Fast Eddie,
According to our conversation of a quit date of 2-12-14 you are on day 8. You foggy lil fuger....You will get there the important thing is that you keep adding plus ones and before you know it you will look back and see how bad simple math fucked you up. keep on keeping on....
Yep: When I posted roll, I knew I was committing to quit. Feelings of panic and fear hit me. Do I really want to do this? I have never been able to quit before. Maybe some can but I can't.
That was the aha moment that I didn't have the willpower in all my attempts and I finally had an understanding that I was an addicted to tobacco. I hated it, I was sick of it but there I was putting a dip in and so disgusted in my lack of will power. You're a nicotine junky too! Welcome to Hell! .
I became humble and my first defiance of my addiction was first and foremost, I vowed that no matter the risk, I would be honest from day 1 on. I showed my wife all my hiding places. Even came across cans almost a year latter in places long forgotten.
It wasn't easy but if you follow the KTC plan, you will quit and love it!!!!!
My next milestone is coming up. Almost 2 years quit. KTC way. Post roll today as your promise to us that you will not use today. BE a man of your word. You aren't quit forever or evern tomorrow. You are quit today and focus on today. After your victrory today and when tomorrow becomes today...Repeat.
Can you promise not to dip today, will you keep your word and will you post roll every "Today". You will not fail. You will finally have choice again. You will be free from bondage. ITS WORTH GOING THROUGH THE SUCK!!!!