make it this long, but I have. And tomorrow, I will quit again. Thank you to everyone, and thanks to those who have helped closer.
Give ya'll an update after week 2. Take care.
I love you brother. ODAAT keep on quitting. You are winning the fight but you must win every time. Keep posting just like you are doing. we are reading this and loving it. I'm on day 487 and you just helped my quit three fold. Thank you for being here.
Mogul