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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: deerman on September 09, 2014, 05:47:00 AM
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hi fellow quitters,
just wanted to introduce myself to the forum in order to increase commitment on my end. I've tried quitting before but only managed a stop. the brown bitch got a hold of me again after a while.
I am on day 13 now and this site helps me stay focused on my quit.
addiction is like a serial killer that, when you quit, you lock up in your brain. You can never let it out or it will start killing again with no remorse or change. it lurks up there in your head, waiting. Sometimes raging, sometimes patient, waiting for your to show weakness.
And we all experience the weakness. Catch it in time keep the beast locked up.
Happy day to all of you.
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Welcome to KTC Deerman! Read, read, read and then read more on KTC. Put as much time in your QUIT as you did your addiction and you'll succeed. Post roll daily- make that promise early every day that you will not use nicotine and then be a man of your word. You'll never regret quitting.
Quit on.
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Welcome Deerman! I've never had a cave before as this is has been my first and only quit. As of this writing i'm on day 86 I believe. So, I'm fairly young. I can only tell you what has worked for me and countless others on this site. You have to read all you can on this site. Tons of articles designed to both educate you and scare you. POST ROLL DAILY!!!! This is absolutely crucial for success. Roll is where you commit to everyone in your quit group that you promise to quit for one day, and they in turn do the same to you. You repeat this every single freaking day without exception. It should be the very first thing you do every morning. Not at a computer? Tough! That's where the next part comes in. Get some phone numbers of quitters in your group. The will be the peeps you reach out to should you decide to cave again. I wish you luck Deerman. I believe this addiction is something we both can conquer. I hope to see you in the HOF someday my friend.
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Deerman, hell yah RANT brother! I'm on this journey with ya.
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thanks all for the encouragement!
I really love nicotine and I miss it like an old friend. But she's the devil, so we can't be together...
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thanks all for the encouragement!
I really love nicotine and I miss it like an old friend. But she's the devil, so we can't be together...
Friends don't kill friends. Nicotine was never your friend and never will be. It used and abused you and will continue to do so. You have to get out of the mind set of saying shit like "I really love nicotine." Are you going to say that when they remove your tongue and half your jaw?
Reach between your legs and make sure you have a pair of balls because you are going to need them. If you don't change your outlook on nicotine it is going to continue to own your ass. You are setting yourself up to fail by romanticizing nicotine. Start loving being QUIT, romanticize your QUIT. Talk about all the wonderful things you can do because your quit. QUIT like you fucking mean it every damn day.
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thanks all for the encouragement!
I really love nicotine and I miss it like an old friend. But she's the devil, so we can't be together...
Friends don't kill friends. Nicotine was never your friend and never will be. It used and abused you and will continue to do so. You have to get out of the mind set of saying shit like "I really love nicotine." Are you going to say that when they remove your tongue and half your jaw?
Reach between your legs and make sure you have a pair of balls because you are going to need them. If you don't change your outlook on nicotine it is going to continue to own your ass. You are setting yourself up to fail by romanticizing nicotine. Start loving being QUIT, romanticize your QUIT. Talk about all the wonderful things you can do because your quit. QUIT like you fucking mean it every damn day.
Quitters laying down the TRUTH!
You didn't love nicotine - you were ADDICTED to it like a heroin junky is addicted to heroin. You seem to have a good mindset other than that, but that dip nostalgia shit needs to go. I thought I "loved" Kodiak but it was just my nicotine fix delivery system.
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Listen to these fellow ADDCITS Dee. All of us thought that we were going to lose our best friend when we threw out the can but the only way my friends kill me is with laughter. Period. A wise quitter gave me some sound advice by Henry Ford when he said, "Whether you think you can or think you can't... You are right" and that's what it's going to take. You can do this w/o poison. Life is so much better without it. Today I am FREE thanks to KTC fellow quitters that have helped me along the way. I quit w/ you!
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Listen to these fellow ADDCITS Dee. All of us thought that we were going to lose our best friend when we threw out the can but the only way my friends kill me is with laughter. Period. A wise quitter gave me some sound advice by Henry Ford when he said, "Whether you think you can or think you can't... You are right" and that's what it's going to take. You can do this w/o poison. Life is so much better without it. Today I am FREE thanks to KTC fellow quitters that have helped me along the way. I quit w/ you!
amen. thanks for the support.
I was a being a bit sarcastic when I said I love nicotine. Of course I know I'm a junkie and the love is a lie and only one way.
that said, I'm going to need them balls.
one day at a time
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Deerman — good to see you're still posting roll. Keep it up man, that's awesome to see. If you ever need anything, I'll PM you my number. Never hesitate to ask. I quit with you today. ODAAT
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Welcome to KTC Deerman! Read, read, read and then read more on KTC. Put as much time in your QUIT as you did your addiction and you'll succeed. Post roll daily- make that promise early every day that you will not use nicotine and then be a man of your word. You'll never regret quitting.
Quit on.
I read your introduction I believe. Very powerful. I wish you (and all the brave quitters on here) the strength you need to stay quit. forever.
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Welcome to KTC Deerman! Read, read, read and then read more on KTC. Put as much time in your QUIT as you did your addiction and you'll succeed. Post roll daily- make that promise early every day that you will not use nicotine and then be a man of your word. You'll never regret quitting.
Quit on.
I read your introduction I believe. Very powerful. I wish you (and all the brave quitters on here) the strength you need to stay quit. forever.
Quit one day at a time Deerman. Wake up and quit.
It's a powerful feeling to wake up quit and decide you're going to do it again. It's taking the control back. Your addiction is going to fight like hell to get you to come back to it. That's why it's important to make that commitment first thing in the morning that no matter what happens today 'I WILL remain quit.' Say it out loud if you have to and make sure you post roll because you are letting all of us know that you are going to kick the shit out of that lying ass whore nicotine today.
I quit with you.
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day 20 today.
I feel like something has started to change. some form of bodily relaxation is setting in. I feel more alive but also more tired. something is releasing. an old tension.
my dentist once told me that the reason my gum isn't bleeding when he's poking it with the sharp stick is not because it is super healthy, it is because the nicotine constricts the capillaries.
I had a realisation that day: if your blood doesn't flow freely through your body then your are not living fully. I quit that day.
this was in 2011.
in a follow up visit, I did this oral cancer screening and checked out fine. I told my dentist, that this is totally awesome but also undermining my quit. because I had been dipping for 20 years and gotten away with it (I knew that was not true, but my addicted brain thought that way).
So, clean bill of health was my addiction's first nail in the quit coffin.
During the course of my quit, I gained weight and a blood test revealed elevated cholesterol levels. My addicted brain throughout to itself: If if would be dipping my appetite would be under control. This was my addiction's second nail: start dipping again to control lipid levels. Add in a bunch of other irrational and addiction patterns and I was by that time hurtling towards a cave at full speed. All it took was a period of funk where shit wasn't going my way and I had my unsavoury reunion with the nic bitch.
This time will be different. I still have the nic bitch whispering in my ear and she will be with me forever, but I am remaining prepared for war in this time of peace. This site, the support it offers and the community it creates is what will help me sustain.
I quit with you all today
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day 20 today.
I feel like something has started to change. some form of bodily relaxation is setting in. I feel more alive but also more tired. something is releasing. an old tension.
my dentist once told me that the reason my gum isn't bleeding when he's poking it with the sharp stick is not because it is super healthy, it is because the nicotine constricts the capillaries.
I had a realisation that day: if your blood doesn't flow freely through your body then your are not living fully. I quit that day.
this was in 2011.
in a follow up visit, I did this oral cancer screening and checked out fine. I told my dentist, that this is totally awesome but also undermining my quit. because I had been dipping for 20 years and gotten away with it (I knew that was not true, but my addicted brain thought that way).
So, clean bill of health was my addiction's first nail in the quit coffin.
During the course of my quit, I gained weight and a blood test revealed elevated cholesterol levels. My addicted brain throughout to itself: If if would be dipping my appetite would be under control. This was my addiction's second nail: start dipping again to control lipid levels. Add in a bunch of other irrational and addiction patterns and I was by that time hurdling towards a cave at full speed. All it took was a period of funk where shit wasn't going my way and I had my unsavoury reunion with the nic bitch.
This time will be different. I still have the nic bitch whispering in my ear and she will be with me forever, but I am remaining prepared for war in this time of peace. This site, the support it offers and the community it creates is what will help me sustain.
I quit with you all today
Good stuff Deerman! Work on your quit and build a solid foundation of knowledge. In 'times of peace' take the opportunity to focus on all the great things about being quit. 20 days is great, I think a lot of people go through a bit of a grace period in the 20s but be prepared because that addiction isn't giving up it's just circling the wagons. There's definitely a 'funk' in the mid 30s and the nic will come back with added vigor. Be ready to tell her to get bent. Post roll early and everyday.
Keep up the good quit. Keep reading stuff on here. Keep getting involved. Keep posting in your intro.
I quit with you today.
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basshaug mentioned the funk schedule today. supposedly hits everybody, on schedule more or less on days
25
70
125
180 and
300
I caved in the past because I was unprepared for a funk (or at least that's what I now think it was, a funk).
what do you guys know about this schedule of the funk train?
i am due for my first one in +/- 2 days
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basshaug mentioned the funk schedule today. supposedly hits everybody, on schedule more or less on days
25
70
125
180 and
300
I caved in the past because I was unprepared for a funk (or at least that's what I now think it was, a funk).
what do you guys know about this schedule of the funk train?
i am due for my first one in +/- 2 days
You quit like fuck when you're in the funk. You hunker down and get in chat. You text your quit group and get support. If all else fails, pull out the meat tenderizer from the kitchen drawer,lay your balls on the kitchen counter, pull up a big swing, close your eyes and whack your nuts one good lick. You won't want to dip then. In other words, you stay quit no matter what it takes.
Mogul
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basshaug mentioned the funk schedule today. supposedly hits everybody, on schedule more or less on days
25
70
125
180 and
300
I caved in the past because I was unprepared for a funk (or at least that's what I now think it was, a funk).
what do you guys know about this schedule of the funk train?
i am due for my first one in +/- 2 days
You quit like fuck when you're in the funk. You hunker down and get in chat. You text your quit group and get support. If all else fails, pull out the meat tenderizer from the kitchen drawer,lay your balls on the kitchen counter, pull up a big swing, close your eyes and whack your nuts one good lick. You won't want to dip then. In other words, you stay quit no matter what it takes.
Mogul
Fucking awesome
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basshaug mentioned the funk schedule today. supposedly hits everybody, on schedule more or less on days
25
70
125
180 and
300
I caved in the past because I was unprepared for a funk (or at least that's what I now think it was, a funk).
what do you guys know about this schedule of the funk train?
i am due for my first one in +/- 2 days
You quit like fuck when you're in the funk. You hunker down and get in chat. You text your quit group and get support. If all else fails, pull out the meat tenderizer from the kitchen drawer,lay your balls on the kitchen counter, pull up a big swing, close your eyes and whack your nuts one good lick. You won't want to dip then. In other words, you stay quit no matter what it takes.
Mogul
Fucking awesome
Deerman I'm going through the "funk" right now over the past several days, on Day 29. I'm doing exactly what has been said here and it's working for me! I've chewed more gum in the past two days than I have in the last 28 days. Staying completely out of the gas stations and paying at the pump with no excuses to go inside for anything else. Stay quit and reach out to your quit brothers when needed.
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basshaug mentioned the funk schedule today. supposedly hits everybody, on schedule more or less on days
25
70
125
180 and
300
I caved in the past because I was unprepared for a funk (or at least that's what I now think it was, a funk).
what do you guys know about this schedule of the funk train?
i am due for my first one in +/- 2 days
You quit like fuck when you're in the funk. You hunker down and get in chat. You text your quit group and get support. If all else fails, pull out the meat tenderizer from the kitchen drawer,lay your balls on the kitchen counter, pull up a big swing, close your eyes and whack your nuts one good lick. You won't want to dip then. In other words, you stay quit no matter what it takes.
Mogul
Fucking awesome
Deerman I'm going through the "funk" right now over the past several days, on Day 29. I'm doing exactly what has been said here and it's working for me! I've chewed more gum in the past two days than I have in the last 28 days. Staying completely out of the gas stations and paying at the pump with no excuses to go inside for anything else. Stay quit and reach out to your quit brothers when needed.
Shit man. Pull through alright?
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basshaug mentioned the funk schedule today. supposedly hits everybody, on schedule more or less on days
25
70
125
180 and
300
I caved in the past because I was unprepared for a funk (or at least that's what I now think it was, a funk).
what do you guys know about this schedule of the funk train?
i am due for my first one in +/- 2 days
On day 75 and I can say I've been in a bit of a funk the last few days. There were also quite a few guys in the mid 50s that hit a funk. Other than that I would say that schedule looks about spot on to what I've read from other guys.
Quit on.
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I think I just went through the 25 funk period on the weekend.
- couldn't put 1 and 1 together to save my life
- craving like a MF. Stuffing my face with anything edible i could find
- mad like hell.
I think that constitutes a funk.
good now again.
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Congrats on the HOF DM ... you've been killing your quit all along. Keep putting up +1's, your brothers in December and all of KTC need you around bro.
'oh yeah'
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Congrats on the HOF DM ... you've been killing your quit all along. Keep putting up +1's, your brothers in December and all of KTC need you around bro.
'oh yeah'
Nice work bro. Keep it up...
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I really appreciate your HOF speech. It is very well done. it strengthens my quit!
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Congrats on the HOF DM ... you've been killing your quit all along. Keep putting up +1's, your brothers in December and all of KTC need you around bro.
'oh yeah'
Nice work bro. Keep it up...
thanks guys. quit with you today
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I really appreciate your HOF speech. It is very well done. it strengthens my quit!
thanks wolfe. much appreciated.
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Congrats on reaching the 2nd floor Deerman - International man of quit!!
Quit with you EDD.
CJ
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Congrats on 500 Deerman. You have been a rock in the RANT!
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Congrats on 4 Years Deerman!