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Title: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 13, 2013, 12:18:00 PM
I am Jesse, 27 YO, happily married for almost 5 years now. Have a almost 4 year old who has a birthday in September (My group is Slutember Slayers) I promised myself 5 years ago I would quit when I got married, then it was when I had my first kid. Then it was when i had my second child who will be 1 in August. About 10 months ago I was on here for the first time. I ended up signing the contract. It was a very low day for me but I have feared the worst since the day I sign that contract and need to make good on my promises. If I can't keep a promise to myself, how can I teach my kids to keep a promise? I have dipped since I was 15. I recently realized that I have dipped longer than I have played football. I played football from the first year you could sign up in little league till I graduated college. With this realization came the fact that I HAVE DIPPED LONGER THAN PLAYED FOOTBALL!!!!! FUCKING SHIT! WAKE THE FUCK UP MAN! I had just wasted OVER HALF of MY life dipping and spitting and wasting money for what? cancer? so I can go to the dentist again to get another root canal? I hate the dentist! Fuck that shit! No. NO MORE! No more dipping for my wife, for my girls, for my dentist, fuck you dip! NO MORE!

Today is day 4 of my 1 day quitting. 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger' DIP!
'boob'  NICE! lol
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: cdaniels on June 13, 2013, 12:25:00 PM
Quote from: jgrem
I am Jesse, 27 YO, happily married for almost 5 years now. Have a almost 4 year old who has a birthday in September (My group is Slutember Slayers) I promised myself 5 years ago I would quit when I got married, then it was when I had my first kid. Then it was when i had my second child who will be 1 in August. About 10 months ago I was on here for the first time. I ended up signing the contract. It was a very low day for me but I have feared the worst since the day I sign that contract and need to make good on my promises. If I can't keep a promise to myself, how can I teach my kids to keep a promise? I have dipped since I was 15. I recently realized that I have dipped longer than I have played football. I played football from the first year you could sign up in little league till I graduated college. With this realization came the fact that I HAVE DIPPED LONGER THAN PLAYED FOOTBALL!!!!! FUCKING SHIT! WAKE THE FUCK UP MAN! I had just wasted OVER HALF of MY life dipping and spitting and wasting money for what? cancer? so I can go to the dentist again to get another root canal? I hate the dentist! Fuck that shit! No. NO MORE! No more dipping for my wife, for my girls, for my dentist, fuck you dip! NO MORE!

Today is day 4 of my 1 day quitting. 'Finger'  'Finger'  'Finger' DIP!
'boob'  NICE! lol
so you were here 10 months ago??? what was your screne name then?
1. what happened?
2. why did it happen?
3. and what are you going to do different this time besides change back to your other name?
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 13, 2013, 12:29:00 PM
Quote from: cdaniels
Quote from: jgrem
I am Jesse, 27 YO, happily married for almost 5 years now. Have a almost 4 year old who has a birthday in September (My group is Slutember Slayers) I promised myself 5 years ago I would quit when I got married, then it was when I had my first kid. Then it was when i had my second child who will be 1 in August. About 10 months ago I was on here for the first time. I ended up signing the contract. It was a very low day for me but I have feared the worst since the day I sign that contract and need to make good on my promises. If I can't keep a promise to myself, how can I teach my kids to keep a promise? I have dipped since I was 15. I recently realized that I have dipped longer than I have played football. I played football from the first year you could sign up in little league till I graduated college. With this realization came the fact that I HAVE DIPPED LONGER THAN PLAYED FOOTBALL!!!!! FUCKING SHIT! WAKE THE FUCK UP MAN! I had just wasted OVER HALF of MY life dipping and spitting and wasting money for what? cancer? so I can go to the dentist again to get another root canal? I hate the dentist! Fuck that shit! No. NO MORE! No more dipping for my wife, for my girls, for my dentist, fuck you dip! NO MORE!

Today is day 4 of my 1 day quitting. 'Finger'  'Finger'  'Finger' DIP!
'boob'  NICE! lol
so you were here 10 months ago??? what was your screne name then?
I do not remember it. As I was a ninja dipper, I didn't keep to much info about it around...
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: cdaniels on June 13, 2013, 12:31:00 PM
Quote from: jgrem
Quote from: cdaniels
Quote from: jgrem
I am Jesse, 27 YO, happily married for almost 5 years now. Have a almost 4 year old who has a birthday in September (My group is Slutember Slayers) I promised myself 5 years ago I would quit when I got married, then it was when I had my first kid. Then it was when i had my second child who will be 1 in August. About 10 months ago I was on here for the first time. I ended up signing the contract. It was a very low day for me but I have feared the worst since the day I sign that contract and need to make good on my promises. If I can't keep a promise to myself, how can I teach my kids to keep a promise? I have dipped since I was 15. I recently realized that I have dipped longer than I have played football. I played football from the first year you could sign up in little league till I graduated college. With this realization came the fact that I HAVE DIPPED LONGER THAN PLAYED FOOTBALL!!!!! FUCKING SHIT! WAKE THE FUCK UP MAN! I had just wasted OVER HALF of MY life dipping and spitting and wasting money for what? cancer? so I can go to the dentist again to get another root canal? I hate the dentist! Fuck that shit! No. NO MORE! No more dipping for my wife, for my girls, for my dentist, fuck you dip! NO MORE!

Today is day 4 of my 1 day quitting. 'Finger'  'Finger'  'Finger' DIP!
'boob'  NICE! lol
so you were here 10 months ago??? what was your screne name then?
I do not remember it. As I was a ninja dipper, I didn't keep to much info about it around...
1. what happened?
2. why did it happen?
3. and what are you going to do different this time besides change back to your other name?
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: traumagnet on June 13, 2013, 12:32:00 PM
Quote from: cdaniels
Quote from: jgrem
I am Jesse, 27 YO, happily married for almost 5 years now. Have a almost 4 year old who has a birthday in September (My group is Slutember Slayers) I promised myself 5 years ago I would quit when I got married, then it was when I had my first kid. Then it was when i had my second child who will be 1 in August. About 10 months ago I was on here for the first time. I ended up signing the contract. It was a very low day for me but I have feared the worst since the day I sign that contract and need to make good on my promises. If I can't keep a promise to myself, how can I teach my kids to keep a promise? I have dipped since I was 15. I recently realized that I have dipped longer than I have played football. I played football from the first year you could sign up in little league till I graduated college. With this realization came the fact that I HAVE DIPPED LONGER THAN PLAYED FOOTBALL!!!!! FUCKING SHIT! WAKE THE FUCK UP MAN! I had just wasted OVER HALF of MY life dipping and spitting and wasting money for what? cancer? so I can go to the dentist again to get another root canal? I hate the dentist! Fuck that shit! No. NO MORE! No more dipping for my wife, for my girls, for my dentist, fuck you dip! NO MORE!

Today is day 4 of my 1 day quitting. 'Finger'  'Finger'  'Finger' DIP!
'boob'  NICE! lol
so you were here 10 months ago??? what was your screne name then?
Yes I am confused here....signed the contract to cave? 10 mos ago different screen name? We need some answers before we proceed
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: cbird65 on June 13, 2013, 12:32:00 PM
Quote from: traumagnet
Quote from: cdaniels
Quote from: jgrem
I am Jesse, 27 YO, happily married for almost 5 years now. Have a almost 4 year old who has a birthday in September (My group is Slutember Slayers) I promised myself 5 years ago I would quit when I got married, then it was when I had my first kid. Then it was when i had my second child who will be 1 in August. About 10 months ago I was on here for the first time. I ended up signing the contract. It was a very low day for me but I have feared the worst since the day I sign that contract and need to make good on my promises. If I can't keep a promise to myself, how can I teach my kids to keep a promise? I have dipped since I was 15. I recently realized that I have dipped longer than I have played football. I played football from the first year you could sign up in little league till I graduated college. With this realization came the fact that I HAVE DIPPED LONGER THAN PLAYED FOOTBALL!!!!! FUCKING SHIT! WAKE THE FUCK UP MAN! I had just wasted OVER HALF of MY life dipping and spitting and wasting money for what? cancer? so I can go to the dentist again to get another root canal? I hate the dentist! Fuck that shit! No. NO MORE! No more dipping for my wife, for my girls, for my dentist, fuck you dip! NO MORE!

Today is day 4 of my 1 day quitting. 'Finger'  'Finger'  'Finger' DIP!
'boob'  NICE! lol
so you were here 10 months ago??? what was your screne name then?
Yes I am confused here....signed the contract to cave? 10 mos ago different screen name? We need some answers before we proceed
you need to contact a mod or admin if you don't remember your previous credentials


furthermore you need to post the answers to these questions in Sept 13 and whatever group you walked away from


(1) What happened?

(2) Why did it happen?

(3) What are you doing differently this time?
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 13, 2013, 12:37:00 PM
so you were here 10 months ago??? what was your screne name then?
1. what happened?---- Lack of sleep, stressed at work, life basically.
2. why did it happen? ----New baby, promotion (more responsibility= stress)
3. and what are you going to do different this time besides change back to your other name?--- Well the last 10 months have been full of research and talking to my best friend about people he knows through medical school that are in their early 30's late 20's and are/were athletes that had to have heart surgeries or cancer removed. Just, knowledge is power and with power comes fear and with fear comes action. Dip had knowledge that I didn't...
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 13, 2013, 12:42:00 PM
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: traumagnet
Quote from: cdaniels
Quote from: jgrem
I am Jesse, 27 YO, happily married for almost 5 years now. Have a almost 4 year old who has a birthday in September (My group is Slutember Slayers) I promised myself 5 years ago I would quit when I got married, then it was when I had my first kid. Then it was when i had my second child who will be 1 in August. About 10 months ago I was on here for the first time. I ended up signing the contract. It was a very low day for me but I have feared the worst since the day I sign that contract and need to make good on my promises. If I can't keep a promise to myself, how can I teach my kids to keep a promise? I have dipped since I was 15. I recently realized that I have dipped longer than I have played football. I played football from the first year you could sign up in little league till I graduated college. With this realization came the fact that I HAVE DIPPED LONGER THAN PLAYED FOOTBALL!!!!! FUCKING SHIT! WAKE THE FUCK UP MAN! I had just wasted OVER HALF of MY life dipping and spitting and wasting money for what? cancer? so I can go to the dentist again to get another root canal? I hate the dentist! Fuck that shit! No. NO MORE! No more dipping for my wife, for my girls, for my dentist, fuck you dip! NO MORE!

Today is day 4 of my 1 day quitting. 'Finger'  'Finger'  'Finger' DIP!
'boob'  NICE! lol
so you were here 10 months ago??? what was your screne name then?
Yes I am confused here....signed the contract to cave? 10 mos ago different screen name? We need some answers before we proceed
you need to contact a mod or admin if you don't remember your previous credentials


furthermore you need to post the answers to these questions in Sept 13 and whatever group you walked away from


(1) What happened?

(2) Why did it happen?

(3) What are you doing differently this time?
How do you contact an admin?
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: cdaniels on June 13, 2013, 12:44:00 PM
Quote from: jgrem
so you were here 10 months ago??? what was your screne name then?
1. what happened?---- Lack of sleep, stressed at work, life basically.
2. why did it happen? ----New baby, promotion (more responsibility= stress)
3. and what are you going to do different this time besides change back to your other name?--- Well the last 10 months have been full of research and talking to my best friend about people he knows through medical school that are in their early 30's late 20's and are/were athletes that had to have heart surgeries or cancer removed. Just, knowledge is power and with power comes fear and with fear comes action. Dip had knowledge that I didn't...
All Bull shit answers. We all have stress and most of us have kids. and we all dont want to get cancer. but we all are quit. you need to pm an admin to get your old screen name back before you can continue on here
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 13, 2013, 12:47:00 PM
Quote from: traumagnet
Quote from: cdaniels
Quote from: jgrem
I am Jesse, 27 YO, happily married for almost 5 years now. Have a almost 4 year old who has a birthday in September (My group is Slutember Slayers) I promised myself 5 years ago I would quit when I got married, then it was when I had my first kid. Then it was when i had my second child who will be 1 in August. About 10 months ago I was on here for the first time. I ended up signing the contract. It was a very low day for me but I have feared the worst since the day I sign that contract and need to make good on my promises. If I can't keep a promise to myself, how can I teach my kids to keep a promise? I have dipped since I was 15. I recently realized that I have dipped longer than I have played football. I played football from the first year you could sign up in little league till I graduated college. With this realization came the fact that I HAVE DIPPED LONGER THAN PLAYED FOOTBALL!!!!! FUCKING SHIT! WAKE THE FUCK UP MAN! I had just wasted OVER HALF of MY life dipping and spitting and wasting money for what? cancer? so I can go to the dentist again to get another root canal? I hate the dentist! Fuck that shit! No. NO MORE! No more dipping for my wife, for my girls, for my dentist, fuck you dip! NO MORE!

Today is day 4 of my 1 day quitting. 'Finger'  'Finger'  'Finger' DIP!
'boob'  NICE! lol
so you were here 10 months ago??? what was your screne name then?
Yes I am confused here....signed the contract to cave? 10 mos ago different screen name? We need some answers before we proceed
Yes when I was here last, there was a contract to give up. Not put on by the website but it was a tool that helped someone else get through the tough days. It is extremely hard to sign the contract after reading it.
It was written by a user named Hope in 2003.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 13, 2013, 12:53:00 PM
They are all bullshit answers, I KNOW. Something I am much better prepared for now. I still need to take the bashing for being an idiot and I am willing to accept it but I can't remember any of the info from the last time. I remember Nicbitches something but that is it... I had a hard time figuring out the website and roll call. I have already devoted 4 hours of work time today to figure it out. My health comes first now.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: cdaniels on June 13, 2013, 12:58:00 PM
Quote from: jgrem
They are all bullshit answers, I KNOW. Something I am much better prepared for now. I still need to take the bashing for being an idiot and I am willing to accept it but I can't remember any of the info from the last time. I remember Nicbitches something but that is it... I had a hard time figuring out the website and roll call. I have already devoted 4 hours of work time today to figure it out. My health comes first now.
I have sent a pm to an Admin. you are done here until we retrive your other name. one of the golden rules here is to not post useing different names. so please stand by. untill then think long and hard about the three questions.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: SirDerek on June 13, 2013, 01:00:00 PM
Quote from: jgrem
They are all bullshit answers, I KNOW. Something I am much better prepared for now. I still need to take the bashing for being an idiot and I am willing to accept it but I can't remember any of the info from the last time. I remember Nicbitches something but that is it... I had a hard time figuring out the website and roll call. I have already devoted 4 hours of work time today to figure it out. My health comes first now.
just remember that the honesty of your answers is what you need so you can learn from what happened so you can move forward. Just like when we write goals down to give us that visual target, the answers to the big 3, give us a roadmap to ride this wild rollercoaster of quit with success.

I quit with you today....
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: LionHeartedGirl on June 13, 2013, 01:02:00 PM
Quote from: jgrem
so you were here 10 months ago??? what was your screne name then?
1. what happened?---- Lack of sleep, stressed at work, life basically.
2. why did it happen? ----New baby, promotion (more responsibility= stress)
3. and what are you going to do different this time besides change back to your other name?--- Well the last 10 months have been full of research and talking to my best friend about people he knows through medical school that are in their early 30's late 20's and are/were athletes that had to have heart surgeries or cancer removed. Just, knowledge is power and with power comes fear and with fear comes action. Dip had knowledge that I didn't...
I'm going through a divorce. My financial security is incredibly vulnerable. I have two children who put my stress level over the top some days. I'm moving to a new city and dealing with a whole host of other stresses that are too personal to put out here. Basically I haven't really slept in a year.

Also, my daughter had cancer and that didn't get me to quit. And I have a very hard time believing you just heard about cancer and its risks in the last ten months.

So is your new quit plan really to make sure you never have stress in your life again and to keep expanding your newfound disease knowledge? Cause I have to be honest... That's dumb.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: JRizzle on June 13, 2013, 01:03:00 PM
Jesse, I'd like to support you on your quit. But this whole situation feels sketchy.

What was the contract/what did it say?

Your answers to the questions seem abbreviated. What specifically triggered your relapse? And why did this happen? And how are you going to prevent this from happening again? Really, how do we know that you're not going to fall back in and discourage us in the process?

Also, you talk about quitting for your wife, for your kids and for your dentist. You need to quit for you. Because you want to. Because you need to. Because it's the way to get freedom in your life. People talk about the importance of not quitting for other people so you don't end up resenting them during the quit. That's true. But I also think it's important to quit for you because your wife is going to piss you off sometime during the quit. So will your kids. So will (possibly, depending on your relationship) your dentist. If you make your quit about them and not about you, then you really threaten your quit whenever you get into an argument at home. When your quit is about you, you will realize that you control your actions and responses; it's not dependent on the way that others make you feel.

I'd love to take this journey with you. But I need affirmation that you're legitimately about this before I can.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 13, 2013, 01:18:00 PM
Other than the dentist... MY girls and my wife are ME. There is nothing more that I want for myself than to be able to be around them longer. The username to me makes no difference. no matter if I post on here or not. I have to quit every day when i wake up with every single breath i take. As I am writing this my gums are sore from the weekend fishing trip with the guys. I've had enough. I need more life and less dip.

To think that I just learned about cancer is hilarious. No, I did recently learn about the many many many athletes, professional, college, football, baseball, athletes, like myself that have to get heart surgery because they have a 75-90% blockage of the arteries. We all will most likely get some sort of cancer in our lives but most of us only get one heart. The fact that I could at any minute collapse in a heart attack and die scares the shit out of me.

I am sorry to hear your daughter has cancer and I hope the new move is a good opportunity for you and your kids.

I quit with you
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: LionHeartedGirl on June 13, 2013, 01:32:00 PM
Quote from: jgrem
Other than the dentist... MY girls and my wife are ME. There is nothing more that I want for myself than to be able to be around them longer. The username to me makes no difference. no matter if I post on here or not. I have to quit every day when i wake up with every single breath i take. As I am writing this my gums are sore from the weekend fishing trip with the guys. I've had enough. I need more life and less dip.

To think that I just learned about cancer is hilarious. No, I did recently learn about the many many many athletes, professional, college, football, baseball, athletes, like myself that have to get heart surgery because they have a 75-90% blockage of the arteries. We all will most likely get some sort of cancer in our lives but most of us only get one heart. The fact that I could at any minute collapse in a heart attack and die scares the shit out of me.

I am sorry to hear your daughter has cancer and I hope the new move is a good opportunity for you and your kids.

I quit with you
Thank you, she's doing great. Cancer free for three years.

I get the health reasons. I'll tell you a secret... I was a smoker and probably my number one reason I didn't want to smoke anymore was vanity. I like how I look and I like my voice and I'd like to keep it that way.

We all have our reasons to stop but that's just it. They are reasons to STOP. I was a serial stopper. Told myself more times than I can count that I was going to "quit" because I started coughing or I couldn't exercise without my lungs burning or I saw some woman with a ton of wrinkles and a cigarette dangling from her lips. But then I'd feel better and hell... I still look good! I can go to a party and have "just one". After all, I've got it beat. I'm "no longer addicted" and "work has been so stressful". Within a week every time I was back to a pack a day. And then I'd start the cycle again with all my good reasons for stopping.

You stopped jgrem. What we need to know is what makes this time a quit and not a stop.

This question would be a piece of cake for me and for every one of my quit brothers and sisters on this site. We want to know what you have to say.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: Scowick65 on June 13, 2013, 02:18:00 PM
Quote from: LionHeartedGirl
Quote from: jgrem
Other than the dentist... MY girls and my wife are ME. There is nothing more that I want for myself than to be able to be around them longer. The username to me makes no difference. no matter if I post on here or not. I have to quit every day when i wake up with every single breath i take. As I am writing this my gums are sore from the weekend fishing trip with the guys. I've had enough. I need more life and less dip.

To think that I just learned about cancer is hilarious. No, I did recently learn about the many many many athletes, professional, college, football, baseball, athletes, like myself that have to get heart surgery because they have a 75-90% blockage of the arteries. We all will most likely get some sort of cancer in our lives but most of us only get one heart. The fact that I could at any minute collapse in a heart attack and die scares the shit out of me.

I am sorry to hear your daughter has cancer and I hope the new move is a good opportunity for you and your kids.

I quit with you
Thank you, she's doing great. Cancer free for three years.

I get the health reasons. I'll tell you a secret... I was a smoker and probably my number one reason I didn't want to smoke anymore was vanity. I like how I look and I like my voice and I'd like to keep it that way.

We all have our reasons to stop but that's just it. They are reasons to STOP. I was a serial stopper. Told myself more times than I can count that I was going to "quit" because I started coughing or I couldn't exercise without my lungs burning or I saw some woman with a ton of wrinkles and a cigarette dangling from her lips. But then I'd feel better and hell... I still look good! I can go to a party and have "just one". After all, I've got it beat. I'm "no longer addicted" and "work has been so stressful". Within a week every time I was back to a pack a day. And then I'd start the cycle again with all my good reasons for stopping.

You stopped jgrem. What we need to know is what makes this time a quit and not a stop.

This question would be a piece of cake for me and for every one of my quit brothers and sisters on this site. We want to know what you have to say.
Hey jgrem,

Glad you are here. I read the posts on your thread and they make me proud. Why? They illustrate why this place works. You have joined a den of addicts. A den of liars. I should know, I am not a unique and special butterfly, I am addict. At some point, we got tired of the lies and the slavery and said enough is enough. We are the toughest, most honest, most compassionate people you will meet. We are your quit Sherpas. We know the way.

What needs to happen now is you need to find your previous identity and own your past. When you own your past, you can create your future. 1 day at a time.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: traumagnet on June 13, 2013, 02:31:00 PM
Quote from: Scowick65
Quote from: LionHeartedGirl
Quote from: jgrem
Other than the dentist... MY girls and my wife are ME. There is nothing more that I want for myself than to be able to be around them longer. The username to me makes no difference. no matter if I post on here or not. I have to quit every day when i wake up with every single breath i take. As I am writing this my gums are sore from the weekend fishing trip with the guys. I've had enough. I need more life and less dip.

To think that I just learned about cancer is hilarious. No, I did recently learn about the many many many athletes, professional, college, football, baseball, athletes, like myself that have to get heart surgery because they have a 75-90% blockage of the arteries. We all will most likely get some sort of cancer in our lives but most of us only get one heart. The fact that I could at any minute collapse in a heart attack and die scares the shit out of me.

I am sorry to hear your daughter has cancer and I hope the new move is a good opportunity for you and your kids.

I quit with you
Thank you, she's doing great. Cancer free for three years.

I get the health reasons. I'll tell you a secret... I was a smoker and probably my number one reason I didn't want to smoke anymore was vanity. I like how I look and I like my voice and I'd like to keep it that way.

We all have our reasons to stop but that's just it. They are reasons to STOP. I was a serial stopper. Told myself more times than I can count that I was going to "quit" because I started coughing or I couldn't exercise without my lungs burning or I saw some woman with a ton of wrinkles and a cigarette dangling from her lips. But then I'd feel better and hell... I still look good! I can go to a party and have "just one". After all, I've got it beat. I'm "no longer addicted" and "work has been so stressful". Within a week every time I was back to a pack a day. And then I'd start the cycle again with all my good reasons for stopping.

You stopped jgrem. What we need to know is what makes this time a quit and not a stop.

This question would be a piece of cake for me and for every one of my quit brothers and sisters on this site. We want to know what you have to say.
Hey jgrem,

Glad you are here. I read the posts on your thread and they make me proud. Why? They illustrate why this place works. You have joined a den of addicts. A den of liars. I should know, I am not a unique and special butterfly, I am addict. At some point, we got tired of the lies and the slavery and said enough is enough. We are the toughest, most honest, most compassionate people you will meet. We are your quit Sherpas. We know the way.

What needs to happen now is you need to find your previous identity and own your past. When you own your past, you can create your future. 1 day at a time.
Jgrem,
I have been reading your thread so far and have not seen real answers. What does make me happy is that a newbie quitter has drank the koolaid, it is obvious because he gave you very good advice...(JRizz...I quit with you)

I can help you with the third question....get involved take an active interest in this quit...give your number out this time that is accountability... I am not sure what your old numbers were for posts and roll, but I would be willing to say very low. I know that if I left this site for a day my phone would blow up....with accountability like that it keeps the nic bitch at a distance. Also you need to listen learn and read read read. no more bullshit no more sad stories expose your weaknesses and hold on brother for the ride....you SHOULD also go over and check out Cbirds post today....follow that plan.

pm if you need help or my digits...but we need to get you back to your other screen name....give real answers that people can learn from to help them not cave.
T
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 13, 2013, 02:49:00 PM
http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp (http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp)
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: Ready on June 13, 2013, 02:55:00 PM
Quote from: jgrem
http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp (http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp)
Your sig line says you will never again sign that. Did you at one time sign that?

What's with the link to the contract? What's that supposed to mean?

Who are you?

Why are you here?
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: Ready on June 13, 2013, 02:56:00 PM
Quote from: Ready
Quote from: jgrem
http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp (http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp)
Your sig line says you will never again sign that. Did you at one time sign that?

What's with the link to the contract? What's that supposed to mean?

Who are you?

Why are you here?
My spidey sense is tingling.

Short leash friend.

Get in front of this or get rolled over by it.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 13, 2013, 04:03:00 PM
I'm so fucking confused right now as to what the hell the admin wants from me? What do yall want from me? IDK where exactly the letter came from. I found it on the site when I was here the first time. When I failed at quitting after 23 days. The link is the one I found today on this website.
Here it is: Contract to Give Up

I give up my quit. Quitting is impossible and I cannot do it. I love dipping more than I love myself. I care about dipping more than I care about my personal health. I love dipping more than I love my family. I know this addiction will kill me, and I ACCEPT that fact. I enjoy spending time alone with my can more than I enjoy spending time with anyone else on the planet. I look forward to losing my jaw, my tongue, my throat, my life - it's worth it. When I am lying in my hospital bed fighting a losing battle against cancer I will feel a sense of satisfaction knowing that this is the path I CHOSE. My only regret will be that I didn't start dipping earlier in life. I will feel sorrow for my familyÂ’s heartbreak and suffer untold pain, but I know you must sacrifice for the things you truly love.

I know ALL the consequences of my actions and I accept them fully and without regret. I hereby choose to give my life to this addiction - I do so with a smile on face.

Signature: ____________________
Date: ____________________
- See more at: http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contrac ... c5BhD.dpuf (http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp#sthash.oXcc5BhD.dpuf)

It is under well I found it by hitting the "Quit Links" then searching "contract" It is the first one that pops up.

Back to My quit. DAMN If I can get through this shit, giving up the can will be a joke! I know it is fucking hard , read the contract and imagine having to sign and giving it to your wife. Now imagine your wife didn't know you dipped, had stopped dipping, had quit on your quit.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: Remshot on June 13, 2013, 05:46:00 PM
Quote from: jgrem
http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp (http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp)
jgrem.......Are you being honest?

For you to know who wrote the contract tells me that you have been around A LOT longer than you say....As far as I know, the only place that it says who wrote that is on a website that stopped being active 8 years ago or so.....
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: traumagnet on June 13, 2013, 08:39:00 PM
Quote from: Remshot
Quote from: jgrem
http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp (http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp)
jgrem.......Are you being honest?

For you to know who wrote the contract tells me that you have been around A LOT longer than you say....As far as I know, the only place that it says who wrote that is on a website that stopped being active 8 years ago or so.....
You're pretty freak in quiet since 2 admin have visited your thread....hmmm
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: traumagnet on June 14, 2013, 09:25:00 AM
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Quote from: Remshot
Quote from: jgrem
http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp (http://www.killthecan.org/facts/contract.asp)
jgrem.......Are you being honest?

For you to know who wrote the contract tells me that you have been around A LOT longer than you say....As far as I know, the only place that it says who wrote that is on a website that stopped being active 8 years ago or so.....
You're pretty freak in quiet since 2 admin have visited your thread....hmmm
like a fart in the wind...poof gone
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 14, 2013, 10:51:00 AM
Ok, the reason for the quietness was because I spent about 6 hours yesterday trying to figure out what the hell was going on.

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So you will be like reviewing my post and stuff before they hit the website? That is fine with me. I don't care about that. What I care about is getting some network to help me when I struggle. I also want to help others that are going through it.
Yep. But that is very temporary until you revert to your old user name. No way around it. You know what needs to be done. Do it. Your current user name is hanging by a threat. It will afford you the opportunity to find your old username and not much else. I have been clear on what is expected of you. If you are incapable of understanding, you should probably move on.
Found out this morning that it seems I was on a different site the last time I failed. Where does that leave me now? How do yall want me to explain to the community what happened? I will still answer the big 3 publicly if they want. I am accountable for my mistakes and I have no problem owning up to my failure.
Post exactly what you just sent me.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 14, 2013, 11:06:00 AM
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So you will be like reviewing my post and stuff before they hit the website? That is fine with me. I don't care about that. What I care about is getting some network to help me when I struggle. I also want to help others that are going through it.
Yep. But that is very temporary until you revert to your old user name. No way around it. You know what needs to be done. Do it. Your current user name is hanging by a threat. It will afford you the opportunity to find your old username and not much else. I have been clear on what is expected of you. If you are incapable of understanding, you should probably move on.
Found out this morning that it seems I was on a different site the last time I failed. Where does that leave me now? How do yall want me to explain to the community what happened? I will still answer the big 3 publicly if they want. I am accountable for my mistakes and I have no problem owning up to my failure.
Post exactly what you just sent me.
Hope that clears the air.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 14, 2013, 11:24:00 AM
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Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 14, 2013, 11:27:00 AM
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So you will be like reviewing my post and stuff before they hit the website? That is fine with me. I don't care about that. What I care about is getting some network to help me when I struggle. I also want to help others that are going through it.
Yep. But that is very temporary until you revert to your old user name. No way around it. You know what needs to be done. Do it. Your current user name is hanging by a threat. It will afford you the opportunity to find your old username and not much else. I have been clear on what is expected of you. If you are incapable of understanding, you should probably move on.
Found out this morning that it seems I was on a different site the last time I failed. Where does that leave me now? How do yall want me to explain to the community what happened? I will still answer the big 3 publicly if they want. I am accountable for my mistakes and I have no problem owning up to my failure.
Post exactly what you just sent me.
Hope this clears the air.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: Scowick65 on June 14, 2013, 11:29:00 AM
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So you will be like reviewing my post and stuff before they hit the website? That is fine with me. I don't care about that. What I care about is getting some network to help me when I struggle. I also want to help others that are going through it.
Yep. But that is very temporary until you revert to your old user name. No way around it. You know what needs to be done. Do it. Your current user name is hanging by a threat. It will afford you the opportunity to find your old username and not much else. I have been clear on what is expected of you. If you are incapable of understanding, you should probably move on.
Found out this morning that it seems I was on a different site the last time I failed. Where does that leave me now? How do yall want me to explain to the community what happened? I will still answer the big 3 publicly if they want. I am accountable for my mistakes and I have no problem owning up to my failure.
Post exactly what you just sent me.
Hope this clears the air.
Find your group, post up for today. Focus on today. You got this. PM if you need any assistance.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: wastepanel on June 14, 2013, 11:53:00 AM
You know what dude?

I'm going to applaud you for not giving up despite issues at the beginning of your quit. Many users will say "Screw this. Never meant to quit."

You took 6 hours to fight and claw your way to this program.

Bravo.

Folks...we have a quitter.

Now, with that leaves us to one thing.

You did come from another site. Similar program, but not implemented like we do it. We are extreme. No excuses for failure. We only learn from our mistakes. You know that the program is:

Post roll
Keep your word.
Repeat.

You did not do all of these things, and thus you failed. We ask every returning member to answer 3 questions if they have fallen: (1) What happened?, (2) Why did it happen?, and (3) What are you doing differently this time? You may be new to the site, but you are not new to the program. I would like you to learn from your past mistakes, and be quit. Please take the time to do this.

Now, hop on it, have some fun, and be quit. We'll be watching.

:ph43r:

PS. Live chat is an awesome feature we have as well, and is quite fun. (http://chat.killthecan.org/)
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: LionHeartedGirl on June 14, 2013, 02:14:00 PM
Just read what you wrote in September. I'd encourage you to copy and paste it in here so you can refer to it later. That was a strong answer and I'm glad you're here. Happy to be quit with you today Jesse. Welcome to freedom.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: Nolaq on June 14, 2013, 02:19:00 PM
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You know what dude?

I'm going to applaud you for not giving up despite issues at the beginning of your quit. Many users will say "Screw this. Never meant to quit."

You took 6 hours to fight and claw your way to this program.

Bravo.

Folks...we have a quitter.

Now, with that leaves us to one thing.

You did come from another site. Similar program, but not implemented like we do it. We are extreme. No excuses for failure. We only learn from our mistakes. You know that the program is:

Post roll
Keep your word.
Repeat.

You did not do all of these things, and thus you failed. We ask every returning member to answer 3 questions if they have fallen: (1) What happened?, (2) Why did it happen?, and (3) What are you doing differently this time? You may be new to the site, but you are not new to the program. I would like you to learn from your past mistakes, and be quit. Please take the time to do this.

Now, hop on it, have some fun, and be quit. We'll be watching.

:ph43r:

PS. Live chat is an awesome feature we have as well, and is quite fun. (http://chat.killthecan.org/)
I also want to pat you on the ass for your tenacity. It was perceived as general dooshbagery, but I'm glad you stuck with it, and are here now.

Having said that, Waste is right. We don't take this lightly - at all.

Post Roll EVERY day.

Keep your WORD.

Repeat.

It works, and I'm proof.

-Nolaq - 1,187
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: traumagnet on June 14, 2013, 02:22:00 PM
yep that is how you do it you learn from your mistakes and help others to learn. That is the way you answer the 3 questions, the way you answered them today. well lets get this quit on. post roll meet your group.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: cdaniels on June 14, 2013, 02:27:00 PM
THAT HAD TO BE ONE OF THE BEST POSTS TO THE 3 QUESTIONS I HAVE SEEN SO FAR. I WILL PROUDLY STAND BY YOU AND QUIT. ONE DAY AT A TIME BROTHER. PM ME FOR A NUMBER ITS YOURS.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: Ready on June 14, 2013, 03:11:00 PM
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So you will be like reviewing my post and stuff before they hit the website? That is fine with me. I don't care about that. What I care about is getting some network to help me when I struggle. I also want to help others that are going through it.
Yep. But that is very temporary until you revert to your old user name. No way around it. You know what needs to be done. Do it. Your current user name is hanging by a threat. It will afford you the opportunity to find your old username and not much else. I have been clear on what is expected of you. If you are incapable of understanding, you should probably move on.
Found out this morning that it seems I was on a different site the last time I failed. Where does that leave me now? How do yall want me to explain to the community what happened? I will still answer the big 3 publicly if they want. I am accountable for my mistakes and I have no problem owning up to my failure.
Post exactly what you just sent me.
Hope this clears the air.
No worries. Just protecting the site and it's members. We get trolls that mess with people's quits. Can't have that. You have shown me something because you stuck around to work through this rather than giving up. I have seen many people try to help you, and many were behind the scenes you don't know about. So you are still here, earn their help by staying quit.

Check your posting ability. I want to see if I released it properly. If I did, your posts will show up immediately. Let me know if they don't.

Stay quit.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: jgrem on June 14, 2013, 04:53:00 PM
10 months ago I failed at my quit.
(1) What happened? I wasn't truly ready to quit for myself. I wanted it for my family. I wanted to be a good role model for my kids. I wanted the thought of being nic free. I had a very stressful last couple of weeks of my wife's pregnancy and had a new promotion with more responsibility and stress. That day at work I had to fire the first person in my life. It was for a reasonable cause to fire someone but it was my first and I had the responsibility to take away Steven's income. It hit me extremely hard but I was coping ok. I get home and my wife didn't give 2 shits about it or my day. I had a beer and a fight with my loving wife. The next morning after sleeping on the couch I had the exit interview with Steven and I broke down and bought a can of heart attack. (Griz LC)
I failed on day 23. I signed the contract to quit and felt like a little bitch for doing it. I was a little piece of shit that flies wouldn't even touch. I actually thought that it would help the stress go away! I was an idiot and a hypocrite that day and for the next 10 months of my life.

(2) Why did it happen? Old habits die hard but that is not why it happened. I wasn't strong enough mentally and I didn't reach out for help when I should have. I remember saying to myself "Just get through today without one and it will get better." Then I woke up and forgot to say "I quit today" From that point I went back to being a dumb ass ninja. I am strong enough, i have learned a lot more about what dip can do to my body. Not just cancer but the arteries and heart problems as well. I don't want to die with a dip. I want to live with a lip! I should have called my dad, wife, kids, best friend, anyone but I didn't. I can't get help if I don't ask for it.

(3) What are you doing differently this time? Here is my number xxx-xxx-xxxx. My name is Jesse. I was addicted to dip since I was 15 and have a bunch of people that I love that I have lied to because of this addiction. It has torn me apart for many years and I will post RC everyday. Instead of trying to do it on my own, I will use anybody or anything that will help. I am a fighter for my quit, I am the champion but even a champ needs a coach.
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I edited out jgrem's phone number from his post. While sharing numbers is, in my opinion, a tremendous quit tool, it should be done via PMs and not in a public forum when anyone in the world can see it. - Evil_Won
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: traumagnet on June 14, 2013, 08:36:00 PM
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10 months ago I failed at my quit.
(1) What happened? I wasn't truly ready to quit for myself. I wanted it for my family. I wanted to be a good role model for my kids. I wanted the thought of being nic free. I had a very stressful last couple of weeks of my wife's pregnancy and had a new promotion with more responsibility and stress. That day at work I had to fire the first person in my life. It was for a reasonable cause to fire someone but it was my first and I had the responsibility to take away Steven's income. It hit me extremely hard but I was coping ok. I get home and my wife didn't give 2 shits about it or my day. I had a beer and a fight with my loving wife. The next morning after sleeping on the couch I had the exit interview with Steven and I broke down and bought a can of heart attack. (Griz LC)
I failed on day 23. I signed the contract to quit and felt like a little bitch for doing it. I was a little piece of shit that flies wouldn't even touch. I actually thought that it would help the stress go away! I was an idiot and a hypocrite that day and for the next 10 months of my life.

(2) Why did it happen? Old habits die hard but that is not why it happened. I wasn't strong enough mentally and I didn't reach out for help when I should have. I remember saying to myself "Just get through today without one and it will get better." Then I woke up and forgot to say "I quit today" From that point I went back to being a dumb ass ninja. I am strong enough, i have learned a lot more about what dip can do to my body. Not just cancer but the arteries and heart problems as well. I don't want to die with a dip. I want to live with a lip! I should have called my dad, wife, kids, best friend, anyone but I didn't. I can't get help if I don't ask for it.

(3) What are you doing differently this time? Here is my number xxx-xxx-xxxx. My name is Jesse. I was addicted to dip since I was 15 and have a bunch of people that I love that I have lied to because of this addiction. It has torn me apart for many years and I will post RC everyday. Instead of trying to do it on my own, I will use anybody or anything that will help. I am a fighter for my quit, I am the champion but even a champ needs a coach.
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I edited out jgrem's phone number from his post. While sharing numbers is, in my opinion, a tremendous quit tool, it should be done via PMs and not in a public forum when anyone in the world can see it. - Evil_Won
Keep this sight close to you this weekend you have my digits you are going into the weekend as a foggy lil fuck in the middle of the suck. Hydrate stay away from booze in the initial quit. you have this send your Ms Grem here
http://www.killthecan.org/community/spouse.asp (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spouse.asp) protect your quit at all costs.
Title: Re: Ninja Dipstick
Post by: JRizzle on June 15, 2013, 11:41:00 AM
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10 months ago I failed at my quit.
(1) What happened? I wasn't truly ready to quit for myself. I wanted it for my family. I wanted to be a good role model for my kids. I wanted the thought of being nic free. I had a very stressful last couple of weeks of my wife's pregnancy and had a new promotion with more responsibility and stress. That day at work I had to fire the first person in my life. It was for a reasonable cause to fire someone but it was my first and I had the responsibility to take away Steven's income. It hit me extremely hard but I was coping ok. I get home and my wife didn't give 2 shits about it or my day. I had a beer and a fight with my loving wife. The next morning after sleeping on the couch I had the exit interview with Steven and I broke down and bought a can of heart attack. (Griz LC)
I failed on day 23. I signed the contract to quit and felt like a little bitch for doing it. I was a little piece of shit that flies wouldn't even touch. I actually thought that it would help the stress go away! I was an idiot and a hypocrite that day and for the next 10 months of my life.

(2) Why did it happen? Old habits die hard but that is not why it happened. I wasn't strong enough mentally and I didn't reach out for help when I should have. I remember saying to myself "Just get through today without one and it will get better." Then I woke up and forgot to say "I quit today" From that point I went back to being a dumb ass ninja. I am strong enough, i have learned a lot more about what dip can do to my body. Not just cancer but the arteries and heart problems as well. I don't want to die with a dip. I want to live with a lip! I should have called my dad, wife, kids, best friend, anyone but I didn't. I can't get help if I don't ask for it.

(3) What are you doing differently this time? Here is my number xxx-xxx-xxxx. My name is Jesse. I was addicted to dip since I was 15 and have a bunch of people that I love that I have lied to because of this addiction. It has torn me apart for many years and I will post RC everyday. Instead of trying to do it on my own, I will use anybody or anything that will help. I am a fighter for my quit, I am the champion but even a champ needs a coach.
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I edited out jgrem's phone number from his post. While sharing numbers is, in my opinion, a tremendous quit tool, it should be done via PMs and not in a public forum when anyone in the world can see it. - Evil_Won
Good to have you Jesse. Please please please remember what you posted here. I quit with you today bro. You're one tough mofo