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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: buddyaces on August 03, 2017, 10:02:00 AM
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Hey Guys,
First and foremost, I'm an addict. A still relatively young addict at 28. Started when I was 16, older guys in baseball and football offered and of course I tried it unknowingly. Who knew 12 years later I'd be joining a support/quit forum to stop this habit. It's crazy how strong the nicotine addiction is physically, psychologically, and emotionally. My plans were to quit when I graduated from college, quit when I get my first big boy job, quit once I get married, absolutely quit when I had my first child. Well, all those things have happened, and my daughter is now three and I'm still dipping. I grew tired of hiding the habit, of strategically planning dips, taking long bathroom breaks, not to mention killing myself. I grew tired of not being able to set through long meetings without the need for nicotine. I grew tired of having to spit into a bottle while playing with my child. I grew tired of anxious long trips with upper management, family, spouse, etc.
I took it one step further and reached out for medical help through my family doctor. Explained my situation and fears, they prescribed me wellbutrin, which in itself is a anti-depressant. I've never been one to suffer from real "depression" or anxiety problems, so I'm hoping this can help curb any withdrawals. It really seems to have helped compared to my previous quit attempts. Could be placebo affect though. I still have moments of irritability, sweats, thoughts of "just one dip won't hurt". Not sure what the forum policy here is on external medication, but there is a end sight to using it AND its not a form a nicotine.
For the last month I've wrote down my quit day being tomorrow 8/4, and lowered my limits from 5 dips a day, to 4, to 3, to 2, etc. You get the picture. From there I started spreading it out days. 1 dip a day, 1 dip every 2 days, etc. I haven't dipped since 7/30 and have decided to start my quit earlier than anticipated. I've conquered the worst part of the actual withdrawals, now its onto beating the mind games.
So that's my story, glad to be here, and excited for a new future.
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Hey Guys,
First and foremost, I'm an addict. A still relatively young addict at 28. Started when I was 16, older guys in baseball and football offered and of course I tried it unknowingly. Who knew 12 years later I'd be joining a support/quit forum to stop this habit. It's crazy how strong the nicotine addiction is physically, psychologically, and emotionally. My plans were to quit when I graduated from college, quit when I get my first big boy job, quit once I get married, absolutely quit when I had my first child. Well, all those things have happened, and my daughter is now three and I'm still dipping. I grew tired of hiding the habit, of strategically planning dips, taking long bathroom breaks, not to mention killing myself. I grew tired of not being able to set through long meetings without the need for nicotine. I grew tired of having to spit into a bottle while playing with my child. I grew tired of anxious long trips with upper management, family, spouse, etc.
I took it one step further and reached out for medical help through my family doctor. Explained my situation and fears, they prescribed me wellbutrin, which in itself is a anti-depressant. I've never been one to suffer from real "depression" or anxiety problems, so I'm hoping this can help curb any withdrawals. It really seems to have helped compared to my previous quit attempts. Could be placebo affect though. I still have moments of irritability, sweats, thoughts of "just one dip won't hurt". Not sure what the forum policy here is on external medication, but there is a end sight to using it AND its not a form a nicotine.
For the last month I've wrote down my quit day being tomorrow 8/4, and lowered my limits from 5 dips a day, to 4, to 3, to 2, etc. You get the picture. From there I started spreading it out days. 1 dip a day, 1 dip every 2 days, etc. I haven't dipped since 7/30 and have decided to start my quit earlier than anticipated. I've conquered the worst part of the actual withdrawals, now its onto beating the mind games.
So that's my story, glad to be here, and excited for a new future.
Welcome Buddy!
I relate a lot to your story. All these big event planned quits that we burn right through. Congratulations on deciding that now is the time - this site can help turn this into a long term success. Wellbutrin is kosher here. It's non-nicotine and many have found it useful. If it helps you get through the withdrawals, then all the power to you. Same story with "fake" dip alternatives like Smokey Mountain.
The system here at KTC is pretty simple. You post a daily promise to your "Quit Group" not to use any nicotine product. You make that promise first thing every day and then you keep it. It's called "Posting Roll" and it's the backbone of this site, as well as a requirement for using the resources here. Based on your quit date, your group is November (November because that's when you'll hit 100 days clean, or Hall of Fame). topic/30296729/39/#new (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30296729/39/#new) Head there and post your name and day count on the Roll sheet. It's a little confusing at first, but you'll figure it out.
I'll also encourage you to bounce around the site a bit and get familiar with how it works. It will require some leg work on your end, but there is an essentially limitless amount of information, motivation and distraction at this site. You can use this to develop tools that will help you in your quit. You should also get to know your quit brothers and others on this site. Exchange phone numbers and start digging in to the accountability support system.
Investing in others will make it harder for you do fail and will also boost your support network.
You can do this. It won't be easy. There are no shortcuts and there are no excuses for failure. Just post your promise and keep it. Welcome and I look forward to seeing you succeed. Reach out if I can help.
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Hey Guys,
First and foremost, I'm an addict. A still relatively young addict at 28. Started when I was 16, older guys in baseball and football offered and of course I tried it unknowingly. Who knew 12 years later I'd be joining a support/quit forum to stop this habit. It's crazy how strong the nicotine addiction is physically, psychologically, and emotionally. My plans were to quit when I graduated from college, quit when I get my first big boy job, quit once I get married, absolutely quit when I had my first child. Well, all those things have happened, and my daughter is now three and I'm still dipping. I grew tired of hiding the habit, of strategically planning dips, taking long bathroom breaks, not to mention killing myself. I grew tired of not being able to set through long meetings without the need for nicotine. I grew tired of having to spit into a bottle while playing with my child. I grew tired of anxious long trips with upper management, family, spouse, etc.
I took it one step further and reached out for medical help through my family doctor. Explained my situation and fears, they prescribed me wellbutrin, which in itself is a anti-depressant. I've never been one to suffer from real "depression" or anxiety problems, so I'm hoping this can help curb any withdrawals. It really seems to have helped compared to my previous quit attempts. Could be placebo affect though. I still have moments of irritability, sweats, thoughts of "just one dip won't hurt". Not sure what the forum policy here is on external medication, but there is a end sight to using it AND its not a form a nicotine.
For the last month I've wrote down my quit day being tomorrow 8/4, and lowered my limits from 5 dips a day, to 4, to 3, to 2, etc. You get the picture. From there I started spreading it out days. 1 dip a day, 1 dip every 2 days, etc. I haven't dipped since 7/30 and have decided to start my quit earlier than anticipated. I've conquered the worst part of the actual withdrawals, now its onto beating the mind games.
So that's my story, glad to be here, and excited for a new future.
Congratulations on finding this site. After only 12 years too, not 30+ like me.
I also asked my doctor about it, he wrote a prescription for Chantix. After reading the literature and checking with the pharmacist, I now know two important facts about it:
1. It is f$cking expensive
2. It is replacing a nicotine addiction with some other chemical with a list of side effects as long as my arm.
I decided I didn't want any of that, then I found this site and got mad enough to do it cold turkey with this bunch of badasses here. Participate and reach out for help when you need it.
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Day 5.
It's amazing in just 5 days how perceptions change. I constantly find myself zoning out thinking about how months ago I couldn't imagine going 4 hours without a chew. Wife and I had a long conversation tonight, it was a good one. Earlier in the day I had to run to the ATM before we left for our trip. Weeks ago that meant, "I need to go to the ATM........ and also get a can." It's these little changes, more conversational at night, more optimistic almost. I get a little hint of freedom, and want more.
I'll have a few hard cravings still everyday mostly early in the morning with coffee and immediately after supper. Those are the moments I come here and read whatever article I find first. Brings the message home during the crave. I want in this HOF club, I want in the Legends club, but most importantly I can't wait to post roll tomorrow for Day 6 with my morning coffee in hand.
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Day 5.
It's amazing in just 5 days how perceptions change. I constantly find myself zoning out thinking about how months ago I couldn't imagine going 4 hours without a chew. Wife and I had a long conversation tonight, it was a good one. Earlier in the day I had to run to the ATM before we left for our trip. Weeks ago that meant, "I need to go to the ATM........ and also get a can." It's these little changes, more conversational at night, more optimistic almost. I get a little hint of freedom, and want more.
I'll have a few hard cravings still everyday mostly early in the morning with coffee and immediately after supper. Those are the moments I come here and read whatever article I find first. Brings the message home during the crave. I want in this HOF club, I want in the Legends club, but most importantly I can't wait to post roll tomorrow for Day 6 with my morning coffee in hand.
Congrats, Buddy. You get it. All those with flowery rhetoric and glowing words are just fooling themselves if they don't post roll first thing in the morning. Keep it up and I'll be congratulating you on your HOF entry in 93 days. Proud to quit with you today.
I will PM you my digits if you ever want to talk - or even just to have another brother to make your promise. They will be in your inbox as soon as I post this reply!
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hang in there...the craves are just the nic trained brain fing with you....tell it to f off and go about your day
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Day 5.
It's amazing in just 5 days how perceptions change. I constantly find myself zoning out thinking about how months ago I couldn't imagine going 4 hours without a chew. Wife and I had a long conversation tonight, it was a good one. Earlier in the day I had to run to the ATM before we left for our trip. Weeks ago that meant, "I need to go to the ATM........ and also get a can." It's these little changes, more conversational at night, more optimistic almost. I get a little hint of freedom, and want more.
I'll have a few hard cravings still everyday mostly early in the morning with coffee and immediately after supper. Those are the moments I come here and read whatever article I find first. Brings the message home during the crave. I want in this HOF club, I want in the Legends club, but most importantly I can't wait to post roll tomorrow for Day 6 with my morning coffee in hand.
Congrats, Buddy. You get it. All those with flowery rhetoric and glowing words are just fooling themselves if they don't post roll first thing in the morning. Keep it up and I'll be congratulating you on your HOF entry in 93 days. Proud to quit with you today.
I will PM you my digits if you ever want to talk - or even just to have another brother to make your promise. They will be in your inbox as soon as I post this reply!
EDD - Every Damn Day.
You'll see that posted a lot here and posting roll every day really works.
WUPP - Wake Up Piss Post
Another common acronym here that means get here and make your promise first before you do anything other than take care of bodily functions. We expect promises to be kept here. We don't want status reports, we want folks who actively quit EDD. :)
I'm proud to quit with you today!
Stranger999 - 35 year plus nicotine addict and a nicotine quitter here EDD at day 712.
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ONE MOTHER F***ING MONTH. Felt really good to say that. Still can't believe it, the days just keep adding up to this point, and you know what? It's getting easier. I feel it everyday, I think about it less just a little every day.
Not saying its a walk in the park. I still have that wild hair moment, where it hits me. Whether it be a mood, setting, smell, whatever trigger that brought that crave on, but that's all it is. A crave. Nothing more, nothing less. Five minutes later and, it's gone.
One month down, let's go for two months.
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ONE MOTHER F***ING MONTH. Felt really good to say that. Still can't believe it, the days just keep adding up to this point, and you know what? It's getting easier. I feel it everyday, I think about it less just a little every day.
Not saying its a walk in the park. I still have that wild hair moment, where it hits me. Whether it be a mood, setting, smell, whatever trigger that brought that crave on, but that's all it is. A crave. Nothing more, nothing less. Five minutes later and, it's gone.
One month down, let's go for two months.
Congrats man keep it up! Digits on the way to the box
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ONE MOTHER F***ING MONTH. Felt really good to say that. Still can't believe it, the days just keep adding up to this point, and you know what? It's getting easier. I feel it everyday, I think about it less just a little every day.
Not saying its a walk in the park. I still have that wild hair moment, where it hits me. Whether it be a mood, setting, smell, whatever trigger that brought that crave on, but that's all it is. A crave. Nothing more, nothing less. Five minutes later and, it's gone.
One month down, let's go for two months.
Congrats man keep it up! Digits on the way to the box
You' re rocking it Buddy. Keep the faith, and follow the program. Its working for you like its working for me. Shooting you a pm with my digits if you need another. I have been texting with about 20 people everyday, about 50/50 Our Nov group and vets. Shoot me back your number if you want me to text you my day count tomorrow. Its part of my WUPP. I post and then I send roughly 20(number has been growing all month) individual texts to everyone on my list: no group text nonsense, all individual