Day 12, The first few days I slept all the time, now I have a hell of a time falling asleep. No problem sleeping when I get there, but like every time I start to fall asleep my body jerks awake like I am choking. weirdest damn feeling, and disorienting as hell. Today is day 12 for me and I can honestly say I don't even remember what a "real" fatty tasted or felt like anymore, the fake does just fine for me. My oral fixation has always been about more than dipping though, even when I would wouldn't have a dip in I would still try and have something else in my mouth. seeds, gum, candies, food, toothpicks, etc. just anything. With the smoky mountain I pop it in whenever I start getting that twitch, and I am good to go. The fog comes and goes, or maybe a better way to say, it gets lighter and heavier. Still don't feel like ive come fully out of it. sometimes I feel like it gets so heavy I cant even function, have to sit down for a few minutes, but that usually only lasts a short while. But it gets a little better every day, and I feel more and more proud of myself every day. This is the longest I have been without nicotine since 1998, and I feel like a whole new man. I feel like I am re-learning and re-creating myself every single day. Cheers fellas, for the first time in my life, I feel like I have a life to go out and live!
