Aaron, congrats on quitting. The other two times were not quits, just longer pauses between dips than normal. While that may seem like a trivial difference, it is not.
No one here will push you into signing up and posting roll. They shouldn't anyway. Folks here WILL give you all the help you need- you just need take the first steps. This place will keep you QUIT if you go all in. We don't try, we do. We don't pause, we quit. If that interests you, if you want or need some accountability to finally quit (like I did), take the first steps. Take Cbird's advice and read,read, read.