my story

[Wt57]

hello day one quitter. i was here before you see i quit for over 100 days then one day in a moment of dip weakness i talked myself into a chew while drinking some cold beers and fishing with my oldest friend(we started chewing together in junior high) i bought a can the next day. just gonna have a chew on my evening walks. then just gonna have a chew on my way to work and on my walks. then on the way too and from work and my walks within two months i was back to a can a day. that was three years ago. i let my guard down and the nic bitch let herself right back into my life. i just dropped off this site i was afraid to tell the people that helped me get to a 100 days that i had caved. but im back and and im sorry i'm sorry to my children and my wife, myself and the awesome quitters on this. so mark it one as i embrace the suck again.

Alright dumbass..or Dumas, wtf ever, same thing. Read everyone's responses and learn from your mistakes. Also, if you we're here and reached 100 days then you don't create another profile, if you've forgotten it them message an admin so they can hook you up...

Otherwise....

What happen?

Why did it happen?

What are you going to do differently?

Bruce he's posting as Alpha his prior name. A mod should change this intro to alpha.

[Bruce]

hello day one quitter. i was here before you see i quit for over 100 days then one day in a moment of dip weakness i talked myself into a chew while drinking some cold beers and fishing with my oldest friend(we started chewing together in junior high) i bought a can the next day. just gonna have a chew on my evening walks. then just gonna have a chew on my way to work and on my walks. then on the way too and from work and my walks within two months i was back to a can a day. that was three years ago. i let my guard down and the nic bitch let herself right back into my life. i just dropped off this site i was afraid to tell the people that helped me get to a 100 days that i had caved. but im back and and im sorry i'm sorry to my children and my wife, myself and the awesome quitters on this. so mark it one as i embrace the suck again.

Alright dumbass..or Dumas, wtf ever, same thing. Read everyone's responses and learn from your mistakes. Also, if you we're here and reached 100 days then you don't create another profile, if you've forgotten it them message an admin so they can hook you up...

Otherwise....

What happen?

Why did it happen?

What are you going to do differently?

[vh5150]

We can all jump on you and beat up on you, but I think you should think about the guilt and the betrayal and get in touch with your old quit group and explain to them why you quit. Then go post roll in April 13 You broke your word to each and every quitter here. You're going to have to work harder than most to gain back integrity and respect. I'm quit with you today. Each time you think about caving, you need to come back and read this thread. Think about your family. Think about your golf buddies and how you could have helped them quit, but instead joined them.

[rob2403]

hey man im in the april group also and i say welcome, anyone can have a lapse in judgement, just get a plan, post roll, and get your mind right. Stay quit!! PM me if needed

[Bean]

Alpha,

The "tough love" reaction has never really impressed me...reminds me of a football coach that used to scream his head off when we screwed up. Cussing is not offensive to me. And I've got thick skin. I just thought he sounded stupid and his fits were a waste of time on me...I knew I was going to do better the next time.

So take your lumps, post roll, and make things right the way that you already know...just post roll every day and stay quit.

It looks like you forgot the "one day at a time" mentality. Drifting away is easy to do. In fact, I actually planned to do that after I hit Day 100. Early on, I didn't think I needed this site. But I just thought I would humor the quitters on here and post roll until I hit the HOF...then I would be "cured." I even thought that I could go back to having an occasional dip because I would have it "under control" again.

Lucky for me, I stayed on this site. But the HOF, I had actually learned about addiction, the rationalizing and the self-decceipt from credible folks on this site...fellow professional liars like me, or...addicts.

Understanding addiction is the key. You can NEVER have just one. The daily battle goes on forever and the war is never won. Stay quit, brother. You can do this.

[GR8WHITEBUFFALO]

Bended knee? Let this be a lesson to April 13? What the fuck????

Your the one that needs the lesson retread.

April 13 has some really hard core quitters in it. Why should they trust you since you burned your word to your old 08 group and pissed all over them?

You need to go find your 08 group and see just where you would be if you didn't cave way back and run back to the nic bitch. The answer the 3 questions to your new group and yourself to see if your really ready to quit or just take another break from the bitch.

[SirDerek]

Alpha was my former user name and i was part of a great group of quitters. june 08 QWA i allowed myself to drift away from the site and like many others i was weakened and didn't know it until the day i let that bitch reenter my life. i never made another post cuz nicotine was in charge again and i had stopped being accountable to my group. i'm sorry to my QWA brothers. i broke the code. i am back on bended knee to ask forgiveness. let this be a lesson to my new group april 13 that we have to stay close even after you think you are in control and the nic bitch no longer rules your life. because i found that she is always going to be their lurking in background waiting for her chance to strike. we are addicts always will be period end of story.

Alpha,

don't like to say but welcome back (that actually entails that you left and did what you did to make you come back). would rather just say hello.

You wil be bombarded with the quitters asking you to give your response to the big 3. These are the 3 questions of (1) What Happened? (2) Why did you let it happen? (3) What are you going to do to keep it from happening again?

These 3 questions form the basis of the education for not only yourself, but to those who are around you and read it, so that it can help them in the case they get into the same situation. So take these to heart and be honest with yourself, and pen these down to serve as a reminder to yourself that you cannot let this happen and can never touch nicotene again, never again for any reason.

And now that you are back, I wish you no hope, but will wish you all the support and stand beside you as you are familiar with KTC , you know this can be done.

Here's to the Quit 'Cheers'

[alpha]

Alpha was my former user name and i was part of a great group of quitters. june 08 QWA i allowed myself to drift away from the site and like many others i was weakened and didn't know it until the day i let that bitch reenter my life. i never made another post cuz nicotine was in charge again and i had stopped being accountable to my group. i'm sorry to my QWA brothers. i broke the code. i am back on bended knee to ask forgiveness. let this be a lesson to my new group april 13 that we have to stay close even after you think you are in control and the nic bitch no longer rules your life. because i found that she is always going to be their lurking in background waiting for her chance to strike. we are addicts always will be period end of story.

[Wt57]

Dumass what was your name then? I'm willing to be there for you but because you caved before I offer my hand I want some string attached. 100% roll, you help your fellow April 2013 quitters, apologize to your former group and you need a plan of how you will deal with cravings. With your explaination I think a written plan would complete the question: what and why it happened and your plan so it doesn't happen again. Remember when you get yelled at its not the caver we hate. It's the fucking cave. Why? Because we are all addicts but work our asses off every day to fight the addiction!

[sporticus]

Yeah, pretty weak. You owe that explanation to not only your old group, but to your new one as well. Lotta people here bust ass to stay quit. Be sure you remember that.

[Timeless117]

What are you going to differently this time to ensure that you do not cave again? And why should we trust you again? Also you need to get back onto your old screen name. We don't allow people to change names just because they caved.

[dumas]

hello day one quitter. i was here before you see i quit for over 100 days then one day in a moment of dip weakness i talked myself into a chew while drinking some cold beers and fishing with my oldest friend(we started chewing together in junior high) i bought a can the next day. just gonna have a chew on my evening walks. then just gonna have a chew on my way to work and on my walks. then on the way too and from work and my walks within two months i was back to a can a day. that was three years ago. i let my guard down and the nic bitch let herself right back into my life. i just dropped off this site i was afraid to tell the people that helped me get to a 100 days that i had caved. but im back and and im sorry i'm sorry to my children and my wife, myself and the awesome quitters on this. so mark it one as i embrace the suck again.

[mule]

Glad to see you Alpha.....great decision man. your story sounds mighty familiar except my sport was basketball. Read everything you can get your hands on and work up a good mad on with US Tobacco for not being strait up with how nic would dominate your life and be so hard to quit.

If you get mad enough...staying quit is much easier. Use the site for encouragement, support, anger management (instead of taking it out on your family)

Hang in there...it gets better fast.

[Mij]

Welcome Alpha, Anything I can help you with, Just PM me. Stick close to the site.

[alpha]

I've been addicted to nicotine since i was 15 but it started even before that. I remember tony dorsett or earl campbell used to advertise just a pinch between your cheek and gum. I recall watching baseball with my grandfather and the whole dugout was chewing. I also recall the day i had my first chew. It was summer I was in fifth grade sleeping at my friends house. his older brother was a big time jock and i was a wannabe jock. he offered us a dip of cope got sick has hell but buy september and pop warner football practice i bought my first can. gold river .74 .didn't know it then but i was hooked. 38 now ;2 kids and a wife who wants me to quit. But i'm doing this for me,mostly. found this site yesterday planned on quitting monday some good guys talked me into quitting early so here i am on day 2