Firstly, thank you for your service to your community.
Secondly, welcome to the board. My name is Jim; I quit on 11 November 2016 at 3:30AM United States Eastern time. I'm not a law enforcement officer, but I do have a custodial job (evening shift).
Thirdly...so you started dipping because everyone else around you did? Respectfully, that's a pretty silly reason. What if everyone else around you were to jump off the Francis Scott Key bridge; would you join them?
The reasons for dipping are legion. However, the one overarching theme they all have in common is that they are all bogus. Ultimately, there's only one reason to break a quit - because we let the addiction get the better of us. Yes, addiction - whether you like it or not, we are addicts. The only difference between you, me, and the people you arrest in the narcotics trade is that our drug of choice is legal. That is it; there is no other distinction.
Ultimately, the only way out is through. If you stop using nicotine now, your metabolism will have removed all nicotine from your bloodstream by noon Thursday at the very latest. That's 72 hours. From then on in, it's all psychological.
About posting roll: Many think of posting roll as the equivalent of answering to a judge or other officer of the Court. I assure you, this is not the case. We simply pledge to each other that we will stay quit. Nothing more; nothing less. I promise to you, as a peer, that I will stay quit today. I humbly request that you reciprocate this promise today. That's what ODAAT means - One Day At A Time. In other words, I may dip tomorrow - but with the Deity's help, I'll have enough guts to stay nicotine-clean today.
Peace and Abundant Blessings.