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Scott B. - 2714
Bicycleptic 3751
Chick 4042
DWEIRICK - 310

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Scott B. - 2714
Bicycleptic 3751

Day 309

Addiction really does suck. I can’t even fully describe the sense of loss I’m feeling right now. It’s a strange kind of grief—almost like losing someone, except they’re still here. It feels more like they’re just… missing.

I know where she is, and I know she’s safe, but what I don’t know is whether she’s ready for the fight ahead of her.

We spoke briefly on the phone the other day. After that, I went through her room and found more hidden items, along with a lot of papers with writing on them. I wasn’t sure at first if they were school-related or something else, but after skimming a few, it became clear they were journal entries—something she had been working on in therapy.

To be honest, before I even read them, I was scared I might find a suicide note. She had already made an attempt before I came across the papers, so that fear was very real.

Some of what I read was really concerning. She wrote about harming herself and not caring about the consequences, both for herself and for others. There were also parts where she talked about hurting people emotionally and seeming unaffected by it.

It was hard to read, honestly. I just hope she’s able to get the help she needs.

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Bicycleptic 3750
Scott B. - 2713
DWEIRICK - 309
Chick 4041
Zeno 4,954

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Bicycleptic 3750
Scott B. - 2713
DWEIRICK - 309
Chick 4041