Welcome irving69,
Good to see someone who wants to get their life back. You've been a slave a long, long time. A slave to the nic bitch, an addict just like a coke or crack addict.
Your journey is going to suck like hell, at first.
Speaking from experience (i am 27 days quit), the first week is a living hell. Nothing but lots of water, gum, toothpicks, etc... lots of time on this site, lots of time in the chat room, lots of exercise, lots of screaming when noone could hear me! Gotta get out the anger somehow.
When I started on May 25, 2012, I did not really think I could do it.... then this brother calls me on my phone (MikeA) and tells me something about "triggers" that cause people to cave. He said, "hell man, LIFE is a TRIGGER". That was so powerful for me. He didn't know it, but I was weeping like a baby when he supported me like that.
The brotherhood here is very strong and sincere.
The more I read about one day at a time, posting roll early every morning, honoring my word to myself and my fellow quit brothers, stacking up quit days one at a time, I started to really believe that I could do this. I told one brother "it's a miracle"! He said, "no it isn't, it is a triumph, that you worked hard for". So true!
Irving69, If I can do it, then I know that YOU can TOO!
I am Proud to be QUIT with YOU!!!!!!! 'bang head'