Take2, I really am glad to see you here. While I don't know you, I know your story. I've lived it and you've lived mine. You are not the only person this happened to. There is strength in numbers. Buddy up and get to know people in your group. Get there numbers. Stay in touch especially when you feel like shit. Use the people who've been here a while by having them available when it gets tough. Some of them may be a little rough at times, but embrace it.
While symptoms vary, they are a lot alike. I had days I felt my head or heart would explode from pressure and anxiety. Some days I had the screaming shits. Some days I wanted to strangle someone. No matter how I felt or how bad things were, my buddies were always there to share in my pain, hold me accountable, listen to me bitch and whine, whatever it took to get me through that day because all I got to do is promise for that day and survive that day. One day at a time, my friend.
You will be told a lot of lies, most of them coming from the nic bitch. She will pull her panties down and entice you and convince you that she is the right choice, but remember this, dip will never be the right choice for anything. The rest of the lies will come from some of the weak people. These people can and should piss you off. Help and encourage all who you can, but only go so far with the losers and the weak. Focus at first on your quit and screw the weak. You are strong and will go far.
As of right now, I am on day 46 of my journey. While I don't have near the days as some of our senior people here, I certainly have the passion. If you have the passion to quit and kick this nic habit to the curb and tell her to get the f**k out of your life, you will be very successful and will be proud of yourself.
Keep your head high, post roll every day, keep your promise to us every day and you will get all the support you can ask for. This brotherhood shit is way bigger than words can describe. I am with you brother, let's roll.
