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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Tazbutane on November 25, 2012, 07:27:00 PM
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Hey Everyone, Just posted in the March quit group, so I thought I would introduce myself. I have been dipping Cope for about 30 years now. Damn, I did not realize it had been that long until I just did the math....
First time I swore I would quit was when the cost of a tin went over a $1.00. I paid $4.25 a couple of days ago for one, guess I got a little lost along the way ;-)
I quit drinking over 6 years ago (April 10, 2006) I swear nicotine is harder to stop in some ways than that was.
Day by day worked for that quit also, looking forward to daily roll calls to keep me going.
thanks,
Steve
edited to change title at tazbutane's request - 30yrAddict
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Hey Everyone, Just posted in the March quit group, so I thought I would introduce myself. I have been dipping Cope for about 30 years now. Damn, I did not realize it had been that long until I just did the math....
First time I swore I would quit was when the cost of a tin went over a $1.00. I paid $4.25 a couple of days ago for one, guess I got a little lost along the way ;-)
I quit drinking over 6 years ago (April 10, 2006) I swear nicotine is harder to stop in some ways than that was.
Day by day worked for that quit also, looking forward to daily roll calls to keep me going.
thanks,
Steve
Welcome Steve!
We all got lost along the way. This is the place to get this done. You can do this.
Good to have you aboard! Check your inbox (1)
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Steve
x2 what 30 said. Inbox(2)
For me it's about freedom! It feels sooo good to be in control!
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Something I have found useful in my quit:
Meditation
It doesn’t have to be done sitting cross legged on the ground with incense burning while chanting ‘ohhhmmm’ either (although that may also work).
There are plenty of online resources as well as several good books out there that can help to get you started.
In a nutshell, Meditation is simply focusing on one thing, and pushing all other thoughts out of your head.
It takes practice; and I am in no way an expert at it, but it has been invaluable to me over the years and in my current quit.
Anyway, just thought I would share.
Any tool that can help in our quit right?
Steve
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Something I have found useful in my quit:
Meditation
It doesn’t have to be done sitting cross legged on the ground with incense burning while chanting ‘ohhhmmm’ either (although that may also work).
There are plenty of online resources as well as several good books out there that can help to get you started.
In a nutshell, Meditation is simply focusing on one thing, and pushing all other thoughts out of your head.
It takes practice; and I am in no way an expert at it, but it has been invaluable to me over the years and in my current quit.
Anyway, just thought I would share.
Any tool that can help in our quit right?
Steve
A quitter here introduced me to that a little while ago, every since I've done it at least once a week. It's pretty damn relaxing and help relieve a lot of stress. I.e. it helps me with my quit. I got started with a couple YouTube videos and went from there, it can absolutely be an another ally in your quit. I was thinkin just the other day how, like cranberry juice. I wish I learned about it earlier in my quit.
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Something I have found useful in my quit:
Meditation
It doesn’t have to be done sitting cross legged on the ground with incense burning while chanting ‘ohhhmmm’ either (although that may also work).
There are plenty of online resources as well as several good books out there that can help to get you started.
In a nutshell, Meditation is simply focusing on one thing, and pushing all other thoughts out of your head.
It takes practice; and I am in no way an expert at it, but it has been invaluable to me over the years and in my current quit.
Anyway, just thought I would share.
Any tool that can help in our quit right?
Steve
Whatever you do...just keep doing it.
Stopping is a decision. It lacks focus, but entails actions.
Quitting is focus and action.
Proud of you man
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I am going to follow the trend I have been seeing and use my introduction page as a journal of my quit journey.
Day 14
No serious quit issues up to this point, I believe there are several reasons for this:
1. This is not my first addiction quit, I have been sober since April 10th, 2006
2. I have spent a lot of time on this site, reading everything I can, getting involved where I feel comfortable and going in to live chat every night.
3. Daily accountablility of roll call. Worked for Alcoholism, works for nicotineism (what do you call nicotine addiction anyways - besides stupid....).
So after 14 days:
I am sleeping a little better, especially after I cut down on the massive amounts of caffiene I have been used to drinking. This is probably another addiction I need to work on, I will just slow down for now, can't give up to much at once.
Cravings are getting weaker and shorter Woo hoo!
I am getting the names and numbers of a ton of people. Some from the March 2013 group I belong to and some from the kick ass veterans on the site. Texting occasionally with them more for practice than real need at this point. forming relationships now will make it easier to talk to them later when needed.
I can see some friendships developing and plan on remaining active here for a long time.
Plenty of drama on the site over the last two weeks, I expect that is normal for a site filled with addicts in the midst of giving up there vice.
March 2013 has had numoursous people coming and going on a daily basis. It is nice to see so many people attempting to quit everyday. Sad to see so many leaving after only a day or two.
I will never go through another two weeks like the last two.
Looking forward to whatever changes are still coming. All around attitude seems to be much better. I am keeping vigilant at all times to keep the funk away. Like the Boy Scout motto says: Be prepared!
Semper Fidelis
Taz
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I am going to follow the trend I have been seeing and use my introduction page as a journal of my quit journey.
Day 14
No serious quit issues up to this point, I believe there are several reasons for this:
1. This is not my first addiction quit, I have been sober since April 10th, 2006
2. I have spent a lot of time on this site, reading everything I can, getting involved where I feel comfortable and going in to live chat every night.
3. Daily accountablility of roll call. Worked for Alcoholism, works for nicotineism (what do you call nicotine addiction anyways - besides stupid....).
So after 14 days:
I am sleeping a little better, especially after I cut down on the massive amounts of caffiene I have been used to drinking. This is probably another addiction I need to work on, I will just slow down for now, can't give up to much at once.
Cravings are getting weaker and shorter Woo hoo!
I am getting the names and numbers of a ton of people. Some from the March 2013 group I belong to and some from the kick ass veterans on the site. Texting occasionally with them more for practice than real need at this point. forming relationships now will make it easier to talk to them later when needed.
I can see some friendships developing and plan on remaining active here for a long time.
Plenty of drama on the site over the last two weeks, I expect that is normal for a site filled with addicts in the midst of giving up there vice.
March 2013 has had numoursous people coming and going on a daily basis. It is nice to see so many people attempting to quit everyday. Sad to see so many leaving after only a day or two.
I will never go through another two weeks like the last two.
Looking forward to whatever changes are still coming. All around attitude seems to be much better. I am keeping vigilant at all times to keep the funk away. Like the Boy Scout motto says: Be prepared!
Semper Fidelis
Taz
Nice work man, keep it up!
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I am going to follow the trend I have been seeing and use my introduction page as a journal of my quit journey.
Day 14
No serious quit issues up to this point, I believe there are several reasons for this:
1. This is not my first addiction quit, I have been sober since April 10th, 2006
2. I have spent a lot of time on this site, reading everything I can, getting involved where I feel comfortable and going in to live chat every night.
3. Daily accountablility of roll call. Worked for Alcoholism, works for nicotineism (what do you call nicotine addiction anyways - besides stupid....).
So after 14 days:
I am sleeping a little better, especially after I cut down on the massive amounts of caffiene I have been used to drinking. This is probably another addiction I need to work on, I will just slow down for now, can't give up to much at once.
Cravings are getting weaker and shorter Woo hoo!
I am getting the names and numbers of a ton of people. Some from the March 2013 group I belong to and some from the kick ass veterans on the site. Texting occasionally with them more for practice than real need at this point. forming relationships now will make it easier to talk to them later when needed.
I can see some friendships developing and plan on remaining active here for a long time.
Plenty of drama on the site over the last two weeks, I expect that is normal for a site filled with addicts in the midst of giving up there vice.
March 2013 has had numoursous people coming and going on a daily basis. It is nice to see so many people attempting to quit everyday. Sad to see so many leaving after only a day or two.
I will never go through another two weeks like the last two.
Looking forward to whatever changes are still coming. All around attitude seems to be much better. I am keeping vigilant at all times to keep the funk away. Like the Boy Scout motto says: Be prepared!
Semper Fidelis
Taz
You're doing good...gettin stronger each day.....A life of quit is your destiny!
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I am going to follow the trend I have been seeing and use my introduction page as a journal of my quit journey.
Day 14
No serious quit issues up to this point, I believe there are several reasons for this:
1. This is not my first addiction quit, I have been sober since April 10th, 2006
2. I have spent a lot of time on this site, reading everything I can, getting involved where I feel comfortable and going in to live chat every night.
3. Daily accountablility of roll call. Worked for Alcoholism, works for nicotineism (what do you call nicotine addiction anyways - besides stupid....).
So after 14 days:
I am sleeping a little better, especially after I cut down on the massive amounts of caffiene I have been used to drinking. This is probably another addiction I need to work on, I will just slow down for now, can't give up to much at once.
Cravings are getting weaker and shorter Woo hoo!
I am getting the names and numbers of a ton of people. Some from the March 2013 group I belong to and some from the kick ass veterans on the site. Texting occasionally with them more for practice than real need at this point. forming relationships now will make it easier to talk to them later when needed.
I can see some friendships developing and plan on remaining active here for a long time.
Plenty of drama on the site over the last two weeks, I expect that is normal for a site filled with addicts in the midst of giving up there vice.
March 2013 has had numoursous people coming and going on a daily basis. It is nice to see so many people attempting to quit everyday. Sad to see so many leaving after only a day or two.
I will never go through another two weeks like the last two.
Looking forward to whatever changes are still coming. All around attitude seems to be much better. I am keeping vigilant at all times to keep the funk away. Like the Boy Scout motto says: Be prepared!
Semper Fidelis
Taz
You're doing good...gettin stronger each day.....A life of quit is your destiny!
Tazi!!!! You get it, you're a leader, you're the man. Keep rocking it and DON'T lose sight of why we are here brother!
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I am going to follow the trend I have been seeing and use my introduction page as a journal of my quit journey.
Day 14
No serious quit issues up to this point, I believe there are several reasons for this:
1. This is not my first addiction quit, I have been sober since April 10th, 2006
2. I have spent a lot of time on this site, reading everything I can, getting involved where I feel comfortable and going in to live chat every night.
3. Daily accountablility of roll call. Worked for Alcoholism, works for nicotineism (what do you call nicotine addiction anyways - besides stupid....).
So after 14 days:
I am sleeping a little better, especially after I cut down on the massive amounts of caffiene I have been used to drinking. This is probably another addiction I need to work on, I will just slow down for now, can't give up to much at once.
Cravings are getting weaker and shorter Woo hoo!
I am getting the names and numbers of a ton of people. Some from the March 2013 group I belong to and some from the kick ass veterans on the site. Texting occasionally with them more for practice than real need at this point. forming relationships now will make it easier to talk to them later when needed.
I can see some friendships developing and plan on remaining active here for a long time.
Plenty of drama on the site over the last two weeks, I expect that is normal for a site filled with addicts in the midst of giving up there vice.
March 2013 has had numoursous people coming and going on a daily basis. It is nice to see so many people attempting to quit everyday. Sad to see so many leaving after only a day or two.
I will never go through another two weeks like the last two.
Looking forward to whatever changes are still coming. All around attitude seems to be much better. I am keeping vigilant at all times to keep the funk away. Like the Boy Scout motto says: Be prepared!
Semper Fidelis
Taz
You're doing good...gettin stronger each day.....A life of quit is your destiny!
Tazi!!!! You get it, you're a leader, you're the man. Keep rocking it and DON'T lose sight of why we are here brother!
Hey Taz -- Everything you say here is spot on. There is a slew of things this site offers : support, friendship, drama, humor, etc etc. I love being here. I love the people - 99% of whom I will never meet in person - that I have met here. I love the fact that I quit dipping 193 days ago and this site helped/helps me continue to quit. You are in the right place bro. Keep doin whatcha do! Quit with you..
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Posting this in my intro and on March 2013's page:
Day 19
We had a 'high profile' qutter join our group yesterday. One night of drinking, one dip, and 140+ days of quit out the window.
That sucks for him, but will be good for our group.
A word of caution however:
I quit drinking for the last time April 10th 2006.
Before that I had a long list of quit days. They all started with just one drink.
Being quit for a period of time, caving once and then qutting again is extremely dangerous and tempting! Do not fall for the trap.
I would have a bad day and say to myself:
"self, remember 6 weeks ago when you drank one night and then quit again? You got this licked,
you can drink again tonight to take care of all your troubles today and quit again tomorrow. Easy peasy."
I did that for several years before I realized you cannot just one, ever.
You know what taking just one does?
You lose all of the days quit you worked so hard to build up.
You lose all of the trust you worked so hard to gain.
You put your addict brain right back to day one!!!!
Taking one is a slippery slope that will turn into a cliff in an instant.
How many people have you heard of on this board who caved once and then quit again the next day?
I have not read about any yet.
I sincerely hope this is the first and last time that I do hear this story, becuase it is all to familiar to me.
Posting day 1 again is exactly that, posting day 1 again.
The physical withdrawal symptoms will not be there. But the mind games start all over.
If we can do anything to help pm us with your number, we are a group of fairly new but bad ass quitters.
I am not a writer and have difficulty putting my thoughts on paper, hopefully this makes sense.
Stay strong and stay vigilant.
Day by day brothers.
Peace-out.
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Taz, you're the real deal man, keep it up. I promise you, if I can quit for 135 days then YOU SIR can quit!!!!!
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Taz, you're the real deal man, keep it up. I promise you, if I can quit for 135 days then YOU SIR can quit!!!!!
He's right Taz. Same goes for me. If I can quit you can too! I went 26 years without missing a day of poisoning myself (unless I was really sick). I never tried to quit until the day I showed up here. It can be done. As the days start to pile up for you, you will start to believe. Its a great feeling! Keep up the good work.
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Posting this in my intro and on March 2013's page:
Day 19
We had a 'high profile' qutter join our group yesterday. One night of drinking, one dip, and 140+ days of quit out the window.
That sucks for him, but will be good for our group.
A word of caution however:
I quit drinking for the last time April 10th 2006.
Before that I had a long list of quit days. They all started with just one drink.
Being quit for a period of time, caving once and then qutting again is extremely dangerous and tempting! Do not fall for the trap.
I would have a bad day and say to myself:
"self, remember 6 weeks ago when you drank one night and then quit again? You got this licked,
you can drink again tonight to take care of all your troubles today and quit again tomorrow. Easy peasy."
I did that for several years before I realized you cannot just one, ever.
You know what taking just one does?
You lose all of the days quit you worked so hard to build up.
You lose all of the trust you worked so hard to gain.
You put your addict brain right back to day one!!!!
Taking one is a slippery slope that will turn into a cliff in an instant.
How many people have you heard of on this board who caved once and then quit again the next day?
I have not read about any yet.
I sincerely hope this is the first and last time that I do hear this story, becuase it is all to familiar to me.
Posting day 1 again is exactly that, posting day 1 again.
The physical withdrawal symptoms will not be there. But the mind games start all over.
If we can do anything to help pm us with your number, we are a group of fairly new but bad ass quitters.
I am not a writer and have difficulty putting my thoughts on paper, hopefully this makes sense.
Stay strong and stay vigilant.
Day by day brothers.
Peace-out.
Great quitting here - and I do believe you are grabbing this quit by the horns and controlling it....you, my friend, GET it.
The one thing I would differ with is this:
"Posting day 1 again is exactly that, posting day 1 again."
Actually, it isn't just posting Day 1 again. Within that new day one, you have broken a bond, failed to hold yourself to the standards you have agreed to by joining us here, and failed to maintain your integrity, therefore potentially threatening the integrity of each and every other quitter you come in contact with - how can we trust that caver to be there in the moment that we may need that extra support when we are on the edge? It's like any structure....once that initial integrity is broken, the original strength is never as strong and grows weaker with each new fracture.
Keep it strong from the beginning. Caving is not an option.
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Posting this in my intro and on March 2013's page:
Day 19
We had a 'high profile' qutter join our group yesterday. One night of drinking, one dip, and 140+ days of quit out the window.
That sucks for him, but will be good for our group.
A word of caution however:
I quit drinking for the last time April 10th 2006.
Before that I had a long list of quit days. They all started with just one drink.
Being quit for a period of time, caving once and then qutting again is extremely dangerous and tempting! Do not fall for the trap.
I would have a bad day and say to myself:
"self, remember 6 weeks ago when you drank one night and then quit again? You got this licked,
you can drink again tonight to take care of all your troubles today and quit again tomorrow. Easy peasy."
I did that for several years before I realized you cannot just one, ever.
You know what taking just one does?
You lose all of the days quit you worked so hard to build up.
You lose all of the trust you worked so hard to gain.
You put your addict brain right back to day one!!!!
Taking one is a slippery slope that will turn into a cliff in an instant.
How many people have you heard of on this board who caved once and then quit again the next day?
I have not read about any yet.
I sincerely hope this is the first and last time that I do hear this story, becuase it is all to familiar to me.
Posting day 1 again is exactly that, posting day 1 again.
The physical withdrawal symptoms will not be there. But the mind games start all over.
If we can do anything to help pm us with your number, we are a group of fairly new but bad ass quitters.
I am not a writer and have difficulty putting my thoughts on paper, hopefully this makes sense.
Stay strong and stay vigilant.
Day by day brothers.
Peace-out.
Great quitting here - and I do believe you are grabbing this quit by the horns and controlling it....you, my friend, GET it.
The one thing I would differ with is this:
"Posting day 1 again is exactly that, posting day 1 again."
Actually, it isn't just posting Day 1 again. Within that new day one, you have broken a bond, failed to hold yourself to the standards you have agreed to by joining us here, and failed to maintain your integrity, therefore potentially threatening the integrity of each and every other quitter you come in contact with - how can we trust that caver to be there in the moment that we may need that extra support when we are on the edge? It's like any structure....once that initial integrity is broken, the original strength is never as strong and grows weaker with each new fracture.
Keep it strong from the beginning. Caving is not an option.
Nice quittin Taz.. doesn't matter who's in your group as long as you've made a choice. I wouldn't build my house with a cracked brick though. I'd use a different ones.. I haven't had a drink in 8 years. one less worry for us. The only thing that feels better than my quit is never having a hangover! Keep strong brother, one day at a time.. Today I'm free...
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Taz, you're the real deal man, keep it up. I promise you, if I can quit for 135 days then YOU SIR can quit!!!!!
He's right Taz. Same goes for me. If I can quit you can too! I went 26 years without missing a day of poisoning myself (unless I was really sick). I never tried to quit until the day I showed up here. It can be done. As the days start to pile up for you, you will start to believe. Its a great feeling! Keep up the good work.
Dude I dipped the same day I had a tooth extracted. Fucking nicotine I hate you.
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Taz, you're the real deal man, keep it up. I promise you, if I can quit for 135 days then YOU SIR can quit!!!!!
He's right Taz. Same goes for me. If I can quit you can too! I went 26 years without missing a day of poisoning myself (unless I was really sick). I never tried to quit until the day I showed up here. It can be done. As the days start to pile up for you, you will start to believe. Its a great feeling! Keep up the good work.
Dude I dipped the same day I had a tooth extracted. Fucking nicotine I hate you.
I dipped 3 cans one day when I strep throat.
Not because it was going well either. I was literally screaming in pain.
I'd put one in to get my fix, my throat would flare up something horrible, I'd moan out some gross sound, flick the shit in the trashcan...and then repeat this process a minute or so later.
Ironically, the final can I gave up on and went to bed. By then the antibiotics had kicked in and it wasn't as sore...so I bought a fresh can the next morning.
Fast forward a few weeks...I was out of chew, and looking for backup cans. Found my strep throat can. Chewed that, and then....Voila! Strep throat (and this whole process all over again)!!!
'bang head'
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Taz, you're the real deal man, keep it up. I promise you, if I can quit for 135 days then YOU SIR can quit!!!!!
He's right Taz. Same goes for me. If I can quit you can too! I went 26 years without missing a day of poisoning myself (unless I was really sick). I never tried to quit until the day I showed up here. It can be done. As the days start to pile up for you, you will start to believe. Its a great feeling! Keep up the good work.
Dude I dipped the same day I had a tooth extracted. Fucking nicotine I hate you.
I had all four wisdom teeth pulled and could barely eat for a week. Didn't stop me from dipping though.
I figure if I work half as hard on my quit as I worked to get my fix on a daily basis there is no way I can fail!
I just have to do it every single day. I sure as hell never missed a day of dipping for 30 years.
Now I just need to not miss a day of quitting dipping for the next 30....
Easy peasy.
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Taz, you're the real deal man, keep it up. I promise you, if I can quit for 135 days then YOU SIR can quit!!!!!
He's right Taz. Same goes for me. If I can quit you can too! I went 26 years without missing a day of poisoning myself (unless I was really sick). I never tried to quit until the day I showed up here. It can be done. As the days start to pile up for you, you will start to believe. Its a great feeling! Keep up the good work.
Dude I dipped the same day I had a tooth extracted. Fucking nicotine I hate you.
I had all four wisdom teeth pulled and could barely eat for a week. Didn't stop me from dipping though.
I figure if I work half as hard on my quit as I worked to get my fix on a daily basis there is no way I can fail!
I just have to do it every single day. I sure as hell never missed a day of dipping for 30 years.
Now I just need to not miss a day of quitting dipping for the next 30....
Easy peasy.
man thats crazy. I had all four pulled at the same time in January, 2 were impacted, 1 got dry socket, and I was able to survive without dip for about 4 days, of course I planned for it and had a nicotine patch on during it. I actually told myself I was gonna quit then after I made the 4 days, went to the store to buy fake shit, instead bought grizz and that was the end of that.
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Taz, you're the real deal man, keep it up. I promise you, if I can quit for 135 days then YOU SIR can quit!!!!!
He's right Taz. Same goes for me. If I can quit you can too! I went 26 years without missing a day of poisoning myself (unless I was really sick). I never tried to quit until the day I showed up here. It can be done. As the days start to pile up for you, you will start to believe. Its a great feeling! Keep up the good work.
Dude I dipped the same day I had a tooth extracted. Fucking nicotine I hate you.
I had all four wisdom teeth pulled and could barely eat for a week. Didn't stop me from dipping though.
I figure if I work half as hard on my quit as I worked to get my fix on a daily basis there is no way I can fail!
I just have to do it every single day. I sure as hell never missed a day of dipping for 30 years.
Now I just need to not miss a day of quitting dipping for the next 30....
Easy peasy.
man thats crazy. I had all four pulled at the same time in January, 2 were impacted, 1 got dry socket, and I was able to survive without dip for about 4 days, of course I planned for it and had a nicotine patch on during it. I actually told myself I was gonna quit then after I made the 4 days, went to the store to buy fake shit, instead bought grizz and that was the end of that.
Us jarheads aint exactly known for our brains. I was basically on a self perscribed liquid diet of alcohol to deal with the pain. A week later I was mostly all better.... 'Crazy'
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Taz, you're the real deal man, keep it up. I promise you, if I can quit for 135 days then YOU SIR can quit!!!!!
He's right Taz. Same goes for me. If I can quit you can too! I went 26 years without missing a day of poisoning myself (unless I was really sick). I never tried to quit until the day I showed up here. It can be done. As the days start to pile up for you, you will start to believe. Its a great feeling! Keep up the good work.
Dude I dipped the same day I had a tooth extracted. Fucking nicotine I hate you.
I had all four wisdom teeth pulled and could barely eat for a week. Didn't stop me from dipping though.
I figure if I work half as hard on my quit as I worked to get my fix on a daily basis there is no way I can fail!
I just have to do it every single day. I sure as hell never missed a day of dipping for 30 years.
Now I just need to not miss a day of quitting dipping for the next 30....
Easy peasy.
man thats crazy. I had all four pulled at the same time in January, 2 were impacted, 1 got dry socket, and I was able to survive without dip for about 4 days, of course I planned for it and had a nicotine patch on during it. I actually told myself I was gonna quit then after I made the 4 days, went to the store to buy fake shit, instead bought grizz and that was the end of that.
Us jarheads aint exactly known for our brains. I was basically on a self perscribed liquid diet of alcohol to deal with the pain. A week later I was mostly all better.... 'Crazy'
I like taz....
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Day 31
1 month quit after 30 years of addiction - not a bad start.
I will remain quit today.
I would like to thank everyone on this site.
The amount of support I have seen and have personally received over the last month is overwhelming.
I will remain quit today.
I have not tried to do the math; but I bet I have witnessed more people join and leave the site
than have managed to remain quit for more than 7 days.
That is one hell of a indication of how addictive nicotene is.
I will remain quit today.
I had my last dip on Thanksgiving day 2012 and as I write this it is 2 days before Christmas.
It seemed like a good time to put something down on 'paper', and give thanks to everyone here.
Even seeing all of the people come and go have helped me keep my quit strong.
I will remain quit today.
31 days and a lot of people have come and gone.
Some were quit for long periods of time, left and returned after caving.
A couple of people never left but still posted new day 1's.
I am guessing this is a cycle that will continue every month.
I will remain quit today.
I have added 20+ new phone numbers in my phone this month
All starting with KTC so I can find them easily when I need them.
I will remain quit today.
I would like to thank all of the moderators and administators that keep this site up and running.
KTC is a life saver for many people, including myself.
I try not to look to the future when thinking about my quit, it is a day by day affair.
I do plan on staying active; as have many others here, as a means of saying thanks to everyone here.
I will remain quit today.
Soon enough we will be starting a new year, I will be healthier than I have been in a very long time.
I do not make new years resolutions; but I do make new day resolutions, every morning when I post roll.
I will remain quit today.
Thanks to eveyone
Steve/Tazbutane
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Day 31
1 month quit after 30 years of addiction - not a bad start.
I will remain quit today.
I would like to thank everyone on this site.
The amount of support I have seen and have personally received over the last month is overwhelming.
I will remain quit today.
I have not tried to do the math; but I bet I have witnessed more people join and leave the site
than have managed to remain quit for more than 7 days.
That is one hell of a indication of how addictive nicotene is.
I will remain quit today.
I had my last dip on Thanksgiving day 2012 and as I write this it is 2 days before Christmas.
It seemed like a good time to put something down on 'paper', and give thanks to everyone here.
Even seeing all of the people come and go have helped me keep my quit strong.
I will remain quit today.
31 days and a lot of people have come and gone.
Some were quit for long periods of time, left and returned after caving.
A couple of people never left but still posted new day 1's.
I am guessing this is a cycle that will continue every month.
I will remain quit today.
I have added 20+ new phone numbers in my phone this month
All starting with KTC so I can find them easily when I need them.
I will remain quit today.
I would like to thank all of the moderators and administators that keep this site up and running.
KTC is a life saver for many people, including myself.
I try not to look to the future when thinking about my quit, it is a day by day affair.
I do plan on staying active; as have many others here, as a means of saying thanks to everyone here.
I will remain quit today.
Soon enough we will be starting a new year, I will be healthier than I have been in a very long time.
I do not make new years resolutions; but I do make new day resolutions, every morning when I post roll.
I will remain quit today.
Thanks to eveyone
Steve/Tazbutane
thank you sir taz.
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Day 31
1 month quit after 30 years of addiction - not a bad start.
I will remain quit today.
I would like to thank everyone on this site.
The amount of support I have seen and have personally received over the last month is overwhelming.
I will remain quit today.
I have not tried to do the math; but I bet I have witnessed more people join and leave the site
than have managed to remain quit for more than 7 days.
That is one hell of a indication of how addictive nicotene is.
I will remain quit today.
I had my last dip on Thanksgiving day 2012 and as I write this it is 2 days before Christmas.
It seemed like a good time to put something down on 'paper', and give thanks to everyone here.
Even seeing all of the people come and go have helped me keep my quit strong.
I will remain quit today.
31 days and a lot of people have come and gone.
Some were quit for long periods of time, left and returned after caving.
A couple of people never left but still posted new day 1's.
I am guessing this is a cycle that will continue every month.
I will remain quit today.
I have added 20+ new phone numbers in my phone this month
All starting with KTC so I can find them easily when IÂ need them.
I will remain quit today.
I would like to thank all of the moderators and administators that keep this site up and running.
KTC is a life saver for many people, including myself.
I try not to look to the future when thinking about my quit, it is a day by day affair.
I do plan on staying active; as have many others here, as a means of saying thanks to everyone here.
I will remain quit today.
Soon enough we will be starting a new year, I will be healthier than I have been in a very long time.
I do not make new years resolutions; but I do make new day resolutions, every morning when I post roll.
I will remain quit today.
Thanks to eveyone
Steve/Tazbutane
thank you sir taz.
Awesome post taz. It is an honor to have you here.
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No, thank you Taz.
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Its nice to see someone new with such a strong quit. Great job.
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Day 31
1 month quit after 30 years of addiction - not a bad start.
I will remain quit today.
I would like to thank everyone on this site.
The amount of support I have seen and have personally received over the last month is overwhelming.
I will remain quit today.
I have not tried to do the math; but I bet I have witnessed more people join and leave the site
than have managed to remain quit for more than 7 days.
That is one hell of a indication of how addictive nicotene is.
I will remain quit today.
I had my last dip on Thanksgiving day 2012 and as I write this it is 2 days before Christmas.
It seemed like a good time to put something down on 'paper', and give thanks to everyone here.
Even seeing all of the people come and go have helped me keep my quit strong.
I will remain quit today.
31 days and a lot of people have come and gone.
Some were quit for long periods of time, left and returned after caving.
A couple of people never left but still posted new day 1's.
I am guessing this is a cycle that will continue every month.
I will remain quit today.
I have added 20+ new phone numbers in my phone this month
All starting with KTC so I can find them easily when IÂ need them.
I will remain quit today.
I would like to thank all of the moderators and administators that keep this site up and running.
KTC is a life saver for many people, including myself.
I try not to look to the future when thinking about my quit, it is a day by day affair.
I do plan on staying active; as have many others here, as a means of saying thanks to everyone here.
I will remain quit today.
Soon enough we will be starting a new year, I will be healthier than I have been in a very long time.
I do not make new years resolutions; but I do make new day resolutions, every morning when I post roll.
I will remain quit today.
Thanks to eveyone
Steve/Tazbutane
thank you sir taz.
Awesome post taz. It is an honor to have you here.
Good stuff Taz, makes my quit tingle.
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Day 31
1 month quit after 30 years of addiction - not a bad start.
I will remain quit today.
I would like to thank everyone on this site.
The amount of support I have seen and have personally received over the last month is overwhelming.
I will remain quit today.
I have not tried to do the math; but I bet I have witnessed more people join and leave the site
than have managed to remain quit for more than 7 days.
That is one hell of a indication of how addictive nicotene is.
I will remain quit today.
I had my last dip on Thanksgiving day 2012 and as I write this it is 2 days before Christmas.
It seemed like a good time to put something down on 'paper', and give thanks to everyone here.
Even seeing all of the people come and go have helped me keep my quit strong.
I will remain quit today.
31 days and a lot of people have come and gone.
Some were quit for long periods of time, left and returned after caving.
A couple of people never left but still posted new day 1's.
I am guessing this is a cycle that will continue every month.
I will remain quit today.
I have added 20+ new phone numbers in my phone this month
All starting with KTC so I can find them easily when I� need them.
I will remain quit today.
I would like to thank all of the moderators and administators that keep this site up and running.
KTC is a life saver for many people, including myself.
I try not to look to the future when thinking about my quit, it is a day by day affair.
I do plan on staying active; as have many others here, as a means of saying thanks to everyone here.
I will remain quit today.
Soon enough we will be starting a new year, I will be healthier than I have been in a very long time.
I do not make new years resolutions; but I do make new day resolutions, every morning when I post roll.
I will remain quit today.
Thanks to eveyone
Steve/Tazbutane
thank you sir taz.
Awesome post taz. It is an honor to have you here.
Good stuff Taz, makes my quit tingle.
Nice work and all good reflection points. The site can seem to be cyclical in that you will see people come and go, and come back again. You will see people go silent for periods of time and return with a new fire in their belly as well. Nicotine is an addict's gold if they let it be. Far more addictive than other drugs and so much more acceptable to the general public. That is part of its allure. Do not EVER be enticed by its shiny appearance. Death always wears a disguise to hide its true identity.
Keep on quittin' on!
QLAFM
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Congratulations brother on hitting the hall. Outstanding shit.
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Congratulations brother on hitting the hall. Outstanding shit.
Thank you brother!
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Sorry for the long read, I tend to ramble:
Hi my name is Tazbutane (Steve) and I am an addict..... What I am not, is a writer...
I still remember the first time I was offered a 'dip' of copenhagen, of course I accepted. I was 16 years old, and at Huntington Beach on the shores of Lake Erie in Bay Village Ohio. It did not take long until I was dipping on a regular basis.
I stopped for 84 days while I was in boot camp from November 19th 1984 to February 25th 1985. One of the first things I did when I got back home? Put in a dip of copenhagen of course! If only I knew back then the money I could have saved and the ride I was in for......
I was arrogant enough back then not to hide it from my parents. Ironically enough they were both smokers and quit when I was in high school because us kids kept harping on them about the smell. Hell I was a Marine and invincible! My parents kept sending me articles about how bad it was for me; sending pictures of people with mouth cancer and stuff, man I thought I was so much smarter than they were!
3 years into my service and I am getting a physical before being sent overseas to Okinawa. The dentist tells me I need to go get a consult because of receding gum lines and I might need to get a gum graft. That scared me into quitting for a couple of weeks, until I had the consult and the doc told me it wasn't that serious and no graft was needed. So back to the can I go. Yet another wasted quit opportunity. I swore I was going to quit when the price went over one dollar a can. That promise came and went as did many others.
Back to civilian life, working full time and going to school part time, living pay check to pay check but I still managed to scrape together the money for beer and tobacco. Money was so tight I started double dipping at that point, putting a used dip back in the can for later. Sick, the levels I would go to.
Fast forward 25 years. I have been married for 17 years and have two daughters age 11 and 13. I am 46 years old and sneaking down into our basement every night to get my fix, how pathetic is that???? I was a ninja dipper around my family; They new I did it, but I was ashamed enough not to flaunt it around them. You see, at this point I all ready knew about addictions, I am a non-practicing alcoholic and have been sober for over 6 years. It took me several years of on-the -wagon/off-the-wagon before I got that quit right. I believe every one of my caves during that time was planned, I would start thinking about how it would be OK to have just one and start dwelling on it. If you ever find yourself thinking to much about having just one, or reminiscing about it you better find something else to start thinking about immediately!
I have been trying to stop using nicotine for the last 6 years. Every time we went on vacation, every new year, every holiday and every sobriety date (you know, how cool would it be to have the same quit date for alcohol and nicotine). Hell almost every single night I went to bed I swore I would quit tomorrow. Whenever my wife would get fed up with my dipping; normally after finding a spitter, or a used can somewhere she would confront me about it. I would tell her I all ready gave up drinking, she couldn't expect me to give up everything I enjoyed! What a shit I was. Even my parents were willing to accept my use of nicotine as a trade off for having me sober.
Live chat was a life saver for me the first couple of weeks. One of my first nights in live chat and someone mentioned posting support in other groups was a good way to show support for each other. So I started posting in every month of 2012 and 2013. He was right, a number of people noticed and started posting support in March and sending me PM's with there numbers. From that I learned to give my number out, a lot. Everyone in March 2013 has been sent my number at least once. If you want to build some accountability start sending PM's with your phone number out. I was actively posting on the site and texting with many people, often on a daily basis. I probably have 2 dozen names in my phone of people that are no longer active members on the site. Another thing I have learned is you have to protect your own quit. When someone caves without calling you, that is on them. Even if they call you first and then cave, that is on them. You can only help someone that wants to be helped.
Reading the Words of Wisdom and HOF speeches were also inspirational. All of you have helped me get to this point in my quit, why would I stop doing what has worked so far? I am posting in about 2 dozen groups more often than not and trying to keep up with the introductions. There are also several groups in the 'Wildcard' community that I like to follow. Ya'll are stuck with me for the foreseeable future, fair warning ;-).
100 + days and here I am nicotine free, thanks to my family, KTC and all of the great people on this site. I would like to thank everyone that has been instrumental in my quit, but there are to many people to name names. My family asking me what day I am on, all of the vets that posted support in March 2013 and all of my March 2013 brothers.
Enough rambling... I am truly thankful for this site and all of you that strengthen my quit on a daily basis. I truly believe the only way to remain quit is to do it one day at a time (ODAAT).
Steve
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Sorry for the long read, I tend to ramble:
Hi my name is Tazbutane (Steve) and I am an addict..... What I am not, is a writer...
I still remember the first time I was offered a 'dip' of copenhagen, of course I accepted. I was 16 years old, and at Huntington Beach on the shores of Lake Erie in Bay Village Ohio. It did not take long until I was dipping on a regular basis.
I stopped for 84 days while I was in boot camp from November 19th 1984 to February 25th 1985. One of the first things I did when I got back home? Put in a dip of copenhagen of course! If only I knew back then the money I could have saved and the ride I was in for......
I was arrogant enough back then not to hide it from my parents. Ironically enough they were both smokers and quit when I was in high school because us kids kept harping on them about the smell. Hell I was a Marine and invincible! My parents kept sending me articles about how bad it was for me; sending pictures of people with mouth cancer and stuff, man I thought I was so much smarter than they were!
3 years into my service and I am getting a physical before being sent overseas to Okinawa. The dentist tells me I need to go get a consult because of receding gum lines and I might need to get a gum graft. That scared me into quitting for a couple of weeks, until I had the consult and the doc told me it wasn't that serious and no graft was needed. So back to the can I go. Yet another wasted quit opportunity. I swore I was going to quit when the price went over one dollar a can. That promise came and went as did many others.
Back to civilian life, working full time and going to school part time, living pay check to pay check but I still managed to scrape together the money for beer and tobacco. Money was so tight I started double dipping at that point, putting a used dip back in the can for later. Sick, the levels I would go to.
Fast forward 25 years. I have been married for 17 years and have two daughters age 11 and 13. I am 46 years old and sneaking down into our basement every night to get my fix, how pathetic is that???? I was a ninja dipper around my family; They new I did it, but I was ashamed enough not to flaunt it around them. You see, at this point I all ready knew about addictions, I am a non-practicing alcoholic and have been sober for over 6 years. It took me several years of on-the -wagon/off-the-wagon before I got that quit right. I believe every one of my caves during that time was planned, I would start thinking about how it would be OK to have just one and start dwelling on it. If you ever find yourself thinking to much about having just one, or reminiscing about it you better find something else to start thinking about immediately!
I have been trying to stop using nicotine for the last 6 years. Every time we went on vacation, every new year, every holiday and every sobriety date (you know, how cool would it be to have the same quit date for alcohol and nicotine). Hell almost every single night I went to bed I swore I would quit tomorrow. Whenever my wife would get fed up with my dipping; normally after finding a spitter, or a used can somewhere she would confront me about it. I would tell her I all ready gave up drinking, she couldn't expect me to give up everything I enjoyed! What a shit I was. Even my parents were willing to accept my use of nicotine as a trade off for having me sober.Â
Live chat was a life saver for me the first couple of weeks. One of my first nights in live chat and someone mentioned posting support in other groups was a good way to show support for each other. So I started posting in every month of 2012 and 2013. He was right, a number of people noticed and started posting support in March and sending me PM's with there numbers. From that I learned to give my number out, a lot. Everyone in March 2013 has been sent my number at least once. If you want to build some accountability start sending PM's with your phone number out. I was actively posting on the site and texting with many people, often on a daily basis. I probably have 2 dozen names in my phone of people that are no longer active members on the site. Another thing I have learned is you have to protect your own quit. When someone caves without calling you, that is on them. Even if they call you first and then cave, that is on them. You can only help someone that wants to be helped.
Reading the Words of Wisdom and HOF speeches were also inspirational. All of you have helped me get to this point in my quit, why would I stop doing what has worked so far? I am posting in about 2 dozen groups more often than not and trying to keep up with the introductions. There are also several groups in the 'Wildcard' community that I like to follow. Ya'll are stuck with me for the foreseeable future, fair warning ;-).
100 + days and here I am nicotine free, thanks to my family, KTC and all of the great people on this site. I would like to thank everyone that has been instrumental in my quit, but there are to many people to name names. My family asking me what day I am on, all of the vets that posted support in March 2013 and all of my March 2013 brothers.
Enough rambling... I am truly thankful for this site and all of you that strengthen my quit on a daily basis. I truly believe the only way to remain quit is to do it one day at a time (ODAAT).
Steve
This was fucking great to read. Thank you for sharing this and congrats on making it to the HOF.
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Sorry for the long read, I tend to ramble:
Hi my name is Tazbutane (Steve) and I am an addict..... What I am not, is a writer...
I still remember the first time I was offered a 'dip' of copenhagen, of course I accepted. I was 16 years old, and at Huntington Beach on the shores of Lake Erie in Bay Village Ohio. It did not take long until I was dipping on a regular basis.
I stopped for 84 days while I was in boot camp from November 19th 1984 to February 25th 1985. One of the first things I did when I got back home? Put in a dip of copenhagen of course! If only I knew back then the money I could have saved and the ride I was in for......
I was arrogant enough back then not to hide it from my parents. Ironically enough they were both smokers and quit when I was in high school because us kids kept harping on them about the smell. Hell I was a Marine and invincible! My parents kept sending me articles about how bad it was for me; sending pictures of people with mouth cancer and stuff, man I thought I was so much smarter than they were!
3 years into my service and I am getting a physical before being sent overseas to Okinawa. The dentist tells me I need to go get a consult because of receding gum lines and I might need to get a gum graft. That scared me into quitting for a couple of weeks, until I had the consult and the doc told me it wasn't that serious and no graft was needed. So back to the can I go. Yet another wasted quit opportunity. I swore I was going to quit when the price went over one dollar a can. That promise came and went as did many others.
Back to civilian life, working full time and going to school part time, living pay check to pay check but I still managed to scrape together the money for beer and tobacco. Money was so tight I started double dipping at that point, putting a used dip back in the can for later. Sick, the levels I would go to.
Fast forward 25 years. I have been married for 17 years and have two daughters age 11 and 13. I am 46 years old and sneaking down into our basement every night to get my fix, how pathetic is that???? I was a ninja dipper around my family; They new I did it, but I was ashamed enough not to flaunt it around them. You see, at this point I all ready knew about addictions, I am a non-practicing alcoholic and have been sober for over 6 years. It took me several years of on-the -wagon/off-the-wagon before I got that quit right. I believe every one of my caves during that time was planned, I would start thinking about how it would be OK to have just one and start dwelling on it. If you ever find yourself thinking to much about having just one, or reminiscing about it you better find something else to start thinking about immediately!
I have been trying to stop using nicotine for the last 6 years. Every time we went on vacation, every new year, every holiday and every sobriety date (you know, how cool would it be to have the same quit date for alcohol and nicotine). Hell almost every single night I went to bed I swore I would quit tomorrow. Whenever my wife would get fed up with my dipping; normally after finding a spitter, or a used can somewhere she would confront me about it. I would tell her I all ready gave up drinking, she couldn't expect me to give up everything I enjoyed! What a shit I was. Even my parents were willing to accept my use of nicotine as a trade off for having me sober.
Live chat was a life saver for me the first couple of weeks. One of my first nights in live chat and someone mentioned posting support in other groups was a good way to show support for each other. So I started posting in every month of 2012 and 2013. He was right, a number of people noticed and started posting support in March and sending me PM's with there numbers. From that I learned to give my number out, a lot. Everyone in March 2013 has been sent my number at least once. If you want to build some accountability start sending PM's with your phone number out. I was actively posting on the site and texting with many people, often on a daily basis. I probably have 2 dozen names in my phone of people that are no longer active members on the site. Another thing I have learned is you have to protect your own quit. When someone caves without calling you, that is on them. Even if they call you first and then cave, that is on them. You can only help someone that wants to be helped.
Reading the Words of Wisdom and HOF speeches were also inspirational. All of you have helped me get to this point in my quit, why would I stop doing what has worked so far? I am posting in about 2 dozen groups more often than not and trying to keep up with the introductions. There are also several groups in the 'Wildcard' community that I like to follow. Ya'll are stuck with me for the foreseeable future, fair warning ;-).
100 + days and here I am nicotine free, thanks to my family, KTC and all of the great people on this site. I would like to thank everyone that has been instrumental in my quit, but there are to many people to name names. My family asking me what day I am on, all of the vets that posted support in March 2013 and all of my March 2013 brothers.
Enough rambling... I am truly thankful for this site and all of you that strengthen my quit on a daily basis. I truly believe the only way to remain quit is to do it one day at a time (ODAAT).
Steve
Great speech! What did you say about not being a writer! Very sincere and inspirational! Congrats man!
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
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Sorry for the long read, I tend to ramble:
Hi my name is Tazbutane (Steve) and I am an addict..... What I am not, is a writer...
I still remember the first time I was offered a 'dip' of copenhagen, of course I accepted. I was 16 years old, and at Huntington Beach on the shores of Lake Erie in Bay Village Ohio. It did not take long until I was dipping on a regular basis.
I stopped for 84 days while I was in boot camp from November 19th 1984 to February 25th 1985. One of the first things I did when I got back home? Put in a dip of copenhagen of course! If only I knew back then the money I could have saved and the ride I was in for......
I was arrogant enough back then not to hide it from my parents. Ironically enough they were both smokers and quit when I was in high school because us kids kept harping on them about the smell. Hell I was a Marine and invincible! My parents kept sending me articles about how bad it was for me; sending pictures of people with mouth cancer and stuff, man I thought I was so much smarter than they were!
3 years into my service and I am getting a physical before being sent overseas to Okinawa. The dentist tells me I need to go get a consult because of receding gum lines and I might need to get a gum graft. That scared me into quitting for a couple of weeks, until I had the consult and the doc told me it wasn't that serious and no graft was needed. So back to the can I go. Yet another wasted quit opportunity. I swore I was going to quit when the price went over one dollar a can. That promise came and went as did many others.
Back to civilian life, working full time and going to school part time, living pay check to pay check but I still managed to scrape together the money for beer and tobacco. Money was so tight I started double dipping at that point, putting a used dip back in the can for later. Sick, the levels I would go to.
Fast forward 25 years. I have been married for 17 years and have two daughters age 11 and 13. I am 46 years old and sneaking down into our basement every night to get my fix, how pathetic is that???? I was a ninja dipper around my family; They new I did it, but I was ashamed enough not to flaunt it around them. You see, at this point I all ready knew about addictions, I am a non-practicing alcoholic and have been sober for over 6 years. It took me several years of on-the -wagon/off-the-wagon before I got that quit right. I believe every one of my caves during that time was planned, I would start thinking about how it would be OK to have just one and start dwelling on it. If you ever find yourself thinking to much about having just one, or reminiscing about it you better find something else to start thinking about immediately!
I have been trying to stop using nicotine for the last 6 years. Every time we went on vacation, every new year, every holiday and every sobriety date (you know, how cool would it be to have the same quit date for alcohol and nicotine). Hell almost every single night I went to bed I swore I would quit tomorrow. Whenever my wife would get fed up with my dipping; normally after finding a spitter, or a used can somewhere she would confront me about it. I would tell her I all ready gave up drinking, she couldn't expect me to give up everything I enjoyed! What a shit I was. Even my parents were willing to accept my use of nicotine as a trade off for having me sober.
Live chat was a life saver for me the first couple of weeks. One of my first nights in live chat and someone mentioned posting support in other groups was a good way to show support for each other. So I started posting in every month of 2012 and 2013. He was right, a number of people noticed and started posting support in March and sending me PM's with there numbers. From that I learned to give my number out, a lot. Everyone in March 2013 has been sent my number at least once. If you want to build some accountability start sending PM's with your phone number out. I was actively posting on the site and texting with many people, often on a daily basis. I probably have 2 dozen names in my phone of people that are no longer active members on the site. Another thing I have learned is you have to protect your own quit. When someone caves without calling you, that is on them. Even if they call you first and then cave, that is on them. You can only help someone that wants to be helped.
Reading the Words of Wisdom and HOF speeches were also inspirational. All of you have helped me get to this point in my quit, why would I stop doing what has worked so far? I am posting in about 2 dozen groups more often than not and trying to keep up with the introductions. There are also several groups in the 'Wildcard' community that I like to follow. Ya'll are stuck with me for the foreseeable future, fair warning ;-).
100 + days and here I am nicotine free, thanks to my family, KTC and all of the great people on this site. I would like to thank everyone that has been instrumental in my quit, but there are to many people to name names. My family asking me what day I am on, all of the vets that posted support in March 2013 and all of my March 2013 brothers.
Enough rambling... I am truly thankful for this site and all of you that strengthen my quit on a daily basis. I truly believe the only way to remain quit is to do it one day at a time (ODAAT).
Steve
Very well done Steve, I enjoyed your speech. Congrats on hitting the HOF. This is a celebration of the begining of your quit!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Sorry for the long read, I tend to ramble:
Hi my name is Tazbutane (Steve) and I am an addict..... What I am not, is a writer...
I still remember the first time I was offered a 'dip' of copenhagen, of course I accepted. I was 16 years old, and at Huntington Beach on the shores of Lake Erie in Bay Village Ohio. It did not take long until I was dipping on a regular basis.
I stopped for 84 days while I was in boot camp from November 19th 1984 to February 25th 1985. One of the first things I did when I got back home? Put in a dip of copenhagen of course! If only I knew back then the money I could have saved and the ride I was in for......
I was arrogant enough back then not to hide it from my parents. Ironically enough they were both smokers and quit when I was in high school because us kids kept harping on them about the smell. Hell I was a Marine and invincible! My parents kept sending me articles about how bad it was for me; sending pictures of people with mouth cancer and stuff, man I thought I was so much smarter than they were!
3 years into my service and I am getting a physical before being sent overseas to Okinawa. The dentist tells me I need to go get a consult because of receding gum lines and I might need to get a gum graft. That scared me into quitting for a couple of weeks, until I had the consult and the doc told me it wasn't that serious and no graft was needed. So back to the can I go. Yet another wasted quit opportunity. I swore I was going to quit when the price went over one dollar a can. That promise came and went as did many others.
Back to civilian life, working full time and going to school part time, living pay check to pay check but I still managed to scrape together the money for beer and tobacco. Money was so tight I started double dipping at that point, putting a used dip back in the can for later. Sick, the levels I would go to.
Fast forward 25 years. I have been married for 17 years and have two daughters age 11 and 13. I am 46 years old and sneaking down into our basement every night to get my fix, how pathetic is that???? I was a ninja dipper around my family; They new I did it, but I was ashamed enough not to flaunt it around them. You see, at this point I all ready knew about addictions, I am a non-practicing alcoholic and have been sober for over 6 years. It took me several years of on-the -wagon/off-the-wagon before I got that quit right. I believe every one of my caves during that time was planned, I would start thinking about how it would be OK to have just one and start dwelling on it. If you ever find yourself thinking to much about having just one, or reminiscing about it you better find something else to start thinking about immediately!
I have been trying to stop using nicotine for the last 6 years. Every time we went on vacation, every new year, every holiday and every sobriety date (you know, how cool would it be to have the same quit date for alcohol and nicotine). Hell almost every single night I went to bed I swore I would quit tomorrow. Whenever my wife would get fed up with my dipping; normally after finding a spitter, or a used can somewhere she would confront me about it. I would tell her I all ready gave up drinking, she couldn't expect me to give up everything I enjoyed! What a shit I was. Even my parents were willing to accept my use of nicotine as a trade off for having me sober.Â
Live chat was a life saver for me the first couple of weeks. One of my first nights in live chat and someone mentioned posting support in other groups was a good way to show support for each other. So I started posting in every month of 2012 and 2013. He was right, a number of people noticed and started posting support in March and sending me PM's with there numbers. From that I learned to give my number out, a lot. Everyone in March 2013 has been sent my number at least once. If you want to build some accountability start sending PM's with your phone number out. I was actively posting on the site and texting with many people, often on a daily basis. I probably have 2 dozen names in my phone of people that are no longer active members on the site. Another thing I have learned is you have to protect your own quit. When someone caves without calling you, that is on them. Even if they call you first and then cave, that is on them. You can only help someone that wants to be helped.
Reading the Words of Wisdom and HOF speeches were also inspirational. All of you have helped me get to this point in my quit, why would I stop doing what has worked so far? I am posting in about 2 dozen groups more often than not and trying to keep up with the introductions. There are also several groups in the 'Wildcard' community that I like to follow. Ya'll are stuck with me for the foreseeable future, fair warning ;-).
100 + days and here I am nicotine free, thanks to my family, KTC and all of the great people on this site. I would like to thank everyone that has been instrumental in my quit, but there are to many people to name names. My family asking me what day I am on, all of the vets that posted support in March 2013 and all of my March 2013 brothers.
Enough rambling... I am truly thankful for this site and all of you that strengthen my quit on a daily basis. I truly believe the only way to remain quit is to do it one day at a time (ODAAT).
Steve
Very well done Steve, I enjoyed your speech. Congrats on hitting the HOF. This is a celebration of the begining of your quit!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nice speech Taz! Congrats on the HOF!
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Congrats on HOF and awesome speech. Proud to be quit with you!
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Tazbutane - 200 June 10th, 2013.
The last 100 days flew by, I cannot believe how fast they have been. Counting days 1 by 1 can really add up fast.
I have been thinking about what I wanted to post in my intro for the last couple of days, as a couple of close friends have also just reached the 200 days free mark.
Nothing really came to me until this morning when I received my daily text from mccarmo (thank you for those by the way). I get texts from a couple of guys every day, and I try and text a couple people each day. But I digress....
What entered my mind when I read the congratulations was "thanks, I could not have done this without the site."
That to me says it all.
Without this site I would still be poisoning myself every day. Making a promise everyday that I would quit tomorrow.
Thanks to KTC and all of the people on this site: veterans, new guys, retreads, cavers, stoppers and quitters. All of you have played an important roll in getting me to this point. Allowing me to take a step each day in my journey to remain nicotine free for the rest of my life.
My family and I thank you.
Steve
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Tazbutane - 200 June 10th, 2013.
The last 100 days flew by, I cannot believe how fast they have been. Counting days 1 by 1 can really add up fast.
I have been thinking about what I wanted to post in my intro for the last couple of days, as a couple of close friends have also just reached the 200 days free mark.
Nothing really came to me until this morning when I received my daily text from mccarmo (thank you for those by the way). I get texts from a couple of guys every day, and I try and text a couple people each day. But I digress....
What entered my mind when I read the congratulations was "thanks, I could not have done this without the site."
That to me says it all.
Without this site I would still be poisoning myself every day. Making a promise everyday that I would quit tomorrow.
Thanks to KTC and all of the people on this site: veterans, new guys, retreads, cavers, stoppers and quitters. All of you have played an important roll in getting me to this point. Allowing me to take a step each day in my journey to remain nicotine free for the rest of my life.
My family and I thank you.
Steve
Congrats on 200 Taz! Proud of you man!
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Tazbutane - 200 June 10th, 2013.
The last 100 days flew by, I cannot believe how fast they have been. Counting days 1 by 1 can really add up fast.
I have been thinking about what I wanted to post in my intro for the last couple of days, as a couple of close friends have also just reached the 200 days free mark.
Nothing really came to me until this morning when I received my daily text from mccarmo (thank you for those by the way). I get texts from a couple of guys every day, and I try and text a couple people each day. But I digress....
What entered my mind when I read the congratulations was "thanks, I could not have done this without the site."
That to me says it all.
Without this site I would still be poisoning myself every day. Making a promise everyday that I would quit tomorrow.
Thanks to KTC and all of the people on this site: veterans, new guys, retreads, cavers, stoppers and quitters. All of you have played an important roll in getting me to this point. Allowing me to take a step each day in my journey to remain nicotine free for the rest of my life.
My family and I thank you.
Steve
Congrats on 200 Taz! Proud of you man!
Taz you set a great example to those ahead of you and those starting that this is a real simple plan to execute.
Proud to be a quit brother and if tomorrow becomes another today for me, I am quit with you.