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[CDub27]

Nice Job Heath!! Keep the quit strong from one squid to another. Oh and sorry I will be taking your money in Fantasy Football!!

Congrats again on the HOF!!

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Congrats on hitting the HOF! Well done!

Congrats on the HOF! See you tomorrow at 101. 'oh yeah'

[schaef418]

Congrats on hitting the HOF! Well done!

[RAZD611]

Six days and the physical aspect is starting to come forward. It's been mostly mental to this point, but now the headaches are starting. Can't sleep well either. I will make it through. All this mental and physical discomfort just reminds me I'm still alive. What does get me is seeing young people like Minor or Wiefort (Will) cave in no time flat. If either of you are reading this, I want to tell you a quick story.

I left the office around 11 this morning and headed over to a little park down the road. My only reason for being there was the off chance that some asshole would try to assault a jogger or something. I wasn't there because I wanted to be Charles Bronson or Captain America. I was there because in the moment all I wanted to do was pummel the hell of some idiot who deserved it. Guys, that's not me. I'm not a pacifist. Far from it. But to even contemplate going down the road I went on today was idiotic and completely out of character. That's what this does! It tries to work its way into the quit and take over, knowing It only needs one time. I cannot, will not let that happen.

Now, let me tell you what the real me did. The real me got out of the park and back in the car. In the parking lot I called my wife and told her how I was feeling. She listened patiently and gave me a few words of encouragement. Then she put my 7 year old daughter on the phone. All she said was that she missed me and that she loved me. I sat in my car and cried for damn near a half hour after that. It is our families that we live for. But to do that, we need to quit for ourselves. I will win this day.

Hang in there. It will get better.

[DirtyHarry10]

Six days and the physical aspect is starting to come forward. It's been mostly mental to this point, but now the headaches are starting. Can't sleep well either. I will make it through. All this mental and physical discomfort just reminds me I'm still alive. What does get me is seeing young people like Minor or Wiefort (Will) cave in no time flat. If either of you are reading this, I want to tell you a quick story.

I left the office around 11 this morning and headed over to a little park down the road. My only reason for being there was the off chance that some asshole would try to assault a jogger or something. I wasn't there because I wanted to be Charles Bronson or Captain America. I was there because in the moment all I wanted to do was pummel the hell of some idiot who deserved it. Guys, that's not me. I'm not a pacifist. Far from it. But to even contemplate going down the road I went on today was idiotic and completely out of character. That's what this does! It tries to work its way into the quit and take over, knowing It only needs one time. I cannot, will not let that happen.

Now, let me tell you what the real me did. The real me got out of the park and back in the car. In the parking lot I called my wife and told her how I was feeling. She listened patiently and gave me a few words of encouragement. Then she put my 7 year old daughter on the phone. All she said was that she missed me and that she loved me. I sat in my car and cried for damn near a half hour after that. It is our families that we live for. But to do that, we need to quit for ourselves. I will win this day.

[Bean]

I'm rolling into day four and still feel pretty decent. I can tell the fog hasn't completely lifted though. My family came home yesterday. I haven't seen them since quit day one. I was a little nervous that I would still be on edge, but it was the exact opposite. My kids are 7 and 5 and even after a 10 hour drive, they were full of energy. My five year old son Maximus asked me if I had quit the worm dirt. Apparently my wife gave them a heads up, but the fact that I deflected their inquiries over the last few years with "worm dirt" really does exemplify the levels of douchebaggery that we stoop to. Have to keep that shit in the rear view going forward.

Congrats! 4 days is huge. The nicotine is out of your system. You're running clean for the first time in decades. Pretty stinking cool to think about, huh?

You'll come across triggers you never realized were out there. You'll hit lulls in the action. You'll have a false sense of security. You might even tell yourself "quitting isn't that hard...I can have just one..." IGNORE THAT. You've come too far to throw it all away. You're clean. STAY THAT WAY.

Post roll...read...post roll...read...post roll...read...

[srans]

I'm rolling into day four and still feel pretty decent. I can tell the fog hasn't completely lifted though. My family came home yesterday. I haven't seen them since quit day one. I was a little nervous that I would still be on edge, but it was the exact opposite. My kids are 7 and 5 and even after a 10 hour drive, they were full of energy. My five year old son Maximus asked me if I had quit the worm dirt. Apparently my wife gave them a heads up, but the fact that I deflected their inquiries over the last few years with "worm dirt" really does exemplify the levels of douchebaggery that we stoop to. Have to keep that shit in the rear view going forward.

4 days is great man. Take a look out your front door. The world should look a lot different without the poison coursing through your blood. Take a look at the world for the first time with the mind set of quit. Smell the freedom in the air. Suck in that dignity you've been taking back for 4 days. Niiiiiiiiiiice!

Take a good look at them kids. I don't know about you, but I've never seen my dad without a cigarette close at hand. I've never got to see my mom free from the poison. Your kids now have someone to look up to. Someone that is going to walk the walk. Someone that can truly make a bigger difference in their life. Great post my friend. Your right,,, don't look back, nothing back there. Quit with you today.

[Steakbomb18]

I'm rolling into day four and still feel pretty decent. I can tell the fog hasn't completely lifted though. My family came home yesterday. I haven't seen them since quit day one. I was a little nervous that I would still be on edge, but it was the exact opposite. My kids are 7 and 5 and even after a 10 hour drive, they were full of energy. My five year old son Maximus asked me if I had quit the worm dirt. Apparently my wife gave them a heads up, but the fact that I deflected their inquiries over the last few years with "worm dirt" really does exemplify the levels of douchebaggery that we stoop to. Have to keep that shit in the rear view going forward.

Just read this intro for the first time; ladies and gentlemen, we have ourselves a badass MF'n quitter in the making. I appreciate the self recognition of addiction and the understanding that you will always be an addict. It's something we must always know, realize, and remember. There's a silver lining however...it's in the past. You may always be an addict, but today, you are quit. You used to feed the addiction. Today you fight the addiction. You used to lose to the addiction, at the tune of 1 1/2 cans per day. Today you beat the addiction to the tune of 0 forms of nicotine for that day. Take your own advice, keep that shit in the rear view. You're not a douchebag any more and today, you're not stooping down to nicotine at all.

Lets lock down day 4, I'm with you.

[DirtyHarry10]

I'm rolling into day four and still feel pretty decent. I can tell the fog hasn't completely lifted though. My family came home yesterday. I haven't seen them since quit day one. I was a little nervous that I would still be on edge, but it was the exact opposite. My kids are 7 and 5 and even after a 10 hour drive, they were full of energy. My five year old son Maximus asked me if I had quit the worm dirt. Apparently my wife gave them a heads up, but the fact that I deflected their inquiries over the last few years with "worm dirt" really does exemplify the levels of douchebaggery that we stoop to. Have to keep that shit in the rear view going forward.

[lighty7]

Heath - I was a Kodiak slave for 22 years - similar to your timeframe. Come on here and rage if you can - we can take it. But just know that it does happen. When it does apologize to your wife and tell her your an asshole! I went off on my wife for something a couple weeks into my quit - it was so stupid and she didn't deserve it. It wasn't your wife and kids who have been nic addicts all these years.

I'll quit with you every dam day!

[DirtyHarry10]

Thanks to everyone for the positive words. I just went over 48 hours and I have to say, the physical side of me feels pretty good. I made it through two long commutes and a full on assault of the yard. Both of those would be at least a can and a half. The mental side is another story. I wish I could apologize to the two people I blasted on my commute home today. They were just slow to get off the light and I reacted pretty rash.

However, that new age hippie in his fucking Prius who spent four solid miles pounding away on his iPhone gets no such love. He kept swerving that little clown car into my lane and I swear I almost tried a PIT maneuver and then I would have deposited that car in his ass. That in turn caused me to yell at my wife on the phone and my dogs when I got home. But, no cravings. There have been some looks here and one reach to the pocket, but that's it.

Wife and kids come home tomorrow. I haven't seen them in two weeks. I've been pounding water to try and keep my body flushed. I do feel a bit better tonight. I want to be right for the family, but not at the expense of failure. Gonna do it the right way and be quit. I won this day, I'll wake up with the intention of whipping tomorrow's ass as well.

[Derk40]

My name is Heath and by most accounts I've had a pretty good 39 year run. Served ten years in the World's Finest Navy and served the last ten continuing the good fight in the private sector. I have a lovely wife who has put up with me for 10 years and has blessed me with two beautiful children, 5 and 7. I have never smoked. I have never used drugs. I enjoy a good cocktail, but I can go months without drinking anything. I like food, but I'm not a glutton.

Ladies and gentlemen, what I am though, is an addict. I fully admitted as much to my wife last night. Now I admit it to you. Most importantly, I admitted it to myself. I am an addict to the tune of a can and a half of Copenhagen a day for 21 years. I spent a lot of time on this site yesterday. After reading some of the journey's that most of you have taken, it left me reduced to a blubbering idiot. I was a broken man because I realized that I had so much to be thankful for and have people in my life who depend on me. If I let addiction control my life, what kind of man am I to help others? How can I look my kids in the eye and tell them what not to do? I prefer to lead by example and there is no substitute for being a good example to your children. It's time for the weakness to stop. My commitment started last night. Now if you will excuse me, I'm taking my ass over and posting roll.

Heath

First, thanks for your service. Second, that intro was greatness!!! Quitting is about making YOU a better YOU. Setting a great example for your kids and hanging around to be with your wife are just the perks of being a badass quitter.

Embrace the suck. Your attitude will determine your success. Welcome the fog...it is the feeling of healing. Train your mind to appreciate the withdrawals. You GET to feel this shitty because YOU DECIDED to be free. That shitty feeling is a privilege.

You'll always be an addict. But, there is no shame in that. What is shameful is the addicts that never decide to do anything about it. You, sir, are controlling your addiction. Check out the Tom and Jenny Kern story at the KillTheCan.org link above. Like I said, quitting is about YOU. But there is a ton of motivation in their story. Let's make our success part of the silver lining to his unfortunate story.

Great intro Heath. Now follow it up everyday. On day 3 or day 10 or day 1000 you will stay an addict. Glad to have you here.

Wow, that sounded just like me when the light bulb finally came on. I thought how in the world do you compare me to someone that is addicted to crack, alcohol, meth or any other addicting substance. Not grizzly, the substance i had been using for 25 years.

The truth was the only thing that gave me the determination and drive to post roll and promise myself and1000's each day i would no longer use one of the most addictive drugs known to man.

At day 517 i continue to admit I'm an addict and that's what got me to where i am today. 517 wins. Let me never forget I'm an addict lest i lose. Glad to be quit with you.

That was a damn good and heartfelt into Heath! Thank you for your service! Know one thing for sure...This is the place to get all the help you need for quitting dip. Sounds like you are ready. We are only a few keystrokes away. We will all rally around you if you do two things. Post roll and keep your promise every day, one day at a time.

Welcome and great decision to quit. Post roll EDD and keep your word. We quit ODAAT. Don't worry about yesterday, tomorrow next week -- just today. It is all you control and we do whatever it takes to stay quit today. You can do this.

[rdad]

My name is Heath and by most accounts I've had a pretty good 39 year run. Served ten years in the World's Finest Navy and served the last ten continuing the good fight in the private sector. I have a lovely wife who has put up with me for 10 years and has blessed me with two beautiful children, 5 and 7. I have never smoked. I have never used drugs. I enjoy a good cocktail, but I can go months without drinking anything. I like food, but I'm not a glutton.

Ladies and gentlemen, what I am though, is an addict. I fully admitted as much to my wife last night. Now I admit it to you. Most importantly, I admitted it to myself. I am an addict to the tune of a can and a half of Copenhagen a day for 21 years. I spent a lot of time on this site yesterday. After reading some of the journey's that most of you have taken, it left me reduced to a blubbering idiot. I was a broken man because I realized that I had so much to be thankful for and have people in my life who depend on me. If I let addiction control my life, what kind of man am I to help others? How can I look my kids in the eye and tell them what not to do? I prefer to lead by example and there is no substitute for being a good example to your children. It's time for the weakness to stop. My commitment started last night. Now if you will excuse me, I'm taking my ass over and posting roll.

Heath

First, thanks for your service. Second, that intro was greatness!!! Quitting is about making YOU a better YOU. Setting a great example for your kids and hanging around to be with your wife are just the perks of being a badass quitter.

Embrace the suck. Your attitude will determine your success. Welcome the fog...it is the feeling of healing. Train your mind to appreciate the withdrawals. You GET to feel this shitty because YOU DECIDED to be free. That shitty feeling is a privilege.

You'll always be an addict. But, there is no shame in that. What is shameful is the addicts that never decide to do anything about it. You, sir, are controlling your addiction. Check out the Tom and Jenny Kern story at the KillTheCan.org link above. Like I said, quitting is about YOU. But there is a ton of motivation in their story. Let's make our success part of the silver lining to his unfortunate story.

Great intro Heath. Now follow it up everyday. On day 3 or day 10 or day 1000 you will stay an addict. Glad to have you here.

Wow, that sounded just like me when the light bulb finally came on. I thought how in the world do you compare me to someone that is addicted to crack, alcohol, meth or any other addicting substance. Not grizzly, the substance i had been using for 25 years.

The truth was the only thing that gave me the determination and drive to post roll and promise myself and1000's each day i would no longer use one of the most addictive drugs known to man.

At day 517 i continue to admit I'm an addict and that's what got me to where i am today. 517 wins. Let me never forget I'm an addict lest i lose. Glad to be quit with you.

That was a damn good and heartfelt into Heath! Thank you for your service! Know one thing for sure...This is the place to get all the help you need for quitting dip. Sounds like you are ready. We are only a few keystrokes away. We will all rally around you if you do two things. Post roll and keep your promise every day, one day at a time.

[srans]

My name is Heath and by most accounts I've had a pretty good 39 year run. Served ten years in the World's Finest Navy and served the last ten continuing the good fight in the private sector. I have a lovely wife who has put up with me for 10 years and has blessed me with two beautiful children, 5 and 7. I have never smoked. I have never used drugs. I enjoy a good cocktail, but I can go months without drinking anything. I like food, but I'm not a glutton.

Ladies and gentlemen, what I am though, is an addict. I fully admitted as much to my wife last night. Now I admit it to you. Most importantly, I admitted it to myself. I am an addict to the tune of a can and a half of Copenhagen a day for 21 years. I spent a lot of time on this site yesterday. After reading some of the journey's that most of you have taken, it left me reduced to a blubbering idiot. I was a broken man because I realized that I had so much to be thankful for and have people in my life who depend on me. If I let addiction control my life, what kind of man am I to help others? How can I look my kids in the eye and tell them what not to do? I prefer to lead by example and there is no substitute for being a good example to your children. It's time for the weakness to stop. My commitment started last night. Now if you will excuse me, I'm taking my ass over and posting roll.

Heath

First, thanks for your service. Second, that intro was greatness!!! Quitting is about making YOU a better YOU. Setting a great example for your kids and hanging around to be with your wife are just the perks of being a badass quitter.

Embrace the suck. Your attitude will determine your success. Welcome the fog...it is the feeling of healing. Train your mind to appreciate the withdrawals. You GET to feel this shitty because YOU DECIDED to be free. That shitty feeling is a privilege.

You'll always be an addict. But, there is no shame in that. What is shameful is the addicts that never decide to do anything about it. You, sir, are controlling your addiction. Check out the Tom and Jenny Kern story at the KillTheCan.org link above. Like I said, quitting is about YOU. But there is a ton of motivation in their story. Let's make our success part of the silver lining to his unfortunate story.

Great intro Heath. Now follow it up everyday. On day 3 or day 10 or day 1000 you will stay an addict. Glad to have you here.

Wow, that sounded just like me when the light bulb finally came on. I thought how in the world do you compare me to someone that is addicted to crack, alcohol, meth or any other addicting substance. Not grizzly, the substance i had been using for 25 years.

The truth was the only thing that gave me the determination and drive to post roll and promise myself and1000's each day i would no longer use one of the most addictive drugs known to man.

At day 517 i continue to admit I'm an addict and that's what got me to where i am today. 517 wins. Let me never forget I'm an addict lest i lose. Glad to be quit with you.