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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: gijo on September 15, 2015, 03:17:00 PM
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On Day 9.
Hi All,
On my ninth day without my old lover Copenhagen. We spent a little over a decade and a half together and while she wasn't very attractive, she stunk, and was an overall rather expensive companion, I thought I loved, no "needed" her. That was until I realized what a controlling bitch she was. I would lie, steal, and cheat just to be with her and I needed to be with her daily, multiple times a day.
Then it happened, I don't know how exactly but, it was as if a switch was turned on and for the first time I realized what an abusive, humiliating relationship I was in. I certainly wasn't in control the "nic bitch" was. Being a proud man I had a hard time with this as I always thought I was in control of my actions, till I was completely honest with myself and gave those actions a hard look. Turns out I'm an addict.
There, I said it "I'M AN ADDICT"! Wow that's powerful it really puts this in context of how serious it is. No longer is it just a "bad habit" like biting your nails or popping your knuckles, this is serious shit. Merriam-Webster's definition of an addict is --to devote or surrender (oneself) to something habitually or obsessively; man that was me and my bitch Cope.
Since I recognize that I evidently have a bit of an addictive personality I'll replace my addiction to dip with posting here and garnering strength and resolve from you all. In Merriam's words "I devote myself to habitually" post here. Help me get through this guys the withdrawal symptoms are a mother fucker but I WILL NOT BE CONTROLLED ANYMORE!!!
gijo
p.s.-- I'm really new to this whole forum thing (I don't even have facebook) so help on how to do this would be nice i.e., is this intro too much?, how/where do I do roll?, do I just pop in or do I have to contact someone first, etc, etc,
Sorry I just have no idea........
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On Day 9.
Hi All,
On my ninth day without my old lover Copenhagen. We spent a little over a decade and a half together and while she wasn't very attractive, she stunk, and was an overall rather expensive companion, I thought I loved, no "needed" her. That was until I realized what a controlling bitch she was. I would lie, steal, and cheat just to be with her and I needed to be with her daily, multiple times a day.
Then it happened, I don't know how exactly but, it was as if a switch was turned on and for the first time I realized what an abusive, humiliating relationship I was in. I certainly wasn't in control the "nic bitch" was. Being a proud man I had a hard time with this as I always thought I was in control of my actions, till I was completely honest with myself and gave those actions a hard look. Turns out I'm an addict.
There, I said it "I'M AN ADDICT"! Wow that's powerful it really puts this in context of how serious it is. No longer is it just a "bad habit" like biting your nails or popping your knuckles, this is serious shit. Merriam-Webster's definition of an addict is --to devote or surrender (oneself) to something habitually or obsessively; man that was me and my bitch Cope.
Since I recognize that I evidently have a bit of an addictive personality I'll replace my addiction to dip with posting here and garnering strength and resolve from you all. In Merriam's words "I devote myself to habitually" post here. Help me get through this guys the withdrawal symptoms are a mother fucker but I WILL NOT BE CONTROLLED ANYMORE!!!
gijo
p.s.-- I'm really new to this whole forum thing (I don't even have facebook) so help on how to do this would be nice i.e., is this intro too much?, how/where do I do roll?, do I just pop in or do I have to contact someone first, etc, etc,
Sorry I just have no idea........
Welcome Gijo. Visit the Welcome Center (http://forum.killthecan.org/forum/55560/) and read all of the topics. It will help you figure out how to post roll, general conduct on the forum, etc.
I'm glad you made this decision to better yourself today. Turn that decision into a promise not to use nicotine in any form today (by posting roll) and keep that promise. Before you know it, day 1 will be in the books. Wake up tomorrow and repeat.
Don't hesitate to reach out on here, lots of guys will jump at the chance to help a new brother out.
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On Day 9.
Hi All,
On my ninth day without my old lover Copenhagen. We spent a little over a decade and a half together and while she wasn't very attractive, she stunk, and was an overall rather expensive companion, I thought I loved, no "needed" her. That was until I realized what a controlling bitch she was. I would lie, steal, and cheat just to be with her and I needed to be with her daily, multiple times a day.
Then it happened, I don't know how exactly but, it was as if a switch was turned on and for the first time I realized what an abusive, humiliating relationship I was in. I certainly wasn't in control the "nic bitch" was. Being a proud man I had a hard time with this as I always thought I was in control of my actions, till I was completely honest with myself and gave those actions a hard look. Turns out I'm an addict.
There, I said it "I'M AN ADDICT"! Wow that's powerful it really puts this in context of how serious it is. No longer is it just a "bad habit" like biting your nails or popping your knuckles, this is serious shit. Merriam-Webster's definition of an addict is --to devote or surrender (oneself) to something habitually or obsessively; man that was me and my bitch Cope.
Since I recognize that I evidently have a bit of an addictive personality I'll replace my addiction to dip with posting here and garnering strength and resolve from you all. In Merriam's words "I devote myself to habitually" post here. Help me get through this guys the withdrawal symptoms are a mother fucker but I WILL NOT BE CONTROLLED ANYMORE!!!
gijo
p.s.-- I'm really new to this whole forum thing (I don't even have facebook) so help on how to do this would be nice i.e., is this intro too much?, how/where do I do roll?, do I just pop in or do I have to contact someone first, etc, etc,
Sorry I just have no idea........
Welcome Gijo. Visit the Welcome Center (http://forum.killthecan.org/forum/55560/) and read all of the topics. It will help you figure out how to post roll, general conduct on the forum, etc.
I'm glad you made this decision to better yourself today. Turn that decision into a promise not to use nicotine in any form today (by posting roll) and keep that promise. Before you know it, day 1 will be in the books. Wake up tomorrow and repeat.
Don't hesitate to reach out on here, lots of guys will jump at the chance to help a new brother out.
Ata Boy gijo.....
While your there.... look up Bad-Ass in that Webster's Dictionary....
Booom THATs A PICTURE OF YOU and your DECISION!!
Seems you saw the truth.
The truth will always set you free.
It is better over here.
Congrats on 9 days!
Post Roll TODAY
I QUIT with you today.
Rawls 302
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Congrats on a great choice. 9 days on your own is huge. But it is baby shit compared to what you're capable of. You've taken the first step. We've got your back the rest of the way. Learn how and why we post roll. Then do it...everyday.
That's all there is to it. No secrets, short-cuts or tricks...just pure cold-turkey quitting. Embrace the suck. That is the feeling of healing. ONE DAY AT A TIME is your addiction.
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Great choice, G
Don't let us down.
The nic bitch seems a lot like Roy's landlord from kingpin, to me. "you really jarred something lose, Tiger." (http://youtu.be/5zIDgPVg9HM)
There's just nothing good that can come from it.
As Kingnothing (no relation to kingpin) said, most of your questions can be answered in the welcome tab but your group is December '15 (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11293904/1/?x=90) ~~ click here. These are the folks who will be by your side through the first hundred days and beyond.
Directions for posting are in the header. Do it everyday and you can't fail. Welcome to freedom!
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Welcome G, going at this shit alone sucks. Post roll, make that promise to all of us here at ktc and be a man of your word , you will never be alone on your quit journey as long as you post and keep your word. You should be able to tell already you will get a steady supply of support here just reach out. I quit with you today!
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9 days is awesome gijo. Get on the December roll with the rest of us newer quitters.
I quit with you today my friend. B)B