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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: ross8yrs on July 11, 2013, 05:12:00 PM
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As has been mentioned, 20 day marker today and feeling very agitated. Never been one to get a case of the blues and anxieties, however this week (3) seems to be the worst. Tips, inspiration appreciated.
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BOOM, you got it man...you are past the worst physical part...the mental games suck but it really as corny as just say no. There are a lot of good folks on here...learn from them. Post roll, if you don't know how go to the welcome center and learn. Wake up, post roll, promise you won't chew that day and keep your promise, then repeat. You got it
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As has been mentioned, 20 day marker today and feeling very agitated. Never been one to get a case of the blues and anxieties, however this week (3) seems to be the worst. Tips, inspiration appreciated.
Hey Ross, I am 20 days quit with you. Glad to see you got your thread up and running.
As for the anxiety, if you are upping your caffeine intake like I did initially, that may be part of it. Somewhere on KTC I read that the nicotine interacts to lessen the affect of caffeine. And now, without our chew, the caffeine is on full power.
Just a thought.
I recommend reading everything on this site. Pull up an intro thread and read through the whole thing. Others have walked this path before us, we can learn from them, as yet others will learn from us.
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Click on the Welcome Center link above and start reading. Anxiety, blues, anti-social disorder...par for the course, brother. There are no short-cuts and nobody can do this for you. But, you've taken the first step...we've got your back the rest of the way.
One day at time is your new way of life. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
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Nice work starting your own intro. I can tell you are serious about this.
Keep asking and support will flow in like crazy...remember my advice as well though.
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Thanks For the advice as I get myself Acclimated. This is an unreal resource and support program.
26 started in highschool, didn't smoke because it affected hockey too much. started slow, up to a can every other day for 8 yrs., like clockwork. I'm fairly certain going through this fog thing I keep reading about as I have been worthless for bout 2 weeks now.
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Thanks For the advice as I get myself Acclimated. This is an unreal resource and support program.
26 started in highschool, didn't smoke because it affected hockey too much. started slow, up to a can every other day for 8 yrs., like clockwork. I'm fairly certain going through this fog thing I keep reading about as I have been worthless for bout 2 weeks now.
Right on track, lol. Hang tough. We got your back!!!
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Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.
Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)
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Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.
Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)
This ones easy for me. Freedom!!!
Read my hof.speech when you get a chance. Its right in my signature line. Nafar and ODAAT. Glad to be quit with you.
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I haven't had a dip in about 36 hours now. Found this site last night. Haven't had the anxiety yet but I have had strong urges all day and my mind has tried to play tricks on me telling me it's ok to have one. Also Iv had some random spells of dizziness and nausea. Nicotine is a damn manipulator for sure. I'm not to day 20 yet but its been atleast a year since I have gone a day without a dip. Iv been through an entire can of Altoids today, spent extra time at the gym, and kept a little book to write in when i feel urges. Starting day 2 tomorrow.
Good job on your 20 days bro. Keep it up.
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Great advice from the quit Sherpas. Glad you found us. Stick with us and post everyday. It is the cornerstone of my quit.
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Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.
Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)
Agree with sans...freedom.
Funny, when I read this I was in line at Kroger getting shit for my wife. I was hating it.
I used to love it because it was dip time. I used to poor quarter gallons of milk down the sink just so I could have an excuse to go out. Wife would be like "dang, we are out of milk already, I swear we just had a half gallon.".
Kroger is right across the street. A trip for a gallon of milk should take 5 minutes max. I would begone for a half hour or more. I had great excuses for my wife as to why, "I saw one of my buddies there and he talked my ear off". "Some idiot was holding up the line". "All the milk had close expiration dates so I had to go to the other Kroger". " I went to blockbuster but they didn't have any good movies". "I stopped to watch some guys I know play softball" (there's a park by my house) and many many many more. I think after awhile she just kind of figured any time I went there, it took a half hour to 45 minutes. She stopped asking "what took so long".
I was a fuck faced liar. Lied RIGHT to my wife's face , night after night after night after night...
I drove my dumb ass around in an idiot circle sucking on a dip thinking I was relaxing/rewarding myself for a hard day.
What bullshit.
Thinking back now I can remember driving that idiot circle, with my jaw aching, my tongue numb, catching zero buzz, and actually hating the taste and many times wondering what the fuck I was doing.
I was a slave...literally. I was not a man, I was a fucking coward. Dip took my man card away and shredded it. But I had a hell of a fake ID.
Tonight...went to Kroger, got some groceries, came home and bitched about having to go like a real man. Dip never crossed my mind, and I fucking LOVE IT.
So will you, I promise.
Sorry so long. I get carried away sometimes.
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Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.
Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)
Agree with sans...freedom.
Funny, when I read this I was in line at Kroger getting shit for my wife. I was hating it.
I used to love it because it was dip time. I used to poor quarter gallons of milk down the sink just so I could have an excuse to go out. Wife would be like "dang, we are out of milk already, I swear we just had a half gallon.".
Kroger is right across the street. A trip for a gallon of milk should take 5 minutes max. I would begone for a half hour or more. I had great excuses for my wife as to why, "I saw one of my buddies there and he talked my ear off". "Some idiot was holding up the line". "All the milk had close expiration dates so I had to go to the other Kroger". " I went to blockbuster but they didn't have any good movies". "I stopped to watch some guys I know play softball" (there's a park by my house) and many many many more. I think after awhile she just kind of figured any time I went there, it took a half hour to 45 minutes. She stopped asking "what took so long".
I was a fuck faced liar. Lied RIGHT to my wife's face , night after night after night after night...
I drove my dumb ass around in an idiot circle sucking on a dip thinking I was relaxing/rewarding myself for a hard day.
What bullshit.
Thinking back now I can remember driving that idiot circle, with my jaw aching, my tongue numb, catching zero buzz, and actually hating the taste and many times wondering what the fuck I was doing.
I was a slave...literally. I was not a man, I was a fucking coward. Dip took my man card away and shredded it. But I had a hell of a fake ID.
Tonight...went to Kroger, got some groceries, came home and bitched about having to go like a real man. Dip never crossed my mind, and I fucking LOVE IT.
So will you, I promise.
Sorry so long. I get carried away sometimes.
This is such good stuff...Damn It!!
Once again Diesel thank you for setting the stage .....Properly for us addicts.
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Diesel we haven't met but your posts are like cement bricks to the face. So real. So insightful. Flat out freakin honest! I long for the day I barely even think about dip. As for now I am taking it one day at a time. Love your posts.
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Diesel we haven't met but your posts are like cement bricks to the face. So real. So insightful. Flat out freakin honest! I long for the day I barely even think about dip. As for now I am taking it one day at a time. Love your posts.
You'll get there. If a jack wad like me can do it. You can.
I still "think" about it though but surely don't crave it or miss it. Nor does it bother me if I do think about. I think about lots or shit throughout the day. Dip often slips in there, but mainly in a positive way, like "fucking dip. So stupid I used to use you". Then I go onto thinking about "normal stuff" like banging Kate Upton or flying cars...just stupid shit.
Just gotta hang tough, like nkotb said.
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Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.
Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)
Agree with sans...freedom.
Funny, when I read this I was in line at Kroger getting shit for my wife. I was hating it.
I used to love it because it was dip time. I used to poor quarter gallons of milk down the sink just so I could have an excuse to go out. Wife would be like "dang, we are out of milk already, I swear we just had a half gallon.".
Kroger is right across the street. A trip for a gallon of milk should take 5 minutes max. I would begone for a half hour or more. I had great excuses for my wife as to why, "I saw one of my buddies there and he talked my ear off". "Some idiot was holding up the line". "All the milk had close expiration dates so I had to go to the other Kroger". " I went to blockbuster but they didn't have any good movies". "I stopped to watch some guys I know play softball" (there's a park by my house) and many many many more. I think after awhile she just kind of figured any time I went there, it took a half hour to 45 minutes. She stopped asking "what took so long".
I was a fuck faced liar. Lied RIGHT to my wife's face , night after night after night after night...
I drove my dumb ass around in an idiot circle sucking on a dip thinking I was relaxing/rewarding myself for a hard day.
What bullshit.
Thinking back now I can remember driving that idiot circle, with my jaw aching, my tongue numb, catching zero buzz, and actually hating the taste and many times wondering what the fuck I was doing.
I was a slave...literally. I was not a man, I was a fucking coward. Dip took my man card away and shredded it. But I had a hell of a fake ID.
Tonight...went to Kroger, got some groceries, came home and bitched about having to go like a real man. Dip never crossed my mind, and I fucking LOVE IT.
So will you, I promise.
Sorry so long. I get carried away sometimes.
Diesel took the words right out of my mouth. It is pathetic, and makes me really angry, to look back and see how my life was a controlled web of lies to cover up a dirty addiction. I like that food tastes better now. I like that I don't get sweaty palms trying to come up with a reason to go to the gas station at 10 pm. I like that I can get a vehicle with a light colored interior so I don't have to worry about anything spilling on the carpet. Yeah, I was under that much control.
Most of all, quite honestly, this entire process has made me "man up." Keep the quit strong!
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Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.
Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)
Agree with sans...freedom.
Funny, when I read this I was in line at Kroger getting shit for my wife. I was hating it.
I used to love it because it was dip time. I used to poor quarter gallons of milk down the sink just so I could have an excuse to go out. Wife would be like "dang, we are out of milk already, I swear we just had a half gallon.".
Kroger is right across the street. A trip for a gallon of milk should take 5 minutes max. I would begone for a half hour or more. I had great excuses for my wife as to why, "I saw one of my buddies there and he talked my ear off". "Some idiot was holding up the line". "All the milk had close expiration dates so I had to go to the other Kroger". " I went to blockbuster but they didn't have any good movies". "I stopped to watch some guys I know play softball" (there's a park by my house) and many many many more. I think after awhile she just kind of figured any time I went there, it took a half hour to 45 minutes. She stopped asking "what took so long".
I was a fuck faced liar. Lied RIGHT to my wife's face , night after night after night after night...
I drove my dumb ass around in an idiot circle sucking on a dip thinking I was relaxing/rewarding myself for a hard day.
What bullshit.
Thinking back now I can remember driving that idiot circle, with my jaw aching, my tongue numb, catching zero buzz, and actually hating the taste and many times wondering what the fuck I was doing.
I was a slave...literally. I was not a man, I was a fucking coward. Dip took my man card away and shredded it. But I had a hell of a fake ID.
Tonight...went to Kroger, got some groceries, came home and bitched about having to go like a real man. Dip never crossed my mind, and I fucking LOVE IT.
So will you, I promise.
Sorry so long. I get carried away sometimes.
Diesel took the words right out of my mouth. It is pathetic, and makes me really angry, to look back and see how my life was a controlled web of lies to cover up a dirty addiction. I like that food tastes better now. I like that I don't get sweaty palms trying to come up with a reason to go to the gas station at 10 pm. I like that I can get a vehicle with a light colored interior so I don't have to worry about anything spilling on the carpet. Yeah, I was under that much control.
Most of all, quite honestly, this entire process has made me "man up." Keep the quit strong!
Besides the freedom I have now, there is a lot of of other things i am grateful for now.
I wasn't a ninja dipper like these two clowns, I wanted everyone to know I was a slave to the poison. Wife, kids, friends. I Was so proud I wanted the people in there cars to know. So while I at red lights, and stop signs I would gladly open the car door, out came the poison. At the beach I was proud to. Right in the ocean where my kids were swimming. I was so proud of my love affair with the poison I would enjoy it right after spending time with the wife. Had spit cups all over the house. I could go on with this. What a father and husband I was!!! If you need anymore reasons to quit other than these pm me. I got 100's....
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Late night craving, always tough. Still strong.
Of all the positive things quitting brings, What has been the most rewarding for you?(anyone)
Agree with sans...freedom.
Funny, when I read this I was in line at Kroger getting shit for my wife. I was hating it.
I used to love it because it was dip time. I used to poor quarter gallons of milk down the sink just so I could have an excuse to go out. Wife would be like "dang, we are out of milk already, I swear we just had a half gallon.".
Kroger is right across the street. A trip for a gallon of milk should take 5 minutes max. I would begone for a half hour or more. I had great excuses for my wife as to why, "I saw one of my buddies there and he talked my ear off". "Some idiot was holding up the line". "All the milk had close expiration dates so I had to go to the other Kroger". " I went to blockbuster but they didn't have any good movies". "I stopped to watch some guys I know play softball" (there's a park by my house) and many many many more. I think after awhile she just kind of figured any time I went there, it took a half hour to 45 minutes. She stopped asking "what took so long".
I was a fuck faced liar. Lied RIGHT to my wife's face , night after night after night after night...
I drove my dumb ass around in an idiot circle sucking on a dip thinking I was relaxing/rewarding myself for a hard day.
What bullshit.
Thinking back now I can remember driving that idiot circle, with my jaw aching, my tongue numb, catching zero buzz, and actually hating the taste and many times wondering what the fuck I was doing.
I was a slave...literally. I was not a man, I was a fucking coward. Dip took my man card away and shredded it. But I had a hell of a fake ID.
Tonight...went to Kroger, got some groceries, came home and bitched about having to go like a real man. Dip never crossed my mind, and I fucking LOVE IT.
So will you, I promise.
Sorry so long. I get carried away sometimes.
Diesel took the words right out of my mouth. It is pathetic, and makes me really angry, to look back and see how my life was a controlled web of lies to cover up a dirty addiction. I like that food tastes better now. I like that I don't get sweaty palms trying to come up with a reason to go to the gas station at 10 pm. I like that I can get a vehicle with a light colored interior so I don't have to worry about anything spilling on the carpet. Yeah, I was under that much control.
Most of all, quite honestly, this entire process has made me "man up." Keep the quit strong!
Besides the freedom I have now, there is a lot of of other things i am grateful for now.
I wasn't a ninja dipper like these two clowns, I wanted everyone to know I was a slave to the poison. Wife, kids, friends. I Was so proud I wanted the people in there cars to know. So while I at red lights, and stop signs I would gladly open the car door, out came the poison. At the beach I was proud to. Right in the ocean where my kids were swimming. I was so proud of my love affair with the poison I would enjoy it right after spending time with the wife. Had spit cups all over the house. I could go on with this. What a father and husband I was!!! If you need anymore reasons to quit other than these pm me. I got 100's....
I always made the excuse of leaving my girlfriends pad early cuz I had to "work early" or I was tired. Late night gas station runs I won't miss. I actually once got out of bed after an hour and drove to the holiday, not cuz I was niccin, but because I was stressing about niccin.
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Day 21 and feelin better. Cautious as well
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Day 21 and feelin better. Cautious as well
3 weeks is solid. Congrats.
My first funk was from about days 25-28. Be prepared. Reach out for help if it hits you.
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Day 21 and feelin better. Cautious as well
3 weeks is solid. Congrats.
My first funk was from about days 25-28. Be prepared. Reach out for help if it hits you.
Yea day 21 was about the time my brain began to come back. Glad to see you are still cautiouse as I still have tough moments and I am on day 76. Be confident but remember there are surprises. Continue to arm yourself with numbers, support, and accountability. 21 days is amazing bro! Keep it up I quit with you!
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Day 21 and feelin better. Cautious as well
3 weeks is solid. Congrats.
My first funk was from about days 25-28. Be prepared. Reach out for help if it hits you.
Yea day 21 was about the time my brain began to come back. Glad to see you are still cautiouse as I still have tough moments and I am on day 76. Be confident but remember there are surprises. Continue to arm yourself with numbers, support, and accountability. 21 days is amazing bro! Keep it up I quit with you!
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Day 25 and feels like a blur the whole time, still not quite myself but coming out of it slowly. Feeling good to be free, yet i do think about it a bunch during the day. Staying motivated.
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Day 25 and feels like a blur the whole time, still not quite myself but coming out of it slowly. Feeling good to be free, yet i do think about it a bunch during the day. Staying motivated.
Yep...sound like you're doing it right. I don't recall how long the suck lasted for me. Just one day, I realized I didn't think about it...and viola!
Stay strong and stay quit!!!
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Day 26 and mentally feeling strong. I'm getting sores in my mouth, and a sore throat? WTF? Par for the course er....
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Day 26 and mentally feeling strong. I'm getting sores in my mouth, and a sore throat? WTF? Par for the course er....
The pH in your mouth changes when you take away the chew. Your mouth will adjust and the sores will disappear.
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I had a, well I wouldn't call it a close call, but a situation none the less. As I was cleaning out my truck, way back under the passenger front seat, I see my old enemy cope green. Didn't think much of it, no real urges. Took the can tossed it in the dumpster, life went on. Thought it would have been a bigger deal but apparently not. I kept my oath, my promise to ktc.
thought for today.
Stay quit.
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Day 29. Haven't been completely honest has far as how this quit is affecting me and my life.
A recap of this week has been.... Inconsistent to say the least. Some mornings I wake up and feel almost normal, and some.... I just struggle and do not want to do anything. Until my in depths readings today and looking back on some veterans intro pages, I thought "it's not the nicotine, it's you, so don't post what you're going through on KTC". Well reading back I find I'm not the only one freaking out when my girl wants to do something as simple as dinner, and the sex drive is not what it used to be, and I'm fairly young and should be in my prime, however I'm happy to report it is slowly returning. The anxieties have been less and less but when the panic attacks come, they aren't as powerful as they were.
Cravings... Well they have not been like "holy shit do I need a dip" they are more like I'm fuckin fidgety and really jumpy and can't really pin point why, and going through couple hour spells of sad/anger/hyper/ all at once. Breathing and keeping occupied have been helpful.
However the most helpful thing has been reading on this site to know that I am not the first person to have the mind go through this whirlwind fuckstorm.
More for my future self to remember what hell this has been when I forget I am and always will be an addict.
Thanks to all who have been helpful on chat and pm's.
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Day 29. Haven't been completely honest has far as how this quit is affecting me and my life.
A recap of this week has been.... Inconsistent to say the least. Some mornings I wake up and feel almost normal, and some.... I just struggle and do not want to do anything. Until my in depths readings today and looking back on some veterans intro pages, I thought "it's not the nicotine, it's you, so don't post what you're going through on KTC". Well reading back I find I'm not the only one freaking out when my girl wants to do something as simple as dinner, and the sex drive is not what it used to be, and I'm fairly young and should be in my prime, however I'm happy to report it is slowly returning. The anxieties have been less and less but when the panic attacks come, they aren't as powerful as they were.
Cravings... Well they have not been like "holy shit do I need a dip" they are more like I'm fuckin fidgety and really jumpy and can't really pin point why, and going through couple hour spells of sad/anger/hyper/ all at once. Breathing and keeping occupied have been helpful.
However the most helpful thing has been reading on this site to know that I am not the first person to have the mind go through this whirlwind fuckstorm.
More for my future self to remember what hell this has been when I forget I am and always will be an addict.
Thanks to all who have been helpful on chat and pm's.
At day 29 your still in the thick of things brother. You need to get to the next door. This door is not easy to open and hard to get to. I can tell you the next room is a lot easier and life is a lot better. Keep your head pointed forward and don't look back. Nothing back there for you brother. Need another number let me know.
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Day 29. Haven't been completely honest has far as how this quit is affecting me and my life.
A recap of this week has been.... Inconsistent to say the least. Some mornings I wake up and feel almost normal, and some.... I just struggle and do not want to do anything. Until my in depths readings today and looking back on some veterans intro pages, I thought "it's not the nicotine, it's you, so don't post what you're going through on KTC". Well reading back I find I'm not the only one freaking out when my girl wants to do something as simple as dinner, and the sex drive is not what it used to be, and I'm fairly young and should be in my prime, however I'm happy to report it is slowly returning. The anxieties have been less and less but when the panic attacks come, they aren't as powerful as they were.
Cravings... Well they have not been like "holy shit do I need a dip"Â they are more like I'm fuckin fidgety and really jumpy and can't really pin point why, and going through couple hour spells of sad/anger/hyper/ all at once. Breathing and keeping occupied have been helpful.
However the most helpful thing has been reading on this site to know that I am not the first person to have the mind go through this whirlwind fuckstorm.Â
More for my future self to remember what hell this has been when I forget I am and always will be an addict.
Thanks to all who have been helpful on chat and pm's.
At day 29 your still in the thick of things brother. You need to get to the next door. This door is not easy to open and hard to get to. I can tell you the next room is a lot easier and life is a lot better. Keep your head pointed forward and don't look back. Nothing back there for you brother. Need another number let me know.
It is the nicotine...not you.
You haven't been you since high school. Gonna take awhile to find you again. But I guarantee you are gonna like what you find.
Wish I had quit at 26. You're a smart man. Keep up the good work and remember it is the nic, or lack thereof that's causing you to feel this way.
You're not crazy , not weak, not the first person to go through this, and should not be ashamed to come on here and share your experiences/feelings.
Keep on keeping on.
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Day 32, tough fuckin morning. just trying to bust through this crave, or anxiety whatever thing is and get on with my day, havent had one in a while and this ones a bitch. sippin juice chewin gum, seeds, chuggin water. nothing is helpin this one.
Im stayin true, just had to vent a bit.
stayin quit one hour at a time today.
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Day 32, tough fuckin morning. just trying to bust through this crave, or anxiety whatever thing is and get on with my day, havent had one in a while and this ones a bitch. sippin juice chewin gum, seeds, chuggin water. nothing is helpin this one.
Im stayin true, just had to vent a bit.
stayin quit one hour at a time today.
learning and using the tools to help you protect your quit mandatory for success
beating the nic bitch one crave at a time = priceless
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Day 35,
An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?
I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not. I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?
Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today.
I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.
I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?
I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.
Ross8yrs
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Day 35,
An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?
I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not. I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?
Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today.
I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.
I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?
I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.
Ross8yrs
Ross,
I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.
I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.
I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!
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Day 35,
An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?
I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not. I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?
Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today.Â
I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.
I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?
I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.
Ross8yrs
Ross,
I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.
I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.
I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!
Bro,, your making it to the door. This door is hard to get to and takes time. You'll get there and like whats on the other side.
The 30's were rough for me. The emotional rollercoaster sucks. The poison doesn't like that you've come this far.
I can promise one thing. It gets much better. You've come to far brother. Might as well see where this roller coaster ends up. If you got a couple minutes read my hof speech in my signature. I bet it helps. I'm glad to be quit with you on this Friday morning.
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Day 35,
An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?
I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not. I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?
Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today.Â
I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.
I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?
I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.
Ross8yrs
Ross,
I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.
I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.
I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!
Bro,, your making it to the door. This door is hard to get to and takes time. You'll get there and like whats on the other side.
The 30's were rough for me. The emotional rollercoaster sucks. The poison doesn't like that you've come this far.
I can promise one thing. It gets much better. You've come to far brother. Might as well see where this roller coaster ends up. If you got a couple minutes read my hof speech in my signature. I bet it helps. I'm glad to be quit with you on this Friday morning.
You have got this Ross. There is nothing wrong with talking about the suck. Whether or not it is based solely on the quit, the nicbitch will use it against you.
My wife takes welbutrin, and it seems to help her moods, and is somewhat subtle, so no worries that you will turn into 'zombie'
Stay strong, and PM me if you want more digits.
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Day 35,
An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?
I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not. I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?
Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today.Â
I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.
I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?
I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.
Ross8yrs
Ross,
I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.
I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.
I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!
Bro,, your making it to the door. This door is hard to get to and takes time. You'll get there and like whats on the other side.
The 30's were rough for me. The emotional rollercoaster sucks. The poison doesn't like that you've come this far.
I can promise one thing. It gets much better. You've come to far brother. Might as well see where this roller coaster ends up. If you got a couple minutes read my hof speech in my signature. I bet it helps. I'm glad to be quit with you on this Friday morning.
You have got this Ross. There is nothing wrong with talking about the suck. Whether or not it is based solely on the quit, the nicbitch will use it against you.
My wife takes welbutrin, and it seems to help her moods, and is somewhat subtle, so no worries that you will turn into 'zombie'
Stay strong, and PM me if you want more digits.
nice work guys, just keep it up.
And with that up, just remember that roller coaster. You are getting the ups and downs now but I dare say if you look you are probably getting where days in the middle or up are starting to out number those days where you are low.
It will still come and go, but that number will start to increase and increase, where for the most part there will come a time where it will just be 'regular life' where you are in a down mood.
So remember to enjoy those days you are up and believe me, many more are on there way.
Stay quit my friends.....
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Day 35,
An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?
I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not. I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?
Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today.Â
I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.
I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?
I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.
Ross8yrs
Ross,
I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.
I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.
I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!
Bro,, your making it to the door. This door is hard to get to and takes time. You'll get there and like whats on the other side.
The 30's were rough for me. The emotional rollercoaster sucks. The poison doesn't like that you've come this far.
I can promise one thing. It gets much better. You've come to far brother. Might as well see where this roller coaster ends up. If you got a couple minutes read my hof speech in my signature. I bet it helps. I'm glad to be quit with you on this Friday morning.
You have got this Ross. There is nothing wrong with talking about the suck. Whether or not it is based solely on the quit, the nicbitch will use it against you.
My wife takes welbutrin, and it seems to help her moods, and is somewhat subtle, so no worries that you will turn into 'zombie'
Stay strong, and PM me if you want more digits.
nice work guys, just keep it up.
And with that up, just remember that roller coaster. You are getting the ups and downs now but I dare say if you look you are probably getting where days in the middle or up are starting to out number those days where you are low.
It will still come and go, but that number will start to increase and increase, where for the most part there will come a time where it will just be 'regular life' where you are in a down mood.
So remember to enjoy those days you are up and believe me, many more are on there way.
Stay quit my friends.....
Yes, keep at it. The plan will work. Each body reacts a bit different to the quit, but each body shall heal. Sometimes this helps
How many days did you use how many days quit?
For me: 7300 vs 959.
That may give you some perspective.
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Day 35,
An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?
I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not. I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?
Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today.Â
I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.
I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?
I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.
Ross8yrs
Ross,
I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.
I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.
I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!
Bro,, your making it to the door. This door is hard to get to and takes time. You'll get there and like whats on the other side.
The 30's were rough for me. The emotional rollercoaster sucks. The poison doesn't like that you've come this far.
I can promise one thing. It gets much better. You've come to far brother. Might as well see where this roller coaster ends up. If you got a couple minutes read my hof speech in my signature. I bet it helps. I'm glad to be quit with you on this Friday morning.
You have got this Ross. There is nothing wrong with talking about the suck. Whether or not it is based solely on the quit, the nicbitch will use it against you.
My wife takes welbutrin, and it seems to help her moods, and is somewhat subtle, so no worries that you will turn into 'zombie'
Stay strong, and PM me if you want more digits.
nice work guys, just keep it up.
And with that up, just remember that roller coaster. You are getting the ups and downs now but I dare say if you look you are probably getting where days in the middle or up are starting to out number those days where you are low.
It will still come and go, but that number will start to increase and increase, where for the most part there will come a time where it will just be 'regular life' where you are in a down mood.
So remember to enjoy those days you are up and believe me, many more are on there way.
Stay quit my friends.....
Yes, keep at it. The plan will work. Each body reacts a bit different to the quit, but each body shall heal. Sometimes this helps
How many days did you use how many days quit?
For me: 7300 vs 959.
That may give you some perspective.
35 days is a great accomplishment Ross. Be proud of yourself. I wish I would have had the brains and balls to quit at 26 year old. It does go slow when you first start out, but who cares. One day at a time is the only way to get there my friend. Slow and steady wins the race. Smell the roses, take deep breaths, experience all things like they are new again without the poison running thru your veins.
Glad you reached out with text today. You really strengthened my quit today. It was refreshing to see a young quitter stomping the nic bitch, using the tools, and taking his freedom back. It was great to talk to you and like I told you on the phone, what you are feeling is 100% completely normal. These guys are some solid quitters and they are giving you great advice. Just take it one day at a time and like Skoal monster said, "forget about all of your expectations about what being quit should feel like". Just be quit and live your life. Things will get better, I promise. And you will be stronger with each crave you resist and each funk that you crawl out of.
Enjoy your vacation Ross. Keep me posted on how you are doing, whatever is on your mind OR just a promise and a day count, whatever you want.
Talk to you soon.
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Day 35,
An accomplished feeling sometimes, other times its like fuck only 35?
I am not dealing with the suck very well, reading reading reading I am noticing most people by this point are doing better, reporting loving life and loving everything. Well quite frankly im not. I sometimes have snippets of myself. But majority i am feeling down and bluesy. And reading all these awesome quitters stories of being happy makes me concerned that.... huh why the fuck am i not feeling that way?
Should mention that I have been to the doctor and put me on wellbutrin, cant say that it has done much for me, he has raised the dose to 300mg which i started today.Â
I am fully committed and not weakening my stance on this quit. I am posting roll, promising to myself and all of you to remain quit for that day.
I guess to the vets i ask, when? how long? Is this normal could this be a separate issue and this is not the place to talk about it?
I have been on chat quite frequently this week and thanks to all the people with WOE.
Ross8yrs
Ross,
I am on day 56 and I still have shit days. I had a super funk in the 40's that I am still crawling out of.
I recommend not spending too much time thinking about how you feel and just get out and live some life- go for a bike ride or a run- do something that takes your mind off it.
I dont know what posts you are reading but from what I remember seeing you are going to go through this a few more times before you reach 100 and you are going to have funks after 100 days. Hang in there and if you need anything let me know!
Bro,, your making it to the door. This door is hard to get to and takes time. You'll get there and like whats on the other side.
The 30's were rough for me. The emotional rollercoaster sucks. The poison doesn't like that you've come this far.
I can promise one thing. It gets much better. You've come to far brother. Might as well see where this roller coaster ends up. If you got a couple minutes read my hof speech in my signature. I bet it helps. I'm glad to be quit with you on this Friday morning.
You have got this Ross. There is nothing wrong with talking about the suck. Whether or not it is based solely on the quit, the nicbitch will use it against you.
My wife takes welbutrin, and it seems to help her moods, and is somewhat subtle, so no worries that you will turn into 'zombie'
Stay strong, and PM me if you want more digits.
nice work guys, just keep it up.
And with that up, just remember that roller coaster. You are getting the ups and downs now but I dare say if you look you are probably getting where days in the middle or up are starting to out number those days where you are low.
It will still come and go, but that number will start to increase and increase, where for the most part there will come a time where it will just be 'regular life' where you are in a down mood.
So remember to enjoy those days you are up and believe me, many more are on there way.
Stay quit my friends.....
Yes, keep at it. The plan will work. Each body reacts a bit different to the quit, but each body shall heal. Sometimes this helps
How many days did you use how many days quit?
For me: 7300 vs 959.
That may give you some perspective.
35 days is a great accomplishment Ross. Be proud of yourself. I wish I would have had the brains and balls to quit at 26 year old. It does go slow when you first start out, but who cares. One day at a time is the only way to get there my friend. Slow and steady wins the race. Smell the roses, take deep breaths, experience all things like they are new again without the poison running thru your veins.
Glad you reached out with text today. You really strengthened my quit today. It was refreshing to see a young quitter stomping the nic bitch, using the tools, and taking his freedom back. It was great to talk to you and like I told you on the phone, what you are feeling is 100% completely normal. These guys are some solid quitters and they are giving you great advice. Just take it one day at a time and like Skoal monster said, "forget about all of your expectations about what being quit should feel like". Just be quit and live your life. Things will get better, I promise. And you will be stronger with each crave you resist and each funk that you crawl out of.
Enjoy your vacation Ross. Keep me posted on how you are doing, whatever is on your mind OR just a promise and a day count, whatever you want.
Talk to you soon.
Man, I'm so with you on this. I'm at day 29 and I feel like crap, and I have for about a week. At this point, the only thing Im enjoying about being quit is trying to help new guys get started. I don't even want to talk about my own quit because I'm just discouraged. Not sure why that is. Obviously I'm proud that I am quit, but right now being quit sucks ass.
We will get through it. I'm sure it's just a phase. Or, at least, it effing BETTER be a phase. Shoot me a PM if you need a depression buddy, haha.
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Day 52-
Happy to report things are getting better steadily, the "blues" are finally clearing and becoming myself again. Sure there are cravings but nothing to ruin my day. Went Camping in the bush this weekend with almost exclusively hardcore chewers. Thought it would bother me more than it did.
I did try the herbal smokey mountain and that did curb the cravings for sure. I'm not sure if that's a step backwards or forwards but it did make me feel better around a fire.
Thanks for all the support and helpful words of encouragement. I know I'm not out of the woods and still have my guard up, just good to be becoming myself again.
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Day 52-
Happy to report things are getting better steadily, the "blues" are finally clearing and becoming myself again. Sure there are cravings but nothing to ruin my day. Went Camping in the bush this weekend with almost exclusively hardcore chewers. Thought it would bother me more than it did.
I did try the herbal smokey mountain and that did curb the cravings for sure. I'm not sure if that's a step backwards or forwards but it did make me feel better around a fire.
Thanks for all the support and helpful words of encouragement. I know I'm not out of the woods and still have my guard up, just good to be becoming myself again.
Every day you don't use nic is a step forward Ross.. Nice Job.
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Day 60-
I feel like today is an accomplishment that I am more proud of than any other mile marker. Day 3, day 10, 20, even 50. Dont know why 60 is the day where I really feel proud and not as bummed about the seemingly small numbers before today.
I am still on the lookout for the nic bitch as she has snuck up on me many times 'Remshot' , i just blast her away.
Thanks to all of those who kept saying "it will get better" and "quitting is simple, its not easy, but it is simple". I especially like that one.
I never really believed it would get better until recently. Maybe its just my quit, not trying to discourage new quitters and say its utter hell for 60 days, maybe their quit will be easier and it'll get better sooner than me.
Guard is still up but I thought I would post a positive uplifting post for a change.
Thanks,
Ross
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Day 60-
I feel like today is an accomplishment that I am more proud of than any other mile marker. Day 3, day 10, 20, even 50. Dont know why 60 is the day where I really feel proud and not as bummed about the seemingly small numbers before today.
I am still on the lookout for the nic bitch as she has snuck up on me many times 'Remshot' , i just blast her away.
Thanks to all of those who kept saying "it will get better" and "quitting is simple, its not easy, but it is simple". I especially like that one.
I never really believed it would get better until recently. Maybe its just my quit, not trying to discourage new quitters and say its utter hell for 60 days, maybe their quit will be easier and it'll get better sooner than me.
Guard is still up but I thought I would post a positive uplifting post for a change.
Thanks,
Ross
Congrats Ross! 60 is not a small number - 60 is awesome and you should be proud of yourself!
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Day 60-
I feel like today is an accomplishment that I am more proud of than any other mile marker. Day 3, day 10, 20, even 50. Dont know why 60 is the day where I really feel proud and not as bummed about the seemingly small numbers before today.Â
I am still on the lookout for the nic bitch as she has snuck up on me many times 'Remshot' , i just blast her away.
Thanks to all of those who kept saying "it will get better" and "quitting is simple, its not easy, but it is simple". I especially like that one.Â
I never really believed it would get better until recently. Maybe its just my quit, not trying to discourage new quitters and say its utter hell for 60 days, maybe their quit will be easier and it'll get better sooner than me.
Guard is still up but I thought I would post a positive uplifting post for a change.Â
Thanks,
Ross
Congrats Ross! 60 is not a small number - 60 is awesome and you should be proud of yourself!
Congrats my brother. I am right there with you. It is good to take the occasional step back to see what we have accomplished so far. Glad to quit in Sept with you.
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Day 60-
I feel like today is an accomplishment that I am more proud of than any other mile marker. Day 3, day 10, 20, even 50. Dont know why 60 is the day where I really feel proud and not as bummed about the seemingly small numbers before today.Â
I am still on the lookout for the nic bitch as she has snuck up on me many times 'Remshot' , i just blast her away.
Thanks to all of those who kept saying "it will get better" and "quitting is simple, its not easy, but it is simple". I especially like that one.Â
I never really believed it would get better until recently. Maybe its just my quit, not trying to discourage new quitters and say its utter hell for 60 days, maybe their quit will be easier and it'll get better sooner than me.
Guard is still up but I thought I would post a positive uplifting post for a change.Â
Thanks,
Ross
Congrats Ross! 60 is not a small number - 60 is awesome and you should be proud of yourself!
Congrats my brother. I am right there with you. It is good to take the occasional step back to see what we have accomplished so far. Glad to quit in Sept with you.
60 is awesome Ross! My guess on why this number feels so good to you is as follows...
I think you are starting to realize that you are winning. I think you know the recipe for victory... wake up, post roll, stay quit ODAAT, repeat next day. I think you know the fight is still on and you are not backing down. I think you love being Free! I think you see that caving is not an option and there will be no turning back to the poison weed. I think you are damn proud to be 60 days quit be part of September.
That is just my guess. Regardless, I am proud to be quit with you today!
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Today Marks Day 90,
Seems crazy to me that I've made this mile marker. Never ever thought I could make it, especially in the beginning. Just took it one day at a time and had the, "fuck no, I'm not giving." in mentality. It still tests me to be sure, i crave here and there but I have to tools to bat that shit away.
I am very proud at this moment and thought I would take the time to write it down.
Stay Quit. LET THE HOF COUNTDOWN BEGIN
Ross
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Awesome work Ross, congrats on 90! 3 months!!
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Day 124
I have not been on KTC for quite some time now. Things have been much better since the beginning days. night and day difference. Anyone in the beginning stages hang in there it is the best decision of your life. ALWAYS keep your guard up because no matter how long you have been nic free, that stubborn bitch will sneak up on you at the most unexpected times.
Engaged as of couple weeks ago, job promotion. Cannot complain on my end.
Stay quit. ODAAT
Ross