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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Reegs on September 27, 2011, 06:07:00 PM
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First off , yall arent bullsh*t, my habit is bullsh*t!!!!!!
Im sitting here and just read through all this information and know one thing. Im ready, and I know Im gonna do it with this site's help.
Boy is this gonna hurt but Im ready. Ive dipped for about 10 years, began in college playing baseball, then just managed to transition unknowingly into the biggest comunity of dippers I have ever seen... the fire department I work for now. A lot of guys will be dipping around me all the time, for 24 hours a day a couple days a week Im gonna be surrounded by it.
Im damn near tired of my wife worrying about me, leaving spit cups places, that crappy feeling of anxiety when I run out of dip, grains in my truck, sore lips, knowing that I am planning on having a kid soon that I could not see grow up.
All day at work I see some really dumb stuff, also being a paramedic. I have to lecture people on why they are making stupid choices about their health... then I go sulk back to the truck and put a dip in. I am a hypocrit to the fullest extent of the word.
I work out quite a bit and stay in pretty good shape but know that I cannot ever attain any real goals when I find myself putting in a dip after I finish.
Ive quit for a few months before, and know the hell of withdrawls, but honestly there was a calm that I had through the whole process because I knew I would start again. I was just taking a break. Not anymore.
I want my life back, my health, and control. My last can is gone, I will be posting in the January 100 day 2013 quit group.
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So what are you waiting for. Spit that shit out, go flush it down the commode and get your quit on...
Go here and post roll....
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First off , yall arent bullsh*t, my habit is bullsh*t!!!!!!
Im sitting here and just read through all this information and know one thing. Im ready, and I know Im gonna do it with this site's help.
Boy is this gonna hurt but Im ready. Ive dipped for about 10 years, began in college playing baseball, then just managed to transition unknowingly into the biggest comunity of dippers I have ever seen... the fire department I work for now. A lot of guys will be dipping around me all the time, for 24 hours a day a couple days a week Im gonna be surrounded by it.
Im damn near tired of my wife worrying about me, leaving spit cups places, that crappy feeling of anxiety when I run out of dip, grains in my truck, sore lips, knowing that I am planning on having a kid soon that I could not see grow up.
All day at work I see some really dumb stuff, also being a paramedic. I have to lecture people on why they are making stupid choices about their health... then I go sulk back to the truck and put a dip in. I am a hypocrit to the fullest extent of the word.
I work out quite a bit and stay in pretty good shape but know that I cannot ever attain any real goals when I find myself putting in a dip after I finish.
Ive quit for a few months before, and know the hell of withdrawls, but honestly there was a calm that I had through the whole process because I knew I would start again. I was just taking a break. Not anymore.
I want my life back, my health, and control. My last can is gone, I will be posting in the January 100 day 2013 quit group.
Welcome to the freak show.
You can do this.
I'm proof it can be done, and youu're not alone.
NOLAQ - Day 561
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Welcome to the show. Good choice and you have come the right place to hear it told like it is and get what seems to me unconditional support...if you stay the course.
Proud to be quit with you. Post roll and lets get this show started.
Welcome.
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Way to go Reegs. Welcome. Spend as much time on here as you can. Get numbers and call/text if you need to freak out b/c of a crave.
One itsy, bitsy day at a time.
BTW, you can spell out bullshit. We're all potty mouths here.
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30+ year dipper on day 259 quit. You can do this just as many before you have. Listen to the advise given and come here to vent. Stay strong brother, we are here for you.
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Best Damn Choice you made. Hell yes. One day at a time, we'll do it together
David
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Reegs,
good first post, brother. thank you for your service to your community, first and foremost. working in that environment is going to put your quit at CONSTANT RISK. you will have to be the most vigilant motherfucker to keep the nic bitch from singing her siren's (see what i did there? fireman, siren?) song in your ear wooing you back to the tin. your buddies will try to get you to dip with them; they'll leave spitters just for you to find; they'll try to drag you down. it's a bad feeling to see someone else escape from hell, and they'll try to stop you.
so what to do? impossible, right? an addict surrounded by active addicts trying to break your will?
fuck that. you've got your answer right here on KTC. this will need to be your home away from home for the next 100 days minimum. there's a method to this madness that works... it takes stubborn motherfuckers that have been dipping for DECADES and helps them take their life back into their own hands. all you have to do is buy into the program. it may seem stupid, it may seem trivial, it may seem petty, and it will seem meanspirited at times. but the proof is in the pudding... thousands of people just like you that ARE quit.
the program:
1. FLUSH all remaining dip in your possession, even your double secret backup can of pussy flavored skoal. if you throw it in the trash, you'll be dumpster diving on day 2.
2. POST ROLL. every day. first thing in the morning. it is our promise to our quit group, the supporting site members, and OURSELVES that we will not use that day. it isn't a status report after the day is done. you post early and you do it every day.
3. KEEP YOUR WORD as a man of honor and integrity. you're a tough motherfucker. all firemen are. i bet you've heard countless mentions of honor and service during boot camp/fireman's school. time to put up or shut up. you make your promise every day and you keep it every day. just like breathing. inhale, exhale. post roll, honor your roll.
4. DO IT AGAIN tomorrow. we worry about one day at a time here. i've had 136 +1 days... i don't think about being quit at christmas or new years. that's too far in the future for me to rationalize. you quit today and then wake up and do it again.
5. BE ACTIVE on the site. read your ass off, starting with the welcome center (pink link, upper left). read everything in your quit group, other quit groups, HoF speeches, words of wisdom, etc. you can't be finished reading here. ever. post support in other quit groups. get to know folks... you'll need them watching your six before you know it.
6. EXCHANGE NUMBERS with quit brothers and sisters and with other folks that offer support. it helps when you can't get online and have to text in your roll call. it also helps when the c-store is calling your name... we're here for each other no matter what. it's a brotherhood and sisterhood. i know you get that shit.
7. BURN YOUR BOAT and never look back. this was key for me. after 16 years of dipping, i simply made the decision i didn't do that shit anymore. it was with the help of this site, but no matter what, i'm not going back to the can. it isn't an option. i could roll around in a bathtub full of grizzly and know that it wouldn't tempt me. i'm quit. it was decided 136 days ago, and it ain't going to change.
i'm here if you need me. looking forward to seeing you post roll. once you do, you'll see what kind of support this place offers. until you do, you're a tolerated guest.
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I too am quit today, and I have done it while being around nothing but dippers every day at work. You need to find a specific plan on how to deal with that because while it is bothering me less to be around it, the craves still sneak up on me when I am around them.
Here is what I did. I talked to my co-workers that dip, that I also consider close friends, the ones that aren't buddies I really didn't care about, I told them exactly what I was doing. I did not ask them to not dip around me, this is my quit, my choices made, not theirs. I did ask them to never under any condition let me bum "just one" and asked them nicely to punch me in the face as hard as they could if they ever saw me even thinking about it. I can see the jealousy in their eyes as they put the poison in their lips and I don't.
Be strong, it is fantastic being free, I will quit with you today.
P.S. Funny aside on the punch me in the face thing. One day at work was pretty tough and I had an emergency can of hootch (fake stuff, used it maybe 10 times in last 75 days, but it was always part of my emergency contingency's) I go to put the hootch in my lip and I had three guys with dips in yelling at me and lining up to punch me! I am not saying my plan was a good one, but it is important to have a plan.
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Reegs,
Yup...
Day 1 sucks, some cravings, some jitters, but just all in all sucky!
Been around guys dippin, and leaving their spit cups around, but amazingly and probably just cause my nicotine starved brain might be having a small spark of reality again..... I find it gross.
1 day at a time....
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Reegs,
Yup...
Day 1 sucks, some cravings, some jitters, but just all in all sucky!
Been around guys dippin, and leaving their spit cups around, but amazingly and probably just cause my nicotine starved brain might be having a small spark of reality again..... I find it gross.
1 day at a time....
You will go far with the 1 day at a time attitude.
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Day two, here we go.
Ya know, It might be cause I had to wake up once in the middle of the night to go help the cops pull a drunk guy outta his truck in the middle of an intersection... or it might be cause I had the craziest dreams and periods of going from sleep to wide awake all through the night.
Even though I feel kinda "off" its almost like its better. I havent had HUGE cravings. Though I did stock up on mint snuff for when Im driving around... toothpicks work too but Ive found that when I walk out to go get in my truck my mouth will water and the headache will start.
Ya know what else is cool, I feel like I have added so much more time to my life simply because the days (and nights for that matter) seem to have slowed down or something. I swear I thought yesterday would never end. Ans even this morning, came home, cut grass, napped on couch, and its still just after noon....what kind of crazy time warp have I entered into. :huh:
Of well, whatever I feel I know Im just gettin healthy. You know the way normal people have felt, that I deprived myself of every day for the last 10 years.
Well today just continues me being quit!
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Though I did stock up on mint snuff for when Im driving around... toothpicks work too but Ive found that when I walk out to go get in my truck my mouth will water and the headache will start.
You stocked up on Mint Snuff? I hope you mean the fake stuff (smokey mountain, hooch, ect.)
Get through the first few days, it and it gets much better. Drink pleanty of water and do what ever it takes to keep tobacco/nicotine out of your mouth. Staying quit should be your #1 priority today.
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Holy schnikeys!, got called in to work today and while watching as much football as possible just through the day..... ITS LIKE ONE HUGE CRAVE!!!
Wow, Im on day five and hadnt really been too antsy about it yet but something is in the air today or somethin. Been through some gum packs, some fake snuff, all that but it just wouldnt kick it today...
Oh well, didnt cave, guess that will make tomorrow all the merrier. Stupid work also... I have to watch these other guys put dips in, it makes me cringe and antsy at the same time
Im ready to get outta here
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Just think, you are 5 days ahead of the nic bitch than your coworkers. As long as you guard your quit and you'll never have to go through those 5 days again.
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Just think, you are 5 days ahead of the nic bitch than your coworkers. As long as you guard your quit and you'll never have to go through those 5 days again.
That is one of the greatest thoughts I have ever heard!
Seeriously Thanks! B)
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Day 20 really lookin forward to sayin 3 weeks tomorrow.
This site is awesome, although I havent been the most hardcore about "hittin up" everyone on here I can, or every posting everyday (honestly there are some days I cannot get to a computer), I still find something interesting every time I get here.
Like today I was reading a little post about how so many people are lost in the 20-30 mark. And here I was, today wonderin why this wierd crave I havent had in a week or so is creepin up a little bit.
Ive been around dippers at work, and at family parties and told everyone Im quit. Even to a few of their groans and moans. They would say awww just one, just one, because some of them can really just have one. I now know I cant. I tell them I cant, because Im an addict. Its amazing cause when you say stuff like that and you arent playin, or smirking, but really dead serious.... people have funny reactions.
It defenitely takes some soul searching to really be able to publicly tell people that about yourself.
Well Im glad my January Group has growm, and lookin forward to all of us gettin to the HOF. Im gonna put these days 20s cravings aside with some gum, toothpicks, mabye a fake snuff or two, and some exercise.
Day to day!
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Day 20 really lookin forward to sayin 3 weeks tomorrow.
This site is awesome, although I havent been the most hardcore about "hittin up" everyone on here I can, or every posting everyday (honestly there are some days I cannot get to a computer), I still find something interesting every time I get here.
Like today I was reading a little post about how so many people are lost in the 20-30 mark. And here I was, today wonderin why this wierd crave I havent had in a week or so is creepin up a little bit.
Ive been around dippers at work, and at family parties and told everyone Im quit. Even to a few of their groans and moans. They would say awww just one, just one, because some of them can really just have one. I now know I cant. I tell them I cant, because Im an addict. Its amazing cause when you say stuff like that and you arent playin, or smirking, but really dead serious.... people have funny reactions.
It defenitely takes some soul searching to really be able to publicly tell people that about yourself.
Well Im glad my January Group has growm, and lookin forward to all of us gettin to the HOF. Im gonna put these days 20s cravings aside with some gum, toothpicks, mabye a fake snuff or two, and some exercise.
Day to day!
nice number, reeg. nice number.
you're right, people are funny when they hear you're quit. some are supportive right away... it took some of my other friends a while to figure out i was serious. once they knew for sure, they were/are supportive.
proud to be quit with you, brother.
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Day 20 really lookin forward to sayin 3 weeks tomorrow.
This site is awesome, although I havent been the most hardcore about "hittin up" everyone on here I can, or every posting everyday (honestly there are some days I cannot get to a computer), I still find something interesting every time I get here.
Like today I was reading a little post about how so many people are lost in the 20-30 mark. And here I was, today wonderin why this wierd crave I havent had in a week or so is creepin up a little bit.
Ive been around dippers at work, and at family parties and told everyone Im quit. Even to a few of their groans and moans. They would say awww just one, just one, because some of them can really just have one. I now know I cant. I tell them I cant, because Im an addict. Its amazing cause when you say stuff like that and you arent playin, or smirking, but really dead serious.... people have funny reactions.
It defenitely takes some soul searching to really be able to publicly tell people that about yourself.
Well Im glad my January Group has growm, and lookin forward to all of us gettin to the HOF. Im gonna put these days 20s cravings aside with some gum, toothpicks, mabye a fake snuff or two, and some exercise.
Day to day!
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So...where are you now? You hit 21 days and bagged out on us?
'Popcorn'
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Day 20 really lookin forward to sayin 3 weeks tomorrow.
This site is awesome, although I havent been the most hardcore about "hittin up" everyone on here I can, or every posting everyday (honestly there are some days I cannot get to a computer), I still find something interesting every time I get here.
Like today I was reading a little post about how so many people are lost in the 20-30 mark. And here I was, today wonderin why this wierd crave I havent had in a week or so is creepin up a little bit.
Ive been around dippers at work, and at family parties and told everyone Im quit. Even to a few of their groans and moans. They would say awww just one, just one, because some of them can really just have one. I now know I cant. I tell them I cant, because Im an addict. Its amazing cause when you say stuff like that and you arent playin, or smirking, but really dead serious.... people have funny reactions.
It defenitely takes some soul searching to really be able to publicly tell people that about yourself.
Well Im glad my January Group has growm, and lookin forward to all of us gettin to the HOF. Im gonna put these days 20s cravings aside with some gum, toothpicks, mabye a fake snuff or two, and some exercise.
Day to day!
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So...where are you now? You hit 21 days and bagged out on us?
'Popcorn'
So I hit 42 days and have not bagged out on you... b*tch.
Take your negativeness elsewhere.
Yeah thats right 42 days, I went on a vacation around when I stopped posting and guess what. I know I can stip without posting on here.
why am I back... because I like support, as everyone else does, but it comes down to me , by myself , not dipping, and guess what I have not and am never going to dip again.
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Day 20 really lookin forward to sayin 3 weeks tomorrow.
This site is awesome, although I havent been the most hardcore about "hittin up" everyone on here I can, or every posting everyday (honestly there are some days I cannot get to a computer), I still find something interesting every time I get here.
Like today I was reading a little post about how so many people are lost in the 20-30 mark. And here I was, today wonderin why this wierd crave I havent had in a week or so is creepin up a little bit.
Ive been around dippers at work, and at family parties and told everyone Im quit. Even to a few of their groans and moans. They would say awww just one, just one, because some of them can really just have one. I now know I cant. I tell them I cant, because Im an addict. Its amazing cause when you say stuff like that and you arent playin, or smirking, but really dead serious.... people have funny reactions.
It defenitely takes some soul searching to really be able to publicly tell people that about yourself.
Well Im glad my January Group has growm, and lookin forward to all of us gettin to the HOF. Im gonna put these days 20s cravings aside with some gum, toothpicks, mabye a fake snuff or two, and some exercise.
Day to day!
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So...where are you now? You hit 21 days and bagged out on us?
'Popcorn'
So I hit 42 days and have not bagged out on you... b*tch.
Take your negativeness elsewhere.
Yeah thats right 42 days, I went on a vacation around when I stopped posting and guess what. I know I can stip without posting on here.
why am I back... because I like support, as everyone else does, but it comes down to me , by myself , not dipping, and guess what I have not and am never going to dip again.
Experience makes me question this.
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You may be able to stay quit without post rolling, but you will never cave on a day that you do. Accountability is king. Negativity or support? You decide, addict.
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Day 20 really lookin forward to sayin 3 weeks tomorrow.
This site is awesome, although I havent been the most hardcore about "hittin up" everyone on here I can, or every posting everyday (honestly there are some days I cannot get to a computer), I still find something interesting every time I get here.
Like today I was reading a little post about how so many people are lost in the 20-30 mark. And here I was, today wonderin why this wierd crave I havent had in a week or so is creepin up a little bit.
Ive been around dippers at work, and at family parties and told everyone Im quit. Even to a few of their groans and moans. They would say awww just one, just one, because some of them can really just have one. I now know I cant. I tell them I cant, because Im an addict. Its amazing cause when you say stuff like that and you arent playin, or smirking, but really dead serious.... people have funny reactions.
It defenitely takes some soul searching to really be able to publicly tell people that about yourself.
Well Im glad my January Group has growm, and lookin forward to all of us gettin to the HOF. Im gonna put these days 20s cravings aside with some gum, toothpicks, mabye a fake snuff or two, and some exercise.
Day to day!
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So...where are you now? You hit 21 days and bagged out on us?
'Popcorn'
So I hit 42 days and have not bagged out on you... b*tch.
Take your negativeness elsewhere.
Yeah thats right 42 days, I went on a vacation around when I stopped posting and guess what. I know I can stip without posting on here.
why am I back... because I like support, as everyone else does, but it comes down to me , by myself , not dipping, and guess what I have not and am never going to dip again.
Wow...I offer you my support every day that you posted roll and when you stop posting I ask where you are, and for that I'm a bitch? Seriously??? _
I don't recall any negativity in my post, but let me check...nope, nothing there. Just a question about where you went. However, if you'd like me to take my support elsewhere, then fine...consider it gone. There are lots of other quitters here who like the support, and who actually need it. Clearly you already have this all figured out and you don't need us. So, as you wish, I won't bother you with my support again. Good luck with your quit.
T
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Day 20 really lookin forward to sayin 3 weeks tomorrow.
This site is awesome, although I havent been the most hardcore about "hittin up" everyone on here I can, or every posting everyday (honestly there are some days I cannot get to a computer), I still find something interesting every time I get here.
Like today I was reading a little post about how so many people are lost in the 20-30 mark. And here I was, today wonderin why this wierd crave I havent had in a week or so is creepin up a little bit.
Ive been around dippers at work, and at family parties and told everyone Im quit. Even to a few of their groans and moans. They would say awww just one, just one, because some of them can really just have one. I now know I cant. I tell them I cant, because Im an addict. Its amazing cause when you say stuff like that and you arent playin, or smirking, but really dead serious.... people have funny reactions.
It defenitely takes some soul searching to really be able to publicly tell people that about yourself.
Well Im glad my January Group has growm, and lookin forward to all of us gettin to the HOF. Im gonna put these days 20s cravings aside with some gum, toothpicks, mabye a fake snuff or two, and some exercise.
Day to day!
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So...where are you now? You hit 21 days and bagged out on us?
'Popcorn'
So I hit 42 days and have not bagged out on you... b*tch.
Take your negativeness elsewhere.
Yeah thats right 42 days, I went on a vacation around when I stopped posting and guess what. I know I can stip without posting on here.
why am I back... because I like support, as everyone else does, but it comes down to me , by myself , not dipping, and guess what I have not and am never going to dip again.
Wow...I offer you my support every day that you posted roll and when you stop posting I ask where you are, and for that I'm a bitch? Seriously??? _
I don't recall any negativity in my post, but let me check...nope, nothing there. Just a question about where you went. However, if you'd like me to take my support elsewhere, then fine...consider it gone. There are lots of other quitters here who like the support, and who actually need it. Clearly you already have this all figured out and you don't need us. So, as you wish, I won't bother you with my support again. Good luck with your quit.
T
Get your head out of your ass dipstick. You know what goes on here. Accountability. A guy checks in on you and you shit on? You like support but don't want to post roll? Don't mess with the program and thank that guy for trying to keep you engaged.
I quit with you Taz.
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Day 20 really lookin forward to sayin 3 weeks tomorrow.
This site is awesome, although I havent been the most hardcore about "hittin up" everyone on here I can, or every posting everyday (honestly there are some days I cannot get to a computer), I still find something interesting every time I get here.
Like today I was reading a little post about how so many people are lost in the 20-30 mark. And here I was, today wonderin why this wierd crave I havent had in a week or so is creepin up a little bit.
Ive been around dippers at work, and at family parties and told everyone Im quit. Even to a few of their groans and moans. They would say awww just one, just one, because some of them can really just have one. I now know I cant. I tell them I cant, because Im an addict. Its amazing cause when you say stuff like that and you arent playin, or smirking, but really dead serious.... people have funny reactions.
It defenitely takes some soul searching to really be able to publicly tell people that about yourself.
Well Im glad my January Group has growm, and lookin forward to all of us gettin to the HOF. Im gonna put these days 20s cravings aside with some gum, toothpicks, mabye a fake snuff or two, and some exercise.
Day to day!
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So...where are you now? You hit 21 days and bagged out on us?
'Popcorn'
So I hit 42 days and have not bagged out on you... b*tch.
Take your negativeness elsewhere.
Yeah thats right 42 days, I went on a vacation around when I stopped posting and guess what. I know I can stip without posting on here.
why am I back... because I like support, as everyone else does, but it comes down to me , by myself , not dipping, and guess what I have not and am never going to dip again.
Wow...I offer you my support every day that you posted roll and when you stop posting I ask where you are, and for that I'm a bitch? Seriously??? _
I don't recall any negativity in my post, but let me check...nope, nothing there. Just a question about where you went. However, if you'd like me to take my support elsewhere, then fine...consider it gone. There are lots of other quitters here who like the support, and who actually need it. Clearly you already have this all figured out and you don't need us. So, as you wish, I won't bother you with my support again. Good luck with your quit.
T
Get your head out of your ass dipstick. You know what goes on here. Accountability. A guy checks in on you and you shit on? You like support but don't want to post roll? Don't mess with the program and thank that guy for trying to keep you engaged.
I quit with you Taz.
Please read this:
index.php?showtopic=2691 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=2691)
and this
index.php?showtopic=4689 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=4689)
Good good stuff
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