My plan was to wait for the new year, but I wanted to be prepare for the big day, so while at my office I searched Google for how to stop dipping and came across killthecan community. The stories inspired me so much, that I decided, why wait, and yesterday 12.10.2012 at about 6:00pm I open the can and dumped the long cut, crack nicotine in the trash. I almost didn't make it out of the office without diving back into the trash for one last pinch before leaving the office. I'm sure many of you can relate:-), but I stuck to my guns and went home. It wasn't long after eating dinner before I started to wonder how long It would be before jetting out the door to the local dealer to grab me some fresh Grizzly Long-cut crack in the can. What a wimp, surely I can last longer than a couple of hours? Lucky for me, I had sunflower seeds at home, and some gum, so I got busy and made it through the night.
I'm afraid to admit it guys, but I was diagnosed with Kidney Cancer back in 2005, and was told by my doctors the bad kidney needs to be removed, along with part of my bladder and ureter _
The doctors aren't sure what gave me the cancer, but I couldn't help but think the dip may have had something to do with it, especially since I've been dipping for 34 years and routinely fell a sleep with a dip in my mouth. I actually had a dip in my mouth all the way up until the nurses rolled me to surgery and before they administered anaesthesia I told them to wait one second, hand me the trash can please so I can spit my dip out :D
Surgery was a success and I didn't even think about dipping or anything else for months. By default, and after 8 months of chemo I was free of the nicotine. You would think I was done right? Wrong, it wasn't long before I was playing golf again, or fishing with the guys (some of those guys dipped and of course we turned back a few beers), I was able to dodge the urge for awhile, but it wasn't long before I was bumming a dip. I would just take a little bitty tiny one, about the size of a pea. no big deal I would say to myself. Anyway, about a year or so later I stopped bumming and made the idiot mistake of buying me some crack in the can.
Well, it's been close to 24 hours without a dip 'help' I will make it thru the night. I will conquer this addiction and be free. Your inspirational stories and encouragement are greatly appreciated, better yet, I need it. Cheers.