Hey KTC.org,
I threw my dip can out today! Granted this is about the 5th time I've said that to myself in the past year but I've started realizing that it's been a short 5 years now since I started so I'm no longer just trying it out. I'm addicted. Those words are very hard to admit to. I haven't said them out loud before but even reading them in this post is difficult. I pride myself in having full control of my decisions and treating my body with respect, yet for some reason I allowed myself down this path and just always brushed it to the side. I didn't give dipping the proper danger assessment and have been lying to myself, and those around me ever since. My family doesn't know I have this habit. My fiance thinks I quit months ago, but all of my friends at work know and support it. I'm in the military so the idea of dipping at work is as common as eating food and going to the bathroom. If I run out, there is a multitude of options to get my fix. Problem is when I've tried to quit in the past there has always been some stressor as well as a supplier that is available and I've only managed to last 2 months straight which was about 3 months ago. If you can't already tell, I have nobody else to turn to that I'm comfortable speaking the topic too that would support me quitting.
I need a combat plan. I need to know how to handle stressors, people, triggers, and mindsets and I'm looking to you all to help me with what has worked for you. I already know that work, long drives, movies, video games, and studying are the big ones which I'm sure are very common to all dippers. But I also know how I work and if I have some science to back up this movement and some concrete evidence to scare me to death then I will be able to do this. I think the biggest thing will be for me to be held accountable which is why I love the idea of this forum and the support structure this community appears to provide. Any and all help would be greatly appreciated!