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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Mtav on September 16, 2011, 03:13:00 AM
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I just had my last dip, enough is enough. A bit about me, male 32 started dipping when I was 15. Tried to quit once with the nicotine gum. No support group. I lasted 48 hours I think.
Been browsing the site for an hour and really like what I see here. I think this support will be great. With only one half-ass attempt at quitting I have to admit I am scared. I want to quit, it has gone on too long. Part of me wonders if I have the strength for the next few weeks. I think I need to just learn to take it day by day, hour by hour if I have too. Deep down I know cold turkey is the way to go. I don't have much of a plan in place and decided to just quit tonight, that has me worried. Can someone just quit on a whim like this?
I need to figure out the roll call part still. I am on night schedule so I will not be posting my first roll call until later today after I wake up.
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I am on day 17, and yes it can, will, and must be done!! I quit on a whim, really didn't think about it much. I got in the car one morning for my usual commute to work and about half way to work I just said "What the F@#%! am I doing?" That was the last one for me. I hadn't even been to this site yet. I realized after the first 8 hours that I was going to need some help. These brothers here will help.
Right now, you are on Day one. Post roll in the December group. Say to me, and all the brothers (and sisters) here that TODAY I am quit. Then live your promise, just for today. When you wake up tomorrow, do the same thing. But do not worry about tomorrow until you wake up.
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Mtav,
I did what you just did 142 days ago--Freedom is awesome!
Post roll first! do it now!
Do this every day and sit back and watch the transformation occur. Stick close to this site and the support it offers.
Pm me if you need anything
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Quitting on a whim actually helps to avoid that mental separation process. You just kick it to the curb and focus on the quit, and that is it. You've made the first step. You are here. Now post roll everyday, be accountable for your quit and support others in their quit. The more supportive you are to others, the stronger your web will be and the more accountable you become. You can do this!
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Great decision Mtav, I'd venture to say that the majority of quitters on here started there quit on a whim. The great thing about this site is you don't have to worry about quitting for the rest of your life, just one day at a time for and with the guys that are battling the same things you are. Everyday gets you farther away from day 1!
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We're all scared Mtav, because we are all addicts. Don't sweat the next few weeks, just quit for today. Early in my quit forever scared me, and some of the best advice I got was to just quit for today. Embrace the suck and don't look back. Let me know if you need anything, you've made a great choice.
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Don't worry at all about quitting on a whim! I did........36 days ago my friend! I quit 3 days before I found this site and have to say it is saving my life!!!! Stick with it. Can't sugar coat the first 5 days.....they will suck. But one thing I can tell you is that at day 36 I feel AWESOME!!!!! I feel brighter....happier.....and cleaner than I have in years. So you have to work for a couple of weeks to get there but you can do it........proud to be quit WITH you today!
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I just had my last dip, enough is enough. A bit about me, male 32 started dipping when I was 15. Tried to quit once with the nicotine gum. No support group. I lasted 48 hours I think.
Been browsing the site for an hour and really like what I see here. I think this support will be great. With only one half-ass attempt at quitting I have to admit I am scared. I want to quit, it has gone on too long. Part of me wonders if I have the strength for the next few weeks. I think I need to just learn to take it day by day, hour by hour if I have too. Deep down I know cold turkey is the way to go. I don't have much of a plan in place and decided to just quit tonight, that has me worried. Can someone just quit on a whim like this?
I need to figure out the roll call part still. I am on night schedule so I will not be posting my first roll call until later today after I wake up.
I really like what I read here, Mtav.
"You're scared." Well of course you're scared, you realize that tobacco kills people, and you don't want to be one of them. And you realize you're an addict, and you need help.
"You don't have much of a plan, and decided to just quit tonight." That's the way to do it, my man. We all have only the simplest of plans for our Quit here.
Here's the plan:
First flush (and I mean flush, not throw in the trash) everything you have.
Next, go to your quit group's page and post roll. Posting roll is understood by all of us as our promise to each other not to use nicotine in any form that day. 1 day only.
Keep your promise that day.
Post roll the next day.
Keep your promise that day.
Repeat.
That is truly all there is to it. And that is how thousands of us nicotine addicts have Quit and stayed Quit. You can do it too.
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I just had my last dip, enough is enough. A bit about me, male 32 started dipping when I was 15. Tried to quit once with the nicotine gum. No support group. I lasted 48 hours I think.
Been browsing the site for an hour and really like what I see here. I think this support will be great. With only one half-ass attempt at quitting I have to admit I am scared. I want to quit, it has gone on too long. Part of me wonders if I have the strength for the next few weeks. I think I need to just learn to take it day by day, hour by hour if I have too. Deep down I know cold turkey is the way to go. I don't have much of a plan in place and decided to just quit tonight, that has me worried. Can someone just quit on a whim like this?
I need to figure out the roll call part still. I am on night schedule so I will not be posting my first roll call until later today after I wake up.
I really like what I read here, Mtav.
"You're scared." Well of course you're scared, you realize that tobacco kills people, and you don't want to be one of them. And you realize you're an addict, and you need help.
"You don't have much of a plan, and decided to just quit tonight." That's the way to do it, my man. We all have only the simplest of plans for our Quit here.
Here's the plan:
First flush (and I mean flush, not throw in the trash) everything you have.
Next, go to your quit group's page and post roll. Posting roll is understood by all of us as our promise to each other not to use nicotine in any form that day. 1 day only.
Keep your promise that day.
Post roll the next day.
Keep your promise that day.
Repeat.
That is truly all there is to it. And that is how thousands of us nicotine addicts have Quit and stayed Quit. You can do it too.
Welcome to the party! I like this into, too. Planners usually fail, because they have too much anxiety about quitting. There's always another excuse that will pop up on the day they're SUPPOSED to quit. You did it, man... just like many of us did. You decided that nicotine had to go, and you got rid of it. That's the ballsy way to go about life. Stay clean, don't cave, and you'll never have to suffer through the first few days of withdrawal again.
Don't be scared, man. Nervousness is understandable, but this is doable. Turn every emotion you have into hatred for tobacco, UST, and everything they stand for. They have suckered us for too long. I chewed and dipped for over 19 years and quit 367 days ago. Yesterday I celebrated 1 year of freedom. If I can do it, so can you. Read my HOF (linked below) and see if it sounds familiar.
Get engaged, get mad, and stay quit. PM me if you need help.
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Mtav - I quit on a whim 17 days ago as my friend was telling me about the stomach cancer the nic bitch gave him. He has a 4% chance of living 5 years. He will DIE, DEAD, NO MORE LIVING. His wife and two kids get to continue living without him. This is the reality - dip will kill you eventually, maybe 1 day, maybe 2 weeks, maybe 2 years maybe 20 years but it will eventually provide you with one of the most horrible deaths around and your loved ones will get to watch. Just quit and never look back. Post roll today!
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"What the fuck happened to the Delta I used to know? Where's the spirit? Where's the guts, huh? This could be the greatest night of our lives, but you're gonna let it be the worst. "Ooh, we're afraid to go with you Bluto, we might get in trouble." Well just kiss my ass from now on! Not me! I'm not gonna take this. Wormer, he's a dead man! Marmalard, dead! Niedermeyer... " - Bluto -
Channel Bluto my friend.
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"What the fuck happened to the Delta I used to know? Where's the spirit? Where's the guts, huh? This could be the greatest night of our lives, but you're gonna let it be the worst. "Ooh, we're afraid to go with you Bluto, we might get in trouble." Well just kiss my ass from now on! Not me! I'm not gonna take this. Wormer, he's a dead man! Marmalard, dead! Niedermeyer... " - Bluto -
Channel Bluto my friend.
"What the hell are we supposed to do, you moron???"
Channeling my inner Stork. 'na na'
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This is great Mtav. As you can see your 'plan' is the best kind of plan. Just step up to the plate and put the ball in play. Your quit group will take care of the rest.
Stay close to the site, read everything, rage in Live Chat, and through it all if you are a man of your word, you will magically be quit. Done. Finished. Not quitting...QUIT
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Don't worry at all about quitting on a whim! I did........36 days ago my friend! I quit 3 days before I found this site and have to say it is saving my life!!!! Stick with it. Can't sugar coat the first 5 days.....they will suck. But one thing I can tell you is that at day 36 I feel AWESOME!!!!! I feel brighter....happier.....and cleaner than I have in years. So you have to work for a couple of weeks to get there but you can do it........proud to be quit WITH you today!
I like to read things like that, I was searching around a bit and didn't find much. I know the suck is talked about a lot. I like to hear positives of the quit after awhile. Like do people sleep better? Mentally do people feel better? (after the suck) Does food taste different?
I wish I could individually thank all of you! On night schedule makes things a bit weird for me, I woke up an hour an half ago. Didn't have my morning dip. Still haven't had the balls to post in roll call yet. I don't want to be "That guy that failed on day one"
I bit more about myself, I suffer from some anxiety disorders already, part of me is wonder if that part of my life is going to get harder with this quit. Yet this is one reason why I am quit. I have a gut feeling the dip is messing with my anxiety. I know a lot say we use to dip to relieve anxiety, and I can see that. But part of me wonders if the simulating effects are keeping the anxiety worse for me. I mean I gave up caffeine and anxiety got better, I drink a cup of coffee and it is much worse. I need to get this last stimulate out of my system! So this is a big reason for the scared part. That and I know deep down if I don't quit this is going to kill me. When I do not know but I know it is going to kill me.
Also I got thrown a curve ball one hour after waking up. My brother has Ankylosing spondylitis. He is 26 and is going to need a hip replacement. My first thought was damn this sucks, I need my can back. So for right now I am taking it minute by minute. Just reading all of your replies just now gave me more than I thought it would have.
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I need to get this last stimulate out of my system! So this is a big reason for the scared part. That and I know deep down if I don't quit this is going to kill me. When I do not know but I know it is going to kill me.
Read your own words. Pretend like you've never had nic before and read your words. Are you nuts?! The only thing you are really afraid of is failing. Well let's try this. Post roll now! You just have to quit until you wake up tomorrow. Then you have to decide that you aren't a pussy and want to live and post roll again.
I'm on day 17. Infinitely easier than days 1-5!! Won't bullshit you though, I still think about it all day. Afterall, I had the crap in my mouth during every non-eating waking moment for 38 years. But I feel so damn free like I've never felt before. I can put up with the urges and bad habit attacks every day, one day at a time. I just post roll to help me through the weak spots (which get less weak every day)
Convince yourself you can do this and go for it! Save your own life!!
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Still haven't had the balls to post in roll call yet. I don't want to be "That guy that failed on day one"
MTAV, if you dont post roll then you dont have a QUIT going, if you dont have a QUIT going, you are wasting our time. Dont be that guy, be one of the Dec HOF group. Now is the time to make the commitment - one day at a time but you need to make the commitment. There is no time for half measures - you cant be a little pregnant - your a nicotine addict like the rest of us. But its in your control to do something about it if you want it - it all starts with making that daily promise and living up to it. Do it for yourself, your brother, anything just do it.
Whip
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And you just became a bad ass quitter. You post; you promise. Don't make us come and get you.
Grab that quit and be done with the rest of us in December.
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Don't worry at all about quitting on a whim! I did........36 days ago my friend! I quit 3 days before I found this site and have to say it is saving my life!!!! Stick with it. Can't sugar coat the first 5 days.....they will suck. But one thing I can tell you is that at day 36 I feel AWESOME!!!!! I feel brighter....happier.....and cleaner than I have in years. So you have to work for a couple of weeks to get there but you can do it........proud to be quit WITH you today!
I like to read things like that, I was searching around a bit and didn't find much. I know the suck is talked about a lot. I like to hear positives of the quit after awhile. Like do people sleep better? Mentally do people feel better? (after the suck) Does food taste different?
I wish I could individually thank all of you! On night schedule makes things a bit weird for me, I woke up an hour an half ago. Didn't have my morning dip. Still haven't had the balls to post in roll call yet. I don't want to be "That guy that failed on day one"
I bit more about myself, I suffer from some anxiety disorders already, part of me is wonder if that part of my life is going to get harder with this quit. Yet this is one reason why I am quit. I have a gut feeling the dip is messing with my anxiety. I know a lot say we use to dip to relieve anxiety, and I can see that. But part of me wonders if the simulating effects are keeping the anxiety worse for me. I mean I gave up caffeine and anxiety got better, I drink a cup of coffee and it is much worse. I need to get this last stimulate out of my system! So this is a big reason for the scared part. That and I know deep down if I don't quit this is going to kill me. When I do not know but I know it is going to kill me.
Also I got thrown a curve ball one hour after waking up. My brother has Ankylosing spondylitis. He is 26 and is going to need a hip replacement. My first thought was damn this sucks, I need my can back. So for right now I am taking it minute by minute. Just reading all of your replies just now gave me more than I thought it would have.
Mtav, I get that you're nervous about how this is going to play out. But truth be told, that's where my empathy ends.
Each of us has our "stuff" in life. We all have our demons. We all have our baggage. We're all fucking addicts here, get it?
Having anxiety disorder here is irrelevant. I'm flat certain a minimum of 10 per cent of these guys have anxiety. Your brother's illness is a circumstance you and he have to deal with. But you pretty much, no fuck that...You totally threw both those things up as excuses not to post roll and promise us you won't use nicotine.
All I see so far is a guy who skipped a dip.
It's time for integrity. We want your promise, and nothing less than your promise, that you won't use nicotine today. If you refuse to do that, then you don't belong here.
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Don't worry at all about quitting on a whim! I did........36 days ago my friend! I quit 3 days before I found this site and have to say it is saving my life!!!! Stick with it. Can't sugar coat the first 5 days.....they will suck. But one thing I can tell you is that at day 36 I feel AWESOME!!!!! I feel brighter....happier.....and cleaner than I have in years. So you have to work for a couple of weeks to get there but you can do it........proud to be quit WITH you today!
I like to read things like that, I was searching around a bit and didn't find much. I know the suck is talked about a lot. I like to hear positives of the quit after awhile. Like do people sleep better? Mentally do people feel better? (after the suck) Does food taste different?
I wish I could individually thank all of you! On night schedule makes things a bit weird for me, I woke up an hour an half ago. Didn't have my morning dip. Still haven't had the balls to post in roll call yet. I don't want to be "That guy that failed on day one"
I bit more about myself, I suffer from some anxiety disorders already, part of me is wonder if that part of my life is going to get harder with this quit. Yet this is one reason why I am quit. I have a gut feeling the dip is messing with my anxiety. I know a lot say we use to dip to relieve anxiety, and I can see that. But part of me wonders if the simulating effects are keeping the anxiety worse for me. I mean I gave up caffeine and anxiety got better, I drink a cup of coffee and it is much worse. I need to get this last stimulate out of my system! So this is a big reason for the scared part. That and I know deep down if I don't quit this is going to kill me. When I do not know but I know it is going to kill me.
Also I got thrown a curve ball one hour after waking up. My brother has Ankylosing spondylitis. He is 26 and is going to need a hip replacement. My first thought was damn this sucks, I need my can back. So for right now I am taking it minute by minute. Just reading all of your replies just now gave me more than I thought it would have.
Mtav, I get that you're nervous about how this is going to play out. But truth be told, that's where my empathy ends.
Each of us has our "stuff" in life. We all have our demons. We all have our baggage. We're all fucking addicts here, get it?
Having anxiety disorder here is irrelevant. I'm flat certain a minimum of 10 per cent of these guys have anxiety. Your brother's illness is a circumstance you and he have to deal with. But you pretty much, no fuck that...You totally threw both those things up as excuses not to post roll and promise us you won't use nicotine.
All I see so far is a guy who skipped a dip.
It's time for integrity. We want your promise, and nothing less than your promise, that you won't use nicotine today. If you refuse to do that, then you don't belong here.
MTav,
Welcome to your quit! Listen to Gump because he knows his quit but for him, sympathy is between shit and syphilis in the dictionary. This is why he is the resident enforcer. He just plain doesn't give a shit about excuses. I am not to that level (yet) but haven't seen the number of fuck-ups yet who cave on their quits.
I do think quitting lessens anxiety levels. I am on Day 18 and feel a lot better than I did on year 25. As far as the suck, we all suffer in different ways. For me, it manifests itself in lack of sleep and the occasional knock you upside your head urge and of course, the fog.
All this shit is prologue, however. Post roll and make your promise and you will have brothers here to support you.
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Seriously, nothing since day 1? Guess you are THAT guy. Two pages worth of responses and a bunch of December supporters wasn't enough?