Read the site cover to cover. It will help get you through the hardest few days. Your profile is very similar to many of us (husband, father, and addict). You sound like you have alot of people counting on you and some good reasons to live. Stay strong. Also, there is a direct coorelation between success and the amount of activity (posts) I encourage you to get active on the boards. If you need a number to call to keep you strong just PM me and I will be glad to give you a hand or a kick in the ass whichever you need. MOA