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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Maac on July 19, 2011, 02:24:00 PM
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Hello everyone,
I am new today. On my way home from the city today I decided that my mouth hurt too much to do this shit anymore. I tossed the last bit of snuff I had out the window. (not the can) Then I drove past the gas station where I was planing on buying more before I made the decision.
Why am I quitting?
Women
Bad Breath
Sore mouth (It really fucking hurts)
save money
Dry mouth (I hope that goes away)
Brown Teeth
I am really sick of snuff controlling my life.
I have read what to expect but I am committing to one hour at a time. I will set a timer if need be. I will have the hardest time just after I wake up. I will be going crazy but I will set the timer and read posts, write posts. Join one of the groups. I don't know how to do that yet.
I quit 1 hour ago so the start time for me is 13:30 / 1:30pm on 07/19/11.
Wish me luck. Let the pain begin.
M
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Hello everyone,
I am new today. On my way home from the city today I decided that my mouth hurt too much to do this shit anymore. I tossed the last bit of snuff I had out the window. (not the can) Then I drove past the gas station where I was planing on buying more before I made the decision.
Why am I quitting?
Women
Bad Breath
Sore mouth (It really fucking hurts)
save money
Dry mouth (I hope that goes away)
Brown Teeth
I am really sick of snuff controlling my life.
I have read what to expect but I am committing to one hour at a time. I will set a timer if need be. I will have the hardest time just after I wake up. I will be going crazy but I will set the timer and read posts, write posts. Join one of the groups. I don't know how to do that yet.
I quit 1 hour ago so the start time for me is 13:30 / 1:30pm on 07/19/11.
Wish me luck. Let the pain begin.
M
We will not wish you luck because quitting does not take luck.
Quitting takes the decision to be done. Once you make that decision for the day then you have no way to fail.
Make the decision to quit, post roll for accountability, and honor your promise.
If you follow through on that sentence then you are quit and you can not fail.
Hang tough, its gonna suck but it is very worth it.
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Why not make your quit official. Post roll here: index.php?showtopic=4873 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=4873)
If you have no idea what I am talking about you might start here first: index.php?showforum=13 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
Pretty simple plan here. We quit 1 day at a time. Wake, Post roll, Keep your word. PM me if you need any assistance or advice.
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Let's GO!!!!!! Get on over to October and Give us your pledge not to use Nicotine for the rest of the day. You can do this!
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Quitting for women? You are doomed to failure.
Quit for yourself and no one else.
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You dont need LUCK my brother...you just need big hairy man sized NUTS! Therefore...I wish you NUTS!
MOA
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You dont need LUCK my brother...you just need big hairy man sized NUTS! Therefore...I wish you NUTS!
MOA
Big, hairy beautiful balls with blue and red veins, right MOA, ya fuckin fag?
MOA is right. Balls and your word is all it takes to quit. You got em?
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Why not make your quit official. Post roll here: index.php?showtopic=4873 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=4873)
If you have no idea what I am talking about you might start here first: index.php?showforum=13 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
Pretty simple plan here. We quit 1 day at a time. Wake, Post roll, Keep your word. PM me if you need any assistance or advice.
All the comments below are true, but this is the one that counts. Let's see that "Day 1"!! There's a lot of bullshit over there, so don't let it get you down. Just remember, signing that list is promising ALL of us that you WILL NOT use any nicotine (any form) today. Problem solved, as long as you are a man of your word. If you need help, PM anybody here and you'll have it. Swap some numbers and create a support network.
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You dont need LUCK my brother...you just need big hairy man sized NUTS! Therefore...I wish you NUTS!
MOA
Big, hairy beautiful balls with blue and red veins, right MOA, ya fuckin fag?
MOA is right. Balls and your word is all it takes to quit. You got em?
I'm with ya man. Quit this shit today! It's garbage and is nothing but problems. It's out to hurt ya just kick it do it today. One day at a time brother.
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Or big ole steel balls! Just like my avatar.
Welcome to the quit, brother. Glad to have you along for the ride. I'm on day 6 myself. Day 2 was tough, but not as tough as my balls.
Glad to be quit with you.
Phil4:13
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Or big ole steel balls! Just like my avatar.
Welcome to the quit, brother. Glad to have you along for the ride. I'm on day 6 myself. Day 2 was tough, but not as tough as my balls.
Glad to be quit with you.
Phil4:13
well said, day 2 was horrible...getting better now though day 5 for me. PS. don't fret about the whining and stupidity on the October section. Just PM anyone if you need something.
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Or big ole steel balls! Just like my avatar.
Welcome to the quit, brother. Glad to have you along for the ride. I'm on day 6 myself. Day 2 was tough, but not as tough as my balls.
Glad to be quit with you.
Phil4:13
Made me think of the old Jerry Clower bit, but it's not on youtube. This is...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DJ4yfSdjceANR=1 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DJ4yfSdjceA&NR=1)
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Or big ole steel balls! Just like my avatar.
Welcome to the quit, brother. Glad to have you along for the ride. I'm on day 6 myself. Day 2 was tough, but not as tough as my balls.
Glad to be quit with you.
Phil4:13
Made me think of the old Jerry Clower bit, but it's not on youtube. This is...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DJ4yfSdjceANR=1 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DJ4yfSdjceA&NR=1)
that there is some nuts
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Quitting for women? You are doomed to failure.
Quit for yourself and no one else.
I love all these little BS quips you guys have.
"Quit for yourself and no one else"
"One day at a time"
"We don't wish you luck cause luck got nothing to do with it"
Like a bunch of little fucking girls pretending to be men.
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I have no Idea where to post this and just don't give a shit right now. If I am breaking your precious rules or think from a perspective that does not take in to account the deep meaning of the word "ME". Go grab a tissue and have a good fucking cry.
I just woke up. I have had my coffee. I have had a little breakfast and now the hell begins. This will be the worst of it for me.
Since I work nights I am alone right now. Just you guys.
I am just going to post random shit as the night goes on.
I eat to make my mouth feel better. It causes me to be ready for the next chew.
I sleep with a chew in.
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Would you rather have us fucking lie to you? We were where you are. We quit. Why are you here? You wanna quit? If you don't, fuck off.
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We are acting like little girls??? You are the little bitch still sucking on momma's (nicotine's) fucking sloppy pancake tit. Go fuck yourself, fag.
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Would you rather have us fucking lie to you? We were where you are. We quit. Why are you here? You wanna quit? If you don't, fuck off.
way to be helpful. 'Finger'
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Would you rather have us fucking lie to you? We were where you are. We quit. Why are you here? You wanna quit? If you don't, fuck off.
way to be helpful. 'Finger'
Glad I could help. Now quit or fuck off. This ain't a fucking joke, cuntboy.
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Way to go Greg. You see a man down and what do you do? Kick him. You can have all your little quips about what perspective to see this from but you can't read between the lines.
I thought you were here to help?
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This is not joke man.................
This is harsh shit.........
I am on ten hours. 8 Of those I was asleep for!
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Way to go Greg. You see a man down and what do you do? Kick him. You can have all your little quips about what perspective to see this from but you can't read between the lines.
I thought you were here to help?
Sorry, I can't fucking read your mind through your bullshit posts. You want help, I'll help. You wanna play games? I'll go to bed and play with my wife's swollen preggo tits. The sooner you put aside your tough guy, my addiction is so much worse then yours, bullshit attitude, the sooner you will get help. Jerk offs come and go on this site...Just read Oct 11. NOW...how can I help?
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I am just doing what I can to distract my self. I am watching tv, on live chat and on the form. I might find a midnight bowl if I can.
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I have no Idea where to post this and just don't give a shit right now. If I am breaking your precious rules or think from a perspective that does not take in to account the deep meaning of the word "ME". Go grab a tissue and have a good fucking cry.
I just woke up. I have had my coffee. I have had a little breakfast and now the hell begins. This will be the worst of it for me.
Since I work nights I am alone right now. Just you guys.
I am just going to post random shit as the night goes on.
I eat to make my mouth feel better. It causes me to be ready for the next chew.
I sleep with a chew in.
Right on brother!
You're in the fog and the dip rage is kicking in full force! Stick with us, stay close... and I mean that. This site and what you read might piss you off right now, that is the nicotine speaking. One day you will be typing those words you just put down.
But we don't give a shit how you feel about them now. If that is what you take your rage out on then do it. Let those words piss you off. But get real and also realize that we speak those words because they are true and they are what will keep you quit.
Get your bitch on brother, even though it doesn't seem like it, if you take a step back when the cravings are away for a bit, you will realize that getting mad at us has been your best medicine so far.
Did you post roll?
Obviously you don't like the "unmanly" sensitive and intellectual stuff so I do imagine that you are a guy of your word. When you say you will do something your masculinity kicks in and there is no way you can break your word. What better way to quit than use that as a tool. Promise everyone each day that you will stay quit. Then use your badassness to stay quit.
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It is so abnormal for me to not have a chew in. It just feels wrong. I feel as if I could just drive up the street get a can. Put in a chew and be fine.
Do people like me disappear a lot?
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Your doing great .. just don't disappear into a can of shit .
Keep it up up .. It is awesome when you are clean again ..
Stay quit ... KTC
brainsore
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It is so abnormal for me to not have a chew in. It just feels wrong. I feel as if I could just drive up the street get a can. Put in a chew and be fine.
Do people like me disappear a lot?
Only part of their faces do.
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This isn't easy Maac. Cold turkey is a fucking shock to the system.
If you have quit, you've had your last dip. Say that shit out loud for me. I don't fucking care who is around. Say that shit out loud.
I have had my last dip.
Some fucker gives you shit. Say again to their face.
I have had my last dip.
When they just laugh...boom...drop that shit on them again.
I have had my last dip.
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It is so abnormal for me to not have a chew in. It just feels wrong. I feel as if I could just drive up the street get a can. Put in a chew and be fine.
Do people like me disappear a lot?
Maac,
Never ever again ask us that question...
The truth is that people of all sorts disappear all the time.
The question you need to ask is how many people with that thought process succeed?
The answer to that is every one of use that makes it through today had that thought. I know for sure that I could get a can right now... but there is a difference.
Your mind is absolutely fucked up right now, I mean 'Crazy' because the nic bitch is trying to put up her defenses. The difference between where you are and where you will be is that right now you are thinking that a dip would make you feel better. In a few weeks you will soon realize that the dip actually makes you feel worse.
Do you have a phone number yet? You are a prime candidate for a huge success story that saves themselves thousands of dollars and a jaw.
A phone number might just be what you need to keep accountable. PM me if you need it. I will give you my personal number but only because I give a shit about you.
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I have a headache
I think to my self. I think I will put in a big chew and lay down.
SHIT!
I guess I will just lay down.
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I have a headache
I think to my self. I think I will put in a big chew and lay down.
SHIT!
I guess I will just lay down.
First, I won't claim attention whore yet but you gotta start acknowledging and responding to people who are tying to help because they can individually help you. I know you mind is scattered throughout the universe right now but you postings about throwing in a chew is not going to get you the help you want.
Do NOT post again stating that you want, could, will, or might throw in chew. Post us a message saying you "will not do those things". Then we will help you and give you all the attention you want.
I need to wake up for work in a couple of hours and I am staying up just because your life is important to me. I know there are a lot of people that would be devastated to watch you die of cancer, that is why I am staying awake to help where I can.
You can not in any way buy this kind of help. Even though I am the worst of this type of help on the whole site I am better than nothing.
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I have a headache
I think to my self. I think I will put in a big chew and lay down.
SHIT!
I guess I will just lay down.
First, I won't claim attention whore yet but you gotta start acknowledging and responding to people who are tying to help because they can individually help you. I know you mind is scattered throughout the universe right now but you postings about throwing in a chew is not going to get you the help you want.
Do NOT post again stating that you want, could, will, or might throw in chew. Post us a message saying you "will not do those things". Then we will help you and give you all the attention you want.
I need to wake up for work in a couple of hours and I am staying up just because your life is important to me. I know there are a lot of people that would be devastated to watch you die of cancer, that is why I am staying awake to help where I can.
You can not in any way buy this kind of help. Even though I am the worst of this type of help on the whole site I am better than nothing.
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Get that negative fucking caver talk out of here. Let's hear some fucking resolve now. Say something that says you got quitting balls. Come on now.
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You can not in any way buy this kind of help. Even though I am the worst of this type of help on the whole site I am better than nothing.
No way...Maac is fucking blessed to have you on the other end of this call.
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I have a headache
I think to my self. I think I will put in a big chew and lay down.
SHIT!
I guess I will just lay down.
First, I won't claim attention whore yet but you gotta start acknowledging and responding to people who are tying to help because they can individually help you. I know you mind is scattered throughout the universe right now but you postings about throwing in a chew is not going to get you the help you want.
Do NOT post again stating that you want, could, will, or might throw in chew. Post us a message saying you "will not do those things". Then we will help you and give you all the attention you want.
I need to wake up for work in a couple of hours and I am staying up just because your life is important to me. I know there are a lot of people that would be devastated to watch you die of cancer, that is why I am staying awake to help where I can.
You can not in any way buy this kind of help. Even though I am the worst of this type of help on the whole site I am better than nothing.
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Get that negative fucking caver talk out of here. Let's hear some fucking resolve now. Say something that says you got quitting balls. Come on now.
I will bump Soul even though it will look like I am bumping myself.
Why? Because we give a shit about you....
The last time someone commented about your dipping I am sure it resembled all the other times "you know that is bad for you, you should think about quitting".
That shit is so fucking lame (sorry for the french).
Dip is not just "Bad" for you, and you should not just "think" about quitting.
Dip WILL kill you, slowly, painfully, and leave you in shame. It is time to just man up and decide to be DONE. Literally, my quit hinged on one thing. I simply decided that I was DONE, no more. This site was crucial in reminding me of my decision to be done every day but it is the initial realization that you will die or quit that makes the difference.
What do you feel bro... I have to go on a work trip for a day and will not be here tomorrow.... will you post roll and promise me that I will see you on day 3 Thursday?
You alone have kept me up 3 hours past when I wanted to sleep.... do not let me down.
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I can't say that i am sure you understand. I just don't know.
I thought to my self that I wanted to lay down for a bit because I have a headache.
Over the past 33 years of chewing I would always always always put in a chew before I went to bed. Yes that is correct I Just put one in as a matter of course. It was just normal for me. It is just the 1 , 2 , 3 of it.
What I was saying is that the thought just occurred to me..... I am going to lay down. Oh good I get to put in a chew. Oh that is right I quit.... I guess I can't put in a chew.
Anyway, I laid down.......... With out a chew.
I am now up.......... with out a chew.
Now I will go take a shit with out a chew.
Voice inflection is very hard to hear when you are typing it.
12+ hrs and still going. I have never taken a walk in the middle of the night. I might try it.
later,
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So whats the deal man??
You gonna post roll tonight??
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I thought I did? I went to October and posted. I did not do it correctly but another member put down my name with day 1 beside it. I guess I have to wait till day one is over to do day two.
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I thought I did? I went to October and posted. I did not do it correctly but another member put down my name with day 1 beside it. I guess I have to wait till day one is over to do day two.
You posted in October and then I placed your name in roll. Great decision on your part. Read the this index.php?showforum=13 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13) and give it a another go on Wednesday. You worry about quitting and we can help with the posting roll part until you get the hang of it.
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Quitting for women? You are doomed to failure.Â
Quit for yourself and no one else.
I love all these little BS quips you guys have.
"Quit for yourself and no one else"
"One day at a time"
"We don't wish you luck cause luck got nothing to do with it"
Like a bunch of little fucking girls pretending to be men.
Hey Maac, how about this then.
Go fuck yourself. You are on your own dipshit.
You come and ask for our help, I give you a suggestion and you shit on me. FUCK YOU.
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Why worry about cancer now.......... I never used to even look in my mouth. I never wanted to know. Now I look and see white barnacles on the very back of my tongue. WTF. I guess I will just go to the dentist and get a pro to look.
Any one know what that is?
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I can feel the disdain in October all the way over here in introductions , damn . Maybe the group just attracts that character of people . Maac , I hope the rage has lessened and you are still posting if not lurking around here still .
brainsore
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I am still here and still alive. I have never made it this far before. 27 1/2 hours.
I slept great.
I have tons of white spots in my mouth. So strange that I would burn out my mouth to such a degree that the pain of chewing became unbearable. Yes I have other reason to quit but that was the prompt. I put in a chew and could not find a place for it to sit that did not hurt.
So fucked up.
What time does the new roll for the next day get posted? I still don't know if I am doing that right.
Later,
M
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I am still here and still alive. I have never made it this far before. 27 1/2 hours.
I slept great.
I have tons of white spots in my mouth. So strange that I would burn out my mouth to such a degree that the pain of chewing became unbearable. Yes I have other reason to quit but that was the prompt. I put in a chew and could not find a place for it to sit that did not hurt.
So fucked up.
What time does the new roll for the next day get posted? I still don't know if I am doing that right.
Later,
M
If this is your second day post roll now. You quit yesterday so that is day one. Today is day 2
When you get up tomorrow post day 3 first thing and stay quit.
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I am still here and still alive. I have never made it this far before. 27 1/2 hours.
I slept great.
I have tons of white spots in my mouth. So strange that I would burn out my mouth to such a degree that the pain of chewing became unbearable. Yes I have other reason to quit but that was the prompt. I put in a chew and could not find a place for it to sit that did not hurt.
So fucked up.
What time does the new roll for the next day get posted? I still don't know if I am doing that right.
Later,
M
Maac, you are doing great, proud to be quit with you. One day at a time. It will get better real soon, I promise.
If you aren't comfortable with modifying the roll to the next day's, just make a separate post saying
maac- Day 3 Would someone please add me to today's roll?
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I am still here and still alive. I have never made it this far before. 27 1/2 hours.
I slept great.
I have tons of white spots in my mouth. So strange that I would burn out my mouth to such a degree that the pain of chewing became unbearable. Yes I have other reason to quit but that was the prompt. I put in a chew and could not find a place for it to sit that did not hurt.
So fucked up.
What time does the new roll for the next day get posted? I still don't know if I am doing that right.
Later,
M
Yeah I guess your mouth having fiberglass and poison in it might be a little painful. Sounds like you used to have a cancer turd in quite a bit.
Welcome aboard Maac.
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Good to see a day 2 out of you Maac. Keep fighting.
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I think I can do the roll call now... I will give it a try.
This is all so strange. I don't know what to do with my self. Altered state of mind for 30 plus years.
Do I like TV or did I just watch TV so I'd have something to do while I chewed.
I am sleeping a lot. I could go back to bed now.
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My reasons for quitting are just as valid now as they were two days ago.
I don't want my mouth to hurt anymore.
I don't want brown teeth.
I don't want bad breath.
I don't want to die.
I don't want to spend the money.
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I know what will happen and you know what will happen. Ten Seconds after the rush I will wish I had not done it. I will know that it was just not worth it. I will wonder what draw was so strong that I had to have a dip. Really this is it........ this is what I wanted. I want this dirty ass shit in my mouth. I would enjoy it I guess for the few minutes of pleasure that could be gotten and then I'd feel the pain. My mouth really hurt the other day. I did not have one spot that I could put a dip that did not burn. I will just keep typing and keep ranting till I go sleep.
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it's too early to go to bed. Not even a damn movie to watch.
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Welcome aboard Mac! Hang in there and ride the storm out for the first three days and it starts getting better I promise. You can do this bro. Proud to be quit with you today. Nicofiend
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I just posted to roll. I am at 48hrs..........
I don't know what to say. My mouth feels better. The fog may be lifting.
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I just posted to roll. I am at 48hrs..........
I don't know what to say. My mouth feels better. The fog may be lifting.
I like your quit
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I just posted to roll. I am at 48hrs..........
I don't know what to say. My mouth feels better. The fog may be lifting.
That's great news Maac. Glad to hear that its going the right direction. Just one thing...
Don't let down your guard. Keep that fight in front of you. Keep your hands on it because we have to do it again tomorrow. At least I'm planning on it. I hope you are too.
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It is still there. I'm still here. We just keep watching each other. 'qt'
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FAIL
I have to say I am very sorry. I apologize to my new friends for this fail.
I have to say fail because I did fail. Does that mean that I will fail in the end? No. It means I failed this time.
I am truly sorry.
M
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What I am.............
An Addict!
I have a story I need to tell.
The background is unnecessary. We are all human and have shit in our lives. My shit is not any different than yours.
I Want to Quit. My reasons are the same now as they were three days ago.
I don't want my mouth to hurt anymore.
I don't want brown teeth.
I don't want bad breath.
I don't want to die.
I don't want to spend the money.
Since then I failed. I had a chew and now I can't get this quit out of my head. It lingers.
The chew I had did nothing for me. It just started the clock over again.
Today is my first day of my quit. Today I will be quit one hour at a time.
I will tell people about my quit. Most of them don't even know that I chew. If I tell them and don't quit I will loose my job. They can over look many things but tobacco is not one of them.
I also use food. I was a very very fat man at 400 pounds. On April of 2010 I set out on another attempt at losing weight. I am still a work in progress but I have taken off 133 pounds. If I can quit that I can quit this.
I used food too keep people away. I used snuff to keep people away. I lived in my own little world and kept people away. I have done more to take part in life in the past few months than I ever have. The snuff was a killer though. It is hard to smile when you have a big ass brown wad of shit in your mouth. It is just a road block in the way of life. A road block that I put there because of fear. I get something from the snuff. I get acceptance I guess. Like the food it made me feel better somehow. I striped away the food and now I will strip away the snuff. I will be Quit today.
I will sign the roll today as Day 1.
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What I am.............
An Addict!
I have a story I need to tell.
The background is unnecessary. We are all human and have shit in our lives. My shit is not any different than yours.
I Want to Quit. My reasons are the same now as they were three days ago.
I don't want my mouth to hurt anymore.
I don't want brown teeth.
I don't want bad breath.
I don't want to die.
I don't want to spend the money.
Since then I failed. I had a chew and now I can't get this quit out of my head. It lingers.
The chew I had did nothing for me. It just started the clock over again.
Today is my first day of my quit. Today I will be quit one hour at a time.
I will tell people about my quit. Most of them don't even know that I chew. If I tell them and don't quit I will loose my job. They can over look many things but tobacco is not one of them.
I also use food. I was a very very fat man at 400 pounds. On April of 2010 I set out on another attempt at losing weight. I am still a work in progress but I have taken off 133 pounds. If I can quit that I can quit this.
I used food too keep people away. I used snuff to keep people away. I lived in my own little world and kept people away. I have done more to take part in life in the past few months than I ever have. The snuff was a killer though. It is hard to smile when you have a big ass brown wad of shit in your mouth. It is just a road block in the way of life. A road block that I put there because of fear. I get something from the snuff. I get acceptance I guess. Like the food it made me feel better somehow. I striped away the food and now I will strip away the snuff. I will be Quit today.
I will sign the roll today as Day 1.
You just decided on your way home, right? Well ... that didn't seem to work out too well. Now what? Now you have a plan? Sorry - no - you don't have a plan. WE have a plan that YOU must follow.
You haven't been here long enough for your apology to mean a fucking word to anyone on this site. The best aplogy you can offer is posting Day1. Then Day 2. And so on. When you get to day 50, maybe... MAYBE your word will mean something. But clearly your word meant nothing yesterday, when you promised you were quit and when you told Soul you were "still here." - bull fucking shit.
This is not some "hey I'll give it a try" quit site. You come here, you get with the program or you get the fuck out.
Today is Day 1. You're starting over. NEVER EVER let yourself start over again. You lost nearly half your size in the past year. You don't want to lose half your jaw.
Use the tools available to you on this site and don't be back with another day 1.
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What I am.............
An Addict!
I have a story I need to tell.
The background is unnecessary. We are all human and have shit in our lives. My shit is not any different than yours.
I Want to Quit. My reasons are the same now as they were three days ago.
I don't want my mouth to hurt anymore.
I don't want brown teeth.
I don't want bad breath.
I don't want to die.
I don't want to spend the money.
Since then I failed. I had a chew and now I can't get this quit out of my head. It lingers.
The chew I had did nothing for me. It just started the clock over again.
Today is my first day of my quit. Today I will be quit one hour at a time.
I will tell people about my quit. Most of them don't even know that I chew. If I tell them and don't quit I will loose my job. They can over look many things but tobacco is not one of them.
I also use food. I was a very very fat man at 400 pounds. On April of 2010 I set out on another attempt at losing weight. I am still a work in progress but I have taken off 133 pounds. If I can quit that I can quit this.
I used food too keep people away. I used snuff to keep people away. I lived in my own little world and kept people away. I have done more to take part in life in the past few months than I ever have. The snuff was a killer though. It is hard to smile when you have a big ass brown wad of shit in your mouth. It is just a road block in the way of life. A road block that I put there because of fear. I get something from the snuff. I get acceptance I guess. Like the food it made me feel better somehow. I striped away the food and now I will strip away the snuff. I will be Quit today.
I will sign the roll today as Day 1.
You just decided on your way home, right? Well ... that didn't seem to work out too well. Now what? Now you have a plan? Sorry - no - you don't have a plan. WE have a plan that YOU must follow.
You haven't been here long enough for your apology to mean a fucking word to anyone on this site. The best aplogy you can offer is posting Day1. Then Day 2. And so on. When you get to day 50, maybe... MAYBE your word will mean something. But clearly your word meant nothing yesterday, when you promised you were quit and when you told Soul you were "still here." - bull fucking shit.
This is not some "hey I'll give it a try" quit site. You come here, you get with the program or you get the fuck out.
Today is Day 1. You're starting over. NEVER EVER let yourself start over again. You lost nearly half your size in the past year. You don't want to lose half your jaw.
Use the tools available to you on this site and don't be back with another day 1.
Thank you for your honesty...now listen to all the advice that has been given.
jmiah out
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What I am.............
An Addict!
I have a story I need to tell.
The background is unnecessary. We are all human and have shit in our lives. My shit is not any different than yours.
I Want to Quit. My reasons are the same now as they were three days ago.
I don't want my mouth to hurt anymore.
I don't want brown teeth.
I don't want bad breath.
I don't want to die.
I don't want to spend the money.
Since then I failed. I had a chew and now I can't get this quit out of my head. It lingers.
The chew I had did nothing for me. It just started the clock over again.
Today is my first day of my quit. Today I will be quit one hour at a time.
I will tell people about my quit. Most of them don't even know that I chew. If I tell them and don't quit I will loose my job. They can over look many things but tobacco is not one of them.
I also use food. I was a very very fat man at 400 pounds. On April of 2010 I set out on another attempt at losing weight. I am still a work in progress but I have taken off 133 pounds. If I can quit that I can quit this.
I used food too keep people away. I used snuff to keep people away. I lived in my own little world and kept people away. I have done more to take part in life in the past few months than I ever have. The snuff was a killer though. It is hard to smile when you have a big ass brown wad of shit in your mouth. It is just a road block in the way of life. A road block that I put there because of fear. I get something from the snuff. I get acceptance I guess. Like the food it made me feel better somehow. I striped away the food and now I will strip away the snuff. I will be Quit today.
I will sign the roll today as Day 1.
You just decided on your way home, right? Well ... that didn't seem to work out too well. Now what? Now you have a plan? Sorry - no - you don't have a plan. WE have a plan that YOU must follow.
You haven't been here long enough for your apology to mean a fucking word to anyone on this site. The best aplogy you can offer is posting Day1. Then Day 2. And so on. When you get to day 50, maybe... MAYBE your word will mean something. But clearly your word meant nothing yesterday, when you promised you were quit and when you told Soul you were "still here." - bull fucking shit.
This is not some "hey I'll give it a try" quit site. You come here, you get with the program or you get the fuck out.
Today is Day 1. You're starting over. NEVER EVER let yourself start over again. You lost nearly half your size in the past year. You don't want to lose half your jaw.
Use the tools available to you on this site and don't be back with another day 1.
Thank you for your honesty...now listen to all the advice that has been given.
jmiah out
My advice to you, sir, is that you KEEP YOUR EFFIN' WORD this time. You may have lied to yourself and everyone else around you about your addiction, but don't bring that weak sauce in here. We're all going through this suck together. Posting roll is the same as looking us all in the eye and shaking our hands and giving your word as a man. We do the same with our word to you.
With the resources here, there's no excuse for you to ever use that shit again. Post roll. Keep you word.
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What I am.............
An Addict!
I have a story I need to tell.
The background is unnecessary. We are all human and have shit in our lives. My shit is not any different than yours.
I Want to Quit. My reasons are the same now as they were three days ago.
I don't want my mouth to hurt anymore.
I don't want brown teeth.
I don't want bad breath.
I don't want to die.
I don't want to spend the money.
Since then I failed. I had a chew and now I can't get this quit out of my head. It lingers.
The chew I had did nothing for me. It just started the clock over again.
Today is my first day of my quit. Today I will be quit one hour at a time.
I will tell people about my quit. Most of them don't even know that I chew. If I tell them and don't quit I will loose my job. They can over look many things but tobacco is not one of them.
I also use food. I was a very very fat man at 400 pounds. On April of 2010 I set out on another attempt at losing weight. I am still a work in progress but I have taken off 133 pounds. If I can quit that I can quit this.
I used food too keep people away. I used snuff to keep people away. I lived in my own little world and kept people away. I have done more to take part in life in the past few months than I ever have. The snuff was a killer though. It is hard to smile when you have a big ass brown wad of shit in your mouth. It is just a road block in the way of life. A road block that I put there because of fear. I get something from the snuff. I get acceptance I guess. Like the food it made me feel better somehow. I striped away the food and now I will strip away the snuff. I will be Quit today.
I will sign the roll today as Day 1.
You just decided on your way home, right? Well ... that didn't seem to work out too well. Now what? Now you have a plan? Sorry - no - you don't have a plan. WE have a plan that YOU must follow.
You haven't been here long enough for your apology to mean a fucking word to anyone on this site. The best aplogy you can offer is posting Day1. Then Day 2. And so on. When you get to day 50, maybe... MAYBE your word will mean something. But clearly your word meant nothing yesterday, when you promised you were quit and when you told Soul you were "still here." - bull fucking shit.
This is not some "hey I'll give it a try" quit site. You come here, you get with the program or you get the fuck out.
Today is Day 1. You're starting over. NEVER EVER let yourself start over again. You lost nearly half your size in the past year. You don't want to lose half your jaw.
Use the tools available to you on this site and don't be back with another day 1.
Thank you for your honesty...now listen to all the advice that has been given.
jmiah out
My advice to you, sir, is that you KEEP YOUR EFFIN' WORD this time. You may have lied to yourself and everyone else around you about your addiction, but don't bring that weak sauce in here. We're all going through this suck together. Posting roll is the same as looking us all in the eye and shaking our hands and giving your word as a man. We do the same with our word to you.
With the resources here, there's no excuse for you to ever use that shit again. Post roll. Keep you word.
Read gmann's words Maac. If you want to quit there's the secret.
I hope you reached out to magnum personally as well. That man did his best for you. You can't buy that kind of support.
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PUSSY
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Quitting for women? You are doomed to failure.Â
Quit for yourself and no one else.
Remember this? Get your head screwed on straight and quit.
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I have found that if I don't use the correct wording or vernacular people get up set. Like I quit for my kids.... they come back and say you don't quit for anyone but you. Well I am not very good at that stuff so forgive me if I say something that does not toe the line in that respect.
This is the deal.... Snuff was a lot of things to me. It was a way to relax. I loved to sit down after a nice meal and have a big fat chew and watch a move. Especially on Sundays after my work week.
I got off work this morning and after a good nights / days sleep I got up at about 5pm went out for a fantastic steak. Now I am home and what I'd normally do is watch a movie with that chew in.
I will watch the movie but I will do it with out my old friend. Today is the first day that this weekend relaxing time will happen with out a chew in 33 years.
I needed to sit here and write about it. I needed to tell someone that I am happy not to chew but I still miss it at the same time. I am still quit and I pray that next week this aspect of my quit will lessen.
I have always wondered how people did all these things, watch a movie or TV show with out a dip. I may know now why for me.... I did it because it took the place of people. I'd would have rather spent time with snuff than people.
I have more work to do in that respect but when I have put this day to bed I will have done more to help my self than I ever have before.
Thanks for listening to my rant.
Later,
M
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I have found that if I don't use the correct wording or vernacular people get up set. Like I quit for my kids.... they come back and say you don't quit for anyone but you. Well I am not very good at that stuff so forgive me if I say something that does not toe the line in that respect.
This is the deal.... Snuff was a lot of things to me. It was a way to relax. I loved to sit down after a nice meal and have a big fat chew and watch a move. Especially on Sundays after my work week.
I got off work this morning and after a good nights / days sleep I got up at about 5pm went out for a fantastic steak. Now I am home and what I'd normally do is watch a movie with that chew in.
I will watch the movie but I will do it with out my old friend. Today is the first day that this weekend relaxing time will happen with out a chew in 33 years.
I needed to sit here and write about it. I needed to tell someone that I am happy not to chew but I still miss it at the same time. I am still quit and I pray that next week this aspect of my quit will lessen.
I have always wondered how people did all these things, watch a movie or TV show with out a dip. I may know now why for me.... I did it because it took the place of people. I'd would have rather spent time with snuff than people.
I have more work to do in that respect but when I have put this day to bed I will have done more to help my self than I ever have before.
Thanks for listening to my rant.
Later,
M
Maac I think you need to stop romanticizing your enemy. As comforting as that chew was at one point in your life, it was trying to kill you. Its filled with poison and can cause cancer with a single exposure. That's your enemy. You gotta fight that bitch. And I mean really hate it.
Sounds like progress. I know you were critical of some of our euphemisms but "one day at a time" is what works. That philosophy works. So embark on this journey knowing that you have made a great decision to help save your life and changes will come. They definitely will come. My suggestion is you write it down. Sounds like you need to get some shit out of your head. We've all gone through the suck. Share it and we'll give you honest feedback.
Fight again tomorrow.
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MAAC - wow man. You know it's funny reading some of these posts - it's like I'm thinking "man these guys are just like me, thinking exactly like me"...
I can't tell you how many times I've had a dip watching a movie, fishing, hell even swimming. I used to scuba dive a lot and even tried to dip while diving. I've been wondering how can I possible enjoy going to the movie? How can I enjoy watching my Cowboys play on Sunday w/o a big ol pinch of snuff? I mean.....how can I enjoy life without the dip?
And then that little voice in my head says - HEY DUMBASS - and I imagine how stupid I am wanting that NASTY shit in my mouth to begin with. MAAC - or anyone that reads this - YOU DESERVE a HUGE pat on the back for quitting. I've made it 5 days.....I will MAKE it 500 more thanks to KTC....
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I spent the night, so far the hardest night, sitting across from my self knowing that I will not dip. I won't let my self dip.
I am going to be repeating my self a lot here, I am trying to come up with my own mantra. The Ideas, thoughts or beliefs that make quitting real. That make quitting emotionally correct, logically correct.
This is what I have so far.
My reasons for quitting are just as valid now as they where on day one. Those reasons are: My mouth hurts so bad that I can't enjoy the chew. I don't want brown teeth (I have brown teeth). I never smile because I have a chew in all the time. My mouth tastes like ass. I use snuff as a replacement for intimacy / socialization. (I have preferred snuff over people for years). I don't want to die from mouth cancer. A Man, a real man should have control over his desires, wants. A real man does not have addictions. A real mans word is his bond (we live in a world so far removed from that underlying belief it makes me ill).
Now after saying all that I still lack confidence about it. So I might not be there for a life time but I am there for today!
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I have found that if I don't use the correct wording or vernacular people get up set. Like I quit for my kids.... they come back and say you don't quit for anyone but you. Well I am not very good at that stuff so forgive me if I say something that does not toe the line in that respect.
This is the deal.... Snuff was a lot of things to me. It was a way to relax. I loved to sit down after a nice meal and have a big fat chew and watch a move. Especially on Sundays after my work week.
I got off work this morning and after a good nights / days sleep I got up at about 5pm went out for a fantastic steak. Now I am home and what I'd normally do is watch a movie with that chew in.
I will watch the movie but I will do it with out my old friend. Today is the first day that this weekend relaxing time will happen with out a chew in 33 years.
I needed to sit here and write about it. I needed to tell someone that I am happy not to chew but I still miss it at the same time. I am still quit and I pray that next week this aspect of my quit will lessen.
I have always wondered how people did all these things, watch a movie or TV show with out a dip. I may know now why for me.... I did it because it took the place of people. I'd would have rather spent time with snuff than people.
I have more work to do in that respect but when I have put this day to bed I will have done more to help my self than I ever have before.
Thanks for listening to my rant.
Later,
M
Maac I think you need to stop romanticizing your enemy. As comforting as that chew was at one point in your life, it was trying to kill you. Its filled with poison and can cause cancer with a single exposure. That's your enemy. You gotta fight that bitch. And I mean really hate it.
Sounds like progress. I know you were critical of some of our euphemisms but "one day at a time" is what works. That philosophy works. So embark on this journey knowing that you have made a great decision to help save your life and changes will come. They definitely will come. My suggestion is you write it down. Sounds like you need to get some shit out of your head. We've all gone through the suck. Share it and we'll give you honest feedback.
Fight again tomorrow.
I did that with my battle with my weight and sugar. It may seem strange but sugar in almost all its forms is poison to the human body. I made sugar a hated enemy that was out to make my life miserable and in the end kill me.
I will do that with snuff......... I will make it the enemy.
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I have found that if I don't use the correct wording or vernacular people get up set. Like I quit for my kids.... they come back and say you don't quit for anyone but you. Well I am not very good at that stuff so forgive me if I say something that does not toe the line in that respect.
This is the deal.... Snuff was a lot of things to me. It was a way to relax. I loved to sit down after a nice meal and have a big fat chew and watch a move. Especially on Sundays after my work week.
I got off work this morning and after a good nights / days sleep I got up at about 5pm went out for a fantastic steak. Now I am home and what I'd normally do is watch a movie with that chew in.
I will watch the movie but I will do it with out my old friend. Today is the first day that this weekend relaxing time will happen with out a chew in 33 years.
I needed to sit here and write about it. I needed to tell someone that I am happy not to chew but I still miss it at the same time. I am still quit and I pray that next week this aspect of my quit will lessen.
I have always wondered how people did all these things, watch a movie or TV show with out a dip. I may know now why for me.... I did it because it took the place of people. I'd would have rather spent time with snuff than people.
I have more work to do in that respect but when I have put this day to bed I will have done more to help my self than I ever have before.
Thanks for listening to my rant.
Later,
M
Maac I think you need to stop romanticizing your enemy. As comforting as that chew was at one point in your life, it was trying to kill you. Its filled with poison and can cause cancer with a single exposure. That's your enemy. You gotta fight that bitch. And I mean really hate it.
Sounds like progress. I know you were critical of some of our euphemisms but "one day at a time" is what works. That philosophy works. So embark on this journey knowing that you have made a great decision to help save your life and changes will come. They definitely will come. My suggestion is you write it down. Sounds like you need to get some shit out of your head. We've all gone through the suck. Share it and we'll give you honest feedback.
Fight again tomorrow.
I did that with my battle with my weight and sugar. It may seem strange but sugar in almost all its forms is poison to the human body. I made sugar a hated enemy that was out to make my life miserable and in the end kill me.
I will do that with snuff......... I will make it the enemy.
When I first quit, I couldn't sleep for about 40 hours. Came home from a useless day at work, passed out, woke up, craved a dip and sat in my house the rest of the day. Had my girl take my keys and leave for awhile
Right now it doesn't seem like life could ever be as good as when you were chewing. I remember looking at people doing all kinds of stuff and wonder why how they could get through it without a big lipper in.
I can tell you now that life without dip is better. You'll see as keep posting. This site works.
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I feel something. I felt this way even before when I chewed. It's as if I am missing something. I don't know what the fuck it is. It is being intensified by not getting my habit. When I know what it is I will tell you all. Until then I am still Quitsville...... So Nice.
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I feel something. I felt this way even before when I chewed. It's as if I am missing something. I don't know what the fuck it is. It is being intensified by not getting my habit. When I know what it is I will tell you all. Until then I am still Quitsville...... So Nice.
SERIOUSLY...
IT'S NOT A FUCKING HABIT!
IT'S AN ADDICTION!
YOU ARE A FIRST CLASS JUNKIE.
AN ADDICT.
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Just wondering if you ever read anything on this site or just post your random thoughts. This site is full of information and tools to help you deal with what you are going through.
I still don't think you get it. Hope you do someday.
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Yeah Maac everyone is right! You need to read, read, and then read some more!! Proud to be quit with you bro! nico
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I feel something. I felt this way even before when I chewed. It's as if I am missing something. I don't know what the fuck it is. It is being intensified by not getting my habit. When I know what it is I will tell you all. Until then I am still Quitsville...... So Nice.
SERIOUSLY...
IT'S NOT A FUCKING HABIT!
IT'S AN ADDICTION!
YOU ARE A FIRST CLASS JUNKIE.
AN ADDICT.
This is what I was talking about. I say "habit" why cause I mean habit. It is habitual. Not the nicotine addiction. I was talking about something other than the nicotine addiction. The habit of getting my time alone. I say something that does not agree with your training on how to beat the "addiction" of nicotine and you just can see past the word. I don't understand that. Look past the word to what I am saying.
It has nothing to do with the snuff, I was still missing something. I don't know what that is yet. It may have been covered up by snuff... My word is the habit of chewing and your word is addiction. Both are true. Snuff is both a habit and an addiction. I am talking about the habit.......... HABIT. Do you know that words mean things.
They are two different words......
Habit - an acquired behavior pattern regularly followed until it has become almost involuntary.
I have a habit of putting on my seat belt when I get in my car.
Addiction - is a persistent, compulsive dependence on a behavior or substance.
I don't Need to put it on. It may be the smart thing to do but If I don't put it on I don't go in to withdrawal.
I stopped by because I wanted to share what I was feeling at the time. I use a word that you don't like so you bust my ass.
FUCK YOU. FUCK OFF. KISS MY ASS.
I don't give two fucking shits what you fucking think. I have learned a lot here. But dick heads like you that have there heads up there asses so far that they can't read Piss me off.
I am learning about me. Me with out snuff and all you did was take any joy in that discovery and piss all over it.
FUCK YOU VERY MUCH,
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I feel something. I felt this way even before when I chewed. It's as if I am missing something. I don't know what the fuck it is. It is being intensified by not getting my habit. When I know what it is I will tell you all. Until then I am still Quitsville...... So Nice.
SERIOUSLY...
IT'S NOT A FUCKING HABIT!
IT'S AN ADDICTION!
YOU ARE A FIRST CLASS JUNKIE.
AN ADDICT.
This is what I was talking about. I say "habit" why cause I mean habit. It is habitual. Not the nicotine addiction. I was talking about something other than the nicotine addiction. The habit of getting my time alone. I say something that does not agree with your training on how to beat the "addiction" of nicotine and you just can see past the word. I don't understand that. Look past the word to what I am saying.
It has nothing to do with the snuff, I was still missing something. I don't know what that is yet. It may have been covered up by snuff... My word is the habit of chewing and your word is addiction. Both are true. Snuff is both a habit and an addiction. I am talking about the habit.......... HABIT. Do you know that words mean things.
They are two different words......
Habit - an acquired behavior pattern regularly followed until it has become almost involuntary.
I have a habit of putting on my seat belt when I get in my car.
Addiction - is a persistent, compulsive dependence on a behavior or substance.
I don't Need to put it on. It may be the smart thing to do but If I don't put it on I don't go in to withdrawal.
I stopped by because I wanted to share what I was feeling at the time. I use a word that you don't like so you bust my ass.
FUCK YOU. FUCK OFF. KISS MY ASS.
I don't give two fucking shits what you fucking think. I have learned a lot here. But dick heads like you that have there heads up there asses so far that they can't read Piss me off.
I am learning about me. Me with out snuff and all you did was take any joy in that discovery and piss all over it.
FUCK YOU VERY MUCH,
Maac - I know what you are saying here. Do you have the fake stuff?
The addiction to nicotine is a bitch and the true enemy, but the habit of following up a meal, workout, drive, shower, shit, shave, sex, etc. with a lipper is tough to break as well.
Keep on posting here, good to see you on roll in May 11, and pm me if you need anything.
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I feel something. I felt this way even before when I chewed. It's as if I am missing something. I don't know what the fuck it is. It is being intensified by not getting my habit. When I know what it is I will tell you all. Until then I am still Quitsville...... So Nice.
SERIOUSLY...
IT'S NOT A FUCKING HABIT!
IT'S AN ADDICTION!
YOU ARE A FIRST CLASS JUNKIE.
AN ADDICT.
This is what I was talking about. I say "habit" why cause I mean habit. It is habitual. Not the nicotine addiction. I was talking about something other than the nicotine addiction. The habit of getting my time alone. I say something that does not agree with your training on how to beat the "addiction" of nicotine and you just can see past the word. I don't understand that. Look past the word to what I am saying.
It has nothing to do with the snuff, I was still missing something. I don't know what that is yet. It may have been covered up by snuff... My word is the habit of chewing and your word is addiction. Both are true. Snuff is both a habit and an addiction. I am talking about the habit.......... HABIT. Do you know that words mean things.
They are two different words......
Habit - an acquired behavior pattern regularly followed until it has become almost involuntary.
I have a habit of putting on my seat belt when I get in my car.
Addiction - is a persistent, compulsive dependence on a behavior or substance.
I don't Need to put it on. It may be the smart thing to do but If I don't put it on I don't go in to withdrawal.
I stopped by because I wanted to share what I was feeling at the time. I use a word that you don't like so you bust my ass.
FUCK YOU. FUCK OFF. KISS MY ASS.
I don't give two fucking shits what you fucking think. I have learned a lot here. But dick heads like you that have there heads up there asses so far that they can't read Piss me off.
I am learning about me. Me with out snuff and all you did was take any joy in that discovery and piss all over it.
FUCK YOU VERY MUCH,
Hey man, sounds like you have a lot of energy towards your quit. Don't worry so much about the semantics, just stay quit and keep exploring your quit and your addiction. If I can be of any help PM me.
jmiah
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Keep it up Maac,
Like we discussed, take what you want from here and leave the rest. The important part is that:
1) You post roll every day promising to not use
2) You honor the promise
It looks like you have no issues dip raging on here, which is awesome because it can help your quit. If you choose to not to listen to some of this then just ignore it, but only if you stay quit.
No one can argue with someone that piles on the quit days.
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jost2brown - No I don't do the fake snuff. Thanks for your words. I am really happy you get what I was saying.
Jmiah - Semantics, Yes that's it. I have to say learning the lingo here is harder than the quit. People may think I don't care about my quit. If I did not care about it I would not be here.
Magnum9 - Thanks for the talk. Seriously, talking to you on the phone really helped.
I will take the advice given to me from Magnum9.
Later,
M