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Title: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: stig on May 09, 2014, 01:21:00 AM
I'm Stig.
I'll be 36 years old in July.
I started dipping Kodiak when I was 16 years old.
The math is simple and scary: As of May 5, 2014, I had dipped 56% of my life.

I was working on a framing crew when I met the Bear. Framing up stick houses in the NC summers -- a pinch hit the spot. The General Contractor I was working for -- who has become a close friend and mentor -- threatened to fire me if he ever caught me dipping again. So I hid it. Ninja-dipped for almost 2 decades after that -- hid it from him, my family, and everyone I ever loved. When you're dipping a tin a day, that's real ninja skills.

The past 12 months have been big for me. Got married 7 months ago. Wife got pregnant 4 months ago. In 5 effing months I am going to be a dad!

I want to be alive for as much of my son's life as I can. I want to be there to take care of of my wife when we're old (and should probably outlive her since she'll be a mess without me). Most importantly, I need to be proud of the man I see when I look in the mirror. And when I look at a man chained to a tin of carcinogenic weed, it's hard to be proud of that chump. I need to be free.

That's why I'm on Day 4, looking forward to posting roll on Day 5 first thing tomorrow.
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: AppleJack on May 09, 2014, 01:53:00 AM
Quote from: stig
I'm Stig.
I'll be 36 years old in July.
I started dipping Kodiak when I was 16 years old.
The math is simple and scary: As of May 5, 2014, I had dipped 56% of my life.

I was working on a framing crew when I met the Bear. Framing up stick houses in the NC summers -- a pinch hit the spot. The General Contractor I was working for -- who has become a close friend and mentor -- threatened to fire me if he ever caught me dipping again. So I hid it. Ninja-dipped for almost 2 decades after that -- hid it from him, my family, and everyone I ever loved. When you're dipping a tin a day, that's real ninja skills.

The past 12 months have been big for me. Got married 7 months ago. Wife got pregnant 4 months ago. In 5 effing months I am going to be a dad!

I want to be alive for as much of my son's life as I can. I want to be there to take care of of my wife when we're old (and should probably outlive her since she'll be a mess without me). Most importantly, I need to be proud of the man I see when I look in the mirror. And when I look at a man chained to a tin of carcinogenic weed, it's hard to be proud of that chump. I need to be free.

That's why I'm on Day 4, looking forward to posting roll on Day 5 first thing tomorrow.
There ya go. That's how it begins!

Keep doing it and that's how it's done. Every day.
Welcome to freedom.
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: thewolfe on May 09, 2014, 02:33:00 AM
Quote from: stig
I'm Stig.
I'll be 36 years old in July.
I started dipping Kodiak when I was 16 years old.
The math is simple and scary: As of May 5, 2014, I had dipped 56% of my life.

I was working on a framing crew when I met the Bear. Framing up stick houses in the NC summers -- a pinch hit the spot. The General Contractor I was working for -- who has become a close friend and mentor -- threatened to fire me if he ever caught me dipping again. So I hid it. Ninja-dipped for almost 2 decades after that -- hid it from him, my family, and everyone I ever loved. When you're dipping a tin a day, that's real ninja skills.

The past 12 months have been big for me. Got married 7 months ago. Wife got pregnant 4 months ago. In 5 effing months I am going to be a dad!

I want to be alive for as much of my son's life as I can. I want to be there to take care of of my wife when we're old (and should probably outlive her since she'll be a mess without me). Most importantly, I need to be proud of the man I see when I look in the mirror. And when I look at a man chained to a tin of carcinogenic weed, it's hard to be proud of that chump. I need to be free.

That's why I'm on Day 4, looking forward to posting roll on Day 5 first thing tomorrow.
Hey man, I am quit with you today. We will all be here to help you, and you to help us by keeping each other accountable. Posting roll .. man you cannot understand how important it is until you have been involved here for a few days. It really is the cornerstone to success in Kicking the can.
P
Go read, read and read, peoples intro threads, HOF speeches, and the articles on the killthecan.org web page. I cannot tell you how much reading those articles helped me thru the worst of it. In fact, whenever the craves get strong, I find the best remedy after a deep breath and a drink of water is to hop on here and read.

Do this with us one day at a time.
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: D2maine on May 09, 2014, 05:41:00 AM
Quote from: Thewolfe
Quote from: stig
I'm Stig.
I'll be 36 years old in July.
I started dipping Kodiak when I was 16 years old.
The math is simple and scary: As of May 5, 2014, I had dipped 56% of my life.

I was working on a framing crew when I met the Bear. Framing up stick houses in the NC summers -- a pinch hit the spot. The General Contractor I was working for -- who has become a close friend and mentor -- threatened to fire me if he ever caught me dipping again. So I hid it. Ninja-dipped for almost 2 decades after that -- hid it from him, my family, and everyone I ever loved. When you're dipping a tin a day, that's real ninja skills.

The past 12 months have been big for me. Got married 7 months ago. Wife got pregnant 4 months ago. In 5 effing months I am going to be a dad!

I want to be alive for as much of my son's life as I can. I want to be there to take care of of my wife when we're old (and should probably outlive her since she'll be a mess without me). Most importantly, I need to be proud of the man I see when I look in the mirror. And when I look at a man chained to a tin of carcinogenic weed, it's hard to be proud of that chump. I need to be free.

That's why I'm on Day 4, looking forward to posting roll on Day 5 first thing tomorrow.
Hey man, I am quit with you today. We will all be here to help you, and you to help us by keeping each other accountable. Posting roll .. man you cannot understand how important it is until you have been involved here for a few days. It really is the cornerstone to success in Kicking the can.
P
Go read, read and read, peoples intro threads, HOF speeches, and the articles on the killthecan.org web page. I cannot tell you how much reading those articles helped me thru the worst of it. In fact, whenever the craves get strong, I find the best remedy after a deep breath and a drink of water is to hop on here and read.

Do this with us one day at a time.
quit with you today! get your freedom and self respect back from the bitch 1 day at a time!
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: Winter Green on May 09, 2014, 06:02:00 AM
Quote from: D2maine
Quote from: Thewolfe
Quote from: stig
I'm Stig.
I'll be 36 years old in July.
I started dipping Kodiak when I was 16 years old.
The math is simple and scary: As of May 5, 2014, I had dipped 56% of my life.

I was working on a framing crew when I met the Bear. Framing up stick houses in the NC summers -- a pinch hit the spot. The General Contractor I was working for -- who has become a close friend and mentor -- threatened to fire me if he ever caught me dipping again. So I hid it. Ninja-dipped for almost 2 decades after that -- hid it from him, my family, and everyone I ever loved. When you're dipping a tin a day, that's real ninja skills.

The past 12 months have been big for me. Got married 7 months ago. Wife got pregnant 4 months ago. In 5 effing months I am going to be a dad!

I want to be alive for as much of my son's life as I can. I want to be there to take care of of my wife when we're old (and should probably outlive her since she'll be a mess without me). Most importantly, I need to be proud of the man I see when I look in the mirror. And when I look at a man chained to a tin of carcinogenic weed, it's hard to be proud of that chump. I need to be free.

That's why I'm on Day 4, looking forward to posting roll on Day 5 first thing tomorrow.
Hey man, I am quit with you today. We will all be here to help you, and you to help us by keeping each other accountable. Posting roll .. man you cannot understand how important it is until you have been involved here for a few days. It really is the cornerstone to success in Kicking the can.
P
Go read, read and read, peoples intro threads, HOF speeches, and the articles on the killthecan.org web page. I cannot tell you how much reading those articles helped me thru the worst of it. In fact, whenever the craves get strong, I find the best remedy after a deep breath and a drink of water is to hop on here and read.

Do this with us one day at a time.
quit with you today! get your freedom and self respect back from the bitch 1 day at a time!
Great attitude Stig, I can see you quitting like fuck every damn day. Also I seen you in chat, way to be involved in this thing man. I think you realize how serious this is. I quit with you man. Keep kicking ass.
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: helpmepls on May 09, 2014, 06:21:00 AM
Quote from: Winter
Quote from: D2maine
Quote from: Thewolfe
Quote from: stig
I'm Stig.
I'll be 36 years old in July.
I started dipping Kodiak when I was 16 years old.
The math is simple and scary: As of May 5, 2014, I had dipped 56% of my life.

I was working on a framing crew when I met the Bear. Framing up stick houses in the NC summers -- a pinch hit the spot. The General Contractor I was working for -- who has become a close friend and mentor -- threatened to fire me if he ever caught me dipping again. So I hid it. Ninja-dipped for almost 2 decades after that -- hid it from him, my family, and everyone I ever loved. When you're dipping a tin a day, that's real ninja skills.

The past 12 months have been big for me. Got married 7 months ago. Wife got pregnant 4 months ago. In 5 effing months I am going to be a dad!

I want to be alive for as much of my son's life as I can. I want to be there to take care of of my wife when we're old (and should probably outlive her since she'll be a mess without me). Most importantly, I need to be proud of the man I see when I look in the mirror. And when I look at a man chained to a tin of carcinogenic weed, it's hard to be proud of that chump. I need to be free.

That's why I'm on Day 4, looking forward to posting roll on Day 5 first thing tomorrow.
Hey man, I am quit with you today. We will all be here to help you, and you to help us by keeping each other accountable. Posting roll .. man you cannot understand how important it is until you have been involved here for a few days. It really is the cornerstone to success in Kicking the can.
P
Go read, read and read, peoples intro threads, HOF speeches, and the articles on the killthecan.org web page. I cannot tell you how much reading those articles helped me thru the worst of it. In fact, whenever the craves get strong, I find the best remedy after a deep breath and a drink of water is to hop on here and read.

Do this with us one day at a time.
quit with you today! get your freedom and self respect back from the bitch 1 day at a time!
Great attitude Stig, I can see you quitting like fuck every damn day. Also I seen you in chat, way to be involved in this thing man. I think you realize how serious this is. I quit with you man. Keep kicking ass.
Welcome Stig. Very similar story. Kodiak at 16, strong ninja skills. I'm starting day 4 today. Let's quit this crap together. See you in the Aug Roll group topic/10225414/53/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10225414/53/)
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: Emulator on May 09, 2014, 07:43:00 AM
Quote from: helpmepls
Quote from: Winter
Quote from: D2maine
Quote from: Thewolfe
Quote from: stig
I'm Stig.
I'll be 36 years old in July.
I started dipping Kodiak when I was 16 years old.
The math is simple and scary: As of May 5, 2014, I had dipped 56% of my life.

I was working on a framing crew when I met the Bear. Framing up stick houses in the NC summers -- a pinch hit the spot. The General Contractor I was working for -- who has become a close friend and mentor -- threatened to fire me if he ever caught me dipping again. So I hid it. Ninja-dipped for almost 2 decades after that -- hid it from him, my family, and everyone I ever loved. When you're dipping a tin a day, that's real ninja skills.

The past 12 months have been big for me. Got married 7 months ago. Wife got pregnant 4 months ago. In 5 effing months I am going to be a dad!

I want to be alive for as much of my son's life as I can. I want to be there to take care of of my wife when we're old (and should probably outlive her since she'll be a mess without me). Most importantly, I need to be proud of the man I see when I look in the mirror. And when I look at a man chained to a tin of carcinogenic weed, it's hard to be proud of that chump. I need to be free.

That's why I'm on Day 4, looking forward to posting roll on Day 5 first thing tomorrow.
Hey man, I am quit with you today. We will all be here to help you, and you to help us by keeping each other accountable. Posting roll .. man you cannot understand how important it is until you have been involved here for a few days. It really is the cornerstone to success in Kicking the can.
P
Go read, read and read, peoples intro threads, HOF speeches, and the articles on the killthecan.org web page. I cannot tell you how much reading those articles helped me thru the worst of it. In fact, whenever the craves get strong, I find the best remedy after a deep breath and a drink of water is to hop on here and read.

Do this with us one day at a time.
quit with you today! get your freedom and self respect back from the bitch 1 day at a time!
Great attitude Stig, I can see you quitting like fuck every damn day. Also I seen you in chat, way to be involved in this thing man. I think you realize how serious this is. I quit with you man. Keep kicking ass.
Welcome Stig. Very similar story. Kodiak at 16, strong ninja skills. I'm starting day 4 today. Let's quit this crap together. See you in the Aug Roll group topic/10225414/53/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10225414/53/)
I quit with you stig. ODAAT NAFAR QLFEDD
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: Derk40 on May 09, 2014, 07:51:00 AM
Welcome Stig. Get in and read the Welcome Center and how/why we post roll. That is your committment to yourself and to us that you will remain quit today. Need you to do that and then we can get this quit going.

Don't worry about tomorrow... just quit today and be quit today. That is all.

You are in the right place to quit. Let's get a roll post.
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: cbird65 on May 09, 2014, 07:54:00 AM
Quote from: derk40
Welcome Stig. Get in and read the Welcome Center and how/why we post roll. That is your committment to yourself and to us that you will remain quit today. Need you to do that and then we can get this quit going.

Don't worry about tomorrow... just quit today and be quit today. That is all.

You are in the right place to quit. Let's get a roll post.
we lied, cheated, stole and borrowed to feed our addiction. Keep adding onto your intro page and turn it into a quit journal which gives you a reminder of the shit you went through to free yourself from the nic bitch. Secondly, it is a road map of sorts for new guys to read.
Each of us are here for a purpose - find yours and OWN IT
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: 30isEnuff on May 09, 2014, 09:11:00 AM
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: derk40
Welcome Stig. Get in and read the Welcome Center and how/why we post roll. That is your committment to yourself and to us that you will remain quit today. Need you to do that and then we can get this quit going.

Don't worry about tomorrow... just quit today and be quit today. That is all.

You are in the right place to quit. Let's get a roll post.
we lied, cheated, stole and borrowed to feed our addiction. Keep adding onto your intro page and turn it into a quit journal which gives you a reminder of the shit you went through to free yourself from the nic bitch. Secondly, it is a road map of sorts for new guys to read.
Each of us are here for a purpose - find yours and OWN IT
What Mr. Bird ^^^^ says!
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: golfpro9696 on May 09, 2014, 09:18:00 AM
Welcome Stig! A lot of bad ass quitters in this thread.....listen to what the say  keep up the good quit.
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: stig on May 10, 2014, 01:41:00 AM
Quote from: CBird65
we lied, cheated, stole and borrowed to feed our addiction
For my intro, I put 3 things in the title: "Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward". Each of those factors into my quit in an important way, and I want to walk my way backwards through that list.

Starting with Ex-Coward (Part I of III):

I don't like the Addict I am. He's a coward little bitch. He makes excuses. He scurries from the light of day and the attention of friends. He's a fucking pussy that can't participate meaningfully in a relationship.

While I'll always be that addict, I'm quit being that coward. I own up to my addiction. And I'll scurry no more to get that next dip.

After 20 years of being weak, I'm strong. One. Day. At. A. Time.

Strong.

I embrace the fog, smile at the pain, laugh at the crave -- all those are signs of weakness leaving my body and I celebrate that with one more day of quit.
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: brettlees on May 10, 2014, 10:10:00 AM
Quote from: stig
Quote from: CBird65
we lied, cheated, stole and borrowed to feed our addiction
For my intro, I put 3 things in the title: "Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward". Each of those factors into my quit in an important way, and I want to walk my way backwards through that list.

Starting with Ex-Coward (Part I of III):

I don't like the Addict I am. He's a coward little bitch. He makes excuses. He scurries from the light of day and the attention of friends. He's a fucking pussy that can't participate meaningfully in a relationship.

While I'll always be that addict, I'm quit being that coward. I own up to my addiction. And I'll scurry no more to get that next dip.

After 20 years of being weak, I'm strong. One. Day. At. A. Time.

Strong.

I embrace the fog, smile at the pain, laugh at the crave -- all those are signs of weakness leaving my body and I celebrate that with one more day of quit.
I like your honesty. Keep embracing the suck, it will power your quit. Hate that addiction. Learn all you can about it, it's evil and strong as hell. Keep building a network here, that's critical. And keep logging, Cbird knows how to help a guy quit when you're ready. You seem ready. Glad to quit with you Stig.
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: Doc Chewfree on May 10, 2014, 10:39:00 PM
Quote from: brettlees
Quote from: stig
Quote from: CBird65
we lied, cheated, stole and borrowed to feed our addiction
For my intro, I put 3 things in the title: "Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward". Each of those factors into my quit in an important way, and I want to walk my way backwards through that list.

Starting with Ex-Coward (Part I of III):

I don't like the Addict I am. He's a coward little bitch. He makes excuses. He scurries from the light of day and the attention of friends. He's a fucking pussy that can't participate meaningfully in a relationship.

While I'll always be that addict, I'm quit being that coward. I own up to my addiction. And I'll scurry no more to get that next dip.

After 20 years of being weak, I'm strong. One. Day. At. A. Time.

Strong.

I embrace the fog, smile at the pain, laugh at the crave -- all those are signs of weakness leaving my body and I celebrate that with one more day of quit.
I like your honesty. Keep embracing the suck, it will power your quit. Hate that addiction. Learn all you can about it, it's evil and strong as hell. Keep building a network here, that's critical. And keep logging, Cbird knows how to help a guy quit when you're ready. You seem ready. Glad to quit with you Stig.
Quit on brother! You'll be an awesome dad!
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: Thumblewort on May 12, 2014, 03:20:00 PM
Stig, I quit with you today. Gratz on the marriage and soon to be offspring!
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: MN_Ben on May 12, 2014, 03:33:00 PM
Quote from: stig
Quote from: CBird65
we lied, cheated, stole and borrowed to feed our addiction
For my intro, I put 3 things in the title: "Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward". Each of those factors into my quit in an important way, and I want to walk my way backwards through that list.

Starting with Ex-Coward (Part I of III):

I don't like the Addict I am. He's a coward little bitch. He makes excuses. He scurries from the light of day and the attention of friends. He's a fucking pussy that can't participate meaningfully in a relationship.

While I'll always be that addict, I'm quit being that coward. I own up to my addiction. And I'll scurry no more to get that next dip.

After 20 years of being weak, I'm strong. One. Day. At. A. Time.

Strong.

I embrace the fog, smile at the pain, laugh at the crave -- all those are signs of weakness leaving my body and I celebrate that with one more day of quit.
Great attitude, when that coward is whispering in your ear come back here and re-read this, and slap it with a dose of reality and honesty like I am reading..
Title: Re: Stig's Intro: Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward
Post by: SirDerek on May 12, 2014, 04:02:00 PM
Quote from: MN_Ben
Quote from: stig
Quote from: CBird65
we lied, cheated, stole and borrowed to feed our addiction
For my intro, I put 3 things in the title: "Dad, Husband, Ex-Coward". Each of those factors into my quit in an important way, and I want to walk my way backwards through that list.

Starting with Ex-Coward (Part I of III):

I don't like the Addict I am. He's a coward little bitch. He makes excuses. He scurries from the light of day and the attention of friends. He's a fucking pussy that can't participate meaningfully in a relationship.

While I'll always be that addict, I'm quit being that coward. I own up to my addiction. And I'll scurry no more to get that next dip.

After 20 years of being weak, I'm strong. One. Day. At. A. Time.

Strong.

I embrace the fog, smile at the pain, laugh at the crave -- all those are signs of weakness leaving my body and I celebrate that with one more day of quit.
Great attitude, when that coward is whispering in your ear come back here and re-read this, and slap it with a dose of reality and honesty like I am reading..
You will find that there are a lot of us in that same boat where we do not like the addict that we are, and yes it is that hatred that can bring us together.

Great decision you have made to quit, in addition a great decision to join us here. Now just remember that while here, read up, and remember these 3 words:

Brotherhood

Accountability

Success

They are very important and can help in so much more than in just quitting nicotine. Look around and ask around the site and you will see.

be good be strong and be quit....and yell if you need anything