My introduction

[30yraddict]

Well, here we are at Day 100.

It's no secret that the addiction is still present, but the cravings are barely around anymore and I'm not having as much trouble sleeping. 

I replaced a lot of time spent dipping with time spent working out (not going to dip in the gym, right?) and since Day 1 I've lost between 15 and 20 lbs and pushed my bodyfat down 5-6%.  I'm in pretty good shape, especially because my heart isn't racing and begging for more nicotine all the time.

It's no secret I've had a few emotional/mental breakdowns since quitting.  Once I got past the haze it seemed like I was just angry for about four days every month or so.  Not much I can do about that except for apologize to the lady...surprisingly she's stuck with me through the past 100 days even while our only communication is over IM.

I worked on my diet a lot, since I used to just dip whenever I got hungry.  I found out that I can actually snack during the day instead of stuffing my face and spitting it away. 

The bad sides of the last 100 days....

It sucked.  Mentally and emotionally I've been a wreck.  Stress seems much more viable and present.  I can't hide behind my lip anymore, I have to deal with things (sounds weird, but we all knows it's true).  Somehow I bit my lip hard while chewing gum and there's a semi-permanent knot there for about two months.  I'm hoping it's nothing serious....really scared to get it checked out.  Tooth-wise all the gum chewing and the changing pH of my mouth is making me think I have a few cavities...I have some sharp pains while chewing now.  Digestively my insides stopped working for a week, churned for a week, and then it was off and on since then.  Add to that all the stress and working out and I gave myself a nice case of hemorrhoids.  The dreams can sometimes be intense, and most of the time I found myself fighting it off...but sometimes I didn't...and woke up feeling as if I had caved.  It's a bad feeling.

All in all I am happy I've taken this step.  I'm quit now, and I'm staying quit today.  I'll continue posting as long as I can feasibly (basically until things change here in Iraq).  I risk nothing by continuing to support this site.

Just wanted to throw all that out there for the guys who have been following me and my quit.  Stay quit today.  I will.

All you guys quitting in Iraq, Afghanistan, and in the service are my heroes. If you guys can quit while sacrificing so much, there is no reason in the world I can't quit while enjoying the safety and freedom you provide for us in the states. Thank you does not express my gratitude but it all that can be said.

X2

X3

X4...Keep 'er going

x5

[maineguy1313]

Well, here we are at Day 100.

It's no secret that the addiction is still present, but the cravings are barely around anymore and I'm not having as much trouble sleeping. 

I replaced a lot of time spent dipping with time spent working out (not going to dip in the gym, right?) and since Day 1 I've lost between 15 and 20 lbs and pushed my bodyfat down 5-6%.  I'm in pretty good shape, especially because my heart isn't racing and begging for more nicotine all the time.

It's no secret I've had a few emotional/mental breakdowns since quitting.  Once I got past the haze it seemed like I was just angry for about four days every month or so.  Not much I can do about that except for apologize to the lady...surprisingly she's stuck with me through the past 100 days even while our only communication is over IM.

I worked on my diet a lot, since I used to just dip whenever I got hungry.  I found out that I can actually snack during the day instead of stuffing my face and spitting it away. 

The bad sides of the last 100 days....

It sucked.  Mentally and emotionally I've been a wreck.  Stress seems much more viable and present.  I can't hide behind my lip anymore, I have to deal with things (sounds weird, but we all knows it's true).  Somehow I bit my lip hard while chewing gum and there's a semi-permanent knot there for about two months.  I'm hoping it's nothing serious....really scared to get it checked out.  Tooth-wise all the gum chewing and the changing pH of my mouth is making me think I have a few cavities...I have some sharp pains while chewing now.  Digestively my insides stopped working for a week, churned for a week, and then it was off and on since then.  Add to that all the stress and working out and I gave myself a nice case of hemorrhoids.  The dreams can sometimes be intense, and most of the time I found myself fighting it off...but sometimes I didn't...and woke up feeling as if I had caved.  It's a bad feeling.

All in all I am happy I've taken this step.  I'm quit now, and I'm staying quit today.  I'll continue posting as long as I can feasibly (basically until things change here in Iraq).  I risk nothing by continuing to support this site.

Just wanted to throw all that out there for the guys who have been following me and my quit.  Stay quit today.  I will.

All you guys quitting in Iraq, Afghanistan, and in the service are my heroes. If you guys can quit while sacrificing so much, there is no reason in the world I can't quit while enjoying the safety and freedom you provide for us in the states. Thank you does not express my gratitude but it all that can be said.

X2

X3

X4...Keep 'er going

[ODAAT]

Well, here we are at Day 100.

It's no secret that the addiction is still present, but the cravings are barely around anymore and I'm not having as much trouble sleeping. 

I replaced a lot of time spent dipping with time spent working out (not going to dip in the gym, right?) and since Day 1 I've lost between 15 and 20 lbs and pushed my bodyfat down 5-6%.  I'm in pretty good shape, especially because my heart isn't racing and begging for more nicotine all the time.

It's no secret I've had a few emotional/mental breakdowns since quitting.  Once I got past the haze it seemed like I was just angry for about four days every month or so.  Not much I can do about that except for apologize to the lady...surprisingly she's stuck with me through the past 100 days even while our only communication is over IM.

I worked on my diet a lot, since I used to just dip whenever I got hungry.  I found out that I can actually snack during the day instead of stuffing my face and spitting it away. 

The bad sides of the last 100 days....

It sucked.  Mentally and emotionally I've been a wreck.  Stress seems much more viable and present.  I can't hide behind my lip anymore, I have to deal with things (sounds weird, but we all knows it's true).  Somehow I bit my lip hard while chewing gum and there's a semi-permanent knot there for about two months.  I'm hoping it's nothing serious....really scared to get it checked out.  Tooth-wise all the gum chewing and the changing pH of my mouth is making me think I have a few cavities...I have some sharp pains while chewing now.  Digestively my insides stopped working for a week, churned for a week, and then it was off and on since then.  Add to that all the stress and working out and I gave myself a nice case of hemorrhoids.  The dreams can sometimes be intense, and most of the time I found myself fighting it off...but sometimes I didn't...and woke up feeling as if I had caved.  It's a bad feeling.

All in all I am happy I've taken this step.  I'm quit now, and I'm staying quit today.  I'll continue posting as long as I can feasibly (basically until things change here in Iraq).  I risk nothing by continuing to support this site.

Just wanted to throw all that out there for the guys who have been following me and my quit.  Stay quit today.  I will.

All you guys quitting in Iraq, Afghanistan, and in the service are my heroes. If you guys can quit while sacrificing so much, there is no reason in the world I can't quit while enjoying the safety and freedom you provide for us in the states. Thank you does not express my gratitude but it all that can be said.

X2

X3

[Scowick65]

Well, here we are at Day 100.

It's no secret that the addiction is still present, but the cravings are barely around anymore and I'm not having as much trouble sleeping. 

I replaced a lot of time spent dipping with time spent working out (not going to dip in the gym, right?) and since Day 1 I've lost between 15 and 20 lbs and pushed my bodyfat down 5-6%.  I'm in pretty good shape, especially because my heart isn't racing and begging for more nicotine all the time.

It's no secret I've had a few emotional/mental breakdowns since quitting.  Once I got past the haze it seemed like I was just angry for about four days every month or so.  Not much I can do about that except for apologize to the lady...surprisingly she's stuck with me through the past 100 days even while our only communication is over IM.

I worked on my diet a lot, since I used to just dip whenever I got hungry.  I found out that I can actually snack during the day instead of stuffing my face and spitting it away. 

The bad sides of the last 100 days....

It sucked.  Mentally and emotionally I've been a wreck.  Stress seems much more viable and present.  I can't hide behind my lip anymore, I have to deal with things (sounds weird, but we all knows it's true).  Somehow I bit my lip hard while chewing gum and there's a semi-permanent knot there for about two months.  I'm hoping it's nothing serious....really scared to get it checked out.  Tooth-wise all the gum chewing and the changing pH of my mouth is making me think I have a few cavities...I have some sharp pains while chewing now.  Digestively my insides stopped working for a week, churned for a week, and then it was off and on since then.  Add to that all the stress and working out and I gave myself a nice case of hemorrhoids.  The dreams can sometimes be intense, and most of the time I found myself fighting it off...but sometimes I didn't...and woke up feeling as if I had caved.  It's a bad feeling.

All in all I am happy I've taken this step.  I'm quit now, and I'm staying quit today.  I'll continue posting as long as I can feasibly (basically until things change here in Iraq).  I risk nothing by continuing to support this site.

Just wanted to throw all that out there for the guys who have been following me and my quit.  Stay quit today.  I will.

All you guys quitting in Iraq, Afghanistan, and in the service are my heroes. If you guys can quit while sacrificing so much, there is no reason in the world I can't quit while enjoying the safety and freedom you provide for us in the states. Thank you does not express my gratitude but it all that can be said.

X2

[nomosko]

Well, here we are at Day 100.

It's no secret that the addiction is still present, but the cravings are barely around anymore and I'm not having as much trouble sleeping.

I replaced a lot of time spent dipping with time spent working out (not going to dip in the gym, right?) and since Day 1 I've lost between 15 and 20 lbs and pushed my bodyfat down 5-6%. I'm in pretty good shape, especially because my heart isn't racing and begging for more nicotine all the time.

It's no secret I've had a few emotional/mental breakdowns since quitting. Once I got past the haze it seemed like I was just angry for about four days every month or so. Not much I can do about that except for apologize to the lady...surprisingly she's stuck with me through the past 100 days even while our only communication is over IM.

I worked on my diet a lot, since I used to just dip whenever I got hungry. I found out that I can actually snack during the day instead of stuffing my face and spitting it away.

The bad sides of the last 100 days....

It sucked. Mentally and emotionally I've been a wreck. Stress seems much more viable and present. I can't hide behind my lip anymore, I have to deal with things (sounds weird, but we all knows it's true). Somehow I bit my lip hard while chewing gum and there's a semi-permanent knot there for about two months. I'm hoping it's nothing serious....really scared to get it checked out. Tooth-wise all the gum chewing and the changing pH of my mouth is making me think I have a few cavities...I have some sharp pains while chewing now. Digestively my insides stopped working for a week, churned for a week, and then it was off and on since then. Add to that all the stress and working out and I gave myself a nice case of hemorrhoids. The dreams can sometimes be intense, and most of the time I found myself fighting it off...but sometimes I didn't...and woke up feeling as if I had caved. It's a bad feeling.

All in all I am happy I've taken this step. I'm quit now, and I'm staying quit today. I'll continue posting as long as I can feasibly (basically until things change here in Iraq). I risk nothing by continuing to support this site.

Just wanted to throw all that out there for the guys who have been following me and my quit. Stay quit today. I will.

All you guys quitting in Iraq, Afghanistan, and in the service are my heroes. If you guys can quit while sacrificing so much, there is no reason in the world I can't quit while enjoying the safety and freedom you provide for us in the states. Thank you does not express my gratitude but it all that can be said.

[andrew]

Well, here we are at Day 100.

It's no secret that the addiction is still present, but the cravings are barely around anymore and I'm not having as much trouble sleeping.

I replaced a lot of time spent dipping with time spent working out (not going to dip in the gym, right?) and since Day 1 I've lost between 15 and 20 lbs and pushed my bodyfat down 5-6%. I'm in pretty good shape, especially because my heart isn't racing and begging for more nicotine all the time.

It's no secret I've had a few emotional/mental breakdowns since quitting. Once I got past the haze it seemed like I was just angry for about four days every month or so. Not much I can do about that except for apologize to the lady...surprisingly she's stuck with me through the past 100 days even while our only communication is over IM.

I worked on my diet a lot, since I used to just dip whenever I got hungry. I found out that I can actually snack during the day instead of stuffing my face and spitting it away.

The bad sides of the last 100 days....

It sucked. Mentally and emotionally I've been a wreck. Stress seems much more viable and present. I can't hide behind my lip anymore, I have to deal with things (sounds weird, but we all knows it's true). Somehow I bit my lip hard while chewing gum and there's a semi-permanent knot there for about two months. I'm hoping it's nothing serious....really scared to get it checked out. Tooth-wise all the gum chewing and the changing pH of my mouth is making me think I have a few cavities...I have some sharp pains while chewing now. Digestively my insides stopped working for a week, churned for a week, and then it was off and on since then. Add to that all the stress and working out and I gave myself a nice case of hemorrhoids. The dreams can sometimes be intense, and most of the time I found myself fighting it off...but sometimes I didn't...and woke up feeling as if I had caved. It's a bad feeling.

All in all I am happy I've taken this step. I'm quit now, and I'm staying quit today. I'll continue posting as long as I can feasibly (basically until things change here in Iraq). I risk nothing by continuing to support this site.

Just wanted to throw all that out there for the guys who have been following me and my quit. Stay quit today. I will.

[andrew]

They know I've quit. I've been yelled at before by the "big, big" boss for popping my gum in meetings. Thankfully I rarely have to attend said meetings....can't stand sitting there without popping my gum. I'm a serial popper.

[Scowick65]

Speaking of mind games, I went to a weekly meeting yesterday, and the "big" boss walks in and puts a bag full of 8 LOGS of mint Skoal on the table. 

Andrew says, "Hey I got a big log of quit right here and I have your back when you are ready."

[jaygib]

Probably a good choice that smell of mint ass would be stuck to your fingers for days if you had. Anything in the world smell worse than skoal mint? Can't believe I started on that crap.

Stay tough Andrew!

[andrew]

Speaking of mind games, I went to a weekly meeting yesterday, and the "big" boss walks in and puts a bag full of 8 LOGS of mint Skoal on the table. Apparently he just had a chance to get some shopping done, or someone sent it to him or something. . . but for a split second I could hear myself saying "hey, can I get a pinch of that" and seeing a can fly through the air into my hands, and the minty shit smell of mint Skoal...the way it would feel in my hands.....I snapped out of it fast, and ignored the bag for the rest of the time in there, but for that one split second I could just imagine myself thinking, "hey, I made it 90 days, I should reward myself with just a little dip".

Fuck the nic bitch, she's still in my head.

Props to my fellow April quitters for making it this close to the HOF. Don't give in now, we have come this far, we have to continue day by day...never let your guard down!

[redtrain14]

Thanks for the encouragement guys...I really needed it, the last 5 days or so have been rough, yesterday it was like I was walking around in the fog again.  Thankfully I slept it off and feel much better today.

Do you think that any flashbacks or funkiness occurs due to second hand smoke inhalation?  There have been a few times this week where someone was smoking while talking to me and I was very aware of me inhaling a small amount of smoke.  The guys around me also smoke and sometimes at night my living area smells like smoke.  Any thoughts on that?

I am not around second hand smoke but enjoyed the same thrills as you. Just part of the suck. It seems to become less frequent and less intense as time goes on.

I think that's part of the mind games. You're thinking, "oh shit, second hand smoke, I have to be breathing some....how much it too much?...."

Its also a form of a trigger. I'm sure that when all those guys were smoking, you were most likely doing your thing as well. Its no different than going fishing or working in the garage.....no different than Pavlov's dog.

Don't worry about it, those feelings will pass also.

[Scowick65]

Thanks for the encouragement guys...I really needed it, the last 5 days or so have been rough, yesterday it was like I was walking around in the fog again. Thankfully I slept it off and feel much better today.

Do you think that any flashbacks or funkiness occurs due to second hand smoke inhalation? There have been a few times this week where someone was smoking while talking to me and I was very aware of me inhaling a small amount of smoke. The guys around me also smoke and sometimes at night my living area smells like smoke. Any thoughts on that?

I am not around second hand smoke but enjoyed the same thrills as you. Just part of the suck. It seems to become less frequent and less intense as time goes on.

[andrew]

Thanks for the encouragement guys...I really needed it, the last 5 days or so have been rough, yesterday it was like I was walking around in the fog again. Thankfully I slept it off and feel much better today.

Do you think that any flashbacks or funkiness occurs due to second hand smoke inhalation? There have been a few times this week where someone was smoking while talking to me and I was very aware of me inhaling a small amount of smoke. The guys around me also smoke and sometimes at night my living area smells like smoke. Any thoughts on that?

[redtrain14]

I've had this very same dream more times than I can count, Andrew. I can't tell you when they will go away just yet, because they haven't, but I do know they lessen in frequency and intensity over time. What I can tell you is that eventually, instead of waking up in a panic, you will wake up with a little laugh and say, "stupid bitch".

It takes a good long time to fix stupid.

[davenc]

Here I am at Day 87. Last night I had a dip dream. I hadn't had a dip dream in about 20 days, since the mid 60's. This dream was just like most of the other dip dreams....

I'm in the middle of a perfectly normal dream and I turn around and I have my mouth full of dip. It's not just a lip turd, it's a whole can packed into my mouth. I start freaking out because I don't want to go back to Day 1. My first thoughts are always about how I don't want to go back to Day 1 and how I posted roll and how I can't give that up. At the same time I'm thinking to myself how much I could just keep it in....it all happens in a split second, I start spewing it out of my mouth trying to get it out of my mouth, somehow thinking that by getting it out of my mouth fast enough it won't take me back to Day 1.... I am blowing nasty dip everywhere, it's like it never stops coming out of my mouth, I can't get it all out of my mouth......

Then I wake up and realize that I'm still at Day 87, and that the nic bitch is still there, rooted in the back of my brain, even though I don't have cravings any more and even though I'm past the fog....it's still a long process....and one of the only things keeping me going is this site and posting roll and not wanting to go back to that awful Day 1.....

Yep, the nic bitch will always be around. Even me at nearly 250 days I still have a craving for a big old pinch of Copenhagen every now and then. But I remember all the hell it caused and what it could have caused and I stay away. Just hang tough and you'll be just fine.


Dave