Hello all-
First off I wanna say how cool this little community is. I anticipate support and inspiration from others. I think that'll help me quite a bit.
I'm 29 1/2. I started smoking weed at 16, I started chewing at 18. For too long I've latched onto these two things to get me through my day. They've become crutches. For a long time, very few things have given me more pleasure (in a run-of-the-mill day) than taking out a big chew I'd savored for an hour or so to take a huge rip of flame weed--but even that feeling of satisfaction is short lived. It seems like the only thing I really look forward to. That's why I'm quitting.
I'll say this--I feel both have severely held me back in my progression as a man. I'm stuck in a childish rut. Even now as I write this there's a part of my mind that's trying to convince me not to quit--even though a large part of me knows quitting will ultimately bring me good things.
I need to start a new chapter, one where chewing and smoking weed aren't the first things on my mind when I wake up. One where they're not on my mind at all--because I fully understand the cost.
Over the duration of my habits, I estimate I've spent roughly $50k on weed and $20k on chew. Almost $70k on two things that've held me back. Sure, they've given me some great moments I'll never regret as well--but at the cost of my health and well-being? Tough to think about.
I could've payed off my college loans with that. I could've bought a brand new luxury car, two decent new cars, or a decent portion of a home with that money. I think about how much different my life would be.
I have a great job. I still have my health. But one piss test goes wrong, my life is wrecked. And how many more times can I feel insecure about smiling or flirting with a girl because of the spots on my face?
This, for me, is about standing up for my self, my future and coming into my own. About growing out of a phase that if continued will ruin the dreams I have for myself in one way or another.
So, that's day one. If anyone who happens to've read this has quit both of these things, hit me up and let me know how you did it. Thanks all-
fivetimesone
Quit Day:11/28/2012